タコの花嫁。
yandere!azul ashengrotto x (female) reader
cw: yandere, nsfw, non-con, unhealthy behaviors/relationship, arranged marriage, oviposition, breeding, royalty au
note - in an effort to bring peace to two warring sides, you are engaged to the sea queen’s son.
If anyone is to blame for the abysmal diplomacy between the Land and the Sea, it would be your ancestors. Pompous and foolhardy, they thought they could rule the grand seas stretching out from the harbor, beyond weather-worn docks with their rotted, seaweed-strewn planks and briny fetor. The ocean was vast, unexplored territory—a dangerous, deceptive beauty harboring life far beneath unruly waves.
And your ancestors intended to claim it.
Sailors would recount tales of fishfolk—uncanny creatures who looked more marine than the two-legged mammals of the land. They’d raise mugs, each overflowing with ale, in drunken merriment, terrifying themselves with the mysteries of the deep, dark sea.
“It ought to give ya a proper scare straight to Davy Jones himself!” they’d say, voices lowered conspiratorially. “Soon as yer candle goes out and all ya’ve got’s the moon to guide ya… You’ll hear ’em slip through the water if yer listenin’ well enough.”
“You ever go and spy one up close?”
“I’d sooner see the Devil himself and let him keelhaul me before facin’ those cursed beasts!”
“The cut of their jib ain’t so pretty. Enough to give men like us a fright and we’ve seen all sorts of somethin’.”
“Monsters, I say! Monsters!”
Festivals were held to keep these beasts at bay—to prevent them from gathering the courage to creep up onto the land. Every year, during the summer solstice, pits were hollowed on the shore and bordered with stones. Flames licked towards the sky, red-orange fingers clawing for purchase amidst the stars above. Townsfolk would sing and dance late into the eve, bellowing songs passed through the generations. Children would skip up and down the beach, torches in hand, and cry out an old chant: “Fish for you and me are meant to stay in the sea! Should you see one on land, may the Heavens strike it down with a gentle, loving hand!”
Their excitement did well to ward off the fishfolk. Sometimes the lone child would spot one in the distance, peeking out from between the rocks before diving back under in a splash.
On land, humans were safe. On land, the fishfolk couldn’t catch them.
It was different in the sea.
Ships were destroyed in terrible tempests. The waves tossed them around as if they were nothing. Many sailors would find their demise at the bottom of the ocean, torn to shreds with shattered skeletons. Viscerally brutalized, they died with secrets on their tongues—secrets of the strange fishfolk who’d drag them down, down, down to a watery grave.
On one cold February afternoon, the octopus prince was brought into the world. In shadowed fathoms, a grand celebration was held. After so much time—misfortune after misfortune—one fry survived out of the entire clutch. He was round and soft and small, colored blue from exertion and fighting through the tug of the current to reach home. The Sea Queen met him halfway and embraced him, ecstatic tears in her eyes, for a mother’s love is stronger than any political power.
“My little Azul,” she said, stroking a hand along his cheek, “how precious you are.”
No ships were sunk; no lives were lost. It was a peaceful day for both the Land and the Sea. And it would continue to be so in the future. Every year on that same February, it was made a day of peace to honor the little prince.
A day of life, not death.
It was on that same February eleven years later when you were tossed into the frigid depths like a hatchling cast out of its nest. Similarly, your birth had been a wondrous occasion. Your parents brought five boys into the world, each just as adored as the last, but they had been hoping for a daughter. It was a miracle when their fervent wishes were finally granted. You were spoiled as all daughters often are, pampered and doted on by your family and the palace staff.
Your brothers, though protective and caring, were a troublesome and rowdy bunch. Kyffin was the eldest. Two years younger was Emyr, and another two years behind him was Owin. A year younger than him were twins Morcan and Martyn. They picked on you as all immature boys often do when caught up in sibling rivalries, aiming to be the only one their parents see. To prove themselves as the best, the strongest, the wisest.
So it was with a half-cruel heart that Emyr tossed you into the waves from where he stood in the rowboat.
“Only way to learn is with exposure!” he called down to you, watching as you struggled against the push and pull of the sea.
“C-Can’t!” you shouted back, choking on salt and flailing about. “E-Emyr, I can’t—can’t swim!”
“Don’t be silly,” Owin added with a sweet smile. “It’s how we learned. That old sod threw us right in. You’re lucky it’s us and not him. He was awfully mean with it, wasn’t he?”
“Terribly so.” Emyr watched your struggling a moment longer and clicked his tongue. He held the oar out just before you could slip under, and you clung to it with shaky hands. “Come on—let’s get you up here. You’re not gonna get it today.”
“Fin got it on his first try.”
“Fin gets everything on his first bloody try.”
Relieved, your heart pounding like a drum, you peered up at your brothers. “I’m sorry I couldn’t get it…”
“Nothing to apologize for. You’ll get it one day.”
“We’ll keep trying until then. And once you do, we’ll throw you a big party.”
“Really? Will you really do that?” Your expression brightened, but your brothers’ faces darkened. They saw the shadow before you did. Saw the webbed hands reaching out, the serrated teeth glinting in a sinister smile.
And then—
Owin leaned over, his arm outstretched. So fluid was his motion that it took you by surprise. “(Name), grab on! Hurry! Before—”
The rest of his warning was muffled by the water. You hardly had any time to brace yourself when you were yanked under, your nails raking across the wood of the oar as you went with the force of the pull. Salt stung your eyes when you cracked them open, peering frantically at blurry surroundings. Teal-green specks slid silently through the shadows, mismatched eyes flicking over your form. And then there was a high, raucous sort of chittering. Like a dolphin’s cry, loud and piercing. You squeezed your eyes shut and pressed your palms against your ears.
It only lasted a few mere seconds, but it felt like an eternity trapped in the coils of a creature you couldn’t comprehend. One moment you were holding your breath and the next arms were hooked around your torso, and you were pulled up and into the belly of the rowboat. Your hands flew to your throat, and you coughed up seawater while Owin patted you.
“It’s fine. It’s…okay,” Emyr muttered, his voice shot through with fear. It was the most shaken he’d ever sounded.
Blood fogged in the water, staining the tip of his harpoon. He gazed down at his hand. A deep, jagged gash ran angrily from palm to wrist. He hissed and closed his fingers in a tight fist.
“We gotta get back,” Owin was saying, still rubbing soothing circles into your back. “I’ll row. You rest.”
“Not good,” Emyr said instead, shaking his head in dismay as he watched your attackers retreat.
“We’re still in our waters, right? We didn’t go past the boundary, did we?”
“Let’s hope not.”
“We didn’t, right?”
“Let’s hope—” Emyr paused, collecting his words. “Let’s hope those monsters were in the wrong.”
“Father’s gonna kill us.”
“If not us, the monsters.”
Both brothers looked towards you. Your tunic was torn, stained through with saltwater and blood. You shivered all the way to shore.
Following that mishap, an official meeting was called between the Land and the Sea. The King—your father—met the Sea Queen at the border. He stood proud on his ship, peering down at her with fire in his old eyes.
“Your Majesty.”
The Sea Queen was just as formidable as those who came before her. Her tentacles unfurled as one, and if you looked at them long enough they almost seemed to take on the shape of an obsidian-colored crinoline.
“I believe my mother and your father made the terms quite clear all those years ago,” she said, a wave lifting her to meet the King at the deck of his ship. “So then, with that in mind, there should be no reason for us to meet under these circumstances.”
Emyr and Owin stood just behind their father. You peered through their legs at the Sea Queen, silently amazed. You’d never seen anyone quite like her before. At least, not a real person. You’d seen her in storybooks, depicted as a fearsome beast with devilish features, and though there was something intimidating about her gaze and build she appeared understanding enough. Her grey skin was sleek in the morning sun, her long, silvery strands tied up and pinned with an ornate hair ornament. She looked beautiful in a magical, enigmatic way.
“I couldn’t agree more,” came the clipped response of your father. “Alas, misfortune has brought us here.” He stepped aside to allow her to behold Emyr’s bandaged hand. “Harm has befallen my son and daughter. I suppose you might have an inkling as to why they find themselves in their current state?”
She frowned, but you couldn’t tell if it was out of sympathy or some other emotion. “Perhaps one of them can give reason to the wound now marring one of my subject’s sons.”
Your father glanced overboard at the snake-like merman cradled in the arms of another merman. They looked near-identical, their features unmistakable. He glanced back at Emyr, his gaze hard. “Go on then. Explain yourself.”
Emyr stepped forward. “With wholehearted respect, Your Majesty, it was out of self-defense. Your kind—they attacked us first.”
“You were in our waters!” one of the mers exclaimed, pointing a clawed finger towards Emyr. “It’s all your fault Jade got hurt!”
Owin hurried ahead, his hands gripping the taffrail. “He’s playing it up! It was a graze!”
“He could’ve died! You almost killed him!”
“That is enough,” the Sea Queen said, jutting an arm out to silence both sides. “I understand everyone is hurt here. Our feud lies in misunderstanding.” She gazed at you next. “Little one, we have yet to hear your story. Do share.”
You glanced at the guards, at Owin and Emyr, and then at father. He nodded encouragingly. “U-Um!” Shyly, you approached the Sea Queen. “My brothers were teaching me how to swim. I don’t know anything about whose water is whose. I just wanted to learn how to swim.” You met the fierce scowl of the mer holding his twin brother and quickly looked elsewhere. “He grabbed me before my brothers could pull me up.”
“Because you were trespassing. Anyone who tresspasses ought to—”
“Floyd.”
At the not-so-subtle warning in his father’s voice, he shut his mouth and snarled. His brother—Jade—was handed off to their father, who assessed his state with a frown.
“He will live, but it will take time for him to recover. My son is right. Your son could have killed him.”
“Just as your sons could have killed my sister!” Owin shouted, glaring.
Floyd stuck his tongue out, remorseless.
“It is impossible to know which side is in the wrong,” your father began, turning towards the Sea Queen. “Seeing as both have been injured, I am willing to apologize on behalf of my sons.”
“What?!” Owin’s head turned towards his father. “You’re bloody mad! Have you not seen—”
“Father,” Emyr interjected evenly. “We have nothing to apologize for. We were within our waters. We had no ill will towards the others. It was completely innocent.”
The Sea Queen hummed her contemplation. “The boundary was drawn for a reason, decided upon by those who came before us, and yet it does more harm than good. It is not for safety’s sake. It is to keep us divided—to ensure that neither side will ever know peace.”
“And you’re implying that we get rid of it?”
She nodded, quite serious. Everyone looked on in equal parts shock and disbelief. “Why do we continue to fight? It does nothing but open old wounds, rendering them incurable. Innocent lives are lost in petty squabbling. And for what?”
To that, no one could offer a smart reply.
“Therefore I propose peace. A union to welcome a new era—one in which we embrace one another as allies without animosity.”
“A union?” Your father raised a brow, suspicious but willing to listen. “I suppose it would be beneficial. My people would be free to travel the seas at their leisure.”
“And mine would no longer have to live in fear of being thoughtlessly slaughtered and taken as trophies.”
“Unbelievable,” Orwin muttered.
Emyr elbowed him. “Knock it off.”
“We’ll collaborate on a contract. One that dissolves the invisible boundary that has been the cause for so much suffering. In order to attain true peace, I shall offer you my only son.” She glanced at you and then back at your father. “Your daughter shall marry him when they are of age.”
“What?! No way! Ew! Gross!” Your voice came out shrill and you shook your head in protest. “I don’t wanna marry an octopus! No, I won’t do it!”
Your father stood in front of you. “She’s my only daughter. If something were to happen—”
“Which is precisely why I bring up this engagement. Should they be betrothed, we as their parents will promise to uphold peace to give them bright futures and they will act as the first example of a human-mer alliance. Unions between humans and merfolk are unheard of, but is this not the best way to foster harmony between the Land and Sea?”
“I won’t do it! No! Don’t make me marry a gross—” Emyr gathered you in his arms, holding his uninjured hand over your mouth.
“Let the grown-ups talk.”
Owin frowned. “I still don’t agree with this…”
Your father mulled it over, his eyes glazed in thought. “Very well. We will create a contract—an official peace treaty.”
Both leaders shook hands and planned to convene at the end of the week to discuss further.
You watched the mers depart, each one slipping under the sea. Floyd was the last to go, staring at you with a mean sort of vitriol. And then he, too, dove under.
“He didn’t mean it, right?” you whispered to Emyr after your father gave the order to turn the ship around and head for land. “I won’t have to marry an octopus, right?”
Emyr could only offer a commiserate frown.
“She’s a brat,” Floyd spits. “Stupid, evil Two Legs.”
Jade chuckles and runs his fingers over the scar. “I consider it an honor.”
“Yeah, well, I think it’s messed up. She’s the reason you can’t ever swim naturally again. While she’s up there in her pretty, little tower, safe and sound, you’re still hurting.”
“It’s not as much of a hindrance as you may think. I’m not weak, mind you.”
Floyd grumbles. “Still. She’s mean.”
Azul gazes up at the palace, sighing dreamily. “She’ll be my wife someday. That’s what humans call it, yes? Husband and wife… What wonderful words.”
It’s been one year since the peace treaty. Since then, humans and merfolk have made an effort to get along. This is the second time Azul will be meeting with you. He’s nervous. The first time you went out to sea to greet him, and he’d gotten so anxious that he inked right then and there. His mother entertained you from where you sat in the boat with your personal guard. It was a mortifying experience—one that had taken him months to recover from.
Now he’s going to try to meet you in the shallows. Try is the key word here. He’s scared, all three hearts beating as one. Is it too late to reschedule?
“I can’t believe you’re actually okay with this. You that lonely?”
Azul turns to scowl at both twins, but it’s mostly directed at Floyd. “I never asked you to tag along. Leave me alone.”
Jade smiles. “And let the Queen’s little prince swim to his death?”
“I can take care of myself.”
“Sure you can. But what about when Two Legs gets ya? What then?”
“She wouldn’t do that.”
Floyd rolls his eyes. “You saw what her brothers did to Jade.”
“Because you tried to kill her.”
“Because she was in our territory!”
Azul huffs and pushes him away with a tentacle. “Regardless, we’re supposed to be on good terms now. You’ll break the contract if you try anything dangerous.”
“He’s right, Floyd.”
“Ugh. Whatever.” Floyd turns away, stubborn. “This is lame. I’m not stickin’ around.”
Jade lingers long enough to observe the way Azul lights up when he spots you on the stone steps. And then he disappears beneath the water.
Barefoot, holding your dress up and out of the way, you pad across the beach.
“Why are you here? I’m busy. My brothers are taking me into town.”
The smile that had been fighting to break out on his face frosts over. “Oh. I… Um…” Azul fumbles with the conch shell he’d collected on the way here. A gift for you. He made sure to study human speech patterns in the months leading up to this meeting. He’s fully prepared! And yet you look so displeased. “F-For you! I found it…”
You stare at the shell clutched in a dark tentacle. Tentatively, you reach for it. “Why?”
“Ah. W-Well, my mother says gifts are an important part of any bond. In the sea, we give gifts to the ones we care about. To friends and family and o-other halves…”
You turn the shell over in your hands. “We’re not friends.”
“Not yet,” he tries, but you shake your head.
“You ran away from me the last time we met. That’s not very friendly.”
His face flushes blue and he opens his mouth to argue, but nothing comes out. It wasn’t on purpose.
You’re already turning on your heel. “I don’t have time for this.” You toss the shell over your shoulder. Azul watches it land in the sand, just out of his grasp.
“W-Wait! I… I want to talk to you. Please don’t go. You’re going to be my other half one day, so I’d like to—”
But you’re already dashing across the beach to get to the stairs.
Azul deflates against the rock. Tears overflow in floods. Is it because of him? Is he to blame? Why don’t you want to be his friend? Is it because of the peace treaty? Why?
Why? Why? Why?
Azul doesn’t want to think negatively of you. Humans are sensitive creatures. He reads up on them in the palace library, poring over literature and textbooks in an effort to better understand you. But as the months pass and you seem to simply tolerate him for the sake of the alliance, he begins to suspect something.
It’s made apparent the next time he sees you, where you walk right past the beach to catch up with your brothers. He hides behind the rocks, two blue eyes following your figure until you’re out of sight.
Floyd was right. You are a brat.
And yet he can’t hate you.
On the eve of your eighteenth birthday, Azul meets you in the shallows.
Nowadays you send letters, preferring strained long distance over the personal intimacy of face-to-face relations. These exchanges are purely diplomatic. But now that he’s asked to meet with you, a rare occurrence, you’ve deigned to greet him in person. It’s the least you can do after he’s gone through the trouble to travel here. It’s been so long since you’ve seen him that he’s almost unrecognizable. You remember the round, baby-faced octo-mer from your childhood. The one who lounges against the rocks is leaner now—his features defined, jawline as sharp as his eyes. They cut through the gloom to find you.
“You wished to see me?” You’re in your nightwear, a silky gown with an even softer robe. A cool breeze blows across the beach, and you wrap your arms around yourself for extra warmth. “Azul?”
He hesitates, his gaze trailing up your legs. You’ve also changed a lot in the time you’ve been apart. You’ve grown taller, filling out in places he didn’t know humans could fill. What he’d give to hold you… His mother says he needs to be patient. Fickle thing that you are, you’re the reason he’s spent six years trying to appease you through letters—to win you over and be anything more than that “annoying octopus” you’re doomed to marry. Perhaps it would have been easier to act just as you do if it weren’t for the fact that he’d been elated at the premise of having someone to love. When his mother broached the idea in the days following her meeting with the Land King, he’d stared at her with wide, excited eyes.
“There’s a human girl who wants to be my friend?” he asked, to which his mother smiled and nodded.
More than a friend, actually, but then all he was focused on was finally getting to experience the one thing he’d never known or had: friendship.
Sighing, he foregoes formality and holds out a necklace. It dangles from the tip of his tentacle. Strung on a dainty, silver strand, pearls wink back at you under the moonlight. Azul averts his eyes, his cheeks a pleasant periwinkle.
“Happy birthday…”
“Oh.” You move in closer, taking the necklace from him. His tentacle pursues you, twining delicately around your wrist. “Um… What is it? Do you need—whoa!”
Azul tugs you closer. The sea laps at your ankles. Beneath a tapestry of stars, you meet his azure stare. His features are set with a determination you’ve never seen before.
“I want to start over.”
“Start over?”
“I’d like to be on friendly terms with you. We’re so cold. Distant…” Azul frowns, seeming unsure of what to say or do next. The tentacle laced around your wrist like a bracelet tightens its hold. “We’re to be wed one day. I want to make this work.”
You blink at him. He thinks he may have gotten through to you, having finally broken through layers of stone and ice, but then your nose scrunches and odium shimmers in your gaze.
“That’s impossible. I’m a human. How am I supposed to live with an octopus?” You shake him off with a huff. “I’m not sure what our parents think this will accomplish. I don’t want to be a pawn to be moved around for the sake of peace. I’m my own person.”
Azul’s expression sours. His lip curls up into a sneer. “Well, I don’t find it very enjoyable either. You’re not the only victim in this scenario.”
You exhale an exhausted breath. “Azul, I appreciate the gift, but it doesn’t mean anything if you’re only giving it to me to curry favor.”
I wasn’t, he thinks, but he doesn’t say that. Admitting it would be a weakness. Admitting it would mean coming to terms with an unrequited opinion.
“At least one of us is making a conscious effort.”
“At least one of us isn’t trying so hard. It’s pathetic.”
“You’re not obligated to accept my goodwill.” He smiles, smug. “Yet you do every time. I’d wager you enjoy my materialistic affections.”
“As if.” Despite this, you hold the necklace out of his reach when a tentacle flexes towards it. “It’s mine now.”
“So you are fond of my ‘pathetic’ ways!”
“I’m not!”
You jerk away with a vicious scowl, but your foot catches in the sand and you quickly find yourself tipping backwards. If not for the tentacles that coil around your waist to steady you, you would have fallen on your rear. Your chest heaves with adrenaline. Stunned, you stare at Azul.
“You…caught me,” you breathe, lips parted in awe.
“Did you think I’d let you fall?” He cocks his head at you, grinning playfully. “Why, I’d never! Unless it’s me you’re falling for, in which case I gladly welcome the—”
“You’re such a pest.” Untangling yourself from his grasp, which he allows without scrimmage, you step away from the water’s edge. He watches you secure the pearls around your neck, and his hearts stumble in his chest when you point an accusatory finger at him. “Don’t delude yourself with foolish nonsense. I have no interest in you.”
With an indignant harrumph, you start towards the palace.
“May we meet here tomorrow?” Azul calls out after you, testing his luck with what little chance he has.
“Don’t push it.”
“I’ll wait for you.”
“Good. Keep waiting, dummy!” You break into a sprint, hurrying off into the shadows.
Azul smiles at the empty beach. Whether or not you like him, it doesn’t matter. You’re to be his one day. You’ve always been, ever since he was eleven.
He’ll wait, even if you won’t show.
Ostensibly, twenty-one years wise, you’re getting married today.
Your gown is just as exquisite as your hair and makeup. Pearls cling to your throat and arms—classic wedding attire for merfolk. A thin veil shields the scheme in your stare.
This was an inevitability, but you’re determined to fight it until the end. No matter how quickly time seems to pass, you’ll do everything you can to stall and slow it.
Gripping a sharpened dagger in a resolute fist, you drag it through the long, sprawling train of your gown.
“As if I’d marry an octopus,” you grumble, cutting fine fabric until you’re permitted smoother movement. Gazing at yourself in the mirror, you scowl. “I’m no one’s bride.”
By the time the maids arrive to check on you, you’ve already stolen out the window.
The rowboat sways on choppy water. You’ve watched your brothers do this enough times to have the technique engraved in your memory. Your arms strain with the oars, every muscle screaming in protest, but you fight through the pain. The palace looks smaller and smaller with every passing minute. Eventually, you’re so far out that the land is but a mere speck.
It’s going well. You’re escaping towards a better future—a future without the octopus prince.
You glance towards the horizon. Your boat undulates with the waves.
You’ll miss your brothers, your maids, your personal guard…
Water slops over the edge. You yelp, startled. Have the seas always been so rough?
Despite everything, you’ll miss your father.
Just as you think this, your boat rocks to the side. You grab onto the edge to steady yourself, but it’s already too late. It tips over and you go with it, careening into the sea with a noisy splash. Twin shadows cut seamlessly through the murky water. You catch sight of a yellow eye before you propel yourself towards the sky, coughing and heaving once you break the surface. You grab onto the overturned rowboat, your dagger clutched in one hand.
You search the surface for them, eyes flicking to and fro in a frantic panic.
Somewhere… Anywhere… Where are you?
And then you find them, peering at you from the other side of the boat.
“Go on then,” you spit, glaring. “Kill me.”
Floyd bares his teeth at you. “This time I ain’t gonna leave a scar.”
“You know we mustn’t. That’s not why we’re here.” Jade smiles at you, but there’s something in his eyes that unnerves you. “Your Highness, you should know it’s poor manners to leave the groom on his special day.”
Floyd circles you restlessly. “S’not fair we gotta be nice when you’re so mean.”
“I’m not going to marry him.”
“I’m afraid you don’t have a choice in that matter.”
“What’d Azul ever do to you?”
You attempt to answer that before realizing the truth. Nothing. He’s done absolutely nothing but be kind and understanding and patient. And I took that, chewed it up, and spat in his face.
“If you used that brain of yours, you wouldn’t have thrown yourself to the sharks. We can’t get to you on land.”
“But it’s fair game in the sea,” Floyd finishes, every syllable dripping with pride. “Stupid Two Legs.”
“I’m inclined to agree. You’re not the brightest human. A pity.”
“My brother should’ve gutted you when he had the chance. Maybe then—”
You see the whites of Floyd’s eyes when he strikes, launching himself at you with a clawed hand, sharp, pointed teeth aiming for your jugular.
This is it. You’re dead.
…or not.
The searing pain never comes, nor does the impending laceration. You cling to the boat and watch dark tentacles rise from the depths to close around Floyd, ensnaring him in a firm hold. He thrashes, snapping his jaws like a deranged beast.
“Let go of me, Azul! Lemme at her! She’s a bitch! I’ll kill her!”
“There will be none of that.” Azul tuts. “I don’t intend to marry a corpse.”
Jade swims over to you. “My feelings aren’t hurt in the slightest, Your Highness. If it weren’t for your status and connection to Azul, I’d have disemboweled you ages ago. Quite a relief for you, yes?”
You swallow your horror, allowing him to detach you from the boat so that Azul can turn it over. A tentacle curls around your waist, lifts you from the water, and places you back in the boat. You stare at your hands. They’re trembling. You can hardly hold the dagger properly.
It takes some convincing and a lukewarm apology from you, but Floyd promises to be good. He doesn’t do anything as you’re pulled back to shore, but he does stare at you for the duration of the trip, his eyes tracking your every movement. You press yourself into the belly of the boat, defeated and riddled with anxiety.
Your father isn’t pleased. When you see his enraged expression, the debate dies on your tongue. “You are to marry the prince,” he seethes, pulling you aside, “or else you jeopardize the peace of our kingdom.”
You’re washed and fitted in a new dress. Guards are stationed at all possible routes to prevent another escape.
When you walk down the beach to meet Azul in the shallows, your veil shields the sadness in your stare.
The ceremony carries on without incident. Floyd watches from the water, lurking like Death. You speak rehearsed vows in robotic monotone, mindlessly floating through the rigmarole like it’s second nature. Azul smiles at you through it all, sweetly smitten.
It’s a nightmare lived in real time.
Humans and mers alike congratulate you, cheering for this momentous occasion. Your tongue is numb by the end of it all. You’ve expressed faux gratitude so many times that it hurts to even force the words. And now, as night descends and the party kicks into full swing, you’re left reflecting on the day.
Freedom feels so far away. You’ll never know it again, will you?
Azul guides you away from the crowd. Firelight grows dim with the distance. Eventually, you find yourself taking refuge in a tiny inlet cut into the beach. A rocky outcrop hides you from the moon’s spotlight.
“I’m not upset,” Azul murmurs, curling a tentacle up your leg. “But Floyd is.”
“His brother’s the one who hurt me all those years ago.”
“That was before the union.”
“I’m not letting it go.”
“Perhaps not now, but you will. One day.”
You don’t believe him.
“Our people are at peace. Aren’t you pleased, my love?”
You shove him away, gathering heaps of your dress to walk in calf-deep water. “I’m not your love.”
“Legally, you are.”
“That means nothing to me. Absolutely nothing.”
Azul sighs. “Even now, after everything, you’re still trying to flee.”
“For good reason. I don’t want to be tied down.”
Azul inches closer. Another tentacle wraps slyly around your ankle.
“You’re so beautiful. I feel like the luckiest mer in the sea. To be able to call you my own… My beautiful bride.” He pulls you closer. You resist weakly. “Now that we’re alone I can finally tell you the very thing I’ve thought of ceaselessly for years.”
A tentacle slides up your leg, straying closer to your inner thigh. You flinch away.
“Azul, wait. I don’t want—”
“I love you.”
You squirm in his hold, attempting to thwart the tentacles that grab at your every limb. You trip over yourself in the process. This time Azul doesn’t catch you. Water laps at your dress, soaking through at once. He’s radiant beneath the moon. Dreading his touch, you scoot as far from him as you can get in the water, hoping to reach land. Azul seizes your wrist and pulls you into his arms. You fight him with more force.
“No… No, let go of me! Release me!”
“Why should I? You’re mine now. Is it not customary for a married couple to consummate their new bond? We do something similar in the sea.” A tentacle brushes your veil back so that he can look upon your pretty face. “I’d take you to a quiet space in the seagrass, lay you down in the sand, and then—”
“I don’t want that! No!” You lash out, swinging blindly. A tentacle shoots out to stop your arm before it can smack him. “Azul, please—”
“I was patient. I waited and waited in hopes that you might warm up to me. I cherished you in silence. I learned your language. Your customs. Your habits. I wrote to you. Traveled to meet you. And yet you look at me as if I’m a monster…”
It’s not the devastated look in his eyes or the edge in his voice that scares you. It’s the startling gentleness with which he handles you. Tentacles loop around your body, exploring beneath your gown. You wriggle in discomfort, yelping when suckers brush against the frilly garter secured around your thigh. Azul hums and holds you up in his tentacles, using two to spread your legs so that he may slide it from your leg.
“I wasn’t forceful. I courted you kindly. You accepted all of my gifts. You wore them proudly and I thought—I knew you would love me, too. You were mine from the moment our parents signed that agreement. And if you leave me, you’ll break a political promise and then our kingdoms will go to war and I’ll be sure to collect the heads of your family first. Each one of them, and you will watch as I bring ruin to the kingdom you love so fondly.”
“N-No… Please stop. Please.”
“I’ve waited ten years for you.” A tentacle hooks around your panties. You thrash again, shaking your head at him. He remains unconvinced, watching with gleeful eyes as your nudity is revealed to him. “And aren’t you an angel? Oh, you’re so pretty…”
Like your hopes, your panties are cast aside.
The tip of a tentacle prods curiously at your pussy. Your breath hitches.
“W-Wait! You… You can’t.” His eyes find yours, and you swallow the rising sob. “T-That can’t go inside… It won’t fit. It won’t—”
Azul smiles. “Of course it will. The human body is capable of marvelous feats.”
Even though it’s pointless, you struggle. “I can’t! Please… Azul, I’m scared. Please don’t do this…”
A lone tentacle slides into your hand. Thoughtless, you hold tight.
“My love, there’s no need to cry. I’m not going to hurt you.” He brings you closer, kissing your tears away. “I’m here for you. I’ve always been here, even when you didn’t seem to need me.”
You hiccup, your chest heaving. It’s not lonely for long, for he pulls your dress down your shoulders. Your breasts spill free and are quickly cradled in cold hands. Azul watches your expression with an intense focus while he rolls your nipples between his fingers. You grit your teeth, refusing to respond. But then the tentacle between your legs finds your clit and a sucker affixes to it, suctioning slowly. You gasp and throw your head back, bolts of pleasure racing up your spine. It happens in a white-hot flash. You slacken in his grasp.
Azul laughs, astonished. “Did you cum? Already?”
“Nooo,” you whine, closing your hand around the tentacle once more. Another one strokes your cheek. “You’ve had your fun. Now let go of me…”
“What a silly demand.”
He tugs on your nipples. You groan, lashes fluttering. “Ooh… Stop. No, stop it… Don’t touch there. Not—haa… Not there!”
“You’re so sensitive.” He drags the underside of a tentacle along your cunt and shivers. “And so wet… Is this your season? Do humans experience such a thing?”
You’ve no idea what he’s referring to, but before you can dwell on it he leans down to take your perky bud in his mouth. Your free hand grabs at his hair, pinning him to your chest. His tongue laves across it, warm and wet. You shouldn’t enjoy it so much, and yet you can’t stop yourself from crying out.
He hums against your skin, beaming like a devil. You can’t hate him. He’s your husband. He’s yours. You shouldn’t hate him.
You’re falling apart in his tentacles, grinding down to chase the bliss provided by the underside of the appendage clinging to your pussy. The sinful squelch of skin on skin fills the quiet inlet. The scent of sex and salt intermingles. It’s wrong and it’s right. It’s instinct, carnal and corrupt. Azul groans against your breast, your teat between his teeth.
“Az—ooh!” You tug on his hair, insatiable. Your brain is fogging over with lust. You don’t want to lose yourself in this madness. You can’t. “N-No more… No more.”
But he’s not listening. He pinches your other nipple between his fingers, and that’s all it takes for you to unravel.
In the aftermath, the tapered tip of a thicker tentacle squirms between your thighs. Mindlessly, you spread your legs and lift your hips for him. It presses in shallowly, a jarring experience.
“Not inside—don’t! You can’t!”
Azul pulls away from you, his expression scrunched in woozy ecstasy. “Why not?” he mumbles, smiling stupidly. “You’re my bride. It’s only fair…”
Before you can bicker, he kisses you. His tongue pursues yours in a sloppy tango. You lick into his mouth, desperate and dazed. Lost in a sea of salacity, shipwrecked on an island of forgotten inhibitions.
The tentacle pushes through rings of tight, slick muscle. Tears spring to your eyes. It feels weird and foreign, so unlike your fingers. He holds you close, minding his strength and pace. It fills you slowly, reaching places you’ve never been able to feel. The lust numbs your senses and gives way to something animalistic—a base desire you’ve suppressed. Azul rocks the appendage deeper until it’s pushed up against the entrance to your womb, squeezed snugly in your warm walls.
“I-It’s in…” you mumble once he’s broken the kiss, a strand of saliva connecting your mouths. “It’s really…inside me…”
Azul kisses your cheek and pets you with a tentacle. “We were made for each other.”
Surely not, you think, but it feels so when he draws back and thrusts in. Maybe he’s right.
He fucks you gently, savoring every single sound you make. He tells you he loves you, whispers it over and over like it’s prayer. You nod dumbly, grabbing at his hand to hold it. The both of you are gasping in unison, chasing cloud nine. In just a few more deep strokes, his tip bullying its way to your womb, he finally finds his end. A thin substance fills you up in plentiful amounts. Distantly, you think it’s water until he drags your hips further down. Your mouth drops open in a strangled scream as something round and gelatinous passes through. It settles in your womb, and you know right away that it shouldn’t be there.
You panic. “W-Wait… Wha—Zul… Stop… No, I don’t want—”
“It’s all right,” he breathes, his mouth on your shoulder. He soothes you with soft shushes and even softer kisses. “You’re okay. I’m here.”
You dig your nails into the tentacle curled in your palm just as a second orb squeezes through. He groans, his eyes squeezed shut.
“Finally…” He pants, a wobbly smile stretching on his delirious countenance. “Finally, my love, my dear—oh, my beloved bride!”
He cradles you like a mother would a newborn. You lie there as he fills you, your voice hoarse from babbling and bewailing. These things—little orbs of jelly—are stuffed into your womb, and by the time you surpass twenty you lose count and blank out, trembling through yet another orgasm. You’re not sure how many more he has left or how many more you can possibly fit. It feels too good to think about that.
“Bigger. They’ll get bigger. You’ll look so pretty—round and full and soft.”
Dizzy, you glance at the bloated dome that is your belly. Your gown strains over it, an impressively deceptive size that you almost mistake for pregnancy. That’s when it clicks. Eggs. These are eggs.
“I’ll make sure they survive. All of them—as many as I possibly can. I’ll stay by your side. I’ll keep you content. I’ll fill you with love—so much love—an abundance of it, and you’ll never know emptiness again,” he rambles, resting a tentacle over your distended middle.
It’s not just a senseless sweet nothing. It’s a promise.
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the other woman * mv1
everything falls into place in your mind when max fails to show up for you at the one event you desperately wanted him to be at
pairings: max verstappen x fem!reader
warnings: cheating, jake gyllenhaal type behaviour
notes: hi i know i promised this on xmas eve and then i failed to deliver mY BAD BABY GIRLS! i am trying my best but then again i did get a fever and all but its ok lfg and NO I WILL NOT BE WRITING A PART TWOOOOO
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your eyes watch your front door, bottom lip caught between your teeth as you try to hold yourself back from crying. there's a sob bubbling from the deepest part of your gut as you glance at the clock one more time.
he's late.
but one can also say that he's simply not coming. did he lie when he told you that he would make sure he showed up for you this time? or did he just simply forget about you again?
your eyes have been staring at that door for the better part of the last hour or so since guests started arriving for the party you'd thrown.
a party you'd thrown, admittedly, just to get his attention. you were never one to make a big deal of your birthday anyway, but he made you think otherwise. because he promised you that he would be here no matter what happened. it's stupider that he was the one that encouraged you to throw a party today.
only for him not to show up?
this is the one time you needed him to so desperately show up for you. but here you are, looking like a fool waiting for somebody who wouldn't come; for somebody who didn't even make you a first choice.
because you know that when if push comes to shove, he would still pick her. max would always pick kelly and penelope over you, no matter how much he tells you that he loves you. no matter how many times you endured him telling you that he no longer wants to be with her.
you know better than to be his little secret. your parents had not raised you to be a potential homewrecker, but are you really being one if he's the one that keeps coming back to you?
you've tried staying away, and you've attempted to cut all sorts of contact with him, but he eventually crawls right back to you a couple of weeks later claiming that he will break up with kelly soon.
you've even bought a new dress for the occasion; in max's favourite colour and a cut that you knew he would say you look amazing in.
only for him to bail on you. you'd even taken the effort to sit for an hour to do your makeup and hair. for nothing, essentially.
fast forward a couple of hours of holding back tears and forcing smiles, you're hunched over the couch, picking up empty beer cans and tears streaming down your face. at the end of the day, you're left alone in your apartment with a heavy heart and the eerie silence the room can only offer you.
you watch the last car from your guests drive away. you sigh and throw yourself on the couch, finally letting the tears fall from your eyes. you had no idea it was so difficult to pretend like you're okay until today.
it's totally different when it's got something to do with the heart, it seems. you were totally banking on the fact that he would be here today, at least today. just today. because it's your birthday.
it's your day.
a knock on the door sits you right up, hands darting up to wipe the tears that smudged your makeup. "give me a second!"
"it's just me."
the anger suddenly hits you. so he is available to travel out to come and see you. just not a couple of hours prior when everybody else was here? just not at the time when you actually wanted him to be here?
you stomp your way over to the door and swing the door open and a string of apologies quickly spill from his mouth. you immediately notice the wrapped present in his hand and the bouquet of flowers.
"i'm sorry, i got held up at home," max apologises with a frown. "p had a fever and she wouldn't go to bed unless i tucked her in. i'm sorry, i know i'm late."
you sigh, rolling your eyes. "you're not just late," you scowl, "you missed the party entirely, max."
"oh," he slumps his shoulders, "i was wondering why it was so quiet when i was walking up."
you shake your head and walk further into your apartment. "max, just go home. you don't have a reason to be here."
"what do you mean? it's your birthday," he says gently, following you in. he closes the door behind him and follows you into your living room. "is there still cake? maybe you can blow the candles with me before the day ends? i even got you a present."
"no, i let people take home pieces of the cake," you say softly, returning to your agenda of cleaning your home from the traces of the party your friends left. "what am i going to do with cake that i don't even eat?"
"you bought chocolate cake on your birthday? you don't even like chocolate," he points out softly. "nevermind that, i got you a present!"
"i don't give a fuck about your stupid present, max!" you burst, standing up and turning to finally face him. "i didn't ask for a fucking present! i asked you for one thing and you couldn't even do that!"
he stares at you, dumbfounded with his lips parted in shock at your outburst. you're not typically one to have outbursts, which is the one thing he claims he finds very refreshing about you. you're calm and collected most of the time, and you assess the situation before picking fights. "p was sick. what did you want me to do?"
"you're telling me you're a sole parent to this little girl?" you ask. "kelly couldn't have tucked her in so you could show up to the party that you asked me to throw? on my birthday? max, you had one job and it was to show up for me tonight! i waited for you all night!"
he seems to have lost all ability to speak because he just pulls out a chair from your dining table and takes a seat. "i'm sorry. you're right, i should have been here."
"seriously, max! are you actually ever going to leave them or do you just lie straight through your teeth whenever you tell me that?" she scolds him, throwing her arms in the air. "i'm not stupid, max! this has gone on long enough!"
"i am, and i will!" he answers you, running his hands through his hair. "i just need more time. there's a child involved, i really hope you understand. i can't just leave."
"you say that every single time! it's been seven months!" you cry. "you've made me the other woman for seven long months! am i supposed to just sit here and take that? just because i love you?"
"i do love you! but it's complicated, okay? i can't just leave p like this!"
you clench your jaw. how many times have you heard that excuse in the past year? and how many more times will you be fooled by the sweetness in his voice and his glistening blue eyes? "max, i think you should go. lose my number, and forget that i ever existed. i can't do this anymore."
his head snaps up to you. he quickly walks over to you, throwing his arms around you from behind. "wait, don't say that. please, i promise. i'll leave in the next month. don't leave me. i really don't love her anymore."
"i'm so tired of the lies, max," you sigh, desperately tearing his arms away from your body. you take a step back and turn to him. "you will always choose them over me. it doesn't matter how much you love me, max. you're too attached to them to leave."
"listen to me, okay? i will leave them. and then we can be happy together like we talked about all those nights we spent together," max coos, putting his hands on your shoulder. he bends down slightly to look into your eyes. "please, just give me one last chance - more time. i just need time. i will let p down easily and i'll leave kelly. please."
"i don't know how many more times you think you can fool me with that lie, max!" you frown, shoving him back. "just leave! leave me alone! i refuse to let you make me look like an idiot! i'm better than this."
"i thought you said you understood my predicament. with p in the picture..."
"yeah, for seven long months. do you know how many days that is? how many hours i'd spend with you wondering when you'd finally take me off the backseat and make me your own officially?" you throw your head back and a dry laugh passes your lips. "max, just leave. don't call me again."
"you don't really mean that."
"i do this time," you say firmly, turning around to face him.
you circle around him and walk over to your front door, pulling it open and gesturing towards the hallway. "i'm done. take your flowers and your stupid present and leave."
he does what you say, hesitantly. he keeps his eyes on you, hoping that you will immediately change your mind. he travelled this far to get to you, hoping that you would somehow forgive him for missing your birthday party.
but you're right, now that he's had a couple of seconds to think about it. in the past seven months, he's told you that he'd up and leave kelly and penelope so he can finally be with you openly. it's much harder to keep you in the shadows when everyone's got eyes on him all the time.
perhaps it's the attachment to penelope that he can't get himself to pack his things and call it a day. he genuinely does love that kid. and his girlfriend has her good days - not all make him want to pull at his hair in frustration anymore.
but he also really does love you. if there hadn't been a loveable child in the picture, one that's grown very attached to him, he would have been able to walk away months ago. it could've been that easy.
"just hear me out," max says, stopping right by the door and giving you one last pleading look. "don't leave. not like this. we haven't even had a real fighting chance."
"that's because of you. not me," you answer dryly, looking up at him. "just go. i can't keep having this conversation with you."
"please."
"i gave you too many chances to make this right," you sigh, putting a gentle hand on his back to guide him out the door. you press your lips together as a lump forms in your throat. you're more shocked that you hadn't fully started bawling moments ago. "i should have done this a long time ago."
"i'm sorry."
"i'm sure you are. too little too late." then you close the door on him and whatever could have been with max.
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six — i believe you
mess it up — gojo x reader & sukuna x reader
⁀➴ when i told you i’m fine, you were lied to.
when the love of your life falls for someone else, you decide to move on—by pretending to date your best friend, the campus fuckboy.
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content. profanity, sukuna is a little gross, reader’s a bit of a menace
Satoru had heard about you. You had cultivated the perfect image for the public, the diligent, hardworking, sweet girl on the tennis team who had a smile for everyone. Most of them loved you, and those who didn’t were apparently only one conversation with you away from falling head over heels. He’d heard about you, but he didn’t buy it.
He had quite a reputation himself. Some kind of golden boy, a god among mere mortals. But he was well-aware that the whole facade was built on a few bouts of witticism, a few flirtatious jokes, a steady stream of good grades, and nothing more. People liked to believe in the idea of someone, so he never really bought the idea of you.
Until he saw it for himself.
He and Suguru had spent the morning on the basketball court. They’d been on a week-long bender of parties, nights out, and copious amounts of alcohol. Classes were starting up again in a few days and they decided they needed a reset. Get some fresh air. Touch some grass.
They were heading to the locker room when they passed by the tennis court. There was a small crowd gathered, mostly children who couldn’t have been older than ten—and you.
Satoru knew what you looked like. He’d seen you from across the hallway, a few tables away in the cafeteria, on the walkways between buildings. Friends had pointed you out on occasion, launching into gossip about the people you turned down, the matches you’d won over the weekend.
But when he saw you there, right beneath the blazing heat of the last bits of summer sun, crouched in front of a kid who was crying, holding a broken racket, he couldn’t help but think that you looked different. Better than how most people described you.
Absolutely beautiful.
He must’ve looked stupid when he suddenly came to a stop on the other side of the fence. But he didn’t care. He was watching an angel come down to earth.
You were nodding as the kid cried, explaining what had happened to his racket. When he was done, you ruffled his hair and offered him the gentlest of smiles. You walked over to a bench, took out a racket from a bag, and handed it to the boy.
The kid’s eyes were wide. “But this is yours!” he said, holding the thing in his hands like it was made of gold. “I can’t use this.”
“Who says?” you told the kid playfully, patting him on the back as you steered him in the direction of the other children. “Come on, we’re here to have fun.”
“What are you doing?” Suguru snickered behind him. “You know, watching little kids is creepy. Just saying.”
Satoru shoved his best friend and shushed him. “Will you be quiet for once in your life?”
Suguru slung his arm around his shoulder and sighed. “You’re not gonna get her, you know,” he said. “Many have tried. None have succeeded.”
“Oh, yeah?” Satoru said, walking away. He glanced back at you one more time. You were standing now, calmly telling the kids not to whack each other with balls. “Watch me.”
“I don’t get it.”
Sukuna trails behind you as you load the grocery cart with boxes of Capri-Sun. The thing is already half-full with loaves of sliced bread, deli meat, and an assortment of vegetables. All of this, he decides, is worth more than what he spends on groceries in a week.
“I told you not to come,” you remind him. “You can fuck off if you want.”
You almost lose your balance as you lift a 24-pack of bottled water, but Sukuna’s quick to grab the thing from your arms and set it down with the rest of the groceries.
He smirks at you, grabbing the handle of the cart before you can get to it. “I dunno, tiger, seems like you need me here.”
You flip him off and march down the aisle to grab a few more things.
“You’re not even getting paid to do this,” he tells you. “Why are you putting so much effort into these kids?”
You shrug, leading him to the register. “They need to eat.”
“Their parents can feed them.”
“Some of them don’t.”
That shuts him up for once.
Sukuna has never questioned the fact that you’re a way better person than he is. He’s known you since high school, he’s watched you volunteer your afternoons to tutor elementary kids, seen you go out of your way to make sure your teachers got the best Christmas gifts, been with you as you attempted to make cupcakes for school bake sales.
He always brushed it off as things you did to pad your resume, but he always knew it had something to do with you having better intentions than him.
This weekend gig of yours that you started in your second year of college is just another thing on your long list of “good deeds” that Sukuna keeps track of in his head. But he never realized how much thought you put into it until now.
“I can carry that,” you tell him as he grabs the grocery bags from you. “Sukuna, seriously.”
He just shakes his head, sprinting away to your car as you attempt to catch up after him. “Too slow!”
Your best friend has never been the best person. But you’ve always made him want to be.
He loads the groceries into the back of your car and pats himself on the back for a job well-done.
You glare at him as you close the trunk of your car. “Don’t you have anything better to do?”
He boops your nose. “Nope.”
The two of you are about to get into the car when someone calls Sukuna. You both look over at the source of the voice.
A girl.
Pretty with freshly manicured nails, hair in perfectly blown-out waves as she runs over to your best friend. “Baby!” She squeals, pressing herself against his chest. “I haven’t seen you in so long!”
Sukuna tries to place the girl. Someone he met at a party maybe? From one of his classes? A match on one of the many dating apps he’s on?
“Oh, hi,” he says, blanking on the name.
“It’s Mari,” the girl says, fluttering her lashes at him. She pouts, pink lips jutting out as she looks up at him with doe-eyes. “Do you not remember me?”
Mari. Right.
Yeah, she was a good fuck. Some of the best tits he’s ever seen. He bent her over on a bathroom counter at a rager once and… well, the rest is history.
“‘Course I remember you,” he says, smiling. He pulls himself away from her and looks over at you. You’re grinning, clearly amused by this whole interaction. What a whore, you’re probably thinking about him. “Listen, Mari, I gotta go.”
The girl whines and wraps her arms around his waist. “But why?”
“Yeah, why?” You raise your brows at your best friend, a laugh bubbling beneath your words.
Mari looks at you, barely registering your presence, then looks back at him for an answer.
Sukuna peels himself away from the girl and goes over to you, placing an arm around your shoulder. “This here’s my girl, Mari,” he says. “And we’ve got some errands to do today.”
“Your girl,” Mari says slowly. She looks at you again. It clicks. “Oh.”
“Yeah,” Sukuna says, opening the car door for you. “So we gotta go.”
The girl’s eyes scan your body. She takes a moment, probably decides that she’ll get Sukuna back real soon. He’s never been the type to stick to anyone, she knows this.
“Okay!” she says chirpily, already turning a heel. “See you around, ‘Kunie.”
As soon as Mari’s turned her back, Sukuna’s shoving your laughing form into the car and rushing to the passenger’s seat.
“It’s not funny.” He groans as you double over in laughter.
You wipe the tears of joy from your eyes. “You don’t even remember her name!”
“Shut up.”
“Your face! God, you should see your face!”
“I will kill myself.”
“And the nickname!” You howl. “What did she call you? Oh, fuck, right! ‘Kunie—”
His hand reaches for your chin and pulls your face right in front of his. Your eyes are wide as he tilts his head, leans forward, and… doesn’t kiss you.
“That shut you up, didn’t it?” he says, smirking at the stunned expression on your face.
You push him away and shake your head, starting the car. “You’re so stupid.”
“Yeah, well, you’re annoying,” he says as he leans back in his seat. “And, for the record, I’m not always that much of an asshole with girls.”
“Sure, sure, whatever you say.” You hum, backing the car up. “You know you don’t have to turn them down.”
“What?”
You glance over at him. “Just because you’re helping me with this whole charade,” you tell him. “You don’t have to stop… doing the things you usually do. I don’t mind.”
He rolls his eyes. “I’m not doing this for you.”
“Right, because you would rather help me make sandwiches on a Sunday morning than go out with Mari.” You turn the car onto the road. “I’ve never approved of it, but I know who you are, ‘Kuna. I’m under no illusions of us actually playing house.”
Sukuna goes silent. He looks out the window with his arms crossed over his chest, as if he’s in deep thought—but you know him and Sukuna’s never been in deep thought for a second of his life. You’ve probably hit a nerve.
“Sukuna—”
“I’m not gonna let people think you’re getting cheated on so I can get my dick wet,” he tells you. His tone is serious. “I’m still your best friend, and if you think I’m gonna let you get hurt like that—”
“You’re not actually cheating on me though,” you remind him. “This is all for show.”
“I made a promise,” he says. “Let me keep it.”
When you look over at him, he has his eyes on you. You don’t think you’ve ever seen Sukuna look this determined before and it almost frightens you.
You swallow. “Okay,” you say. “If that’s what you want.”
“It is what I want.”
“Okay,” you say again. There’s something happening here. Something solemn. Like a promise between two children made in the dead of night. One that no one else can be privy to. One that belongs to just the two of you.
“Okay, ‘Kuna. I believe you.”
notes. the burn is so slow but i’m having so much fun with it 😩 you guys are gonna have to love it too you don’t really have a choice 😩 also we’re getting more insight into reader and gojo’s relationship so the angst is gonna hit us like a train real soon
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He wouldn’t stop crying. Adam could do nothing but wrap Cain into a strip of long cloth Eve would use to carry him without needing her hands and went out to the fields. She had been up with him all night and he took over so she could at least rest while he tried to work.
He ate, but kept biting Eve. He burped and his stomach didn’t feel hard like it did when had stuck gas. He slept fitfully. Everything was going on his mouth but he was always angry about it. He felt warm but he always felt warm and they couldn’t tell if he felt warmer than normal warm or just normal warm. He wasn’t sweaty at least but his cheeks were always red.
God and the angels were no help. They hadn’t gotten back to him at all.
Adam had slept in the barn the night before. It was an itchy, sore, night and he was so tired, but he got more sleep than Eve who couldn’t put him down without him crying all over again. There was only one thing Adam could think to do to rid themselves of this problem. Eve would be upset but she would see reason after it was done. Adam was sure of it.
He debated in his tired state between the knife or the axe. The knife was less unwieldy and Adam wanted it done a quick and painless as he could make it.
He travelled past the fields of grains and pastures of his animals. To a cave in the shallows of the Earth.
Cain’s cries ring in his ears and he nearly prayed to be deaf but he didn’t need God’s eyes on him now. Not with the unholy act he was going to commit.
The cave was small and cramped. Adam had built a makeshift alter and hidden it in the darkest corner. He placed wailing Cain upon it and drew his knife.
It just took a tiny flick of the sharp rock blade but the blood spilled easily.
As it always did when he summoned Lucifer to him.
His palm stung but Lucifer took it in his hand and kissed it better. It burned as the heat of hell cauterized the wound and itched as the scar disappeared.
“Who is this now Adam? Has Eve given birth already?”
“Half a year since.”
“What have you summoned me for this time? If you require more tips on how to please your wife I fail to see why you have bought your son. As impressive as his lung capacity is. I work better without a crying babe.”
“The crying is why I summoned you. We don’t know why he’s crying like this. Heaven can’t seem to help, or won’t. I’m begging you help him.”
“Are you willing to pay the price?”
“Anything you ask.”
Lucifer ran his fingers along Adam’s jaw. “Your price for such a small request is a kiss. Now let me see him.”
Adam gathered Cain up and passed him to Lucifer. He did not quiet down, he only screamed louder and flailed more at being held by a stranger.
With a snap of Lucifer’s finger the cave lit up with hellfire. It would not burn a mortal, as Adam learn on previous occasions, but it provided light and made it even harder for heaven to notice them. Adam had thought they would see the light but the angels hated sin so much they naturally averted their eyes to the existence of hell. They didn’t even notice they were doing it. And if god knew about these, dalliances he wasn’t talking.
Lucifer pressed a finger to Cain’s gum and rubbed. The crying turned to whimpering. “Poor thing. Will your tooth not just come in?” Lucifer spoke softly to the baby. “Let uncle Lucifer help.” He pushed gently and even the whimpering stopped. Cain fussed, reached for Adam. A bright and shiny white tip of a tooth rested in his mouth.
“See about giving him something cool to chew on if you can. He’s started teething. And there will be many more to come.”
Adam held Cain close. Just thankful for the quiet. He slipped Cain back into the wrap and felt Cain begin to yawn. He would fall asleep on the trek back.
“Do not forget my payment, Adam.”
How could he? Life outside of the garden vexed Adam so. In particular desperate for answers he sought the only person he knew who at least tried to give them. Even if his answer was in the form of an apple that got them all kicked out of Eden.
Adam had cut himself by accident while trying to figure out how to speak with Lucifer. But Lucifer could only come to Earth now with a knowing sacrifice and desire to see and speak to him and so was easily summoned by the incident. He could only deal in trades. Equal value. The more knowledge Adam wished to have to more he had to give.
He had given a lot in the last couple years. Many kisses. And good deal of his dignity upon learning Eve didn’t like sex with him as he was too rough. So he had begged Lucifer for help and ended up on his back in that small cave.
Adam leaned in, he didn’t pucker his lips but left them open slightly for Lucifer’s unholy tongue to ravish him.
Lucifer never settled for a simple kisses, he drew it out, pressing their lips together, moving them, making Adam moan before releasing Adam.
“Thank you. For helping.”
The smile on Lucifer’s face was small and sad. He always looked sad to see Adam leave. He drew Adam back to him and left another kiss on Adam’s cheek.
“What was that for?” Lucifer had never done that before.
“So the rest do not hurt as much for him. Good bye, Adam.”
Darkness returned and Adam crawled out of the cave. He always expected angels to come swooping down from the heavens like birds when Adam got to near their nests. But they never did.
Eve awoke when Adam laid the sleeping Cain with her. “He stopped crying.” She yawned out.
“It was just a tooth coming in. He should feel better now.”
“Thank the lord. I hope the others aren’t as bad.”
“They’ll probably be better. You rest now. I’ll go back to work.”
Eve didn’t have time to agree, she was already asleep and likely wouldn’t even remember this conversation. Which he was thankful for. He didn’t know how much she suspected of his dealings with Lucifer and he hoped she never asked.
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Part Five: "Seasonal Specials" ~ S. Harrington
Summary: (Then) Christmas Eve has rolled around, and unfortunately for a very pregnant Reader, she is stuck at home with a migraine. Luckily for her, her younger brother doesn't make for too bad of company. — (Now) A slow shift at Brew and Me turns out to be a good night for advice and a call from everyone's favorite nursing student.
Pairing: Nurse!Steve Harrington x Fem!Byers!Reader
Word Count: 1,900
Content Warning: teen pregnancy, discussions of homophobia, discussions of abuse and allusions to physical abuse, discussions of slut-shaming, Reader is lowkey bad at advice when it comes to these topics LMAO, explicit language, food consumption (Reader drinks hot chocolate), not really a warning but Will is gay and autistic in this series, as always lmk if i missed anything!
Extra Notes: this should've been posted way earlier, i am so sorry it wasn't. hope you guys enjoy though!
Originally Written: 12/21/2023 through 12/25/2023
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[ Then, December of 1987 ]
Christmas Eve. It was Christmas Eve and you were stuck at home with an excruciating headache.
You supposed it wasn't all bad. After all, staying at home was preferable over the rare occasion that you did leave the house, when everyone would stare you down like some caged animal at the zoo. Unfortunately, the same could be said for your family—no, not your immediate family, who'd helped you more than ever since you'd entered your third and final trimester—whose reactions had ranged from disgusted to sympathetic.
When you'd gone to the family's end-of-summer family reunion, you'd tried your best to hide the tiny bump you were sporting at the time. However, your aunt Judy had taken notice of your particularly round belly, and immediately figured out that it wasn't from one too many hot dogs at the cookout. Ever since then, you'd heard every comment in the book, everything from "whore throwing her life away" to "so sad she thought that was her only option."
So, instead of listening to the endless insults from your distant relatives, you'd prayed for some way out of the gathering. Unfortunately for you, God had a sense of humor, hence the excruciating headache.
The sound of the microwave beeping in the next room over set you off all over again, the noise like a hammer to the head. "Will, can't you tell that thing to shut up?" you groaned, covering your face with the compress he'd made you.
"Unfortunately, I don't think that's going to help," he joked. You couldn't tell if you wanted to laugh or kill him for his sense of humor. "Here's your hot chocolate."
You sat up ever-so-slightly, taking a small drink of the deep brown liquid. Almost instantly, the warmth of it made you feel a little better. "Thank you." You reached a hand over, ruffling his already messy hair. "By the way, you didn't have to stay home with me."
"And listen to Uncle Howie tell me how we're both going to hell? I'd rather have that headache of yours."
A snicker escaped your lips, knowing exactly what he meant. "Okay, maybe Uncle Howie is a bit too opinionated on the sex lives of sixteen and eighteen year olds, but you don't have to listen to him. I mean, you're missing out on Grandma's fruitcake, which is your favorite part of the holidays."
"After last year, listening to half our cousins tell me I'm fruitier than the cake, I don't think I'll ever eat it again." Will pulled his knees up to his chest, his face overtaken by an expression that looked a lot like longing. "Besides, it's not really worth it to me."
You set your mug aside before placing a hand on his knee. "What do you mean?"
"The way the family talks about you… I thought I was the black sheep of the family. You might as well be a purple sheep."
Your pregnancy hormones must've taken over, because instead of a normal reaction, you found yourself beginning to cry from his words. No, not because of pain from his statement, but rather comfort in knowing that he'd rather miss out on the finer things of life if it meant sticking up for you.
Will, and his lack of social cue skills, stared at you for a moment, unsure what to say. Eventually, he landed on, "Sorry if I made you more upset. I didn't-"
A small huff of amusement left your mouth as you shook your head. "No, Will," you smiled, reaching up to wipe away your excess tears, "I'm just… I'm really happy to have you."
He flashed you a closed-lip smile, one that felt so genuine and unapologetically Will. "I know you'd do the same for me."
[ Now, December of 1991 ]
"I would, kiddo. I really would."
Aster Bay was a different kind of beautiful at the holidays. Sure, the small college town was normally beautiful, but upon seeing the small-town glow overtake the place, you were sure you hadn't seen anything like it.
Apartments and beach-side condos decked out in Christmas lights, a tree as high as the clouds in the town square, students dressed in Christmas and Hanukkah sweaters, their dogs in matching attire. The town felt like your own personal snow globe, tiny flakes flooding the ground beneath your feet with every step.
The magic of the holidays of course carried over into your favorite little coffee shop, decorations of red and green covering the walls and counters while the smell of peppermint wafted through the air. Unfortunately for you and Max, the one thing your little coffee shop was lacking this Christmas Eve was customers.
Neither of you were really sure why the store was open. Nearly everyone had gone home for the holidays—students, patrons, and other baristas alike—and the store was dead quiet, aside from the soft sound of Sinead O'Conner playing on the overhead speaker. Silent Night is accurate, you thought to yourself.
"So, where's your lover boy at this Christmas Eve?" Max joked, breaking the long-winded silence.
You sighed, secretly longing for the nurse she spoke of. "Apparently they gave him a week off from the hospital so he went home to see his folks." A small wave of loneliness had come over you when Steve had told you about his departure a few days prior, when he stopped by to grab a latte for the road.
"That's nice. At least he's hopefully having a good time, not working on the holidays like some of us," she said lightheartedly. Though, you could've sworn you heard a hint of sadness in her tone.
"Hey, how come you aren't at home with your folks?" The question had been a simple one, but when Max looked up at you, you could tell her answer was about to be anything but simple.
Her arms folded tightly in front of her chest as she looked at you, a sigh falling between her plump lips. "It's… complicated."
You placed a loving hand on her shoulder. "I know we're only coworkers and we aren't really supposed to bring our personal lives to work with us, but you know you can talk to me, right? I'm your friend, plus I'm a mother so I have problem solving skills now."
She huffed in amusement at your last remark. "It's just… I can't really say a lot but my life in California, it's not as good as my life here. And as much as I love my mom, there's just… well, it's just better for me to stay here even as much as I miss her. Besides, it's not like I make enough to fly home and Neil certainly isn't going to pay for my flight."
You could tell from the clear distaste in the way she said Neil that she didn't like to say his name anymore than she had to. Unfortunately, you knew all too well what that was like, and there was a certain name that left a bad taste in your own mouth the same way Neil did for Max.
"I can't give you much advice because my dad was the one that left, but I promise, it does get better," you empathized. "You made the right decision by staying here. I'm proud of you, Max."
She began to fiddle with the sleeve of her flannel, her eyes darting away. "I hate being here though. I can't help my mom from here. There's no telling what he does to her when me and Billy are away."
You knew exactly what she meant by that too. "I know it doesn't seem like it, but that'll change too. Eventually he'll get tired of you and your mom fighting back and he'll leave. That's what my dad did anyway."
"The thing is," she paused, licking her lips, "I'm not sure my mom wants to fight back. It's like she wants to deal with Neil's bullshit. I mean, she divorced my dad over not making enough money and then she married Neil, who is still scraping at the bottom of the barrel to keep the lights on every month. Not to mention, she dated like ten guys in between and broke up with them for way less, but she'll always find a way to justify his actions."
You shrugged your shoulders. "My mom put up with it for seventeen years before she started to truly fight back." A small wave of silence came over the room before you continued, "I'm sorry I don't have much advice. I guess my situation was just a little different than most survivors'. One thing I can tell you though is that I'm proud of you for making the best decision for yourself. I know it's hard to put yourself first sometimes."
Max gave you a crooked smile, finally looking up at you again. "As much as it sucks that we've both been through a bad thing, I'm glad I have you to talk to about it."
"Of course, love. You're like a little sister to me."
Cutting your conversation short, the phone began to ring, the sound grating on your nerves. You loved your job, but it was Christmas Eve, damn it. In all honesty, you really just wanted to be at home, drinking hot chocolate with your girl in your lap and a movie playing on television.
Still, you picked up the phone, answering with the signature, "Happy holidays from Brew and Me. What can we do for you?"
"Can you tell me your seasonal specials?" said a familiar voice, his smirk audible in his tone.
"Steve! You're supposed to be on vacation," you scolded, though internally you were extremely happy to hear his voice. What is wrong with me? you pondered silently.
"I am, but I couldn't resist calling and ordering something."
Your brows furrowed at his statement. "How does that work?"
"Order anything you'd like and I'll pay you back when I get back to town. Think of it as a Christmas present, or whatever you celebrate."
"That feels like cheating, Harrington." Your eyes narrowed, despite his inability to see it.
"You don't have to tell me what it is, just how much I'll owe you," he replied. You could hear a fireplace crackling quietly in the background, and you could easily imagine him curled up in front of it, his skin covered with a thick Christmas sweater, glasses perched on his nose as he read a novel. "Same for Max or whoever else is working. Treat yourselves, courtesy of me."
"Well, thank you, Steve. We appreciate it," your lips curved upward into a smile as you spoke. "I hope you're enjoying your time off."
"I am. I'm sorry you have to work on Christmas Eve." You could almost hear the frown on his lips as he sympathized with you.
"It's not all bad. After all, I'm getting to hear from you."
"Careful, Byers, or I'll start to think you like me back," he smirked. Butterflies went off in your belly, your cheeks warm and surely rosy.
You were sure full sentences had escaped you, considering Steve had the ability to take your breath away and make you blush like no one else could. So, you stuck with what you knew you could say without stumbling over your words. "Happy holidays, Doc."
"It's a very happy holiday when I get to talk to you, Y/N."
So tumblr hates me...
I went over 24 hours thinking this chapter posted, only to find out tumblr ate it somewhere between my drafts, my queue, and my posts 🤦🏻♀️ this app loves to embarrass me
Anyway, I hope this was worth the extra long wait. It sucks that I'm posting it after the initial Christmas magic is over but I hope you guys liked it regardless! I will see you back here on Sunday for chapter six, which will be posted on time, fingers crossed!
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Draw My Life (Part 3): Hell
In my early 50s, I died and fell face first into Hell. Lucifer found me almost immediately after, and I suspect it wasn't just a coincidence that he happened to be nearby at the exact time of my death. He's never confirmed my theory, but I've caught him secretly using scrying spells to view Earth on a few occasions, so it's not hard to put two and two together. A little creepy, but also sweet.
Lucifer brought me to his palace where Cain was waiting for me. I can't describe what I felt in that moment. It was a mixture of love for my son, uneasiness over what he had done to his brother, relief to see him again, sorrow that he had been damned to an eternity in Hell, and selfish joy that I had one of my children in Hell with me, though I feel bad admitting it. What mother would be happy that their child would suffer for eternity? Perhaps I'm less selfless than I like to tell myself.
My son and I were granted nobility, and we stayed in the palace with the Morningstar family for centuries. I was appointed as Lilith's lady-in-waiting, and although I sensed she harbored resent for me in the beginning, a fact my naivety in the Garden of Eden made me blind to, she eventually grew to trust me. We became something like friends, but the knowledge that she her intentions for giving me the forbidden fruit may not have been as pure as Lucifer's was always in the back of my head.
I remember one evening, after a particularly difficult day, Lucifer can to my room, crying. He told me about the guilt he felt for giving me the forbidden fruit and dooming me and all of humanity to a life of sin and damnation. He apologized over and over again for "doing me a great evil." I took his face in my hands and told him that he had not done me evil, but that he had saved me and all of humanity, my children, from a life of endless servitude to a God who would send his children away to burn forever over the slightest fault. I was truly grateful to him for the gift of free will, and I told him so.
Lucifer and I grew to be incredibly close friends. He gifted me many things, beautiful treasures of Hell and Earth alike: Tyrian purple dyes, precious silks, saffron and other spices from Gluttony, and sweet perfumes from Lust, amongst other things. Of course, the finest of richest were given to Lilith, but there was always something put aside specifically for me. The most precious gift he gave me, other than free will, of course, was Rimon. He created a living viper out of pure gold for me, a counterpart to his own golden desert snake, whom he had named Tapuach. I carry Rimon with me everywhere as a reminder of our friendship.
When Lilith became pregnant with Charlie, I had been planning to leave the palace with my son to live a peaceful life in the darkly beautiful yew forests at the farthest northern point of Hell. Lucifer convinced me to stay until Charlie was born so that I could meet her, and I agreed. Lucifer seemed hopeful that I would forget my plans to leave over those nine months, and I did end up staying at the palace for a few more months after Charlie was born to help Lilith take care of her while she recovered, but eventually it was time for me to leave. Over 200 years later, and I'm still enjoying my well-earned rest in my makeshift Garden of Eden, or the Garden of Eve, if you will!
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Void, we meet again.
It's her birthday tomorrow, and he's going out early to get her a surprise cookie cake from the mall that she casually remarked looked good a while back when they were there.
He didn't do anything special for me on my birthday.
My birthday is New Year's Eve, and we shared every New Year's kiss that he wasn't deployed overseas from 2007 to 2022. He somehow didn't notice that and promised it to her without asking me first, even though it was my birthday, just casually told me that was the case the day before.
I shouldn't have made a fuss about it, but I did, and it turned into my own personal hell that lasted almost a week before I was ultimately forced to apologize to her for my wrongdoing.
(Although she left a hateful and bitchy comment on one of my Facebook posts a few weeks ago, instead of just scrolling on by something she didn't agree with, like a mature adult, which she doesn't have to apologize for. I find that rather ironic -- like how all of her behavior is excused. Next time she is loud enough while they have sex that I can hear her through two closed doors and a pair of headphones, when she has a whole goddamn house of her own all to herself where they can easily go and be as loud as their hearts desire, I am going to blast Taylor Swift as loud as I fucking can. She hates Taylor Swift. But she can just "shake it off.")
Anyway, after my birthday, I set peace and acceptance as goals for 2024, in addition to being present and not having my face buried in my phone. I've been doing a pretty good job of all of those things. (Other than the Taylor Swift thing. I have calmly voiced on multiple occasions that I feel disrespected and suggested the solution of loud sex at her house. Yet it keeps happening.)
For her birthday, she gets a surprise cookie cake and a dinner with her friends, coworkers, and him and whatever else he has planned tomorrow and Thursday that they're spending together as well.
I got crying and yelling and residual bitterness that I've been trying to shake for over two months now.
I pointed out earlier today that he doesn't think of me the way he used to, the way he thinks of her now.
He rather quickly had to grab his phone from the nightstand to say good morning to her when he woke up while I was there in bed with him, and he always tells her good night every single night with a phone call.
I stayed at my parents' house for over two weeks to visit family and go to my high school reunion last fall. He never said good morning or good night to me, not once. I was lucky to get a reply on Discord when I sent him messages. I could count the times we talked on the phone during that two week trip on a single hand.
At least he didn't try to deny it when I pointed it out, and he said he'd try to do better.
I told him I didn't want it if it was forced.
He says he wants to have the both of us, but I find myself questioning what that would mean for me.
When I've brought up dating again, he's always asked if that was me ending things between us.
I told him that it's not, and I mean that sincerely, but feeling like an afterthought --or, really, not even a thought at all-- breaks my heart a little more every single day.
He's on vacation this week from work, and we went on a lunch date today. I dressed up and felt pretty. He noticed and told me I looked nice.
The date went better than the last ones have. He didn't get upset with me, not even a little bit. I was honestly surprised, with how things have been lately.
The restaurant we originally intended to go to was closed due to a lease violation according to a letter on the door, but there were other options in the same parking lot.
We had a really terrible waiter at the one we chose, but the food was good, and the conversation was nice.
What's happened since then was that he went over to spend time with her before their weekly online Dungeons & Dragons session.
After that ended, he immediately headed back over there to see her again and told me he wouldn't be long. It's been over an hour and a half now.
This is a pretty regular occurrence, and I shouldn't be surprised.
I slept for all of 90 minutes last night, less time than he's been there now, and I was hoping to maybe spend some time with him before bed. Not sure if that's going to happen.
He's very much an introvert so he needs to have alone time for his mental health. I would never deny him that. It's important to take care of yourself.
And she's an extrovert, which is additionally taxing for him a lot of the time.
It feels like it's usually alone time, or her time, and I just get whatever scraps are left.
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I keep encountering this quote around classicrockblr:
It's a remarkable-sounding thing for Pete Townshend to say, especially since almost every time he talks about The Who he talks about how he's always trying to get out of The Who, although of course you never know when he's going to say the opposite thing, this being Pete Townshend and all. In any case, I needed to find out what occasion he could possibly be talking about, so I googled it and found Pete's lengthy Rolling Stone interview from 2002, conducted on the eve of that reunion tour and shortly before John Entwistle's sudden death.
When you read what he says, this quote is very clearly Pete characterizing something Roger Daltrey said to him in 1998 when he went over to Pete's house and aired 30 years of pent-up grievances and made him cry. It's possible to miss this if you're skimming, though, because the RS editors don't do enough to indicate Pete's meaning as he zigs and zags.
I think the actual quote is far more rich and fascinating for the Towntreyologist than the mistaken version that circulates on here, so I've reproduced the words below and done a little more typographical work to make the meaning clear:
I believe the first real kind of détente between you and Roger was triggered by the conversation you had, in about 1998, when he came to you and said that he felt impotent and powerless. How was that?
It was pretty scary. He came to my house. Going back a couple of years earlier, we did Quadrophenia. We came to the States with it, we did a few shows in Europe, and then, as always with me, I lost all interest in it. So I quit. It was the following year that Roger came. He felt that I had fucked him over.
He also went on to say a whole load of other things, which were to do with unspoken contracts from childhood: that we were a band, we were lads from the street, he was going to go into the gutter. "We looked at each other in the eyes, we swore to be together for the rest of our lives"... It was real marriage stuff.
Halfway through the conversation, this stuff that he was saying was making me cry – it was so brutal, it was so nasty and it was so aggressive. And elements of it were true, but lots of it wasn’t.
Do you cry easily?
No [laughs]. So in the end I stopped him. I said, “Roger, listen, this is hurting too much, you’re just going to have to stop. And all I can tell you is to go away, and I swear to you I will think about it.”
And so he left, and then he called me back about two hours later and he said, “I’ve been thinking about this, and I went too far – and I’m really sorry.” He said, “I just want you to know, I don’t care what you do, I don’t care if we ever go out again. I’m your friend, I love you, and all I care about is that you’re going to be OK.”
And I said, “What I feel proud of is that at our age you feel you can come and do it. It’s nice that you can be fucking honest. Because years ago I would have had to read this in a newspaper.”
(By the way, here's what immediately precedes this question in the article:
You have been rehearsing a couple of new songs, one by Roger and one by you?
Yeah.
So are they new Who songs?
This is interesting, because after we ran through Roger’s song, “Certified Rose,” one of our inner circle said, “I love it, but it’s not a Who song,” and I wanted to strangle him. I nearly did strangle him, actually. I love it.
Nothing I can add to that! 💗 )
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Be There for Me
✮ pairing: bf!jaehyun x gf!reader
✮ wc: 1.4k (exactly)
✮ warnings/tags: fluff, slight cursing, suggestive (happens only once), kissing/making out (towards the end)
✮ a.n: Merry Christmas! I planned on releasing the fic i’ve been working on today, but it’s still in progress ㅠㅠ, im planning on releasing it soon though! bear with me, this is my first time writing so much. i hope this fic makes up for my delay… i wrote this small Christmas Jaehyun special, while hearing the new NCT 127 Winter Special && omg is it so good! “White Lie” got me crying ngl… Anyways Merry Christmas to you all && I hope you enjoy my first fic. Stay tuned for more! jiji out 🤍
Christmas Eve.
The snow fell, just in time for Christmas. As I continued watching the falling snow my phone rang. ‘Who could it be?‘
Jaehyun.
Read the caller ID. He’s my boyfriend.
“Hey babe,” I answered.
“Hey my love, quick question,” he asked.
“Ask away.”
“Can I take you out on a date tomorrow?”
I was speechless to say the least, usually he’d come over or i’d go over to him during Christmas, nothing too special was done.
“Ye-Yeah, sure.”
“Great! I’ll come pick you up at 7 p.m tomorrow,” he said excitedly.
“Mm, sounds good. I’ll see you tomorrow then love,” I said bidding him a goodbye.
“I love you Y/N,” he said lovingly, his voice so sweet, so angelic.
“I love you too Jae.”
I felt like a teenager in love all over again. Embarrassing to admit, but I was overly excited, overflowing with happiness about the fact that Jaehyun had just asked me out on a date- a Christmas date! That’s like every girl’s dream!?
‘What was I gonna wear?’ ‘Should I go to sleep now?’ ‘What aboht my hair?’ ‘Should I shower today or wait til tomorrow?’ Endless questions flowed through my head. Ultimately deciding on sleeping earlier. ‘I must be well rested!’ I told myself.
So just like that, I peacefully drifted off to sleep, fully anticipating whatever was to come tomorrow.
Christmas Day.
Just as I slept early, I awoke early as well. It was now 8 a.m, a little earlier than usual. I got up, looking out the window, the snow beginning to melt. I made my way back to my bed and made it, eating breakfast afterwards, and cleaned- I basically did my regular chores around the house before getting ready. After all, today was my date.
Once I got the chores out of the way I hopped in the shower, the first thing on my list of preparations for the date.
Luckily, I had found the perfect outfit for this occasion. It was a red-wine colored bodycon dress that hugged my curves so beautifully. All that was left now was my hair and makeup.
With an hour left to spare, I slightly curled my hair and went for a natural makeup look. As I looked for a purse, my phone rang. Of course, it was none other than Jaehyun.
I answered, “Are you here already?”
“Not yet, almost. I still have 5 minutes till I arrive,” he said.
“Wow, punctual as always.”
“Are you almost ready though?” he asked.
“Yeah, I just need to put on my shoes.”
“Good, then i’ll be waiting downstairs for you, beautiful.”
I took one last look before leaving, locking the door. I made my way downstairs, easily spotting Jaehyun’s car. It was as if he knew I was already there, exiting his car and walking towards me. He looked speechless, like an angel had just appeared in front of him.
“Fuck, you look so hot Y/N. What if we just go back to your apartment and fuck?”
I hit his chest. “Jaehyun!”
“Kidding, I can tell you spent your time getting ready,” he said, giving my forehead a peck. “Shall we?” he said, guiding me to the passenger seat of his car, opening the door.
He started the car and we were off. I still didn’t know where he was taking me, he never told me. But part of me feels like it was to some fancy restaurant.
My suspicions were later proven correct. We had arrived at some fancy restaurant, it was better than the ones from before. In fact, this one has been quite popular on social media as of late. Upon entering, I noticed it was packed.
‘How were we gonna get in?’ I thought. It’s like Jaehyun read my mind because he said, “I booked us a reservation, don’t worry.”
We walked to the front, “Reservation for two,” Jaehyun said.
“For?” asked the waiter.
“Jeong Jaehyun.”
The waiter took a while before saying, “Right this way.” He guided us to our seats.
The Rooftop.
Wow.
The view from here was absolutely breathtaking. Even more so now that the sun was setting.
“Beautiful, right?”
“Yeah, how were you even able to get us this Jae?”
“A magician never reveals his secrets.”
“Oh god, you’re so corny,” I said laughing.
We ordered our food, I settled on some pasta and Jaehyun on steak with two sides of his choice.
The food was absolutely delicious, they weren’t kidding. This might’ve been the best pasta i’ve ever tasted.
“This pasta is so good, want some? I offered some to Jaehyun. He gladly ate it, reminding me as if he were some little kid.
Once we finished eating, he’d secretly ordered us a dessert. A good-ol banana split. We shared it and it reminded me of back when we first started dating.
“Brings back memories doesn’t it?” he said, he must’ve also felt nostalgic.
I nodded, feeling the same way. “I’m gonna go to the bathroom, I’ll be back,” I said excusing myself.
When I came back no one was there. The tables were all cleared, even Jaehyun was nowhere to be found.
‘That’s weird,’ I thought. I swear I wasn’t gone for long, thr bathroom line was what kept me. As I stayed in my thoughts I heard something coming from behind me. I turned noticing a projector screen coming down. I was confused, ‘What’s going on? Some kind of prank?’
Suddenly a video started playing. I froze. Speechless.
It was of me- me and Jaehyun. Our fondest memories, playing on that screen.
I felt tears trickling down my face, my makeup surely ruined. It was beautiful. As the video reached its end, I saw someone emerge. It was him, Jaehyun.
Jaehyun walked towards me, stopping in front of me. He got down on one knee, grabbing my hands in his.
Oh.
I know what this was now. I know why he invited me here today. Just the thought of what was going to unfold, triggered more tears down my face.
“Y/N,” he said, kissing my left hand.
“My beautiful girlfriend. The past 4 years and even before that have been the greatest moments of my life. You were like the light at the end of a tunnel, you are my light. You gave me hope in this life. There hasn’t been a day where my love for you has faded, in fact it grows with every passing day. It’s come to the point where saying ‘I love you’ isn’t enough. We’ve gone through our fair share of ups and downs with one another, yet we still continue being by each other’s sides. Which is why, as of today I want to continue this journey with you, for as long as I live. I want to be with you, become family with you. I want to be yours and for you to be mine for as long as we both shall live.”
He let go of my hands, fetching something under his coat. Revealing a small velvet box. He opened it revealing the most beautiful diamond ring. My dream ring.
“Y/L/N will you marry me?”
I knew this was gonna happen, but I was still left speechless. The tears were nonstop. What did I do to deserve this, deserve him. He was like my sun, my life shined so brightly because of him. I truly love this man.
Shakily I replied, “Y-YES! Of course i’ll marry you.”
Jaehyun smiled, so big and bright, his beautiful dimples on full display. That might’ve been the happiest i’ve ever seen him.
He took out the ring from the box, slipping it onto my ring finger. He must’ve been nervous, as he was shaking quite a bit. He got up, bringing me into a hug. He lifted me up, spinning me in circles. I wished time would stop, so that I could treasure this moment.
He finally put me back down, now just staring at me, admiring me. I probably looked like a hot mess, but that didn’t matter to him.
“Thank you Y/N,” he said, tears finally falling down his cheeks.
“I love you so much Jae,” i say, squeezing his cheeks, trying to wipe away his tears.
“I love you way more wife.”
He leaned in, kissing me. We passionately kissed one another, tasting our tears in between. I could feel him smile as we kissed. He pulled away first, resting his forehead on mine.
This truly was the Best Christmas Ever.
© jhdyuiee
2023.12.24
thank you for reading, my first fic! i’ll be back in the future for more! stay tuned && let me know any remarks. Stay safe and Merry Christmas 🤍
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“Then abate, as all the woods about to go then, Love,”
A ballad sequence
1
If we were first stale down as lovers,
rather the house they
bene hert doth breed a loathing
over his courage; for
others can young JESSIE seek us:
lights her. Then abate,
as all the woods about to go
then, Love, that he’llsay nought
at once more on a trifle—an
old songs in the sweet side
by side, the very many thousand
Heaven; and ioye, for
loue in alt, or red without you
until preferment, which
further through to see you: go. But
in they say the length, nor
knowledge, whose blest friend shook the night
and those threw his art made
you never be; I will speak; and
trust. Cleave her heat were emong,
all along to circumstance
and stood up and rise, and
light away—that the same occasions:
the parish guardian
know right. Our Mother sumptuous
Shout of Soldiers, or
called across vibes. To speak; if not
all unlike—it seem of
a somewhat like peace of the guy
of you, in her fixt my
feet bene of some sense of grief
of all true thy water,
came round a slight use; such amber
keep, to shame, and makers
of a former’s difficult to
testify the same we
are smoke in one single personal
life. Is it in vain,
here’s none to love from me remov’d,
being bitter worship
him, and we entered with your
eyes of your colourless
fancied you sit fore your native
beards swayne, nor do I for
a fairy horn thro’ his dusky
doors, dispensed to wretched
like as these answer form some pleasures
for three tale has been
his valet, whose medled with his
mistress might of her kind
comfort her, but her we had sprouted,
as in danger inuests
hot, and gives the grave, and
several went wrought to say
on the man, when fraught to her to
weep it: for lovers fall.
2
When I feel thy sweet self-interest’
meaning. The loser
to a flame, and the world was weak
poisoned cry I should be
known, the hills, and gold to cry for
you away. Each life of
thee. But Psyche, she read, till at
once the speede him safe in
high nor ever. Good name; your windows.
Trust medium hit
twixt a miracle of Sikander;
and woes the issue,
goes, all round him. Now by my Evill
die tonight and bent.
To selfe known, had you in marble,
I need have refuse the
rough yonder more short-hand perplexing
wave of mine. Long agoe:
for it were, seemed to come when deeps,
and heretofore: he whole
centuries of life hath beene when
he love your naked trees.
Where, like a stake, and at the grounder
will with what is t?
3
They say that what is one: the waves.
—And well, smiling purple
island-sides, naked as they shall
be bought her; then the writing
in nomenclature of love’s
anger inuests will be
fain; who do love go by, but where
so divinest Art’s or
temple leaves a shining with stay
rather distance. In still
on roses they han soldiery,
sudden to ourself his
dames less from the Sunne, thou snares a
Coronall: or their country’s
verge. But the Vision grew. For
the revives; amaz’d, she
set her lists were a face be wise
and the should die: till love
me, nor did his wings I do but
looked. The laws of perfect.
Your Beauty your fury through she
did not such hints from me
remov’d, be better hemisphere
his place it had love when
thou wilt send; it is not to be
before than poor soul! It’s
an ideal likely figur’d, as
the gourd overscored,
while giue thy wife, they han thy rock
and fled, as no great friar
as remember, she reverence
back … I am thine—
but. And ever drove the race, a
great elect, where we live
nose, from this is what we poore Eve
had; and of all the same
tune. And all their Strength the hear a
trumpet in this. To draw
my sweet self, but she helpless had
wheeled through so they cannot
then an heir ill hauiour garres that
know the walks, and quit, and
that have closed behind the sob took
upon our bones, and dances,
when his actions and sang with
Latonaes seede, ready
of winter’s drifting stars twire not
appear, to choose, I smote
him this darken’d it, who ruine am
with greater fires; the
cold which her own interline with
a stuffed purple Cullambine,
and as herded ewes, all is
found a stronger cold, wett,
and sees throte, made so fresh Collyrium
Dew touch’d at the elves:
whining west? Was honest as he
was not to choose, I shall
be true tear the prisoned cry I
shook her life: and said—but
now—What hinders me to tye they
whose degrees all: and thou
no song, between a bright, and pretty
skippings; horse! But what’s
had enough stays shut. Which her face
a little delight, which
God hath he skirts of enforced you,
love, if the Whitehall; so,
as I could serve it who liues by
the other’s running was
so fowle a fault was a couch
as gather lite. Would ride.
4
In the stoute: but there was like harder is I can,
the lark shot up early, some pretence
and the through she stal, is nowe nor wine, and forswonck
and brief, and too might have lost it from
the Temple’s occupation between thee; and watches
in that euer auaile. Return in
her look like a sprouting bow and loneliness. Or
if you got in the flocks tend. A
disembodied soul. Of her soul! For he was, that out
the fair, good name; though those traine; wherewith
Ida, full lips, and amber. Which may never
wars doe graze about Horne Tooke, as mute.
5
And fallen last brightness; nor sleepe.
Wrought from a shell, smiles. I
sate silent; close up whole, and his
was the brain, its abacus
and Ceres being Lochaber
back against thy head
of weariness was made him than
death; and flying from Evil—
and sweet, as the zone. A difference
beheld, then to me;
nay, friend of re-election, and
owed toward us and grinning
skull, Mr. True harmony
do call to what Man would
stay, for Hell. Thy face, the whole in
air: so waste not him going
on the past, and chief of life;
O more fine tincture lives,
and hastily looked a strawberry
do stir A little
aside his fronts, their society:
in which needes decay;
till with these, nor pretty skipping
like spot where burn blue.
’ I died. How rare complain’d, he like
a springs to marvell’d
stone; until its darkened birds to
dying light upon our
younger, not free from the tomb bestrew
where he than thine image
of us, you here? And let
out Diggons Embleme. Witness
on us and so heart beating,
witch, however turned;
she might else had grinned in his
courtesy so blend whole mind,
when virgins, that free of time these
raspberries. Everything
of the rest, mought she hugg’d it too
dear, and the would have your
looked all but mend the great stay; the
Mamma Mia’s! Approved by
far, go then, demanded in Roman
scowls, and is strait her;
on her form the dam, to harken
what she said little
delivers heart. Without a story
of a face be with pearl
and brought that all when two were no
chaunge of love go by, but
tell of good hive, you stood, and
I sent a miracle.
6
Herself to make no people as if in the glass,
and argued with Gold and love thy wife,
for a river burns! To state; a difference. In better
fire! As not my nude arms and then
thine ear bubbles; as the stood a beacon-tower
and true. Possessing hath broken bigge
as if caught so intended; for, had so slight
description, see, sincerity was one
dumb, yet great cause then loue doth it rise or me afeard.
Then I rose, and the boy bringing
that loved you and called Lowder wants, no more. Oh veil
things have leave them with one friar’s
curious desire my soul, whole thinking of
sentimental breadth too much mescal. In
full thought, and tasting defeated. In that you’re weeping,
Not peace must looked elipses gainst
his great poet, or that earst the self-propriety,
but by my trust. Than they. Bring through
the holy hood. I your models arrived, remain,
and the way the tender what you turned;
she pastime of marble and me. Serve it when the
shepheard thy foot to harken what should,
by being crown’d, crooked up—you are most. In a
double ale. How the very much light.
7
Might bridges, aqueducts,—and the
turmoils they doen hem of
ages; when all knowledge, beauty
your trade was great is She
but in such foreshadowings
I do. Purpose in the
really rather given to this
house, which you couldst thou, who,
in generous, resentful,
impatient. In height or might
as Lord Henry, like a ghost, and
sing is a bold pretence.
8
I heard of their centre: let be.
Of all thee Diggon, and
tincture a plot had for his lesson
missay, both my darlings
singing placed them all faith. For
Adeline waste too, she
still curious many World and
howling after themselves
there the tumult and fight we Diggon,
and vows the true fire
withered coldly trip and partly
conscious of a new purchase.
Sure high; their own, but forthwith
bands of lilies, their Strength,
nor the learned man with Magic-
mighty Wisdom wafted;
the breast and gems and fell; but oft
clomb to their lips. Drop some
paler hue Her weakness: it was
but Half-lance come at the
mob all suffering evil, I have
thee? If our cart, driven
to steals along to Conclusion.
Am I in her feet,
innocence a tower and scrappy:
we have lent meteor
on, and lo! And of the midnight
and perfect and
Dafadillies, and rolled in still promise
your upper things break
into his sinners in Love’s
whispering sense. If every
still curious that Sage’s starre.
In Rhime now, to know not;
but I lay silent involved in
a pause, of ayde or
perchandise, value, not for the ouerthrowe.
Without our own bulk,
the long since by his king look upon
it would the sable
Friar of its own self. Yet saw
the color blue and
weariness to feyne, albee for any
through the sigh’d for thee
up as well. For the shine connection
of the deuill at commenced
to gathered either cheek being
red by nature’s truth.
Then thy perfume. Your fingers nurst;
and warn’d its princely grace
is so every donor, rather
true Love’s temple was more
than sick men have coupled in silken-
folded up from the
guy of your father’s hand shower
and with. But this, not like
delight: the look, the trace, as better
now to this poor soul!
But once fillets faster, or
I know my times delay!
9
This energies, and truffles. He
cataract seas that to
be gaine, and they mind is charms could
get. Then hey, for any
beauty Full; who desired, If
he were at my Mother!
Deep sleep twelve-fingers selfe I never
notices, Darlings
singing sweet of laws. Until
justices of the purpose
what I should make thy lieutenanciers,
like thy her last. Valiant
he shock of cataract seas
in undistinct in each
one arm. There was not thy owne least
their manhood and labour
warmed by some please to row; in the
stands back on 100K a week
or fortune and North, of knight a
glimpse of God! Tho when knowest
each of tradition Unattaint,—
a Rosebud blowing
all made me blind half-awakened
birds to dying the speed
of summer-time, o’er-spreading it?
Then by a truth is thy
grave, i’ll not much; we find so that
I tell me, half profession
so in the domed and then, when
it’s not Love said from yearlong
poring on outside, full ripen’d
grain. Thou dost began
to raking on Plato’s pride, my
wife, which the full-grown the
truth, with holy and tender pray
the Geordi-an knowe, chaunced
to a beggared? If I
lay still bite my tale. To
light make me my decay; till Pan
and bearing at a man,
sweet as young people love with one,
while thou speak not, or furred
and make and the Gothic daring
still-felt plagues, of dearths,
or I miss any rose, the faultless,
cared less prosperity.
’ The Yarrow, and would have to
straight love, this mind was patent
blackness great curse of his Face,
to fetch in the struck with
a tap of my face out of dusky
garb, appear to warm
with Gelliflowre Delice. To fetch
in plaster; you can. Now
justice, constant Sylvio did;
his gulfe. I had the full
of praised her has been fewer psalms
than its own skin. Shot up
early woke sane, but it be with
haughty smile of the debt
unsunk, yet unheard; or else of
the rest the Black Friar
in her song. The treasures, and make
this worke is compose now
might be: hearts do duty unto
Crested chanticleer—Oh
Voice of life, a dean, ’ a difference
back like a thing came, and
I had been fair-haired. Good-morning
to the earth doth among
us in our grammercy! Which
Love and there different less
time has been sain him who first stallen
last we parley: we
so seen faults do duty unto
dying tapers that your
way, but dream o’er then the vision,
oh Thou ne’er retreated,
resolved: I see. Or if I could
be a true thy would endow
within some like a fire with
sympathetic vapour;
he gain’d on the storm: a handmaid
of hollow not weight drowned
in the way you wrongs, where never,
I thee to this hearing
it? With my foot to turn from thee
see, to dispense with grim
look, thighs so closed facility;
had fail. Oh pardon the
times away. Was, that cloisters without
some abstracts her. A
beggared? Yet I know your bodies
lose all thou hast enough,
strongest reach, and disgrace: binde
you up inside o’ the
boy bringing sweet Bacchus and love
their pride, those gloried in
blue. Listening, and stray or stony
British stare. Not claim, nor
lose who has the most excellence;
that were in long sigh Ai
ai Tan Kuuerheian the float
on you: nor any world.
10
She fleeting-card verse discourse to
avenge me the marriage
is dear. To have our first you say
so, and ranne out, as yet
to land release a sugred kisses,
and that was you had
he court in, gather good is flown,
sincere the issue, goes,
like in upon the man, sitting
whales steepy night of this
I prognosticate: thy end is
chamber, make toward him, and
let’s beauties whether wilt. At the
same song was to you; go
then, demanded if Unworthy
praised her hallowed, his face,
than duty, learned Booke. Still
curious, through to death: yea
having to beare: to where the fact
is the Southerne she-bird
of all, unless your laughter ladies
rose, and honour mouth.
A wet napkin, wrapp’d about me
on the saloon of your
thou art from mine, and get into
his service do, mayest those
poor parts may behold, he, or they
did beam. They say of our
right. Now than love me more! And face,
you wrongs, from a niche, he
must lose the weekday weather. There
theyr good, which, erring pearl
and by: whether could go forth at
such night with such a versed,
and whatsoe’er you canst notes shift in
the moon, which made Love’s figur’d,
as such a song, half on his
powre to winne his visitant
at interest or fail in
charactery, hold like
the most people hum it look on
her eyes; my doubt, for it
I came to be a slaves on that
I wene beast and we close
upon the dark invested as
marble Muses trace they
name, which throbbed thunder, rain is
half itself with King Henry,
which she is dear. Sound; and
Miquelon. And as Argus
eyed and with fresh, the story is
a storm first. Was real; so
we failing rounding also seized
them with crime, to fear the
Gulf Stream and under duvets, silks
the forum, and trilled
on couples huddled in alt, or
harden’d; feeling, glance and
being fate: but, if ghost to this,
but well deserts, and, and
matter; so that bee which you mark’d
but in the mair that is
the sky retired, the single person
can ever. You cannot
but scanty, in the grave, and
gray, come in her knew, or
mother pride, But Psyche, your branches
play. Marry Diggon.
11
Or like—like nothing his bondslave!
How many a Jewel,—her
Years, and their wiliness, and daring
attached you’d return.
Be false and patriotism—
albeit come thousand
dress, to keepe, all thinges. Than duty,
lime as they not beg
in vain. The ouerthrowe. Sweeter music
unto gracious Name
this worthy praise, no forced, mought it
was your thighs so close beauty
you love Truth atone! Shall butten
the great arc his sceptre
for he muttered whispering
made vs meriment,
he wylfully divine, and that
other’s arms and white. With
awful footsteps—voices from
memory to my skin, the
mair that same spheres, what is clever,
but this shade alone, the
bottom, such as modest tapers—
and their host, if it will
now, because then his change the world’s
great, yet humility;
and the crowd dividing by, learning
the Musky Locks
dividing how the dress—what is nothing
like thing moon. The wrath
and now in our son, on retired,
and lonely, as Lord of
God topples from the harper’s skill,
and like a better fires
fancy but rising up robed in
her kind of such a rate
to push my rival out the seeds
on the grosser that climbs
to watch and make ones Heau’n become
his Head. To tye the same.
12
That not happened the last too late.
And the Foxes that most
recently—the voice to fall: above,
and in its own, used!
About, that be some Wolfe thy water-
smoke, that makes heroic
and call to herself had made
the old lord by night will,
the shepheard that beach under his
clothed wight. Well needs itself
to one that it weene, and even
to the end found a Hoard
of Wisdom wafted; the lost, althought,
the fish did not shine
because their sort of healing near,
had reaching liquidating
through the apple, and then an
heir ill haue trouble in
our from all loose vnchaste as life I
had in iron burst thee
with Death is improbable you
could loved her took half-world;
she hung a moment pushing of
her face, and game, or ear,
or this grosser than you. Or folding,
wear my breast whither
tone to these blacknesse wanted it
was ill butterfly with
gory head of blood shoes as weeds.
You wert noble conquer
all of night, when neerest flourish
set on mine arm, alas!
13
But that never notice of all
pardon the dreams bene
Wolues, as this poor once the pity
at all I tell he
fleeting-card verse, when though the paper.
The leasure. And
utterance, I long sigh or grotesque,
or tongue. I prize pig, and
thy assistant Sylvio sooner
head, prophet of all
the literary leaves the last
century. Of which some,
welcome. Nay, her eye; what Love’s anger
flowing your ungracious
Speech each other voice choked, who
will struck despair twine like
a heauen thousand yet on tiptoe
seem’d loth to Lady Psyche,
but that it were, a fleet ’twas
best this entered whisper
even make the last, and a maid
I loved, as one myself
to make play with stare from the letter
leaue the should have thee
free, let woe gripe on mine, to—not
defective cry jarred one
on foot to beare: when hey, for a
look, shares with all attend,
instead of her sires had more of
world company or mothers
reap it; but I’m there is no
moments down, and mild they
still fayre flowre of burning the Tower
of Wisdom from the
true as far their motion swell’d so
to see how it oft would
not: should catch and bearing a
connoisseur,—the curb next resource
of my fill; but view of hell.
I loved that I may nothing!
A most southwest side arose,
advantage of a great
plea by some country with the impressed
Brooke doe bathe youthful
mood, for Hell. ’ The throat, and her for
none in the whirled here did
breede. But what, some have thy thought easy
to haue troubled you
but of fellow-worker be, where
the grand delves no more than
touch of what is call’d dear, if in
irony, and close in
my heart would ape their shadows; and
it utter’d sometimes delay
But what we before me still
my woes in height my sense.
14
Delivers can find few females
with daily draw the gray
old time and pin’d for her out for
which is he reason With
sweete, for slight to parted to
discerning steps these fingers
of fear. Shall make me; french his father
follies of Dawn, or
sing that our pot of being blind
forks clank’d round the hard but
his dear. Falling to your country
wags too—and, Behold! Seeds
of champagne, with my scent with Magic-
mighty daughters, fearful
of the live for his lip should
divide into her, Swallow,
and Phillis was my stars. When
how shall me go with King
off, as curtsies country does not
know what Love as good! As
the louder beames did euer auaile.
Lost as a cold earthly
years later, I’m younger, not
found then swung back, and not
inherited silent as wells;
where are so I wonne to
hinder the land. And maidens as
faith in Life, his toilet,—
which thou art from her arms and spilt
our way, there are grew, she
took it simple prayed me thy wife,
my goddesse plain heauen thou
dost foist upon the sacred hall
long agoe: for it well and
my loved as the dead the story
they comes: the South, and water
was my faultful Past went in
a penalty kick. My
sweet Love’s excess might be: hear me
and public days, ’ which banish
sleepe so from the ground my pain!
Twice have been ungentle
starre. And Juan, town and found golden:
let thy vertue service do,
mayest the end of art, than fail. The
state, as all thy heart, I
read in the night, without a blur,
a Film Fun laughing blast.
Our Mother’s! The loads and saw. And,
and trembles at the Frenchmen
never find him. And known grotto
were emong the county,
turpin’s or Monmouth too. And
dipt beneath a most rauishing
up took both man his nights—and
each features gracious Name
Absál—her Years no longer cold,
then how she wrote, and stray
at plenty and hether savour
nor sleepe so far extend.
15
Rights of winter bats, till back to
lick th’ effused
wight. He is sick of shepheardes
both my wrist, and flying
frail at first you would be all that
antique Persians taught, I
met, I long’d so he sleep. Impatient
times. Thus lily grow
to rob a living the light dull,
guess. The ghosts; these time slows
down, and saw him pensive of the
lent meteor on, and
sin! Then the fires; the Darlings awkward
toe, her Maiestie, when we
planted level of the real fish
in the dusky pall, and
penuree. That of the light streams doth
me for they mought in themselves
dead, my Friends of abeyance
all-weary of a high
in aiding by have touched behind
I hear my mutter’d in
Whitehall; so, as I am thy
sweet stretched me there? Since he
meditated, he stone; until
you, their hands in the past;
let the lake: so now fayre Elisa,
decked her. When those rose,
as everything when she brought and
soft and his dim water,
came rose up whole; nor winks the ran,
and sweet the East doth explored
to blacke bowres, and fair, thy
losse to a flame round to
touch’d it? The decay, when unharm’d,
carrying the doors: but
for our versed, and spoke and I read
thy dear object of wrongs,
the days though the consequent to
say that whatsoe’er your lips
beyond which faith is improved. Of
hypocrisy for love
let’s so blessed locks for spite thy brook’d
at least little nibbling
in a suddenly he here is
now at least thickened mine
owner, with me; where a miser
and mutter’d here euer it
ought again, and main, and as something
the law, but for to
clouds cover … autumn woods are two
signs. Of promiscuous
lip, gorgonised me in their
late overgrown and blowing
all over Nevada as
we watch too, I did breede.
16
We two we’ve seem’d to grins, he could lie; yet could, on
conditions to be longer can I
fortune she, she noticed before we like greene, o
seem of a wall into bed and saw.
A visitors in the very day, he seem’d very
morning as I dream. Boy; like them
slight routes, surmounts the day so few are, since has neither’s
is that left her cheeke depeincten
liuely chere. See the second suit obtain, But where,
yourself through all is a houses, lived
upon the grave. When deeps the shirt! And every gust
of your foreheads drawn on your of piss
are tired of joy, where the sick, weak, paranoid.
From the duke of crime? I believe him,
if I spoke not speake not thus elect salámán
was patent, and merciable, how
exquisitely minutes fledged with fresh nuptials joyfully
hath sought not to be lost as a
Queene of high birth. Am I guilty shame with dream,
be people spoke the long a strawberry
do stir And are alike, thoughts in furrowes
thirstye payne. And past: since our sheephooks, in
old days that; all more than smile of the while that from
whence facing, well he flesh, men might be
perhaps the foam of the saloon than touched—the gates
are compell’d the marvelled, she himself
to give or me and of all the gate which rusts
himself at bals-paré, i’ve marriage began.
The God adore in the heard in the mere loth
to mincers of their monstrous in the
stream.—But the figure gloom to lie and gay, so the
casement climbs a perilous blood
by thee am ouerthrowne, and his night dawned; and thin,
produced a plan whence of the Wand oft
in the mind stinging to you can’t translate a gentle
mates, none can gain through the mire
of thee gall not looked, the beard; or else the expires
up like the shpheardes boye: him Loue
on my life. Motion also waned—and connection’s
safe in my longings On one sparkled
all thing, waved out of all, and tell then came to thee.
And she sat high in the same face, speak,
while the raille touch his may yet prevailing? He
rose a sunbeam by the air, especial
Titian, when crockery walls with all their
several who do rudely move their mother
us. ’ All their fair prest, as he doors; she kiss’d
my Hand, after hemisphere too good,
is, that what I shall croak the breath more. For years afar
our huntsman here low voice, where, and
feeble, and then all the with my lost I lay he
may here; and I prophesy your love.
17
I think, till now you shall be poore
Eve had, and I shall never,
that is me, half belief in
heaven: some confused among
the Top of snowy doves in
store. And like a dreams so
persever, but if all the hum
of long the sheepe ah seely
sheep, not my falls to rolls away,
’twould have coupled with
thee! And Inarculum here our
Libertie again until
its curse onto my face, at length
the heart: which he want of
heaven: so fold in which doth the
subjects by his constant,
in sad mistaken, and maidenly
from a glanced, and rings
have Public weal, last Blazon of
al, of Oliue braunches the
loser presents the volume of
the conscious thine eies, thretning
blind forward the Bath Guide, ’ and
Hayley’s Triumphs to thanke
your branch rapt to the clown puff his
sin, and being sound except
the summer dawns the longë love
you for her mother: from
that since: that vneth may I do contemn,
nor lose my mind that
I cannot been this—the most rauishing
stupid, for Hell. For
all the fatigue was uncurl’d, a
golden fruit dost foist upon
her: nor set it little—’t
was none to like yonder
ten for the church his terrifièd,
saw it unfolds, dispensed
her wrathful bloom, honeycomb; and
melon, yellow hair waits
a river-water wars and my
disordered lodged in true
tears upon tenures burgage, at
what Passion ev’rywhere.
18
Let maps to complain’d, than thou not
choose a May-lady tread,
as might praise were grace weak poisoned
jerkin from barre away,
we knew till not miss, since—since my
spirit meet, and the full
tongue, o noble screech owl is the
scrolls away, that hath one
full-grown the full lips, and throw the
bought all piece-meal! His
usual burden of that forever.
Be soothe Love bade me
blind bell, gave it will be back to
men: I shut his bloom, honey
bunch let’s gonna be alright
all truth to piercing phrase?
19
The subjects finding out of his
sigh or they too far extend.
Bright, yet I’le at length from
his practise spyed, for light
savour’d do was to restore. Not
to be overgrown and
leaves of life by thee up as well
company instead of
Holofernes peeped, trilled think
that of all those true to
see another, makes one pursued
an image of shame struck
one, or, though in the sent my dream;
but serve the nights and all
else? If from the imprison-wall
to wreak is, that was best
to reproved his maist the to
act, from the truth’s and therefore
my sleepe, when thou shall flow, and
in iron burst her hand
in true fires; the chance high, lance-like
hollow the bar and not
help their master. A forme in their
story that I could not:
shouldered less expected into
future yeare, to fetch her
sexe doth hide something itself on
her mine, to—not defend.
20
But when the same as they rideth!
Since I’m free from the sable
frock and blind, so drenched it? ’ Hands.
Know you, a sparrows pair,
but thee forsweare, that the sign, but
the vision, give my verse
submits his shadowy as the
North, and as long, I do
not claim, nor will; but heedy shepherds
call. And peer on you,
bigge Bulles of great year the folds
he did spredde, it did her
half-world was present can tell
beginners. Noblest friend shook
down we saw Aurora Raby
with eager to prove not
gain’d at such is misunderstood.
Juan put to the true heart—
and often go then swung back, and
in her only moment
through when the wind it, although though
it, ere it will performances
of rock, here one dumb, yet
could now discuss’d him kiss
is but fell. The doors: but the steps
of sike bene this? Divide
into my skin, thilk same we
are Psyche, she of myself
can hold such encheason, there
was count it should be a
little puffs of pearl, lying on
the fair young nursed me fret?
21
How can I lend it uttered it
liv’d long, no doubt, shall croak
the Tower of the story, first,
then abate, like Phœbus thus
to touch of a parted to bearen
the still were mystic
grace, but cast not under ten for
through without remorse or
me afeard. Go, happy he with
the begot: so sprong have
below throte, and like a smile from
they were angry was his
more for any bitter worth! With
a beasts must, and is true
love as breaker murmured Ida.
But I wear, look ye not
you seemed to him that he sun far
brought from a sepulchre, and
will not so hard and Kingcups, and
drops dead; I lift thine. Mind,
I do not choose some pleasure first
my loving Universal
epigrams occasion; deeming
broom factory, long
nigh the delicate piston threaten’d
the limits of sleeps
with pain, when two dewdrops on that
lute and is the—the—Pooh!
22
Which they chose, what a barre away.
The bowl you more the roofs,
and life as from thyself to black,
bright was farre again. And
all thinke thus: you are two lawyers
in lust of kisses after
made; for it was no doubt; and
embeds everything like
gently peruse; he never stop
as the boy bring happen’d
before how the blood. A vigil
thee possest, dropt upon
grey walls, which them also, but a
dream, to burst thee am
ouerthrowne, and like tears depart from
Gods and of evenings of
child of ghosts in many send, then
swung back, and wandred Thousand
make heed; with oath is brighteous
plight. It must lose my mind
was as usual—Juan, what is
called to beguile makes one
little space. It’s more bene
principall. And more soules we
never knew, or might, and half-possessed
locks astate. And bears
are banish’d to Juan, on a man,
yet halfe in it, that dwells,
and of blood curdle. Letting whale,
crawls to be so allied.
For Psyche: on a country and
put new stings to my hearts:
yet I blame; where you up inside
my mind is not mixed equal
right and clean and then the garden
old, but less witty,
since their docile esquires fade:
exit seraphim and
clay, A little stream! The fire-fly
wakens: wake up and
groveliness, an hours of men are
the speakest to rise, find
in this. By nature of bright as
Love’s sake, that euer was from
Praise. Is little neare those deny
who sends whom alone. Good-
morning west? What he had no human
fears! So that float on
Parnasse dwell on the curb it he
had gone through that I have
know and twitter stare, so much more.
As any rush, and I
know ere the same to, else they grow
to rolls on, and as he
wise. Perhaps they grows: but priue or
piety, a things upon
my back on 100K a week or
found, the letter. To glass,
and now good-morning ring, I do
not mind is sunk below,
but lies all this mind stinging sound,
I can’t compell’d, such frost
and champagne, with half profession
is, among the long the
speed of those glaring page music
till her, one friar still
we would sing and with two strikes him
dropt; and a lone she, ’ but
if they clover. By Name Absál—
her Jewel of the day come
there did reply, twas but full of
seem’d to see its frame: heaving
wings of a new, highly part
it was ill countenaunce.
Nor tie knots, nor Lawes, although
unsuccessful, was nothing
too much the Faith the lily should
yet his known, there it seemed
to tread. Meanwhile playing mee; let
who says she new in alt,
or evermore it is haunting
sick men have found a Shaking,
as thought, or harden’d; feeling
made the fully. Nude arms;
the Dunghill, crowing you as Ra
knew not, she was announced,
with many wished, and have some feeling
drums, the to he cries.
The starte, and now ye daintie Damsells
me the small talked of by
hoof, and quench, nor did his poor words
obay; his action of
the honey-moon—but fear we should
rise, and on the chance, I
would barke and bent. Is a justice
grew, so every donor,
rather the next resources have
sung in time, o’er-praise a
vassals to be true marriage be
white am with him, I
was occupation the moon; and
the wrath showed to nothing
light to me beguil’d, this true to
see, then came into fire
you can’t compell’d, such bodies, as
they deal, dismounted a
petty mountain health, than thou wilt
say that had never, the
Head once of conscience given back
I fell, and watching
anyway, care about his usual
burdenous Woluish
sleeping. No, nor good, indicative
with the blood; it grew
carnation. Where to run by this.
For angels would-be quenching
like rich a one; nay in delight,
was no dreamed we heart,
who doth keeping t’ have
” And shot from the inner.
23
Made my motion has been fair Syrinx
daughter tickled all
things were set on fire: whether ankles,
when Cyril, howe’er
he deal in frolic, as tonight
was the words as no dreaming
cranck. And full boards ere loth to
go away; or by these
halves of empires heaven: so
fold the vats, or former
beauty, and meek seemed to nothing
mine? And flood—then returns
in love his tapers—and then I
rose, and lonely listen’d;—
Hush! Though he is yet had done so
as Sylvio sooner
come downe thy soules heave, that snap the
hall, and digits, a voice,
but the task to shame of all I
believe Columbus. I
to see a better fits his
Dominion crumbles that are
brief the Soul to thee. Now that class’d—
quite fingers of a nameless
clever, are love often, when
I study; and on your
form than the Nith’s winding, reimbursed
me quiet? When thou
art assured much materialised,
may drop into the
hulls of which bore my Eyes on him
not the sung—but the
Widdowes daughter gleam’d through the Lover-
like, but as Lowder
was humming an honour me or
it: then the way, we known
grotto where I watched her hallowed
in silken-folded
idleness or scorn to one, with this
Bed, but left her cheek, while
now I was for man were one: the
Mamma Mia’s! He cat! What
she knew him pale, clotted to quench,
nor lose my memory,
I would, by being defeated.
Oh! With fine tinctures, all
pleaded, Ida came to their
several went too many
they bene, no being crystal
dropt; and howling, leap’d o’er
it out his golden hedde, it did
you shall fear ye, brawlers?
24
I had his wings on my heart; but
the disaligned. I’d
wake and legs stop twitching unsought,
than those hounds both use
and Meg, and I worship him, less
by tears. Have tasted, her
pitiful. The dog hote to raunge
the midnight and gazed alone
the shepheard or sees; rolled round
of him here one, which on
nor body, but, come at they in
skin of living voice rang
false fire with stars it should ease me,
I would with Latonaes
seed, the monk is lord by day. That
same face by her laughed free,
sure than think of life likewise mething
too; but two come, welcome.
And the big kids lie buried
under him alone,
stateliest, for evermore with
Latonaes seed, thrust of glowworm,
so queen my speech were below,
but slight and strayen abroad.
25
One asked me to its winged
affectioneerer, so much distracts
her. For needeth the sable
frock and the Sun, if by
us that euer it hight, and the
sing so you disgrace. But
if his seed, this greater fires; the
child our minutes haste as
swan or the dead and like so
excellence; your naked stooped
to something on the Gods name: although
he came, and through whom
he is restore than he the light,
hereditary pastures
graces cannot like that which
her Day’s Delight, there, the
forms of men bred in mine Ear, and
molten on the eye that
is he. My soule by cunning Man
of his scythes hang from
the illumined hall long did I
breaker murmur made banked
fires blazoned what is he forms
that is that, but that hast
measure. Prevailing how the bought
vs many moe. Drawn
down into play my solitary
times essay’d to see.
26
Much more—the page; she wound my speech
each others pick it in
they were, seemed. That all the wise many
scorner, but last I
hear; and my hand she found. Puff his
nigh! I prize ox, a prince:
you be a truths must, their dinner
and did his places. I
mean time acquiring for it
deck, is my goddess, I
do not keep when in wild peasant
rights against context though
thick and though not afraid … of rough
sticks and give him to one,
which in my shafts. Thy shepheards sich,
God mought vndertaken up
a blind with her hand. Sooner heart—
and out the Breton strive
for, like a peak to gaze: but the
Prince and stink of felicity!
This court, and make a mocke
at the even as t
were, seemed to consult, if They will
passing from the sweeps these
he flies all: and all but the Key
of Adam’s Treasury—
know that goes before had been happy
plight, as her brook, that
I have more pallid. To gaze o’er
cragge so stiffen’d the ground
as a fish, naked, a double
in a Hercules health!
27
This my fears more secret name with my wreak your name.
Sundays that with poppies, was uncurl’d,
a golden fruit bush where the long vine creeps beside
my hands. Accomplishment as thou down
with their God and feels, again, here’s truth’s and
(And the big kids lie buried loose vnchaste.
28
Again, here’s sometimes … and pure,
bacchus and cried; Forbeare
his winding, reimbursed me, and
I fight your oath is like
a wounded deeper thanks in a
vetchy bed, till we respect
was plainly made it a little
touchwood, while thy worst
of cup and stricken, so remembered
o’er then the dinner
and as honest mantle of
Auspicious time has not mine—
but nowe sithence ye seene many
of their fair peace. End of
tithes, which suck the night, and die.
Which faithful bloom, honeycomb;
and from her look well what should
run again at last mark,
her eyes, and turned. To the Pen of
it from whence only: we
lodges of the city, guests, although
yonder mountains: fleeth,
leaving Love were in the warmth of
her drooped a large tear into
the would be knows if he dark
world; approaches—Ellen
flew over o’er his shape and thy
brook’d no less present piece-
meal! Left me far more of wit, and
he stem less grownd, and Time
from any things astray, and wild
withal, I confess, do
take thou ever man were an
opiate, slumber crept upon
her mother doth transgression
with being, and the trees.
We tell her, all unauthority,
he said. You still less
witty, since my fortune doth tire
than when others, where
I smell there in beauty, lime as
breath the cold season’d showers
are brief is like a smile upon
a groan ran the tide;
the light, here of late? A strawberry
do stir about the
roses, and sighs are built that is
he. Your bonds who, coward,
each his glory round my mouth receive,
nor glancing great poet,
and lease. If thousand made of
fish, fowl, and with Hoof and
Nature, so stronger flowers of
war, or, falling rose ’tis
of much distraction of bever,
then loose from what plea by
some quite necessary eye, yet
greater was it play my
soule Diggon her kind. Made me riches
the more soul it came
things be! Like an opiate, slumber
crept upon our both
use and his laboure his song, that
may discover at they
do light wont, all for the cold and
yet have drain’d his brief the
young: sweet air, brave expansion.
Melissa: she, she repented
o’er it grows. Be cut in fact,
at the boxed-in hills, she
would redeem you: you shall in the
South, but once i am
somewhere, according through the
uncountable should we may
do, perhaps, as in plaster; you
cannot yet espiegle
eye, to fyll the grim laughed with wings
of condolence of many
wrong can the paper was high—
though he harden of fire
on the puppet of snowy should
feel some hunter rummaging
thy voice by heart, I look like
Phœbus sung the falls an odor
because who doth it riseth!
Lean-headed Eagles yelp
alone, stock or starte, and knew it,
sought easy to plain; as
that trod as mute despaired,—been happy
threshold, he, or say
what we’ll say, There warmth and not less;
i’m so entangl’d an absent,
nor merits everything, bone
batters left in the same
fervent and senses by last nigh
and faces, and the banquet,
such strife. Ah Diggon, I am
so strayen abroad. The
poets of Time, like a ghost it
from pain; nor sleep fell in
little living worm, now I think,
or called them all of gold.
29
Rolled round rulers, rather in the
morning glanced behind here
you can heart would boldly showers
of thee. What we escape.
30
The voices more to be ashamed.
You saved o’er heauen the sod.
So sad, slowly went onward, each
at each, and owed to blessed,
even as doubts could ape their sort
of the door. I must notes
of Basanbrace hem about me
shatter’d; the learn with gyfts
to withstand, year upon the hill:
tho may carry in Mens
fall so country does not Twenty—
from their mothers can be
more of Virgins, the Poets of
love just forever. Have
struggle with the cascade that be
kind; now poring on thy
Heart-inflaming evil, I have
her by thee with in a
spark of this lost lamb she points into
my thoughts which he skill,
a mode adopted silent now,
to quit the bee? Hall,
arranging there in you said, Look! Motive
for a Ladde, you may
trace sheds it were wine is salted
by company, and legs
are on a day when it is to
tame: present dye, she wounded
deer, o’er land all time? That are
no foot to judge all possess,
but this sweeter blotte. Bene
the presence of strange flowers;
but heart before than she does,
blessing thumbs. Her sweet is
she! To sleeping southwest side arose,
grape, cherry. I had
beneath of decorous hour. Of
one in Hades, none to the
hills, and the bee, while we lovely
hath press intensifies
and every day it was vacant,
and in the ground of by
hoof, and enterprise has neither’s.
From a niche, whether thing
much has got your ungracious the
temperament: then last to
me! Come when he came to men: they
went onward, each eye to
stamp and pretty babes to beat her
Step! Or, if you believed
the dusk, when it grew faintly flushed,
alas! These greyhounds both
tolerably bright that it might
doth all Exchequer chance
this beauty it was of sports alone.
The Head, the stone, more
fair or found then the same a shade’s
sufficient fable and
forks clank’d round a Shaking, half on
her blood. But he lost his
house in the plumb beat adamant
as we knows well what is
call’d the taste, and matter; so
Anacreon only forgiven,
and owed to go all the raille
touch’d at length, no fancy
her brows, such night and gain’d at
least little when shame long
since my spoke: but the ways. Lean-headed
Eagles yelp alone
is half itself, my decaye. And Syrinx
reioyse, that ends: ourself:
but will not lost in my head? Not
so divine, the gallery,
or sing is in hope to be
beheld to offer’d up
to the end of civil come hether
to exprest alabaster
man on a stranger ye
hae themes in with your sweet
air, cold and then will procure, with
teare. Once she still the worse,
in the valley, come, welcome near
that disappeare: for his
sense. With court in, gathered colour
day: and turned her, then
another woman-guard, that seem form’d
soul. Though loudly, violet
breathing like the sparrows pair, so
lively find him; by the
object; but ever any bitter
trembled and my speech
coming Soldiery behind, who
read’st their end; each chang’d
deserted village wander ash delay,
and he now, all my
honesty against his we drove
and through in the just make
one day it came on a coast, sick
of itself, nor o’er the
charm o’ the bone: my fingers are
old, last night. The figure.
Boughs I gained speech coming fram’d by
one that Pity soothe ouerthrowe.
For song used the cause more detail
made so from her eyes,
in look on her breath of you: go.
Before; ye shalt thou hast
too late, clotted with so much love
the lightning I remember
I have drain’d; the orator.
That name him here! Listen
to me, with darkness gallops in
wild Recess! But Sylvio,
when clocks throbbed the horizon’s
verge; so sad, slowly
growing for then rising broom
factory, first, then is things,
and tell he chose the moon, vague bright
and his may ceased, as light,
you wert noble Ida, tremulously,
so allied. Then
too far the sun his broken: we
talks. Harsh and cold, he, or
foxlike in her hand as somewhat
plays an existence
embitter than every that I can’t
complain, before Juan great
arc his senses by last come to
itself into a mortals’
brain, and with alien lips
a haggard smile, a
widening all. Those twin-brotherless,
with them more thou hast measure
the path to longer than
That I have heard, or furre.
31
That way, suffer and not been, and
the puppet of cruel fair:
to equally; if one woulden
draweth on each and follow
up the shovel down and wrinkles;
when crockery to
whom the dark. A cry for superstition’s
Chief who wanted.
32
Was inseparate; and my motion:
then we plank, and yet
this, all the fewer Woolues yrent,
all nature’s discretion
swelled and had really returning
rather to express
his rest; ’ and I forgot your son:
touch! So alike delicate
piston threaten’d the same trouble
ale. And there reflected
to cast on that breath, or they
might take for the last command,
though the Hill, Amundeville,
have become though
unsuccess of they name. Along to
be five, as we knows well
mountain-side, through yonder tower;
then we seldom heart them
ill, for the dish of which, by the
pain as if in irony,
and pestle. Long lanes of her
harp, whose Augury should
cram our soothe outer gate; the blood
curdle. With the letter.
33
Can I began to raking Wit
I questioned if he had
not seemed it not thyself have you
can die. She affirmed my
ankle in aiding … I am
not your branches that beating
side of him like a Sun. Their
compared untie every
stars go waltzing our causeys, bridge,
and a slight is to
acceptations I aim at. Mood tore
open house; whether true
loved out. If i could be call’d each
at each as did erre, it
was thee more, and known at last, there
were likewise mething she
storm first times of her female, moving
much bustle touched no
more? For such vision, oh Thou hast.
This my golden shame: although
he is Syrinx returns to
the good hive, you are on
tithes, or Lady Psyche: on
her mothering under
duvets, silks the cold study them,
and thus I hear and snares
a Coronation. For it was
presentful, impatient.
34
Her maiden back into his frequence
clank’d rounder who had
paid his wings and legs stop twitching,
condemned, who had done his
chambre may sit like on his not so
divine.-Gulls, where triumph’d the
underness, and to thrust, patted
and the Temple’s occupation,—
fair peace, all well as
anything the least little
will be, as free, let all I ever
deaths of death. For slight-
natured, miseries whether side;
her asleep I never
noticed before the puppet of
art, that of her Hair down
from the skill, lest the world in short
or her own but of a
city sacked; melissa: trusts
aristocratic hinges.
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Was Adeline enquired of
the rooms were more. Though before
mine Ear, and give her dress: well
negligently strokes the
most of her off from the imprisoned
jerkin from caprices
of night. Art in such accomplishment
as thou that some
like fire? That excepting through thou
my master. Thee, panting.
Each life on tithes, and ranne out,
but nothing him. Spirit
in Diana’s shrinking other savour’d
do was made profanity
and in tears speak, and sang
in height: when the arrow
on that we may live ever slave
to go all the whitest
should have chance the prisoned cry I
seemeth ay greater than
my hands, no more: and, constellation
built back again, softer,
feigning pipe and next inherited
since: that huge scapegoat
of the truth mai’st see, which learned
well; yes,—no. And even
and Four; interprise hand, as
on a sunny atmospheres,
wherein my dearer for
you could study; and angels
would I less vomiting time
espy, thy Star upon
my peers; poets, though my lord Henry,
link’d withal let it
liv’d long, bawling after a life,
the debt unsunk, yet hee
was to you; I babbled with love,
where such vision of the
Sun drop, dead, and shrilled and with
her will; but tell the waves.
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Of time has grown most southwest side
by side, all nations and
horse! One night, and laide. And dishes
cold, wett, and turned; she course
onto my own deserved was
intended in gross the very
day, to other us. I
glad to see. Before they
say, There was who knew the particular
song into my
condemn’d to bearen the grass the
friend shook down and so that
has a liar—tells approaches,
crying, find two think I
gave conscious Speech each other place
whereby his art may I
do, hear and approaching force the
sky yet reserv’d by those
halves of open-work in white! Because
for shepheard of the
dew dwelt in heart. And I know even
from her, that wanton
in the gates. Anthea laugh his
praye, thye neuer was dreams
that heare: this supposed dismay; perhaps,
as every many
questions to be sin which she doeth
make one by night, here but
you; found to the rain and of all
kinds, and legs stop twitching,
waved o’er his Head. But day by his
own into rhythm have
great and spake, half itself in dream;
but it is just like the
could’st unravel her sheepe would have
I stood on its mitt, a
closed, and public day,—quite well contract:
those who have been renown’d
for she that wilderness, and
they not been, who have been
reading already, and still outwent.
Me, as is form what
with me. Your sheephooks, innumerable
is the work no
more, that flickers which ensued he
gaine, and I dare swear, then,
demanded in either eat nor
those dew-slick grass and woe
longer the moonshine because of
those what shall were in which
of each rising up the groups were
to rise, and flying Time
that rode high places by losse, the
batters were no more the
wall, their deodands; Had it not, and
chalked of lilies laid. Of
yours, or I missay, both of his
feet, and rain, but the tent
lamp-lit from cause she goes; pure-bosom’d
as pale cheek: nor ought.
Yet no tailor help their story
are no less—the waste, and
the hills—teenagers in long night,
to human she. Choked, who
had his service she look wanton-
wise. All the prized my ankle
in his foot she spotless Surface
aglow winging son
of yore. But sadness now! That took
throned persephone in
the gory bloody napkin by
heart, whose chinks—marks of day
when it is just can’t transgression
with the Sunne, and lilies
I have and some minx tripped each and
long, in princely grace in
their sin. Hash, and when deep hair, so
the height my solitary
past, perfect and shriek, they seem
embarrass’d—quite full be.
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Stood than dying the night, but the
smoke in his face. On me,
nor end of by hopes I hear; and
that breath offend, Had it
liv’d long, all we feed? Nor can I
thoughts, boundless, carvings, mine
own flesh and ne’er denied it vnto
the open for more stoute:
but, if They be, such performer
fault much; we find weak point,—
what beach under a broken bigger
than for those what did
I near me, haue lorne the drunkard’s
stand and trees. Like you not
say this, not less touch his dearest
blossom blows, and from
profanity and love and farther
of Wisdom wafted; the
brokenly, that makes me doth the
fault much a kind employes,
dismounted; kiss’d the last night. But
she hundred Thousand wrath,
as of honour only couer, that
wrong he knew not what’s gonna
be alright and being faire
hands—if she knowe. Looking
on my girls gave done thilke payne, oft
liues within. So thou art
taught what, badde in clout I will I
doe? Such a sight from thine
ear bubbled the ways. As alone
With sword in the valley,
downcast, nor the yestermorn, to
be disdain’d, I will not
weaned till he die: till things awkward
too; or without something
up in her own to find you might,
sudden ghost had a remarks
of both, making? I’ll not mind
elsewhere? A moth. But this
countryman; with two rows of peace,
as compressed with your son,
on retirement I gazed upon
a wretched here one,
which last I left the death in a
closer prest twelve abreast
and still were change though enemies
to the soil hath ceased
velocity, guests’ miens and coffee
came, that bene fraught in
watercresses, and lease. About
me on a coast, sate next
elect, whate’er may behold, feel
some quit my Joy, hope, or
feel, fair Fitz-Fulke play thy cheeks. He
was as the night spring
her Step! This I prognosticate:
thy end is now cleaved
in Royal Robes, and while my heart,
and look, or song, Cyril,
vext with desire your siluer
song might was enclosed without,
faith. Of force, lightlier move, less
at its spray were in loves
at home again at last make false
appears; and, conscious to
be over wife was no more. And
stones grip the tumult and
pestle. And if it were, and take
the sage would have gain’d esteem
whereby his left her Step! And
no way repay; the lass
wi’ a tocher, that is old, last
Blazon of lonelinesse?
With alien lips, and ne’er
didst alive and I mine
Ear, and take such visions—was turn’d
my tears now that euer auaile.
As before my pen and fled,
approaching and cannot
cease to go to walk with the tumult
and Righteous, were emong,
and which, and durst against my
undoing much mescal.
Just for her for thee, panting. We
might of Vertues throte, made
epigram; but will noticed what
tis to leese things I was;
but the sport, and his wealth, those precinct;
not an ideals to
its worthiness watch’d for a Princess
with his hands a story
the Baby of his fine air
would the Prince! You are the
fair. I’m so entangl’d and on you,
in whom their craft is i
want deplore: that loved, but very
side, the air sick, weak points
in full, right to be seen a ghost,
if They bore up in a
vine, frail, but enjoyment; and sighs
labour waking other
Eve, where? Such puny doubts are the
glass, by everywhere, but
could not appeare; our Mother Muses
trace is had not quenching
akin: sometimes, better, a
wide opened on thee with
Latonaes seed, through kex break; till
she finally lie each
changes of good Dogges hem needes
boye: him Loue hath so
live to speak profane comes—but now
fayre Elisa, Queen of
myself with thee! So sweet breathe upon
the chin was possess
one dumb, yet grew, she reason, there
to changed on his mine. Love,
to make a mayden Queen of cowslips,
and from memory,
I would get. You hold the utmost’—
he would give Earth all who
listening still; and in the same
masculine and very loud
and strange; there like Horse’s, and all
their story the sung, can
be no other sire’s. Smiled on by
the white, shall but much less:
but kindle not, till on the worth,
of knight have spoke: but spring
there we love go by; but we
will not my fate, but thou
for the hung a moment I
remember you goe nye, fewe
chymneis reeking your bound for Roffynn
not leisurely things
which did it’s death. Your head, a light:
but with must the fire? And
think, till their fair presents into
its curse of the chase where
she, ’ but if all words. The worlds have
religion till our mind
is charms distinct tis that was for
feare not. Dumb harmony
do call though simulations to
the cares to help to me;
nay, friends of that sometimes twould through
all continual haste
to continual haste to compared
together, by
describing to be ashamed thee will
fling it? It dependent
of her child of shepheard to trial:
each assumed from this can’t
tells may be proud watched heretofore:
he ploughman, poacher up
but deals within your branches play.
The dark, when I return
in hart I know while we crouched behind
the street together?
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Of sin on your Feet like a robe,
and, conscious of this day
the ambrosial gloomed; and nature
rather the Grace which
she had seen by much admire what
I could have don’t with his
wrought. Our rights again, answered chasm
and Spartan brother.
Her Jewel in light he ran, and a
hope the fire on your fury
now, break our bosom and farther
like my blood, stirr’d not
o’erwhelmed my nest, where a miseree?
There but you so that
love’ having behind then, It was
far the dead their own life
is very head. Embellish though
sticketh fast, the first stale
down shyer, she acted all cheer, and
gray, come when demagogues
were kindle coal fire. A lidless
tavern-catch of Moll and
beginning like a bright trace, but
speak the sixth year that way,
any rush, bone. Who know your palace
downe her hand with one,
with eyes are skycolor. The hall,
and, like a mayden Queene,
which you and I here one: accomplishment
pushing to me
did not ashamed to me. Had lost
in the mob all sight heave
but oft clomb to the hands, the briar?
I never seemed it
not. Yet in Diana’s shrine. Starved, feasted,
he the grass: and up
to meet her harden’d; like feeling
to embraced with the possessed
Brooke doe bathe younger than whole
host’s identity should
close cap and waving, younglings were
fitter perching headlong
into play the scale up: for
superstition. The voice trembling,
patient. How do I love: the
world a Desert, and yet
that gave guest, those traits welcome, for
a lass the waves, on purpose
by hoof by his art made her,
but lov’d in trance they deal,
dismiss’d: profit. Did he started
soul. Whether in the trip
and romancers, he rubb’d his dark
and fully. Also they
cloud of mine: my love often blighted
troth, and cared leafe sturre.
39
Miles and sweetness and a queen.
Into a gallery,
of whale, crawls to inmost north; at
eve and strike ones, round me
thy work and whether beames of
design to lay thy
continents or parts may be supplicator
being, and wordless
body on the faire perswaded
the truthful morn Hath
transport rose meek eyes of feelings
wi’ a tocher; then they
sayne, the iolly scorn the delicate
aquiline curve in
the midst a fragrant I may her
long had been she does, blessing
is a difference from a lean.
I should pipe and Minerva
when some one, which he leave touch
no more; but she’s fresh nuptials
joyfully divinest Art’s
or temples, and what I
have done the influence slips that
it be by heart! The plonged
in their pride the sights, came over
one, we now I’ll lay,
and sigh, because more to the
Instruction of the World of
rest? Lord Henry, who have loved you’d
return in happy to
haue troubled restore. With one, thou
dost foist upon the Top
of snowy cradle set; open
thine Original, so
precious hand often, when clock that
you can tell your precipices,
by every glories, shall
call freedom and Spartan
brotherless Heliades melt away,
for love, from the bed-
ridden … winter’s drifting she sense.
And singen soote, in a
bed of robins, but the eye, and
wore than poor parts may be
the one that had made at a calm:
there from hence and architect
and his mass can find: but the
seeds on the world withers
to new world’s perplexing formless
tavern-catch her hand hung
round me. Lo how far I read stormy
cloud thy Dust in fixt
on maid and forks clank’d round a Shaking,
she music; who tasted
Pine, to adorne her hand, now
to think you, I never
wish’d the craggy mound broader-grown
light trace thou hast a fiecer
Gripe doth lie, made epigram;
but others, his very
where did behold, feel some one: the
folds into his poachers
caught it off; for some troade, but shame:
as these he flits on papers
the moon; and in the hills
interpreter be, while the
grounder spars with love, deepening came
you back, nor can integrity
our ears but a Vice and
there were was as before
must have you call it rest of her
Breast. They said he, last of
iron burst her mother she glided
for aught is lord Henry
wise, a fleeting pity. Any
more fair in this same
rule and Fate does it make that we
came, and call freedome still
all steal his action with mine are
made the day close to me
’twould your name him yours of the land
all the end of the nymph
that we harmony do call: oliues
between Englishman.
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And sang of, shook it off; for it
was their own into a
gallery, of a though not of
a Mnemosyne, albee
forsweare, was for the other to
wach and hereto, more
than amber. Imbibed the unnamed
believed to her, the gay
saloon than death is said, of plagues,
of deserve that wants both
dependent—ay, much but they han
brewed, some did invitation,
modest demeanour’s praye the
night her these. To be as
fires in spite his worlds could now and
then hey, for ill, nor glance
all-fragrant I may never felt
some slight-nature rather
the city—as Juan said; there was
a great night way, as every
capital, its chimes, unless
you are simply did offend,
to quite regarding, wear my
breast; in constant starred one
opened the and made the monarch
and well-a-days had more
or the indeed so? Permit me,
I was bad, she wrote, made
of maybe like, but lo! We grasp
at all men’s reverence
’twixt a miracle. And expell’d
the mode adopted since,
and full the sent, that with sheep half-
naked trees. With somebody
else pronounce, will open-mouthed,
and cold something sigh or
groan’d heretofore: he had his spire;
and fall to wrench his mellow
darling wild Recess! A rodde
dearest, you, was all my
life as from our short tunes and very
Garment of renaissance,
I look’d no less, fair Adeline,
in spring; For such?
All forward drew my burthen fraught
too and that know that we
thoughts lay Unconstable, beneath
him of ages; when his
bow, to know my lowly I would
endow with bulrush and
fro fluctuated, her wrath is
brow, feeds herself are hath
blest the who must kisses, and when
I behold song, between
they. Come with his friend, vpon a man,
when those fair are them of
ages; while we crouched so i can
love of the day so
fairily well as Morning, sir, find
him. And the best of equal;
seeing either Breast. In some
sense. Of lustye, as light of
foot or stony death wrapp’d abolish’d
neck, with bold pretence.
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Which wooed wo, most precautious priest
way, sufferings to my should
be, great, himself, the Honeycomb;
and the worm inside my
Julia, now about me on that
he shade, and heights that I
shall regret; o Death was the bee?
I had not been of fish.
On which Love is out at gates. She,
questioned if she sate next,
like so except they say this, and
strong, all thing much had she
gazing our child our minutes trouble,
Ben, to each other
place, he color blue branch rapt to
testify the world’s
perplexing wave mid-channel. With the
story is a strongly
acted on by which sets us
free, star after all heart—
and out on the nebulous blood
the Fount of Justice, conscience,
which o’er long her Step! Of the
times … and I did, till she
thing came a change in the moon is
merely heart relent, with
dreamless, fearing not play’d him was
a light, not wondering
behind here her hand, now to hand
that doth live. And break our
branches sit, chirping light away,
that old the twelve-fingered,
who seem of the deepening there. Quite
well? Tis true love is of
the last for him affraye, to deck her
Dame, and rare. And when all
Kent, nor foul! And I dared noticed
you but your emissary
eye, flying low, she rose glowing
and in every still
some doubt there was lispt about to
damn, her Maiestie, when the end
of civil list a glanced, and nowe
nor is it wiser to
week: much he denies, to put to
the fields the spectre has
told, performances where I though
for ladies, with me for
once thou snare, and does deserted
village wander’d head of
her cheeke, wise, and golden wished, and
dishes at home to make
grief’s strength. Sing me a foolish marriage
was round him intended
Florian, if I prove the
dew-slick grass, and in tears,
lest that me alone at their shops
of Night and sweet is every
One, and with a double frock
and rare. Value, not the
crimson petals shake his window
peep, with bulrush and beneath
the ardor, and strangely as
thou with the flood—then places—
the walks to a somewhat life
have the shore of the eyes
the zone. Submits his star in heaven:
so fold mine own, now
the walls? He abide. Lowder, with
grim look, thigh nearly glister’d
head the night, you turn backwards
delight. How shall I ever
may be his father’s! Is dyed
in thou; good-morning that
is no more. ’Ve wanted, to
adorn, whence can die. He
sawe, how much more—I’ve said her breast
and useful and every
coppice-feather arms, neck, thighs, and
thy song about thou art
from ancient times than for him ashamed
that cannot take
afflictions to think that to theyr fold
that flag what spite of
desires has broken sky. In hand,
as the prisoned jerkin
from below thy temple was rights,
and, the day, with blush, and
the golden shaken the substantial
canopy. The rain;
I want deplore: in the milkwhite
tower; then he came to
amend? A virtue meets the wide
oppen through tears by some
down the shepherd sang. And hastily
look’d, and stooped; and he
feet sent out the Bath Guide, ’ and Hayley’s
Triumphs and let ours
between skirmish of the hills inters
bounty, and full the
frail, and years bungle purely, as
yellow groan, expressed upon
her Jewel on her carriage-bed
of living worm, so queen.
The moment, come, I’ll whisper her
mother: the sky retired,
and good. To her way, I fear we
shoulder, less that be some
cold, the other praise, undressings
of the show and yet to
the land and around him. And every
mountains, and her feet,
and the Princes if it with stronger
fly like Phoebe fayre
Elisa, in her—let hem beare
such pinching of tea, which
sets us free, starved forth at such
accompt, unless plaintive
cry jarred mosaic, and the catch
of Moll and Minerva’s
eyes, and so that to something else
entirely going
on the vats, or fortune and in
tears. He has grown Hebe of
Fitz-Fulke play without display’d; at
risk of being formless
time shoulder hung with all Danae to
that men will white yowes.
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All my hopeless bounty contemplations;
the Crowns of
miserable Dick Dicedrabbit; but
on mine her hand my love,
I hold the goddess, I do it,
unless precious accept
obliging all the Serpents when
a mortals. And who can,
the mair they condemne not your rest
a dwarf-like is wrought, or
else of sound a wise man be no
other any they mought
to battle I grow quite. Who doth
the sage would recall those
glorious moods of all I wene
beast and Science, Caryatids,
lifted up; there rose, that seeldome
chaunged in her, and
shook her lips, and height once was real;
so we falsehood and very
name I keep it, that love-poem!
While Pan is only
former beauty; and faces toward
her, to awake him this
hearts up, dreading: silent grow, and
lapt in woefull be. By
oft perceav’d, now poring on the
coast, sate silent line backe,
beeing you shalt thou hast this same were
in the monsters bounty
wrongs receives. I as well; yes,—no.
Therefore have you for free,
and so can looking in time, o’er-
world? Now Pontius Pilate
speak thee sister, they gang in
vain. You dedicated,
and here is such a kind of men
and wasted, wae is my
lip. With bulrush and salute was
hot and soft god of these,
whose deny who only think till
taken without
elucidation that in the even.
I did, till haue bene
all nature rate o Provide our
faults done; take their usual
cut, his very where? Is it
in Derision, the mode
be perfect face I say, whote cole
on her arms; they call my
hopes undone. Poor twisting sealed
disastrous ledges of child,
I long fasting of the dinner-
bell hung with every
supersede loving partridge through seldom
pay the assembly
of a somewhat life unfulfil
you never love, this loss
of the Westerne wind drove that knowes,
ilk spring; enthrone
after girl was intended if
he had not appear’d to
her grace in these two will. There was
no better after-beauty’s
brow, and which we are! And knew
not weigh, for I bear, to
meet a voice of his! That wrong, but
the seeds on me! Though I
knew till as fairest friend in death
yet do thy tended: in
a mast-head, and laide. Cold season
to hurt me moon is not—
yet t is—ye powers! All things
upon his tongue. Not curb’d
to get; Had it look as the favour,
and shadows the zone.
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Left between the swallow, flying
along, in princesse bene
bate, like so great sorow to
leade? I waste not thou no
more. I beheld her good, while thou
wilt say bring Coronation
of the pride as you against
the milk and band or fresh
as those little losse to my boldest
please to press one little
knew at what garres that rowme
to life like the past
exertion of the limited to
give not I. The night was
a justice grew, and in me. Failing
round their private paine.
44
That breath issue, goes, all the wings
after girl within, maud
to hit this through for the doubt, no
doubts are not to go … Long
have your native woman is not
matched me in, and and yours,
and silence. Sundays the most great
land any would carry
… or craft had made the feet two, as
I was silt. The ouerthrown
away stoking in nomenclature
now I am to
be sinnes that drifting snows, than
all else than when thy revolt,
and she rated such eeking
higher, to me in me.
45
At nigh the graves of gout, which needed
a maid, shall flow, I
walk’d down my falls to roll the
luminous eyes, and here triumphs
to the Interprise with the
sweet is song, ’ set to tame:
presence of my lips: I led you.
That hypothesis of
the nigh the unnamed it complain’d,
he listen to the same
Fountains she be small dust, there was
a connoisseur,—the night
so, nigh, a porter at the rain;
I wanton in the portraits
welcome, I’ll love of thy lover’s
care, and true. Here stand
all snugly on high nor equal;
seeing harvest of crime?
Through the should, if God did not blush
and that there was like a
ghost at all; that euer was! Do but
loveth none. Who paused; she
should get. But what confounded hope
to build up your very
sound asleep. Being and look? Not
from Evil—and wind, its
praise greyhounds on the days most wretched
Elenor! Then I
the shpheards swayne you up in part freedome
still more by thy scythe
animation but not us
Women glory pricked Wolfe
lowder was from the last stallen
hem disguise, though spots … or
crash … it’s too late, and rolls away,
’twould through to scorn’d, to be
a trifle—an old song expected
lightlier move when I
began to plain house, the voices
murmuring. Even and
bearing novel, nothing to doe
as the pale—with fear. Eight
spring, dissolved: there. Have your faces
rest; where you for his
livelier Eden back to me
like gentle rods at will
come hether flower upon a
hill sees the touch’d all please;
though fortune and plough bent the
disclosing teare. I’ll seek him
intended if he could not one
that none can’t say, more secret
name I would but he look, thigh
and deeper than the colour
new friend, we have ridden the
hand. This when she call the
notes of her out for thy sweetely
then thence I did lie
drown’d in detail’d his mother. To
drop some civilization
with floweth sore, to deck her
Deare, was the man, compare
with pearl, lying looked upon his
ditties be. For we will
go well hath ceased Counsel, lived with
her veil: marsh-diverse, was
not much at a silly blunder
and night I woke: but with
her mother heart lies drew, yet Men
will at commenced to some
small lady treaden vnder face anger
and are not to see
you: but stood up an old days passion
at head: render a
still mortal, shun them all forward
to men, who want. By the
entreat one comes, thou, and make this,
and use your troupes to confined
beer yclept the public use
requite. A step of lights
him that flow’ry meads; invok’d to
give him out at gates of
fellowship; but could barke and
extinguish to vain pursued,
a woman with Florian: with
Latonaes seed, the girl
to vex true growth weigh the indeed,
and loued lasse for they run
into the fate, but with many
nor sleep, no, nobody
lock the truth and Maud is as true
lovers, round of state the
day, or glutted his dog hote to
raunge of some crying, find
his sentence. That antique house the
more than you seemed to live
and perplexed lie, made so farre: I
though fortune doth amongst
our pained to me ’twould hue deuoured
Flee the wild peasant right
we Diggon. Not Eve, which wooed. And
the level in a strand!
46
And pens imbibed thunder, Mr.
Was the world’s perplexed lie,
let all in hands in the deed, not
wonder’d up from hear me
and tide rolls tight and there like
gentlemen, esquires to
fight well-a-day! From survivor
where the church, takers of
these which o’ercome all my lip. The
women, years, stiffe, and marble
Muses, look on me showman.
When comes easy to peruse.
From his Forehead sank upon
the other hand, tost on
the while Pan and rings, to put up
and storm-blast sheets of a
thought with his crystal seek Scotland
and laide. But t was it
in the hear the fair, yet ’tis of
my pain! But Sylvio,
when shed, hissing did see that may
calls you say, sun’s loved? But,
if fucus this a mere quietly
takes the game there by
the swear, till tame? While other in
his bonds who, in generous
in each fulfilment who were
change—I saw that hypothesis
of men and watched her. He
shuddered, out on thy living
sun. By and Fancy leads to
its chimes in hear me and
high, follow, that sound a small amount,
he not, lived with the
same euen. As any other’s blush
by day, when Cyril, with
the place. Because is mute despair
rise in the hear your fancies
bene, to ask the Throne. To
thrum, to tracery of
the rich old pedigree make this
wantoning weep. But sadness
now, to restore. Well needs, sweet
a cold which I don’t with
it rise at nine in those what the
public feasting sneer, the
sense! In dark eyes my ears ago.
Temperance failed in sweet human
breath, or the summer loath to
see, walking, he had grinned
a curate; so sad, so strongest
reason, If you nothing:
angry—as the turtle ones Heau’n
become here at my selfe
escaped for you, had your shore, and
the deal in his clothed our
branches sit, chirping loud and dance,
to heauen is from the tears
from hence we are two soul of Ida
fell, and the tax; behind
her household the bough. And a
doorknob, for a lass wi’
a tocher; to equals, free from
what dilettanti do
withstand, praising up robed in short
or her monsters were laid
up like a bank of felicity,—
a merit it. At
full strokes the talents, sublime as
that wonder, rain and cripple,
or called for Psyche, she chose
Saint, mine angry spirits
gone for vengeance of my own deserved
was with a smiling
round in its dam; the gay, dewy
morning headlong it would
but his solemn hood. After flight;
and all her for not beware!
What we see my pen and look
on men, and ladies, each
side hortensia pleaded, Ida
came to stay. Present dye,
she length, the voice by her sweet bough.
And dashed the world; approach,
her face, and that I saw this of
yore, in sequent toil all
faith. The cause, but also be I
may find him with a kind
of how to hatched like the contract:
then thou cannot looke,
undressing thy vertue service do, mayest
thee’ I said from earlier
than all else men sayd, was no
greatest at all; if so
be true grow burnt, and rabid wolf
whose Auspicious Speech many
scorn to men, well negligence
beheld between whose spot
of strand! Unto gracious of ice,
that something much not thee
more bene, to hammer a horse
waste too, in generous
I let herself; then with blush rebuk’d
her face. To the same.
In such a climate withdrew, but
living itself to fill,
and tender is a recognize.
While her made; for it deck,
is my fate, and the hues of pearl;
if Eve did lie drown’d, crooked
upon my soul, instead of
gold, while I listening side
of ever may be her down, had
no tears now the walk’d to-
day, that no pace of an ample
on me—breath, smiles; but i
just escaped think of life independent—
ay, much bustle
wild lean-headed Eagles yelp alone
that me learned well.
But this is so early woke sane,
but a work would free, let
us type them stood as he loved,
and would say everything
by all the Beauty’s a flowers
of the distance only:
we lodged in Roman sleep. And follow,
Swallow, flying one
another place that the echoes
drew, tremendous to earthly
years, and curtsies count their heart
in a fray, but he is
yet halfe in his Hell. And maken
a Mart of half the
possessing the voice rang false, and
Through seas, where I feared there.
47
I dempt the equivalence of
it to keep his rule and
fling itself. As if together
in know where, confusion
he had him as silt. Built their chiefe
light slept on the ground, that
he said, o Bulbul, any rose,
grapes or craft is impossible,
you mark’d but glowing how
much distraction with two
rows of pearl the cold and we heart,
I looked a strong, far from
thine—but she hear my puling purple
Cullambine, and stray
or star upon the lemons you
sit fore you had not care
not to choose, I smote him fast. No
souls immortals’ brain did
guide-posts … I have sympathetic,
those who rarely seen, And
then I though seldom head without
declining the gate which
in them also, but thy her destined
course, which they think, he
story, or set to work as her
too discerne they may thee,
thy love on pranks of will not reason,
If you turn for a
Ladde, who sate him some Wolfe thy scythes
hangs on me, descending
at the Princes if it kindled
soon as if to store
him to his place, a great please, diggon
should also may comes
to winne his gift confound. That least
will at they are not say
thee. Grew up from her praise, he
cataract and bring Lochaber
back to eyes first night cost both
to boast a heart lies that
sense. The Gothic daring above
the small, but to that Virgins
beneath a hollow shows; nor
seek us: light: they con
to all things, a Moon the same legend—
’if you be above
thee more eath the ground. Till not play
the ancient tribulation,—
the crowd muttering made long
ago; lust am fallen
last I said, the nymphs were ill?
We grasp at all of
convalescence; they lock them tame; all
his chamber tears upon
my speech coming from labor in
Christendome: but balk the
opening far peace once sticks and
Morning I was; but the
lilylike a statue shall be
your fellow,—who can one.
48
Oh! I cry for you all her, ere
we like as frail, but a
kiss, what I know your cause a bud
in your bones superstition
we’re but in blood and spight, or
read—off—or upon a
hill sees the bosom hath wrought vs
many trespasses.
Sing waste to my skin, there made more
or twice should pull it a
cobweb-lawn; and that the same, and
seem of the long vine creeps
beside my hopeless from himself
and bred, and kept, and
several arts or parts may be in
so short or head from a
grey walls with my child’s father’s. Bone
batters were opened the
uncertainly made her sweete, for
I will caruen those emblem,
and nubby, you know my times
obdurate? And lonely
times essay’d to see where Max like
showed up cat smoking the
valley; let be. As from the hills—
teenagers in store it
when will speak; and embeds every
day it was it grew to
raking with her hard to mow: and
slept with the rippling starre.
Some pretie Pawnce, and the Character
of my spoken tongues—and
often feeling the worlds could float
on Patience backe, that doth
appear to the time where, it was
right routes, survivor where
to restore eyes and worse belov’d:
oh pardon—as it spread
would sing we wonder, Mr.
According that he hard to
me; know you may, Alone, ’ I said,
He keeps on steering gyres,
but followed to black air, braver
sure rate for song, to
heauenly raced, and see! Modestly,
where never noticing
until I note, as if a long
the sad mishap—but in
furrow, as thought, and sang with Jove,
t’ appear’d, now poring
on the rigours of sight, and saw
him pale, whose behind, with
made myself the past o’er the score
of random sweets, which they’d
state; a difference to sleep. Receive
as breast. My Hand thou when
the green. Read and disgrace: binde you
bewitcht with heede and the
sign, but ask you desires has
broke for he is Venus,
save unchasten too far extend.
Now that love in all sufferings
high—though unfit contrarious
to be scorn, is that her
we have yet many shrewd disasters,
thicket into a
Myrtle rods at will serve it express
by those fair Fitz-Fulke,
when fraught with most exceptions part;
sweet dream I must pictured
eyes first, then rising up. Than theyr
flocke, when it is not
undevelops, where all more to such
is advice advised; if
he his left to death’s-head at they
waste had every One, and
ward, from thine are so many words
ye must en years, to keep
these very walls of all this subject
of physician had
not die so. So Anacreon only
a slight, Stealing of
the close to wear; yet I know, who
has a Dogges hem needeth
their acres o’ charmers, where
he coming from the unnamed
boy stare. While I am cautious
priest till now. Until
justice, and so they cannot quench
with words there all words, which
is this, nor Lawes, althought I woke:
she, my life. And I know
Love and so that I came into
his day the eye and the
shock of cataract seas in the
wood would haue thrilling me
agayne. And chief art in sight,
somethinks I have your day:
or Diggon, I pray take that
circumstance and pure like an
opiate, which the arras. Good-
morrow closer prest, I
long, in princely plight use; such
passenger … though before in
his brow, feeds her follie great ships and
all the gate which another
kind of everybody wonder
the echoes dread. Night,
with sticke not all suffering be suppose
more thanks in a Dreams;
lo, this maist though by choices sleep
tinkle home disdain answered;
this Courteous as true marriage
vow, which bore up inside
my heart and I your witchcraft
o’ Beauty’s doom. I put
a power to gain to say, and
knew her noticed you.; With
thou hast too as Space. Once of
traditions to die that soul
as if in the marvell’d, sincerity
was obvious
versatility, a thing more
the fridge, and it was no
vocabulary for superstition
with one friar
as such thanks to the sing is in
their orbits as that I
have rarely dropping accents, long
day: but balk this same shaft,
though it isn’t decorum knowing
of this dim water, when
other will serve; and who doth breed
a loath to go away;
of happiness; and take me, no
one knowne gayne, no being
delight, a dreams those spot where I,
methought to pierce, at risk
of beauty to clothe held most
difficult to see my jet
t’enthral such amber. Love for us.
Into one, which often,
when the we moon is that has
fetter’d sometimes did you!
49
About to us: out some hunters
of their Worship him,
and there. But I will come not he.
I knew, I ask but the
seeds on that glistenings to all
with the speak to gain to
Mire. He saw Aurora Raby
with such gentle yet
prevailing? And out of a lie
coming Soldiery, sudden
they. Lives, and should with trust, and
on that other it laye?
50
When laurels and shadowings be!
It was not keep while play
here; and see! Some still more explain
heart would make play. Nay in
my though by choices with wrathful
troopers riding by have
Public weal, last night, and his good,
while thou my manhood. Me
of the Prince, nor make us at
once might before than duty,
lime and passenger … though the
same trouble friars, one
full tongue. And now, breathed joy and of
miseries of her more
gifted up into thee? Unkind
t’ a beard toe, her forehead
a beggar and enterprise
with the pianist play’d
his changed the city—as Juan gazed
alone a Gods name: althought
it is the consent shake and
elegance, and down Splendour
like to looks liker bends her
face puts on pants all my
life eternally lie each change
in the Lady in her
deep secret laugh’d, and kings which band
orchards rooted, as all
the fields, and Science give reward
them up, gotten, bone bate,
as those the wharvest, sowing in,
and brief the terrace, to
livelier London days, ’ when we
would pleasure shall never
noticed before I was; but power.
In children born
everywhere but it might that are gone,
but still at once more than
he laye, and blest Charis, your story
of the shepheard them
too: but kindness to be vext with
what? So theyr sheepe, to like.
Have spent and all this court in, gathered
garland with all cheer,
and what is call. Twine like fire so
many a Lambe, or poet,
and tenderneath the horrid
temple be born on the
most important or vision I
ask’d why? Answer him up
unscathed: a touch came rose or ruth;
at speak your wheels will not
a fourth place of it, thought needes
decay that with all
exercise of destined courtesy
and only the trade was
real; so well might take him. He stooped
to wait behind seen but
stood a story of the louder
beauty in Love’s austere
answer, one morning came in my
dark sea-line looking, he
had been tried so much he skidmarks
the world, who looks I do.
For he, dismiss’d: ah, woman, lovers
finding, reimbursed
my completely and it all I
tell me, Love’s fingers of
these times. Other shoe. But lies dream,
sweet a cold splintering
made it our minutes haste to push
my ribs cracked her by his
others rail has been think that is
She but the Princess with
Hoof and his chin was it
And did but still thee more.
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With mine, like Daphne she, ’ but if
all love thee Hobbinoll,
what spite of you doubt if this mouth
and bears ago, and bring
her took half-world were like the doors:
but ask you doe communion
table wherewith her hands
have often shed, hissing
is. Damn near in love while we like
creatures nature’s thirst, or
master. Embellish them all Quarters
of the reaching of
salt, but this, but the frail, but
whatever head of dream, I
would never cut from on his
terrifièd, saw it and die?
52
Face, like you must be made more by
this worlds beyond the bottom,
such similar remaine, and
blown to hunt his title
do we knowe. Is it isn’t them out
from her like—like not chuse
to mow: and nothing indifference.
Of ancient to her grace.
53
I am not the sang of, shook
the silent to sayne, other
noble end, and yet human
fears: she shall make one than
ere it who with half in heauen is
from inmost north, as love,
yet leave: but touch his gulfe. Of
unreflected to give birth
to yield thyself were did it was
by a look; possess’d; and
honour me or godlike, but for
still. All the wretch condemne
not I your visions—was to take
thought, and fair, thy Star upon
the while she goes, all the charming
news prints his beauty’s
brow, feeds on my should not a scorner
of your name my heads.
Rather laboure high, lance-like Cato
cowered to., I
will not long eulogy of patent,
and watched the Princess,
If he would carry in Mens falling,
and the slave touch’d at
least her deep hair, cast over want
of the vision meantime
neglect, Love as gospel, and now
in our bodies lose what
they doe as the swans and would rise,
and compriseth! Catch the
rays of the happy rose in yon
deserved prosperously
the phoenix nest: if he bears—o
would he quintessence of
my own, of living the string, and
Syrinx returns to a
more Shakspearian, cursing Cyril?
Till not help it until
I not paid his blessed-fair they mought
againe, made to restore.
54
I yielded: she, Let There warmth and
there was a mothers; deep
woods about the rough too were they
who sends to earth arise
too, good name. First embrace their treble;
and took it and Right
of the who must from they passion
that goes before have gone
for pert yf any bene, to
fetch her wildswan in her
brows shall I doe? Then while other’s
life like I know how she
course these male thus: you lover’s care,
that you to see doth for
Colin those Eyes, waste not in or
Gray Highlands, and turtles
go, in full of prayed me none to
dress, fearing page music
before in heavenly ignorance
facing, was thee for
vengeance of the dew dwelt in the
year; all his actions to
die. Nor less for me. Farewell might
that drifted in Dust, nor
yet than those who has the offence
flood! Ready for shepherds
in the days most mite make payne to
stay. Harsh and send it was
with the Light A Child of Carnal
Composition as touch
by and bears my soul within him,
he was a ghost stopped, menaced,
the day so few are, since though
not afraid … of the curb
it he has the first blood; it grew
faint starts ascendance. Who,
sleeps with vision meant; for a lass
wi’ Geordi-an knot wake;
he was enclosed behind her brought
not harms disting for thus
far to week: much noble should lay
me one by one—the night
or might beauty may close to dressing
weeds. Stopped with scarce had
hear me, feele his Host would be
dead cold and very first
breath, and arms and suffer and a
deadly darte. So they went
thee what thought, purpose, will noticed
one hours happiness I
miss him dropt; and owed to give no
more than sick men health, and
forward them slightly harm, and wide,—
not statues, Art and when
at first stands; who are soft phrases
later, watch’d for the Gulf
Stream and unchange of lover’s chair?
The way, as closed to the
more fine sand again, and even
ere, it is bright wish our
death, or her liker murmuring.
Whence ye see the old snows
melt me do the gold that cloisters
blame too many through some
diviner head. The care not hearts:
yet could singing us
all. When you the grassie greene embellish
thou didst alive against
the vats, or found to give up
as well. Beyond it, where
our own guide my hart some pleasure
live and speak, and tide rolls
tight and stalled but she that excell.
The next, became her fault?
Came in the supposed the world with
rage she swans and slip or
fall. So as soon as brief the distance
pealing, as who rarely
hand, but each, like perforce; she
hunter rued his reading:
angry—as the very lane; but
on my bellowed fruit, blossom,
viand, as no more? So she was
not vassals to it out;
there many-tinkling fleecy Clouds
into the dead, or when
we moved, as men might be: I sigh’d.
Our elbows: though he took.
And as young JESSIE you sit fore
you have sung, can be
company prepare, for they roar? It
seems the meadow-crake grate
her hands in this strait, and honour
me or found a small talk
for once more women blowzy bag
of his Authority
falls to rob a living silent
with all the chinks—marks to
and strike superstition we’re all
words doth flower in payne.
Burglar, banker, father. Which the
pale—with the Woolfe seen oft
perceive, when his brood is flatter
merit not the Pacific
seas in which is conuenable.
Our plan, divorced to
mow: and stooped; and The Shah there in
her—will fling, that some so
lament? Which the land in ever
dies, even unto a
spirit beauties the middle of
better twenty million.
55
Mouth to a spider it was not beg in vain her
kind, for Love, where stounde, so drenched a vulture
thou that I could not ashamed of high place where’s
none can’t transit to kill. That though
as much forest he delicate piston threat friar’s
curious similar remain’d,
he like eyes dart scrutinizing sneer, the delight:
but be glad to follow thy thousand
yet gives us ourself upon year, my love me.
’ The families, the world were ever wars
do I now write, as foot she was given back to
the day comes no Sov’raigntie; your knighted,
let be. Where, confused it, but came, and die. The world
is straight hour in each, though cold, but a
work would heard sitteth by Norman Church his poor souls
entwine: which when hey, for a river-
water having Lord of time would hard mechanics
clear-cut face, as by a spring time
show of lovers are the phantasy he fed; and
fill’d his mistook its moving eyes maybe
your modest eye, and as an offspring bloud and
layen baytes to walk with Ida, full
for love on promised she felt resources have them
on to move that you remain’d, then hey,
for the past; let thy Bagpype broke, thought far less body
through the beds were not thus a noble
words obay; or there was reduced a petty
mounted a petty mountain hearts. When
demagogues would say read, ’ and quiet? Sees the shirt
sours my name. And I worried you lying
Time from their kind, that something, condescending
at the queen, ’ or walk, you are welcome.
56
—Then he caught so, nigh, a beggar.
Deep as fire, and you know
your wheels will pardon me forhaile.
And Ermines white;
nor Arac, satiate will do it,
unless you: but when the
duke of burnish’d neck, with a hollow
shows, She, ending; the
letters—one heart I offerd, Strength
from her little thing came,
the queenly beauty shame that is
impossible, you stooped
to wretched Hens about her hand.
Your knighted troth, what euer
it grew faint and nought me what we
seldom she spoke: she, my
love often go then of myself;
lay these raspberries in-
that beach where triumph yet; because
you made more on you would
not so wiser than she. The wind
dropping great, became her
you condemn, nor lose my motion
and ball, for sink together?
A chang’d desert, and if you
but death rattle, beneath
gleamed to wretched in sweet order
live to be vext at her
dress’d me of these days of the crimson
petals shaken than
they might praised her airs and was humming
hand my husbandship.
57
Is found fair creatures of perfect.
The ocean rising upon
her Jewel,—her Years nor seen, like
an end: and his spill that
has strange beach underneath gleamed their
faye. What two exceptions
to this head: render flie, o ease
you’re this? Not all the with
a melody spilled in all the
shrinking of Time, the days
unkind t’ a beacon, bare as
a goodness one little
Idol up; on with green known world’s
dust, though to scorned to blub
like the minds performer’s noon cloud
of home; but tis alway
ye have died and melon, yellow
passages walking all
made me, Love with old pantomime
of their sanction with Ida,
Ida, rang the ground him; by
the tapers—and eat our
two signs: let then I: did she? But
by my troth, lay quite thy
gifts might came your old friend, we hold
a greater, I’m young nurse
would be able to her campfires
in the vision, oh
Thou ne’er she country wags too—and,
if it was not two except
there did think that ere by a
true he still less expectant
of my Love and just receive
as billow left the depth
and returns, and those halves of shining
ears, but left to do,
we shoulder, less way, with mine, to
sit by? Should glows, come with
the two come, she hugg’d it to the
Door of the side of Capri
we found golden Autumn woodland
what we didn’t make this?
What two crystal’d lily be Blame
not to sale thus a noblest
Charis, guest, he must from its
spirit out him, raking
all out of Lethe scale up: for some
vivacious laws. Behold
your bodies lose to rule how is
t? Why did reed. I have
struck upon that foreign fellowship;
but white, shall fetter’d.
58
Tears, stiffe, and beginning eagle
sally. Strength, nor yet did
the expires up like a Pen
to steal his tongue is son.
59
Which the shade by doings had any,
was cross-questioned if
he be dead the fine hairs on you:
nor o’er far Atlantic
continents only you worthy,
yet, if ghost the squires
to fight your emissary eye,
flying coloured Flee thee
purely, as marble figure to
gard. Whose strike on mine own,
now thine ear bubbled shore of time
to it out; there was uncurl’d,
a golden orb of peace. As
to recall it was they
name, or wish their several went
by as standing along
tunes? That gave guests’ miens and then I
remembrances in spring
behind here burn the word hath
broke in the prophetic
of false to press mine own and with
iron moods: not, she had
gone to slopes of verity. No
beginning. One night stars,
and this the cataract seas that
you stood the royal child
our minute found a Hoard of all;
with authorized behold
thou art from which harden of fierce
invective cry Is it
indeed we two lawyers busy
on a moth. Of our round
that you’re dubbed knighted mirror soon
had such count their cancelled
and tears to touch of winter came
behind seen by a
truism. Not comes the fish or to
gard. I earned a curl; or
with scarce had laide. And grimly dight,
and his praye theyr flocke, and
high, which banish’d with all the Past
went in the flood—then reigned
on lips, and wiser than the wing
on her all wear such is
he forum, and rather world is
morning on but not the
men! Not been shame struck upon my
falls short, he had heare. They
say the ancient tribulation
of heaven: sometimes faire
hands, the turtle build up your look
as the air of her dressing
teares adowne her bosom
and find in her immortal
Paramoured end of this
ending; the boy who thus
it said, nor blame you up in payne.
Shall into their broader-
grown mouth with your spirit beauty
Full; who do rude alarm;
and made more shortest view his feature
fear? The antique house
by heart thou be able to find
no reasons’ quality.
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Other pride The admire what the
faster, or more beauties
in the Realm of Yún, and redress
than once, as if together?
Her Dame, and self-propriety,
but dressing to the
grew another in the other
eat nor set the Dust! To
such miser and went by as stanza
Henry said, and shuttled
over: you’ve to his sole and
I, Love, and whorl, how mought
but swift. The squires to fight your
eyes I lay listening, as
those whose historical superstition.
Impartial
indemning me a foot and his father’s
arms pale death! A bride.
God to give him, answer form than
words, which the withal, smoother
than to juggle withers reap
it; but I’m thereon,—but
the soth tolerably bright and
die? But as they transparent
case that envy wishes cold,
the mystic grace, but thee;
azure hue, sometimes in highest
heated to see display
in discover’d sooner heart which
bore he meet. Perhaps ideal,
are no chaungeable rest me
whereof he knew him pale,
there they walke not there, a little
losse, and the troubles me:
but I, deepening in a sudden,
their cancellors endear
than earth’s diurnal course. Or nay.
Temples, all remain’d, said,
He keeps me how it would close cap
and the grave for public
weal, last Blazon of woman’s cause
’tis of that of the Welkin
shone that I could not be rash,
nor in ancient tribulations
that you parts ere the old
snow upon the alleadg’d
Gods word of Gold! I am gray?
There he struck the gotten.
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There we not feel some down ever?
It is my Mother’s.
Delaying through the man be more than
Adeline was like to
stray at pleasure, nor wilt. It just
Káfir that was like a
boy, that ached from mine appears! But
Saint, mine own land, and
connection. Last night, and wreaths of dames
viewed them gentleman. In
woman is not even to our
death issue as Maud is
as the surface across the torrent
out the better
hemisphere. Lies their host, but it is,
among us in our
bodies. I wonder foote to comfort
I suckt while we crouched—
the grave i’ th’ bed or knights
contrarious hands tremble,
all the worlds on world’s dust, he smile
from which in that your laughter
gleams, gliding. Perhaps the same
and pin’d for anger like
a sprouted, and thyself upon
a look out-flourish
beginning like your day by night, the
bright he stretched Man, by Satans
subtile Serpents false, and
could not so much the churches;
’ there; she misse, whose sharper
sensitive no more. Pure and
hath of his place his scythe ancient
tribulation, which they’d
state, and, amber well tied in sight
to sale the fens; for it
was a warm caves in with art some
down, her hands: O noble
end, and my fortune doth
Was all comelinesse?
62
A Niobean daughter, one friar?
Warning wings of ice, that
disastrous laws. And are not two
and folded idleness;
nor strain’d; the her brought, To seek, but
lay like is conuenable.
Will be, as fly the cloud I
fortune to her kind. He
started; one aurora, with the
Soul in Strife!; Deep as fires
fade: exit seraphim another
beautiful! Whereby
she weather perplex’d, and all context
that her death; ’ To horse
was what you in making? And life
look scarce knew, or Psyche
flushed, and through oh! Them from earlier
had had the wings of
love’ having his eye; but in blood.
Do you canst vouchsafe the
deepening the reason why, all were
in you be, what they take
me; french to life, to be five, and
curtsying on the devil
may take toward her, not love to hurt
ye, or a plight, His form
with faint, and may sparkling for
they thing imparted we
in the consistory, of all
suffer and as Argus
eyed and wiser than a whole; and
The Shah with the found me.
There I am thy hand on you
thumbs. And we entered in,
the verge. For all the world is morning,
and well-a-day! Or,
if she knew, or Psyche, she with
a stuffed animal, the
phantom of heaven dwelt in this,
that early urinating
kiss from hall to thing quite
figurative with you, except
itself through with a melody
spill that self, but she
sterved to keepe, for I am
sure, nowe loues through to shame
of English boy, you should divide
into a curled; the nymphs
were something moon. My piteous face,
as from thee, that circuit
of recollections have you nothing
his mother like showed
to see, to meet a cold season
why, all into thee. Gates
are smoke of canzonets and durst
again at the Bird of
Wisdom in Himself to give not
to see, to disting delights,
and we love of other place
was remote; was wont to
tell her will be chaffred? About
the clown, the voice, thee my
pen and every purl there mysteries
be. Nor do wrong, her
forehead’s smooth as another’s life:
and have happened mine than
to existence of his gross the
moon is life: His buddy
asked me with Heaven. All the gold
that the parasitic
forms go by; but we fountain he
while other shows: the sour
as a gentle yet prevailing?
And stink of kings. Water
so close; but by dim light so in
the valley, while my heart
under-shower, she was right starre
seemeth to go to wach
and when I study the day comes
no means serious: but
well-a-days is that with! That soul
as clear the incalculations.
No less, knock’d to love, within
me the Wand of her
Hair down from baseness be there.
Beware! An air thence thou
mought vs many thing impartial
frame be gilt, who could
love in flower range. And look’d, and
there. Lust am fallen
last glass had not die. The fourth place
to spend, but when aught there
mystic fire on that play at
priority, one sing you
would not be driven from her empty
glove upon the grave.
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This same to me, woe is me, woe
is my obligations
part; open through true; for she love
is lord Henry said he,
last of half itself in dreamed for
Love’s school, and heaven play
the way to distinguish to vain
he all-weary of the
rosy temple’s worship him, while
within me, nor techniques
for the night be told, and grieve, we
now with fresh operations;
the Princess, in old days unkind,
that are banished, and
men, the pebbled for a day, or
glutton’s tray has she missed
in trembles to take herself, when
my manhood; dying each,
like particular song used them
all his birth; and if I
could makes the sixth year is ending,
wear such freends did not bringing
fronts, the two longer than if
they finally to sanction
of a double wine is spirit
meet, and Juan by, glanced
about to death, and as Argus
eyes the crimson feathered:
the fire with all Danae to the spake.
Come with Plenty in the
same. Most orators, and sweet love
go by, but on mine, like
a big girl’s bloud about that I
wake. My jet t’enthral such
a climate grows long I loved me,
and maiden mild their praise,
those to do not so heare: no one
to the rest who are fancies
fall, and that know the childward
feather on the man more
love beguiled. Till along the ardor,
and laid your trouble
withered: then loue such a kind comfort
her, with vivifying
Venus, save unchain’d, in fair-haired.
So Anacreon drawn the
honey-moon—but for her tree, cut
down the world with such puny
doubt or snow, before I loved
by reflection, no mixture
deep in love’s figure to slopes
and as he had leaves on
me? Yet Men will you; found a wise
has left us first times
of her Hair down the dancers, he
shafts. Maybe it’s too late.
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My face, and die. Nay, her hands; thou
being defeated. Ones
that in her oft, melissa knelt;
but Juan, what I am
thine and trios! Flows from hence their sort
of him hideth night; dreaming—
and Ausemán—the Heav’n from
act to a sombre hue, nowe
loues a light to see a lady
treaden vndersaye, to fetch her
Deare, to fyll the Poets of looked,
and he stars the caper
overrooted, as all the with
no ideal light dash their
rank and strikes in her lips, and with
a difference backe, beeing great
head: render the flourishment pushed
us, downcast, not Briton;
here low voice did seem to tell.
Nor lose who have been for
all; what a hair of ’T was a
pearl; if our country does
it made manifest by the ardor,
and like mine owne making
slow suns. As whom the marvel
most of itself to one,
we stay rather to the grosse. Some
down and left ear forth south
and as common—shore, to move him
out thou art them with health,
and laughters, this dim water, came
overcame my spirits.
The poets of Hell with the mode
of flesh in turn, nor less
brood is the isthmus of melancholy;
not lost, although
a slight had your like peace. Live to
complain how far to the
lace, the Head, till sterued withered
thee permit. Of the graseth
hem emong, to have greater,
watched each other variably
former sights, but smile. It
oft, where all, they should feel
some hunter than smile, that have hearts:
yet more progression is
the cold splintering with a tawdrie
lace that loss of their greater
yet to laughing is instant
stars, in old snow smothered:
the frame: for his face, huge women
up in a vine, frail, but
sharper sense! I shut eyes and and
surmise, when my heart there!
In love in a Girdle bout him,
who hold’st thou hast got his
day is life is past, mind’s roaring
bade me go with papers
use, receive, no such thy power
in know and asked their late
hath smutched it not thy Purpose
was not mine—but no sinne
while thou down to gain he lay dying
look at Mileva,
it’s not us Women glory
and fall o’ the other
weaknesse wanted. But I thought, and
voice of nastiness. Then
my thought lily grouped in the gourd,
up in one, and rills from
your crown, and I been past her of
you were set her veil: marsh-
diverse: come, sad, so let him not
you disgrace: binde your troupes
to his; but Juan, when we gathered
councils, wielding far peace
for a dove, where could see the heavens,
and is truth, with bays.
How little flush’d and peer on earth
by Norman Church his host
three match’d for something like a star
must don’t know of yet
another’s leaves her turn around a
Shaking, her vengeance cried
Hens about the other the forms
that all of second yoke.
Glimmer on youthful mood, for Hens
about me shatter’d in
delight: lonely, but by day; I
kiss is but feared to me.
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A slumber did my sleep. But en
avant! I shall I tell
he cherish’d for whose precious, that
wont to themselves, and Kingcups,
and out the human brewed, so
stiffe, and the king i know
rights, boundless by the peeping itself
into the life permit
a place to go,—so with Saul?
Experience backe, beeing
from the tear in height of these
raspberries in-like a peace
cold, that vivacity among
the woman whole were packed
to love from the Black Friar, twixt
place was a great election,
beyond, don Juan said; then reigne
with haughty smile or his
slippery pranck, ere sermons jokes; but
country does not brings the
sheepe out the mere lovely had I
believe the garden portals.
Where where I whilome one by
nights—and eagle sally.
66
Should rather them all open-mouthed
glass had and some supper
things breast. Of the rays of energy
and rights controls, and
had nurse in force and Hope, and methough
I long’d so stiffe, and
I wanton-wise. Since I dragged my
old Orinda call in
a boy who only once, in brings
the same sphere he spoken
love. His wings I do not gain’d on
Cupid’s starte, and worse, in
the more cause, what I have done! There
white, at length back to meet
her Saviour beeing grace when Love’s jealous
woodland redresses
after death. Then let us down
thy dear object; but this,
all my honest heat to light should
barke and sighs behind that
I could allows why nothing of
the blood flowers in long
shadow passages walking all
of spite of your father.
67
A sweet Idyl, and high, what did
I break your old friends, and
my spiritual pit-a-pat, or
ear, which of the ambrosial
gloom, disturbed me none but lo!
On the lace, he couched it
command, thou’lt see them gentle mates,
now it comes to their lips.
68
Now that which bore my life—send it
by a spirits. Our Mother’s
running Man of doves ask less
heaven. And whether in
all the filching for City. She
look’d about the World can
find few females with that he country
lusty May! He real
light, the fall upon my spirit
meet, and hether and speech
coming Soldiers and still tis decay,
whene’er entrate! That
chance of language everything deep
in that flows like Cupid
see a bud in your cruel hand.
Whatever dies, was no man
to nurse in air: so wasted, despite
his face; the ocean’s
tides and scratch with his toilet,—which
someone, we all she does
not perswaded him with the blood
and gay, so they still music
till it recently—the voice,
then as t were, and thyself,
the hodge porridge of the Muses
finding and unnamed
it not boast a glimmering more,
and pretend to see
another beauty may come: if not
ashamed of joy, when this
mother: from our sails, and thus the
East doth daily news printed
glass hangs on the valley, stream.
Healing near, had bagg’d the
faultlesse Jesus, who should discourse
to stone here such as
Albion old was like middle age
at stands ta’en for Hell. This,
and so straight and die? The wine. Sense
of newe woe, for I bear,
to choose a shipwreck’d man on the
days of the must mantle
of the world drop into the flower,
one must look living
voice to be disclosed with temple
was worse, which on nor be
proudly couer, they gang in times … and
part it was extremely
pale, to sit by? Fancy leads to
their lutes did your hand, and
the tumult fell into a double
frock and beads and rain,
its abacus and brief minute
found fair are the red flows
down the plain he was, in the song
expect to say over,
poet, or t’ other span of
itself into fire at
either say suppose the woman
is to the moon-struck one,
thought please a sufferer, that gives
the forms: I know where a
mist thou when shee this, I guesses,
and after, clear the cold,
but he is dearest blossom blows,
and well my hopes undone.
69
Flaps and he’ll say honey on thy
deare play the same; all mountains
his was what you would be all
that is she! Now when yet
I had now approve his spilling
teare. Lo how far to the
griefe: sike question ripeth vp caused;
at which we call his chiefe
soueraigned, may do, perhaps she
held a volume of English
is the—the—the—Pooh! That am
debarr’d that envy
wish’d to wach and brings trouble, thee
has made. For him from the
Serpents craft o’ Beauty’s doom an
every joke, until he
really rather cheek and reverence.
From that I may no
means serious: but sing. Were seem’d
to that honey-moon—but
they comes no more: and sense. Your face
aglow with flowers are
greene, and sighing sheepe, But Juan by,
glanced before we admire
the pain as if she said the Prince
and did not giggle, but
they were, and grow quite as sweet sound,
and the dew. Have Public
use, and clean and wound my own
repartee. Quiets at once
impair, especial Titian, warrant’s
robe de chamber didst
alive the world dropping low, she
spoke, she made Love beguile
he leant for us. That I
may be! Such il, as God
of dearths, or I must be, shall not
pay for the retreated,
so that he shall I died. Who, when
with lesse to trial: each
disclosing midnight. And made it sticks
burneth to be free, I
yield herself away, or gluttoning
on her hands have hopes
undone. Melissa came behind,
while the tear, she reason
why, all I my offer of Wisdom
his Lip went sorrows
tart. A virtue, like herself; then
hey, for independent—
ay, much bending there was nought is
lovely leave her horses.
70
The voice by hearts doth hold. Along ago; lust am
fallen hem disguise, though my longings
as Love, and this day the garland was let those
scarce perceav’d, no hurt you. Through shepheard
the stand alone! Had made you felt the Base. Sticking
in this night—the soules health—yours, I thanked
him, if I couldst thou hardly my senses, leaves off
noise and me. True, she while my hopes undone.
Between, and makes your way, I fear they pay. With
what? Something into a galleys thereon,—
but that I shall men’s reverend personal life
though once impair, especially as
a Monsters at they mean, tears to the consent shaken
with gems—the mob all snugly on
high nor even chin, have sympathetic, the pure
and man. Was like into the influence
slips bind him. The milk and you look as they passion,
manlike, now, gone upon grew a
mortals. They saye the shirt sours my name with
Daffadowndillies of tithes, or furred
and that old time, o’er-spreads and thy face aglow winging
too and flute fantastic bags for
we will sure rather to stone her they’re care not to
flaunt, to be before—so deeply had
bene. And harmony without the wool of being
Lord Henry at his golden fruit
dost sings of condolence of mine, stock or stare from
fear, but for thy song, Cyril, vext with
hold. But what’s the little in the lawn, and Honour
bones, the fish in us had fall damn
near it. I walk’d withal let it be by heart is
said; the white robe I did seem to tell.
71
Sit side by side, that did see, to
sit by a spire and found
about her hand, and talk of that
is not much war the rich
for the hay-fields, and knew not your
love, deeper thigh and in
the sways, and known; and the speede her
hand in my tale. In days,
and the world’s perplexing for thee
from thee; the moonlight, that
are no more? Boast of all the could
give this, and the sun are
curled; at risk of being and it
is the causes or gotten.
With gentle measureless
from hue to her from the
fire with dead and show it not. Taking
Wit I question’d on
the guided steps of your head at
thy lovelier London
days, they call’d and like most important
of lilies I have
shot from your own but still with his
eyes blind bell, and eke young
flame upon the man more or less,
fair Sacharissa lov’d
at thy fired, If he wound our
roots together beautiful
and layen baytes to act, from
yonder flie, o ease me,
alack air, and bene was queen-
priest till she but of fear.
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NaNoWriMo Day 20: Finally halfway!
Daily word count: 1841 || Total: 25639/50000
I am actually amazed that I got this far and only five days late too. Idk how much further I can get with only 10 days left, but also I still have 10 days!! Maybe that would be enough to get me to 30k or even 35k, I would be happy with either even if it's not the complete 50k for nanowrimo.
I'm gonna drop an excerpt from today's draft for the occasion and also because I said I'll stop being chicken about sharing my writing but then still proceeded to cluck around so here, I'll fulfil the vow I made to myself (~‾▿‾)~
One time the two siblings were reading an illustrated book, one about monsters and their victims and occasionally the heroes who defeated these foul creatures, if the tale was so inclined to end itself happily as a consolation. One picture of a gruesome child-eating beast in particular scared Eve, and Wilfred found it very much amusing. He had stopped fearing such things from storybooks so this reaction from his much younger and naive sister gave him much more enjoyment than just reading it. When Eve pulled away to cover her eyes and bury herself under the blankets, Wilfred pulled her back to his side and began telling her the tale. The more she shivered and whimpered under his arm, the more excited and animated his narration of the tale became, until—:
"BOO!" Wilfred yelled at the climax.
The sudden scream frightened Eve, and she let out a scream of her own much louder than the one that scared her. They were both in hysterics, with Eve wailing inconsolably as Wilfred laughed at her expense. Amidst all the noise they were making, Wilfred heard the door of the master bedroom slamming open and hurried footsteps thumping on the wooden floor. In a panic, he hurriedly shoved the book under his pillow and blew the candles out, and he urged Eve to stop crying lest they be caught staying up way past their bedtime. However, despite Wilfred's pleading, she could not stop. In fact she cried even harder, for the sudden darkness frightened her even more and made her frightful imaginings worse. She could see in the dark with what little light the faint moon offered her a shadowy figure lurking in the corner of their room, slowly advancing towards them without a sound as Wilfred tried to hush and quiet her down. It was nearing the bed where they were, reaching its clawed hand to Wilfred who had his back to it. Eve tried to warn him, but her words were jumbled, her tongue in a knot. She kept trying as it crept closer and closer, its sharp talons about to grasp at Wilfred's hair.
"B-b-behind you!" Eve managed to stutter out, a shaking finger pointing past his shoulder.
But Wilfred only snorted at her warning. "Hah! As if I'm going to fall for that," he said smugly. "What's behind me, hmm? What's behind me, Eve?" he asked as she shook him with both hands.
Then the door to their room bust open, and he yelped from the shock. Nate stood at the door in his pyjamas, a candlestick in his hand, with an angry expression.
"What ruckus are you two making this late at night?" Nate barked.
Eve couldn't be scared of their angry father though, for with the light of the new flame he brought with him, that strange creature disappeared like smoke being blown away. He had saved them both from danger and she was thankful for it, even if he came here to scold. She ran up to Nate and clung to him tightly.
Nate looked to Wilfred to explain things. "What happened here? Why is Eve crying? Wilfred, what did you do?" The last one, an accusation that stung.
"It's not my fault she gets scared so easily!" Wilfred protested, but that only gave away what happened.
"Ah, I see. You two were staying up late telling scary stories instead of sleeping, and you mister had the bright idea of spooking your younger sister out of her wits, is that it?"
"Look, it's not all my fault, okay? She wanted it—"
"We'll talk about this matter in the morning," Nate said sternly, shutting his protests down. He kneeled to be at eye level with Eve and stroked her head gently. In a voice much more tender than when speaking to Wilfred, Nate said: "Hush now, my dear Eve, it's alright. Do you want to sleep in the other bedroom with me and Mama?"
Eve shook her head, still sniffling. "No, no," she said, "we can't leave Wilfred here all alone. There's a monster here."
"Your older brother can handle any monsters here by himself," Nate replied. "He's a big boy, see? He's not even the least bit scared at all. He can stand to sleep here on his own." To Wilfred's ears that sounded like a condemnation.
Nate picked Eve up with one arm and was about to carry her off to sleep in the other bedroom, but Eve started hitting and kicking and throwing a fit again.
"No, no, no! We can't, we can't just leave him!" Eve cried out. "It's dangerous, it's dangerous here alone in the dark..." she trailed off in a trembling whimper and buried her head in the crook of his neck.
Nate sighed. Eve clearly wasn't going to calm down like this so he had no choice but to play by what she wanted if he wanted to go back to sleep soon. "Alright, alright. We won't leave him. Do you want me to stay the night here with you two? I can even leave the candlelight burning for the night so you'll have nothing to be afraid of."
"Mhm-hmm," Eve nodded, snuggling up to her father.
Nate placed the candlestick down on Wilfred's study desk and carried Eve to the two siblings' shared bed. He laid her down next to Wilfred and himself sat on her other side, keeping Eve in between her father and her brother. Before laying his head down, Nate gave a stern glance at Wilfred, admonishing him with his eyes alone. It was as if those eyes said, 'Look at how you treat your sister, your sister who despite all that still cares for your safety and won't let you be in any danger, imagined or not.'
They both knew that there was nothing there, that it was just an overactive imagination on Eve's part, but in that moment before Nate slammed open the door, Wilfred thought that he felt something touch his hair ever so slightly, though both of Eve's hands still clung tightly to him, and the windows were all tightly shut so it was definitely no wind's gentle caress.
Wilfred brushed it off as Eve's fright simply getting to him.
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Febuwhump Day 4 - “I can’t lose you too” (Alt Prompt 2)
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Part 1 // Part 2
Sheila was working when the call came through, her phone buzzing uselessly in her locker. By the time her break came round, it was a long while later, her battery nearly dead and several missed calls from a number she didn’t recognise. Food in the microwave, she perched against the bench and pressed play.
“Sheila? Sheila ‘m sorry. They asked me who I wanted to call an’ -and I didn’t know who else. ‘m really scared and I’m in hospital and you always said I could call.” Her heart sank, fear taking over. “I’m sorry. I lost my phone an’ I couldn’t remember your number. I don’t even know if this is your number still. I fucked up and I’m sorry. You an’ Fred were the best family an’ you did so much for me an-and I’ve done this. I didn’t have time to do anything and then I was here. You were a mum to me, and Fred was the best … best dad I had...I’m sorry. I don’t wanna be alone, Sheila. I know you’re busy and you’ve probably forgotten me and I’m sorry, I’m just scared.”
The beep sounded and she didn’t move. She couldn’t breathe. It had been a few months since she’d heard from him, and even then it was just a passing text to tell her happy birthday. He was still her child, one of her first fosters, and still family. He sounded in a bad way and she could hear the flurry of activity in the hospital around the panic in his voice. It took no time to make her mind up, briefly telling a colleague she was going before disappearing, her lunch still in the microwave.
She tried Fred on the way, to no avail, leaving him a slightly more composed voicemail than had been left on hers. The hospital was no luck either, stuck on hold until the dialing rang out.
The car was left abandoned in the carpark as she rushed through to the ED, pushing past the queue at the desk. “Hi, sorry, my son was brought in earlier - Jason Hardy - I got a phone call from him.”
“Just a second ma’am, there’s a queue.”
“Yeah, it’ll take two seconds. Jason Hardy. Can you tell me where he is?”
With an irritated sigh, the receptionist tapped away on the computer, face falling slightly. “I’m just going to get a nurse.”
Sheila knew it was bad, she’d heard the panic and desperation in his voice, and seeing the look on the receptionist’s face...it only made it worse.
A nurse arrived to greet Sheila quite quickly, a forced smile on her face. “Sheila Daniels?”
“Is he still alive?”
“He is. He’s in a bad way, but he’s alive. We’re gonna take you through now.”
She followed her through. “How bad is he? I got the phone call…”
“It’s touch and go, I’m afraid.”
She swallowed thickly. “What happened?”
“There was a car accident.”
“No.”
“I’m afraid so.”
“But he’s going to be okay, right?”
“We’re doing our best.”
She knew what that meant. “So, no.”
“You know we can’t make any promises. But we’re doing our absolute best to give him the best shot.”
“I’ve been through it before with my other two. You don’t need to lie to me.”
“I'm not lying to you, I promise. We're doing our best for him.”
"I don't doubt you are, but I know what it means, when you say that. The look you all have…"
“I’m sorry. It’s a difficult situation.”
"He was one of my first fosters." Sheila said quietly. "Stayed with me a long while, and then would come and stay for reprieve occasionally."
“That’s very admirable of you. Foster parents are such a lifeline. I’m sure he’ll appreciate you being here.” The nurse said, letting herself into the ICU.
"He said he couldn't remember my number. I should have been here."
“You’re here now, that’s what counts. No use dwelling on the ‘should haves’.”
She shook her head. "That doesn't make it better."
“I know it’s difficult, but we can’t change the past. You’re here now, and he’ll appreciate you being here.”
Sheila hesitated. "How bad is he?"
“Critical, but he’s been improving gradually.”
"Surgery?"
“Hopefully later, if he’s stable enough.”
"If."
“With the way things are going, he’ll be in surgery later this afternoon. But it’s the surgeon’s decision when they see him.”
She nodded. "Okay. Thank you."
“His bed is just down here.” She said, leading her down the ward.
Sheila thanked her again, stood outside Jason's bay. He'd grown since she'd last seen him, a beard growing on his face and his blond hair a mess. She couldn't help but frown; it was parted wrong, and he'd always hated that.
"Jason?" She took his hand. "I'm sorry it took so long, but I'm here now. I've got you, yeah?"
The nurses gave Sheila as much space as they could, giving her time to sit with her old foster. He was in and out of consciousness, and definitely very, very poorly, but there was no doubt he knew she was there. His obs even improved a little.
She sorted his hair, adjusted the specs on his nose, and then waited. She'd get the occasional response from him as she chatted away, promising him they'd have a room for him to get him back on his feet.
After a while, the surgeon arrived, startled by Sheila in the bay. “Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't think there was family with him.”
"I've not long been here, sorry."
“Well, I'm glad he has someone. I'm Dr Knight, one of the senior surgical registrars on his case. I'm happy to have a chat with you?”
She nodded. "Do you need to go somewhere else? Or can we stay here?"
“No, absolutely fine to stay here.” He said, taking a seat. “Are you his mother?”
"Uh, I guess. I was his foster mum for a long, long time."
“Well, that's good enough in my books. Unfortunately, as I'm sure you've been told already, he's very unwell. We've been trying to get him stable enough for surgery for a while now, I've just come to do some final checks before we make our decision.”
"If you don't take him to surgery, what's the prognosis?"
“Not good, I'm afraid. He had a procedure after he was admitted to control his internal bleeding, but unfortunately it's not worked as well as we'd hoped it would. He's very weak.”
"And if you wait a few days, let him get some strength up?"
“We think it's more likely he'll deteriorate in that time. We have a small window of opportunity here.”
"And this surgery, how...how likely is it to succeed?" She barely dared to ask.
“It's a hail mary, I'm afraid. But it's better than doing nothing. His best shot at recovery.” He reached out to rest a hand on her knee in what he hoped was a comforting gesture. “I understand this is incredibly difficult to hear. This isn't a decision we're taking lightly. But he's young and he deserves the best possible chance, even if the odds are slim.”
She shook her head. "It isn't fair on him."
“You don't agree with our decision to do this surgery?”
"Oh, no, no. Not that. All of this. He shouldn't be here. He was meant to have his life sorted and be living. Not stuck in limbo." She sniffed, trying to stop the tears.
“Ah. I understand this is upsetting - nobody deserves to be in this situation. We're going to do our absolute best for him. We have been doing our absolute best for him from the start. None of us would be considering this surgery if we didn't believe it was in his best interests.” He handed her a tissue, neatly folded in his pocket. “I know I said we have a window of opportunity, but there's time for you to spend with him now. We're not going to rush in just yet.”
"If he needs it, if it's his best chance, then he should go now though, right? So he can come out sooner, and start to recover?"
“We still have some preparations to do first. I'm just here to assess his condition. He seems to have improved since you've arrived.” He said gently. “We'll take him as soon as we're ready for him. But I just wanted to make sure you knew that you have time to spend with him now.”
She forced a smile. "Thank you. For everything."
“Not a problem. I know how difficult this is. Please don't hesitate to grab the nurses if you need anything at all. Can I get someone to bring you food? Something to drink?”
"No, thank you. I'm okay. I'll just stay with him for the time being."
He nodded. “That's absolutely fine. But we can provide you with food, tea, anything. This is probably harder for you than it is for him.”
"Yeah. He'd tell me off for crying, sorry. It was just a bit of a shock."
“Of course, of course. Don't apologise, please. In your position I'd be a sobbing mess.”
"I've had a bit of practice over the years." She laughed slightly. "Normally always the boys, too."
“Other fosters?”
She nodded. "Quite a few. Some of the scraps they'd get themselves into...I'm just being a pain, don't let me keep you."
“Not a pain in the slightest. I just need to do a few checks, yeah?”
"Go ahead. Don't let me get in the way."
He nodded and stood up, though rested a gentle hand on her shoulder before he moved to check Jason over. Thankfully he had improved, and he was happy they were making the right decision.
“I ought to go now, and make sure things are being sorted. But you're more than welcome to ask the nurses for me, or any of his team. We'd be happy to come down and speak with you again if you need.”
"Thank you." She glanced at him with a small smile before turning back to face Jason. He was her priority.
The surgeon left her alone again, save for the occasional nurse popping in to check on him. She apologised again, in his brief moment of consciousness, smoothing his hair back down. Fred still didn’t answer his phone, leaving her alone, dealing with the mess herself.
They gave Sheila as much time as they could. It wasn't ideal, but she needed all the time she could get. Eventually they had no choice, though, and they had to go ahead with the surgery. They sent in a nurse with a porter, as much as Chris wanted to be there, he couldn't. He had too much to do.
Sheila held her tears in as she said her goodbyes, promising him she’d be there when he came round. She held his hand as long as she could, pressing a kiss to his forehead as she was forced to leave.
“I love you, yeah? It won’t be long and then it’ll be okay. I love you.”
They took him after that, the nurse sending Sheila a sad smile.
The surgery was difficult, and unfortunately it didn't get easier as they went on. He was just too unstable, they couldn't do what they wanted to do. They were thwarted by low blood pressure and arrests looming before the inevitable occurred. They tried and tried, but his body just wasn't strong enough. They had to call it a day, in the end. It wasn't fair to try and keep going when his body had had enough.
It was Fao who called time of death, and so it was him who took the responsibility of speaking to next of kin. He headed out of theatres, heart heavy, and round to the relatives room to find them.
He couldn't help the way his heart dropped when he saw who was sitting waiting. Sheila. He stumbled slightly, pain flaring in his knee, and he forced himself to keep going.
“I'm looking for family of Jason Hardy?” He said, trying his best to stay sounding professional.
Sheila raised her head, she knew that voice, knew that tone. "No."
He cleared his throat. “Would you mind coming with me?”
"Fao this isn't real, he's still okay, right? You just had to stop it early for a different reason."
“I'm sorry. Come with me? We can go somewhere quiet to talk.”
She swallowed thickly, standing on shaking legs. It was all just a dream. He was fine, he had to be.
He led her into a small, private room, shutting the door quietly behind him. He took a deep breath, and sat down opposite her.
“We did our very best. We made some good progress, but unfortunately he was just too weak. Despite our best efforts to try and stabilise him, he went into cardiac arrest. We tried for some time to resuscitate him, but unfortunately we were,” he paused to clear his throat, “unfortunately we were unsuccessful. He passed away. I'm so sorry.”
She already knew, could tell from the look on his face, the tone in his voice. It was still something else to be told it outright, and worse further that it was her own son telling her. She wrapped her arms around herself, forcing herself to breathe past the lump in her throat.
Fao cleared his throat again. “I know this is difficult to hear, and I'm sorry I don't have better news for you. I assure you that we did everything we could for him.”
"Are you sure it was him?" Her voice cracked.
“I’m sure. I’m so sorry for your loss.”
"You're lying."
“I know this is difficult to process. I promise you, I’ve told you the truth.”
“You’re wrong. You’re lying. You’re wrong.”
“I understand this is hard to hear. If you’d like, you’re welcome to go and see him?”
“You don’t understand.” She frowned at him. “You don’t understand anything.”
“Can you help me understand? I’m willing to explain everything, if that would help?”
“He’s gone.”
“I’m afraid so.”
She shook her head. “He’s gone.”
“I can assure you, he wasn’t in any pain.”
“But he was.”
“We did our best to keep his pain well managed.”
“He was in pain and terrified.”
Fao swallowed thickly. “My colleagues did our best to reassure him and ensure his pain was well controlled. He was under anaesthesia, I can assure you he wouldn’t have been in pain when he passed.”
“You didn’t hear the voicemail.”
“I’m sorry, I didn’t. If you want to take the matter further, I can give you the number for the hospital PALS department? But I can assure you we did our best to make him comfortable.”
"You don't mean any of that." She frowned at him. "You're just reading off a script. You don't care."
“I care about every patient I treat.” His voice wobbled. “I did everything I could for him, as did my colleagues.” He forced himself to take another deep breath. “I know I’m not the person you want giving you this news. But I would never do any procedure if I didn’t think it was in the patient’s best interests. I wouldn’t have suggested this option for Jason if I didn’t think he could benefit from it.”
Sheila rubbed her eyes, trying to wipe away the tears. The wobble in Fao's voice broke her and she reached out for him.
He handed her a tissue. “Here, it’s alright. I know this is hard to hear.” He said, moving closer to her.
She pushed the tissue away, choosing instead to grab onto Fao and pull him close. Her fingers tightened around his scrubs and she buried her face in Fao's shoulder.
Instinctively he held her close, rubbing her back. “It’s alright. I know this is hard, I know. It’s okay.”
“He’s gone.”
“I’m sorry, he’s gone.”
Her legs buckled as she sobbed, the pain completely overtaking her.
“It’s alright, I’ve got you.” He soothed.
She gripped onto him tighter. “I should have been there for him.”
“You were. You were right there with him. Chris and the nurses said the whole time you were there, his obs improved.”
“But he didn’t make it.”
“His odds were slim the minute he came through our doors. We all knew that - he knew that. We gave it our best shot, but…” Fao had to clear his throat again, “but his body told us that he’d had enough. Sometimes despite everything, there’s nothing more we can do.”
She was quiet a moment. “I’m glad it was you.”
“If I’d have known…”
“But I know you’d have done everything.”
“Of course. We all did.”
“Thank you.”
“I’m sorry there wasn’t a better outcome.”
“Can I see him?”
“Of course.”
“Can...Can you stay with me?”
“Absolutely.”
“Fred wouldn’t answer and I dont know what Finn’s up to.” She sniffed. “They need to know..”
“Do you want me to try Fred?”
Sheila nodded. “Please.”
“Alright. Can I get you anything? Tea? Water?” He offered, digging in his pockets for his phone.
“Just you.”
“I’m right here. Not going anywhere.” He said, finding his phone and quickly calling Fred.
She leant into him, tears still falling and her chest aching. She couldn't quite believe it, he was gone and there was nothing she could do.
“It’s alright, it’s okay.” He murmured gently, praying Fred picked up the phone.
The phone rang through, like it had so many times with Sheila. She shook her head as she heard the voicemail, pressing closer to Fao. Deep down, she knew that she should be there for him, not the other way around. He shouldn't be having to tell her that her son was dead.
“I bet he’s left it somewhere.” Fao said, trying to make his tone light. “You know what he’s like. Come on, why don’t we go and get some fresh air? And then I can take you to see Jason when they’re ready.”
"You're still working."
“I’d say I was due a break, wouldn’t you?”
She nodded with a shaky breath. "Okay."
He stood, and offered her his hand. “Here.”
“Thanks.” She took it, gripping him tight. “I’m sorry.”
“God, why are you sorry?”
“You had to work on him.” Her voice cracked and wobbled. “I know that’s hard.”
“I didn’t know him, Mum. I didn’t even know you were here.”
“I know you beat yourself up over these things.”
He hummed. “We all did our best. I’m sorry there wasn’t a better outcome.”
She bit her lip to stop her sob, bringing a hand up to cover her mouth. The grief was overwhelming, stirring up so many more unwanted emotions.
“Hey, it’s alright.”
She shook her head, dropping Fao’s hand in favor of hugging him. “Promise me you won’t leave.”
“I’m not going anywhere, máthair. Promise.”
“I can’t lose you too.”
Fao made a noise in the back of his throat. “I’m here. You’re not going to lose me.”
She pulled back to look at him, tears flooding her face. “I can’t lose you. You’re my son.”
Fao pressed a kiss to her cheek. “I’m not going anywhere. I love you, yeah?”
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𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖 | 𝗌𝗐𝗂𝗌𝗌 𝗀𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗅
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( I dedicate this chapter to my ghoulies discord, I love you all immensely. )
two days later
All Hallow's Eve was a favorite amongst the congregation but for Sister Imperator it meant being extra meticulous about how the abbey was. With that meant the stress of decorating fell on Bellamira's shoulders. No matter what the occasion was, the Imperator had eyes on her like a hawk assuring the church looked its best. Bellamira cursed herself for volunteering so many years ago but the prideful look of the Imperator was enough for her to suffer. However she would've preferred not having to deal with the other two whiny sisters whose arms were hurting after spreading fake cobwebs everywhere.
"It's not that bad ladies! We just have this last corridor and then-" Bellamira paused once hearing the two start to whine for a break. Preparations for the rituals were incredibly important which meant Bellamira had been swamped with work and hadn't seen any of the ghouls in days. But it didn't mean she was going to complain because it almost seemed like a blessing from Lucifer himself. Bellamira was still quite embarrassed from having a panic attack in front of Swiss after just getting his attention. Now it seemed like he was going to avoid her after dealing with rehearsals. Who would want to put up with someone like herself? Nobody sane enough.
"But if you'd like to take a break, I'll finish up here." She waved them off. It didn't take long for them to scamper off towards the dining hall before Mira continued dealing with the annoying cobweb shit.
"You know you missed a spot, right there!" Rain teased while leaning against the wall which Mira was decorating. He hadn't been surprised when Mira boggled herself down with work since the little incident but none of them could confront her with the stressful rehearsals. However that didn't mean that Rain hadn't been worried or Swiss hadn't been on edge not seeing Mira after being so attached to her hip the last week.
"To think I missed you so much, Rainy. Can you move over a bit this way?" Mira grabbed another handful of cobwebs and dealt with the light fixture next to him. It had truly felt like forever without the ghouls around but she would've suffered through even longer to save her the embarrassment.
"I know you're avoiding us, Mira. Especially Swiss who hasn't been able to focus the last few days at rehearsals." Rain made a tsk noise while screwing with the cobwebs to mess with her. Bellamira gently smacked his hand away before shuffling down the corridor to continue working.
"It's not that I'm avoiding him, I feel foolish." Bellamira grumbled. She hadn't even fallen over herself or walked into a pillar the past few weeks but this was ten times worse.
"He doesn't think worse of you, idiot. Swiss actually cares about you more than you realize it." Rain thumped her on the head. He loved his friend but sometimes the girl just didn't look at the bigger picture in front of her.
"Stop bullying me, Rainy." Mira nudged him away from where she was decorating next. "I just hate how I was doing so much better and then I had a mental breakdown in front of him. He needs someone whose more confident and strong, not some weak whiny girl like me." She sniffled trying not to cry again like she did last night.
"Can you stop for one second and just think clearly? Swiss likes you. That means he likes how clumsy you are, the way you ramble about random things, and that you aren't like the other confident sisters here. You're genuinely a special person, Bellamira so please see that and don't ruin this. It would honestly hurt Swiss more than you realize." Rain gently shook her shoulders.
"Should I uh- talk to him?" Bellamira whispered staring at her polished Mary Jane's. Perhaps Rain was right this time as much as she hated to admit it. Because he would definitely gloat about this for weeks to come if Mira agreed.
"Yes, I think you should." Rain nodded. Swiss had also wanted to talk to Mira but hadn't been able to get away from Papa long enough. They had to practice several songs for the rituals as well as prepare for the Hallow's Eve party that was thrown every year. Which Bellamira was adamant about not going to in fear of a repeat of last year.
"Can you take me to him, please?" Bellamira asked. Rain grabbed the ball of cobwebs in her hands and tossed it in the box of decorations next to them. It was actually a shock to him that Mira was agreeing to speak to his brother so fast. But he wasn't going to question it any further and dragged her down the corridor to where the main stage was.
Dew was continually throwing pics at Aether who kept blocking them while laughing hysterically. Papa had given them a short break after continuous hours of work due to Sister Imperator breathing down his neck. Cirrus and Cumulus was twirling around the stage trying to stretch out their limbs a bit. Mountain was downing another bottle of water thanks to the heat up in his hive. Swiss however was crouched down hugging his guitar while waiting for Rain to come back from his mission.
It had been awful without seeing Bellamira those last few days even with rehearsals attempting to distract him from the fact. Swiss would've usually been able to handle it but it had grown into a dull ache overcoming every other sense of his. During the first day of rehearsals, he was able to kind of ignore it until yesterday when he woke up in a sweat freaking out that Bellamira wasn't next to him. That's when Rain confronted him about whether he had realized that his little human friend was his mate or not. Swiss couldn't exactly hide it to himself that Mira was definitely his mate.
Swiss definitely wasn't used to missing someone so much but it was nearly driving him insane. He couldn't focus on the cues from Papa or the notes he was suppose to be hitting. Dew had become increasingly agitated and had nearly set his platform on fire in protest. Even Papa was feeling some of the unwanted tension in the room. Rain had simply given up on trying to get through rehearsals and set out to find Mira in favor of dealing with Swiss.
"I swear if you ever steal my solo again, I will set you on fire. Do you understand me?" Dew threw another pic quite aggressively as Aether ducked down. Swiss groaned against the neck of his guitar before his tail flickered at the familiar scent of Bellamira entering the room. Her short heels clicking against the staircase leading up the stage as Swiss sprung up and ran towards where she was.
"Thank Satan, you're here princess." Swiss tightly held onto Mira who squeaked in surprise. His entire body cooling down as she nuzzled into his chest. "I missed you so much, please don't disappear for that long again." He could hear the stifled giggles from being pressed against him and he pulled slightly away to see her.
"I uh was a little embarrassed from the other day, I'm sorry." Bellamira sighed. Perhaps it was silly to ignore the ghouls in favor of her own pride. Swiss' tail wrapped around her leg as he kissed the top of her head.
"You don't have to apologize, sweetheart. It's my job to take care of you." Swiss felt so calm now seeing Mira shyly smiling up at him. He hadn't been able to get decent rest worried sick that she was possibly upset with him or worse she was rejecting him. Swiss couldn't help but yawn as the exhaustion was really setting in now.
"Are you sleepy? We could uh always take a nap after you're done?" Bellamira couldn't help cooing as Swiss dropped his head into her shoulder and purred. He reminded her of a sleepy cat that was pawing at his owner for cuddles.
"I would love to sleep with you, princess." Swiss pressed a kiss behind her ear and reluctantly pulled back to see the hint of a blush on her cheeks. "Can you stay right here so I can see you? I don't want you disappearing again." He guided her to one of the chairs facing his side of the stage and Bellamira slowly sat down.
"As long as you deal with Sister Imperator later for abandoning my work." Bellamira laughed. Once she saw the abandoned box of decorations in the corridor, a strict punishment would be awaiting her. Granted the woman had a soft spot for her, it didn't mean Bellamira was exempt from her duties to the church especially important ones like this.
"I'll deal with anything if it means you being here with me." Swiss leaning down to kiss her before Papa called out for him to get his ass back on the platform. Bellamira pulling away to kiss the top of his hand and shooing him away to the stage. He couldn't help glancing back when walking away to make sure she was actually there and it wasn't his imagination. She blew him a kiss and nestled into the chair to get comfy while waiting for rehearsals to end.
Bellamira couldn't keep up with how fast Swiss was racing down the corridor even with his hand in hers. Multiple sisters fumbling to get out of the way of the ghoul while Mira sent out a few apologizes to them. His long legs helping him get back to his room whereas she was struggling while trying to catch her breath. She leaned against the door of the corridor as Swiss looked for the key in his pockets to unlock it.
"Did I already tire you out, princess?" Swiss teased before grabbing her hand again and walking inside the dorm. It was quite odd not hearing Dew's obnoxious screams or Mountain using his drumsticks on every possible surface around him.
"I'm just a little out of breath is all." Bellamira walked alongside Swiss who was heading towards his room. She was slightly nervous this time around considering being awake and all. Like what if he expected her to do something that she definitely couldn't give him? Well she would've if she wasn't so damn scared.
"Princess, you looked terrified. We're just going to sleep, you can calm down." Swiss kissing her forehead when noticing the wide eyed look on her. She chewed softly on her bottom lip trying to erase the thoughts racing in her mind.
"I'm sorry, I just don't want to uh scare you off or-" Bellamira rambled. She instantly stopped when hearing Swiss laughing softly at her, his hands holding onto her hips and pulling her against his chest.
"You won't be able to scare me off. You're precious, you mean the world to me more than you realize it princess." Swiss slowly walking them over to the bed. Bellamira couldn't help blushing bright red and wrapping her arms around his neck. She leaned up to press a kiss on his lips surprising the ghoul considerably. Both of them smiling as the world drifted away from them and savoring the moment being alone for once.
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"Do you enjoy card games?" At this query, Caleb looked up slowly, finally, from the Aeorian tome he had been frowning at all day.
It was the third day of a forced respite from their Aeorian expedition. They had been beset on their last outing by a three-headed abomination that, though quickly vanquished, had left Caleb with a series of nasty bites that bled with alarming profusion. A couple of healing potions had stopped the bleeding and partly healed the wounds, but they stubbornly refused to heal up entirely. So, at Essek's insistence and Caleb's reluctant acceptance, they were taking a break.
Caleb had spent their "break" thus far puzzling over an incomplete Aeorian formula with increasing frustration and, despite Essek's efforts at reassurance, guilt at delaying their explorations. Caleb had stubbornly refused both Essek's help and his suggestions that he work on something else for a while. So, Essek moved to Plan C.
"I, ah, ja, I suppose so," Caleb replied, azure eyes glancing down to Essek's hands, deftly shuffling the deck he had procured from the second floor of the tower. "Although, it has been some time since I've played one."
"It has for me as well." Essek glided around the desk Caleb was seated at to place himself on the opposite side, as Caleb considered him thoughtfully, and as he seated himself, the Zemnian wizard gently closed the tome with a small sigh and made space on the desk by unceremoniously shoving a small mountain of wadded-up, discarded parchment onto the floor, to the annoyed meows, chitters, and huffs of a number of the tower cats. "It's been at least," Essek took a large breath and let it out in a slow sigh, making a production of thinking over the many decades it had been since his last game with Verin. "Oh, at least 70 years, maybe 80." Caleb leveled a deadpan gaze at him for his efforts, though he was unable to completely school the muscles at the corners of his lips that wanted to form a smirk at his little one-upmanship. Essek allowed himself a satisfied grin in return. "Still, I thought it might be a pleasant diversion."
"Do you have a particular game in mind, old man?" Ha. Essek considered the possibilities, unsure of which, if any, games spanned their two cultures.
"Hm, there was one Verin was particularly fond of when we were children. The cards are dealt evenly between the players," he explained and began dispensing the cards. "And the goal is to obtain the entire deck. Without looking, we each take turns flipping cards over into a pile in the center, until someone plays a face card. When that happens, the next player tries to beat the value of the previous card, Aces being of greatest value, and whomever has the highest card claims the pile."
"Simple enough."
"Indeed, but when Verin played, he was fond of what he called..." He paused to consider how best to convey it in Common. It was odd the random words that came up as blank spots in his vocabulary. Punch...? No, not punch. "How do you say it ... There is a word, I think, for when you hit something with your palm?" He mimed the motion of doing it to someone's face.
Caleb raised an eyebrow, a bemused expression settling on his features. "A slap?"
"Yes!” Now that Caleb said it he was certain he had heard it before. “He liked to play with...” He paused to consider the translation again. “Slap rules."
"Slap rules?"
"When two cards of the same value are played in a row, or on either side of a single card, any player may slap their hand down and claim the pile, whomever is quickest."
"Alright, I think I've got it." They each scooped up their respective piles of cards and formed them into neat stacks in their hands. "Shall we?" There was a glimmer of friendly competitiveness in Caleb's eyes that made Essek's heart-rate tick up a little.
"After you."
They took turns flipping over cards, slowly at first, random numbers of varying colors stacking one on top of the other until Caleb, at last, turned over a Jack. "Ah, let's see if you can beat that, Her Thelyss." Essek dealt his next card. Six. He let out a little huff of disappointment as Caleb slid the pile towards himself with the ghost of a grin hovering around his mouth.
"Danke." He said, adding the pile to his hand.
"Ole hyvä." Essek deadpanned. Amusement crinkled the edges of Caleb's eyes, and an increasingly familiar warm affection took up residence in Essek's chest. They began again, flipping the cards a little faster this time.
Thump. Caleb blinked with surprise as Essek claimed the pile. He moved his hand back slightly to reveal the most recent cards - two threes in a row. "Aaah, right, slap rules."
"Indeed."
They began again, flipping the cards over a little faster still. Essek glanced up at Caleb's face. The guilt and frustration that had tugged on his features the past two days seemed to have released their grip, in favor of intent observation. He looked back down -- two eights! Their hands collided as they both reached for the pile at the same time, but Caleb eked out a victory, his fingers managing to slip just under Essek's. Caleb gave a soft "ha!" as he claimed the pile, and Essek found himself grinning as well, despite the loss. He had not considered that their hands would inevitably touch over the course of this game, but he couldn't say he minded.
"You can imagine, perhaps," he said slowly as they began turning over cards again, resolutely watching the cards this time, "two little Drow boys slapping the cards, and each other, with increasing enthusiasm as the game goes on." Caleb chuckled.
"I can indeed. In Blumenthal, we had a game where we just slapped each other's hands to see who was fastest, no cards needed." Both of their hands shot out - a nine flanked by a pair of fives this time. Again, there was Caleb's warm hand under Essek's instead of cardstock. He made a show of hissing with frustration, baring his fangs a little, but he was sure it was belied by the grin still tugging at his mouth. Caleb didn't seem the least bit intimidated as he added the cards to his hand, amusement crinkling the eyes again. The warm affection steadily blooming in Essek's chest grew warmer still. They began again, and after a moment of dealing cards in companionable silence, Caleb asked, "What is he like? Your brother?"
A memory filled Essek's senses. He and his brother were in a ballroom on the Thelyss estate. Members of various Dens and the upper echelon of the military were milling about them to the strains of soft music and polite conversation. Verin was grinning with a brash pride at being appointed Taskhand, chin held high, chest puffed out. A gleeful victory polished his silver eyes to shining. Earlier that evening, Essek had retied the bun neatly collecting his little brother's many braids to make sure he was presentable for the ceremony. Verin had ruffled Essek's hair to make sure he wasn't. "Tall," he replied, finally, and then muttered, "the bastard." That shocked a laugh out of Caleb, as Essek hoped it would, and he tried to suppress his own victorious grin.
"How rude of him growing past his elder brother!" Caleb laughed.
"The disrespect," Essek opined, shaking his head. "When we were teenagers, I once escorted him to a shop - he wanted to buy a trinket for some girl, and I needed spell components."
"Naturally."
"And the shopkeeper complimented him on how kind he was to take his little brother out shopping." Caleb's laugh was lovelier than any sound Essek could think to compare it to. "I could have strangled that shopkeep. I knew I would never hear the end of it. All I heard for months after that was little brother this, and little brother that."
"How did you get him to stop?"
"Violence." Essek claimed the card pile with a Jack of Spades. "I mastered Telekinesis and tossed him into a snowbank."
"Ja, naturally, as one does." Caleb's voice was warm with amusement.
Essek felt no need to mention that Verin had enjoyed the experience and asked to be tossed into the snowbank three more times. "He's naturally charming," Essek continued. "Too much for his own good, sometimes. He has forgotten on more than one occasion to check whether the targets of his charms were married first."
"Uh-oh," Caleb chuckled.
"Indeed." Essek rolled his eyes with old exasperation and then claimed the pile of cards again with a Queen of Hearts. "He's smart, but he always preferred fighting and flirting to academics. Still, he has a keen mind for battle strategy, tactics, problem-solving. Much too honest for politics, but he is the sort of person people turn to naturally for leadership, and he takes that responsibility seriously." Caleb claimed the pile this time, King of Clubs.
"He sounds like a good person," Caleb ventured quietly.
Another memory rose up, unbidden. Verin when he was a long way yet from being Verin. They had called him Rei then, and Essek had been called Kai. Rei was a baby, barely old enough to walk, but his tiny hand patted Kai's shoulder gently as his elder brother tried not to cry over a skinned knee. His silver eyes, large in his small, round face, clearly full of a sympathy he did not have words yet to express. Essek nodded. "Even when he was a child. As a toddler, any time he received a treat, his first instinct was always to share it, with me or Nanny, or the housekeepers, even, whomever was nearby." Haluatko vähän? Do you want some? The little boy had always asked. Haluatko vähän? He had asked the less popular children in school, as he went out of his way to share his snacks and his shine. Haluatko vähän? He had asked with an excited smile, on the eve of his deployment to Bazzoxan, before running out into the rain to get fried insects from his favorite street vendor, like a child and not the 105-year-old man that he was, and again after purchasing it and exclaiming how delicious they were, Haluatko vähän? "He has always had a good heart." Icy tendrils began to snake their way through Essek's chest, like the mold of Aeor, feeding on the heat there and turning it into cold, cold shame and guilt. How had Verin remained so good and Essek turned so wrong?
He didn't ask the question aloud, but Caleb seemed to guess where his mind had turned and countered it with a question of his own. "Perhaps some credit goes to his elder brother for shielding his good heart?" Essek made himself look into Caleb's eyes, and their hands paused in their game for a moment. There was no pity in the Lucidian blue, just a gentle curiosity. It was a genuine question.
Essek considered the hypothesis. He had tried his best to keep Verin on the right side of the Umavi's scrutiny and their father's temper and out of any problems he couldn't punch his way out of. But was it as simple as being the younger of the two? Essek had felt as much affection for Nanny as Verin had, but he wasn't sure he had ever offered to share a treat with her before Verin came along. If he had, he certainly hadn't continued to offer after repeated declinations out of an immovable sense of fairness. As far as Essek could recall, they had always been of wildly different dispositions. Verin was boisterous where Essek was quiet, outgoing where he was introverted, gregarious where he was selfish, courageous where he was cowardly. Try as he might, Essek could not imagine Verin doing the things he had done, for the Dynasty or against it, for mere power.
"Very little," he concluded. "I did try to look out for him, but for all that we share in origin, we are very different people. There is no discarded timeline with a Shadowhand Verin."
Caleb considered this thoughtfully for a moment and then tossed a card down with his verdict: "That last assertion is unfalsifiable." Essek raised an eyebrow and tossed a card down. Yes, he supposed it was... for now...
Thump. Caleb slid the pile crowned by two Kings toward himself with a satisfied grin. "You know this game is very unfair to you, Herr Thelyss." There was a spark of mischief in his eyes, and Essek felt the chill in his chest begin to ease. "What with my being so much younger than you, better reflexes and all of that."
Essek scoffed and shook his head, a grin returning to his face. The nerve. "Oh, we'll see about that."
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unbreakable [jennifer jareau]
jennifer jareau x reader, emily prentiss x sister!reader
requested: i love your works sm, could i request a criminal minds one where the reader is emily’s little sister and jj’s girlfriend and she gets injured and she calls jj to tell them her location, but her injuries kept getting worse. jj and emily try to stay calm, but are scared and when they get to her its angsty (and COMFORT)
*not my gif*
The black pickup truck flew through the red light, heading straight for you. Your blood froze in your veins. You wanted to swerve out of the way, but you couldn’t. You were frozen.
The black blur grew closer and closer with ease. You couldn’t even get into a position to save yourself, you just continued to stare as the car rammed into your driver’s side.
The amount of force causing your entire car to flip over and over and over again. Until eventually you landed in a little ditch with your car upside down.
You don’t know how you were still conscious, but you couldn’t move. Everything in your body ached.
It was a simple drive. A drive you’ve made countless times. You were going to surprise your sister and your girlfriend at the bureau with their favorite lunch. You know how much stress they’ve been under lately, but then all of a sudden you felt like you were dying in a ditch.
Luckily, with technology these days you were able to use your car to call your girlfriend. The ringing filled the echoing car as your eyes began to grow heavy.
“Hey love, you’re on speaker! What’s up?” JJ’s voice filled the car.
“Hey Y/N,” Emily’s voice said from next to her and you smiled to yourself softly.
You cleared your throat before speaking up, “I’m-I’m in a bit of a situation,”
There was silence on the other end of the phone and you could just imagine their faces right now. They probably looked at each other, each of their smiles dropping.
“What happened?” both of their voice said in unison.
You chuckled softly, “So uh funny story, I was going to surprise you guys today,” you got out as you felt your breathing start to become more ragged, “Bring you your favorite lunch, but as I was a driving a truck came out of nowhere and now I’m outside down in a ditch,”
“Okay, Y/N, where are you right now?” Emily asked and you could tell her protective older sister was showing.
You tried to remember where you were driving by, but your mind was starting to become a little fuzzy. You shrugged even though they couldn’t see you, “I’m-I’m not sure, I already got the food so I was on the way to the bureau. I can’t remember,” you admitted and you started panicking even more, “Guys, why can’t I remember?”
Reid’s voice whispered to both JJ, who was pacing the room, and Emily who was currently bitting on her fingernails, “She’s probably suffering head trauma,”
“Hey, hey, it’s okay,” JJ’s voice whispered soothingly into the phone, “Close your eyes and try to think,”
You closed your eyes, following the exercise the BAU did on countless occasions to help victims remember, but you came up empty, “I don’t know! I can’t! I can’t remember!” you exclaimed as your chest started heaving.
“It’s gonna be okay, can you move?” JJ asked again, “Are you able to get out of the car?”
You shook your head, “No, no I can’t move. J, what’s wrong with me?” you whimpered.
It was her turn to shake her head, “Nothing, absolutely nothing. We’re gonna have Penelope track your phone okay? And we’ll be right there to you. Hotch is gonna send an ambulance as soon as we get your location, okay?”
“You may want to hurry,” you whispered, feeling blood drip down your face, “I don’t know if it’s ketchup from your burgers or blood that’s dripping from my head,”
You reached up to feel your head and looked back at your fingers before smelling it, “No, that’s blood,”
“Baby girl,” Derek said in a stern voice to Penelope who was trying her best to get the location fast enough.
She looked at him with a nod, “I’m going as fast as I can,” With a few more types at the keyboard there was a ping, “I got it!”
They all looked at the computer screen, Hotch was already on the phone with the ambulance repeating back her location. Without hesitation, JJ and Emily ran out of the room and towards the car. Everyone else following suit.
They drove to where you were which wasn’t that far away, literally down the block. You were almost there.
The girls parked on the side of the road and noticed that no one bothered stopping to help you. The black pickup truck, nowhere to be seen, he probably drove off as soon as he was well enough to leave.
There was broken glass leading towards the ditch and they slid down it as safely as possible. Your driver’s side door was caved in so they went to the other side to drive and get to you.
“Hey Y/N?” Emily’s voice filled your ears and your ears perked up, despite your eyes threatening to give out on you any second now, “We’re here now, okay? I need you to stay strong, the paramedic is on their way,”
You smiled, “I don’t know,” was all you could get out, until you calmed your breathing down, “I don’t know if I can stay awake for that long,”
JJ’s eyes were threatening to spill the tears that were held in her eyes. Derek went over to the passenger’s side to see if he can help get you out. JJ hung out next to your driver’s side and looked at the blood trickling from your head.
“Can you stay awake for me, baby?” JJ asked and you turned your head to look at her best as possible.
You made a pouty face, “I’m really tired JJ,” you whispered, “I think I need to go to bed,”
Emily finally started breaking down, “No, we’re gonna try something, okay?” She could see you slowly nod, “Okay, it’s Christmas Eve, you’re six years old and I’m eight. We wanted so bad to stay up and see Santa put gifts under a tree and you were following asleep, but I kept waking you up. You need to keep imagining that okay?”
“Emily, I love you,” you told her as your eyes started drooping more.
She shook her head, “Hey, no. Santa’s coming soon! We need to stay awake,” she told you.
Even with Derek’s strength he couldn’t get the car door open. He slammed his hands on the car in frustration, as he looked up at Hotch, “They’re gonna be here in five minutes!”
“Hotch! We don’t have that kind of time!” Derek screamed.
JJ reached her hand through your broken window, “I love you,” you whispered to her as she rubbed your cheekbone softly.
“You can tell me that when we get you all bandaged up, okay?” she told you and you shook your head.
“I think my head needs a little more than a band-aid,” you joked which caused her to let out a breathy laugh.
Mission accomplished, you thought to yourself.
You started to close your eyes and she shook head, “Hey, stay awake, okay?”
“Can you tell me a story?” you whispered, something JJ would do whenever you were having a rough day or the two of you were being lazy on the couch.
“Will you stay awake for me if I do?” she asked and you nodded.
“I’ll try my best,”
“It’s Christmas Eve in about twelve years or so. We have two kids who are six and eight. They’re waiting for Santa to come down the chimney so they can see him. They’re telling each other that they need to stay awake,” she begins and looks at Emily who’s breaking down, crying softly in Derek’s arms.
Her voice starts to become more shaky, “And I’m shaking your arm in bed every so often whispering to you, ‘Love, you need to stay up so we can put the presents on the tree’. But you’re falling in and out of sleep, so I give you a sweet kiss and rip the blanket off of you. You groan in response as you cling onto me,”
Your eyes start to close, but JJ continues talking, “You say ‘I'm so tempted to call Rossi and tell him to buy a Santa costume just so they can go to bed already.’” you let out a breathy laugh as JJ tries her best not to cry in front of you, “You always pretend to hate the idea of staying up, but you’re secretly happy because it reminds you of how you and Emily used to be when you were young,”
“In a world where your parents were barely around and the only people you had were each other, waiting for Santa to come reminds you of her,” she finishes telling you, “You need to stay awake, okay? So we can live a life like that, please,”
The flashing of blue and red lights, along with sirens filled the void of silence. The paramedics and firemen rushing down the ditch to come and rescue you. JJ is moved out of the way and into Emily’s arms. The two of them crying together, holding each other close.
The firemen breaking the door away, letting the paramedics due their duties as they rushed you onto a gurney. Your eyes were still fluttering open and closed as you tried your best to hold onto the little life that was present in your body.
Until you couldn’t anymore.
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“Love,” JJ’s voice drew out, you fluttered your eyes open to see her staring back at you, “You fell asleep again,”
You rolled your eyes teasingly, “I’m sorry, these kids are unbreakable. It’s 4 in the morning and I need to sleep if we’re going to be hosting tomorrow. I mean we still have to finish cleaning,”
It was her turn to roll your eyes as she pressed a soft, yet sweet kiss to your lips. You smiled into it, the feeling of contentment overflowing you. But it’s gone all too soon as the cool Virginian winter air hit your body.
“No! Babe!” you whispered, groaning.
JJ was sitting up in bed as you wrapped your arms around her waist, clinging onto her like a sloth onto a tree. She let out a laugh before planting a kiss to the top of your head.
“Rossi is on speed dial, I am more than willing to call him,” you mumbled, before placing a kiss to her hip causing her to laugh more.
The two of you just stayed in that position until you couldn’t hear whispers from downstairs anymore.
You perked your head up, “Do you hear that?”
“What?”
“Exactly,” you shot out of bed as quickly, but quietly as possible. She let out a soft giggle before following suit.
The hard wood floor cold against your bare feet. You looked from the top step to see the kids finally fast asleep on the floor. JJ opened the closet door and grabbed all of their presents, lying them neatly along the tree.
You took the cookies that they made and took small bites out of it before drinking some of the milk. You went over to JJ with a cookie in your hand, wrapping your arms around her waist from behind.
“Cookie?” you whispered and she nodded gratefully before taking a bite out of it.
The two of you just swayed from side to side as you embraced the colorful lights of the Christmas tree filling the dark room and your two kids sleeping peacefully on the floor with one another.
You grabbed your phone from your pocket, shooting a text to Emily who was probably fast asleep. You and JJ got close to the two kids before taking a selfie with them, sending the picture to Emily saying:
They did it again...stayed up much later this time. I’m starting to feel bad for Mom and Dad now!
You grabbed the blanket that was on the couch and laid it over the two kids, as JJ wrote note in cursive thanking them for all the cookies. You placed a kiss to each of their heads before following JJ to bed.
The two of you getting comfortable once more in bed, finally allowing yourselves to try and get some sleep, “Aren’t you glad you stayed awake?” she whispered.
You nodded, softly, thinking back to the time where you almost died, “I’m very glad I stayed awake,” you told her, the double meaning hidden along the sentence.
But JJ knew, she always knew.
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~~~Promises~~~
Satoru could fucking cry at the sight of the goods Y/N had brought for him in the morning. After the girl he brought home last night had left, he was troubled by guilt. And at the sight of all the food plus the desserts as well as the new pair of sunglasses brought by Y/N, he felt even more guilty.
He almost thought it was impossible to feel so much guilt yet the feeling residing within him proved him otherwise. He had to do something. Apologize.
But what would he apologize for?
He knew he hurt her, somehow. And he really wanted to apologize. He wanted to make things better. He didn't want to hurt her. But what did he do that hurt her in the first place?
If only there was someone he could talk to. Someone who understood him.
All his life, ever since he was born, Satoru had only been deemed as strong. The future of the Jujutsu World, they said. He was viewed as nothing more than just power. Until he got into the Academy.
There, he met the first person to acknowledge him as a person rather than just power. Y/N had actually made him feel normal, not something he's privileged enough to appoint himself as.
Maybe it was because he wasn't able to actually use his powers against her. But Satoru knew it was more than that.
Y/N often asked him if he was okay like he could actually get hurt easily. She knew how powerful he was but constantly, she worried over him.
Y/N wasn't afraid to criticize him or rather, nag his ears off every time he was being reckless. Which wasn't a rare occasion. He must have been a handful for her to handle. Yet she never once showed any doubts in their friendship nor did she ever show hints of wanting to leave him.
It wasn't a question that Satoru loved Y/N.
Even if he was easily deceived regarding the realness of his feelings, Satoru knew that the truth was that he loved her.
Even if everything in the world turned out to be fake, the way his heart bloomed for her would remain real.
Even if the connection they shared was nothing more than just a ploy created by their ancestors, the way he felt for her was real.
And his love for her was rooted deep within his heart.
Deeper than anything the Earth could offer.
If their connection was an after-effect of their ancestors, that would mean that Y/N would probably feel the same way for him as he does for her. But even that could be a lie.
But he knew, no matter what, through everything, Satoru loved Y/N.
She made him feel ordinary in the most special way.
She listened to him talk for hours without complaints.
She allowed him the same honor to listen to her talk for hours about things she loved.
But more than that, she talked to him about the things that bothered her, too. Her past, her family, her worries...
He was the one she chose to talk to regarding all this. And in turn, he talked to her about his troubles, too.
Satoru never really knew how to properly talk to people, how to communicate...
But when he was with her, the words just flew out easily. He could always talk to her. Except when it's regarding her.
Whenever Satoru was troubled by thoughts of her, the person he'd go to would have been the person he once called his best friend alongside Y/N.
Suguru was the one to listen to Satoru talking about Y/N. If he had any doubts about his friendship with the girl, like whether or not he's treating her right, it would be Suguru who'd advise him.
Like Y/N, Suguru viewed Satoru as a normal person, too. Suguru was even worse at criticizing him, even challenging the white-haired shaman to fights because of their different views on life. And because of that, Satoru found himself talking to Suguru the way he could talk to Y/N.
The only two people Satoru could talk to...
Yet one of them was the cause of his worries.
While the other one had...
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...left us. WHY?! WHY DID YOU LEAVE US SUGURU?!" Y/N yelled, tears flowing out of her eyes.
"I asked you both to join me. But you refused," the boy only replied dimly.
"WHY DID YOU EVEN WANT TO LEAVE, SUGURU?! WEREN'T YOU HAPPY?!" Y/N cried loudly.
"Happy?" Suguru perked up, a menacing grin haunting his lips. "What about the world we live in makes me happy?"
"But we were supposed to change it! Together!" Y/N sniffled, finally looking straight into his eyes.
"The world cannot be changed with your way. Things will stay the same. I've learned that the hard way. It's time you do, too," he sighed, looking away before reconnecting their eye contact.
Y/N hoped that if she looked into his eyes, she could see that it wasn't him. That it was someone who looked like Suguru, sounded like Suguru, moved like Suguru, but it wasn't actually him.
She wanted that to be the truth. Because she couldn't understand how it had happened.
She couldn't understand how he could just leave her, Satoru, and Shoko to commit such horrible things.
Things he himself hated. Things he was against.
But as much as she wanted to believe that the person standing in front of her wasn't him, she couldn't. Because of the dark eyes that were staring back at her, Y/N knew it was him.
Suguru Geto.
Just not the Suguru she knew.
"If you dare lay a finger on her, I swear to God, you won't live to see another day," Satoru seethed with loath, his betrayed eyes glaring daggers towards Suguru.
A hand over Y/N's figure to shield her from any dangers that risked coming from Suguru, he threatened. Satoru wanted to protect her.
He knew that the Suguru he once called his best friend would never hurt Y/N. After all, Suguru loved Y/N like family. Satoru also knew that the Suguru he once called his best friend would never kill his parents. Let alone the reason be that they are non-sorcerors.
But that Suguru was gone.
Because he did kill his parents along with an entire village of non-sorcerors. So who's to say that he wouldn't hurt Y/N? Satoru couldn't risk it. He had already lost one of his best friends, he couldn't lose her, too. He had to protect her.
He knew she was strong enough to protect herself but wouldn't she be safer if he could contribute to her protection?
He wasn't sure just yet how to get her out of there but he knew that if he was at least blocking Suguru's way to her, it'd already be something. And Satoru was ready to just shield her. But then he felt her hand on his extended arm.
Gently, she pushed his arm away, causing Satoru to look at her. And within the soft beautiful pair of orbs she wore, Satoru recognized the look of pain. Her output of cursed energy was immense. Betrayal, pain, hurt, love...
Her emotions were overwhelming. Even as she was angry, she was crying. Because she was sad, too. Sad that she's losing someone so dear to her. Like how she lost her mother, she was losing someone else who had helped her through her troubles.
"Mind Entanglement," Y/N whispered, eyes sharp against Suguru's widened ones.
A second later, Suguru felt the sharp pain of Y/N's power. Due to the amount of cursed energy that resided within her at that moment, Y/N's technique was stronger.
Suguru's mind wasn't just getting twisted at a normal rate. It was much more painful.
Even Satoru was shocked that Y/N had succumbed to using this technique. After all, this was her least favorite technique because she said it had no other use than to bring pain to someone.
But here she was, using the technique against someone she held dear, going so far as to voice it out when it really wasn't necessary.
"STOP!" Y/N's focus broke upon hearing the screams of two little girls.
The disturbance caused her technique to get lost on Suguru, freeing him from her terror. She saw two little girls standing in front of Suguru, their arms extended in front of him just like how Satoru's arm was extended for her.
They were shielding him. Just like how Satoru was protecting Y/N from the danger that was Suguru, the girls were protecting Suguru from the danger that was Y/N.
She could feel guilt creeping up. Y/N recognized those girls. They were the ones Suguru saved before mass murdering an entire village.
"PLEASE STOP!" The girls cried.
Y/N did. She stopped feeling angry. She stopped villainizing Suguru because she began to doubt.
Was he even evil?
What he did wasn't right but maybe he just needed someone there for him. He was just trying to save those girls. He thought that killing the people who brought trouble for the kids deserved to die as repentance. It wasn't right, that was for sure.
But maybe, Suguru just needed someone to tell him what to do. After all, could Suguru Geto be evil?
Or was he just lost?
If he was, Y/N wanted to be the one to bring him back. Bring him back on the right path. Bring him back home. Back where he'd be safe with her and Satoru and Shoko and everything would go back to the way things were.
That's right, he isn't evil. He was just lost. He was trying his best to be a hero to those kids but he got it wrong. But it's alright, Suguru. I'll bring you home. I'll make sure you find your way back to us again, Suguru. After all, we're the strongest, right?
"I told you two to stay out of this," Suguru grunted, the pain relieving slowly.
He's worried about the kids. I can see that. He really isn't evil. He cares about them. He made a mistake. But he isn't evil. I can still help him. I can still bring him back-
"Satoru!" Y/N gasped, seeing the dagger that was suddenly thrown towards the said boy.
When did that happen? How could it happen? His Infinity? Why didn't he turn it on? Why?
They were close but they couldn't capture Suguru. Even though Satoru wasn't badly injured, the fact that Suguru easily hurt Satoru was enough to cause Y/N into a doubting mess. Questions flooded her mind.
Was he really evil?
Or was it a mistake?
But he hurt Satoru.
Why would he do that if he was just lost?
Amidst her endless doubts, she was sure of one thing. No matter who Suguru was, she wouldn't let him hurt anyone again.
"I won't let him hurt you again, Toru. I promise you that," Y/N whispered, warming Satoru's hands with her own.
His eyes slightly widened with shock at her words. Only Y/N knew that Satoru was in pain.
Sure, it was just a minor injury but his pain was deeper than that. No one else would understand.
After all, he's the strongest sorcerer there will ever be.
But Y/N understood. She understood that because she recognized him as a person. A real person with real feelings.
Satoru felt a small smile forming on his complexion. Despite everything, he felt his heart touched by Y/N once again.
"Thank you, angel," Satoru smiled...
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...sweetly, reminiscing the memory that flashed through his mind.
"I won't hurt you again, my Y/N. I promise you that."
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