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felidaefatigue · 1 year

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Hey just a reminder for any young artists who might see this

do not do unpaid art labour for corporations or any formal body do not apply to competitions where the winner will get the art job and win prize money but the company gets to have rights to advertise with any and all submissions

do not.

ask to be paid by companies. always. no matter how good the cause.

#brought to you by i messaged a good initiative doing an art competitions being like hey this isnt a great practice #and their response was well weve paid any artists whose asked to be paid #which...... im sorry thats not.... really good enough #if youre engaging in social justice and mutual aid you should not be willingly turning a blind eye to exploitation #which is what that is #you are getting THOUSANDS of dollars of free labour and content in these kinds of things #often from vulnerable artists who dont know better #like listeb i give away my work for free a lot #i know theres desire to do that #but it should NEVER be intentionally perpetuated in a formal setting

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way2gosuperrstarr · 1 month

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watch my body disintegrate into a pile of ash like a cartoon character who just got struck by a lightning bolt (JOINT PAIN JOINT PAIN JOINT PAIN JOINT PAIN) (just got off work)

#salmon jibberish #god you horribly wipe out on your bike and injure yourself ONE TIME in middle school and suddenly youre inflicted with lifelong knee/joint a #d leg pain 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄#worm lore drop 🔥🔥🔥#can you really call it lore its nothing crazy #i was riding my bike w my friend and their mom and we were on a steep hill and i got scared and braked and flew off my bike and down #the hill #i got to miss like i think a week or two of gym because the scab on my knee was so big i literally couldnt bend it #it'd melt off every time i took a shower too #<- that was probably kinda gross sorry #scabs on both my knees #one was bigger and made my knee unable to bend #and one on the palm of one of my hands that made me unable to bend my thumb #we didnt go to the doctor or anything for it i just didnt do anything for like a week lol #afterward one of my other friends said my knees look weird 💀#<- not mad abt that i just think its funny #me when i yap in the tags #sorry gang #and of course i got myself a job that requires genuinely running around all day #my legs have given out twice at work and thats what finally pushed me to get a knee brace #just one for now bcs . expensive . i just gotta guess which leg o think is gonna give me the most trouble that day #idk i just tend to deny myself help . i dont think i deserve it . i really only got pushed for this bcs i didnt want to get obliterated by a #dog at work if my knee gave out 1) while walking a dog or 2) while in the daycare in a crowd of dogs #idk i dont like making my own life easier i dont think i deserve it . i dont think im suffering enough to need help but yk #ANYWAY #good news is we have ROTISSERIE CHICKEN FIR DINNER LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO #IM GONNA DRAW NOW 💥💥🔥🔥🔥

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puppyeared · 1 year

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ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

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shreddits-less-popular-opinions · 2 months

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Real pretentious for rusties to call themselves burgundy…you don’t see any other caste arguing about what they’re called :////

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#YKNOW YEAH YOU DO ACTUALLY }:0(#RUSTBLOODS A SLUR FOR US BRONZE AND BURGUNDIES }:0|#PEOPLE FORGET THAT }:0|#ALSO YOU DO SEE OTHER CASTES ARGUING ABOUT WHAT THEYRE CALLED }:07 #LIKE CALLING INDIGOS OR CERULEANS BLUE }:0|#IVE SEEN A LOT OF DEBATE OVER WHICH ONE IS CALLED THE BLUE CASTE }:0|#EVEN THOUGH ITS A TITLE FOR BOTH }:0|#ITS ACTUALLY PRETTY MUCH THE SAME SITUATION AS BRONZE AND BURGUNDIES WITH ''RUST'' BLOOD }:0(#EXCEPT BLUE ISNT OFFENSIVE }:0(#IVE SEEN CERULEANS GET CULLED FOR CALLING THEMSELVES HIGHBLOODS THOUGH }:0|#LIKE NOTHING WRONG WITH THEM EXCEPT THAT }:0|#AS IF A MISCONCEPTION OR DIFFERENCE OF OPINION IS A GOOD ENOUGH REASON TO SEVER THEIR FILIAL LINE }`:0(#EVEN THEN YOU HAVE THE OLD DEBATE ABOUT MUSTARD OR GOLD }:07 #WHAT YOU JUST SAID IS LIKE SAYIN' “REAL PRETENTIOUS FOR THE P%%%BLOODS TO CALL THEMSELVES MUSTARDS” }:0|#IM SORRY BY THE WAY GOLD FRIENDS }:0(#BUT MY POINT IS LIKE THATS JUST A SLUR }:0|#THE SLUR IS A SLUR AND ITS GONNA PROBABLY STAY THAT WAY TILL IT GETS SO RECLAIMED PEOPLE FORGET IT USED TO BE A SLUR }:0|#AND BURGUNDIES HAVE THE SHORTEST LIVES OF US WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE MEAN TO THEM DURING IT }:07 #YOU REALLY GOTTA STOP CALLIN THEM THAT BUDDY }:0|#IVE BEEN CALLED RUSTIE TONS OF TIMES AND I STILL DONT FEEL SUPER COMFORTABLE SAYING IT CAUSE I KNOW ITS MOSTLY A SLUR USED FOR MAROONS }:0[#LOWEST POINT ON THE HEMOSPECTRUM AND THE SHORTEST LIFE AND YOU GOTTA BE A BULGE TO THEM }:0?#THIS REALLY WAS ONE OF THE }:0[#SHIT TAKES }:0)

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turtlespancake · 2 months

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me when i write a character who is prone to dooming themself and then they run off and doom themself. core traits are stubbornness and a willingness to disregard their own humanity gET BACK HERE IM NOT DONE WITH YOU

#rambling #surprisingly this is not about jakob.. im just really consistent about my favorite character archetypes 😭😭#WARNING THE NOTES ON THIS ARE REALLY LONG I STARTED RAMBLING #“ouhh i have a headache i'll just lie down and rotate my blorbos in no general direction for a while until it goes away” and then boom.#serious plot considerations. 2 questions answered 24million new questions raised. this is specifically Not what i asked for.#so now im sitting here STILL dizzy running mental calculations on how i can get this bitch out of peril without reworking everything #but they literally keep dying in every timeline 😭😭 every single plausible road leads to them running off and screwing themself over #“character who doesn't realize they want to live until it's way too late to look back” VS #“character who is forced to live and handle the things they never though they'd survive long enough to deal with” FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.#fucking hell i have never had this much trouble writing a character as i have with them #they genuinely do just run off and do shit without my permission and then i have to pace for an hour or two wondering #“ok they wOULD do that. but should they. do i feel like i can confidently write that.”#im like constantly in this tug of war trying to get them to CHILL #but also they are absolutely my favorite character from the entire project. but like. FUCK GET BACK HERE #is death the most satisfying end to this arc? is someone who was Set on dying then NOT dying the most satisfying end to the arc?#how many bridges can you burn until you irreparably set yourself aflame too?#would ghost or revival plotline work?? would it make sense with the worldbuilding??#do i just Like Them enough to want them to not die?? where do i draw the line between personal bias and a good arc?#is death not feeling as impactful as survival solely because i've been writing for so long that it's lost the initial impact?#and other such plot considerations...#im gonna have such an easy time writing another character though 😭😭 because THAT character's dynamic in the second act #is to stare at character 1 and be like “why are you like this. i mean i know Why but can you chill. please.” and like damn bro me too #actually wait no i think kaey.a is the hardest character i've ever written i take it back #had to worry about his 20million facades AND his Actual feelings AND canon compliance. shit is hard #i still havent finished the k/aeya fic i started back when the chasm first released which is uhh. two years ago. oops.#i think i struggle writing emotionally repressed liars i think thats what this is 😭😭 anyways.#(voice of guy who has been obsessed with nonlinear narratives and tragedies for several years):#“is it too much to kill this character in a nonlinear exploration game with tragic elements”#like bitch what are you talking about 😭😭 YOU'RE the target audience here figure it out #sorry the notes on this are just my writing journal now apparently

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boxwinebaddie · 4 months

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hi uncle nina! sorry if this is kinda overbearing, but you havent posted anything today so i just wanna check in and make sure youre doing okay! <3

oh my god, sweetheart!!! this is not overbearing AT ALL! this is extremely thoughtful and makes me feel extremely validated. <3

i'm sorry for causing concern, but ty for being concerned about me.

because the school year is coming to a close, things around me at work have been pretty intense, so i've been tossed around like a ragdoll the past week and haven't had much time to write as a result. i also haven't been sleeping very well and rush a lot in the mornings, so i've forgotten to take my mood stabilizer the past couple of days which makes me v sluggish, zombie-ish and unpleasant in general. :/

...when i am like that, as a weird way of sparing you, i suppose, i try not to post on here too much because it feels quite shitty indeed for you to get a notification for my blog just to watch me bitch n moan.

however, i have taken my medication today and feel bad for fumbling kyle week...as we know i'm not really good at holding myself accountable or making deadlines. oddly enough, it's not that i don't want to answer my questions, it's just that other than not being able to really find the time recently, i just can't find the right...words?

( this ask is long and irrelevant, but read if you wish. ilysm. )

or, rather, i don't feel knowledgeable enough the subjects to answer? specifically in the areas of my tsot/tfbw styles and ncuniverses, i feel a little insecure because i don't know sp or the games as well as many other people do, so i'm trying to speed watch episodes/watch speed runs of the games online so i can at least keep some canon intact?

i also am finding that creating and understanding how high fantasy universes work is...difficult? lmao? also because i did crazy stuff with mutations and science and politics in my tfbw ncuniverse, that's also complicated and out of my wheelhouse...tldr: i have big ideas, but i'm not very good at backing them in fact or doing analytical stuff.

but...iiiiii need to, lmao. mental illness, but if i make a universe it has to be fully realized, it has to all make as much sense as possible, echo the canon, enhance it, feel real and be fluid...so if i'm not around too much it's because i'm trying to bolster myself with my sp knowledge ( ik, i'm a fake fan ) and watch/read/research high fantasy concepts and superhero/scientific fiction/dystopian stuff...so if anyone has any recommendations for me to watch or learn from in those realms, i'd appreciate it. again, this is intense...but i care a lot about my craft.

and specifically crafting something worthy of all of you, that makes sense, lives and breathes, reflects the show we love & is interesting.

ANYWAYS!!!! with that said, i got a cool ask about whether or not i have a gunslinger kyle? which? not yet? BUT YOU'RE A GENIUS BABY I AM SOOOOO ON IT!!! please let me cook and watch some things because actually, oh my god, i am very down. i'll update you. i might make a board to gather ideas, omg, omg, it'll be SPICY.

i got an ask about princess kylie, which, bless you, i am also still developing her character, i am going to pour over the books, watch some GOT, do some mapping out, watch some intricate dnd play throughs...and have some answers for you very soon: hang on, baby.

( she's little, bitchy, prissy and does need to be babysat, i'm afraid. )

got some on jersey i'm excited about! sorry for writing that ask meme about the sour skittles like that, again, writing has been trying for me lately and i had a concept that i wanted to share but wasn't sure how to express that. if you guys are alright with getting my asks in the form of notes some times i would appreciate it! anyways, keep your eyes out for some of those...if kyle week runs into next week, sorry.

idk...this is so long. all this to say...i'm really sorry? i haven't been a very solid creator lately, but i'm a little unstable rn. but i am working on it and i hope to be back on the horse by tonight and share my notes at least and show you guys how my brain is working.

in the mean time, please direct as many questions as you would like in the direction of riley, teri and ana who not only are epic writers but have been an epic support system/helping me get back into things.

thank you for caring, thank you for reading...keeping up with this blog and the questions and creating constantly is sometimes challenging, but very rewarding. i promise that i am not neglecting my asks or all of you because i don't care, its actually because i care very much and only want to give you stuff that is awesome and cool and well researched. so, again, just give me a second to get my barings and while it kind of eats at my bad bpd brain i might try and share stuff with you guys that's half baked because the feedback might help.

tldr: i love you, this made no sense, i'm a mess, but i am fine.

miss you and love you. happy kyle week.

-uncle nina

#sorry this is such a mess #tldr i am busy and a little unstable and my writing has been blah but i'm very into intense world building rn #and i want to do more research and figure stuff out before i try to randomly dish out answers #but i'm thinking now that maybe i should just tell yall what i'm thinking and see how you feel? idk #i do work hard on my character stuff so i hope u enjoy it #but yeah high fantasy is specifically hard for me so i'm watchin movies and reading books and stuff which is dorky #accuracy means a lot to me and its the only way i get relaxed when i feel comfortable in my characters and worlds #political stuff and sciencey stuff is also hard #i also dont even know how accurate that is to the tfbw plotline in actual sp so im trying to watch the show and play #the games idk im worried none of this is canon enough #bc i dont want it to all be fart jokes and asisnine but i do want them to be accurate to the show at least a little #nina stop bastardizing the sp canon #otherwise i am excited to answer my kyle questions i promise i have just been frazzled ill try to do stuff tonight #thanks for sticking with me and i really hope this makes sense i feel like i sound crazy i just...want to do good work #thats all i dont like to do work that feels shitty or lazy and in order to not do that i take a while to think

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a-gaime · 3 months

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Every time I see bull red son an angel (me) loses it's wings (gets mildly annoyed)

#NOT TARGETED!!!!!#I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH #I HAVE NO ACTUALLY PROBLEM WITH IT!!!!!#okay now thats out of the way #i can ramble #it makes NO sense #his character in the book is one of the few who we get a in depth physical description of and there is ZERO mention of bull features #he looks incredibly human #which we can also use as a reference for what iron fan looks like but thats not relevant here #but lmk realistically takes very little from the actual book #so that doesn't really matter here #what DOES matter is the fact that IF red son had bull features hed never shut up about them #he idolises his father and for demon males less human traits are probably the beauty standard #the more i type the more i think that my train of thought is completely personalised #guys help i think about demon genetics to much i need to reconnect with life #does anyone want me to make a full demon genetis chart that pretty much entirely hinges on iron fan #OH YEAH IRON FAN #SHE WAS A CELESTIAL AND IN THE BOOK RED BOY LOOKS JUST LIKE HER YOU THINK THERE'S ANY ROOM GOR DBKS GENETICS #sighh this is all rakshasi PIF and rakshasa Red Son propergana at the end of the day #or rakshasi Red Son maybe but that would have to be explained in the genetics post #is there a tag limit #anyway tldr the removal of the samadhi fire probably took all the necessary hormones to get bull features #and PIF in the book (and as we can assume in the show) has genetics to strong to let bull features show otherwise #yeah that sums it up #lmk red son #lmk princess iron fan #lmk demon bull king #lmk demon bull family #sorry if literally any of this sounds passive aggressive ik its all in good fun im just a fan of the book

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cubedmango · 1 year

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thought id see some deep and thought-provoking discussions about the philosophical and moral questions posed in atsv but all im seeing is a whole bunch of "the whole spider society is evil and fucked up for trying to save the entire fabric of the multiverse even if they have to bear personal grief for it and miles is the only Good One" and man . expected too much from the 'spends 90% time and energy thirsting for scary big vampire guy' fandom huh

#sorry im just . kinda really mad abt takes im seeing (against my will but alas..... twt fyp and ao3 tag cursed as hell)#like ???? just not getting the nuance of the conflict in the movie at All . its not supposed to be one side wholly good one side wholly bad #taking ppl away from this movie for a second and sitting them in front of the trolley problem . baby steps so try to understand this first #NOT ABT MIGUELS METHODS BTW THEY WERE 100% FUCKED UP !!!! he went way too far thats not even up for debate #but more the mindset he was coming from which is still justified from his perspective like dude lost an entire World!! comprehend that !!!!#also ppl getting on gwens and peter bs and peni's cases abt 'betraying' miles like theyre doing smth insanely evil like bro..... enough #aauagghhgh psychic damage from bad takes is happening i need to stop reading these #ummnmnm . dunno if i should even post this idk maybe im the only one thinking too hard abt it #atsv spoilers #my post

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carcarrot · 4 months

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old man yells at cloud about constant sequels

#i wantttttt to like the beetlejuice sequel (just saw the trailer) and i don't want to be a hater. however #i dont knowwwww i mean theres a lot of callbacks to the original. which is good. its just #maybe its seeing some of these same effects done in cgi. or something #like it just looks like every other modern movie except w some of that beetlejuice imagery #im assuming the sandworms are cgi. bring back the claymationnnn bring back practical effectssss #idk im just really getting to hate the way movies nowadays look that are likely shot digitally and are just so subdued color wise #is any of this making sense.#like thinking of the original beetlejuice like whoa the colors were popping! greens reds purples!#and theyre so important and tied to the look of the movie and how it sticks in your mind #(im sorry. beetlejuice has always been one of my favorite movies. but anyway)#and now the sequel just looks ehhhh. you know #also we still should have had beetlejuice goes hawaiian instead. if we had to have a sequel #plus the story of the sequel seems so dependent on the story of the first movie like is there going to be anything original?#what made the first movie so good was not only was it a fun different storyline of these ghosts and everything #but it was also a good satire of the yuppies of that era as well as the idea of the afterlife and ghosts and all that. which was different!#im probably not making all of my points clearly and this doesnt really matter anyway but anyway #i need movies to be standalone movies. i dont want everything to be part of a series #i dont want beetlejuice to be called beetlejuice 1 #bc then ill be saying 'back in my day we had only one beetlejuice'#LIKE. yes some movies are really good and you could watch a whole tv show more with the characters in that movie #but it doesnt actually have to be made. thats for you to imagine in your mind #like wow i love those characters in beetlejuice. i wonder what it would be like going forward for these people to live with ghosts #but thats for you and your imagination!!!! ugh i dont know is any of this making sense i ask again. i keep trying to wrap up this post #but im very passionate about films and as i think about my own main movie idea/screenplay #i love my characters and i could put them in dozens of scenarios that would be very funny for them to deal with #but i dont think they need a five film series. the one movie is enough for the main storyline #ok im going to eat something. enough bitching from me about the current state of film

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marklikely · 2 years

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the framing of the critic character in the menu really pissed me off bc no offense but if i was paying 12k for a meal and you served me a broken emulsification id comment on it too

#man. she was engaging in good faith with the art of the meal the entire time and the movie is just like. lol isn't she sooo pretentious #isnt it so pretentious to engage with high art and try to read into the artistry of it. just eat a cheeseburger #god that movie thematically was so stupid.#avpost #i have watched enough food network to know that not breaking a sauce is like #its not easy but its a basic skill that a professional chef is expected to have. and youre charging thousands for this #within your own metaphor its like you can't get pissy when a critic notices your very rookie mistakes #that frankly you shouldn't be making at a high level of prestigious art.#also for me any art thats like 'look this critic character is so mean they just hurt the poor artists' will literally never play #if one honest negative review shuttered your small business restaurant then maybe you were bad at food. sorry #AND LIKE. ok i know plenty of art has been unfairly panned by critics who didnt really get it #but in my eyes when i see a piece of art complain abt critics it doesnt come across that way #its more like 'im a scam artist and i dont like that critics can call me out for making garbage and passing it off as art'#thats just always how it plays to my eyes and ears yknow #like it feels overly defensive and thin skinned like you just cant handle people not liking your creation.#so yeah. im always gonna like default to 'idk man maybe the critics had a point about you'#im also just in general like. i dont often agree with professional critics but im glad they exist. im pro critique.#which makes me biased lol

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neurofaggot · 2 years

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I'm up too early. I went to a friend's party and by god I stayed too long talking and doing drugs fjdkfhjf (ITS 5AM!!! Hell on earth) BUT. I do want a little record of like. How absolutely nice these people were - I'd never met them before, and they were so like. Nice and accepting and we had soooo many chats about being transgender (this was like. All 40yr old cis men) and they were just great. Like yes I stayed wayyyyy too long but by god were they some of the nicest people ever. I love my job (I get to meet cool af people and do free drugs and have fun. Like it's perfect)

#parks.txt #like yes i am like. going to have the worst time tomorrow. going to be sooo hungover #but i was invited just like. by accident really (coworker mentioned me and was like oh! parker wants to do something! and they were like #absolutely bring parker here right now. i love parker" which i was like 😭😭😭 waaaa thank you #but i got free drugs and met so many fun people and they all liked me!#the 2 guys i was talking too were like. so nice and so interested in what my experience was as a trans man and were so understanding #like actually they were 2 of the nicest 30/40yr olds ive ever come across. and we just stayed talking about eeeeverything until 5am like #it was just amazing. i wanted a night out amd by god did i have it. im honestly sad its over cause it was so much fun like #everyone there eas amazing but those two and the hosts (who ive done their hair before) were like. woe just amazing. such good people #i cant even describe! anyways. thats enough from me. sorry lol i want a record of like. judt how much fun i had and how good a convo i had #so here we are. amazing guys. amazing party. perfect for me to let loose. amazing. just what i needed ❤️

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zhuhongs · 2 years

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i need more dramas abt lesbians just living life and having normal jobs....

#watching kinou nani tabeta and like. its good but im always sitting here with gay dramas like... why are there only gay men in this world #why does this story enforce heteronormativity even though its abt gay men... why do you never even allude to the fact that women can be #homosexuals too?? like idk. its like. such a strange feeling i often get. esp here. i feel like everyone acknowledge lgbt ppl here #i mean same sex marriage is legal. which is great. first in asia but yea . its just always. gay men and im here... closted woman... yea #i always feel the need to like men. i always feel like aesthetically men are attractive but i really cannot feel anything past that...#its just incredibly apparent to me living with these roommates and going to school and everyone just reinforcing heteronoemative ideals.#girls talking abt wanting a bf and to get married as the end goal and im here like ahahaha. yea. that will never happen. all my roommates #talk abt male idols and getting a bf and how ppl hit on them and im like ahaha thats great. can't relate on any level bc im gay and no one #here will ever find me attractive. and i dont want them to!! but its like. how do i talk to u 😔 very alienating #alothough i feel like every 7/11 i go to has a bitch cashier and i love it sm. i hope they all know i adore them. sorry i dint pick up my #stuff fast enough. i hate using paper money but i gotta #🐌.txt

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marsbotz · 23 days

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rewatching nature i dont want to make one billion posts abt it so heres alllllll my nature thoughts as we go lets go wheeeeeee