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lilyeon · 10 months

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ive been on a light novel kick recently

lemme summarize some thoughts on them:

7th Time Loop: The Villainess Enjoys a Carefree Life Married to Her Worst Enemy! 1-4: i thought it would be a standard "hypercompetent female lead in medieval europe" story and it was for the most part, in terms of convenient contrivances to make whatever whimsical actions that Rishe takes, but i appreciated the set dressing, at least. Rishe is funny and the repeated time loops makes for an entertaining premise.

The 100th Time's The Charm: She Was Executed 99 Times, So How Did She Unlock "Super Love" Mode?!: god this sucked. this honestly felt like reading a novel published by an 8 year old. so fuckin juvenile

A Lily Blooms in Another World: sometimes all you need is some simply girls who love each other.

The Apothecary Witch Turned Divorce Agent: interesting world with just enough worldbuilding, i liked that it didn't get explicitly romantic at the end, and I really enjoyed Carla's brazen attitude. Either she fit really well into the world around her, or the world was written to support her character, but either way, she felt like a complete product of her world and upbringing in a way that was really refreshing.

Did I Seriously Just Get Reincarnated as my Gag Character?! 1-2: there sure was a whole lot of talk about how much her character absolutely sucked despite being the most powerful being to the point of absurdity. i know the point is the contrast between game mechanics and expectation vs how she would be as a function of the world, but man that point was harped on a lot. as a protagonist, gotta say, trans as hell, that won a lot of points with me. "oh i'm suddenly my off-main RP character now? guess i'm a girl now, full-on. hell yeah" now that's the true trans rep we need

The Drab Princess, the Black Cat, and the Satisfying Break-up 1-2: it was alright, i feel like i would've been more invested if everyone wasn't secretly in love with her though i suppose it is an interesting subversion of the usual "plain boring princess" trope that everyone is actually super on-board for her to become queen. she's a deeply tragic heroine, honestly, and i don't think that's the intention at all.

Saint? No! I'm Just a Passing Beast Tamer 1: if this was a oneshot i'd be chill with it but the fact that it carries on somehow makes me feel so tired.

Villainess Level 99: I May Be the Hidden Boss But I'm Not the Demon Lord: i read the manga first and this was just more of the same. it's cute, i like Yumiella as a protagonist for the same reasons i like Carla from Apothecary Witch. i wish we had a bit more on Alicia's whole deal because she could've been interesting at the end there but instead she just made the whole thing boring as fuck. probably my favorite moments in the novel were Yumiella grinding the boss for drops and the Patrick confession scene for two different reasons

The Alchemist Who Survived Now Dreams of a Quiet City Life 1-3: i had access to 6 volumes but i had to stop in the middle of the 3rd one. i was displeased but willing to continue in the first novel when one of Mariela's first actions as a protagonist is to engage with the slavery thing, but willing to put that aside, but then we had several monologues about how much slavery sucks alongside diatribes about how it's Jay's/Sieg's/etc's own fault that they got sold into debt slavery. the chapters in the 2nd and 3rd novels where Jay is there being absolutely fucking miserable and you're expected to nod whenever the book says "Jay didn’t reflect on his own part in this at all, spewing resentment instead." made me fucking incensed. my breaking point was in novel 3 where a minor protagonist just straight fucking rips one of his teeth out after strangling him and replaces it with a Pain Tooth of Make Your Slaves Obey More, and it's immediately followed with that above line. just. jesus fucking christ.

The Weakest Tamer Began a Journey to Pick Up Trash 1-4: hey speaking of slavery, in this one they spent 2 novels telling the main character she should buy a slave, and then she gets there and is like "man this is kinda fucked actually" and doesn't, so good for her, but i read it immediately after Alchemist Who Survived so i was a little pissed at the fact that slavery was also a thing here because please that's not a system that is necessary to your world stop fucking doing it

ROLL OVER AND DIE: I Will Fight for an Ordinary Life with My Love and Cursed Sword 1-4: anyway not to continue talking about slavery but if you're gonna have it, do it like this one did, and make your main protagonist claw her bloody way out of slavery with incredible brutality and swear that she'll kill more slave traders if they lay a hand on her girlfriend. that part was great. shame it gets mega fucking transphobic at the end though, that whole bit about Mother being explicitly textually transgender and then not using the correct pronouns for her, the genitals = sex = gender segments, the gross parts where they discuss how Mother "isn't even a woman, yeah that tripped me up too, how gross is this dude". fuck that. the fight scenes and fucked up body horror parts are great though. and it's got a manga by minakata sunao, which is a shame given [gestures at novel 4]

She Professed Herself Pupil of the Wise Man 1-8: honestly i enjoyed it more than i was expecting. mira's cute, this is another one of those trans-as-hell novels where the protag is like "i guess im a girl now! this is great!" but i do find it incredibly unsettling how everyone is commenting on her looks and whatever if she's supposed to be, essentially, a 12 year old girl. deeply gross anime bullshit aside, it's fun. i thought i had more thoughts on this one so i was saving it for later in this list but honestly thats all i got. gross sexualization/infantilization of a young girl, but otherwise just a fun little fantasy jaunt

A Tale of the Secret Saint 1-4: fia's an idiot, i want more of her taking control in battle situations and less waffling about Great Saint abilities and fake-deep "political" """intrigue""". if you say any of these stupid-ass old men are her love interests i will throw a knife at you, and if the book goes in that direction even slightly i will Murder. canopus's devotion in the last novel was borderline for me dropping it. the manic obsession/devotion to fia is supposed to be humorous, i think, but it just comes off as deeply unsettling when the novel reminds you, as it often does, that fia ruud is a 15 year old (reincarnation of an incredibly sheltered woman who died at 18, so honestly even her mental age doesn't add much here). i know this is one of those chill life fantasy novels but i honestly want fia to serve actual consequences for the insane shit she does, not just passing-by mentions of having to do more laps or take training more seriously or being teased by her superiors or whatever. it's fun enough to keep reading though, i guess.

#light novels #im not gonna tag all of these individually #thats too much of a pain in the ass #spoiler warning for any of the novels i mentioned here

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mayoiayasep · 11 months

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Quick question: What is Bungou Stray Dogs about? I'd look it up but I want the tumblr mutual mini crash course

hi ok so its been a while since i read bsd myself but basic run down the story takes place in yokohama japan and the main character is a 18 y.o orphan named atsushi nakajima. fun fact btw all (most at least) of the characters are named after actual japanese authors and have super powers based off of one of their literary works. anw atsushi after recently getting kicked out of an orphanage eventually joins a detective agency with other people who also have supernatural abilities and the basic plot of the show is atsushi carrying out missions assigned by the agency.

like i said its been a while since i actually read bsd but i do like the series a lot and tbh ive been thinking about going back to do a reread. the plot gets kinda wonky sometimes and the current manga arc has been dragging on for *checks notes* 3+ years?. there also a wan manga and anime which is basically a joke spinoff and also light novels that give info about other characters' pasts.

anw you should read it do it for him<3 (this is atsushi btw)

#bsd #floof ☁️#inbox mail #does this make sense? also pls talk to me about it if you do read it!

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redxblueihateloveyou · 2 years

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haaaiii i really-really love pingxie, everything its really make my day ^^

and you really take such a small detail about pingxie at tltr or un, while I even didnt notice that, so for thats thankyou very much

and i want to ask you, ive read at some website for the novel and i was read part where wuxie and xiaoge was searching for i forgot what it was it about a tomb of zhang or smthg wait i think i have a pic of it

that one, i was gonna ask you which part of that story is, at that time that was the updated one but now its not, i lost the link in my lost cellphone. i thought that was from sidestory or something i cant remenber which of it, so maybe you do know about this?? i really-really want to finish that story

by the way, please keep posting about pingxie, its really make my day, i always gone to find some new post about pingxie from you

Hello! :) Awwwws thank you so much! Thats my pleasure lol I myself each time I rewatch esp with notes I still feel like I have Xiaoge's memory bc I'm like "oh damn I forgot it was there" lmao so I'll just gif as I go I guess for all of us nutjobs xD

Ahahaha I was just there!!!!!! I literally was just rereading Restart p2 and recently was on p3. It's from the Mongolia arc "Restart 3: Looking for the Dead in the Sea of Lights" chapter 24. Here you go :) As usual we're treated like a prince and Pangzi has to "run left!" on his own two legs to the forest from a bunch of horses lmao. And Xiaoge "hold on to me baby, we'll lead them away" hgfdsdfjghkf since when we're in a fucking romance novel? Ah yeah right, since forever xDD

Istg Xiaoge and his fucking "I can be your hero baby.mp3" episodes are one of my fav lol. Like Wu Xie isn't impressed enough and hasn't completely lost his mind for him already, he still always does this thing where he tries to look as hot as possible. Sometimes I'm really not sure if he's not waiting for a dramatic entrance like with the snake pit or clams or that time in warehouse xD

And like ok at the beginning he was trying to impress his crush with his stupid smug face:

and up to book 8 with his backwards broken arm and "I just pulled my wrist" I can get those, but the fact that he to this day is like this is just hilarious af

like I get he likes when Wu Xie makes this face:

but seeing a 100 year old turning into a 5 year old trying to impress his husband still gets me rolling on the floor. seriously tf is this lmao:

No, for real he jumped on a horse, leaped over fire (lol???) and lifted him with one hand on his horse? I'm…. lmfao okkk

Or or like that time he "cut the drapes" in UN!!! ROLF PLS

He's legit since book 5 is like that bird of paradise from BBC who is trying to impress his mate lmao. We've been crazy in love for a while now and he's still at it.

P.S. We gotta survive till the next doze next year and then next year until the next one and then after that lol

P.P.S. Oh the unrealistic dream of Reboot part 2 with our bbs pls don't die lmfao

#answered #marriedtomyotp #pingxie #daomu biji #dmbj #xiaoge wants to be wu xie's prince charming lmao #who else while reading restart forgot that they're like 40 and 100? lmao #I just remember how I was like really happy that they despite everything managed to keep that part of themselves alive tbh #thats why its my fav part #I just love this whole dynamic of 'I'm so strong on my own but sometimes I want someone to protect me too' from both sides #like usually its really one sided mostly but these two are like so equal about that #and they like to peacock as much as they like to be taken care of and thats sweet really #idiots in love indeed #zhang qiling #wu xie #I want all the restart 2-4 scenes with ZYL and HJJ hahaha #bc that reminded me how he lifted ZYL with one hand lmao

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sissytobitch10seconds · 11 months

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You Are Unbreaking, Though Quaking, Though Crazy

Fandom: The Umbrella Academy Summary: Back where he's safe, Viktor must now face the hardest news he's ever gotten in his life. And he must do it dreadfully alone. Warnings: Mentions of possible miscarriage/child death, mentions of starvation, inaccurate medical procedures, and canon child neglect Word Count: 5,606 Ship(s): Viktor Hargreeves/Five Hargreeves

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A/N: This is the second installment in this series but I don't think it's necessarily critical to read the first installment to know what's going on here. Hope you all enjoy! Stay sissy and bitchy everyone <3

The next time that he woke up, he was back in the house surrounded by the familiar walls of the infirmary. He had found himself spending a lot of time there, both because his medication had made him a little accident prone and because he didn’t want to leave Five’s side whenever the other man came back from a mission sick. The room hadn’t changed from the last time that he had been in it. It still had the green walls with medical equipment hanging off of it, as well as the sheer white curtains that allowed in plenty of light while obscuring it enough to keep any of the patients inside from being overwhelmed by it.

The bed that he was on had soft sheets and the mattress was just firm enough that he couldn’t shift and exacerbate any wounds that he might have had. The blanket on his lap was warm enough that he felt comfortable but not overly so, which was good. Recently, since he had gotten pregnant, he found that when he got overheated he also felt supremely ill. The next thing that he noticed was that he had a bit of tape on his face that was holding a tube to his cheek and an IV placed into the pack of his hand.

He turned his head to the side and felt the tension that had been building up in his shoulders immediately leave. Five was sleeping in a bed similar to his. They were both in the traditional hospital beds, minus the buttons that called several different nurses instead replaced with one that would bring Grace to them. Five was set up much like Viktor was, with two pillows to hold his head propped up enough that Viktor could easily see him. He had his own heart rate monitor, IV, and a feeding tube as well.

The pregnant man was immediately snapped back to the real world so that he wasn’t just watching his husband anymore when he heard some rustling coming from the other side of the bed. “Mom?” he asked as he turned to see who else was occupying this space. After half a decade with only each other for company, it was a little disconcerting to realize that it was possible for other beings to be around them without them knowing.

“Sorry, it’s just me,” Luther replied. He closed the book that he had been leafing through and then carefully looked at his brother. He had somehow gotten taller since the last time that they had seen each other, almost pushing seven feet. His hair was cropped close to his head like he had kept it his entire life, but it was beginning to grow out around the sides so that it was all the same length. He was wearing a comfortable pair of linen pants and t-shirt with a college name that Viktor’s tired brain almost recognized.

“What are you doing in here?” he asked, trying to ignore the sour way that his voice sounded after an unknown time of not using it.

The blond left the novel on the edge of Viktor’s bed as he walked down to the table that was pushed over the very end of the hospital bed. He took one of the cups and filled it up with the water that had been sitting in the pitcher next to it before he passed it to his brother. “Mom was really worried about you guys. I mean, we all were, so we wanted to take turns waiting with you both to make sure that nothing bad happened. I know we have alarms that go off when someone starts to take a turn for the worse but it helps us feel at ease if we have someone with human or robot ears and eyes present.”

“Right,” Viktor nodded as he tried to take in all of the information. He took the cup from Luther and then hesitantly brought it up to his lips. He took a couple of sips of the cool liquid before his body began to scream for more of it. The rest of the cup was empty in a second.

“Can I ask what happened?” Luther asked as he took the cup back and placed it next to all of the others. He carefully walked back to the chair that was between Viktor’s bed and the door, before he reached over the side of the hospital bed and pressed the button that would call for Grace. While Viktor seemed fully coherent and responsive, it was still a good idea for someone with actual medical knowledge to check him over.

“I… Can you tell me what the date is first?”

Luther nodded. He explained the date and time, pointing to the clock that was hanging over the door to give some proof that he wasn’t lying. Viktor felt his shoulders release the tension that they had been carrying and his exhausted body sunk back into the bed. It had been a background emotion, so he hadn’t necessarily been super aware of it, but the idea that they had landed in the wrong part of the timeline had been eating away at his stomach. “You guys have been out for about a week,” he then explained, which only served to soothe Viktor’s nerves more.

Grace bustled in before he could fulfill the other side of the deal and explain the ordeal that he and his husband had been through. That was probably for the best, because Viktor didn’t want to explain it more than he had to. The more people that were in the room when he did finally get around to doing that, the more likely they were to get the story straight when they explained it to other people.

“You’re awake! How are you feeling, my dear? Any aches and pains that I should know about?” Grace asked. She walked over to him and placed her hand on the edge of the monitor, which transferred all the information about Viktor’s vitals over the last half hour directly into her database so that she could make a decision.

“Tired, but that’s not really abnormal for me these days,” he replied softly as his hand drifted down to the swollen belly hiding away his child. He felt a shock of panic surge through his system as he realized that this was it, he was a couple of check ups away from finding out the status of his child. It was something that was exhilarating for most parents but was the scariest thought that Viktor had ever had.

Grace sat down on the edge of the bed and then brushed her hand over the side of his face. “Dear, would you please tell me about what you’ve been through? It’s going to help me assess how best to help you. And if I’m going to be a grandmother,” her eyes were almost sparkling. Viktor wasn’t sure if her programming had been upgraded while he was away or if she had just continued to evolve and change because of how advanced her technology was, but she was almost human.

He flushed and ducked his head down a little bit, but found that made his vision swim. He carefully righted himself and leaned back against the pillows that had been placed behind him on the bed. As soon as his head was no longer up in the air but resting, the spinning in hs brain and ears stopped entirely.

“A lot happened, Mom. Five and I were starving to death for almost five years. We barely had anything to eat or drink and most of what we had didn’t have a lot of the nutrients to keep us going. We managed the best we could with a garden and barely any seeds and the canned goods that were undamaged but it wasn’t much. It meant that we couldn’t use our powers as much as we should have been able to, which is why it took us so long to get back here,” Viktor began to explain. It was hard to relive the life that he had just been wading through, but he had to do it so that he could get the help he needed. He was sure the feeding tube was already helping him and the baby get the nutrients that they needed, but there still might have been more required.

“Our?” Luther asked, catching what Viktor had said about his powers.

That was going to be a lot harder to explain, especially to Reginald’s golden child, than the whole disappearance was. He sighed and let his eyes drift closed as he said, “It turns out that Dad put me on medication when we were little when he told you all that I got sick. It kept me in this kind of neutral state where I couldn’t have any reactions, except panic and fear despite the pills supposedly being for anxiety. He did it to lock my powers away because they’re affected by my emotions. I can turn sound into energy waves that do a lot of things. That’s how I helped Five get us back here, I used my powers to give him the extra jump he needed to bring us back in time.”

Grace looked a little it startled when it really sank in what her son was telling her. She, of course, had known about the medication that he had been on and what it was really for. Viktor was never supposed to find out, so now that he had for what seemed to be years, it was a bit of a shock to her. Her processor whirred as she tried to process everything that he had told her and then assess the toll that using his powers with no energy had taken on his body, as well as what it might have done to Five.

“Would Dad-” Luther stopped himself and pursed his lips. Something had happened in the half decade that they had been gone, Viktor immediately pieced together, to have made Reginald’s favorite turn against him.

“How long have you been off of your medication?” Grace asked as she brushed her mechanical fingers over the edge of his forehead to displace some of the hairs that had been hanging there.

He let out a small sigh. The longer that he was talking the more exhausted he was becoming, both because the recollection took a lot of energy that he didn’t have and because he was waiting in anticipation for the question he really didn’t want to be asked. “We knew that there was a chance we wouldn’t be able to find more of my medications. You would be surprised about how few pharmacies there are when the entire world is full of rubble,” he chuckled, though the others didn’t find it as amusing as he did. “We weened me off of the medication and rationed the bottle that I took when we ran away from the house. So I’ve been off of it entirely for about four years and six months. My body has long since adjusted to my powers, I’m not going to blow up the building or anything.”

“I know, dear,” Grace smiled softly. “Now I have one more question before I decide your course treatment and you can rest again. Are you pregnant?”

It was harder to say it out loud in front of Grace and Luther then it had been to poke and prod Five in the right direction. That may have been because he was now surrounded by the very equipment that could determine the health and viability of his pregnancy. One of his hands moved to the bottom of the swell on his stomach. It had seemed so big when they were back in the wasteland, like it was a huge blaring siren screaming about the little life inside of him. Now that they were back in the Academy, it felt tiny. “Yeah, I think I am,” he whispered.

Grace clapped her hands next to the side of her face, ever cheerful and optimistic. “I’m going to run some bloodwork and we’ll see what the results of that are before we put you through any procedures or get our hopes up too far, alright? I want you to rest in the meantime. I know that look, and it means that you’re overtired.”

He chuckled, a warm feeling blooming in the center of his chest. Even after all this time away from his mother, she still somehow knew him better than anyone ever had before. She slipped off of the bed and got the equipment that she needed to take the blood. Viktor leaned back against the pillows even further than he had before and slowly let his eyes drift shut until he had fallen asleep.

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The next time that he woke up, he could hear the steady beating of his heart and Five’s next to him. It wasn’t like when he used his powers, but instead a mechanic noise coming form the monitors watching their vitals. It was a reassuring noise, to be able to hear the physical proof that his lover was not only alive but steadily recovering.

He placed a hand on his stomach as he thought about the tiny life that he had been harboring there. He had no idea if they were still growing or if they were thriving like his husband was, but he had to cling onto the hope that they were. They had come so far and worked so hard to get to where they were that the idea of it coming crashing down because of a miscarriage or stillbirth made Viktor want to start crying.

A knock sounded on the door and jerked him out of his thoughts before he could spiral even further. He looked up to see who it was and then felt his nerves settle. He loved his siblings all equally, but there were some that he felt more comfortable around than others. Ben was that one, mostly because he and been a bit of a trio with Viktor and Five when they were younger. While Ben and Klaus were the closest out of all of them, he still had to go elsewhere to get the kind of literary discussions that he longed for.

“Hey, Mom just sent me up here to see if you were awake and wanted something to eat. She finished up lunch,” Ben explained, jerking his head down the hallway in the direction of the kitchen.

Food sounded like a risky thing, but at the same time Viktor’s body craved it like nothing else. He had experienced a couple of cravings so far in his pregnancy but nothing that he could get back when they were in the apocalypse. He also hadn’t experienced any foods that set off his morning sickness outside of the singular incident where he had thrown up his entire lunch into the side of the garden. He was a lot more sensitive to smells and tastes now, though.

“I think I could probably stomach something. Mom’s going to be able to avoid refeeding syndrome, right?” Viktor asked as he shifted on the bed.

Ben nodded, “Oh yeah. She knows all about how to ween you guys back onto a proper diet and help you get the nutrients that you need. That’s why you’ve got the feeding tubes. I’ll be back when I’ve gotten you something to eat, alright?”

The door slipped shut and Ben was gone, which left only Viktor and the steady sound of his husband’s heart. He didn’t have to wait long before his favorite brother returned with their mother. Grace set a tray down in front of him and then lowered a plate of food down in front of him. “Make sure that you eat slowly, you don’t want to shock your system,” she informed him. “When you’re finished with lunch we can check on the health of your baby, alright?”

He went a bit rigid at that. A shiver of fear brushed down his spine as though someone was dragging a feather along the tall ridges of his vertebrae. “I want Five to be there to see it too,” he replied as his eyes darted over to his husband. The aforementioned man had yet to rouse once from his slumber, at least at the same time as Viktor. The excuse that he had given was at least half real, because he did feel like it was important for his husband to be there when they heard their child’s heartbeat or saw them for the first time, but it was also a way for him to push off what he felt was the inevitable. He didn’t want to break the spell that they had found themselves in and end up back in the world of misery he had been living in for the last half decade.

“I’m afraid that we can’t wait that long. Your blood tests indicated that you were already into your second trimester, so it’s imperative that we figure out what’s going on with the little one and make up on all of the appointments and medications that you were unable to get while you were away,” Grace replied. She was using that firm motherly tone that she always did when one of them had done something that had upset her slightly. It was a tone that Viktor hadn’t gotten very often as a child because there hadn’t been a lot of mischief that he wanted to or even could get into.

He shrank back into the bed, his stomach now wound up in knots. He turned over to look at Five, wondering if there was something way that he could rouse his husband so that he didn’t have to live through this potential terror and trauma all on his own. They had been together from the moment that they had been adopted and then never separated since. Even when Five had been pulled away to go on missions, they had known that they were going to be reunited in the next couple of days. When they were in the wasteland, there had been long hours that stretched by without them sharing each other’s company, but then they were in each other’s arms again by nightfall.

“Eat something, V,” Ben said as he sat down on the chair that Luther had been positioned in earlier. He had a pen between his fingers and he was flipping it over his knuckles like he always did when he was trying to soothe his nerves.

“Right,” he nodded. He picked up his fork and tried to think about anything other than the health or life of his child as he brought the food up to his mouth.

“So I take it that’s still the first letter of your name?” Ben asked. “I know that you’re presenting differently than when you were here the last time.”

“I’m trans,” Viktor nodded. “He/him pronouns and I like the name Viktor. Do you remember when Mom helped us get all of our names?”

Ben grinned as he shifted on the bed, “Of course I do. We all made fun of Five for never being able to pick one, even years after the rest of us had chosen one. I was able to pick one pretty fast even if none of the traditional Korean names really felt like they fit me.”

“I remembered that I was from Russia but I didn’t have that huge list of names that Mom gave us for traditional names for our genders from our home countries, so I had to pick one that I thought sounded Russian enough to fit while also being actually male,” the pregnant man explained. He could already feel himself relaxing as he focused on something other than his child and what might be going on with them. It was just the distraction that he needed to be able to eat, as he didn’t even notice each bite of food that was disappearing from his plate outside of knowing that he liked the flavor.

Before he knew it, the entire plate had been divested of food and his stomach felt noticeably less painful. The anxiety returned full force when he remembered what was to come, however. He turned his head to the side so that he was staring at the unconscious form of his lover, almost trying to desperately will him awake. Viktor didn’t want to have to go through his alone, not when Five also deserved to hear the news about their child as soon as he could. That was what he had poured himself into for the last couple of months, he deserved to see what the outcome of all of his labors had been.

Grace smiled at him as she removed the tray and the plate from on top of Viktor’s lap. She placed them on the chair in the corner as Ben came to stand beside Viktor. He was on the side opposite to where the machine that Grace was going to use to check the health of the baby was, but he was standing in such a way that he wasn’t blocking Five. “I know I’m not as good as him, but I’ll be a stand in for a while. Just so that you have someone to hold your hand while the scary part happens. You’ll have good news to tell him, I’m sure of it.”

“How can you be sure of it?” Viktor mumbled. He looked down to where Grace was carefully moving the blanket off of his body and folding it up in his lap. She then adjusted the loose shirt that he had been changed into, most likely while she had been cleaning the soot and rainwater off of his skin.

Finally, his belly was revealed to the world. Grace turned to warm up some of the lubricating gel that she would then place on his bump while Ben said, “I know because good things have to happen to us now. Dad is gone and he was the one that made all the bad happen.”

“It doesn’t feel like it,” Viktor shook his head. He turned his head away from the machine like that was somehow going to make the experience any less real. When he opened his eyes, he saw that Ben was looking back at him with a pleasant, reassuring smile. He took a deep breath as his brother guided him to do so, just as they had when they were children and Five hadn’t been around to soothe his panic attacks.

“There you go, Vik,” Ben beamed. “Come on, look at what Mom has to show you and then you’ll have some wonderful news for your boyfriend when he finally wakes up.”

“Husband,” Viktor immediately corrected. “We didn’t have a marriage license or a witness or anything like that but we did get married after we turned eighteen,” he felt a small smile slip onto his face as he thought about it. Regardless of what the outcome of the scan ended up being, he was elated at the idea of being able to marry his husband and have it be recognized by other people. They might even get to throw a real wedding if their siblings would be willing to attend and help them celebrate.

“Right,” Ben nodded, taking every new bit of information with great stride. “You want to be able to tell your husband exactly what it was like when you saw your guys’ baby for the first time since he can’t do it. So look at the screen and everything will be okay.”

Viktor took a deep breath and then did as he was told to. He turned his head to the side so that he was no longer looking at his brother or husband and just stared straight ahead at the screen to see what the result was going to be. He could feel that his hands were beginning to shake as he moved them so that he was holding one of Ben’s and the other was clinging to the edge of the bed.

He jumped a little bit when he felt the cool gel being placed on his stomach. Grace had warmed it so that it wasn’t as cold as the ultrasound had been the one time that he had to have one to make sure that his appendix wasn’t bursting when he was twelve, but it still felt almost like ice to him. His skin was still so unused to being able to feel temperatures since he kept his skin covered when they were in the wasteland outside of their homes. It was important to do that so that the ash and dust from the world around them wouldn’t burn them.

She then lowered the wand, which had also been covered with some gel to ease the glide during the examination. She started at the bottom of his stomach and then rolled back and forth to evenly spread out the lubrication so that she could look properly. She hummed to herself as she did it, the lullaby that she always sung to them when they had nightmares and were still allowed to go to her for comfort.

It did the trick and he immediately felt some of the stress and tension release from him. He stared at the shapes on the screen, trying to make anything out of the blobs of static to catch the first glimpse of his baby before she had the chance to point them out to him. Something that he hadn’t been expecting, especially since his last ultrasound had been to check for internal organ damage, was for the baby to come into crisp, clear view immediately when she found them.

Blackness surrounded the tiny infant, most likely the water from the amniotic sac. The baby was the same hazy black and white that the rest of the ultrasound had been, with one little hand clearly held up to something that looked like a nose and a mouth. “There they are, Viktor,” Grace beamed as she held one of her elegant fingers up to the ultrasound machine where the baby was very clearly defined.

The breath had been stolen from his lungs as soon as he saw the outline of the child that he was carrying. When he had been wandering around the halls of the Umbrella Academy, lost and alone and afraid, he had read books where people had become parents. They had always described it as being terrifying and the most wondrous thing that had ever happened to them. He was ten when he began to dream of himself as a parent and a husband, something to soothe the ache on his heart from not being properly accepted as a member of the team his entire life. He had wanted it so desperately that he had convinced Five to enter into a ‘marriage’ just for him and now he was bringing forth their first child.

“Are they alive?” he asked, still heaving in breath around the sobs that were wrecking from his throat. The image on the screen had become blurry and his face damp with tears as his body became too overwhelmed with emotion to be able to handle everything happening. He had wanted this for so long and now he was finally able to see the potential that the future had in store for him. What he had dreamed of was finally in his grasp and yet so dreadfully, terrifyingly far away from him.

“Well, let’s see if we can find a heartbeat. The fetus looks to be about seventeen weeks along so there should be a nice strong one,” Grace explained. She reached over to the machine and flipped a few switches before she tilted the angle of the wand just a little bit. She shifted it around on his stomach and pressed a little harder than she had before so that the waves had a chance to pick up on what they needed to.

The room was overwhelmed with a whooshing-thumping noise coming from the machine to Viktor’s left, which joined the noise of the mechanical beating of Five and his own hearts on the right. He didn’t know what he was hearing at first until Ben’s grip on his hand tightened and Grace turned to him with a beaming smile.

“That’s your baby’s heartbeat, my dear! They’re alive and doing very well in there,” she explained.

That was all he needed to hear before it felt like he couldn’t handle any more information. Grace seemed to understand that the entire situation was very overwhelming, so she moved the wand back and placed it by the machine as she reached for some tissues so that he could clean off of his face. He knew that the exam wasn’t over and they would have to check over as much of the baby as they could once he had calmed down, but his emotions had grown to be too much to keep inside.

He sucked in enough air that he swallowed most of it, but he couldn’t bring himself to care. The sobs that wracked through his body were enough to make him shiver while the fear hormones released from where they had been stored while he was nervously awaiting the result. His heart was thrumming up in his ears and his body was focusing on repeating the sound of his infant’s heartbeat over and over again. It was the only thought that he could focus on, reassuring himself after nights spent worrying that the life he was carrying inside of him was already dead before their first breath.

Eventually, the tears slowed and he was able to lean back on the bed again. He had never once let go of Ben’s hand, desperately clinging to the solid warmth of another person despite wishing that it was his husband and not his brother.

Viktor mopped off his face with the tissues that Grace had been steadily handing him during his crying fit. He sniffled and laughed a little as he turned to look at the frozen image on the screen. He could see the outline of the baby hidden protectively inside of his womb, safe from the world and all of the dangers that came with being alive. “Sorry for all the dramatics,” he apologized. He then handed the pile of tissues that he had collected over to his mother so that she could dispose of them properly.

“You’ve got nothing to apologize for, Viktor,” Ben shook his head. “You had a lot on your plate for a very long time and you just got some really good news, so I think that you deserve to have a cry. But at least you have something wonderful to tell Five when he finally wakes up.”

Viktor felt a smile stretch across his face for what had to be the first time since they had come back from the apocalypse. He had moments of joy when they were stuck in the wasteland, usually when Five was doing something silly to lighten the mood or when they found something particularly good among the rubble. He had never allowed himself to feel true happiness, no moment of joy could stretch on for that long when they were constantly reminded of the death and destruction around them. But he was back in the past where he belonged, so he was allowing himself to get excited about the prospect of becoming a father like he had always wanted to.

“Are you ready for me to finish the exam now, Viktor?” Grace asked, her voice calm and patient as always.

The aforementioned man took in a deep breath as he situated himself on the bed once more. The gel on his stomach was cool, spread all the way across his belly so that she could get a good look at the baby from every single angle. He had the grounding feeling of the soft blanket on his legs and Ben’s hand clenched in his. “Now that I know they’re alive, I don’t think there’s a single thing that could shock me about this exam.”

“Not even a tail? Or a third arm?” Ben asked, a teasing smirk spreading over her face.

“While it is possible that your children may be born with superpowers like you were, it is unlikely that such an anomaly would happen to our dear Viktor,” Grace chided playfully. She placed the probe back where it belonged and then began to run it back and forth as she had the first time. She found the baby again and began to show Viktor every little detail of the infant. He got to see all of the little fingers and toes that were available in the monitor, and she also pointed out where the placenta was. It was a relief to hear that he didn’t have to worry about something that hadn’t even occurred to him as the placenta wasn’t anywhere near the cervix, so he would be able to deliver naturally if he had healed enough to have the energy for that in the next several months.

“It’s such a relief to know that they’re okay,” Viktor breathed out a sigh of relief. He looked down at the bump protruding between his hips like he would be able to see his unborn child more that way than he was from the screen that held the ultrasound. “You’re gonna be okay, baby, you hear me? We’re gonna be a happy family just like I always wanted.”

#fanfiction #fanfic #writing #ao3 #archive of our own #tua #the umbrella academy #wasteland baby (i'm in love with you) series #you are unbreaking though quaking though crazy fic #fiktor #oneshot #series #viktor hargreeves #five hargreeves #pregnant viktor #grave hargreeves #ben hargreeves #luther hargreeves #umbrella ben

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OK I WAS THINKING WDTFD TOO IT IS CRIMINALLY UNDERRATED AND ive literally been spending more time than necessary trying to figure out why, because I would argue it is one of your best and one of the most unique out there in general. You can ignore me if you want but I have a Theory (gonna mark myself with this emoji ⚡️ so you know it’s me)

this is... an absolutely fascinating theory XD i have no clue, to be honest, and always just put it down to 1) being a busy time of year (tho thematically appropriate) when maybe people weren't reading a lot of fic then so it never got that established, and 2) me going dark for a month afterwards while i worked on my novel, resulting in less content to bump me up in the ao3 tag (or on people's dashboards) that might make people check what i'd just done, or help them notice they missed a fic right before it (i have people comment on a new fic all the time being like "OH SHIT i missed the last one, time to binge!").

its interesting to get an outside perspective, because for me personally i notice jumps in interaction around a few fics (knifepoint for example) but i never really attributed a spike to BFM. i was really shocked when i recently saw beg for me was ranked 24th in hit count for she-ra fics (its worth noting that both slas and asdlm rank higher than it, but i also remember lots of engagement with both of those - especially asdlm, there was so much fanart). i dont remember a lot about what was going on when i was writing bfm, so i just assumed it... wasnt a lot XD but apparently it left an impression.

(actually, i did just remember i had anon off while writing BFM because i didnt want people getting Too Horny and crossing into creepy, and that probably had a big effect on the interaction i got and my perception of it)

as far as the smut thing... honestly, no clue, although you might be onto something with vampires being generally slutty (and rightfully so) and WDtFD being lore-focused. i feel like im reluctant to say fics without smut dont do as well, but i think that it might be true and i just dont want to acknowledge it XD i do think that, as far as rating goes, T and E do better than M because... if you dont want smut, you go T, and if you want it, you go E, you know? M is this middle ground i enjoy, but people tend not to be on middle ground with smut XD

i have no clue, but it was fun reading theories, and thank you for the enthusiasm for a fic i really love! to be honest i think if i wrote it a year before it might have been smuttier.... but the idea was also a year old and never had anything but that one scene in it, even if that scene was originally a bit more explicit, so idk. i do tend to go in cycles and whatever i did after beg for me needed to be smut-light because writing beg for me took a lot of time/energy XD see lotd following knifepoint, as well

i really loved crafting a lore fic, i had a whole outline where i tracked what had been hinted at and in what ways, what had been revealed so far, what i still needed to foreshadow/explain, etc, because there was so much stuff i wanted to imply and then reveal, and im realllllly happy with the finished product, so thank you for the love! <3

#ask #anon #its funny because i consider beg for me to be the start of like...#my second era? i guess?#actually no third #1) canon-heavy/summer of 2020 #2) slas onward #3) lotd onward #where like the first one was when the fandom was on That High and i was first getting into writing again #slas was when i started being established and i was just cranking stuff out and constantly having a new idea as soon as i finished the last #and then lotd on was when i had to slow down because that rate wasn't sustainable #and started taking gaps to rest/work on other projects #and from there on i kind of thought people started dropping off #(partially probably because it had been a year since the show ended then and Some people dont get hyperfixations lasting years apparently)#so this third era is kind of slower and exploring different angles for stuff that i havent before #and beg for me was included in that because. well #it started with lotd #but apparently the numbers dont prove that out LOL

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get to know better meme

all right well i was tagged by both @oldbookist and @lafcadiosadventures to do this, so:

1. three ships: hm i don't really consider myself to be that into 'shipping' these days. of course there's enjolras/combeferre my favorites. hm am weirdly fond of lesgle/grantaire in a sort of mikey and nicky way. and i also think jehan/bahorel is an interesting pairing!

2. last song: grand paradise by foxing. their best song fr. good band if you like atmospheric emo

3. last movie: i started watching the man who laughs (1928) but haven't had time to finish watching it. haven't yet read the novel so i can't speak about its adaptational merit, but cinematically it's a gem. crushing on conrad veidt atm.

4. currently reading: 1 henry iv. having real hotspur blorbo hours tbh. then, i'm also reading lost illusions in infrequent bursts. started it over new years while on a tedious road trip, tbh i had thought i could finish it by the end of january but i've only just recently finished part 1. that said, i'm really enjoying it and i am eating up the 1820s mens fashion porn om nom. bought it off of thriftbooks and all of the pages i've read have fallen out. which is a little ironic. i'm also also rereading les miserables keeping up with lm letters, and while i have been reading each chapter and really surprised at how much i enjoy the slow approach to reading this book, i have not really had much time to keep up with discussions like i originally wanted to.

5. currently watching: started rewatching succession (again) 😔

6. currently consuming: well for breakfast this morning i made an omelette with mushroom, and toast with almond butter apricot jam and herbs de provence.

7. currently craving: topo chico lime. more time in my day. sleep.

i would love to get to know any of my mutuals/followers more but i am going to be incredibly shy and not tag anyone. but i appreciate the tags! ok have a good day love and light <3

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hi! can i ask for a romantic matchup please?

personality — i’m definitely an ambivert but introvert leaning. i value my alone time a lot but also when i want to hang out, im suppperrrr clingy!!!! my love language is probably quality time (and my love language that i react best to is gift giving - not necessarily in a vain way but i guess it can be seen as that; i just feel very touched when people are willing to spend money or time on me to buy or make me something). i’ve been described as bubbly but i personally don’t think i am, although i can see it? it’s more of a persona i put on for other people and while i like it, only my closest closest friends see me at my “normal” state where im actually kinda monotone LOL i kinda look like 😐 but that’s how i know im comfortable enough with someone to put my persona to rest lolll. ive also been described as “big brained” and “someone who does too much” in terms of schedule and being busy so take that as u will LOL (for context i’m a college student)

hobbies — my biggest hobbies… crocheting, playing on my switch (persona 5!!), ans reading trashy fantasy ya novels 🫶🏼 love love love my girl hobbies !!!!! i also love watching anime and reading manga but not to the point of weebery lolll and i like kpop a lot!! i learn a lot of kpop dances. also i guess dyeing my hair is lowkey a hobby… i have purple toned black hair rn (my natural color is black) but in recent years ive also had light pink, split pink and green, split pink and blue, plum, teal tips, and caramel hair lol.

physical appearance — speaking of physical attributes … again, colored hair. i have a few cartilage piercings. im asian ? i’m pretty petite (feels corny to say 😭), im about 5’0 and random fun fact is that i have tiny fingers, like literal child sized nail bed

etc. — i’m an infj with OCD ?? and i love cats and dogs and i want a pet snakeeeee!!! also im a comp sci double major. ive never been in a romantic relationship although i have come close maybe a few times. lastly i loveeee nicknames and pet names!!

thank you! idk if this is too much info lol but ty anyway 🫶🏼

I match you with...

Jumin!

It might sound odd, but hear me out! You said yourself that you're the kind of person who values quality time, and quality time means that you get to be yourself with somebody who understands who you are at your core. You don't have to pretend to be somebody you're not, and you don't have to wear a mask when you're with them. You don't have to overcompensate! The right person would be somebody you could enjoy doing anything with, even sitting in silence.

Jumin values that, too. People misunderstand his love language and assume that it's only gift-giving sometimes. Sure, that's a fact of his personality, but that's not the entirety of his being. He wants to be with somebody who understands him and someone he understands in return. You never have to be afraid when you're with him. You can talk about every passion and hobby you have, and isn't that the most fun you can have with another person?

He can talk about as much magic as he wants and you can talk about as much Persona and other video games that you want. There's something very intimate and sweet about a love that is built on the foundation of being able to be who you are without shame.

#mod kait #ask #anon #matchup

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bimbo spiritualism, rediscovery, & new beginnings

dear listener,

i have no longer been afraid. i miracle happened recently. i met this beautiful girl and she has saved me. my girlfriend is very supportive of our bond for i was afraid to initiate it. but love is a beautiful vessel that shall not be contained. ever since she has entered my life i feel like a new human being. she has shifted my world and she always makes me learn more things about myself everyday. it's quite a life altering feeling. i have also rediscovered my femininity and reconnecting that to my spiritualism mindset. i thank saint Angelyne everyday for her ways of life. and for inspiring me in this new era of my life. she has always been a powerful woman who isn't afraid to flaunt her sexuality for the world to admire. i aspire to her way of being. she has also always believed in a higher power. a higher power of self. but most importantly she has never been afraid to do whatever the hell she wanted to do. she will always be punk at heart. and the way she views herself as an other worldy higher being, such a magical thing that i will always resonate with. id like to think that saint Angelyne as well as saint SOPHIE brought this woman into my life and there's no way that i will ever be able to repay them for that. besides my new lovie that is in my life, there's another person that i'd like to talk about. my best friend Emily. i can't thank them enough for all of the light that they've brought into my life. with my best friend Cam living millions of light years away from me, it's been a struggle to not have them physically in my life at all times. somehow Emily was able to fill that void that has been in my heart. once again, i can't thank them enough for all that they've done for me in this life. they have reminded me of all of the things that i have loved in the past such as Sleeping with Sirens, Good Mythical Morning, and Bob's Burgers. they're such a soulmate to me. we're literal long lost twins. i've been hanging out with them in their college dorm and it's been so magical. and their friend Deanna is so wonderful and cool as well i love seeing them and i especially love hanging out with her and Emily. a couple of days ago after Emily and i had a date at Cheesecake Factory we went back to their place to watch Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt as well as Rick and Morty with Deanna. those little pockets of time that i always share with Emily give me the biggest boosts of serotonin. when im with them i never have to feel obligated to hide any part of my self. and that's how it should be. thank you Emily for being here for me. besides the beautiful relationships that have blossomed this year, ive been loving school! although i was nervous about the in person portion, i literally had nothing to stress over. i love to overthink to the point of vomiting over my anxiousness but of course it never makes any situation better. aside that i love my instructors and my classmates everyone is so kind and we all love and celebrate our differences. and im so thankful for that. oh another thing i should mention! i have a new favorite movie that ive been fixating over! it's called Nowhere (1997) and Emily showed that film to me. they literally know me so we because there are so many elements in that movie that remind me of all of my favorite films. it's a true masterpiece. another thing too, the beautiful girl in my life and i have been talking a lot and once she moves back here we're planning on having movie nights once a week. i look forward to having our mutual love for art films being flourished and celebrated. geez im so gay. women make me do manic things. anyways, thank you as always stalker for caring for my stories. i will always love you :). ~princessxeon 💋

pic credits lmao :P :

a clip of Angelyne in a 70s film.

me in Emily's room working on face charts as they redye their hair and as we're watching Don't Hug Me I'm Scared

a page i was reading from John Water's novel Liarmouth

Angel Prost with da pope

Angel Prost describing my aura (yes i paid her five dollhairs for her to tell me lmao)

makeup experimenting that i did :p

Angelyne ;3

a post that Venus Angelic posted on insta that i resonate with

pink bimbo bath time :3

my gf sleeping soundly

a still from Nowhere (1997)

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ohmygosh hi!! i recently found your blog and i adore how you characterize everyone?? especially chuuya? ive always been a poe and dazai fanatic personally, but the way you write chuuya just feels so right.

nonnie you are so sweet !! 🤍 oh my gosh chuuya has such a special place in my heart i think he is such a complex character & not to mention stunning !! after reading the light novels i just really fell in love with him even more yk !! i love the concept of him being arahabaki ᰔ i just love learning about him, i'm so glad you like my characterization of him thank you !! :) mwah ᰔ

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mossnrocksnbogwater · 10 months

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oh also more aiden thoughts for you. scatters them like seeds.

anyway ive been readinga lot of translated light novels recently and while the writing style is,,,, very juvenile and sometimes just not very skilled by most standards i am having such a good time

there's something about the humanity of reading a translator's note where they laugh about an original joke that they tried to translate so that you could enjoy the joke too, or asking about a reference to something old in the notes and such and just. like the novel is alright its a little silly but i think what ive really started coming for is the silly little translator's notes because its so cute to me

#aiden speaks #humanity is cute. deal with it

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guessknee · 1 year

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about me !

aka me nerding out about things i like

Video Games !

the aesthetics, soundtracks, art, landscapes, everything about video games i love. i love playing jrpgs, visual novels and rhythm games. i love watching streams of all types of games though!

currently into watching apex legends, league of legends, valorant, csgo (on occasion), breath of the wild, and some older jrpgs.

i have a goal of beating one major game a month! i love playing games but i often buy too many at once and then play one while forgetting about the others. i dont know if anyone else has that problem so i made a system (gonna get really nerdy for a second) where i track video game releases im interested in for each of my consoles and i pick one game from each month to play and hopefully beat and one game to buy a collectors edition for (if available).

recently completed games

dec-feb

god of war ragnarok

crisis core reunion

one piece odyssey (almost complete 80% of the way done)

games im excited to play soon

the persona ports (jan release)

fire emblem engage (jan release)

octopath traveler 2 (feb release) - collectors edition preorder!

theatrhythm final bar (feb release)

kirbys return to dreamland (feb release)

story of seasons (jan release)

mobile games im playing

twisted wonderland

ensemble stars

genshin impact (on and off)

consoles i own (i have a weird thing with clue consoles and handhelds - i never realized i always bought blue ones till a about a year ago maybe its because i loved sonic as a kid...)

ps5

ps4

ps2

switch (animal crossing)

psp (light blue)

ps vita (light blue/white)

wii (i never use it)

2ds (blue)

dsi (light blue)

Anime / Manga !

i love anime and manga. ive grown up with it ever since i was around 5. i would stay up on saturday nights till 7 am when inuyasha would start playing on adult swim. if i was ever too tired i would record the episode on our dvr and would watch it after getting home from kindergarten. crazy age to watch inuyasha but i always found it so cool.

also grew up on naruto. i am such a naruto nerd i have rewatched the og and shippuden so many times i can tell people which episode events happened, i can sing the openings in order, i can name most characters, etc. the naruto brainrot is bad. same thing with bleach and dragonball z. the new bleach has me so hyped i loved watching every episode made me want to rewatch the main series but i have no time so i just watch small clips here and there.

i love just about every genre of anime tbh. sports animes (baki, hajime no ippo, kengan asura, one outs, eyeshield 21, etc). idol animes (idolish 7, tsukiuta, tsukipro, etc). shounen, mystery, shoujo, literally everything. i have to be in a certain mood to watch mech animes but whenever one comes out that catches my eye i put all my energy into watching it. i think the only genre i dont enjoy much is isekai, i used to like them but new ones come out too often i cant keep up.

currently watching

one piece (caught up)

blue lock

buddy daddies

monster

vinland saga s2

trigun stampede

yowapeda limit break

tokyo revengers s2

Cars !

my day to day guilty pleasure is cars. i love cars. they are cool, go fast, go stutututu, whine, be loud, have cool lights, i love everything about a good car.

i have a brz! bought it myself and it is my pride adn joy. it is one of my favorite cars and when i bought it in november i literally cried. I drive manual and its so fun to me! i want to learn how to drift but im a bit nervous because i dont want to accidentally mess up anything in my car.

Reading !

i love books i love reading. i love fiction, sci-fi, philosophy, nonfiction, fanfiction, everything. I was never into books like harry potter and anything with too many magical elements in them but always loved horror and more mystery thriller books.

i have been dying to buy more physical books to add to my mini library in my room but theres a few books on my backlog i need to complete before i do that.

i also have a slowly growing manga collection that i desperately need to add to.

i read all day all night on my phone but the feeling of flipping real pages is so satisfying and having the weight of a book in my bag is just so nice.

Music !

not to toot my own horn but my spotify wrapped minutes is always 140k+. i listen to music all day everyday. while doing homework, reading, driving, working, in class (pay attention dont be like me), watching stuff it doesnt matter. i have a terrible habit of getting bored of something very easily so i always multitask and need 20 things happening at the same time so music is amazing at keeping me focused.

i love 'underground archive', rnb, krnb, jpop, citypop, lofi, rap, edm, literally a whole lot of stuff. i dont like pop that much ive grown to realize same with country, i can listen to it but only if someone else wants to.

thats it! literally my whole being in a post.

#guessknee #about me <3

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chimeracreations-art · 1 year

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GOAT Report: January 2023

Going to try and start doing like little post month reports as each one goes on, just for a bit of funzys and also to keep ya'll in the loop. so i guess the first thing we talk about is the good stuff.

So what were some of the positive thing i think I'm pretty happy about that i did or started in January.

- well we one thing i think i can say so far is iv just been really happy and having a fun time creating videos on YouTube, started doing this last year in December with a video on one of the BattleTech novels iv read and since no one in my local group is reading the current book as they there are just gamers or are not in the current sluff as there reading though the dark age book atm and so i just wanted to get my thoughts out there and people have been digging it. it also help people find out what what about some stuff too as i talked about some of the Kickstarter info and what not. going to try an shoot for one video a mouth atm as i really like reading a book or sourcebook and talking bout and learning more about BattleTech lore as i get further and further into it.

- my general skill development and work on trying to make different kinds of stuff has been pretty good, as my last few YCH have been looking very very good to me. i feel extra proud of the mommies and cookies, Casual Jerk-day and Mobile Fursuits G-witch Stickers all came out, the lighting and shading on all these as well some cartooning and use of perspective and pose work all made me real happy, same with the tank and the aliens design wip too (will be working on those soon so expect some adopts in a bit). over all just real happy with the quality bump iv had with those bits of work.

Starting getting plans set up to start an etsy store were you can buy stickers and prints later this year.

- the last thing i think I'm real happy with is the launch of my patreon as iv got 2 cool folk over there and i feel real happy about it.

the neutral - my out put for this month was ok, i got all my YCH finished and most of my commission done but iv got a few left over private commissions that still need to be done along with a design com for a friend that'll be working on this month. alongside that i ended up grabbing a room for FWA which while good put a dent into my profits this month but hopeful will pay off later down the road and also be fun. what kinda stinks is i got an extra room for some people and since it was a rush get it now or no room and then we'd have to do the drive up stuff i got the rooms and the other two ended up not being able to make it so atm I'm debating and talking with some other friends who might be able to buy the room or cancel the extra room's reservation as I'll only lose 187 buck at that point instead of the 600 and some.

- kinda fail a bit on streaming recently as iv just been to tired or sleepy to stream, not the worst thing since streaming is something i do to try and give myself a specific date and time to play games and get my dumb brain to not be in uber work mode all the time.

- sleep schedule good back to poop again.

- beside those it just kinda been hating the weather here in Georgia atm, cold as shit and rainy, wish i could just sit outside for a bit just so i could have some place outside the house to relax for a bit but it awful to do that atm since it been so cold, hopefully thing will get a little tolerable this month were i can at least feel ok sitting outside with a jacket as i do like sitting in our backyard to eat lunch or try and watch thing instead of inside the house.

The bad or the things i need to work on.

- kinda was a lazy ass and took a bit to get the one of the appointment to start getting my teeth fixed so that kinda sucked but i got the first one set up and so hopefully I'll have the holes in my teeth looked at and then done up soon and fixed real soon.

- still not happy with not working to much on my own projects and just wanting to create more ME stuff as i go but i might do some thing to help with that and hopefully the patreon will as well. like my NSFW stuff is good if still in my opinion could be developed further (if i had the time every YCH and doodle would probably have a fucking background and nice lighting like the mommies and cookies one, casue fuck do i just want to develop some of the idea more and add to like the idea of the piece, some would still be just void background but still i want to put more time into individual pics.)

- looking at house/apartments has started and is good but thing are not looking the best atm with prices and then the cost of amenities, a few spots have gone down a little but everything that not in an area were people don't get murder and others a lot is a bit rough or hard to get even with roommate splitting the costs . so while I'm hopeful at looking at places and eventually moving out, they are sorta still pissing me off a bit and might result in me raising prices along with my want to just do more things for myself.

- the discord is taking way longer to get set up then i thought and mix that with most of my time be put towards come has delayed it way more than i wanted to but im going to try and get some time into making some progress on it but ATM i make an announcement when it be ready to open.

and that all my immediate thought on looking back on January not a bad month not an amazing month ether just simple fairy plain work-month basically.

also if you didn't see them or know about stuff here links to my YouTube and patreon

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC6.....1HTbgxVMDLU1eA

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In less than a week my feed has been plagued by the "hot takes" of entitled fans of the Hazbin and Helluva universe.

As a result, I know I promised some analytical information regarding what we know of Hazbin's version of hell thus far, which will be included in this post. But there will be some other things added as well to address some of the more frequently expressed "concerns" I have seen being (rather rudely) expressed in posts.

Some of the things I will be talking about in these posts, so while I will be utilizing quotes or things said in @total-mal 's very well articulated response post, I recommend going to read that response post in it's entirety. Like... now.

The complaints I tend to see typically fall along these lines.

So in this post I will be addressing these things and other things I typically see.

Story

As was very well put in the aforementioned post, the series of Hazbin barely has an hour of content. Yet for some reason people complain that it's a mess. How?

The Pilot itself is meant to establish the setting, who the characters are, what their relationships to each other are, establishing dynamic, and establish the premise of future story that is meant to follow. All of these things the pilot did exceedingly well. A pilot is NOT meant to drop dozens of hours worth of world lore and future plot points in one half hour segment. It is supposed to hook people into being interested in and watching the follow up episodes. Which, considering the rather quick cult following that preceded the pilot debut, I would say it did that and more even without the world lore dump people are demanding.

No story is going to give you every facet of the characters and the world they inhabit in the first episode or the first novel. No story worth it's weight in salt, that is. Any good story teller will tell you that content needs to be put on an IV drip as the story progresses, or else you will lose the majority of your audience's interest.

Helluva Boss is it's own standalone project set in the same universe as Hazbin, but it's job is not to provide lore for Hazbin. The kernel of lore we got from episode two was great. But that is very likely not going to be the norm every episode. Nor should anyone expect otherwise.

The comics were also their own projects, meant to strengthen an already existing narrative with Hazbin and establish both Angel and Alastor's motives for joining the Hotel. They are not meant to expand on the lore. Their existence could also very likely be overlooked by fans who only pay attention to what is popping up on Youtube or on their Twitter feed.

As for Addict, that began as a fan-created song Vivzie liked enough to animate into a music video which expanded on Angel and Cherri's relationship. It was not meant to be an entry to any Vivziepop Hell lore.

Hazbin is a story driven by its characters. This is why the characters are the focus and take up the majority of any screen time given to any entry of Hazbin. Mal puts it very well:

World

So this is where we will be getting into what we know so far about the world of Vivzie's hell.

So Vivzie's hell is, from what we understand, loosely based on Dante's inferno with other inspirations and deviations mixed in. For example, there are only seven circles of hell as opposed to 9.

In Dante's inferno only circle two through five are after the Seven Deadly Sins. Whereas in Vivziepop's version of hell, every circle is for one of the Seven Deadly Sins.

From what we understand so far, Pride is the top circle, or Ring. Sinners, AKA those who were alive prior to becoming demons, are only allowed to exist in Pride.

We do not know what "can only exist" means. As this doesn't imply that sinners can't leave Pride. Simply that they cannot exist anywhere else.

And also from what we understand, the big marker that differentiates each of the circles is the colors of the sky.

Pride, from what we have seen thus far, has a red sky.

While Greed has a green sky.

This is further confirmed on Twitter, however whether it was confirmed by Vivzie or one of the other official Twitters, I cannot recall.

Now, I know there are quite a few who keep asking this question.

And there are many who seem to think that this little detail means that the fact dump from official Twitters means the story and lore are ruined. This is actually false. Especially when you consider that Sinners are not a finite population. Nor is their influx a small trickle. So expanding Sinners into other parts of hell is only a temporary solution to a more overarching problem. It may slow down the necessity for purges, but it would also increase the number needed to be purged each time a purge was necessary. Further, it is doubtful that Lucifer would be keen on the idea of angels traveling deeper into Hell just as it is doubtful that he sees a reason to be exceedingly merciful to sinners- the creation he detests and is more or less what brought him to Hell to begin with. It also would erase any place to escape for Hell-born demons.

So in this regard, no. Nothing is ruined. People just aren't paying attention. The devil is in the details, after all.

As for what the difference is between circles and rings, perhaps this will shed some light.

Rings seem to be segments of a circle that separate sinners by the subcategory of their sin in each circle. Whether or not Vivziepop's version of hell follows this, I personally doubt it. Ring and Circle, from observation, seem to be used interchangeably. So the two could very well be the same thing.

The other bits we know are lore facts Vivzie has given previously that may no longer be true as the world exists now. For example, previously Alastor was scared of dogs. But more recently, Vivzie said that is no longer true and Alastor simply just does not like them. So any older facts should be taken with a grain of salt until they are reconfirmed.

Switching gears on the world, there have been complaints popping up that Vivziepop's hell is not "hell-y" enough because there is not enough fire and brimstone.

To take a phrase from total-mal once more, there are countless alternate depictions of hell as hell being other people instead of the place itself. The phrase exists from Sartre's No Exit, but has been revisited numerous times in other media depictions of hell to display that the definition of "punishment" can be broadened to a much larger spectrum than originally imagined.

In the Hazbin universe of Hell, punishment is the constant threat of physical and emotional harm from those around you, not unlike being in prison or living in a ghetto. You have the increased potential to be abused or taken advantage of if you show a moment's weakness.

And while some in the demon hierarchy might have it better than others, there is still the constant threat of being killed or overthrown by someone stronger or someone just wanting to prove themselves.

In the Hazbin universe of hell, you wear clues to your life, your sins, and your death on the outside for all to see (and in some cases, manipulate). You are thrust into a demon hierarchy one wrung up from the lowest class, unless you are lucky and strong enough to become an overlord. In which case, then you are two wrungs up from the lowest class. And your punishment is living every day with the constant threat of those around you. Of always needing to have your guard up because someone will take advantage of you or worse. That isn't even mentioning the annual threat of the purge.

Livestreams

This is another one that I see get mentioned and awful fucking lot in the complaint/concern/hot take posts.

There are always complaints about how the livestreams are useless, serve no purpose, or are just "jerkoff sessions." Mind, these same complaints almost always seem to come from the same people complaining about having no information about the show or having no lore surrounding the universe or the story.

Nevermind that Vivzie and the cast are all under NDA and cannot disclose much that isn't already known about the show and, where VAs are concerned, cannot do any voice lines that go beyond what has already been said in the pilot lines.

The Livestreams serve SEVERAL purposes, however. One of those purposes is to drum up interest surrounding Hazbin and Helluva, as well as to advertise and to disclose any lore that they have permission to disclose to the audience. Something to whet their appetites as they wait for the small Indie studio A24 to finish production of Hazbin's first season in the middle of a pandemic. Because that last bit people seem to forget is still ongoing.

Without those livestreams done by Viv and the cast, many of the impatient fans in this fandom would be practically breaking down the door on Vivzie's DMs demanding to know where Hazbin is or why she seems to have given up on it. Or at least, more than what is currently going on now anyway.

People need to calm down, let the Devs do their job, and pay more attention to the details given in what we have thus far. Vivzie has done a GREAT job at eluding to the bigger picture in her details. Particularly where her characters are concerned. And I for one am here for it.

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