#that shit sucks and makes me SO dysphoric

[gothyyy]

i wish all fanfic writers who write x reader fics and don’t specify the reader insert’s gender then proceed to use she/her pronouns to refer to reader a very what the fuck you have caused so much dysphoria for me stop doing that it’s the least you can do to specify so i know not to read it

[xo8ball]

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[the-silent-hashira]

having PMDD is probably the worst thing i can think of that i have because everything else will be FINE and then i spend a week wondering why reality is so wonky and why i cant sleep and im reminded afab bodies are literally just. fucking SHIT

[bunn-iiii]

kinda wishing I was dead rn

[transgenderpolls]

all these "trans people are awesome" can suck my D, i'm a transboy, never accepted, and never will. i'll rot in my disphoria. i'll never get a boyfriend till i die.

Listen man, I get it. It fucking sucks to see all these people, whom you should supposedly identify with, seemingly having it so much easier than you, so you want to insist that suffering is how it's supposed to be. And I'm not even gonna tell you that you personally have to work on having trans pride or anything. But specifically and wholly identifying with your pain will only help you so much. I know you don't WANT to rot. You WANT to be around people who'll accept you, I'm sure.

I don't know how old you are, where you're from, or your general medical situation, so I don't want to simply promise that things will get better when you're on T or when you get surgeries either. But I'm gonna make a guess based on your wording here that there are more options out there than you even know about. I'm also gonna guess (because you said transboy) that you're under 18. I felt this way as a deeply dysphoric and depressed teenager too. I had no idea what testosterone even COULD do for me, or how many surgeries were even an option. I still don't even necessarily love being trans, but over 10+ years I've stopped hating it. And I'm glad that I've stopped hating it. I didn't used to think that I would even want to, either. It's hard to conceptualize a kind of comfort and happiness that you've never had before, but I'm fucking telling you, man, it's possible. All the things that you're convinced are gonna keep you from ever being seen as a man, or finding a boyfriend, are almost definitely not true.

I'll also say, to tack onto all the shit about self-hatred, that there's a difference between languishing in your own suffering and actually lashing out at your community. That's never the move. Like, being trans is something that can be hard. Why does that mean trans people can't be awesome? In any case it is objectively a good thing to find something to rejoice in about what may be, subjectively, a less than fortunate situation.

[beatrixstonehill2]

"Come on, it's just a few questions...." Lisa asked her girlfriend of six months, Hannah. Both were trans and hit it off immediately at a party, although Lisa seemed a bit too into social media for Hannah's liking sometimes.....

"But in front of all your followers? This is super embarrassing."

"It's not ALL of them, dummy.... just ten thousand or so."

"That's not much better!"

"Please? Come on. I promise it'll be fun!"

"OK....." Hannah pouted, looking at Lisa. "Is this some online quiz thing?"

"It's gone a bit viral..... So, first question. You answer, then I will! If you were offered a million dollars to detransition, would you?"

"What!? Um.....!!! No--well, could I retransition?"

"You have to totally detrans, though. Get your boobs removed, go through male puberty all the way, facial hair, deep voice, everything! Soooo, would you?"

"Ummmmm..... n-no! I wouldn't!"

"Really? I would.... no hesitation."

"Oh? Well you can have fun being a boy then." Hannah laughed.

"Mmmm, question two. If your family sat you down and said they want you to detransition asap, that they decided you should live as a boy, would you?"

"Ummmm, I mean.... my parents convinced me to start transitioning in the first place! My mom was pushing me to like the idea of being a girl since forever. If my mom really wanted me to be a boy.... I just don't see that happening!"

"Oooo, avoiding the question? I would. Of course. If my daddy told me, 'Pumpkin, you have to shoot that girly body of yours with T and become a man. Stop being a pervy girl already and just embrace manhood.... I'd SO do it.' I bet you would, if your mom and dad asked real nicely."

"Well.... maybe. It could be kind of fun I guess. I've always wanted my cock to be really big."

"Me, too! It sucks having such a tiny cock...."

"And, I mean..... my boobs gave me such bad dysphoria, by nineteen I had to get a reduction! Mine are so small now but I actually kind of want to go smaller....."

"Me, too! I never knew you got a reduction.... I thought I saw scars! Mmmmm, how big were they from all that estrogen mommy made you take?"

"I was a KK-Cup."

"Holy shit. I bet they were bigger than your head! Mine were a HH-Cup and it was unmanageable. I hated having such big boobs, always bouncing around and falling out of everything and--"

"They'd constantly be sweaty, like all the time. Bleh!"

Lisa laughed. "For real. I think you should go smaller, too. Maybe totally flat? I wanna get mine trimmed down from this still waaaay too big B-Cup to the smallest A possible. Was mommy upset when you got rid of those massive juggs of yours?"

"Not really..... I told her how dysphoric they made me feel. She understood and talked me into a C-Cup. I..... wanted to go flat right away."

"Mmmm, how many girls wanna go that small? And you want a big cock?"

Hannah blushed. "It's just a fantasy of mine...."

"Next question.... you get a new doctor and he doesn't renew your hrt. He puts you on testosterone and steroids to help bulk you up. Do you thank him, or tell him to get lost, and look for a new doctor?"

Hannah bowed her head. "I dunno..... if he really thought I shouldn't be transitioning..... I might just thank him and try out male puberty...."

"Oooo, good answer. Me, too! I'd fan myself and praise him for being so honest with poor, confused little me."

"My cock is so hard right now....." Hannah whispered.

"So's mine. All two inches of it....."

"Hey, lucky! I'm only one inch...."

"I bet you wish it was fourteen or fifteen inches, thick as your wrist!"

"Duh! I'd love to have one that big.... that's normal for a trans girl to say, right?"

Lisa giggled. "Suuuure.... OK. Last question. If your boyfriend told you to throw out your estrogen and start T injections, that you have to obey him and be a good boy, would you?"

Hannah moved in closer to Lisa, feeling up her thighs to her waist. "Well, of course I'd have to obey him. What kind of partner would I be if I didn't?" Both soon-to-be-boys started making out, ready to fuck before Lisa ended the stream, waiting to surprise Hannah later with their new prescriptions.....

[our-transmasculine-experience]

Tw: body dysmorphia, body weight mentions, weight loss mentions, self-esteem issues, self-hate mentions

So dealing with either gender dysphoria or body dysmorphia separately is never fun, but dealing with both of them together sucks. Been there, done that. Luckily I’m at a point where I’ve accepted the body I have right now, so even tho I don’t necessarily like it, I don’t have the self-hating thoughts and feels right now. But there is something that makes me worry that those thoughts and feels will come back.

I’m bigger right now than I want to be for health reasons. I don’t think I look bad, but I know I would be healthier if I could lose weight. Plus maybe my butt and thighs could shrink and look less like “feminine curves”. But when I lose weight, my stomach will eventually get flatter. Right now, I don’t bind my chest or even wear a bra, bc wearing anything like that makes me uncomfy mentally bc bras are seen societally as “women’s clothing” and if I would wear a chest binder that would remind me of the fact that I’m afab. I just wear a tank top under a shirt and deal with the physical discomfort of feeling my chest moving. Right now, my stomach is just big enough that in a slightly baggy t-shirt, my chest and stomach all kinda form one line and I don’t really feel my chest moving as I’m walking. But if I suck in my stomach, I’m immediately much more aware of my chest. If I lose weight and my stomach does get flatter, then my chest will start making me feel dysphoric again bc it’ll be more visible and move more when I even just walk.

I’m also unsure about if I actually want to go on T bc one of the things I would want from T is the body shape that looks and feels more masculine to me. But since I’m so unsure about T, my plan is to try to lose weight, get to a healthy weight, work on building muscle and shit, and see if I can change my body shape in a way I like thru that way. Plus my gf wants to help me with all that, so I know I have a safe space to work on that, losing weight and getting healthy and gaining muscle mass. I’m really just complaining about the fact that losing weight will probably make me deal with chest dysphoria, and I don’t want to have to deal with that again. If my chest doesn’t move much and it’s not that visible in my clothes, I’m fine, and chest dysphoria can just exist in the back of my mind. But since I do want to lose weight and get healthier, I’m gonna have to just put up with it.

~wolfyboi

i’m so sorry that you have to deal with that. however, i’m really glad that you have someone who is supportive through all this stuff that honestly sounds like it really sucks.

best of luck, dude!

[that-one-dark-smiley]

Listen I know it's a good thing for many reasons that I can soon have more therapy and focus on my mental health away from home. I have a lot of shit going on.

I am scared though because... A lot of my issues can't be solved until I start medically transitioning.

My social anxiety developed because of a lot of things. But I am mostly okay when it comes to those reasons - the one thing that I struggle with most is my dysphoria.

I can't go outside because I'll be seen as a woman. I can't apply for a job without either outing myself or being in the closet. Same with moving out, since my legal name is still my deadname. I can't make phone calls because I'll be seen as a woman. I can't look at myself, I don't want to talk anymore, I just... I am so dysphoric that right now, I can't do anything. I can barely get dressed when I wake up. I can't build my life like this. I can't even imagine a future like this. It's why I'm so depressed, too - my life feels as if it's never going to change for the better, and I'm always suffering.

I can't just... Go to therapy, talk about it, make a plan to follow to better my life, to get rid of my dysphoria. There is literally no other option for me than medically transitioning. I can't just ignore it either. So I'm stuck in this place where I sit around all day, dreaming of the future I want, without actually being able to do anything to fulfill those dreams.

It sucks.

[simonsfear]

hey if i can vent for a sec... it fucking sucks being transharmful

i can't HELP that i NEED to do nonconsual hurt to relieve FUCKING DYSPHORIA. there's been so many people who are transphobic and downright abelist to me over this

i sent someone i think called milk (? milkqueerer?) an ask and i couldn't even be humored, just called a 'troll' and my identity taunted

I CAN'T HELP HOW I AM I CAN'T HELP WHO I AM NOW I PROBABLY CAN'T EVEN GET MYSELF TO EAT ILL STARVE TONIGHT BECAUSE MY IDENTITY WAS REPEATEDLY DISMISSED

YET AGAIN CALLED A FAKER

people are like 'okay with transharmful! ^_^' until they act in ONE WAY inconvenient to them.

literally accepting non consensual anon hate is the least thing YOU COULD DO to HELP MY SEVERE DYSPHORIA and a non transharmed couldn't even do THAT. what am i supposed to do, hurt someone irl??? and get in trouble for it? attitudes like this lead people to FUCKING PRISON BECAUSE NOW THEY HAVE NO OUTLET.

people in this community can be such hypocrites and decide they're abelist and transphobic and act like antis deciding who is and isn't valid. it's so gross to me and i feel so bad

people could at least be honest and say they think one of their own is a monster and a 'troll' when they won't do the BARE MINIMUM to make someone feel okay and accepted

anon, listen, i know where youre coming from, but sending someone non-consensual hate really isn't the way to go. if you really want to do something of that sorts, go to a blog that says they're okay with you taking out transharmful stuff on them. hate asks can really be damaging to someone, and i know that's probably something that relieves that dysphoria for you, but i promise there's better outlets. we hear you, and we DO accept you, but letting you NON-CONSENSUALLY harass someone is not the "bare minimum". i know maybe the consensual stuff doesn't feel the same to you, because it doesn't for me, but its a WAY better outlet. you wont be called a troll, and you wont be ridiculed. of course, i dont think you should be ridiculed per se, but i do think you need to realise what youre doing. and i dont think people should be being ableist or transphobic to you, thats not right, even if youre a bad person.

overall, find a better outlet. hell, get therapy even (not forced of course, but sometimes it helps people). dont be a shit person by going around and harassing people just because youre dysphoric.

you're welcome to send me hate asks if it'll make you feel better, don't do it to other people who aren't okay with it.

[altermay]

Tw/ transphobia, discussions of dysphoria, brief mention of suicide, descriptions of child abuse

Getting unbearable. Feeling sick. Started working to afford hormones only to find out the service that is most accessible to me (plume) doesnt offer T in alabama anymore due to changing laws. Fuck all these stupid politicians putting their noses in others lives.

Thought people at work wouldnt make a super huge deal, as I was selective with who I told, so i thought maybe I could hold out a bit longer and at least i wouldnt have to feel so dysphoric all the time, since all my coworkers knew me as Monte. But then instead of my name, people who would usually call anyone else by their name started calling me “Miss” and “maam”

Even the ones I had come out to, and even the ones who told me they were accepting.

Whatever, im from a small rural area, so transphobia is not new to me, what is new to me, however, is being openly trans in an unfamilliar environment. I thought I could start T quickly and maybe people would ever forget that im trans in the first place, but now its been so long.

Some people call me He, and use the right pronouns, but increasingly lately Ive received a myriad of transphobia.

Being called tranny loudly while my coworker kicks my broom as I try to sweep (kicking hard enough for the broom to almost leave my hands and hit another person behind me) , Getting called “it” behind my back. Stuff like this is becoming more common.

The two coworkers who called me it, have been spreading lies about my work performance these past five days, Ive been told my three different people that every time I leave to go do something they start talking badly of me. So I got to my breaking point, at this point it had nothing to do with the pronouns, I was just upset that two forty+ year old adults were purposefully making my job harder to do while I was also struggling with a ton of other stuff (ptsd, seasonal depression, a family members recent suicide) and so I couldnt stop crying.

Despite this situation having nothing to do with me being trans, they are now trying to spread the narrative that Im just being sensitive because they were misgendering me while they were borderline bullying me.

If I was not trans, people would take me seriously on these issues. But now, because I am upset, suddenly Im just a stereotype. A sensitive trans person who is offended because someone used the wrong pronouns a few times.

I will be one to say, I do not give a SHIT about my pronouns. Ive been called the wrong ones my whole life by a majority of people. That was never the issue. But because Im trans, that is the only issue people can perceive for me to have. The ONE issue I had with them regarding my pronouns was them calling me “it” and thats not because its the wrong pronoun, thats because its DEHUMANIZING.

But now I have other coworkers who know NOTHING about the situation saying shit like “well if she claims shes a man maybe she should suck it up” “well if she wants to be seen as a man maybe she shpuld cut her hair”

Fuck you. How about YOU get beaten for 17 years, YOU watch your siblings get beaten near to death for 17 years. YOU have flashbacks of things you dont understand all day every day and we will see how fucking well youre able to “suck it up” you are WEAK. YOU ARE ALL WEAK. And you dont know what its like to be me. My mother tried to kill me. My mother almost killed my sister, I was neglected, never went to a doctor, and I STILL dont know how to take care of myself. And I still havent recovered all of the memories.

Ive had SHORT HAIR ive had LONG HAIR Ive had a MOHAWK, ive had a BUZZCUT ive been BALD. And people STILL fucking saw me as a woman. Im tired of conforming to this bullshit just so people can treat me the same as they always do

Fun fact though, since Ive had long hair Ive been gendered correctly by strangers MORE than I have with ANY OTHER HAIR STYLE.

These stupid fucking transphobes and their stupid fucking stereotypes im so fucking sick of it all. And corporate wont do anything about it, Im sure of this.

Why is it so hard for me to just live my fucking life.

Im so sick of it all

[wylde-space]

ftm and mtf suck because they explode nonbinary people and are triggering you stupid asshole I doubt your actually trans that's such a cishet thing to say

Okay this entire thing is a mess, but I'm gonna assume you meant "exclude" and not "explode" just for the sake of trying to translate and answer this horse shit.

Cool, whatever. I agree that we need to be more inclusive of enbies. Never suggested otherwise. But the problem is that I AM NOT NONBINARY. I am a very binary transgender man. I am transitioning from female to male. I am a man. So when talking to me, a binary trans man, ABOUT me, STILL a binary trans man, it makes no fucking sense to get upset at nonbinary representation not being included. Implying that I, a person who used to be a girl but is now 100% a boy Do Not Pass Go Do Not Collect $100, have no reason to transition because I was ~always male~ is a crock of shit. I did not just fucking hallucinate my entire life up until puberty, when it became obvious that I was trans. I used to be a little girl, and now I am an adult man. I will not deny or erase my own experience because of some imagined 3rd party's potential offense in a conversation they are not a part of. If it's "triggering" for someone to see someone else discussing their own gender exploration and queerness, that is fortunately not my problem as I am not anybody's therapist, and maybe y'all should learn how to use Tumblr's built in blocking features so you can avoid having a mental breakdown constantly! If trans people trigger you, that is not the problem of trans people! UNFOLLOW ME.

So, to reiterate:

It's pretty fucking bonkers to me that y'all motherfuckers feel comfortable just walking up to dysphoric trans people and telling them they're faking it just because they are willing to admit that they're fucking transitioning! It's super fucking weird that you have no qualms walking up to trans people and being like "ummm ackshully you must be cis because I said so"! YOU ARE NOT THE NORMAL PERSON IN THIS SITUATION.

[nerves-nebula]

CW/TW: body shaming, transphobic parent, eating disorder, parent won't respect boundaries

Regarding the last ask about parents making their kids uncomfortable

I feel that, I was venting about how my mom keeps talking about my body and telling me to eat healthy and exercise and implying I'm fat and like,,,

I know already

I don't need to be told constantly that I'm not the thin pretty girl she wants me to be. I'm not even a girl, I don't need body shaming on top of the transphobic bigotry when I'm already dysphoric as fuck

I have trouble eating or even recognizing when I'm hungry half of the time. I don't need someone constantly commenting on that shit

And it's not like she doesn't know, I told her repeatedly and EVEN THEN she know I'm off my anxiety meds atm cause I'm changing them and I'm pretty fucking vulnerable and get triggered so fucking easily

My mom doesn't understand boundaries, takes it like a personal attack when I set them and won't listen

Sorry for the rant

yeagh that sucks shit. personally i dont speak to my mom unless it's strictly necessary because you ever know when she's gonna hit you with a three hit combo of Shit I Couldn't Have Even Imagined She Would Say

[trevorendeavors]

So. That Florida Bathroom Bill, huh?

TW: bathroom bills, transphobia, internalized transphobia.

I ain’t beating around the bush. I will be using strong language here. If that ain’t your cup of tea or if you’re just here for my usual brand of gay fanart and fic, it’s okay to scroll past this post. Really. I won’t judge. This is one doozy of a vent.

For the people in my DMs asking me if I’m okay (as a trans person in Florida considering recent bathroom bill bullshit) I’m just… sitting here with an exasperated sigh.

It’s funny that the first time I hear of this is from a DM from someone on the other side of the world. I’ve been deliberately avoiding lgbt Florida news for some time because the more I think about it, the harder it is to be civil in transphobic conversations.

Last night I was deadnamed in front of a few people, and today at my graduation I’ll likely be deadnamed in front of a whole convention center. That’s what I get for not changing my name legally, huh. Oh well. Didn’t wanna go through all the paperwork just yet (in case I go for a different name) so I’m stuck with the one I’m sure I don’t want.

So again, I try not to think about it.

But yeah. It sucks.

Honestly? The bathroom bill doesn’t change much for me. It’s still the same shit as always.

The one time I went into the men’s restroom, I freaked out a cis guy so badly (poor dude was genuinely scared of ME accusing HIM of something bad) that I never did that again.

As for women’s restrooms (the one I most frequently use) that’s a whole other deal. Most days, I don’t pass. I’ll just go out and say that. I have a high voice, boobs, and a bit of hips. Some days I dress really feminine too, so it only makes sense. No one here is going to buy “see I LOOK like a woman but no see I’m secretly a ‘man but not quite’ inside but I wear makeup as a kind of exaggerated cosplay of a gender I am NOT, y’see?”

I don’t want to have a nuanced discussion of gender in the bathroom. Most people 30+ in age don’t even know what non-binary is and barely get the concept of trans. As much as I love being and educator and advocate, after a long road trip I want to piss and get on with my life. Also cis men have told me the horror stories of male bathrooms (how do you get shit ON the ceiling????) and then I’m thankful to have been “born a woman” or whatever.

Most days I don’t think about it too hard. But on my more dysphoric days or when on the blessed days I do genuinely pass more masc - when I go into the bathroom looking like this:

I genuinely don’t know which bathroom to use.

It’s embarrassing. Especially when there’s no family restroom available. And when I go to the women’s restroom, I sometimes get these looks. Brief, surreptitious glances they think I don’t notice. To ease tensions, I lift my pitch and give a compliment. I even puff out my (binded) breasts slightly as if to say, “Yes, I have tits and a pussy, does that soothe your cisnormative and petty fears that I would assault you?”

Jesus, some days I wish I could say that quote outright. But I can’t, and I know it’s not fair to them. They’re scared, I get it. I remind them of a traumatic experience. Sometimes, certain people who have nothing to do a trauma invoke fears of it unintentionally by raising their voices or saying something off or even existing. But that’s MY responsibility to fucking deal with that. Other people can’t help existing.

By and large, people with transphobic tendencies here are usually nice. Beyond, nice even. They’ll help you host a spontaneous ice cream party. They’ll buy you allergy meds when you’re choking. They’ll take you in after your mother kicked you out. Like I said, genuinely sweet and kind people.

Which makes it harder when they accuse trans people of transitioning to skirt military drafts, to cheat at sports, to deal with mommy issues. When they equate gays to sex crimes (yes, the ones you’re thinking of). When they refuse to call you your full name. When they call you a baby who refuses to clean her pooped diapers.

I try to be nice. But by god, is my patience waning…

By. Fucking. god.

I’m tired of the way it’s affected me. Making me feel worth less than cis folks, like my feelings matter less. Even worse, I hate how it makes me jealous and spiteful towards younger trans folks in better situations. Younger trans folk I don’t understand. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not an excuse to mistreat them the way I was mistreated. And I’m genuinely glad that they’re living a better life. I have to work on these thoughts, it’s my responsibility. It would be nice, though, to live in a world where I could devote more energy to celebrating our collective existence instead of surviving it.

That being said, I’m grateful for the people here and in person who have stuck by my guns. The people who check in on my when shit gets worse in terms of politics.

What helps most?

What really helps is when people get mad WITH me. For so long I was told my anger was something to be stowed away, to be quietly extinguished with calm words or relieved by some masturbatory exercise of civil discourse. You know. Where you get off to talking civilly but don’t actually get anywhere and you still have to live in a world that was just as transphobic as before. I just want people to be pissed WITH me. To share in my anger and frustration. To join me as I slam the desk, flip the table, and cry to the heavens,

This fucking sucks

Right now this matters to me even more than action. These check ins, sharing in my anger - it helps, it really does. Makes me feel less alone in the world.

[the-rockinahard-place]

let’s talk about feet :)

specifically foot size/getting new shoes dysphoria.

Now I know afabs generally have smaller feet than amabs. But, I personally don’t think that is a good enough excuse for creating two separate categories of shoe (men’s and women’s). Enough with the corporate shit, just let me buy clothes for my feet without having to tell you my gender.

I hate how small my feet are, okay? I’m 5ft 7-8” but my feet are like a size 6 in youth. My feet are not proportional to the rest of me and what makes it worst is cis guys the same height as me have size 10 feet. THATS A FOUR SIZE GAP. This obviously makes me hella dysphoric. So to combat this I no longer own a black pair of shoes, vans are off limits, converse are a hit and miss, but white nike shoes are golden. This is because everything else make my feet look small while the lengthy, and blocker white nike creates the illusion that I have normal looking feet. Also its a plus that their trending rn.

Getting running shoes is a whole different story. I’m an athlete so their an integral part of my life. Yet, my nike trick stops working because nike actually sucks at making good supportive runners. And because I’m looking for high quality shoes my parents want to look with me. This brings me back to my men’s and women’s category dilemma.

Because there are these two separate categories companies had to make sure there was a distinct difference between the two beside foot size. So what do they do? they make men’s black and grey with blue or red accents. And women’s typically black or white with accents of purple, and pink. Can men wear any color and still be a man? yes. Does my dysphoria care about this? no. So when I go shoe shopping while my parents misgender me to the employee, I get presented with these “girlie” options. I hate all of the shoes I try on because they make me dysphoric. It would be easier to win the lottery, than find a women’s running shoe that doesn’t make me want to kms. They make my feet look fatter, stubbier all while covering it in black and fucking purple.

conclusion? buy grey or white shoes, and do so alone.



[fake-bear]

Mainly a misgendering kink blog

Minors DNI

This is only in kink! Nothing I express about supporting transphobia or misogyny is a genuine belief of mine! Always feel free to ask for clarification!

Note: I don't feel anything towards nudes. Nothing. I'm on the ace spectrum and generally feel weird responding to nudes because I don't like faking that I'm enjoying it (personality makes me very blunt) but also don't want to be rude. If you still do it I won't block you or anything but know I don't feel anything from it alone.

If you add context like "here's the pussy you're meant to serve" or "this is the cock that's gonna breed you" then I'll get a reaction. But a pic alone does nothing for me. You can also send porn because I like to imagine that I'm the one getting fucked.

Likes in misgen/detrans and likes in general

T4T

She/her, using cunt and tits to describe my parts

Deadnaming (Hannah)

Forced fem in regard to dress

Humiliation in an exhibitionist way (being forced to strip, fucking me in front of others, etc).

CNC/Freeuse

Femdom

Transfem supremacy

Being overpowered

Bioessentialism and misogyny (Not actual beliefs of mine, kink only).

Filming

Mommy kink (daddy kink not so much, idk why)

Titty sucking (both ways)

Praise

Fantasy and dirty talk only, no chance of actually doing it:

Actually skipping T shots or throwing out T. (Which you can act like it's not going to always be fantasy and one day, but don't actually pressure me to do that stuff).

Shaving. I'll shave my pussy but that's all I'll shave. Fantasy forced shaving though is good.

Kidnapping

Breeding

Lactation and milking

Pee (peeing on/in my body, will pee for humiliation purposes)

Monster fucking (kind of has to be fantasy only lmao)

Being owned or a slave

Dislikes:

Actually getting dysphoric (dysphoria made it impossible for me to stay horny pre T and I'll still lose the mood no matter what else is going on).

Not being allowed to cum. If I can't do that I actually can get depressed afterwards.

Getting angry when I make a mistake. I know punishment and stuff is a typical dom thing but tone of voice is hard over text and I've been through too much shit for that.

Slapping the face, everything else is good.

Absolute Nos

Gore or serious bodily injury

Poop/scat

Blackmail

List is subject to change!

(If you're in the midwest, trans, and want a fakeboy hole to use... feel free to hit me up and chat).

[heyyallitssatan]

I’m feeling dysphoric today

It didn’t start as a dysphoria day, it wasn’t bad, but then I went to the fair with my mum, and I was looking at some rings cause I like rings, and I was looking at some cool bands they had, but she only wanted to show me all the pretty ones with gems and cute shit, and there’s nothing wrong with those, but for some reason it just reminded me that I’m still a girl to her

And I hate that, I hate it

It doesn’t help that I came home afterward and started my period, which means that 1: I’m gonna be in immense pain for the next three days, which sucks, and 2: I can’t wear boxers for a few days, which that’s just one little thing I do to make me feel a little more masc, and when I can’t do that it just sucks, and I can’t bind cause my chest and ribs and back always get sore, and it means my joint pains gonna be worse, and I know that I’ll spend two days with a migraine after I stop bleeding

I’m just so tired, every month, I have to add more fucking dysphoria then I had before, for no reason other than, I have to fucking bleed,