#the happy ever after playlist

[suhanisblog]

Men written by abby jimenez>>>

[zoroshonkingbazonkadonkas]

stop fetishising wlw relationships for fucks sake

[readinglarva]

[goodbooksonly]

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5

[mx-anthony-janthony-crowley]

what are everyone's bets for the crowley playlist?

[sysig]

It started with a whisper ♥ (Patreon)

[strawberrysturniolo]

me pulling an all nighter bc this book is TOOOOOO GOOODDDDDD

[cavefairy]

anyways i re-experienced the joys of the radio when i left the house earlier (phone was being icky so i had to use the radio instead of spotify for music)

i think its nice that i landed on a classic rock station, probably wouldnt have left it on if i hadnt. i missed 3 doors down, i missed daughtry, i missed five finger death punch. i set all my lil station preset buttons and flipped around for the entire hour drive to and from where i had to go tonight. even after my phone stopped acting up, i kept the radio on.

in conclusion, pleasepleasePLEASE use the radio every now and then. its just really nice. plus it hits different, hearing a song on the radio by pure chance rather than on a playlist you know you put it on, yknow

[paranoidpoltergeist]

Skystar currently has me by the throat, I'm breaking the angsty playlist back out.

[aviangrian]

thank god chappell roan didn’t release good luck babe in summer 22!

[phillipsgraves]

so choose your last words, this is the last time // 'cause you and i, we were born to die

APOLLO & GRAVES: A SOUNDTRACK. [ x ]

[ughmulder]

I've gotta stop keeping tabs on my ex via Spotify playlists but his shift towards Midwest emo music is...interesting

[deathsweetblossoms]

Weekly stress over not being able to read six books at the same time while having to balance work and a social life ensues.

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

Saw someone talk about how Tim Stoker is Lance McClain coded and this further proves my agenda that Lance deserved a revenge obsessed arc

[ojirocardigansniper]

30, 34, 38, and B for blink !

Tahnks for blowing up my whole shit ian i love you.

30. Who do they most regret meeting? 

the second i saw 30 was this i said outloud OH FUCK. onehit kill. can't be any answer other than her best friend. they are pair bonded like parrots (Tragic). girl meets boy because her job is going to be listening for response from the gods he's killing himself to communicate with, and her job is going to be watching him die, teaching the next one to die, and the next, until her drowning day finally comes. she met his predecessor in uer end stages of sickness, so she knows how it will look for him. No matter how much she loves him or how many times she can get away with dumping out his ritual cup, he's committed to what he's doing, what he's been raised to do... so yeah, she regrets meeting him. not that she thinks of it as something she chose to do, seeing as it's all divine-vision-scraps that brought her there. but when she still sometimes wishes for another life for them, often she thinks separate lives would have the best chance of peace.

34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt?

mm. impossible really. survivor's guilt alchemized into rage at who seemed responsible, but it's still there. she feels simultaneously that she doesn't deserve the losses she's suffered, and that she's still here and alive. there's also insanely complex guilt around everything with her partner's slow ritual death and the death of their mentor the same way. the struggle between prolonging the suffering overall versus staving the worst of it off now. (under my breath) the phrase Quality of Life is not part of their lexicon and it shows . whats that hospice by the antlers you say ? something something shiva4shiva? noooo haha whattt

38. What memory do they revisit the most often?

ah jeez. ah fuck. hard to say. technically i suppose memories of her death (past visions of it) but that's not voluntary. unconsciously i think she very often revisits childhood memories of her brother- always has fragments of them floating about without realizing. one of her core unfulfilled needs is that close companionship she lost back then- she's been trying to fill that hole ever since, no matter if she does so on purpose. i'm really trying to think of things she would consciously try to remember and. mostly coming up with 'tonguing the hole in the gum' type things. don't forget the pain of this or you'll stop letting it drive you. (kicks a rock) she's in my personal bouquet of wretched girlies with baru cormorant for a reason...

B) What inspired you to create them?

time honored tradition of fandom au that got out of fucking hand 🫡 haikyuu au with the highschool bestie, we cooked up a big kingdoms+fantasy setting thru like 2016-2018 and then i continued going feral over a handful of characters that lived rent free in my mind for the next. three years ish? before i finally was like ok i should make it official and stop calling these bitches the names of anime characters. For ayirine specifically some of her core traits have been there since the beginning (foresight, dead twin, death by drowning, kills her best friend) but since filing off serial numbers i transed her gender and made her more actively suicidal (its themes. sorry) and REALLY WEIRD re: her religious convictions. also structurally she's become a prequel tragedy / cautionary tale preceding the main chunk of the narrative, which, not that we had a lot of structure before due to being high schoolers just having fun worldbuilding, but her killing her best friend used to be a W for the then-protagonists bc he was the leader of their enemy, et cetera. by now ive wandered entirely away from the adversarial narrative and into the weeds of other stuff i can personally tell a better story about, due to having Many Thoughts Head Full. i like putting together stories that are dioramas of people and their strange selves much more now than i did when i was a #teen and mostly just liked cool settings and shit. now im like if the characters in the setting arent fascinating then well i almost dont care how cool it is. 

ok swag that wasnt as interminably long as i thought it was. no readmore then (gestures to followers) Look at my melodramatic oc boy