#tell me why i just told my friend i got a 9 on my exam and she went cool!! i got a 10 :)

[zouisexo]

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[mxsonxmountx]

MM x Exam Season

Word count: 804

Requested: Yes/No

Requests: Open/Close

Bold: Mason

Italics: you

AN: I don’t go to uni so i had to look at the grades online, pls forgive me. I had this all typed out on my laptop which was supposed to be longer, then it all got deleted 🙃😭

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You’ve had exams every other day for the past 2 weeks. 2 weeks you haven’t seen your boyfriend Mason, 2 weeks you haven’t seen your family. Being known as masons’ girlfriend had its pros and cons, being in the family and friends area at Chelsea every other week was the best part. Cons? Not seeing him as much as you’d like and the hate. But with both having busy schedules you both came to terms with it eventually. You had your last exam in a weeks’ time, you agreed that Mason could stay for the week since the football season is over. You was in your garden with your books and he was kick his ball up and down on the concrete, you never had an issue with it but the sound was beginning to irritate you more than you thought.

“Mase please can you stop? Just for two hours? Please? I really need to concentrate.” “But you don’t give me attention when you study. I haven’t seen my girlfriend in weeks and all she does is study when I’m around” and with that his ball smashes your laptop “y/n I’m sorry. Please forgive me” you didn’t even stay to accept his apology, you went straight to your study room, locked yourself in and screamed. You had books that you could study from, but all your notes was on your laptop... every single note you made was on there, and now it’s gone. Because of your boyfriend couldn’t wait for a couple of hours for your attention.

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Before you knew it, it’s was approaching 7pm and you could smell the freshness of something cooking but you hadn’t done any shopping in weeks due to stressing over your exams. “Why have you done this? I told you I’d be okay on a coffee and red bull” “I made it because I can tell that’s all what you’ve had for the past two weeks, I’ve made you a proper home cooked stew. Just like when we was kids, what my mum used to make us both” “I’ll eat it, but after I need to study” “not until I’ve given you a bath, you need to relax. I can tell that your stress levels are through the roof. You don’t need to stress too much you’ve got the final exam and I know that you will pass it without a doubt” just those words made you cry, yes all the stress and build-up of the anxiety hasn’t helped but that just topped it off and you needed a good cry. “I know I know but it’s just all too much for me right now. I’m sorry that I haven’t been replying to your calls, or seeing you properly in the last two weeks but this is the big exam Mase” he hugged you even tighter than before “listen its okay. Once this final exam is over with, we’ll go on holiday. Just you and me. We need some time together we’ve both been stressed and struggling at the moment. We deserve it” you both stay there for a little while longer before deciding to eat.

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A week later you was awake at 5am, going over your notes that you made, ready to leave for uni at 8am, for the exam to start at 9:15. You was nervous but you could just about keep your nerves to a limit. Going into the hall you felt your phone vibrate and it was a message from mason:

Mase: good luck today angel, we’re all behind you. Go make us all proud. See you soon. Love you xxxxx

You didn’t have enough time to reply but he was definitely your good luck charm. All the weeks of studying is now down to this final exam.

Roughly a month later, it was results day. You wanted everyone to be there with you but it wasn’t possible, so you and Mase decided to set up both laptops (he brought you a new one) and have a zoom call so your family, his family and the Chelsea boys could celebrate with you all at once. You would be getting the results via email, time was going slow, slower than before. Your anxiety was skyrocketing and so was your blood pressure. You kept refreshing your emails from 8:58, you was too nervous to read them out for yourself so Mason read them out for everyone.

“Ladies and gentlemen, the results are in…” “Hurry up Mase please this isn’t helping” “I can proudly say my girlfriend got a…” “It’s not higher than D1 is it?” “A1! You’ve passed baby! You’ve passed!” Everyone cheered, you couldn’t believe it, and you passed all the stress was finally worth it. “I can’t believe I did it, I passed. I’m now officially smarter than my footballer boyfriend” “watch it misses”

[waterfire1848]

Ship prompt

31. prostitute/client au

Jinzula (Jin x Azula)

Hello, anon! Thanks for the ask!!

Modern AU setting by the way

Jin couldn’t believe she was doing this.

How did they get here? Okay. She knew how they got here.

When Jet first proposed the idea, Jin instantly said no. They’d gone out for a night on the town after Jin’s girlfriend had been found cheating on her. Jet said she needed to cut loose and be able to just sit back and relax for a night. What did that mean? Hiring a prostitute.

Jin instantly said no. She was angry at her girlfriend, yes, but that didn’t mean she wanted to hire a prostitute. Maybe going to a bar or out to a movie with friends? Jet, respecting her wishes, agreed to the bar which is where they all went. They drank, had some food and drank some more, and more, and more.

“Okay! Let’s do it!” Jin yelled to Jet, “Let’s hire a prostitute!”

That was how Jin found herself in her home with a Honda car outside. She was alone now, everyone had returned home and Jet just told her to text if there were problems, and incredibly nervous.

A knock at the door got her attention and forced her to the door. Standing in the door way was possibly the most beautiful woman Jin had ever seen in her life. She had long black hair, beautiful golden eyes and pale skin. She wore a red dress with heels and had a purse with her.

“Hello.” The woman grinned, “Nice to meet you.”

“N-Nice to meet you too.”

The woman chuckled, “First time?” Jin only nodded, “Okay. Here’s the deal. Your friend paid for the full night and that’s what you’re getting. The time is all yours until 9 am in the morning.” She stepped into the house, “Bedroom down the hall?” She asked.

“Y-Yeah.” Jin managed to get out. The woman nodded and made her way to Jin’s room.

Well, this was it. She would walk into her room where a prostitute….No. No, what was she doing? This was such a bad idea! This was illegal! She could get in so much trouble if anyone found out about this. Maybe it was because the alcohol was starting to wear off or because she was actually here and it was getting real now but Jin instantly decided she wasn’t doing this.

“What am I doing?” Jin grabbed for her phone to call Jet. He had to call this off. He could tell her that Jin didn’t want to do this anymore. She’d even let the woman keep the money for coming all the way down here but she was not ready to spend the night with a prostitute.

Jet didn’t respond, not surprising given that it was 1 am, so Jin walked to the bedroom to tell the woman to leave. However, when she opened the door Jin practically shut down.

“There you are. I was getting worried.” The woman was completely naked from head to toe and, when she saw Jin, sat up. She began to crawl across the bed over to Jin, “You want to start standing up?”

“I ummm…I-I think-“

“You don’t have to think. That’s my job.” She said.

“No. I-I mean…” That’s when Jin saw it. It was small but she definitely saw it. A tattoo, “What’s that?” Jin asked.

The woman turned her shoulder, revealing the lantern tattoo, “Oh. It’s an old tattoo I got with a college friend. You know, most clients don’t really look at my shoulders first…or at all.”

“Wait…Azula?” Jin asked.

“How do you know my name?!” Azula demanded, now standing up.

“It’s me! It’s Jin! I was with you when you got the tattoo.” Azula’s eyes grew wide. Memories of that day flooded her mind like a flood. The two had stayed up late that night, studying for some kind of exam, then, after finishing, went into town and dared each other to get tattoos. Jin made Azula get a tattoo of a lantern and Azula made Jin get a tattoo of a blue flame.

“Jin! It’s so great to see you! How have you been?” Azula asked, getting out of the bed.

“Great. I…Actually I’m not totally great. My girlfriend cheated on me.” Jin admitted.

“I’m so sorry.” Azula said, “I assume that’s why I’m here. To soften the pain.” Azula pulled Jin towards the bed, her fingers moving against Jin’s clothes.

“Wait! Hold on. Why are you here? You have a degree in law and policy. How’d you end up in this…I mean doing…” Jin began to blush and stumble over her words more and more. If Azula was being honest, she found it kind of cute.

“You don’t have to pretend, Jin. I know you know why I became a prostitute. Faking ignorance doesn’t make me feel better.” Azula told her, “Can we just do what you hired me for?”

“Wait, what?” Jin asked. Her eyes were wide and filled with confusion. For a moment, Azula grew annoyed. Was Jin really sticking to this act? Everyone knew what happened.

Although, Jin not knowing would explain why she had never texted her after the incident to offer condolences or support. It would also explain the truly lost expression she had right now.

“You didn’t know?” Azula asked, realizing the truth.

Jin shook her head, “A year or so after we got the tattoo together, my boyfriend said he wanted to take our relationship to the next level. Like an idiot I agreed and he…he posted pictures of me everywhere.” Jin’s eyes grew. She didn’t know any of this, “My father deleted them and sued Chan’s family, so he lost a lot of money which is the only positive part of this story. Because of the pictures the university kicked me out, my father disowned me and hardly anyone would hire me as a college dropout with nude pictures of myself all over the internet. Even my father’s last name couldn’t help me. So…I changed my name and do this now.”

“This can’t be a great career.” Jin said.

Azula barked out a laugh, “No. I love having strangers practically throw me out the window because their wife is home or being treated as a tool more than a person.” She scoffed, “The first night was the worst. I had no clue what I was doing and everyone was yelling at me. I got better over time but…I’m better now! That’s the point. Now, enough about me.” Jin let Azula take her shirt off but stopped her at that. Azula looked at her in confusion.

“Azula, wait. I-I can’t do this with you.” Did she have a minor crush on Azula when they were in college? Yes. Was Azula still as drop dead gorgeous as she was 7 years ago? Absolutely. But that didn’t mean she wanted this.

“What? Why?”

“Because it’s…you! I know you! We were friends! I-I mean….we sang karaoke together, we made up dumb jokes, we watched horrible movies and laughed our head off! I can’t do this!” Jin yelled. She couldn’t bring herself to stand up or put her shirt back on so she just stayed on the bed, looking away from Azula.

“You paid for a night and I need the money.” Azula told her, “So, let me do my job.”

“I’m not doing anything, Azula, and you don’t have to either. We can just sit and talk.” Jin offered.

“Sit and talk? Jin, if you’re not going to pay then I have to go. I have other clients who will pay hundreds of dollars for me tonight and I need that money to, you know, live.” Azula stood up and began to grab her clothes. Jin really didn’t know why she was so focused on having Azula stay. She had no intention of sleeping with her but the idea of practically kicking Azula out seemed heartless. Plus, she hadn’t seen her old friend in a while.

“Azula, Azula, don’t go. Come on. You can go one night without-“ Azula rolled her eyes.

“No, I can’t. I need the money, so if you won’t pay me for my job then-“ Azula was surprised when Jin jumped in front of her, blocking her way out the door.

“I’ll pay for us to talk.” She said.

Azula raised an eyebrow, “I’m literally in your bedroom, naked, and you want to talk. That’s it?”

“Did Jet pay you or…?”

“I get half at the beginning and the other half when we finish up. It’s a way for both me and my clients to feel some ease.” Azula explained, “Your friend paid the first $500 and is expected to pay the other $500 in the morning.”

“$1,000?!” Jin yelled.

Azula just shrugged, “That’s what my services cost, but, if I leave now, I’ll be nice and only keep $500 because I drove over and you were the one who called it off.” Azula said, “It’s $1,000 if I stay and we talk.”

Jin didn’t say anything. She just walked off to another part of the house. Azula took it as a sign and dressed herself back up. She took out her phone and called up another client that had asked for her.

“Wait!” Jin yelled as Azula reached for the door, “$500! In your account.” She held up her phone for Azula to see and, sure enough, there was the money.

“You…would really spend $500 just to talk to me?” Azula asked, hearing the client’s voice on her phone but ignoring it.

“I would.” Jin said, blushing again. Only this time it wasn’t because Azula was naked. Azula looked to her phone and turned it off.

“Okay. Let’s talk.”

[razorblade180]

9 Days of Lancaster Day5: First Kiss

After a decent night out, Ruby walks into her dorm; her heels were already in her hand and the pretty checkered colored bow that matched the dress she went to the dance in was removed. To her surprise, only Blake was in the room. She was reading of course.

Ruby:Where’s Trouble Maker 2 & 3?

Blake:Weiss kept complaining about having nothing to do so Yang dragged her to a club.

Ruby:Isn’t she banned?

Blake:Do you expect anything different from Trouble Maker number two? Personally I think that moves her to number one.

Ruby:Hehe, said the actual criminal. Nice try. You’re not dethroned.

Blake:You all will catch up eventually. How was your date with Jaune?

Ruby:Y’know…a little strange. He seemed a little nervous and didn’t eat much. I asked if anything was wrong but he said he was just a little scatterbrained. He even seemed a little tense at the movies.

Blake:….*lowers book* It’s been a month right, with you two being together?

Ruby:*nods happily* It’s almost our anniversary. It’s too bad exams fall on the actual day.

Blake:Did he eat light tasting food?

Ruby:Umm, he did eat a decent amount of bread. There was a funny moment he practically got brain freeze because he had forgotten he was chewing gum earlier, so when he took a sip of water it really woke him up.

Blake:*smiles*….

Ruby:What?

Blake:There are four avid book readers in our friend group. You, myself, Ren, and Jaune. Now we all don’t read the exact same things but nothing about his actions stick out?

Ruby:He…has a dark secret tormenting him? No wait, that can’t be right. He already told me about his transcripts.

Blake:…What’s wrong with his transcripts?

Ruby:…Nothing. What are we talking about?

Blake:Ruby, what’s the last thing you did before coming here?

Ruby:Well traffic was light so I thought it best to make it back here on time because I thought Yang would worry. I don’t even think Jaune is in this wing yet. Said tonight would be good to walk through the courtyard and maybe look at the sky from his favorite spot on the roof. Pretty sure he’s-

Blake:Have you two kissed yet?

Ruby:….*whispers* Blake?

Blake:Yes?

Ruby:I think I’ve fucked up.

Blake:I think you can fix it.

A burst of petals took off so fast it flipped pages in Blake’s book. If Ruby had slowed down she would’ve realized she had even forgotten her shoes. That became known when her feet landed on the courtyard grass. Unfortunately she was the only one there. Roof it is then, hopefully.

Ruby Petal Bursted again through the school and up the stairs to the correct exit to the roof, but didn’t get the chance to open the door; it had unexpectedly opened from the other side. Before Ruby could stop, she ram right into Jaune, sending them both to ground with her landing on top of him and his undone tux. Groaning as she raised her head, Ruby was greeted with dark blue eyes staring at her with confusion.

Ruby:Heeeey…fancy seeing you here.

Jaune: *chuckles* I think that’s my line. I was just about to leave, but I’m glad I didn’t.

Ruby:Were you waiting for me?

Jaune:More like hoping. You okay?

Ruby:Me? You’re the one who got tackled.

Jaune:Why were you rushing?

Ruby:So uhhh, I talked to Blake about our date and she said something interesting. *blushing* By any chance… were you…trying to kiss me?

Jaune:*red* It did cross my mind several times, but it kinda felt like a bad moment all night. Then the date ended and you had to go so-

Ruby:I’m here now!

Jaune:*dark red*….

Ruby:That…that was a little much. I mean I just tackled you and this entire moment is all screwy and awkward. I didn’t even pick on why you were feeling so self con-

Jaune:Ruby, breathe. *smiles* It’s okay.

Ruby:D..Do you still want to look at the stars?

Jaune:I’m looking at them right now~

She could feel his heart pounding, or maybe that was her own? Ruby couldn’t tell the difference nor did she care. She had never done this before and yet her body began to ease itself as she lowered her head and closed her eyes slowly. Jaune’s arms wrapped around her slightly anxious frame, calming her down. Finally, a tender warmth spread across her warmth. It was so brief but the sweetest thing she’s ever felt. When Ruby opened her eyes she saw Jaune still a blushing mess like she was. Giddiness crept onto their faces and escaped as joyful laughter. Of course this was how their first kiss would go. It would also be second. Ruby cuffed her hands around his face and they stared at each other fondly before kissing again. If he was looking at at the stars then what she held in her hands had to be moon, stunning and forever glowing with gentle light.

xxxxx

The two had stayed up there longer than expected, essentially continuing their date for about an our before walking to their dorms, hands intertwined in comfortable silence. Sure it was a little cheesy, but what else do you do when the person you’re dating lives across the hall from you? They finally reached their doors and unfortunately had to let go.

Jaune:Sooo see you tomorrow?

Ruby:Mmhmm~ *smiles* Bright and early like always.

Jaune: Right, I knew that. Still have class and all. Boy, I really am off my game tonight.

Ruby:Not as bad as tackling your date on accident. Sorry, again.

Jaune:Eh, Nora hits me harder in training.

Ruby:Oh I bet. *rubs arm* So…I know this sounds a little weird but since the date is officially ending now…I wouldn’t be opposed to a goodnight ki-

He honored the request before she could even finish. Ruby giggled, leaning into the kiss tenderly the best she could. Now she wished she was still wearing the heels. Jaune let her go and they waved goodbye before heading inside. Ruby was all smiles, a blushing mess that quickly stopped her stride as she saw three sets of eyes and smug smiles facing her way.

WBY: Hey Dunce number one.

Ruby:Heh, yeah, that’s fair.

[lowcosmic]

confessing something, the truth is, and although it may sound strange, I feel proud that this quarter I didn't cry about my grades :3, and the truth is that these years of school I have been crying about my grades when my friends have told me several times that they are literally Well, I know that I don't get "bad" grades as such, currently the lowest grade I can tell you I get in something is 8 and here the highest grade is 10, but normally I just get 9- 10 although the truth is I feel like I'm always crying because my parents have told me since I was 8 -9 I have to get a 10 in everything because the educational system here is asshole so I don't even get the maximum because I'm very stupid, but if I get a 10 then I don't deserve it because I don't have the brain to get a 10, Literally about 5 years ago they forced me to tear up my diplomas because I didn't deserve them, and my mother's husband always goes around saying "10 is necessary, 9 is a failure and 8 is for stupid" So I have always been under pressure to get enough because in the end (and I do understand that) it will affect my future if I don't have enough, but the truth is that these last two years I have been very bad, because currently I was already crying for very small things, one time I got very bad for failing a point on an exam, I mean if the exam had 25 points I got 24 and that's why I ended up having to miss my biology class because I couldn't calm down when basically no one there got 25 points and the truth is that I feel that if I didn't cry this quarter it was because of my friends, because since I have known them they have helped me a lot by accepting that it is not bad not to get a ten and I'm not going to die if I don't get it, I don't need to worry so much about it because I'm not someone who has bad grades, currently I'm still envious of people who are happy with a 6 or a failing grade but At least this quarter I didn't cry because I got a nine (not like the other that I was like Four hours crying lol) but I know I can improve so that in the next one I get a ten in everything

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oh gosh , this is super relatable.

I grew up in a rather strict household where i’d hide all the things that had even just minus one on them such as worksheets , quizzes , and tests. it scared me to show my parents something other than a perfect score , and i’d BAWL my eyes out if i got even just one thing wrong , God forbid two things wrong.

but then they started to accept that i can’t be all perfect all the time. so , hooray?

i hope it changes for you too <3 !!

[livsworld-ndstyle]

save the date

tomorrow.

2/26/24.

save the date.

at least for me.

i have the meeting which i mentioned a couple of posts back and i’ve been scared for it. AND ITS TOMORROW!?

also why is there a big gap in between save the date and the word tomorrow?-

also i digressed a lot teehee!

second period. 8:32am. i’m so mad that it’s immediately after february / president’s day break, even though my past meeting dates, which i have memorized, have been in a similar timeframe.

this year - 2/26/24

last year - 3/1/23

the year before last - 3/21/22

but anyways i have to miss spanish class for the second year in a row!! my spanish teacher is gonna flip, im in a college level and college credit bearing spanish class and its the second highest. we’re prepping for the national spanish exam, which is a standardized spanish exam that i have taken in years past.

last year i got bronze, the year before last i got an honorable mention. this year i want silver and next year i want gold to show progressive improvement.

some other patterns i’ve noticed with my meetings is the teacher and class they choose that i should miss

10th & 11th: missed spanish, chose my math teacher to be the general education teacher.

8th & 9th: missed social studies/global, chose my english teacher to be the general education teacher.

6th & 7th: missed support class, chose my social studies teacher to be the general education teacher.

so i’m highly convinced there’s a method to the madness.

anyways now i’m going to go into depth of each of the invited teachers.

if you remember this pic:

yes i have this picture somewhere in my favorites album, it’s easier to access that way.

also on the doc it has my real name (cuz liv is derived from olivia) but PLEASE DO NOT CALL ME OLIVIA. ty.

person #1: the chairperson/psychologist

if i get any testing done within the triennial period, like how i did my freshman year, i would get pulled out to take a variety of tests. i remember being so mad when i realized my IQ from grade 4 is the same as it was in grade 9, and i’m in the above average range for VSI.

which is insane. i used to be below average for VSI.

VSI, or Visual Spatial Index, is a subtest in the WISC-V tests for an ability to evaluate visual details and understand visual-spatial relationships to construct geometric designs from a model. (Child Psychologist AU).

the link to that article ->

also i don’t live in AUS, but this is the best definition on it.

2. my math teacher, also my favorite teacher! she recommended me to take two math classes, which is a shock even for me and also i love her so much because it’s fun to see her teach and her teaching style brings so much joy to my life and i can’t wait to see what the rest of the year has in store.

the only part i’m worried about, well, maybe two things.

general ed teachers have to take notes on me leading up to the meeting…and i don’t know what’s contained in these notes she’s written, so yeah that’s one. also, i told her that if she ever sees me distracted., she can redirect me — i guess i have never realized just how much i do get distracted until she tells me to stay on task when we do group work!

pretty much every group i’ve been in with my friends (so like clover, daniela, and meredith) we’ve been told to stop talking about other topics, and the only reason why is because im there.

clover & daniela normally work alone, together, without meredith and i and they’re super productive. they talk AND get work done.

meredith & i are the opposite. we work together any chance we get when she doesn’t pick partners and while meredith and i work we both distract each other.

the only annoying problem is, every time i get redirected from talking to meredith, we are always talking about a math problem.

when i got redirected with clover and daniela, we were distinctly talking about a different topic…!

3. my case manager/special ed teacher:

well i think she has a plethora of things to say about me. but like a plethora of GOOD things. because im a great student. i have a 92 in english and she’s the coteacher so it works out perfectly for me! :)

plus my writing is super strong, i wrote a 507-word response for english when it was supposed to be 5-7, and my other english teacher wrote this lovely comment!

you don’t have to read the whole thing, especially if you haven’t read the great gatsby.

but my english teacher gave 7 perfect scores on this assignment so of course i’m so proud of this.

4. my guidance counselor

even though i just saw her for my junior meeting, i know she also has a plethora of good things to say, so im not worried about her input.

5. my speech teacher

worried- i have not gone to speech in a while, either because my case manager hasn’t sent me my speech schedule and because i use the period i have speech to finish any tests so my teachers don’t hunt me down in the testing room…which HAS happened.

6. also not mentioned, at least on the document, but my other general class teachers get an email the monday of and have to write like 3-6 sentences on my progress in their class.

the other 3 blurred people are my parents and i., but i don’t want information out there on my parents on tumblr.

also i accidentally blurred the location. it’s supposed to be a video conference, but i told the committee to make it in-person and now both my parents are coming so yay!

anyways this is a long post but i hope you enjoyed! i wrote this at my local hairdresser 🤗

im gonna prob post after the meeting, so like period 3 or 5 or even 9 about what went down in a new post.

thanks for reading :)

ps if you’re still there, i’m gonna make a new style where i use the quote text as a header for my posts.

bye now! :)

[purplesurveys]

1601

Which season is your part of the world currently experiencing? Uh. Cold? Hahaha we don’t have seasons in the usual sense. I believe we’re currently in the dry season which basically just means we’re in the clear from typhoons, but it does get quite cold here until February. 

Do you ever read your texts and forget to respond to them? This is the case with Viber messages because I hate opening that app. But text is generally used for urgent matters so I respond almost always immediately. What was a show that you enjoyed watching a kid when you were home sick? Well, I never really felt homesick as a kid.

When’s the last time you traveled out of state/province? Where to? Christmas Day when we traveled to Tagaytay for a family reunion on my dad’s side.

Does anything on your body cause you chronic pain? Any chronic illnesses? Yeah, my shoulders and back are in discomfort every minute of the day.

What is your favorite Thanksgiving food? I don’t celebrate that.

Would you prefer cake or pie as a birthday treat? I’ve never gotten one for my birthday but I am more likely to eat pie. I like how it can be either sweet or savory, and pie crust is also great!!! Filipinos like to get cake for every occasion and even for no occasion so at this point I’m just so sick of them all unless it’s cheesecake.

Have you ever been in a band with your friends (not the class) I never had any musical talents, so no.

What is something annoying about the person you like/love? There is no such person.

At what age did you get your first period/have your first wet dream? I was 10 when I got my first period but don’t think I got my first wet dream til like high school.

What is something that makes you feel old? When my sister tells me about TikTok trends or personalities I have no clue about. Like I do go through TikTok and have a good topline idea of what prompts or dance challenges are trending (only because I have to know, for work), but I’m not a deep-diver. Couple of weeks ago she told me about Noodle the Pug’s death and I couldn’t react the way she probably wanted me to because I didn’t know who he is.

Do you remember where you were on 9/11/2001? I was 3 years old and had no idea that it was happening on the other side of the world. Do you think that snow days won’t exist now that we have virtual learning? Idk what snow days are. Whose wedding did you last attend? My uncle’s...back in 2008.

How often do you change/wash your bedding? Monthly.

Do you have much of a sweet tooth? It is not a big sweet tooth at all. I’ll have like a brownie here and there but I quickly get sick of the sweet taste. Have you ever had to call 9-1-1 for someone else? Nope. What do you dip your French fries in? Mayonnaise.

What’s the last book you started reading but couldn’t finish? Bret Hart’s book. I only downloaded it online, and so the only reason why I couldn’t finish it is because the formatting was a bit fucked and it felt like I was missing some chunks from the book.

When’s the last time you experienced a panic attack? Over what? My mom was nagging while I was dealing with an errand that I was anxious about.

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Have you ever used anything unusual to masturbate with before? If so, what? Naw.

What’s your favorite sports ball? Like. Just my favorite ball??? I don’t have one. I like playing table tennis though if you meant to ask about my favorite ball sport. Have you ever peed in the water at the beach? No. I feel like I’d only ever do that as a last resort if I get stranded at sea...but at the beach? When I can easily come back to shore and look for the nearest restroom? Pretty gross and I also honestly find it a little disrespectful.

How long do you think you could tread water for? Like 5-10 minutes. We had to tread as a final exam for swimming classes in high school. I remember how many of my classmates stayed at the deep end to challenge themselves, but I had to stay in the kinda-shallow side just in case my legs gave out from the treading.

Have you ever been the victim of a hate crime? No, at least not yet. Kind of sick how the color of my skin and the language I speak makes me a target 24/7 in certain countries.

What would you rather be doing, other than this survey? I’d love to be having breakfast rn at some mountaintop restaurant.

Have you ever scored a winning goal for a team you played for? No. I’ve won a few table tennis games that have made my team advance to the next tier of a tournament, but there aren’t any goals in that sport.

Would you be interested in creating a street mural? Only if there was a template to follow and if I was doing it with a group of people.

Have you ever participated in LARP'ing? That term is very familiar but I can’t remember what it means, and I can’t be bothered to check. So probably not.

Have you ever gotten a divorce? No.

How young do you feel is too young to get married? Anytime below 25, for me. Of course that’s just what I personally think; at the end of the day you still do you.

At what age would you let your child start picking out their own clothes? Whenever they want to start. < This is true. My mom was a bit of a control freak and always liked getting clothes for me even well into high school, which made me super super super struggle with figuring out my personality for a long time. What did I REALLY want to wear? What’s my style? What colors suit me? I didn’t know the answers to these for a while. If I had a kid, I’d do the complete opposite and let them explore whatever the fuck it is they’re into as soon as they want to start deciding for themselves.

What is one thing that you would never pick up from the supermarket? Fruits.

What’s the last food that you prepared for yourself? A sandwich with our leftover Christmas ham.

What’s your favorite type of cheese? Feta.

Do you prefer “regular kissing” or French kissing? Both are fine.

Did you used to bite others as a child? No but I knew a kid who did.

Are you more likely to give a hickey to someone else or get one? Get one, but somewhere hidden plz.

What is something you fail at, no matter how hard you try? Finishing a paint-by-number haha.

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1. Do you have any big plans for November? That was last month, and no I didn’t have any grand plans. We had one family vacation which turned out great, but apart from that I was really busy with work.

2. What upcoming event are you most looking forward to? New Year’s Eve! My dad is actually here to ring 2023 with us and I’m really happy about that. All the money I’ve spent so far for our media noche spread also translates that happiness LOL

3. What was the last song you heard? On - BTS. I’m watching PTD LA on Disney + while I take this. < Literally the same song that’s playing on my end right now, except I’m mass-streaming it with others on Stationhead.

4. Quote something from last night: “You might have to sleep [on the couch] tonight.” - from my dad. My room is getting renovated at the moment and the paint fumes are still pretty glaring, so I have to call the sofa my home for the time being. 5. What time did you wake up today? Around 8:30.

6. What does your last incoming text say? It was just a text notification of my last e-wallet transfer.

7. Is there a vase in the room you’re in? There isn’t.

8. Any plans for today/this evening? Ideally I crash for 12 hours because I’m exhausted from all the painting and lifting I did for my room rehaul...but I do have a deck to work on tonight and have no other choice but to power through with that stupid thing.

9. Have you recently been insulted? Yes, I’m pretty sure my mom has recently as we’ve gotten into a few spats this past couple of days. I just can’t remember any of them as I block her out as soon as her temper flares up.

10. What is the radio in your car tuned to at this exact moment? It is most likely set to some easy listening station since that’s my mom’s preference and she drives my car on weekdays.

11. Compared to someone else of your age and gender; do you feel that you have a lot to offer someone? I mean I’m by no means an overachiever, but I also think I’ve done and achieved a fair share of things.

12. How many days a week do you work? It’s the usual Monday to Friday, 9-6 job.

13. Are there people you feel more connected to than others? Well, of course.

14. Is there ONE person you feel more connected to than others? Yes. 15. Are you more like your mother or your father? Probably my mom as I have spent more time with her throughout my life. Not necessarily because we’re closer, but because my dad has been periodically working overseas for as long as I can remember. 16. Where did your eye color come from? Both my parents. But also because I am Southeast Asian lol.

17. Describe the pants you are wearing: They are gray shorts that have now-dry paint splatters all over. 18. Have you ever been in a recording studio? Yes, once. I was interning at this hotel/resort when they asked me to come with for the voice recording of their upcoming radio ad. The studio was as professional as it gets and looks just like those studios you see on Hollywood documentaries and stuff. 

19. The myspace picture you’ve had up the longest? I never regularly used Myspace.

20. Are any of your myspace pictures alcohol related? ^ Same.

21. What is your worst relationship quality? In my previous relationship I was too dependent to and clingy with my partner. I didn’t know how to be on my own, which was why the effects of my breakup were as destructive as they had been. I’ve learned from those mistakes, but since I haven’t been in a relationship since then I wouldn’t know what my ‘red flags’ today, badly put, would be.

22. What was your most recent serious injury? Sprained ankle.

23. What were you most recently happy about? Getting my loft bed!

24. Are you happy with the way the Yankees are playing? Is this baseball? I don’t watch it.

25. Are you a fan of cake? Just cheesecake.

26. What shirt have you not worn in a while that you would like to? Idk, if I wanna wear something I just look for it so I never really get this feeling.

28. When was the last time you were hit on? Years ago. I’m not interested in the dating/flirting scene at all, so tbh I try to look intimidating/unapproachable when I’m somewhere I’m likely to be approached.

29. What is the next concert you are going to and where are you seeing it? Probably BTS in 2025/2026, if not Beyoncé or Paramore if they come back any time before those years.

30. Name someone you know who is most likely to be found at a bar on Wednesday night? Andi.

[phoenixborn]

9, 10, 11, 12, and 14?

Spicy mun asks

9: What has been the biggest mistake you’ve made since you started RPing?

Maybe that on an another site before coming to Tumblr I wrote smut when I was a minor. Before the witch hunt begins along with callout posts: I learned 75% of my English through reading fanfictions then roleplaying. NOBODY during that time told me it was forbidden and I was like it's fiction, it's not even me who is having sex in the story so I didn't see any problems with this. I'm Hungarian. Here the age of consent is 14. Before Tumblr, I had no idea that people can get into legal trouble because of this and when I learned about it at first I thought it's a joke. Those who I written with also knew my age, I never made it a secret. Now I've grown up and realized long before this is indeed a mistake & I made all of my blogs +18 even to interact with due to my muses nature, backstories, topics.

And of course I have not and will not write smut with a minor.

I would like to add that I don't feel assaulted or exploited because of my inexperience and probably most of my past roleplay partners were minors too. The irl sexual harassment was much worse & impactful than writing stories with sex in them.

10: What’s something you really hate seeing on your dash that seems to be popular with almost everyone else?

I don't think there's a thing like this? If someone's writing doesn't entertain/excite/inspire me I simply don't follow. So my dash is perfect💖

11: What’s your biggest pet peeve when it comes to RPing?

Tumblr's inconsistency with notifications hands down. I get notifications of being tagged in something literal months ago. Or that my ask got answered. So far I haven't noticed a delay with reblogs.

Oh and people who shit on female OCs because, idk think before even reading the info that they are self inserts and only want to fuck the canon characters. That's not why I slowly built up a historical noble house woven so deep into Hungarian history, not why I spent more research for my pirate blog than I did for my literal matura exams combined, not why I watched hours of singing explaining by vocal coaches, not why I studied Scott Adkins' borderline impossible movements which are not CGI.

12: What’s your biggest pet peeve when it comes to the fandom you RP in?

As @winters-club has touched on the subject, those who are 'You MUST portray this character's CANON sexuality otherwise it's ERASURE and you're a terrible/homophobic person.'

Especially if those people actively harass writers instead of minding their own fucking business.

The most common victims of this are those who write Vaggie (also how come that I haven't seen many complaints that Alastor fucks when he's supposed to be asexual? This is NOT an attack on any Alastor muns, you write him however you want, I just noticed this.), Winter is not the only person I know who had a struggle with it. Curate your own dash if you don't want to see it, don't follow people who dare to defy canon, block tags and don't harass them. And as a bisexual who only felt romantic desire towards women irl, I find myself not giving a flying fuck. It's called creativity and so what if the writers want to explore other possible romantic plotlines? Let me tell you a secret: there's no erasure the slightest. Why? Because the sexuality of the character in question is CANON. A few independent writers on a site will not change that.

14: Without naming anyone specific, have you ever avoided someone simply because they RP with one of your RP partners? If so, why?

I didn't and don't avoid anyone just because they write with my rp partners. I actually don't even understand this question, everyone is free to interact, be friends with as much people as they want, it's not a choosing game and two people go to a separate corner to play.

[shoyoist]

y'all i had such a nice day todayy <3 feeling so refreshed rn so i'll tell you guys abt it to share the good vibes hehe —

under the cut because it got a little long.

so as some of y'all might know because i've been complaining on dash, i had 7am classes today. and i'd pulled an all nighter last night for chemistry, so i was really tired when i showed up to class (o_o; )

was ready to sit alone in the corner, take my notes and do the worksheets and just go home without interacting with anyone.

but my friends were really glad to see me omg 😭💖 they told me they'd missed me so much (because i haven't been attending most of the revision sessions, since i prefer to do self study at home during exam sesson) and bought me cake and a drink, i felt so loved LMAO v_v <3

and at abt 12pm i picked my sister and two of her friends (they're our neighbors so when their parents get hung up at office i usually take them home w me and my sister) up from her school. one of them told me i looked thirsty (i was) and gave me some water, and i felt so touched 😭😭

when i got home i took a shower, had lunch and talked to my girlfriend on the phone for a bit before i took a nap. talking to her always makes me feel better hehe <3

then, i woke up at 4pm, took another shower and then i got to work. i did some chemistry and physics, but i got stuck on a chapter and was struggling so hard i wasted a lot of time on just a couple of questions ( t_t).

that always pisses me off, like when i don't understand something that ik i should and waste time trying to figure it out that makes me so mad. plus i don't really have TIME to waste on a single chapter but i couldn't just leave it behind without understanding it right? so i was just so upset about it.

around 7pm my brother called my phone (he's actually my cousin but he's rlly more like a brother to me) and he lives in the next city ok, so i wasn't expecting him to say he'd come over.

he's annoying as per usual for older brothers LMAO so i picked up his call like "what do you want :/" but he was like "hey i'm omw let's play valo together"

which surprised me because, "why can't we just play you don't need to come over? and besides i don't have time to play"

but he said he missed us and wanted to see us ;(( and when he showed up, i was still not done going through that one physics chapter. while he waited for me to be done, he took my laptop and adjusted all the settings to his liking (now that i think abt it i'll have to fix everything before i play NAWW) and played a couple of matches by himself 😭😭

then i was like "...dude what are you doing LMAO" like none of our family is on very good terms w eachother so i was just surprised that he showed up outta nowhere like this.

— and all of a sudden he was like "hey i brought my card w me you wanna go out for dinner?" and it was around 8pm, so i said it's too late, our youngest sister has school tomorrow too so we probably shouldn't. but he said that i seemed kinda stressed out, and that a walk outside and a nice dinner would do me good.

WHICH WAS TRUE BTW i've been mad stressed out these days, and i haven't had a break in forever. i knew that and i just felt like, ykw why not? so i agreed, and once we convinced my mom, the three of us (me, my brother and our youngest sister) went out.

except we only recently moved to this city so i didn't know any good places. and he was living in the other city so he didn't know either. we walked around for like an hour 💀💀

then we surrendered and went to a pizza place, it was already like 9:30pm by then and i knew our mom would be PISSED LMAO but we still went and got pizza and milkshakes. it was so nice fr like i felt really good.

he told me about work, and we vented to eachother a little on our separate family situations and all, and then we moved onto just talking abt random things that took our minds off our stress. realized halfway through that he needed this little walk out too.

we also went over to a bridge that's over a river near the area, because it's one of my favourite places to go to. it was hella dark and there were stoners and all around but my brother is a big guy (he's a gym rat like me, stands at 6'2) and so we weren't rlly abt to be bothered LMAO. watched the moon and just stood together in comfortable silence for a while, till we decided it was rlly time to go back home.

i could feel the pent up stress leaving me during the time we were out. and plus, i haven't let loose and had some good fun in a long time 😩

got back home at 11pm and my parents were MAD but that's okay we had fun!!

and yk, i just wanted to say 😭 if you find yourself working hard without room for a break or anything, if you're stuck between deadlines and tight schedules and all, sometimes all you need is a few hours out with your friends/family, a few hours to unwind and let loose.

it's okay to spare a few hours to take care of yourself. i'm feeling sm better and much better prepared to immerse myself into my work and actually understand and absorb what i'm going to revise and practise now.

it rlly helps!! some fresh air, some good food enjoyed w your loved ones and a few hours of fun with them, it fr fixes your whole mood.

and it's different from relaxing alone. trust me.

don't hesitate to reach out and take some time to relax and get together with people you love <3 it really makes a difference.

[thepixelelf]

Hi ursa I’m sorry I never got back to you but please know that I’m so grateful for your advice! Sadly this isn’t a great update. I had a pretty big fallout with my sister and I’ve been staying with my friend for about 2 weeks now. I stood up for myself and I communicated everything I felt in a very respectful way but she still didn’t like or understand what I was saying.

Before I get into anything though, I think it’s important to tell you my sister’s schedule. So Monday-Friday she has class from 5:30pm to 9:30pm. She also gets assigned her homework for the week every Monday and she has an exam every Monday as well.

So to start I told her that I would be switching over to the program I want to do even if it’s an hour away and that she would have to arrange for someone else to pick up my nephew from school or she would have to put him in the afterschool program that the school offers. She obviously started saying that it’s not convenient for her and blah blah blah. I kept my stance and told her that I’m not going to be stuck studying something I don’t want just because she wants me to do things for her. I also told her that I’m only willing to watch my nephew while she’s in class from now on and occasionally on the weekends. I mentioned her schedule because she has a whole week to do her homework right but she waits until Monday to do all of it and she expects me to watch my nephew all day while she studies and finishes her homework. I told her that it’s not fair that she does that to me or that she can do whatever she wants whenever she wants because it’s so easy to her to just leave my nephew with me. She obviously didn’t like that but it’s the truth because sometimes I want to go clean my room or even something as simple as going to take a shower and she’ll tell me “well can’t you just do it later or tomorrow.” Meanwhile she’ll clean her room and she’ll tell me to watch him and she takes like 2 hours cleaning.

To wrap it up though she just said a lot of hurtful things and I’m not willing to to talk to her until she apologizes and sees that everything she’s putting on my plate isn’t my responsibility. I was really hurt by everything she said because I was really nice about how I brought everything up, I could’ve been a bitch to her but I explained to her why I felt the way I felt and i never once said anything disrespectful. My mom and my other siblings have told me to reach out to her but I told them I’m not going to do that because she needs to see that I’m serious about everything I said. I really do miss my nephew this is longest I’ve gone without seeing or talking to him but I just don’t see anything happening in the near future sadly.

I'm really sorry to hear that anon :( I'm glad you have stood up for yourself but it sucks that it turned out this way... I'm wishing the best for you, your program of study, and your family 💕💕

[kun-summacumlaude]

SUMMA CUM LAUDE? #22

I've done it again.

August 21, 2024. Second Semester and 300 Level both ended on the 9th of August, but this is my first post for the semester. An extremely eventful semester with a not so fairytale ending.

This semester, I wanted to be everywhere, in and out of school. Force myself to manage my time and juggle this and that. Expand a bit. I got off to a great start, getting things done here and there. Weddings, meetings, classes, assignments, service, it was going well. You're expecting to find out where it went wrong right? Well, sorry because even I don't know. Conclude however you like based on what I tell you.

12 Courses. 3 Units (1), 2 Units (9) and 1 Unit (2). 23 Units in total. The goal remained the same: get as many As as possible (which means get all As). We were warned about this semester, a semester with one stumbling block here and there but the only one I was initially really worried about was EEG325 - Digital Design of Logic Systems. Why? The lecturer was known for failing students and giving lots of Cs and Ds and Es and Fs. His reason was ridiculous when he said it in class, although he did something somewhat surprising during our exam. I won't judge until I see results, but his ways are nonsensical, let it be known.

2nd Semester, filled with a slow and steady build up to an explosive disaster.

My Laptop and Computer Village

I don't recall talking about the pain that is my laptop but I am certain I must have mentioned it prior to this moment. Slow and frustrating. After my screen decided to give up on me at the climax of last semester I got it repaired at a friend's dad's shop at Computer Village. 65K. Fine.

Early in the semester, Dr Ogboi came in for Software Development Techniques and Machine Learning (SDT & ML, two courses this semester). Told us we would need Visual Studio for C++, SQL, Java and Eclipse, PyCharm, MATLAB and R and RStudio. You can imagine what was going through my head, was I about to dive into suffering throughout the semester with the HDD in my laptop. The time had finally come to upgrade right? HDD to SSD, increase the RAM and all would be well.

The explosion began to build up that day, but I did not know. Got the SSD on a Friday the 10th of May 2024. That same day, I got to my house and my laptop started beeping. It told me to replace the hard drive because it was faulty. My brother followed me to Computer Village to following day. It rained, I don't want to tell this story, but we suffered that day and eventually got them to replace the SSD with another one that was working (so I thought). As we progress, I will fill you in on what this laptop did to me all semester.

April and May were just little outings here and there. Birthday, wedding, all of that. June was when the real activity began, but you can't attend everything, so I chose the ones to participate in: Youth Week, Fathers' Day and ULES Sports Festival. I left out ULES Faculty Week and Sodeinde Hall Week to make sure I was still getting academic work done.

Due to my failure to update during the semester, the timeline is foggy and I wasn't exactly recording these things as they happened so I'll just try my best.

Youth Week and ULES Sports Festival

I wanted to be present in both of these events. And they did not just happen in one day, so I had to be present at church before that week and also be present at training at training. Usually during the weekends. So in the earlier parts of the semester, a lot of my weekends were usually spent at home or a slice at sports centre. If I attended training, I would still study but if I went home something always happened that prevented my studying.

Till now, I don't know 100% but I am sure enough that the SSD I got is faulty. My Laptop crashed and crashed and crashed... I spent so much time reading up community help for Microsoft and Dell because of this issue. I would go home for one church program and be unable to study because every crash meant I had to reinstall windows or reset my PC, which always led to a loss of my apps or my files and so I would spend the entire weekend re-downloading my Windows and Apps so I would have them for the following week in school. This happened over and over again. What apps by the way? The ones Dr Ogboi had me download for his courses. Guys this was throughout the semester, I'm on holiday now and I am not free from it yet.

It seems funny because you would think once I found of the cause I would be able to avoid it, but this thing came in different shapes and sizes. It seemed like file transfer issue, battery issues, RAM issues, it just kept on crashing in diverse ways and so I could never place my finger on the actual problem which is why I believe it's the SSD. I informed the Computer Village guy, but I did not want to keep on going there, it was obvious these guys were dealing defective goods. After some time, the response was "Ha", WHAT?!

So for the youth week and sports festival, I could not do much studying to be honest. This was week one in June. And by the way, SEES absolutely dominated the ULES Sports Festival, and our kit was so beautiful, I had to buy it.

Father's Day

This was June 16 this year. I had been going home during the weekends prior to this one for preparations with the Royal Ambassadors. I was commanding the parade for this occasion. This weekend my laptop also crashed, which meant I couldn't do much studying or any at all because of the reinstallation. I should also mention that the reinstallation required quite an amount of data because some of the apps had to be downloaded from scratch all the time. Father's Day went well and because exams were just a month away with no sign of any postponement, I told my friend that was the last bit of activity outside of exams for me because I had a lot of covering to do so I wouldn't get caught lacking during the exams.

Everybody do "hmmm"

July 1, 2024 10:55PM

Just two weeks after Father's day, my last side quest for the semester, I did something:

WHAT?!?!?! When did I become a politician? Elections????? How did this happen? I opened our student portal just before the deadline for the election applications and applied to be the Vice President of SEES. #Kunle4VP. Why did I do this? I felt it would be a good experience and this was also part of my getting more involved in school activities. I didn't have long term plans for this, but I needed to step out of my comfort zone. I had been contributing here and there in the department, so I believed it was time to do even more. Honestly you could say I was just being an agent of chaos and be correct because someone was already vying for that role even from my class but I did not care at that point. I wanted to be VP. Big mistake ladies and gentlemen. I 100% should have stayed away from the portal that night.

The election period was basically two weeks. The first week I had a project to complete on Monday and I had tests every other day of the week. Week 1 was basically trying to get support from various levels and put plans and the campaign together so I could go all out in Week 2. Isn't this crazy? I had no plans and had to cook up a lot of stuff in such short amount of time. I knew I was running from a losing position, but I wanted to try anyways. I've been saying "I" so much but it's about me so haha. I did election stuff and I also did studying because how else would I pass my tests? Two of those tests I didn't cover everything I was supposed to cover and I lost huge amounts of marks in both because I couldn't attempt them at all. I was now fully in a remontada mode even before concluding all tests prior to the exams. Weekend of Week 1, instead of studying after volleyball practice, what did I do? I went to ISL to watch Year 1 and Year 2 SEES play football matches because I was trying to get support for the elections. How crazy is that?! I was now a real politician because what on earth was I doing there. I thought I was done with extra curriculars but see me for goodness sake. Unbelievable stuff. Week 2 of the elections was nothing short of an academic lack of focus. Fine, the election held on that Friday (and then Saturday, it got re-done because Unilag servers were too poor) and so I needed to go all out. Going all out meant wrapping up the campaigns, manifesto hearings and putting plans in place for the election day. This meant spending ridiculous amounts of time on election stuff and little time on preparing for my exams. Are we seeing this? Yes. Was I doing something that should be encouraged? Absolutely but you can do the right thing but at the wrong time or you just go about it in the wrong way. This was really close to exams, so a rapid-fire approach wasn't really proper to be honest.

For the record, I had really good plans because my team really believed in me and I in them and I looked forward to implementing those plans. I lost the elections. Later, maybe in the next post. I will do some reflection on how I really felt about these two weeks after my exams. It was now time to face exams once and for all abi, hehe nope. One more activity.

ARB Quiz Grand Finale

Yeah remember the ARB Quiz from First Semester, the Grand Finale happened on the day of the rerun of the election. Are you whining Vice Presidential Candidate???

It was on a Saturday. The hall was empty but that didn't stop us. Hearing from the ARB guys that day, I knew I had to be part of them from next session. I love this vision. So the Quiz, we had to replace one of our fresher starboys with someone from 2000 Level. The quiz was really bad for us (Computer Engineering). Everything went well in the preliminaries, but the final was a disaster. Electrical & Electronics Engineering was on fire by the way, they were unbelievable. So it's the final round (General Knowledge). Chai, I just tried to recall the exact comeback we made but I can't remember, this hurts. Oh well, we were dead last going into the final round. Electrical & Electronics had already won. It was Metallurgical and Materials, System, Chemical and Computer fighting for 2nd and 3rd. You could exclude us and be right because we needed to get all questions right and hope others failed theirs in order to finish in a position. We managed to do just that. Thank God, we left there with something.

Finally, it was just me and my exams. Reality hit me like nothing else. I'll conclude the semester in #23. Byeeeeee.

[dreamingclassical]

The 🦄 Herself and some background on her.

I got Blaze July 31st of 2020. Before I even laid eyes on her, the assistant trainer of the facility told me “the mare is wild.” Telling me about how she had taken another mare from the pasture for a lesson and into the main barn. Within 10 minutes Blaze had taken down the gate and climbed up a set of stairs into the hayloft. No clue how she got down the stairs again unharmed. She was very buddy sour obviously. She was born in Canada, she is a Mr. Greeley baby. Raced lightly, retired to breeding, and then had 8-9 foals. At 16, almost 17 she came to the facility I met her at. Sat again for another year. I was looking for a 3-5 year old, not an 18 year old never restarted skinny broodmare.

After seeing her move, and seeing how sweet and anxious she was along with her condition, I was positive I wanted her. Bought for 1k, she was quickly learning to be a riding horse. I made many, many mistakes. I let a trainer ride her in such a manner I could barely watch, multiple times before I put my foot down. Draw reins, strong bits, bungees, terrible saddle fit, etc etc.

It was ugly. I will be repaying Blaze for her kindness for the rest of her life. She jumped everything, up to 4’ on a few occasions. Safe, point and shoot, and fun. She had one bad habit, rearing when put under pressure. The only time she did it, was because I or someone else put her in a position where she felt she had no choice.

She eventually became my liberty and trick horse after I realized how unhappy she really was as a sport horse. Despite looking fantastic, post Lyme treatment #1 but really she wasn’t happy. She wouldn’t stand to be a show horse, and she was impossible to fit a saddle to. I rode her bareback exclusively for almost 2 years of having her due to saddle issues. She was just better off, and eventually I removed the bridle too. She was great in a halter, terrible in a bridle, so why bother? Perfect almost every time. This opened the door for liberty work, where she really shines.

Eventually in May of 2022 she slipped on a grass hill with me, not falling but close. No heat, not lame, we stopped immediately She came up bilaterally lame 2 hours later. I took her to the vet, he told me it was likely L stifle and LF combined but nothing can be done without scans of the joints. I was beyond broke from the (failed) Lyme treatment over 6 months.

My first vet told me that my best option was to turn her out for a year and see what happens. She was managed well on equioxx, but noticeably lame in the trot and canter. So I did that. Finally listening to her, a chronic weaver, stalling just wasn’t for Blaze. Moved her into a literal back yard of a friends. With a run in / walk in stall, goat, and mini horse. Pulled all 4 shoes (hind first and later fronts)

Removed grain from her diet, added good hay and a forage balancer, and waited. It’s been almost 2 years. She’s not 100% sound, I was very much losing hope earlier this year and very much considering euthanizing her. However, I found an amazing vet well versed in Lyme disease and so in January we’ll be pulling a titer to check levels and moving forward with IV tetra from there. Lyme flares tends to make her lameness vary a bit. She is hopeful that we will be able to get her sound and remove her Lyme symptoms. She’s really renewed some hope in me. In the spring when things aren’t muck, I’ll be getting another (this’ll be the 14th lameness exam in 2 years) exam done and likely radiographing her fetlocks and hocks.

That’s it for now though, I’ve ranted long enough. She’s perfect, my best friend, and recently we were told on her good days that we can work on tricks & groundwork again.

Good movement > no movement 💖

We’ll see where we are in a year. 12/24/23 🎄

[percontaion-points]

Edible Delectables chapters 15 & 16

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Chapter 15

“You too, Jason. Maybe I’ll see you at midnight.” She winked, then turned and walked back to the reception desk.

 Jason sighed and closed his eyes as he shook his head. He grimaced slightly as he remembered the suggestive wink. Why couldn’t she just leave him alone?

I’m fine with having the “homewrecking hussy” plot (lol JK no I’m not)*. But the problem is that the last hint of a problem in this book was in chapter 9. 

CHAPTER NINE. 

WE’RE IN GODDAMNED CHAPTER 15 NOW. 

I hope everybody understands my frustration over the timing of this. 

*Note: the reason why I’m fine with this subplot in this book is because literally nothing else has been going on. So while I’d baulk at the idea of it in literally any other book, at this point I’m pretty sure that I’d take ANYTHING so long as something was happening!

“You had sex!” she cried out, pointing at Eva with an accusing finger. 

Evalyn and Eric’s mouths dropped in unison, instantly. Eric looked baffled then chanced a glance at his wife and started laughing, seeing her shirt on inside out. “Way to blow our cover, babe!” he said, pulling on her inseam. 

“Eva…tell me it wasn’t in my bed,” Kara pleaded, horrified at the thought. 

“Okay, it wasn’t in your bed,” Evalyn smirked at her friend. 

“OH, COME ON! Really? Did you really screw in my bed?”

 “I told you no,” Evalyn laughed. “We did it on your bathroom counter.”

 “Ew.”

[Image description: A close-up shot of Angela Merkel, the Former Chancellor of Germany. She is a 60-something white woman with short brown hair. She is wearing a red jacket, and a necklace. She looks like she’s smelling something super unpleasant. It is captioned with “Not even German has a ‘nein’ big enough for this.” End description.]

It was February when the white envelope arrived in his mailbox. The envelope that would change everything and shatter the love bubble they’d been living in; the envelope nobody had expected, at least not for a while longer.

Chapter 15 summary: We skip over to new year’s eve. Jason is working a shift in the ER, much to both of their dismay. To make his evening worse, Jason is constantly being hit on by a nurse who can’t take a goddamned hint. 

Meanwhile Kara has fun with her friends, both old and new. Despite the fact that her brother is working doesn’t stop Jamie from hanging out with Eva, Erik, Kara, and obviously her boyfriend, Ryan. About half an hour before midnight, Kara demands that she be driven over to the ER so that she can give Jason a new year’s kiss. So Ryan and Jamie do that, since they’re the least drunk. 

We keep getting snippets that indicate that Nurse Laura is going to be prowling in search of Jason to give him a kiss at the stroke of midnight, as Kara makes her way to Jason as well. However, that would have been preferable, and we end the book with some “runs on miscommunication”. In the end, Kara makes it to him first, which sends Laura off when she sees the romantic way Kara and Jason are clinging to each other. So Kara gets the kiss, and we got teased with the promise of plot that never happened. 

Kara also gives Jason her house key, so he comes over when his shift is done. The others are crashing with Kara, since they’re all pretty drunk, so he drags her away, where they have sex in her home office. 

We skip over to mid-January, and have a brief snippet of Kara getting a gynaecological exam so that she can get birth control pills. Then they can’t see each other for a long time because of their busy schedules. But when they do see each other… They bang. Which isn’t any different than before, but now I guess he’s not using a condom. I don’t care. 

The chapter ends with yet another boring teaser of plot. I’m so fucking tired. 

Chapter 16

It was February twelfth, two days before Valentine’s Day, when Jason received acceptance into the Pediatric Emergency Medicine Fellowship at Children’s Hospital of Seattle. 

I am going to fucking scream if this ends with Kara moving to Seattle with him. 

Although, at least it’s not in South America, like the other medical romance I read. 

Jason sat, staring into his cup of coffee. “I’m going to Seattle,” he finally answered.

Chapter 16 summary: So Jason got accepted to the fellowship in Seattle. But he doesn’t know what to do, and he doesn’t tell Kara. Two days later, he asks to meet his dad for advice. He spells out for his dad why he’s certain that Kara wouldn’t come with him. Mainly her father, along with the fact that she runs a business that can’t exactly be picked up and taken with them to another state. His dad is quick to point out that Jason has only been seeing Kara for a few months. This isn’t some 5 years relationship here, we’re talking MONTHS. 

This is obviously not the answer Jason was looking for, so he calls Kara and asks for her to come over. She’s happy for him, but then is quick to realise that this would mean that he’d be leaving. He tries to ask her to come with him, but she reminds him that one does not simply pick up a bakery and move it across the country. They all but break up at this point. 

A few days later, Jamie comes to check in on her brother and finds him moping in his own filth. She demands that he shower before they even have a conversation. When he comes out, he decides that he’s going to accept the fellowship. 

[icejello]

Yk sometimes i just think back about my life and just... question why I go through the things that happened. When ppl knew i was the youngest child, they would jokingly tell me like "oh you must be so pampered! I bet you're spoiled by your parents a lot!" And i just take a second to look at them before laughing it off like "yeah not really, I don't really get the 'youngest child privileges' or get pampered that much," and ppl would brush me off with "don't be silly, why would you parents ever treat you bad? You're pretty and really smart, ofc they would love you!"

That doesn't explain why I have to be the person my brother never could be. I don't see why i have to be pushed to be the person that my brother failed to be while they continue to pamper and spoil my older brother and yell at me for every single thing that didn't go their way. Growing up, my dad was absent for almost 9 years of it, he worked away from home and wasn't even there when my mom gave birth to me. My mom was a teacher and it was obvious to me even as a little child that she loved my brother more.

Everything was fine, I was close with my brother, he was 2 years older than me, i didn't have any friends in the neighborhood aside from him. He started primary school and suddenly everything just...changed. He hated me, yelled at me, bullied me. I was left home alone with only my babysitter day after day until night bcs my mom works at a school far away and my brother is also studying there.

I'd cry to my mother bcs of the bullying, she would tell me to just let it go bcs my brother loves me. My brother told me how i should've died when i was born bcs i was nothing but problem to my mother, i was 8. She brushed it off and said "your brother loves you, he doesn't mean it," since when did 10 year olds say stuffs like that to their little sister? The more i cried, the more he would bully me to the point i stopped crying, i started feeling rage instead and fighting him back. I yell back at him for bullying me, my mother tells me to apologize. She scolded me for yelling at my brother, she always picked him in every fight, even the ones he started, it was always my fault. "He was your brother, you should've forgiven him!" But he hurt me first "your brother never meant it, how could you even think about hurting his feelings back?" I barely cried after that, I don't remember the last time i actually truly cried.

I tried my best to seek some approval from my mother, anything just as long as she was happy with me too. She filled my morning, afternoons, evenings and nights filled with studying, I studied as hard i could, i NEED to make her happy. I scored first in class everytime, my teachers and friends congratulate me and praise me, my own mother never said congratulations. I got second in class once, still excellent results and she called me an embarrassment and a failure. I blamed myself that day, called myself stupid, i was just 9. I scored first place and straight As during my final big exam when i was 12, i never did get a congratulations or hear her say I'm proud.

My brother keeps failing his exams, rebelling against my mom, throwing tantrums when things doesn't go his way, my mother never told him he was an embarrassment. I wonder why i am one. He'd ask for phones and other devices and he would always get it, i ask for one and i get yelled at. Anything he wants to buy during shopping he would get it, i ask fot something and all I'd get was complaints and reasons why I don't need it. It was the same thing my brother asked for and he got his.

"Your mother is doing that bcs she knows what a harsh society we live in, a world where males are dominant and she's pushing you so you can be strong," was that really it? Was it necessary that she called me fat and body shamed me everytime i eat when i have average body size? Was it necessary that she compared me to every single girl there is? "Your cousin got 5As, i expect you to get the same" i did and you told me that it was nothing to be proud of and i was lacking. Was it necessary for her to make me feel that i am one second away from fucking up every single time? Was it needed for her to never tell me she was proud and happy of me? "Your mother made you the independent woman you are today!" I was a child, i yearned for a mom. I yearned for the same attention you're giving to my brother as you take your time to teach him but tell me to try and figure things out myself if i asked for help.

Ig the biggest thing that linger on my mind is last year. It was midnight and i was waiting for my flight back to my state. It was a 2 hour flight and i had a busy day, i would be arriving around 2 am and you told me to immediately go back to my hometown which is an 8 hour drive from the airport. I told my mother that i wanted to stay at my cousin's house for a while and rest before going back and you got angry. I didn't need to hear your voice to know you were yelling through your angry texts. I was tired, don't i deserve to get a break? I told you to try and consider my feelings and you told me "what about you? Have you ever considered my feelings? Have you ever made me happy or proud? Exactly, you haven't." I've suspected it, the way you never said you were proud or happy throughout my childhood, especially not while i went through a burnout during highschool, you never even said a single congratulations to me but I tried so hard to believe that perhaps you just didn't want to express your happiness. You always told my brother congratulations for even tbe simplest things, he gets even a single A and you would be celebrating it, weren't the results i give to you were what you always hoped for? You pushed me for it bcs you told me that my brother lacks in his studies, so why does it always feel like i could never be better than him?

But i was wrong, i was always an embarrassment to you, a failure and nothing more than a headache to you. Perhaps my brother was right all those years ago, i really was nothing more than a problem for her, for the family. I wasn't as feminine as she wanted, i wasn't as smart as she hoped for, I wasn't as slim, i wasn't as religious, I wasn't the perfect child she hoped for. Bcs my brother could not be the perfect child and that's alright, i can be the replacement instead but was that all i was? Nothing more than an achievement child to get all those and it is just that, an achievement bcs those weren't from your son? Sometimes i think about my life and i question, why was i never good enough? Why does my existence seem like nothing more than a thorn in my mother's side?

Mother, do you remember when you yelled at me to go to my room and study? It was your birthday, i was excited to hug you and kiss you happy birthday but you yelled at me to stop bothering you and i locked myself in my room instead. I studied as fast i could so i could get to work on making you a birthday card. I slipped it into my workbook when i handed it to you, you didn't even give me a single glance. It was a pink heart shaped card with little stars, do you remember? I sat in my room anxiously waiting for you to open it. I was 10 but do you remember what i wrote in it? "Happy birthday mumy! I love you and even though i know you love my brother more than me, i still love you very much!" You told me that you loved the both of us equally, why did you never showed it?

[hayleylwong]

reflection 05-23

9:33pm - today i woke up at like 12:30. this was disappointing bc i was supposed to get up earlier to study for my chem midterm tm. instead i didnt study until like 4 bc i had to go sit outside and talk to people and then i went to class for like five minutes but i left to go study for chem bc i thought that was more important. i went to the schoenberg music practice rooms w my friend that can play piano to take a break from studying and omg the practice room hallway looks and sounds like a psychiatric ward like i swear all the instruments blended together and sounded like clown music and the hallway was long and the doors were all like scary w one little window in them. but i liked hearing my friend play piano. then i met my other friend at feast and ate dumplings and we got to talk i wish i could see her more often. then i went to study some more w my friend from before and we had to check like 15 lounges before we found an empty table. tn im gonna do pomodoro method so i am writing this during one of my breaks. i hope i can get through everything rn i feel like it is doable i bought yerba and celsius earlier so i am prepared for my all nighter. we will see how doable it feels as the night progresses. i am looking forward to 4:00pm tm when i can finally sleep after my midterm and hanging out w people for an hour 3 times in a row.

9:44pm - omg i called today the 21st accidentally. i just realized i cannot sleep at 4 bc of club work due at 5. ughhhh it is only the beginning of the night and i already want to sleep. i have overdone my pomodoro break by 11 minutes now. it is not a good sign.

12:10am - it was not a good sign. i have watched one and a half lectures and am two hours and twenty minutes into my current break. i went to the store and got more yerba mate but it is not working. i have seven lectures left and less than ten hours before my midterm. when am i going to shower. i now cannot sleep until 7pm tomorrow. my eczema is making me itch inside my body i am uncomfortable and everything is irritating me i cannot focus but i will. i will do it i have to otherwise idk what to do no i have to i really have to. only 19 more hours of misery.

3:54am - i have watched one hour of lecture in the last six hours. i am scared. there are other peoples review notes on the white board and i do not recognize some of the words. my friend said theyre important. no position is comfortable i am hella fidgety and my skin is freaking out. i want to shower but i do not have time. my friend is abt to go to sleep and leave me. who will keep me awake. i an beginning to do the thing i used to do where i blink weird and tense my head muscles bc i feel off. i am going to hug my boy. except i just saw his explore page and let me tell you i have never seen so many asian bikini thirst traps in my life. and i scrolled through his for you page and the same girl kept coming up. tell me why when i was scrolling through the explore he said ‘ooh a white one’ like three times. like actually wtf. have i told u guys his ex is white. my chem prof is rly grinding my gears rn. i hope i does not ever find my tumblr. i hope i can focus in the next six hours. oh no that is not enough time. no no no no no

5:16 - i actually cannot think. my head is numb. but the caffeine is finally working and i cannot sleep. i am so f ed. my head does not work. maybe i am just irritable rn. i hate everything. wtf is a nucleophile and how do u tell how strong it is. i just learned but i forget. i am going to cry.

5:26 - my friend is going to sleep soon. what am i gonna do. i was supposed to be done w lec by now and i have six left. i have four hours left before the exam. i have never been so disappointed in myself. i am sad. what am i going to do. i cant cry im too dehydrated and i dont have time for that. what is wrong w me

6:26 - how am i still on the same lecture as an hour ago. i am so miserable. was this quarter really worth it if im gonna fail this class? i wasnt even good at this quarter. but it is too late now bc if i dont go through w that i alr failed. i cant even hear anything shes saying anymore but i barely have time to watch even on 2x speed

6:50 - i am struggling. thinking abt doing anything makes me want to sob. i really really hope my club does not make us do stuff for an extra week bc i actually do not think i can. that week will be spent studying for finals. ik what to prioritize now. they should make that more clear. ughhh my brain is being attacked with words. it does not like it. i hate myself rn. i need to scream

jp updates: sam is feeling good today. he is curious whether or not he asks people for contact information weirdly and is working on changing his phrasing.

[starlight-phantom]

Hi! I'm the anon who asked about Matsunaga and Hitokoe! Sorry I only saw your answer a little while ago because I was pretty busy but wow whole confidants?? Could I ask what they entailed or is that a little too forward?

Hello! That's fine, that happens to me all the time. And well, it's not like I'm ever gonna finish that fic so I might as well just share my notes about the confidants. Keep in mind though, they are just basic outlines, I was planning on fleshing them out when I actually got to writing them but... Y'know... I never did that.

Matsunaga:

Rank 2: He asks Ren for help with carrying books to his car and the two chat about Ren's academic performance and Matsunaga's laziness.

Rank 3: Ren sees a student bribe Matsunaga into giving him the answers to the upcoming quiz. Matsunaga seems apprehensive but does it. Ren questions him on it, but Matsunaga remains vague.

Rank 4: Ren sees Matsunaga in Shibuya and chats when an unfamiliar woman appears and makes a cryptic remark to Matsunaga.

Rank 5: Ren helps Matsunaga tidy up and asks him why he's a teacher if he doesn't enjoy teaching. Matsunaga dejectedly admits that he doesn't know.

Rank 6: Matsunaga confesses to Ren that he used to love teaching back at the old school he worked at. However, after he refused to give the exams answers to a student who attempted to seduce him, the student framed him for having an inappropriate relationship with her and got him fired. Matsunaga admitted that he lost his love of helping teenagers learn after that. Ren tells him that if he knew the girl was lying, he should do what he knows is best and help the students who deserve it.

Rank 7: Matsunaga takes Ren's words to heart and begins using a more hands-on approach to teaching. He becomes more friendly and cheerful and the students enjoy his lessons a lot more.

Rank 8: Ren helps Matsunaga shop for better stationery and treats for the students when the woman appears again. She is the girl who framed Matsunaga at his old school. She accuses Matsunaga of having an inappropriate relationship with Ren and threatens to tell Kosei if Matsunaga doesn't pay her. Matsunaga has a panic attack about his life being ruined a second time by this girl. Ren asks for her name and changes her heart.

Rank 9: Ren takes Matsunaga to the diner to try and help him calm down. The woman appears again and apologises. She admits that she was extremely bitter that she failed at school and her life quickly went downhill as she fell into debt while Matsunaga managed to pick himself back up. She tells Matsunaga that he was a great teacher and that she won't lie to Kosei. Matsunaga cries tears of joy and relief after she walks away.

Rank 10: Matsunaga visits Leblanc to personally thank Ren for everything he's done and apologises for spreading his criminal record. He explains that he told everything to the principal and has been given a second chance. Matsunaga also reveals that he figured out that Ren was a phantom thief and promises to do whatever he can to help.

Hitokoe:

Rank 2: Ren admits that he overheard the argument between Hitokoe and Matsunaga and thanks Hitokoe for sticking up for him. Hitokoe states that she was only doing what was right.

Rank 3: During lunchtime, Ren notices a bunch of third year boys flirting with Hitokoe. After they leave, Hitokoe tells him that, while she finds it flattering that they think she's pretty, it makes her feel rather uncomfortable.

Rank 4: Ren stumbles across Hitokoe practising a song of her own. Her voice is beautiful. She informs him that it's a song her friend taught her when they were at school.

Rank 5: While practising piano after school, Ren notices that Hitokoe is quieter than usual. She tells him that it's just a down day for her and that she gets days like this occasionally. However, she is still very supportive of Ren's music.

Rank 6: Ren stumbles across the vice principal cornering Hitokoe, trying to get her to go on a date with him. Ren quickly intervenes, pretending that he has a few questions about his current music project. The other teacher leaves and Hitokoe thanks him.

Rank 7: Ren asks why Hitokoe is always pushing him to improve his music. Hitokoe admits that it's because she can see her former self in him and wants to help Ren become more confident. She states that once you start doing the things that make you happy, life becomes so much more enjoyable.

Rank 8: Ren enters the music room after school for a practice session, only to find Hitokoe in tears. When he asks what's wrong, Hitokoe informs him that the vice principal threatened to have her fired after she turned him down. Ren asks for his name and decides to change his heart.

Rank 9: Ren returns to the music room for another practice session to find Hitokoe much more cheerful. She informs him that the vice principal apologised and even told her that her teaching skills were good enough to warrant a promotion. She, however, turned the promotion down, stating that she's very happy with her current job for the time being. She tells Ren that she had begun to clear out her desk because she thought she was definitely going to be fired and that while she was cleaning, she found an old photo of her music class at highschool. After Ren can't find her in the photo, she points to a small, black haired boy with a nervous smile and tense body language. Ren remarks that she looks a lot happier now and that the blue hair suits her a lot better than black. Hitokoe gives him a big, beaming smile.

Rank 10: Hitokoe encourages Ren before his performance at the culture festival. She thanks him for being so supportive and understanding. She tells him that he's extremely talented and has a very bright future; as both a musician and a phantom thief. She promises that she will always be there to help him and then urges him onto the stage.

I hope you like what I originally planned for them and sorry I never actually wrote it.