#wedding weight lose

[rainyfestivalsweets]

Well.... working on a plan to lean out a little.

Shredding for the wedding style, I suppose.

All right:

NO ALCOHOL

If doing CBD, make sure you have an anti-snack or a safe snack plan. 😉

Gummies are candy, use them as dessert.

Tea & Coffee: always have one ready.

Water: 1 oz per pound of bodyweight. If you are bored, do a sparkling water!

If you want something sweet & cold: beverage on ice.

ABM- Always Be Moving

Walk whenever you can

Biking/Elliptical + Movies

Aromatherapy

Distraction methods

You can add ACV to drinks like water n tea

Fiber. Pectin.

Keep food basic, easy to grab n go.

Electrolytes

Greens supplement

Protein powders- I have a ton. Make a pudding or smoothie.

[cowboycunt]

the world with more fat trans representation

[brunchbitch]

In therapy today, I was talking about how some foods have such an association from my childhood as being *bad* foods and it’s so incredibly frustrating. Specific food mentions and associated negative stigmas under the cut.

For example, I LOVE microwave popcorn. It was one of my favorite after school snacks, but obviously the smell lingers. My parents would get home, smell it, and say “again? Really? Popcorn isn’t good for you. Can’t you just have cut up fruit instead?” Now almost every time I make it and smell it, I’m reminded of that judgment my parents put on it.

Another one was one time when I was a teen and my ED was already “out”, I begged my mom to order dominos for dinner bc she wasn’t sure what to make. I ate too much, and purged. I admitted it to her the next day. She asked “was it the dominos?” in a condescending tone and I just internally rolled my eyes. Like cool now we’re never gonna eat dominos again. I mentioned both of these to L and we both rolled our eyes so hard and laughed. Like it’s sad but also ridiculous. Food isn’t inherently bad!! I admitted that on St. Patricks day we had been day drinking and I got a big salad at like 4pm so I wasn’t hungry for a whole meal for dinner. So I ate almost an entire bag of chips 🤦‍♀️ and NOT a single serving bag, like a big fucking bag. Felt like such shit afterwards. L was like “as much as I love sour cream and onion chips, I’m sure if you checked in with your body, there was probably a point where it would have said ok, I think I’ve had enough, these aren’t as good as the first few bites.” But when I’m tipsy or high, it’s like I’m completely out of touch with my body. I’m not being ~mindful~ when I’m eating.

It just makes me sad that these memories have tainted some food for me.

[johndonneswife]

[tanjir0se]

I love Naruto so so much (unfortunately) (it sucks so good) but we’re in the last season now so it’s pretty much 99% filler and we got to the episode where they inexplicably have to …fight evil ninja chefs and make them ramen as ransom for the ramen chef’s daughter, who they kidnapped?? Having a great time because that concept is absolutely ridiculous and it’s just funny until the big punch line at the end where he gets his daughter back , but the joke is she’s been eating ramen all this time and is “fat” now.

I put fat in quotes because she really wasn’t drawn fat, like really more midsize than anything. She looked like me, honestly. She looked like me. But when they did the “big reveal” they literally played pig oinking noises over it and Naruto and the girl’s dad are horrified and almost puked when they saw her. Which was. Wow. Her, that looked like me. It was maybe probably the most fucked up fat joke I’ve ever seen , certainly in a kids show. Turned on Naruto to have a good time and it felt so personal lol (I also have the same hair color as the character which didn’t help).

It’s funny because I was literally Just Telling Cam with all my High Honesty that I’ve been fighting my ED making a comeback and have felt the urge to purge lately and how it sucks, how growing up in the early 2000s even thin celebrities were called fat and it had a big effect on my self esteem. So imagine my High Shock when THAT was the punchline of the episode. Oof. Lol

[ashotofogdensoldfirewhiskey]

So I got one (1!!!!!) wisdom tooth extracted last week and it has been the most nightmarish experience and I’m taking to tumblr. Post extraction I developed some weirdo infection in the muscles around my jaw (da fuck?!?!) and was subsequently unable to open my mouth at all. I have barely been able to eat, and have grasped at brief interludes of sleep from a seated position for over a week between bouts of pain. I’m going insane.

I can’t survive on naps and mashed potatoes for one more day, but today I got to go have a SECOND surgery to clear out the infection and now I’m sitting here in fresh new different pain still unable to eat or sleep or live with no end in sight. In short: I am utterly miserable.

The only thing keeping me going is the brief moments of joy I get from reading peoples amazing fanfiction. Thanks for keeping a miserable chipmunk going.

[graciebaberams]

Honestly if I don’t get a job before I move home, I’m just gonna focus on weight loss cause I gotta look good for Gracie and eras 😭

[sampilled]

paper bag by fiona apple playing while I'm in urban outfitters <333 trying and failing to find a cute dress that will fit me <33333 they really want me to kill myself :)

[spitefulfitness]

Forgot to post this yesterday but I managed to get out yesterday! We had a cold snap where it was super icy and snowed but it warmed up enough to warrant getting back to running!

I didn't go as far, but I did make it out. I'm slowly running more than power walking and it's showing through my run times! I started out with a whopping 17:00 pace and I'm a little less than 16:00 now!

Maybe by May I could run continuously for 20 minutes! That'd be neat!

Weighed myself this morning and I'm down roughly a pound, so my hard work is paying off!

Sw: 187.6

Cw: 186.2

[314]

must... resist... urge to eat EVERYTHING sweet.

[rainyfestivalsweets]

8/24/24

It was a good day...until the wedding reception.

I shouldn't have eaten any of the desserts. Tasted, yes. But once I realized I didn't like them I should have stopped.

I continued eating to stay bus because I was uncomfortable, which was silly. And a habit I knew but didn't really KNOW, you know?

But I saw The Crow!

And didn't get movie snacks!!

And I turned down ice cream afterwards.

So it was really the only low part of an otherwise busy day

[inaracewithmyself]

Any wedding pics yet?? So excited to see what dress style you went with because I love your every day style!

Omg you’re so sweet! We just got a couple sneak peeks back from the photographer. Can’t wait to get them all!! I loved my dress so much. So fun to dance in and just the right amount of bling!

[vitamingummybear]

hi again ana tumblr.

i'm disappointed again and i'm having fear of weighing myself for two weeks now.

[crykea]

I am venting in the tags about Disordered Eating this is a heads up 👍

[highpriestessofchildsacrifice]

Nothing 2 ruin my chill flirty fun vibe than my coworkers obsessively talking about losing weight for their family member's wedding and how their hot friend is at 130 lbs smxbmxb. Like this is the greatest test of my strength rn

[onmywaytobe]

I just did something I swore I’d never do, which is order a dress one size too small so that I’d have motivation to lose weight

I hate myself lol