#that maybe he was just a fling or a sex thing or . it doesnt matter

[dayurno]

"Exes Kandriel edition" im so curious as to what you mean by that bc I have seen all kinds of variations of "past relationship one ship new relationship another ship" like past andriel now kevineil or whatever but I don't think I've see a single fic where all 3 of them were together and then broke up??? I want to know what your brain is thinking pls share

HEHE WELL honestly the way i thought of it was kind of just kandreil being a thing throughout college/kevins last year but after his graduation he kind of goes m.i.a, in my heart i think about kevin moving out of the states to play exy a lot and i think itd actually be relevant and even important to him to be able to see the world beyond the nest......... but it also means things like different timezones, new people and new languages, an entire new life really that andreil of course do not agree with... i dont think they necessarily part on bad terms but andrew and neil very much dont want him to move away. in the end kevin (midnight rain plays softly in the background) wants the world in more ways than just a small apartment somewhere in denver and two cats you know....

so the fic would be really kevins return to the us a decade later, having broken off things with andreil but still loving them dearly....... right person wrong time kind of thing really.... and then theres andreil who never really stopped waiting for kevin, never stopped thinking about him, but accepted (after a lot of therapy mind you) that theres nothing you can Do when someone wants to/has to leave. i dont think thered even be a need to Rebuild their relationship per se because its always been there!!! andreil still have his stupid books in their apartment and kevins old jackets in their closet... i think theyd even come to pick him up at the airport totally uninvited too... BASICALLY JUST. ahhh you know... getting older and different but still yourself, being waited for when you thought your absence meant nothing, that kind of thing.... would kevin have stayed if he knew how much his absence would hurt them? would they have been as adamant about him staying if they had the insight of older men who know kevins ambitions are just as important as their own?

SO... old men yaoi........ i actually have a lot of thoughts about this you can guess by the long long answer haha i really want to write this (< going insane).... theyve loved him for almost ten years, what is one more? THAT KIND OF THING........ gah getting emotional just thinking about it.... kevin dayyyy!!! its you. its always been you

[serialcultist-edwardmunson]

Part 4 “Bartender Steve/Steddie AU”

Part 3 HERE

Eddie wakes up and immediately has no clue where he is. He wishes he could use the excuse of his past inter-dimensional trauma for the panic that bubbles up instantly, but unfortunately he’s had morning amnesia since he was a small child. So he stays still, calms his breathing, waits until the vague memory of stumbling up the fire escape with Steve Harrington and crawling in through the window resurfaces to the front of his memory. He flings himself upward and is hit with instant regret as his head pounds and his stomach does a circus worthy flip-flop, causing him to peel himself off the couch and race towards the general direction he remembers Steve telling him the bathroom is in. He heaves bile and a rivers worth of water into the toilet, resting his head on the seat when hes sure its all up. He isnt sure how long he’s sitting there before a hand on his back startles him upwards,

“Hey, Its just me.” Steve says quietly, moving around Eddie so he can simultaneously see the mans face and rub circles along his spine. Eddie sinks back down, melting at the touch,

“G’morning, Stevie…” Eddied mumbles into the hand hes pillowed on, “Sorry for wakin’ you up.”

“You didnt, dont worry about it. Can i get you some water?” Eddie nods his response, eyes half closed, and all but whines when Steve takes his hand away. A few minutes later and steve returns with a glass of ice water and a slice of buttered toast, sitting down across from him,

“You gonna eat this while your face is on my toilet?” He asks raising the hand with the toast to specify. Eddie pushes himself up and off the toilet seat with a groan, instead leaning himself against the cupboard and taking the water first. He takes a big gulp before being handed the toast. 

“So…” Eddie says, nibbling at the crust. His voice is hoarse from vomiting, “We gonna talk about it or…” Steve flushes, even though eddie hasn't even specified what yet,

“Talk about what?” He asks, slightly strained. Eddie smirks, 

“How known womanizer and straightest man I know ends up bartending at a chicago gay club?” Steves face relaxes, the question obviously not what he was thinking it would be,

“Oh. Um…” he struggles with his words,

“Oh?” Eddie echoes, “what did you think i was gonna say?” Steve shakes his head,

“Doesnt matter.” Eddie squints at him as he starts taking bigger bites of the toast,

“You gonna answer my question?” He says through a mouth full of bread. Steve bites at his lip nervously, suddenly finding a loose thread on his pajama pants VERY interesting. He opens his mouth to speak multiple times and closes it deciding against whatever he was gonna say. Eddie feels the mirth drain from his body,

“You know you can talk to me, right? Whatever youre about to say, its not gonna change anything.” Steve takes a deep breath,

“I thought you would have already gotten your answer from your new pal Roger.” He finally looks up at Eddie, worry clouding his eyes,

“A little bit, yeah, but he said you werent gay and i should ask you.” Steves runs his hands through his sleep flattened hair,

“Um, yeah. Not gay. Not really sure where I fit in, just know Im not ‘the straightest man you know’ anymore. Or ever were, I guess.” He says the last part extra quite, then continues,

“I find more and more that I dont care about the sex side of things like i used to. I dont know…” he shrugs, “maybe all the trauma finally caught up with me.” Eddie looks him over curiously. Steve isnt meeting his eye, and hes still picking at that damn string,

“Romantic attraction and sexual attraction aren’t connected. They can vary widely in one person, y’know?” Steve nods,

“I know.” He says, but something still seems to be bothering him, “dont…” he starts, finally meeting eddies eye, “dont tell the party just yet. They know I work at a bar, they just dont know the specifics and im not ready to have this conversation with them.” 

“Were you ready to have this conversation with me?” Eddie asks, suddenly feeling a bit like an ass. Steve hesitates before saying,

“I dont think i would have ever been ready to have this conversation with you.” Its so quite eddie almost doesnt catch it, but he knows it was meant to be heard by the way steves eyes never leave his,

“What's that supposed to mean?” Eddie feels a weight in his chest. Why was he not good enough for steve to come out to?

“Im out to everyone I know here in chicago, but… the only people from hawkins that know are rob and joyce.”

“Mrs. Byers knows!?”

“Yeah, she, uh guessed and came to me about being someone i could talk to. Kinda spilled the beans in a heart to heart.”

“What made her guess?” Steves face flushed again, which he seemed to feel and covered it with both his hands,

“Dont freak out?”

“ course not stevie.” Eddie could see steve shake his head at the nickname. Steve takes a deep breath,

“Man,” he huffed a laugh, “i had the most pathetic thing for you after… yknow, everything. She saw straight through me as soon as she had us all in a room together.” Eddies eyebrows shoot up to his bangs, and he tries to think of the first big get together after the ‘earthquake’. He opens his mouth to respond, hesitating a second too long and steve jumps in instead,

“I mean, dont worry, im not about to hit on you. Not trying to make you uncomfortable. Just,since you asked. are you gay? Sorry, dont answer that. robin always says my radar is shit and i feel like the chicks probably love your look. But I didnt wanna lie to you, cause-”

“Stevie,” eddie puts a hand up to slow down the other mans robin-inspired rant. Steve stops, mouth snapping shut, cheeks pink,

“What do you think i was doing dancing on a man, not with, ON,” eddie emphasised, “in a gay club. In these clothes.” He gesturs down to his attire, and then looks down to realize hes in sweatpants and an old hawkins high shirt,

“Oh thats just cruel…” eddie mutters. Steve laughs, and eddie can just about hear all the tension release in the mans body all at once,

“Sorry, it was the first thing i grabbed and you werent really trying to stay upright for much longer.” Eddie only vaguely remembers trying to shuffle the clothes on. Hes not even sure he was really drunk at that point, mostly just exhausted. He finishes up the last of his toast,

“You think youre gonna keep that down long enough to move this to the living room? Ill stick a pot of coffee on.” Steve points at the door behind eddie, who contemplates the wobbliness of his stomach real quick,

“Yes to coffee, please.” He says, starting to push himself up. A hand shoots out in front of him, an offering of help. He takes it, and when he gets pulled up, he accidentally overcompensates and has to stop himself with his palm against steves chest. Hes mere inches away from steves face, his brown eyes, his lips... Something pools in his stomach, and he hesitates letting go of the man, but he snaps to reality and clears his throat, dropping his hands and muttering a quiet thank you.

In the living room, eddie grabs up his blankets and nests himself into the corner of the couch while steve starts the coffee. Eddie watches steve move around the open space, flitting from the sink to the cupboards and back again,

“Man, im so sorry for waking you.” He says, propping his head on his arm off the back of the couch,

“You didnt i promise, ive been up for a little bit.”

Eddie furrows his brow,

“What time even is it?”

“Almost one.”

“WHAT!?” Eddie launches himself up and steve turns around, a surprised look in his eyes at he outburst,

“What?” Steve echoes, coffee pot full of water in hand. Eddie starts looking around frantically,

“Where are my clothes, steve!”

“Oh, dryer. Closet next to the bathroom.”

Eddie practically sprints down the hallway,

“Shit shit shit…” he mutters to himself as he digs his clothes from the dryer,

“Why are you panicking, ed?” Steve asked, voice a bit muffled from the kitchen,

“Rehearsal started at 12!”

“Oh shit, um well i can drive you, let me just…” steve is now squeezing past eddie, who is mid shirt change, to get to his room and closes the door. Eddie takes this chance to switch his pants quickly. Man, he looks ridiculous wearing his nightclub clothes in broad daylight. Hes sitting on the couch putting on his shoes when steve finally comes out, dressed in an oversized sweatshirt and jeans with white sneakers. What eddie gets stuck on is the tortoishell glasses he has on his face. He looks so different from the steve he knew, with his mustache and longer hair now untied,

“Yeah yeah, laugh it up.” Steve says, taking eddies staring for anything other than what it was. God, eddie had to get over this man. By all means, this look shouldnt work for anybody, but somehow steve looked so comfortable and human that eddie cant help but smile fondly,

“You look good, stevie.” He echoes their words from last night. Pink tinges steves cheeks and ears, and he turns away quickly and snatches up his keys from the counter,

“Ready to go?” He asks, sort of breathless. Eddies smile widens,

“Onward!” He points ahead of him and marches out the door, hearing steve sigh and say with exasperation, “god i forgot how weird you are.”

“So youre in town for a show? Still with… corroded coffin, right?” Steve asks. Eddie lets out a low whistle, “damn, you were actually listening when i talked back then?” Steve rolls his eyes,

“Of course i listened to you. So yeah? The bands still together?”

“Oh, no.” Eddie chuckles, “we broke up years ago. Gareths still with me, though. We go by serial cultist now.”

“You have got to be shitting me.”

“Nope, not shitting you. The groupies are questionable but most of them are women and were all mega gay so… except gareth, but his wife keeps them at bay.” Eddie hears steve mutter “garrths married, no shit.” Under his breath and his heart feels fond. Eddie fiddles with the hem of his mesh shirt, trying to build up the courage to ask. Ah fuck it, he thinks,

“Do you, uh, wanna come to the show tonight? If not its cool, but i can add you to the list and you know theres no pressu-“

“I would love to.” Steve says smiling. Eddie goes silent, looking at the side of steves head a bit dumbstruck,

“Ok.” Is all eddie can say, and when he realizes thats not a good response, he shakes his head as if shaking away a thought and starts to smile himself,

“Ok, cool. I’ll, uh, have the venue add you to the list.” He turns so he's facing forward again, not sure what to say after that. The rest of the drive flies by and once they’re stopped, Eddie hops out. He rounds the car where steve has rolled down his window and leans in, faces only a couple inches apart,

“You can always change your mind about coming tonight. I know its not really your kind of music. Pinky promise I wont hold it against you.” Eddie puts his hand up right between them, pinky out. Steve looks at it, then back up at Eddie’s face, 

“Get the fuck out of here, Munson. I’ll see you tonight.” He leans away from the window and puts the car into drive but keeps his foot on the brake. Eddie backs up to the sidewalk, a crooked smile showing off his dimple. He gives a sloppy salute,

“Alrighty, cap’n, see ya at dusk.” He turns away and walks to the doors. He's about to go in when Steve shouts, 

“Save me a t-shirt!” And then drives off without a response. Eddie looks behind him at where the car had just been. He can’t wipe the stupid grin off his face no matter how hard he tries, and he knows the guys are never gonna let him live this down.

Tonight. He’d see steve again tonight.

[lovely-laurent]

When Laurent and Damen first meet, they hate each other. They're both polite, or, as polite as they can manage. The relationship between Vere and Akielos is tentative, and neither of them want to destroy a treaty before they get a chance to sign it.

Auguste tries his hardest to urge Laurent to be nicer. But Laurent can't stand Damianos. They agree on absolutely nothing, on opposite ends of the spectrum on all political matters and way too stubborn to concede to the other.

They argue. It's passive aggressive and full of insults and back-handed compliments. Everyone knows they hate each other, and it puts a strain on the festivities. Auguste eventually tells them both to take their arguing somewhere else. Its not the most diplomatic of moves, but he's sick and tired of hearing them argue, and hes still trying to convince the veretian Council that the treaty is going to be good for Vere.

"Somewhere else" ends up being Damen's room. Things get worse, until they're full-out screaming at each other. They're calling each other names, flinging insults to one another. They're being absolutely nasty with each other.

And then. Somehow. They hate-fuck. Laurent is kindve confused at the end of it because Damianos was actually really good in bed but also he thinks hes dumb as a rock. Damen is even more confused, because in hindsight he has no idea why Laurent consented, since he hates him so much. He doesnt know why he consented to it either, other than the fact that Laurent is drop-dead gorgeous. He didn't think he could get past Laurent's terrible personality, but somehow he did, and the sex was good, he thinks. Maybe? He doesnt really know. Laurent is very confusing and hard to read.

They still hate each other, but they end up fucking every day while Damen is in Vere. Sometimes multiple times in one day. Damen feels like hes been hypnotized. Nikandros thinks hes an idiot. Auguste is furious with Laurent. Laurent and Damen continue to do it anyway, though.

Eventually, Damen and his group have to go back to Akielos. He and Laurent still absolutely hate each other. They start writing each other. However, their letters are angry, mean, and hornier than all hell. Damen writes to Laurent that he'll shove his cock in his mouth just to get him to shut up. Laurent writes back that hell fuck him so hard he'll walk with a limp for a week.

Somehow, they start hating each other less. They start to find common ground. Laurent realizes that Damen is poetic, and Laurent loves poetry. Damen realizes that Laurent is actually really funny. Apparently, they like the same books, and discuss them in their letters in between filthy promises of what they'd do to each other next time they see each other.

After a long time, and many many many sexy yet intimidating letters later, Vere goes to Akielos. Something shifted between Laurent and Damen. They fuck, and it's hard and rough and loud and mean but then Damen shows him around the palace. They know each other now. At least a little bit. Damen knows that Laurent loves pomegranates, and for some reason, feels a need to surprise him with a basket full. Laurent knows Damen loves sports, and agrees to let Damen teach him to wrestle. Its fun. They laugh a lot. Though they dont notice it at first, they realize that they've started to meet in the middle on certain political matters. They even change their minds on a few things. The sex is still great, rough and angry, but over time their anger outside of the bedroom starts to diminish, until they're not even angry, and the rough sex is simply because they like it.

Towards the end of the trip, they both panic because they realized they dont hate each other, but actually really really like each other. Like a lot. Auguste and Nikandros have known this since day 1 in Akielos and are very frustrated with them. Eventually, Vere has to leave Akielos. Damen and Laurent are both sad about it.

When Laurent is back home, he and Damen start writing again. It's different though. Damen writes him poetry about his eyes in between detailing his rough sexual fantasies with Laurent involving tying him to his bed. Laurent sends him gifts of flowers and clothes and art with his letters, which also include thorough accounts of how he touched himself while thinking of biting Damen until he screamed.

Eventually, Damen comes back to Vere. It's a surprise, he was only able to give a few days notice before arriving with a small group of people. He shocks everyone (including Auguste, but mostly Laurent) by asking for his hand in marriage. Auguste gives him permission, and Laurent accepts the proposal. They embrace and kiss each other, Laurent has tears in his eyes.

Laurent is sad to leave his brother in Vere to relocate to Akielos with his husband-to-be. Auguste promises to visit at least once a year, and to write often. The wedding is grand, both Damen and Laurent having long forgotten about hating each other. Nikandros and Auguste didnt forget and still have absolutely no idea how they got there.

[jangofctts]

Keida what do your boys think about aftercare habits?!? like snuggles/cuddles or clean up orrr 💘

I shALL TELL U 

blanche: blanche likes to hug you to his chest and just run his fingers over your skin, memorizing everything from freckles to scars to birthmarks or stretchmarks. he won’t tell you he loves you (not yet at least) but you can feel the care and the love through the way he looks at you while he traces your skin. eventually he’ll get up and ask if you’d likeanything to eat/drink and maybe offer to clean up the mess he left between your legs (sometimes he offers with his tongue ;) gdjsbs) but anyway, he isnt always the best person to talk to afterwards just bc he knows he might cave and tell you how much he loves you, but he likes cuddles!

blue: he’s very open to anything you want!! like he’ll hold your hand and sweetly ask you what will make you feel cherished and loved afterwards. he cares so much about you, almost to the point where he forgets that he also needs aftercare so make sure you take care of him too!! even tho he do be a little skinny he wants you to fully lay on him or hug him tight with exactly 1000 blankets and pillows surrounding you both. he likes to be coMfy

jaws: jaws is an absoLUTE SLUT for snuggle time after sex, like after you get cleaned up he wants you in his arms iMMEDIATELY. like he’d literally glue himself to you if he could and so expect him to be cuddled very close, just running his hands over your bare skin or massaging out any sore muscles. jaws likes to talk about the future while he’s in your arms, or you in his--mostly about how when the war is over he wants to get married (hopefully to you) and have kids on some nice planet like Naboo. again, this baby is a hopeless romantic and just imagines the perfect fairytale ending ok?? 

sweets: he can get a little overwhelmed after sex, so he'd really appreciate it if you just spoon him/cradle him and play with his hair and whisper praise. honestly like he’d love to take a bath or hot shower with you but if that’s not possible then he’s ok with a warm washcloth. he’s a bit quiet after sex but he’s not shy about telling you he loves you!! he likes to cling to you and cuddle AND SO it would be the perfect time to watch a holodrama or some other holofilm!! he’s very open to whatever you wanna watch—esp the nature documentaries (but uh be aware that he might cry if his favorite baby animal gets eaten or smthn rhdjdn)

kami: he’s ALWAYS gonna make sure youre all good 100%. he knows he can be intense and so to lighten that load he cracks jokes and gets you to smile/laugh. super giggly cuddles and dumb jokes, sweet smooches and maybe a tickle fight shsksn. he’s a clown but he’s yOUR clown. he likes to snack afterwards too so he’ll sneak in snacks and drinks and he’ll put on a movie maybe rhjdbd. but if you just want to cudddle he’s cool with that too!! he’s the most talktive after sex and so he’ll like to chat about anything and everything like “would you rather” questions or like “is cereal a soup?” verY good at convos and will most certainly proclaim is undying love for you

fuse: terrible aftercare until you teach him rhdkdb like he’s the type of guy to just be like “aight. cool. bye thx for coming, close the door on the way out.” like it’s only bc he’s used to one night flings so he’s not used to cuddling or basking in the afterglow. bUT once he meets you he’s willing to hold you in his arms or his in yours. if you play with his hair he will absolutely MELT, and esp with that paired with gentle praise?? boy he might cry (he does sometimes)

bruiser: he knows he’s a big boy!! and is fuLLY willing to get you icepacks/bacta/heating pad whatever!! he doesnt mind if you want to just lay on his chest or have him tuck you into a nice spooning position dhdjdb. though he might fall asleep like this and will start to snore but dgsks he looks so adorable when he sleeps so no biggie. if he doesn’t fall asleep he does tend to get hungry so he’ll just pull out a bag of chips and start munchin and offer you some dhdjdn. he has a heart of gold and if you want him to do a particular thing for aftercare he’ll do it immediately!

void: no matter how tired he is after fuckin the absolute light out of you he always makes sure you’re alright afterwards. he’ll grab you some water or a warm washcloth, maybe massage out some of your sore muscles and would nOT mind if you returned the favor. he’s not really a talker afterwards but only bc he’s literally about to conk tf out. he’ll mumble that he loves you or will thank you, but no huge convos!! when he wakes up he’s more willing to chat and maybe share a snack with you, offer you some bacta if you dont wanna keep the hickies or fingertip bruises but i oFC you tell him you wanna keep em dhdkbd

[consumeconstantly]

Small Buff Girl Sightings Ch. 5

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3:00AM | CoffeeVamp: bb bat update us TheOG: ^^ more info on the situation in paris

3:28AM | Demonspawn: It is difficult to obtain information on Hawkmoth. The butterflies disperse after they are cleansed, and before they land their target, they don’t show up electronically.  Coffee Vamp: o how the mighty have fallen i thought u said u could best me bb boi

3:42AM | Demonspawn: I’d like to see you do better. Coffee Vamp: IS THAT A CHALLENGE Coffee Vamp: ill take u up on that gimme 24 hours and ur going down TheOG: he has had a whole month so dont be too sure of that LadyLady: would you guys SHUT UP its two and some of us have jobs to do Coffee Vamp: cmon babs u luv us dont deny it LadyLady: Don’t make me hunt you down, Tim. Coffee Vamp: oOooO proper punctuation im shaking TheOG: just shut off notifications Babs TheOG: Bruce does Jesus: i don’t think the man has checked this chat in years Coffee Vamp: wdym brucie checks the chat all the time hes just a silent lurker Coffee Vamp: he doesnt even set himself to invisible

3:57AM | Daddy is away. Coffee Vamp: im so glad i have admin privileges imagine if i didnt bruce would have a boring normal nickname like his actual name LadyLady: good lord, why am I even in this chat?? Daddy: You’re supposed to keep them under control. Coffee Vamp: SEE I TOLD U BRUCE IS A SILENT LURKER> THIS. IS. SOLID. PROOF. IN YOUR FACE TheOG: nobody said otherwise Coffee Vamp: also how are the people have you made friends Jesus: Demon spawn? Making friends? Id be less surprised if he told us he has a new fling Coffee Vamp: is j right? Got a winter fling? 

4:12AM | Coffee Vamp: ur lack of a response tells us nothing  TheOG: im sure he’s just adopted his usual icy persona Coffee Vamp: haha hes the bb of so many things Coffee Vamp: bb vamp bb demon spawn ice ice bb Coffee Vamp: getitt im so funny

4:36AM | Coffee Vamp: guys?

“I told you I could get her to write her number on your cup,” Marinette grins with pride.

“And I told you I didn’t want her to.” Damian scowls and kicks a pebble in his path.

“You’re still wearing the clothes I picked out for you,” she points out.

“You told me to wear it. I wore it. I’m not interested in her.” 

Marinette squints at Damian, evaluates whether he’s telling the truth or not. “Huh, you really aren’t interested. I guess it’s a good thing you didn’t wear the other outfit I picked out for you-- that one would have gotten her to ask you out on the spot.”

Damian groans. “We’re going to have to find a new coffee place.”

“Or we could just come when she’s not on shift and run away like mice when we do see her?”

Damian gives her The Look.

“But they have good coffee here,” Marinette whines.

“Maybe you should have thought about that before dressing me up and sending me to my death.”

“It’s not my fault! You only have your parents to blame for your looks.”

It’s true; both of Damian’s parents are good-looking. His whole family is, actually, adopted or not. All of the good looking people he meets are talented and have a tragic life story. Which is the cause and which is the effect, Damian isn’t sure. But it holds true even in Paris. All he has to do is look at Marinette or Adrien, though he’s not a hundred percent sure where the tragedy kicks in for Marinette. Probably the time when she was at odds with Lila, but he hasn’t looked much into the situation. He can even use Lila Rossi as an example. She has even worse color coordination than Damian is, but her features are model worthy. Lila Rossi is also definitely fucked up in ways that Damian doesn’t care to explore.

The effects of Marinette’s well-placed compliments has Damian thinking about himself in a positive manner that he never has before. Bruce is always stingy with praise, and the other senior members of the Justice League of America see him as another Robin that doesn’t need praise because competency comes with the mantle. Dick and Barbara compliment him occasionally, but that’s rarer now that his place is more firmly cemented in the family. Damian doesn’t think he’s ever had someone so willing to genuinely compliment him. Marinette’s compliments extend to more than just his looks, as well. She praises his technological skills as he sets up her website and has complimented him as he helps her out with whatever altercations she inevitably comes across on the streets. If he reveals his skills as Robin, reveals himself as Damian Wayne, will he receive even more praise?

“But since we did buy you that absolute knockout of an outfit, you’re going to have to wear it eventually. So whose heart do you want to steal?”

“I don’t want a relationship,” Damian repeats. They seem like more effort than they’re worth, and he always sees couples fighting and complaining about each other. Plus, they have to make time for each other and his alter ego doesn’t allow for that, though he supposes that he isn't Robin. At least, not right now.

“You don’t need to want a relationship just to flirt with somebody. Who’s it going to be? The intern at the Louvre? My parent’s newest hire? Oooh, how about Nicolette?” Marinette’s voice takes on a more mischievous tone. 

Damian will give Marinette this much: her taste in the aesthetics of people is far from bad. The intern from the Louvre is two hundred pounds of lean muscle with a devil-may-care smile and a deep, belly laugh that makes people laugh with him, but Damian and he don’t have anything in common. Her parent’s new hire is knockout gorgeous, with warm brown eyes, and definitely the kind of girl Damian would have gone for as a one night stand back in Gotham. However, he’s also 98% sure that she has a very possessive boyfriend who stops by the bakery every time she has a shift. Nicolette is considered her college’s belle, and her intense gaze paired with her surprisingly friendly demeanor might have been appealing to Damian if she weren’t ten years older than him. 

“I’m not into any of them,” he says, simply.

“Then who are you into? Surely someone has caught your eye in the past month?” Marinette looks genuinely curious, but her expression shifts into horror. “Oh my god. I’m so sorry. I never asked your preferences, if I was being insensitive, I’m sorry, I mean I’m pan, but you absolutely don’t have to tell me, it’s your right if you’re not comfortable.”

Damian does look slightly uncomfortable now that she’s looking at him more closely. His arms are crossed over each other, across his chest, and his hair is tousled. Then, he lets out a small laugh, and Marinette melts. “It’s fine, Pigtails. All of the people you listed are attractive, but I’m not attracted to them. I’m more of a personality guy, though I can’t say that personality has stopped me from things more than dates before.”

He’s had his fair share of hook-ups and makeout sessions in the past when feeling particularly frustrated with something that wasn’t going his way, though his primary method of relief is through sparring. Short missions and one night stands go fairly well together; he doesn’t ever have to deal with people wanting long term relationships, and even if they do, he’s gone before they know it. So far, he hasn’t hooked up with anyone in Paris, but then again, he’s only been here for a month and this is a long term mission. Whatever time he’s not with Marinette or at school is dedicated to piecing together the mystery that is the Miraculous and trying to figure out Hawkmoth’s identity. 

“Oh,” Marinette continues to blush.

She’s clearly too embarrassed to bring up any other topic, so Damian decides that he’ll shoot the same conversation topic back at her. Marinette is attractive, and people she meets ask for her numbers and dates often enough. She’ll accept the former if they aren’t a total creep, but she always turns down requests for dates.

“And you? Why aren’t you out there questing for love? No crushes or significant others that I need to beat off with a stick?”

This does manage to lessen her flush. She frowns, turns something over in her mind. 

“No crushes right now, no. I used to have a huge crush on Adrien just a year ago. He’s such a sweet person, but we don’t see eye to eye on important matters.” And also not into sex, either. Even physical affection hits him the wrong way sometimes, which makes Marinette worry even further for his well being with Lila’s constant touches. Still, he hasn’t said anything, and Lila hasn’t done anything more than grasp his arm or shoulders every now and then, to reassure the class that yes, they are the golden couple. Marinette also suspects that he is very unwilling to talk about the whole situation in general, and it’s not as though they’re super close.

Of course she had a crush on Adrien. Damian can see it now, Marinette looking at Adrien with her big blue eyes, her lashes fluttering when she gets close to him. Stuttering when she gets embarrassed or when she gets close to him. It makes his lungs constrict, but he’s not sure why.

“As for past relationships, there’s only really Luka. We had a pretty good run, but he’s out of the country, touring. He wanted to try long distance, but I didn’t really want that. But he’s respectful-- there’s no need to beat him off with a stick or anything.”

“I’m surprised a pretty girl like you doesn’t have more suitors,” Damian says, stepping over a crack in the sidewalk as they walk towards the park.

Marinette gags. “There are some other people who have been interested, but I wouldn’t exactly consider them relationship material. If you’re going after a girl just because she looks exotic, that’s sort of nasty. I guess I’m just unlucky in love.”

“At least you’re not as bad off as Ladybug is,” Damian jokes.

She looks at him strangely. “What makes you say that?”

“Well, first there was that creepy sculptor who must have been twice her age, then there’s Chat Noir who keeps flirting with her despite her requests not to, plus all of the random love akumas. I’m not even going to talk about the hordes of guys who chase after her, trying to get a date just because she’s a superhero. It’s not even like she can kick them between the legs because she has an image to uphold and all that.” He smirks, nudges her with his arm. “I’m surprised you haven’t done that with some of your stalkers.”

“Oh. You’re right, huh. Though, I don’t think Chat Noir has actually flirted for a while now.”  Chat Noir has been very subdued as of late, and it makes Ladybug worry.

Marinette feels uncomfortable with the way the conversation has shifted. How does Damian know about all of these past akuma attacks? As far as Marinette is aware, most information about anything Miraculous related is difficult to get a hold of abroad, largely because the Miraculous try to hide their existence as best they can, and partially because Mayor Bourgeois doesn’t want word to get out that he hasn’t flushed a supervillain terrorist out even though he’s had three years to do it.

“Copycat happened three years ago.” It’s a question, almost.

“I figure I might as well keep up with the heroes of Paris. I’m here and they’re interesting.” Damian figures this is as good a time as any to bring up his interest in Hawkmoth. Marinette has been nothing but helpful and she’s definitely the kind of person whose heart is in the right place. Not to mention that she’s definitely smart and seems impartial; the one time he asked her about her thoughts on the heroes, he found out that she didn’t see them as perfect. She was able to critique Ladybug in full, which seemed pretty odd considering the rest of Paris seemed to have nothing but glowing praise for the heroine. “You’ve had some awful luck with akumas yourself. Weird how Ladybug didn’t show up when you got kidnapped by Evillustrator. One of the only times she didn’t show up for an akuma.”

“And what happened to the other heroes? It’s mostly Ladybug now. She must be in an awful state with her civilian life.” He looks off to the park, occasionally flicking his attention back Marinette’s face, evaluating her expression.

She catches his eyes and he swiftly looks away, looking almost nervous. Marinette stiffens. He knows, he knows, he knows, he can’t know. But how? How does he know that she’s Ladybug? She hasn’t let anything slip around him. She's been careful not to. Everything she’s ever said about Ladybug has been brief and curt, taking on an almost angry tone.

“If you’re so interested in Parisian heroes, I’m sure you saw the press conference Ladybug and Chat Noir gave last year about why the other heroes would be showing up less often.” Marinette keeps her voice carefully neutral. She needs to play this safe. She’s probably over reacting-- she’s been on edge with Hawkmoth sending out an akuma attack nearly every single day for the past few months.

Damian shakes his head. “It didn’t seem like good reasoning. Ladybug and Chat Noir are too untrained. They haven’t beat two villains in three years. They should let someone else take over.” 

Marinette has come across a good number of Ladybug and Chat Noir haters throughout her time. Those who dislike the Parisian heroes often make the exact same arguments Damian is now. That they’re not fast enough. That they should have taken down Hawkmoth and Mayura already. This is nothing new to her, though it does hurt hearing it from Damian, for some reason. She can’t even argue with most of the points he’s brought up. Going mostly solo was because of her own, selfish reasons. She really should have beaten Hawkmoth and Mayura by now. 

“The only thing they have going for them right now is that they’re keeping their Miraculous out of Hawkmoth’s hands.” She pretends that the reason why Chat Noir doesn’t show up to battle is to ensure that Hawkmoth can’t get both of the Miraculous in one fell swoop. It feels hopeless to fight villain after villain without any movement forwards. Her mind wanders to the increasing frequency of akumas and smiles, sardonically. “Some people think it’s only a matter of time until Ladybug and Chat Noir lose.”

“Hawkmoth almost seems to be the better strategist.” The two of them pass store front after store front. “Do you ever wonder what they look like, under the mask? Who they are?”

Marinette stares at the concrete underneath her feet. Hawkmoth, the better strategist? Laughable, and entirely incorrect. Even the people who hate Ladybug admit that her plans almost always work out, and that her plans are second to none. Really the only person who can possibly think that Hawkmoth is a better strategist is--

She can’t think like that. Damian is her friend. He’s just curious about Paris. Her lack of sleep and increase in paranoia re making her imagine things that are impossible. Besides, Damian isn’t on her list of suspects-- he told her he’s only been here for a short time, and Hawkmoth’s Miraculous definitely has a limited range. It’s a real pity that the world of Miraculous makes concrete evidence hard to come by, otherwise, Marinette likes to think Hawkmoth would have been behind bars already. 

“No,” she lies. Hawkmoth haunts her dreams and every waking hour. She spends hours and hours on theories and scouring out information and people who fit the clues she’s painstakingly pieced together. “Not really.”

Damian’s eyes are a piercing green, and for a moment, Marinette thinks she stops breathing. “Is that so? I’m really interested in who Ladybug is under the mask. I’d love the opportunity to talk to her in person, especially about her Miraculous. The powers she has are… very interesting.”

No. There’s no way that Damian can be Hawkmoth, right? This is all just her paranoia speaking. Damian is just a foreigner who is interested in super heroes. It’s no biggie. Still, she can’t shake off the idea that there’s more to Damian than meets the eye. The way he walks-- no, prowls-- commands respect. Marinette can tell that he knows how to fight, and knows how to fight well. He’s very good at finding information on people-- she sent a whole case file to her on Renee and his situation with his mother within twenty four hours of going into the precinct, complete with video evidence Marinette knows should have been impossible to procure without hacking-- and keeps up with her critiques on Ladybug and Chat Noir’s techniques like he’s watched their battles over and over again. He remembers akuma battles Marinette has half forgotten, because they happened so long ago.

She stares up at him, hands shoved in the pockets of the jacket she chose for him when they went on their wardrobe makeover. Damian is surprisingly wealthy; he purchased anything she even glanced at with passing approval. He looks straight forward, apparently waiting for some response from her. Just because Damian is her friend, doesn’t mean she can immediately expunge him from her list of suspects. So far, she has taken all of Damian’s words at face value. It didn’t matter to her that he rarely talks about his family or his life before Paris. It didn’t matter that he hadn’t brought her to his home during all of the weeks that they’ve been hanging out together. Really, Marinette just figured that he had a rocky relationship with his family, and that he may have been on the poorer side and was embarrassed to show her where he lived. But clearly. Damian is well off enough to afford brand name clothes without batting an eye. Things aren’t adding up. All of the red flags that she’s blatantly ignored start to crop up in her head.

The book on the species of butterflies that akumas are made of, tucked under his arm. The way he showed up after every single akuma attack when she rarely saw him in the area before or during it. His knowledge of the three languages that form the basis of the Miraculous Tome-- Mandarin, Arabic, and English.

If he is Hawkmoth, what sort of emotions would he be feeling right now? Some sort of euphoria, maybe, realizing that he could get infinitely closer to Ladybug when she is Marinette. Anticipation, too. Has Marinette been hanging out with a super villain for the past month? Has she really come to the point where she can call a supervillain her best friend?

Marinette takes another look at Damian’s outfit. Master Fu said that the Miraculous Hawkmoth owns is in the shape of a brooch. Marinette sees no such object on Damian, which could either mean that he’s not Hawkmoth or that he’s just been taking it off whenever he’s with her. She’s really hoping it’s not the second option.

She needs to gather her thoughts, make a plan on how to proceed. When she’s sure that Damian isn’t looking, Marinette sets off the ringtone that is saved for her Maman’s texts and calls. This catches Damian’s attention, and she waves looks up from her phone as though she’s responding. 

“Maman wants me to do a delivery. If you’re looking for more information on the whole superhero situation in Paris, I can get you Alya’s number. She runs the Ladyblog-- I’m sure she’d be glad to talk with you.” Alya also has some of the worst conspiracy theories that Marinette has ever seen. She doesn’t often keep abreast of what the Ladyblog’s portrayal of Ladybug is, but back when Marinette and Alya were friends, she was subjected to wild theories that made her stomach nauseous with how little logic there was. Which means that if-- if-- Damian is actually Hawkmoth, he might be thrown off by what she says.

“I’ll see you on Monday? Jagged texted me last night and wants me to change the embroidery on his commission.” This isn’t exactly a lie; Jagged wants one of the smaller details to be changed, but it certainly won’t take as long as she’s suggesting. Marinette hopes that it’s enough of an excuse to get Damian off her back for the rest of today and tomorrow while she reevaluates her game plans and life choices. 

Damian waves her off. “I don’t think that Ladyblogger girl knows anymore than I do. She’s of no help to me. I’ll see you on Monday.”

#

Marinette’s reaction to Damian’s questions are weird. There’s an underlying tension that she exuded before they parted ways, and he’s still thinking about it a day later.

Marinette, who he always finds near an akuma attack right after it occurs. Marinette, who is emotionally and physically superior to most other Parisians. Marinette, who hasn’t been akumatized in a class full of idiots and other victims. Marinette, who doesn’t like Ladybug even though she seems like a fairly competent and kind hero, despite the fact that she hasn’t caught Hawkmoth yet. Marinette, who rarely talks about akumas despite all of the time he spends with her, which is highly unusual because even people he only briefly meets manage to slip in something about akumas into the conversation. Damian feels like there must be some sort of connection between Marintte and the akuma situation that he’s not getting, but it’s eluding him.

He sits down with his laptop in his apartment and looks up information about Marinette Dupain-Cheng. She’s definitely just as talented as he suspected; in her ninth year of schooling, she won a Gabriel competition, participated in a music video of Clara Nightingale’s, and collaborated with Jagged Stone on an album cover. So that was how she met him-- he wondered, but never asked. There are also a few instagram posts that have tagged her as a good samaritan and a few articles that detail a small, asian girl who’s going around Paris helping random people that are in need.

The weird things that Damian finds are contained in her school records. She’s apparently in very good company with her IQ, but what’s more interesting is all the dates that she is tardy or absent from school. They line up perfectly with all of the dates that akumas appear. He feels dread gather in his stomach. 

A few more searches seem to cement his growing suspicions. Around the same time that Marinette obtained a truce with Lila matched up with when theorists believed that the Italian girl started working with Hawkmoth. He reads the instagrams and tweets of her classmates from the first year that Hawkmoth arrived, which talk about how excellent Marinette is at calming them down and guiding them to a better place. He also reads the posts of Chloe Bourgeois and Alya Cesaire and the articles about Marinette and Evillustrator that tell a slightly different story-- that Marinette is capable of manipulating others into more unpleasant situations.

Damian jolts. There is an incoming call from his father. 

“Are updates on Paris, Damian?” 

Should he give them a clue to his growing suspicions that Marinette is Hawkmoth? No, he can’t tell them until he gathers more information. 

“No,” he says. “Information about Hawkmoth and the Miraculous are hard to come by.”

There’s a sigh and what sounds like the rustling of papers from the other side. “I figured. Tim and Barbara can’t find anything over here, either, but the Justice League is worried. They want results.”

“The Justice League and I agreed that having Robin make an appearance would be beneficial. Gain Ladybug and Chat Noir’s trust, or find Hawkmoth. Information might come easier with your alter ego.”

“All right.” 

Another pause. He and his father have always had an awkward relationship. Bruce didn’t know of his existence until he was ten, and by that time, the most formative years of Damian’s life had already passed. Bruce Wayne may be many things, but good at dealing with children, he is not. Even after adopting so many children, he doesn’t know how to raise a child. Damian and his brothers have all raised themselves, with Bruce only stepping in when one of them is really going off the rails.

“Is everything else going well in Paris? School is good?”

“School is fine.” Damian wonders whether he should tell his father about Marinette. About the girl who is kind and capable and scarily efficient at dispatching criminals for a citizen and-- he can’t think about her like that. He decides against telling his father about her. She might be Hawkmoth, after all, and confirming her existence to his father means that he’s denying that possibility. “Gotham?”

“Nothing out of the usual. A few run-ins with the Joker.”

Another silence. The lapses in conversation aren’t awkward, but Damian thinks of the playful banter Marinette has with her parents and frowns. 

“Goodbye, Father.”

“Goodnight, Damian.”

Damian looks around at his empty apartment. There is nothing in it, except for his suitcase and a few pieces of furniture. It’s nothing like the manor, where he knows that Tim is up at all hours slaving away on another project that Damian rarely gets to see, or that Jason is in the training room with Dick joining him occasionally. He can’t pick a fight with Tim or have Dick try to mediate the conflicts between himself and Jason. No nightly patrols with three or four people talking over the comms, or near instantaneous backup when he gets into a tight spot. There is no Alfred or Barbara or Cassandra or Bruce here. Only Damian. 

He looks down at his laptop, at the various information and images of Marinette that he has up on his screen. In good conscience, he can’t continue being friends with her. Not with the possibility that she is the person he’s trying to hunt down. 

He remembers her saying that being lonely is different than being alone. 

Damian is lonely.

#

Patrol is a necessary evil. 

Ladybug doesn’t hate patrol. She’s not very fond of it, though. It cuts into time that she could be spending sleeping or designing or anything else, really. In the beginning, it started as a way to figure out how everything worked under the guise of the dark and without the constant threat of an akuma hanging over head. Then, it progressed into disproving the theory about Ladybug’s age, because civilians aren’t inclined to believe that a teenage girl who has school the next day would patrol every day in the early morning. Now, it shows the Parisians how devoted Ladybug is-- that’s something that she’s struggled with ever since withdrawing the Miraculous from all of the part time heroes-- and lets Marinette blow off any steam that she has. 

Right now, Marinette needs to blow off a lot of steam. Still, even as Ladybug, as much as Marinette wants to scream to high hell and back about how she’s been friends-- very close friends, she’d dare to say-- with the same person who has been terrorizing Paris for years, she can’t. If she screams, there will be media coverage on it, and she doesn’t want to deal with what the press would write up some article about how Ladybug was overworked and needed to bring back the other heroes, or that Ladybug wasn’t mentally sound enough to take care of Paris, she should just give up the Miraculous, or that Ladybug’s scream was [insert some poetic nonsense that English teachers wax about for hours even though the author never intended the audience to read that deeply into it].

Marinette doesn’t want to admit it, but she’s gotten close to Damian. She’s as close to him as she is with Kagami, Luka, Jagged and Penny. Damian knows that she’s MDC. He knows her hopes and aspirations. He knows her family, knows the majority of her friends, and knows what’s important to her. It will be so easy for him to tear her apart now. Marinette isn’t sure what Hawkmoth is waiting for, but she almost hopes that he’ll get it over with sooner rather than later.

What will Hawkmoth do first? Go after the website that he helped her make, probably. Cut off the financial support that she could use to run away and create another identity. Then, he’ll go after her friends, few and far as they may be. Renee next. Her family, last. She wonders who Mayura is, if he is Hawkmoth. She hasn’t seen anyone that’s close to him. Then again, Damian reveals next to nothing about himself. She’s never even seen where he lives.

There’s a shadow on the rooftops. 

God, of course Hawkmoth would send out an akuma today. He knows how horrible her mental state must be. There’s no way he wouldn’t take advantage of that.

She yoyos over to the shadow, not close enough to strike or apprehend, but close enough to easily give chase without the akuma being able to give her the slip.

“Ladybug,” the akuma says.

“Cut the crap. We all know you want the Miraculous, Hawkmoth. Let’s get to it.” The shadow steps forward where a street lamp illuminates its costume, and once again, she is assaulted by the barrage of colors on her eyes. After seeing how awful Damian’s color coordination was, it’s easy to come to terms with the awful designs of all of his costumes. Still, she’s surprised that the boy who dresses in the same outfit every day creates such outlandish costumes for all of his minions. 

The akuma frowns, tenses. 

“I’m not Hawkmoth,” it insists. “I’m Robin, a vigilante from Gotham. I’ve come to learn more about the current situation and aid you in taking Hawkmoth down.”

 Ladybug scoffs. She’s not sure what this akuma’s tactic is, but none of the others have tried to lie to her so blatantly about their identity. And ripping off an identity? That is a new low, even for Hawkmoth. She’s sure that the real Robin didn’t agree to this, and if she were close with the vigilante, maybe she could get him to throw a lawsuit or two at Hawkmoth once he was in custody, just for kicks.

Robin the akuma scrambles, apparently looking for something that can verify his identity. 

Ladybug strikes. There’s no pride in striking an opponent when they are distracted, but it’s a means to an end. If Damian is dumb enough to send out an akuma confused about its identity tonight of all nights-- a night where Ladybug is distressed and it would be all too easy to take advantage of her-- then she’s going to take advantage of it.

It’s easy to bind the akuma. Startlingly easy. The akuma is different tonight, then. His powers have something to do with close contact, maybe? Ladybug looks on his person for things that could be the point of akumatization, eyes flitting from Robin’s waistband to his mask.

She comes to an unpleasant conclusion. The measurements and the coloring are a perfect match. Hawkmoth has come to meet her in person.

“Damian,” Ladybug hisses. 

Damian’s eyes widen, like he doesn’t know how she’s pieced together his identity. How stupid does he think she is? He’s been dropping hints constantly. Information a transfer to Paris shouldn’t know. Never telling Marinette anything personal. Always being near an akuma attack when it happens. It’s almost like he wanted her to figure out his identity.

“How did you know?” 

“Please, Hawkmoth, did you really think that Marinette couldn’t connect the dots? You must have thought awfully little of her if you thought that your constant appearances near all of the akuma and questions about the Miraculous didn’t lead me to your identity.”

“Hawkmoth? Ladybug, I’m not Hawkmoth, I’m Robin.”

“And I’m the queen of England. Renounce your Miraculous now, Hawkmoth. Or I’ll beat you until you detransform and take it from you.” 

Damian looks confused before his face contorts to an expression of resignation. He recognizes a cold fury in her eyes that is distinct to people who won’t give up until they get their way, and there’s really no other way around this right now. He should have brought his comm with him, but he wasn’t expecting to meet Ladybug tonight; he just wanted to assess the situation as Robin, to get out from his apartment for a second. Rookie mistake. 

True to her word, Ladybug beats Damian unconscious and also until he’s black and blue. She’ll be lying if she didn’t say she took out some of her fury from the past years on him.

But here’s the thing; Damian doesn’t detransform. He stays in his god-awful costume that has the same disgusting shade of mustard yellow as that one top Damian owns. That’s not what’s supposed to happen. When Miraculous users faint, they detransform because it takes a sort of mental awareness to handle the powers bestowed upon them. Is it different because Damian is an akuma? Is there some sort of Miraculous bylaw that if a Miraculous user gets akumatized, they get to stay in their alternate form? Oh wait, that’s right, he’s an akuma, not Hawkmoth right now.

Ladybug stumbles forward, breaking all of the weapons that are on his belt, taking off his mask and breaking that as well. No akuma comes out. She tries his gloves, then his boots. She pats him down, seeing if there’s anything she missed. She rips his suit, too. Nothing. There’s no brooch in his personal effects either.

What is she supposed to do now? 

Seeing no alternative, Ladybug picks Damian up and yoyos back to Tom and Sabine’s Boulangerie to safely detransform and figure out what the fuck is going on.

He’s not Hawkmoth, is the conclusion Marinette comes to after a side by side comparison of pictures of the vigilante and Damian. The horrifying conclusion: the person lying on the floor of her bedroom is actually Robin, the vigilante from Gotham. 

Marinette knows it’s better to err on the side of caution, but she still buries her head in her hands in embarrassment. How can she have gotten him so wrong? She really needs to get better at reading people, because deciding that random civilians are Hawkmoth clearly has not paid off. 

She also cannot believe that the Justice League has decided to step in now, and with a sidekick from America, of all things--Marinette is pretty sure that she sent the videos to the European branch. It must have been three years since her first notification to them. She contacted them immediately after Stoneheart, and again, after Syren when she was distraught at the death that surrounded her. With no response, there was nothing she could do. She has to start relying on herself and her own skills. 

Ladybug only contacted them once more, after Heroes’ Day. At that point, Ladybug had been thinking for a while that someone who was naturally superpowered or someone with a high grade of intelligence-- like the heroes affiliated with the Justice League-- would do more harm than good if they were allowed in the city. After the devastation of her teammates being akumatized, and the nearly week long battle that ensued, she was certain that she could barely fight her teammates, let alone trained professionals. So with shaky hands and red rimmed eyes, she said to please disregard her earlier messages; the situation in Paris wasn’t that bad, and Ladybug could handle it. 

Damian groans. Marinette jumps; he is waking up far earlier than she anticipated. She wants to transform back into Ladybug. Being in her spots gives her a pseudo sense of security. First, though, she has to restrain him. Even though he isn’t Hawkmoth, she’s not sure whether he’s a threat or not. She makes quick work of it, using the thickest zip ties that she has on hand and restraining his arms and legs.

She doesn’t get the chance to transform back into Ladybug, but that’s just as well, because at the end of the day, Marinette is the foundation of anything that makes Ladybug a hero to the public. Damian opens his eyes almost immediately after she has finished restraining him, taking in his surroundings and the person in front of him.

“Marinette? Where’s Ladybug?” No questions of how he got there; Ladybug can clearly carry her own weight and more. No questions as to why there are zip ties cutting into his wrists and ankles; he has seen too many of Marinette’s victims on the streets.

“What do you mean, where’s Ladybug?” Marinette is right in front of him. She might not have the suit on, but at the end of the day, she does have the Ladybug Miraculous, which means she’s Ladybug through and through, and Damian must know that. Otherwise, there’s no real reason for Robin to be spending so much time with Marinette. The fact that she feels more real and true to herself as Marinette than as Ladybug probably means nothing to him.

“She knocked me out on a rooftop. Didn’t know that you two knew each other personally. I’m not Hawkmoth, by the way.” He twitches, then realizes that he’s been tied up. “Why’d she leave me with you?”

So he doesn’t know that she’s also Ladybug? This whole thing keeps getting more confusing. Still, the less people that know about her alter ego, the better. Marinette will keep him in the dark. She attributes his blatant misunderstanding to the identity concealment magic of the Miraculous. It’s powerful stuff. If it didn’t exist, she’s sure she would have found concrete evidence as to who Hawkmoth is by now. 

“She asked me to assess whether you were a threat or not. Whether or not she casts the Miraculous Cure is contingent on my response.”

“Ladybug wants you to assess whether I’m a threat or not? Why’d she leave a possible super villain with a civilian?”

“I help Ladybug out with many things.” Her voice turns to clinical detachment. She uses this method to dissociate as Ladybug when things get overwhelming. Assess the situation. Get in, deakumatize, get out. Marinette needs to distance herself. It’s bad enough that the situation is this convoluted, but she doesn’t need Damian to doubt Ladybug’s capabilities as well. “Ladybug knows that you’re not Hawkmoth now, and she knows that I can handle myself with any run of the mill bad guy, even if they are a supposed vigilante.”

“Tell me, Robin,” Marinette spits the name like a curse, “Why should I tell Ladybug that you’re not a threat? That you are who you say you are?”

In all honesty, all Marinette wants to do is knock Damian out again so she can collect her thoughts. She’s not sure how she should address his presence as Robin in Paris and is still reeling from the whiplash of thinking he was Hawkmoth only for him to turn into a foreign vigilante. Next thing she knows, he’ll tell her that his name isn’t even Damian Grayson. Well, now that she thinks about it, he’s definitely not. After this encounter finishes, she’ll look up Damian and Gotham and see what she gets.

He looks flustered, like he never expected anybody to question his identity or presence. It’s laughable, really. Marinette doubts that the Justice League actually sent him; he’s probably here to explore on his own. That means he’ll only be a pain in the ass to deal with. Maybe she needs to get into contact with the Justice League again, if only just so she can deport Robin with more ease. 

“I can call Batman,” he says.

Marinette doesn’t think this is a very good solution. There’s no way for her to prove that the person on the other side actually is Batman and not some actor. But after racking her brain, she can’t come up with a much better solution. It’s not like Robin has any superpowers that she can request to see, and she doesn’t have a direct line to anybody from the Justice League.

“Fine. Call Batman.”

“It’s in the pocket near on my right side.” Marinette doesn’t bother going closer to him. She destroyed everything on him earlier, in case it was the akuma’s vessel. Ladybug thought she came across a phone, but now she’s glad she smashed it and left it on that random rooftop. He probably has some sort of tracker on his phone. In any case, Marinette thinks it’s weird for a vigilante to have a phone on them while on the rooftops. Shouldn’t he have an earpiece or something? 

“Your phone was destroyed by Ladybug. Tell me the number to call. I’ll put it on speaker.” Marinette isn’t sure if the number he’ll have her call will be some sort of secure connection or direct line that is only accessible through Damian’s phone, but she doesn’t particularly care because the Miraculous Communicators are exactly that. Miraculous. Master Fu assured her that all communications were private and impossible to crack unless they also had a Miraculous. Which is why she’s using the Miraculous Communicator to call Batman.

Damian winces, then speaks into the offered phone. 

“Batman, it’s Robin. I need to verify my identity in order to proceed.”

“Are you with Ladybug?”

So he is on a mission, then, and not just playing hooky. If Batman is involved, Marinette has no doubt the rest of the Justice League will follow soon. This will be a dreadfully unpleasant call.

“I’m making it a video call,” Marinette says. “And no, he’s not with Ladybug. I’m Ladybug’s point of contact, and she doesn’t take kindly to people encroaching on her territory without permission.”

“Robin, what happened?” Batman isn’t accepting her video request.

Marinette cuts off whatever Damian is about to say. “Damian was suspicious; I reported his activities to Ladybug and she believed that he could be Hawkmoth. Then, she caught him on the roofs and took him back to my place after verifying that he wasn’t Hawkmoth. Video call, Batman. I’d like to see that you are who you say you are, before I send Robin back to the states.”

“She knows your civilian identity? Two people know that you’re Robin?”

“Turn your video on. If you can’t prove that you are who Damian says you are, Ladybug and I will do everything in our powers to deport him and make sure that the Justice League is not allowed in Paris again. Ladybug said that she doesn’t need any unknowns in her city, and I’ve been hoping Robin came here of his own volition. It sounds like that isn’t the case.”

Marinette thinks that Batman curses in English, but she’s not sure. Fluent though Marinette may be, she is not well versed in curses, colloquialisms, or American memes. The camera turns on. It’s Batman, or at the very least, an actor wearing a very good knock off costume.

It’s annoying that Marinette can’t see his eyes. There’s some white film where his eyes should be, and the fact that his cowl covers more than half of his face isn’t doing her any favors in letting her read his facial expression. She moves herself so that Batman can see both her and Robin.

“Why is Robin restrained?”

“Like I said: he was suspicious. I’m not taking any chances.”

A moment of silence.

“How do you want me to prove my identity?” 

That’s good. He’s not asking who she is, though she’s sure that there are cameras pointing at the screen on Batman’s end, running facial analysis and background checks on her. The Miraculous magic will ensure that any connections between her and Ladybug will not come to light. Other than her identity as Ladybug, Marinette has nothing to hide.

“If you’re Batman, then you should have access to the League’s calls, European and otherwise. Play me the last video that Ladybug sent you. I know what she said.” She spares a glance at Damian. His jaw is tight, but when he looks at her, she finds what looks like regret. It’s not entirely Damian’s fault. A mission is a responsibility, and Marinette understands that in order to be a hero or vigilante, one must be willing to do anything to accomplish the mission. Really, she’s only Ladybug because she feels that heavy weight of the words duty and responsibility on her shoulders. Fu’s fault.

“Behave. If you try something, I’ll knock you out.” Marinette sets the communicator on her desk and eyes him. The zipties are so tight around his arms and legs that he is bleeding. Marinette feels a flash of sympathy, then pushes it away. It was his fault for-- why was he at fault, again? 

“I have the video.” Batman sounds even peakier than when they started the call. He plays the video.

“Justice League. This is Ladybug. I rescind my requests for help; I can take care of Paris with my own team. Any help from you at this point would be a detriment and could potentially harm the citizens of Paris. Hawkmoth manipulates strong emotions, and I don’t need to handle a metahuman or tactical genius to gain more power to wreak havoc on my city. I will not contact you with any further requests for assistance.”

It’s an awful video. Marinette had to wait a day after the Heroes’ week fiasco just so her eyes wouldn’t be red. At least her voice doesn’t waver in it. There’s a conviction in the whole video that was unique to that moment. 

Marinette looks at Batman, then at Robin. 

“Clearly the Justice League refused to listen. Ladybug doesn’t want or need your help at this point in time. Why are you here?”

“The Justice League is at fault for not paying attention to Ladybug’s other videos. But Mayor Bourgeois and President Macron can only cover such alarming incidents for so long. Ladybug and her… team clearly need help in order to find and take down Hawkmoth, so once the American branch of the Justice League found out half a year ago, we started to investigate.” Batman speaks in lieu of Damian. Marinette briefly wonders if Damian knows who Batman is under the mask. She bets he does. They’re probably close, what with how worried Batman sounds. 

“What makes you think that the Justice League is any better equipped to handle this situation? Ladybug and her team have been fighting for the past three years and resolved every akuma with no help from you. She needed your help in earlier years. Now she doesn’t.”

“Exactly; it’s been three years and she still hasn’t caught Hawkmoth.”

“You say that like the Justice League doesn’t have a team with more wealth and manpower than Ladybug does that’s been looking into Hawkmoth and the Miraculous for the past half year and clearly has not found any reasonable leads. Ladybug has only been actively looking for Hawkmoth for the past two years, not three. The police handled the first year, not that you’ve done any homework on the situation. Thought that a field agent would help your chances?” 

There is fire in Marinette’s stomach. Batman sounds so dismissive of all of the work that she’s been doing. It’s been hard on her; she doesn’t have the support that she needs and doesn’t have the experience or expertise to hunt down Hawkmoth on her own. She trained briefly under Master Fu to learn spells and ways to expand her powers as Ladybug, but that was an equivalent exchange: she no longer trusts that other holders won’t be akumatized. Her growing cynicism and physical training from Maman came at the expense of Chat Noir; after the whole Lila incident in her first year as Ladybug, she found out that Chat Noir and Adrien were one and the same. And Gabriel Agreste is not afraid to use his son until Adrien is stretched far too thin, which forced Marinette to nearly bench her partner.

“Three years,” Batman says again.

“If the Justice League can’t figure it out nearly unlimited resources and funding in half a year-- both ordinary and super human-- then clearly it isn’t a question of time. It’s a question of capability. Get off your high horse, Batman. You haven’t given me any reasons why Ladybug and I shouldn’t deport Robin here, and you’re definitely not making a good case as to why she shouldn’t go to Mayor Bourgeois and France’s president to ensure that the Justice League and its affiliates and ban hero travel into Paris. Bourgeois already doesn’t want information on it’s supervillain situation to get out.” 

“Marinette,” Damian pleads.

As Robin and as Damian, he doesn’t pose a threat. He hasn’t been helpful, but he certainly hasn’t messed with the status quo for the month that he’s been here. Still, he is a liability. If he stays in Paris, he is the gateway for the other members of the Justice League to fly in and try to commandeer the fragile balance that she has found. She can’t afford for something like that to happen.  

“You’re not any better, Robin. Why did you even hang around me? Thought I was a threat?” Her eyes narrow in realization. It makes sense why he decided to hang out with her, despite his initial cold front. He was playing a role.“You thought I was Hawkmoth.”

His silence is an agreement.

“We just want to help,” Damian says, and against her better judgement, Marinette believes him. 

Her shoulders round, and Marinette sighs. She can’t truly begrudge Damian for that train of thought, not when she believed the same about him. She’s been a little harsh on them so far, in part due to old resentment that they never responded to her in that first, awful year when she needed the help. 

There’s a dull tiredness that comes with knowing someone who she considered one of her closest friends suspected her of being a supervillain, though she did believe the same of him, so maybe they’re even. It still hurts, though. It hurts like when Alya decided that Marinette was mean-hearted enough to stop the members of their class from reaching their full potential. It hurts like when Marinette finally realized that she couldn’t repair their friendship, not to what it used to be. It hurts like when she looked around the classroom and realized that she couldn’t talk to anyone there. It hurts like when Marinette decided that she couldn’t risk helping her friends the way she wanted to. 

“What kind of help can you offer us? We don’t need any more of you to come out here.” Resources are nice. More money to fund therapy programs around town won’t hurt. Master Fu doesn’t help on that part. Really, he doesn’t help at all. Even though she has Chat Noir and had a team, she often feels like it’s herself against the world. Some days, she reaches up to her earrings and feels an aching emptiness, like there’s something more to the Miraculous that’s been sealed away.

“We can give you resources. Money, connections, experience. Robin is good with technology. He can help you track down where Hawkmoth is.”

Marinette’s laugh is bitter. “Sure, he can try, but the butterflies Hawkmoth sends out aren’t visible by the normal human eye or electronically until they’ve found their mark. Once they’re purified, they’re just normal butterflies, and they go off in random directions.”

“Normal human eye? It sounds like there are exceptions.” Damian readjusts himself. He has fidgeted his way into an uncomfortable looking seiza position, where his ankles are bleeding. 

“A true holder can see the butterflies at all times.”

Marinette also decides to throw them a bone so there’s no questions as to why a mere civilian is working with Ladybug. “That’s why Ladybug recruited me. I was Multimouse.”

Multimouse was in the file that Damian sent his father, but he asks, just to make sure. “The one that can split itself?”

“That’s correct. I guess now is as good a time as any for the two of you to get your questions answered.”

“Why are you the point of civilian contact instead of any of the other more frequently used heroes? Didn’t you appear only once?” Damian avoids looking Marinette in the eyes, and that makes her feel slightly better. He’s ashamed of his actions. Good. 

“Ladybug said that the other hero’s civilian forms were either compromised or not in a good position.”

“Ladybug knows who all the holders are.” Batman speculates. He looks less tense now that Damian is no longer tied up, but his voice remains gravelly and distrubed. Maybe that’s what he sounds like all the time.  “Who else knows? Do you?” 

“Only Ladybug knows.” Marinette lives in half truths. She’s not sure that they’re much better than lies, but they’re all she has. Secrecy is the only thing Master Fu has sincerely taught her.

“Why have all the other heroes disappeared?” 

“Ladybug said that it was too dangerous for someone who could be akumatized to hold a Miraculous. Rena Rage, Shell Shock, Queen Wasp-- they were all frighteningly powerful akumas. It’s also why Chat Noir has been showing up less and less; his home life is not the best, and she’s trying her best to ensure that he doesn’t get akumatized.”

“She’s not worried for herself or,” Damian’s eyes flick to Marinette, away from Batman. “For you?” 

“She knows that both of us are good at dealing with stress. We have our own methods of coping.” She looks at Damian, her mouth tightening into a frown. “If you want to stay in Paris, I’ll cut you a deal. We can work together for two weeks, and if we don’t get any results, you have to leave and the Justice League must promise that they won’t interfere again.”

“Two weeks isn’t enough time,” Damian objects.

“If you don’t think it’s enough time, just leave now. I’ll say now that I’m only willing to work with you during the night. That’s the time I work on Miraculous related stuff now, anyways. And stay out of the akuma battles.” She doesn’t actually think that working together will help anyways, and she wants Damian gone sooner rather than later. He’s been making her feel too much and emotions that are far more explosive and easy to take advantage of than Marinette has in a long time. She doesn’t want to be targeted by an akuma because of her inner conflict. 

“Two weeks, then,” Batman agrees. “Robin can contact me if you need any extra resources.”

Marinette hangs up and assesses Damian. He looks almost pitiful, with bruising around his eyes, tousled hair, a ripped suit, and cuts where his skin is exposed. She opens her trap door in a clear gesture for him to depart. Downstairs is dark; her Maman and Papa have long since gone to sleep, and it’s only a few more hours until they wake up to start baking. “We start tomorrow. If you need Ladybug for anything, tell me.”

He’s half way down the ladder when he looks back up at Marinette, into her eyes. 

“I’m sorry,” he says.

Marinette can’t breath. She feels like vomiting. His eyes are so green in comparison to the purple bruising on his face. She did that to him. She made him look that way. All she’s ever wanted to do as Ladybug is protect the people she cared for. But Damian-- Marinette doesn’t know. She doesn't know whether what Damian has done can actually be described as bad. He was just trying to do what Batman told him to do. Keeping an eye on a threat. Marinette wonders how long he thought she was Hawkmoth. She wonders if he ever thought they were friends. 

“I’m sorry too,” Marinette says, and shuts the trap door.

They’re both sorry for very different things.

[imaginedisish]

Take On Me (Otis Milburn x Reader) (Sex Education)

A/N: THIS TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE OMG. OKAY UMMMM THANK YOU FOR 300 FOLLOWERS. I KINDA CRIED BECAUSE YOU’RE ALL SO AMAZING. ANYWAY...here’s some smut :) hehehehe! This was SUPER requested. The title is based on the Aha song of the same name. My friends tell me I look like the girl who dances to this song in that vine...so if you ever wanna know what I look like, I kinda look like her??? ANYWAY... I hope you alllll enjoy :) Thank you for all the love and support <3 xxxxx (oh and Colin Ritman smut is up next LOL BYE)

Summary: You and Otis decide that it’s time to take things to the next step in your relationship....for the first time...SMUT!

Warnings: SMUT. SMUT. SMUT. language...fluff...yeppers. 

Word Count: 2,124

Also...I made a part two that I’ll link here!

You walk down the road, your hand in his, giggling, talking about anything and everything that comes to your mind. Your yellow sundress sways in the wind, a smile plastered across your face.

“I mean you’re lying if you say you wouldn’t kill to go back to 1979 and see Joy Division live!” Otis says, his ocean eyes glowing in the moonlight. You stare into them, drowning wave after wave. 

“Well sure, but what about Lou and Bowie?” You say back, arching a brow in Otis’s direction. He nods, agreeing. “You rather see Joy Division, don’t you?” You ask, laughing a bit. You knew when Otis was holding something back from you. You could see it in his eyes, or simply in the way he held himself. He gets fidgety and restless. 

“O-okay w-well m-maybe. Yes. I’d rather see Joy Division,” Otis says finally, an apologetic smile spreading across his face. 

He was too cute to even care that he disagreed with you. “Oh well,” You say, pausing, throwing your hands up in surrender. “I guess I just have better taste than you.” You giggle loudly. 

“Guess I’ll just have to accept that my girlfriend is far cooler than I ever will be,” Otis says back, throwing his hands up to meet yours, grabbing them softly. He plants a kiss on your forehead, and you hum with pleasure. It was little moments like these that made your heart sing, no matter how innocent or small. 

You two continuing walking, your hand still in his. Otis had been your boyfriend for about two months, but you and he had been friends for much longer. Everything seemed so perfect, except for one thing. 

Sex. 

It wasn’t necessarily taboo in your relationship, you and Otis had talked about it before, but, you were a virgin, and so was he. Obviously, there was no problem with that. But you had both gotten to the point where you genuinely wanted each other. Otis was over his intimacy issues, thanks to you, and you felt like you were ready to take your relationship to the next step. 

You see Otis’s house up a head, the massive, red, Queen Anne style home still vibrant in the dark of night. A few lights are still on inside the house, but it was likely that Otis’s mother had gone to bed. It was late. Stars hang carefully in the night sky, dancing over a round, full moon. The trees sway in the crisp summer wind. Otis stops for a second, taking both your hands in his. 

“Do you want to, m-maybe, c-come inside?” Otis asks nervously, biting his lip. You can’t help but smile. 

“Yeah, yeah I’d like that,” You say, pulling him along the path as you walk forward. He stumbles a bit, tripping over his own feet as he catches up with you. Eventually you two approach the front door. 

Otis puts a finger to his lips, cautioning you to be quiet. You nod your head in response. Otis slowly opens the door, trying to make as little noise as possible. The door creeks loudly, and Otis’s turquoise eyes fling open widely, filling with anxiety. You let out a small giggle, covering your mouth immediately after, trying to suppress your laughter. Normally, sneaking around was “sexy”, but not with Otis. He was so adorable, so cute. 

“Now that’s not fair. My sneaking skills are quite good, ya know,” Otis whispers, a smirk plastered on his face. You smile, shaking your head in disbelief. Then, Otis grabs your hand, pulling you swiftly into the dimly light house. He shuts the door behind you, and guides you up the stairs and into his room. 

You somehow successfully reach Otis’s room without banging into anything, or worse, waking his mother up. He closes the door to his room, and slides the brass lock into place. 

Your eyes gloss over his room. His bed sat in the center of the attic like space, the walls covered in different band posters. You spot a giant Joy Division poster next to his bed, and a The Stranglers poster right next to that. 

On the other side of the room was a bookcase, holding Otis’s extensive collection of records and books. You walk over to the case, scanning to see which records he had. Not to your surprise, the boy had everything from Arcade Fire, to Arctic Monkeys, to the Beatles, to Nirvana.  

The room screamed Otis. It was a perfect personification of his personality, and you loved it. 

Otis smiles at you softly, grabbing your hand again, and walking you over to the bed. He sits down on the edge of the twin mattress, and you sit down next to him. Otis looks deeply into your eyes, his aquamarine gaze filling your stomach with excitement. Your heart flutters in your chest. 

“I know that we’ve been talking a lot about…” Otis trails off. He swallows harshly, his Adam’s apple bopping in his throat. “W-well about sex. If you don’t feel comfortable with this I completely unders-,” 

You cut him off before he can finish his sentence. “I want this, Otis. I really do.”

“A-are you sure?” He asks, arching a brow. 

“Yes, I’m positive.”

Without any hesitation, Otis’s hands come up to cup your cheeks, and he pulls you into a hungry kiss. His tongue brushes against your top lip, asking for permission to enter. You part your lips slightly, as his tongue dances across your teeth, intertwining with your tongue every now and then. You pull apart for a second, trying to catch your breath. 

Otis breathes deeply as his hand brushes against your inner thigh, his eyes refusing to leave yours. You melt under his touch. He slowly moves higher, searching your eyes for permission. You nod your head eagerly in response. 

His hand then makes its way closer to you core, and you whimper in anticipation. Otis slowly pushes your flowing yellow dress up. 

“I know I already asked but I just want to-,”

You cut him off again. “Otis, I want you.” He nods, pushing your dress up farther. His hand slides up your thigh again, reaching towards your heat. His thumb begins to brush against your clit over your panties, getting faster each second. 

A muffled moan escapes your lips. Otis smirks, and stops. You send a disapproving frown in his direction, but to your delight, Otis slowly begins to pull at the hem of your panties. He takes his time as he gets down on the floor, and slips them off your legs. 

You decide it’s time to turn the tables a bit. Your hand reaches across Otis’s thigh as he sits back up on the bed. You begin to palm him through his jeans. 

“F-fuck,” Otis groans loudly. You quickly put a single finger up to his lips, signaling for him to be quiet. His mother is most likely just down the hall, you think to yourself. 

Otis nods, and you continue to palm his shaft through his blue jeans, his erection growing. You slowly unzip his pants, undo his belt and pull down his jeans. You reach down to continue palming him, but he grabs your hand before you can do anything else.

“No. My turn to make you feel good,” Otis says, pushing you down on the bed. You’re shocked at Otis’s sudden confidence, but pleased nonetheless. He pulls your yellow sundress over your head, revealing your lacy bra underneath. 

“My god you're gorgeous.” Heat rises to your cheeks. 

Otis’s hand travels across your chest, down your stomach, finally resting on your heat. He begins to play with your clit again, circling the spot slowly with his thumb. 

“O-otis,” You call out, your eyes falling shut, a fire beginning to burn in the pit of your stomach. 

“Do you like that?” Otis asks, rubbing faster now. You open your eyes, nodding your head up and down eagerly. 

“Y-yes,” You mutter. You had touched yourself before, but this felt so much different. It felt amazing. Suddenly, you feel Otis’s finger slide over your wet opening. He looks to you for permission once again. “Y-yes please.” He does as you say, sliding a finger into your opening. 

“Tell me what feels good, and what doesn’t,” Otis says, his eyes wide with concern. 

“H-holy shit,” You cry out, pleasure washing over you. Otis shushes you politely, a smirk stretching across his face. “Th-this f-feels r-really g-good.”

The feeling of Otis’s finger filling you up, and his thumb toying with your clit begins to become overwhelming. You were seconds away from coming, and you knew it. 

“O-otis, I think I’m going t-to,” You stutter as Otis picks up his pace, inserting another finger, the sensation itself practically sending you over the edge. He thrusts become even faster. In, out, in out, in out.  

“Shuuuush, let go love,” Otis coos. Your walls flutter around his fingers. 

“F-fuck! Otis!” You shout, coming around his fingers. Otis lessens his pace, and pulls out of you. “M-my god that was a-amazing.” You laugh, pulling Otis closer to you. “I want you, Otis. I need you.” Otis’s jaw drops. He quickly reaches over to the nightstand next to him, grabbing a condom from the drawer. He unwraps the packaging, slowly slipping the condom over his hard cock.

You hurriedly pull off his shirt, kissing him passionately at any chance you get. You yank down Otis’s boxers, revealing his hard member. Otis takes his erected cock into his hand, looking to your eyes one more time for permission. You nod your head in response as he lines himself up with your entrance. 

Suddenly, Otis’s cock fills pushes through your folds and inside of you. 

“Oh sh-shit,” Otis mutters, burying his head in your neck, and then pushing himself up again. 

“H-holy f-fuck,” You cry out, tears rushing to your eyes. You knew it would feel different than fingering yourself, or how Otis had just fingered you, but this was different than what you expected. It hurt, but just for a second. After some time, the pain began to subside. Otis waits a minute, making sure you’ve adjusted to his size. 

“A-are you alright?” Otis asks, brushing your cheek with his hand. 

“Y-yes,” You mutter. 

“Are you sure. We can stop if you don’t want to go any further,” Otis says, his voice kind and reassuring. 

“No, I want this. I want you,” You say back to him, passion in your eyes. Otis nods, and begins to thrust in and out of you gently. The pain erases itself, and is replaced by total and utter pleasure. “F-fuck Otis.”

“(Y/N),” Otis hums as he quickens his pace. His cock was hard. It felt so good. “M-my g-god you’re so f-fucking wet,” Otis coos. His words alone could make you come. 

Otis’s hand reaches down to your clit, and he begins to toy with it again. You dig your fingernails into his back, practically ready to scream in pleasure as he draws circles at your heat. Otis begins to lose his rhythm, his thrusts becoming extremely sloppy.

“I’m, I’m g-going to c-come,” Otis cries out shakily as a fire pools in your lower abdomen. 

“M-me too,” You breath heavily. Your walls tighten around Otis’s pulsating cock. “Otis!” You cry out, coming around him. 

“Oh-oh fuck,” Otis moans, letting go, thrusting deeply into you one last time.

Otis pulls out of your opening, crashing down on the bed, next to you. You lay there for some time, not saying anything, just enjoying each other’s company.

“That was…” You trail off. “Absolutely perfect.” You turn on your side to face Otis. He’s beaming with joy. He reaches a hand to your face, pushing the hair out of your eyes. 

“Yeah, just like you,” He smirks, wrapping his arms around you and pulling the covers over you two. 

“I love you, Otis,” You whisper into his ear. 

“I love you, (Y/N),” Otis murmurs. Your eyes flutter closed, and open again, becoming heavy with sleep. You press your face into Otis’s chest, pressing kisses there. 

“You know you aren’t just some guy in the corner, right? You’re special. You’re so fucking special,” You say, looking up to him. His diamond eyes meet your gaze. 

“And you know you’re more important and more beautiful than every star in the galaxy, right?” You smile against his chest, pressing a kiss on his collarbone. 

You really did love that boy, far more than words could ever say.  

Far more than anything else. 

[crispyapplepies]

Copy pasta improvised terra-slept-with-joshua-and-ven-is-upset-about-it fic i wrote in a discord chat for any terravens willing to overlook the present tense sketch writing, i hope you enjoy the angsty comedy drama --

so by chance, vens assigned gym partner for the day is joshua~ sora is stuck with roxas in the bg which is also amusing if you wanna know the background noise to this xD ven is an utter sweetie and has no personal problem with joshua so hes happy to pick up his slack on their activities today since he understands some people just dont care for athletics, especially when they have pretty looks to preserve for rehearsal tonight^^ at the end of class joshua offers his coy appreciation to ven who was such a cute gentleman today in getting him through that~ and then he makes some remark about how he never wouldve guessed ven even was that physically inclined given what he thought terras taste in men was~ ven lowers an eyebrow and asks "huh? what does that mean? =o=" and joshua chuckles "oh it was a long time ago, nothing to wonder about now~ i will say this though, you my friend? are one very very lucky bottom ;) keep a close eye on him." and then he saunters off to his next class. ven squints =.= hes a lil grumpy now x)

come lunch time, terra and aqua have already sat down at their usual table, seniors come in first, and theyre settled in with aqua going over some extra terms with terra for their history exam. sophomores finally file in and ven marches over with the tray of food he didnt even look at when he was at the counter. terra turns with a smile to see him and plants his usual kiss hello on his cheek as ven sits down with a slight fwomp, not responding to it. terra asks "everything okay? :o" and aqua looks over to check if hes feeling alright, not spotting any signs of sickness. ven responds almost gritting his teeth "i've been better. =_ =" terra tells aqua he'll help her study in a minute, cuz obviously upset boyfriend takes priority<3 he sinks his fingers into vens hair and asks him if he wants to talk about it. and ven takes a deep breath, trying to resume his usual Good Boi Angel attitude, gently swats terras hand away and says "Maybe later, you and aqua can go ahead and study! 8) I'll even help you if you like~" terra recognizes that this is certainly not over but hes not gonna force ven to talk or anything so he kinda nervously says okay.. and then tells aqua "Wanna quiz me?" and aqua says sure, and starts reading off the list of vocab words only for ven to suddenly smack the table and turn sharply to terra and ask "WHEN WERE YOU GONNA TELL ME YOU SLEPT WITH JOSHUA????" and terra just- O//__//O oops.. and aqua looks at terra all disappointed and grossed out and groans "Oh, terra, you didn't... >~<" and terra is so embarrassed and tries to explain to ven's scowl "i-it was a long time ago! really it meant nothing! :'D... a-and besides it was even before I met you! so.. thats- alright?" and he glances over at aqua hoping for some kind of validation but she just goes "ughh..." in the most smh big sister voice xDDD

ven exhales, trying to cool off and be rational, but his usual sweet happy face just cant help being all =_ = at terra, and he says "I guess its- fine, but- gosh, really? joshua? you didnt have feelings for him, did you? er was this just a fling? how long ago was this?" and terra stumbles to answer saying "i-it was- um... back when i first came out! people were telling me i couldnt say i was bi if i'd never had sex with a guy too, so i- had to prove it! thats all, really, it was nothing meaningful to me, honest<3 :'3 I'm not like that." as he cups vens cheeks playfully, but where theres usually a smile between puffed out cheeks theres still just a >:T ven folds his arms and tries again to collect himself and says "i guess i get it.. i guess xT thats really all it was? no more secrets?" and terra swears with his hand up and his eyes closed "I swear thats all it was v_v." aqua shakes her head and tells terra "Youre gonna owe ven preeetty big after this blows over :/" but before ven can even respond terra has already jumped in to tell her "I'll do anything to make ven happy! theres absolutely nothing to worry about~ :')" and ven is still kinda pissed but he finally says "okay. i'll let it go. here aqua, i can read off the list and quiz both of you" and aqua slides ven the paper to read off while she glares at terra who glares back at her as if to say 'drop it =.='

so thats the end of it for the day, and the next day too, but then the next day is gym again, and whatever sora and roxas are struggling with in the bg is still going on xD and ven and joshua are partners again. ven is still not comfortable with the idea of his terra sleeping with joshua, the twink incubus of the school fdkjgh but hes a nice boy so hes going to continue being nice and get joshua through this "drag of an hour, and not even the fun kind" pff joshua can kinda tell ven is pretty tense today though, unusual for him since ven is always the nicest kid in the whole school next to maybe sora. so finally near the end he asks if something's on his mind and ven realizes ack, what am i doing? there is no reason for me to be such a jerk. so he tells joshua "im really sorry, I mean it, I have no business acting like this;; i just- when i found out you slept with terra i was kinda.. uncomfortable about it to say the least, but i have no reason to be, youre perfectly nice :) besides, it was before he even met me so it doubly doesnt matter~^^" but thats where joshua raises an eyebrow. "oh? i think youre a little mixed up there cutie pie~ terra and i had sex together last year. some time after you transferred. I was amazed at the offer, really, i honestly thought that once he met you, none of us other cuties had a chance. but it looks like he landed you in the end, so it is of no matter. but i do certainly hope that you and he are happy, terra is quite the catch and we'll all be quite jealous of you til the end~ catch you around ;)" and thats the end of that conversation. ven. is. livid. 8)

so ven actually skipped lunch with his friends 8) terra looks around curiously, he still isnt showing up and hes not texting him back either. aqua asks him "doesnt ven have gym today?" and terra answers like its a dumb question pff "yeah? its thursday, everybody has gym today. its gym day." and she shakes her head at him and says "I think you should give him some space. im pretty sure i know where he is. :/" terra looks uneasy tho. "do you think hes okay?" and aqua says "oh... im sure he will be." terra grips his arms and tries not to think about it 8)

senior gym class is last period and they start filing in as the juniors file out. terra fist bumps riku on his way in xD terra is practically exempt from whatever is on the activities list cuz hes.. terra and gym class is honestly childs play pff he finishes everything in 2 seconds anyway. so usually the coach just lets him bench press for a while. highschools are bullshit xD aqua has that privilege too but she considers it a warm up before her practice later and does them anyway. terra takes his time prepping the bench, saving himself the trouble of dealing with the crowd in the locker room, and once they all run out he yoinks his gym bag up to his shoulder just to be extra pff and marches on in there to change. weird that everyone is snickering at him on their way out though... he walks inside, humming mindlessly to himself cuz gym class is his chance to relax after school before his practice. and then he half screams in surprise as his gym bag falls to the floor. ven is sitting right there in front of the lockers with the angriest look on his face terra didnt even know he /could/ make jhdfgl ven "sings" out "hello, terra. >8(" and terra just- run kdjfhglhdfsg

terra runs back to the bench as if he can just- run away from reality kdjsfhgljkdfs xDDD and start bench pressing cuz he doesnt know what else to do sdklfjhglsdj im having too much fun with this i love dumb ass jocks and soft cuties xDDD ven launches himself on top of terra pushing down on the weights terra was about to pump up and yells "YOU SLEPT WITH JOSHUA WHILE YOU WERE COURTING ME?!?!?!?!!!!"

(everyone in the gym is cackling quietly to themselves at the display sdfkjgh this AMAZING xD) terra looks up at ven in fear and stutters "I-I didnt think i had a chance with you! you didnt seem interested D:!" ven yells "OF COURSE I WAS INTERESTED YOURE JUST SHIT AT FLIRTING!!!!!!!" terra tries to calm him down "youre gonna break the bench press, ven! D:" the coach comes over at all the yelling and yells at them "HEY, break it up--" only to be shut right up when ven glares at him and growls and terra looks at him utterly terrified dfkjhg and motions for him to leave them alone. the coach is both very scared of ven xD and also doesnt wanna lose his quarterback so he smiles and holds his hands up in surrender and says "hey, you know what? why dont you two work it out amongst yourselves?^^;;; maybe somewhere that isnt my expensive bench press though?" ven yells "FINE." and grabs terra by the wrist and drags him back to the locker rooms using a scary strength terra didnt know he had dkfjglh O_O;; aqua pauses her stretches and shakes her head and mumbles "it was nice knowing you, terra. :/" and then resumes her work out xD

well ven flings terra into the locker room and shuts the door with a slam and chews him out. "DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW HUMILIATING THIS FEELS?!!! YOU SLEPT WITH THAT LITTLE HORNDOG AFTER I CAME HERE AND THEN YOU LIED TO ME ABOUT IT SO I HAD TO FIND OUT FROM THE HORNDOG HIMSELF?!!! GIMME YOUR BEST EXPLANATION FOR THAT, TERRA, JUST TRY ME!!!! >8UUUUUU" terra reaches out his trembling hands bravely to try and calm ven down, before he pulls his hair out and he cries out "I'm SORRY, i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry, okay, I didn't do it to hurt you!!!! It was just a small thing-" "AHAHAH IS THAT WHAT IT IS THEN??? WELL IF IT WAS SUCH A SMALL "tHinG" THEN WHY WOULD YOU LIE TO ME ABOUT IT, WHAT OTHER SECRETS HAVE YOU BEEN KEEPING?!!! DID YOU SLEEP WITH RIKU TOO? ANYMORE CHEERLEADERS I DONT KNOW ABOUT??? OR MAYBE JOSHUA AGAIN AT SOME POINT????!!! >8'DDDD"   ven is about to lose his mind sdjfhg terra is starting to feel upset too ;~; "No, I don't have anymore secrets, after we started dating I havent even so much as THOUGHT of anyone else! I mean that! :'U" he pleas, finally managing to place loving hands on vens shoulders as he prays for forgiveness dkfjhg ven finally just cries it out letting himself sob into his palms and terra steps in closer, hating to see ven cry, and this is much worse knowing hes the cause of it ;-;

ven glances up again, terras scent hitting him and that warm chest right in front of him that he loves and he just buries his face in it not knowing what else to do dkfgh terra holds him, stroking his back, mulling over in his head how many ways he could apologize for this but then ven pushes himself away again, hes still so upset >~< and he sniffles "why. did you lie to me about it." terras face goes red and he fishes for his words "because i- i care what you think ven." ven scoffs, but his frown hardens and he wipes his eyes "you care what i think, and so you LIED to me? what am i supposed to think?" terra replies quickly "i dont know :'u i guess i just didnt want you to think..." ven holds himself and turns away. terra supposes he has to just- be honest then, its worth a try if  it keeps him from losing the love of his life. "Look, I- I lied because the way you look at me matters to much. I care what you think of me more than anyone else, ven." ven sniffles, his back still turned to terra "oh yeah?" and terra glides over to turn him around and look at him, taking vens hands in his. "yes! ven youre the nicest, kindest, most pure hearted person i've ever met. i cant even imagine there being a darkness in your heart. who even says "slept with" and "courted" anymore besides a sweetheart like you? youre like an angel to me, but i- dont have the best reputation anymore. and the number of partners ive had seemed to disgust you. it broke my heart the way you looked at me the other day knowing that id slept with joshua. like you thought i was- i dunno.. im sorry i did it, i really am. i never wouldve done it if i'd known you really did want me too." ven reaches up and places a hand to terras cheek promising "Terra, I think the world of you. i wouldnt be with you if i didnt think you were a great person. the best even! you know how much i admire you. i just- was I just a fling? how do i know im not the next joshua or shiki you sl- have sex with and drop?"

and terra leans down to kiss his forehead and chuckles "because you're you, silly." that gets ven smiling again, the cornier the better with him<3 he presses his nose to terras chest and slides his arms up over his back for a tight hug and terra is so relieved they got through that dkfgjhdjl f ven tells him "I'm sorry for making you feel judged. i was way too rash about that whole thing." terra tells him its alright, imeanididlietoyouafterallahem.. ven goes = _= for just a second, cuz yeah that sure wasnt cool dfkjgh but he removes it cuz mostly hes back to smiling and he pulls himself away to look up at terra again, admitting with a blush "i guess i'm still in disbelief that youre really mine. maybe in 5 years or something i'll believe it" ven chuckles at his joke, but terra smiles down at him very sincerely and says "then i'm counting the years with you til then~" and that just tickles him and he jumps up to give terra make up smooches for a while<3 eventually they emerge from the locker room, ven clearly looking like hed been crying but smiling away again, even feeling okay enough to go to class now, cuz hes a good boy who wouldnt just ditch at that point like i would xD terra looks relieved too. aqua breaks formation when she sees them come out and runs up to ven to ask if hes okay and hug him if he needs, but ven says "everythings fine :) thanks aqua~" and aqua looks up at terra to double check that and terra nods affirmatively that yes, everything is fine. ven nudges aqua "see you at practice today~" and waves at terra too, knowing he prefers not to smooch in front of the other seniors;; but terra tells him to hang on and he runs over to give him a smooch goodbye and all is well after that<3 and axel snarks "tchh- drama queens :/"

[tysonrunningfox]

🔥 rtte 🔥

I was just ranting about rtte missing out on a major chance for comedy this morning, and I’ve been wanting to make a post about it anyway, so I’ll do it here: 

This is not a commentary on quality or whether rtte should exist or whether it’s canon.  This is an emphatic insistence that rtte made a big mistake by not just letting Snotlout and Astrid date for like half a season.  

I know, I know, I’m the snotstrid shipper and I’m just being obnoxious with it but hear me out: it would have fixed the whole weird rush of Hiccstrid getting together at the end of season 4 and also, been hilarious and also just dealt with the weird sexual tension that made them hang all over each other in The Longest Day.  

I will explain under a cut, because I have so many adamant feelings about this: 

So The Longest Day happened, and it wasn’t out of the blue (fight me they’re so ridiculous that season) and Astrid is someone who commits once she has weird daytime midnight sex with kisses someone.  And they’ve been spending a lot of time together at the edge and ok, let’s try it, it’s more solid character building than the rest of the show anyway, so just join me on this concept journey.  

One, there’s the hilarious concept of everyone learning that Snotstrid is dating.  There’s a lot of blank stares, a lot of deep confusion at the concept that Snotstrid is capable of holding hands.  Hiccup is like “I kind of thought Astrid and I were dating”, Heather is like “maybe you should have had an actual conversation with your supposed girlfriend about being your girlfriend before she went clinically insane and started dating Snotlout”.  There’s just…so many layers of comedy gold there.  

Two, the crew has to go back to Berk for some reason and Astrid isn’t embarrassed, ok, she’s not, but she really doesn’t want Stoick to know about this yet because she still wants him to respect her and she’s not sure where that stands if she’s not attached to Hiccup.  It involves shenanigans in which Snotlout has to keep the secret that he’s dating Astrid, probably as his dad is a dick and they’re pitted against each other in all the old ways that feel weird now.  Hiccup is probably the one who blurts it out in the end and Stoick is like “come on how’d you mess that one up” and Hiccup is like “apparently there’s a conversation involved and I didn’t have that, but she seems happy and I’m happy for her” because Actual Support, kthx.  

Three, battle tactics change, Viggo is like “this is not how I saw this going” but it’s hard for the riders to maintain formation when the 2nd and 3rd in command are super ride or die for each other all of a sudden.  Discussions about leadership that allow Snotlout to maintain the relative level of composure and grains of maturity that he gained in previous seasons.  

Four, I just thought of this this morning, but Snotlout starts winning at life for like the first time ever.  Any argument that crosses his path can be answered with “yeah, well I’m dating Astrid”.  Yes, it even works on Astrid, because Gods, who trusts her judgement right now, she’s dating Snotlout, she’s probably not right.  

Then, let it fall apart.  Let them have fun and come to terms with the fact that the experience bettered them in unique ways.  Like Astrid made her own decision instead of waiting around (like she does for everything but Hiccup but I Digress), but families are complicated and maybe she just doesnt’ see much of a future to it.  Like Spitelout as a father in law?  That’s a legitimate complaint.  Her parents probably aren’t cool with it and that matters.  For Snotlout, maybe Astrid’s approval was always sort of emblematic and he felt like if he could just get it, he could prove something to the world.  And he did that and he’s still working on himself and it’s confusing.  

Like, here’s the part I couldn’t write because once those two stubborn assholes commit to each other, they’re solid, but again, sticking with the premise, it falls apart.  They break up.  They break up and they have to see each other all the time and then there’s the new hilarity over the fact that neither one of them knows how to fucking act now.  

Like is hitting still flirting?  Astrid doesn’t know, sometimes she dodges hitting him completely and sometimes she hits way too hard.  Snotlout doesn’t understand the concept of airing someone else’s dirty laundry and announces things he shouldn’t, he doesn’t know how to make up for it aside from embarrassing himself.  Astrid is still mad, but appreciates it.  Just…the whole shenanigans of learning to be friends again, instead of oddly escalating moments of sexual tension that made no sense because she was with Hiccup.  Definitely remove that “if you hadn’t shot down Toothless, I’d be marrying Snotlout and have a SICK golden axe” moment, because that made no sense.  

Also, Hiccup comforting Astrid after a breakup?  Hilarious.  He realized how much he still likes her, or maybe it’s a new like, he doesn’t really know but he was happy for her being happy and now he doesn’t want her to be sad.  But it’s weird.  Awkward shoulder pats and offers for a shoulder to cry on and she’s like “I”m not crying, I don’t cry” even as this is probably the first fundamental failure she’s ever dealt with in her life and she’s struggling.  Let him give her space and be delighted when she doesn’t take him up on it, because everyone else is still being weird.  

Like, what if instead of pretending that this bizarre and obvious connection between Snotlout and Astrid wasn’t there, they just had a little teenage fling and both grew as people and then got to maintain that growth and have it strengthen relationships around them?  Like, as it stands, it doesn’t make much sense that Snotlout had come so far in respecting Astrid and then he goes off thinking that the lesbian island is all in love with him.  But if he were newly dumped?  Yeah, he could be going through a “women suck” phase.  Astrid having to rescue her ex when he enraged a bunch of lesbians trying to get over her?  Interesting.  

It would have fixed so much, ok?  And been hilarious.  And no one is ever going to read this giant rtte meta in the year 2019 but I don’t care, it’s off my chest now.  

[donotlookatmyface]

09 / 13 - 9 : 46 p.m.

i got my appendix removed last month. and i think i have a thing for my friend. ive slept with her before, in the time i was with bunny and he begged for a “sexy threesome” so i got drunk one day and just did it. i dont remember very much of it since it was years ago, it was before we both moved into the apartment but anyways, it was an okay experience. shes beautiful, and is always so nice to me. but when i have memories of her, us being together i felt wanted, i felt like i was the center of attention. but that was years ago, it happened once and its tainted with the pervert of my ex. 

after the break up, i set up an online profile, this was months after the break up and i was told by my ex that i should sleep with others other than him. so i did, and i found a couple. the same day i texted them i went over and had sex. when i first got there she let me shower and let me borrow a tshirt and shorts since i had just gotten off of work. i thought that was so polite of her, we had a conversation before anything, they smoked some weed, i didnt want to smoke since it triggers my hypomania. but it was a while, i was with a girl for the second time but this time i was sober. i wasnt really interested in the guy but she was nice. she was soft and i wanted to make her feel good. she was nervous because at the time i was about 85 - 90 pounds, besides that it was just something that happened. thinking back to these two instances i just felt lost. nothing i did was worth it, it didnt make me any more happier or less lonely. 

bat is pretty, she is high maintenance but so am i. that doesnt mean that she doesnt deserve someone good, even when we had our issues when we lived together for a very short month, she would clean the house when i was away, since i work 11 hrs a day, leave early in the morning, come back at night. she would do dishes or clean the restroom, she would even do the floors. and she would seek validation. 

anyways i just texted her about just feeling nervous talking to her and thinking about her, of course she told me that shes talking to someone else so shes not seeking a relationship with me but she is interested in having a fling. i told her i understand and that im interested in the fling too, but i do feel just awkward about it since its been about a year since ive had sex. 

its weird. im scared to be taken advantage of again, im scared of being in a relationship, ive forgotten what sex feels like, i crave attention, i want to go out and party, i want to drink, i want to do impulsive things, i think about having sex all the time, i want to clean my room but instead i rot in my bed or just play games all day and night, i get no sleep, i dont wash my hair, i let the water bottles accumulate by desk, my stimming is getting worse and i feel lonely. 

i wonder if i’ll be okay in a year from now, if i’ll find someone. if i’ll still be single, if i’ll be happier. 

i think i just have appearance issues. i cant seem to embrace my gender, ive stopped taking care of my skin and everything i wear seems like a costume no matter what i wear. theres not one day i dont get reminded of my weight gain, i weigh 117 now, and i am glad about it, everyone is. but i hate that once i wear something not baggy someone says “ oh youve gained weight” which i know they mean it in a “good for you” but it feels just awkward. one of my friends also made a very common comment/joke from high school to me and i let it get to me, but i just ignored it. 

i feel alone, i feel lost.

all i do is work and stay home. i do go out with friends, but thats just sometimes. like maybe once a month, since most of them are busy with school. which my friends want me to go back to, they tell me to get a couple classes in the collage that theyre going to and i want to i just dont know what i would do or study. i was thinking maybe business or marketing. i do want to want to take animation if i could again, since i dropped out for a DUMB ASS reason. also i need to keep drawing instead of playing splatoon or valorant haha. 

i dont think im depressed, just lost and with out purpose. ive tried to get back into homestuck but goddamn, its so damn long. but thats what made me happy, so maybe i just need something else to obsess over. in a healthy, normal way. 

i also want to write songs but once i start recording i remember how much i hate my voice, i mean i do like it its just weird 

[bartsugsy]

you really think robert would have actually had sex with bex before the reveal ep? i always thought he was just desperately trying to convince her he had feelings so that she'd think 'maybe..' like he'd done before just less subtle haha i mean he said "you know maybe if things with aaron were different, me and you..." before she stopped his gross words

I just don’t want to try and put a limit on just how far robert sugden will push things when desperate and having a break down because history has taught me not to challenge him

I dunno how far he would have gone but he was… not in a great place in that scene and… it’s Robert. IT IS ROBERT. HE DOESNT DESERVE THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT ANON, THIS YEAR HAS BEEN ONE EXTENDED BREAKDOWN WITH HIM FLINGING HIMSELF RECKLESSLY FROM ONE HORRIBLE DECISION TO ANOTHER

AND HE WAS SO FUCKING DESPERATE AT THAT TIME AND GIVING INTO HIS WORST IMMEDIATE IMPULSE TO GET HIS WAY OUT OF SITUATIONS BY SCHEMING AND MORE SPECIFICALLY BY USING HIS MAGIC DICK

(i said this to kate the other day but i want to sit him down and give him the sex talk burt gave kurt in glee season two ok dONT THROW URSELF AROUND LIKE U DONT MATTER KURT ROBERT U MATTER this is what happens when u don’t have a burt hummel :( but ok anyways)

Thank Christ Rebecca saw right through him and stopped him though I’ve literally never stanned her more

[princepriestandpirate]

Character Solidifying for Rowan!

god this is so fucking late forgive me, but anyway here u go! answers under the cut

1. How does your character think of their father? What do they hate and love about him? What influence - literal or imagined - did the father have?

oh he loved his dad, and he thinks of him with a lot of love and respect. really, the only thing about his father that was not so great was the amount of time that he spent working, and both rowan and em wished that he had more time to spend with them. at the same time though, if rowan or emilia sought their dad out he’d always try to spend time with them. he was a good guy, and rowan wants to be someone who would make his dad proud & honor his legacy.

2. Their mother? How do they think of her? What do they hate? Love? What influence - literal or imagined - did the mother have?

his relationship w/ his mother is more complicated, mostly because she died when rowan was very young (she died in childbirth giving birth to emilia, so rowan would have been about 3) so rowan doesn’t remember her well. he maybe thinks of her with a bit of longing, but that’s more about the idea of a mother rather than the woman herself. 

3. Brothers, sisters? Who do they like? Why? What do they despise about their siblings?

he has one younger sister, Emilia (3 years younger). he loves his little sister a lot, partially because he was always very attached to the role of being a “big brother” and partially because he and emilia were probably each other’s only playmates as kids? they probably fought sometimes, like siblings do, especially since em always had a lot more energy and rowan just wanted to be left alone sometimes, but at the end of the day she’s one of the most important people to him. he’s very proud of her, even if she is a terrorist probably?

4. What type of discipline was your character subjected to at home? Strict? Lenient?

it wasn’t very strict at all but i also think he was a pretty good kid who didn’t get into trouble all that often

5. Were they overprotected as a child? Sheltered?

physically yes, mentally not as much? he and em had their own personal guards, and rowan was accompanied by a group of guards + marcus after his family was attacked, so physically he was never in much danger. on the other hand, his father believed in being honest w/ the kids and not trying to hide all the stuff that was going on in the outside world, and after rowan started traveling w/ marcus they didn’t keep their plans from him and let him be involved (probably because rowan would be even more upset if he didn’t know what was going on)

6. Did they feel rejection or affection as a child?

all affection. one thing that can be said for his tragic backstory™ is that at least he was always surrounded by people who loved and cared for him

7. What was the economic status of their family?

very rich, they were nobility

8. How does your character feel about religion?

he wasn’t raised in any religion so he has no attachment to any specific religious beliefs, but he believes that gods exist and it’s probably a good idea to stay on their good side (although this is changing a bit now that he’s met a bunch of gods and some of them are dicks *cough* aengus *cough*)

in modern day he’d probably be considered vaguely agnostic

9. What about political beliefs?

very anti-new initiative and pro-hoth (obv). on a more theoretical level, he believes that there should be a government to unify, organize, and protect the people, but it shouldn’t run into totalitarianism and should have input from the people it governs.

10. Is your character street-smart, book-smart, intelligent, intellectual, slow-witted?

as a kid, very book smart, which would have continued if it wasn’t for the attack on his home. he ended up having to abandon his studies to some extent and focus much more on practical skills, so he has a good amount of street smarts as well now, although they mostly focus on his ability to move unnoticed and gather information.

11. How do they see themselves: as smart, as intelligent, uneducated?

he sees himself as fairly smart, but not super well-educated (or at least not as well educated as he’d like to be), since he’s self-taught on a lot of stuff and doesnt have a full formal education

12. How does their education and intelligence – or lack thereof - reflect in their speech pattern, vocabulary, and pronunciations?

i think the fact that he was well educated as a kid but had to quickly adapt to life on the road (w/ a bunch of guards no less) is reflected in his speech, as he goes back and forth between a more formal speaking style and more casual speech in his day to day conversations. he can switch back into more formal/well-educated speech if he needs to (see: when pretending to be a noble) but it’s not very natural for him.

13. Did they like school? Teachers? Schoolmates?

he loved it! he’s a fucking nerd and he loves to learn, so much that he kept up his studies even after he lacked a formal schooling environment. he also really like his teacher ms. alduri, even if she was strict sometimes. he didn’t have schoolmates though, he was basically homeschooled and his sister was younger than him and interested in different subjects anyway.

14. Were they involved at school? Sports? Clubs? Debate? Were they unconnected?

those didn’t really exist, he had private tutors

15. Did they graduate? High-School? College? Do they have a PHD? A GED?

he stopped his formal education at age nine

16. What does your character do for a living? How do they see their profession? What do they like about it? Dislike?

he’s a spy, basically. he doesn’t really see it as a matter of liking or not liking his work, but instead the work that he does is a matter of necessity. he’s doing this work because it’ll help him achieve his ultimate goals (bringing down new initiative/bringing back hoth) and because he has a deep loyalty to the resistance for all the help and protection they’ve given him. he likes that he’s doing useful work, and he likes seeing new places.

17. Did they travel? Where? Why? When?

all the time since he was nine. they never stopped in one place for more than a month, mostly around khajjitan (sp?) and then when he started helping out the resistance, in the desert as well, although recently he’s been traveling farther north. he travels because if he stays in one place too long he might be found by people who may potentially want to kill him, and because his job requires it.

18. What did they find abroad, and what did they remember?

this is kind of a weird question to answer, because at this point his “being abroad” encompasses… over half his life? but i would say he found his godfather, his favorite weapon, his best friend, and a lot of new skills. he remembers a lot of moving around and never really making friends or relationships that lasted, and seas of grass, and later seas of sand that go on for days. and he of course remembers marcus sticking by him and taking care of him.

19. What were your character’s deepest disillusions? In life? What are they now?

right after his home was attacked i think he realized, moreso than he ever had before, that the world was a mean and dangerous place and that he wasn’t safe, and that no one really was. i think it’s still probably something close to that, that you can’t really trust anybody but yourself and a few others.

20. What were the most deeply impressive political or social, national or international, events that they experienced?

oh boy. well, when he was very young he was in the area when the capital of hoth collapsed, and he was also present for the attack on his home where the last king of hoth was assassinated. later on, he was in the capital of khajjitan when the high councilor was killed in an attack on the city and he participated in fighting off invaders. he was also present when that one building blew up in the fishing villages. a lot of shit has happened tbh.

21. What are your character’s manners like? What is their type of hero? Whom do they hate?

he’s pretty polite to strangers, kind of a snarky shit to people he knows better. i don’t think he’s particularly taken with the ideas of heroes, but he would model his image of a hero off of his father or marcus, very kind men who always put others before themselves.

he hates a good portion of jashtall’s government. he also tends not to like people he perceives as untrustworthy which is… ironic

22. Who are their friends? Lovers? ‘Type’ or ‘ideal’ partner?

lumley + the people on his team, although to varying degrees (he probably puts lumley, maybe peitho and honeyclaw in the friend category, while he views mies and ko as coworkers, although he’s starting to get closer to mies). he doesn’t really have a lot of friends otherwise since he didn’t grow up around a lot of people his age. he also doesn’t really have ‘lovers,’ unless you count a couple one-off flings from when he was traveling by himself or his current thing with quinn.

as for ‘type’, i dont think he pursues romantic stuff often but he tends to go after people who are a bit more outgoing than him that he can have a good conversation with/match intellectually (that he can nerd out with basically). i think he also tends to go for people who are taller than him? i think that’s a thing

(i’ve also definitely decided that his taste in girls is “girls that are definitely way cooler than him” but i havent figured out his taste in guys yet, more info to come)

23. What do they want from a partner? What do they think and feel of sex?

he wants (or at least definitely needs) someone who is stable and can sort of ground him emotionally, and someone he can trust completely.

as for sex it’s…weird? because i think sex is something he wants/enjoys but he has a lot of hang-ups wrapped up in his issues with trusting others and being open with them. so he finds the experience of having to be very intimate physically or emotionally very uncomfortable and it makes sex kind of an awkward topic

24. What social groups and activities does your character attend? What role do they like to play? What role do they actually play, usually?

almost none, he doesn’t interact w/ a lot of people outside of missions. when he is around people he either likes to fade into the background unless he’s put in a specific role he’s supposed to fulfill. in reality he likes to be in control of the situation and know what’s going.

25. What are their hobbies and interests?

he loves magic! so much that he studied it even after his formal schooling got cut short. he also loves history and reads non-fiction books whenever he gets the chance. and in his spare time he enjoys playing cards (which some of the guards he traveled with taught him). it’s how he developed a good poker face.

26. What does your character’s home look like? Personal taste? Clothing? Hair? Appearance?

what home lol

as for personal taste though, he tends to go for darker/duller colors that don’t stick out too much (he likes to wear shades of blue and brown especially). he likes comfortable and inconspicuous clothes, and goes for simplicity over complicated outfits, altho he’s a fan of layers. his head is shaved, but when it grows out he has dark curly hair. 

27. How do they relate to their appearance? How do they wear their clothing? Style? Quality?

he cares a lot about his appearance but more in the sense of being very careful of what kind of image he’s projecting. he doesn’t want to stick out too much, and is careful to dress in a way that will make him blend in to whatever circumstance he needs to. unless he’s wearing the very fancy clothing he obtained recently so he could dress as a noble (a situation which is very weird and new, he hasn’t dressed up like this since he was little), he tends to go for comfortable, modest clothing that he can move around in easily, usually involving layers and some way to hide his face. nothing ridiculously high quality, but he likes clothes that will last him a while.

28. Who is your character’s mate? How do they relate to him or her? How did they make their choice?

he’s not really with anyone atm, all of his recent romantic encounters have been born almost exclusively out of him trying to get info out of people

29. What is your character’s weaknesses? Hubris? Pride? Controlling?

depends on the situation and who you ask. in relationships, his tendency towards thinking of relationships strategically and hella trust issues/lying. in his job, has a soft squishy center that can lead to him getting attached, although on the other hand he also has a bad tendency towards very black and white thinking, putting a lot of emotional weight on ppl he trusts and kinda disregarding anyone who falls into an enemy category. it’s complicated.

30. Are they holding on to something in the past? Can he or she forgive?

oh boy is he! he’s holding onto his father’s death and his sister’s disappearance, and it’s not something that he’s going to be able to forgive, ever i think. it fucked up his life too much for true forgiveness to ever really be an option.

31. Does your character have children? How do they feel about their parental role? About the children? How do the children relate?

he doesn’t have kids, although he’d like to be a dad one day

32. How does your character react to stress situations? Defensively? Aggressively? Evasively?

usually evasively, if something is wrong or he doesnt want to deal with a situation his first instinct is to run or evade.

33. Do they drink? Take drugs? What about their health? 

he drinks occasionally but not often, since he doesn’t like the “lowered inhibitions” part of it that much

34. Does your character feel self-righteous? Revengeful? Contemptuous?

very revengeful and somewhat righteous towards jashtall. they killed his family and destroyed his country and his life, he’s not happy.

35. Do they always rationalize errors? How do they accept disasters and failures?

he puts a lot of pressure onto himself to live up to the roles placed onto him, so when things go wrong he tends to think of it as his fault and freak out a bit, usually trying to atone for whatever happened.

36. Do they like to suffer? Like to see other people suffering?

no, but he’ll endure a lot if he thinks its for a good reason or cause. and he doesnt like to see people suffer but there are some enemies he won’t be afraid to be ruthless against.

37. How is your character’s imagination? Daydreaming a lot? Worried most of the time? Living in memories?

he’s not a big daydreamer, tends to be more focused on the moment and how he’s going to approach the future. he tends more towards the latter two, worrying quite a bit but tbh his situation calls for a good bit of that, and when he’s alone he prefers to revisit old (good) memories rather than daydream.

38. Are they basically negative when facing new things? Suspicious? Hostile? Scared? Enthusiastic?

almost always very suspicious, even of things that seem relatively innocuous. he’s not very trusting and usually assumes others are out to get him or could lead to him being found out unless he has reason to believe otherwise.

39. What do they like to ridicule? What do they find stupid?

he doesn’t (outwardly) ridicule others a lot i don’t think (unless they did something really dumb), but internally he thinks people who automatically trust others are dumb, as well as people who don’t think before they act.

40. How is their sense of humor? Do they have one?

he doesn’t have much of a sense of humor. he can laugh at other people’s jokes but is very bad at making them himself. he likes wordplay and puns though.

41. Is your character aware of who they are? Strengths? Weaknesses? Idiosyncrasies? Capable of self-irony?

he’s aware of his own strengths and weaknesses on a physical level, he knows what skills he has and how he can be most useful, but he’s not super self aware internally. he’s not very introspective and probably isn’t aware of how emotional he is.

42. What does your character want most? What do they need really badly, compulsively? What are they willing to do, to sacrifice, to obtain?

right now, he wants his sister back, he wants jashtall in pieces, he wants to build his home again. he’ll sacrifice a lot of work and pain and hardship for that.

43. Does your character have any secrets? If so, are they holding them back?

oh boy does he lol. mostly the “secretly the prince of hoth” thing, along with the “currently a spy” thing, along with the several fake identities he’s using at the moment. he hold these things back from most people, but he’s becoming more open now that he has more people that he can rely on. he won’t give most of this info up unless it’s necessary to do so though.

44. How badly do they want to obtain their life objectives? How do they pursue them?

very badly, but his responsibilities come first– it’s a rare occasion that he drops everything to go do whatever he wants. he generally tries to obtain his goals through planning and slow/deliberate action, utilizing help available to him rather than just pursuing things on his own. 

45. Is your character pragmatic? Think first? Responsible? All action? A visionary? Passionate? Quixotic?

very pragmatic, much of which is learned– constantly moving and running away lends itself to making one very pragmatic about their actions, which even extends to how rowan uses magic, mostly picking up charms and illusions because they tend to be the most useful, even if they’re not what he’d prefer. he’s not very impulsive and much prefers to clearly plan things out before acting. “responsible” is also a key character trait of his, he’s very committed to the responsibilities given to him or the responsibilities that come with any role he has (whether as a brother, a prince, a leader, etc.)

 46. Is your character tall? Short? What about size? Weight? Posture? How do they feel about their physical body?

height-wise he’s very average (he’s 5′9″). i don’t know his weight but he errs on the leaner side, although he does have muscles (his build is somewhat akin to a dancer’s build, where he has muscles but they’re mostly focused on being able to move quickly and efficiently rather than pure strength). he has very good posture. i don’t think he has any problems with his body, but he’s also pretty modest and doesn’t really want to show it off at all.

47. Do they want to project an image of a younger, older, more important person? Does they want to be visible or invisible?

he wants to come off as older and more secure and in-control than he is. whether he wants to be viewed as important/visible/invisible changes depending on the situation. if he’s pretending to be someone important then he wants to project that, but otherwise he feels very uncomfortable being looked at and noticed and would much prefer to blend into the crowd.

48. How are your character’s gestures? Vigorous? Weak? Controlled? Compulsive? Energetic? Sluggish?

very controlled and deliberate.

49. What about voice? Pitch? Strength? Tempo and rhythm of speech? Pronunciation? Accent?

his voice is... tenorish maybe? idk, not terribly low but not super high either. he doesn’t have a very loud voice but knows how to speak authoritatively, and he tends to speak a bit more slowly and deliberately. 

in regards to pronunciation & accent (and also vocabulary), i think it’s somewhat apparent in his normal speech that he goes back and forth between a more “proper” and “educated” style of speech that he spoke growing up as nobility (which also would probably come with a hothean accent, whatever that is in this world), and a more casual style of speech that he picked up from years on the road (he also pronounces some words with a kajjitani accent/pronunciation), he can fall back into the more “noble” style if the situation calls for it, but his normal speaking style goes back and forth between the two. 

50. What are the prevailing facial expressions? Sour? Cheerful? Dominating?

his main facial expression is a serious one, trying to seem impassive but definitely kind of “on” at all times. if he shows his emotions his expressions tend to be kind of grumpy, although he can put up a front and appear very polite and amiable if he wants (although he finds it very draining to do so).

[casnovakrp]

You're gonna kill me for this: "ready, set, sex" for doctor!Cas, rebel!Cas and witch!Cas. Answer as them as if they would be interviewed. [You can also answer whatever you want/feel comfortable with.]

Jesus Christ, you’re gonna kill me

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

Doctor!Cas: “As much as I love having a good-looking man in my bed, I think relationships are based on what’s within a person more than what’s outside.”Rebel!Cas: “Not really. I don’t care how they look as long as I love them.” Witch!Cas: “I don’t have much experience with relationships. Hook-ups are based on looks. Relationships are... weird. But I guess kinda?”

Me: “I agree with all the above.” 

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

Doctor!Cas: “Of course. The understanding and comfort you find in someone you love is important.”Rebel!Cas: “It highly depends on the person. If they are an asshole, nope. But sometimes, there’s that right person, you know?” WItch!Cas: “I don’t know. Relationships, in my experience, are shitty as hell. But I’m young.” 

Me: “Sometimes?”

3. Are you a virgin?

Doctor!Cas: “No, I’m not. Dean is not my first.” Rebel!Cas: “Of course not. I’ve had several relationships, and more partners before.” Witch!Cas: “Nope. Have you seen me?” *winks*

4. Are you in a relationship? (at the moment of the rp)

Doctor!Cas: “Not right now. My work matters a lot to me, I don’t have a lot of time for myself, let alone for someone else.” Rebel!Cas: “No. My stuff with Balthazar didn’t work out and I’m satisfied being single right now, but I’m open.”Witch!Cas: “Dean and I just started... something.” 

5. Are you in love?

Doctor!Cas: “Not at the moment.” Rebel!Cas: “With my ideals? Sure. With a person? No.” Witch!Cas: “I like him. A lot. Not love yet.” 

6. Are you single this year?

Doctor!Cas: “Yes. I have been single for a while.” Rebel!Cas: “Yes, what happened with Balth was last year.” Witch!Cas: “I’ve had a couple... things? But nothing major this year, before Dean.” 

7. Can you commit to one person?

Doctor!Cas; “A 100% yes. I’m a man easy to satisfy.” Rebel!Cas: “Yes. In a relationship, seeing elsewhere is not something I do.” Witch!Cas: “i think so. I’ve never cheated on someone I was in a relationship with. Flings don’t count.” 

8. Describe your crush

Doctor!Cas: “Okay, fuck, I have that crush on that new guy at the hospital. He’s tall, and has like... golden brown hair? Super green green eyes. Muscles. He’s annoying, and he seems like he doesn’t care, but I don’t know.” Rebel!Cas: “That’s embarrassing. It’s a cop. Yeah. A cop. He’s always there at night and he’s nice with me. Gives me food. You don’t know life before seeing that ass in that cop’s uniform.” Witch!Cas: “Dean is kind, genuine, a little... innocent maybe? You know. He’s caring. He makes sure I eat and he’s so nice to be around. So relaxing.” 

9. Describe your perfect mate

Doctor!Cas: “Someone who supports me, and knows when to slow me down. Someone who knows me, and understands me.” Rebel!Cas: “Someone who believes in something. Anything. Someone who’s passionate.” Witch!Cas: “Someone who makes me want to stay in one place, but still doesn’t tie me down.” 

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Doctor!Cas: “The romantic part of me screams yes. The rational part of me says no.” Rebel!Cas: “Not really? I’m more of a... stare into their eyes and get to know them for long hours kind of guy.” Witch!Cas: “I think so, yeah. Sometimes, things just click.” 

11. Do you ever want to get married?

Doctor!Cas: “Yes please. I want someone who’d be ready to be with me for the long run. Marriage is commitment.” Rebel!Cas: “I don’t believe in marriage that much. I think it’s not entirely necessary, that if you love the person, you don’t need a paper to make it official. But if my partner wants to get married, I’d consider it.” Witch!Cas: “It’s more of a dream than anything. I never stay long enough.” 

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

Doctor!Cas: “With a good talk about it, and if there’s an actual reason behind it, maybe.” Rebel!Cas: “No. You betray me, you’re out of my life. Simple as that.”Witch!Cas: “No. Revenge is something I enjoy. You don’t betray me.” 

13. Do you get jealous easily?

Doctor!Cas: “Yes. I can be quite possessive.” Rebel!Cas: “Not really. But if I ever do, I don’t confront people. I’m quite passive aggressive.” Witch!Cas: “Yes. Old memories stick.” 

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

Doctor!Cas: “Dr. Dean Winchester”Rebel!Cas: “Winchester.” Witch!Cas: “Dean.” 

15. Do you have any piercings?

Doctor!Cas: “I do not.”Rebel!Cas: “Several on my ears, lip ring, eyebrow, tongue.” Witch!Cas: “No though I can consider it.” (Mun doesnt remember xD)

16. Do you have any tattoos?

Doctor!Cas: “Same as before. I do not.” Rebel!Cas: “yes. Sleeves, back, chest, neck, hands and around on of my ankles.” Witch!Cas: “All over my upper body and starting on the rest.” 

17. Do you like kissing in public?

Doctor!Cas: “To some extent yes. Sometimes it’s a good display of affection, and can make people understand that he is taken. By me. And I’m a doctor, I know how to kill people as well as I can save them.” Rebel!Cas: “It pisses off assholes and makes me happy. I like kissing in general.” Witch!Cas: “I’m not that much into PDA, but it can be nice sometimes. Just a peck is often enough.” 

20. Do you shower every day?

Doctor!Cas: “Of course!” Rebel!Cas: “Yeah, most of the times, sometimes I forget.” Witch!Cas: “When I have a bathroom, yes, but when I travel, I can sometimes go a day or two without a shower.” 

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

Doctor!Cas: “Probably not in the romantic way.” Rebel!Cas: “No I don’t think so.” Witch!Cas: “I hope he does.”

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Doctor!Cas: “No, probably not. Or in a pitying way.” Rebel!Cas: “Probably, but not romantically. My family.” Witch!Cas: “I sure am thinking about him.” 

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Doctor!Cas: “Of course. Faithfulness is important.” Rebel!Cas: “Yes. I’m a one-man kind of guy.” Witch!Cas: “yes if it’s long lasting and serious.” 

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

Doctor!Cas: “Probably not.” Rebel!Cas: “I don’t really think so. As i said... Marriage isn’t my thing.” Witch!Cas: “I have no damn idea.” 

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

Doctor!Cas: “It would be nice? I feel lonely sometimes, when I sleep home.” Rebel!Cas: “Why not? I don’t mind giving it a try.”Witch!Cas: “Yes, I hope Dean and I will... last.” 

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

Doctor!Cas: “No. Maybe Gabriel, but he’s my brother and that doesn’t count. But no one has said it with romantic feelings for me.” Rebel!Cas: “Not in a romantic way.” Witch!Cas: “Yes. Though it was a lie.” 

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

Doctor!Cas: “No.” Rebel!Cas: “Nope.” Witch!Cas; “Never.”

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

Doctor!Cas: “I don’t think so.” Rebel!Cas: “No.”Witch!Cas: “Yes. And I don’t want to talk about it.”

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

Doctor!Cas: “Never.” Rebel!Cas: “Never.” Witch!Cas: “Once, but I didn’t think we were serious, she had just told me to leave her alone.”

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

Doctor!Cas: “I love my body. I wouldn’t change anything.” Rebel!Cas: “No, I love myself how I am.”Witch!Cas: “No, I think I’m good like this.” 

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

Doctor!Cas: “Oh so many times.” Rebel!Cas: “I’m not the kind to keep myself buried in feelings. Maybe once.” Witch!Cas: “Once.” 

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

Doctor!Cas: “No, never. Crushes yes.” Rebel!Cas: “No, never.”Witch!Cas: “I don’t think so.”

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?Doctor!Cas: “Yes. Several times.”Rebel!Cas: “Yes, of course.”Witch!Cas: “Yes. I prefer men to others.” 

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

Doctor!Cas: “Never. I’m gay, and I never felt the need to hide it by sleeping with a woman.” Rebel!Cas: “Yes, a couple times, but I was drunk every time and it wasn’t as pleasing as being with a man.” Witch!Cas: “Yes, several times.”

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

Doctor!Cas: “Yes, it has happened. The chief of cardiology in my old hospital once. A dare, on Halloween.”Rebel!Cas: “I have. Balthazar is a couple years older.” Witch!Cas: “I have. My first ex was a few years older.” 

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

Doctor!Cas: “I had a huge crush on a straight best friend of mine for most of highschool.” Rebel!Cas: “Not really. Maybe Balth would qualify? I don’t know.” Witch!Cas: “No.”

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

Doctor!Cas: “Never. I don’t have a lot of friends.” Rebel!Cas: “I have, but they know people. If they hate that person, that person doesn’t belong in my life. They are my family.”Witch!Cas: “Yes.”

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Doctor!Cas: “I guess I might like Dean more than I thought I would, though he’s infuriating and careless.”Rebel!Cas: “I mean... a cop? And I basically protest for a living?”Witch!Cas: “Not that much.” 

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Doctor!Cas: “Yep.” Rebel!Cas: “Nope. Except for allll those celebrities?”Witch!Cas: “I kinda have.” 

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

Doctor!Cas: “Yeah. But you shut up about it.” *blushes*Rebel!Cas: “Yes, it has happened.” Witch!Cas: “No, not my style.” 

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

Doctor!Cas: “Yes, a couple times.” Rebel!Cas: “I have.” Witch!Cas: “Yes, more than once.” 

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

Doctor!Cas: “Not that long. I’m quite a sexual person.” Rebel!Cas: “Never long. I like touching. If the other agrees.” Witch!Cas: “For a while.” 

43. How long was your longest relationship?

Doctor!Cas: “Around two years, I believe.” Rebel!Cas: “8 months.” Witch!Cas: “One year and a half.” 

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

Doctor!Cas: “I’d say... 3 or 4?”Rebel!Cas: “I think it’s 3.” Witch!Cas: “One.” 

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?

Doctor!Cas: “Okay 6 years ago? Probably around 10? No, I don’t know, probably less.”Rebel!Cas: “30? Something along those lines.” Witch!Cas: “None. I was like.... 15? Maybe one, then.” 

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

Doctor!Cas: “20 times or something like that.” Rebel!Cas: “No damn idea.” Witch!Cas: “I don’t really know I don’t exactly count.” 

47. How old are you?

Doctor!Cas: “I’m 32.”Rebel!Cas: “I’m 26.” Witch!Cas: “I’m 23.”

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

Doctor!Cas: “Alright, I hope you two will be great together.” Rebel!Cas: “Too bad, you’re missing out, but I hope they like you back.”Witch!Cas: “Okay. Cool.” 

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

Doctor!Cas: “I’m single.”Rebel!Cas: “Single.” Witch!Cas: “If Dean is my boyfriend, then how soft he is with me. Gentle.” 

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

Doctor!Cas: “Not really. I’ve moved on.”Rebel!Cas; “Maybe. I don’t really know who my first love was.” Witch!Cas: “Hell no. He can honestly go fuck himself.” 

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

Doctor!Cas; “Not today.”Rebel!Witch: “I guess most of my friends, especially Meg and Balth. and Gabe, my brother.” Witch!Cas: “Dean was good to me. I’ll defend him.” 

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

Doctor!Cas: “Well; except my family, no.”Rebel!Witch: “My dad will never change.” Witch!Cas: “My first ex. He betrayed me, used me, and abandoned me.” 

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

Dcotor!Cas: “No, I don’t think so. They all want us together.”Rebel!Cas: “I don’t know what my friends would think.”Witch!Cas: “Dean’s coven leader and their protector don’t like me.”

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

Doctor!Cas: “No, I don’t think so.”Rebel!Cas: “No”.Witch!Cas: “The same bastard I talked about before.”

55. Share a relationship story.

Doctor!Cas: “There was that guy in college, I went out with. He failed his year and expected me to give up to follow him. I guess I didn’t love him enough to do so.” Rebel!Cas: “Balthazar and I thought there was more to us than friendship. The sex was amazing, and it was nice to spend time with him. But our bound is purely friendly, there was never something romantic about us.”Witch!Cas; “I met a girl once. She thought I was something that I was not. After a couple months, she found out the truth and broke up with me, but then proceeded to be upset and tell her coven leader/father, that I had cheated on her.”

56. State 8 facts about your body

Doctor!Cas: “I have thick thighs, I should use concealer on those damn dark circles under my eyes, I can put on weight easily, my eyes are blue, my hair is dark brown, I’m tall, I’m not exactly conventionally beautiful, I’m rather fair-skinned.”Rebel!Cas: “I have blue eyes, black hair that I sometimes dye, I’m tall, I have tattoos, I have piercings, I’m rather thin, I’m rather tan, my hands are calloused.”Witch!Cas: “My hair is dark brown, my eyes are blue, my lips are often chapped, I’m thin, I’m tall, I have tattoos, I have a great ass, or so I’ve heard, and I know how to move.” 

57. Things you want to say to an ex

Doctor!Cas: “You should have been more careful.” Rebel!Cas: “Farewell my friend.” Witch!Cas: “Fuck you, asshole.” 

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

Doctor!Cas: “Listen to what I say, be romantic (dates/flowers are appreciated), be serious, make me laugh and make me want to have sex with you.” Rebel!Cas: “Don’t pity me, don’t laugh at my ideas, respect me, support me and like my friends.”Witch!Cas: “Be gentle, be caring, be genuine, give me food, and don’t tie me down.”

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

Doctor!Cas :

Rebel!Cas: 

Witch!Cas: 

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

Doctor!Cas: “Okay,; the chief of cardiology didn’t just kiss me. I think we were 15/20 years apart. Didn’t exactly ask.” Rebel!Cas: “mehhh, ten years ish?”Witch!Cas: “10 max.” 

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

Doctor!Cas: “Their smile.”Rebel!Cas: “Their eyes. Eyes are the window to the soul.” Witch!Cas: “Their bodies I guess.” 

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

Doctor!Cas: “Oh fuck, I guess hmmm... tie me down? Okay, I kinda like BDSM, to be honest.”Rebel!Cas: “Wow... Want me enough to have some kind of several rounds thing? I guess.” Witch!Cas: “Let me take control.” 

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

Doctor!Cas: “Consesual pleasure exchange. May it be just oral, or penetrative or anything. To me, it’s sex.” Rebel!Cas: “I guess foreplay and penetration. Just penetration is a fuck, and just foreplay is well... making out. I personally differentiate.”Witch!Cas: “I guess penetrative stuff? Oral doesn’t count and handjobs either.” 

64. What is your definition of cheating?

Doctor!Cas; “When someone in a closed exclusive relationship has sex with someone else than their partner without them knowing and allowing.” Rebel!Cas: “When someone has sex with someone they aren’t in a relationship with while being in a relationship. It doesn’t work if it’s said partner is  watching.”Witch!Cas: “Not being faithful. Sleeping with someone else than your partner without being allowed..” 

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

Doctor!Cas: “Making out, rimming, either hand or blowjob.” Rebel!Cas: “Making out, groping, rimming and fingering. Though blowjobs are amazing.” Witch!Cas: “Blowjob or handjob, some nipple action, hickeys... I like marks.” 

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

Doctor!Cas: “Oh god..., I guess some light D/S action? I’m not much into roleplay. Playing doctor is stupid because I either go in like super detailed stuff, or my partner has a stupid scenario.” Rebel!Cas: “Well, i do like some cop/criminal stuff because yeah, shut up, I know, cliché.”Witch!Cas: “Nothing much.” 

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

Doctor!Cas: “Romantic dinner, walk in the park or something.” Rebel!Cas: “Movies and burger, with some philosophical discussion on the side. And if I take you to church, consider yourself serious. And also, coming home and having great slow sensual sex.”Witch!Cas: “Good restaurant, (not expensive, just good food), and car ride in the night with blasting music.”

68. What is your sexual orientation?

Doctor!Cas: “I’m gay.”Rebel!Cas: “I’m gay.”Witch!Cas: “I’m pansexual with a preference for men.” 

69. What turns you off?

Doctor!Cas: “Humiliation. Humiliating words can turn some people on, but not me. I like praises.”Rebel!Cas: “Lack of respect.” Witch!Cas: “Seriousness. I like having fun.”

70. What turns you on?

Doctor!Cas: “Wandering hands, and grabbing.”Rebel!Cas: “Confidence and being treated nicely. If you give me shit for what I look like, or make on derogatory comments, I ain’t gonna fuck you.”Witch!Cas: “Praises.” 

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

Not answering this one.

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

Doctor!Cas: “Things like, you’re so good, or beautiful, or such.”Rebel!Cas: “Praises. And Oh God.”Witch!Cas: “Either nothing, just sounds, or praises.” 

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

Doctor!Cas: “Keep me from going to work in the evening.”Rebel!Cas: “Offer me a book.”Witch!Cas: “Make me my favorite meal.”

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

Doctor!Cas: “Pretty lips.”Rebel!Cas: “Broad shoulders.”Witch!Cas: “a nice body, in general.”

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

Doctor!Cas: “Cancelled their plans to spend Christmas with me so I wouldn’t be alone.”Rebel!Cas: “Gave me some family souvenir.”Witch!Cas: “Taken me in.”

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

Doctor!Cas: “Paid their bills.”Rebel!Cas: “Gave them my bed.”Witch!Cas: “Took them with me on the road.”

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

Doctor!Cas: “20 is too much, but you do you as long as long as both are adults.”Rebel!Cas: “Don’t fuck with kids, don’t fetishize on age.”Witch!Cas: “Be understanding.” 

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

Doctor!Cas: “The chief of cardiology.”Rebel!Cas: “I used to fantasize on the priest in my church.”Witch!Cas: “I use sex in some rituals.” 

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

Doctor!Cas: “When I saw an ex of mine having a good relationship with someone else. I was more jealous of their happiness than anything else.”Rebel!Cas: “When Balth started fucking a guy that kind looked like me, if you squint. I might have been more pissed than jealous.”Witch!Cas: “I’m never jealous.”

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

Doctor!Cas: “A long time ago. Years.”Rebel!Cas: “Last week, to my friends.”Witch!Cas: “Years ago, to my now ex.”

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

Doctor!Cas: “George Clooney. Yeah; laugh all you want. James Denton, from Desperate Housewives. Jesse Williams and Patrick Dempsey from Grey’s Anatomy. Dean.”Rebel!Cas: “Charlie Cox, Sebastian Stan, that guy at my local library, Winchester, Balthazar.”Witch!Cas: “Dean, Elodie Yung, Johnny Depp, Gal Gadot, my friend Magnus”

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

Doctor!Cas: “My brother, Gabe.”Rebel!Cas: “Meg, last night.”Witch!Cas: “Dean.”

83. Who was your first kiss with?

Doctor!Cas: “Some guy named Tyler in college.”Rebel!Cas: “My first boyfriend, Elijah.”Witch!Cas: “The asshole; Mike.” 

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

Doctor!Cas: “I couldn’t give him enough attention.”Rebel!Cas: “We weren’t more than friends.”Witch!Cas: “He betrayed me, used me, cheated on me and left me amone hen I needed him the most.” 

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

Doctor!Cas: “No I need human contact.”Rebel!Cas: “I don’t think so.”Witch!Cas: “Nah. It’s too weird.” 

Thank you though. 

[heartofheir]

Psst. You know why I'm here. Do eeeeet. :3c

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1,2 3 and 10 are done! :D

4: Do you find it easy to trust others?not really lmao

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?knitting and listening to the off topic podcast

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?my dogs and @themysteriousballetanon 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?lie down on the floor, cry and than kick their ass8: Are you close with your dad?kinda, we are both have the same kind of humour and personality which is p cool 

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?ye i smooch my doggos when i got bk from work last night

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?coffee, its got some water in it so ill be fine

12: Do you like hickeys?ye

13: What time do you go to bed?5:30am oops

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?ya

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?nah im quicker with both hands ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

16: Do you always answer your texts?yea unless i forget or fall asleep 

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?Y U P

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?yesterday; we all went to the beach it was top notch

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?my dogs and my siblings even though they are all little shits

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?probs something about being tired af

21: Is anyone else in the room with you?i hope not….

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?i guess?

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?nope

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?i think so

25: In the past week, have you cried?yea

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?maroon

27: Do people ever call you by your last name?yea a variation of it that i cant say cause i dont wanna give my last name out to the interwebs lmao

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?possibly 

29: Do you have a best friend?yea kinda

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?nope

31: Who was your last call/text message from?my manager telling me what time i start work tomorrow 

32: Are you mad at anyone?i dont get mad i just get tired™

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?yea

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?21

35: How many more days until your birthday?im not doing math go away

36: Do you have any summer plans yet?nope just working alot r.i.p me

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?ye! :D

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?yup one of them doesnt even know im gay lmao

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?ye

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?kinda?

41: Do you think age matters in relationships?if theres a giant age gap than yea it does

42: Are you available?nope! :D

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?no idea my dude

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?so many!! i wanna get an industrial, another helix ring, maybe my tongue, nipples lol, belly button and my second lot of normal ear piercings plus alot more ear ones

45: Do you believe exes can be friends?it can be awkward af but yea

46: Do you regret anything?lots of things lmao

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?im running out of mango ice tea :(

48: Did you ever lose a best friend?yea 

49: Was your last kiss a mistake?yes and no?

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?she already said yes! (miraculously) 

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?yep

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?he was an ass to me last time we spoke so no

53: What was the last thing you ate?i got one of the chefs at work to make me gnocchi it was delicious 

54: Did you get any compliments today?nope but one of my new coworkers last night said i was really good at my job!! :O

55: Where are you going on your next vacation?no where so far, but one of my friends wants to go to rottnest at some point though

56: Do you own anything from other countries?ye! my auntie went to france and brought me bk a really pretty kitty mask not a furry lol

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?i guess its even but more so guys

58: Where have you lived most of your life?i use to travel around when i was younger but now ive been in the same spot for 10 years I NEED TO L E A V E

59: When was the last time you took a long drive?i wasnt the one driving but it was when i was a babby and we drove from my hometown to perth took us 5 hours

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?nope

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?nah but our house was tomatoed once

62: Who do you text the most?it changes all the time

63: What was the last movie you saw?moana! i loved it!!

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? i dont actually know

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?none

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?nope

67: Do you curse around your parents?not on purpose it just slips out

68: Are you happy with where you live?nope

69: Picture of yourself?

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?im a jealous hoe so just monogamous

71: Have you ever been dumped?no

72: What do you most like about making out?i dont think a guy being like a mcfucking vacumn cleaner counts as making out so i wouldnt know

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?yes but again i dont think it counts as making out

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?i just go ‘fuck it' and do it (but only if i know they cool with it)

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?hands and backs, also necks

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?a friend i use to go to school with

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?nah

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?nope

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?pickup lines im a sucker for them

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?ye! i loves kids

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?yea

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?nope 

83: Do you miss your last sweetie?fuck no

84: Last time you slow danced with someone?MCFUCKING YR 9 there was this guy who liked me since yr 7 and me and him were both in dance class at school and OF COURSE the dance teacher put us together for the slow dance performance i left dance and moved to drama cause it just got way too uncomfortable 

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?ye! im dating a furry from the internet

86: How can I win your heart?you already have ;0

87: What is your astrological sign?cancer! karkat

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?the same thing i was doing at 11pm

89: Do you cook?ye but i tend to set things on fire

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?ye

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?i dont have to wish :D

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?id prefer a monogamous relationship

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?not a clue my dude

94: Name four things that you wish you had!more garlic bread from work (we make the BEST gb), mango ice tea, unlimited wifi and a phone that can actually work

95: Are you a player?of games, yes; of people, no

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?nope

97: Are you a tease?ive been told i am but i dont mean to lmao

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?i saw @miss--kiwi yesterday at work and than she was mean 2 me even after i gave her gb :

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?what even is love

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?id date the FUCK outta @themysteriousballetanon 

101: Hugs or Kisses?both! oxox

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?normally yes but sometimes ill have a rare moment of bravery lmao

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?height

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?may or may not be a kink for me LMAO

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?fuck no

106: Do you flirt a lot?i have no idea how so sometimes ppl think im flirting when im being friendly, or think im being friendly when im flirting

107: Your last kiss?sometime in September in the back of a car with a VACUUM APPARENTLY 

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?nope

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?only my doggos cause they deserve all the kisses

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?my girlfriend even though im not into kissing furries :3c

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?my dogs and hopefully teanii

112: Does someone like you currently?i would hope my gf does 

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?ye!! :D

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?flings really arent that great

115: Ever made out with just a friend?ye

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?i thrive off affection so id prefer a relationship

117. you didnt give me a question to answer and ur asleep rn so imma use this spot to say ur a gotdamn cutie

[softertoday]

im gona answer these little survey questions cus no one will send them to me anyway but im bored so whatever ill put a read more tho

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? i do this every day cus its my bf so

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? its my bf

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care? yes i could care but i wouldnt be with them if they were into drugs

4. Is your last name longer than six letters? yes

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober? sober

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up? yes

7. What does your last received text say? “you’re not coming out”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? a lot but never enough

9. Where was your last kiss at? right here where im sitting

10. When is the last time you saw your sister? i do not have a sister

11. What do you drink in the morning? coffee

12. Where did you sleep last night? my bed

13. Do you think relationships are hard? i mean, they can be, sure.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? nah

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems? no

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? sunny

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? not middle name, no

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants? im wearing like, soft shorts. like yoga pants but in shorts form.

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now? i hope

20. Does anyone like you? i sure hope so!

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S? yea probably

22. Is the last person you kissed gay? uh no

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand? yes

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? i have 3 and i want more

25. In the past week have you cried? i dont think so

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? my dog, so a terrier

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? out

28. Have you ever kissed a football player? well, kinda. like he doesnt play now but he used to? does that count?

29. Do you think you’re old? no

30. Do you like text messaging? depends on the subject. like if its important subject matter then no i dont wanna text about it id rather talk in person or on the phone but if its just whatever then its ok

31. What type of day are you having? good day cus i was off work today

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? i have my nose pierced.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? warm

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? yes

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling? at this time in my life? a relationship for sure.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person? complicated

37. What song are you listening to? none

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it? yes, usually. when im at work i hardly ever mean it but say it a lot. 39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? my mom? 40. What made you start liking the person you like now? a lot of things. he’s kind and friendly, funny, sexy, nonjudgmental, and lots of other great stuff. 41. When did you last receive a text message? last night. 42. What is wrong with you right now? nothing whats wrong with u? 43. How well do you know the last female you texted? i actually texted 2 females at the same time this morning and neither of them replied :| but i dont know them at all actually i just work with them. 44. Does anyone disgust you? maybe people i dont know personally but no one that i actually have contact with. 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked? no im already dating someone 46. Are you in a good mood right now? yea 47. Who was the last person you talked to in person? my mom 48. What color shirt are you wearing? black 49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? i mean, probably? 50. Anyone you’re giving up on? nah 51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? no

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t? no 53. Do you like rain? if im not driving in it then yes. 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? no 55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? no 56. Do you like to cuddle? yes 57. Are you shy? yes 58. Do you get along with girls? yes 59. Have you dated the person you texted last? no 60. What do you carry with you at all times? my phone 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? maybe idk 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? i have already so yea 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship? yes 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? yes its very cute and sweet i love it 65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? idk

66. How old are the last three people you kissed? ive only kissed one person for a while now but he’s 28

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?    pay 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?    leopard 69. Do you have any stickers on your car? my campus parking permit sticker   70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?   no. 71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    not blackberry. 72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    no idea. 73. Do you like diet soda?    no. 74. What color are the walls in your room?  like, beige or something.  75. Are you 16 or older?    yea 76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars? no   77. Do you have a job?    yea   78. What are your initials? ALH   79. Did you ever have braces?  nope  80. Are you from the south?  yes   

81. What does your last status on facebook say? no idea   82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? nope   83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    mom 84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?  not really  85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    i think it was... ummmm.... shit i cant rememeber 86. Do you smoke? not cigarettes   87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?   flip flops 88. Is your phone touch screen? yea   89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?  i wear it natural, whatever that is.  90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?  no.  91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?   ocean or pool. 92. Have you ever made out in a car?    yes 93. …Had sex in a car?    yes 94. Are you single or in a relationship?  in a relationship  95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    idk i think having sex probably 96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?  the last 4th of july  97. Do you like the camera on your phone?   yea sure 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits? yea   99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? yea   100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? no thats fucking stupid   101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?   no thank God 102. Name your favorite Kesha song:   i literally dont know any 103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    nah its winter so that shit gone 104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? no probably not.

[spillyourspirit]

answer all the questions

1. Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? Because life has this way of letting me fuck up everything for myself I think.

2. Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? Nah.

3. If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? Nah, I smoke.4. Do you find it easy to trust others? Not anymore, no.5. What were you doing at 11PM last night? Picking my roommate up from work and smoking a cigarette.6. You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? Probably the crew.7. What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? Fuck that shit, been there done that.8:Are you close with your dad? I am my father’s daughter, I am my father’s mistakes. I’m easily undone, and I’m no stranger to rage. (the answer is no, but I am a mini-me of my father minus the alcoholism.)9. I bet you kissed someone last night, right? Nah.10. What are you listening to? Movements - Deep Red11. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? Mountain Dew.12. Do you like hickeys? I’m down for them, sure.13. What time do you go to bed? Depends on the day, currently I’m awake and it’s 4am. 14. Is there someone who continuously lets you down? My damn self.15. Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? Nah.

16. Do you always answer your texts? Hahahahaha, that’s a joke, right?

17. Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? Yes.

18. When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? I live with him, so today.19. Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? Dude, my little brother has been my reason to smile since the day he was born.20. What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? I texted someone I loved them and cried because I fucked up our friendship and relationship period pretty hard.21. Is anyone else in the room with you? I’ve been watching Naruto sitting at the computer, Mikey’s sleeping.22. Do you believe what goes around comes around? Karma’s a bitch.23. Were you happier four months ago than you are now? Fuck no.24. Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Yeah, see #20.25. In the past week, have you cried? See #20.26. What colour is the shirt you are wearing? Green.27. Do people ever call you by your last name? My maiden name is rad as fuck, wish more people would call me by it. But nah, it’s usually just Delaney or Laney.28. Is anyone ignoring you right now? Yeah, quite a few people.

29. Do you have a best friend? Yeah I have two of those, one isnt talking to me, the other is sleeping in the same room.

30. Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? Nah.

31. Who was your last call/text message from? Dude from work, Eric got sick from eating food at work and so I asked him if he was cool and he replied with ‘hell no tell >insert managers name here

32. Are you mad at anyone? My damn self.

33. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? All of the people I’ve kissed except one have been older than me.

34. How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? hahahahah, 30.

35. How many more days until your birthday? 339 days.

36. Do you have any summer plans yet? it’s Fall, so no. But hopefully I won’t be living in Ohio then.

37. Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? All of my friends of the opposite sex are good friends.

38. Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? Yeah, I havent said anything about relapsing yet so there’s that.

39. Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? Nope, I’m an open book honestly.

40. Have you ever regretted kissing someone? I wish I hadn’t kissed my soon-to-be ex husband or ever went through with any of it. I’m so fucking naive.

41. Do you think age matters in relationships? Age and maturity usually go hand-in-hand.

42. Are you available? I guess you can say that.

43. How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? Three. 

44. If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? my medusa/philthrum back.

45. Do you believe exes can be friends? Depends, I’m only friends with one of my exes.

46. Do you regret anything? I regret High School. Regret wasting my time. Regret seeing anything in him when he saw nothing in me. Regret how the past weeks been treating me emotionally.

47. Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? How thirsty I am and wanting to go to the gas station/on a walk to smoke and clear my mind.

48. Did you ever lose a best friend? Yeah.

49. Was your last kiss a mistake? Not actually.

50. Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? Because he’s pursuing someone a lot closer to him.

51. Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? I left his place and drove and cried, so no.

52. Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? Yeah, he works beside where I work and I watch his kids for a few hours in exchange for cigarettes and weed.

53. What was the last thing you ate? Mcdonalds nugs.

54. Did you get any compliments today? Yes.

55. Where are you going on your next vacation? Anywhere but here.

56. Do you own anything from other countries? Nah.

57. Are most of your friend guys or girls? Guys.

58. Where have you lived most of your life? Toledo, Ohio

59. When was the last time you took a long drive? When I drove to Grand Rapids to see State Champs.

60. Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? Nah.

61. Have you ever TPd someone’s house? No.

62. Who do you text the most? I really don’t text anyone like that.

63. What was the last movie you saw? I rewatched Star Wars Episode 6 the other day.

64. What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? I’m single haha

65. How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? Four. Nicholas, Tyler, Tanner, and Tyler #2.

66. Is the last person you kissed younger than you? Hell naw, he’s 29.

67. Do you curse around your parents? Yes.

68. Are you happy with where you live? Sure, I love Toledo. Gotta love/hate/love with the city I’m in.

69. Picture of yourself? http://www.feverdre4m.tumblr.com/tagged/me dude

70. Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? If I’m down for you, I’m down for you and you only.

71. Have you ever been dumped? YUP like the trash I am.

72. What do you most like about making out? How a simple kiss goes to making out, to clashing teeth, lip biting and then everything else.

73. Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? Nah.

74. When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? Usually them cause I’m too shy to do that shit.

75. What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? Hands and eyes. But definitely hands.

76. Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Mikey.

77. Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? Nah.

78. Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? Nah.

79. What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? Any kind of fucking attention cause I’m a helpless fucking fuckup.

80. Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? I have, and would, sure.

81. Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? Yeah.

82. Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? Naw, I usually fuck up before it gets to that point.

83. Do you miss your last sweetie? Nah.

84. Last time you slow danced with someone? Never.

85. Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? Yes.

86. How can I win your heart? Coffee and a book, yellow roses and sourpatch kids- maybe even a playlist of your favorite acoustic songs.

87. What is your astrological sign?  Libra.

88:What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Watching Naruto baked as fuck.

89. Do you cook? I’m a bomb ass cook.

90. Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? YUP

91. If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? Wish at least the person I was interested in wouldnt have fucked with my feelings.

92. Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? I dont fall into anything quickly. Fuck relationships honestly. I do me.

93. What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? Nice hair, nice smile, beautiful eyes.

94. Name four things that you wish you had! A good paying job, a billion dollars, more tattoos, and another billion dollars.

95. Are you a player? Nah, I’m the game, everyone plays me.

96. Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? Fuck no.

97. Are you a tease? Fuck yeah.

98. Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Nope.

99. Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? Yep.

100. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? I mean if the opportunity arose, sure.

101:Hugs or Kisses? probably kisses.

102. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Yep.

103. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes.

104. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? yes.

105. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? Nah, gotta respect their relationship dude.

106. Do you flirt a lot? Probably.

107. Your last kiss? was just a kiss.

108. Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? Yep.

109. Have you kissed anyone in the past month? YEP

110. If you could kiss anyone who would it be? Jesse Barnett probably

111. Do you know who you’ll kiss next? Nope.

112. Does someone like you currently? Said he does but doesnt want to pursuit something that he feels won’t work out.

113. Do you currently have feelings for anyone? YEAH

114. Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? I like shit to be serious but y’all keep playing games so the flings gonna have to do.

115. Ever made out with just a friend? Naw.

116. Are you happier single or in a relationship? I’m not usually a happy person so.

117: (Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.) Are you going to the gas station to grab pop at 5 am? The answer is yes.

[uhhhuuhhhoneyy]

10:00pm

1: Do you have a crush at the moment? you could say that

 2: Have you ever been deeply in love? currently

 3: Longest relationship youve ever been in? 3 years 2 months & counting 

 4: Have you ever changed for someone? I have for the better

 5: How is your relationship with your ex? we don’t speak, and probably would never again. i have no interest too

. 6: Have you ever been cheated on? reason my ex & i separated

 7: Have you ever cheated? never im very true to my loyalty to others

 8: Would you date someone whos well known for cheating? i have, it didn’t work out in my favor

 9: Whats the most important part of a relationship? communication

 10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? serious 

 11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on a break? personally dont like them, my boyfriend & i have been on a break, and i truly think we needed it. we were on a break for maybe 3 weeks of not talking when we saw each other it was a very emotional moment.

 12: How many people have you ever hooked up with? 3 men including Kevin

 13: Whats one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship? id say i was very young & dumb. i wouldnt of let myself have sex with him. he basically used me for 2 years

. 14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex? i really don’t know, id wish for my children to wait till they’re atleast 18 just because i know how high school boys can be . 15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”? really depends on the situation, kevin & i are right now are 19 & 23, i grew up hanging out with everyone older than me, didn’t really have any parents. i had to grow up really fast. when we met i was living on my own, & we could literally be with each other whenever and wherever. now if my daughter were dating a 21 year old when she was 17 id be iffy about it. but that’s because she’d be raised way differently than I was.

16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”? yes, it happened with Kevin & i

17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet? no, you dont really know the person at all

18: What do you consider a deal breaker? cheating

19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship? in the past i was very dumb, now i would know when enough is enough.

20: Are you currently in a relationship? yes

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends? i mean yeah, just depends on the situation

22: Do you think people should date their friends? i personally think you have no business together if you weren’t friends before. kevin & i were hanging out all the time as friends and we kind of just looked at each other and had sex one day! Lmao so it’s worked for us

23: How many relationships have you had? 2

24: Do you think love can last forever? as long as you let it, love isn’t just a feeling it’s a commitment. you’ll get what you put in.

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things? the love Kevin & i have, has conquered some of the hardest and toughest things anyone could go through so i really believe so

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of? my parents aren’t dating him, i am. although my entire family loves Kevin.

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be? geez, so much. ive learned so much about love, relationships & just altogether being with another person. i would tell myself to just not let it bother me. i use to let little things upset me, but in the end none of that matters. all that matters is him & i.

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work? kevin & i over came a distance relationship & i believe we can get through anything and everything now. because distance is a bitch

29: What do you notice first about another person? smile

30: What ethnicity are you? Russian & Norwegian

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness? no, because i do..

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship? yes

33: Do you want to get married one day? yes but not a traditional wedding

34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed? i plan to

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex? probably not

36: Are you still a virgin? no

37: What’s more important: Looks or personality? a good balance of both.

38: Do you enjoy love films? yes a lot..

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses? received

40: Have you ever had a valentine? yes i was getting valentines since the 4th grade lmao

41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”? truthfully? a bottle of wine in a nice hotel just my baby and i. we’ve done this so many times and it’s always my favorite.

42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”? a play, yes lol

43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends? my boyfriend, i don’t really chill with any of my friends anymore all they do is Coke and drink now

44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”? very

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends? nah

46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”? nope. i do the friendzoning 

47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite? Kimye

 48: What’s your favorite love song? ah so many 

 49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? unfortunately, my ex Elijah likes to remind me a lot lmao

 50: If you’re single, why do you think you are? im not single

 51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douche bag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy? poor nice guy definitely 

 52: Are you good at giving other people advice regarding dating/ relationships? ive been told i am, idk, i just speak from the heart.

 53: Ever fist fought someone before? Yupp, and I will again soon when I finally see this bitch Ima pop her in her fat ass nose

 54: How important is it to make a relationship official (twitter, instagram, facebook)? lol social media ain’t that serious boo. 

 55: Would you consider yourself clingy ;overly attached or jealous? Clingy asf.

 56: Have you ever destroyed a relationship? nah. I’m not a bitter bitch that goes out of my way.

 57: Do you think its silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart? Suicide is selfish 

 58: Are you the dominant; or the submissive part in a relationship? both ways, but i like to be on top a lot cause my man likes it

 59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partners birthday or your anniversary? never forgot, just loss track of my days but always celebrated

 60: Whats your opinion on open relationships? I’m selfish. fuck all that

 61: Whos more important: Your partner or your family? depends on the situation but recently i picked my partner over family

 62: How do you define cheating? shit if you won’t do something if your partner was there then don’t be doing it at all

 63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate? when he doesnt have me to satisfy his needs.. go ahead lol 

 64: Do you think Valentines Day is overrated? eh. idk i like it, but yes. 

 65: Would you consider yourself a cuddler? yes my baby and i always touching. 🤗