"The practice of the Sound Current is the primary duty of man and all else is secondary and a means to that end, for this Current is the one antidote for karma. As long as the soul is in the mind zone, it is a prisoner. It is engulfed by the mind and is subject to it and has to obey the dictates of the mind." (Hazur Baba Sawan Singh)
quick note - this blog is gonna be sparse again for at least this week. trying new medications and tbh initial side effects are not super pleasant + actual effects build up. as a result: currently as if unmedicated for mental health, with anxiety+ side effect, extra fatigue, dizziness, and fatigue. it's uh, sure something.
totally recognize that most of y'all know we're absent at times due to health things, just wanted to give a heads up that this one is at least anticipated.
Tips & Tools for Releasing Stored Trauma in Your Body
🌻Somatic Experiencing: Developed by Dr. Peter Levine, Somatic Experiencing can release trauma locked in the body. This method is the result of a combination of stress physiology, psychology, neuroscience, medical biophysics and indigenous healing practices. (Videos on youtube)
🌻Mindfulness and Movements: going for a walk, bike ride, Boxing, Martial arts, yoga (or trauma-informed yoga), or dancing. People who get into martial arts or boxing are often those who were traumatized in the past. They’re carrying a lot of anger and fighting is a great release for them. Exercise helps your body burn off adrenaline, release endorphins, calm your nervous system, and relieve stress.
Release Trapped Emotions:
🍀How to release anger from the body - somatic healing tool
🍀Somatic Exercises for ANGER: Release Anger in Under 5 Minutes
🍀Youtube Playlist: Trauma Healing, Somatic Therapy, Self Havening, Nervous system regulation
🌻 Havening Technique is a somatosensory self-comforting therapy to change the brain to de-traumatize the memory and remove its negative effects from our psyche and body. It has a calming effect on the Amygdala and the Limbic system. 🌼Exercise: Havening Technique for Rapid Stress & Anxiety Relief 🌼Exercise: Self-Havening with nature ambience to let go of painful feelings 🌼Video: Using Havening Techniques to rapidly erase a traumatic memory (Certified Practitioner guides them through a healing session)
🌻Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) is a psychotherapy technique often used to treat anxiety and PTSD. It incorporates rhythmic eye movements while recalling traumatic experiences. This combo changes how the memory is stored in the brain and allow you to process the trauma fully.
🌻Sound & Vibrational Healing: Sound healing has become all the rage in the health and wellness world. It involves using the power of vibration – from tuning forks, singing bowls, or gongs – to relax the mind and body.
🌻Breathwork is an intentional method of breathing that helps your body relax by bypassing your conscious mind. Trauma can overstimulate the body’s sympathetic nervous system (aka your body’s ‘fight-or-flight’ response). Breathwork settles it down.
Informative videos & Experts on Attachment style healing:
🌼Dr Kim Sage, licensed psychologist
🌼Dr. Nicole LePera (theholisticpsychologist)
🌼Briana MacWilliam
🌼Candace van Dell
🌼Heidi Priebe
Other informative Videos on Trauma:
🌻Small traumas in a "normal" family and attachment: Gabor Maté - The Myth of Normal: Trauma, Illness, and Healing in a Toxic Culture
🌻Uncovering Triggers and Pattern for Healing: Dr Gabor Maté
🌻Understanding trapped emotions in the body and footage of how wild animals release trauma
Article: How Trauma Is Stored in the Body (+ How to Release It)
Article: 20 self-care practices for complex trauma survivors
of course the cycling event that valtteri plans has an afterparty featuring hot tubs and saunas. and a "hangover ride" the next morning. but also today they have "meetup & portraits w/ molly cameron" who is the trans pro cyclist that valtteri & tiff met up with a couple years back and wore the trans flag wristbands for. we love to see it.
I really do not comprehend where the claim that anti-endos are all just miserable, hateful people comes from, nor why it is so wide-spread.
I feel like the people saying this and positing it haven't actually gone to these spaces and requested access. I feel like the most they do is scroll the tags, which obviously is going to be filled with anger, as the tags are where endogenic systems come into anti-endo spaces without permission.
I joined a predominately anti-endo server as a pro-endo (and eventually as an anti-endo, and later as a syscourse unaligned, and now I've circled back to pro-endo) because I had permission to be there. And, surprise surprise, it's not hatred. It's not misery. And now that I know where to look in the tags (AKA, go beyond the syscourse), I can see the joy that's there.
In the main server I'm in, we have game nights. We grade together. I have at least 5 pings a day of people reaching out to me and reminding me of positive things or joyful things from the day. I see my friends grow and recover together, and it's beautiful.
I think a lot of pro/endos look at DID system's focus on trauma and parts and recovery and only see the negative. They see the fact that we are traumatized as a fully negative thing. They see our trauma and hatred and misery, but never see our journey. They never see the joy of recovery. They never see the happy vents of "It's been 5 months since my last trauma meltdown!" -- they just see the fact that we focus on trauma "too much."
It... sucks.
I want to be able to be traumatized. I can't change that I have trauma. I can't change that I have a disorder that affects my day to day life. My only goal is that I can change some people's feelings about that disorder online and IRL. I want to make it so I can be a system, publicly, without people telling me I'm "too focused on it."
Spiritual Awakening Radio Podcast: Inner Sound Meditation in the World Religions Series: Hinduism and Radhasoami (Yoga of Sound Series)
These mystic or heavenly inner Sounds are always resounding in the soul, thus when one attains a certain level of stillness and concentration, spiritual Sound becomes audible. In truth, the inner Sound is always there, it is we (our attention) who come and go. We gain awareness of the Sound, and this creates the illusion that the Sound has "arrived." When we get distracted or leave off our meditation practice it seems to us that the Sound has "stopped." However, this otherworldly Sound continues, like radio waves flowing through the atmosphere, available to be "tuned in" anytime we wish to listen (do bhajan: listen to the inner Sound in meditation).
Hinduism is very much a religion of Divine Light and Sound; many Indian scriptures and spiritual traditions teach about the universe being created through the Sound of AUM, the ecstasy of hearing the cosmic flute of Krishna, or hearing the Unstruck Melody (Anhad Shabad) of God that reverberates throughout the universe. Yogis of Nada Yoga and Masters of Shabd Yoga Meditation impart to their students knowledge about developing their inner spiritual sense of transcendental hearing.
"The Sound heard internally is a Current which has originally emanated from the Supreme Being and is the means not only of concentrating the will but also of raising spirit entity to the Source from which it emanated... The method for taking back the spirit-entity to its Supreme Source is first to concentrate at the eye-focus [Third Eye], and next to commence its journey homewards by attending to the internal Sound, or in other words, by riding the Life or Sound Current which has originally emanated from the Supreme Source." (Huzur Maharaj on Surat Shabd Yoga Meditation practice in, Radhaswami Mat Prakash -- Light on the Teachings of the Lord of the Soul, Radhasoami Faith)
Spiritual Awakening Radio -- Sant Mat Satsang Podcast: Sound Meditation in the World Religions Series: Hinduism and Radhasoami (Yoga of Sound Series) - Listen, Download, Subscribe @ the Podcast Website:
VERY vindicating to feel cold & a little sad and think......"maybe i should go watch a video in bed. or do i actually need to do yoga? no ill just snuggle" and then watching a video in bed makes u blissfully happy.
i have been exploring the algorithm of the Mahāvidyā Kamalātmikā through sound pathway as facilitated by the AshZero offering of "Sounds of Śakti" for which @lensonearth created a series of sounds distilled from bījā mantra. the sounds are not chants nor articulated resonance; instead, they are what we see as a container through which sound is projected as shape. this model of absorption is a near non-linear oral transmutation which aims to follow the siddhānta (algorithm) of ṛṣi darśanāta (to understand more, watch "Vedas: All You Wanted to Know" by Dr. Kesarkar which expounds on how the Vedas originated from sound: https://youtu.be/mK6KdrmyOcg?si=t7vuad5g9kiLXCyF).
after experimenting with various abstract sound combinations for a week, i began continuously looping through one particular waveform.
with the awareness that it is in our humanness to prefer what is amiable and to make choices (such as that of which sound to absorb) based on what resonates with our sense projections, i aimed to renounce any bias and to absorb the sound for 3 weeks without expectations, familiarity or target. i listened to it in the morning and in the evening, 4 times each round.
gradually, the sound became integrated in my system; i became able to access it spontaneously, in the sensory exchanges occurring in my regular days. i noticed change in my perception of the events arising in my life as well as in my actions. as instructed, i aimed to avoid the natural urge to linearly make sense of it or to differentiate positive and negative effects arising of this flow. thus, i will not pinpoint what exactly changed in my life through the means of this sound, nor do i think it would be feasible or fruitful, as it causes validation toward a process - which is not the aim of application-based Tantra.
however, as an exercise, i decided to jot down the unfolding of a sound exploration that transpired in my first night in Rishikesh without any rationale other than an opening to the process possibly unlocking something within without a specific subconscious target.
i'm not sharing this with the intention to construct a mystical halo. mystical / energetic experience is ultimately just an experience - it can greatly help us open or gain clarity, but it's important not to get caught up in it. the experience i am sharing simply demonstrates how sound can be absorbed by the system and nothing more, and has no inherent specialness.
as i sat by the Gaṅgā, the sound i have been imbibing spontaneously rang in my right ear at low volume. after a small dram of whisky taken as sacrament, the sound boomed in both of my ears. my heartbeat increased and various bodyparts, such as navel, feet and hands began pulsing. what i understand as "pleasure pathways" in my system fired. followingly, i directly listened to the sound with headphones, eyes open. after i finished listening, the sound overturned my thoughts and my experience became an immersion in the five senses (sight, touch etc).
sacrament choice: 6 y/o Highland Park independent bottle, 60.1%, which i got from Cadenhead's at a Whiskybaba.in immersion in summer - i'm not a fan of OB (original / official bottling) of Highland Park but their IB (independent bottling) i think is a must try.
i'm really happy with who i am and where i'm going and i have healed so much and i'm proud of getting myself to this point and i am excited and open to the future and ready for all of the possibilities of my life unfolding. but. i need to get laid soon or i might die.