#simultaneously sys and not sys. you understand

[amperceter-art]

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^ no background version for edits or whatever idk -PR

[benevadeca]

Ok ramblings that lost the plot but... One of my least favorite SJ tropes is his past abuse leaking and everyone is suddenly soooo sympathetic to his past as a slave. Like it puts so much of the misunderstandings about him on his own shoulders, in a "oh this was a safe space and if you'd just been honest people would've been understanding" way. And i get it's a very modern-ism to be like ofc slavery is bad and the worldbuilding has weird mixes of gayness being fine but slavery is legal.

Like if anything the reveal in the original PIDW-verse just reaffirms to them at the end that ofc SJ was an outsider that could never fit in or make nice. They would've been like well that's a mortal social issue that the cultivation world should be above but ofc it makes so much sense for a snake like him to have been lying and hiding even more of his true colors.

And I mean even in SVSSS verse w shen yuan when it gets revealed they're just like well whatever! We don't care abt his past bc he's our guy and stopped being sucks so he like got over it and also we have a monopoly on violence so him doing a little childhood massacre is fine. He's Good (read: one of us) now. Like the hypocrisy and classism and ignorance, not even of social issues or your peers burdens but not even knowing what you don't know, is never something the members of the cultivation world ever worry about until it the consequences of those things actively effects them. SJ was their martial sibling but never One Of Them, but SY integrated well in an entirely different cultural norm bc he still had young master socialization. And unlike SJ he was good at being nice even though it was for equally selfish reasons as SJ's meanness. IE both being their learnt survival methods they used to protect themselves.

Idk it just undermines SJ's entire reasonable paranoia and valid reasons for not being willing to reveal the things he could v much get into legal trouble with, that people would use against him, the tangible discrimination that exists, etc. Like he was literally named qingqiu it kind of shows the trend of the things people do to him when they Know.

Anyway idk let them be ignorant and hypocrites! I like SY as a character bc he's a Nice person that is simultaneously incredibly narrow-minded, privileged, selective in who he gives a shit abt, and resistant to having his preconceptions questioned until his life is literally on the line lol. They are both posers! And for that to be undermined by the well sy wins bc he is Nice and Cares while sj wasnt those things is so like. Reductionist and equally woobifying in my opinion.

Rest of the CQM PL's too! CQM is destroyed in original PIDW-verse not just bc of SJ but bc it's complacent w the system no matter the guise it puts on as being the liberal equitable sect. Like this is the breaking the bones and locking a kid in a cave and then sending him to fight a demon lord sect.

[transparentkinks]

What if the pre-war government censored all information on sexual health?

You should know I wrote this with my entire p#@sy. MDNI

Nora never really considered herself sheltered. All things considered she thought she was rather open minded. Anatomy and burns never made her squeamish, she was a battle medic, and then a trauma surgeon for hell’s sake. When she served she was often praised for her ability to keep it together even in the most hellish circumstances. When it comes to injuries encountered in battle, especially in regards to prisoners of war or those left too long alone in drastic environments, Nora was who they called. When the wounds before them were so gruesome it got to even the most seasoned surgeon, Nora was one of the few members on staff that people could count on to stay composed till the patient was stable. The things she’d seen, god the things she’d smelled… and beyond just violence and gore, she’s cussed, heard locker room talk, mothered herself a child, and she’ll never really forget that time with her company crawling around in a field looking for the dismembered penis of the poor bastard who caught the business end of a pretty nasty car bomb. Despite the propaganda of her small town she liked to believe that she treated people the same no matter what they believed in or looked like. When she crawled out of that vault she managed to swallow down her grief and face the wasteland. She accepted that life would always be stranger than fiction and started collecting friends that looked like they belonged in comic books. She learned fast and adapted to a world that had changed plenty without her. 

So what the fuck were her friends talking about? 

“I mean it man, I swear to god when I went down on her that rug was braided”

“No way, who in their right mind spends time braiding down there?” Piper looked at Hancock like his ear just fell off. 

“I guess some girls in the capital are just different” Hancock shrugged with a tipsy grin before talking another sip from his beer. “Different strokes for different folks and all that.” 

“I call bullshit” Macreedy spoke up. “Some chick in the capital isn’t gonna have any more time to be so weird about her hygiene than anyone in the commonwealth.” 

“They do got that bigass water purifier down there, maybe they get to shower more and it does something weird to their brain” Deacon interjected, shit eating grin having not moved from his face since the second he sat down with the group with his bowl of stew and a bottle of whisky to pass amongst the group. In fact Nora was fairly certain his distinctive grin had only grown as the conversation got more confusing. 

“Before ze war, zhey studied people’s brainz and why zhey might do strange zhings. Some diagnozis did mention zat a persons’s environment can induze compulzive behaviors, especially vhen expozed to trauma. Most of zhe examples were concerning cleanliness and hygiene.” Curie spoke up, and finally Nora felt like she was understanding what was being said. Though, She wasn’t entirely sure how they got to their current conversation topic. “If a perzon feels such compulsizons and findz zemselves vith zhe means, zhey may indulge zhemselves even to zhe point vhere ve find zheir behavior strange.”

“Well, I guess she could be considered odd. Becoming a ghoul isn’t exactly non-traumatic, but if it really is because of the water purifier than I wouldn’t mind everyone getting a little more weird. She nearly tasted like water” Tasted??? Who tastes someone during sex? Well, she guessed Nate had liked sucking her breasts, especially after having shawn, but she thought it would probably taste more salty.  They had to be talking about sex if Preston's face was anything to go by. The man looked like he was simultaneously trying to hide behind his drink and shrink back into his coat. Hancock was looking away fondly when Cait slugged his shoulder. 

“Man I’ve seen you put a slice of cram in between two snack cakes and call it a fancy sandwich. And then ate it. I don’t trust your sense of taste” 

“Yeah!” Curie spoke up. “You zaid zath you can’t taste anyzhing since you turned ghoul!” A choir of yeah’s arose around her from Piper, Macreedy, Deacon, and Cait. 

“Those are the words of a person who has never tried a fancy sandwich.” John waggled a finger at Cait. “You should know that’s a ghoul delicacy.” 

“What are we talking about?” Danse strode over to the group following the cheers from the corner of the settlement bar. 

“Only the finest delicacies available to a person.” Hancock grinned at the synth cheekily.

“Danse you’ve been to the capital wasteland before, did girls start tasting different after that water drama?” Deacon stood to drag the synth down into the already crowded booth. Danse suddenly looked very much like he wanted to leave. 

“I’m not telling you about my sexual encounters.” Ah, so It was about sex. 

“Oh come on! You’re no fun.” Deacon laughed and shoved Danse as he squeezed into the booth. 

“You know for all your expertise on retrieving important information I'm surprised you’re withholding this essential data.” Piper jabbed, and with a wiggle of her eyebrows passed the whiskey to Danse. “No way this reporter can get a scoop?” 

“Wrong hands and all that.” Danse sniffed before taking a swig. 

“And therefore!” Hancock slammed his hands on the table and looked pointedly at Macreedy Curie and Cait. “None of you can prove that pussy did not taste different after that water debacle.” Nora was trying to put it together in her mind what they were describing looked like, fighting off a blush as her mind wandered.

“Does it even matter if there’s a difference?” Nick sighed past his cigarette, adding another puff of smoke into the already slightly opaque air of the concrete building. 

“Ov course it doze” Curie slurred. While she had yet to touch any chems beyond stimpacks and the occasional med-x after a rough fight, curie was clearly enjoying ‘zhe social ritual of zhelebratory inebriation’ as she had put it. Especially since John used his connections to find her some pot, a drug she apparently had medical reason to trust more than alcohol. The first time Curie tried a shot she spat it out and talked extensively about how it burned. Right now she was enjoying a small rum and nuka (The only way she could tolerate any alcohol) and passing a joint between herself, John, and Cait. “It could be a healtz indicator! In regardz to zex, zhis is important, yes?” 

“Or” Macreedy interjected, seeming rather done with this conversation. “Maybe we’re all a bunch of gross fucks and pussy tastes good if its hydrated. For all we know that was just basic pre-war and we’re just now catching up.” 

“Man, people really had it good pre-war if everyone tasted like that.” Hancock sighed whistfully before taking a puff of the joint as it was passed his way. 

“Vell, I guess ve vill never have the data on zhat” Curie sighed. 

“Nu-uh” Deacon spoke up, grin unmoving as he cast his gaze to Nora. Oh no.  “We got ourselves our own repository of pre-war experiences right here.” 

“Oh shit, yeah. What do you think sunshine? Do folks taste different after the bombs?” Hancock looked at her rather excitedly, and suddenly Nora felt quite a few eyes on her. What she wouldn’t give for a stealth boy right now. Or a much, much stronger drink. Speaking of… 

“Well I don’t know, I wasn’t exactly walking around licking people.” Nora huffed and snatched the whiskey bottle before it could reach its next destination. 

“What, Nate never let you get a taste of yourself? Kept you all to himself? Never told you what it was like while he was going down?” Cait jested, propping her head on her elbow and looking up at Nora with mischief written across her face. Taste herself? Going down? Nora was rapidly losing context as her anxiety grew. 

“I-... I mean not really?” Nora stuttered, floundering for something to say that wouldn’t tip off her friends that she had no fucking clue what they were referencing. Oh no, now Cait looked confused. “I mean, people didn’t really discuss sex like people do now…” She trailed off but the eyes did not leave her. Normally she relished sharing her better memories from before the war with her friends, loved how they listened to her no matter what she wanted to talk about, but this time she just wished they’d ignore her. She took another swig to buy herself some time. 

“Wait, Nate did go down on you right?” Piper spoke up, leaning forward in her seat with a look of concern and confusion. Damn her. Nora normally loved how quickly Piper could put pieces together before she could, but right now she wanted to strangle her. The table was silent. 

“I uh, that’s slang right?” Piper nodded. “I don’t really know what that means.” Cait started cackling and Nora felt her cheeks flush. 

“Girly it means eating pussy.” Cait giggled. Nora just blinked at her, embarrassment growing as she remained confused. Cait’s giggles died off, along with her grin. “Eating you out? Shit Curie you had a big word for it.”

“Cunilingus?” Curie studied her face. “Oral zex?” Curie probed fruther. How would she taste herself during a blowjob? “Providing physical pleasure to a woman by means of contact between the mouth and the vagina?” Curie clarified. When she just started at Curie confused John spoke up. 

“Hold on, you really have no clue what we’re talking about?” He looked bewildered. 

“...No” Nora wished the ground would eat her alive.

“Damn, you had that man’s kid and he never went down on you? Ever?” John looked shocked, and looking around the table she realized pretty much everyone was giving her some flavor of the same look. “Man maybe pre-war folk didn’t have it that nice of they didn’t go down on each other.” Hancock shook his head. 

“We had the notion of oral sex before the war.” Nick clarified with a furrow in his brow. “I’m sure you ended up reading about it somewhere. You were a nurse right?” 

“I mean, yeah…” Nora mumbled. “But it was mostly about ways people catch different diseases and how to identify symptoms.” The whiskey bottle was passed along, and Nora prayed the conversation would steer towards pre-war medicine. At least she could talk extensively about that. Curie suddenly looked a little mad. 

“On vhat anatomy?” She questioned with urgency. “Your medical textbookz must have explained zhe affects on men and vomen, yes?” A beat of silence passed. Shit, her textooks were basically all male anatomy. She racked her head. There were diagrams of women, she knew it. Yeah, when she was learning basic gynecology. She saw plenty of diagrams of female reproductive organs. And especially leading up to their unit on delivery. Did they talk about diseases in women? She knew they discussed pregnancy effects… 

“I mean I was first trained as a combat medic, so it was mostly male anatomy...”

“But they had women in the army.” Nick corrected. “Not just medics, they saw deployment. They were soldiers.” Nick stubbed out the last of his cigarette in the ashtray. “They didn’t really train their medics to only treat half of their army did they?” 

“Well beyond genitalia there isn’t much difference between male and female anatomy-”

“Zhat is not true!!” Curie exclaimed. She definitely looked mad now. “Surely treating soldiers so vould result in more female casualties, yes?” 

“Women in relationships were given the option to opt out of the draft, so it was a lot more men than women.” Nora explained. “And if you ask me the death toll of that war was pretty equal opportunity in the end.” 

Curie frowned. “Hold on” Hancock spoke up, tucking his tin of mentats back into his pocket as he looked at her contemplatively. Nora felt like she would not enjoy his line of questioning with those in his system. “So let me get this straight, you knew about oral sex, but not on women?” Why did he look sad?

“Yes?” Nora suddenly felt very uncertain. 

“Did you perform oral sex?” He followed her response rather quickly. If she wasn’t already clearly blushing she was certain she looked like a tomato now (Or she supposed, a tato fruit is the new word for the vegetable). She swallowed and felt like it was all too audible. 

“Yes.”

“I hope he was a good lay then, fucker better have caught up if you weren’t getting any head.” Cait grumbled, leaning her head on Nora’s shoulder. “-‘Nough men up here don’t care if a girl cums, I’did’d hoped it was different then.” Nora was silent. Girls didn’t have cum, right? She’d never produced any cum with Nate, and her teachers were very clear. Men produced semen and women produced eggs, and sex required the male to ejaculate to enable procreation. Women couldn’t produce ejaculate. Nora must have been quiet too long, or maybe she still looked confused because John spoke up again. 

“He did make you cum, right?” Nora sorta wished someone would just shoot her now and spare her this exchange. Still, they seemed willing enough to explain, right? And they were her friends, she trusted them. 

“I thought only men could produce ejaculate?” Nora clarified rather quietly.

“Fuck, man.” Hancock sighed dissapointedly, leaning back in his seat and pushing his hat back. Nick shook his head as their friends began mumbles of ‘That’s fucked up/ Damn/ Fucking pre-war assholes.’ She found the whiskey pushed back into her hands, a rather clingy Cait wrapping her arms around her as she indulged, but no explanation offered. Nora was thankful when Deacon changed the subject, content to listen to his latest exaggerated story rather than think too much about the pitying looks she kept catching from her friends. She wasn’t quite sure what to think about this newfound revelation that she had far less experience than she thought when it comes to sex. Clearly she was missing a lot. Everyone was weirdly more polite to each other and her after the whole conversation, not that Nora was complaining, but paired with the glances she kept catching between her friends it was all rather strange. 

She was one of the first to turn in, making her way to the large house she built with a room for each of her friends. Of course not leaving without everyone insisting on a parting hug, Cait planting a sloppy kiss on her cheek with a grin. It was a short but pleasant walk back to the house. She loved sanctuary and still kept a house there, but sometimes the memories were just too heavy. There was just something about the complex she built at starlight drive-in that felt so beautiful to her. Maybe because her only pre-war memories of the place were high school dates and the carnival that would come through town. Maybe it was because it had one of the best places to stargaze undisturbed. Maybe it was because it felt like she was building a new family here. 

The building was mostly concrete, with lead lining on the exterior to keep out the wastes when they came in on the winds of a radstorm. Everyone had their own room, each decked out to their own tastes. The settlement had huge walls and enough missile turrets to send a sentry bot to abu dhabi. It was safe, and cozy, but not nearly as lively and green as Nora remembered from her childhood. There were people aplenty sure, but pretty much just robots, synths, ghouls, and folks just looking for some peace for once showed up to her settlements. No kids. Nora would always lament shawn’s loss of access to many childhood cultural staples. At least he had his pip boy and her entire game collection, and what child-appropriate media she had downloaded on there before the bombs dropped.She tried to make the compound fun, but her settlers seemed to enjoy her amenities more than her son. It's one thing to build your kid a playground, it was another to get them to play on it. She really wished that ghoul family would move in, or really any family. She really hoped the cure they sent out to Macreedy’s son worked fast. It’d be nice to have him here. She guessed she couldn’t blame people for choosing not to bring a new life into this hellscape, and to not risk talking about any kids they did have outside of settlements. At least Shawn seemed content with picking up stories from residents and playing games with Ada, Codsworth and the robots Nora built. Whenever she had to take off to make sure the peace she helped build would stick, she felt a lot better knowing most of her friends would be staying behind, and they’d be looking out for Shawn. 

They understood how anxious she could get about him. Shawn wasn’t born to her, but her son never really bothered to consider the implications of what he made. Shawn did not ask to be built young, programmed afraid and terrified of abandonment. Nora had asked the railroad if they thought he could grow, mature, not be stuck as a kid for however many centuries he’d survive. No one had any clue, there were no other synths like him. She knew one day she would have to tell him, before all the years on ice caught up to her and he was stuck alone. 

Except he wouldn’t be, Nora reminded herself. Her friends, they’d listened to her on many dark nights, listening to her grief and fears and anxieties. Nick had held her, promised her that no matter what reality lay in store for Shawn, if he was functional he would be there for him. John had similar sentiments, with the addition of a few corny ghoul jokes and a radioactive punchline. Strong, well… ‘No cry!!! Crying Weak. Human not weak. Strong is Strong! Strong smash anything that try to smash tiny robot child.’ Which she supposed was reassuring at least in regards to his safety. He was good at that, any time he was stationed at the drive in he insisted on guarding the front gate. She would have thought it would be easier to get a super mutant to party, but he generally did not enjoy any situation with too many humans he couldn’t yell at. In all honesty, when it came to helping keep her kid sane she trusted curie the most. She had taken her worries so seriously that she found a new research focus after her stimpack breakthrough. 

Nora stopped by Shaun's room on the ground floor, peeking in the door happy to see him in bed, his desk still littered with nuka cola bottles and the various pieces of whatever technology he could get his hands on to fiddle with. When she had started construction he had insisted on having his own door out into the little village so he could look around for scrap without Ada or Codsworth lecturing him for tracking mud water dirt or oil into the house. It worried her sometimes, and seeing him safe and at peace always helped settle her. She knew that with Ada in charge of the household and the many robots she had built to help the community nothing would ever happen to him. Realistically, It would be really hard to even approach the settlement while presenting a threat without getting nuked to hell by the space sentry bot her son had lovingly named Jupiter. Still, she always indulged herself in checking on him before she turned in whenever she was home. 

Four floors up the complex of concrete lead and steel, her room had a beautiful view of the gardens below, beyond them the marketplace. She watched as her friends spilled out the bar, one by one. Chatting amongst themselves as they made their way back to the house. John slung his arms around Nick and Cait’s shoulders before making a broader gesture towards the top of the house. The group paused and lingered, chatting in a large circle. 

Looking down on them, Nora figured it didn’t really matter if they all were more experienced than her. None of them would think less of her for it. She trusted them not to tease her, they dropped the whole conversation when they found their answers. No one said anything teasing afterwards, and she felt more confident now that if she had questions they’d be forthcoming with answers. She felt some of the tension from earlier leave her as she changed into comfortable sleep clothes and crawled into bed. 

‘So there has to be a way for women to ejaculate by their reactions from earlier’ Nora thought. When they were talking about tasting earlier, she now realized they meant tasting a vagina. ‘There’s nothing wrong with experimentation’ She assured herself, looking up at her ceiling she had painted with yellow stars and feeling herself over her clothes. Her hand felt a little cold as she braved the elastic of her waistband, feeling herself clumsily as she remembered what Nate had tasted like when she gave him a blowjob. 

‘What do I taste like?’ She dipped one slow finger into her heat and collected what wetness she could find there. She raised her hand up out of her pants to examine her fingers in what little light that made it through the windows. They were covered in fluid, but that was lubrication, right? She sniffed her fingers, and she didn’t smell bad. A bit like water left in a metal bottle out in the heat. Bringing them to her mouth she was surprised at the flavor. She wasn’t quite sure what she expected. John had described it as water at the bar, but this was definitely not water. She wanted to say it was salty, but It had this sort of tang that tasted similar to some pre-war sour candy without any of the sweetness. It almost tasted a little meaty? Thinking back on her assessment of the smell, she supposed it tasted like salt water left out in the heat in a metal bottle. She had a pretty fancy water purifier setup at the settlement, so if that really effected taste she was pretty sure it wouldn’t be right to say it tasted ‘just like water.’ 

A knock sounded at her door and she yanked her finger away from her face with a jolt. 

“Hey blue, can we talk?” Nora sat up quickly and climbed out of bed to greet Piper. Except it wasn’t just Piper she saw when she opened the door, it looked like most everyone were settling down further along the hallway in the sitting area near the stairwell. 

“Yeah-”Piper stepped inside and just as quickly closed the door behind her, the quiet murmur in the stairwell dampening beyond audibility with the soft thump of the door. Nora could feel her face flushing again and felt grateful for the night. “Is this all about earlier?” 

“Well, yeah, and some other stuff..” Nora could feel her stomach drop as she watched Piper turn around and sit in her desk chair. Piper seemed to notice something was off with her and quickly amended. “It’s nothing bad I promise! At least I hope so. Listen, first, personally. I need you to know that its really, really fucked up that from what it sounds like, you’ve literally never cum in your life.” Piper looked at her with a question clear across her face, like she was still expecting Nora to tell her that she had actually came before, because of course she has. Except she hasn’t, and Nora really didn’t know what to say. 

Piper sighed and continued after a beat. “Things are different in the commonwealth now Blue, and I know you know that, but I don’t know if you understand the extent of it- culturally.” 

“What does that mean?” Nora questioned, having found a seat on the edge of her bed. Piper leaned over, grabbed her hand and lacing their fingers together. 

“Well Blue, for one. Not only did you walk into the commonwealth like a hurricane, but you started just helping people for no real apparent reason other than they needed help. People don’t really do that here.”

Nora chuckled. “You know Cait and I already had this talk-”

“Yeah, and we don’t think you really get it. Preston has told you something similar too. And you brushed them both off, and me just now, why?” Nora looked down at their hands. 

“I-” Nora wasn’t sure she had an answer. It had to be her past, right? She did it because she knew it was right, it was what worked. “-just, its what you’re supposed to do where… I guess when I’m from. Politically, you know, at the time. Helping people became a form of rebellion. Helping one another, building up the people around you knowing they’ll do the same was the biggest fuck you the average person could manage without risking imprisonment.” Nora couldn’t quite meet Piper’s eyes. She’d spoken plenty about good memories, favorite movies and shows and songs, dances and the relative luxury afforded most people. It still felt illegal somehow, to talk about such seditious thoughts out loud. To speak the thing that held the little neighborhood of sanctuary together until the very end. Piper nodded along. 

“So It was still dangerous then?” Piper asked. Nora chuckled and shook her head. 

“Not in the same way it is now. It was freedom on the line, not necessarily lives.” 

“Which brings me to the point, you know we all really care about you, right? Whatever you need from any of us, we’re there.” Piper squeezed her hand, placing her other hand over top of their two hands already intertwined. Nora grinned.

“Yeah, I know.” 

“Which brings me to my next point. Blue, you’re beautiful. Its some sort of crime against nature that no one has ever gone down on you. I don’t know where you are with your husband stuff, if you’ll ever really feel ready to try and be with anyone ever again. That’s gonna be all up to you. But we were talking, after you left. Commiserating, really, over i'm sorry Blue, but the tragedy that is your sex life, and we all came to the in retrospect very unsurprising discovery that we are all heads over heels for you. You don’t really flirt back, so everyone kinda thought you were still caught up over Nate.- And don’t get me wrong! If it is still is about Nate, no shame that’s just the assumption.- But now we also realize it is completely possible you just still don’t understand that we love you a lot.” Fuck, was Piper trying to give her a heart attack? “And Im not saying this with any expectations blue. We love you, and that means we’re here for you anyway you want us, especially as friends. But that also means we want you to see all the cards on the table.”

“Piper, what are you saying?” Nora’s brain felt like it was going a mile a minute and everywhere this train of logic seemed to lead was confusing and quite flustering. 

“I mean that me and everyone back there in that room, we all want you to have what’s best, we want you to be happy, and we’re happy when we’re with you. And I know this is probably insane to you, by your pre-war standards but if you wanted to be with any of us, for some forever after or one night stand or anything in between, you can, no hard feelings. No friendship lost. All you have to do is ask.” 

Nora nearly felt at a loss for words, just staring at piper. How could that many people love her like that? She’d always found them all attractive in their own ways, but it felt wrong somehow. Wasn’t she technically a single mom now? None of it felt like it made sense. “Why? How?”

“Well, apart from single handedly taking down the institute, the brotherhood, restoring the minutemen, terrorizing raider groups and wiping out packs of feral ghouls and super mutants, freeing any synth you can, being the most thoroughly loyal and kind person any of us has met, skilled enough to build huge settlements across the commonwealth and face down some of the scariest shit i’ve seen, have you looked in a mirror lately?” Nora was at a complete loss of words. 

“I know its a lot blue, we just felt like we needed to tell you. You know, you have options.” Nora nodded in awe. She realistically liked them all, and had equally squashed any notion of such relationships being possible for her. Women like her, they weren't supposed to move on, were they? Would Nate want her to move on?  Nora honestly felt she couldn’t chose to date any of her friends with a clear conscience. It’d be horrible of her to choose one relationship and then go pining after any of the others, especially since she has learned the truly meager extent of her ability to lie the hard way out on her adventures into the commonwealth. Nora was certain her face was flushed as red as could be. 

“I don’t know what to say I - Im so flattered.” Nora tried to steady her thoughts. “I just couldn’t though you’re all- You’re all really attractive.” Nora couldn’t meet Piper's eyes. Piper gave Nora’s hand another squeeze before Nora heard her giggle. 

“So you do like us?” Piper said in a teasing tone.

“I love you guys, Its just that-” Nora wasn’t sure how to phrase it. 

“Romantically?”

“Yea-Yes.” Nora stammered out. God that was so stupid to admit. Why would she-

“You mean it blue?” Piper had risen out of her seat, now gripping Nora’s shoulders. 

“Yeah, so-”

“So what?” 

“So isn’t that unfair? To be with one person and secretly harbor feelings for others?” Piper was looking at Nora now at eye level. Piper frowned at her words. 

“Who said anything about one person?” Piper smirked, a determined look in her eyes as she stood and strode to the door, opening it. “Deacon, come here right now!” 

“A please is always nice.” He teased as he made his way in the room. “What do you need me for?”

“Explain polyamory to Nora.” Piper commanded, closing the door firmly behind him. Deacon suddenly couldn’t stop smiling, looking between Piper and Nora before finally directing his thousand watt smile at Nora before taking a seat at her desk. 

“So, I know when you’re from people pretty much exclusively only dated or were romantically involved with one person at a time, and having more than one partner at a time was taboo.” Deacon was watching Nora’s face, so she nodded. 

“Well, I'm sure you noticed what was taboo then isn’t always taboo now. Being happy, even momentarily, in whatever way a person can is expected of people. You know how much people in the railroad have each other’s backs, right? A lot of people were together.” Nora looked shocked and she knew it. 

“I never noticed.” Nora mumbled. 

“Well, you know, when a hot lady busts into your base in the fanciest power armor you’ve ever seen and a goddamn plasma rifle, and instead of opening fire tells you they wanna help, you let them do what they want and leave out any details until it's pertinent or they ask.” Nora could feel herself growing flustered. Intimidation was nowhere on her mind when she strolled into railroad HQ. She’d followed the trail, and it wasn’t a safe or easy trail. Of course she wore her armor. She did walk around in power armor a lot for the fun of it, she mostly saw it as a more efficient way to traverse the Commonwealth. Before her in her time it was just another piece of military hardware like any amount of the rather absurd guns she now had access to. Stepping into that power armor felt just like the medic armor, and on the battlefield everyone knew what it meant to see medic battlearmor. She never really considered the intimidation factor. Looking back, the only people who reacted like that anymore were minutemen or settlements. It kinda made her want to laugh, thinking about a raider shiting themselves seeing her in her x-2 armor. 

“So wait, who was together?” Nora questioned. 

“Tinker tom, Carrington, Des, and I.” He paused, his grin going bittersweet. “And Glory.”

“I’m sorry Deacon.” Nora held out her hand and Deacon took it gladly. He shook his head but his grin didn’t fall completely. 

“Thank you.” He paused. Nora knew Glory’s loss was a huge hit to the railroad, she didn’t realize the extent to which it impacted its top members personally. Everyone was grieving when the institute fell. “But you see what I mean. Happiness doesn't always last long, so if someone out here wants to love someone else no matter how complex we do it, no questions asked.” Piper snorted. “Well, some questions asked.” He added. “The problem is never really the number, but prejudice is still alive and well. A person would have an easier time keeping a harem than publicly being in a loving relationship with a synth, ghoul, or any other non-humanoid.” Nora nodded solemnly. 

“Not to say that isn’t worth the risk.” He mentioned. “If you ask me any of it's worth it, however long it lasts.”

“So, Piper,” Nora started. “You’re- You’re saying that I can… or should, uh.”

“I’m not telling you to do anything Blue. I'm saying, we’re all saying, I think, that if you want something you should have it.” 

Nora took a moment to think. Did it really matter what Nate or anyone from her past really thought? If they didn’t care that she was a widowed mother from a clearly different culture than the rest of them, then why should she? 

“You think real loud Fixer” Deacon spoke up, apparently unwilling to go too long without attention on him. He lifted her hand and pressed a kiss to her palm, looking at her and taking a deep breathe. His gaze seemed focused on hers, as if daring her to look away. 

“You” Nora started, shifting her jaw as she measured her words, praying her flustered mind wouldn’t say something too stupid. She turned her gaze to Piper. “-You all, feel this way?”

“Why not bring them in? Let them tell you themselves.” Piper looked pleased, and rather mischievous. Nora paused, glanced back at Deacon, and nodded. Piper strolled back to the door before throwing it open. “Why don’t you all come tell Blue what we came her to tell her. A quick shuffle of feet brought most of her friends into her room, pulling over her desk chairs and sitting on the edges of her bed and other furniture to make room in her room. 

“So,” Nora panicked a bit over what to say. She felt many gazes on her, and her eyes inevitably fell to her lap. “You all feel this way towards me?”

“What way?” Cait teased, having claimed the spot on the bed to the right of Nora. She heard Deacon snicker before Hancock spoke up. 

“Yeah sunshine, how do we feel about you?” 

Nora felt a bit conceited even entertaining the idea that this many people would fancy her, but here they all were, in her bedroom telling her as much. Damn, how did this many people like her like that? Eight people? “You like me?” She spoke it as a question. Some of them laughed at her response, Cait included. 

“Way more than like, love. You’re in my dreams, especially the naughty ones.” Cait leaned over to speak gently in her ear. 

“I second that” Hancock raised his hand with a grin, apparently enjoying whatever look Nora had on her face while she processed perhaps the most flustering thing possible being said to her. 

“My favorite dreams are spent covering your six when you’re wearing that tight ass blue suit” Macreedy spoke from his place leaned against the wall. 

“I’ve had that same dream” Danse spoke with a smirk.

“God, don’t get me started on that suit” Piper sighed wistfully. 

“We may need to lay off before we give our poor girl an aneurysm” Nick nodded towards Nora, her eyes big, face red, and utterly speechless. Preston nodded solemnly from beside Nick. 

“We can’t overwork her” Preston warned with a tone of authority. Curie, having climbed onto the bed behind Nora, touched a cold hand to the back of Nora’s neck and Nora nearly jumped out of her skin. 

“She is greatly flushed” Curie concurred, her hand not leaving Nora's skin. 

“Oh, she’s fine” Deacon spoke, playing with her hand held between his. “She wasn’t too flustered to have some fun before we showed up. Isn’t that right Nora?” Nora tried to pull her hand back, but Deacon held it fast, pressing a kiss to the finger she had used to feel herself. She swore she felt his tongue flick out and touch her skin. 

“I just-” 

“Wanted to know what it felt like?” Deacon finished for her. The bed creaked as Hancock grabbed the footboard of the bed and leaned over it. 

“Do you want some help with that sweetheart?” Hancock asked with mirth in his voice. 

Nora felt herself work her jaw, finding the right words. “ I like you all like that, but I don’t really have the experience and I don’t know how well I’ll-” Deacon squeezed her hand as Curie wrapped her arms around her waist and began pressing kisses to the side of her neck with an excited giggle, with Cait seconds after doing her best to pull nora to her and press kisses under her chin. Nora had to fight down a rather undignified noise at the attention. 

“We don't need you to do or be anything Blue. You’ve already done a lot. We just need you to tell us what you want. Now, do you want us?” Piper walked over to Nora, fingers lifting he chin a touch to give Cait more room for her conquest. 

“Y-yes” Nora croaked out. 

“Do you want us to make you cum?” Piper looked her in the eye in a way that turned the butterflies in her chest into something warm and intense pooling in her gut. She was suddenly very aware of her heartbeat. Nora swallowed before answering.

“Yes” 

“All of us?” Piper clarified. 

“I-” Nora paused. Would doing this make her a whore? Did stuff like that matter anymore? She can’t have sex with eight people in one night, she wasn’t sure her body could take it. “I can’t have, -Can’t have sex with eight people in one night.” She spoke worridly, and suddenly felt very embarrassed at the laughter that bubbled up at her response. 

“Baby, she said make you cum, not have sex.” Cait clarified. 

Nora furrowed her brow. “What’s the difference?” Curie suddenly pulled her back onto the bed. Deacon let go of her hand in favor of leaning over and grabbing her ankle. 

“Why don’t you let us show you?” Cait leaned over and licked a stripe up Nora’s neck, forcing a gasp from her. 

“Fuck” She heard Preston mutter somewhere off to the side of her. 

She felt a sudden tug at her hair, and Cait forced her head up to lock their lips together. Cait quickly pressed a tongue into her mouth, and when Deacon leaned over and slowly pushed her shirt up she let out a particularly undignified noise into Cait’s mouth. Nora wasn’t sure when she closed her eyes, but she opened them in shock when two pairs of lips began working over her stomach. Looking down, Deacon was running his hands over her ribs, pressing kisses to her sternum and inching her shirt ever higher with his nose. She was suddenly all too aware of the noises around her.

“Fuck baby” Below him Hancock had climbed his way onto the bed and began kissing down over her belly to where the waistband of her shorts rested. Curie pulled Nora further onto the bed, lying back and resting Nora’s head on her chest. Many hands maneuvered her body into what they deemed an acceptable position. 

“Good girl” Deacon praised. Her hands were pulled over her head as her shirt was stripped from her, and with another breathtaking kiss stolen by Piper she lost her shorts and underwear. 

“So pretty Blue” Piper remarked, moving down her body and sliding a hand up her thigh. She hardly had a moment to be embarrassed at her naked state in front of her mostly clothed friends when Preston and Piper each took a leg and pulled them apart, kissing and biting as they wished at her flesh. She nearly jumped at the contact and fought back a yelp of surprise. With Cait occupied with her mouth and neck, Danse and Nick had their fun with her breasts, palming and rolling her till Nora let slip whimpers. 

“Don’t hold back that voice baby, let us hear you” Deacon encouraged. Deacon took hold of her hand once more, and she could feel kisses pressed to her fingertips. Macreedy stole her other hand, lacing his fingers with hers and running a thumb over the back of her hand. 

“I want you to sing for me sunshine” Hancock returned to his place nestled between her legs and Nora was glad for something to hold on for dear life to. Cait pulled away, yanking her head back so that Curie could kiss her forehead and so that she may return to kissing and licking Nora’s neck. Nora let out a groan, deep and gutteral and she felt herself arch into Curie’s grip around her waist.  Hancock began running a hand over her, sliding just over her entrance and back up to her clit before repeating his path, and Nora couldn’t help but whimper each time he traced his path, the movement accompanied with a wet clicking sound. 

Nora immediately felt embarrassed at her noises, doubly so when Nick pointed out her blush spread to her chest while he toyed with her pebbled nipples. However, looking up at her, well, she wasn’t sure what to call them right now, she felt a little less embarrassed when she realized they all seemed to be feeling even more aroused than her. And oh, she could see-, Danse and Preston, pleasuring themselves to her. She could hear Cait grunting against her throat and a light squelching sound that didn’t seem to be coming from what Hancock was doing to her. They were making noises right along with her. 

Hancock slid a finger into her and she couldn’t help but wiggle her hips at the pleasure he was forcing upon her. He began thrusting, sliding in another finger before lowering his head and sucking. Nora had never felt anything like it and she damn Near screamed while he hummed atop her. Piper and Preston had to force her down where her legs met her hips to stop her from bucking away from the onslaught of pleasure Hancock was causing with his every move.

“I don’t know how you can be this cute and so damn strong” Preston mused as he held down her hips. He nipped at the skin of her inner thigh in mock punishment and a shudder ran through her. Nora began registering the growing states of undress of her friends. It just wasn’t fair how hot they were. It honestly felt like they were toying with her.

“Taking this so well” Cait paused her onslaught of kisses to whisper praise behind her ear. She could feel Hancock’s tongue work at her, felt the little puffs of air over her mound as he grunted into her flesh, and damn if the noises he made didn’t make it feel all the better. Nora had never felt anything like this before. With Nate, sex, it felt intimate but without fanfare. This, Nora felt like she could hardly stand it. Her toes curled, a heat in her belly got heavier by the moment, and it left Nora damn near sobbing at the pleasure of it. She had never heard anything like the noises she was making, it was involuntary and visceral with every suck and thrust. 

“You’re shaking like a leaf doll” Nick spoke as he smoothed a hand over her ribcage. 

“You’re feeling good?” Curie questioned her. She gripped the hands holding hers with a deathgrip and moaned when Hancock added a third finger. She nodded aggressively and was rewarded with a flurry of kisses wherever she was being held down. Her legs began shaking when Hancock picked up the pace, and the heat in her stomach coiled. She had no control, nor much awareness of the noises she was making at this point. Despite being held down, with the pleasure she was experiencing and the praise from her friends rolling around in her head she almost felt like she was floating. 

“Please what?” Danse asked with a rough squeeze of her nipple. Coming back to reality a bit, Nora realized during her whimpering and moaning she had started to beg. Please what indeed. 

“I-” Nora panted through another string of moans. Hancock was too skilled at this. “I don’t know”. 

“She’s gonna cum” Cait giggled into the skin under her chin. 

“Fuck” Piper cussed, looking down her body Nora realized that everyone was either watching what Hancock was doing to her or watching her face. While holding her down, most of them were working at themselves too and she couldn’t tell if it was embarrassing or arousing.

“Cum for us baby” 

“Give us a show doll” 

“Good Girl”

 The coil building in her gut suddenly got more and more intense in a way Nora was unprepared for. She hardly had a moment to register her shock at this new bodily experience when It all came down suddenly, like being hit with a ton of bricks straight to the brain.

“Oh, Oh FUCK!” Nora screamed out, body convulsing and head flying back. Her eyes closed but her vision went white. White hot pleasure shocked through her, before turning into waves of bliss. When she opened her eyes she felt like she was floating. She felt curie tucking strands of hair behind her ears. Hancock worked her slower and lighter till she shook. Looking down she met his eyes and his hands and mouth finally left her with an embarrassing pop and a slight smirk before taking the fingers that were within her and sucking them into his mouth with a pleased groan. Nora could only whimper and close her eyes. She faintly heard the moans of some of her friends, felt Cait shake and groan into the crook of her neck. 

“So, how was the first orgasm of your life?” Deacon teased, himself sounding a bit out of breathe. All Nora could manage was a grunt in response, apparently enough for him as he and some others began chuckling. 

The world seemed to come more into focus as she took some deep breaths. What did this mean now? She’d never felt like that before, her friends went out of their way to make sure she felt like that. They enjoyed making her feel like that. 

“You did so well” Piper praised, and many kisses brought Nora out of her thought process. Piper sided up to Nora, shoving Danse out of the way. Cait took the cue to so the same to Nick, and Nora was suddenly being held by three women. 

“You guys are hogging her” Deacon whined, making movements to tug Nora his way and tuck his face into her neck. 

“Says the guy who wasn’t shoved off” Danse ran a hand over her hip.

“Are you feeling okay?” Maccredy checked in on her. Maccready sat down on the bed next to Cait and began playing with Nora’s hair. Nora nodded. She felt boneless. It felt like her veins were buzzing. Beside her, she could hear whatever kept Nick running humming loudly.

“Any words?” Preston teased, rubbing at her ankle. 

“-Wow” Was all she could manage. Giggles erupted around her. Nora tried to get her thoughts straight. “So, what now?” 

“Like I said” Piper spoke up. “Whatever you want.”

“And- You all feel like that?” Nora checked, looking around at her friends, or were they lovers now? That’s a lot of lovers. 

“Yep”

“Whatever you want baby” A chorus of agreements spoke up. Nora looked around, only to see those that were silent nodding. 

“So I guess that just begs the question Blue, what do you want?” Piper questioned, and damn was that a hard line of questioning. What did she want? Piper talked about this all like it could be a casual thing, but would they be down for what she actually wanted from them? They all had lives to live, despite what she’s built here. Nora took a steadying breathe. 

“I want us to be family” Nora spoke. “Like Shawn and Nate and I were, but bigger.” She felt a bit afraid of what they would say, suddenly very aware of her nakedness in comparison to her mostly clothed lovers. 

“Oh Blue” Piper raised a hand to Nora’s face. “That sounds perfect to me.” 

“I like the sound of that” Preston spoke with a smile. 

“Me too” Maccready. 

“Oh, vhe vill be zhe best family!” Curie spoke cheerfully, squeezing Nora around the waist. “I can make you packed lunches vith little notes and you vhill have to kiss me before you leave for vork”. Nora couldn’t help but giggle at the image. Before the war, that’s what she was expected to do. Now her synth, doctor, girlfriend? Wife? Did she just propose? How did that even work in the wasteland? 

“I can’t think of anything I would want more sunshine.” Hancock spoke with a grin. 

“Wait, did I just propose to you guys?” Nora spoke with an amount of shock. “How does this even work nowadays?” 

“Well, considering you currently are the head of government, unless you want to join a religion or go do paperwork at diamond city, if we all agree to it that’s a marriage”. Nick explained. 

“Oh god” Nora threw her head back and closed her eyes with a long-suffering sigh. “I’m the government and I married y'all after we had sex once. Why is the law like this?” Her companions quickly dissolved into laughter. 

“Well I’m definitely not complaining” Deacon reassured. 

“Me either” Spoke Nick. 

“Isn’t this fast?” Nora asked. “I mean, I’ve been unfrozen maybe four years”. 

“People feel lucky to be able to spend even a year straight at a time with those they love. People marry fast.” Deacon explained. 

“Things move slower in the brotherhood, but I’ve known you over two years, and you’ve saved my life multiple times. Unless a brother has taken a vow of chastity, that’s more than enough time to decide to marry for them, and a lot of the wasteland considers them prudes.” Danse spoke up. 

“So as long as we love you, and you love us, you could call us married. Or fiances, or dating, the label doesn't matter. I just know that I love you sunshine, I think we all do. Do you love us?” Hancock asked. 

Nora felt very warm, surrounded by people she cared for, people who made her feel safe, people she would die for. She couldn’t help the small smile creeping on her face. “I love you all too.” She sighed. “I like the sound of married. I like the promise of it. But I think I’d want to do a ceremony or something. And I- I also want what you guys want. If we’re gonna call this that, we’re in this together, right?” 

Amid many agreements and sounds of excitement and some of the best cuddles Nora had experienced in her life, Cait leaned forward to whisper in her ear; “I want to eat my wife’s pussy till she screams for me again. Care to make that happen, love of mine?” 

Nora could feel the flush all the way down her chest. “Now what did you say to her Cait?” Maccredy questioned.

[freesia-writes]

Ch 17: Graffiti

~ Master List ~ Previous Chapter ~ WC: 2.7k

“You really don’t need to be doing this,” Omega said quietly, her face downcast as she dipped her rag in the small, soapy bucket of water. “I’m the one who messed up.” She continued rubbing at the carelessly spray painted stucco wall, watching the bright colors slowly fade beneath the cleaning solvent. 

“We all mess up,” Lyra answered soothingly, scrubbing in circles with her own brush. “You never ‘arrive’. Or you might feel like you do, and then something swipes your legs out from under you or you do something stupid again.” She chuckled, glancing at the girl to see if her words were helpful or discouraging. “But you’re smart and kind, and your heart is in the right place. That’s what matters.”

“This didn’t seem so smart or kind.”

“Well, you clearly have the right perspective now, so I think you can chalk it up to a lesson learned and move on.”

“Hm.”

They cleaned in silence for a while, side by side in front of the small, flat wall of one of the square island homes on the outside of the Town Square. A barely-recognizable (and wildly crass)artistic rendition of Sy Snootles was slowly disappearing as they chipped away at it little by little. 

“Sometimes we beat ourselves up because we feel like it makes up for it,” Lyra offered, and Omega nodded in response, rubbing her hair out of her face for a moment before continuing her task. 

“I just don’t get how I can simultaneously know that it’s stupid and yet get carried right along in it.”

“It’s hard to go against the flow.”

“Yeah, I guess so. I’m not exactly one who has ever really fit in anywhere though.”

“I think your brothers would disagree,” Lyra suggested, touching her elbow in a brief pause. A slight warmth appeared on Omega’s face, and she nodded again, pressing her lips together as she stepped back to look at their progress. 

“It all happened so fast,” she said, looking at the colorful vandalism that she’d been coerced into the night before. “And I don’t know where the idea even came from, but suddenly we were all just… Ugh.” 

“Can I offer an old lady sentiment that might help in future situations?” 

Omega laughed, returning to her scrubbing, “You’re not an old lady.”

“Alright, well… Just remember this. Nothing good happens after midnight.”

They shared a quiet chuckle, each nodding with their own understanding of the adage as they continued their cleaning in silence. 

Hunter sighed from where he was leaning against the building across the street, having approached to check on Omega but pausing as he sensed a sort of intimacy occurring between the two. He’d hung back, listening to their words as best he could to ensure he wasn’t interrupting something important. A deep gratitude settled in his heart as he heard Lyra’s gentle encouragement, and he shifted from one foot to the other, unsure if he should even make an appearance at this point. But he did have something he wanted to say to Omega, and the sooner the better, as he felt bad for the way he’d reacted when he’d found out about her ill-fated shenanigans.

She probably wouldn’t have shared it with him in the first place, but Omega had arrived at their cabin in the wee hours of the morning, sniffling so loudly as she headed for bed that Hunter had to investigate. She’d been overwhelmed with remorse, partly because of her participation in unsavory activities, but mostly because when they had finished spray painting the side of the house, a few of the kids had thrown the paint cans at the wall in triumph. Their shortsighted actions had resulted in the homeowner coming out to see what the fuss was, and his appearance had solidified her realization that this sort of thing was not what she wanted to be about. 

“He was so old and frail,” Omega was telling Lyra now, voice quivering with miserable remembrance. “He shuffled out here and saw all of this, and his face just fell. It was awful. The others ran away, but I just… I couldn’t. He looked at me and was so sad. He asked why we did this, and I couldn’t answer him. I just promised I’d make it right. I commed the other kids this morning to help clean it up, and they either laughed at me or ignored it.”

“Because they’re idiots,” Hunter said, appearing behind them without warning. Lyra startled a bit, flinging soap bubbles across her skirt as her hand jerked the brush she’d just dipped in the bucket.

“Do you make a habit of sneaking up on people?” she asked, a smile diffusing the mild indignation in her voice. 

“Usually just animals,” he winked, then looked at Omega. “How’s it goin?”

“Fine,” she said quietly, not meeting his gaze. Lyra looked back and forth between the two, picking up on the discomfort, and turned to continue her scrubbing, slowly moving down the wall to give them some space. 

“Hey, listen…” Hunter began, running a hand through his hair and resting it awkwardly on the back of his neck for a moment. 

“Please don’t lecture me,” Omega said abruptly, rubbing the wall harder with her rag. “I feel bad enough already.”

“No… That’s not… No,” he fumbled, shaking his head and dropping his hand to his side. “I uh… I’m sorry. You were already sad about it, and I jumped down your throat… I was just… I don’t know, I hate that these kids can cause you so much trouble.”

“Ah,” she said in quiet revelation, slowing her vigorous scrubbing a bit as she began to register his unspoken fears and the deep care he held for her. “Yeah. It’s messy sometimes.”

“I can see that,” he attempted, stepping back to look at what was left of the so-called artwork: the bottom half of the Pa'lowick singer in a very embellished style. “You guys really went for it, eh?”

“Ugh,” Omega said with a roll of the eyes. 

“This part here is particularly notable,” Lyra remarked quietly, gesturing at the ample, curvaceous buttcheeks that they’d given the otherwise flat-bottomed entertainer. “It feels a little weird rubbing them so hard.” Her deadpan delivery made both Hunter and Omega chuckle, and he went to stand behind Lyra, admiring the creation. 

“I think you missed a spot,” he teased, pointing over her shoulder to what looked like a few exaggerated hairs that would have been poking out of an obscene place. “Better get in there.” Lyra shot him a look, meeting his eyes with an initial flash of humorous challenge, but it quickly melted into an amused admiration that Omega couldn’t have missed if she wanted to. The young girl’s eyes flickered from her to Hunter, whose sharp features were similarly relaxed and warm, and she bent over the cleaning bucket with a small smile. 

“You might as well make yourself useful if you’re gonna stand here and critique our work,” Omega announced, tossing Hunter an extra rag after she’d squeezed it out. He didn’t expect it to come flying his way so quickly, yet he did indeed catch it, though not without his tight grasp sending a splotch of soapy water across his chest. With a grumble in Omega’s direction and a mockingly stern grin at Lyra in response to her laughter, he found his own spot on the wall and began to help. 

They fell into thought-filled silence for a while, working slowly and steadily until the graffiti was almost gone. A few stubborn spots remained, and Omega paused, stretching her arms out in different directions to refresh them a bit. Lyra gave her a pat on the back and a reassuring nod when the girl met her gaze, returning it with a small smile of her own. 

“Next time they try to make me do something stupid, I’m gonna tell them to stuff it,” Omega resolved, ignoring the approving snicker from Hunter. 

“It’s so hard, especially in the moment,” Lyra commiserated. “It took me years, and… Well… I still don’t think I’m very good at standing up for myself.” Hunter snuck a glance at her out of the corner of his eye, his mind wandering to her attractive coworker who had the gall to regale her with his sordid tales of sexual escapades. 

“You seem to be pretty calm about everything,” Omega observed. “It makes you look confident.” 

“Oh gosh,” Lyra laughed, tossing her braid back over her shoulder to look at the girl with an openness on her face. “I’m glad it comes across that way. I just… I don’t want to get into anything with anyone, and I don’t think my opinions are particularly life-changing, so… Not a lot of need to make myself big or forceful for any reason. It’s easier to just do your own thing, I guess.”

“Don’t you get lonely?”

Lyra hesitated, thrown off by the girl’s uncanny way of zeroing in on a tender point. She considered her words, slowly moving her brush back and forth against the wall and taking a moment to reflect so that she could answer honestly. “Yes,” she said simply, the depth of emotion behind her words creating a flurry of feelings in Hunter. “There are people that were very special to me who are no longer in my life. I connected with them so deeply that it makes other relationships seem pale in comparison. But I suppose that might be my own tainted perspective…” 

“Yeah, people seem to change once you get to know them,” Omega said, thinking of her own shifting relationships with her friends. “Or they want you to change.”

“I used to be more… flexible,” Lyra admitted. “When I was young and in school, I wanted to do whatever it took to be included. To not be made fun of. I also thought it was super fun to take risks, try new things, and be whoever they wanted me to be on any given day. Eventually, it started to feel a little empty, because there were very few constants in my life, so it was like… who am I, at the core? I realized my identity was dependent on ‘them’, and who even is ‘them’? The most outspoken people, who I later realized were just the most insecure… and they depended on mockery and false confidence to make themselves feel superior.” She paused, looking back at the girl. “Sorry, I’m talking a lot.”

“No, keep going,” Omega encouraged. “It’s tragically relatable.”

“Tragically,” Lyra echoed with a chuckle. “I mean, that’s basically it. I didn’t understand until I was a little older that it was my choice to let their opinions matter to me or not. Once I stopped caring, there was a sort of freedom. But, it took me a long time to get there – I was already an adult, and I was out of that environment where you’re forced to be around these people all day. Anyway… This probably isn’t helpful, but a potential encouragement to you might be the fact that the rest of your year is more site-based than classroom-based, so you don’t have to be around the herd mentality as much.”

They continued chatting, slowly fading from school talk to random life things, and Hunter remained quiet. He found his eyes wandering across the hunch of Lyra’s back as she finished scrubbing off the last bit of alien foot, and his hand twitched at his side at the sight of the little pieces of hair that had fallen from her braid to tickle the side of her face instead. He was moved by her vulnerability and authenticity, and it was causing a surprising reaction within.

“Ohh, look at that! It hasn’t been so bright since it was brand new!” a frail voice broke through, and its owner soon made an appearance, tottering along in his slow, steady gait. “Thank you, young lady.”

“I’m sorry it happened in the first place,” Omega said, moving back in satisfaction as she checked the entire wall for any remaining paint. 

“Well thank you for making it right. That’s more than your friends could say for themselves,” the elderly man remarked. 

“Yes sir,” she agreed, packing up her cleaning supplies. They exchanged some polite pleasantries and eventually parted ways, Omega heading home for a shower and nap, Hunter and Lyra finding themselves immediately lost in a random conversation as they leaned on the low stone wall across the street. He laughed heartily at something she said, surprising himself with the openness of his delight, then slowly quieted, regarding her with an almost bashful admiration. His face grew serious, watching her stare down the street at the people milling about, and he wondered where her mind was. His own was in a few places at once, the internal conflict driving him crazy. Following her gaze, he scanned the cobblestoned path, idly noting every gap and bump in the road as he mulled everything over, frowning in concentration.

“Hunter?” her low voice jerked him from his reverie, and a little wave of tingles ran down his body as he lightly touched his arm, pulling her hand back when he turned to look at her a little too quickly. “Sorry,” she continued, glancing down and away. “I just wondered what you were up to for the rest of the day?”

“Well, I’ve got some things to finish up in the shop,” he said, almost regretfully. He stood up straight, absently adjusting his shirt, then looked at her with a renewed intensity. “And then… Uh… Would you like to go for a walk?” 

“Always,” she answered with a smile. “Meet at the edge?” They’d developed a habit of starting their walks from the point between their houses where the sloping meadows met The Forest. But he shook his head, fidgeting with his fingers.

“I wanted to try something different, if you’re up for it,” he admitted, kicking himself at his sudden sheepishness. “I’ll meet you at your fence?”

“Oh, sure,” she nodded. “Sounds good.” 

“Ah, so this is why you aren’t in your shop!” Wrecker’s voice broke through as he approached from a side street. “I’ve had about four people ask me if I knew where you were. Why isn’t your comm on?” 

“Must have forgotten…” Hunter muttered, shooting Lyra a quick smirk. 

“Oh suuuure,” Wrecker laughed, clapping Hunter on the back. “You retire and you think you can just slack off…” He drifted off in response to the sharp look from Hunter and began backtracking as best he could. “I mean, retire from the last job… And don’t take this one too seriously… You know. Anyway, hi Lyra! How are you?”

“I’m alright, Wrecker,” she said with a chuckle, gasping for air as he trapped her arms against her sides in a big hug before releasing her and stepping back to admire the two of them standing beside each other. 

“I sure am glad you two are dating,” Wrecker declared, unabashed glee across his face. “You’re just adorable together.” Hunter’s blush was partly covered by his tattoo, but the speed at which his hand flew to awkwardly rub his neck was a bit of a giveaway. Lyra similarly shifted on her feet, clasping her arms together across her front then releasing them.

“We’re… We’re just friends,” she deflected, staring at the ground too hard to notice Wrecker’s eyebrows climbing up his forehead or the quick furrowing of Hunter’s brow before he hid it behind a carefully neutral expression.

“Oh. Really?” Wrecker stammered. “Ahh, I mean. Yeah. I’m glad you’re friends. Welp, I’ll see you later!”

“Later,” Hunter echoed, turning to Lyra. “I’ll see you later tonight?”

“Can’t wait,” she smiled, turning demurely to head toward the path to her home. Hunter watched her go, then slowly made his way toward his own, grappling with the undeniable fact that her deflection had somehow rubbed him the wrong way while being equally confused and clueless as to why.

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You lost me at "I love you".

An exploration of my experience with love, romance, and media.

Today, I read the last chapter of the Rain World fanfiction "Seeking You, Stunning Me". It's a good read if you like two gay supercomputers discovering each other and themselves through anonymous chats.

The thing is, despite the ship showcased in the fanfiction being one of my personal faves (platonic or romantic), when the two of them inevitably admitted their feelings to one another, I just... I don't know. It was strange to read them say "I love you" to each other, or give each other a "kiss" (not literally because, well, supercomputers), or describe themselves as "girlfriends". And the pining for each other in the previous chapters just felt... disingenuous?

I will reiterate that I am not disparaging the author in any way over this. Their fic was just the one that got me thinking about this.

And, well... thinking about it, if the explicitly romantic stuff was taken out, if it was just about their blossoming friendship or the romance was left vague... I dunno, would I be less conflicted? Would I have an easier time reading it? Maybe?

There's the same problem with other fanfiction with romantic stuff. I'm fine with the physical affection, the chemistry between two people, but as soon as they say "I love you" that first, definitive time? I just... feel myself disengage, or become a bit uncomfortable. Not enough for me to stop reading, but...

I've... only been in one serious romantic relationship in my life. With a childhood friend, back in high school. He had been dropping hints for a while, but I didn't really register it until he asked me out point blank. I wanted to at least try it. The thing is, my feelings about him never really changed. No romantic spark or 'aha' moment. I tried to be a good partner, but he moved away and we just started talking less and less, until he ultimately pulled the plug on the relationship, feeling like I wasn't meeting his needs. We parted ways respectfully, and though there were a few hiccups, we have both moved on with our lives. I am a bit sad that I lost him as a friend, but from what I can tell he's living out his best life. He's found someone else to love, and for that I'm happy for him.

I kinda wish that romantic relationships weren't so emphasized in media. Simultaneously, I understand the need, especially for queer relationships. I'm a bit wary of this for my own fanfiction, where I'll eventually explore the relationship between the same two characters that were the main subject of SY;SM. I don't want people to feel baited if I don't explicitly say their relationship is or isn't romantic. Right now the relationship is marked as platonic on AO3, but if it does go in a more romantic-y direction, yet I don't call it as such, I'm... worried for how that'll look.

I suppose that's a flaw in AO3 tagging. There are only two options; platonic or romantic. I understand the need to have separate tags, but they are... quite cut and dry. Not a lot of room for nuance.

I don't know where I'm going with this to be honest. Just my experience being an acespec and arospec person, I guess.

[toothextractions]

i am full on just rambling extremely hard about mike and mal relationship/timeline thoughts under the cut because i have lots of thoughts on them all the time and i just got carried away. you don’t have to read this is slop!!!!! also i’m super biased towards mal because i’m evil but i love mike too don’t take this as me making him a villain . also i’m super biased towards a specific dynamic between them sorry

scratching my head. i think a lot about the relationship between mike and mal and how complex it could be and already is. i think about mal’s last lines in all stars a lot. i think a lot about their possible history together. were they ever friends? were they brothers? when did they hate start? the timeline in my head is pretty clear but i know there’s a thousand ways of going about it. i picture them both young and going through absolute nightmare scenarios with their family, their abusers. i picture mal comforting mike in headspace and telling him ‘it’s time to sleep for a while’ before taking front to take all the punches and torment. i picture something happening one day, and regardless of what actually happened, or who did what, it was something to protect the system because they were getting older and could not handle the suffering every single day. and it got them sent to juvie.

i think we’re all pretty certain that mal hosted for most of juvie. “he ran the place” but he was also just a scared little kid trying to protect himself and the others he shared the brain with. he found out that if you’re scary enough, mean enough, if you punch first, people will listen. they’ll leave you alone, at least. the pain won’t be so bad. he realized he could protect his system like this and if being big, scary, mean, VIOLENT, just like how people were to them, was what it took? he would absolutely keep doing it. it’s not like he could trust anybody in this place. or anyone, ever. never. nobody had ever shown him that they could be trusted.

i imagine mike had a big, big problem with ending up in juvie. and when they got out something in-sys happened, mal was locked away, maybe it was a combined effort. mike was still the “main guy” at this point, y’know? it was HIS body. he wasn’t going to respect the wishes of these unwanted intruders that he didn’t fully understand. all he knew is that his life had been taken over, that his days kept falling away from him and it was all because of these stupid guys in his brain. it was fucking up his record, his reputation, any type of relationship he tried to have with people. i think mal grew so much resentment to mike in the years that mal was locked away. wondering what mike was doing. thinking to himself, “i took all those punches to protect him and this is the thanks i get?” while mal slowly became a memory to mike. NOTHING to him. like he never existed. and mike kept having problems with the rest of his system fronting while unwanted.

i think they once loved each other. when they were really small. i think they shared a dynamic, like, big bro mal taking all the hits for his little brother mike. and by the time we’re finished all stars i think it’s very obvious that that has switched. mike sees mal as smaller. he is incredibly childish isn’t he? he sees him as a part that he doesn’t need anymore. as if all that torment never happened. as if mal wasn’t holding onto it this whole time. and mal feels smaller, too. i imagine him looking up at mike and he finally starts to recognize just how much older they are now. he’s seen how mike’s aged a bit. and he’s scared. he’s terrified and he’s unwanted and he did all this shit on all stars simultaneously to ruin mike’s relationships out of revenge, but also to push the untrusted away. and mike has never understood any of mal’s actions. he’s only ever seen him as a hinderance- not like the others, which he grew to accept and love. which he’ll miss (regarding the button that i fucking hate!!)

why did mike grow to accept the others and not mal? was mal just always bad, from day 1? was this his purpose? to be a punching bag and mean and a villain, then tossed out? it was unfair. it was all unfair. poor mal. feeling so much smaller now. so weak. so miserable. and the guy he formed to protect was staring him down with hate he’s never seen before. the guy he once wanted to keep safe from all of the torture the world had to offer them. they’re looking at each other and he knows it might be the last time they do. and then it all gets real real quiet again

ouuuughhhhhghh. ok whatever i cant continue because i’d get into my typical post-all-stars mal revival au concepts also this is complete slop anyways

[headmate-ideas]

Our sys explorers might have a new guy aboard,,,,,, May we get a pack for a bigender headmate who's some sort of aethereal/supernatural species and travels around worlds in the system ? If possible, we'd like all add ons (or as much as you're inspired/willing to do) minus role & role performance 👉👈 Tysm ! (We're bodily 18+ and disabled cane users, if that could be reflected that'd be cool but obviously no pressure !!!)

[This template contains adult themes. Minors DNI!]

[Brought to you by: Mods Klaus, Chem, and Perzoreth!]

☄️ HEADMATE TEMPLATE 🖥️

✦ Name(s): Omian, Comet, Zovi ✦ Pronouns: it/its, xi/xir/xirs/xirself, x/xs/xself, ae/aer/aers/aerself, vae/vaer/vaers/vaerself, fae/faer/faers/faerself ✦ Species: nature spirit ✦ Age: ageless adult ✦ Labels: bigender, genderthing, aetherine, wilderic, kenochoric, aroallo, aegoromantic, orchidromantic, pansexual ✦ Xenos: comets, coldness, silver ✦ Likes: late nights, the ocean, dinosaurs ✦ Dislikes: waking up early ✦ Music taste: ethereal ambient, dark ambient, drone metal ✦ Aesthetic(s): voidcore, art deco, after hours ✦ Objectum attraction(s): mobility aids, computer ✦ Kins: void, apatosaurus, blue whales ✦ Color palette: dark purple, indigo, cerulean, mint green ✦ Personality traits: patient, cryptic, gentle ✦ Interests: astronomy, sci-fi horror ✦ Hobbies: hiking, embroidery ✦ Preferences: dark over light, soft over hard ✦ Heart emoji: 🖤, 💜, 💚 ✦ Emoji proxy: ☄️🖥️ ✦ Details:

Omian is an ethereal nature spirit - specifically, the embodiment of a comet in space (as this is part of nature). Its humanoid form is disabled and uses a cane, which xi is objectum for. It can travel to different worlds in the system, disappearing in a glittery teal glow and reappearing in the same whenever it travels.

✦ Personality:

Omian is patient and gentle, although a little cryptic, sometimes saying things that others don't understand. While it is happy to help the system with tasks for which it needs to travel internally, it is also very oriented towards pleasure, and it enjoys sex and especially kink.

✦ Identity:

Omian identifies as a man and a woman simultaneously but uses dehumanizing words like "thing" instead of "person". It is allosexual, but xi finds romance more appealing in xir imagination than in reality.

✦ Interests and hobbies:

Omian, as an outer space nature spirit, enjoys both learning about outer space and about nature. It watches documentaries about space and goes to nature trails. It also likes embroidery and sci-fi horror movies.

[These can be edited and changed as needed, and headmates will almost definitely not turn out EXACTLY as described.]

[fictive-culture]

rhythm game fictive culture (mostly arcade rhythm game fictive culture) is

being unable to play your source game for several reasons simultaneously (no cabinet near you, arcade loud, game hard, etc)

being either absolutely AWFUL or absolutely BUSTED at your own source game, with little in-between

having to explain stupid names (personal sys example: "yes yes, my name is milk, i like my name a lot, thank you very much :3")

having to explain your source game. every single time. without fail.

occasionally having to explain your specific source, and thus, some of your lore/backstory, no matter how little or how weird and convoluted

most people having no clue where you're from and not knowing how to treat you in response (can be mildly annoying, but mostly understandable)

accidentally recruiting people into the cult of arcade rhythm games (bonus points if you got a zenius link at the ready, all the time, just for this moment)

listening to entire albums at once just to feel like home

not knowing fully how your own world works (could you even call it a world, sometimes??)

occasional intense loneliness. :((

.

[tricks-n-illusions]

[Character Tag] - Silas? - Little Fox

Name: Fox or Little Fox (Silas Rune) (Pronounced: Sy-Las) Home Universe: U-8 - East Mouth Current Universe: U1-22 - The Zoroark Shrine Status/Trainer: Caught Pokemon - North Varron Seance Pronouns: He/Him Type of Pokemon: Zorua/Nickit Hybrid

Age: Child/Teen - [12 Years Old] Height: 2'8" (81 cm) Deity Pact: Giratina Spzd. Move: 

Illusion [Ghost] - The Pokémon fools opponents by disguising itself as any of the Pokémon in its Trainer’s party.

Moveset:

Quick Attack [Normal]: The user lunges at the target at a speed that makes it almost invisible. This move always goes first.

Thief [Dark]: The user attacks and steals the target’s held item simultaneously. The user can’t steal anything if it already holds an item.

Dark Pulse [Dark]: The user releases a horrible aura imbued with dark thoughts. This may also make the target flinch.

Shadow Ball [Ghost]: The user hurls a shadowy blob at the target. This may also lower the target’s Sp. Def stat.

[Mark of Giratina] - Silas belongs to the deity GIRATINA, his fate is bound to their will.

[Soothe Bell] - [Seance currently has this item] - An item to be held by a Pokémon. It is a bell with a comforting chime that calms the holder and makes it friendly.

[Zorua Everstone] - [Seance currently has this item] - An Everstone given to Silas by North Varron when he was a child. 

Please check Ask-North for previously known facts.

[Defining Traits]

Silas doesn’t seem to be speaking Pokemon or English. He speaks a sub-language of Girarune.

Silas can speak Pokemon but it appears to be a little rough, he tends to pronounce things a bit oddly but you can understand him. 

[Major Facts]

Silas hasn’t heard his actual name in years, he’s often referred to as Fox, Little Fox or the Girarune equivalent of ‘Six’.

Seance seems to have a heavy hold over the fox and even has him completely convinced North doesn't love him. 

[Minor Facts]

N/A

[Important History] - [Present Day]

Seance occasionally allows Silas to see his previous family (North and her Pokemon) but he is forced to use his Illusions to appear as her around them.

[Important History] - [Past]

N/A

[Check main profile for most up-to-date version]

[unogeeks234]

Get Peras SAP HR

Understanding GET PERAS in SAP HR

In SAP Human Resources (HR), the GET PERAS event is a vital tool for retrieving employee data. It interacts with the powerful PNPCE logical database, offering flexibility and efficiency in handling HR information. Let’s explore what GET PERAS is, why it matters, and how to use it effectively.

What is GET PERAS?

GET PERAS is an event within the PNPCE logical database (a structured way to organize complex HR data).

It’s triggered when you need to process data for a group of employees (as opposed to GET PERNR, which focuses on a single employee).

Think of it as a way to say, “Fetch the relevant HR data for this set of employees.”

Why Use GET PERAS?

Optimized Data Retrieval: GET PERAS is excellent for scenarios where you must simultaneously work with data from multiple employees. It helps streamline the process compared to fetching individual employee records.

Logical Database Integration: The PNPCE logical database is designed for complex HR structures. GET PERAS aligns perfectly with this, allowing you to navigate these structures easily.

Performance:  In many cases, GET PERAS can improve the performance of your HR reports and custom programs, especially when dealing with larger datasets.

How to Use GET PERAS

A typical GET PERAS implementation looks like this:

ABAP

NODES: paras.  

TABLES: pernr, pa0001, pa0002 …. ” Add other tables as needed.

GET paras.  

  ” Your data processing logic goes here 

  ” Example:

  LOOP AT paras. 

       READ TABLE pa0001 WITH KEY pernr = peras-pernr. 

       IF sy-subrc = 0.

            ” Process info type 0001 data

       ENDIF.

  ENDLOOP.

Use code with caution.

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Important Considerations

Selection Criteria:  Be mindful of the criteria used to determine the employees you want to process with GET PERAS. This influences the data retrieved.

Infotype Selection: Clearly define the HR info types (categories of HR data, like personal data, organizational assignment, etc.) needed within your GET PERAS block.

Modern Alternatives:  While GET PERAS is still widely used, explore object-oriented approaches with classes like CL_HRASR00_EMPLOYEE_SEARCH for potentially cleaner and more maintainable HR programming.

In Conclusion

GET PERAS is a powerful instrument within the SAP HR programmer’s toolkit. Understanding its use, strengths, and best practices will empower you to build efficient and robust HR data processing solutions.

You can find more information about  SAP HR in this  SAP HR Link

 

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Virtual machine privacy

Title: Protecting Your Privacy in Virtual Machines: Essential Tips and Best Practices

In today's digital age, privacy is paramount, especially when it comes to virtual environments. Virtual machines (VMs) offer numerous benefits, allowing users to run multiple operating systems on a single physical computer. However, ensuring privacy within these virtual environments requires careful attention and proactive measures. Here are some essential tips and best practices for safeguarding your privacy in virtual machines.

Use Encrypted VMs: Encrypting your virtual machines adds an extra layer of security by scrambling data, making it unreadable without the decryption key. Many virtualization platforms offer built-in encryption features, which you can enable to protect sensitive information.

Update Regularly: Just like your physical devices, virtual machines require regular updates to patch security vulnerabilities. Keep your VM software, operating systems, and applications up to date to minimize the risk of exploitation by cyber threats.

Implement Network Segmentation: Segmenting your virtual network can help contain security breaches and limit unauthorized access to sensitive data. Utilize firewalls and virtual LANs to separate different parts of your virtual infrastructure and control traffic flow.

Employ Antivirus and Antimalware Software: Install reputable antivirus and antimalware software within your virtual machines to detect and remove malicious software. Regularly scan your VMs for potential threats and take immediate action to mitigate any risks.

Backup Your Data: Accidents happen, and data loss can occur unexpectedly. Implement a robust backup strategy for your virtual machines to ensure you can recover important information in case of a security incident or system failure.

Monitor VM Activity: Keep a close eye on the activity within your virtual machines by monitoring logs, network traffic, and system performance. Detecting unusual behavior early can help prevent security breaches and unauthorized access.

Limit Access: Restrict access to your virtual machines only to authorized users. Implement strong authentication methods such as multi-factor authentication to prevent unauthorized individuals from gaining entry.

By following these tips and best practices, you can enhance the privacy and security of your virtual machines, ensuring your sensitive data remains protected in today's increasingly interconnected world. Stay vigilant, stay informed, and prioritize privacy in all your virtual endeavors.

VPN vs virtual machine

VPN vs Virtual Machine: Understanding the Difference

In the realm of online security and privacy, both Virtual Private Networks (VPNs) and virtual machines (VMs) play crucial roles, albeit in different ways. Let's delve into the distinctions between these two technologies to understand their unique functions and applications.

A VPN, or Virtual Private Network, is primarily a service that encrypts your internet connection, routing it through a remote server operated by the VPN provider. This encryption ensures that your online activities are shielded from prying eyes, such as hackers, ISPs, or government surveillance. By masking your IP address and encrypting your data, VPNs offer enhanced privacy and security, particularly when accessing public Wi-Fi networks or bypassing geo-restrictions on content.

On the other hand, a virtual machine (VM) is a software emulation of a physical computer, capable of running multiple operating systems (OS) simultaneously on a single physical machine. VMs allow users to isolate software applications and processes, creating a sandbox environment where they can test new software, run incompatible programs, or enhance security by segregating sensitive tasks from the host system.

While both VPNs and VMs provide layers of security and privacy, they serve distinct purposes. VPNs primarily focus on encrypting and anonymizing internet traffic, safeguarding against eavesdropping and data interception. In contrast, VMs offer a broader spectrum of functionality, enabling users to create isolated computing environments for various purposes, including testing software, running legacy applications, or enhancing cybersecurity measures.

In summary, VPNs are instrumental in safeguarding online communications and protecting against external threats, while virtual machines offer versatility and flexibility in managing software environments. Depending on your specific needs and objectives, incorporating both VPNs and VMs into your digital toolkit can enhance your overall cybersecurity posture and privacy protection.

Internet security methods

Internet security is a crucial aspect of our digital age, as individuals and businesses alike are constantly at risk of falling victim to cyber attacks. Implementing effective internet security methods is essential to protect sensitive data and ensure online safety.

One of the most common and important internet security methods is using strong and unique passwords. It is recommended to use a combination of upper and lower case letters, numbers, and special characters to create complex passwords that are difficult to guess. Additionally, using a different password for each online account can prevent a breach in one account from compromising others.

Another essential internet security method is enabling two-factor authentication (2FA) whenever possible. 2FA adds an extra layer of security by requiring users to provide a secondary form of verification, such as a code sent to their mobile device, in addition to their password.

Regularly updating software and operating systems is also crucial for internet security. Software updates often include patches for known security vulnerabilities, so keeping systems up to date can help prevent cyber attacks.

In addition, using a virtual private network (VPN) can enhance internet security by encrypting data transmitted over the internet and masking the user's IP address. This can help protect sensitive information from being intercepted by cyber criminals.

Furthermore, being cautious when clicking on links or downloading attachments in emails can help prevent falling victim to phishing scams and malware attacks.

By implementing these internet security methods and staying informed about the latest threats and best practices, individuals and businesses can better protect themselves from cyber threats and safeguard their online activities.

Virtual machine for anonymous browsing

A virtual machine for anonymous browsing offers a secure way to surf the internet without compromising your privacy. By running a virtual machine on your device, you create a separate operating system environment that is isolated from your primary system. This isolation ensures that your browsing activity within the virtual machine remains private and anonymous.

One of the key advantages of using a virtual machine for anonymous browsing is the ability to create disposable instances. You can set up a new virtual machine for each browsing session, ensuring that no data or cookies are retained once the session is complete. This helps prevent websites and third parties from tracking your online activities and building a profile of your browsing habits.

Additionally, virtual machines can be configured with tools such as VPNs, ad blockers, and encryption software to enhance your anonymity further. VPNs mask your IP address, making it difficult for websites to trace your online actions back to your physical location. Ad blockers help prevent tracking scripts and unwanted advertisements from following you across the web. Encryption software adds an extra layer of security by scrambling your data, making it unreadable to anyone trying to intercept it.

Overall, utilizing a virtual machine for anonymous browsing is a proactive way to safeguard your online privacy. By creating a secure and isolated environment for your internet activities, you can browse the web with peace of mind knowing that your personal information remains protected.

Secure online activities

Engaging in secure online activities is crucial in today's digital world to safeguard personal information and protect against cyber threats. By following certain precautions and best practices, individuals can significantly reduce the risk of falling victim to malicious activities online.

One essential aspect of secure online activities is using strong and unique passwords for different accounts. Passwords should be a combination of letters, numbers, and special characters to enhance their complexity and minimize the chances of being hacked. It is advisable to avoid using easily guessable information such as birthdates or pet names.

Furthermore, ensuring that the software and applications on devices are regularly updated is crucial for security. Updates often contain patches for known vulnerabilities that hackers exploit to gain access to sensitive data. By staying up to date with these updates, individuals can strengthen their defenses against cyber attacks.

Another important measure is to be cautious about sharing personal information online. Cybercriminals often use social engineering techniques to trick individuals into revealing sensitive data. It is essential to verify the identity of the recipient before sharing any personal information over the internet.

In addition, utilizing secure connections such as Virtual Private Networks (VPNs) when accessing public Wi-Fi can help protect data from potential eavesdroppers. VPNs encrypt internet traffic, making it difficult for malicious actors to intercept and misuse sensitive information.

By adopting these practices and being vigilant while navigating the digital landscape, individuals can enjoy a safer online experience and mitigate the risks associated with cyber threats. Protecting personal information and maintaining online security should be a top priority for everyone in today's interconnected world.

[sy-on-boy]

I think Damian would originally be very reluctant to join but he is of course fuming with jealousy and he's like "I'm only joining so I can BEAT all these other kids because I'm a Desmond and I'm the BEST! I don't care about that Forger girl at all!" and everyone is like "sure Damian."

Becky sets up an elaborate quiz in which she makes the boys write poetry about Anya's eyes and quizzes them on appropriate flowers to gift and date ideas (note: she watches too many romance dramas) and Damian fails all of them because because he refuses to be sappy in front of everyone. Damian is internally panicking over the thought of losing Anya while simultaneously understanding his language skills suck and these other boys are better at wooing. All while in constant denial.

Becky was originally rooting for Damian but she gets frustrated because he's not even trying to be romantic. Meanwhile Anya is reading minds and is surprised by how most of her suitors genuinely admire her (vs girls only wanting Damian because of his family). And of course Damian's mind is a mess.

Damian slowly realises he is under-qualified but it's not like he cares, obviously he does not, he does not even remotely think about the Forger girl, he's just embarrassed he's going to get defeated, but it's not like dancing with a commoner is worth fighting for, right? Right?? Maybe he should just step away from this competition so instead of being defeated, it's framed as his choice to not dance with a commoner.

Anya starts panicking at the thought of Sy-on boy leaving (is it because of Plan B 👀 or is it because she wants to dance with him 👀) and hurriedly sets up a question that is worth ten points (so whoever answers correctly will win): what is Anya Forger's greatest secret?

Anya is staring straight at Damian and he's like ???????. Then he remembers she told him she could read minds... is that her greatest secret? But what's the point of asking if people know her secret if she wants to keep it a secret? Damian has enough awareness to not out Anya even if it's a joke. And if she can read minds, she would know he knows.

So Damian lies and says something impossible like "uhhhh Forger likes Bondman so her secret is that she's actually the child of a spy. Or something."

(Across the room, a waiter holding up a tray nearly drops it.)

Since no one can prove what Anya's secret is, Anya declares Damian is the winner (she is very biased) and pulls him away for world peace. And Damian can't even grumble about it after all of the effort he put in. The other boys accuse Damian of cheating. Becky complains that Damian doesn't know how to romance a girl.

As they dance, Damian thinks about Anya's odd final question and how it felt targeted towards him. He tells her he thinks her secret is that she wanted to dance with him as she would accept his answer no matter what it is. Anya is like :D because I want to go to your house! :D and they do the standard bickering.

Damian then calms down and asks why Anya didn't want to dance with the other boys even though they performed better in Becky's trials. Anya says she doesn't care about flowers and poetry. She then asks why he didn't answer with her actual secret that she told him.

Damian of course is like ???? it's a secret??? you DUMMY????? and starts rambling about how mind reading is a not a real thing, and if it is, Anya shouldn't tell anyone because it's dangerous, and it's totally not like he cares about her being in danger. Anya is touched by this and she can tell Damian won't tell anyone (even if he thinks it's a lie).

Now Anya realises Damian knows another secret about her: she truly wanted to dance with Damian. But why? Is it just for world peace? Or is it because it can only ever be him?

Damianya school dance but it’s Damian and the boys fighting to dance with Anya through rigorous trials designed by Becky

[peyton-warren]

Delay of Game- Part 7 of Stick Handling Series

Characters: Walter Marshall, Ari Levinson, briefly Jake Jensen and Syverson

Pairings: Marshall x Reader, Ari x Reader, discuss Jensen x Reader and Sy x reader

Word count: 1496

Reader Gender: Any/Neutral

Type: series, angst

Warning: language, discussion of military deployment, missing loved ones.

Author's Note: This series has evolved from something funny into a bit more drama in this and the next chapter. For simplification purposes this takes place around 2003, and Jensen's theater of operation is the same as the comics (The Middle East) and not the movies.

Summary: Reader misses two of their men, and Walter tries to help them. Secret about Ari becomes apparent. Italics are flashbacks.

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Yesterday, yesterday Ari returned from a month-long trip to New York to help launch a nonprofit company that helped refugees. Yesterday your aggregate celebrated his return with a beautiful dinner, and more than a few bottles. It has been a fun evening. And it made your heart happy that the men around the table cared about each other and enjoyed each other's company.

Today, though, today you feel giant holes in your chest. Two actually. The holes were there yesterday, but today they feel as though they could and would consume you.

With your face pressed into Walter’s t-shirt covered chest, your body aligned along the side of his, you barely hear the soft steps of someone else entering the bedroom. Your soft whines blot out what is said between the men, the comforting smell of Walter drowns out the scent of your favorite tea being delivered by Ari.

You try your best to not play favorites with your partners. However, it is well into the third week since the departure of two thirds of your initial partners, and it is taking a toll on you. You had tried hard to not let it affect you too much, but not knowing and radio silence is wearing on you. You knew it was unfair to lever the bulk of dealing with your emotions on Marshall. But being the very first other man added to your amalgamation, you also knew he wouldn’t have it any other way.

“Why both of them?” you whimper.

The arm across your shoulders tightens, drawing you closer to him. Walter’s fingers ghost over the side of your neck, the sensation soothing you. “They are both good at what they do. The best from what I’ve gathered based on what they have said around us,” he admits unto your hair.

“But why both?" you almost plead, as if Walter had the answers, as if he was the one who deployed them to the Middle East. This isn’t the first time Sy or Jensen were sent out on a mission in the years you had been together. But this is the first time they were simultaneously both summoned. Within 20 minutes of Clay’s call letting Jensen know he had to report ASAP to base, Sy received a similar request from his CO. The look on his face when he met your eyes after reading the caller ID on his phone broke your heart.

Watching Jensen zip his duffle closed as Sy pulled his bag from storage had almost sent you running for the hills. During past missions you had been able to fall back on your other soldier for reassurance that everything would be okay. And even though you knew part of the time they were telling you placating half-truths, at least they felt like a connection to the man missing from your embrace, an understanding you did not have on your own.

But both of them going... You sat on the bed in sullen silence, watching them efficiently pack. Tears brimmed on your lashes, ready to spill at the merest provocation, but you felt like you had to hold them back. You could not let them feel any more guilt than they already, you could see it written plainly across their faces.

A honk from a car outside startled you, making you jump and possibly squeak at the intrusion. “That’s Pooch,” Jake said softly, his eyes watching your every move. Clapping his hand on Sy’s shoulder as he passed, Jake was met with just a singular head nod. “If I don’t see you....” his voice petered off.

Sy’s eyes moved to you before answering. “Always. You too.”

Logically, you knew they were not in the same unit and had vastly different expertises, but hearing that they may not see each other brought both horror and peace to you at the same time. Their theater of operation in the world was always tumultuous, and had been since the beginning of time. Part of you wished Jensen and Sy would be together, have each other's back, but that wasn’t the way this worked. You trusted that Clay would keep Jake safe, and had faith that Sy’s team would do the same for him.

Walter takes a deep breath and tightens his arm around you, seeming to search for the words. He prefaces it with a kiss to your forehead, his lips still pressed to your skin as he attempts to explain.

“Shits.... not good over there,” Ari tries softly when words fail Walter. You froze, having briefly forgotten that Ari still had family and loved ones in the Middle East. You do not miss the crackle in his own voice, making you quickly sit up and make grabby hands at him. You had been so self absorbed and managed to miss how the state of affairs across the world was affecting him.

“I am so very sorry, heartbreaker,” you assert, tears continuing down your face. “Fuck I’m a horrible person,” you admit.

His floofy head just shakes. “Nah, you aren’t, dollface.” He smiles softly at you as he circles the bed, settling next to you, opposite Walter. “You were dealing with your own shit. I can hardly hold that against you.” You draw the overly-understanding man into your arms, pulling him closer, stroking your fingers over his back, shifting your focus from your own stuff to his.

“Then let me hold you against me,” you whisper, with a shy little smile. Ari’s face settles into your neck, his embrace tightening. A gentle squeeze at your hip, signaling Marshall’s leave-taking, is quick and gentle. With lightning speed you wrap your smaller hand around his wrist, keeping him in place, needing him there.

Hesitantly, with an uncertain glance over your shoulder, you settle on the bed, tugging Ari with you while tangling your legs with Walter. The brooding man behind you tenses, and you silently hope he would give you this small but yet huge concession. This is far from the norm for you three. Walter is not the sharing type, but he had found it in himself early in your relationship to accept that you needed the other men in your life, knowing it did not diminish your love or need for him. However he didn’t relish sharing private moments with the others. And you respect that aspect of him, rarely pressuring him into something that made him uncomfortable. But right now, you need your Anchor as much as Ari needs you.

With an uncomplaining and understanding exhale, you feel your bear curl into you, tucking himself around the plains of your back. Squeezing his hand still at your hip in thanks, your other hand strokes through Ari’s hair as the three of you lay in the quiet.

Ari’s arm buried deeper between you and Marshall, his hand landing on your shoulder blade, drawing you closer to him, needing to feel you flush to him, your body cleaving to his. Pressing a kiss to his head, you whisper softly to him, assuring him that everything you were worried about was going to be fine, your mind still swirling with the what ifs that haunted you the past three weeks.... Wait 3 weeks...

“You lying fuck,” you suddenly exclaim, humor coloring your tone, gentle smacking Ari’s shoulder. “You weren’t in New York were you?” He was likely doing work for Mossad somewhere hot and sandy.

Hearing him snort against your neck before he pulls back to look at you, you watch that beautifully impish grin form on Ari’s face as he wipes at the tears on his cheek. He sits up on his elbow, his eyes flicking briefly to look at Walter who you note has his own knowing smile. “And you knew?” you gasp with a soft tone, head shaking.

Walter gives you a half shrug. “Maybe?” he tries before backtracking. “More like I suspected. You do remember what I do for a living, right?”

Laughing, feeling lighter than you had in almost a month, you flop on your back between them, neither of them releasing their stake on you, the air in the room shifting. “I hate you both,” you admit.

“And I’m the fucking liar,” Ari giggles next to you. Without thinking, you cup his cheek and draw his face closer to you. “Just didn’t want you to worry,” he admits softly as your lips brush over his. “Didn’t know what was going on when I was first called.”

Nodding, you deepen the kiss, hand sliding behind his head, holding him tight to you. His hand hooks over your forearm as his tongue slips past your lips, igniting a small spark in you, something you hadn’t felt in weeks. Ari is your one partner who showed no restraint in being intimate with you no matter who was with you, or where you were. With a soft whimper, you try to press closer to Ari, but Walter’s suddenly ironclad hold on your hip made it impossible.

[neonghostcat]

Hundred Winters Grove: Author's Commentary

This is a post that acts as author's commentary for my LiuShen fanfic Hundred Winters Grove.

I'm about to move on to the next project officially and I wanted to write this all down before I forgot!

People who haven't read the story yet might want to do that first, though if you're one of those people who watch a movie for the first time with the Commentary track on, I salute you and support your choices. 🖖

Some of you who've read my work before and left comments that gave me a chance to ramble may already be aware that I enjoy slipping in a bit of ambiguity in my stories sometimes. I don't go for 'open endings' so much, but I do like a little bit of wiggle room for interpretations of a character's thoughts/actions; etc.

Hundred Winters Grove is just... full on, intentionally Open To Interpretation. And it starts with the tags: Not Canon Compliant & Schrödinger's Shěn Qīngqiū.

If you're not already familiar with the paradox of Schrödinger's Cat, you can read the Wikipedia article on it. Properly understanding the concept isn't necessary, though it is interesting!

The important part to understand is just simply, "Until the results of the experiment are observed, the different possibilities (theoretically) exist simultaneously."

Or, in other words -- when I say "Schrödinger's Shěn Qīngqiū" I am actually saying, "Who, precisely, Shen Qingqiu is in this story is open to your interpretation. What you observe is the truth."

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There are four lenses you can read the fic through:

Shen Yuan transmigrates at the canonical time and all is as expected.

Shen Yuan transmigrates at the canonical time, but more of Shen Jiu lingers than normal.

Shen Yuan transmigrates earlier than canon... perhaps much earlier.

Shen Yuan is having a Second Chance Reincarnation/reset, not just a transmigration.

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1 - All is as expected

Probably the lens most people were reading under -- which is obviously totally okay and not 'wrong'! Especially for those who were uncomfortable with the first kiss since that bit of crossing boundaries can be handed off to "the antagonist" figure and all is well.

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2 - SQQ has more "Shen Jiu" than canon

I won't dwell on this possibility too much since it's pretty easy to read through this lens. All you have to assume is that he has more of SJ's memories and/or emotions lingering -- which is something I wanted because of the kisses I thought would be most fun to write naturally lead to a "sharper" interpretation of SQQ than the "soft" one I usually write.

Theoretically you could even read it as LiuJiu and switch it around. It's Shen Jiu, but when System tried to install the Shen Yuan patch, it didn't overwrite the base file.

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3 - Early Transmigration

There are several suggestions in the story that SY may have arrived earlier and was forced by System to operate under "OOC" rules until roughly when he transmigrated in canon.

The further back you go the more of Shen Jiu's canonical experiences Shen Yuan likely would have been exposed to. This could easily lead to a sharper, more bitter personality and still be all Shen Yuan.

You can say the first hint of this possibility comes from their very first interaction -- when the quake happened and SQQ glanced over for reassurance from LQG. Obviously, it is possible that this is absolutely SJ and he at least trusts his sect-mate this far. But if you're trying to read through this lens, I'd definitely be looking for these smaller moments as supporting evidence.

It's circumstantial for sure, but there are more direct hints too, such as YQY's claims that he'd been noticing an improvement with SQQ "for years".

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4 - Second-Chance Reincarnation

This is the one with the most (intentionally written) support. I'm not saying 'this is canon', because the whole point of writing/editing the way I did was to lean hard into the Schrödinger's Shěn Qīngqiū concept! But I am saying that I took full advantage of the "Not Canon Compliant" tag either way.

The biggest piece of evidence for this interpretation is in chapter 3 when they briefly mention the Skinner Demon.

The Skinner Demon plotline wasn't in PIDW -- only in SVSSS. But SQQ is aware of it and assigns himself to go and deal with it, leaving his disciples behind. (The wording is pretty vague intentionally, though.)

All of the canon events that are mentioned in HWG would have normally involved Binghe. But Binghe, though still loyal to SQQ, isn't as involved in this story as I might normally write. (I do, after all, adore the soft dynamic between them. I just prefer it as platonic if they're meeting when Binghe is a kid and SQQ is an adult.)

If SQQ is living his story the second time around, like, say... if the whole Back-Up Plan attempt went wrong and he reset instead of becoming plant-zun and he were more free from System's influence to do whatever he wanted, he could easily adjust how he behaved with Binghe to encourage a more... chill dynamic between them.

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I was originally going to start pulling quotes to support lens 3 and 4, but you'll probably have more fun looking for them yourself. (Plus this is already quite long and I have run out of free time.)

Hope this was interesting for you to read. :)

[lakesbian]

there are certain Behaviors sylvester has prior to starting to properly/fully date lillian that give the lambs their ambiguously-polyamorous vibe. i think the intended read is that he behaves in Such Ways because he's in denial that what he's experiencing is romantic, and you could probably even say that the portrayal is negative in that his noncommittal behaviors are being implicitly associated with obliviousness/immaturity. but the thing is that for a character who's typically so intricately calculating about every social interaction w/ the other lambs, depicting what behaviors he falls back to when he's oblivious to his own romantic intentions makes it feel like we're seeing what sy actually wants on an atypically transparent level, rather than what he's willing to accept or angle for out of knowledge that it's the best route for his desired goal. that is to say, his immaturity and obliviousness regarding romance often actually makes it come off to me like he is Showing His Polyamorous Ass without realizing, because he hasn't realized he has an ass to cover yet?

like. despite his own denial that it was romantic, he's excited after lillian gives him his first kiss & flirts with him, and his immediate reaction to that excitement is to tell mary so they can talk about lillian together. there is no thought of tension over Picking A Lamb Girl and leaving the other one out, or for any hierarchy or boundary involved in telling a mutual friend about this first kiss.

and flirting or being close to lillian never precludes him from cuddling mary at night to cope after jamie dies. in fact lillian and mary take turns cuddling him, if memory serves, and the idea of there being any tension or necessity to choose involved there simply does not occur to him. to say nothing of his bizarre little relationship with jamie--while sy is not capable of being attracted to jamie, he really does love jamie the most he'll ever love anyone or anything. to the point where his soul is basically yearning to be bisexual. he insists on being able to update jamie anytime some sort of romantic development happens to him, he doesn't understand why jamie thinks maybe the other people involved should get privacy, and he wants to be cuddling jamie, too, all the while.

and speaking of jamie. his and jamie's interactions in the current arc i'm reading are very intentionally date-coded, they are effectively on a date, and he takes no issue with helen also Being There. he is instead doing shit like calling jamie "our jamie" while speaking to helen. after jamie dies & he starts dating lillian, he frequently misses jamie & thinks of him while e.g. sleeping in bed with lillian--but there's no "mistreating gf he doesnt really gaf about while yearning for a boy best friend" dynamic going on there, he does also genuinely really love lillian, and both of those desires exist simultaneously.

overly long ass examples but like. i do think wildbow accidentally invented a polyamorous little boy. I JUST REMEMBERED IN ONE OF THE LATER ARCS THATS BAD . when the infante asks lillian some question she answers abt sy by saying that he fell in love with all of the lambs. which like. true. sy is crazy in love with all of the lambs. the most natural state for sy is to have minimal boundaries and maximum togetherness with all the lambs. because he loves his lambies so much. and if twig was any good lamb polyamory would be real and sy wouldnt be so shit so we could appreciate that hes full of love more

i do think there's something distinctly nonmonogamous about sylvesters social boundaries wrt romance. shame twig polyamory isn't real

[c-infinity-83]

SLEEPOVER SATURDAY!! COMPLAIN AND/OR RANT ABT SOMETHING!!!

I let this sit for a few hours because when you sent it we were About to go to sleep but then we dozed off and our body decided that Like 20 Minutes Of Sleep Is Enough To Keep Us Awake All Night! And so we read for like 2 more hours or so and ANYWAY.

The point is I& have been Thinking on what to rant about. Should I use this opportunity to rant about how ODD plurality is for me personally, how strange it is now in this life not only to be apart of something Bigger and More Than One but all simultaneously in One Body but also myself, personally, in-sys, being Multiple too, and how jarring that is now?

Perhaps I can rant about things that have happened in, oh I don't know, the past like 200 or so years ago and how Fucking BIZARRE this life is compared to my Past?

Maybe, rant about, the fuckign. Everything of it all. And just. I can't even finish this sentence!!!!

But no. Sit the fuck down.

I am going to rant to you about Peggle.

Let me FUCKING tell you something. I live and breathe Peggle nowadays. It is Thee Biggest Hyperfixation-Obsession-Special-Interest I've Ever Had In Any Of My Time Existing Ever . Nothing has ever brought me so much joy before (AHEM except for My Wonderful Significant Others Who Have Followed Me To This Life But BESIDES THEM,). I don't fuckgin Knwo what it is about this stupid series but it has Been Living In My Brain Rent Free The SECOND I Laid Eyes On It. And holy fucking shit. Holy fucking shit. I have. I have Opinions. On things in this series, ok.

First off. Ok. Renfield. This stupid dorky-ass pumpkin MotherFUCKER. I am beating Renfield Haters Up With A Sword!!!!!!! Fuck oFF off this page if you hate Renfield all my homies LOVE Renfield OK!!!!!!! LISTNE !!! He is a GREAT character!!!! I do not understand why people (or, the people we've watched play Peggle and I will admit is not that many!) hate his power!!! LITERALLY it is so good his levels just aren't BUILT for it properly!!!!!

I understand that his Thing, at least in Peggle Nights, is that he's an Artist™ or a Fan Of Thee Fine Arts™ and all, but while it's cool it just... Doesn't work!! All his levels (again, in Peggle Nights, which btw Is Thee Best Peggle Game Ever Prove Me Wrong!) are centered around famous paintings. The Scream, The Persistence of Memory, The Great Wave off Kanagawa, a couple others I care not to try to remember and Google right now—it's COOL but they don't WORK as LEVELS IN PEGGLE!! Fuckin, at least not for him!! Maybe for someone like Jimmy Lightning? Who's power is shooting two balls at once? Maybe for Claude, who's powers are flippers (which is funny because he's a lobster and the flippers are in the shape of his claws HaHa)? Maybe scrap the idea all together or use different paintings to make his levels out of??? I don't know!!! All I know is that his levels suck ASS in Peggle Nights and it's primarily because the way the pegs are laid out are SO far and few in between—once the ball drops, and goes back to the top of the screen As Is Renfield's Power, it just. Drops immediately back down the hole it first created!

And this would be avoidable I personally think if the fuckin PEGS WERE CLUSTERED MORE and also if the LEVELS WERE BUILT TO WORK WITH HIS POWER AND NOT GO WITH AN AESTHETIC and oh my god the levels he has in others games from what I've seen work with his power way better but God shit fuCK AND DAMN WHY DID THEY DO THIS, TO ONE OF THE COOLEST CHARACTERS IN ONE OF THE BEST PEGGLE GAMES, HOMOPHOBIA I SAY! SPECIFICALLY TOWARDS ME.

But anyways!

Second of all, Tula best character, also Warren suffers from the same thing Renfield does on top of HIS power just generally not being very Good And Useful, also fuck the Peggle app, that is not true Peggle, where are my beloveds, what did they do to my beloved Video Gaem, Who are these new characters, where is Claude?, Tula??, Hell they don't even have Renfield OR Warren what is this shit?????!!

IN CONCLUSION:

Buy Peggle Now, It Is Worth Your Time And Money, This Is A Threat (/joke)