#tired of being upset all the time

[snobgoblin]

ah...yeah. had a feeling I'd fuck something up today, lost a friend just now

[razzek]

One thing that's starting to really get to me with the James Somerton stuff is a real strong undercurrent of disdain toward his fans. And yeah, I was one of them. A good scam artist isn't as easy to spot as y'all seem to think. You forget that you have all the information right now. Two days ago most of you had never heard of him and it would have kept going. Anyone can fall for a scam, nobody is immune. I would love to have had whatever resources you guys think we all should magically know about so I could have kept my sad $5 a month I really needed but thought was going to something worthwhile. Some of us can only devote so much energy into things and when you have no idea whatsoever that something is amiss of course you're not going to go digging for sources, why would you when everything is fine as far as you know? I really wish I could have seen the dissenting opinions on him but for many, many reasons that aren't just that the dissenting voices weren't widely circulating at the time all I had was the thought every now and again that "huh that doesn't seem right" and then go on with my day. And I think that happened to a lot of us. So yeah. Say what you gotta say about Somerton, he has more than earned it with the damage he's caused, but maybe don't shit so hard on his former fans because that is going to be you someday with something, it happens to everyone sooner or later.

[theangrypomeranian]

I just want my passion back man idk why that's so much to ask for

[llitchilitchi]

I get hating certain political systems and trying to abolish totalitarian regimes but at the same time many of them are so interwoven with our history and society they have become tropes and when I consume media with a setting where the monarchy is absolute and revered then I am playing my part and sucking that princeling off

[iamumbra195]

Don't you love it when you get back into your childhood hyper-fixation that you remember very fondly as an adult and realize how fucking depressing the actual story is now that you have the capacity to understand it beyond cool fighting and characters, humor, and awesome friendships?

[windydrawallday]

Long-PSA-short of sorts that's more a vent: I was always aware my behavior and way of expressing myself online can surprise many people, especially if they are not used to someone who uses the writing medium as a playful form to tell emotions in a very descriptive way as I do. I'm quite affectionate with words, yes. And I always beg people I hang with personally to let me know if some of that bothers them, curtly of course. So far there have been few instances of individuals confusing those signals with ulterior means, things I assure you there's nothing more than me being friendly and supportive.

Imagine idk an excited dog seeing its owner haha

Until the past week, I found myself being tackled by something that made me almost knock everything aside because it made me realize that probably I'm a walking trigger/squick inducer with even the way I wield words like "love" and "friendship".

Almost...

I'm pretty tolerant of whatever way people conduct themselves in this life, the only moment I flinch is when an individual assumes from my default behavior and presentation that I want to impose my way of life... And nopes.

This is simply how and who I am. Nothing more, nothing less. I don't search for conflict but for understanding. My language for expressing marvel and reflections is like this, never to make the other feel awkward or attacked.

So, it upset me knowing that by wielding this forever welcoming and lovable disposition, I can be something to fear and even despite... to some people.

But, you know? That means that my "love" and "friendship" lifestyle are not made for you, no reason to come back to me and point at it. Just keep walking if you have only rage and rejection to give as a reply to my point of view. Because by wielding rage and rejection, what you only do is burn bridges. To create conflict and assume imaginary antagonistic scenarios where there's nothing of that at all.

You can't create the world you wish to live in by burning bridges.

It took me a lot too to forge who I am right now. I even keep learning and chiseling through traumas and mistakes—kindness and patience taught me more than rage and rejection. And "love" and "friendship" are the bricks I chose to build those bridges. I know everyone else uses different concepts but in the end, we all build bridges. By creating bridges and inviting others to do the same, I expand not only my world, but the other's too!

Isn't that better than demanding to be this or that through a black/white flag of rage and rejection? I think so. And I understand perfectly we sometimes need to be blunt when marking our boundaries. Still, never justifies treating the other bad.

And if some of you find "fake" or distasteful the way I wear this flag of "love" and "friendship" I'm sorry: this place will never be safe for you then. The exit door is always open. Go ahead.

I hope you find your place and flags out there too, but don't forget that to do that you need to build bridges. If you don't want to call it "friendship" call it "glue" or whatever makes you comfortable, but don't kick people like me who fought with claws and teeth to reclaim those words and feelings.

Fight your fight by being a good example, not a bad experience that makes someone never want to deal with something like this again in their life.

"Any color you like, (in the end) they're all blue."

[flyingbuddiies]

the day osc tumblr stops fighting over tacomic is the day we all heal [adding my personal opinion in the tags]

[needylittlegirl]

crying is so stupid sometimes like pull yourself together whore

[cookiepwee]

yeag so i had a breakdown and completely isolated myself yesterday lmao

idk what to do really i just need to share that i'm sad and i'm sorry

[comfortfrogblog]

sometimes you wake up too early and you feel bad for a few minutes but then it sets in and suddenly there is a whole day ahead of you with experiences to be had and love to be given and love to be received

[jorrated]

having a lil beery beer 🍺👍

[blooming-cecilia]

im sorry but. as much as i love itto (and i really, really do), im really not happy to see him again this time. he just had his beetle event a couple patches ago and had his cameo in the cooking event. and now hes getting yet ANOTHER event? they're doing it on purpose now and forcing him in just for a lighthearted event... there's literally so many other ways to make a lighthearted event for inazuma that focuses on another character. they have over 50 characters at this point and many of those are underdeveloped and don't have their own story quests or hangouts to really expand on their stories,,

if they can't afford to develop or expand their characters atm then just don't have this event? a new area, a character, TWO new story quests and some more mini events is more than enough for a patch

[running-in-the-dark]

just now realising that it's kinda weird that every damn thing I did as a kid, even accidentally, still gets dragged out all the time as proof of how mean and bossy I was.

meanwhile one of my brothers stabbed my other brother with a screwdriver and it's just so funny. one of them jumped on my back when we were fighting and hurt me so bad that I couldn't get up for an hour (and I got yelled at). one of them broke someone else's property on purpose and it's just a funny anecdote about how he and his friend had to pay for the damage. they stole cash and very expensive alcohol, so funny and cute. they got drunk all the time and started smoking at 12.

which is all fine. people do stupid things as kids. but it sucks that I'm always the difficult one, the one that causes trouble, the mean one. the worst thing I ever did was drop out of school because I was too terrified and depressed to keep going. this is somehow proof that I was such a difficult child to raise, so hard to be around. not that my parents completely failed me in every way, or anything like that.

my brother attacked me this year. but that's totally excusable because surely he had his reasons (yeah, I disagreed with him and wouldn't back down. great.) and I probably just misunderstood (how?!) and anyway it wasn't really that bad. he yelled at me for daring to disagree with him, insulted me and then grabbed me when I told him to get out. but he's just having a hard time and can't express his feelings well and can't I just forgive him?

but I'm bad for things I did when I was 15 or 10 or 5 or literally a baby. I'm bad for things that never happened. I'm bad for things that other people did. I'm just bad.

[finneyblakes]

man something about the way bruce speaks as a ghost fucking DESTROYS me. he sounds significantly more flat, more subdued, more gone than any of the others, even those who’d been there longer than him. he speaks so monotonously, his inflection hardly ever changes and when it does it really isn’t by much. he repeats himself more frequently, takes long pauses between sentences, like he’s struggling to even finish a thought. he doesn’t show up on screen, which of course is mostly a choice made for pacing and such, but it still says something about how we’re supposed to interpret his character postmortem i think.

and it’s not like this is all just a side effect of the whole death thing. the others who’d been there longer didn’t develop the same mannerisms to the degree that he did, if not complete opposite ones. there was something specifically about bruce — in his personality, his trauma response, his experience, maybe even the specific cause or circumstance of his death — that caused it. that detached, almost spacey way of speaking and thinking is unique to him.

of course i think that’s all intentional to really fuck with the audience by making the nice popular boy with a generally sunny disposition near completely stripped of all that energy and vibrance after having been through some of the the worst things that can happen to a child and FUCK YOU IT WORKED

[flythesail]

It's a terrible feeling to be able to watch a new tv show nowadays, like it, and know already it won't be renewed

[lesbiansanemi]

Bad day. Horrible awful terrible bad day