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Another year, another meet the artist! 💞

Oh and happy pride month I guess because I probably won’t do a pride drawing this year I am so drained, I love being constantly tired with no explanation lmao

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Kinda a different type of post for me! Here is my finished customize painted and modded 3DS xl!! (More info under cut) 🩵🩷🤍

Custom theme in second picture is by HampsterButtocks on TP, art in theme is by @/temeriame14 !!

I found this 3Ds in the board game section of a Value Village in a box with Pokemon Sun in box, Pokemon Moon in the cartridge slot, a pikachu figure and a toy z-ring, all for $6 CAD ( I 100% believe whoever priced it and put it there just couldn’t be bothered to look in the box because holy shit lmao). Genuinely it is my best thrift store find ever. Anyways I immediately got to modding it, which I had always wanted to do but was too scared I would brick my childhood 3DS, and made plans to paint it since it didn’t quite feel like mine being red. Well, it took a while, but I finally got around to painting it after starting summer break, so here it is! 🎀

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New ocs because I’m hyperfixating on Pokemon right now lol ☀️🌙

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just a burden 🫀

content warning for artistic nudity under the cut!!

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Oh to be loved despite having severe ocd 🤍🩷

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I’m just a cat in a dog’s world 🐾🌱

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A little self indulgent YuuPomu for you in these trying times. I really didn’t feel like drawing a background this time around, I just need to get them out of my head lmao. I’m desperate to get back into love live rn but it’s so hard now that all the global games are dead 😔

I’m too sick to do school work but I can never be too sick to draw lesbians. 🫶✨

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2024 Art fight part 7 @kactiikitty | thatrabiddog (AF/TH) | Hiscios (AF/Insta) |bhootsncats (AF/TH) | sharkfella (AF/TH) | grimmcorvid (AF/TH) | @parkadeparade | @vividroseinfatuation | @spiraldogs | @faithdragon36 | @playhousewifi | Sarracenia (AF/TH) | Autumnpawsomeyt (Insta) | TvHeadArt (AF/TH) | Cheeriohu (AF/TH)

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“Once we have spoken our saddest story, we can be free of it.”

When The Tortured Poets Department released earlier this year and I heard that quote, I knew it was time. The themes of the album really spoke to me in a way I hadn’t seen before, the clear stages of grief, the way it’s presented like an autopsy of a relationship, I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

I have waited so long for this moment, terrified of what would come of it, but I am an artist. I express my emotions through my art, it’s how I communicate, and I don’t want to keep living in fear of it, I need to embrace it.

It has been over three years now since it happened, and every single day since I have been wracked with unbearable grief, guilt and anger. I feel it crawling all over me, consuming me, I’m infested with it. I have tried everything I can think of to get away from it, desperately looking to find some sort of peace within it. I’ve gone over every detail in my head over and over again, second guessing everything, looking for closure that doesn’t even exist. I spent so much time blaming myself for every little thing, It became harder and harder to see what the truth really was.

It really felt like I lost everything when it happened, over the years I had to rebuild everything from the ground up. I had to learn how to trust others, to feel safe in my environment, to build relationships, and, most importantly, how to love myself. It took me so long to get to the point where I honestly can say that I want to be alive. I’m proud I have gotten this far, but there is still so much I need to work on, it feels never ending.

I spent so much time thinking I only had a set amount of time to get over it, that there was something wrong with me because it was still so painful years later, I felt so ashamed. But now I’ve realized that I have been healing, just not in the way I expected. Trauma and grief never truly goes away, it becomes a part of you, but you can continue to grow around it. I will never be the person I was before it happened again, but as heartbreaking as that is, I think that’s okay. I think I like who I’m becoming.

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ArtFight 2024: Part 2

Here are some more attacks I did for ArtFight 2024!

Luck Wish belongs to uunicornicc on Insta: https://www.instagram.com/uunicornicc?igsh=bDB5djN6YWlkeWc4

Inky belongs to roxywolflover on dA: https://www.deviantart.com/roxywolflover

Masala belongs to @endlesshorizonart

Valorous belongs to thelysea on Twitter: https://x.com/thelysea

Dino doggo belongs to RainbowTheDragon on dA: https://www.deviantart.com/rainbowthedragon

Cassion belongs to @Ollieosa

Vivid Rose belongs to @vividroseinfatuation

Kibben belongs to kibbens_n_noodles on Discord.

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I saw your post (really cool art btw!!) and I was wondering what it meant to be demirose as I’ve never heard of that term. Do you mind explaining (I’m curious abt stuff like that lol) and thanks!

Thank you so much!! Demirose is a combination of demiromantic and demisexual (ro(mantic) + se(xual) = rose)! I’ve heard the terms demiaroace and demian are commonly used as well, but I personally prefer demirose as I find it really pretty! 💖

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It’s insane I don’t have a girlfriend when I’m this pretty 🙄💕 /j /lh

Happy pride!! I almost didn’t get a drawing done this year, to be completely honest I have been feeling a bit melancholy about it this month, but I was eventually able to pull myself together draw this. Being openly queer is so extremely important me, it makes me who I am! I love being able to say I’m a genderfluid demirose lesbian, it feels so perfect, it feels so right. Nothing can take that away from me. 🧡🤍🩷

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So ready for another year! Link to my Art Fight account is in my Carrd, which is pinned!! 🌊🐚💕

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Fuck it *octoifies your Quinn*

My Splatoon hyperfixation has come back with a vengeance, so I needed to make a sona before art fight. Please help me, all I want to do is play Splatoon all the time 😭

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Quick Vivid Lust redesign in preparation for art fight (he basically just got top surgery and a slightly different outfit lmao). I was really inspired by listening to Plastic Hearts by Miley Cyrus this time around, I thought the album really fit their vibe!!

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I’ve had this concept for a while but wasn’t able to flesh out the design until now!

This is Estelle and the monster inside their head, Oleander! Oleander is the physical embodiment of Estelle’s OCD and trauma affected by OCD. Estelle must learn to survive living with Oleander and his constant harassment. I really wanted Estelle to show some physical symptoms of OCD, so I designed them with damage, dry thighs and hands, acne scars from face picking, and no lower eyelashes from hair pulling. Estelle’s colour palette is inspired by the OCD flag and Oleander’s is inspired by the OCD ribbon!

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It’s that time of year again! 💕