#tw mental instability

[calf-cover]

Do you love the king Ambassador 7u7?

I'm sorry that it took so long, this was a rather big answer. Read the warnings and have fun!

[dietcoks]

I’m not that dramatic 🙄

also me:

[dreamsclock]

hey uhmmmmmuhhhhhm anyone else thinking about how cdream can probably never genuinely think about burning himself in lava because of how illogical it was. he planned the prison he knew it wouldn’t help him escape. it wouldn’t even kill him. he was doing it to cope and because he was so unstable and his logic-driven mind 100% would not be able to cope with that when he escaped i don’t think. like he can justify everything to himself EXCEPT that behavior because… really, he knows, there was no thought behind it except pain and exhaustion and dread.

[domina-honoribila]

I need your prayers, please. My husband has been hospitalized for a bipolar episode. This is probably the worst he's ever had.

[beanghostprincess]

Sabo still struggles with memory loss. He had his childhood back, of course, he remembers Ace and Luffy and everything they did together. But he doesn't remember some stuff. Some anecdotes Luffy tells oh so excitedly? He can't recall that those happened. And if he does, it's all blurry and never at all like Luffy says. But he never says anything because that would break his brother's heart, to know his older brother isn't fully back with him, so he nods and smiles and pretends he knows what Luffy is talking about every time.

His room is filled with Post-it notes. Stupid, really. Dumb stuff. But he has all the meetings he needs to remember and the missions he has to do, along with everything he wants to write down at some point properly. The walls are covered in pictures of the people he loves (Luffy, Ace, Koala, Robin... All the others that have ever meant something to him because he refuses to forget somebody again).

He keeps writing dumb stuff down. Anything. He refuses to forget. He denies the possibility of doing it again.

But he forgets. Sabo keeps forgetting important dates. Important parts of his life, like his past with his brothers (he forgets a random adventure they had that he swore he had talked about the day prior) and crucial things he has to do. He has a hard time picturing his memories. Putting them in his brain. Turning them into images. Saying it's frustrating is a huge understatement.

Koala helps him out, of course. She's hard on him so he finishes his paperwork, but she knows it's difficult sometimes. She's his personal calendar and diary. She informs him of what he has to do during the week and always tries to talk and talk about anecdotes that she knows he still remembers but knows he loves to hear again.

His mental health isn't the best either, but he refuses to acknowledge it. There's a revolution at hand, he can't stop working. And fighting. And doing more and more and more. But sometimes it's just too much. Sometimes he goes into depressive episodes he can't control, and the medication is either addicting or the worst thing that has ever happened to him. Sometimes he's a bit too intense. Koala says he needs to calm down, that he has a problem with his fixation on the revolution and his past. Sabo keeps saying that it's fine. But he sometimes forgets or has blurry images of the fights and the people he has killed, filled with energy and excitement and like he has the power of a God. He doesn't like those. Enjoys the moment. Hates to forget it. Hates to know what he did during it too, even if it was for a good cause. Despises the look Koala gives him, also. Makes her promise not to tell Luffy about all of this.

But it's fine, he keeps saying. Sabo will keep trying to never forget anything ever again.

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

pov ur nervous abt ur new job but feel a little better when u think ur coworkers will be nice and friendly but then they aren’t and it sends u on a downward spiral bc ur just quirky like that

A retelling of ‘oh my god. You hated me. You’ve hated me this whole time.’, taken in a DIFFERENT mental-illnesses-go-brrr direction! Continued below the cut,

Haha yikessss! That’s cringy! I’m surprised you’ve scrolled down this far! Mostly I’ve been hoping people would see the first bit of this post and go ‘oh hell nah’ and pretend like it didn’t just plague their innocent mind with the knowledge that self insert cringe of this level still exists! So congrats! I’ve committed many crimes and you’re here to witness them

To answer some question you might have:

Who is that???: SURPRISE IT’S NOT VANNY!!! that is Babbit! Or Rabbit, or Bones, whichever you prefer. It’s a self insert of me!

Why are they a rabbit one second then a person the next?? Are those even supposed to be the same character??: Yes, they are the same person, just drawn in different ways! Why they change is a little more difficult to explain bc it,, depends, honestly sjdhdjd. A lot of the time, the rabbit is like,, an inner version, the more honest and vulnerable version of Rabbit, the ‘you’ that YOU see in your own mind. The regular human version is, normally, what the world sees, the actual, physical person that is Rabbit.

But why tho: Idk I just like weird stupid metaphors and weird wonky character designs!

What’s happening??: Rabbit has a job at the daycare! Rabbit is an anxious, stressed out and socially inept person who worries a lot about what other people think! Sun and Moon dislike them, bc this was inspired by some of those AUs where Sun and Moon are just mean for no good reason LMAO. Rabbit is crushed by this bc they thought Sun and Moon, who are PROGRAMMED and DESIGNED to be likeable and friendly and caring, would HAVE to like them!! It’s their job! It’s what they’re supposed to do! It’s what they’re built for: to like people and to be liked by people! To be disliked by them means there is something so fundamentally and ineffably wrong with them that it breaks the laws of physics- at least in Rabbit’s mind. Before they could disregard everyone who disliked them as people being people and them just having a disliked personality! But to be disliked by something designed to like people? Holy mothballs, bat man, you must be REAL KINDS of fucked up!

They think there is something so wrong with them that even the ones who like everyone do not like them, and it is THEIR FAULT that they are disliked, not anyone else’s- not even Sun and Moon’s. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. And it hurts more when Sun and Moon fake being kind and friendly under a heavy layer of passive aggression. So, at the end of their rope and believing there is nothing that can be done to help them or fix their situation, they start to loathe Sun and Moon and start to lash out at them whenever feeling especially slighted. Is this reasonable? No! Does it make them feel better? Absolutely not!!! Do Sun and Moon deserve it??? No not really!!! And the farther it goes the more Rabbit let’s themselves sink into being as bitter and hurtful as they always tried so hard not to be. And it’s not anyone’s job to fix them but theirselves. But right now, for the first time in a long time, they really don’t want to.

Does Rabbit actually just need a hug and a warm blanket???? Idk probably!!!!

This is a self insert????: Yup!

So this is based off you??: Unfortunately!

Does that mean-: haha!!!!!!!!! Don’t worry about it!!!!!! :) Next question!

Most people’s fantasies are about their faves liking them, yknow: Haha yeah!

Why did you even make this: I’m going to pretend like I’m not just completely nuts and say, it helps me process my feelings and also ✨catharsis✨

Do you want to talk: HAHA no definitely not this is embarrassing enough as is!!!!!!

U good?: Yes actually! Just weird! Sorry sjdgdjshdnvdndbdhd

Why are you sharing this: idk tbh maybe validation on some weird fucked up level lmao

Anyway thank u for ur time and I apologize for the death of so many of ur brain cells. Idk why ur still here but holy shit man idk if I should be proud of u or scared of u. I’m mentally giving u a gold ribbon tho congrats on,, reading this abomination of a post ig

[tuhbanbuv]

In the past 48 hours, I've learned that Twomad passed potentially by overdose after supposedly playing Overwatch nonstop for a 5-day period secluded in his home.

I understand that the dude was probably an awful person, but the dude snapped close to the end. It was obvious the dude was having a manic episode of sorts around his controversy and leading to his death, to the point where some people are comparing it to Etika's passing even if it's kinda not really the same.

It does bring up the issue of mental illness. Mental health support is more than difficult to obtain especially in the black community. People are taught to bottle up their emotions, told their faking for attention, etc, and no one really gives a shit until a "rest in peace" article shows up.

Millions of deaths and breakdowns, psychotic breaks and despair can be prevented if we understood and improved the mental health system. You can hate Twomad, yes, but do not hate his mourning family. Understand what happened, what led to it, and work to prevent it in yourself and others.

Do not repeat the cycle.

[flightlessphantomboi]

[ @i-used-to-hear-a-symphony ]

Hiiii it's me! ⭐

I'm okay- I uh managed to escape sort off, it'll still take time for me to go home - but im safe I think!:D

(TW, breakdown, repeating words/sentences, obsessive behaviour, threats)

🌌Private Messages 🌌

[Flightlessphantomboi has sent an audio message]

Wh-Oh my god, Sienna?! Holy fucking hgjibdfgbfdskjv-

*muffled screeches and whines*

Fl-Fledgling I need to see you please I've been so worried I missed you ImissedyouImissedyouImissedyou-

Where are you are you hurt oh god you'll be hurt my brain's going fucking nuts where are you where is the fledgling-

*another screech morphing into an animalistic growl*

My fledgling he hurt my FUCKING fledgling didn't he I'll kill him I'll fucking kill him- Sienna please tell me where you are I need to see you please-

[End of audio message]

[rrcenic]

if i had a nickel for every time i spent the night in a hospital for mental health reasons and woke up and immediately drew lotf fanart i’d have two nickels which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that i’m that much of a nerd, right?

anyway here’s some doodles

[sweetbonbon]

I was thinking “wow I hate the person I have become” but then I realized I hated the person I was too. So I just really hate myself in general and all the stages of my life and in all the “phases” I have had. I really just hate myself.

[evie-writes-sometimes]

1800s AU with Attic Wife Will who became more mentally unstable over the years due to trauma and mental health issues til the point he could no longer interact with others and live life normally, becoming shunned by others due to the stigma surrounding mental health, and Mike who married him because he has always been, is and will always be in love with Will no matter what, and couldn't bear the possibility that he could be sent to an asylum. Mike has kept him isolated ever since because 'he loves him' and 'is doing what's best for him'. Sometimes Will screams at him and digs in his nails into Mike's skin and pulls, leaving long red scratches decorating his skin, only to break down and profusely apologize to Mike for hurting him to completely becoming like a hollow she'll of himself, unresponsive. And yet Mike's adoration and reverence never falters

[bioniclemanga]

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At some point, I'll figure out how to accurately draw that shattering effect... but for now, you get this haha

Anyway. Poor, poor Lewa...

[tulip-simp-artist]

Nightbringer MC who starts back up their old bad, depressing, “habits”. Like MC was known in their original timeline for having terrible mental health, and through years with the characters, have gone a lot better. Then they are sent back in time, no one but Solomon knows them and yet they HAVE to be around the people they used to know so well EVERY day! That’s gotta fuck you up in the head.

TW Topics Below: Eating Disorders, Insomnia, Cutting, Self-harm in general, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks

So MC’s depression is worse, again, and all the things they had overcome, they indulge in again.

Example with my MC, Eden: Eden first came to the Devildom fighting depression, an eating disorder, insomnia, and self-harm. Through time, support, and help, Eden started eating 3 meals a day again, sleeping more, and stopped cutting their arms.

Come Nightbringer and Eden is sent back in time in more ways than one. ALL the progress and work starts chipping away. Constantly, they are having panic attack out of any prying eyes but Solomon. Solomon can’t comfort Eden because he and Eden have a rocky relationship ( a few times Eden seeks him out, they don’t want to ruin their progress with healing from their various mental illness). Anxiety in through the roof, and anything triggers it (they are also easily startled).

Sleep becomes restless again and soon is unarchivable, Eden gets MAYBE 3 hours of sleep. Eating becomes a chore, especially since Solomon’s food is a hazard. Eden doesn’t even eat around the brothers despite often being there for one or more of the meals. Hell, Eden probably cooked said meals and still DOESN’T eat! Solomon thinks Eden is eating with the brothers, the brothers think Eden is either not hungry or just going to eat when they leave for the day. It goes unnoticed for a while. The twins might pick up on Eden’s lack of sleep and eating but they are new demons so they just assume it’s something else.

Eventually, after it is revealed that Eden is human, a few things give away their declining mental health. One, demon’s can sense and smell blood, and Eden started cutting again.... They know something is up, something is wrong, but physically Eden is fine?? It is the topic of conversation when Eden leaves in the evenings. They don’t completely put the pieces together until their attendant passes out at Diavolo’s castle before dinner. Panic ensues because the HUMAN attendant has fucking passed out on the floor.

When Eden wakes up, the brothers very much more anxious when they sleep because of the week long coma thing, they know everyone wants answers. They give them answers, indicating the lack of sleep and lack of eating and LEAVE! They don’t want to stay and are back to NOT wanting help!

Seriously, I know this is all talking about my personal MC, but this could apply to anyone’s MC! Maybe I just like Nightbringer angst/proving the MC wouldn’t at all be happy stuck in the past like Nightbringer wants, idk. But I want to hear more about how people’s MCs are affected by the events in Nightbringer.

[joltik-guy]

//Off screen post! TW's in tags- be careful!

CD's smile was too tight, their heart going too fast, skipping beats... was it because of them? Was it their fault- This was their fault- this was... this.... this was....

"Tik- you good buddy?"

"Not important."

They responded instinctively, not important, not important, they weren't important, they were allowed to wither, as long as he grew... why was he looking at them like that?

Oh. Hand on their shoulder. They lean into it instinctively, pressing it into their face, closing their eyes,

"Yeah-thats- Not how this works dude, cause I think you're important and so do lots of people! Just- whats going on? Did something happen I- I don't understand..."

Joltik felt sick. Wrong this was wrong this was wrong this was wrong this was wrong.... they needed to explain it....

"Feeling wrong...."

Not a lie.

".... I can't explain it... just...."

Not a lie.

"You need to be safe. I worry."

Not a lie.

".... Stuck not evolving... making me think of minskt hurting you... Stuck.... watching it happen....."

Lie.

Lair lair lair lair lair lair lair

.... They felt sick.

"I need to- uhm-"

Joltik barely made it into the bathroom in time to throw up. They sat on the floor head in hands.... watching it crawl and wriggle under their skin.

It hurts

I want it to stop.

[rorys-rant]

what are some ways you guys have attempted in the past??

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

What did they do as their new friend was taken away? I’ll leave that to your imagination!

In the flipparoo au, Sun and Moon have never had to handle children before, even if they were programmed for it they were shut away before they ever had the chance to actually fulfill their reason for being. So, naturally, they long to be with the kids during open hours! But Reader has specifically told them that they can’t yet, and that they should just be in a recharge state until the kids go home. Of course, they don’t always listen.

Why so much paranoia?? Well, firstly, they’re still pretty unstable, if you couldn’t tell. The other reason is that they still don’t know how to control their strength or curb their enthusiasm- which would be more than a little dangerous for any kids in the vicinity