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lonely-thoughts-past-midnight · 6 years ago

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Turned by Love

Pairing: young!Remus Lupin x Reader

Warnings: AU, Stupidity, a hurt ankle, cowardly behaviour and love (?)

Summary: only the one who truly loves and trusts the werewolf, can turn him back, before the night ends – Remus hasn’t found the one yet – or did he?

A/N: So, this was requested by @deaconsposts and basically, there is an English myth about werewolves. If someone who loves and trusts the wolf, says his name, he will turn back.

Yes - this is an AU since it does NOT work like that in Harry Potter, though it is such a lovely idea.

Remus dreaded one thing more than N.E.W.T.s and OWLs. It was the time of the full moon. Since fifth year his friends kept him company, but he had to lie to so many of his friends – he felt horrible for telling them all those white lies. For example, Y/N – a witch from y/h – undoubtedly one of the kindest people he knew, and yet he lied to her every month.

At first their friendship had only started for academical purpose – they studied, they read and after time they did not only meet for this reason alone. Remus had grown fond of the girl. He had to endure endless teasing from James, Sirius and Peter – and the three of them tried to get him to tell her how much he liked her. Maybe in another life, he would, but his furry little problem was the reason why he would never do that. He couldn’t put this weight on her shoulders.

He and his friends were already awaiting – more like dreading – the full moon, which was hidden behind clouds for now. His thoughts went one last time to the kind h/c haired woman he fell for before he felt extreme pain.

Y/N felt bad. It was a full moon night – which meant Remus would have to endure a lot of pain tonight. Officially she didn’t know – but the Marauders were absolutely horrible at hiding it. Calling him Moony – when he misses classes every full moon and comes back heavily injured. Being on the edge days before the moon. She knew after the first few months. But it was painfully obvious.

She noticed how he kept to himself, so slowly Y/N tried to get close to him – helping him, after the full moons by taking notes from the classes he missed. At first, she only did it because she felt bad for him, but as it happened, she started to like his own persona – kind, funny and absolutely adorable. And as it happened, she fell for him.

At first the girl only had a crush but after two years there was no denying it – she was absolutely at his mercy – because she loved him so dearly. It was the little things, how his hair never kept its shape, how he was reading the rules to find loopholes, how he was excelling all classes. Just all the little things that made him himself.

So tonight Y/N wanted to help – and not only by taking his notes. She would try and help him. Her h/c was lighted up by the moonlight – as if the moon was taunting her. She was already near the Shrieking Shack – or rather the Whomping Willow - as it was there to protect the entrance – and she could hear his screams of pain.

The e/c girl had started running, feeling horrible for her friend (and love interest) – she would do anything she could.

She saw something that was surprising, the werewolf (who was Remus) played with a shaggy, black dog, a stag and another animal – probably – she couldn’t see – but wherever Remus, James and Sirius were, Peter was not far.

She got closer and closer and with eyes full of wonder she didn’t register as the werewolf took notice of her. Her e/c eyes had gotten wide with horror, once she saw that the werewolf was heading her way. Tears started streaming down her face. Would that be it?

Before the animal could reach her, the stag threw him out of the way, and as if her brain knew what to do – she ran. What a stupid idea!! What was I thinking, the h/c girl thought to herself. Her feet were carrying her – even though deep down she knew that it was a fight she couldn’t win. No matter what she would do, a werewolf was faster than a human.

And while her thoughts were drifting so much, she didn’t notice the uneven floor and fell hard. Her leg hurt horribly, and even more tears were in her eyes. It didn’t take long before the 4 animals caught up. Finally, she was able to see the forth animal – a rat. How very useful, she thought. Though better than being killed or infected.

Even if the dog, the stag and the rat tried, they were to slow. The wolf was above her and finally, she realized something. This wasn’t some monster, it was her Remus. Even if the girl knew it deep down, now she realized it with every fibre of her being. Before I die, I have to tell him!

“Remus… I know you are somewhere in there. I haven’t told you this, because I was scared, but there is no reason to be. I am in love with you. I know that you, Remus Lupin, would never intentionally hurt me, so I forgive you for everything that will happen.” A small smile graced her lips as she closed her eyes ready to take the hit.

Suddenly she could hear the breaking of bones – and she opened her eyes in horror. The werewolf in front of her was transforming back? How could this be? Sirius – aka Padfoot – James – aka Prongs – and Peter – aka Wormtail – transformed back to their human self.

All of them were littered in cuts and scrapes. But they didn’t care, they watched their best friend transform back, their eyes wide in shock. After finally being back to normal, Remus fell unconscious. “Moony!”, James and Sirius caught him before something could happen.

And while the boys were completely concentrated on the task at hand – which was taking care of Remus – Y/N left.

Madame Pomfrey was awaiting them – so were McGonagall and Dumbledore – but they didn’t think they would arrive so early. While the full moon was mockingly shining through the windows – the three adults were staring at the human Remus. “How did this happen? How has he already transformed?” It was an open secret, that the other three Marauders went with Moony – but for obvious reasons, they couldn’t say it.

“We don’t know – we looked out of the Gryffindor Tower and saw someone, so we headed down.”, James lied smoothly.

“There is only ONE way, how he could transform back. There is a myth, that if someone truly trusts and loves the werewolf, he will transform back – if called by his name.”, Dumbledore said – deep in thoughts. “You three – get back to your dorm – you can check upon Remus tomorrow – and because this was an emergency you won’t get detention – but don’t let it happen again.” McGonagall said – her motherly nature to all of the boys obvious.

“Thank you, Professor!”

The h/c haired girl arrived at her dorm – quietly but cursing she searched for something that would soother the pain in her ankle – which was already swollen. Finally, after what seemed like hours, she found something and with a quiet whisper, she said the spell that would help her heal. How should she face James, Sirius, Peter and Remus now? And with that thought, she fell asleep in her bed.

The following morning, the three boys visited Remus, who surprisingly was already awake. “What happened yesterday – I feel way better than usual after a full moon.” The three boys gave each other looks before Sirius grinned. “You have found your one – the little y/h girl. She was there yesterday – I have no idea why – you chased her and when u got to her, she confessed her love and you turned back. Sadly, she left, before we could talk to her.”

“You are telling me, that Y/N is the one, who turned me back? That’s absolutely impossible!” Remus's face was a little red and not only that, but he also was shocked. “Mr Lupin – since you are perfectly fine this night, I will let you go now. I hope your following months will be as comfortable.” Madam Pomfrey said. “And you lot - get out”, she said in the direction of the three boys.

Y/N successfully avoided all of the Marauders. She knew they tried to get to her before breakfast – the solution was to go earlier. Her friend crossed her idea though. She wanted to leave before they would enter, but she didn’t have any luck. Her friend asked her a billion questions about potions – this was the reason why suddenly someone tapped onto her shoulder.

Before her was the sandy-haired boy with the eyes she dreamed about. Suddenly her cheeks felt hot and before she could even process it, her body already knew what to do. A quick “See you”, was shouted to her friend’s direction before she ran off.

Remus just stood there – a little shocked and most definitely confused. Did he do something wrong?

The mission of avoiding the four troublemakers had been successful until now – in Charms, she was a bit late, so she sat far from them – in DADA she arrived early and sat next to her fellow y/h friends. But now would be the end of her luck: potions.

In potions, Y/N was paired with Peter – and Remus with her best friend. The worst of all was the potion they would be talking about today. Amortentia. She already knew what she would smell – books, chocolate and a faint smell of wood.

In other words: Remus Lupin.

Y/N even thought about not going to the class – but her stupid crush wouldn’t be able to stop her from learning new stuff. They all stood around Professor Slughorn – while he talked about the love potion. In the middle stood a vessel full of Amortentia. “Now, who could tell me a little about the potion in front of us? Y/L/N?” “It’s Amortentia, the strongest love potion in the world – it smells like the person you love and if you drink it, you will fall in love as well.” Y/N felt her cheeks tingle as Remus threw her a look.

“Very good, indeed – 15 points to y/h. Now, Y/N why don’t you come forward and tell us what you smell?” “Sorry Professor, but I caught a cold, and I kind of lost my sense of smell”, Y/N told him a smooth lie. “Well that’s too bad – what about you Mr. Lupin?” Remus only nodded.

He stood above the cauldron and took a smell of the potion. “It smells like a sweet kind of ginger, books and… and kind of like an early morning.” Y/N felt a shock surge through her. That was her smell, she was sure of it, but it couldn’t be.

The hour went by slowly and as soon as the class was dismissed, Y/N wanted to run for it again, but Remus beat her to it. “Can we please talk?”, he sounded absolutely desperate. The h/c girl wanted to say no, she truly did – but with this look in his green eyes, she couldn’t.

With a slight nod, she gave him her agreement and the two of them headed to an empty corridor.

“Listen, James and Sirius told me, that it was you. I know they lied, you don’t feel anything for me, so don’t feel bad for it – okay?” Y/N felt complete and utter confusion. “Remus, they weren’t lying, I am completely and utterly in love with you. I just thought you didn’t feel anything for me…” Remus wanted to tell her, that she didn’t need to lie, but before he could, he felt her soft lips on his.

“I only love you, Remus.”

Remus felt like he would cry because he was so happy.

“And I love you.”

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diannestuff · 6 years ago

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Mr. Jealous (Remus x Reader)

Summary: You are a new professor at Hogwarts. Your students like you, and you are getting along with your colleagues, too. Especially Remus Lupin. The Yule Ball is rushing towards the school, and the competition of requests has begun...

Word Count: 1286

You’ve just had your fifth class today. After the lesson, a handsome 6th year Gryffindor came to your table, and shyly asked if you want to be his date to Yule Ball. „Uhm... Hey, Professor L/N. I was wondering, if you could maybe... come to the Yule Ball with me?” I liked the boy, he was active in my classes and respectful to me, but... I didn’t really support the idea of going to the Ball with a student. „Hi, James. Thank you for asking, you are very kind, but I am afraid I can’t go to the Yule Ball with one of my students.” He was the second person who I rejected today. I don’t understand, I am not that pretty… I never was. Is that I am younger than the avarage? But if they think like that, they would be asking students. Is it because of my kindness? Does kindness have that much power? But no, it makes no sense. I am not the only kind one in here. Something flat and hard woke me up from my thoughts. Something that I bumped into. I looked up, and I saw the familiar, beautiful hazel eyes looking at me in worry. „Y/N, are you okay???” I realized, I hit the huge back of Remus. „Of course. I am sorry, I wasn’t paying attention.” I smiled. He smiled back at me. „Do you want to have lunch with me?” I nodded, „Yes, anytime.” We headed to the Great Hall. It was obvious for him that I am in a good mood. „Why is the big smile? Did anything good happen?” He knows me well. We have known each other since September, but he just knows me so well. „I would say surprising. It’s the 3rd of December, and two boys have already asked me to the Ball! Actually, they both asked me today.”

Remus POV

When she told me two boys have already asked her, I almost fainted. Is this going to be that hard? A competiton? I expected some of them trying… She is breathtaking… But 2 already?! I thought while I freaked out inside. „D-Did you accept?” She glanced at me. „I did.” I almost threw my food. „Really?!” I shot my head in her direction. „No, dummy, why would I accept a students request? They can’t be my date. I talked about it with Dumbledoor.” I calmed down immediately, and started eating again. „You are jealous.” She chuckled at the realisation. „What?” She knows me so well. We have known each other, for like, three months? But she knows me so well. „You are so obvious. Your words can deny jealousy, but your actions can’t.” „I wasn’t. I already have a date.” The joy in her eyes suddenly disappeared. „Oh. Okay then. Congartulations!” She went silent after that, and only fake smiled when she greeted someone. „Hey, you are jealous.” She looked at me, and rolled her eyes. „I actually don’t have a date.” Suddenly she looked back at me. „What?” „See, you are jealous too.” She formed a cheeky evil smile, like she is going to say the best comeback ever. „Too. Jealous, too. Seems like you can’t deny your words eighter.” Damn.

Y/N POV

The Ball is in a week! I am excited, but I am scared. A lot of students asked me to be their date, but it’s still a no. The point is, I may be a schoolboy crush, but I am no more than that. Right now, it looks like I am going to the Ball alone. It breaks my heart a little… First time as a teacher, and I won’t have a partner. Cool. To be honest with myself, it breaks my heart that Remus didn’t ask me. He probably has a partner. I was walking down the corridors, it was bedtime for the students. Only some prefects and teachers rushed there, due to their work. Then I met Gilderoy Lockhart. „Hey, Y/N! What’s up?” He had that big ’charming’ smile of his on. I don’t understand why it is so special. He is not ugly, but not the gorgeous prince I am waiting for eighter. A face came into my mind while I was thinking that… I have been thinking of my gorgeous prince all day. „Hi! I am just heading to my office. I have some tests to grade, but I am not late with them.” „I see…” He hesitated a little, but he got his confidence back just as soon as it went away. „So, sweetheart, I was wondering… If you have a date already to the Yule Ball?” Sweetheart, huh? Nice ways, Lockhart. „Oh, I actually-„ „She does.” Said a deep voice coming from behind me. „Y/N, please come with me right now. I need to talk to you.” I turned around, and it was Remus, for my biggest surprise. I didn’t recognise his voice… It’s usually not that deep. “But Lupin, what is so important? Don’t you see we are having a conversation? And anyways, how do you know if anyone has asked her, or not?” Said Gilderoy, with a little angry, or more likely bothered expression. „That’s none of your business, Lockhart.” With that, he dragged me by the arm and pulled me to his office. „What was that?!” I asked with a little too loud tone. „Oh, don’t tell me you want to be his date.” Did he rally drag me here just to make sure I am alone? Because Lockhart is not my type? Really? „Well, since no fucking one asked me to be their date, I do want to go with him.” I was shouting at this point. Then I lowered my tone and escaped his hold. „Now excuse me, I will search my date to tell him yes.” I went towards the door angrily, But Remus jumped between me and it. „I am sorry for my behaviour, Y/N. I didn’t know you mind if I steal you from Lockhart.” „Wait, what?” He looked up at me, because he has been staring at the ground. „Well, I was just hoping you would want to… be my date.” He was clearly embarassed. „Is that a question?” He nodded. „Then yes, I want to be.” I smiled at him, and actually, regretted yelling at him. He looked in disbelief, like he needs to make sure that he heard it right. So I nodded at him, giggling this time at how cute he was. He realised my answer and suddenly hugged me, half-picking me up. Then he realised what he’s just done, and let me go. „I am sorry, I just didn’t think-„ I hugged him and put my head on his shoulder. And he hugged me back. „I am sorry for the shouting. It’s not about Lockhart… I was just in a bad mood, because nobody asked me and it’s in a week.” He let me go from the hug and looked in my eyes, but I tried to avoid his gaze. „Look at me. It’s not true that nobody asked you. Literally almost the whole sixth year did. And a lot of fifth years were talking about you, in my class. What’s the matter? Because it’s not that.” Finally, I looked up at him. „Well… I actually wanted you to ask me, but I thought you had a date already.” I laughed a little in embarassment, that sentence was so childish. „Oh, honey.” He laughed with me. Then he continued with a flirty tone, „Who is the jealous one now?” „Well, who dragged me out of a conversation just to save his date, Mr. Jealous?” „Fine. But you were jealous all day because of overthinking that I had a date, Mrs. Jealous.” „Fine.” We laughed together…

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classicalmischief · 8 years ago

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Smut: Remus Lupin

When you and Remus went upstairs to his dormroom, you knew where things would end. It was just a party at the Gryffindor common room, you had a bit of a drink (but not too much, you were pretty sober actually), and you and him had been together for a couple weeks now. You never had sex before, but honestly, it was just a matter of time.

You were sitting with some friends when he grabbed you by the hand and slowly pulled you to a more private couch. You were talking about some random stuff, but he wasn't even trying to pretend being interested. He kissed your neck gently, his lips sliding in your skin. This kind of behavior was pretty rare when it comes to Remus, so you nicely asked:

"Did you drink something?" He sucked slowly a part of your skin in a specially sensitive spot, making you bristle.

"Of course I didn't, I don't need to drink to find you beautiful." You smiled with the corner of your mouth. "And possibly hot" he finished, blushing because of what he said (a shy boy, after all)

You raised an eyebrow: "Possibly?"

He only smiled, the red on his cheeks getting a little more obvious as your lips searched for his and you kissed. It didn't take long until he placed his lips on the other side of your neck. You could no longer resist after some time with him kissing your neck like that, so you searched for his lips, kissing him hardly, your hands pulling the fabric of his shirt closer. His hands were already under your shirt, holding your waist firmly. You felt as he pulled the fabric from your shoulder, kissing there, teasing you.

He only got happier as you reacted taking your hands to his back and scratching there, and looked for your lips again, your tongues colliding. You kissed all his jaw and started getting down on his neck. He held a small moan as you sucked the skin, and you were about to sit in his lap when he asked if you wanted to go upstairs. You didn't hesitate to answer. He locked eyes for a second with James (the only Marauder that could be seen, who was hitting on Lily) and got up, holding your hand.

He showed you his bed and the moment you sat in it you pulled him to you, you two laying with him over you. You started messing with his neck again and getting space under his shirt, that two minutes later was already on the floor. You knew he was ashamed of his scars, and he gave you that look that meant 'please dont look at me too much'.

You rolled over him, sitting on his hip, feeling him hard between your legs. Lowering your kisses, you made sure to kiss the scars he hated so much, and he enjoyed as you were on top to take of your shirt and a second later, your bra. The way he admired your breasts, then pulling you closer so he could kiss them, made you feel pretty.

He first kissed your collarbone, softly, his left hand getting to your nipple as he did that. He held it between his fingers and pressed it softly, but enough to make you moan for the first time. In the mean time, his mouth found it's way to your other nipple, where he kissed roughly, sucking it and circulating it with his tongue. Another moan escaped, and you scratched his chest softly.

His free hand went to your ass, and he pulled you, rubbing you against his hard cock, and this time he was the one who moaned.

-God, let me take these off. - you said, opening his jeans. You left his hip for only a second to pull them down, and he kicked them out completely. He was wearing blue boxers as you got on top of his hip again, now the underwear between you. He was pretty quick in turning you again, getting over you for the second time.

He kissed you in the lips hardly as his fingers went down from your belly to your panties. He kissed the one nipple he hadn't kissed yet as he lowered your underwear, exposing you for him. His fingers slowly touched you, feeling how wet you were. First, he rubbed gently your clit, making you almost lose your mind, because he was doing it so slowly. Then, you felt two fingers sliding into you, and finding a rhytm as he fingered you.

It took you a while to get back to what was going on because feeling him do that was a huge pleasure. You went straight to his underwear and got his cock out, starting to masturbate him too. He groaned against your nipple as he felt your fingers holding him and your thumb kindly rubbing the head of his cock. His lips sucked a little harder, and you felt the harmony between his mouth in your breast and his fingers inside you.

-Remus, please, now.

He didn't hesitate. His hand got a condom from the drawer and he put it on quickly, rubbing your clit one last time just to see you bristle before he got inside you.

-Babe, you're so warm, you have no idea. - he said, finally entirely inside you. You could feel your own walls pressing him as he slid in and out, first slowly and then, as you requested, a little more violently. Your hands were on his back scratching him and ocasionally pulling his waist against you, and you let your lips find their way to his neck, leaving behind some hickeys.

The feeling of him inside getting in and out of you like that, and his whole body above you, and his lips as he searched for your mouth, and oh god the rhythm

-I won't last much longer. - you warned. It made him smile and get inside you a little harder, his hips colliding with yours.

-Cum for me, then, love. Cum. - he said against your ear. You felt the pleasure slide out of you as it came, strongly. The warmth of your cum made you even more wet and Remus couldn't resist to that. Just a minute later, he came inside the condom, sliding in and out of you one last time.

-God, baby. - he said, laying with you and pulling you closer, as he kissed your cheek. - You're great

----- Classical Mischief

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marvelous-writer-221 · 3 years ago

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Currently working on a short Remus Lupin' fic! Hopefully it will be finished by Thursday 🎉

Also, it's 3 am.

Tomorrow I have Uni early in the morning.

I should go to sleep.

But I don't want to lose momentum (is that the right word?)

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ddejavvu · 3 years ago

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hii! i've had this swirling around my head for a few days so i hope you see it, lol. a remusxreader where remus is literally the best man at sirius and reader's wedding and before it happens he tries to convince reader to run away with him because they're meant to be but she stops him and says something like, "meant to be is bs, and so is 'right person, wrong time,' you had your chance and you let me go,"

Today is weepy wednesday! Request some angst and make me cry :(

"Let me go," You seethed, attempting to pry Remus's hand off of your arm, "I'm getting married."

"But you don't have to!" Remus insisted, his other arm coming up to hold yours in place, "It doesn't have to be like this."

"Be like what? What I want?"

"You don't want this," Remus gave you a knowing glance, one that sent anger surging through you like a tidal wave.

"I don't want to marry the love of my life?! Remus, why are you saying this? You're his best man, for fuck's sake, why are you trying to ruin the wedding?"

"Y/N, he's not the love of your life," Remus's face grew more anxious by the second, "Can't you see that? It's me, we're meant to be!"

Any argument that you'd had ready to fire was wiped from your brain, your mouth falling open as you scrambled for something to say, "What?"

"Come on, you can't tell me you don't regret our breakup! This is a classic 'right person wrong timing' situation, can't you see? We were perfect for each other, we are perfect for each other!"

"Remus John Lupin," You finally managed to shove him off of your arm, backing frantically out of the room as he followed you, "We are not meant to be. If we were meant to be, we'd never have ended things. You're the wrong person for me, and this is the right time for me. It's over, Remus, you let me go and I moved on."

You sped to the doors of the venue, chest filling with relief as Remus stayed frozen, watching you instead of interfering anymore. You took a deep breath, pushing open the doors and smiling at your fiance on the other end of the room, ignoring Remus's icy glare on your back.

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luveline · 2 years ago

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Hi Jade! I have a request for a hurt/comfort remusxreader, remus comforts her (perhaps with cuddles and tea?) after she fails an important test. Your writing is wonderful! <3

hi! tysm ♡ remus comforting fem!reader after a failed test

"I'm sorry for crying all over you," you say stuffily as Remus returns, twin mugs of tea in his hands.

He offers one to you carefully. "That's okay, dovey."

"No, because salt water can totally ruin whites."

He looks down at his t-shirt, assessing, before sitting as close to you as he can, the meat of his thigh pushing into your own, an arm going around your shoulders automatically.

"It's a sacrifice, then, that I'm willing to make." He kisses your cheek. There's something thoughtful about how he lingers close, heat of his breath fanning over your tear-damp skin.

"I don't know why I'm being so-" You cut off when the emotions rise, clearing your throat.

Remus rubs the top of your arm in response. You try to stop the tears, he really doesn't need a second round, but you feel defeated. It's a pretty inescapable feeling. "It's alright," he murmurs. "C'mon, baby, it's okay."

His fault for calling you baby, the tears roll fresh and fast down the slope of your cheek to the line of your jaw. They're hot.

Your mug shakes in trembling hands. You tighten your grip around it until your knuckles poke through the skin. "Don't call me baby," you plead mildly.

"You're my baby," he says, hand moving to your neck.

He guides you toward his lips for another reassuring kiss.

Your eyes slip closed, your face tilts toward him. "It was just a test," you whisper.

"It meant a lot to you to pass. It's okay to be upset that you didn't."

"I shouldn't be so affected."

"How about," he begins in a murmur, words so warm they feel like they reach the very centre of your chest, "instead of being upset with yourself for caring, you let yourself feel how you want to feel?"

"I want to feel miserable."

"Yes, well, I'd say you were doing a very good job," he dotes lightly, hand rubbing soothing, small circles into your tense neck.

"Hate tests," you sigh, hiding your face in his shoulder.

He takes your change in position in stride. You hear him set down his mug and soon you're being folded into a hug, cautious of your hot tea. He gets his arms around your shoulders and soon you can feel him nosing at the top of your head, and hear his own sympathetic sigh.

"I know. They're awful. But you tried so hard, and you should be proud of yourself even though it's not the result you wanted."

You let a couple of secret tears drip to your chin. It makes it easier to fail when you know Remus is waiting for you on the other side of it.

"Love you," you mumble, tears now definitely ruining his t-shirt.

He would never, ever complain. "I love you." He encourages your head back enough to kiss your hairline. "Love you," he repeats against your skin. "You're amazing. You'll try again."

"I'll try again," you agree morosely. He gives you another kiss as a reward.

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englishmensbitch16 · 3 years ago

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“ I will love you either way” part 2

Summary- this is the second part of my remusXreader story based off the song it’ll be okay by Shawn mendes

Warnings- underage drinking, self hatred, self loathing, Jealousy, use of the word slut, no smut just yet, angst, anger, fluff

Before the party

It was now 1 hour before the boys were expecting people to show up in the common room, they invited everyone from Gryffindor and Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw and a few Slytherins due to the fact that they over heard the Marauders talking about it in potions. Y/n, Lily, Mary, Marlene and Dorcas were all on their dorm getting prepared for the festivities tonight.

“ come on y/n I saw the way Remus was looking at u in the great hall there’s no way he’s not into you, besides have u seen how hot you look since last year I mean damn if he doesn’t go for u I might have to” Lily said with her back facing the girls as she was doing her hair at her vanity

“Lils that’s not even remotely true I mean come on it’s Remus he’s tall and smart an-and he’s kind and he’s wayyy to good for me I mean really there’s no way he likes me back, I’m just me, I’m a clumsy not very pretty annoying freak why would he even look at me when he could have anyone else, he definitely doesn’t feel the same ” y/n sighed throwing herself on her bed “I don’t know maybe I’ll just stay here and read” she said shoving her face into her blankets.

Lily whipped her head around at her friend sulking in her bed “there is no way I’m letting u sit in our dorm and read all night when Remus is expecting you to be there tonight, he literally told you that he’s not going to dance with anyone else because he only wants to dance with you, i don’t know why ur so hard on yourself about things like this, your beautiful and smart so what if ur a little clumsy but y/n you deserve to show people what kinda of badass you are, Remus has been ur friend since we sat on that train in first year and he has always looked at you like ur the stars and the moon… your just so blinded you can’t see the way he looks at you” Lily got up from her seat sitting down beside u on ur bed.

“ you know she’s right basically everyone else can see it” Marlene adds as she throws her clothes across the room trying to find an outfit for tonight “I mean I swear that boy look at you the same way James looks at Lily” she says with a giggle cause Lily to glare at her

“ I mean what if he doesn’t feel that way what if he was just being nice you guys know how kind he is” y/n says voice still muffled by her bed

“ darling we know Remus is kind but he’s never that kind with us, the way he openly flirts with you and calls you nicknames I mean come on the boy calls you love so many times I’m starting to think it’s ur birth name” Lily laughs as she pulls u up from ur bed so your standing in front of her now “ your going to that party, ah don’t even try telling me no. Get ur cute ass in that shower and me and Marls will pick out your outfit and Mary will do your hair when u come out and Dorcas can do ur make up. End. Of. Discussion”

You don’t even bothering arguing with Lily as you make ur way to the shower once your in the bathroom you lock the door behind you and turn the shower on as u remove your clothes from ur body u can’t help but watch your self in the mirror I mean you don’t hate the way you look there are just somethings that you wish u could tweak, you try not to give that to much thought as you step into the now steaming shower.

The girls are Turing the dorm absolutely upside down trying to get ready, Lily and Marlene have already found you the perfect outfit (you guys can picture anything you want and would be comfortable in:)) the girls were now all dressed and waiting for you to finish up in the shower, once they heard the water stop running Lily open the door slightly to hand u the outfit. You came out of the bathroom feeling much more comfortable in the clothes she and Marlene picked for you. Mary sat you down to get started on your hair first doing a drying charm so she could curl it using her wand and Dorcas started to do your makeup.

In the blink of a very detailed eye you were all ready to head down to the party you could already hear the music going and the voices of students along with the loud shouts of Sirius and James telling people its “TIME TO PARTY” Marlene handed u a cup of fire whiskey “what fun is a party if you don’t pregame” she winked and cheersed the girls as u felt the burn of the drink go down your throat you felt a little more confident about going down.

“ alrighty let’s get this show on the road” Marlene grabbed Dorcas hand pulling her out of the room heading down stairs with Mary following after them.

“You ready love bug?” Lily squeezed your hand lightly

“As ready as I can be” your squeezed her hand back and let her pull u out of your dorm heading down the stairs.

“Y/n! Lily! Oh your finally here and looking very fit if I may add” an already tipsy Sirius stumbled his way towards you two throwing his arms around you and Lily pulling you further into the party, you couldn’t help yourself from looking around trying to spot Remus, when ur eyes finally found him he was sitting on the couch beside the fire place with Peter talking about something you couldn’t hear but just at the sight of him your cheeks flushed and a small smile crept onto your lips.

Sirius pulled you and Lily to the same couch that Remus is sitting on and he practically threw you into the spot next to the tall boy.

“ well hello love nice of you to join the party” Remus smirked as he brought his drink to his slightly chapped lips after he took a large sip he leaned down so his lips were hovering just over your ear “I thought my dance partner was planning on standing me up” he whispered just loud enough for you to hear him over the loud music and he moved back to his original position except letting his arm rest comfortably on the sofa behind your head.

“ well Remus I would never want to miss the opportunity to dance with you” you say with a slight low tone looking up at him through your eyelashes with a small smirk playing on ur lips, Remus visibly gulped at the tone of your voice and the look you gave him he’s never quite seen you match his energy before and it starts to make he feel hot and flustered, maybe pregaming was a good idea after all “ I’m going to go grab a drink I’ll be back” you add after u noticed the red in his cheeks starts to darken you grip his thigh so u can get up but just as your hand is about to leave his leg his hand encases your and he pulls you slightly down so your can hear him

“ be quick I don’t want to wait much longer till I can dance with you love” he voice was huskier now he gently squeezed your hand before letting go so you can walk away, a small smirk has formed on your face as you made your way to the drink table, Lily and Mary were standing by the table already giving you a conniving look as you walked up to them.

“Well looks as though u have a new found confidence” Lily smirks at you

“ you know maybe I’m just tired of being afraid to get my heart broken, I mean what’s the fun in hiding when I could be do a lot more fun things” you say as you pour yourself a drink into a red cup

“ yeah fun things, like Remus” Mary giggled behind her cup, Lily giggled when u shot you head up to stare at her with wide eyes

“ you know what I’m not even going to deny that” you say as a small smirk makes it’s way onto your lips and u give the girls a cheeky wink before heading back to your spot on the couch.

When u turn around you eyes are immediately drawn to the blonde now sitting next to Remus in your spot with her hands gripping his bicep as she tosses her head back in a fit or flirtatious giggles and you swore you saw RED. Wtf is going on you thought Remus only wanted to spend the night with you, but know there’s a blonde Hufflepuff bimbo hanging off him like a leech, you can’t help but feel a little jealous as she runs her hands up and down his arm and she moves closer to him almost sitting on him like you were earlier today.

“Fuck this” you say to yourself as u chug the rest of your drink down and go back to the table to pour yourself another one.

“ hey love bug what you doin back so soon?” Lily ask her brows raising in question when she noticed the scowl etched onto your face she looks behind you and sees the blonde girl practically hitched on Remus’ lap finally understanding why your upset “oh hell no what the fuck does she think she’s doing, all over him like that everyone knows you and Remus like each other, I’m gonna bloody kill her” Lily tries to stampede her way over to them but your grabbed her are before she could even move three feet.

“ lils it’s whatever clearly he just doesn’t feel the same way it’s fine I mean he’s not the only reason I came tonight I can just hangout with you” you chugged down your drink again before grabbing Lily’s hand “c’mon let’s go dance and help me forget about that boy” you gave her a small smile basically telling her you need her right now and who would Lily be if she didn’t help you through this right now, you and Lily made your way to the makeshift dance floor the boys had set up and began swaying to the music.

what you didn’t notice was Remus’ eyes searching for you when they finally settled on your body he couldn’t help but noticed the way your hips were moving and the way you hands were hanging off of Lily’s neck as the both of you danced together he also noticed how much you’ve changed from last year you seemed to have matured and grown and he felt his body grow warm as his eyes travelled down your body, he was brought back to reality when the blonde girl beside him moved closer to him, he didn’t even know this girls name let alone why she was all over him but he didn’t want to be sitting here with her he wanted to be out there with you.

You finally caught his eyes with yours noticing him staring at you, a smirk fell onto your lips and you had a sinful idea “ hey you” you noticed a decently cute Slytherin dancing only a few feet from you and Lily, he turned around and looked you up and down like you were his prey “ wanna dance?” He immediately placed his hands on your hips and pulled you close to him as your body’s moved to the music, of course you were only doing this to get a rise out of Remus but hey why not have some fun tonight.

Remus felt a rush of anger when he saw that boy touch you he couldn’t just sit here and watch as you danced so closely to another man he had to do something and quickly, practically tossing the blonde Hufflepuff off him lap he stood with such dominance and anger. “ what the hell was that for?” He looked down at the girl on the floor where she had landed.

“ oh um sorry but your not my type” he said to the girl who scoffed at his response and he made his way to where you were dancing.

You felt a presence behind you and you turned to see if Lily was still there, the boy you were dancing with still holding u against him, your back to his chest as u spun around thinking you’ll find Lily’s green kind eyes you instead found intimidating hazel ones burning into you, you almost let out a squeal when u saw him standing in front of you, no blonde girl hanging off his arm anymore just him with a gaze that made you feel small and his chest heaving with anger you could practically feel the jealousy leaking off him.

All the sudden you felt your self being ripped away from the boy you were dancing with and into the arms of Remus “oy mate what the fuck you think your doing that’s my girl” the Slytherin boy shouted at Remus.

Remus chucked at that statement “ yeah mate we’ll sorry to break it to you but she’s far from being your girl” Remus wrapped he arm tightly around your waist holding you close to him as he moved closer to the boy staring him dead in the eyes “she will never be your girl” he moved to the boys ear so you couldn’t hear what he said next “ but she will always be mine” the boy just scoffed and walked away back over to his Slytherin buddies and Remus turned back to you

“What do you think your were doing love?” He pulled u close

“ well Remus I was dancing” you felt your body grow warm from how close he was

“ no no I seen that, what I meant was” he moved his lips closer to your ear before speaking again “what the fuck were you doing hanging off that wanker like a little slut” his voice was dripping with venom as he spoke

Your eyes shot open in surprise, you’ve never heard Remus say such things in such a way it made you feel different, but alas you weren’t gonna let him win.

“ oh I was the one being a slut if you don’t recall there was some blond Hufflepuff bitch practically on your lap just a few minutes ago”

“Oh love is that what this is about” he mocked, the cocky fucker was mocking you right now “you were jealous?”

“ oh I’m the one who’s jealous?” You smirked at him “ weren’t you the one who ripped me away from that guy then scared the bloody life out of him” you taunted as you ran your hand down his chest, his arms still wrapped tightly around your waist.

Remus pushed out a breath “I was not jealous”

You looked at his eyes “ oh you weren’t jealous?”

“ no I wasn’t” he clenched his jaw so tight you thought he might break a tooth

“ oh alright then I guess I’ll just back to dancing with him then” before you could even take a step away from him you felt Remus’ hand latch onto ur wrist and suddenly your feet were moving faster than you could usually keep up with.

Remus had brought you to the area before the stairs heading up to the boys dorms no one else was here and the music was less loud so you could actually hear your self think, it happened all at once you were pushed against the wall and Remus had a tight hand on your right hip and the other was placed on the wall beside your head, you could see the way his muscles flexed from how hard he was pushing on the wall.

“Don’t . You. Dare” he was breathing so ragged and heavy, you’ve never seen Remus like this before, it was erotic.

“Don’t what Remus? What don’t you want me to do?” You teased him slightly, of course you knew he was talking about the boy but you wanna hear him say it.

“Don’t talk about him, don’t look at him, don’t even think about him, because when u do all I can imagine is his hands on your body” his voice was huskier then your ever heard it “and he’s not allowed to touch you like that” his head was coming lower and lower until his forehead was resting against yours “only I can touch you like that” your voice hitched in your throat when the words left his lips you couldn’t help but move your head to look him in the eyes to see if you could find and trace of regret, when you couldn’t find any the words just slipped out of your mouth

“ so show me I’m yours then” his lips instantly crashed onto yours with so much passion and feelings behind it you felt like all the air in your lungs got trapped his hand was on the wall now moved to the back of your neck pulling your hair slightly to make you tilt your head more and the hand that was gripping your hip now moved to wrap around your waist pulling you closer to him entirely you couldn’t help but let out a whimper as he broke the kiss.

“Does that prove it to you?” He was smirking, and he pushed a piece of your hair out of your face and behind your ear “ y/n your mine”

You couldn’t trust your voice right now to reply to him so all you could do was wrap your arms around his neck pulling him back in for another kiss, although that one was cut short by Peter running in to grab your attention “guys Sirius is really drunk and is on the table belting somebody to love, come quick”

“Again?”

You and Remus laughed at the fact u spoke simultaneously.

“ Okok Petey we’re coming” You laughed as you started walking back towards the party but u hand was tugged back and u hit Remus’ chest

“ just want one more before we go back in” he kissed you again but this one felt different than the first it was calmer softer more romantic and grounding “ ok let’s head back in love” he smiled at you, you don’t think u ever smiled so big.

Oh god now u gotta tell the girls.

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dragonologist-in-the-making · 5 years ago

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Hi!! Could I request a RemusxReader fic where they're both teachers who are dating and just spending a really nice evening/afternoon/whatever you choose together? Thank you regardless and have a great day!

Title: Memories

Pairing: Remus x reader

A/N: Yesss I love this!! Thank you so much, I hope you like it! This also came out slightly sad, I’m really sorry I couldn’t help it (hopefully the happy stuff makes up for it?) Also, for anyone who has sent in a request I’m getting to them! I’m trying to post once a day at the moment but if the requests start piling up then I’ll up it to twice – either way your requests are coming soon!

Wordcount: 1.3k

Warnings: just a little sad, reminiscing of their time as students and missing their friends. But there’s happy and lovey stuff in their too, no fear!

Requests are still open!

It was September 1st, normally your least favourite day of the year. You loved your job, teaching at Hogwarts was always fulfilling and seeing the bright new faces every year as they began to discover the magical world really was something that you counted yourself lucky to be a part of. However, it normally meant leaving behind your husband, a Mr Remus Lupin, and although Dumbledore was extremely understanding in letting you leave over the nights of the full moon to look after him, having to say goodbye never got easier.

This year, however, was different. After last year’s utterly incompetent Gilderoy Lockhart had lost his memory (you couldn’t help but feel grateful after having to put up with his antics for a whole year) and with it his position as Defence Against the Dark Arts teacher, your werewolf had been hired as the new professor, and you couldn’t wait to be able to see him every day.

As a returning teacher, you’d gone back to Hogwarts a couple of days early to get everything in order, and today was the day that Remus would be arriving, along with the rest of the students, on the Hogwarts Express (Dumbledore had had a private word with Remus and suggested that, given the recent escape of Sirius Black from Azkaban, having a professor on the train may not be a bad idea). The farewell you had shared a few days prior was much different to the ordinary as your house looked bare, the both of you having packed away many of your belongings.

Looking at the time, you realised it was much later than you thought, quickly changing into your robes and heading down to the Great Hall where you took your place at the staff table just as the students started to file in. Not even five minutes later, a familiar face sat to your right, taking your hand under the table and giving it a tight squeeze.

“How was the journey?” you whispered, having heard rumours as the flew around the hall, but hoping they were simply that.

“Dementors.” He grimaced, neither of you facing the other and looking straight forward, having both decided that there was no need to make it obvious to the students that you were a couple. Not immediately, anyway. “Dumbledore’s furious. I was in a compartment with Harry and his friends, the ones you’ve told me about. He passed out – I think he’s okay now,” he reassured as he saw a look of panic overcome you. You’d taken a very protective role over Harry since he’d arrived at Hogwarts, and he often came to you for advice or an afternoon tea on your arrival – he loved hearing the stories you would tell him all about his parents. “McGonagall is with him, but he insisted for the rest of the journey that he felt fine. I’m sure he’s eaten enough chocolate to make him struggle through the welcome feast.” He chuckled. “But (y/n), I don’t think I believed it when you told me just how much he looks like James. It’s uncanny.” At these last words, his voice had quietened.

You gave his hand another gentle squeeze, turning to look at him. “Acts like him too, Rem. I give it a week before you’re cursing his fathers name all over again.” You grinned, nodding towards the doors where he was walking in and taking a seat next to Ron and Hermione, the general babble of the students dying down as Dumbledore stood up to give his speech.

…

You knocked gently on the door to Remus’ room, opening it and slipping in when he answered. Although you spent most of your nights together, he had always insisted on still having his own room for the nights of the full moon, saying that he didn’t want to darken any memories of his bedroom, one of the only places he could relax, with his transformations. Knowing that last night had been a particularly rough moon, you as a kitten curled up against Remus for the night as the only form of comfort you could give, you had come back from a quick trip to Hogsmead with arms full of chocolate to get him through.

Spreading out all the treats you had brought onto the bed before him, he moaned gratefully, already unwrapping a chocolate frog. “Merlin, (y/n), I love you.” His expression brightened significantly as your melodic laugh rang through the room.

“Well luckily for you, Professor Lupin, I’m your wife.” You retorted, still not used to his new title, but loving it so much you used it at every opportunity you could. “How are you doing, sweetie?” You asked, stroking through his hair as you pressed a kiss to his cheek gently.

“Bored of sitting in this bed. Come on, I have an idea.” He clambered out of the bed and dragged you from his room, heading through the corridors with a destination seemingly in mind. You kept a hold of his hand, still not wanting to showcase your relationship in front of the students, but knowing that your touch always made Remus feel much more calmer and grounded when he was recovering.

After wandering through empty corridors and climbing many staircases, you arrived in the astronomy tower, a place you would frequent in your younger years. You laughed at the memories, conjuring up blankets and pillows for you both, you sitting down cross legged and soaking in the sun from the windows as Remus lead down with his head in your lap, your fingers absentmindedly stroking through his hair.

“It’s hard being here and not thinking about them, don’t you find?” He spoke up after a while, speaking a thought that had been on both of your minds since the start of the year. “This is where so many of our memories happened, they’re constantly surrounding us.”

“I know, Rem.” You sighed, sad to see him going through something which had bothered you a lot when you were first hired by Dumbledore. “Every room in this castle still has a lingering memory of them, of all of us. It doesn’t go away, you don’t stop forgetting after a while. But, you have new memories that you can think of in those rooms, too. A student coming to confide in you, a prank of Fred and George’s, a rare joke from Minnie.” You both laughed at the old nickname, and about how she had gone from teacher to colleague, a weird balance you were both still trying to navigate. “And there are memories of our time here that don’t involve them, too, you know? I like to focus on our memories, yes they might be tainted now but I’ve got you and I’ll forever be grateful for that. We met here. We fell in love here, we snuck away to this very tower.” You nudged him as his chuckle reverberated through his chest and you could feel his shoulders shaking.

“I might not have been the best at Prefect duty.” He admitted, a blush covering his cheeks. He sat up, facing you and leaning in to give you a sweet kiss, lingering slightly longer than he maybe should have as he dwelled in the memories.

After spending hours in the astronomy tower, the light began to fade and it was time to head to the Great Hall for dinner. You walked through the now much busier corridors, as everyone headed in the same direction as you, side by side, holding each other closely. You had somehow found even more comfort in your love for one another, if that was even possible, and as you walked together, just as you had always done, you didn’t care who saw or who knew.

What you didn’t see was the warm smile Minerva McGonagall was wearing as you passed her office, having caught sight of the two of you, away in your own world as if no time had passed, as if you were still in your seventh year, entranced with each other in a way she rarely saw. She had lost a lot of your friends, and grieved for them too, but she was glad she had the two of you back in your home, where you belonged.

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thebadgerclan · 4 years ago

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If the requests are still open (: pls a remusxreader story (kinda soulmate like) where its the full moon and the reader is hurt in the forbidden forest and instead of attacking reader wolf!remus gets all protective and stuff and wont let the other boys near her till the night is over???

Ahhhhhhhhh yes!

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fictive-fodder · 4 years ago

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||Painting : VIII : Harry||

The first time you came to Hogwarts you were 18, freshly graduated from a different school, and about to start a 6 month long artist residency. Not only did you learn how to paint portraits that move, but you also became close friends with the marauders. You would have never guessed that 15 years later you’d return to Hogwarts, commissioned to paint each faculty member’s portrait, and be reunited with Remus Lupin as the new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher. Read on A03 here!

||Word Count 6.5K ||

Warnings: PTSD

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PART I - PART II - PART III - PART IV - PART V - PART VI - PART VII - PART VIII - PART IX - PART X - PART XI - PART XII - PART XIII -

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PART I - PART II - PART III

|| Author’s Note || Make sure you got some snacks, some beverages, and a cozy amount of time cause this is a long, drama filled chapter. Tuck in! I hope you love it... because they drama train just started and it won't be stopping soon. Trans women are women. Though many people love the world of Harry Potter, J K Rowling has been making problematic statements for a long time and I am glad to see people taking her most recent ignorance seriously, as the gross, transphobic, hate speech that it is. There is so much beloved content that contains problematic, dangerous or inappropriate elements. Or, the author sucks. If we don’t learn to accept the good content while learning to acknowledge, highlight, and stand against the problematic content, we are throwing away most of the creative stories in our world. And that’s a shame, I’d rather we reclaim it and make it better. So even though this is Harry Potter fan fiction, I stand up for trans people and specifically trans women. Any trans folks and gender queer folks who are here, reading, as I ramble on- Hi. You are welcome here. Thanks for giving me your time. <3

You couldn't let yourself finish Remus' portrait. Even though it was the first one you had started, even though you had already completed a handful of others, every time you went to add the final details you stopped yourself- wishing to preserve the satisfaction of finishing it until the very end, like the favorite part of a good meal.

"Neville! Where are you going?" You heard a voice call from the corridor.

You realized then that there was a boy peering in from your door way, watching you paint. "Oh!" You exclaimed, smiling. "Hello there!"

"Hello!" Neville replied, blushing. Neville glanced nervously back at the girl that had called to him.

"What are your names?" You asked, putting down your paint brush.

"I am Hermione." The girl replied as she walked closer to you, glancing around your room. "And this is Neville."

"It is nice to meet you both." You replied, entertained by how curious Neville and Hermione were. "Are either of you interested in art?"

They both took a few steps into your room to better look at the paintings. "It's not something I've learned much of yet." Hermione admitted as Neville jumped away from Snape's portrait.

"No?" You turned to her. "I suppose that's not surprising- magical trades aren't written about too much to protect the business."

"Then how do you learn?" She asked, distressed.

"You have to find someone to teach you, or figure it out yourself!" You replied, unable to help but smile as your answer seemed to fluster her even more.

"Like, an apprenticeship?" Neville asked as he nervously waved at McGonagall's portrait. "Do you have an apprentice?"

Chuckling, you shook your head. "No I don't! Maybe one day when I've learned enough." You watched as Hermione keenly studied your work. She smiled as her eyes fell on Hagrid's portrait, with Fang's head resting lovingly on Hagrid's knee.

"Are you friends with Hagrid?" She asked.

"Yes! You are too, right? I think I saw you leaving his home when I visited a while ago."

"I am but-" Hermione's smile faded into pout. "He is at the ministry right now, for Buckbeak's trial? I have been trying to help make a case, but I know Hagrid's really worried."

You were consumed by an urge to reassure Hermione that she shouldn't worry but you knew that Hagrid and Buckbeak faced many odds. Both she and Neville jumped as the final bell rang for class.

"Oh Neville! We can't be late!" Hermione called as she made her way to your door. "Thank you!" She nodded to you before pulling herself and Neville out of your room.

-X-

There was a knock on your bedroom door. It didn't matter that it was soft, it still caused you to gasp in fear and nearly fall out of bed. You righted yourself, taking a deep grounding breath before calling out, "Yes?"

Peter Pettigrew's mother opened your door, holding her wand over a floating tray that carried porridge and tea. "Good morning." She greeted quietly as she levitated the tray over to the corner of your bed. "Peter told me that you arrived last night. I am his mother, Enid. It is such a pleasure to meet you."

"Oh- this is so kind of you." You start, introducing yourself. "Thank you again for taking me in."

"Not at all!" Enid dismissed with a wave of her hand. You felt yourself brace as you fought the instinct to flinch. "Of course I am so happy to finally meet you. Peter has been telling me about you for such a long time! You really are very special to him."

Even though she'd just woken you up, you already felt tired. You hadn't realized that your hands had been shaking, you pushed them under the blanket and hoped Enid had not noticed.

Enid left you to your breakfast, closing the door behind her. The lock sliding into the door frame echoed in your ears as if a train had rushed past. You took in the simple, serene bedroom and felt annoyance rise up in you. Everything felt too still. The annoyance quickly turned to panic as you looked out the bedroom window into a vast expanse of green rolling hills and wildlife. It felt as if there were no walls around you, your skin prickled as you came to feel harshly exposed, vulnerable. Your heart rattled in your chest.

Your hand came to rest on top of Sirius' letter, instantly bringing you back to a calmer place. You sunk into the bed, hugging the crinkled letter as you looked out into the world beyond the window, teary eyed.

-X-

"-hasn't touched any food, hasn't left that room. I'm sure seeing you will make things a little easier, Peter!"

Peter didn't bother knocking on your bedroom door. He opened it with bravado, causing you to flinch as he wrapped his arms around you in a tight hug. "You're here!" He cooed, squeezing you tightly.

"Thank you for taking me in-" You breathed as Peter let you go, holding your shoulders at arm's length to get a better look at you. It was hard to meet him in the eye, self consciousness overwhelmed you, you couldn't stop thinking about how you would now always be looked at as someone harmed and marked by the war.

"Don't be ridiculous! Of course you are welcome here, right mum?" Peter glanced back at Enid, who nodded enthusiastically.

"Peter is our protector!" She chuckled.

A pang of guilt rang through you as you suddenly thought of Remus, James, Sirius and Lily and how much you missed them, how much more comfortable you might have been. Enid was kind, but it was hard to relax around Peter's anxious disposition, you hardly had the energy to interact as it was.

"Protector?" Peter laughed, a familiar nervousness coming into his voice. He glanced up at you several times, seeing if you would agree. All you could manage was a faint smile.

-X-

You watched the beams of moonlight pass over the grassy hills outside your window, lulled calm by the occasional owl song. It was easier on your nerves to sleep through the day and be awake overnight, it allowed you to be changed by grief gently. Your eyes were only half open as the moon rose high in the night sky, before something caught your attention. Over a distant hill you noticed a white deer flanked by two white orbs.

Rising from your bed, you walked over to the window as the deer came closer. Soon enough you could see that it wasn't a white deer at all, but silvered wisps of glowing magic woven into the shape and behavior of a deer. It glowed softly, as if magnifying the moonlight that bounced off of it. It took you until the deer was at your window to notice that its presence had calmed you so profoundly that you weren't shaking, breathing irregularly, or crying for the first time in days.

You smiled at it, pushing your fingertips against the glass. You were too enchanted by its serenity to be weary of the magic. The deer's nose met your fingertips on the other side of the glass. Then, the two orbs that had followed the deer passed through your window. You sat back on the bed, watching as the orbs whirled airily through your room before settling down beside you.

One of the orbs brightened. You could hear Remus' voice come from it. He said your name, his voice scratchy as if he hadn't spoken aloud in a while. "Dumbledore figured out that we can summon patronuses as a safe way of communicating with each other.” The orb flickered faintly as he spoke. “It is much safer than other forms of communication because it cannot be intercepted or meddled with. So you should expect to see these come to you from time to time. I wanted to tell you that-'' The orb wavered in the air, as if hesitant, “How much I wish- Seeing you again had been under better circumstances. I am grateful- so, so grateful to the Longbottoms for taking you in, but I admit that I wished it could have been me. I wished I could have been more for you, the other day, than a ferryman. I am sorry that our time together was brief… I am disappointed in myself for having been short with you. It’s just that if I had acted like I wanted to- I don’t know if I could have let you out of my sight… and my selfishness wouldn’t have helped you, or kept you safe and that is the priority. At least now you’re with Peter! You get to be with someone familiar, dependable. I hope you know how much we all miss you, how jealous we are of Peter, how desperate we are for the day when we can each share in your kindness, your radiance. Keep going. Don’t let yourself flicker out.”

You felt your eyes sting with hot tears as Remus’ patronus dissipated, ebbing away like the smoke from a newly extinguished candle. But you didn’t have time to think about everything Remus had managed to communicate, as the second orb flared brightly.

“Right, so I really twisted Moony’s pants in a bunch when I sent you that letter. He got so mad at me for compromising you and the Longbottoms that for a moment I thought he might… I dunno! Hex me? Duel me? Well, try to anyway! We all know who would win that. But I digress! I am ordained by our darling friends to speak to you however much I please as long as I do it this way. But I wanted to write you letters… I’m sure you have the one I sent you folded up in your sketchbook or something. I know you like that sort of thing."

As Sirius’s patronus continued to talk, you noticed it floated near where his eye level would have been if only he was there. It comforted you to feel as if there was really a part of him in the room with you.

"Sooner than you think," He continued, "I will see you again. Until then, these little... orbs of joy will have to suffice."

You closed your eyes, smiling to yourself as you let Remus and Sirius' words sink in. It was as if you had just realized that your friends hadn't forgotten about you- but of course they hadn't, they were the reason you were safe now.

You looked towards the doe, which leapt over the sill of the window soundlessly and stood in front of you. Its large silver eyes looked up into your face as a wave of calm affection washed over you. “Lily…?” You whispered, you reached your hand to touch the deer’s face. The patronus pushed into your hand lovingly.

You waited for Lily’s patronus to start speaking but it never happened. You pet the top of the doe’s head until your eyelids grew heavy with sleep. It was nice to feel properly tired, refreshing even. You fell to lay on your side, half covered by the sheets. Lily’s doe came to lay beside you, resting her head over your hip. Your senses blurred over as you fell into a dreamless sleep.

-X-

“Peter!” You called out the next morning, stepping out of your bedroom as you finished buttoning your shirt. “Peter!” You heard rushed footsteps from down the hall and then Peter appeared from around the corner, looking alarmed.

“Bloody hell you scared me-“ He wheezed, leaning on his knees. “What is it?”

You grinned at him, “Last night I got messages from Lily, Sirius, and Remus by patronus!”

“Oh-“ Peter wheezed, drawing himself back up to standing straight. "That's all?"

“Well I figured that it would be good of me to reply in kind? You know?”

“Brilliant.” Peter agreed, squinting at you confusedly, “Why not?”

“Well that’s just it-“ You start, stepping closer to him, “I don’t know how.”

“Oh right, you would like me to teach you?”

“Well of course!” You laughed, which caused Peter to shrink a little.

“Go on then.” Peter nodded in the direction of the kitchen, “Mum’s got breakfast cooking but after we can start.”

-X-

“You have to think of something… perfect.” Peter explained, as he led you out into the back yard. Leaves crunched beneath your feet as the wind swept through, causing the grass to ripple around you. “A memory, something precious, something that makes you smile, something important.”

“Oh, just that?” You teased, even as you began to get tense with nerves.

“You’ll think of something.” Peter shrugged. He didn’t make a very compelling argument. Peter seemed quite anxious himself, playing with the bottom button of his shirt in one hand and clenching his wand in the other.

You looked up to the swaying branches of a nearby apple tree, listening to the leaves as the wind pushed, pulled, and then pushed again. What was your happiest memory? The first drawing that came to life? Graduating? Being so cozy your first time on the Hogwarts express you fell asleep? You winced reflexively as you remembered the time you got bit by a coal mite and tried to hide it from James and Sirius.

Was it one of the many times Remus stopped by the gardener’s cottage by himself? The time he visited and, amidst the midnight sun, made you hot chocolate?

Was it dancing? The night James and Lily married? The relief you secretly felt in seeing them all again, reassured that your camaraderie didn’t end with their graduation?

Was it Sirius’s letter?

“Alright.” You nod to Peter, “I think I’ve got something.”

“Good! Um- hold on to that. Really think about it, all the details you can muster.”

“Okay.”

“Then you’re going to say, ‘Expecto Patronum’!” Peter flicked his wand out in front of him, almost as if drawing a sword. You mimicked the movement, saying the spell under your breath.

Silver light burst from Peter’s wand, pooling and forming in mid air into the shape of a rat.

-X-

Snape had avoided you since your confrontation in December. You did not know if that was because he was ashamed of how he behaved, disappointed in you, or a combination of the two. Part of you was curious to know his mind, but the thought that consumed you was how wildly inappropriate he had acted towards Remus. Any curiosity or sympathy you had for Severus died with the reminder of how he had conducted himself in front of you.

You remembered how, when you had first met Remus and his friends during your residency, they eluded to a time when their relationship with Snape was immature and contentious, but it had seemed by their graduating year, the most they wanted out of Severus was distance. You had always tried giving Snape the benefit of the doubt, not sharing whatever experiences they had undergone with him, but now you wondered if this was the same sort of behavior that had incensed Sirius, Peter, James and Remus in their adolescence.

Even Remus had noticed that you were less friendly around Snape. There were occasions during supper where you struggled to look Severus in the eye, or you'd be curt with him in the faculty lounge, and Remus would later tell you how miserable Snape seemed in his post, and how he often was harder on Harry than other students.

You were walking over to check in on The Fat Lady when you saw Snape walk urgently past you and down the corridor. You frowned, something in his expression seemed wrong, desperate. Your first thought that Sirius had been sighted again. You quietly began to follow him from a safe, unassuming distance. You stopped when you heard Snape speak.

"So," You heard Snape say, quietly, voice brimming with irritation. "Come with me, Potter."

You watched as Snape and Harry headed towards his office down in the dungeons. There was a sinking feeling deep inside of your chest... something about Snape's expression frantic, unhinged. It reminded you of how he acted the night you two fought. You checked your watch, Remus would be finishing up his work for the day by now.

"Remus-" You gasped, out of breath from rushing through the castle. "I need you to check on Harry."

"What? What happened?" Remus asked. He stood quickly from his chair, betraying the calm in his voice.

"I'm not sure... it's just that Severus brought him into his office and... I don't know exactly, I don't have a good feeling about it at all.”

Remus softened then, shaking his head at you with a reassuring smile. "You can't help but to fuss over young Harry, can you?"

Heat rose to your cheeks as you frowned, shaking your head. You were about to refute him but were interrupted by a voice coming from Remus’ fireplace.

"Lupin!" Severus hissed, "I want a word!"

"I suppose you're getting your way." Remus chuckled and leaned over to kiss the top of your head. Then he stepped into the fire and disappeared from his office.

As soon as Remus was gone you stood up, glancing to the door. Were you being fussy? Overprotective? You stood there contemplating your impulses and couldn’t help but think of Lily. She wouldn’t mind if you cared about Harry… right? She would want it. She would want people to look out for her son.

You rushed back out of Remus' office, down the stairs that lead to the dungeons, until you stood at the end of the corridor that led to Snape's office. Your heart pounded in your chest, you couldn't help but wonder why you were forcing yourself to race up and down the castle, why you were so certain that Harry needed help.

"Well? ...Well? This parchment is plainly full of Dark Magic. This is supposed to be your area of expertise, Lupin. Where do you imagine Potter got such a thing?"

You neared Snape’s office as quietly as you could, frowning at what you could hear. Was Snape inferring that Remus was giving Harry dangerous magical objects?

"Full of Dark Magic?" Remus repeated mildly. Unlike you, Remus reacted coolly, as if they were talking about next week's weather. "Do you really think so, Severus? It looks to me as though it is merely a piece of parchment that insults anybody who reads it. Childish, but surely not dangerous? I imagine Harry got it from a joke shop-"

"Indeed? You think a joke shop could supply him with such a thing? You don't think it more likely that he got it directly from the manufacturers?"

"You mean by Mr. Wormtail or one of these people?" Remus asked. Your eyes widened as shock went through you. Wormtail? You hadn't heard that nickname in so long, and for Remus to ask as if he really didn't know made your heart ache- "Harry, do you know any of these men?"

"No," You heard Harry reply quickly.

"You see, Severus? It looks like a Zonko product to me-"

Your head turned up in the direction of feet running down the corridor to see Harry's red headed friend push himself into Snape's office. "I-gave-Harry-that-stuff," He breathed raggedly, "Bought-it... in Zonko's... ages-ago..."

"Well!" Said Lupin with a highly amused tone, you could hear him clap his hands together. "That seems to clear that up! Severus, I'll take this back, shall I? Harry, Ron, come with me, I need a word about my vampire essay- excuse us, Severus-"

Lupin and the boys headed in the opposite direction from you down the corridor towards the entrance hall. You caught the young, triumphant grins spreading over Harry and Ron's faces. They didn't seem to notice that Remus's jaw ticked with anger.

"Professor!" Harry started, looking up at Remus, "I-"

"I don't want to hear explanations," Remus replied shortly. You ducked behind an open door as he turned to glance around the corridor. Although Lupin lowered his voice, you could still hear him. "I happen to know that this map was confiscated by Mr. Filch many years ago. Yes, I know it's a map, I don't want to know how it fell into your possession. I am, however, astounded that you didn't hand it in. Particularly after what happened the last time a student left information about the castle lying around. And I can't let you have it back, Harry."

"Why did Snape think I'd got it from the manufacturers?"

"Because..." You could hear the strain in Remus's voice, "because these mapmakers would have wanted to lure you out of school. They'd think it extremely entertaining."

"Do you know them?" Harry asked, impressed. You cringed a little bit as you saw Remus's whole body stiffen with the lack of severity Harry was giving to the situation.

"We've met," He replied curtly, "Don't expect me to cover up for you again, Harry. I cannot make you take Sirius Black seriously. But I would have thought that what you have heard when the dementors draw near you would have had more of an effect on you. Your parents gave their lives to keep you alive, Harry. A poor way to repay them- gambling their sacrifice for a bag of magic tricks."

Remus’s last words seemed to strike both Harry and Ron like a bludger. Lupin walked away swiftly, not looking back at them, in the direction of the faculty rooms. Ron and Harry began to make their way up towards the Hogwarts Dormitory heads bent down in shame.

You stepped closer to Snape’s office door and peered in. For a fraction of a second, you could see Severus sitting at his desk, massaging his brow, shoulders bent, but that vulnerability evaporated the moment Severus noticed that he wasn’t alone.

“Well,” Snape sneered, “if you’re here to save precious Harry Potter from the likes of me, you are too late.”

“Severus,” You start, your tone far more grave than usual, “You can’t keep doing this.”

Snape glanced at you venomously.

“You can’t treat Harry like that. You can’t treat him like James. He is a child, Severus, he doesn’t know- he doesn’t know anything.”

“I think this conversation is finished.” Severus hissed.

“No it’s not. You need to stop doing this. You need to treat Harry like every other student, you need to treat Remus like every other faculty member, or you’re going to-“

"Going to what?" Snape retorted bitterly, standing from his desk. "You think I need to hear your thoughts? The thoughts of a person who Harry Potter hardly knows exist? The thoughts of someone who knew his father and Lily for a fraction of their lives? I am his professor, a permanent faculty member of this school, which is spending a seemingly bottomless amount of resources and energy to keep him alive, despite his best attempts to throw it away. I have been witness to Harry's behavior for four years now, and you? Is that all it takes to become a guardian- seven months of proximity? Don't embarrass yourself any further and please, leave."

"Severus..." You shook your head, frowning. "Why do you always react as if- this isn't about hurting your feelings."

"LEAVE." Severus seethed, his dark eyes bright with emotion.

You leaned against the door to his office, watching his brow tremble with what you could only guess was fury towards you. Was there a point to continuing this? Snape glared at you as you took another step back, sighing. There wasn't any more for you to say.

You left the dungeons and headed back towards Remus's rooms slowly. You felt uncomfortable having inserted yourself so intensely into Harry's business, Remus's and Snape's too. Your throat felt tight as you wondered if any of it had been the right choice.

Falling onto Remus's bed with a sigh, your body relaxed as you watched the setting sun cast weak rays through the air. You closed your eyes and took a big breath. You couldn't stop thinking of Lily. A smile spread over your lips as you day dreamed of what a protective mother she would be, how she'd strike the fear of the universe into Snape if she could have. If she was here, Severus would have never started treating Harry like that.

The bedroom door opened then, followed by Lupin's light, slow footsteps. "Oh good, you're here." He said softly, coming to sit beside you on the bed. You turned your head to look at Remus, noticing that the parchment he had taken from Harry was still tightly clasped in his hand. When Remus saw your eyes fall to it, his hand relaxed.

"I couldn't help but go back down to the dungeons when Snape called you in." You started, voice soft in the quiet of the room. Remus lifted an eyebrow to you as you continued, "I was curious to see if I had been paranoid or if Severus really was overreacting."

"Yes and no." Remus sighed, he looked exhausted. He leaned his elbows to his knees, shoulders hunched. "I think Harry is still ignorant to how dangerous Sirius is and he is trivializing his safety. But-" Remus considered, shaking his head, "That's not why Snape is hard on him. He just finds Harry as intolerable as James, from what I can glean."

"How dangerous we think Black is..." You spoke your thoughts aloud before you realized you had. Remus's eyes darted to you.

"How dangerous... we think Black is?" He repeated incredulously. Remus turned to face you completely. "How could you say that?"

You sat up on your elbows, surprised by Remus' sudden change to you. He looked at you like how he had just been looking at Harry. "I've told you how I feel." You explain, working to keep your voice calm. "That I have doubts- that I feel unsure that we understand it all."

"Even so," Remus responded, his face reddening, "Even if you think that, is it truly worth the risk of being less careful?"

"Remus-" You start, wilting a little at his anger, but you couldn't get another word in.

"I'd like to know what gives you so much doubt." Remus continued, voice rough with emotion, "I'd like to understand how you and I could look at this situation so differently. It can't just be that your drawings contradict Black's behavior. You must have something better than that."

Your mouth fell open. You stuttered, trying to respond, but you were so taken aback with his ferocity that you struggled to think at all. "Well..." You swallowed dryly, "I think that Dumbledore empathizes with my doubt."

"Empathizes with your doubt?" Remus repeated critically. He spoke your name as if trying to conjure a more realistic version of you into being, "What is the other option? To tell you that you might be onto something? Did you really sit there and tell Dumbledore your conspiracy?"

You had to blink back a few tears, a mixture of surprise, shame and anger overtaking you. A tapping against the bedside window broke both yours and Remus's concentration as the two of you looked over to see a delivery owl waiting on the sill for one of you to open the window. Reaching over, you unlocked the window and held open your hand. The owl looked between you and Remus before holding its leg out to you. Gently untying the letter, you gave the owl a pat on the head in thanks before it flew up in the direction of the owlery.

Unfolding the letter, you frustratedly wiped some tears from your eyes before glancing at Remus, who's haughty glare was slowly beginning to soften as you allowed some time to develop in the quiet wake of his last words.

Taking a large, shaky breath you decided to finish your thought to Remus before reading the letter. "I never told you Sirius was innocent. I never told you that I was planning, in any way, to impede the protections built for Harry, or to give him any reason to dismiss the severity of this." You fought to keep your expression neutral as you continued, "No matter the reason, Sirius Black is here and he is doing a good job at putting all of Hogwarts's resources to rubbish in the attempt to find Harry, and that is very concerning. But it also seems that Sirius himself is not well, and I seem to be the only person on Earth who wants to know why a man who spent his life actively countering the bigotry and danger of pure bloods, Death Eaters and You-Know-Who would suddenly become a deranged killer. Even if Sirius Black is a spy, a traitor, and a murderer there is no worse, lazier reason than 'just because.'"

Remus listened to you, never making an attempt to reply. As you spoke, you saw color rise in his cheeks and his eyes turn bloodshot with tears. Despite this change, you did your best to press on with your explanation.

"The Sirius Black you and I knew would have rather destroyed himself than betray James, Lily, Harry and Peter. Sirius admitted to the crime, he was swept away to Azkaban, and that was… that? Doesn’t that feel convenient? We-“ you paused to take another shaky breath, “We both knew that the Ministry was full of Death Eaters at the time-“

Remus breathed your name, as if it was in itself an apology.

“You Know Who disappears with the death of our friends, the orphaning of Harry, and no one wonders? Wouldn’t it have made more sense if some had been skeptical? Yes? Everyone who had any say, unanimously agreed that Sirius was just evil all along? When has the Ministry ever fully agreed on anything?”

“You’re not saying he isn’t guilty,” Remus interpreted carefully, “You’re saying that what appeared to be true was not challenged, and, due to his erratic behavior now, you are curious what his intentions are, but you still fear him.”

“Yes!” You sigh, squeezing his hand back, “And I’d rather not be ridiculed for it by the man I-“ You stopped yourself from speaking, turning your attention to the letter still half unfolded in your hand. Remus seemed too bleary to notice, instead he climbed over to you, pushing his forehead against your neck.

“I apologize for losing my temper, for not accepting your answers with the same grace you show me.” Remus said, his breath tickling your skin.

You leaned your head against his. “Thank you.” You accepted quietly, your hand coming up to run your fingers through his hair. Remus closed his eyes as he wrapped his arms around your middle.

“What does the letter say?” He mumbled into your neck.

You finished unfolding it and began to try to read what was relayed through the tear stained ink.

Hello you two,

We lost. I'm allowed to bring him back to Hogwarts. Execution date to be fixed. Beaky has enjoyed London. Thanks for being there for me through this all. Hagrid

It felt strange to be going to Hagrid’s after such a heated conversation with Remus, but he insisted on joining you. It was quickly becoming dark as the two of you crossed the grounds, heading for the light of Hagrid's home. With the curfew in place, there wasn't a student to be seen, and Remus held onto your hand tightly the entire walk over.

You knocked against Hagrid’s front door softer than you would have normally. You could hear Hagrid start in surprise before getting up to open the door.

"Blimey-" He said, looking down at you and Remus with a tear stained face, "Wasn't expectin' any social calls tonight."

"Oh Hagrid-" You start, wrapping your arms around his middle the best you could, you gave him a squeeze. "If you'd rather be alone tonight we understand."

"No! No no, Beaky likes company, as do I, of course." Hagrid patted your shoulder gently as you hugged him, before ushering you both into his home. Off to the side of the fire, Buckbeak slept on a pile of hay and on the opposite side of the cabin Fang laid underneath Hagrid's kitchen table, staring at Beaky. "Cowardly pup," Hagrid started, gesturing to Fang, "Hasn't gotten used to Beaky bein' in the house, not one bit. Anyways, I'll make tea."

You and Remus found seats around Hagrid's hearth and soon enough Hagrid came to join you, bearing tea and treacle tarts.

"You two don't look much better than I do." Hagrid squinted as he sat down. "What's wrong with you lot?"

Remus glanced at you, half smiling before answering. "Just the inevitable conversations about Black." He explained, "We never really got the chance to talk about it in all of these years."

"Pah," Hagrid shook his head, "Still boils my blood to think I helped him."

Both you and Remus reacted with surprise, jerking your heads to Hagrid. You nervously glanced at Remus, worried that he would disintegrate on the spot with emotional exhaustion, but you were surprised to see that he looked keenly interested. "Helped him?" Remus asked carefully.

"Not like that-" Hagrid quickly assured, waving his hand. "I met him though, I musta bin the last ter see him before he killed all them people! It was me that rescued Harry from Lily an' James's house after they was killed! Jus' got him outta the ruins, poor little thing, with a great slash across his forehead, an' his parents dead... and Sirius Black turns up, on that flyin' motorbike he use ter ride. Never occurred to me what he was doin' there. I didn' know he'd bin Lily and James's Secret-Keeper. Though he'd jus' heard the news o' You-Know-Who's attack an' come ter see what he could do. White an' shakin', he was..."

As Hagrid continued to share his story, you reached your hand over to Remus and squeezed his shoulder gently, you felt his hand come up to lace his fingers between yours.

"He says, 'Give Harry ter me, Hagrid, I'm his godfather, I'll look after him-' Ha! But I'd had me orders from Dumbledore, an' I told Black no, Dumbledore said Harry was ter go ter his aunt an' uncle's. Black argued, but in the end he gave in. Told me ter take his motorbike ter get Harry there. 'I won't need it anymore,' he says.

"I shoulda known there was somethin' fishy goin' on then. He loved that motorbike, what was he givin' it ter me for? Why wouldn' he need it anymore? Fact was, it was too easy ter trace. Dumbledore knew he'd bin the Potter's Secret-Keeper. Black knew he was goin' ter have ter run fer it that night, knew it was a matter o' hours before the Ministry was after him."

"But then why didn't Black attack you and Harry and finish the whole thing there and then?" Remus asked, frowning and leaning forward in his seat. You glanced at Remus, surprised by how quickly he followed Hagrid's story with a question.

"Huh," Hagrid frowned, looking up to think. "Can't give you an answer..." He said absentmindedly, beginning to wonder himself. "The whole business was odd, many people were bein' controlled by dark magic. There musta've been some darker, greater plan to it all."

Remus nodded though the inquisitive slant to his brow didn't fully relax. After a long pause in conversation Remus said, "We were all so scared then, so at odds..." With a disgruntled sigh, Remus ran his free hand through his hair and wiped his face, "We were trying to believe that the impossible situation we found ourselves in could be weathered so long as we all did what we could. But we were too naive, too hopeful."

You resisted the temptation to pinch yourself. You had been wondering if you and Remus would ever have discussions about Sirius, if you would ever get to talk about the night that James and Lily died, and now it was all happening within the span of a single evening. You had to remind yourself to stay present and take it all in while you could, as Remus continued sharing his story.

"By the time James, Lily and Harry had to go into hiding, Sirius and I were hardly speaking. We all had the sense that there was a spy in our midst... though you-" He nodded to Hagrid, "and Peter were never really suspected."

"I was?" You sat up a little straighter, turning to Remus.

"Most people were." Remus reminded you, squeezing your hand. "But people who'd suffered loss by the hand of Voldemort and his followers were vulnerable and easier to manipulate. They were often targets."

Hagrid sighed and shook his head. Fang whined, coming over to Hagrid's side to lay on top of his feet. Hagrid reached down at patted Fang's back, thanking him for the comfort.

"Sirius and I had been suspicious of each other for a long while." Remus continued, "It caused a rift between us, by the time James, Lily and Harry went into hiding, Peter was the only one I was really speaking with regularly, the only one who was still able to make himself available."

"May he be restin' in peace, poor lad." Hagrid said, nodding.

"At least despite Buckbeak's news, despite Sirius," You started, smiling to Hagrid and Remus, "at least we can all still sit here together, with Hagrid's treats and talk about it."

"Aye-" Hagrid said, "I am grateful to yer both, for comin' down 'ere and spendin' time with me."

You and Remus stood up then and, after taking a good, long moment to respectfully pet Buckbeak, the two of you began to make your way back to the castle.

The grounds were very dark by then, with only the shallow light of the crescent moon to light your way back to the castle. You thought that it should have felt tense to wander through the grounds late at night with Black at large, but you were surprised to find yourself relaxed. Maybe it was the exhaustion of the day taking its toll on you, maybe it was the emotional release of finally addressing so many things you'd held onto throughout the years.

"Are you scared Black will attack us out here?" You asked, looking up to Remus. He frowned and shook his head.

"Hell-" Remus sighed with a puff of air, "At this point I'd prefer it just to get the bloody business over with." He flashed you a dark grin, causing you to laugh. The two of you chuckled as you continued to walk. You knew it was an odd thing to laugh about but it didn't feel like there was anything left to do.

As the castle neared you couldn't help but think of Remus's story. It brought your thoughts back sheltering at Peter's, to that bedroom window. The wide, vast nature beyond the glass, which had made you feel so stark and vulnerable beneath the wide sky.

-X-

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