#you encourage me so much becca <3

[vaaaaaiolet]

You take it upon yourself to spice up your husband's work lunches at Rebecca's encouragement, and Leon nearly dies in the process. Is Hello Kitty really a killer? Leon, for one, is convinced she's up to no good.

f / m, you're married to older leon!, crack treated seriously, fluff, slice of life, the dso is just one big happy family because i said so, bento boxes and happy ending but maybe not for chris (i still love my peanut buster king)

word count: 1.4k // read on ao3

a/n: inspired by rrcherrypie's hello kitty bento box video that i watched religiously as a kid. this entire fic is a shitpost tbh LMAO this is my government mandated apology for a story where no one goes anywhere <3 go check it out if you haven't yet!

Ever since his cop days, Leon’s learned that you can’t trust anyone whose hands aren’t in plain sight and well, Hello Kitty’s emblazoned face staring up at him from the kitchen counter doesn’t exactly have hands. Or arms.

Leon scrunches his nose at her and opts to wrap his own arms around your waist instead.

“Doll.”

“Hm?” 

Leon lines the side of your neck with kisses as carrot coins and cucumber slices fall serenely away at your knife. 

“Whatcha doin’?” he prods.

You neatly sweep the vegetables into the Hello Kitty bento box and give your attention-hungry husband a kiss to tide him over, but it’s not quite enough to satiate. Octopus sausages stare back at him with pointy sesame seed eyes, and Leon grows more unsettled by the minute.

He’s done playing nice; gives your hip a pinch. “Come on, you’re killing me here. What’s with all the arts and crafts?”

“Now, before you say anything,” your voice is soft and placating and giving him all the more reason to worry, "‘Becca came by to visit me the other day and said she really liked what I made you for lunch last week.”

“So this is for her?” Leon breathes a sigh of relief. He was starting to thin-

“No, this is for you, silly!”

And you laugh like it’s funny.

“I thought I should start putting in some more effort into your food. You’re away for work so often, and I don’t get to make you nice things as much as I want to.”

Leon chokes a little and looks back down at Hello Kitty’s gleaming metal face. “This is…what I’m taking to work?”

Your face falls. “What, you don’t like it?”

“No, doll, it looks delicious but…you really didn’t have to go all out. Your sandwiches are just fine. I don’t wanna give you the trouble, y’know?” 

“No trouble at all, baby,” you practically sing the words as you twirl to add your knife to a precarious tower of dishes in the sink, “you just say the word, and I can make you bento boxes every week.”

Every week?

You cup a soapy palm to Leon’s cheek as his gaze descends into a thousand-yard stare to rival Hello Kitty’s. “I think your friends might even be excited about your lunch now!”

Oh, absolutely. Chris was going to have a field day.

Chris completely loses his shit as predicted.

“Oh, Leon, it’s adorable,” Rebecca chimes in hopefully as Chris coughs into his fist, “you should have seen how excited she was when I gave her the box!”

The frustrated ceramic click of Leon’s teeth is somehow audible over Chris’ uncivilized howling. “So this was your idea?”

She gives him a sheepish chuckle.

“Rebecca, I thought we were friends,” he pleads as he picks up his metal fork. The team hovers over Leon’s shoulders like vultures to eye what his wife’s made him for lunch. 

To your credit, it’s a mealtime Michelangelo. There are Sanrio-themed rice balls of both the brown and white variety, vegetables neatly cut and festooned with animal picks, a beautifully folded omelet, and the ever omniscient octopus sausages. Hello Kitty’s metal face guards the entire hoard like a gargoyle. It’s enough to make Leon lose his lunch, but he’d have to have some first to cough it up.

He gives the octopus a tentative poke.

“Seriously, Leon, just man up and eat the damn thing.” Jill takes no nonsense as usual, plucking a carrot from the bed of lettuce and tossing it into her mouth. “Chris is just salty he’s having his fifth protein shake lunch of the week.”

“Am not!”

“Are too!”

It’s never quiet with those two around, but Rebecca gives him an encouraging smile as he gives the octopus a chew. It’s not bad, really. It’s just something about eating something with ey-

Rapid alarm beeps in the main compound snap the team’s attention away from the bento box affair and towards the map in the middle. Rebecca shoots off in her rolling chair to pull up what’s alerting the alarm system, and Hunnigan’s business voice projects into Leon’s earpiece.

“I hope you’ve had a satisfying lunch.” 

He wonders if Hunnigan ever eats as he shoves his bento box into the breast pocket of his leather jacket. 

She, however, is unconcerned. “You’re going to need the energy for the incident we’ve just gotten wind of downtown.”

The situation was supposed to be minor. There were rumors of King Tut’s Curse swirling amongst the museum staff after a rare shipment of Egyptian artifacts, but nobody had taken anything seriously until a janitor walked into the storage room and came back out more dead than alive. Things escalated after the infected janitor wandered into the World War II exhibit and bit the cleaning team there. The staff was horrified, the media was unhelpfully broadcasting the entire thing on live TV, and the DSO had blessedly quieted the whole thing down on that end before directing the case to Leon’s team as a classic T-virus takedown operation.

Easy as pie. Except the undead cleaning crew had gotten ahold of loaded World War II guns, you know, for historical accuracy. 

It’s a cinch for the most part to evacuate the visitors from the museum. Leon ushers terrified middle schoolers out of the exhibits as fast as he can while the rest of his team rounds up the infected, and it’s a routine sweep. He just feels bad for the kiddos.

“But what about the gift sho- AHH!! ” Leon whirls around to see an Infected point a knife bayonet into a terrified sixth-grader’s face. The zombie’s finger pulls back the trigger almost cinematically, and Leon’s not stupid. He’s going to be too late.

The gun fires.

It fires a round directly into his left shoulder as he shoves the kid to safety.

Leon collapses on the ground after shooting the zombie’s head to bits, but his shoulder aches something fierce. Oh God, not again, this time he hasn’t even got Ada to patch him up. He gingerly presses two fingers to the wound and pulls them away to inspect the warm spill of blood, but surprisingly, his fingers come away clean. 

Jill comes running up as he stumbles to his feet. The last of the Infected have been wiped out, she explains frantically, pulling out a roll of gauze, and everything’s secure, but suddenly she stops to peer at his spotless bullet wound.

So it’s not just him. There was definitely a shot, and his shoulder definitely hurts like a bitch. 

But where was the bullet?

You’re chewing your nails down to the quick when Leon walks into the living room later that evening. The quiet shuffle of his shoes falling onto the stand prompts you to smother in him a warm, bakery-scented hug and take him by surprise, but he squeezes you back as much as his shoulder allows.

You sniffle into his leather-clad chest. “I’m so sorry, baby, I just- I saw the news before they stopped the broadcast and I can’t believe they sent you to deal with the riot!”

So that’s what Hunnigan fed the press this time. Practical as always.

“I can’t believe I made you go to work with that stupid lunch,” you carry on, gasping as you spot the bandage peeking through his jacket, “you didn’t like it and you could have died, I’m never-”

“I’m alright, no biggie.” Leon kisses the top of your head, taking you by the arms and sitting you down next to him on the couch. You furiously wipe a tear off your face.

“It’s not alright, I’m never making you anything you don’t like ever again. That bento box is bad juju. I’m telling Rebecca never to buy anything from that shop from now on.”

Okay, so you finally admit the box is creepy. Leon bites back a laugh. 

“Woah, doll, not so fast. You think it’s the box’s fault I got hurt?”

“What else would it be? Today’s the first time you take it to work, and then you get shot on a regular patrol.” You frown as he pulls the Hello Kitty bento out from inside his jacket. “You brought that thing home?”

He chuckles. “Take a look at it. I’ve got you to thank for saving my life.”

You squint at the tin and realize with a startle that a bullet round is lodged smack dab in the middle of Hello Kitty’s yellow nose. Like a goddamn bullseye.

The lunchbox had taken the brunt of the hit, leaving Leon unscathed.

“Incredible.” you breathe out. 

And he’s inclined to agree.

“So, doll,” Leon grins, “got any leftovers for tomorrow? Chris is a really big fan of the octopus things.”

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[mushroomnoodles]

I think your content is wonderful! It's so wholesome, funny and angsty all at once in the best ways possible. Just wanted to spread some nice love in my ask! ^_^

Does Morrigan talk to any of their little siblings when they're in the womb? For example telling them about some butterflies they saw or just reminding them that they have the most radical big sibs (them and Marcy) ever. I'm not sure how you interpret this, but I like to imagine Morrigan as a very loving big-brother in the universes where he has little siblings. :D

thank you nonnie <3 this is a longer post about morri being a big sibling in multiple aus.

tw/cw for sfw and non kink mpreg

morri talks a LOT to their siblings in the womb, especially golbaby morris, who remember how painfully boring it was sometimes to hear everyone talking around them and not being able to join in. (wizardbetty's morri has... no concept of normal babies not having their level of consciousness.) different morris have different flavors of big-sibling energy.

golbaby morris that get a sibling early on (wizardbetty) are initially concerned and a bit jealous, especially when simon can't carry them anymore and his belly gets in the way of them sitting on his lap. (they threw a little fit when simon first told them he couldn't carry them anymore until after the baby came) with ophelia especially (simon was always talking about how she would never stop moving) lil' morri would put their hands on his tummy and be like "not so hard, baby" because they remember simon telling them that when they would kick him. (side note, simon loves his golbspawn so much even if they bite him)

they're enamored by their tiny baby siblings, think they're stupid (wdym they don't have object permanence) and tries hard to "teach" literal 6 month olds how to read. gets cranky and wants attention when they feel their sibling is getting too much, but also gets fiercely protective of their "dummy" siblings, trying to prevent them from doing dumb things from experience "don't eat that stick, becca, it tastes like butt". as a teen they tend to be a little bit of a menace to their little siblings (who isn't?) but would still kill and die for them.

golbaby morris that get a sibling later on (plainvanilla) are absolutely STOKED to have a sibling, morrigan has always wanted one. much like early sibling morris, they make a point to talk to their unborn siblings often because of their own experience, but with a lot of added enthusiasm. entity pregnancies take longer than human ones, so they'd also be impatient ("girl, you are taking fivever. come out already") they also give me the vibe to poke their siblings back when they kick, partially to bug them but also to interact with them.

older morri's much more of a protective sibling than their younger variants, but with fellow golbspawn siblings morri at least is able to better relate to their baby sisters and brother. they are still the type to teach a 6 month old to read.

normal morris that get a sibling early on (vamparents, candyworld) are just 4 years old when they get their first sibling, and are very confused by their dad's bump (and extremely curious). these morris probably talk the least to their unborn siblings, but still do in part because of their parent's encouragement, mostly just "hi baby" or telling them about what they had for dinner. (vamp morri in particular was sooo excited to see ophelia, simon shared the enthusiasm to meet her but mostly because she was treating him like a punching bag)

(it took sour taffy five months, but they finally figured out what baby meant and where it was!)

vamp morri, when they're older, is much more laidback and totally does their siblings' homework for them, while sour taffy is more likely to just talk their ears off and braid their hair.

[utterlyinevitable]

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Friends helping friends

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x F!MC (Becca Lao) feat. Bryce Lahela Rating: Teen+ Warnings: mentions of depression Tropes: Bryce- Domestic; 

Summary: Bryce helps Becca clean her room. Then he encourages her to hook up with a stranger Tobias.

a/n: bryce and becca are best friends! 

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Bryce and Becca were near inseparable. She was thankful for his company and he was thankful for the color back on her freckled cheeks. 

One day on their mutual day off Bryce invited himself over to hang out. Becca told him she wasn’t doing anything fun and he took that as a challenge to make whatever she had planned enjoyable. He helped her clean and organize her room. 

What Bryce wasn’t privy to was that her sheets had been left dirty since that night. His smell on the abandoned pillows she hid in the back stopped lingering and Becca took it as a sign. She decided to swap her clothes around to coincide with the season, reorganize every drawer and surface, and bin anything and everything that doesn’t spark joy. 

According to Bryce, Becca doesn’t fold her clothes right - the two of them bickering the whole afternoon. 

“What are you doing?” she asks from across the room, watching him sit on the floor with her entire underwear drawer piled around him. Bryce’s arms deep in the drawer pulling piece after stuffed-in piece from behind. “No no no! You don’t need to!” She scurries and dives towards him, trying to pry the skimpy material from his grasp.  

He dodges, but drops the material, moving his attention to the panties at the top of the pile. “You don’t fold your underwear?” he asks, beginning to fold a pair of panties.  

“What sociopath folds their underwear?”

“Someone with limited space and a hell of a lot of clothes,” he playfully chides. 

“It's fiiiine,” she says. 

“It's not. You invited me over to organize your room and that's exactly what I'm gonna do.” He pushes her off and away so he could get unimpeded access to the designated drawer. 

“You invited yourself over.” 

“Aren't you lucky I graced you with my premier skills. You need all the help you can get. You have so much stuff. Becks, you are a hot mess.” 

“Bryce it’s fine they fit in the drawer as they are.” 

“Next you'll tell me you don't konmari!” 

She gave him a blank stare. He shot up to check the rest of the drawers of her dresser. 

“Ahhh. How do you find anything!?” Bryce was absolutely aghast. 

“I don't, that's why we're cleaning!” 

“Woman, you need me.” Bryce began dumping every contents of each dresser drawer onto the floor, much to Becca’s horror. “Watch and learn.” 

He took a pair of jeans and folded them into a square.

“I never would've thought go-with-the-flow party boy Bryce would have critical OCD.”

“A happy home is a happy life. When everything’s in the right place I don't have to worry about it. I can focus on more important things like my friends or-”

She happily cut him off. “Your hair.” 

“Same rules apply. Put out what you wanna get back in the world. We're gonna whip your room into shape and you'll be set free in no time!” 

Oh what a weighted statement that was. 

Bryce and Becca spent the better part of the daylight hours putting her room into a functional state, with the former redoing everything she did and walking her through the uses built in. The clothes that needed to be hung, were, and organized by sleeve length and color. The trousers and jeans were folded into compact rectangles, and the underwear sectioned off so that the socks didn’t mix in with the panties and the bras and so on.  

“Now that you’re rooms done, get dressed,” Bryce ordered, chucking a dress onto the bed. 

“Why?” 

“We’re going out to celebrate.”  

“Bryce, I’m tired.” Becca flopped onto the bed. “Let me enjoy the cleanly peace!” 

“Nope.” He tugged her ankles, “Lets go.” 

Donahue’s didn’t look any different. The woman at Bryce’s side did. She got all dressed up just as Bryce suggested - a dress with subtle make up to enhance her features. She looked dressed to kill, and happy too! Just like she used to look. Tonight was an absolute win in Bryce’s books on the build-a-Becks-back-up mission. 

They were having drinks at the bar, having banter with Reggie and sampling a flight of new cocktails, when Bryce leaned over to whisper in her ear.

“Hey, that guy looks familiar.” He nodded down to the end of the bar, towards that one harrowing stool she tries not to think too much about. “He’s totally checking you out.”

“Bryce…” she warns. 

“You’re hot. He’s hot. C’mon Becks when was the last time you let loose?” he nudges her shoulder a couple times. 

Becca just rolled her eyes and indulged herself in her drink.  

They carried on chatting and gossiping until Bryce stalked off with a devious smirk. He found a group of surgical residents across the bar he just needed to speak with. It was a guise, they both knew it. Becca just hoped the guy at the other end of the bar top wouldn’t leap at the opportunity. 

Alas... Bryce kept a knowing eye on Becca and her mysterious olive-skinned stranger.  

“I know you,” the man says. 

“Is that so?” Becca turned slightly on the stool to face him.  

“Tobias.” he extended his hand. “I believe we met at KoKo a few days back.” 

If she wasn’t two-drinks in she’d be embarrassed at how Tobias could read recognition dawning over her. As she recalled the man she kissed in the club. 

“Caroline.” 

She knew this was not a man she wanted to be involved with or see again. So she gave her alias, a derivative of her middle name. 

“Pleasure,” he smiled, making a motion towards the empty stool besides her, “Where’s your friend?” 

Becca pointed over to the dart board where he was joking with some other surgical interns. 

“Surgeons...” he drawls. “Not a brain cell between them.”

Becca let out a slight chuckle before returning her gin and tonic to her lips. 

“You’re a doctor?” she says more than asks.  

“I am; over at Mass Kenmore.” 

“What brings you to Edenbrook’s side of town?” 

“Would you believe me if I said the company?” 

“No.” 

They talked, conversation flowing as freely as the drinks, intention hanging on their every word. 

Becca knew she shouldn’t indulge another endeavor with the handsome stranger. It was a disaster waiting to happen. God, she hated the way this man smiled - like he was a python devouring her whole. But in the dim light of Donahue’s, Bryce’s encouraging winks and nods from a few stools down, and the free drinks pouring, maybe a dance with the devil was exactly what she needed. A bit of mind numbing sex never hurt anybody, right?

No;

This wouldn’t hurt Becca, or him, but in time it would hurt Ethan.

‘Caroline’ downed her drink and gave Reggie the signal for another shot. 

“One condition,” she says. 

His eyebrow raises and he leans in, closer, “Enlighten me.” 

“This never happens again.”  

His smile grew like the Cheshire Cat, “Challenge accepted.” 

Tobias and she clinked glasses as she weighed her options one final time. There’s the bar bathroom, dirty and sticky and something straight out of a horror film. Or they could go back to his place. An intimate look into how the Mass Kenmore Diagnostician lives. Too intimate.

Then Becca slinked off her stool and made her way to the bathroom, Tobias not too far behind. 

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a/n: this is obviously an ethan x becca endgame fic. just with a sprinkling of love for bryce and what should have been. 

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[sharonisthebettercarter]

Castration and orchidectomy are not the same thing.

Castration is the removal of the testicles, while orchidectomy is the removal of only one testicle. Orchidectomy can be done for medical reasons and to treat certain conditions, but it is also a common procedure for transgender people who are transitioning to a male or male-presenting gender identity.

While both can lead to a reduction in the production of certain hormones, the overall effects and consequences are different depending on the specific procedure and the patient's individual medical needs and goals.

putting these in one again

Orchidectomy (from the Greek "orchi" meaning "testicle") is a surgical procedure in which one or both testicles are removed from a person's body. It's a form of castration, because it removes the production of testosterone from the body. This can lead to a decrease in libido, hair growth, and energy levels, as well as a change in voice and body shape due to the loss of estrogen and testosterone that would usually be produced by the testicles.

Orchidectomy can be done to treat certain medical conditions like uterine, ovarian, and other gynecological cancers as well as testicular cancer.

baby, all you told me in these two is that a square is not a rectangle it's a rhombus but also it is a form of rectangle and it's so unnecessary, i gotta tell ya. but it's a little bit funny to me too

this is all semantics, but from what i gather, orchiectomy is what they call the surgical procedure for bilateral castration today. it's just a slightly newer word for the same old process, granted with much better medical knowledge and safety than the 19th or 16th centuries, but i digress, lmao

emasculation actually has an archaic use that means to castrate as well! neuter is even older than all of them. sorry, lol, synonym nut because i write<3

... smuts... sometimes... ;)))))))))))))))))))))))))

ahem.

i am aware that there are medical advantages or reasonings to castration and that orchiectomy would be used for trans people as well, but i suppose this could be news for others?? and i'm always down for edumacation~<3 (same goes for mastectomies and hysterectomies too, ESPECIALLY for fibroids and endometriosis)

i still thinks it's a bit extreme of a jump for ryan (which has me wondering if you may be projecting some internalized feelings onto him as a character/want to see them represented which to a degree, i can get, go and be *you* if you are trans and don't let anyone tell you different), but don't think i missed all the hints

this tells me you want ryan to be trans i'm guessing? i think rep of a trans person/kid would be nice and plausible for the boys (especially with how witch hunty people are right now, fuck that), but i don't know if i want it to happen to ryan specifically when he like... he *already* has HOMELANDER to deal with and you wanna add to that???

listen... i just wanna see ryan be a little shit and use his powers. the actor who plays him is GREAT at being a creepy little fucker (prior experience in horror!) which i suppose could work with the trans aspect, but like... it would be a lot going on at once (there's a balance here that can be easily overloaded) and i'm not so sure you'd want a little transgirl minilander lasering the shit out of stuff??? (or maybe you do, LMAO!!)

but i also feel like if there were any indication he might be trans, he'd have already shown signs with becca raising him (she was 100% a supportive parent, she raised him gentle which homie insulted but i'm pretty sure she would have let ryan actually be a girl if he felt uncomfortable being a boy is what i'm getting at.)

OR~<3! and here's a kickin' twist... ryan has secretly been trans the whole time<3<3<3!!! (could you imagine, whole different set of problems with homelander finding out but he'd probably *actually* encourage it in this case *just* to hide it since he's already introduced ryan as his son to the public!)

i do think some good trans rep may be more likely for gen v and that it would be lovely to see<3

my thing is that i just want them to add big bobby~<3 (hughie's transwoman friend in the comics) cause she's over 6 foot and a total boss that flaunts her fabulously flamboyant fashion sense while just being all around awesome and huge and awesome and kind of an asshole but also awesome i love her... i also LOVE bobby as a girl's name like you have no idea... IT'S CUTE--.

but idk, it's whatever i guess, and remember that squares are the lovechild of the rhombus and rectangle~<3<3<3

and go write trans ryan fic if you want trans ryan, lol! you have all rights to do whatever the fuck you want in fanfic<3 ;)

**ALSO, i'm assuming the very last thing you mentioned pertains exclusively to intersexed people, satan that did not hit me the first time.

but generally if someone can have an orchiectomy, they don't have a uterus or ovaries (though yes, i am aware some often ignored humans do have both), i would have started by mentioning testicular/prostate/other y chromosome related cancers because generally speaking, someone who has testes does not see a gynecologist or is at risk for any of those cancers. (generally, again, intersex people and chromosomal disorders are a thing)

anywho~<3 ;))))

[virtualfindingsdocumented]

tell me everything u headcanon about TWWHNB

!!!

- Bertrand's mom. They have the same blue eyes.

- One of the first firestarters. She first got into it because she wanted revenge against her horrible guardian, who was important in VFD, kept doing it because arson is fun

- Self taught latin

- Got into law and became a judge for the power

- She is best friends with The Man, he's one of the few people she truly cares about. They're both not really into cheesy displays of affection though.

- As a child she was very quiet and didn't have many friends. She spent a lot of time reading.

- The hatred for books she shows in TSS comes from a hatred for everything that VFD stands for, which only grew bigger as the years passed

- I am not sure if she and Bertrand's dad got married as I see their relationship as going really fast. They were planning on leaving the fight against VFD at least for a while, moving somewhere far where the baby would be safe. But then Bertrand's dad died on a mission and then the baby was taken and she decided to keep fighting, now with a hatred much bigger than she had before

- Probably removed her tattoo on her own. With fire because aesthetics.

- She's sarcastic in a way that comes out as mean even when she is not trying to be mean (she is mean to henchpeople and servants and her enemies and strangers, but not to her friends and coworkers)

- She was probably the one who guided Ernest to the firestarting side. I still don't know the details.

- Probably has some personal issue against Lemony because almost every villain has some personal issue against him. He's just like that, he goes around making enemies everywhere.

[possibleplatypus]

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3. 😂 A fic that made you laugh out loud.

6. ☺️ A fic that made you smile on a bad day.

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3. My Big Fat Wolf Wedding by AggressiveWhenStartled, galwednesday, quietnight, silentwalrus, skellerbvvt “MARRIED?”

“Basically married. Permanently engaged anyway. Weres have their own deal.” Natasha sounds much, much too gleeful about Steve’s rapidly expanding personal hell. “So you better wake your blushing bride and tell him the happy news: that it was an accident and you had no idea what you were doing.”

“I,” Steve says, strangled. “I can’t do that!”

“You can’t?”

“He thought I was proposing! And he accepted!”

“Wow, maybe he’s just as dumb as you are,” Natasha says thoughtfully.

“I can’t just promise him a ring, take him home, drink from him three times in a row and then wake him up the next morning to say oops, just kidding!” Steve casts around, looking at his wreck of an apartment. “I don’t even have any good champagne!”

(Honestly could not stop laughing especially towards the end ;) )

6. a dream that feels so real to me by @greyhavensking “What I’m driving at,” Steve says, tightening his grip on Bucky’s hand the same time he presses into his shoulder, giving him something solid to lean against, “is that those aren’t my favorite memories of you.”

That gets Bucky’s mask to crack a little, curiosity bleeding through the fracture lines. “Really? ‘Cause I seem to recall you’ve got a strange fondness for that one time I let Becca mess with my hair and she stuck about a hundred different ribbons and bows in it. You drew it, just so you wouldn’t ever forget the look on my face when I caught sight of myself in a mirror.”

Steve snorts, very much ignoring the daggers Bucky glares at him for the response. It is a good memory, his or not, and he’s almost sad that that particular drawing didn’t make it into the exhibit. But, no, that’s not his favorite, not by a longshot.

“First time I kissed you,” is all he says, eager to watch the play of emotions over Bucky’s face as he processes that.

Because the first time they kissed? Happened right here in the museum.

(Super sweet Night at the Museum AU ;_; I encourage reading the whole series!)

12. An Appropriate Omega (WIP) by BeauRadley Steven Rogers, the Duke of Brooklyn, is in a bind. The provisions of his father's will mean he must marry before his thirty-fifth birthday or lose his mother's inheritance. The catch? He has to marry a suitable omega.

James Barnes is the third child of the impoverished Barnes family. If he or his sister don't marry before the season is out, their family will fall further into poverty. If he doesn't find someone else soon, he'll be forced to marry the sinister Lord Pierce.

The two men realize they can solve each other's problems, but will their marriage of convenience turn into something more?

(I just started reading this a few days ago and binged all of it. Now I am impatiently waiting for the next part lol)

15. This was the hardest one... If I had my way I’d print out all my favorite fics, bind them, and have a whole physical stucky library, sorted by author ;) alas...

The Hundred Year Playlist by girlbookwrm (stories are finished, series is ongoing, so far 300k+) Steve and Bucky, start to finish.

"Come on, pal, it's me. Take another hundred years if you want, I'll still be here.” (All these stories stand alone and are roughly canon compliant)

DREAMERS WITH EMPTY HANDS: Pre CATFA. Steve Rogers/Chronic Pain, with bonus Steve/Pining. 1924-1943

GOOD MORNING HEARTACHE, WHAT'S NEW?: CATFA. Steve/Emotional Pain, War Years Edition. 1943-1945/2011

THE TERROR OF KNOWING: Winter Soldier Years. Soldat/Fear, with bonus Baby Widows. 1945-2014.

FOOL FOR SACRIFICE: Avengers 1 - AoU. Steve/Losing Everything. 2011-2015

NO HOPE FOR THE WEARY: TWS-CACW. Bucky/Let Him Rest. The Big Recovery Fic, 2014-2016.

LAY DOWN YOUR WEAPON: Pre-IW. Steve/Bucky/their giant pile of Issues.

COMING SOON: Post EG and TFATWS season 1. Sam and Bucky's Multiverse Roadtrip (to get Steve back)

and

The Fray Will Well Become Me by mugwort and myrrh (almost 400k; stories are finished, series is ongoing) Also known as the Magic Pixie Dream Steve 'verse.

Steve Rogers' father is an immortal sorcerer from another world. This changes some things some things a Hell of a lot, and some things not at all.

Or: sorcery, sex, soldiering, spy craft and shapeshifting.

fic rec ask game!

[tempe-brennans]

becca's lovey dovey sleepover

hi besties! <3 so, we're gonna say this is for valentine's day, but in reality it's just because i wanna have a sleepover🤷🏻‍♀️

below are some prompts you're more than welcome (encouraged, actually) to send in!

i'm thinking this could go from like the 10th to the 12th, but y'all can start sending stuff in whenever you want! <3

🌸 - mooboards! send me a character + an aesthetic (valentine's related or not!) and i'll make you a little moodboard

💕 - games! y'all can send me fuck, marry, kill's (or kiss) or cast your mutuals or would you rathers!

🌷 - advice! if there's something you wanna talk about, y'all can ask me for advice!

💌 - ask me anything! if there's anything y'all wanna know (within reason, but pretty much anything) and i'll answer!

💗 - directors cut! i'll send you a line from a wip or you can ask about one of my fics!

🍨- drabbles! you can send me a prompt or just a request (fluff, angst, or smut) and i'll write you a lil something (these can also be valentine's related or not!)

here's a list of the characters i write for: dean winchester, thor odinson, matt murdock, eddie brock, steve rogers, natasha romanoff, sam wilson, anakin skywalker, obi-wan kenobi, jim hopper

(i could be persuaded to write for almost anybody as long as i know who they are, so don't be afraid to ask if you don't see someone you want on this list)

[wannabevampire]

sappy new years post!!!

first of all THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 670 FOLLOWERS????? this is so insane 🥺 i started this accounts a few months ago and i’m so so glad i decided to do that! this has been such an amazing outlet to not only explore my sexuality, but also share my writing (which i have literally NEVER done before)

<3

i mean..no one irl knows I write at all? like my biggest secret is that i’m literally writing a book and have a manuscript for a book of short stories I wrote. This account has literally helped me grow so much, which i know sounds kinda crazy? and i totally didn’t see it coming! but it’s true :))

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

so i wanted to say some quick thank you’s to the wonderful people who have helped me along the way!

@becca-e-barnes / @you-expect-too-much : Becca!!

you’re the first person I ever showed my writing too. it was literally just me being horny in your ask box, but regardless you were so supportive and sweet! thank you for encouraging me to write and thank you for being such a lovely presence on this app! you are such a kind and talented writer and i honestly look up you so much🥺

<3

@bucksfucks : Nora!

I know I have literally never spoken to you before and we’ve never interacted. But i just wanted to say that your account was the first fan-fic blog on tumblr I followed! I had no idea fics were a thing on tumblr (i was much more of an ao3 girlie teehee) but goodness am I glad i discovered this! You’ve inspired me so much, and you’re writing is genuinely incredible! Everyone should definitely go follow this wonderful creator because DAMN she writes some the hottest Bucky fics🥵

<3

@waspswidows @eviewritessometimes @druigsluvbot

there is so much i could say to you guys ilysm, thank you for being my friends! and thank you for supporting my horny druig posts (and my sad ones…)

you are all such incredible writers and i’m so happy we’re mutuals 🤧 literally you guys are the best

we really gotta figure out how to coordinate time zones, cuz my adhd ass will forget about the knife fic and we can’t let that happen 😭

<3

@mothdruid @mushroomlupin @starbuckie @serendipityrogers @greenorangevioletgrass @agentofbarnes @hungryyeyes

some more mutuals who i think are just THE COOLEST and i would love to interact more because you guys are all such great writers!

<3

and of course, any mutuals I forgot to tag you guys are so sweet and ilysm i just have a bad memory😭 i would tag all the amazing talented people on this app but i think i might surpass the word limit because everyone here is so cool 🤧

<3

and of course…my wonder amazing beautiful little vampires (aka my followers hehe) your support means everything and i love talking to guys! whether that’s through dm’s or anon asks, it means a lot!

<3

Hopefully 2022 will treat us better! Wishing you all the best of luck this year<3 keep writing your little hearts out cuz I will eat that shit up until the day i die! that’s a promise, and i don’t break promises!!🤺

sending so many hugs and kisses!!

xoxo,

allie🕊

[ravens-words]

I cannot believe there are 400 of you who saw my mess of a blog and decided it was worthy of a follow. Without you all, the past year would not have been nearly as fun, chaotic or productive as it turned out to be.

Thank you to each one of you. I appreciate you all so much 🌸

Now, onto the fun (I hope) stuff:

Send me a 🥀 + a ship and a combination of an angsty prompt and a soft prompt from these lists and I'll write a drabble for you.

Ships I Write For: Tarlos, Buddie and Malex.

♤ Send me a character/ship + an idea/au and i’ll write my thoughts about it

♤ Send me a ship or fandom and I'll rate it

♤ Ask any questions about any fic, whether it's posted or a WIP. Talk to me about one of my fics! tell me your thoughts!

♤ Send me 🍁 and a ship/character and I'll give you my top 3 fics about them.

♤ Send me 🎶 and I’ll shuffle my music library and give you my favorite lyric for the song I land on

👀 Ask me anything you want and I’ll answer truthfully (scout's honor)

Anything other than the fic requests can be sent on or off Anon!

I would love to interact with all of you, but please know that I tagged you to show appreciation and that you absolutely do not have to interact at all if you don't want to 🌸

@cosmiicmalex AJ, my best friend. Thank you for being you. I am so grateful that I got to know you. Talking to you was a decision I will always be happy that I made. Without your encouraging words, and your pushing, I wouldn't have posted my first tarlos fic and I wouldn't have gotten to join the 126 discord family that I love so much. Thank you for listening to my rants, and for enjoying them (and occasionally setting me off, on purpose). I love you 💛

@laelipoo Jen, your friendship means so so much to me. I love our talks, I love our angsty brainstorming sessions, I love goading you and I absolutely love causing chaos before you had your morning coffee. I love you 💚.

@excusemyfrenchgh Elle, my first friend ever on tumblr!! I still remember how frustrated I was when I couldn't find any Malex shippers who loved Max too, posted about it, and you responded. I am so so happy you did. I appreciate you so much, baby. I love you ❤

@alwaysablossom S! My twin in almost everything lol. Your friendship means the world. Your support means the world. Thank you for being my friend, and thank you for bullying me into watching the Rookie, and suffering through my detailed rants about it. I love you 💜

@djdangerlove you are a ray of sunshine and I'm so grateful I got to know you. Your friendship and your talent are two things I'm incredibly lucky to have in my life. I love you 🖤

@lenscribbles Len!! We don't talk as much as we used to, but you have such a special place in my heart, friend! Our Pynch talks were always epic. I love you ❤

@iwonderifyouwonderaboutme Becca, you lovely human, your friendship and our talks are a bright spot in my life. I love you 🧡

The 126 Discord family:

@lire-casander @alilypea @aliceschuyler @immortalstrand @miss-macca @pragmaticoptimist34 @ourdiningroom @noxsoulmate @morganaspendragonss @daniela-bella @breannacasey

RNM/911/LS mutuals

@lambourngb @lovecolibri @theviewofmylife @alexmanesss @capmanes @el-gilliath @sabrinachill @idealuk @aliencurls @gra-sonas @manesalex @tylerjblackburn @angrycowboy @bluenet13 @maddieandchimney @loveyourownsmiilee @actuallysara @dearbuck @futures-tense @imcatchingteardropsinmyhands @diazchristopher @buckybarnesalways @silvarafael @221bsunsettowers @christopherismybuddie @reyescarlos @silvarafael @rafael-silva @alberthan @evanbuckleys @outrunningthedark @justsmilestuffhappens

Stupid tumblr won't let me tag more than 50 people, so I can't tag all you wonderful mutuals 😭

[writingquestionsanswered]

hii! lately i've been having trouble with describing my characters emotions and feelings (basically the show not tell thing, i feel?) and i don't know how i can improve this, though i've tried many things already... i'm just not satisfied with how i do it... i dont know if it helps, but i write from third person pov focusing on one character's pov especifically

Trouble Describing Emotions

Learning to describe emotions (rather than label them) is one of the early challenges many writers face in improving their writing skills. So, trust me, you’re in good company. It’s something a lot of newer writers (and even some more seasoned ones) struggle with. Fortunately, there are a lot of things that can help.

1) Labeling vs Describing

First and foremost, it helps to understand the difference between labeling an emotion and describing one.

Emotion labels are words like happy, sad, scared, worried, elated, horrified, angry, embarrassed, etc.

Every one of those emotions has specific facial expressions, body language, and internal cues that go along with them. If I realize my best friend has a crush on my next door neighbor, and when I call her out on it she’s embarrassed, I’ll probably be able to tell that just by looking at her. Any one or combination of the following might happen: blushing, hives, nervous giggling, wide eyes, shaking head no, waving it off, hiding face in hands, hysterical laughter, biting bottom lip, not willing to make eye contact, etc. These visual cues will let me know she’s embarrassed. Likewise, she’ll know she’s embarrassed because of the things she’s feeling physically, like her cheeks burning, nervous energy, inability to stop giggling, butterflies in the stomach, watering eyes, etc.

So, the key to describing emotions, rather than labeling them, is to think about the cues that indicate what someone is feeling, and describe those rather than labeling the emotion. For example:

Terrance got down on one knee and Aisha was super happy!

“Super happy” is a label. What visual cues might we see that indicate Aisha’s super happiness?

Terrance got down on one knee and Aisha's jaw dropped, her eyes widening as everything sunk in. She gasped and brought her hand to her mouth as she burst into tears, but her twinkling eyes reflected her smiling face before she revealed it to Terrance. “Oh my God, T! Yes! Of course I will marry you!”

See the difference?

I strongly encourage you to get a copy of The Emotion Thesaurus by Angela Ackerman and Becca Puglisi, as this provides all of the external and internal cues common to a huge variety of emotion labels and is a super handy reference for any writer’s desk.

2) When to Show Emotions (And When Not To)

Remember, fiction is made up of three elements: narrative exposition (explaining information or internal monologue), action (describing things that are happening), and dialogue (characters having conversations.)

The main point when you will show emotions rather than label them is during action, which is when something is happening, like Terrance proposing to Aisha. This is a moment the reader is watching unfold, so you want the visceral impact of the description rather than the blunt and weak label.

You may also sometimes show emotions when characters are recalling something that happened, specifically when that recall is being used to show the reader something that happened outside the events of the story, like in the past or between chapters. Here again, the moment is technically meant to be unfolding for the reader, so it helps to have the impact of description. 

However, sometimes a character is recalling or thinking about something that happened that the reader already saw unfold. This could be happening internally, as in they’re thinking about it, or it could be happening externally, in dialogue with another character. This is a point where it might be better to label rather than describe. For instance, if your character is sitting in a coffee shop and another friend arrives, and that friend sits down and says, “OMG, did you hear Terrance proposed to Aisha?” If your character happened to be there when it happened, it might be weird for her to answer, “Yes! I was there! Her jaw dropped, her eyes widened as everything sunk in. She gasped and brought her hand to her mouth, bursting into tears...” That’s just not really the way people talk. In this case, it would make more sense for your character to say, “Yes! I was there! She cried but she was super happy!”

On the flipside, let’s say the reader didn’t see the actual proposal unfold. Terrance is sitting in a coffee shop when his friend arrives and asks, “How did it go with Aisha? What did she do when you proposed?” He could certainly answer, “She cried. She was super happy...” but it also might make sense for him to say, “Her jaw dropped and she burst into tears, but she was smiling so big, and she said yes!” Not quite as much description since it’s dialogue, but since the reader didn’t actually see it unfold, it’s more than just a label to give the moment a bit more impact.

3) Treat Emotion Labels As Alarm Bells

Try to think of emotion labels as alarm bells. When you see them in your writing or are tempted to use one, stop and consider whether it’s best to label or describe, according to what you learned in #2. When it’s a situation where you should be describing, consider what those cues would be (or look them up in The Emotion Thesaurus) and formulate a description rather than relying on a label.

I hope that helps! <3

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Have a question? My inbox is always open, but make sure to check my FAQ and post master lists first to see if I’ve already answered a similar question. :)

[midnightsnyx]

Consequences - Matthew Tkachuk: part 8

summary: you absolutely hate Matthew Tkachuk so it’s just your luck when you wind up pregnant with his child.

here is it! the last part! please let me know if its too corny lol. epilogue will be posted either this week or next.

couples notes: 1. i don’t know anything about childbirth aside from what google taught me so i apologize for any wrong info! 2. i’m sorry this story was pretty short lol ya girl is doing the best i can😅 3. i wanna throw a couple quick thanks now and then the rest when i post the epilogue. 

first of all i wanna send a thank you to @hannahmb​ who let me bounce ideas off her, gave me feedback, listened to me complain about not knowing where to go with the chapters and also, helped name baby tkachuk! so thank you hannah! you rock 🖤

i wanna thank @notanotherhockeyblog95​ for also listening to me whine about not knowing what to write 😂 also, for giving me loads of encouragement and letting me throw ideas at her! you’re the best!!🖤

anyways here’s part 8! i hope you guys like it and thanks again for reading<3

word count: 2.3k

warnings: none

Part 8

41 weeks

“Matty. Wake up.” You whisper, shaking his shoulder in attempt to wake him. He doesn’t budge so you pull the blankets off him in hopes that it might work but again, he doesn’t move. It’s quite disappointing considering you’re now five days past your due date and if you were in labor, he won’t wake. Luckily, Chantal is sleeping just down the hall. After many conversations, you and Matthew agreed that it was probably a good idea to have her stay with the two of you in case you were to go in labor while Matt was playing a game. Yes, you had friends around but it comforted you much more having Chantal here because she’s went through this before.

With one last look at Matt, you roll out of bed and waddle like a duck, because that’s what you looked like according to Matt and Brady, to the kitchen. You were trying to wake Matt up because you felt like a snack but you didn’t feel like getting out of bed.

You’re digging through the freezer for some ice-cream you’re sure Brady had bought when he last visited when you feel the first cramp. It’s a little uncomfortable but you’ve been having some braxton hicks contractions on and off over the past few weeks, some feeling real enough that you went to the hospital only to be sent home which was very embarrassing even though Chantal told you it happens all the time. It wasn’t exactly the fact that you got sent home that you felt embarrassed about, but that Matthew left practice because he thought you were in labor. You just thanked your lucky stars that it wasn’t while he was in the middle of a game because it would’ve been ten times worse.

So you brush it off, cheering silently when you find the tub of chocolate ice-cream, idly wondering if it’s weird to eat it in bed at three o’clock in the morning. You decide it’s not, walking back to the bedroom and crawling in bed. You sit up against the headboard and grab the PS4 controller so you can put Netflix on since you know you won’t be falling asleep any time soon.

Matt rolls over and throws and arm over your legs and nuzzling his face in your side halfway through an episode of Grey’s Anatomy. It’s gives your belly a weird feeling again, not pain this time but something else. Something a little unsettling because you haven’t felt this particular feeling in quite some time.

You’re pretty sure you’re in love with Matt which makes you equally frightened as it does happy. You’ve realized that your hatred for him stemmed from that one night when he did something to make you angry when your breakup with your ex was so fresh and you were emotionally vulnerable.

Just like Johnny had told Matt good things about you, he’s mentioned things about Matt to you, obviously in hopes that the two of you would hit it off. It gave you a little hope that despite what you had heard from some of the girls, he wasn’t that bad of a guy which you know is true now.

Your only problem now is that you have no idea how strong his feelings are for you. Part of you is afraid that what he does feel is only from seeing you carrying his child. You know what he told you at the baby shower, that he liked you since you met but you still can’t shake the feeling that maybe what he feels for you might just be temporary.

That one day he’s going to wake up and decide that he doesn’t want you the way he does now and it breaks your heart thinking about it.

“You’re crying.” Matt mumbles and you look down to see him now wide awake. “What’s wrong?”

You didn’t realize that you were crying and you can’t wait for the day when everything doesn’t make you cry like a baby.

“I’m fine.” You say, swiping the tears away. “It’s the show.” This is a lie because you haven’t been paying attention to the show for about five minutes.

He looks at the TV and then looks back at you with an eyebrow raised. “It’s a sex scene. Something you been wanting to tell me?”

He has a tiny smirk on his face and it’s temping, it really is, but you shake your head and try to come up with some other excuse.

“My ice-cream melted.”

“Do you want more?” He frowns, sitting up and it drives you insane sometimes, how willing he is to do anything for you at any given time.

“No, I just -” you sigh, putting the tub on the night table. “I’m tired.”

You know it’s a lie and so does he but he doesn’t push like he normally would. You let him tug you down so you’re laying on your side and he’s wrapped around you, hand resting on your belly and face tucked in your neck.

“What about Jasper?” He whispers and you smile.

“I like it.” You tell him and he nods.

“We’ll put it on the list.”

. . .

It’s later that evening and you’ve been having what you’re telling yourself are braxton hicks contractions all day. You refuse to go back to the hospital already because you know you’ll just get sent home again. Besides, Matty has a game tonight and you’re determined to go because it’s the last game of the season. The Flames won’t make the playoff’s this year and you know Matt is upset about it but he said that what’s more important is that he’ll be here for when and after the baby is born.

His words made you fall in love with him a little more.

You and Chantal arrived at the arena early enough that you can go down to see Matt while she finds your seats. You text him when you’re outside the locker doors and he looks happy when he walks out to see you. You can see the hint of disappointment that tonight is the last game until next season but he smiles at you anyway.

“How’s Jasper?” He asks, resting a hand on your stomach.

“I don’t remember agreeing to that name.” You tease and he shrugs.

“Jasper Tkachuk. Has a nice ring to it.” He says, giving you a soft smile. He looks like he wants to say something else but somebody yells his name and you know he has to go.

He smiles apologetically. “I’ll come find you after the game.”

You nod, letting him kiss you before heading back to the locker room. You find your way to Chantal in the stands, trying to ignore the way the braxton hicks contractions won’t go away. There’s a small part of you that knows you shouldn’t be brushing them off but now really isn’t the time for you to go into labor.

You can’t hide the winces from Chantal though because halfway through the first period, she frowns.

“How long have you been having them?”

You wince when another one washes through you. It’s much closer to the last one.

“Since this morning?”

“Y/N.” She scolds gently but firmly.

“It’s his last game! I don’t want to miss it.”

“Honey, you’re in labor.”

When those words leave Chantal’s mouth, it feels like somebody smacked you because it’s suddenly so real.

“C’mon. Let’s get to the hospital.” She says, helping you out of your seat.

“Matt-”

“We’ll get a message to him.” she assures you. “he won’t miss it.”

. . .

As you watch the game from your hospital bed, Chantal paces around the room on her phone trying to talk to someone who can get a message to Matt.

Your water broke shortly after you and Chantal arrived at the hospital and you know how quickly things can progress so you’re terrified that he won’t make it in time. You know that it’s something that the two of you had talked about early on, in the case that he was on a road trip and wouldn’t be here but knowing that he is here but you can’t get a hold of him, is hard.

“I know it’s an unusual situation.” Chantal snaps. “Figure it out.”

When she ends the call, she sighs and presses a hand to her forehead. You know how stressed she is about the situation but when she turns to you, there’s a gentle smile on her face.

“He’ll be here.”

You admire her attempt at trying to reassure you but you know that you need to get yourself in a good mindset to be okay if he’s not here.

“Did you call Becca?” You ask, hoping for at least some good news.

“Yes, she’s on her way.”

A little bit of good news. Finally.

You start to ask if she’s called anyone else but a nurse comes in the room to check you. When she tells you it shouldn’t be much longer, your heart sinks, realizing that Matt’s probably not going to make it here in time.

“I just got word that Matthew Tkachuk will be out for the rest of the game.” you hear Elliotte Friedman say and your head snaps up. You forgot that the TV was still on and it’s now intermission. “I didn’t see him get injured during the game, Chris. Did you?”

“No, and he didn’t take any major penalties. Maybe we missed something.”

Your heart leaps when you realize that he’s probably left the game because someone got the message through to him and you’re proven right when your phone buzzes and his name appears on the screen.

“Matty.”

“Hey, baby.” he says in a rushed voice. “I’m on my way to the hospital, okay?”

“Yeah?” You sniffle, knowing you’re going to cry.

“Yeah.” He promises. “Fifteen minutes, okay?”

He stays on the phone with you until he reaches the hospital and even until he reaches your room.

He takes Chantal’s place on the chair next to your bed as soon as he walks in.

“Ready?” He asks, taking one of your hands in his and pressing his lips to it.

“Not really.” You joke, trying to lighten the mood because you’re scared out of your mind. Your entire life is about to change but when you look at Matt sitting next to you, eyes kind and warm and with the smile on his face, you know you can do just about anything with him by your side.

. . .

“I guess we need to pick a name now, huh?” Matt whispers, cradling the baby in his arms. He was natural from the moment he held him and it was like your heart exploded. If you thought you loved Matt before, you know that you love him now.

“What about Henry?” You ask, watching him walk around, bouncing the baby gently.

His mouth turns up in a tiny smile. “I love it.” Then he looks up at you and tilts his head a little as if he’s coming to a realization.

“What?”

He shrugs, looking back down at Henry before walking over and sitting on the bed next to you. He lets you take the baby out of his arms so you can nurse him.

“I just realized something.”

“And what’s that?” You ask, raising an eyebrow when he smiles.

“I love you.” He says easily and when your eyes start watering, he just laughs gently. “I love you so much it’s crazy.”

“Really?” You ask and he nods.

“Really.” He grins and you can’t help but laugh when he pulls his phone out of his pocket and waves it in the air.

“Now, shall we make this Instagram official?” He asks and you roll your eyes fondly.

“You’re such a dork.”

“But you love me.” He says and you smile, pulling him close enough so that you can kiss him.

“I really do.”

[seeyoumondaydevi]

Now that they're official, what do you see Paxton and Devi’s relationship dynamic looking like next season? In terms of dates, PDA, studying together, physical stuff, conversations, dinner with each other’s families (Nalini PLEASE warm up to Paxton thank you), sex, fights, etc? I personally thought Paxton falling asleep on Devi at the relay was an adorable touch and I hope we see them cuddling up next season or lying on each other’s laps and things like that. It’s also pretty clear that they really really like making out with each other lol :) and I’m wondering if they’ll take that to second base or further next season. It’s interesting to think about– they’re such a fun, unique couple and I'm a sucker for teen romances with body language! I also think that regarding sex, it could definitely be hilarious to contrast Devi's total inexperience with Paxton's plentiful experience, but based on how much he genuinely likes her I think he'd be totally okay taking things slow for a change.

I'm also wondering if Devi will open up to Paxton about her therapy and how much she's been going through mentally. It'd also be neat to see her encourage Paxton to trust more people with Rebecca, and for him to talk more about how affected he was over her being bullied and how it's made him overprotective. I still think that Devi is very starstruck by Paxton and still sees him as her Superman, whereas he likes her more for who she is and how happy she makes him. I hope there's a turning point where she starts to see him as a human being rather than a celebrity figure but that's hard after so many years of obsessing over someone.

Hey anon! I reallyy like this ask alot <3

I personally don't think they will have a smooth start? I feel like they are going to be exposed to a LOT of gossip and looks especially how Paxton's friends looked at him for getting with a girl who cheated on him. But now I'm glad that doesn't stop Paxton from making Devi his public girlfriend, so that shouldn't stop him from public display of affection either. So we might see both of them in a public relationship but getting judged at the same time? But I really want them to hold hands (which I'm very sure they will) random hugs by the lockers, pecks before class but I don't know we'll see. Give me Paxton hugging Devi from the back when she's taking her books out from her locker.

I will riot if season 3 doesn't give us Daxton study dates and then Paxton just teasing her with his "bedroom eyes" them makin jokes about random facts.. physical stuff, I'm sure we are gonna see them make out more and maybe have a conversation about sex? Paxton wanting to take things slow because I believe Devi is his first actual girlfriend also I can totally picture Devi saying something weird due to lack of experience but Paxton just finding it endearing which makes it adorable AF.. and about fights.. I honestly don't know. Don't come at me okay but I think Nalini can warm up to Paxton, but I don't think she can warm up to Paxton and Devi dating, which could be a problem for them in season three. See well, I have an Indian mother who is literally Nalini but a hundred times more Nalini(if that makes sense). She lost it when I made a few guy friends. She yelled at me for talking to guys even if it was for a group project.. now she slowly warms up to my guy friends... but if I ever dated. SHE'D HAVE ME AND MY HYPOTHETICAL BOYFRIEND BURRIED. Also Devi isn't allowed to date until she's old enough to rent a car... so I don't think she'll take it well even if she's warmed up to Paxton (even though I want her too smh) ANON YES, I've replayed that way too much. Give me daxton cuddles , them lying on each others laps, falling asleep on shoulders and yes lmfao they really enjoy making out with each other, and I quote "you are very good at kissing" lol I love Devi complements him when she's breaking things off with him. Devi mostly might open up to Paxton? I feel like she would because she has in season 1 (about how she saw her dad in a coyote, her temper, culture and how people don't think she's Indian enough etc, how she thinks people are done with her) also Paxton is a VERY good listener so I can see her opening up to him. Plus he also says the right things to calm her down or cheer her up so I really want her too but if the writers decide to ruin them... I dont know.

True, we've only seen becca in the house. I wanna see her with other people. I wanna know how she reacts when Paxton tells her Devi is his girlfriend. I wanna see her and Devi roasting Paxton. I also want to see more of protective Paxton. I loved it when he opened up to her about how his sister was bullied and I do wanna see more of that.

Yeah I get what you're saying. She did think he was WAY out of her league and she's enchanted by him.. but I feel like the whole point of HER breaking things off with him was to show that she isn't anymore? I don't mean she doesn't have feelings for him.. she isn't gonna take any crap he gives her just because SHE THINKS he's a boy way out of her league. Like every time he makes a move, Devi is in SHOCK or wonderstruck (ahh I randomly remembered how 'enchanted' by Taylor suits so well with them) .

I also have a whole list of other things I want to see with Daxton in season 3. Paxton calming Devi down, helping her appreciate her culture more. Devi taking part in some Japanese event. Paxton teaching Devi two or three words in Japanese (IMAGINE IF DEVI WANTS TO SAY "I love you" first and she says it in Japanese). I want them to watch T.V shows together, have inside jokes so much more but I guess we'll have to see lol.

[utterlyinevitable]

A lot of questions incoming from the 40 writers asks 😂

2, 3, 9, 15, 28, 35 and 38!

Tell me everything ♥️

CJ 🥺 thank you 💕

fic writer asks

2. Is there a trope you’ve yet to try your hand at, but really want to?

Smut. Is smut a trope?

All the scenes I want to write play out so well in my head but then I put it into text and it’s a CRINGE FEST 😫

3. Is there a trope you wouldn’t touch with a ten foot pole?

I mean.... probably not any body/gender swap ff tropes. Nor supernatural stuff. And absolutely nothing with horror/gore. I generally just write about things that happen in my life or those closest to me so there’s always a existential realism to my works (hopefully it comes across).

9. Which fic has been the hardest to write?

Just because of how long it’s taking me to finish the series I’m going to say Hurricane. I didn’t mean for it to get longer than 4 chapters but the ideas kept flowing and then somewhere along the lines I ran out of an actual satisfactory ending. 

I do have the rest-ish of the series mapped out though! I’m aiming for two more chapters. Chapter 7 is the BIG ANGST and Chapter 8 is the resolution to that. Then... idk. Haven’t really figured out if I’m going to see them out of the hurricane or just leave them in the cabin and up to interpretation 🤷‍♀️

15. If you could choose one of your fics to be filmed, which would you choose?

Ohhh this ones hard! All of my fics play out like movies in my head so trying to pic one that would leave me as a viewer completely satisfied is difficult 🙈

Do We Have A Future? probably, just because it’s topics that need to be more mainstream and would be one of my favorite angsty things to watch.

If I could choose to make a tv series out of my fics, it would definitely be the Living Trauma Universe leading into the FATL Universe (extra angst, lots of feels, & cute boys).

28. Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.

Only 3? :(

@alwaysmychoices hands down. Life With and Without is my favorite series in the fandom, I have read both parts at least 5 times during the hiatus’. Her writing is so clever and she makes Ethan and Charlie into real, flawed people. Honestly, I still have the mental image of Ethan Ramsey in sweatpants from A Weekend With happily burned into my brain. (it was such a small detail but written so well and completely made E a fully formed person instead of a pixel we write about) 

@starrystarrytrouble Ruby’s writing is like poetry. She’s simply able to elicit such strong emotions in such few words. I can see every single fic she writes clearly in my head, that’s how strong her imagery is. My favorite fics are definitely the ones where she uses symbols and metaphors (the paris one, the daises one [on ao3] and ofc the symbolism of amber in amber and the damn christmas lights in the holiday fic). Such food for my soul 💖 

@writinghereandthere Ana’s PROSE. that’s it. that’s the explanation. This woman can write the most affecting of words and it is a crime to be that good. I’ve said it before and I’ll scream it again (in words that can’t fully encompass how much i love her work), my favorite fics of hers are the ones that are so mundane. The ones that are just little domestic fluff or random ficlets of nothingness that still seem to carry so much weight. Unchained Melody. The Normal and Mundane. More Than a Drawer. Passing Ships in the Night. And there’s another bryce one I’m forgetting that has something to do with this sunshine pixel. But you get the point, I could list every single one of her fics and it still wouldn’t do them or her justice.  

okay i’m cheating but I can’t not add @the-pale-goddess. Hilde’s fics were some of the first I read during my great migration back on tumblr. Miami Heat was *chefs kiss*. And Tiffany and Ethan? All their troubles? I adore her complicated characters. Tiffany is such a strong, badass woman I really admire. Um and uh also have you read this woman’s smut??? 🥵😈

35. Would you ever kill off a canon character?

Right now, no. That’s only because the story doesn’t call for it yet. I do think that Becca would die before Ethan so do with that bit of information what you will 🤷‍♀️

38. Talk about a review that made your day.

Every single review makes my day. 

I definitely have a few saved that’re burrowed in my likes but can’t seem to pinpoint one right now. Really just anyone who comments on the content and seems to have been engaged or connected to the pieces I write really tickles my heart. 

WAIT OKAY the review @terrm9 left on Make Believe. That one holds a special place in my heart. I cannot read that fic without wondering about her and if she’s doing okay, and hoping she does well on all her exams/coursework lol 

While I am on the topic of my fics that remind me of people; I can’t read FATL without thinking of @kalogh it is my magnum opus all because she requested the quote, Leakage reminds me of Ruby because she encouraged me to write it, and Above Board always reminds me of you wanting to know more about my soft beans. 

[writefightandflightclub]

Me appreciating you for Fanfic Writers’ Appreciation Day, but a day late, because I do everything late. Anyway... yay!

1. PLEASE LOOK DOWN THIS LIST (BELOW THE CUT) UNTIL YOU SPOT AN AUTHOR YOU’RE NOT FAMILIAR WITH

2. GO AND CHECK OUT THEIR STUFF

3. SCREAM AT THEM ABOUT HOW GREAT THEY ARE

4. SIGNAL BOOST THE HELL OUT OF THEIR STUFF

5. REPEAT STEPS ABOVE

Firstly, before we proceed to the list: I will have forgotten people, and for that I am so sorry (not in any way intentional)- I will come back and update if I spot someone I’ve missed. Secondly, for fic authors who weren’t tagged on Fic Writers’ Day, please keep doing what you’re doing! Putting your writing out there takes courage and I’m super proud of you. I’m so pleased we have your unique voice in the fandom, and I appreciate you.

Secondly, if you know an author who perhaps didn’t get as much love as they deserve (and don’t be afraid to self-hype) please send me an ask with a) their/your handle b) which fandom they/you write for (to be relevant to my page pls keep this to SW, Oscar, Pedro, MCU) c) why people should check them/you out and, if you like, which fic to start with, and I’ll do a shout-out.

Finally, if you aren’t a writer yet but you want to be, I believe in you! Please take the plunge! My inbox is always open to any aspiring writers who need encouragement to make that first post or start that first fic. I’ve been in your position, and believe me I’m in your corner. Happy to be your hype girl.

Reccing authors in Star Wars / Oscar / Pedro fandoms:

@okay-hotshot / Celeste is the loveliest human ever. She had me hooked from her first fic, which broke then healed my heart, and I’m so proud of her writing journey so far! Check her page out for Oscar character fics and the most magical, creative, immersive, touching, original Llewyn fic you could dream up: Wait for me.

@mandoplease where do I even start? Becca oozes talent and absolutely floors me every single time. The first fic I read was: The City Lights Can Wait (Santi x reader) and I was just blown away by the writing prowess. Gorgeous prose, mind blowing metaphors and descriptions. A personal fave is the Santi/Frankie threesome fic: Moving Day, but Fight Night also needs a mention. Check her out for Triple Frontier / Narcos / Star Wars characters.

@mylifeliterally Ok, Emma is an absolute gem of a human. Funny, welcoming and so supportive of other writers. Oh, and can be counted on for thots. I often rec the positively artful Triple Frontier gangbang fic (and now series) Team Building Exercise, but don’t overlook her other fics- I especially love: Just for Tonight, a two-part Santi fic. The Triple Frontier Queen, she is slowly dragging everyone into a pit of yearning along with her for every single one of those boys and we’re not even mad. Her writing is flawless and I cannot get enough. P.s. she has a refridgerator husband.

@tintinwrites I’ve already gushed at Caitlin today so I’ll keep it brief. Queen of Poe, and also branching out and excelling with everything she touches in Pedro fandoms too. I think I’ve read near everything on her masterlist and there are no wrong choices, but to pick out only a couple, which is a hard task, imma rec Forbidden Fruit and Fifty Ways to Kiss someone for Po, and Nothing Could be Finer for reader x Frankie x Santi. 

@woakiees again, gushed at Hadley already so I’ll try and keep it chill here. Queen of angst and darkness, and of First Order Poe. Also love that she’s writing for Santi and Din now too. Caitlin says it best when she describes Hadley’s writing as like something from 1843 with a modern twist. Such a unique voice. Imma recommend Sanctified and So ruthless, Darling for Poe.

@iamthe-shadow-on-the-wall Abby! The range! You know I remind you on a bi-monthly basis how much Lonely Nights (Poe x reader) broke my heart and here we go again. You can do it all- fluffy, slow burn series (Call it what you want), heartbreaking angst and smut- your Blue Jones mob boss AU, Darkest Little Paradise? Wowzers. Plus, you’re a sweetie and I love when we scream at each other. 

@darksideofclarke Clarke does so much for us all and just keeps giving. From the Sinful Sunday events to the incredible Follower Celebration, to setting up a whole side blog to extend the character takeovers?! Blessed with content! And Clarke’s fics?! Exquisite, and such a choice of characters from the Oscar fandom. I particularly love Now and Forevermore (Orestes); Bulletproof (Santi); Humbled (Blue); and ‘Til Death Do They Part (Mikael) but I could easily go on. Clarke you’re so talented. And you are a lovely human to boot!

@bluebellhairpin Nemo, you are a joy, and I won’t gush at you too much bc I already did that today, but I love what you’re putting out. You write for so many fandoms, which is so impressive, and you’re a fellow Poe hoe. I adore your series Fight or Flight, Rider, but you have so many cute one-shots and blurbs too e.g. Poe Dameron is an Idiot! Your audios give me life as well.

@spider-starry Carrie is so much fun and has been branching out a lot in her writing recently, which is great to see! I love Carrie’s 100 letter project in particular, for various Oscar characters, as well as this smutty Nathan NSFW Alphabet, which had me all in a tizz.

@aellynera (tag me in your stuff pls?) I love your drunk text series for Santi and Nathan and your Itsy Bitsy Spider headcanons made me howl! I’m so excited to see what you put out next! And I love that you also love Nathan :D

@anetteaneta already gushed at you today so I’ll keep it brief, but I’m so happy you’re sharing your writing! I loved your Sherlock series for Santi so much! And OMG wait, I didn’t see you’d written for Nathan until just now. Must catch-up. (Please tag me in any Oscar stuff you put out?)

@veuliee2 I need to catch-up on a lot of your fics to be fair (please tag me in stuff?) but you write Orestes so wonderfully and with so much heart that it blows me away (New Constellations). So few fics on him on this site and yours are a pleasure. Plus, you’re an all round lovely person! :o)

@thirsty-flygirl I don’t think you believe how good you are which makes me very sad to be honest. Because you’re amazing. You write Poe so spot on, so warm and goofy and a lovable sexy dumbass. Perfect. Your writing and dialogue makes me smile / laugh and you can somehow make it hot and soft all at once. I love your series Idiots in particular. (Please tag me in more of your stuff though as I worry I miss things you put out?). You’re great and I love having you here.

@twomoonstwosuns​ I really need to catch-up on your Poe series, Back to You but I really enjoyed the chapters I’ve read! (Please tag me in future Poe stuff?) You’re a star! 

@absurdthirst I’m newish in the Pedro fandoms so still getting to grips with it, but have loved what I’ve seen so far and look forward to delving deeper (and there’s plenty to get stuck into!)!Most recently read the Ezra fic Healing which was beautifully and sensitively written (cw: for prior assault).

@damerondjarin Taylor is multi-talented and blesses us, tbh, with GIFs and writing. She’s currently in tumblr jail, but I strongly advise you check out all her stuff. I came for Santi fics and they did not disappoint (I can’t link to it but the latest Santi fic killed me and was a wonderul take on the “there’s only one bed” trope.

@damndamer0n you have a gift, Ty. I’m in awe and I don’t know how you do what you do. Your way with words is really something special. I bow. Gonna recommend Just Friends for Poe because this is such a warm and immersive (and hot) fic and so in character. But honestly all your stuff is perfect. I’ve read things for characters I’ve never heard of before because of you and have loved each and every one. (Like, really, what are your secrets, tell us?). Also gonna shout-out to your Ezra fic, Sunlight, beacuse the world-building and mood-building was lovely. Really memorable!

@mssr-cellophane I found your work recently through FinnPoe week and your glorious take on the The Jacket prompt (links to A03). Looking forward to reading more of your stuff (please feel free to tag me!) and surprised by how much I vibe with all your posts haha. Happy to follow you! :)

@yougottakeeponkeepinon AMANDA? Where do I begin and how do I stop? You’re such an important part of this site for me. I think you’re wonderful as a person and I love your writing too. Miscommunication (First Order! Poe) is off the scale brilliant, and then you blew me away with your latest Santi fic, Eavesdropping, but honestly, I’ve never read anything of yours I didn’t love, from goofy Poe to soft soft Llewyn (I love Away from the Sun). I WANNA YELL AT YOU YOU’RE JUST THE BEST.

@poesflygirl Nat is a ball of energy and that comes across in her writing. Nat, you write with such verve and energy and defo have a unique voice. You write the angstiest angst and fluffiest fluff and you also write action and dialogue so well. Your fics have a ton of unexpected turns and are unpredictable, and you have loads of unique ideas which are really fresh and different to read. You don’t seem to believe how good you are, which makes me sad tbqh. I love when I see a tag pop up and get to read something new from you! In particular love your Poe series, You and Paging a Heart, and these Poe one-shots: Just another Benduday Night and Truth or Dare.

@starryeyedstories NOVA. You are pure sunshine. You spread so much positivity and you’re the loveliest human. Your are the Queen of softness and fluff and for comforting and beautifully written fics. Your series, Across the Hall,has taken us all on such a wonderful journey and I don’t want it to ever end. It’s like my happy place! Each chapter is practically a hug with words. Your Din one-shot All of Me is so romantic as well!

@softpedropascal I’m newish in Pedro fandoms but softpedropascal writes wonderfully for Frankie. The dedication to the character is evident, and characterisation wonderful- I can’t wait to read more: Masterlist

@rzrcrst okay, you may know rzrcrst for Pedro fics (which are wonderful) but she also recently started writing for Tony Stark and I’m so happy! 😀🧡 (Fun fact- her url is also the reason I couldn’t spell Razor Crest properly when I finally started writing for Din). She’s currently taking a well-earned tumblr break but fics are still up on Ao3- linked in profile.

@writefasttalkevenfaster​ Please tag me in any of your Star Wars stuff as I swear I keep missing things and I don’t mean to! Masterlist

@galaxy-of-stories​ Maddie, I keep missing things you post but you’re lovely and your writing is awesome. I love your Poe series Over and Over and I think I’ve just spotted a new chapter to catch-up on so lucky me! :D

@who-talks-first Billie, my lovely friend! You’re wonderful to have around on this hellsite. Your dedication to supporting writers in these fandoms is unparelled and you’re an absolute sweatheart, as well as super fun to chat to and thirst with. You have certainly made my experience on this site so much better! And also, your writing? Excuse me? So good. Your Poe fic, The Torture of Small Talk With Someone You Used to Love? Sublime! And the Poe, Naked, Dripping, Locked? So funny! You definitely have a unique style and your writing can be simultaneously edgy, poetic, and moving. ILY!

@xxidontwikeitxx Hope you don’t mind being included, as you haven’t posted your work, but you ARE a writer, and I’m so happy you’ve recently started creating! Again, hope you don’t mind me saying, but I had the pleasure of reading your Marcus Pike blurb, and it’s was so soft and lovely. I really hope - when/if you’re comfortable- you decide share your work, and if not, I hope you keep enjoying the process! Would leave to read more from you in the future!

@shakespeareanwannabe is writing such a heartfelt Santi x OC story (find it here) with sublime characterisation of both Santi and Frankie, AS WELL AS seriously well-rounded and compelling OCs / supporting cast. This series is a key contributor for me falling down a Frankie rabbit role, and my First Dates fic likely wouldn’t exist without it! So excited for more!

Also shoutout to @ollypopp @milleniumvalcon @justrunamok @yourbucky084 who are delightful beings and whose writing I need to catch-up on!I look forward to it!

[decembermoonskz]

Hello moonbeams~! Writing letters is something I’m good at, because even if I stumble in all other forms of communication sometimes, my writing, my words never fail me. The overall negative energy, annoyance and sometimes hatred towards the pandemic, the social/political topics and the year in general can be very draining and or taxing on me and you all. Of course we’re upset too but seeing so much hate can be draining for people like me, and maybe you. So for a moment, grab a seat and a blanket and listen as I read this letter to you. This is a letter from me, to you, and I offer a blessing from her majesty the moon herself as well.

2020 has been one hell of a year that’s for sure. I experienced a lot of sadness, fatigue and overall lower moods as I tend to take on the energy of the world heavily. There has been so much that’s happened to us all, sadness, fear, anger, heartbreak; but even still we survived it. There were so many that felt we wouldn’t make it through this year or make it to the end as it felt like it would go on forever, but we’re here now, to write these letters, to tell these stories. 

Even in this hectic year, I experienced so much, I felt happiness, joy I cried a lot and released so many pent up feelings, I came to terms with things I had locked away, I laughed a lot, I found passions that I thought were long lost. So much has happened to me in this year both ups and downs and I’m grateful for it all. You may be wondering why I would be grateful for downs as well, they helped teach me things, how strong I am; how it’s okay to give in and feel your sadness or pain; to validate my emotions; and a lot more. I hope that with all that’s happened you were able to take in some lessons yourself.

Below this cut, I wanted to thank some people who made my experience on tumblr as wonderful as it has been, more amazing than I had ever expected it to be. I came on here extremely nervous about sharing my stories and these people have been so warm and welcoming and honestly I wouldn’t have enjoyed my time as much without them. I’ll have my ending message at the bottom of this. 

@sleepylixie Lily darling, my brain twin!! you’ve made my short tumblr life so much fun! sharing brain waves one moment, soundboarding ideas the next, and having so many things in common between us it’s crazy (wolfie gang). You’ve become one of the best things to happen to me on this site! xoxo thank you for always sharing your wonderful ideas with me and for sharing my love of fantasy!! Oh and I can’t forget all the shared screaming we do over skz and anything else xD I’m so glad we started talking and even in just a short time I feel so close to you already!! Thank you for letting me vent out all my ideas and for letting me be that person for your ideas too, thank you for always giving such good feedback and opinions and thank you for just overall being one of my favorite people to talk to. I hope we can make more wonderful memories in the coming year and beyond it. love you darling have a beautiful 2021~ 💜💜💜 ⟪ song rec: Another Day - Stray Kids ⟫

@rebecca-noona​ Becca! You were the first person to interact with my blog and when I look back on it, I’m so thankful you did. I love our talks about Korea and skz and writing. Your support has always been incredibly helpful, thank you for always being a cheerleader for me, it means the world. I hope you know I love you and support you and your works and whatever you wish to do so much as well!! I’m so happy we started talking and you make me so happy. Thank you for being my friend and when I finally get to Korea you gotta show me around when you get back!! I hope your process of getting back is smooth and easy, stay as optimistic as you can love!! xoxo  ⟪ song rec: motive - Ariana Grande (ft. Doja Cat) ⟫ 

@skzctnightnight​ bel! bel! :DD it’s your words of encouragement that helped me create this blog, you’re one of the reasons I’m here!! your works have been some of my favorites and I was so happy when I first reached out to you. Your kindness really touched me and being your anon at the time was so much fun >v< Prowl will forever be one of my favorite series and you inspire me with your works!! I love talking with you no matter if it’s a quick chat, or a long convo, I always love talking to you. Thank you for making my 2020 so nice! I’m glad I know you and let’s talk more soon! <3  ⟪ song rec: Clarity - Kim Petras ⟫ 

@aliceu​ Alice!! I’m so thankful we met by chance when replying to one of Lily’s posts LOL I think it was an ask of yours about fantasy, and we shared a mutual love for it xD I want you to know that I always smile and I’m always happy when you send asks or dms so please I hope you never worry about being a bother and keep sending them hehe >v</ Thank you for always taking some of your time  to check out my stories and for always leaving such wonderful feedback too!! It makes me happy to read your mini reviews about them!! Thanks for having little chats with me too. I enjoy them always and I hope we can continue to chat more 2021!! Please have a great new year and stay safe and comfy uwu ⟪ song rec: TMT - Stray Kids ⟫ 

@t-toodumbtocare​ Bar! xoxo I’m so glad we finally started talking and I’m hoping we can talk more soon >w<b You’re so fun and sweet and your stories are cute!! I wanna read more soon!! >^<9 Thanks for our little chats and thanks for checking out my stories as well I appreciate it. I hope to get to know you better in the coming year and I hope you have the best 2021!!  ⟪ song rec: Cruel Summer - Taylor Swift ⟫ 

@delicatewerewolfsoul​​ Vicky!!! I’m so happy we started talking! I loved talking about animals and pets with you and I loved all the skz soft hours asks you sent (I hope you send more of them psst psst) they made my day!! You’re such a sweetheart and you’re a master of heart memes xD I hope your 2021 is wonderful just like you are!! Stay safe and warm you cute bean xoxo ⟪ song rec: Inception - ATEEZ ⟫ 

@dreamescapeswriting​ Hi M!!! Okay full disclosure!! I’ve actually read some of your works before having tumblr LOL Like I really enjoyed them (Lucky and You Love Me are so cute) and honestly I was shy about reaching out but I’m so glad I did because now I wanna continue to talk and send you hugs! >V< I’m so glad we’re both gamers and your asks make me so happy! Thank you for being the sweetie you are and I hope we can talk more in 2021!! Have a great new year cutie!! <3 ⟪ song rec: False God - Taylor Swift ⟫ 

to my mutuals and other moonbeams who I wanna talk to more and love and support so much!! @mikoto-ica-fics​ @hanflix​ @chogiwow​ @redsandroses​ @meiiyue​ @missskzbiased​ @rosieecheeks​ I hope we can talk more in the new year and I love you a lot!!! You’re all such beautiful souls!! Know I’m sending you love and hugs and all the support I can muster \>v</ xoxoxoxoxo ⟪ song rec: Breath - GOT7 ⟫ 

To my beautiful nonnies, I’m super happy you’re here. I miss you all and hope you’re well and to the new ones welcome welcome!! I hope you know all your messages make me so happy! When I started my blog, I didn’t imagine I’d have as many anons as I do now, I didn’t think I’d have many, maybe 2 or 3? You guys make me so happy and I hope to see you more in my inbox when you have the time!!! <33 ⟪ song rec: You Can STAY - Stray Kids ⟫ 

To all my followers, my darling moonbeams!! Thank you so much for joining on this journey of practice and self-love that I’ve been trying to embark on. The comments, the reblogs, the likes, the asks, all of it, it means the world to me. To re-learn that it is possible for people to enjoy what I do, and not tie it to my own self-worth has been something I’m so thankful for. You all helped me learn that so thank you. I hope you continue to enjoy the stories I put out and feel free to reach out anytime! I’m so happy to have 300+ (almost 400) of you lovely moonbeams here! I hope you all have a wonderful 2021! It doesn’t matter who you are, how old you are, where you come from, what you identify as, what you believe in, or who you love; you are all precious moonbeams here in this haven.  ⟪ song rec: Haven - Stray Kids ⟫ 

I know I say it a million times but since this is a wrapup letter I’ll share it again shortly. My blog was made for the main purpose of learning to appreciate my passion for writing and to not cage myself from posting and sharing my stories. I wanted to learn to write for myself and that posting stories in and of itself was the main victory, and everything else was the bonus, instead of thinking when people like it, only then is it good. I’ve done that before and having learned from it I now feel more prepared to tackle this. Thank you again for all the warm welcomes and the love I’ve received it still hasn’t quite sunk in for me and it feels so unreal. To know you all enjoy my stories and give me so much love, it’s crazy and it’s happening and I am so happy. I’m very thankful I took the leap of faith even though I was scared and decided to create this blog! 2020 challeneged me as well as pushed me and supported me. I experienced hard times yes, but I also experienced some really amazing things. I found comfort in things new and old, I feel like the quarantine made me come to terms with myself more, not run from things I wanted to confront and talk to myself more. I feel like 2020 albeit really draining in all ways, helped shape me and I got stronger because of living through this year. Now before I get any more preach-y than I already have LOL Thank you for being a part of my 2020 everyone!! I hope to have you with me in 2021 and I hope you experience the blessings of the moon like I feel we all do. See you in 2021 y’all! We’ll get through next year and the next and the next, I know it! 💜

Love Izzy 

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I absolutely ADORE your never have I ever fanfiction!! It's so amazing and the characters are really well-written just like in the show! What are some of the things you hope to see in the second season of Never Have I Ever?

Thank you! I’m so glad you love it and this is such a generous compliment! I appreciate it so much. I’m working on a big moment in the fic right now so this is nice encouragement for me! <3 

For season 2, I try to keep my expectations low. TV writers have let me down often and I don’t trust them in general lol especially when I start thinking what *I* want. Also the last few shows I’ve gotten into really go down in quality after a season 1. But I’ll give you a short list of things I’d like in season 2 in no particular order.

Devi becoming more comfortable with her heritage

Nalini and Devi continuing to have a hard time relating to each other but still trying to have a relationship. 

Devi continuing to process her grief. Grieving is different for everyone and one thing I know from experience is that people around forget you’re grieving and then are often confused when you openly grieve. So I’d like to see the show deal with that with both Devi and Nalini. There’s not a shelf life on grieving and the show is in the perfect spot to explore that.

Paxton pining 

a Paxton POV ep 

These are my like MUST HAVES. I will probably not get them but I really want them. The next list is stuff i’d love to see and if mindy and lang would like to call me i’m free on thursday. call me. on thursday. i’m free. 

I’d love to see Kamala integrating more into the family. I think a conflict of her feeling like Nalini and Devi need her and so she isn’t sure if she’s ready to get married or take a job away from them would be really interesting! 

I wanna see Eleanor date Trent out there doing wacky dramatic things like idk taking over the cafeteria with a flash mob or something. But also being so deeply existential that it fucks with her friends in a fun way. You know, real artist nonsense.

I’ve been thinking about Fab a lot and I think something about college and separating from her very comfortable support system. Maybe she’s worried she won’t instantly make friends when she goes away and so she’s clinging to her life the way it is in this exact moment. 

Trent doing literally anything. He’s a goddamn delight.

Devi attempting to move beyond being boy crazy (I was deeply boy crazy from middle school all the way into college and I know I tried so many times to NOT be and I think seeing that conflict would be really fun to watch!) 

one of the things the show did really well in season 1 was not shaming devi for wanting to have sex and i really hope they continue to be sex positive and god please no one mention anything about virginity because i’m very over that in teen drama. 

I wanna see paxton’s parents! I know Darren Barnet has said that he thinks his parents aren’t around much but sorry bud, I’m not interested in that. I wanna see them and learn more about Becca and hopefully see her succeed, getting into that fashion school. 

I’d like to see ben and devi be friends. she’s literally his only friend so i think dating is a dumb idea for the two of them but whatever mindy has terrible taste in men so we’re all just at her mercy i guess

Finally I’d like the season to end with Paxton absolutely unable to contain his YEARNING any longer and he has to stop her in the middle of the hallway at school, in between classes, people all around them and HAS to tell her how he feels. But he keeps trying to tell her and she’s not getting it because she is tragically dense on occasion for such a genius. So he drops his books on the ground and leans in, cupping her cheek and kisses her right there in the middle of the hallway. Everybody passing by. It’s just small. Soft. Quick. Because she’s not listening and he clearly isn’t getting his point across but this will get his point across. (and people ooh and aw) And Devi does that shocked face but she finally gets it so instead of letting him pull away further because the warning bell just rang and people have to get to class, she puts her arm around his neck and she kisses him back. Deep, long, willing to get detention for the amount of PDA that’s coming out of this kiss. Now people are clapping and hooting and hollering and Devi and Paxton do NOT care because FUCKING FINALLY.