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do you have any whump or hurt/comfort ao3 stories you'd recommend?

I don’t read original stories, so all of the stuff I’ve been reading are strictly about the fandom I’m in and the characters I love

what I will offer you is Squid Game’s Hwang In-ho (the Front Man) and Seong Gi-hun whump fic rec

credit to the authors. there will be blood and gore

White Mask — Post season 2, under a specific circumstance, Gi-hun agreed to be the Front Man’s Lieutenant.

Obedience and Oblivion (tw: rape/non-con) — Post season 2, the Front Man makes Gi-hun his.

Overthrown — Front Man’s own guards betrayed him. Gi-hun stepped in and saved his life (just when he was cut open on the table and, still conscious, having his organs harvested).

loving you is a losing game — A gunshot wound to the neck. Gi-hun and Jun-ho must do their best to keep In-ho alive.

serve to please (tw: rape/non-con) — The tragic life of Hwang In-ho. Nothing but pain and suffering (until Gi-hun comes and saves his life, literally, there’s still so much pain, but at least he’s with Gi-hun, his own archenemy).

funeral pyre — Following the death of his wife, In-ho is challenged with shame, guilt and grief. Jun-ho tries saving his brother before it's all too late. (This one is about the Hwang bros, not In-ho/Gi-hun.)

lick your wounds, swallow your hurt with kisses — In-ho's plan to infiltrate the game and gain Gi-hun's trust didn't go as well as he hoped when he found himself with a life-threatening injury. He, of course, tried hiding his wound from Gi-hun. Until he nearly bled out in front of him.

dead (for a little while) — Gi-hun loses the next game. Strangely, they don't kill him. (He wakes up on the table, about to have his organs harvested.)

Your Personal Hell — Time-loop AU. In-ho keeps dying again and again; each time he dies, he’s brought back to life.

No Exit (tw: rape/non-con, suicide attempt) — In-ho capturing, abusing, manipulating and basically owning Gi-hun.

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Hi! Do you have any advice on how to stop caring about likes and kudos? Even though I primarily write out of love and I've been writing for just myself long before I'd posted anything publicly, now that I have I find it really difficult not to let likes and kudos influence me, whether it's feeling discouraged from writing when fics don't do well or finding myself focusing more on what people want to read than what I want to write

some tricks I personally use. I can't guarantee that it will work for everybody, but I hope at least some of them helps.

try posting before you go to bed at night. this way, you don't constantly check for kudos or comments throughout the day, until the next morning. and if you find it hard to sleep because your mind keeps thinking about whether or not people have been giving kudos to your works, try and trick your mind into thinking that "it's done. I posted it. it's out of my hands now, now it's time for me to get some rest".

this can also apply to when you're not trying to sleep. personally, I find it helping when I tell myself "I did it. it's out of my hands. it's not my responsibility anymore. if people love it, that's great. but if they don't, well, I did it for me anyway."

try looking at the numbers of hits, kudos and comments as actual people and not just "digital numbers" — five kudos may not be a lot to some people if you're looking at those kudos as "just a number", but the truth is that those five kudos are actually five human beings.

personally, I would feel pretty proud of myself if my work had five different people walking up to me in real life and saying to my face that "I did well" and that they "enjoyed my work".

because that's actually the case for your fic. it may look like "just a number" when you're looking at your screen, but the truth is that that's actually human beings who read and appreciate your work.

30 hits may not be a lot to some writers when they're only seeing "digital number" on their screen. but it's actually quite impressive when you imagine a room with 30 people in there, and all of them are reading your work.

or if your work doesn't get hits / kudos or likes, that still doesn't mean "it's bad" either. maybe the right people who will love it just haven't had the chance to find it yet, and that's okay, that's fine.

think of your work as a treasure, a hidden gem. just because only few people find it doesn't mean it's not valuable.

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I always thought it was bullshit when a parent said they would always see their kid as a child no matter how old the kid became. I realize now that that is not at all bullshit when my blorbos are middle aged men in their 50's who are about twice my age and yes, they are all precious smol children little angels uwu in my eyes

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ship where one of them is divorced, the other’s partner is dead. two broken and traumatized men finding each other by fate, blood and violence, in a cruel, corrupted world that dooms them to hatred and betrayal and destines them both to be each other’s archenemies. but despite the pain, despite deaths and betrayal looming over their heads, maybe this little moment of soft eyes and gentle smiles is real. maybe, just for this moment, we can pretend the world outside isn’t real and nothing else matters. just for this moment, we can pretend this was another universe where we’re not cursed by blood and suffering, another universe where our love for each other is not doomed or forbidden. just for this moment, we can just be us.

Seong Gi-hun and Hwang In-ho, I love you both with all my heart.

time this was posted: 4:57 AM

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Do you know any really whumpy songs? The only one I can think of is "This is love" by the air traffic controller

I tend to only look for whump in writing, movies and TV shows, so I’m not looking to see if a song I listen to is whump materials? only if I can relate to the lyrics, if the lyrics fit my relationship / my favorite ship, or if I like the overall vibes. but I never actually pay attention to any whump potential in a song or if it has any.

I’ll leave this up in case anybody has any recommendations for anon

Edit: now that I think about it, the one that comes to my mind is Mein Teil by Rammstein. a very good one if you understand the lyrics (it’s in German, but I love love love love how disturbingly good the lyrics are! you can google the meaning if German isn’t your language). also… since we’re talking about Rammstein, Puppe and Hallomann are also very good, very dark and powerful. (I guess I do know whump songs, after all)

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WIP checkpoint!

reblog this with the last 3 sentences you wrote from your current WIP

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"you don't post your dead dove fics on anon?" no, all of my dead dove, dirty, disgusting gay smut are posted on my main. I have no shame. normalize a girl being a pervert and a sex-crazed freak

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just noticed a typo in one of my published smut fics where I wrote “sock” instead of “cock”. I will now go live the rest of my life in the forest where no one will ever see or hear from me again

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I need some advice. I'm writing a fic where a guy has been groomed since he was 14 by this 18 year old guy. They've been dating for five years (19 and 23 now) and the older guy basically abuses the younger guy regularly.

Ex: Yelling at him, grabbing him, throwing him around, punching him, when he cries after he does this he demands he "make it up to him"

My goal for this next chapter is to make my readers feel really bad anxiety while reading (both a horrible and noble goal, in my opinion) but I'm struggling with writing the actual abuse part. It's an argument turned into the older guy punching him and throwing him around while yelling at him for being a slut and the like.

I'd love any advice for writing scenes like that! Sorry this is kind of long 😭

HOW TO WRITE ABOUT ABUSE

trigger warning’s applied

from the abuser’s POV

sudden burst of anger / violence. your character may act completely calm and polite, without any hint of anger whatsoever, when all of a sudden and with no warning the hit and the yelling come.

thinking they are always right and not willing to hear the other’s reasoning.

seeing the other’s different opinions as an act of disobedience / a challenge, and using this to justify their abuse (“I hit you because you were disrespecting me”).

gaslight and manipulation. them making their victim believe the hit “wasn’t that hard” or that the victim was “overreacting”. or that it was the victim’s own fault they were hit.

isolating the victim and making the victim depend entirely on them. so that the victim doesn’t have anybody to run to when the abuse gets too much.

them doing something sweet for their victim after they hurt them (“see how good you have it with me? see how much I love and spoil you?”).

threatening to hurt themself, the victim or even the victim’s loved ones if the victim tries to leave.

them being extremely possessive, jealous and controlling while telling their victim they are only being “protective”.

from the victim’s POV

flinching every time someone (not necessarily their abuser) makes any sudden move, because they’re expecting a punch, slap or kick.

thinking they’re “not good enough” and that’s why their (abusive) partner “punished” them.

thinking they “have to be better” for their (abusive) partner.

thinking their (abusive) partner hurts them because they love them.

thinking everything is their fault. blaming themself for letting their (abusive) partner down / for making their (abusive) partner angry.

thinking no one will love them as much as their (abusive) partner does.

thinking no one will be as patient with them as much as their (abusive) partner does.

retreating to silence and submission.

falling right back in love with their (abusive) partner when the (abusive) partner spoils them with romance, kindness and gift after the abuse.

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today’s whump prompt for my fellow whump writers:

whumpee whose arms and legs were all cut off. their tongue, too, was cut off. their hearing was completely gone and their eyes were gouged out, so they became a literal piece of meat. alive. but unable to move, speak, see or hear. dependent entirely on whumper or caretaker

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me and my beloved reader who tells me my fic made them cry

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do you write fics for yourself or for other fandom members?

myself, of course. why would anybody spend hours / days / weeks / months / years writing for free if they weren’t doing what they loved for themselves but for someone else to what? please them? I can’t imagine dedicating so much of my time and energy doing something I don’t actually love for strangers just to gain validation and approval.

sorry, but if you’re writing fanfics for other people instead of yourself then I think writing fanfics might be a job / responsibility to you, and not something you do out of love and passion. and I’ll never understand why anybody would put themself through that customer service shit when fanfic is supposed to be something writers write for themselves. to clarify, I am not talking about the case where someone writes something for their friend as a gift, because this ask doesn’t suggest that, but rather the case where someone writes fics solely for other people. (remember some people don’t even post their own fics online because, yeah, they write for themselves, not for anybody, hats off to them.)

I can only speak for myself but all of my fics are written for me as a form of self love. because I write what I want to read. I write because I do it for myself and it’s what makes me happy. I only share my works with other people, I only let them read my stuff, but I am always and forever my own priority and target audience of my works.

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The death of fanfics

I have noticed a significant decline in fanfics on A03. As a writer, I know other writers are struggling to survive capitalism while still making time for hobbies. Also, as people get older, their interest shift.

As a reader, everytime I log into A03 and find no updates, I feel sad.

A03 for me was a mindful escape from life. My 5-10 minutes of me time and joy.

I can’t say anything about this because personally I haven’t noticed any decline (so maybe it depends on what fandoms you’re in). and also I think people’s interests shift all the time, not necessarily because they get older but because human’s interests are always changing. I know lots of people who only got interested in writing fanfics once they got older.

unless I’m missing something, I don’t think fanfics as a whole are “dying” but some fandoms may be facing a decrease in fan content once fans move on to other fandoms or something else, which is just as unfortunate.

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we have whumper telling their captured whumpee that “they still have no idea where you are”

now imagine whumper telling their captured whumpee “they’ve stopped searching for you”

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you read stuff on wattpad for shit and giggles where most of the fics there are reader-inserted ones written in 1st person pov where y/n is a barely legal white girl with blonde hair and blue “orbs” who’s so smol and fragile that she’s dependent entirely on this morally questionable guy who’s killing people for a living but for some reason happens to have a soft spot for her.

you read real actual literature on archive of our own where it’s two middle aged men, who are each other’s sworn enemies, with tragic past, trauma and strong homoerotic tension. and while they’ve made each other bleed, killed each other’s friends and loved ones out of jealousy / possessiveness, lied and betrayed and manipulated, the rawness, depth, complexity and slow burn will keep you up all night, haunt you during your day and possibly change your life forever. and also the sex isn’t just smut. the sex is poetry that puts Shakespeare to shame