#ughhhhhhhhh everything takes SO LONG!

[skylark325]

Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint Read Through

Ch 101-120

Beginning: Ch1-10

note: there’s a lot of cursing in today’s update so sorry about that, was just losing my mind over this damn book

also FUCK PAUL

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"I agree. Did you see all the stars above his head? He is a monster."

> truly horrifying

"Are you going to kill me?" "I'd like to but Master will be sad."

> lmao jihye a real one

"Did you come with Yoo Joonghyuk?" "Huh? Why does ahjussi know everything?"

> clears throat dramatically

i’ll take this dokja.

you see he’s ga-

The lieutenant lifted the man with one hand and threw him to the other side of Han River.

> lmfao HYUNSUNG?????? 🤣

> why is everyone either in love with dokja or wants him dead. and then there’s yjh…

There was slight disappointment in Yoo Joonghyuk's eyes as he replied, "You don't seem to know a lot this time."

> bitch he’s doing his best 😭

"…Kim Dokja?" The surprised Yoo Joonghyuk looked down at my fallen self.

> ah when the suicidal dokja trauma started 😭

I smiled at Yoo Joonghyuk and told him, "Hey, kill me. You usually want to kill me."

> this hurts a lot worse after dkos 😭

"Wait Kim Dokja! It isn't too late." "It is too late." "It isn't!"

Yoo Joonghyuk made an expression that I hadn't seen for a long time. It was the expression he made when he first saw me on the subway. "I can't do it."

> why must y’all do this to me

i can’t do this nahsjejsjddjdn the suicidal dokja trauma is hitting me too

My vision blurred. I could see Yoo Joonghyuk trying to stop the bleeding but I had already lost too much blood.

> ok so like i know this a super sad moment…but tell me why this is giving y/n

Then I saw a person with a fearsome aura behind Shin Yoosung. 「 "I'm going to kill you, Shin Yoosung." 」

> I WILL AVENGE Y/N!

「 "…That guy." 」

「 "He is my companion." 」

> HE SAID IT HE SAID THE THING

Didn't this bastard know I was going to be resurrected?

> Dokja…istfg THINK

[The constellation 'Bald General of Justice' is blushing at your companionship.]

> oh i see you fellow fujo

> trust dokja to think the death of his companion would make yjh try to earn more coins

「 "Why call him a companion? Is it because he sacrificed himself for you? Just because of this?" 」

> and cuz he’s hot. i mean the sacrifice thing too but mostly cuz he’s hot af

「 "Then what about me and the others? Jihye unni and Hyunsung oppa. Seolhwa unni? What the hell are the people who fought with you?" "I… I don't know what you're talking about."

"There is only one thing I know." Yoo Joonghyuk wiped the blood from his lips and said. "You killed my companion in this round. Thus, you will also die." 」

> GUYS WTF

are you telling me…after all this time

yjh is actually a softie

wtf i’m crying

I was fooled by his acting. Yes, I read Ways of Survival for this taste. Come to think of it, I had been in tears when Yoo Joonghyuk said something similar to Lee Hyunsung.

> dokja my life my love plz stfu 😭

「 "Die. I will kill you." 」

> guys he’s so sad he’s going on a murderous rampage 😭

「 "Is it worth it for me to live?" 」 「 "Then what is the value of this life?" 」

> UGHHHHHHHHH STOP 😭

I looked around and saw my scattered items and clothing. It was lucky that no one had taken them. I started putting on my clothes when I heard an eerie voice behind me. "…Kim Dokja?"

> uh oh

I carried the injured Yoo Joonghyuk on my shoulder and rushed towards the frozen Han River.

> he’s princess carrying him. i know i was the han river

"So you also live that way, Shin Yoosung." "…What?" "If you want, I will bear your hatred."

> oh my god the character development 😭

At least, until the voice of the intermediate dokkaebi was heard. [I'm sorry but that's a bit difficult.]

> wait

[Incarnation Kim Dokja. You are the smartest and scariest out of all the incarnations I know.]

> yesss he is

A black aura rose from disaster Shin Yoosung's body. I hurriedly shouted, "Wait! What are you doing?"

> HOLD ON

[The personality of the character 'Shin Yoosung' will be fixed to 'evil'.]

> ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

WHY IS THIS D BAG PLAYING SIMS

"You have failed." "Don't touch the child." I hid the young Shin Yoosung behind my back. "I won't forgive you if you touch this child." Yoo Joonghyuk glared at me. "There is no other way."

> oh god make it stop

why are things spiralling

Who could swing a sword after seeing those eyes? The woman who wandered for over a thousand years and suffered. I had to kill her now.

> i hate EVERYTHING

"…Don't worry about me." Yoo Joonghyuk spilled blood on the floor as he stood beside me with the Splitting the Sky Sword.

> “dw bout me” leaks like a kool aid box

"Do it properly, Kim Dokja!" "I'm doing it!" "Dammit…"

>….

hey look if you got it then your mind’s filthy just as mine

Blood fell. I stared into Shin Yoosung's face. Just like in Ways of Survival, Shin Yoosung was smiling. I realized that she deliberately allowed herself to be hit by my sword.

> why am i putting myself through this again

The Judge of Destruction. 10 days later, Jung Heewon was much more restrained than I knew. She lightly patted my shoulders and moved. "Leave it to me and take a break."

> HEEWON MY LOVE

The archangel Uriel chose Jung Heewon as an incarnation.

> my bby has great taste fr

> i’m so sad about this fight but holy shit heewon is so cool

Yoo Joonghyuk turned around at these words. Then Yoo Joonghyuk's inner thoughts were conveyed to me. 「 I will get revenge for you. 」

> i don’t know what to say

dammit i hate good writers. they make me feel so much

[Intermediate dokkaebi 'Paul'. You shall be arrested for violating the Star Stream regulations.]

> LETS FUCKING GO FUCK YOU PAUL

[You will lose the achievement points of all the scenarios you have built up and will be demoted to a low-grade dokkaebi after your punishment…]

> DIE

[The constellation 'Demon-like Judge of Fire' is looking at the intermediate dokkaebi 'Paul'.]

[The constellation 'Prisoner of the Golden Headband' is chuckling at the intermediate dokkaebi 'Paul'.]

[The constellation 'Secretive Plotter' is mocking the intermediate dokkaebi 'Paul'.]

> i love them just ganging up on fuckass paul

[Yes, the dokkaebi who reported you is Bihyung.]

> W Bihyung

[Dokkaebi Bihyung. He is a very good dokkaebi. Look at his humility. He has the integrity of a streamer who ignores everything and immerses himself in the scenarios. It is different from you and the dokkaebis who only wear luxurious clothing.]

> I…yes exactly bestie is the best. look at them gassing him up 🤩

Bihyung had a shy expression on his face. He didn't know that his poverty would help him in this way.

> LMAO

"I want a solo meeting with the intermediate dokkaebi Paul."

> OH I remember this

My fists descended towards the pale Paul. The damn scenarios I experienced so far passed through my head.

> HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

"I-I am outside the scenario! You can't earn coins by doing this! It won't benefit you!"

> fucking capitalist

The executive dokkaebis didn't like streamers. The executives who evolved from constellations were good at fighting but had no talent in leading the scenarios.

> upper management is the same no matter what species huh?

> the way new dokkaebis keep needing to replace official ones cuz dokja keeps messing around XD

Surprisingly, Yoo Sangah had already drank four bottles of soju.

> damn sangah heavy weight confirmed

It was clearly a face free of makeup but it was hard to find any blemishes. Yoo Sangah slowly leaned towards me. Her face was getting closer and closer.

> wait

wait wait WAIT

> fucking hell wine dude

> oh right the underworld arc

The person who died in the first scenario, Delusional Demon Kim Namwoon was in Hades' domain.

> oh no

the high schoolers back

I could see how good Bihyung was at handling things. He just slightly lacked intelligence…

> did…did he just call bibi stupid

[The king is uncomfortable with your sudden visit. That's why I thought it would be better for me to talk to you.]

> does he have social anxiety

I didn't know why the goddess of another country knew so much about Korean mean.

> maybe she’s into kpop? i know more than i should too XD

…■■■?

I was really confused.

> dude same. the censoring is harsher than chinese men kissing on tv

[I keep thinking this but… you look delicious.]

> she calling him a snack?

> oh never mind she calling him a meal

"You can call it a courtship." […Huh?]

> kdj just be flirting with everyone huh

is this revenge for yjh running off with lsw

[Hrmm, it is difficult. This is why males are…] "Of course, it isn't courting you but courting the Father of the Rich Night."

> this man is so gay

My heart felt pained. She must've been waiting for a long time. Even so, this child had to wait longer.

> AHHHH WHY ARE WE BACK TO THIS

GO BACK TO KDJ BEING GAY

I looked at her sleeping face and recalled Persephone's image. Then my face became hot. … By the way, the Chinese dress and garter belt… it was really great.

>… ok bi king

I looked around with a sigh and saw the King of Wanderers. She was watching me without saying a word. I could see a slight smile below her half mask.

> ��

The moment I broke the biscuit, one side of the tent exploded and the self-styled president of Yeouido fell down with a scream.

> so fucking dramatic JUST USE THE FRONT DOOR

I thought the second one would be me so I was naturally surprised. Well, I originally wasn't his companion so his other party members might be disturbed if he called me first. He might look cold but he looked after his people. I could understand that sentiment.

> oh you poor poor thing. you don’t know how badly you fucked up last night

The confused Lee Gilyoung was stunned for a moment but he stood in front of Shin Yoosung like he made a decision.

> adorable

…Then what about me? Why was he looking at me like that? I belatedly chased after him but Yoo Joonghyuk was already gone. How long did I stand there?

> oof rejection hurts doesn’t it buddy

"Ahjussi, didn't you meet with Master last night? I thought you would be the first on the list…" "What do you mean?" "Last night Master said he was going to see you?"

> this is literally out of a miscommunication fic

"That's strange? He definitely went to find you. He was also a bit angry when he came back."

> oh my god author you’re making this too easy

[The constellation 'God of Wine and Ecstasy' is making a playful expression.]

> fucking hell dude my ship is in danger because of you

"Companions, I think I understand." Lee Hyunsung unexpectedly interrupted. "Come to think of it, I would also feel offended if I saw Kim Dokja doing that."

> hyunsung bestie wanna share something with the class?

"…Yes? Why would Hyunsung-ssi feel bad?" Lee Jihye looked like she was going to get a nosebleed.

> lee jihye i know what you are

"Um… it make sense." Jung Heewon agreed. [The constellation 'Demon-like Judge of Fire' is disappointed with her incarnation.]

> lmfao not everyone built for that fujo life uriel

I took a deep breath before saying to the King of Wanderers. "It has been a long time, Mother."

> ugh i’m not ready for this emotional roller coaster

"Do you know the book called the Underground Killer? It was previously on the Kyobo bestsellers list."

> ouch it was a best seller?

Yoo Joonghyuk stood next to me and said, "You came."

> kdj: you called

sorry

"You have a woman you love." "…What?"

> yjh: you’re straight

kdj: huh???

Yoo Joonghyuk stared at me quietly and said, "Certainly, I don't care if you die."

> you were losing your mind telling him it’s not too late when he had a hole in his body

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yjh feels so much more fleshed out as a person and not just a emotion less machine is insane. god damn i love this book

next:

previous: ch93-110

beginning: ch1-10

[figofswords]

why are comics so much work who in their right mind would Choose to do this (<-is getting a degree in Make Comics)

[sybright]

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[ohnoitsthebat]

I really need to get on the ball with this online test for my Intro to Childhood Education class, but I don't wanna! *whine* I just want to watch The Haunting of Hill House, Midnight Mass, Manor, and Censor, read some more Hellboy comics (I'm working my way through Abe Sapien's solo series), and try to work on Preptober.

This semester needs to be over already.

[ooffies]

ʀᴏᴀᴅᴛʀɪᴘ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴɴᴏɴꜱ

Characters: Venti, Zhongli and Diluc

Warnings: Just some kissing, nothing too extreme

A/N: okay so this isn't a request but the idea wormed it's way into my head and I couldn't get it out. I'm definitely doing other characters so this will probably be a 2 or 3 part series! Anyways, I hope you like it! :)

Tagging @genshin-obsessed (hi pocket! -🍷❤)

Venti:

Probably knows the lyrics to all the songs on the radio/playlist

Definitely made at least two or more playlist for the trip

Makes you drive because it’s too much effort and drains so much of his energy He’s just lazy

Makes you stop at Starbucks every morning, if it’s a multiple day drive it’s at least 3 times

He has three moods during road trips

One: Overly excited 

Talks on and on about the stuff you two will do and how much fun you two will

Two: Complaining way too much

His back hurts

His legs are stiff

The seat is uncomfortable 

“Are we there yet?” x100000

Will literally ask it every 2 seconds

He’s all pouty and grumpy

Three: Deep sleep

Finally you have a few hours peace and quiet

Probably caused from a caffeine crash

Sleeps like he’s dead, you literally cannot wake him up and you don’t want too jkjkjk

He’s usually quiet when he wakes up or is about to fall asleep. But when he is half asleep he always wants to hold your hand. Will probably tell you how much he loves you and how lucky he is to go on this trip with you while struggling not to fall asleep. Then conks out 5 minutes later.

Empty landscape surrounded you for miles, it looked like it went on forever. Music hummed in the background as the car kept a steady pace. “Are we there yet?” Venti asked in an annoyed tone. For the past eight minutes he had been moving around in his seat trying to find a comfortable position.  He was now sitting crossed legged, a large frown on his face as he twirled his hair. “Not yet love, we have 3 more hours till we reach the hotel,” you replied. “UGHHHHHHHHH! And then we have 7 more hours to drive tomorrow and how many days till we actually get there!?!” “2 babe,” “UGHHHHHH THAT’S SO LONG!” he whined. He sunk into his chair, his frown growing. You chuckled at his antics, “Weren’t you talking about how great this trip was gonna be like an hour ago?” you said with a smile. “Hush it” you couldn’t help but laugh at his response. The sun began to set as the car continued on down the highway. You felt a hand lightly rest itself on yours. You looked over at Venti. His half lidded eyes focused on the road. You smiled and brought his hand to your lips, pressing a gentle kiss to the back of it, “Feeling sleepy? Are you finally crashing from all that caffeine?” “Mhm” he hummed sleepily. There was a brief peaceful moment of silence between the two of you. “Thanks for taking me on this trip babe…… I love you….” you laughed lightly at his sleep tone, “Love you too.” You looked over to see him conked out and already lightly snoring. Another quiet laugh escaped you, “Sleep well sleeping beauty.”

Zhongli:

Doesn’t mind driving, he’ll drive for the whole trip if you’d like

But also doesn’t mind switching driving shifts with you

He’s actually a decent driver which came as a bit of a surprise (he got a little offended when you told him that)

He can and will talk the whole trip

Has a abundance of topics and stories he will talk about

He will go into deep detail, even if it’s just about his morning cup of tea he will go into detail about it.

If you two take turns driving he’ll definitely nap while you drive

Peepaw needs his naps :((((

He 100% doesn’t get car sick

He can read a whole book during a drive without looking at the road even once

Probably talks you while you’re sleeping when he’s the driver

He won’t even notice you’re asleep for a good while, he’ll just keep talking and talking

One time he didn’t even notice you were asleep and when you woke up he was still going on about that same subject.

He won’t eat fast food. He will make you two eat at restaurant or diner

Also he always books fancy hotels too. Not Marriot or Motel 6 for him. Nope. Not in a million years.

He loves exploring the towns and cities you guys stop in. Checking out the shops and local attractions, he’s all for that.

Probably plans for your two to stay a few extra days in the big cities

You stepped out into the cool night taking a deep breath of air. You and Zhongli had just finished eating dinner at some fancy restaurant he had picked out. (You had pay of course). “Thank you for dinner beloved.” you looked over him, “Yeah it’s no problem but maybe next time you shouldn’t forget your wallet so you can actually pay for once.” you said with a cheeky grin. “Urk” he clutched his chest and said with a chuckle, “Why must you wound me with your harsh words darling?” “ I’m just messing with ya peepaw!” you said as you lightly punched his shoulder. “Hey I’m not that old,” as he offered you his arm. You wrapped your arm around his as you two began walking back to the hotel. “You seriously act like an old man though,” “It’s because I have an old soul,” “Yeah you sure do…….” he let out a laugh and kissed your forehead, “It’s never a boring conversation with you my love.” “Can’t say the same about you peepaw” he burst out laughing at that comment, he even snorted once or twice much to your amusement. You couldn’t help but laugh with him. After the laughter you looked at him and said, “Sorry if I was a bit harsh but I couldn’t help myself!” you said, still giggling a bit. He returned your gaze with a warm smile and wrapped his arms around your waist. He pulled you in and pressed his lips to yours. The kiss was sweet and you couldn’t help but smile when his lips left yours. Still hand in hand you two had resumed walking back to the hotel, “So…. are you ready to hit the road again tomorrow morning?” “Yes my darling, I’m actually quite excited to spend more time with you. This trip has been fantastic so far, part of me wishes it will never end…..”

Diluc:

Will drive the whole time

He refuses to let you drive

Why may you ask?

Because he gets car sick very easily. He’ll never admit it though.

Tease him about it and he’ll get all flustered.

Probably has road rage

Not much of a big talker so it’s either idle chit chat between you two, him listening to you or just a comfortable silence while listening to music.

I feel like he has jazz CDs, he just gives off the vibe

Like you guys will drive through a dead zone and the you know you have some sweet jazz music serenading your ears

Doesn’t mind listening to your music either, he’s not very picky.

He always turns down the volume of the music when you’re sleeping because he doesn’t want you to wake you up

Doesn’t mind fast food at all which is a bit surprising.

When he needs a quick nap he’ll pull into a rest stop

Even if you offer to drive while he’s asleep he still won’t let you

Definitely planned out everything beforehand. Already booked the hotel rooms and all that.

He asked you what you wanted to do and practically based the whole plan off that because he wants you to see you smile.

The rest stop parking lot was practically empty. You looked up at the blue sky through the sunroof. Absolutely no clouds were in the sky, it was just like a never ending bright blue blanket. You looked over at Dliuc who was quietly sleeping. You watched his chest rise and fall. He looked so peaceful, so at ease. You twirled the ends of his bright red hair between your fingers. He had asked you to wake him up in twenty minutes. You checked the time. Five more minutes. You let out a soft sigh, turning your gaze back to the sky. You continued to play with his hair as you stared into never ending blue. After what felt like an eternity later, you finally checked the time again. Looks like you gave him an extra minute. “Hmmmm...How should I wake him up?” you thought to yourself. Well you could be nice to him and gently shake him awake, but that was boring. You could tickle him but you weren’t sure if he was tickle-ish or not…… After a little more pondering you finally got the perfect idea. You quickly sat up and leaned over him and gently cupped his face in your hands. You brought your lips to his and gave him a deep kiss. His eyes quickly snapped open as he jolted awake. You broke the kiss to say “Good morning sleeping beauty. How was your nap?” he just stared back at you, a bright red blush covering his face. “I-it was fine,” was all he managed to muster out. You giggled and leaned back in your seat, “Well that's nice-'' But before you could finish Diluc’s lips were on yours, continuing the kiss. This time he was the one cupping your face as he pulled you closer. His kisses were tender and soft, his hands were warm against your face. Once the kiss finally broke, Diluc cleared his throat, “Are you ready to get back on the road.” He was still clearly blushing, even the tips of his ears were burning red. You couldn’t help but giggle at him, “Yep! Let’s get this show back on the road!”

[saintobio]

i am honestly SPEECHLESS again… what the actual fuck. too much for my heart saint😭😭 all the surprises got me shook and im sorry for the long ass rant but let me go step by step:

this was shocking but expected… i just knew that eula didn’t really love her husband. she literally just used him to climb up. also that knowing smirk she had the other day when y/n was there… she knew about everything. mei mei… ofc. just like her canon self doing anything for money. as much as i dislike satoru, i dislike his dad and stepmom even more. idk if to wish for they downfall or not bc gojo’s dad deserves it but gojo kinda doesn’t. i feel so conflicted bc i actually love satoru but can’t help but feel hate and unpleasantness for him bc of his actions. the way he treated y/n when she didn’t do anything to him. the fact that it is bc of him that her heart condition has been getting worse. he has hurt her so much even i have spilled tears over his shit. but his stepmom is a horrible horrible person. satoru being the way he is is related to her; mostly his dad but also her. so like i truly dont know how to feel about this😭

always reading about him makes me happy… i love this dilf so much. i truly want y/n to fuck him just once. please saint😩😩😩

are you one of those countless men toji??😩 do you wanna show y/n what you’re thinking about? wanna treat her right??😏😏😏😏

wym that would never happen?!!! toji baby, dont be so pessimistic🙄🙄 i just know in an alternative reality him and y/n together and you cant change my mind🙄. though i’ll admit that toji knowing about naoya and eula and not telling y/n makes me feel some type of way… does toji know about eula’s plan?? like he doesn’t have to tell y/n but still idk it’s confusing😭😭 saint you got my feelings all over the place.

im usually all over a man being possessive but it doesn’t suit satoru. he has no right to feel possessive considering he a cheater who always put his mistress before his wife. like the audacity of this man bro. he too comfortable. im sorry but its too late for this shit.

i know y/n didn’t mean it as a payback for what he did with the diana shoes but YASSSSSS🤪🤪🤪 this got me so happy knowing he got a taste of his own medicine. but he still had it in him to get upset like man… have you got no shame??😭😭 he truly wants to act like he didn’t do shit and as if y/n is the one stepping over the line. y/n got so much patience i could never. also y/n talking about how she would never cheat back.. respect for my girl bc i would have cheated back a long ass time ago. or maybe gotten a divorce and be a single woman who can freely fuck toji or even better, just marry toji. especially during these times satoru acting like he cares so that it stings him more😹 i wanna see him crying

i literally cried reading this… i feel so bad for y/n bro. like why cant she catch a break? my poor baby😢😢 this is why im always saying i ship her with toji. every time.. every single time you get too comfortable with satoru this shit happens. it’s literally every time. its too much for her and she might truly end up dying like this😔

YOU FUCKER! YOU MOTHER.FUCKER!! I WILL REIGN HELLFIRE UPON YOU!! UGHHHHHHHHH I HATE THIS BITCH SO MUCH. SAINT PLEASE ALLOW ME TO DRAG THIS WHORE PLEASE. I CANT TAKE THIS. I CANT!! THE AUDACITY! i do not give a fuck that it is understandable where she is coming from. she is a fucking whore that deserves the worst. how dare she talk this way about y/n??? not even the evil stepmom talks shit about y/n like this stupid ugly racist stupid poor dumb lizard ass wrench does!! like how dare she??!! she doesn’t even love him or care about his problems to be getting so hurt. she just mad no other rich man would lower himself with a disgusting piece of shit like her. she is literally dog shit that you scrape off your shoe. stupid ass whore. i hate her.

this was honestly very shocking to me… i did not expect mr.gojo to end things with her. i truly did not. i thought it would take longer for him to do this since there are so many chapters left but now i see what the other chapters gonna be about. there’s so much more than just y/n, gojo and sera.

(TW.SUICIDE)TOXIC MUCH?!!! what the actual fuck???😧😧😧 this bitch really pulled the suicide card😹😹 as if we care, do me a favor sera and actually kill yourself. you’ll be doing the world a favor😹😹 wait actually no bc then there’s her family depends on her😔 ugh thats the only reason why ill try to not wish death upon her. her poor (no pun intended) sweet mom. i hit the 10 image limit but what does she mean she will make us pay?🤨🤨🤨 bro i can see this bitch teaming up with eula but idk since her hate is towards y/n and eula’s plan mostly affects satoru but then again sera doesn’t really love satory and is just in love with the idea of him so hmmm. IM SO SORRY FOR HOW LONG THIS WAS SAINT BUT BEFORE I SUBMIT THIS LET ME JUST SAY I LOVE YOU! thank you so much for this amazing story. this story is one of the few things i always look forward to.

HAHAH what a very detailed reaction!! thank u very much for sending these through <33 enjoyed reading them !! :’)

[angbu]

Fanfic of Will admitting his crush to Mike

Nothing explicit and also I’m sorry if it took a lil longer than a week like I said I’ve been busy.

Location: Surfer Boy Pizza

Time: 5:30pm ——17:30 military time Saturday

“Mikeeeeeee come on try before you deny” say Eleven as she’s trying to force mike to try pineapple pizza.

Will is in the other room listening to to Mike and El giggling. Will is writing on a paper. “Mike I know you and El are dating but… I’m ga- no no no!!! Ok Mike I really like you and I was wondering if you would consider dating guys?Ok that’s not too bad. Ughhhhhhh I can’t tell him but what if he feels the same”

Jonathan walks in the room “Hey Will I heard you talking to yourself, is everything ok?

“OH HI I didn’t hear you coming” he says nervously “um did you hear what I was saying?”

“I heard a little bit.”

“ ughhhhhhhhh this is so embarrassing”

“Hey after you told me you were gay I automatically knew you liked Mike, I see the way you look at him. Will listen Mike loves El. I’m so sorry but it’s not right I don’t thi-“

“You don’t think I know that!!!!!” He takes deep breaths and looks at him through the door. “I’m sorry Jonathan it just really hurts me cause I really like him and I have for so long now.”

Jonathan hugs Will “It’s gonna be ok… I guess you should tell him. I mean he might feel the same.”

“Thanks I think I will soon”

“-and if anything goes wrong I’ll be here for you ok? Cause I’m your brother and I love you, I always will ok?”

“ ok. thanks Jonathan I love you too”

“Here I can help you with your paper if you want. I mean I don’t really have a lot of experience cause me and nance we didn’t really say anything we just kind of went straight to it” Jonathan chuckles nervously.

“Haha yep I’m pretty sure there’s like zero chance of that happening with me and Mike, I don’t even want to think about that right now. I just need to tell him this and see how he reacts.”

“What about El though she’s like a sister to me Will”

“I know she is like a sister to me too, I just feel so bad that I like her boyfriend but I liked him before she was even around, I need him to know.”

“Im sorry to say this but you really need to prepare yourself for rejection ok? I just don’t want you to get your hopes up to be heartbroken.”

“I know. I just need him to know.”

1 hour and 30 mins later

Will walks toward Mike and El. He’s thinking “come on Will you can do this! You need to tell him.”

“Hey Will! Guys I’m going to go be in the bathroom for a little bit haha if you know what I mean” says El

“Oh ok bye El” says Mike

“Hi and bye haha” says Will nervously

After they see Eleven walk into the bathroom Mike looks at Will and says “ Hey man, you ok? You seem kinda off”

Will in his head “GAY PANIC GAY PANIC” he composes himself to talk “um yeah well actually kind of no, I wanted to tell you something actually”

“Oh sure what’s up” Mike puts down his pencils from drawing a pizza slice on the napkin giving Will his undivided attention.

“So Im….. I’m…. um well” he looks at mike as Mike is giving Will a confused face

“You can tell me anything Will”

“I’m gay Mike” Will looks at Mike waiting for his reaction

“Oh” Mike looks away hiding his emotions where Will can’t tell if he’s mad or fine with it. “I guess I kind of always guessed that you were, but hearing you actually say it feels different. I’m not like homophobic!! I’m glad you told me. Have you ever had a crush on a boy before?”

Will is relieved, half way done! he thinks to himself “well actually yes um I do right no-

“Hey guys!!!” Says El coming back

Mike gives Will a look as if they can talk about it later. “Hi El! I think I’m about done for tonight do any of you know when Miss Byers is coming to pick us up?” Mike says

“What?!?? El and Will say in unison

“My mom usually lets us stay here until like almost midnight on the weekends sometimes!” says Will.

“Yeah but only if Jonathan’s friend Argyle is fine with it.” El chirps in.

“Oh wow ok so what do you guys usually do?” Asks Mike

“We just talk a lot and we play games like 2 truths and a lie and stuff like that. Says El

“But I could call my mom on the restaurant’s telephone if you wanted to go already.” Says Will

“Oh um no I’m fine if you guys do this a lot. So do you wanna play truth or dare?”

“YES!!!” Says El

“I would love to but I’m gonna go talk with Jonathan and Argyle for a little bit.” Will is definitely only going to talk to Jonathan about what Mike said.

“Oh ok then” says Mike, “ So I’ll go first, El truth or dare??” Will can hear Mike say as he walks away wiping a tear from his eye.

The second Wills and Jonathan’s eyes meet Jonathan immediately leaves argyle to talk to Will. “So what happened????”

“I told him I’m gay. That’s all I could tell him before El came back. He said he wasn’t homophobic and he was glad I told him. Then he asked if I ever had a crush on a boy and I said well actually yes and then El came back before I could finish.” Says Will trying his hardest to hold his tears in.

“I’m proud of you your almost done. At least he’s not homophobic. I could try to distract El for a little bit so you can talk to Mike. Only if you wanted to though!”Says Jonathan

“Thanks but im gonna stay here for a little bit. That was so hard just to tell him im gay. I need to chill for a little bit.”

“Oh ok. But mom is taking El to the mall tomorrow remember? To get her new clothes so maybe you could talk to Mike then.”

“Yeah I guess so. I just… yeah I will probably do it tomorrow.”

“Ok! If things go bad me and you can come here and we can get your favorite everything ok?”

“Ok haha” Will laughs trying to stop being sad but he can’t keep it in and starts bawling his eyes out. “Jonathan I-“

Jonathan goes and hugs will and they hug for a while and then Jonathan says “it’s ok. do it whenever you feel like you should. It’s already a big step just coming out to him.”

Will stares at the ground thinking and he says “no I need to do this I will do it soon.”

“Ok. Go play with your friends and stop being all sad over yourself!” Jonathan says playfully trying to cheer him up.

“Hahaha ok.” Will says as he gets a napkin to wipe his eyes and blow his nose.

“Hey guys im gonna play now!” Says Will to El and Mike when he opens the door but sees them making out. “OH I’m sorry guys I thought you were still playing.” Says Will.

“Oh yeah. Um El dared me to make out with her hahahaha”says Mike

“Ugggghhhhhhhh ok will come on and play with us then.” Says El while she rolls her eyes in a playful way.

“Um ok mike truth or dare” says Will

“Truth!”

“Ok so have you ever had a cru- wait no. Hold on let me think.” Will wants to ask something about crush but he doesn’t want El to get mad. “Ok I got it! Is it true that you sold your bicycle?”

“What no! I didn’t sell my bike why would I do that?! Hahahahaha who told you that?” Says Mike

“Oh I thought you did.” Will said even though he had no idea if he had sold it or not he just made up a question. “Oh well” he says like he doesn’t care at all.

“Mike your turn!!” Says El.

“Ok I’ll do you. El truth or dare?” Says mike

“Dare!”

“I dare you too run around the restaurant 2 times!!” Says Mike

“What!!! I don’t want to do thattt!!” Says El

“Have too. Dares a dare.” Says Will with a huge mischievous grin on his face.

“Ok I’ll do it.” Says El

But then Will thinks ‘wait then it’s just gonna be me and Mike. I might have enough time to tell him!!’

“Oh AND me and will get to stay right here watching you through the windows.” Says Mike

“So not fair!! But fine I’ll do it and no more additions!! You two zip it!” El says laughing

She goes outside and starts running. There’s an awkward silence for about 10 seconds until Mike finally says “so will um you weren’t able to answer my question earlier about have a crush on a boy.”

“Oh yeah” says Will nervously as he scratches the back of his neck “ well I don’t really want El to hear me talking about that.”

“Trust me she’s a pretty slow runner we have time to talk.” Says Mike

(Note: I’m pretty sure she’s actually a pretty fast runner in the show but for purposes she’s gonna be slow in this fic.)

“Ok then.” Will says. He thinks ‘ok just get this over with and tell him.’ “Ok I’m just gonna say this. If you get mad I promise I will be accepting of your reaction but I’m just gonna tell you.”

Mike says “….ok?”

“I’ve had a crush on you ever since we were kids. I have always had a crush on you and I just needed you to know that. I’m not expecting you to like me back I just needed to tell you.” He says feeling his heart beating really fast.

“Oh.” Mike says in a long silence “I think I used to like you when we were kids too. I thought it was just because you were a really good friend but now I think it was probably a crush. But I don’t like you Will. El is my girlfriend and I love her ok? We can still be friends but that’s it. I’m El’s boyfriend and she’s my girlfriend. I like her. I do not like you like that. Maybe if you would’ve told me when we were kids things would’ve been different. But those feelings I had for you disappeared the moment I found El in the woods ok? I’m sorry, we can still be friends though.”

Will feels like he’s about to cry. He’s says “ok I honestly didn’t expect you to like me back I just needed you to know. Maybe that is gonna help me move on since I’ve liked you for so long now. I’m glad we can still be frien-“

He gets cut off as El falls on to the table laying down breathing heavy. “You guys suck!” She says with her eyes closed. Mike bursts out laughing and looks at will and so does Will. El looks at them and says. “I’m glad this is funny for you guys. I’m over here about to pass out and here you guys are laughing your asses off. I’m done playing I’m just gonna go lay down on one of the booths.”

“Ok well I guess I can call my mom now since she’s probably gonna be knocked out in a second hahaha!” Says Will

“Yeah probably a good idea.” Says Mike.

Will walks to the restaurant telephone and calls his mom asking her to pick them up. After he hangs up he sees Jonathan watching him from around the corner. “Your a bit of a stalker huh?” Will says laughing

“ well I’m sorry for just trying to study your face trying to figure out how it went.” Says Jonathan when he lets out a chuckle.

Will tells him everything that happened and after he’s finished he’s practically bawling his eyes out. Will says “I’m just glad we can still be friends but there really was a part deep inside that thought he would like me back.”

Jonathan says “well rejection is good for you it makes you stronger and he did used to like you so there’s that. It’s gonna be ok. You’ll find a good guy for you one day.”

“I know.”

And that was what happened today, me and Mike are still gonna be friends and El doesn’t know anything. Well diary it could’ve went better, but it’s fine. Like Jonathan said, I’ll find a good guy one day. Just one day.

Will Byers 6/18/1987

[yandere-mha-blog]

Chapter 19: Hop to it!

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The next week was the same schedule over and over again, wake up, eat, see Katsuki off to his job, lounge around with minimal exercise, Katsuki coming home, eat dinner ,getting your shot, sleep and repeat you were feeling in a rut as you dangled off the couch.

“What are you doing?” Katsuki asked as you stared out the window

“Board…” you said

“What?” Katsuki asked

“I'M BORED, THIS LAST WEEK HAS BEEN MIND NUMBING AHH I WANNA GO OUT AND DO SOMETHING KATSUKI!” You said kicking your feet “UGH SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM THIS BOREDOM!”

“Get a grip, you are getting your cast off later today you can hold out.” “UGHHHHHHHHH.” you said as you slid off the couch

“So over dramatic.” Katsuki said

“How would you feel if you couldn't do your hero work Katsuki?” you said “I can barely knit, sew, draw with this thing on.” you said waving your cast up and down

“Right…” he said taking a long sip of his water “appointment to get it off is in an hour.”

“Too late I just wanna move my arm again, and not put a damn bag around it whenever I need to shower.” you kept going on “at least I'll be able to move into a new apartment soon, everything that happened kind of put a pin in it.”

“Don't worry I'll figure it out.” Katsuki said, setting his glass down, “okay let's head down.” “Finally.” you said getting up and putting your shoes on and grabbing your bag and heading out in front of him, You were really happy to be getting this damn thing off, all those shots were done with and you could finally get your life back on track, so when the doctor finally sawed that off and your arm was still limp you were confused, you couldn't even ball your hand into a fist.

“It's going to take some time for your arm to be able to work again.” The doctor said “any questions for me”

“How long will it take for me to regain some movement back to it?” you asked

“Earliest 2 months.” the doctor said and left you and Katsuki the doctor's office

“Hey...look don't worry I'm used to arm stains I'll have it working back soon.” Katsuki said seeing your previous excitement die inside of you

“Okay.” you said getting off the table and signing to yourself as you tried to reach for the door handle your arm was shaking and Katsuki just watched you switch arms and open the door and walked out, you got in the car and was just staring at your arm. Katsuki started the car but didn't drive off.

“Okay what's up you are all sulky.” He said

“I just wanted my arm to be well, my arm, guess I was kind of dumb for thinking it would be full healed in a week.”

“(name) don't worry about it, ill help you with the physical therapy, between you and me, my quirk puts a heavy strain on my arms and back, so getting one arm working again will be a piece of cake, i bet you will be able to use it by the time the we go see the cherry blossoms.” “We?” you said

“Well …shut up I'll have you back to semi normal movement in two weeks, and if you can show me you can open a door I'll take you to a nice spot for a viewing-HEY WHY ARE YOU CRYING!?” “You are just really nice to me.” you said using your sleeve to whip your tears away “I'm not use to anyone going out of there way to help me.”

Katsuki was a complete loss for words, he doesn't know how to console someone, so he just awkwardly patted your head

“Quite crying, the next two weeks are going to be grueling getting that arm back in use.”

“I can do it, you'll see.” you said

three days later

“AHHH I CAN'T DO IT.” You said dropping the weight, since when were arm curls so exercising

“You need to do more, then 50 arm twists, I want you to be able to do a push up before bed, also I was thinking in three days you should be able to do a pull up.” Katsuki said lounging on the couch “hop to it.”

“Katsuki, I've been working at it for the past three hours!” you said

“All I hear is excuses, now ten more come on!” he yelled, as you picked up the three pound weight and were only able to do six before you dropped it again

“That's it give me another ten!” he said

“I’m done for the day.” you said falling on the floor

“Stop being so overly dramatic.” Katsuki said walking over “if you don't give me one set of five right now, you are going to regret it.”

“Ugh let me rest-ack!” you said as he just sat on you “HEY GET YOUR FAT ASS OFF ME!”

“Push me off tiny.” he said taking his phone out, as you tried to use your good arm to get him off, why did he have to made of muscle at this point, you gritted your teeth and put your other arm up and tried pushing him off, he barely budged “Come on.”

“This isn't fair you got like a good 70 pounds on me.”

“So will you do the ten arm curls then.” He said handing you the weight, and you did the five while this bastard was still on top of you

“Now get off me!” you said

“Do ten more.” he said, and you completed throwing the weight at his head, so you gritted your teeth and did six before giving up.” Come on, do the last four and ill get off you.”

“Can't it hurt too much..” you said, Katsuki sighed and got off you and retrieved a one pound weight “here use this one.”

“One...two...three huff huff four.” you said finishing and collapsing, your arm was throbbing, you were expecting a trainer not a drill sergeant.

“Okay good now 50 arm twist then you can do two set of thirty with the hand grip.” he said

“Katsuki it's only been three days don't you think this is a little much.” you said

“Not really no, if anything I think I'm going too easy on you.” He said, as you complete running and hiding in the bathroom for the time being as he had his back turned, he clapped his hands twice.

“CHOP TO IT I WANT TO SEE THAT ARM MOVING!” he yelled and you jumped “You had a week of rest and i gave you my word I would have that arm working again, SO MOVE IT!”

“ON IT!” you said stretching your arm out and rotating back and forth

“You are doing it wrong, it's like this!” he said grabbing your arm and twisting it back and forth “start from the beginning.”

“But I already did thirty…” you said

“Well if you did it right front he beginning you would almost be done.” he said, as your eye twitched.

You were finally done with the work out and were passed out on the couch as Katsuki handed you a water bottle.

“You are making good progress but you didn't meet the expectations I had for today, we will need to make up for lost time tomorrow.”

“Ugh someone kill me.” you thought

[daydreamer-bby]

Good grief... RANT

I can't believe how screwed up my sleep schedule is again. I was totally fine for like almost three weeks and then boom, s t r e s s . Things are changing for me again and I feel exhausted from wrestling with my mind all day and night. I resigned from my officer position at the bank to focus on my health and go back to school. I know I have it in me to do great things and learn at my own pace but man I am just drowning in the mess I've created.

Debt wasn't really a thing for me until this past year when I got shmacked with hella medical bills after a suicide attempt and stay at a rehab facility. Which, by the way, was a wholly traumatic experience and only served to put me in debt and give me more cringey-want-to-kill-myself experiences. I can't find the beginning or end of the tangled up threads that have netted my life. It's all a mess and I feel sorry for my new therapist for having to deal with my pathetic ass lol.

I'd do anything to go back to 2019. I want so badly to get back to a functioning level but I feel like I'm slowly losing an uphill battle against myself. The one short-term/student friendly opportunity I have a chance at actually being able to manage is barely in reach because I can't fucking drive and it's a job that would require a very long commute even for a good driver. Plus, it's at my best friends place of employment so like what if I embarrass her or just can't cut it long enough to even work part-time.

If I think too much, which I cannot help but do, I am frozen. I feel like all the work I put in to my job means nothing now and I feel so foolish for having wanted to plan the rest of my life around it. I used to think I'd come so far and deserve more opportunity to grow in my career but I guess I really was just kidding myself lol. I got all my family members to momentarily eat their words about me basically being a total idiot and failure but here I am again, failing everything good I had going on.

Like this burnout and whatever else I could call it is so much worse than the other times???? Yet I feel reasonably calm through the panicked mental replays of impending financial catastrophes.

What else can I rant about...

Oh so it might be interesting to share why I don't drive.

I'll start this section by saying I have had some good driving experiences. But the majority of time I've spent behind the wheel was horrifying. Because of my personal issues I can't really control where my eyes go. That sounds stupid but it's true. I can't make myself look where I need to, see what I need to, or consistently comprehend what exactly is in my field of vision. My husband has been driving for like 15 years or something and he checks his mirrors constantly and has great awareness. For me, and not even in a generic dissociative way, I can't get my body to cooperate with my mind. It's terrifying. Picture being in a car but having no control over your body or focus. This predisposition to completely checking out from one moment to another is ruining my life. It's been ruining my life. I can't help but panic when I consider how the hell I'm supposed to manage having kids or keeping them safe. And aside from the mind/eye chaos I get so overwhelmed by sensory issues there's just no hope of me being a safe driver. IT ONCE TOOK ME OVER 30 MINUTES TO MOVE MY SISTER'S CAR WHILE SHE SAT NEXT TO ME EATING SPAGHETTI AND LAUGHING AT MY PANIC ATTACK. WE WERE SUPPOSED TO MEET MY MOM AT THE STORE ACROSS THE STREET BUT BEFORE WE COULD SHE WALKED THERE, SHOPPED, THEN WALKED BACK INTO OUR APARTMENT BEFORE I COULD GET TO THE PARKING LOT. MY LIFE IS A GOD DAMNED JOKE YALL.

UGHHHHHHHHH there's so much I've never been able to process.

I hate that I cannot control myself the ways I did for so long. I take a little comfort in reminding myself that I'm doing better than I have been and that I need to be patient and kind to myself but GOOD GOD do I wish I could beat my own ass. I keep asking my husband if we can go kayaking and for what?!?!? I've never been kayaking, I don't have a clue how to kayak. I never thought of it until a few months ago when I saw one in a movie. I hate that I can't stop thinking about kayaking.

I used to be so smart and mentally nimble and kind and innocent and naïve and now I'm just an anxious mess lmao. I can't call it a philosophical choice... I am not voluntarily nihilistic or kind I am literally just THAT stupid and ineffectual.

Mental illness and disabilities own me and I don't even understand them. They were this big, scary, sneaky things for most of my life and then boom I became an adult who can't seem to just get it the fuck together.

I actually just realized in a moment of clarity that I am beginning to spiral so I should take some of the gabapentin my psychiatrist recently prescribed for anxiety.

I've just taken it with lots of ice water so hopefully I can calm tf down LOL.

I can't remember the last time I SH'd frfr, but I know the progress I've made in not mutilating myself isn't that impressive when I do other dumb shit like relapse into bingeing or stay up for days at a time. It's like I can claim some success in not being monstrous to my skin but I find alternative ways of harming myself. And I was sincere about stopping using cannabis but two days in and P U F F F F F .

I just want to be my old self but I guess she's gone and now I have to reinvent my fat ass AGAIN. It's going to take so much more out of me this time but I guess that's for the best since there's so much more chaos in me at this time in my life. Maybe I'll shower now so I can sleep for a little while and be clean to workout tomorrow morning.

Anyway, if you're struggling like me I wish you the best, you sad little bitch.

[ellsey]

Agents of Shield Rewatch 7x06 Adapt or Die

Aka story time with Danny Boy

Before that though, Sibyl is going to travel the virtual time highway or whatever

She’s like a poetess what a queen

That’s a lot of Chronicoms

Elena was trying to ease them into what happened and Deke is like lol I killed him

HENRY WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO LOOK SO GOOD

Legit this outfit is doing things for me

Awww Mack has sweet memories

Also why have you not introduced Elena to your parents??

That shot of Stoner walking in front of his hologram is hilarious

This doesn’t look good for Z1 though womp

Yep this got long again hahahahaha

Daisy would want to hear a story about someone else being doped up ahahaha

Nathaniel is psyyyycho

As soon as she hears Whitehall is involved Daisy knows this is bad

May’s new abilities come in very handy

Poor Jemma is in a crisis here :(

Omg Mack hugging his mom hahaha that’s the sweetest

“This is Agent Rodriguez...she’s my girlfriend” MACK I LOVE YOU

Elena very smoothly swoops in there too

Mack’s Mom’s outfit is peak 70s and I love her

May and Phil are a mess but I love that they are actually talking

I love how Phil keeps breaking his handcuffs hahaha

That’s the best running gag this season

Mack’s and his dad working together is adorable

Well it would be if his dad wasn’t a robot

Ughhhhhhhhh I hate Nathaniel

Poor Daisy :(

And of course her first thought is of Jiaying

Sousa went quickly to calling her Daisy I’m just saying

Everything Sousa does here is the definition of *soft* like

The way he feels for her pulse then pats her shoulder once he feels it

The way he cradles her head on his leg

Then he just strokes her hair

And pleads with her to stay awake

And then he cups her head with his hands

I find it interesting that in his moment of panic worrying about her he calls her Daisy, but once he’s settled and has telling his story he’s back to Agent Johnson

But also when did he find out her first name?

Anyway I could watch this scene like 10000 times because it’s amazing and everything I wanted

Also Daisy is so brave and beautiful and smart to be able to think of stashing that glass in her palm while being tortured

I love her

I love Sousa

I love them together bless

And like, watching Sousa tap into his own trauma to help someone else is so very Sousa of him, you know?

He doesn’t exactly look like he enjoys telling that story. I mean he keeps looking at his leg when he mentions it being a pulpy mess, and he stares into space a lot when he’s not focused on Daisy. So I don’t think that was an easy task for him. And yet he did it. For her. To try and keep her focused and there.

Also that look on his face when he says there’s plenty of fight in her like

He’s completely a goner then

I could dissect this scene all day thanks for asking

In fairness to Deke he has every reason to be concerned about what he’s seeing here with Enoch and Jemma

But also why was she asleep there when she said she needed to be awake during the time loops??

Look at Phil using this device that May uses later to save the world it’s all connected

Look, maybe I’m just ship everything, but there’s a lot of sexual tension between Sibyl and Coulson

Well, as much sexual tension as robots can have

Finally some answers

Ish

“I named her Diana. She’s adorable and we’re inseparable. Literally.” HAHAHA

Omg Jemma be nice to your grandson

“Is that you?” Sousa is helplessly polite I love him

Nathaniel is getting what he deserves

“That’s my girl” I CRY

GET A ROOM YOU TWO

I mean a real room not this projected space

An epic Coulson speech yay!

“Dying...it’s kind of my super power” Oh honey no

But I love you 

And I guess he talked about this with May...that’s so much trust in her

I LOVE THEM

Stoner and May would have been cute together ngl

“He’ll come back...always does” MELINDA MAY IS TRYING TO MAKE ME CRY

“And...you are a valued member of our family” I LOVE THAT SO MUCH

Deke actually does a good job with this secret good for him

Elena bonding with Mack’s mom /cry

Oh noooooooooooo

This is the worst

I hate everything

FREAKING ROBOTS

Seriously I was so mad at this show for a hot second because why??? Why do this to Mack?????

Henry absolutely kills this scene though

And Elena sitting with him...so sweet

Also I know I posted this before, but Deke does a very interesting thing with his eyes here. He comes in, tells them they’re about to jump, then his eyes flick over to Daisy and then to Sousa. I highly suspect that even Deke realized at that point that there was something there.

“I’m where I need to be” MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT I LOVE IT SO MUCH

But also, sir, you can barely look at anything except Daisy obviously everyone on this plane is going to know what’s up if they don’t already

And then Jemma’s little smile when she walks off...you know she was trying to think of a way to take a stealth pic for Daisy’s scrapbook

Jemma is a scrapbooking queen I accept no criticism

:( Poor Mack

I love that Deke wants to help Mack

But also oops ya stuck now

Whew this episode had a lot. I mean it managed to score a 10000/10 on the BREAKING MY HEART scale but also a 100000/10 on the MY HEART IS SO HAPPY SCALE. I went through some things y’all. Also clearly we’re like 1000/10 on the Dousy scale. Meanwhile Elena gets a 5000/10 on the Supportive Girlfriend scale because really? She was the best.

We’re going to pretend the heartbreaking stuff didn’t happen and just go with a happy song. So from 1976, here’s “You Are the Woman” by Firefall because Daniel Sousa is gooooooone.

[vgckwb]

P5R: Rebel Girl (A FeMC Story/P5R Rework) Chapter 50: Stirred

On Saturday, Makoto was called into Principal Kobayakawa’s office. “You wanted to see me sir?”

Kobayakawa was indignant. “I hear you’re asking about Kamoshida. Why is that?”

Makoto grew slightly indignant herself, but kept a level head. “Well, you wanted me to investigate the Phantom Thieves, right? I figured that since we didn’t know of their possible existence until they sent Kamoshida that calling card, then the Phantom Thieves, if they do go to this school, might have an ax to grind with him. Hence the interviews.”

Kobayakawa glared at her. “I guess that makes sense.”

“Is there an issue with my explanation?” Makoto asked. “Because if there is, it sounds like you don’t want people talking about Mr. Kamoshida.”

“Well, it’s just old news at this point,” Kobayakawa deflected. “I don’t want to stubbornly dwell on the past and all.”

“Yeah, but if you want to know who these thieves are, this has to be a part of it,” Makoto instructed. “So what do you want? Do you want to protect Mr. Kamoshida, or do you want to know who the Phantom Thieves are?”

Kobayakawa was about to burst. Begrudgingly, he said “I want to know who the Phantom Thieves are.”

“Very well then” Makoto said, leaving the office.

Once Makoto had left, Kobayakawa smirked. “You want information, Miss Niijima? You’re going to get it!”

During the day, Ren was being treated like a celebrity due to her interaction with Akechi, with both pros and cons. The students divided themselves up between pro-Phantom Thieves, and by extension, Pro-Ren, and Pro-Akechi factions. When it came time for lunch, it was almost too much for her to bear. “Ugh. I almost miss being isolated from everyone” Ren moaned.

“Hey, it’s not so bad,” Ann said, trying to cheer her up. “Besides, things move fast in the city. Who knows, by Monday, this interview thing will be old hat.”

Ren gave a goofy smile. “Thanks…”

Just then, someone burst into their class. It was a male student with shaggy orange hair and purple glasses. He looked around with his gaze coming to a halt on Ren. “Ah ha!” He walked over to her. “Miss Amamiya, the woman of the hour. I am here on behalf of the student council, and I would wish to speak to you.”

Ren was exhausted with the attention. “If it’s about the interview…”

“No, this is about something else,” he explained. “We’ve been conducting interviews at the request of the president. And personally, I’m on your side with that.”

“Oh, um, well, sure, I guess then” Ren said, confused, but figured that this might be better than the constant attention.

“Then let’s head up,” the student council member said. He started walking and Ren followed him. As they were walking, he said “By the way, my name’s Hiroki.”

Ren was perplexed. “No last name?”

“Meh” Hiroki cheeped. “It’s not my thing.”

“Well then, if it’s all the same to you, would you mind calling me Ren?” she asked.

“Of course,” Hiroki smiled. They made it to the student council room and sat down. “So, Ren,” Ren chuckled slightly at him emphasizing her name, “if it’s alright with you, I’d like to talk about Mr. Kamoshida.”

Ren was surprised. “Mr. Kamoshida?”

Hiroki nodded. “We’re investigating the incident to see how we can prevent such a thing from happening again.”

Ren was a tad suspicious, but decided to go for it. “Um, sure. I guess the starting point was my first day here. I’m a transfer student, so that was a little ways into the school year. Anyways, as I was heading over to a crosswalk, there was another girl standing there, Ann, although I didn’t know her at the time. Anyways, Mr. Kamoshida pulled up and invited her into his car. Soon after, he invited me as well. Ann looked hesitant, so I decided to hop in to make sure nothing happened.”

“Wait, you took a ride with a stranger to protect someone else?” Hiroki said, interrupting her. Ren nodded. “I gotta commend you on that. That’s pretty bold.” Ren slightly blushed. “Anyways, please continue.”

“Well, nothing really happened in the car,” Ren continued. “After that, Ann and I hung out all day, and we became fast friends. After school though, Ann had to leave for a bit, and Kamoshida called me to his office. It was there he tried to make a move on me.” Ren looked down. “I have a bit of baggage from my hometown, and Kamoshida was hoping to exploit it to get what he wanted.”

“Oh my” Hiroki said. “Did anything happen?”

Ren smiled and shook her head. “Before anything could happen, Ann and Shiho stopped him. Ann whisked me away and then apologized profusely and then told me about the kind of person Mr. Kamoshida was.”

“I see,” Hiroki noted. “Did anything else happen?”

“Well, I did save a different student from Kamoshida’s advances,” Ren said.

“Could you tell me their name?” Hiroki inquired.

“Sumire” Ren answered.

“I see” Hiroki wrote it down. “And that’s it?”

Ren nodded. “I think Ann and Shiho’s interruption was enough to dissuade Kamoshida, at least for a bit. Besides, I wasn’t here for long before the Phantom Thieves sent out that calling card.”

“Right,” Hiroki agreed. “Well, thanks for coming in. I know this couldn’t have been easy to talk about.”

“Oh, it’s fine,” Ren said. “If it’s to make sure a new Kamoshida doesn’t spring up, I’m all for it. Besides, Dr. Maruki has told me I should work on opening up more.”

“You’ve visited Dr. Maruki?” Hiroki asked. Ren nodded. “Huh. Maybe I should give it a try then.”

“By all means” Ren said.

She got up, but before she could leave, Hiroki shouted “Wait!” Ren was surprised. “Uh, I just have a personal question, if you don’t mind.” Ren tilted her head. “Not about you, just something I’d like to know for myself.”

“O...K…?” Ren said, still confused.

Hiroki sighed. “What do you get the girl who has everything? To, you know, show her your affection.”

Ren was still weirded out, but it did seem like he just wanted some dating advice. “Well, the one thing not to get the girl who has everything is a contract with a sea witch” she joked.

Hiroki laughed. “Yeah, I guess it was a bit unusual to spring that on you. Sorry.”

“It’s fine,” Ren said. “And good luck with your girl problem.” Ren left.

Once she got back to class, Ann asked her “What was that about?”

“Kamoshida” Ren answered directly.

“Really?” Ann asked. Ren nodded. “Why?”

“I’m not sure,” Ren said. “But they say it’s to help them prevent another Kamoshida-like incident.”

Ann seemed distrustful. “I want to believe that, but…”

“Yeah…” Ren agreed. “Still, even if they are being honest, it is better not to tell the truth about the whole Phantom Thieves thing.”

“Right,” Ann agreed. Almost immediately afterwards, they got a message.

Yusuke: Can we meet up?

Jose: Yusuke…

Sumire: What for?

Yusuke: I’m just frustrated is all.

Yusuke: Dorm life isn’t turning out like I’d hope it would.

Ryuji: I get it. Ya need to blow off some steam.

Ann: Come to think of it, we haven’t had an initiation party for Yusuke yet.

Ann: Or really, Sumire and Jose.

Jose: We went to that diner.

Ryuji: Yeah, but that was more to hammer out the details of us going forward.

Ryuji: We need to really celebrate you joining the team.

Sumire: I see.

Ren: As much as I would love to, I’m afraid I’d get recognized wherever I go.

Yusuke: Ah, yes, I did see the interview.

Yuuke: You did wonderful, by the way.

Jose: Yeah, it’s all everyone talks about here at Kosei.

Ren: Ughhhhhhhhh.

Jose: Something the matter?

Ann: Ren-chan’s not a fan of the attention.

Ren: I’m not used to it.

Ryuji: Well, I mean, I guess it wouldn’t be much of a celebration, but how about we just head to your place?

Ren: That’s fine, I guess.

Ren: Come to think of it, I do have a hot pot in my room.

Yusuke: Hot pot, you say?

Yusuke: It’s settled then.

Ryuji: ...Someone’s excited.

Ann: We’ll meet up at Station Square after school, OK?

Sumire: OK!

Yusuke: Works for me!

Ryuji: Alright.

Jose: OK!

Ren: Very well then.

They put their phones away.

As they were heading out, Hiroki met up with Ren and Ann. “Hi, um, Ann.”

“...Hello?” Ann said, taken aback.

“If it’s alright with you, would you mind coming with me to the student council room?” Hiroki invited.

“Ummmm, OK?” Ann said, still confused.

Ren giggled slightly. “Don’t worry, Hiroki here doesn’t bite.”

“Of course,” Hiroki said, grinning like an idiot.

Ann laughed. “OK, OK.” The two left. Ren took out her phone.

Ren: It’s gonna be a bit.

Ryuji: Why’s that?

Ren: A student council member is interviewing her.

Ryuji: WHAT?!

Sumire: Oh yeah.

Sumire: I should have told you. They’re interviewing people about Kamoshida.

Ryuji: Why?

Ren: They say it’s to prevent another Kamoshida from happening.

Ryuji: And you believe that?!

Ren: Well, so long as we keep quiet about us being the Phantom Thieves, there’s no harm in humoring them, right?

Ryuji: I guess…?

Yusuke: I agree. If they are noble, then this is fine. And if they aren’t, you can push them toward nobility.

Sumire: Right. I guess.

Ren: It shouldn’t take too long.

Meanwhile, Hiroki and Ann entered the student council room, each taking a seat. “So, um, do you know why we’re here?”

Ann nodded. “Ren told me you’re asking people about Kamoshida.”

Hiroki smiled. “Very well. Do you feel comfortable talking about him?”

Ann fidgets. “I’m not sure, but I guess I’ll go for it, if this is to help you prevent another Kamoshida.” Hiroki nodded. Ann was still a little hesitant. “Ever since coming to this school, Kamoshida has been a shadow lurking at every turn. As head of track and volleyball, he had dominion over my two best friends. He manipulated them to get us to split up. He also approached me several times pretending to be innocent. But I’m a model, and I could tell what he wanted right away. I kept brushing him off, but he kept insisting. Eventually, he tried using my friends to get what he wanted from me.”

Hiroki sighed. “I've heard a lot of similar stories from people today, and yet it never fails to send chills down my spine.”

Ann was surprised. “Huh.”

“Anyways, continue,” Hiroki instructed.

Ann nodded. “I didn’t know what to do. I was perpetually stuck between a rock and hard place. I didn’t think the school was going to do anything about Kamoshida, so I kept trying to delay what I thought was inevitable.” Ann smiled. “But then one day, Kamoshida invited me into his car, and another girl came along with. I was frightened by this, but soon we became close friends. However, Kamoshida called her into his office, and I was at my wit's end.”

“So, what did you do?” Hiroki asked.

“I rushed over there,” Ann said. “Luckily, nothing had happened, but I was so scared that I had betrayed my new friend’s trust,” Ann started crying. “But she said it was alright. Later, she told me she came into his car to protect me. Isn’t that something?” Ann smiled. “Ever since Kamoshida entered the scene, things seemed bleak. I felt like I couldn’t do anything. My friends and I were in his grasp. But I wasn’t about to let someone else fall there too.”

“I see,” Hiroki said, jotting it down. “Did anything else happen?”

“Ummm, I’m not sure how to answer that,” Ann said. “I mean, I know the Phantom Thieves showed up sometime after that, but…”

Hiroki chuckled slightly. “I meant with you.”

“Oh, no,” Ann answered. “Not really. But after Kamoshida confessed, I felt freer than ever.”

“Hm,” Hiroki said. “Well, thank you for your time. I’m sure this wasn’t easy.”

“Yeah” Ann said. “But if it helps…”

“Right,” Hiroki said. “Speaking of, your friend Ren has some nice words about Dr. Maruki. If you’re still feeling overwhelmed, or if this opened any old wounds, I’d suggest paying him a visit.”

Ann smiled. “Yeah, she’s told me as such. And I’ve been thinking about it. I might go soon.”

“Well then, have a good rest of your day,” Hiroki said. Ann nodded and walked out.

Once she met up with Ren, Ren asked “Well, how’d it go.”

Ann was thinking about how to answer that. “About as well as you’d expect. I mean, I had been in Kamoshida’s sights for a while, so there was a lot to unpack.”

Ren frowned. “I’m sorry.” “Don’t be sorry” Ann insisted. “You’ve done so much for me. You’re basically my hero.”

Ren blushed immensely. “Thanks.”

“Anyways, we should get going,” Ann said. “We don’t want to keep them too long.”

“Right” Ren nodded. They both headed to Station Square.

Once there, they saw everyone else. “Yo” Ryuji greeted them. “How’d it go? You OK?”

Ann smiled. “Yeah. It is a lot, but I think I did OK.”

“Lady Ann…” Morgana said, popping out of Ren’s bag.

“I’m sorry” Sumire blurted. “I should have said something earlier.”

The three other Shujin students were taken aback. “It’s OK,” Ren said, trying to calm her.

“Yeah, Kamoshida’s A LOT, even with a proper warning” Ryuji stated.

“Yeah. Don’t beat yourself up over it” Ann said. “Really, it’s fine.”

Sumire smiled. “Oh. Right. Speaking of warnings, had I known Akechi was going to be the interviewee, or that you were going to the TV studio at all, I might have told you about him.”

Ren smiled. “That’s fine,” she said. “I like charging into things head first sometimes.”

Sumire smiled back. “I can see why Akechi found you so engaging.”

Ann also smiled. “But you know who else we met?”

Sumire became inquizitive. “Who?”

“Your dad,” Ann answered.

“That’s right,” Ryuji said. “He thanked us for being your friend, and wanted us to thank Jose and Yusuke as well.”

Sumire was embarrassed. “R-Really?!”

“He actually talked to me twice,” Ren said.

This surprised Ann and Ryuji. “When was the second time?” Ryuji asked.

“After the interview,” Ren replied. “When you two left, Akechi came up to me with an offer of friendship. He came up to us and we had a little chat.”

“And you said ‘no’, right?” Ryuji asked. “To being friends with Akechi.”

“I actually said ‘yes’” Ren informed him.

“WHAT?!” Ryuji reacted.

“Well, he seemed nice enough,” Ren said. “Besides, he’s not totally against us, just if we abuse our power, which we won’t.”

“I think that makes sense,” Jose said. “It’s more of a fear than an outrage.”

“Fear, huh” Ryuji reflected. He stared at the dirt.

“What’s wrong?” Yusuke asked.

Ryuji looked up. “N-Nuthin’.”

“It’s OK, we’re all friends here” Ren said, assuring him.

Ryuji looked at her. “Not here. We’re too public.”

“I see,” Ren said. “Well, shall we head over.”

“Of course!” Yusuke said. “I cannot wait for this hot pot!” The gang started walking over to Leblanc. “By the way Ann,” Yusuke began. Ann looked at him. “If I decide to leave the dorms, would it be OK to live with you?”

Ann, Ryuji, and Morgana panicked. Ann blushed. “Of course not!”

“Huh?” Yusuke said, surprised.

Ren seemed a tad confused. “I’m not sure he’s the type to do what you’re thinking.”

“Well, maybe, I guess…” Ann trailed off. “But it would be a bit awkward. I mean, there would be times when it would be just the two of us.”

“Yeah…” Ryuji added.

“Oh. I didn’t know” Yusuke said.

“It’s fine,” Ann said.

They reached Leblanc. Yusuke looked up. “This is where you live?”

“Yup” Ren said. She opened the door.

Sojiro turned around. “Huh. I wasn’t expecting you back so soon.”

“I’m just bringing some friends over,” Ren explained. “Is that OK?”

One by one, everyone started walking in. Yusuke stepped in and took a considerable look around. “Ah, you have a new guy with you,” Sojiro noted.

“Yup” Jose said. “He’s my senpai at Kosei. He’s been feeling a bit anxious, so we thought some time amongst friends would be helpful.”

“Ah. Where are my manners?” Yusuke said. “My name is Yusuke Kitagawa.”

“I see,” Sojiro said. He saw Yusuke looking around. “My name’s Sojiro but you can call me ‘Boss’ If you’d like. So, anything strike your fancy?”

“Huh?” Yusuke said. “Oh, sorry. I’m just perplexed is all. I’ve never met anyone who lives in a dining establishment.

“Heh, well, it takes all kinds,” Sojiro said.

“I’ll say,” Yusuke said. He looked over to see a set of stairs. “Do you live upstairs, or does she?”

“I do,” Ren said. “Sojiro lives in a house close by.”

“Ah, I see,” Yusuke said. “...Wait…”

“Before you ask, it’s complicated,” Sojiro said. “Moreso with me than with her.”

“Thanks boss,” Ren said. “So, if you don’t mind, I noticed a hot pot upstairs. Mind if we use it?”

“That old thing?” Sojiro responded. “Go ahead. I almost forgot it was there.”

“Sweet. Thanks” Ren said. “Well, you heard the man, let’s get this set up!” The gang headed upstairs. Ren and Ryuji got the hot pot down. “Alright then. I suppose ingredients are next. I’ll go see what we have, and what we need. Does anyone have any preferences?”

“Nah!” Ryuji said. “I’m sure whatever we make will be delicious!”

“Anyone else?” Ren asked.

“I’m with Ryuji-senpai,” Sumire said.

“Well, then I guess it’s settled,” Ren said. “I’ll be right back.” Ren went downstairs.

Ryuji looked around. “What’s up?” Jose asked

Ryuji was taken off guard. “Well, it’s just, we haven’t really been up here before…”

“Yeah…” Ann realized. She also looked around. “This place is...a bit different than I expected. But like...good different?”

Sumire looked around. “It’s not traditional, but I guess it works.”

“I’ll say,” Yusuke noted. “I wonder why she doesn’t live with her father.”

“Well, that’s more her place today” Ann said.

“But didn’t he say it was more on him?” Yuske inquired.

“Oh” Ann said. “No, Sojiro isn’t her father.”

“Huh,” Yusuke noted.

Ren came back up. “OK, I’m missing a few ingredients. Who wants to come with me to get some?”

“I’ll go,” Yusuke offered. “I’d like to know more about this place you call home.”

No one was expecting quite a dramatic take on it, but they settled into it quickly. “OK, sure” Ren said. “Anyone else?”

“Nah, we’ll hold down the fort here,” Ryuji said.

“Alright then Let’s go Yusuke,” Ren said. The two of them left to grab some ingredients for the hot pot.

While in the grocery store, Yusuke asked “So, why are you living there?”

Ren turned her attention to him. “Oh yeah. I guess you wouldn’t know, would you. It might be better to explain things when we get back, since I don’t think Jose knows either.”

“I see,” Yusuke responded. “Very well. Let’s continue.” Ren and Yusue picked out some more ingredients and headed back. Once upstairs, Yusuke declared “Alright! Let’s make some hot pot!”

The gang began making hot pot. Ren took charge since it was her room and Sojiro’s pot. She wanted to be careful, while listening to the group to get some good input. Once they finished, they began serving it.

“MMMMMMMM” Ann deighted. “This is SOOOO GOOOOD!”

“Indeed,” Yusuke said. This is DELICIOUS!”

“Boy, I’ll say,” Ryuji said. “Maybe you should become a professional.”

Ren swallowed her latest bit of hot pot. “That might be a bad idea. I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be the only cook with a record.”

“R-Record?” Yusuk said, surprised.

“Oh right, Yusuke doesn’t know,” Ann said.

“Yeah” Ren said, “but I did promise to tell him.” Ren smiled. “So, basically, what happened was one night in my hometown, some guy was trying to force this woman into his car. I decided to try and stop it, but he fell down and had me arrested for assault.”

Yusuke was incensed. “Surely the woman would have said something.”

Ren shook her head. “The guy had immense sway. He even had the police leave his name out of the report. Once I got out on probation, my parents thought that with my already turbulent school life, things might become too much, and so they arranged for me to stay here.”

Yusuke was stunned. “Huh.”

“To be honest, we’re all kind of like that, at least a little,” Sumire noted. “I mean, you already know about my trauma, and we all know yours.”

“I suppose that’s true,” Yusuke said.

“Yeah” Ryuji said. “We’re all just a bunch of misfits here. I think that’s what makes us good thieves.” Ryuji looked at the floor.

“Ryuji?” Ann asked.

“Ah, right,” Ryuji said, refocusing. “I was just thinking about what Jose said earlier. About how that Akechi guy might be motivated by a fear of us. I’m just… My mom practically lived in fear of my dad until the day he left. She’s still kind of afraid of him. Not that she’d ever tell me. But I see it.” Ryuji looked at his hands. “I get why someone might be afraid of what we do, but I don’t want people to fear us. I don’t want to use what we have to scare people.”

Everyone went a little silent. Yusuke then spoke up. “As someone who also lived by fear, I can assure you, what we do is different. The people we are fighting are more about using fear to get what they want. When we reject their scare tactics, we are ripping off their mask to reveal the pathetic people they really are.”

Everyone was stunned. “Woah!” Ryuji said.

Ann smiled. “Well, so long as we’re talking about this sort of thing…”

“You too?” Yusuke said, surprised.

“Well, I don’t have anything quite so extreme,” Ann explained, “but… I dunno. I’ve always felt out of place. People only see me for my looks most of the time, so they think that’s who I really am.”

“Ah! I’m sorry” Yusuke said, bowing.

“...Uh, what for?” Ann asked.

“When I asked to paint you,” Yusuke said. “At the time, I didn’t know much about you, but I was taken in with your look and your energy. Forgive me.”

Ann smiled. “You’re fine. In fact, you’re a lot better than a lot of other people. A lot of the time, they don’t think to ask me what I feel, or care what I think like you did, they just want me as they see me, without any input from me.”

“Oh” Yusuke said. “That sounds difficult.”

“Yeah” Ann said. She smiled. “However, after finding people like you all, I finally feel better and more confident about what I want, and putting a voice to that confidence.”

“Way to go Ann” Jose said.

Yusuke looked at Jose. “So, what about you?”

Jose smiled. “Well, I don’t really have much.”

Morgana joined in. “Yeah, Jose and I are kind of in the same boat.”

“How come?” Yusuke asked.

“Well, Mr. Morgana and I aren’t originally from this world” Jose explained.

“Right…” Yusuke said. “I remember now. You did explain that.”

“I’m here as an assistant to Ren, and Jose was exploring Mementos until some shadows raided him” Morgana reiterated.

“So, we’re both looking at humanity from the outside in,” Jose continued. “I’ve been tasked with learning about humans, and the Phantom Thieves have been helping me.”

I see” Yusuke said. “Hm. Delightful.”

“Huh?” Ann asked.

‘Forgive me,” Yusuke continued. “I was being selfish. At the first sign of trouble with dorm life, I intended to turn tail and run. But hearing your stories made me change my mind. I felt so alone in my torment from Madarame that I forgot other people have hardships too. So, to follow your example, I need to face things head on, instead of running from them. Besides, I doubt the dorms will be as bad as Madarame.”

“Yusuke…” Ann said.

Ren smiled and clapped. Everyone who could clapped too. “Great job Yusuke.”

“Huh?” Yusuke said, confused.

“You’re taking your first step into the real world. I know it can be hard, but we’ll be with you every step of the way” Ren continued.

Yusuke was stunned, then smiled. “I see. Thank you.” The group continued eating.

Fool-The Phantom Thieves: Rank 4

They spent some more time together, but pretty much once the pot was empty, everyone started heading home.

As Ren was just getting ready for bed, Ann messaged her.

Ann: Hey.

Ann: I know I’m not the one who determines these things,

Ann: but I remember at our last celebration you told Ryuji, Morgana, and I that you were a lesbian.

Ann: Why not this time?

Ren smiled and blushed ever so slightly.

Ren: It’s not that I don’t want to.

Ren: There’s just another compilation.

Ann: Complication?

Ann: What do you mean?

Ren: ...Sumire…

There was a minute of no response.

Ann: Oh. OH. Huh.

Ann: Well, I hope you can tell her one day.

Ren: I hope so too.

Ren: I’m just...very afraid.

Ann: I don’t think she’d hate you or anything.

Ren: Right.

Ren: Still…

Ann: Yeah, I doubt any of this is easy.

Ann: But you know I’m always there for you.

Ren: Yeah. Thanks.

Ann: Any time.

Ren smiled, put her phone down, and fell asleep.

The next morning, she got up, and headed downstairs for breakfast when she noticed something new. The original “Sayuri”, the one they stole from Madarame’s palace, hanging up in Leblanc. “You like?” Sojiro said. “That Yusuke boy came by this morning and asked if he could hang it up here. I asked him if he really wanted to. He seemed dead set on the idea. Honestly, that kid marches to the beat of his own drum. But then again, look who I’m talking to.”

“I see,” Ren said. She smiled.

“He also gave me this message for you,” Sojiro said, handing her a piece of paper.

Ren took it and began reading. “Ren, Thank you for yesterday. It really helped me put things into perspective. I wish to continue serving the Phantom Thieves, and yesterday really gave me the chance to truly understand what that means. I will not run away or back down. I will face these challenges head on.

As for the painting, the legacy of the ‘Sayuri’ is pretty much tainted. However, it is such a beautiful and masterful piece of art on its own that I cannot let it go to waste. It then hit me: You and the ‘Sayuri’ are similar in this way. You’ve both lost your place to belong. So I decided to emulate you and place it here, so that it can gain a new home, and hopefully a new purpose. I hope you and the Boss take good care of it. -Yusuke”

As Ren read it, she wiped a tear forming in her eyes. “Thank you. I needed that perspective too.” Sojiro just looked on, smiled, and whipped her up a cup of coffee.

Meanwhile, Yusuke was looking at the picture he had taken of the “Sayuri” in Leblanc. He eventually decided to send it to Kosuke. When Kosuke got it, he smiled and said “Right where it belongs.”

[i-want-anne-hathaway]

Pregnancy Pie the Musical

Or Waitress if you’re lame.

Waitress has the potential to make somebody want to get up and dance while also having the ability to make somebody want to crawl in a ball and cry. The fucking r a n g e

It’s such a pretty musical.

And as I listen to What’s Inside, I remember that I will be next greeted with “deepshit blueberry bake in”

There it is.

Opening Up is a certified bop. Like, seal of bop-hood granted by me. And probably @lesducks

As all songs I try playing, I learned Opening Up on my uke, but it didn’t sound right. But! My birthday is in three days, so maybe we will have a guitar to make things sound better.

If you don’t do the accents when singing The Negative, you’re not singing The Negative.

The Negative is friendship goals. Get you friends who are going to be paranoid as fuck with you when you have to take a pregnancy test. They’re not going to call you down, nope. They’re going to match your anxiety ridden energies.

HEY! HEY! HADESTOWN, TAKE FUCKING NOTES! ALL OF THE SONGS IN WAITRESS ARE UNDER 4:30 SECONDS! THE ADHD THEATER KIDS DON’T HAVE THE ATTENTION SPAN FOR THAT LONG ASS SHIT

I know the plot of Waitress, and if I thought hard enough, I could tell you what was happening during each of the songs and what led up to them. All except for What Baking Can Do. I have no clue what’s happening during that song.

Do I like Club Knocked Up? Generally speaking, no. Will I listen to it still? Yes.

Waitress 🤝 Hadestown

Songs on the Cast Recording that are literally just instrumentals or talking

When He Sees Me is iconic. Another certified bop. Dawn is a whole ass mood. “I don’t like guessing games” she says as she plays a guessing game for the nest three minutes or so.

“Dawn, don’t you think you’re being just a little- i don’t know- just a tad bit-” “I’M NOT DEFENSIVE”

It took me so long to process “I could end up a miserable wife” because I am but a humble idiot who has the ability to process sentences of a literal fireplace.

It Only Takes a Taste and Just a Taste are the same song. Like, literally the same song.

It Only Takes a Taste makes me happy because of how enthusiastic Dr. Pomatter sounds when he says “yeah, no, that’s exactly what I mean.” So sweet. I say like he didn’t cheat on his wife. Minor details

You Will Still Be Mine was the first Waitress song I had really gotten into, and I was really sad to see that Nick Cordero had passed away.

Soft guitar song. Pleasant brain sounds.

Never Ever Getting Rid of Me makes me really upset thinking about that one girl on Tik Tok that bought tickets to Waitress on Broadway and then started loudly singing and recording herself during the show so that she could sing this song.

Bad Idea but I’m Dr. Pomatter. Let it happen.

Sometimes you just have to cheat on your husband with your also married doctor when you’re pregnant.

Bad Idea but it’s Renée Rapp and Antonio Cipriano.

Jenna: *cheats on her husband*

Jenna: *sees Becky cheating on her husband* :0

Jenna, literally the next song: *continues cheating on her husband*

I Didn’t Plan It goes so hard. Just screaming it is helpful when I’m angry, and even if I’m not angry it’s such a good song.

Bad Idea (Reprise) is just a mass cheating. And for some reason it’s really catchy.

You Matter to Me but it’s Renée Rapp and Antonio Cipriano at 54 Below. I should count how many times I mention a 54 Below performance or cover of a song. Cause it’s a lot.

In the spongebob narrator voice “several months later”

I will forever cherish the confusion on my mother’s face when I played I Love You Like a Table in the car. She was just sitting there like “THAT DOESN’T EVEN MAKE SENSE.” ‘Twas glorious

I love that Dawn just casually wrote a drum line.

Take It From An Old Man is just not it. I’m not a fan of the way it sounds. It doesn’t make me feel anything when I listen to it, and in comparison to the rest of Waitress, it’s just lackluster to me.

Dear Baby is not a song. It is dialogue. Why is it on the fucking album?

She Used to Be Mine but it’s Renée Rapp

She Used to Be Mine but it’s Natalie May Paris

She Used to Be Mine but it’s Jeremy Jordan

Okay, I’ll stop now. But go listen to those because yes.

THE CONTRACTION BALLET IS JUST BREATHING, AND IT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE BEYOND COMPARE! UGHHHHHHHHH

Okay, now that that’s over, Everything Changes is so pretty, and I love it. I can’t call it a bop per sé, but it is a certified vibe.

Why does this make me so emotional? I’m a teenage girl who is most certainly not a mother

Opening Up (Finale) is what we call perfect. It makes me wanna jump around and smile and sing and shit. Just like- I really like it.

WHAT’S INSIDE OF LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE

SUGAR! BUTTER! FLOUR!

Wooooo! I got through three musicals today, and I’m pretty proud. I’m trying to do Wicked and The Prom tomorrow and then I can do Come From Away on Thanksgiving. And then that means I can have my birthday as Frozen day.

Final Judgement: Waitress is a great musical and has the ability to attract not only theater fans, but also people who aren’t as interested in musicals because of it’s fun songs. It doesn’t make me feel overwhelmingly sad or happy, which is how you want to do it. 10/10 would recommend

[edgelord-saeran]

I see someone ships Jumin/Saeran which is def a pair I'd never considered before 👀👀 how about 56 and 76 for them??

(Ughhhhhhhhh Juran is my jam and I absolutely love it. Thank you so much for this)

56. "Would you just hold still?"

76. "I wouldn't change a thing about you."

Finding Saeran in the penthouse was always a joy for Jumin. He'd given the younger man a key a while ago, after they'd started getting closer. Saeran had been hesitant at first, but after the first couple times Jumin had looked at him with that soft smile when he saw him, Saeran felt more confident.

Today, however, Saeran was not doing his normal thing. Usually Jumim could find him in the rooftop garden, in the kitchen taking advantage of it being well stocked, or even curled up on the couch with Elizabeth the Third. Today however, he found Saeran standing in the bathroom holding a box of dye in his hands.

"Saeran?" Jumin called over to him. Saeran blinked up to him, and smiled. Jumin joined him in the bathroom, sitting on the side of the tub. "Is everything okay?"

"Yeah. I just..." Saeran paused, and tugged slightly at the end of his hair. The bleached part was barely there anymore, his natural red color having nearly grown all the way back. He sighed slightly. "I'm trying to make a decision."

"Dying your hair again?" Jumin asked him. Saeran scowled slightly.

"I'm past that point in my life. I need to continue to change. To someone who's not as weak as I am."

"And dying your hair is weak?" Jumin asked, trying to both understand where Saeran was coming from and also help Saeran work out his own feelings.

"I wouldn't be moving past that person if I dyed it. But also, when I look in the mirror, I'm beginning to see that scared boy again." Saeran mumbled.

"If you ask me, I wouldn't change a thing about you." Jumin said softly. Saeran raised an eyebrow at him, and Jumin frowned slightly, finding his own words lacking.. "What I'm saying is, Saeran is Saeran. What color your hair is does not change that. However, you should do what gives you the most security. So if that's dying your hair, you should."

Saeran looked down at the box again and nodded slightly before looking up at Jumin again with a mischievous grin.

"You wanna dye yours too?" Jumin's eyes widened slightly, caught off guard by Saeran's question. Saeran reached over to touch Jumin's hair and he unconsciously moved out of the way, Saeran to scowl.

"Would you just hold still?" Saeran fussed. I wouldn't do the whole thing, just maybe the underside."

Jumin hesitated for a moment, and to the both of their surprise, nodded.

"As long as it is a small spot." Saeran grinned widely, and it made Jumin's heart swell. He did that.

And if in the coming weeks, someone had managed to see the under layer of the CEO's hair, no one asked about the bleached white coloring with a small pink tinge.

[laminy]

You know what I’d love to see? I love Joe so much in your verse, because he’s such a sweetheart, but I feel like he’s almost always the one cheering the guys up and we rarely see him upset except for a few instances. Can we maybe see something where like Joe has the crappiest day at work and comes home just done in every way, but the guys comfort him? (No I absolutely did not have a day like that, what are you talking about?)

Joe groans as he kicks off his shoes, and they fly a bit further than he expected, hitting the wall. “Fucking fuck,” he mutters. “Fuck.”

“Joe?” Rami asks, sticking his head out of the kitchen. “Oh, what’s wrong?”

“Wrong?” Joe asks. “Why, what could be wrong? Everything is fucking fine, my to-do list doesn’t get longer and longer every time I walk in there with no end in sight because my supervisor is a fucking— ughhhhhhhhh.”

Rami bites down on his lip and then reaches out, pulling Joe in. “I’m sorry,” he says softly, kissing his cheek.

“No, I shouldn’t take it out on you,” Joe says, “I just— I go in, I do my work, well, I’m not asking for a medal but a little appreciation would be nice, wouldn’t it?”

Rami nods, wiping at Joe’s cheeks where a couple tears of frustration have leaked out. “It would,” he says. “I’m sorry. I appreciate you, if that helps. Every day.”

“I know,” Joe says, “I— thank you. I’m sorry.”

“No, don’t apologize,” Rami says. “I’m already making supper, so do you want to go upstairs, have a shower, calm down a bit? I’ll let you know when it’s ready.”

Joe smiles faintly at Rami, nodding. “You’re too nice.”

“That’s not being too nice, Joe,” Rami says. “I love you.”

“I love you too,” Joe says, walking through the flat, heading upstairs. He throws off all his clothes, leaving them on the floor, telling himself he won’t let Rami pick them up later, and he gets into the shower, turning it as hot as he can stand. He cries for a minute or two, just out of annoyance; he likes his job but it just sucks right now. He knows it’ll get better, he won’t pull a Ben, he needs to vent for a minute. Or a week. Who knows.

He gets out of the shower god knows how long later, and takes his time getting dressed. He sits on the bed with a towel wrapped around his waist for about 15 minutes before he can will himself to dry off. He puts on the comfiest clothes he can find before cleaning up his dirty clothes and towels, and heading back downstairs. He sniffles, wiping at his face, walking through the living room. “Sorry I took so long,” he says as he walks towards the kitchen.

“It’s fine!” Rami calls out. “Gave me more time to prepare.”

“Thank you,” Joe says, and he glances into the dining room, then freezes. “Uh, hi guys,” he says, giving them an awkward wave.

“Hi,” Gwil says, and Ben smiles.

“Sorry, did we have plans?” Joe asks. “I’m in— well, a shit mood, so I have to cancel. Sorry.”

“No, we’re just stopping by,” Ben says. He stands up and walks over to Joe, pulling him into a hug. “I love you,” he says softly.

Joe pulls back, smiling faintly. “Thank you.”

“I wanted to thank you for everything you’ve done for me, Joe,” Gwil says, smiling. “You were always so kind. When I deserved it.”

Joe laughs a bit. “Did you guys just...wander over here?” he asks.

“No,” Ben says. “We stopped at the shop first, grabbed you a bit of a treat,” he says. “It’s in the fridge. Rami thought you might need some cheering up.”

“Is it cake?” Joe asks softly, and Ben laughs.

“Told you he’d guess,” he says.

“Just the quickest we could grab,” Gwil says.

Ben smiles, and hugs Joe again. “Have a nice night, okay?”

“You’re not staying?” Joe asks.

“We thought you’d just want some space,” Gwil says.

“Oh,” Joe says. “I— I’d like it if you stayed. Unless you have some hot date tonight or something.”

“You’re our hot date tonight,” Ben says, smiling cheekily, and Joe laughs loudly.

“Supper’s almost ready,” Rami says from the kitchen, “so take off your coats, sit down. I’ll bring it out.”

“Thank you,” Joe says, looking at Rami, and Rami just smiles at him.

“Of course,” he says. “I love you.”

[greatfay]

The fosters 😏

Ohhhhhh my godddddddd I’m gonna diiiiiie. Ok let the memories resurface, this may take a minute.

my all-time ultimate fave character:

Stef. I just really liked her arcs, how straight forward she is, etc. Classic ISTJ tbh... cautious, reserved, protective, methodical, quietly affectionate. Like at the end of the day, I think she’s my fave. The kids go through so much ups and downs and Dumbass Moments that none of them can be my fave, and Lena is a close second but the writers only gave her one strong arc, and that’s when she tried to have a baby and that was so painful.

For several seasons I used to say my fave was Mike because he was Prime Dad Material. Like in the very first episode, he comes off as this douchey, entitled, deadbeat asshole who oversteps boundaries, right? Classic switcheroo. You find out this man is a saint, this man oozes emotional sensitivity and communication and affection, this man is also a dilf with eyelashes longer than should be legal. When he fostered AJ (I’m crying right now). Getting Ana through rehab??? Fighting his own alcohol addiction and not breaking once. Like the only time he ever let me down was his reaction to Dani MOLESTING Brandon, but he realized like whoa wait a minute... Brandon’s been taken advantage of and if Brandon were a girl he would see it different... Like all of Mike’s mistakes were temporary mistakes, he recovered quick and tried to do the right thing. If only his son was as quick on the uptake 😒

a character I didn’t used to like but now do:

Brandon. It took five seasons for me to like Brandon. You know how many seasons this show had? Five. And it’s because he’s pulled through the ringer of Suffering™ and it’s almost ALL his fault so that by the end when he’s doing the right thing again and again for the first time ever... and meets that super sweet girl... and then she DIES 

a character I used to like but now don’t:

Jude. He was such an intuitive, intense child, with wisdom earned from awful trauma, and watching him slowly assert himself was a wonder to watch. I do think the writers got lost with him, because his second love interest was a bore, his pothead thing was awful to watch, and when he became a twitch streamer with Taylor—WHAAACK. By the time of Good Trouble (which takes place years after The Fosters, so Jude is a sophomore/junior in college) Jude is drinking a LOT, partying a LOT, and fucking!!! a LOT!! Makes me concerned. Idk, it just felt like he lost his intuition halfway through the show and kept doing dumb stuff.

a character I’m indifferent about:

Every ex of the family lmao, idr them and I was not too fired up about any of them except maybe Emma. Like all of Jesus’ and Brandon’s exes I can’t remember.

a character who deserved better:

I’m just gonna make a list

AJ. Literally just him and Mike are just the cutest because of how earnestly the actor plays AJ, you know I love found family tropes and stuff.

 Mat. Such a sweetheart, the most accommodating and supportive boyfriend. So talented. Gorgeous hair. Mariana didn’t deserve him.

Cole. This boy fought SO HARD to be recognized for his gender, organized an LGBTQA prom for all his classmates who were rejected from their school’s prom, had to get hormones off the black market, and was so intuitive and loyal... honestly I loved Cole.

Aaron. SUCH a confusing end. Out of all the love interests, he and Callie popped with the most chemistry. The shared quest, the rides on the motorcycle, pictures at the beach, his great college advice. Their fight at her prom was so left-field and upsetting, and we know it’s because they wanted Callie to be single when the series ended so she could be free to date in Good Trouble. If I’m not mistaken, theirs is the first trans/cis relationship portrayed on network television... ever? And I mean a relationship, not a hook up.

Wyatt. Another sweetheart, what happened between him and Callie wasn’t really about him, it was about her and it was definitely about legal issues, and she was right to set her boundaries, but ouch that hurt. Gorgeous hair.

Notice how most of this list either dated Callie or crushed on her lmao except for Mat. Also

Rita. The woman lives and breathes childcare and youth advocacy. Let her win.

DAPHNE KEENE. She had her daughter with her in the series finale but I haven’t heard mention of her yet in Good Trouble, she’d better have custody and a job salary over 70k for what this show put her through.

EMMA. This poor girl was practically torn in two between the twins, from Jesus’ messy/horny ass to Mariana’s bossy controlling ass. She should be president.

a ship I’ve never been able to get into:

Most of Jesus’ relationships. He’s a fuck up so all of them are basically waiting for a train wreck. His most healthy one was with Emma, who was too good for him, and the one with most chemistry was with Lexi, but she was messy af too so that wasn’t going to work.

a ship I’ve never been able to get over:

Jude/Connor. It sailed and sunk in two minutes. So apparently, Jude/Connor have the youngest LGBT kiss shown on television. This show really made history, huh. They were adorable, they literally struggled to be a couple (since Connor’s dad is homophobic) and then after being a couple for like 2 episodes, Connor’s dad walking in on them kissing and basically blowing up was so traumatizing for the kid that he moved in with his mom in LA to get away from him. They try to do the long distance thing but they're middle schoolers... and it’s their first relationship each... and both of them are just now figuring out that they’re gay. it doesn’t work out. Would love for Connor to come back in Good Trouble and try to woo Jude or something (cuz Jude...???? he’s just FUCKING... ALL the time. Like one second he’s the adorable 12-year-old you just want to shield from the world, and then it’s like TIME SKIP, he’s a college frat boy now and he fucks “straight” boys every weekend).

a cute, low-key ship:

Lol this show didn’t do low-key ships, everything was loud.

an unpopular ship but I still enjoyed it:

Stef/Lena; because they’re the main couple on the show and yet we as the audience forget that they’re even an option as an OTP. These two are marriage goals. They fight, they argue, they have conflicting viewpoints, but they always sit down and talk at the end of the day, and they pull it together because of their love for the kids and each other. I live for them, I seriously wanted them to adopt me. I’d cook for the family so they would be an ounce less stressed. They’re such great moms and they try SO hard to be there for the kids, who each come with truckloads of baggage and problems all befitting network TV teen drama protagonists.

a ship that was totally wrong and never should have happened:

BRALLIE. They’re SIBLINGSSSS AHHHH. “But they’re foster siblings” I DON’T CARE. This is not a damn Victorian novel, it’s gross. Maybe in season 1 it wasn’t as bad since Callie had zero intentions of staying with the Adams-Fosters family and was used to being bounced around in foster care, but after bonding with them all and truly believing they wanted her, season 2 onward Brallie disgusts me.

Mariana/Nick. Let’s talk about his actor for a second. Louis Hunter played a teenager in The Secret Circle back in 2011 (don’t @ me but I loved that show) and guess what, friends, he was TOO FUCKING OLD to play a teenager THEN. That opinion stands 7 years later. An absolute creep who traumatized Mariana, the girl had to go to THERAPY. She went to THERAPY because of him.

Lena/Monte. UGHHHHHHHHh this made me so mad. Monte was being so gross and inappropriate, like not only is Lena her employee/subordinate... but Lena is a WOMAN. She’s grown as hell and confident in her identity and has a whole ass wife (a WIFE) and a family to take care of, and here comes Monte with her weird ass flirtations and stuff. She could NEVER. Lena is a goddess and Monte but an ant crawling on the sidewalk outside her temple.

my favourite storyline/moment:

When Stef confronted her internalized homophobia and misogyny during his breast cancer scare and she cut her hair to symbolize her ownership of her femininity. That was POWERFUL. Stef actually had so many great emotional arcs throughout the show; losing her father (who never really “got” her “lesbianism”), her mother’s breast cancer scare, HER breast cancer scare, her fight to become a detective, maybe it’s Teri Polo but Stef is such a stand-up, rigid character with such a strong moral center that watching her trudge through emotional trauma every gd episode was riveting.

Jude’s selective mutism. I remember this out of nowhere, but Jude went mute?? And he had to see a therapist, who deduced his problem and attributed it to an anxiety disorder and advised the family not to stress him out or pressure him to talk, and he went like this for a couple episodes. Like this boy went through so much trauma that it took like one thing, one little thing, to make him shut down. And Callie like patiently waiting for him to speak, and then her seeing her rapist and the only person she wanted to talk to about it was her little brother and he still wouldn’t talk, he just sits there playing video games, and she sends him a message on Xbox Live saying ‘Please talk to me’ and he ignores it then she sends another message “I saw Liam today” and he just looks at her as tears are falling down her face and places his hand on her arm in support. I. CRIED. Even after that moment, like in the next episode he’s still mute and Callie reminds him again that he’s been so strong compared to her that he’s “due for a breakdown” and not to feel any pressure to talk before he’s ready, and they fucking plant flowers together for Lena (I’m covering my mouth with one hand to keep from crying, I’m getting old feels. Remember when we used to say ‘feels’?). Ok I’m done.

Ok the storyline where Brandon is caught cheating for people on the SATs and won’t be able to go to Juilliard was POWERFUL. I loved that Brandon and Lena had a lot of bonding moments, and Lena was honest with Brandon in a way no one else was, she was like these are the consequences of your actions. You had decisions to make and you made the bad decisions every time, and now you’re here. Remember when you selling fake IDs for that dealer ended with your hand getting smashed so you can’t play classical music any more? Did you learn from that? Clearly not. POWERFUL. Lena scalped me on that day.

a storyline that never should have been written:

Most of Brandon’s storylines lmao. Him selling the fake IDs, him taking SATs for other students, him dating that 21+ woman with a kid and deciding he has to drop out of school and get a full time job to take care of her??? I love how Stef had to pull him aside and tell him “You’re Captain Save-A-Ho! And I know this because you got your Save-A-Ho gene from me!!” Brandon was MESSY. Despite being the typically “boring” of the kids in that he didn’t party or drink, he had interest in typical teen stuff, he was also impulsive in the worst way with his relationships and would get tunnel vision. Remember when Stef and Lena had to pull a restraining on Brandon for Callie??? My godddddd, a MESS. We’re not going to talk about how he finally fell in love with the right girl and she fucking dies.

BRALLIE. That bit where Callie didn’t think she was getting adopted so she FUCKS BRANDON, I’M NOT OVER IT. AHHHH.

Jude becoming a pothead. It was really dumb. I’d have been happier if the focus was on his anxiety and how it helped him.

Everything Monte related.

The time Jude downloaded Grindr and met up with a guy in his motel room?? And the guy was a grown man?? And of course he freaks out because Jude is a kid and tells him to gtfo??? That made me SOOOOO uncomfortable, which is why I hated it. BUT, I liked how the moms handled it, because obviously he’s a boy who’s curious and he’s surrounded by other kids—especially his four siblings with their tumultuous whirlwind of relationships—who are constantly making out with this person and hooking up with that person, and because he’s gay... and has this limited dating pool... and his first love moved to another fucking city to escape his homophobic dad... how does he get to explore his sexuality? who does he get to kiss at a party? This was so relatable, so many lgbtqa youth deal with this everyday, this sort of social pressure and FOMO as the cis straight kids around us are hitting all these romantic and sexual milestones while we’re sitting on an island. And obviously Stef and Lena sympathize, but then empathize how incredibly dangerous it was because Jude could’ve gotten hurt, there are guys out there who could do terrible things to him and he has to think these things through, not to mention the guy in question could’ve been just a normal dude trying to get it on and that he was put in danger—and this was the same season that explores how Jesus and Mariana’s birth father ended up on the sex offenders’ registry. It was handled well but remembering this storyline gives me anxiety.

The Jack storyline. I forgot this kid’s name and what happened to him so I had to peruse the wiki and I fell down a rabbit hole. Basically, this is a kid who was in a privatized group home, during a season in which Callie does volunteer work with a woman, Justina Marks, who is trying to pass a bill to reform child social services—only to discover that she wants to privatized the foster system to make money off of them, which of course makes Callie like do a BUNCH of risky stupid shit to take her down. So Jack gets temporarily moved into the Adams-Fosters home, proving to be a very quirky, quiet, sensitive boy, he kisses Jude after Jude’s breakup with Connor? Then reveals he’s not actually gay, he just wanted Jude to be happy? And it’s really fucking sad because he has this bleeding heart and this need to make everyone around him happy because he sees himself as this burden. Then he gets placed into a new foster home, despite Stef and Lena wanting to keep him around... and he gets put in the same foster home with the same man who abused Jude in the show’s pilot—and like the inciting incident for the show itself (Callie destroying his car to distract him from beating her brother > her going to juvie > her getting beat up in juvie > Lena seeing this poor bruised up girl and thinking “she’s my daughter now”). So Jack ends up being fostered by the horrible, abusive man who should never have been allowed to be within feet of a child again, and Stef just so happens to be one of the officers nearby when a domestic disturbance is called in, and when she arrives at the house with her partner she’s like “bruh I know this house” and when she goes into the kitchen she steps on something: a pair of glasses. Whose glasses???

JACK’S. And she quietly lays a sheet over his dead body. His foster father, who’d already been arrested once for beating Jude, shot him in a drunken rage. And CALLIE LATER FINDS OUT JuSTINA MARKS SET IT UP TO USE AS HER FACE CASE IN SUPPORT OF HER BILL.

my first thoughts on the show:

Literally the first time I heard the theme song when I randomly decided to watch it on Netflix in like 2014 (2015? I can’t remember, I don’t think season 3 was out at that point so it might’ve been 2014) I was like oh this is going to be the crying show.

my thoughts now:

I was right. I would not rewatch this show lmao, but I’m fond of it. I did randomly decide to start watching Good Trouble and surprisingly I like it and I missed the characters. I can look back and appreciate how this show handled a lot of tender topics as tastefully as they could, and examine them from a lot of different angles.

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[nekoabi]

Tea Break

So, I was without power or wifi for an hour or so while my dad sorted out some stuff in my bedroom and I was looking at some old fics from old fandoms. I found one that really sparked an interest in me and I wanted to re-write it for Sanders Sides. And here it is!

Pairings: Platonic Royality, maybe romantic Royality if you squint real hard. Words: 970 Warnings: Food mention. Anything else, please let me know!

Summary: Patton’s finished school for the day and returns to his room. He finds his roommate having some difficulties and tries to help.

The sun was beginning to set, leaving the sky a beautiful mural of oranges and blues as Patton returned to his dorm room. For what was his busiest and most stressful day of the week, Patton found that the day had been rather enjoyable, but he that didn’t mean he wasn’t really looking forward to having a few relaxing hours back in his room. He did have a few pieces of homework to get started with, but he could do that a little later.

Patton unlocked the door to his room, humming a simple tune as he made his way over to his bed. As he crossed the room, he noticed that his roommate was hunched over their desk. He put his bag down and approached the other boy. Patton peered over his roommate’s shoulder to see him working on some homework and looking extremely frustrated.

“Hey Ro, everything okay?”

Roman jumped and spun around to face Patton with a yelp. After taking a moment to compose himself, Roman smiled, “Yes, everything’s fine. Just trying to get this work done, but I just… can’t seem to get it, y’know?”

Patton reached for the stapled pieces of paper and flicked through each of them, seeing how much his roommate had completed. It only took a couple of pages for him to realise something. “Wait a sec!” He threw the paper back onto Roman’s desk and headed over to his bag, beginning to search around inside.

“What are you doing?” Roman asked, leaning far back on his chair in order to see what Patton was looking for. Suddenly, some new paper was shoved against his face as Patton held out what he was looking for. It was quickly retracted.

“Oh, sorry! Didn’t mean to do that!” Patton giggled as he tossed the paper in his hand onto Roman’s desk before heading towards his own. He was pulling his own chair over when he looked back over to see his roommate flicking through the paper.

It was only once Patton had pulled up the chair to the desk and sat down that Roman looked up at him, “We have the same homework?”

“Yup!” Patton grinned, kicking his legs back and forth excitedly.

Roman’s face split into a wide grin, “Perfect! Let’s get this done, shall we?” Patton nodded vigorously and pulled the chair even closer.

For the next two hours, both of the boys worked on their combined homework. It only took one of those hours for Patton to be finished, which was when he then turned his attention to trying to help his roommate. It didn’t take long for Roman to get frustrated once again, but this time he was adamant on giving up for the night.

“This is just utterly stupid! Why do I even need this? I’m never ever going to use this ever in my life, so why even bother with all this?!” Roman ranted, arms flailing around wildly as he paced back and forth around the room. He was so deep into his own thoughts that he didn’t notice Patton had gotten up from his chair until the boy was heading towards the door, wallet in hand.

“And where are you going? Breaking curfew to see those friends of yours again?” Roman placed his hands on his hips, pouting at his roommates retreating back.

Patton said nothing, instead throwing a wide smile back towards Roman before heading out of the room. The boy that was left alone in his room stood there with his eyes on the door for a few minutes before beginning to pace again. He muttered under his breath, threw glares towards the homework and almost got the point of attempting to rip his hair out before he groaned loudly and fell on his bed, face first. Roman didn’t move from that spot for a while, content in wallowing in his frustration and self-pity.

The sound of the door opening caught the boy’s attention and got him to raise his head. Roman was suddenly intrigued once he saw Patton putting down a non-descript brown paper bag on the desk, beside his abandoned homework. Roman moved to sit up, which caught Patton’s attention and they both shared a look.

“I bought tea and some small cupcakes!” Patton smiled warmly, moving to put his wallet down on his own desk.

Roman stood up and was slightly lost for words, “Uh… um, thanks Patton. You, really didn’t have to…”

“It’s no problem! I wanted to!” Patton sat back down on his unmoved desk chair, crossing his legs this time. His hands came to rest in the centre of them, making him look a lot younger than he was, “I felt bad that you were so frustrated about all this, Roman. Tea and cupcakes are always the answer!”

Both of the boys laughed as Roman joined Patton at the desk. He waited patiently as Patton dug into the bag before handing him one of the paper cups. Roman took a couple of sips, finding he was pleasantly surprised by the taste, “Pretty good, Pat. I didn’t think you knew how I liked my tea.”

Patton scoffed jokingly, “Of course I know!” He placed a few smaller cupcakes on the table, “These are called Fairy Cakes according to Lo, aren’t they just so cute?!”

Roman chuckled and picked one up, looking it over, “They’re adorable.”

They drank a good amount of their tea and ate all the small fairy cakes, chatting amicably the whole time. Eventually, Patton stood in order to move all the trash into the bin on the other side of the room. When he returned, he smiled at Roman, “We should probably get back to your homework.”

“Ughhhhhhhhh!” Roman groaned exaggeratedly, throwing his head backwards to look up at the ceiling, “Can’t I just copy your answers?”

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