#slur ment

[quinnkdev]

so. its looking like the german translation of paper mario: ttyd is continuing to erase the existence of trans people in the world of the game.

(terribly written article, good ol' sebastian ruppert has no idea how to talk about trans people, but im linking it as my source)

this is another grim reminder of the importance of a non-exclusively america-centric worldview.

here in the german-speaking world, several counties both in germany and in austria (jury's out for switzerland, i dont know anyone from there), trans-topics remain extremely controversial and are often used as fodder for right-wing extremists to implement oppressive legislation.

language, as always, is a major focal point to these people. many politicians and ideologues (even ones supposedly on the political left) here weather against language-centric concepts such as "gendering" (i.e. using more gender-neutral avenues of referring to groups of people or individuals), and in a few counties in austria and germany (bavaria in germany and lower austria in austria, for example), its actually fucking outlawed now.

i have faced a lot of discrimination even in the more nominally progressive capital city of austria. an austrian cab-driver once asked me if i was "one of those american tr*nnies". people here believe that it is the united states that "import" lgbtq+ topics to us, but really, the main thing imported from the united states and their political landscape is the "anti-woke" rhetoric of the right.

i will still celebrate; this character (vivian) means the world to me, and so does this game. but never once forget that every win, ANY win, is hard-fought, and that there is more work to be done in places other than the anglosphere.

[graegrape]

you're just your average fag grooming kids into posting some lame anime shit don't feel special

average..........?

[ryanyflags]

brooo you made a fucking cis flag?? that's fucking disgusting, cis people don't deserve pride flags for being fucking cis you retarded idiot. what do cis people suffer for the gender they fucking stick with?? fuck cissies like you, you're just a fucking 14 year old cishet dumb white bitch anyway

See at first I was just going to be like, delete, but when I saw the "cissies like you" part, this actually just turned into being funny.

I have nonbinary in my bio, people usually assume all nonbinary people = trans people. The cis flag in question was made with cis-queer people in mind. Clearly, you're not actually trying to argue with me. Or, by the fact that you ignored it, can it be assumed that you're bigoted against nonbinary, intersex, and even trans people who don't fit in a binary? Also, for whatever is genuine in this ask, if you're trying to argue for minorities (only people who are oppressed deserve pride flags, opposite of "cis people don't deserve pride flags (because they don't suffer/aren't oppressed)"), you should really lay off the slurs, you know, words used against minorities.

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I've actually been questioning my gender modality, it's what inspired me to respond to this instead of deleting it. I've been interested in tris for a while, but I've never thought to apply it to myself. Though this, being called cis, it's interesting. Are there people out there who think I'm cis, even with my nonbinary identity / pride flags? Like trans and cis? And surprisingly, I don't mind being called a cissy. Sure does make me think, maybe I am tris. If I am, well I've already unintentionally built up a bunch of flags and terms I can use, convenient lol.

Are there such things as label tryouts, like pronoun tryouts?

It would be a pretty funny story, "I started identifying as cistrans because someone online called me a cissy".

This was a pretty helpful ask, mission failed and all that. I've never heard of cissy before, but based on the spelling+context, I assume it's referring to cis people, you wouldn't happen to know any other words for cis people, would you?

[someguythatdrawsstuff]

I don't understand why animesexual gets a lot of hate/gen

I mean, I'm aware it was made to mock the lgbtq+ community originally, but... we've reclaimed things before? Like rabies pride, nor/mal pronouns, dyke, fag(got), etc... so why not animesexual?

I especially don't get because fictosexual/romantic exists, and we're cool with that (not hating, I'm literally ficto myself)

I ESPECIALLY especially don't get it when animesexual gets compared with genuinely harmful flags like MAP pride (aka pedophiles), zoosexual, rapesexual, dreamsexual (the youtuber one), etc... I don't think I have to explain why they're harmful, it's quite obvious from the names alone

Sorry, I just wanted to rant a little lol

(currently using it/its)

[nachosforfree]

Happy Pride Month

[mogai-headcanons]

icon id: 14 icons in 7 pairs. in each pair, both icons have the listed flags in order in the background and the left icon has an image of the listed character with a white outline and a black shadow. end id.

banner id: a 1500x150 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting’ in large white text in the center. end id.

Luz Noceda from The Owl House is an autistic dissofictional bisexual lovime gendercreative weirdgirlgender boyhoodlexic illusoboy boycreaturicfreak loswonderia cactic queertine violeboy stermascwayboy kidmascgender feyboy trannyboy hymasc nonfemhoarder loverboy starboy notdeeriecorian mlmbodiment lovguiltraumic trans man and age dreamer with PTSD who uses he/him pronouns!

He's dating Hunter, a bisexual princeanomaly loserboyic defectgender goodboypenamic canyonwolfic boylovtix nightbraindark traumatiwolfplushic intersex trans man and age regressor with PTSD and DID who uses he/him pronouns!

Hunter's alter The Golden Guard is a demiplatonialterous aroace intersex fearshroudic nebumasc traumorkeinic timorthin traumadog nosboy with hypersexuality who uses it/its pronouns!

Amity Blight is a hatermantic lesbian nonbinary ontfille limerencial potestasgender followous bloodyfangic abominacovenbitch with PTSD, OCD, and BPD who experiences intrusive thoughts, turbulent attraction, and delusions and uses they/them and she/her pronouns!

Vee is an autistic lykoen shifterboy hallowcoretraumic dehumanix lilbroplushemoic vintagegarfplushic deepalthic fishnetclothic macarnivalia boything with PTSD who uses he/him pronouns!

Willow Park is a pansexual genderfluid lonewolfic rainfroutton enchantrea dymanic faevitien genderstalgia natudeeri person with PTSD, anxiety, and depression who uses he/him, she/her, and they/them pronouns!

Gus Porter is an autistic nonbinary inchbeanic slushiliminic sharkslugic herbaliekidmasc paleofixic dinotoyix person with PTSD who uses he/him pronouns!

dni link

[priestbit]

i think i've put some emphasis on this on my previous blogs for donnie, but he really does struggle with his sexuality as a teenager and a young adult. there's a lot of internal homophobia going on. he gets mean ( whether that be violent or just loud and abrasive or all three at once is dependent on the situation ) whenever someone even so much as implies that he's anything but the tough masculine stereotype he's pretending to be. he does genuinely love to wear ripped jeans and tank tops, and rock out to metal and whatever. but on top of that, he loves having his hair long. he watches his weight and is particular about his hygiene, his wardrobe and his appearance. he loves wearing eyeliner like all the rockstars he looks up to. he struggles with that part of himself because of how his mother would verbally and physically berate him for acting 'unmanly.' ( for example, she once took scissors to his hair and forced him into needing to go to the hairdresser because he was refusing to go. that was one of the last times donnie cried so much in front of his mother, as her punishment upon returning home was severe. ) and it's hard for him to unlearn the toxic and unhealthy behaviours and thought processes that stem from that.

donnie also struggles with everything because of the strict baptist element of his upbringing. from a young age, it was ingrained in donnie's head that queerness was a sin. it was wrong, ungodly. all of that on top of the fact that his mother had him convinced that he was going to hell anyway, ensured that donnie repressed any signs of not being straight for a long ass time. many of his peers would also call donnie slurs, the scar that runs through donnie's left eyebrow was the result of a fight that broke out between him and an older kid who called him a slur and compared him to a girl. donnie, having been exposed to his mother doing the same to him all the time at home, snapped. in donnie's head? being queer was bad. being queer meant that he'd be punished, and so he kept it firmly to himself, and even then, he'd deny it to himself.

his attitude towards his sexuality shifts the longer he spends fostering his romantic relationship with james, it isn't an overnight thing, of course. it takes time, a lot of self-reflection, and him eventually coming out to his brother and sister-in-law, for him to finally come to terms with it all. brody and cassidy don't even hesitate to accept him. but even then, he struggles with his sexuality until long after he's had emma and anita's left his life. having a child puts some of his world views, traumas, and learned behaviours into perspective for him. it forces him to think about the way he thinks about himself, if he wouldn't treat emma that way, then why would he treat himself that way? is the way he begins to look at it.

[en8y]

something id like to point out with my hemospectrum role systems is that i added kankri's words for each caste as alternate suffixes cuz i just liked how they sounded. umber. ochre. burgundy. very nice very poetic. and then it turns out he calls limes "yellowgreens" which is where i lost respect for his personal vocabulary

[batcavescolony]

I'm back talking about Harry Potter and Snape's worst memory because while I hate the author y'all bug me.

Snape worst memory isn't James bulling him or string him up in front of the school, (that was bad I'm not saying it wasn't) it was Lily ending her friendship with him because he called her a Mudblood. With evidence.

To prove my point we have to go read the Deathly Hallows when Snape gave Harry his memories! We get to see the scene again but this time the thing that sticks out the most is Snape calling Lily a Mudblood. Now if that's not enough proof the next memory goes like this.

*Outside Gryffindor Tower*

Snape: I'm sorry

Lily: I'm not interested

S: I'm sorry!

L: save your breath... I only came out here because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here.

S: I was. I would have done. I never ment to call you a Mudblood it just-

L: Slipped out? It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you? I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine.

S: No-listen, I didn't mean-

L:-to call me a Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?

*Lily leaves. Memory ends*

The next memory is Snape becoming a turn coat for Dumbledore so he could keep Lily safe because Voldemort wouldn't spare her.

Snape has had worse experiences then a teenage James Potter being a bully (even if it was shitty). so we look at the rest of the memory and lo and behold what do we see? The actual worst moment of Snape life, the moment he lost Lily forever.

[mono-red-menace]

i spent quite a while online trying to prove i was a good tranny. like trying to prove that i was worthy of existence out of a fear that i would be targeted. yk? i've been a person with intrusive thoughts for a long time and i would often see my thoughts as my "true colours" even though i didn't want them. anything over than fighting them full-on was an admission of my true horrid nature.

this was exacerbated by my attempts to get therapy yk. like coming out as trans and being told to my face, through gritted teeth, that it's "fine" if i'm trans. i'm "not going to hurt someone. yet. especially not children." from someone who was supposed to help me. to make me feel better. to make me less scared. outright telling me that i'm a paedophile literally just for being trans. a teenager.

or any attempt to get help with my intrusive thoughts, "i'm thinking these awful things and i don't want them. they scare me and they won't stop," to therapists, and met with obvious disgust and contempt. like because i'm thinking these things, because they jump into my brain, even though they scare me, depress me, make me want to tear my skin off, they're an example of the "real me." it's nothing wrong with my brain, obviously, to them. it's a perversion. i'm not someone who is deeply hurt and scared. i'm disgusting to them.

the thoughts were like. made worse by it too. yk. asking for like. help. like "surely these thoughts don't make me wrong, right? surely it's just a brain thing, surely i'm good, i'm not bad?" and it being met with "you're a disgusting person. you're a pervert. you're going to hurt children. you're violent and deranged." really doesn't make the thoughts better. you know.

they got worse.

much more violent, much more sexual, much more often. constant thoughts of how i could ruin people in so many ways. and i'm the only one experiencing them. no one even knows what im thinking. and i'm so distressed. they're proof that i'm secretly a horrible person. i have to prove that i'm not. i can't let the thoughts win. i don't want them to win.

so like i wanted to like. really prove that it was wrong and that i wasn't bad and that i was a good tranny and i'm a normal person and i don't constantly get bombarded with horrible, disgusting thoughts. i wanted to prove that i was good. even though I believed my thoughts were proof of how horrible and wrong i was. how much i deserved to be locked up. so i also felt a guilt about it. you know. like not only am i horrid and deranged, but i'm also pretending i'm not. and for what? why would i? i obviously had some ulterior motive if i was doing it. i didn't even know what it was. but i could guess. there were so many reasons why i could be pretending to be good.

anyway. the intrusive thoughts have been getting better now that i'm in a caring environment. and a bit less now that i'm not around people as much. i still get the intrusions of killing this person/animal, of sexually assaulting this person/animal. but they're a lot less common. and now I know that an intrusive thought isn't something that proves i'm wrong. or bad. it's something that proves i'm hurt.

i don't want to do that stuff. i'm scared of doing that stuff. it terrifies me, and i obsess over it because it terrifies me. you know? so in my getting better with dealing with it and getting better with accepting that it's not what i want, I've been getting better at not feeling the overwhelming urge to prove that i'm actually good. you know?

idk i just. dont talk about this because it makes me feel like people will think im a bad person. i dont want people to think i'm. a bad person. i want to prove that i'm good. i want to prove that the thoughts aren't me.

talk about intrusive thoughts online, actual talk about actual intrusive thoughts, has been really helpful to me. i've been internalising the ideas in them. countering what was thrown at me with the new knowledge of what intrusive thoughts are. and in accepting the thoughts are evidence of pain, not inherent badness, they've lessened.

anyways. it's funny how often the help i need to get over deep-seated issues in my brain comes from a source outside of therapy. and many of the things that Made Me Worse came Directly From Therapists. guess that's what it's like being a trans woman growing up im a conservative state. lmao.

[jelliegirl]

i refuse to interact with this post but if you uncritically put this shit on my dash without commentary i will unfollow you

[touhoutivations]

"Heya, just popping in for your medicine delivery- ah, you're wondering why I'm not wearing my usual disguise? Well, Eirin and I kinda agreed that it was making me look more suspicious than usual...and while some of the village don't want to take medicine from a youkai, our medicines aren't anything to hide from." "You shouldn't feel ashamed about taking what you need in order to function, and we shouldn't add to that stigma. It'd be ridiculous if I had to dress up like a bandit to give you bandages if you hurt yourself, right?"

"...I know that 'the lunatic rabbit' probably isn't the best to advertise this, but you deserve to be loved, cared for, survive and thrive- no matter what illness or neurodivergency you have. Change and acceptance isn't easy, especially deprogramming from...harmful stereotypes and ideology- believe me, I've been through all that craziness." "It's probably taken you a really long journey to find this out, or accept this, or take steps to treatment- maybe you're still ironing out the big questions- but I'm really proud of you for it. So keep taking those steps, to become more 'you' than ever. Advocate for yourself, and know that there's people that can help you through- even if it takes a while to find them." "That's all from me today, make sure you take some food with them too, alright?"

[farcillesbian]

smoked a joint while being a pretty dyke. call that a high femme

[mogai-headcanons]

Sovara 'Sova' Amalie from Vast Error is an autistic nonbinary birdcaged chepolien lesbian with PTSD who uses she/her and they/them pronouns, and she's dating Albion and Serpaz!

Albion Shukra is an autistic femme stargender novaity canon trans lesbian with OCD who uses she/her pronouns!

Serpaz Helilo is an autistic bisexual holybinglequoteic cringefreequoteic transfeminine troll with ADHD who uses she/her and it/its pronouns, and she's also dating Laivan and Taz!

Laivan Ferroo is an autistic butch agender transgender bisexual dyke fag with a chronic illness who uses he/him pronouns!

Tazsia 'Taz' Poemme is an autistic butch dykegender hatraumic traumagender bitehandic riougender sapphic with PTSD who uses she/her and he/him pronouns, and she's also dating Albion and Arcjec!

Arcjec Voorat is an autistic sapphic vincian bisexual perichiros transneutral agender canon nonbinary boygirl with depression who uses he/him and they/them pronouns, and he's also dating Laivan!

dni link

[freezeher]

ethel (20) was reported missing by mary-anne cain in early march, 1991. while she had been spending a lot of time with her new boyfriend, logan harvey phelps (23), she still made time to talk with and visit her mother at home and it was irregular for mary-anne to go without hearing from her daughter after more than a day or so. the pair were staying at a hotel for some time, often spotted by other residents as they came and left their room at late hours, often times noticeably inebriated by alcohol and/or illegal substances (heroine, psychedelics, etc), or caught in domestic disputes. the evening prior to ms. cain’s report was when the two set out to rob the first national bank of alabama with ethel in the getaway car and logan with a duffel bag he’d managed to shove roughly $50k into. phelps shot an officer in the shoulder as he made his exit from the bank; this officer would chase phelps down the sidewalk and into an alleyway where his vehicle was located, ethel in the back. she witnessed him get shot twice in the back as he attempted to enter from the passengers side, dying almost instantly. later, the same car was found 10 miles from the cain residence, abandoned, and the money recovered.

ethel was still spotted at the hotel, this time with an unidentified man, with whom she engaged in illicit acts involving drugs. the last time she was seen in person was the evening of march 15th in a winn-dixie parking lot in arlington, texas, said to be kidnapped by an unidentified man — standing at roughly 6’2” with blonde hair and blue eyes — who “knocked her unconscious and shoved her into the back of his black pickup truck.” nothing more was heard about ethel in shady grove until a newspaper in madison, texas was faxed to their police department. the article spoke of a recent raid on a gentleman's club in aldine called "the red velvet swing," already seedy and a health inspector's nightmare, which ran a secret prostitution ring out of its back rooms. and ethel was part of it. pictures of her in compromising positions were found all around the building, advertising her as a "filty, dirty slut who would do anything on her knees -- among other things." her conservative hometown thought it pitiful that someone so virtuous and full of promise could fall into a black hole of putrid fornication with anyone who would show her a good time; they put it together that after her father had died in a fire, ethel had given in to despair, feeling disgusted and betrayed by one once considered to be a town role model -- now a pariah.

[gaysessuale]

9 people you would like to get to know better

Tagged by @affogonellamarmellata who i am currently holding hands with (my beloved tumblr ha fatto una delle sue e non ti ha fatto taggare la gente ti avviso smooch)

Three ships:  AHAH you think i'd tell you the whole Colartino bit? You are completely right. I'll add the good ol' Solangelo and whatever Daniele Tinti and Stefano Rapone have going on.

First ship:  do you remember mew mew amiche vincenti. do. do you remember the blonde guy and the green girl. that one. i skipped catechismo to watch the episode when they kiss.

Last song: il fatto è che sto ascoltando la musica mentre scrivo qui quindi beh aggiorno mentre vanno le canzoni (Capitale, mio Capitale l Levante; Just One Yesterday - FOB; Noia Mortale - Colapesce Dimartino; Big Iron - Marty Robbins; carmen - Francesca Michielin; Occhiali da sole - Diodato)

Last movie: Noise (shitty movie, stayed for the flemish language but it was the worst horror/psychological thriller I've ever seen)

Currently reading: Centuria - Cento piccoli romanzi fiume (Giorgio Manganelli); Fjarvera þin er myrkur (Jòn Kalman Stefànsson); Everyone In My Family Has Killed Someone (Benjamin Stevenson)

Currently watching: Belve, Roar and Cunk on Earth

Currently consuming: Coffee!!! (twinning)

Currently craving: a cigarette and that's why i'm heading on the ballatoio to smoke bYE

i'll tag some people feel free to do it or not your choice i'll still hold your hand tightly so so so nine you said? ill try @thesilvanghost , @ambreiiigns , @emmenai-kalliston , @coileoniamoremi , @omarfor-orchestra , @diari0deglierrori2 , @huge-fuckin-nerd , @tettasinistra , @gender0-0liquid