#wow didnt realise how fucking long it is

[boatemboys]

i forgot how much i like ahasbands/redwood?? whatever. theyre so domestic they make me sick

[kindlespark]

this is gonna be SO long and rambly sorry anyway i saw a post abt how babel does queer characters and it got me thinking abt why the tropes it uses would usually turn me off other stories but didn’t here

MAJOR BABEL SPOILERS //

i feel like i’d be more mad abt how robinramy ended up in babel if it marketed itself as queer lit at all or if its fans were going “WOW AMAZING QUEER REP” abt it. but no one told me any of that, so finding out they were gay was just a fun little bonus surprise to me. i get why ppl are eh abt robinramy not getting together/technically still being subtext (which i dont think is really true btw like the book literally says “robin was falling in love” but idk i guess if you were stupid you might’ve assumed that it was falling in love with oxford given how romantic some of the other language is (WHICH IS ALSO THE POINT bc i think robin’s friendship with ramy blurring into romance is why he romanticised like all his friendships/experiences in oxford BUT IM GETTING OFF-TOPIC)). i just think robin’s repression abt being gay was intrinsically tied to his attitudes on imperialism (wrt refusing to acknowledge anything that complicated his life until it was too late) and i don’t consider it a cop out or queerbait. like i genuinely don’t think robinramy could ever have gotten together without drastic alterations being made in terms of plot and character. plus i think it’s clear that kuang didn’t want to write a story with any kind of focus on romance at all, because it’s not that kind of book. there’s no successful het romance either, so it grates a lot less. the only reason romance is included at all is to show the ways in which white entitlement manifests. so the tragic way robinramy played out just made sense to me.

and i speak as someone who accidentally spoiled myself on You Know What in the middle of reading and i was like ugghh boooo dreading it the whole time expecting to roll my eyes when it happened but then when it did i was like. wow im actually not that mad LMFAO 😭😭😭 actually thematically the book sets it up so well that i believed that this was unfortunately the only way it could’ve gone. babel is about the loss and tragedy and grief that colonised people experience. it’s about the lengths people will go to to uphold empire and the lengths ppl will go to to tear it down like idk 😭 i guess it is bury your gays but it didnt bother me this time because i thought it fit thematically ❤️ i enjoy tragedy as a genre a lot and i would’ve made it gay anyway you know. thanks rf kuang for doing it for me so i didnt have to.

WHICH IS ALL TO SAY that i guess if you’re going into babel for the queer rep without appreciating that the story is fundamentally a tragedy it would feel like it’s just reusing tired tropes….. but i think the choices kuang made were rly deliberate and not in a way that feels like trauma porn or shock value. the book is fundamentally about the struggles of poc so the layer of queerness that was introduced felt like a subtle extension of the experiences of characters of colour in the book, and i enjoyed and related to it as a queer chinese person who kind of realised they had to prioritise their fight for the liberation of poc over queerness mainly because the idea of western queer liberation cannot be dissociated from imperialism and many aspects of homophobia as we know it was an export of christian european empire into our colonised countries in the first place and FUCK THIS IS A WHOLE OTHER TANGENT ABOUT HOW I THINK RAMY AS A CHARACTER IS EMBLEMATIC OF THE TENSION AND STRUGGLE THAT QUEER POC DIASPORA HAVE BETWEEN OUR IDENTITIES GODDAMNIT OK FORGET IT POST CANCELLED i just rly think babel’s handling of queer characters is fine and makes sense and i like it personally and maybe i will make a coherent analysis about it one day but that day is not today byeeeeeee

[southparkhcsocs]

Hi, idk if you take hcs but if you do then could you please do main four + butters with an s/o who is a dancer and also keep up the good job 👏 💗 ^u^

What kinda dance? I'm doing professional? I'm assuming professional?

Stan Marsh

He knew were a dancer

But he didn't know you were a good dancer

He wasn't too interested in it at first

But when he accidentally accepted going to one of your dance shows

Well he couldn't stop

Your biggest cheerleader

Brags about how good you were

If it's a competition and you don't win

SLANDER!

Kyle Broflovski

Idk if you were embarrassed about it

Or if you just didn't think it was interesting

But you never told Kyle you danced

Not that you weren't proud of dancing

It was just something you did

So when you mentioned you have a show coming up it caught him by surprise

"you dance?"

"yeah?"

"Like... Professionally?"

"eh, I guess."

Now you have a new No1 fan!

He's at every show

No matter how much you downplay it

"did you know y/n dances?!"

He'd try and make every rehearsal if he didn't have work/class

Kenny McCormick

Didn't believe you at first

Idk why he didnt

You were out with him and his friends

You off handedly mentioned that you dance

He kinda looked at you like "yeah, right." But didn't say anything.

So when on the way home

"go on then."

"what?"

"show me your moves!"

You laugh, feeling a bit embarrassed being asked to dance on the spot.

IN PUBLIC

So you say maybe once you're home

He chuckles, thinking he's gonna see you do some dumb tiktok dance

Boy was he so wrong

"I guess it make sense why you're so flexible."

Eric Cartman

Bros like "challenge accepted"

Straight up arranged a venue and told EVERYONE

DANCE BATTLE

Thinking you maybe know some dance moves

Cartman is a good dancer

But no where near as good as you.

So of course he's pissed when he loses.

Won't talk to you for days

Might WILL sabotage any auditions you have

Because he's a bastard

But when he sees how fuckin devastated you are after not getting the show of your dreams

He realised he fucked up

So what does he do

Blackmails the director of course!

"babe. Guess what?!"

"what?"

"the lead for the show I auditioned for dropped out and they asked me to do it!!"

"wow. Does that mean you'll stop you annoying ass crying."

"whatever dickhead, I got the part!!!!"

Leopold "Butters" Stotch

PTSD

But no, as long as its not tap dancing

He's there

He gets t-shirts printed

Banners

Flags

The works

BOY WILL MAKE SURE YOUR SHOES ARE ON TIGHT!

[mazzystar24]

OMG i still feel like I'm in a fever dream. I keep refreshing tumblr just to make sure that it HAPPENED.

We've been waiting for this for so long, i can't believe that they made Buck Bi!! Also here is the thing i want Buddie to happen and I am a hundred percent sure that it's happening (i don't know why people are thinking that it's not like???) the way i could see this going down is buck and tommy exploring their relationship and Buck beginning to question more and more things such as his relationship with Eddie. I WANT and him and Tommy to be in a relationship for a while (because they're actually pretty cute) and eddie pining. tommy will be the catalyst for Buddie.

Also: Oliver stark literally said, Buck has a crush, gets the person (exactly what happened with tommy) and that he has to work for his relationship to work and ryan saying "closer than ever??"

I also hate the fact that so people are mad and hating on the actors , that it wasn't with Eddie. Like of course a Buddie conformation would've been great, but we all knew that that wasn't gonna happen in this episode? We got FUCKING BI BUCK !!! Let's just celebrate this and just watch this beautiful story unfold. I really love reading your prediction and your positivity, please continue with that !!!

What do you think is going to happen in the next episodes? Sorry for the long ask!!

Sameee like I keep trying to be normal then I REMEMBER I’m like wow I didnt hallucinate that??

Exactly like they flat out called Tommy a plot device, confirmed he’s here for a little bit and that it’s a fling, so enjoy it as much as you want to while it’s here but don’t lose hope for buddie people? like legit this is the biggest confirmation buddie is on the horizon

YES THE INTERVIEWS HAVE BEEN REALLY FEEDING INTO MY DELUSION

Like let’s not forget Ryan saying they’re trying to give the people what they want🫡and that they are closer than ever - like legit he has no reason to say this in the same season buck realises he’s bi unless something BIG is gonna happen for buddie (maybe not full canon but vibes???)

Anyone hating on the actors can legit fight me.

Oliver and Ryan have been such troopers for the fandom and Oliver now with this storyline you can tell how much he genuinely loves buck and like understands him as a character but also how to give this storyline what it deserves. Like Oliver has been endlessly respectful to the fandom too like he’s been making sure that he doesn’t get peoples hopes up while also trying to play buck in a way that is true to the character. Like did you guys see his message to the fans? Or his interview talking about how he was gonna actively play buck as bi this season as much as he can even before he got told abt the kiss. Like that man hasnt just been supportive of the fandom he’s been an advocate for us and for buck which is such a wonderful thing.

Also yeah it wasn’t Eddie but do people realise that it’s VERY hard to write an up to now presumed straight character’s self discovery in their 30s LET ALONE TWO?? Like Tim found the easiest way to set the scene for the new audience and the GA who won’t have picked up on early seasons undertone and the little things planted throughout and while I would’ve loved buddie without the middleman I completely understand why they did it this way and I’ll enjoy seeing it unfold

And YES EXACTLY BI BUCK like that alone is a MASSIVE win like we are getting such rare bi rep of not only a guy in a very “macho” job and a womaniser type character BUT ALSO a person figuring stuff out in their 30s not in a repressed full of sex shame and guilt way but in a they genuinely just never explored that side of them!! Like that’s so huge we can talk for hours about how many queer rep stories are just plain depressing but this one is so authentic while also being quite light and sweet

Also aww thanks I genuinely love these asks sm (me? In love with everyone who sends me an ask? More likely than you think🤭🤭🤭)

Also omg I’m sorry this is so long like I spent most of this talking about everything except your question😭😭

Okay so predictions:

So we know that Buck is gonna tell some people and some will be surprised some not so much and some will be like it’s about damn time, my bets are:

chimney- surprised but maybe not through insider info (Maddie)

Maddie- KNOWS HAS KNOWN but the only shocker for her is that it wasn’t Eddie like I can imagine the confused and so tired face rn, I think she probs has either thought he knew or knew he didn’t and just was giving him the time and dropping as many hints as she can in the meanwhile

Bobby- supportive father icon, KNOWS (and while he also I fully believe is the buddie captain as well he will play it a little closer to vest if you get what I mean- but inside he’s going insane and his eye is twitching because he poached Eddie for his dumb bi son only for them to ACT married for six seasons and go to him for dating advice abt other people constantly and now that his son is a man kisser it’s not the man Bobby was hoping for😔 pray for him y’all)

Hen- she’s the it’s about damn time response

Athena- also might be the it’s about damn time response

Ravi- in a permanent state of confusion- not about this he’s just confused always (also still fully convinced the poor guy thought buddie had been married cos that headcanon is endlessly amusing to me)

Now for actual plot I think that like the date is low-key a train wreck after the Eddie and Marisol interruption and that either we get a chenford-like double date or we just have a brief intereuption from Eddie and that’s a minor thing and like it’s buck admitting it’s his first date with a guy who hates throws a lot of questions in the air because Tommys reaction was a bit 👀 like I think it’s more or less confirmed that Tommy was repressed for a while when working with captain dickhead so maybe he’s like gonna be taking a step back cos he thinks buck needs more time to like explore this part of himself (but I hate that trope so hoping not) or maybe we get the buddie shipper daydream and Tommy is like more aware of buddie than buddie are and he either says that to buck as the reasoning but buck doesn’t tell Eddie that OR he says something cryptic about it to buck and buck doesn’t fully understand and he’s like you will eventually👀👀👀 (I need a lobotomy yes the delusions are a part of me now)

I hope that Marisol gets the fuck out right about now but I say that every episode 🫡 (edy’s face and voice make me wanna scream I hate her homophobic, transphobic ass sm)

Anyways I’m gonna shut up now bye love ya thank ya and sorry 🫡🫡

[geminigengar]

Sorry, I'm Sick

WIP

eddie munson x black!bimbo!reader

you keep ditching cheer practice, pretending to be sick, just to spend time with eddie

warnings: none

A/N: this is a wip, just smthn from the drafts while i finish all the fics i have currently

you and your friend both stopped turning at the sound of your name being called.

omg it's him.

eddie munson, the object of your affection for quite a while now. was it weird to be one of the top cheerleaders to have such a massive crush on the school loser outcast? probably, but its not like you cared with the way he was leaned back against his locker, slightly sweaty, and looking far sexier than he had any right to be.

sarah rolled her eyes next to you, shoving your shoulder. you'd been on the way to cheer practice when eddie had grabbed your attention. so what if you were a little late- the team could survive without you. you waved her off.

eddie willed the blush from his face as you tilted your head, twirling your hair. god you were so fucking cute.

"yeah?" you said sweetly.

he tried to discreetly wipe the sweat of his hands off on his jeans, not like you'd notice. you'd been friends for too long, he didn't wanna mess this up.

"uh, yeah" eddie cleared his throat. get it together. "yeah y/n, i was wondering if you'd wanna catch a movie with me-"

"okay!" eddie would've almost thought you were joking with how quickly you agreed but seeing you nod eagerly and the biggest grin he's over seen overtake your features; well he couldn't help but swoon a little. "when and where?" you asked.

you two had never gone to the movies together and although you didn't know a lot he could tell you knew he meant as a date.

he barely registered sarah's scoff as he tried to get his thoughts together as fast as possible before you could change your mind. "there's uh- this new film that just came out playing at the hawk. little shop of horrors i think. some kinda funny, scary, musical thing. or something." real smooth munson.

not hearing the impatient tapping of sarah's sneakers, you eyes widened as you giggled. "oh my god i've been wanting to see that! i love scary movies."

"really? uh, wow, me too." eddie was suprised. he didn't think you were the type to like horror but you didn't seem to be lying. if he was honest with himself he'd realise he didnt even know if you were capable of lying. "there's actually a showing in almost an hour if you wanna go."

"yeah okay!"

"uh not okay," sarah spoke up from behind you. you turned to find her, arms crossed with a deep frown. oh. you had forgotten she was there. "we have cheer practice like right now! coach is gonna kill you if you skip, not to mention regionals are coming up!"

sarah usually annoyed eddie but right now he swore he hated her as watched your mouth turn down into such a kissable pout. he was overthinking all the ways you might come to your senses and refuse to go out with him period, or even be his friend anymore. he was too in his head to realise you had stepped over to him until you were wrapping your arm around one of his.

his head snapped to you as you weakly coughed once, twice. "actually sarah-"

"dont you fucking dare!"

[cult-of-the-eye]

MAG 86 here we goooo

Ok so I actually listened to this like a few days ago but I never got round to looking at the transcript but HERE I AM

God this is the blanket never did anything one

He says tucked in so fucking menacingly like Jesus Christ man

TIM MY LOVE

I can't get that one post out of my head that says how Tim was the furthest from being taken by the Eye cause he keeps tripping up on pronunciations and stuff in statements that other archival staff wouldnt honestly it's such a genius take

Oh shit this is getting really long I'll add in a read more

God I love how he's rebelling in every sense, he's doing the bare minimum, he's literally warning people away from it

It's kind of interesting the way he always thought the statement stuff was stupid but in the whole of season one and a lot of season two he managed to hide his distaste pretty well, like even when he lashed out at Jon about the Prentiss incident, he still didn't say that the statements were stupid, but he's saying it behind his back - maybe some part of him knew that Jon needed the statements to work and some part of him still felt for him enough to not point that out

He's kinda dramatic with it as well but I feel like in more of a self aware way than jon

You can feel his distaste honestly the statement just sounds wrong coming from him, which is interesting cause I didn't think that about when Martin did it

So he's mad at the fact that he put effort into a job that he wasn't even that comfortable with in the first place and now he's trapped in? Not about the monsters??

Jesus Christ Tim being a bit of a dick to melanie

HE BLAMES MARTIN????? Damn bro you weren't there how could you tell he didn't do it properly??

I think he's mad at himself for not being there and deflecting it on to martin

She likes that it's quiet!!! That's cute

Martin's not big on change AH neurodivergent vibes

All the archival staff are literally queer and neurodivergent you can't change my mind

Also the fact that he thinks that's the biggest reason why martin doesn't want Melanie around, not the Horrors and the same reason as Tim

I think Tim is refusing to think that Martin might see the situation in the same way as him because if he does then it means Tim's way of dealing might not be the best way and that's an unacceptable thought to him

Suspicious and resentful - my man is self aware I think he knows the way his path is going (hurtling towards destruction) but is too stuck shaking his fist at god to try and get out or he's sort of known his whole life that this is where he was supposed to end up, a terrible fate created by his own two hands that dug their own way down to rock bottom and he's just so tired of trying to do anything about it that he's just accepted it

SASHA OH GOD

Wow seeing firsthand the effects of the stranger, the way neither Tim nor Melanie can remember the real Sasha, but Tim has to live with the fact that he didn't notice and Melanie has to live with the fact that she did, but can't prove it

WHO AM I EVEN SAD FOR

AUGH I THOUGHT SOMEONE MADE THAT UP I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS CANON OH GOD

He lost his FRIEND and he DIDN'T REALISE and he STILL DOESN'T KNOW THE WHOLE TRUTH AUGH

Oh I wonder why he left the tape running? I'd think he would've forgotten to turn it off but if so I feel like he'd have that shocked moment of remembering which he didn't

Maybe he wanted proof of the conversation? Maybe it was a warning to anyone listening to the tapes? See firsthand how terrible it is at the Magnus Institute so you don't work here? I dunno

Ha I had to ask my lovely mutual @melandrops to explain what a marker was

Oh god honestly this statement fucked me up I completely understand why people hate it I hate it

I was so scared of the dark as a kid and the idea of being reduced to that state of lack of awareness and vulnerability is actually terrifying

Also the dude dying in the blanket???? Ew ew ew

Love the fact that tma doesn't just go with a oh shit I forgot a torch so it was pitch black kinda horror but the I brought a torch, I even brought spare batteries but it still did nothing which in my opinion is even scarier

Oh god her whispering the blanket never did anything that was horrifying

Melanie was actually so good at giving the statement girl really got into it

I was also talking to @melandrops about archivist!Melanie cause I think that would be really interesting... she'd definitely bring a more proactive vibe to the role...

It's interesting to think that Melanie and Jon hated each other at first sort of because they're so alike? It's like the we are made of the same stuff (derogatory)

Love how she just checks out the dead guy

The way she's denying it even though she's literally had paranormal experiences before that's so Jon core she would be a great archivist

JON????

Oh shit I just realised he's labelled as Archivist...when did that happen??

That's so funny he's like bitch maybe I do have reason to kill you

Hmm nice touch of Melanie being like do you guys not want me cause I'm a girl?? Is this misogyny??? Good guess but unfortunately it's worse

It's quite nice that Jon's trying to save her even though the meetings about helping him and her quitting would mean he'd lose the one informant he might have in the institute

Shot in the leg by a ghost in India????

Ha Tim hates you and Martin's probably being watched

Love how Tim's hatred for Jon is so visceral and known that they don't even bother watching him

I bet Elias would delight in knowing about Martin's little crush on Jon and how Jon actually hated him in season one and then how their relationship progresses he'd thrive on the drama and the angst the little bastard

Ok ok it's good that he's on the right track, he guesses it was elias

Wait the whole murder was on tape... WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT TAPE??? DID ELIAS TAKE IT??? COULD IT BE USED AS EVIDENCE???

YES MELANIE IS BEING CAUGHT UP (info style) BUT ALSO NO MELANIE IS BEING CAUGHT UP (web style)

[tiffanytoms]

i wanted to apologise. i know its been a while but i accidentally started enemy within not realising it was that story that everyone hated. not only did i finish cuz really liked it but im realising that it didnt have any of the stuff we accused you of. i never sent you any hate but i thought you deserved it and now i feel bad. i guess im sorry i jumped on a bandwagon? im embarrassed

Hey. Wow. I didn’t see this ever coming, to be honest? Thank you?? This actually means a lot. You don’t know how much I appreciate it. (And I don’t want you to be embarrassed — I know you’re telling the truth, bc if you had sent me hate, you’d be one of the dozens I’ve had to block 😅)

All of that was really fucked up, so thank you for acknowledging my story didn’t have or promote those fucked up themes. I knew it, I knew my story could speak to that (which is why I left it up!!) but I swear I started going a little crazy there for a moment with all the chatter and cyber-bullying. I’m glad it’s become clear to you that the fight was never actually about that (and that you even liked the story!!!) 💜

Looking back at the whole mess now is so surreal. In the beginning, I truly thought it was some big misunderstanding that I, or ppl who had actually read my story, could clear up real quick. But it just got messier and messier.

Alas. It was very big of you to come back and tell me this (did I say thank you enough? 😉) and I applaud you for not sending any of the hate yourself. Honestly, I don’t even blame you for assuming the worst, bc like you said, you hadn’t even read it, so how could you know the truth? But I do hope that going forth you stand up to any person who sends hate over fanfiction — even when you don’t like the story, or characters, content, ship, WHATEVER. As long as the story is correctly labeled and has proper warnings, let that shit go. This is fandom! We’re all adults who are allowed to consume and create whatever content we want! It’s supposed to be fun!

Thank you for supporting others instead of trying to ostracize and tear them down✌️

Cheers, love ❤️ (Sorry you got a monologue out of me 😘)

[baby-xemnas]

love reading ur thoughts always but just also thinking about bepo being somewhat attractive to others in their teenage years/some Other party expressing interest in bepo and law would have lost his entire shit. a miracle he didn't face sth like that, but the jealous rage for sure wouldve been so ugly...fierce and drastic realisation of how much he wants bepo and also how possessive he is. bepo is too special.

THANK YOUUUUUUUU and thank you for giving me more food to ramble about haha ♥♥

OH GOD YEAH ABSOLUTELY there have to have been an INCIDENT or two of that. law wouldve gone through a lot of emotions in that moment, especially when it happened for the first time

(id imagine the mob chara would presume that bepo is gonna be a good aggressive fuck lol, just judging by the looks. oh they couldnt be more wrong)

>first glance law assuming someone is talking to bepo because they are being either quirky racist (wow a walking talking bear!!) or actually negative sort of interest - that they all experienced and are kind of expecting at that point (expecting it so they can jump to bepo's aid and comfort him)

>seeing that its NOT. THAT. but instead someone standing uncomfortably close clearly trying to flirt, seeing so much discomfort on bepo's face - who in turn wouldnt be a crybaby in the face of a stranger no, he is stronger than that now! but he would be surprised and not really know how to handle THIS situation...bepo never got this kind of attention before he has no idea how to handle it. hes trying to answer semi-politely because he isnt aware that he needs to be very curt and direct..he feels SO strange hes just standing there taking unwanted sexual advances LOL

honestly be it a woman or a gay man i would picture law would act the same - the few words he would spare them before dragging bepo away would be laced with SO much venom and contempt, it would scare the shit out of bepo who's just standing there. technically being saved so he is in no way is the target of captain's anger (even tho bepo would think in those seconds that law is mad at him too, he would feel bad that he ended up in that situation even tho its not his fault at all. whatever discomfort he felt previously than fear of upsetting law, now THAT actually makes him want to cry a little)

law wants to take his hand but thinks that this person doesnt deserve to see how important bepo is to him... so he says that they are going back and walks next to bepo who is more shaken by seeing law's reaction than he is by the initial incident he thanks law the moment they go outside and its quiet and him saying "thank you captain" somehow sounds too formal to law's ears. somehow this "captain" sounds like his actual rank and not the usual cute way bepo calls him like its a nickname or a familial title.

its so jarring to hear bepo sound like a detached subordinate and not his treasured best friend, law has to look up at bepo who ofc is just looking at the ground in front of himself as he walks. law's mind draws a blank for a few long moments because he still needs a little time to calm down. he havent processed his own emotions yet it happened too fast. Yes of course he was reacting to that nobody making bepo uncomfortable of course. But...he the possibility that someone who is NOT HIM could be intimate with bepo shot through him like a lightning.

whole time law is having his crisis bepo is thinking about how he should apologize without making law even more angry..he is so scared to break the silence. poor thing. he forgot all about that mob chara thats lightyears away, its all law now

law would get his attention by calling his name and it suddenly feels so awkward...its so cringe but he asks if bepo wants to talk about it - curses himself that he isnt penguin and shachi who would laugh a situation like this off, they are much better than him at handling these things

bepo didnt hear the question he immediately goes IM SORRY CAPTAIN and law is surprised what on earth are you sorry for bepo: you...um. well you had to come in and save me so im sorry for causing you trouble law:...............its not troublesome for me to help you so dont apologize.. (and he says it kind of in a soft unsure tone because??? what the hell....bepo its not about him.ffs)

and bepo feels so relieved because he was holding on that tension for so much of their walk not knowing what law is thinking about (he was thinkin about eating you whole, boy) that he smiles and it snaps the rubber band of tension law was holding onto himself and he gets so full of affection for bepo it kind of goes to his head and all the way south making him horny...its somehow ended up being a romantic scene that he wants to take him apart now...reaffirming to bepo that nobody would ever be better than him. law was challenged he has to prove himself now.....

law knowing but now staring straight in the face to the fact that bepo is SO special and so important. noone has the RIGHT to know because they could never understand JUST HOW SPECIAL AND VALUABLE HE IS

[terranceholdsapencil]

73 yards thoughts from while watching :)

-hehe theyre in wales

-"wait, what year are you from?" Actually love that the doctors forget that.

-ohhhy the doctor's gone :0

-locked tardis?? Man thats insane how does that happen

-voices????

-wow that old woman is scary. How is she next to the tardis now.

-Snow???

-very pretty shots :) like lookint at them. Not as overwhelming/fast as most morern who stuff. Loving this.

-susan twist???

-wait ruby asks her if she knows her. Are they realising??

-question is does susan twist know she keeps reappearing or is it a clara thing where shes unaware

-oh shes running :(

-"well apparently next week were getting christianity"

-absolutely terrifying score 10/10 for murray gold once again

-semperdistans :)

-actually the welsh pub people making fun of ruby having an absolute blast pranking her was great

-"i would love to see you again" man that made me SAD :(

-shes going back to her mum?? Wow

-"I mean i dont know. ive never had a garden, never had a shed. Ive never had a man! but thats what they say. And your intergalactic nutcase is doing it on a cosmic scale! But hes still, essentially, inside his shed. Pottering! He must be."

-mrs flood hello :)

-the call idea is really good. I love rubys mum. Wait a second oh no rubys mum COME BACK CARLA NO-

-locking ruby out?? Telling her to go away?? Telling her shes not her daughter? VILE.

-the shot with ruby sitting outside the door was really pretty but still sad af

-KATE LETHBRIDGE-STEWART I HAVE MISSED YOU

Wait since when is she introducing herself as lethbridge-stewart? I mean I love remembering her connection to the brigadier but is there any narrative reason? Shes made a point back when she was introduced thar shed rather just be kate stewart.

-its been a year?? Her mum put an INJUNCTION against her?? Vile. Absolutely vile. Poor Ruby.

-and more and more the supernatural? So theyre acknowledging the genre shift from sci-fi to more fantasy. Funky.

-"And you work with the doctor?" "With him, despite him, against him sometimes."

-73 yards is probably going to be relevant and not just a random number right (terry youre in for a blast)

-"does that sound mad?" "Sounds wise"

-KATE NO. KATE LETHBRIDGE-STEWART COME BACK HERE THIS INSTANT.

-how long has it been what the fuck

-there is something sort of lovely about her toasting the scary woman :) on christmas

-ITS 2046??? WERE SEEING THE GUY?? I THOUGHT THAT WAS FORESHADOWING SOMETHING ELSE

-2031, the great russian war, Id rather not

-something something hes the worst prime minister and a monster something something master

-somehow thought ruby was gonna kill him. This makes more sense. Day saved :)

-wait why is she still here. Shes old now. What.

-the overgrown tardis and the flowers remind me of the mural painted on it back in hell bent. Just me? Okay Ill go back into my cave.

-no one ever told ruby that her mum died?? Thats so sad oh my god. And it never snowed again?? Love you need a great big hug

-"And I think, at the end, I have hope. Because thats very you, isnt it, my old friend? I dare to hope"

-hospital??? Shes dying??

-"i could make it snow once upon a time" -if I had a drink I wouldve spat it out that was so bloody funny

-woman in corner of the room is scaring me. Please go away.

Oh no shes coming closer

OH NO THE MUSIC IS TERRIFYING I didnt sign up for a horror movie-

-rubt is the woman??? Is she??

-shouldnt that get them into paradox city cause old ruby warned her but she couldnt if it didnt happen. Nah whatever

-this was it?? But thats not a conclusion?? I mean I LOVED this ep absolutely captivating but did they really now have another 5 minutes for an actual ending?? Please explain

-ohhh next ep preview :) reminds me a little bit of the happiness patrol somehow

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

literally stealing mcdonalds wifi to send you this rn

first of all, uk power outages are the only things on earth that will always cause a blockup of the mcdonalds drive thru line. every. time. somebody in front of us is asking what a mcflurry is. anyway.

kobra and ghoul if they didnt realise who they were until one of them was gone

poison and jet if they didn't realise how they felt until one of them was gone

wow shoutout to the uk mcdonalds ig lmao

anyways uh. WHGAT THE FUCK?? ow just. just ow. just. kobra and ghoul spending their entire lives looking for each other, hoping, wishing, praying that the universe will allow them into each other's arms once again. and then it does and they finally have each other- but they don't realize. theyre too focused on looking back at what they've spent their whole lives missing to be able to glance up and realize the one theyve been searching for has been in front if them thus whole time. and maybe that corrupts their relationship a little bit, they both love each other but they hold themselves back just a bit, trying to save a part of themselves for the person they never know if theyll see again. and its only after one of them is gone- gone- that they realize they were holding back for nothing. they had the chance to give themself wholly and completely, to finally show the person theyve spent their entire life loving the endlrss extent of that love and now theyll never be able to. they held back for too long, they were looking in all the wring places, and only now that theyve realized, that the other's gone, do they know theyd been holding back for nothing. and now its too late to let them see that little part of themself theyd been keeping hidden for so long

AMD THEN POISON AND JET. CANT SAY MYCH HERE ASIDE FROM THANKS FOR THE TTID FUEL TIME TO GO ADD A FRW THINGS TO THE OUTLINE FOR NEXT CHAPTER !!!

[quadruple-a-battery-under-ur-bed]

💭 ⛪️✨️

For ask game!

💭 Some character headcanons

ok so rufus is like 100% gay like ik hes mlm thats canon bc vincent but i dont think his sexuality is ever mentioned lmaoo so like + he would be a fan of like dua lipa n shit but like hide it so much and act like he listens to acdc and like clive is the only one who doesnt realise his music taste tbh

farah is defos like omni/pan romantic and greysexual + she defos checked ao3 n tumblr to see if there was rpf about her. she definitley wasnt going to read it. why do u ask

gary is transfem bc i said so rn (im bsing these hcs on the spot based on vibes ima be real) and defos experimented w dudes in like pallamistus equivelent to collage/uni and still fucks em sometimes so hes like hetroromantic/bisexual w preference for women also he learnt how to make coloured metal and then made pride flag swords (i dont think pallamistus would have many pride flags but i think there would maybe be a rainbow pride one + jason showed ppl pride flags from earth and started making it a bit of a thing by accident

⛪ Favorite deity

knowledge or healer r my faves bc like knowledge as a deity their domain speaks to me like yesssss facts n shit and then healer as a fuckin person is so cool like they use i belive its he/they or he/it since jason refers to them w they/them or it/its at some point idk which but like i just find em v v interesting i love em also death is such a cool goddess bc like theyre not a bad deity like other similar ones like pain and trickery n stuff which i just like symbolically like "death is not unnatural it is a force of good just like life"

i do have a bit of beef w the whole evil gods being purged out bc like mortals doing that like sure ig (but also like yall r piss scared of a god but u wanna kill em and yall have the balls to do that damn) but like the fact that ALL OTHER GODS ACTIVLEY HUNT THEM is a bit like why? yall r litteralyl forces of nature personified why are these ones bad dumbass why is pain exterminated why is trickery frowned upon WHY IS DISGUISE A BAD GOD????? and then FUCKING PURITY WHO IS TRYING TO DESTORY THE WHOLE WORLD TO BE TAKEN OVER JUST IS NEVER FLAGGED AS AN EVIL GOD??? like yes the gods know its decipt and cant say shit but like surley theres a god who that is within their purview to speak about??? like truth or some shit can reveal lies or smthn

damn thats another rant abt some worldbuildy thinks (im working up the post rn idk y)

✨ Coolest power (essence or otherwise)

ok so i think skill books r super super cool and also masivley underused like wdym theres fucking skill books and noone uses them like sure u need a whole new power to use em but like just make a ritual like cmon theres prolly a ritual for every cool ass essence ability and like jasons power that absorbs essences n awakening stones also gives him the skill book one like they r absolutley linked JUST FUCKIN RITUAL THIS SHIT UP

FREE KNOWLEDGE

HOW HAS NOONE MADE A RITUAL FOR THIS YET

oh also on the topic: knowledge prolly has a shit ton of skill books on like everything why dont they make skill books for basic skills like reading and writing and simple maths and do free rituals for kids to bypass the whole years long education system that fucks up kids mental states later on (the mental health but is more high school but still) like yes theres prolly a min age like essences n shit but like. just wait?? cmon its like fifteen years CMON oh also speaking of the min age is that like a last minute puberty thing or is it like a second magic puberty also surley it would be like "ur defos gettin fucked up" -> "prolly gettin fucked up" -> "maybe gettin fucked up" -> "no fuckedupedness now :3" (like normal)

soz that last one was a worldbuilding rant abt skill books goddamn i didnt know i had that in me wow

[rose-likesto-write]

Autumn Leaves...

Pairing: Lee Junho x Fem reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff, maybe suggestive?

AU!: Rival to lovers trope; Supritendent of police, forensic psychologist

Warning (s): swears, mentions of murder, serial killer, victims

Rating: T

Word Count: 976

A/N: Hey, everyone.. I am back after a long break, things didnt go my way and we're tough but now it's better because of God's grace. ase, it's a small request to kindly give your feedback. It means alot ❤️

Sorry for grammatical mistakes and dramatic ending.. 😭

Summary:

"Now, I realised that as much as most of us call fairy tales as overrated and exaggerated versions but somewhere and somehow even we wish to have for own selves, for us to remember and for us to tell.. It happened with me as well but by the time I started hoping for one, I didn't realise that it might not be the type of ending I wished but I still didn't wanna give up"

"Wow, Mr Lee that's an amazing write up and I can't wait for the book to be published and read it but please, excuse my curiosity but there is more to it right? As in it feels this is actually from your own perspective like from your life experience or something?"

"Ofcourse, it is dear Lia but wait for the right time though."

Chapter-2 HE IS HERE..

‘CHAOS!’ ‘FRETFUL’ ‘STRESS!’ and numerous words like these fail to describe the current situation that was prevalent not only in the country but in the departments that joined hands to understand and solve the crime. It was as if the serial killer knew each and every move and is three steps forward,

“What the fuck is going on?” Junho said in frustration as he threw the set papers in his hand towards the wall. “Junho, you can’t just throw papers like this! I know you are frustrated and so we are.” Taecyeon said with a sympathetic look.

“You aren’t understanding the gravity of the situation! The victims are rising and so is the cruelty. I am worried what if the next victims are—

“Junho! I mean Mr Lee and Mr Ok, here is the report.” You rushed to his side with the thick folders and gave it to him before leaving. “How many times have I told you not to run with these thick folders?” Junho said with a stern look before taking the said folders and started going through it.

Taecyeon scoffed and texted Jennie.

Me: How long will they take?

Jen: Guess?

Me: I don’t know? Days, weeks, months, years, centuries or even millennials

Jen: Or they won't ever confess. Don’t worry

Me: Yeah, take care

Jen: You too :)

He closed his phone and saw him making notes. “Found something valuable? “ He said and sat next to him. “The reports have given great detail about the gruesome killings.” Junho said and turned his attention to Taecyeon.

“You remember, the initial conversation we had with the Chief? We spoke about backgrounds, abandoned areas?” Taecyeon nodded. “Well from the recent documents and evidence that were found, most of the victims are directly related to the killer in some way. Though, this sounds crazy especially how evidence has been gathered or possibly if the killer is deliberately leaving his evidence to find him, but why?”

“Because we are next on his target list.” Dr Kim said as he came with the Chief in their room. “Sir!” They stood up and saluted the Chief and greeted the doctor.

“Dr Kim is right” the chief sighed before continuing, “The two victims through which we thought we were able to get a hold of that monster, what happened? Another victim was killed horrifically and was not related to all others. So, that your attention could be diverted and from the rough sketches that were drawn and witnesses were called, most of them said that the accused knew the victim somehow the other way. It's not just a gruesome and gory play but it has some connection with the accused as well."

Later that night:

You and Jennie were going back after a hard and tiring day. “This case is too gory and scary.” Jennie said as she took a sip from juice. “Can’t agree more. It is literally so scary that I have become paranoid at this point.” You too walked closely keeping an eye out even though the general public was there but who would take a risk.

There were times when you felt someone’s presence but when you turned around, no one was there.

Rushing through your apartment’s door and closing it, a sigh of relief came out from both of your mouths.

“Lets get changed fast, then we can watch some shows while having some fried rice and the side dishes.” Jennie said to which you nodded

Everything was going well and you were about to fall asleep when the lights went off. “Why now?” You whined. “Don’t worry it will come in a minute or so” Jennie said but sadly, that minute turned into 15 minutes.

“Yes, thank you” Jennie sighed as she ended the call. “What happened?” You asked

“They are checking for the issue and the generator will start in a m-

A loud sound was heard as if someone broke the glass, making you both scream. “Jen-sh-” and another glass breaking sound was heard followed by bangings on the main door.

Tears were flowing down both of your faces. “D-do you think, its him?”

You frantically called the first number.

“P-please p-p-pick up!”

“Hello?”

“H-he is here. I think. P-

Before you could say anything the call ended and within a few seconds police sirens were heard and the bangings stopped and some rustling was heard outside.

“Y/N!!!” Junho screamed as he broke your apartment’s door followed by Taecyeon and other police officers and the lights came back.

“B-baby” He kneeled down as he took you in his arms, rubbing your back softly. “D-don’t worry baby, I am here” He whispered softly. After sometime, when you calmed down a bit, you snuggled your face in his chest and your grip on his shirt tightened.

“P-please don’t l-leave m- “Never, angel”

“Sir, we found this paper crumbled and this pin” San said he brought the evidence.

Both you and Jennie looked at the pin before you both turned pale. “Y/N, this is the p-pin that you lost!!” Jennie lost her balance and Taecyeon helped her.

“What does that paper say?” Junho growled. San’s hand shivered when he read it

“I was planning to meet you, my princess Y/N and your friend. You are too beautiful and i hope you remember this article. See ya next time”

“You are coming with me” Junho said as he stood up with you in his arms.

“I-I won’t go with you” You said as you tried to go from his arms.

“ARE YOU CRAZY?”

“He is after me and I don’t wanna go with you all. I can’t risk your saf-

“Risk safety? Are you insane??’

“I am insane enough because I love you Lee Junho. Please, I can’t risk losing you or any of you. I can’t lose more people.” You fell on the floor crying. “Its all over!!”

[thickest-slimiest-malware]

rating tma factions based on how scary they are to me

as soon as i realised there were categories i felt the need to sort and review them, so i was thrilled to find there was an in-universe list.

the burried: 4/10 when you describe the pain of a box physically shrinking and the pain of it squeezing you i sympathise, but the fear of just being in a space seems unreasonable. however i am also scared of boredom and being trapped somewhere for too long, and of being uncomfortable.

the corruption: 3/10 i gotta say i really feel comfortable with that stuff by now. i could swim in it. definetally would join if i had that option. i used to have more of this fear but i overcame it, its thrilling.

the dark: 9/10. darkness is actually one of my biggest fears, but only when i cant sleep. im really scared of not being able to sleep

the desolation: 1/10 they seem cool as fuck i would also join them, i love fire

the end: 2/10 boring

the eye: 5/10 i think. there havent been too many examples yet, but for sure, a healthy ammount of scary

the flesh: 4/10 slaughterhouses are also one of my childhood fears, i had a dream of my pet being taken to the vet but later learning it was a slaughterhouse many times.

the hunt: 4/10 obviously very scary but... id say i enjoy being chased to some degree. i like running and feeling motivated for once

the lonely: 2/10 somewhat upsetting. im not scared of being alone temporarily, but im scared i will become too isolated in the future or like in general. but i could handle it as long as i'm entertained

the slaughter: 6/10 i'm scared of violence, i think a reasonable ammount.

the spiral: 10/10 ouch. if i can tell an episode is related to the spiral i am skipping it. im so scared of being less than sober, im so scared of being in trance

the stranger: 7/10 sexy. reminds me of art school. i love clowns. would also join

the vast: 3/10 i'm scared of being bored. emptiness sucks. not scared of the physical space tho. love me some fresh air

the web: 4/10 reasonably scary? i dont think i can think of realistic examples that are an active threat to me tho. also im good at blaming the person who actually manipulated me and promising revenge. besides someone putting in the work to manipulate me feels kinda nice.

well thats fun, its nice to have them all together like this, so i know what to avoid, and just for autism sake. my ratings may change in the future, as i am less than half way into the series.

note: wow being unemployed really does something to your brain. i spent 1.5 hours writing this and didnt really notice

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

god im so tired i feel like im. yea. but like genuinely FUCK trans people who try 2 be fuckin trans police likeeee FUCK U when ur tryna reinvent gender roles I DONT NEED TO BE COMPLIMENTED ON HOW WELL I PASS I PASS PERFECTLY WELL AS MYSELF BC I AM ME MOTHERFUCKER I DONT NEED TO BE A CIS PERSONS IDEA OF A MAN BC IM A TRANS PERSONS IDEA OF A MAN U FUCKINGGGG cop,. stop fucking cringing at me wearing a skirt go stick ur head in a toilet u fuckingggggg. bitchasss motherfucker. there is NO way i wanna wear fuckinn trackies n a hoodie all day bc that works just fine 4 other ppl but it gives me fuckin MORE dysphoria stop projecting ur dysphoria onto me youuuuu fuckingggggg. pussy. u can enjoy ur dysphoria hoodie without putting me into it as well its not a get along shirt u fucking idiottttt. wed get along better if u didnt shove our heads into the same hole. yeah. im justtt. pissed. attttttttttt. cops. for existing. and ppl who act like cops. kill the cop in ur head bla bla bla.

anyways

. im gonnago to sleep. tmrw is gonna b better bc god. today was a whole lotta anxiety. not the bad kind. bc i realised today. i finally have problems that dont feel like theyre making me feel so fucking empty. like im soooo anxious and worried abt these problems but these r normal people problems now likeeee. i can cope w this kinda stuff. wowies. so tired. gonnna fall asleep at my desk. this music is loud iand it feels like itss. a big ocean. ive almost drowned so many times yknow. crazy. i wanna swim in a river w my friends. only river close to me is dirty as fuck tho n will give me diseases. or probably has a body in it somewhere. wanna find a good river i wanna. yeah. ok my head feels like. a carousel or whatevr. or like. oh my god i havet listened to hsi song in so long this is so 2021 core. wow. did  i just type core with my own two hands. god. ok. gonna text my friend. and be like. i love u . and then im gonna sleep. and think abt my friends and my more than friends and my less than friends. forgot hwo good this song was. mmm yea. ok. tmrw got english period3 . reminder 2msyelf incaase i get scared i get the period wrong. lemme check acrually

yep. english period3. 11.15-12.15. right there. and also. reminder 2 myself to. get to Maples house at 3.50ish and then. we go to my place. and if it rains thats good. if it doesnt rain we cry forevers. we could maybe like. chill in the garden. or watch movies. movies r good. could even kick my sister out of the livin room so we could watch movies there. n like. give her a distraction. or like. let her watch as well but idk if wed want her. bc like. yea thatd be awkward. idk. we could just watch movies in my room. or we could watch heartstopper like we said that one time bc its feelgood and i love feelgood shows and its aalso smth ik is good and is familiar 2 me and my autistic ass is scared of watching new films. id that an autism thing. well my ass is still autistic. so fuck u. and ur allistic ass. unless its not then i apologise to ur ass. ok.nighty nighty. oscar if u see this . um. Hi . ur coolllllllll as fuck ok yeah fuck u im gonna embarrass u in a publiccc postttt by sayingh howwww cool u rrrrr okie yea byebye. and also byebye everyone whios not oscar. ur also cool but not as cool.

[istherewifiinhell]

Reading progress: chapter 243 (oh my god no i didnt give up just. gah. life)

reading highlights: in which keeping notes for a very long story pays off, i didnt remember shit. my general track record of focusing on one interest over time is, very bad. also in which i have to manifest a second voice to encapsulate my reactions

222 yjh prev death trauma

223 swk new sugar daddy/whale

kdj fan of hiatus media when theres a new drop

yjh pov beloved. asmodeus grabbing yjh face and calling him pretty, alright

HHH ORV kdj showing up all possessive. jesus

hes doing a flatliners

225 Constellation who likes to change sex (-> CWLTCS) wants you to change your sex

kdj did you just invent corporate shares

argh the drama of claiming to be yjh sponsor then looking to (real sponsor) to save (yjh)

226 kdj gething fucked up abt yjh "death"

novel revision yjh is sooooooo

everyone politely giving the room to dokhyuk reunion

yjh said bluntly/expressionlessly. yes. but have you considered hes being the sweetest man in the world. -> referencing the very end of the chapters where yjh fills in what the rest of the company have been doing, and when kdj kinda existential crisis's about it tells him that his (kdj's) story, is still being told "Lets go back to Earth, Kim Dokja"

227 yes kdj yjh is clearly trying to steal your valour and send you back to earth thats why hes doing ID theft

228 Kdj: this person is so beautiful, beyond words.

↳ (—_—): How Beautiful Are They?

↳ kdj: ... 3 YJH's.

↳ (—_—): YAY!

229 peanut gallery: kdj arent you gay?? dont look at women...

Foodie and [tech] guy yjh [-> cant read my own writing]

YJH & JHY transphobic beef

231 yjh hiding in a tree

omg. doggie. sounds like it looks like my dog

↳ STANDS ON TWO LEGS. okay.

↳ the dog blew hmo out of the house.

↳ "The confrontation between man and dog was filled with unbelievable tension"

232 "There were probably no dogs in the Star System stronger than the Breaking the Sky Master"

3 METER TALL WOMEN! SHE SMOKES A PIPE!

233 Yjh is just being spanked... have i got that right?

gah kdj's constellation messages kill me

yjh prespective on kdj clownery beloved

234 yjh puts kdj behind himself as kdj does his saying inflammatory shit thing

235 via Yjh -> uriel is really strict and lofty when she doesnt have fujo brain rot

yjh 100 years old? more??

yjh said this and thought he was talking like kdj -> AHA!

Breaking the Sky Sword wasn't originally for men -> the problem of gender can be resolved "CWLTCS is snorting"

↳ complex emotions about that huh?

236 OUR nebula

cowboy carriage footman?

Novel revision yjh: It would have been nice if he had come with me

kdj being given story food -> me: wow just like silverwing! (sunwing in particular... i think)

237 "Yes, an unexpected accident. An accident that happens accidentally"

KDJ SICKO MODE/angry protective dad mode

ORO castle... Immeasurable Austerity -> I think rich people eat the poor maybe

DO appreciate kdjs constant "Dream Bigger" energy

238 persephone and uriel being little dokhyuk shits

kdj problems time

kdj trying to hype up his comfort novel on social media to no avail

240 "Please tell me exactly precisely."

okay so lotr

"It might be time to admit it. I had become the 'constellation' I hated"

Iris loves che and early marx hell yeah girl (1 point to orv teens and being really philosophically well read)

↳ oh seriously hell yeah girl

↳ "Iris cursed something that wasn't 'capital' ... the star stream" Hmm, Debatable

241 kdj I wish I could offer something to this scared child but i can only do this trade! -> i mean, you are saving her life?

Eoren's sword. Eowyn... Arwen? -> only women can wield it. yep checks out

242 once again I realise how great Yjh is -> yeah.. I know bud

"Yjh overcame (breaking the sky sword female only nature) with great effort." hmm. mh hm. yup. arduously, I bet. sure man, w/e

Rotating: now there are some very juicy tid bits here with yjh past hinting, and a few scenes from his pov even. similarly kdj confronting, just a bit, the means towards his end are leading to him to some interesting places. that said, in an effort to motivate myself to just read the dang thing. i feel myself really just focusing on giggling at all the delightful dokhyuk baiting and the more just comical aspects. like. horton hears a WHO CARES-- THIS DOG CAN DUEL. in order to get the joy of having fun notes on and thoughts about this story, i must in fact, keep reading it.

[what-the-fuck-khr]

oh yeah did a stress echocardiogram yesterday. awful. I’m very unfit so my thighs started hurting and on top of that I was so fucking out of breath I felt like I was gonna die. being told to hold my breath, both on breathing in and out, was so fucking difficult wow. don’t know if that’s my heart or me being unfit lol. little bit of both probably bc yesterday was the first time I’ve stepped foot on a running treadmill lmfaooooo. anyways homie said there’s no arrhythmia or anything weird or out of place, but “most people your age usually last longer on the treadmill” sorry doc I’m just unfit for my age lmfao. bad knees meant less exercise of any kind and high meant weakened muscles over time and here I am. peak image of fitness or lack thereof lol.

got sent home with a holster monitor, so far I’ve been just fine have had no issues whatsoever. it’s a little bit to get used to having cords and shit attached to you for a full 24 hours and am yet to sleep with the bastard yet but we’ll find out how that goes. my little symptoms page is empty and will be of absolutely no help in this regard. client consent form said if this gets damaged or broken, repairs or replacement can cost up to $1,200 :). so that’s scary. definitely makes you treat the bastard like glass lol. wore clothes that very easily come off up the top, like a jumpsuit but the top is loose, float fabric too so it has ease of movement and also the monitor could sit in the breast area of the thing lol

have an appointment with cardiologist next week after this to go over results to decide what to do after this OH I DIDNT MENTION IT BUT!!!! a bit of a breakthrough was that we think it’s either my antidepressants that sped up my heart rate, or a long covid symptom from my first infection which was somewhere around the same time as my change of antidepressants unfortunately lol so they both line up with each other, but narrowing it down like that makes life easier. but yeah after the first bout I realised this heart rate thing had been a reoccurring issue for a while now prior to the incident this year so! we’re making very slow progress. what the uhhhh procedures will be for the future?? who knows. maybe just take heart tablet for the rest of my life or smth I guess if it’s a covid thing. if it’s not, then change my antidepressants and see if that fixes it. guessing game atm but it’s with two answers!!