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sleep-safe · 2 years
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i bought cara delevingnes book (mirror, mirror) from the dollar tree of all places (in hardcover too????) and tbh it was good. i just read all 400 pages in one sitting.
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bestjeanistmonster · 2 months
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Been reflecting a bit on the announcement i gave in early February about just coming clean about all the details of Oz au and not keeping anything hidden and how i posted that cuz the constant questions i received asking me to reveal Sonic’s backstory made me feel really guilty about keeping it under wraps
So to cut to the chase im not planning on revealing all the backstory of oz au right away anymore cuz the idea of just straight up revealing it all isn’t appealing to me and im trying to unlearn the belief that i personally owe ppl content and stuff and remembering that im sharing this for fun
Im just gonna revealing aspects of it when i feel like it (which is honestly for the best cuz there are so many different parts of it involving different ppl and it’s like a big domino effect)
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sotogalmo · 3 months
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I think this tag on my CC & Vanessa fic is concerning- but eh. Always have projected onto favs, so this ain't new
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:3 I'm silly
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0809sysblings · 5 months
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it is always a little funny to me when people try to make psychologists and psychiatrists out to be the only people ever capable of being able to accurately diagnose mental illnesses and disorders and that their word is law as a way to criticize self diagnosis when like. once i was hospitalized and the psychiatrist there who i had not even known for more than a day tried to diagnose me as bipolar despite me having No history of mania because he.. couldn't really understand why i acted the way i did i guess???
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wisteria-whump · 2 years
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effects of hunger: for your whumpy consideration
ik from experience hunger has some very not fun effects so im here to share 😁 idk what's wrong with me cause i don't normally go very long between meals/snacks but i still sometimes have bad effects that show up more when i haven't eaten in like 5ish hours. idk im not a doctor.
possible tw: ed (no specific mentions of ed behaviors or anything but descriptions of hunger could be triggering to some ppl so take care of yourselves and stay safe)
hunger pains. literally the worst. what makes it even worse it that the pain makes you not wanna eat even though you have to if you wanna make it stop
nausea. idk about y'all but if i get too hungry i get so nauseous it's awful.
lightheadedness/dizziness. this is just a normal day to day thing for me but when i haven't eaten in a while it makes it a lot worse. especially in a hot shower i get so lightheaded i have to sit down and rush through the rest of the shower.
fatigue. if i need to eat but haven't yet then i can't go more than like 1.5 hrs on my feet/sitting up until i have to go lay down and eat something to feel better.
this kind of goes hand in hand with the lightheadedness but it gets its own bullet point cause i hate it so much: brief temporary blindness? like when i stand up too fast and get real lightheaded and heavy-feeling ill get those dark spots all over my vision but they obscure all of my vision so im like blind for a few second and just standing there like 🧍 unable to see
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trans-axolotl · 1 year
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What on the Milky Way would compel someone to tag Omegaverse with "Intersex"? That's incredibly... sad. And I can't wrap my head around it.
it's actually a super common thing 😭 tons of people tag their omegaverse fics with intersex and i am so, so tired of it because it is just not ever about intersex people. it is literally never, it is just about like, fantasy third sex depictions that are usually pretty dehumanizing if they use intersex language and i do not like it!
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widevibratobitch · 6 months
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#tw ed#saw a picture of myself from when i was *checks notes* at my fucking worst with my ED but that meant i was also Thinner.#i really should Go Back huh. maybe if i did i wouldnt feel. Like This.#it'd prolly mean id start losing my hair again which. not a big fan. BUT.#if i was really dedicated i could also lose my period which. huge fan. that was one of the best things that ever happened to me tbh#i could have it all back. maybe i could even get farther than the last time. all it would take is uhh feeling utterly fucking miserable#having no energy for the most basic stuff let alone singing and thinking about nothing and i mean NOTHING but calories 24/7.#but hey. maybe i could like. lose 5 kg for my troubles and then gain back twice as much when i decide again that i just Cant Live Like This#totally worth it huh#anyway. i miss hating my body A Little Less and people being Nicer to me and everyone telling me how good of a job im doing#and encouraging me to keep going. and i miss the sense of Accomplishment and the Pride and the Not Feeling Disgusting#or at least Making Up For It by just. not eating lol#cause like its not like im actually much better mentally am i lmao clearly im not. only now im both miserable AND fat.#obviously ill never be s/kinny let alone as s/kinny as my friends. ill still look like a glitch in the system and a mistake next to them.#but if i have to be miserable anyway i could at least be. less f/at about it right. maybe then ill be worth something <3#...and other delusions you keep cultivating because there's something deeply and inherently wrong with you#my new bestseller coming soon to your nearest bookshop dont miss it its only $free.99!
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van-ecks · 1 year
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just gonna dump real quick dont mind me xo
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elliebartlets · 1 year
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I won’t lie, I can totally see how the true crime community gets sucked in because for the past few days I’ve just been hyperfixated on the columbine massacre and I couldn’t tell you why. it’s like a morbid fascination and I can’t stop looking stuff up about it until my brain is satisfied.
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weedle-testaburger · 1 year
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i think i would like berserk a lot more if casca got more nut shots
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br1ghtestlight · 3 months
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for sunshine even death would be selfish because he would be destroying himself rather than at least allowing himself to be used and disposed of by others. his self-loathing and hatred is so deep and his view of himself so negative that he would rather give somebody else some pleasure by allowing himself to be tortured by them than by dying. suicide was never an option because then he would be nothing for anybody. death isn't an escape it's another harmful choice he's made to deprive others of at least some form of repentance by using his body & resources. a level of self hatred stronger than wanting to destroy yourself. at least this way he's useful for other people, donating his time and money to charity and allowing himself to be abused bcuz that is what he's worth (to himself at least)
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semercury · 4 months
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cielospeaks · 5 months
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ranting under cut
other people: theyre not doing anything bad w your faves, youre just complaining
me: ...
they literally fucking replaced antonio in the latest fuckinv video. and like if they wanted a musical character they couldve gotten ricky, since canonically he works w many instruments in his trailer. but noooOOOOooo ricky cant have anything unless its fking required like coa, or bad ship related with the main plot. and even then he just gets fucking scraps at best. bro you want proof. look at how much official art they are or i should say arent in. the fucking arts days and theyre dominated by completely different characters. antonio got art for his abusive parent's holiday bc "music is handsome and charming uwu" fuck that and ricky gets just nothing. look at the cafes. not a fuking thing. im so done with this series and its fans honestly. if the carry animation is bad im just gonna do coa and then ditch it for at least a while. after the lp suffering i need a break from this shit game
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artisanalpeanutbutter · 11 months
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Trying to build muscle is so frustrating bc it's hard enough to motivate myself to eat as it is but now I have to eat more protein and my stomach is too liddol for the amount of food I need in a day
Can I get an f in the chat?
#tw food#tw eating#i like. forget to eat#and it's low priority for me bc i dont like cooking#bc it can make me start to think abt calories and micro/macro nutrients and i used to have disordered eating#so thinking abt that stuff is triggering to me#but now that im trying to build muscle i have to super pay attention to protein and shit and it's HARD#im trying to like HOPEFULLY convert 3-4 lbs of fat to muscle#just feel dysphoric abt my hips and since you cant target fat deposits ill probably have to lose like 3 lbs of fat instead#of the 1 that i think will help with that a bit#ive been working out a lot and have definitely seen results but i do not eat enough as it is to see the muscle growth in my back shoulders#and arms that i want to see. so now i have to eat more and it's hard bc i get so tireddddddddd and boreddddd and also the cooking thing#and PLEASE no dms worrying abt my eating habits ive improved so much and I'm doing well!!! I'm eating MORE even!!#it's just hard bc it feels like a chore to me#which is part of why i had disordered eating in the first place. well that and dysphoria#I'm legitimately healthy and eat well for the most part. it's just such a hassle to consciously try to build muscle yk? im eating i swear#i love food ask anyone#actually dont bc for whatever reason everyone around me thinks i dont eat bc they never /see/ me snack#i just keep my snacks in my room bc that's where my workstation is rather than snacking in the kitchen bc i dont like to waste time#that's my hangup tbh. i always feel like im wasting time even though it's hella important to cook yourself good meals#it's probably bc i go on a lot of walks so that eats into the time that i WOULD spend cooking#but yeah like i pound back food at restaurants so ppl also say it as a joke bc of how quickly i eat when im not distracted#i could eat more veggies though tbh. i just dont like many of them outside of complicated dishes and like i said i dont like to cook#and theyre so low calorie it takes FOREVER to eat enough to be filling#love protein though#it's quick and tasty ;3#also this is coming from someone who eats baby carrots like they're jelly beans lmao#they're a treat to me bc it takes so long to eat a serving of them#and they're sweet#so to be clear i DO like veggies they just take a while to finish
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venting-town · 2 years
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Regardless of what others say: I’m the biggest fucking burden on my family + everyone close to me ( or that were close to me )
#vent#tw vent#7/4/22#my mom has recently begun asking me how I’ve been the past few days#I don’t like answering because I feel the exact same way that I’ve been feeling for years ( of course sometimes the days are worse or better#but for the most part they’ve been the same )#I’m not trying to sound/be ungrateful but I don’t want her to ask that to me#ESPECIALLY not everyday. I’m tired of answering back the same ‘ I’m okay ‘ or that ‘ I’m good ‘ everytime she#or for ANYBODY to ask that really#I’m tired of having to constantly lie about how I’m feeling JUST SO I won’t make others upset#I mean what? do you REALLY want to hear about my constant shit feelings/existential crisis’s/fucked up thoughts/etc???#I can PROMISE you that you really truly don’t. especially since I have them EVERY. SINGLE. FUCKING. DAY#and tbh I wouldn’t want to either. and I DONT.#I mean I want other people ( if THEY want to ) to talk about their thoughts/feelings/etc. but please: don’t come to me about it#and I mean that in the kindest way that I can because I’m just so fucking tired of all this stupid shit#existenting/spiritual stuff ( since mortal bad shit isn’t enough. there’s probably shit ASIDE FROM mortal/spiritual )evil/bad in general/etc#*existing#and I’m already dealing with the giant fucking mess/fuck up I am. not to mention I’ve had to play therapist for YEARS ( mainly if not ONLY#for my bio dad )#but still. I want people to get help but I’m not ready/prepared to give it myself#tw existential angst#tw existential dread#tw existential bullshit
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