#stepwork

[floatingwithlaura]

reverting to the basics of self care.. bath. chocolate. sad music. boygenius tshirt as pyjama top. zila belly rubs. pizza. letting my hair do whatever the fuck it wants.

[kiame-sama]

Goofy imagine, feel free to ignore but like

Tipsy human drunk, having a blast with food and drink starts dancing and vil feeling conflicted because A) beloved human is dancing!!! B) human is tipsy, do they know what the means to harpies ???? (Human probably barely knows the gravity of dancing even when sober so this is a slightly moot point but Harpy vil is a yandere simp running heavily on instincts so y'know) and C) human is not dancing with the greatest rhythm and if they were some other bird he'd have punted them to the moon and back, he's got very very high standards for other birds, but he's very much down bad and he's getting that human addictive aura on full blast

Idk just the idea of human having a great time with some food and drink and then getting a song stuck in their head and getting up to start dancing and singing and vil sitting there like " ah.. you're so lucky I'm so in love with you and your terrible foot work.."

Vil, world class model harpy and diva supreme, watching his giddy human sing and dance while deep in their cups and being like "Awful stepwork, i want you so bad for it though, Let's take this somewhere more private"

It's just very funny to me, rn. Him watching human do a messy dance and belt some very emotional/energetic singing and knowing full well that if this was anyone OTHER than the human he would have them thrown out, but since it's the human he's very much realizing that this even this very ahhh raw spontaneity has its charms.

Feel free to ignore

The Human just casually screwing around and having a grand old time, twitching and swaying off beat, humming out of tune and slurring slightly as Vil stands there, watching them with the most equally lovestruck and equally distressed look on his face. Even when he tries to dance with them, his own steps on time with the music and his movements graceful as can be, his darling is just shimmying and jerking around while giggling. He knows the Human has no idea what dancing with someone means to a Harpy, and were they a Harpy themselves, he would not even tolerate letting them stay with how off beat and out of synch their dancing is. But damn it all if this harpy isn't completely whipped for the Human he adores and treasures. He can't help but smile and feel so lovestruck by their awkward jerking and out of time steps, singing somewhat off key and giggling all the while. He's just smiling adoringly and letting the Human drag him around the dancefloor.

Vil is considering dragging you somewhere private and concealed so he can dance with you to his own beat and let you sleep. He would want to follow through with the intentions behind his dance- after all, Harpies usually view dancing as a step towards mating, and he certainly wants to think you are trying to mate him- but he knows you aren't in your right state of mind and he won't take advantage of that. He is a proud and vain Harpy, but he would rather you be fully aware of his affections when he finally gets to have you.

[only-knives]

sincerely fuck 12 step. the 4th step (the moral inventory) is all about looking for your part in the resentments you have against other people/places/things/etc. for my stepwork that meant looking for where i was selfish, dishonest, self-seeking, or displaying any of the 7 deadly sins. my sponsor told me that sometimes our only part in it is that we're "holding on to it."

and so. i went through every traumatic thing that happened to me. TW for abuse & violence (CSA included)

i found ways i was selfish, dishonest, self-seeking, angry, prideful, jealous, or slothful. it also involved me looking for where i wronged people i resented, no matter how much they hurt me. there were 200 entries on my list of resentments. this included my "resentment" against my abusive father. it included my bigotted family.

it also included my aunt, who.. repeatedly violently SA'd me. she potentially made CSAM of me and choked me. i was around 4 or 5 years old. she could have killed me.

the next part of my stepwork, which i was not told about until i got up to it, would have been to do a sex inventory. i asked why i wasn't allowed to know more about it, and my sponsor asked me if i would have done any of this (the program) if i had known what it entailed. i said no.

it hurt, but i figured it was all for my best interest. i thought i was doing what i had to do to heal and recover, that god would save me if i did what they said. that never happened... so i saved me instead.

i did not deserve to be treated that way. i did not deserve to have my trauma history turned into a moral issue. i did not deserve to be manipulated. and i most certainly did not deserve to be led to believe that the 12 steps were my only hope and without them i would drink, which meant certain death.

that's not healing. that's not recovery. that's spiritual abuse and incredibly re-traumatizing. i would rather be high while having compassion for myself, than be sober while hating myself.

abstinence is not required for me to be in recovery. i am in recovery from more than just substances. and i will recover as slowly and messily as i fucking please.

[kieraplaysthesims]

Salim is so good with Maia. Especially since Kiera is so busy working on her AA stepwork or working out. When Salim gets a chance he works on the next novel in his fantasy series.

Dhiriti is also so fucking cute. My tiny little pothead.

[nekoro-san]

I read the newest chapter, I’m glad it’s mention the university/college and a bit of Yor mention about her lacking of parents .

About university/college

In bus jacking arc, I use to making theory Yuri might have a connection to the Red Circus guy or the group because remember, circus are former college students,too. And Yuri also used to enter college. We haven’t know why Yuri join sss yet, so the meeting with him and these circus guy might have a big reveal of his past. I used to think Yuri and these circus guy has been used to classmates or such ( my theory) or at least know each other. But I was disappointed to know how it’s play out . At the end I thought a part of Yuri interrogate Billy to know they are both trying to protect the kids but falls by the bad government and provide more to Yuri conflict for his organization but it’s not.

This is also revealed abit propaganda

When Chloe saying “ this is our country” to Yuri in mole arc, this is almost the same line from Yuri said to Anya when they are in vocational camp in lightnovel.

In lightnovel implied that young kids got to experience a few “educational” programs in vocational camp ( Stepworks kids) that funded by Ostania government. The kids got to experience a few jobs and working place such as lawyers, doctors, teachers and even military force or police. So from what I understand, they are in a war time zone and there is lack of resources for hiring soldiers. I think the government trying to giving propaganda and encourage young people to join. Especially for those whose lost their parental mentor for such young age like Yuri, got brainwashed by this.

In doggy crisis arc, the “college” student are also probably the “victim” for these wars propaganda and got brainwashed.

And in bus jacking arc, the Red Circus has lot of college students. Bill daughter also a part of it.

So right now, the sss Yuri group are joining also could be the same situation for these college students. Yuri got recruited based on his workaholics, bookworms and strength endurance ( I think he may passed the sss recruiting from these aspects) and because of this. It’s possible Sss knowing him easy to obey orders and manipulate him to promote him as higher ranks and overworked him.

About Briar past

I know people are looking for Briars past but then this could only relied abit on Yuri memory. So if you don’t like his character or didn’t bother much for his chapters then you missing alot.

Interesting that now Yor mentioned abit of her parents now. I think this means could be another Yuri and Yor central story soon. Even I’m not a big fan of the humor Endo put it into them, but SxF always try to put these two as the family bonding relationship as the main focus.

I’m glad Yor seems to know about Loid lacking of parents too. Abit of me wants her to discuss this with Yuri in the future so that Yuri could felt sympathy to Loid because both of them also lost parents in the war too. ( it’s a parallel to Frank situation in chapter 41) This could be a good advance to Loid and Yuri relationship. And of course this could mean enhance Yor and Loid relationship because if Loid starts to open himself to Yor past that’s mean he already trust her enough.

This is out of topic but I remember there is a very cute Japanese fan fic talking about Yuri was taking care of sick Anya. Yuri was at work but Yor calling him to taking Anya home because of her fever and both her and Loid are busy. Yuri was asking why Loid didn’t have any relative to bring Anya home and she said Loid said he also lost his home and his relatives ( that means Loid did openly talking about his past with Yor). Yuri was moved and feeling emotionally so he ends up taking a day off to go to Anya school quickly. I remember how Yuri try to helps Anya fever based on making a honey drink ( this is fictional but Japanese are famous on honey tea for fever) based how the same drink that Yor used to make for him. ( I really hope this is a canon but how Endo treats Yuri and Yor I’m not so sure for his treatment to them)

And I’m glad to see Yor and Anya relationship is focus. This has been my attention for a while but if Anya getting closer with Yor so that’s mean the story in lightnovel of Yuri and Anya making a flower brooch to Yor will getting closer.

[eliisgrateful]

january 16, 2025

Good morning,

As the day went on yesterday, I allowed an increasing amount of distress in which left me feeling off-center, on edge, frustrated, and overwhelmed. I packed a lot into a single day and as I was running late to meet with a sponsee, I turned off all of the sound in the car and sent a prayer up to God.

After the small prayer and a solid stepwork session, I felt calmer and more at peace. I felt myself getting riled up again as I drove from stepwork to the meeting, but after talking with a couple guys who have done this thing for quite a number of years, I felt myself lifted up and set back on my feet again.

There is a lot going on right now and I want to make sure it handle it all with dignity, grace, and love. The decisions I make now will have an impact on this young boy in some of his most formative years, and I want to make sure I do right by him. I’m grateful for the guidance of guys who have done this longer than me.

Have a good Thursday, love ya.

[silenceandbackbone]

Through the journey of life's challenges, I’m learning that my way isn’t the best way. The best way for me has always been God’s way. Yet, I’ve often thought I was following God’s will, only to be humbled and realise I was running on self-will, self-reliance, or my own delusions. Recovery reminds me I’m not in control...I’m not the driver, and that’s okay, because when I let go, ask for help, and truly trust God, and engage in prayer and meditation, I open the door for growth...

Through stepwork, I uncover truths about myself, and through service, I find purpose by giving back. Sponsorship, both as a sponsee and sponsor, keeps me grounded in this program. Seeking guidance reminds me to stay teachable, while working with sponsees challenges me to reflect on my own program and check if my recovery is in line with God’s will and the principles set out out in this simple program.

I’d be lucky if I get it right even 20% of the time....I guess somewhere therein lies what I keep striving for. It isn’t about perfection, it’s about progress. By practicing humility (I'm often humbled by humiliation), honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness (I'm learning there are levels to this shit), I can let go of my illusions and walk God’s path, one step at a time, trusting the outcome to Him. Mistakes are part of the process, and each stumble teaches me how to be a little bit better....

"As long as we're falling forward"...

Just for today, I'm free, I'm clean and I'm grateful to be alive.

[ableism]

My sponsor gave me a taco and some narcan after we did stepwork tonight… Win?

[alabastrino]

i shared a lot today. i'm proud of myself. i'd rather than be a field than a fortress, and i need to warm up/open up. i have everything i need to break across the threshold to a life beyond my wildest dreams. i have friends, support, a great sponsor, a roof over my head. my stepwork went well today too. i've been a little distant from most people and trapped inside my own head. also, someone said i was very approachable today. that made me feel better. someone in france in 2012 called me "unapproachable" and it still haunts me to this day. i'm actually a very nice young man who gives great hugs, has a great laugh, and sticks to his commitments without disappearing. i'm proud of myself.

[floatingwithlaura]

I love my sponsor… She came on our meeting crying bc her other sponsee was in an accident but he survived (thank Gods). I let her vent and express what she needed to for 45 mins, I really didn’t say much bc I’m bad at verbal support but I think that is what she needed. Then I did my stepwork (read it out to her) and some bits I wrote were really transformational from when I started… Step 2 has been a joy. And then we expressed our love n appreciation for one another 🥺 And afterwards she sent me a pic she mentioned and it has inspired me to draw her a picture for her birthday (next week). I am so lucky to have her in my life. Also now I know her birthday I know she’s an Aquarius soooo that makes sense!! Libra x Aquarius is such a good combo & we are evidence of that 🥰🥰

[nekoro-san]

OMG the background details 😭 The enormous “ stepworks kids” center, the tired father and his daughter keeps nagging him that confused Yuri and make him questioning their behavior all the time ,the police station and the kid that hooking Anya to play gun and make Yuri protective mode on and make him accidentally has to do police cosplay with Anya 😭

Anyway, sorry being a lightnovel nerd but great work ! 🥲👍

Sometimes a chapter just kicks you right back into Spy x Family and you get waaaaay sidetracked into "but Anya and Yuri had to have outings too right?" so that you read the Light Novels you didn't know existed and get your suspicions confirmed and finally draw something again

[recover-loudly]

https://open.spotify.com/episode/3mhrfZOuZnSNvd0DYnGO36?si=XySpNt2rQuWAKDmEPhwfmQ&dl_branch=1

[blindstruck]

When it finally hits you that so many people have left your life they can’t be the problems. The problem is more likely you.

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[dopelesshopefiend]

Today, I'm starting my steps the AA way.

Originally, I had an NA sponsor and was working the steps the NA way. A little bit into step two, I switched sponsors. I still have an NA sponsor, but we are doing the steps from the big book, and will do the NA steps when we are done. I'm so grateful to be continuing my journey, and trying a new way.

[ableism]

My sponsor is AA but has an NA homegroup (OUR homegroup) and during stepwork today this man called NA the other fellowship. Bro you mean us? You mean you? The fucking other fellowship is coming from inside the house dawg