#recovery is weird and crazy

[mochiwrites]

it’s nearly 12am and I’m meant to be sleeping but I can’t so take some rambles while I grind for xp at this zombie spawner —

anyways, recovery is a weird and quite frankly fucking Wild path. it’s nonlinear and is different for everybody but wow is it crazy. when you’re living in a situation for multiple weeks, months, hell even years it’s so easy to forget things outside of your current situation.

and then you get out of it (because you always do, no matter how long it takes, you do get out of your shitty situation), you have to reteach yourself things, right??? because you could’ve been so lost in that haze of depression and stress that you forgot the little things, or your trying to adapt to some kind of new routine.

you get out of it and you’re like “well fuck. what am I supposed to do now? I put so much energy into xyz.” and it’s like. you need to completely rewire your brain.

it’s telling yourself that it’s okay to take baby steps. it’s telling yourself that the people you surround yourself do genuinely love and care for you. it’s telling yourself to find little things to love and appreciate because it’s those little things that are worth living for.

it’s also telling yourself that it’s okay to struggle. it’s also telling yourself that it’s okay if you mess up — recovery isn’t linear. it’s also telling yourself that you deserve the same kindness and respect that you extend to everyone else.

rewiring your brain is slowly learning healthier boundaries and ways of communication, and surrounding yourself with people who will help you grow for the better — even if it’s just by listening to you.

it’s also about going at your own pace. because everyone recovers at different speeds, and it isn’t a race. you’re allowed to take however long you need to heal, there’s no time limit.

and the craziest part is reteaching yourself things like habits. it’s pushing yourself to shower again, or to eat something, or drink water. reteaching yourself is climbing out of that hole depression put you in, but also using your resources to climb out. and yeah you may fall or stumble on the way up, but you always make it to the top.

recovery is wild

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

[wholesome-love-always]

One of these days I want to gather my friends who also have eating disorders and just play a bunch of drinking games, but instead of drinking, we have some healthy food we need to take a bite of every time we'd typically drink.

[comfycozycrossfox]

i’m worried about how everyone views me at all times, that being said sometimes my intention is FOR people to think i’m insane.

[cutielando]

sweet girl ~ oscar piastri

Summary: Oscar kept his personal life pretty private, so when he appears at the paddock with his wife and his almost 1-year-old daughter, everyone is shocked. 

Words: 1.2k+

Other works: my masterlist

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"Are you sure she's ready?" you asked Oscar one night, laying in bed facing each other.

"She'll be safe with you and my parents, you don't have to worry about that. We don't have to bring her if you don't want, it was just a thought" he said, tracing your spine with the tips on his fingers.

Ever since Charlotte was born, you've kept it a complete secrete from the public. You hadn't even told anyone that you were pregnant except for your families and the McLaren team. Given that your lives were very public and in the open eye, you wanted to enjoy your pregnancy as something only for the two of you.

"How do you think the world is going to react?" you asked, already picturing the whole paddock going crazy over the fact that you would be bringing your baby to a race.

"They're going to lose their minds" Oscar chuckled, pulling you even closer.

You chuckled alongside him before you settled into a comfortable silence, the baby monitor silent for the moment.

"This past year has been amazing. Just the three of us, nobody commenting on how we should be leading our lives" you said, thinking back on the one year since your girl has entered this world.

Your pregnancy has been amazing, you were lucky that you didn't experience morning sickness at all, you didn't have weird cravings, you hadn't gained that much weight, you weren't tired, you kept active. It was really the dream pregnancy.

Oscar, of course, had become all that more protective of you and the baby. He made sure you were always comfortable, you never had to strain yourself more than necessary, he was practically at your beck and call the entire time.

When it came down to labor, he was with you the whole time you had to push, whispering encouraging words, holding you up and holding your hand. He was the best, helping you with your recovery and being the most hands-on new father that you had ever met.

And you weren't just saying that because you were biased.

"It has. I'm surprised nobody figured it out, to be honest" he said, making the two of you laugh.

"Imagine their surprise when they see us with Char" you said, silently hoping Oscar would get the hint.

He was silent for a moment before he looked down to you, a smile threatening to escape his lips.

"Does that mean you'll come to the race with her?" you giggled, nodding your head.

Oscar pulled you to him, kissing your lips eagerly. Just as you rolled around and ended up on top of him, your hands wordlessly sliding up his shirt, cries erupted from the baby monitor, making you sigh and chuckle.

"I'll get her" Oscar said, kissing your forehead and leaving the room to soothe your daughter.

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"Do we have everything?" you asked, finishing dressing your baby girl in a papaya onesie the McLaren team had gifted you for the occasion.

"Yes, everything is in the bag" Oscar assured you, picking it up along with his backpack.

"Are you ready to go see daddy race, sweet girl?" you cooed at Charlotte, who smiled wordlessly at the both of you.

Her small hands reached out to Oscar, her eyes twinkling at her father.

"You ready, Char?" Oscar asked in a baby voice, tickling her tummy which prompted your girl to erupt in a fit of giggles, your favorite sound in the world.

After spending a couple more minutes with your little family, you two met up with his parents and started your journey towards the track, Oscar's parents playing with Charlotte the whole way to keep her entertained.

Once you finally arrived, Oscar took the bags and kept you close to him as you held Charlotte, trying to shield her face away from the thousands of flashed coming your way. 

She, on the other hand, being the little social butterfly that she was, insisted on being seen, waving to everyone that passed by you.

A couple of interviewers signaled for Oscar to give a statement, so he gently pulled the two of you with him towards one of the friendlier ones.

"Oscar Piastri, the man of the moment. I see you have brought someone special with you to your home race, care to share the news with us?" the kind woman asked, her eyes darting to the happy little girl holding her McLaren teddy in her arms.

"This is my wife, Y/N, as my fans know, but we have an addition to the family. This is our daughter, Charlotte Rose, she's almost 1 year old and she decided she wanted to watch her daddy drive today, isn't that right, Char?" Oscar turned his attention to your daughter, gently caressing her cheek.

She smiled widely at him and squealed "Voom voom!" which made everyone melt and awe.

"She is adorable, congratulations to you both. This is the first time we're hearing about her, how did you come to the decision to keep Y/N's pregnancy a secret?" the woman followed up, smiling at you the whole time.

"I am a public figure and my whole life is being displayed to the public. When we found out that we were expecting, we both made the decision to keep it to ourselves and our families, mainly so we could have a sense of normality for when she would be born and not throw her into the spotlight immediately. We wanted to enjoy it for ourselves for a while" he explained, not even minding that Charlotte was tugging at his hair as she wriggled in your arms.

"We understand. Congratulations to both of you once again, you have made one beautiful young daughter. I wish you good luck on the race and much love in the future with this little one" the interviewer looked at you for permission to touch her, which you gave by simply smiling.

The woman squished her cheeks, making Charlotte smile and babble at her, seemingly happy as a bug.

Oscar thanked the woman and led you through the paddock towards the McLaren hospitality, where you and his parents would be residing in for the race.

Once there, Lando and Zak were waiting for you, eager to see the newest addition to the Papaya army.

"There she is, my favorite little munchkin" Lando cooed before taking her from your arms, your little girl giggling once she laid eyes on her favorite uncle.

"La-do" Charlotte giggled, not being able to pronounce his name correctly yet.

"Yes, it's your uncle Lado. You just get cuter and cuter every time I see you" he bounced her in his arms, making her erupt in a fit of laughter which made everyone in the hospitality smile.

"How are you, Y/N?" Zak asked, putting a hand on the small of your back.

"I'm great, thank God. She's keeping us on our toes, but we love it nonetheless. Oscar really wanted her for the race and I couldn't deny him that" you explained, making Zak nod and smile.

You diverted your eyes back to your husband, who was now sitting on the floor with Lando and playing with Charlotte.

As you watched them, you knew that you would never trade this for anything else in the world. This right here, Oscar and your girl, was everything that you needed.

Just Oscar and your sweet girl.

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[gadriezmannsgirl]

I suddenly got a wave of inspiration and several fics are going to be done today (Hopefully at least two) , so first fic out!

Also I just realized that this past February 24th (Or 26th, Idk) was my first ever post in this place, so happy anniversary to this blog and to this piece!

Night Out Problems -P.G6

Summary: A night out in which you had a little too much to drink

You giggled once again at your friend's mistakes, you two were singing at the top of your lungs in the backseat of a car

"Así no va, tonta" (That's not how it goes, silly) You giggled "It's got me looking so crazy right now, your love's got me looking so crazy right now" You corrected while laughing

"She repeats it?"

"Then how else is it?"

"Isn't there something page me?" You look at her

"What?" You said after a minute of silence before you two broke in laughter

"Y/N, we're here" Your best friend's, Melissa's boyfriend, Frank says "Are you good to go or should I call-?"

"I'm good, I'm good"

"Sure?" You opened the car door and went to get out but almost met the floor "Ok, no, I need help"

"I'm calling your boy" He said getting out of the car and estabilizing you

"Pabs?" You asked excited and he hums, you heard the singing of your friend "¡Loca, bajale a la voz!" (You crazy woman, lower your voice!)

"Hermano" You soon heard another male voice greeting you by the car "Gracias por traerla" (Thanks for bringing her back)

"No worries, bro. Everything's good"

"Have a good night, text when you both get home please" Frank nods

"Have a good night guys and Y/N" He called you as you look at Frank "I'm glad you're getting your degree"

"Oh shush as if you sing any better" Both guys laughed as you watched how Frank got in the car and drove off

"Venga, c'mon Amor. Let's go inside"

"I'm not your amor, muchacho. I'm waiting for my boyfriend to come here"

"Oh yeah?" You hum nodding "Where's he?"

"Inside that" You point out your house "house"

"Bueno but let's go closer so we are not standing in the middle of the road"

"Only because I don't want to get run over by a car, my boyfriend wouldn't like that"

"I bet he wouldn't" He said shaking his head "Don't you perhaps have a key to enter?"

"You might be so good looking but I'm not entering with you here, I'll wait for my boy" The guy smiled

"Venga bebé, let's go inside, it's 3am" He tried touching you but you pushed his hands away

"No" You say "I'm going to call my boyfriend if you keep that up"

"Call him then"

"I will" You pulled your phone out only to see the call didn't go through "I don't have signal?" You look at the guy who has a smirk on his face and one of his eyebrows up "What? Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Nothing. Don't mind me" He crossed his arms around his chest letting you see his muscles.

But you didn't let that fool you, you had a boyfriend and you wanted your boyfriend now.

So, you narrowed your eyes looking at him

"Why are you looking at me now?"

"You know, for very weird reasons you look exactly like my boyfriend"

"Do I?" You nod

"But he doesn't have a brother. Or that's what I know. So, you are not him"

"Why I'm not him?"

"Because he has beard and you are clean shaved"

"That's because I shaved in the afternoon"

"Yeah, he knows that's my thing to do"

"Alright, amor. I'm truly tired and I have recovery session at 10am today. What do you need for me to prove I'm your boyfriend?"

"Nothing because you're not! My boyfriend is Pablo Páez, a football player mostly known by Gavi, you're not him and once he finds out you're hitting on me, he'll be so pissed at you" The guy's smirk keep growing each time "And stop making fun of me"

"You said you wanted to call your boyfriend?" You nod "Try again this time without the airplane mode on" You look at your phone to see the airplane on top of your settings

"Oh!" You looked up at him "I'll call him now" You took a few steps off the stairs and almost fell making the guy come to you "No! I'm good, I'm good. Don't need to touch what's not yours" You said and dialed your boyfriend

A few rings went by only to hear his phone ring behind you, you turn around seeing the guy with the phone in his ear

"Go ahead" He smiled widely "¿Qué querías decirme, preciosa?" (What did you wanted to tell me, pretty girl?)

"You are my boyfriend!" You smiled widely "My lord, I have such a good taste in men. You're the prettiest boy I've ever seen" You giggled coming up the stairs once again to wrap your arms around him

"You said not to touch what's not mine?"

"But you're my boyfriend, I'm yours and you're minee" You dragged the 'e' out "That's why you looked exactly like my boyfriend, because you are!" You laughed squishing his cheeks

"Yes, I am" He said in between your hands

"So prettyyyy" You said "Why don't you open the door? I wanna lay on top of you, cuddle and kiss you so bad. God, you look so comfy, how is that even possible?" Pablo laughs at you buried depp into his chest, your voice coming out muffled

"Thank god, I'm recording this, you wouldn't believe it"

"Are you recording?" He hums as you grab his hand pulling it up to your mouth "Whatup girl?-

"You need to marry this man like as soon as possible, he's the love of your life and he's so perfect, you wouldn't believe it"

You groan hearing your voice as you grab a bite of the sandwich your boyfriend made for you "Please, stop that, even thought I mean it, I was drunk as hell"

"There's no need to be embarrassed about it, amor" Pablo laughed wrapping his strong arms around you and kissing your neck, the recording still playing "You are the love of my life as well, you're the perfect girl for me and I do plan on getting down on my knee and propose, just waiting for the right time"

"I would say yes anytime"

"That's good to know" He smiled "Can I pull this audio in our wedding?"

"Definitely not"

"Oh, c'mon! Why not?"

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Taglist: @gaviymarcsbride @stuckinaf4nfiction @elijahslover @azzpenswrld @http-isabela

[sunsetkerr]

SAMMY'S GIRL (ii) | s.kerr

summary: MORE headcanons on your relationship with sam, read part one here.

pairing: fem!reader x sam kerr

notes: getting out lots of little headcanons because they're just so much fun to do. sammy's girl is my favourite of all my girls (completely bias, sorry) but if you want to see what other 'wags' are in my lil universes, check out my masterlists!! each 'wag' is also going to get their own tag, so check those out for little file facts, or ask questions/send thoughts so we can add to them all!! lots of love

as previously established, you’ve grown up with sam right

you’ve known her through every little phase and every weird obsession she’s ever had

you know her deepest secrets and she knows yours

its honestly quite jarring because you both know each other better than you know yourselves

you’re not at sporty as sam, only relaly dabbling in school netball for carnivals and stuff when they needed extra girls

but sam would try and include you as much as she could in all aspects of her career

if she was having a solo gym day, or just going on a walk

guess whos coming with!?!!!

its you!!!!!!

if she wants a swim at the beach for recovery

she is making sure that you tag along

(not just to see you in your bathers, its for recovery, have some professionalism please)

sam has spent half of her life without you and having to settle for seeing you through a screen

so once you’re in london with her permanently, she is making the most of that

she needs to shower? you’re passing her body wash

she’s hungry? shes making two servings and you’re eating with her

she wants a coffee? youre heading to your favourite spot

you are always around

and sam isn’t having it if you’re not

when she does have to go away?

youre getting texts from guro, erin and millie complaining about her

‘omg she wont shut up about you’

‘if sam doesn’t stop talking im gonna clock her y/n, i won’t be held responsible for my actions’

‘she’s at a new level of pathetic, please come get your girl’

but they understand, they love you too

the entirety of the chelsea squad know you’re at every game

they have a dedicated seat for you in the family and friends section

everyone is away that it’s your seat

millie’s fiancée wards people away from it

he once had to face the consequences of sitting in your seat

he wouldn’t wish an angry emma hayes or sam kerr upon anyone

but its not all about sam

she is just your biggest cheerleader

you were able to finish your degree online and were lucky enough that your credentials in australia carried over to the uk 

so you started working there

im picturing sports journalism???????? you were forced to be around sport your entire life that it kinda just became a natural thing

you were so well-informed on so many different sports it was crazy

sam loved plugging anything you were writing

you posted a new article? she’s sharing that shit on her instagram story

you won an award for a piece? she’s at the ceremony

you’re working overtime to get a project finished? she’s ordering you dinner to the office

as much as sam is a professional and very famous athlete

she’s still just sammy to you

and she’s never forgotten that

but to her, you are the best thing to ever happen to planet earth

and she makes sure that everyone knows

living with sam is lots of fun

you relish in all of the time you get to spend together

call it making up lost time

sure, she leaves her stuff everywhere

but you’re guilty of that too

you still hold each other accountable

‘sam you didn’t do the dishes’

‘okay and you didn’t hang out the laundry’

‘… fair enough’

making dinner together is just chaotic 

sam can only cook breakfast, she excels at smashed avocado

so she really lets you take the reins on dinners 

she succumbs to the sou-chef life

you force her to watch movies with you

she argues and says that tv shows are better

(even though you know she’s completely invested in whatever film you’ve chosen)

you have a little brother who just idolises sam

and he has since the day he was born

he was a classic accident child, a real surprise for your parents

but watching him grow up was just the best

hes the biggest women’s soccer fan you know

he’s up-to-date on all of the woso drama

definitely can tell you the entire timeline and drama of the mcfoord relationship 

so when he’s old enough

sam flies him over to the uk all the time

he just loves sam so much

he wears her jersey to every game, saying he doesn’t want anyone elses

(maybe maccas, but that’s a different story)

and sam is estatic to have him there

definitely walks out with him as her mascot on multiple occasions

sam isn’t super touchy feely in front of others

but when shes drunk, she can’t help it

she just wants to hold you and she doesn’t care who’s around to see it

sam really loves watching men at bars or in clubs try to hit on you

just to go and ruin their fun

it’s her favourite pastime really

sam’s extra sappy and clingy when tired

after a big night or a tiring game, she wants to curl up next to you and have you hold her until she falls asleep

sometimes it’s a foreign feeling for you

sam is almost always the big spoon

so you really drink in the feeling whenever she feels vulnerable enough to let you hold her for a change

sam is also extra attentive when you’re not feeling well

she’s so doting and always checking in on you

if shes around, you’re being waited on hand and foot

‘are you okay? do you have a temp?’

‘let me get you some water’

‘i don’t like the sound of that cough, y/n’

if she’s away for a game, your phone does not stop ringing

she’s always texting when she has a spare minute 

and if she has more than ten minutes to spare, she’s calling you to see how you are

sam just adores you

the fans adore you even more

the amount of tiktok edits of you and sam are crazy

the one of you in the stands after her goal against england in the world cup went viral

the way you jumped out of your seat and almost threw yourself over the barrier was on the news the next day

the clip continuing as sam ran over to your section, as you both shouted in celebration to each other

or the clips in the matildas doco series of the two of you

the lesbians went feral for that shit

everyone wants what you have

everyone wants you

you are that bitch

sam knows it too

and she’s not afraid to let people know just who you are

because you’re hers 

forever and always

[shuttershocky]

what do you think of shu, new sui kid on the block? i like her design. the colors are very tasty looking :)

Shu's design is my favorite among the Sui siblings so far, very impressive given how much Ling was made to appeal to my personal tastes.

It's the Roberta in her eyes (same artist). Can't help but be charmed.

I also love that her whole theme is agriculture. All the Sui embody an artform. Nian does metalwork, Dusk does painting, Ling does poetry, and Chongyue does martial arts, but Shu's art is agriculture. Not to embody an Asian stereotype here but I love the respect towards rice farmers.

Now as for her skillset, Shu is a Guardian Defender, a bold choice when Saria has so thoroughly dominated the Guardian class (or just ground support units in general) that the last 6 star Guardian, Blemishine, steered clear of Saria and played a funky DPS/Sleep/Defensive Recovery support role just to be able to see play.

Shu on the other hand, returns to focusing on heals and support utility, meaning she'll actually be encroaching on Saria's turf. Let's look at her skillset.

So from her first talent, we see that Shu goes all in on utility, compared to Saria talent 1 bulking herself up with +ATK and +DEF stacks, or Maria's talent 1 letting her attack sleeping enemies. The "rice fields" give HP regen instead of heals (which means it heals unhealable units like Musha or Juggernauts) which greatly extends her versatility, and granting shelter to allies hiding in her sowed times is a nice bonus, but what I really value about the talent is that she sows the 4 tiles around a healed ally as well, meaning you can get great coverage on a map.

Her Talent 2 is kind of a meme. The Max HP and ASPD effects are really easy to get which is great, but the SP and ATK buff applied when four of Shu, Nian, Chongyue, Dusk, and Ling are all in the team is kind of a meme imo. That's 4/12 slots taken for a meh attack buff and a 0.25 SP/s increase, which is lower than the +0.3/s provided by Ptilopsis (although Shu's appears to work on all SP recovery types which is nice). The Sui siblings don't really have all that much synergy with each other (in fact Ling would rather fly solo to have as many deployment slots for her summons as possible) so trying to force the Sui buff by having 4 deployed seems to me like you will just be griefing yourself half the time on harder stages.

Now for her skills

S1 looks to be the exact same thing as Saria's and default Nearl's. I think Saria's S1 will remain the most valuable version of this since Saria stacks both ATK and DEF on herself over time and this S1 is mostly used to make a Guardian act as a tank. Shu's regen and shelter from ricefield tiles would have to be crazy high for me to consider her S1 when I already got both Saria and Nearl on S1M3.

Shu's S2 is interesting, it's basically an upgraded version of regular Nearl's S2 (which no one uses). I need to see the numbers on the boost to Talent 1 to properly judge this skill, but for now this could potentially open up new strategic options (due to being a ground unit-based shelter buff). It's manually activated and heals two at a time which can be a pain in the ass vs just using Saria's S2, but I'm looking forward to seeing how much it buffs her sow tiles.

And now for Skill 3.

Welcome to the rice fields motherfucker, you aren't allowed to leave. The bonus ATK and ASPD for allies inside her range is a buff no other Guardian can provide, but the really cool bit is teleporting enemies who have stepped on a Sow tile back into it if they end up walking too far.

I'm going to be honest, I have no idea if that is insanely broken for crowd control or if it's just a big meme, as you need to heal allies to plant sow tiles (so you can't plant ahead of your units to make an unescapable trap without using an Operator to create the Sow tiles). It is weird and creative and a very different take on Saria's S3 also being AOE crowd control and heals though, so I like it and can't wait to experiment with it.

[milsirils]

fleki and lycion’s dynamic is just too good and genius

This is a mini collection of my thoughts on them and a rewrite of something I posted online a few days ago. Be aware this is not an in depth analysis unfortunately, but just a shitty surface level run of the stuff I like about them and how they interact!

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I find it hard to put their relationship into words. But they’re like TWINS in spirit. You feel me??! They get into trouble together, nap together, weed sesh and exposing the canaries, just always together, regular bffisms. I love it.

(They could probably kiss and not feel much cuz they’re just chill like that, unless you want them too idk!!)

Also peep Fleki on Lycion’s back like if he’s still a big fluffy wolf 😭

Which brings me to another point!

Wolves and Ravens are known for having a symbiotic relationship in nature.

Fleki is able to control her familiars which often take the form of corvid-raven like birds, and of course Lycion can transform into a wolf man.

This is one of the little things I just personally really life about them. I have no idea if this was intentional for not, but I I wouldn’t put it past Kui if it was.

They’re so precious and of course I have to mention the more soppy side of their relationship.

Lycion walking in on Fleki being passed out while in a hallucinogenic state after taking drugs. He automatically goes to shift her into a recovery position and then waits by her bedside for her to come out of her trance.

The last line, “I think this world’s a bit of a cesspool myself…but it’s pretty decent when I’m taking with you. Hurry back alright?”

It’s a good little comment on how important they are to each other, or at least Lycion to Fleki 😭 I would love to see more on what she thinks of him. Please Kui.

I feel it’s obviously she trust him the most though.

Let’s loop back to their charms though.

“Fleki, get this.” You know their shit talk seshs (about their coworkers) go crazy. They're also kinda like weird kids. Fleki wears those amazon anime hoodies with the stolen art you only see being promoted by youtube and ig meme accounts that are probably also dropshippers. And Lycion is a gay furry. They probably woulda loved running otherkin blogs.

But I do like how Fleki tends to wear colorful eyesore attire with different layers and patterns, meanwhile Lycion tends to wear more dull toned, gray, simple outfits. Opposite aesthetic style dynamic win!

That's all I got. Here are some extras. Please look at them. They're such idiots.

[honey-words]

what are we? — todoroki shoto x reader

prompt: "i'm sick of playing this game with you." "what game?" "the game where we pretend we don't like each other." college au

word count: 530

“Shoto’s coming.”

“Shit.”

You scrambled to your feet from your previously comfortable position on the armchair, searching desperately for a way out. Tsyuyu just watched you from above her book, eyes crinkled with mirth.

“Tsyuyu, do you know if—” he stopped when he saw you, eyes narrowing. “What’re you doing?”

You crouched down further behind the armchair, as though you could disappear into the bookshelf behind you. “Nothing.”

He paused and you stayed frozen in your position, waiting to see what he’d do. But he ignored you, turning back to Tsyuyu to ask about some homework problem they’d been working on the day before.

They kept talking, Todoroki taking the armchair across from you next to her. Refusing to backdown and abandon your corner of the library, you settled back into your seat and went back to your book, soon becoming lost in it and forgetting he was even there.

Until you realized it was a bit too quiet, even for the library. Tsuyu usually listened to music, and her headphones were a little broken so you could always hear a little bit of it playing. But that familiar muted sound was gone. You put your book down and looked up to meet Todoroki’s gaze. He quickly looked away, back to his own book. But you’d caught him.

“What’re you looking at?” you snapped, face warming.

He didn’t respond.

You huffed, picking your book back up. You considered leaving, but really, he should be the one to leave. This was your corner.

“I’m sick of playing this game with you,” he said. Just as you were getting back into your book. Really, the nerve of this boy.

“What game?” you asked, deciding to humor him.

“The game where we pretend we don't like each other."

You nearly dropped your book. But your recovery was quick.

“Like you? Me?” you covered your smile with your hand.

But Todoroki’s gaze was unwavering. He furrowed his eyebrows a little, as though you were doing something confusing. He was the one being weird—your reaction was perfectly sane.

“Yes.”

You stared back. If this was a challenge you weren’t going to lose.

“And what makes you say that?”

“If you wanted me gone you would’ve gotten rid of me ten minutes ago.”

It’d been ten minutes? Had you really been sitting peacefully with him for that long? Normally you couldn’t go five minutes without squabbling with one another. It drove your friends crazy.

You couldn’t really remember when it had started, only that you weren’t going to be the one to back down.

But this had caught you off guard, and you saw Todoroki’s eyes flicker with amusement as he stared back at you. “Realizing, are we?”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” you huffed, picking your book up and holding it over your face to hide from his view. Was it warm in here?

“Okay,” Todoroki said. Was he smiling? Why could you hear it in his tone? “Then you won’t mind if I stay?”

“Do what you want,” you replied, waving a hand at him. Still not trusting yourself to put the book down.

“I always do.”

masterlist

[actual-changeling]

one thing i really really like about txf is that they aren't afraid to kill off characters.

in most shows, melissa would make a miraculous recovery, mulder probably wouldn't lose both his parents, and there are all the episode-specific characters that are killed simply because

a) it fits right into the plot

b) they can and

c) it adds a layer of realism to it.

if you never kill any of the characters—even minor side characters/npcs—then at some point, the dangers will feel less dangerous, less real, because you know everyone will be fine anyway. but not here.

the stakes ARE real and we are shown and told so over and over again.

scully loses her dad, melissa gets killed in her apartment, mulder's dad is killed, mulder's mom kills herself, there is no miraculous, perfect return of samantha, scully gets cancer, OTHER (returning) characters get sick and die, and the list goes on.

nowadays, way too many people are incapable of consuming anything that isn't 99% "everything will be fine" because processing complex emotions requires complex thinking, and boy are people refusing to develop that skill.

ironic to say, but txf is refreshing in regards to that AND has better representation that most shows and movies being created in recent years. do you know how fucking rare it is to have disabled characters that simply exist? whose disability is right there, it's real, they're not somehow hiding it or trying to make it less obvious.

they are like any other characters, and unless it is in some way relevant to the plot, it's usually not even brought up or mentioned. no misery or inspiration porn, no weird "you're not disabled, you're [insert term that's fucking horrible]", nothing.

even with episodes like gender bender, there is no transphobia, no caricatures, it's treated like any other case with any other people.

you'd expect a lot of ableism in a show about the paranormal since "crazy mentally ill person is a danger to everyone" is a popular trope (disappointing but not surprising), yet as someone who has highly stigmatized disorders—not just in general, specifically in the medical field too—I don't think I have ever felt uncomfortable with any of the cases.

people look back on older shows and start criticizing the language but not only were the terms and concepts named differently and have evolved, i'd rather have a show use "bad" or incorrect language but have genuine, caring representation than someone using all the buzzwords and thinking that makes whatever they do not offensive.

(side note: language moves fast, especially in psychiatry but also in other scientific circles, and the same applies to what i'll loosely call 'community language'. as long as there's good intent and an open ear, i couldn't give less of a fuck if they say transgender, transsexual, or transvestite)

i'm rewatching 'the field where i died' and this episode has one of the best, most accurate portrayals of DID i've seen in probably. ever. is it played up a bit? yeah sure, but it doesn't feel mocking or otherwise disrespectful and it refuses to play into any existing stereotypes.

this post got away from me, but bottom line is that this show is genuinely good in a way few shows are.

[tramon81]

I've been thinking why the Arven Storyline is so good, and I think it's about pacing and delivery.

Pokémon SPOILERS AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also recalling this from memory so might be some inconsistencies but the spirit is there :) .

There's this mild mystery about this guy at the start, apparently he knows your Legendary Lizard and is responsible of it. He also seems that he'd rather not deal with said lizard, foreshadowing or a more classy term, setup. We also end up realising he is the son of the Professor with very little to go on of what this relationship is.

It is implied in NPC dialog that the Professor has been away from the public from a long time, but being the owner of the lizard that you own now he/she actually shows him/herself to you. He/She calls you by student ID, weird. And requests you sometime travel to Area Zero, the forbidden area, where he/she presumably has taken residence.

When you meet with Arven on the lunchroom he proposes that you embark on a quest for, ... Herbs? Herba Mystica that seem to have some weird healthy properties. It is known that he likes cooking but didn't think he was a healthy foods enthusiast, a healthy lifestyle guru. Anyway you consider it.

Later he gets into a fight with Nemona into who's path you should follow. He seems really aggro on keeping you to his mission. Weird.

First mission, after the fight, you find the Herb, ok seems more than just curative bogus, he cooks ya a sandwitch and Koraidon goes ahead and asks for yours. Arven seems apprehensive but you eventually give it to the bikemon and whoa! It got its powers back. So maybe Arven is helping his parent out? Or was this not planned? Wait "you can come out now"? What pokemon did he send and why was it kept a secret? Weird.

Now, for the first "delivery" on all these "setups" this guy's not just a crazy cook in search for the ultimate ingredients, the setup at the cafeteria has its answer in Mabosstiff, the pokemon he secretly sent out last scene. It is stricken with a weakening health condition and the reason his owner is gathering all these ingredients is to cure him before it's too late. This is great for two reasons: 1. We know there is a ghost dog Pokémon with a similar build to it's preevolution and it can evolve so the dog could indeed die and turn into that. Also we now have a reason why he's been so jumpy, he doesn't want you to help him, he needs you to help him. If you ignored him and went with Nemona or that wacky Hacker, He'd be all on his own, and may not make it.

After some more adventures, smth smth setup for weird futuristic/ancient form of Donphan he recognises. Mabosstiff... Is cured! The relief on his face and the tension of the story is relieved as the dog wears again its toothy grin. This sort of thing is actual good storytelling methinks. Simple but effective. What a great... Wait it's not over.

Apparently it is revealed that you must finally go to Area Zero, together with the other cast, it's exciting because there's been so much build up to it, mystery and weird new pokemon. However it is also revealed that, one of the strongest deliveries in the story, Arven has an absentee parent, which made him be on his own... With only Mabosstiff as his family. This is potent. Of course this makes you want to meet this prick, see what kind of character does such a thing, but more importantly, it gives weight to Mabosstiff's recovery, together you saved not a dog, but the only family left by his side.

After you completed all three routes, he shows you the way to area zero. Which you discover about the place and the Professor, fellow of science, too absorbed in it, made a time machine oh so that was the deal with that donphan, oh cool there's more where it came from. There's also some very cool banter with the three coprotags, specially love the one about parents, this stuff is more direct than even Sun and Moon sometimes.

The Professor is acting odd though. Arven is suspecting something's off but doesn't really like the implication. You get swarmed, paradox pokes at all flanks. Another Lizard. Arven also reveals that he was envious and blamed Mirai/Koraidon for his parent's absence as there seems some unknown trust finally building up between them at the end of the scene. You enter the lab and finally get to meet...

Oh.

AI Sada/Turo. The professor died in an accident, standing in their place is an imperfect cold and robotic replica of the deadbeat progenitor. This "delivery" if you didn't have it spoiled just, hits way different that all others, the person who you probably hate by now, is long gone, no happy or cathartic reunion, no Arven giving a piece of his mind. If he wasn't by now, your friend is now officially an orphan. This copy seems to garner regret from its actions, its work is too dangerous and wants you to destroy it. The one thing that came over its family, its true passion, it is at least able to do away with it. However, you have to battle it as the defence system overrides its AI with this... well, it's pretty much the part of it you hate, obsessed, distant(literally lol it's like a good story above you up there). You beat it as your friends and Arven come to see the machine terastalize its insides or smth and it blocks your pokeballs and send the aggresive Legendary agaisnt you, completely unarmed you try to do something but your Sandwitch friend the MotoLizard achieves his battle mode. This makes things even, however you tetastalize him into even more of a dragon and oneshot him.

Last scene, AI is defeated, however for the machine to be over, "it" has to be over too. Arven pleads for it to stay, but it decides to go to its paradise, its life work and creation takes it to a different time in a final act both selfish and selfless sacrifice, In front of its son. Finally, "the climax".

You see, this all lead up to this, every setup and every delivery. Arven has finally faced the memory of his Father/Mother and it, in consecuence, has faced him. A bit of a somber note, but hey this is a treasure hunt, what about his treasure. I can't believe I'm saying this but this is one of the best implementations of "The friends we made along the way" trope I've seen. You see Arven has this factor of "afraid of ending all alone" that is implied a bit through the game, he is a bit abrasive but has a good heart. The last scene(Not the Ed Sheeran one) shows him on a understandable horrid mood when suddenly both Penny and Nemona suggest to go to eat, he is hard to get at first but this sense of now, connection to these people, propels him to join (Also Lizard nudge).

This is actually, even if way more contained, a bit on par with explorers of sky for best writing pokemon ever had. At least in my view on the matter what do you think?

[shoutokozume]

Bnha with a hybrid s/o

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Ft. - Todoroki, Denki, Deku, Bakugo, Kirishima, Shinso and Tamaki.

Warnings - NSFW, Swearing, Smut Smutty Smut, 🔞, Fem reader implied.

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Todoroki Shoto (Fox Hybrid)

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° Loves your bright orange tail, he had to genuinely hold himself back when he first met you. He didn't want to touch your tail or ask to since it would come off rather weird, but his eyes never left your swaying fluffy tail for the rest of the day.

° Smiles cutely whenever your fangs can be seen, they add a touch of slunk to your already beautiful features and they really suit you well. If you two are alone, he often will boop your nose when you smile so brightly, finding your wagging tail and sharp canines too cute to resist.

° Endeavor doesn't approve of his son dating a fox hybrid girl, since he doesn't see your quirk as overly special or helpful. Even though you're in class 1a and have proven many times how strong you are. Luckily Shoto doesn't care about what his dad thinks, and often says that you could win in a fight against the firery asshole anytime.

° You look human except for your sharper teeth, tail, and ears, so he was surprised to see your father had a completely fox like head on a full grown man's body. He's seen hybrids before, they are quite common amongst Quirks. But someone who is so animal like acting and sounding like a normal human... Never fails to surprise Shoto.

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° Loves seeing your tail get sticky with his cum, watching it run down your puckered asshole before making a mess in your orange fur. He'll always be up to clean you up and wash off the mess, but it still never fails to make his mind go filthy by the sight of his hybrid lover.

° Ties a small bow around your tail as an add on to your lingerie, he likes watching it wag in excitement by his lingering touches. Laughs into your shoulder when you whimper from overstimulation, your ears folding down from too much pleasure.

° Plays with your ears when you give him head, knowing just where that sweet spot is to drive you crazy. You thighs squeezing shut together as you take his long cock into your mouth, his soft rubbing against one of your ears making you moan despite you mouth filled with his length. The vibrations only help him get closer to his Climax.

° Playfully wipes the juices on your thighs with your tail, scooping up some of the oozing arousal from your hole with his fingers before stuffing them between his soft pink lips. The taste becoming addictive in seconds, his larger hands pushing your thighs apart as he dives into your oozing pussy as if it's his last meal.

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Kaminari Denki (Cow Hybrid)

(SFW)

° Denki over heard that a cute hybrid girl from 1c was working as a nurse in training with Recovery girl, so what did he do you may ask? He overused his quirk on purpose so he could meet you. Once he began to get out of his brain fried state, he was in awe at your stunning features. Your kind eyes looking down at him in worry as you placed an ice pack near his forehead.

° Concentually plays with your cute tail, wiggling back and forth when he visits your during lunch. He's the only one allowed to play with your tail however, if he sees someone else do it he gets all pouty and annoyed since it's his things he does with you. You can tell when he's annoyed because he won't call you Milk Mama.

° Will ask a lot of questions, do you produce milk? Yes. Do you have uters? No. Did you wear a bell as a kid? No. Do you drink milk? Yes. You don't get annoyed or frustrated with his questions, it's oddly flattering to know how interested he is with you.

° Is a helpful boyfriend when you have boob pain, which is due to being needed to lactate. It happens every month, and Denki is always down to help milk your boobies despite how odd it may sound. Your milk is actually quite useful, thanks to being the daughter of a cow hybrid dad and Healing quirk mother... Meaning you milk heals wounds when digested.

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(NSFW)

° 💫Titty sucking and fucking💫 Your boyfriend is obsessed. Denki loves titty sucking, even if it's in a non sexual way so it came to no surprise to you that he'd bring his cute habit into sexy time. Fastest way to make him cum is by squeezing his cock between your boobs and shifting them up and down against his cock while sucking his tip.

° Cums in minutes when you titty fuck him, moaning loud as he if he's a professional porn star. Will tweak with your nipples when your fucking him with just your breasts, eyes rolling to back of his head whenever a bead of milk escapes your erect bud. He swears he's in heaven whenever you do this to him.

° Returns the favor, slamming your pussy onto his face and caging your thighs down around his head. Who needs air when he has your delicious pussy to eat out? Always gives you a small zap on your clit, before soothing it with his tongue. Lives off of your mantra moans and fucked out pants, never pulling away until he's satisfied.

° He's not finished with you yet, he'll sit you on his lap infront of your floor length mirror. He'll lay back slowly before resting on his elbows as his hands stay on your hips, Denki orders you to watch the reflection before jackhammering his cock into your tight cunt. Making you jump forward, but he'll try to sooth you by praising how good his milk maid is being right now.

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Midoriya Izuku (Wolf Hybrid)

° Not going to lie, he was slightly intimidated by you. You were the strongest girl in 1a, had sharp canine teeth, a piercing through your wolf ears, and cold sharp eyes that gave off 'don't fuck with me' vibes. But he was wrong to assume you were harsh and mean, since he found out from Uraraka that you were actually quite charming and playful.

° Coos when you cuddle into him after he gives you head pats, feeling your tail pat against his legs. He loves cuddling you especially since your ears at so soft against his neck whenever you nuzzle into him. He'll never tell you how intimidated he used to be of you, but he mentally curses himself for being so judgemental.

° Helps you sharpen your claws, going as far as to buy his own nail file for when you visit him. He also paints your claws jazzy colors (most of them are green). You don't have paws, but your fingernails are simply a mixture of a wolf claw and human fingernail. Which is a sharp human nail that was naturally shaped that way.

° Invites you over to his home on full moon nights, since he discovered you often have terrible headaches and Nightmares on full moons. Deku will tuck you into bed with some warm milk and medicine, brushing your hair for you as you fall into a deep slumber for the rest of the night.

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° You may be nice and playful most of the time, but in the bedroom your much more dominant than Midoriya, often calling him a dumb puppy after he shoots his fifth blank of the night. Deku can be dom when needed, but it just seems natural for him to be submissive and for you take charge in the bedroom. He finds it hotter that way.

° Plays with your tail while babbling nonsense into your shoulder, cumming for the third time as you rode him like there was no tomorrow. Tears welling up in his eyes as he begs for you to slow down, but on the inside he wants you to speed up and fuck him dumb. Deku will grab your tail as he goes insane from the pleasure, needing to have something to hold onto as he's fucked like the brat he was being earlier.

° When he's domming you he likes to fill both of your holes, stuffing a butt plug into your ass as he fucks into you from behind. Deku adores when you pant like a pathetic puppy, your claws will rip the blankets and pillow cases open but both of you are too lost in your own pleasure to give a single fuck.

° Has a bulge kink, he's thick and six inches... So he's proud to see a bulge in your tummy because of it. He'll place your hand over the bulge, proceeding to thrust at a fastening pace. Deku smirks down at you while you feel the outline of his dick being thrust inside of you. It makes your walls flutter around him, pushing both of you closer towards the edge.

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Bakugo (Bunny Hybrid)

(SFW)

° Bakugo never thought he'd have a crush on someone, he only ever thought about being a hero and being the best hero who can compete with All Might. But then your cotton tailed ass got transfered to UA and were assigned to sit next to Bakugo for the rest of the year, he tried ignoring you but you were simply too cute to resist.

° He calls you cottontail instead of your actual name, it was supposed to be an insult but it ended up as a cute nickname for you. His friends would tease him for clearly having a soft spot for you, since he never yelled, faught, bullied, cursed at, or complained about you. Bakugo himself knew you were effecting him, and he was frustrated by how much like enjoyed it.

° Asks you out before anyone else can, he is yours and you are his end of sentence. Bakugo loves to tease you as well, he'll scratch just behind your left ear just so he can see your foot twitch and stomp lightly. He knows you could kick his ass if it annoyed you, but you never do so he never stops.

° His mom loves you more than him, she thinks you'll make him settle down and change him into a better person. She one overstepped a bit and asked if you'd have babies similar to rabbits, meaning lots and lots and lots of them. Making you cringe internally as Bakugo scolded his mom for being so insensitive towards you quirk.

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(NSFW)

° Bought a carrot gag online, binds your ears together, covers your eyes, and presses a bunny vibrator against your sopping pussy. You can hear him walking around the bedroom, slowly undressing as he laughs darkly at your helpless figure. Bakugo still calls you cottontail, but this time he'll pull your small puffy tail before trailing kisses against your back.

° Will put a leash around you and make it so your head is lifted from the pillows, that only happens if you try to hide you noises from him. Will slap your pussy gently before soothing it with kitty licks, only to repeat this multiple times as his hand plays with your cute slick covered tail.

° The more you whine, the more he wants to punish his adorable cottontail. So if you whine to go faster after he removes your gag, he'll pruposley go slower because he's a menace. Bakugo will eventually cave into your needs and bring you to cloud nine, but that doesn't mean he won't take forever to actually get to that point.

° Despite being a mean explosive gremlin in many eyes, Bakugo becomes really sweet near the end of sex. He'll remove all of your gimics and simply hold you tight with his lips locked to yours, making damn sure that you both hit your Climax hard as the headboard of your bed threatens to break on both of you. It never does, but it always comes close when you two are nearing the end.

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Kirishima Eijirou (Snake Hybrid)

(SFW)

° When people thought of your quirk, they expected someone full of scales and maybe some sort of reptile tail. But in reality you looked relatively normal despite your slit pupils and forked tongue. The only scales you had were just under your jaw, which many couldn't even notice. Some still found you odd, but one particular student could get you out of his head.

° Denki eventually convinced him to shoot his shot with you, and to Kirishima's surprise you actually accepted his offer. Which started the so called 'cutest couple' in UA, even if some students found both of you a bit freaky looking. Despite being a somewhat big topic amongst the school, you both keep your relationship calm and neutral infront of the public.

° Often mimics your small hisses, always failing and ending up sounding like he's a broken cat record. You reassure him that you can only do it due to your forked tongue, but he's still determined to nail your cute hybrid dialect down. Even if he has to manoeuvre his tongue in some weird way.

° Leaves kisses under your jaw to appreciate the patches of skin you loath, it always makes you feel like a freak when you fingers brush over the scales. But Kirishima finds them beautiful, because anything related to you will always be perfect in his eyes. He knows your self conscious of you looks, since you were bullied for looking different as a kid. But he sees you as a gorgeous bad ass snake woman who owns his heart.

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(NSFW)

° Does your forked tongue ever feel amazing as it slides across his cock, it was practically made to play against his shaft. Kirishima's toned abs can be seen flexing and trembling as you suck him off, small cute whimpers coming from the red haired lover. When he's about to cum he'll try to pull you away so you won't have to taste him, but you brush his hands away and encourage him to shoot his load down your throat.

° Leaves hickeys across your scaled patches of skin as he gently rocks his hips against yours, allowing your slick to lube up his thick eight inch shaft. Despite having sex multiple times, Eijirou always worries that he'll accidently hurt you with his length so he always makes sure to lube himself up well before entering your tight cunt.

° Eijirou always gives you a gentle smile as he enters you, his thick fingers circling your clit while you adjust to his length. His hair is always down and has no gel in it, so he will either be staring at you through his long red locks of hair or it will be tied back into a very sexy man bun that never fails to drive you insane.

° Once things pick up his praises will begin to fall out like crazy, calling you everything he's every thought of since the first day he saw you. It's always mixed in with his airy grunts and groans while his thrusts pick up pace and your hips slam down to meet his. You'll smash your lips into his as your nails rake across his back, the pleasure becoming to much for you to think straight. You'll see white as he whispers how hot you are when you cum.

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Hitoshi Shinso (Cat hybrid)

° When you walked into class 1b he thought he was dreaming, a hot cat hybrid girl did not just walk into this class and introduce herself in the sweetest voice ever. No he must be dreaming, the girl of his dreams couldn't be standing there so casually as her eyes gaze across the classroom. But there you were, softly beginning to walk past him and send a sweet wave his way.

° Everyone noticed the small glances Shinso gave you, the way his face heats up when you are even near him, even principal Nezu noticed how bashful Shinso became when he read off your name during a mission. The reason it became so obvious was simple, this was one of the first times Shinso was showing a lot of emotion at once. The usual introverted stoic hero, was a blushing mess because of you.

° You politely confronted Shinso about his crush on you, admitting that you'd love to go out with him so there was no need to be so nervous around you. Shinso was shocked to say the least, he nearly combusted when reality hit him. Stuttering quietly about how grateful he was to hear this, accidently confessing how pretty you looked in the school uniform.

° Calls you his kitten respectively, always placing small kisses against the back of your head and cat ears. If you nyah he'll be deceased, but then he'll come back to life and beg you to do it again. Let's you bite him even if your fangs accidently puncture through his skin, he doesn't mind since he knows cats have a habit of biting when they are too riled up.

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° Heat is a hellish heaven that you both have to get through, Shinso is always down to fuck his pretty kitten until she's had enough. But he also knows just how stressful and annoying heats can be due to coming home from a mission and seeing your crying as you beg your body to cum. He'll help you through it as best as he can, even if it becomes exhausting.

° Will buy you adorable lingerie with a small bow choker or collar to go with the sexy underwear, he loves seeing you confident in your own skin so he always gets you softer less edgy styles knowing that's what you prefer. Doesn't help that he has a small (Huge) corruption kink, but harder the bulge harder the fuck.

° Whispers in you ear about how bad of a kitten you've been, teasing him all day long and expecting to get a reward from it. So as punishment, he overstimulated you until you have tears wihotu even brushing his cock near the lips of your pussy. Even if he was painfully hard watching you squirm and beg to be filled. He never let up until he thinks you've learned your lesson.

° If your into roleplay, you better expect a maid costume almost instantly. He will never admit that he once had a hentai stash with cat girls and maids in them... But he doesn't need them to get off anymore now that he has you. Shinso never thought he would become so feral when he began having sex, but apparently you just struck some cord inside him that made him go crazy.

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Tamaki Amajiki (Butterfly Hybrid)

(SFW)

° Everyone thinks your a fairy quirk hero, since you look like a fairy with your beautiful purple and white wings. But you're no fairy, you have a butterfly quirk which means you can fly, have amazing senses, and control ultra Violet lights. Despite your relatively cool quirk, many Iver looked you because you looked rather harmless. But Tamaki knew you were strong, he also knew how drop dead gorgeous you were.

° Will stare at you in awe whenever you flap your wings or begin to fly around, you look like something straight out of a fairytale. Neijire and Mirio had to snap him out of his trance when it first started happening, but recently they've stopped in hopes that you'll notice how madly in love Tamaki is.

° Admitted his crush to you over a love letter that he slipped into your locker, small butterfly stickers sprawled across the paper as his neat handwriting confessed everything he's ever felt towards you. Tamaki was nervous that he had messed things up, worried that you'll be upset with him, and those fears only skyrocketed once he noticed your bright winged figure walking towards him.

° Gently passing him back the note, he checked the end of the note cautiously. There were two boxes yes and no, and in the yes box you re arranged one of his butterflies to cover the messy lined square. Tamaki was shocked that you accepted his date request, his face bright pink as he tried to hide his excited grin. You softly removed his hands, pressing your lips against his burning cheeks.

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° Tamaki is into tentacles play and no one can change my mind, he's watched and read hentai with tentacles and now all he wants to do is try his own on you. He'll press delicate kisses across your wings and back, one of his tentacle fingers sliding down to your core as the other latched onto to your breasts. Since Tamaki was a virgin, he was worried you would find his kinks a bit weird... But your moans and pleads said other wise.

° Whines and whimpers a lot, he's very sensitive... Probably the most sensitive in BNHA imo. He cums fast and frequently, but he stays hard for quite some time despite his dick swaying into the side of painful pleasure. Tamaki refuses to finish sex without making you cum, since your his own personal love fairy that he needs to treat like royalty.

° Most of smexy time has happened in the shower, it starts off with him washing your wings, then your back, before eventually his hands ghost over your cute bum that he feels the urge to squeeze. One squeeze leads to a kiss, the kiss turns into making out, and making out leads to him pounding you against the tile wall as your hands trail down the foggy glass that surrounds the shower.

° Even if Tamaki is introverted and a ball of an anxiety, he's very easy to turn on. It's very simple and easy, all you have to do is kiss, nibble, or breath on the tips of his elf like ears. They are nearly as sensitive as his cock, so it never fails to make his pants become rather tight and for his face to become bright pink as he coughs awkwardly to hide his embarrassment.

[kil-luna]

You've always liked Bakugou, ever since day one.

It was definitely weird. Your friends thought so as well. But there was something attractive about him that you couldn't pin point yourself. Maybe it was his looks. Maybe it was his complete opposite nature to yours. Maybe it was his drive.. his larger than life dream to become the number one.

And maybe his proclamations of his goal became a little bit too much that it influenced you to the point where you wanted to become the number one too. His number one.

But that doesn't really sound as easy as it is to say. You wonder how he is always so sure of himself; shouting those words over and over again at anyone who comes his way.

You knew it was pointless, so you never acted on this urge. You wanted to. But it surely wasn't easy for you, trying to hold back. But if there's anything that's easy, it was becoming his friend.

You have realized that Katsuki didn't really had friends. He might have had kids following him around when he was in pre-school up to middle school.. but those weren't really people that he could call his friends. And you're glad that now he had Kirishima and the others. Especially you. You're glad you were his friend.

Because Katsuki was a nice person to form a friendship with. Yes, he doesn’t offer the same typical kind friendship many of us are thinking about, of course, because it is Katsuki we are talking about. But he is special in his own way. He cares about yall’s grades. He will help you get high marks, even if he has to beat the lessons in your skull. He cooks for you people, even if begrudgingly. He also shouts insults to the lot of you; which, a lot of people would consider as something that's rude and terrible, but being around him long enough has made you realize that he is all bark no bite when it comes to insults. Lately, you've even wondered if it's just his way of making people realize where they suck at; so that they can improve.

You see, Katsuki cares for his friends. He loves them his own way. So you don't let it get to you when you notice that he talks to you in a softer voice than everybody else. You try not to think about it when he especially focuses on you in group study sessions. You think you're delusional when you notice that he doesn't really throw that much insults to you as he does the others. Or when he steals glances at you in class. Or when he looks for you first whenever disasters happen, wanting to make sure you are safe. Or when he hugged you tightly when you came back after recovery girl treated you after the villain attack. Or when he almost lost it when Todoroki confessed to you last week.

It drives you crazy. Because you liked Katsuki. But you were also his friend. And he has a dream; To be the number one. That didn't include you and your feelings. That dream was something he wanted since he was a child, so you knew he had no time for you.

Katsuki Bakugou doesn't have time for you. So you ran.

The moment you realized that being friends while liking him was impossible, you decided that it's best to avoid him. But Katsuki didn't exactly had the same idea as you. That's why he is in front of your room, hands in his pocket, staring right into your beautiful eyes.

"What the he— what.. is your problem?" huh? This is so out of character. You have never fancied him to be this type of guy. He certainly wasn't that person who confronts you just because you are avoiding him.

You were taking to long to answer and it was agonizing for him. "I am asking you, what did I do?"

You loathed yourself in that moment. He naturally assumed that it was his fault. He thought he did something. He thought he was the one to blame.

"It wasn't.. it wasn't you, I'm—"

"Yeah, right. You can just say you don't like me around, dumbass. It's not that hard to tell the truth." he cuts you off, preparing to leave. "You don't have to avoid shitty hair and dunce face too. I'll stop." this time, he wasn't looking at you anymore.

"It's not that! Hey, don't lea—"

"Just fucking sleep already."

"I like you!"

It was so loud you think the others who were in their room heard as well.

"Haah? Then why the fuck are you avoiding me like a plague? Last time I checked, you don't avoid people you like!"

"I know. But.. but then, it's because I thought... you didn't have time for this. And I don't think you like me anyway. So I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to bother you so I wanted to avoid you while I sort out my feelings."

"Well you are being stupid. What is there even to sort out? We both know you suck at that. You can't even fucking sort out the damn trash. I always have to do it for you! And do I have to spell it out to you too that I... do.. not hate you! Learn how to read people!"

It was funny, really. How he couldn't even tell it straight to your face that he liked you. Bakugou Katsuki liked you.

"It's.. its just that, I thought you didn't have.. time for.. wait what? So you like me too?"

"You dumbass. Are you really saying I can't handle my time properly? You think I can't do something as simple as that?!"

Turns out, it was easy for Bakugou to do these kinds of things. You didn't have to worry.

[demonslayedher]

Will you continue the soft au that you created? (*´∀｀)

I'm very interested in your interpretation plus, you've inspired me to create my own.

Ah yes, this one, the most popular post in my whole blog! It even beat out the Shinobu-Akaza Friendship one which has been going around for a few years. I'm glad it inspired you to make your own, because there can never be too many fix-it AUs. ^_^

Good news! Aside from this goofy follow-up to that piece, I have some older pieces of fanart which are oddly similar! This one (which I really like, except that I look at it now and dismiss it as not good because I drew Mitsuri shorter than Iguro), and this old one (which was not quite the same, since everybody is simply healthy and not beat up).

It's only half as happy, but I also got really attached to this three-part Fate-Swap one. What I did with the survivors in that one also influenced a lot of my thinking on the Softer Time AU.

So with that all out of the way, how about just some new headcanons for the AU in question?

Rengoku: As he was dying, Tanjiro tearfully asked if there was any Breath technique to stop the bleeding. Rengoku smilingly replied "no," but then Tanjiro sniffled and asked, "Can you at least try????"

So he did, and that is how he survived a punch that went straight through his solar plexus. Barely, anyway. Breath technique is amazing!! The Kakushi who soon arrived on the scene are even more amazing!!!! None the less, he has a very difficult recovery.

Oyakata-sama and family: He sure had everybody convinced he perished, huh? Joke's on you, the mansion had a trap door.

Once Muzan was defeated, the curse on his family was finally lifted, so he started making a slow recovery from his illness after that, including slowly regaining his sight little by little. Once he's in better shape, Amane wants to go on a romantic getaway.

Himejima: So that curse on the Ubuyashiki family? Turns out The Mark was likewise only a curse, and it too has been lifted! Losing a leg can't keep this man down, of course, he's just too strong.

Still, he got close enough to death that he got a nice visit from his ghost kids, and when he woke up, sure enough, that Kakushi at his side was Sayo! She aids him in his recovery.

Himejima eventually finds out about Kaigaku from Zenitsu. He is saddened and cries.

Now that he doesn't need to train, Himejima become the Crazy Cat Man. His home is a cat shelter. After a year or so his shipper heart gets antsy and he starts annoying other Hashira to hurry up and have kids.

Sanemi: Hangs out with Oyakata-sama's kids a lot. Is really annoyed with Himejima bugging him to get a girlfriend. Since this is a Softer Time, Sanemi is busy making up for lost time with his brother anyway.

Shinobu: She managed to be swallowed whole by Douma without getting seriously injured in the process. She has burns from being partially digested (an idea I picked up from @sweetreichel) and this was enough for the poison to have the desired effect. As Douma's body starts to melt, Inosuke reaches in and pulls her out, much to her surprise.

Because this is a Softer Time, we're going to say that this Shinobu-Inosuke interaction, and this Shinobu-Inosuke interaction, and especially this Shinobu-Inosuke interaction (or something like it) has occurred.

This is no longer a world in which Inosuke takes to Nezuko like she's a mother figure, noooo. Shinobu is now his mother figure whom he dotes on. Shinobu is slightly weirded out by it, but this is her dashing rescuer, after all, so she soon makes peace with Inosuke's attention and care. She doesn't feel good in her recovery anyway; it's nice to get rides on a trusty steed. All this leverage means she finally convinces him to let her (or rather, Aoi) wash that dang animal head, at least.

So is this a GiyuShino AU? I suppose it has the opportunity to be. If Giyuu indicates any interest in Shinobu, he's going to need Inosuke's approval. And Inosuke gives it easily, because Han-Han-Haori is strong. But if Shinobu shows any indication of having a crush on Giyuu, Himejima is going to squash it the moment he bugs her to hurry up and have kids.

Iguro & Mitsuri: This is pretty much a repeat of the Fate-Swap AU.

Iguro promises to marry her as he thinks they are dying, but she wakes from her coma before he does happily anticipating that he'll keep his promise in this life. It's a bit of a relief that he's probably lost his sight, because the damage to her ear and jaw is pretty ghastly; not to mention her belly was cut pretty deeply. She's accepted with disappointment that she probably would not be able to have children, which is why she has not asked for any details on that (to which question a doctor would respond, "nope, that all looks good." Likewise, being too quick to accept Iguro's blindness means no one has asked about the actual state of his eye injuries, to which a doctor would respond, "Yeah, one of them should still work once the bandages are off.")

Iguro is stunned to find himself still alive and full of tainted blood, and he tries to insist that his promise was under the understanding that they were both dying, which makes Mitsuri upset that he didn't mean it and he doesn't actually want it, which of course is not what he means at all, so he has to fully explain himself.

Mitsuri is understanding but also points out that this is very silly, and that she's not so good of a bride either, so they deserve each other fully, the good and the bad. Iguro is so eased by her words that he feels washed clean, especially for having lost so much blood in ridding the world of demons.

And then, surprise!! He can see her after all! And then, surprise!!! They can have babies after all! Himejima is also as thrilled as they are.

Giyuu: Look at him!! He smiles!!!!!! And he has so many people who talk to him!!!!!!! Which means they're finally going to hold him accountable for acting like he was better than them. Giyuu is flattened with the realization that this is what everyone thought he meant when he said he was "different" from them, and he must explain himself. If there is a hole, he wants to go into it.

But!!! They forgive him?????? They accept him?????????

Well, sure they do, but he can't stop smiling and it's starting to weird everyone out.

Uzui: As usual, he is busy being a family man. He finds it kind of funny to hide from Himejima the fact that one of his wives had a baby. Himejima is really hurt when he finds out and Uzui feels terrible. If there is a hole, he wants to disappear into a puff of smoke in it.

Muichiro: Watch out world, that mouth of his is only going to get worse in his later teen years. He and Kotetsu are going to annoy everybody.

Muichiro hangs out with a lot of different people, since the whole Corp feels like his family. When he's not being treated like Kanamori's adoptive son, he's often goes over for dinner with the Ubuyashiki family, where he winds up hanging out with Sanemi. However, because they are closer in age and have more shared experiences, he is more naturally inclined to form a friendship with Genya.

Muichiro also hangs out at the Rengoku estate, because everybody loves Rengoku, and it's still hard for him to go out much on the days when his old injuries bother him. Again, being closer in age, Muichiro winds up forming more of a friendship with Senjuro, who happens to be Kotetsu's penpal via Tanjiro's introduction. Genya also knows Kotetsu but doesn't really hang out with him until Kotetsu is a little older, and eventually the four of them are a squad. Tanjiro is sort of an honorary member of this unofficial squad, but Muichiro and Kotetsu find themselves bullying Zenitsu and Inosuke a bit.

[defilerwyrm]

Hey, trans guy here, and while I’m not personally interested in getting bottom surgery, I am interested in writing t4t erotica involving guys who have. Do you have any writing tips on that front or just stuff you wanna see from what I imagine is a pretty underserved niche?

Howdy and that’s awesome!

One thing that would be cool to see represented: not everyone who gets bottom surgery is a top! I’m sure not, though strangely my interest in playing that role has increased since I had the work done. You can be the biggest anal queen this side of Pornhub and still get bottom surgery. Only makes sense, right—if we can accept that having a dick doesn’t automatically make a cis man a top, the same is also true of trans men & transmascs.

Some things about a healed-up phallo dick from my experience, under a cut:

The head is VERY sensitive, and the base is very sensitive. Everything in between that has erotic sensation but in an “Mm that’s nice” kinda way until you add pressure too. Once it’s healed up, it is definitely possible to orgasm from stimulating it. How long that takes will vary, though. I was told it might be up to a year, but I have a crazy healing factor and had it back in like 2-3 months.

If you couldn’t successfully kill the hair follicles on a permanent basis via electrolysis and/or laser prior to surgery, there’ll be hair. (It’s not THAT weird. Plenty of cis men out there have hair on their shafts too!)

If you had a tattoo on your donor site, you’ve got a tattoo on your dick now, lol. It might be unrecognizable depending on where it was originally (especially on the inner wrist/forearm).

There’s a scar up the underside right in the middle and all around the base. The scar up the middle of your scrotum will look similar enough to the natural seam of an OEM scrotum that it’s not really notable.

The scrotum won’t have all the wrinkles an OEM one does at rest.

No foreskin, more’s the pity, but the head looks VERY much like a circumcised OEM penis once it’s healed.

Different donor sites tend to produce different results. The non-dominant forearm is preferred because they take a stretch of nerve with it and it’ll typically have the least subcutaneous fat, so you tend to get the best sensation and shape. With the back or thigh, bigger guys might end up with a Coke can cock, which cis men THINK they want but it’s a different story when it’s always that size.

Yep, it’s always the same size. Which means you’ve got something the size of an average-for-your-height erection at all times.

Without an implant, it’s quite floppy as you can imagine. If you manspread at all, you might have to shake a leg out when you stand up ‘cause your dick’ll go between your thighs, and you’ll notice real quick as soon as you start walking. Masturbation can be awkward depending on how you do it, but “double bagging” (wearing two condoms at once) will keep it stiff enough to top.

There are two types of implants you can get: a flexible rod made of silver encased in biostatic silicone that gets sutured to your pubic bone to make sure it stays in place (how metal is that?!), or an inflatable rod that has a pump & release in the scrotum. Look for “erectile dysfunction implant” if you’re researching these. With the former, you basically always have an erection, but it’s posable; not great if you wear a lot of Speedos, as my surgeon put it. With the latter, you choose when it stands up and when it lies down. These implants, along with testicular implants for those who get them, are always done at least 6-9 months after the initial surgery.

Recovery can be rough. I took 3 months off work and needed it. The first two and a half weeks were the worst because I had a suprapubic catheter in, and dear gods I hated being cathed. Felt like I had to pee at all times, even right after emptying the bag. Worth it, though, absolutely worth it.

If you do radial arm flap, you’ll end up with two scars aside from the ones on your groin: a rectangular graft that goes most of the way around (NOT all the way around; that leads to necrosis!) the forearm from the wrist to about halfway to the elbow; and a less-obvious rectangular scar shaped like an open book on the top of one thigh where they take a split-thickness (meaning, only part of the way down) skin donation for your arm graft. The graft is pretty obvious, especially if you’re chubby, but my leg scar is extremely subtle and continues to get fainter as my skin cycles itself out.

The graft will be forever hairless.

People will probably glance at the graft, and they might stare if they’re rude, but in the…what’s it been, almost two years I’ve had it, exactly one person has actually asked about it and that was when it was still fresh and extra gnarly-looking. I told her “It’s a graft, it’s not as bad as it looks” and there were no follow-up questions.

Because there’s nerve harvested from the inside of the forearm, sensation comes to the penis faster than it comes to the graft. The cut nerve DOES regrow! But for the first…I’d say 6-9 months? Ish? I could only feel pressure on the tissue UNDER the graft. Sensation is still duller there, but at this point I can feel temperature, moisture, and texture well enough.

Recovery includes physical therapy for the donor arm. The more you move that wrist early and consistently, the less stiff it will be when it heals. I’ll never be able to touch my thumb to my wrist again, but I also can’t do that on the right either now, so I think that’s more to do with my age than the surgery (I used to be a lot more hypermobile, but I am no longer a spring chicken).

Learning to pee standing up is a messy affair that involves cleaning the toilet and doing laundry a lot. Once you’ve got it down, though, it’s pretty awesome.

Chasers will now ghost me the instant they find out I am not biologically available to be their sexual experiment.

There are a LOT of other options for bottom surgery, but I only have passing familiarity with them based on hearing firsthand accounts and what I learned from my surgeon. Personally, I weighed meta vs phallo heavily; being able to get a natural erection with meta or Centurion was a very attractive prospect, but it just doesn’t produce a size that I would find satisfying in terms of my own self-image, so I went with phallo. There was never a question in my mind as to wanting vaginectomy with it. Beyond the unbelievable convenience of being able to pee standing up without an STP device, I fuckin’ HATED my front hole, and I REALLY hated being pressured about having things done to it (mostly by cis men, but not always) all the time.