#unsure of way to do

[wren-kitchens]

im annoyed and a little pedantic so can i just say as a blanket statement

queerbaiting is when the promotion for a FICTIONAL STORY intentionally hints towards two characters having a romantic relationship, without any intention to follow through in the show, in order to get queer people watching without discouraging the homophobic enjoyers of the show

queerbaiting is NOT:

a celebrity who you think is queer because theyre gnc or they have a 'vibe'. that is a real person and they cannot queerbait

two friends of the same gender pretending to flirt with each other for fun. those are real people and they cannot queerbait

a show with two characters of the same gender who are canonically friends that YOU PERSONALLY think would be better in a relationship. that's not bating, that's shipping, and subject to opinion

there are more but those are the main examples of people misunderstanding what queerbaiting is and being mad at something that isn't actually a problem

[missp4st3lmonster]

December 7th 2022-3:30 AM

I cannot find it in me to sleep.

This will not be my typical blogpost but rather a ramble to get things off my mind- journaling.

A series of things happened tonight that overwhelmed me and I will not go into them until I feel like it to not stir it up in my mind again.

I’m typing this from my phone because our wifi is not working. I would rather use my laptop.

I want to start working towards a better me and better habits.

Drinking lots of water

Getting exercise

Doing all school work early not procrastinating

Being social

Checking in on loved ones

Self love

Skin care regularly

Plenty of sleep

Working on my own goals

Remembering to tell those I love that I love them

Reading

Listening to audio book versions of the Bible—oddly calming for me, maybe because of my childhood?

I find myself worrying for my boyfriend. He got drunk and vented to his friends in a server I too am in about some things that really hurt him. I didn’t know what to say since it involved something I knew little to nothing of. I want to offer support but know it won’t be much use.

I rely on words of affirmation more than I would like, he messages me, but I wish he did more. I wish he was actively interested in me. He loves me I do not doubt it, it just isn’t expressed how I want no matter how unhealthy. I know it’s a personal issue but I project it.

I love my family but only two days into winter break and I want time away from them.

I want my ideal body now but I know it will take time to achieve.

I want to be happy always.

I want to learn more piano.

I miss staying the night with my boyfriend, it feels almost lonely in my bed.

I wish my college advisor would respond to my email so I could sort out this next years schedule.

I Hope I can be a good RA and be a good support system.

I want to talk future with my boyfriend of technically over a year now (it’s complicated) but can’t bring it up without feeling awkward. He wants to move states but I plan to attend law school. He graduates in a little over a year. I just don’t want us to consider this long term if things won’t work out.

I wish we Facetime or called

I feel so lonely when I’m not with someone and it aches.

I should be writing positive things to encourage positive thoughts but I would be lying if these things weren’t on my mind.

While I want to live my life as if I was currently the person I want to be, I find myself Al to often laying around as it is more comfy.

Everything is starting to bore me, games, tv, YouTube, social media, etc. it’s irritating. It’s like I can’t ever be comfortable.

I want to balance caring for others and myself but it is difficult.

My room is a mess since I still have some things I have not unpacked from college. I want it clean but with limited storage it’s a difficult feat. I don’t want to become complacent like my mother. She is wonderful in many ways but things like this is not one of them.

My family depends on me so much it’s stressful.

Here I sit hunched over in a chair typing this and all I can think of is how I’m ruining my posture or how I could be sleeping right now. I want to cry but can’t find it in me to somehow. I have all I need yet I am not satisfied. Not in a “I need more” way, but rather a “this is too good to be true so I must be missing something” way. I feel like any second something could go terrible. I wish I had a job for my own personal income. Unfortunately no one wants to hire someone just for the month of December.

I need to find ways to encourage me to focus on my studies this next semester and enjoy them. I’ve lost a passion for learning. It’s a shame really.

I wish music would stop playing in my head, some silence for once would be nice. Just me, my bed, and the sound of my fan. All in a cold room under a warm blanket.

If it wasn’t almost 4 AM I would shower, but I need to wake up around 8 AM. I need to get my car looked at after I hydroplaned and spun off the road last week.

I want to listen to something to fall asleep but earbuds are irritating me at the moment.

It’s like tonight I have found discomfort in everything. I am grateful for many things though. I am abundantly lucky. I am extremely fortunate in many ways for my life, my living conditions, and much more. So why does my mind still find a way to feel miserable.

I guess this devolved into a vent journal. No shame in that from time to time I guess. I hope that this is an uncommon thing. It would be depressing otherwise. Maybe some people are just stuck being unhappy people? But I am happy…just not always, like right now. If I could, I would just have a frowned upon lifestyle of sleeping till I feel like getting up, doing what I feel like that day, going back to bed, and repeat. But I want to be more than that. I want to be successful and financially stable and able to help others especially those who have helped me.

I’m starting to finally get sleepy. Love you all. Really. Even people who don’t read this. The universe. I love y’all. For doing what you do on a daily basis. Even if what you do is “nothing”. I love y’all for continuing to go each day. Continuing to wake up. We are all different though some similar. And I love that. The fact that some people are capable of things others aren’t. I love knowing that there are so many people out there with varying potential in varying things. I want to say more but I really may fall asleep in my chair at this rate

With love,

Miss PastelMonster

[seventh-district]

Making Incorrect H:SR Quotes Until I Run Out of (hopefully) Original Ideas - Pt. 4 - Nuthin' but Boothill Edition

[Pt. 1] [Pt. 2] [Pt. 3] [Pt. 5] [Pt. 6]

[woiwais]

Luffy week: Day 1 & 2 | Smile and favorite outfit :]

[ladyhavilliard]

mo dao zu shi tarot

the hanged man:  pause, surrender, letting go, new perspectives

wheel of fortune | jin guangyao

death | wei wuxian

the tower | jiang cheng

[fireyartccoon]

ok so I might’ve forgotten to get something ready for Wednesday BUT-

you can have Nine and Chaos Sonic from my Sonic Prime AU being siblings instead

[nosfelixculpa]

press triangle to let prompto slay

[wigglebox]

Suptober [Extended] - Day 24 || Smoke

[the-worms-in-your-bones]

Having a normal time (debating on whether or not time lords can be classified as mammals)

[crustyfloor]

i think about this part often maybe a bit too much

[disruptivevoib]

I cannot make promises.

But this is to gauge interest on shirts like the above as a possibility.

Also feel free to suggest pieces you'd think would be nice on a shirt. Or whichever one is your favorite of the four I slapped on a shirt above. No promises on the shirt color itself lol

Or shirts in general.

[solargeist]

for over a week now i keep thinking abt grian and kid xelqua. something abt him taking care of this alternate universe child version of himself. i just stare at the ceiling and my eyes blur

[dippersguidetotheunexplained]

theres something specifically fucked to me about bills possession being linked to meditation when its implied that that was one of fords go to ways to cope with stress. like i just keep thinking of him post betrayal in the worst state of his life and he cant even do the thing hes been doing for years to calm himself down bc apparently thats been putting him in danger this whole time too

[onesidedradiostatic]

Personally, I think both Vox and Lucifer are hot as fuck. But as a chronically online iPad baby with a fondness for tv head people, I feel I have an obligation.

Now if we can look in-universe for a second and realize that Alastor is very likely not the ONLY sexy man in Hell, I feel like Vox is likely to have a few admirers he isn’t even aware of due to the difference in status. Or maybe he’s aware they exist but wouldn’t recognize them on the street unless they noticed him first and he Knew what their giggling and squealing and blushing faces meant. Lucifer, on the other hand, has been kind of a shut in due to depression. He has potential but isn’t there on account of sad boi. Meanwhile Vox has probably gone on TV doing some light fan service to boost his ratings. Nothing too far, nothing Val would suggest! But y’know, he did a cruise ship kinda outfit during Stayed Gone, implying there’s oceans in Hell and that implies beaches and it’s not like wearing nothing but a pair of swim trunks and some sandals would be out of place if he decided to do a beach-themed episode of anything…

I actually can't really say if I find either of them hot I'm just more attached to vox that's why I want him to win against lucifer. I have already spoken in favour of him though so I have to double down on defending the tv head thing (and anyways choosing the more normal head sounds boring. y'all are boring. we are on tumblr. sexymen are supposed to be weird and have a questionable aspect to them. I will keep saying it! idc how obsessed with ducks lucifer is he is too normal!!!)

ANYWAYS. vox having like. canon thirsters would not surprise me. he would thrive off having admirers but at the same time he wouldn't care about them because they're nothing special to him. but he thrives off attention so he enjoys it. I feel like he's on social media enough to at least be somewhat aware of it. he'd act smug about it but ultimately gotta be more of a freak to be his type. lucifer... I mean I'm sure there's some out there but most sinners seem to hate hell's royalty LMAO they're like so mean about charlie already. lucifer definitely isn't aware of his own fanbase at ALL he's been completely shut in and disconnected from the sinners. also vox doing fan service for views? I could kinda see that but also, he literally wears clothes under clothes in stayed gone... he may do it for ratings but at the same time I'd also see it as a result of a val-encouraged thing LMAOOO

[canisalbus]

How do you find pose references for all those gorgeous and cute and aaaaaaa drawings. H o w. Where. (<-from someone struggling to draw characters interacting)

(if you don't use references, take it as a compliment to your godly anatomy and posing skills)

I don't really use references for poses that much. I'm not sure how to explain this without sounding weird but when I'm about to draw something, I visualize it in my mind, and when it's character art I sort of see them as 3D models that can be posed and rotated. And I just sort of try to replicate that on paper, sometimes it's easy and sometimes it doesn't work out at all (a good reminder that when you browse someone's art, you usually only see the pieces that the artist is at least passably proud of, not the piles of failed projects that went nowhere).

[skeletoninthemelonland]

never lay down in bed right after eating. don't think about staying on your phone for nearly two hours in that position. don't sleep either. acid reflux is real and i hate that guy