#trans singing

[fozmeadows]

So someone reblogged this video of me from 2015 - almost exactly nine years ago now - singing my version of It All Goes Around from @annleckie’s Imperial Rach series, thereby reminding me that it existed. Which is kind of delightful, both as a memory in its own right and because I’ve been on testosterone for almost two years, and I no longer sound anything like this. So I thought it would be fun to post an updated version showing what I sound like now; because tumblr is a hellsite, however, I can’t add video to a reblog, so this will have to do 😁

[wordslikesilver]

Sometimes I wonder if there’s just like, no good songs written for a voice like mine which feels completely insane to say but have YOU heard a lot of trans women on the radio? Feels tricky getting an idea of what kind of sound I can achieve when all I’ve got to work with usually is cis voices for singing along to.

[living-for-fiction]

Once upon a time, I was a chorus kid. A soprano. I was no Sarah Brightman, but I was top of my section and had solos in the casual-tier chorus (multiple types of chorus classes, some of which you had to try out for; I was not that invested and didn't want to do choral competitions or anything, so I never tried out and have no idea if I would have made it - but basically I was the top of the casuals).

The only thing I didn't like about going on T was losing my singing voice. (Not the soprano aspect per se, I had bad voice dysphoria and hated my high voice, but the quality and range of my singing.) It's very sqwacky now, it cracks, etc. I've got puberty voice. It happens, and it's worth it.

But I do love singing, and I've been kind of stuck with like one comfortable octave since my voice dropped. I'd like to change that. So sure, I can work on high notes... or I can see if I can voice train myself into being a FUCKING BASS.

(I probably won't end up a bass, but I can dream.)

So I'm singing Hoist the Colors here because it's a very easy song to sing, very intuitive notes, and sounds good when sung very low. Now, it doesn't sound good when -I- sing it low - I miss half the notes, you can tell I'm struggling, and my voice flat out gives up at the end. But I'm hitting more notes than I thought I would. And that is so COOL. I hope, one day, when my voice fully settles out, that I will be able to figure out my new vocal range and have a good singing voice again.

[bathylychnops]

its like 105° outside andhes been in his garden forlike 4 hours hesgoing to get heat stroke

stephens sitting in a lawn chair during this in a bathrobe and sunglasses and drinking a mimosa watching jett inthr garden like hes stephens poolguy and stephens a cougar orsomething

[eats-a-berry]

i wasn't sure exactly what i thought adult gideon should be doing, but i DO quite like the triple combination of cowboy-biker, drag queen, and used car salesman at the same time. she's always a busy person!

[everythingisliminal]

I did it. I called my parents, told them they need to use they/them for me for us to have a healthy relationship, and it worked.

My dad said his love for me is unconditional and he's invested in getting this right. My mom asked in a strained tone how this affects my relationship with my husband, how she's supposed to refer to me with people in her life, etc. (best case scenario given how abysmal this convo went with her a year ago). And we ended it all with our life updates and "I love you"s.

Since it took a lot of research to find articles more suited to adult children coming out as trans/nonbinary, here's the list of (primarily non-aggressive) resources on terms and mindset I texted them in case they can help anyone else:

Itchy sweaters: An ally’s guide to understanding late-in-life pronoun and gender changes (new pronouns = softer sweater metaphor)

Your adult child just came out as non-binary. Now what? (terminology)

The Wonderful World of Gender: What It Means to Be Nonbinary (terminology)

What Does It Mean to Misgender Someone? (terminology)

8 Things I’ve Learned Parenting a Non-Binary Kid That Might Help You (acknowledges parent's emotional response)

Edit:

OMG Y'ALL MY MOM JUST TEXTED THIS

"I know I was quiet in today's conversation but you are my child and I love you and support you. I want nothing but happiness and a healthy life for you!!!😉😀"

[queerbreadcrumbs]

I sang publicly in an LGBT+ choir yesterday. We're an SATB choir. I'm a trans guy and I sing bass. The last time I sang publicly with a choir I was an alto, but testosterone is a hell of a drug. Our director likes to have shorter people at the front when we sing, so that she can see everyone, and the audience can see all of us. I'm on the front row. I look to my left and see another trans man. I look to my right and see two more. I realise that every bass on the front row is transmasculine. I smile. I'm singing for my brothers and my brothers are singing for me. Later, when we're all talking about the performance, I resist the urge to make a joke about how short we all are. We go to a pub to celebrate a successful performance, and with them I dance like someones dad at a wedding, and we talk about visibility, invisibility and navigating being trans at work. One of them has infectious joy when he dances. Another is the most fabulous looking man I have ever met. I finally feel like I found my people and I'm somewhere I belong. This is my community. This is where I am safe. Being with other trans men is so healing and affirming. Being one of the boys. Dancing to ABBA.

[a-todd-illustration]

[micahthemoon]

November 17 2022 I think I had the most nonbinary experience at choir rehearsals yesterday. We sung three songs, and two of those I sing the high male voicing, the tenor. The last song? Well, it only has one male voicing, and I cannot sing bass to save my life. So that song which I’ll be singing alto – the low female voicing. Being surrounded by males and NOT singing to then be the only one singing a moment is such a mood somehow? And then the next song I am a “man” again? It is funny.

[werepuppy-steve]

married steddie but they don't live a super lavish life. they're dirt poor, living in a small house at the end of a dead end road that they rent off one of wayne's buddies. steve's a manager at walmart along with robin. eddie's main job is welding but he also does tattooing on the side, so they host a lot of tattoo parties for their friends every other weekend.

there's music and beer and laughing. eddie always asks steve, "you want a new one, baby?" bc all of steve's tattoos have been done by eddie. he won’t let anyone else near him with a gun. eddie doesn’t give him giant ones, only ones that take up a small-ish patch of skin.

inevitably, there's always teasing from their friends. "we gotta pay for ours, how come you ain't charging him, huh?"

to which steve answers, after snagging eddie's beer from his hand and taking a swig and winking, "oh, don't worry, i'll pay him later tonight."

their friends hoot and holler at eddie's flustered grin as steve smacks a kiss to his cheek.

[cubbihue]

Hey if Hazel, Dev, and the gang play DnD, what do you think they would play as.... and how who would be the fortunate(or unfortunate) DM?

When I was 10, my older brother would play massive D&D campaigns in the living room. He tried teaching me the mechanics but it was too much and too boring for my small brain. Instead, I was far more fascinated with things like Warrior Cats.

Apparently Warrior Cats has a d&d game though. So. The kids would all play that instead!

Dev would eventually be roped into joining. Mainly because when you're sitting with a table of kids doing storytelling, you end up getting very invested, and very frustrated when they make the very wrong choices!!!

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[sing-you-fools]

we really need to stop defining queerness by how much someone has suffered for it.

which is to say: no more "I don't claim [label] because I haven't experienced the suffering they face"

look. trans means you don't identify with the gender you were assigned at birth. it doesn't have an implicit "and people are EVIL to YOU SPECIFICALLY because of it!" attached. because if that's how we define it, then a trans woman with supportive friends and family in a generally accepting area... what? doesn't get to call herself trans? because that's what you implied.

I think this is where a lot of exclusionist discourse comes from. "they're appropriating our struggle by calling themselves queer!" they aren't. they really aren't. they're calling themselves queer because they're queer. there is no struggle inherent in being queer. the struggle is imposed on us by the cishetallo-normative world we live in and bigots in our communities. the queerness comes from within.

"what if a cishet aro man--" no. I don't care. if a cishet aro man wants to be included in queer spaces, he can be, because he's queer. aromanticism falls under the queer umbrella and we will therefore treat them the same way we treat everyone else in our community. "But what if he's lying about being aromantic to be a predator?" then we kick him out for being a creep, not because aromanticism isn't queer!

we are absolutely allowed to remove people who are making us uncomfortable from our circles! you can kick a person out of an event! you can ban a person from a space! you can block a person! there are plenty of valid reasons to do this and plenty of queer people of all identities who suck and would rightfully get kicked out of a lot of spaces! but you can't tell someone else they aren't queer! you don't get to invalidate someone like that just because you made up a scenario or defined queerness by how miserable it makes you!

as time goes on we're going to have a lot more people coming out into a world that accepts them with open arms and if your sole metric for how deserving someone is of a seat at the table is how much their life has sucked, you will be excluding a lot of people of all identities!

[wordslikesilver]

Alrighty, time to practice singing again today, hopefully I don’t find that I sound like a nasally femme gay man this time. Jeez last night felt rough. Having a good day with my dysphoria though and I’ve got a good grasp on what to do instead so let’s hope this goes better ♥️

[roscoe-me-and-this-fuckin-kid]

all gender headcanons about party poison are correct except for the ones that say they're cis

[theyheoftheapocalypse]

grant morrison being in the danger days music videos is the funniest thing to me. because gerard way really said “hey can we get my comic book writer hero to be in this video and play the sexy bad guy” and grant was like hell yes

but. but then Sing. literally has a shot of grant pinning gerard against the wall and caressing his chin with the end of a gun, before they smirk and pull the trigger. gerard literally go-directed and planned these videos. they, at some point, had to sit down with grant and be like “okay here’s the plan” and grant just rolled with it

i think gerard had some fantasies to live out there

[bodhrancomedy]

Am I nervous? Nah.

Scared shitless?