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feel the morning on my face

Just a lifetime, could say it's been a long day

'Cause I'ma sleep when I RIP

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All of this running in motion, time slips by until you're lost in your mind, who you gonna find?

Luke Hemmings - “Motion”

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So won't you stay

and count the circles 'round my eyes?

And we can watch the stars

until the sun begins to rise

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you are not hard to love. it is so easy to love you. when i look at you, all i can feel is love

Night Drives, Samantha Camargo

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life feels easier when you’re drunk

but it doesn’t feel better

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speaking on the behalf of the sufferers of anxiety and depression, life is a struggle. yet here i am, here we are. no one said would be easy but no one said life is difficult. sure, parents say the real world is vicious and scary and you’ll be ripped to shreds if youre not prepared for it but we were not expecting it to be this difficult.

but we as humans are existing in a moment that despite all this hardship, all the pain, all the hypothetical ‘struggles’ that we are going through but in the end its all just in our head, all the emptiness, all the crying, we still exist. to our brothers and sisters who couldnt make it through the struggles, god bless them. they have been through some of the worst of it and they couldnt take no more. to the rest of us that are existing right now, in this current moment of reading this post all i can say is that im proud of us, im proud of you.

i like to think to all the people who have been through any form of mental health issues, may it be long term or short, we are all a family who have experienced something that truly is scary, something that a human shouldnt have to go through yet we have. calling these people family lets me think im not alone. words can only do so much being told “youre not alone” but being active in a community and calling eachother their family because of their past or present times seems to settle well with me.

going back to the original idea, life is a struggle. theres no denying it and it hurts. but here we are. to many people out there they will understand that there is pain to be felt and will be. to many, youll think the hard times are over, just finishing up a very bad breakdown for example, but then a week later, maybe sooner or maybe later, you encounter the same feelings. despite the support you can be recieving or the medication youre taking, you come across the same feelings. and thats okay. it just means theres still more to the story of why we experience these feelings.

to the family thats out there thats reading this or may be completely obvlivious to it all, you are welcome to this community. everyone is, there is no fee, no application process, you are automatically apart of the family, coming forward with your issues can truly help.

like and reshare this post so you can discover your family.

im proud of you all.

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I'd care if the person I reblogged this from committed suicide.

Reblog this from anybody. literally. ANYBODY. even if you dont like them or even know them that well. YOU COULD SAVE THEIR LIFE.

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i just want to fall asleep next to you and forget the chaotic world around us, swallowed up in your arms and feeling your warmth radiate off you like the sun.

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just read they both die at the end in one night

and god damn i have never cried so hard at the ending of a book before. it’s the next day and im still thinking about the book and its story, i wish there were more books like that out there.

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to live is the rarest thing in the world. most people exist, that's all.

Oscar Wilde

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when you meet the right person, you know it. you cant stop thinking about them. they're your best friend, and your soul mate. you cant wait to spend your life with them and nothing can compare.

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i love you more than the way you hate yourself.

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The greatest word in the English Dictionary: "Yes"

*iMessage received from Her*

Me: So, will I be seeing you tomorrow at the park?

Her: Yeah! I'll be there, when will you be there for?

Me: Ummmm, honestly I think around noon, it's just a matter of when my mum can drop me off since she's my only ride.

Her: Sounds good, i'll be there around the same. There's going to be a fair few of us.

Me: Ooooh okay okay guess i'm gonna have to stick with you, you're my best bet at a conversation compared to the rest.

Her: Aww that's okay we can keep eachother company.

Me: Can't wait! Okay i'm gonna head to sleep, i'll see you tomorrow :)

Her: Okidoke! Goodnight :)

*The Next Day*

*iMessage received from Her*

Her: Hey! Where are you at?

Me: Sorry! My mum was running a bit late, i'm here. Just near the gate so i'll be there in a minute, where abouts are you all?

Her: We are all at the tennis court.

Me: Okay i'll be there in a minute.

Little over a few minutes later I arrive to the tennis court within the park.

Me: Hey hey! It's so good to see you again!

Her: It's so good to see you aswell!

Me: So what have I missed?

Her: Oh nothing much, just the lads being dumbasses as per.

Me: Ah yeah they're usually like that, I just like to watch them be themselves for entertainment.

Her: I like to do the same it's funny to watch them simply exist.

Me: Exactly! Like look at them, they can't even play tennis properly.

Her: I know right! How abouts we show them how to really play.

Me: Lets do it.

After a very long and exausting game of what some call an insult to tennis we gave the rackets to two of our friends and sat down.

Me: *Out of breath* Jesus Christ. Tennis is a lot more tiring than you think.

Her: *Also out of breath* It was so much fun though. Wow I can't catch my breath.

*One of the lads shouts*: Let's go into the main area of the park!

Me: Alright lets go with them

Her: Okidoke!

As time passes, our bunch of 18 year old friends playing in a childrens park slowly started to dissipate as they went home, until it consisted of just me, her, A, B, C and D. We all stood and sat on a small childrens obstacle course and began talking.

A: ...So it was just me and C at the end of the night just non-stop ordering more drinks and then suddenly he just...

Me: *talking to Her while A continues his story* His talking never stops doesn't it?

Her: Oh my god I know right, he just somehow merges his stories together so it forms one non-stop conversation with himself.

Me: Shhhhhhh haha.

D: So what are you two gonna do after this?

Me: I'm not too sure I might head home.

D: That's fine, i'm gonna be going back with C anyways.

C: Yeah we're gonna get going now so we'll see you all later.

C and D wave as they leave the park. A finishes his story and stands next to B and talks to her.

Her: I'll be heading back home soon it's getting dark out.

Me: Oh if you'd like I can walk you back to yours, better safe than sorry.

Her: *With a slight smile* Sure thing, i'd like that.

Me: So A, what are you gonna do, me and Her are gonna be heading back to her house, gotta keep her safe in this area.

A: I think i'll walk B back to her house

Me: Ah cool, well me and Her are gonna get going, it's getting dark out and i'm freezing.

A: That's fine, i'll see you two around.

Me and Her walk out of the park towards her house which ended up taking half an hour given the distance. We head out onto a bike path and walk along the pedestrian side to allow the night-time bikers past us. As the sun drops down below the horizon, so does the temperature.

Me: I've never been through here before it looks so nice.

Her: I love it, it's one of my favourite places to walk down

Me: Wow is it just me or is it just really cold now

her: It's so cold, hands are freezing cold. Here, feel them.

As we keep walking straight she picks up my swaying hand from my side and holds it. The touch of her delicate hand against mine fills me with a warm glow following up with a flow of relaxation and safety that I haven't felt before.

Me: *I look over at her with a slight grin* Oh wow you really are cold, we gotta get you back to your house so you can get warm.

Her: *with a small smile* Sounds like a plan.

As we keep walking forward our arms lower down with our hands still holding, then eventually our fingers interlock to secure our connection together. For the remainder of the walk we'd enjoy the comfort of eachothers company.

We exit out of the trail and head out into her estate where we are surrounded by houses, she guides me on every turn and bend by slightly pulling on my arm to show me the way.

We approach her house. We let go of eachothers hand as she walks up the driveway to her door and I stand on the path

Me: Oh wait is this your house? It looks lovely. Well I better get going.

She turns around and holds her hand up and grabs the air to indicate to come with her into her house. My heart rises with excitement, but then the anxiety begins. My mind starts racing and a variety of questions and panicks run through, "what if I meet her parents?", "does she like me back?", "what if i'm not welcome?"

We walk towards the living room, I see her parents are sat there and she greets me to them.

Her: We'll be upstairs!

She grabs hold of my hand and gently pulls me up the stairs and leads me into her room. There is a certain smell to it all, a freshness but filled with a soft coziness that makes me immediately feel welcome.

Her: Would you like to watch a film? we've still got a few on our list to watch.

Me: Sure! What are we gonna watch?

Her: Hmmmm....

She grabs the laptop thats on the desk across the room and sits down on the bed. I sit down next to her, we both sitting up against the headboard. She puts on a film, "A Whisker Away" appears on the screen.

We both lean back and tuck our legs under the covers. She grabs my right arm and lifts it over her head and puts it around her neck and then leans into my chest, resting her head against me.

My heart skipped a beat. I was filled with this joy that I simply cannot put into words. It felt like every worry I had around me had paused. And for the entirety of the film we were together, keeping eachother safe from the world around us.

As the film finished, we sat up and stretched from our little burrow in the bed.

Me: Well I really enjoyed that, it was such a lovely film.

Her: It really was!

we chatted for the remainer of the night, as the clocks hit 2AM we decided it was my time to leave so I had ordered a taxi.

Me: The taxi is here, it was lovely seeing you and thank you for inviting me into your home.

Her: It's okay! I really enjoyed tonight.

We walked downstairs and she opened the door for me, said our goodbyes and I walked out into the night and got into the Skoda Octavia that was branded with the taxi company on the side. As the driver pulled off, I waved goodbye.

*iMessage received from Her*

Her: Get home safe!!

Me: Okidoke will do!!

A few days pass by, sending eachother messages and we eventually arranged for me to go to her house again for the day and to have dinner there. Today is going to be the day i'm going to ask her to be my girlfriend. I'm going to do it today. I will do it. I will.

I arrived outside at 2PM, knocked on her door and she answered with a huge smile on her face. We went upstairs to her room and sat down on her bed and just chatted, sat on our phones and had a laugh. We got shouted down that food was ready so we got up and went down. I would take a random deep breath when it went silent so I can force myself to ask her to be my girlfriend.

An hour went by as we ate and talked with eachother and I bonded with her parents. We finished up and went upstairs, turned off the lights, got the laptop and layed down in bed. Every We rest our heads against eachother for a minute. We look to eachother, I look into her eyes, I couldn't tell if they were shining from the laptop screen or because I was admiring them so much. We slowly move our heads closer and we lean in to kiss. Our lips touch as we slowly kissed for the first time.

We lean back with smiles on our faces.

Me: Well that makes it a whole lot easier.

Her: Makes what a whole lot easier?

Me: Will you be my girlfriend?

Her: *with a smile that progressively gets bigger* Yes

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life could be a dream

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god may have left us but atleast he made us to be together <3

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books books books

i absolutely love books but i have a such short attention span it astounds me, i look at these books i wanna read, buy them and then it sits on my shelf looking pretty gathering dust, thus taking me 3-4 business months to get through for me to realise how good of a book it actually was

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We are all human until race disconnected us, religion separated us, politics divided us and wealth classified us.

Pravinee Hurnbungs