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Alt Universe

i just got really weirdly into the idea that in that universe where bruce kills the joker, that instead of a murder spree he just. . . retires.

like i think there would be something fascinating about the whole utrh arc happens almost exactly the same way -- meaning he is still under the extreme emotional pressure to make a decision and in some universe his response is do exactly what jason asks -- which is nothing. he backs down, turns away, hell maybe he even leaves the building entirely and waits for jason to come outside.

he doesn't know if this is a dream, a bad dream, a nightmare, or a really good nightmare where all his deepest desires come true. he's got his boy back, the monster's gone, and he's relieved of all this crippling guilt and responsibility.

i have to wonder if in this universe bruce just kind of lets it all go, in the sense that he will still want to help gotham day in and day out, but he's not batman anymore. the decision he just made, the NON-decision he just made is decidedly not baman and he's. . . he's not sure how he feels, all he knows is that he wants to take the suit off and go home.

but he waits for jason first. he wants to put eyes on him, touch him, make sure he's real because that decides if this is dream or not. if it's a dream, then he'll put the suit back on no questions asked, but if it's not. . . if there's a real possibility that his boy is here and waiting for him, he'll take it.

there were only ever 2 things bruce had desperately and fruitlessly hoped for and it was parents and his boy back, a chance for things to play out differently and this is it.

batman wouldn't ever accept it, would look that gift horse in the mouth and shatter it with his own two hands, but bruce can't and bruce won't -- so he'll stand outside and wait.

and there jason is, his eyes are green now, and he's gotten so tall, so wide -- that jaded look that was always in his eyes is much deeper now -- like it's carved itself into his bones . . .

but that's jason, that's his jason.

and all bruce can really do is open his arms, "come here jaylald."

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i understand not a lot of people are going to see my vision, but just know, i have NEVER steered yall wrong, i will guide you through the darkness one more time with this one -- but jason should make bruce fat.

there is so much delicious metaphor to be found in that singular concept, and you'll have to pry it from damn teeth. regardless bruce with an actual dad bod, and an egregiously horny and wildly inappropriate hot wife is exactly where this is headed.

but there is something so so so so good about jason quite literally forcing bruce to soften up. there is something about bruce eating "cheat" and "guilty pleasure" foods made by someone that he feels such complicated feelings of guilt and enjoyment. there is something about a bruce who lets himself HAVE things he wants, and it changes him in ways he has spent years trying to avoid. there is something about jason subsuming care of bruce from alfred -- neither of which approve of how the other handles bruce.

there is something about bruce ending up with a softer body because he accepted things "he shouldn't have" and ending up with a dad bod and being a softer more accepting father.

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alfred, yknow, that cowardly, colonizing, british fuck of a grown man who was cool shitting on a dead child? yeah, that guy, ANYWAY, a fanon interpretation of why jason would like alfred best is simply because he provides the food. in the world of a homeless kid that genuinely had no idea when/where his next meal would be, getting extremely buddy buddy with the guy who grants you access to the food just makes sense.

now, could jason think this through all the way, sure. it would better coincide with both the fanon and canon interpretation of jason and alfred. but i think there's something more. . . interesting about jason subconsciously latching onto alfred because alfred access means security. he slips into alfred's life with care, and all the innocence and simplicity of a child.

he knows not to bite the hand that feeds him, and he needs the owner of that hand to be as giving and gentle as possible -- so Jason endears himself to alfred. he spends time with him learning how to do the things alfred provides him with because jason is anything it's smart and a survivor and one day alfred won't be there.

it's may be harder to learn how to fish, but there's a dignity to it than being handed a fish could ever provide.

either way, we know how the story ends, and how it starts again, except the almost impossible shock when they try and hang alfred over jason's head and he still refuses contact. still won't waltz into the manor as if any of them are important enough to risk his safety.

he learned long ago how to take care of himself, and jason knows alfred's love is entirely conditional on bruce, and jason's certainly not holding his breath for him to come around.

but that's just fine, he can take care of himself in the most practical of ways. what else did he spend those years bleeding alfred dry for information if not for this particular eventuality.

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Posting Random Drafts I Find

There is someone following him.

Normally, that particular alarm would set him off in ways that leads to things getting loud, messy, or both. This time it doesn’t cause any of that because the person following him is just a kid. And with the life he leads he knows underestimating children is stupid, they can be just as dangerous if not more dangerous than any other adult; he knows from experience; being that he was one of those children.

The point is he knows there’s a small pup following him, and more importantly, he very on purpose, does not know this specific pup’s name. He has taken to calling him everything from munchkin, to nugget, to variations of little monster, but he doesn’t know his name, for the simple reason that Jason knows on an intrinsic bone deep level that he will be so far beyond fucked if he ever find’s out the kid’s name.

Regardless, there is a kid following him, and he’s the Red Hood, a promised safe adult for the pups of the alley before he’s some heart sick wanna be omega with a maternal instinct a mile goddamn long for this—

He’s getting away from himself.

There is a kid following him, a kid that he keeps bringing back to the little shelters he sets up for the abandoned and orphaned, a kid — that for some god forsaken reason — refuses to stay put.

A kid that refuses to not only stay put, but refuses to stay away from him.

So he slows down just enough to let the little gremlin have an easier time following him without giving it away that he knows he’s there, and leads him right to the front door of a building marked with a red bat. Nugget looks up at him without an ounce of shame. In fact, he is practically sparkling with how much pride is encased in those big brown eyes, round and rosy cheeks turning a shade darker as his plump little face squeezes out every dose of joy he feels for “sneaking up” on the red Hood.

(Jason’s willing to admit that proud little snaggle tooth smile is the best part of his night.)

Jason sighs, the voice modulator turning it to pure static, “I brought you here 2 hours ago kid, what are you doing out here?”

‘Following you, ain’t I do good!”

Jason has two options here: crush the munchkin’s hopes and dreams, like an absolute fucking monster, or say he did well and pretend he isn’t completely and utterly terrified someone isn’t gonna snatch the kid up while he isn’t paying attention.

He takes his glove off, the scent patches still on because he hasn’t completely forgotten the rules he put in place for himself and the pup in front of him. He ruffles the kids hair, and feels his heart constrict when the little shit nuzzles further up into his hand, absolutely preening under the attention, “Yeah kid you did well... Now you need to go inside and go to bed.”

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and i need bruce to be so deeply hurt and sick to his stomach that jason fully rejected him that he actually screams, cries and throws up about, which in reality means he tries to kill himself

jason should get to abort the brujay baby

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currently writing about bruce being a perv and a jason fucked up enough to comply to prove a point

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here to be gross on the internet again, but if dickjay are gonna fuck, they both need to be deeply uncomfortable with and incredibly, freakishly, turned on by acknowledging the pieces of paper that makes them brothers

im just picturing them going out somewhere, a bar, and they introduce themselves to other people as brothers, and YES they are seen making out by those exact people who just learned they're siblings. is it a narcissistic thing, is a control thing, is it fucked up little game they like to play with strangers. is it that it scratches the itch that comes with knowing that you have ownership over this person in a way that is truly untouchable to an outsider.

cuz yeah, anyone could kiss him, hug him, fuck him....but are you his brother???

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things that can and do coexist:

jason's a virgin until he finds his person

jason has a high sex drive

jason would be incredibly awkward when talking about sex

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ive been thinking about how much sladejay makes perfect action romcom material; the age gap, the grumpy old man and the bratty 20 something, the CONSTANT judgment they have for each other and everyone around them, slade's beef with everyone jason has ties too but not necessarily him. . . it would be like if you mixed up mission impossible and queer eye 😭

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love that i have surrounded myself with yes men, enablers, and people as equally as unhinged as i am

mind you, this guy has been my beta in every fandom except for this one yet, i love him to pieces

NOW....

how hard do we think jason would cry when bruce tells him he's a good boy? i simply dont think jason could handle it if bruce was balls deep, and god forbid he's facing bruce -- he'd shatter into a million fucking pieces.

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new headcanon:

jason eating anything is BORING, how about jason essentially having to choke down food on missions that he needs for the calories and nutrients, but it feels too much like when he was kid, desperate for anything to sate the hunger. it makes his stomach roll, and his tongue feels to heavy for his mouth, but he needs it -- so he eats it.

and when he gets home, he wastes no time finding his way to the high end grocery store and carefully picking out exactly what is going to go into his house, his fridge, into his mouth, and settle pleasantly in his stomach. the shopping takes a majority of his morning, bleeding into the afternoon, but this is relaxing, the meticulous nature of it is comforting.

and when he gets home, he spends the rest of the day cooking, it's a several course meal for one and jason focuses on nothing but the food in front of him. how appealing it looks plated so pretty, colors and scents mixing in a way that he never thought he would comfortably have -- and all because of him.

his money.

his cooking.

his skills.

his own two hands.

and no one can take it away from him.

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i just realized i never opened my ask box, but also be aware i go on ask answer sprees every few weeks, dont be on my dick if you dont get an answer right away, please and thanks -- im just a girl

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and if i said that he's mother, and looks like he's had about 3 kids and should be pregnant with a 4th ID be the unhinged bad guy??? as if we are not SEEING THE MATERIAL RIGHT IN FRONT OF OUR EYES?!?!?!?

im so mentally ill about him, and you know who else is mentally ill about him? bruce

idc idc idc, im standing by my assessment that brujay would absolutely fix them (and fuck up everyone else's dynamics) but i stand by that.......

actually, yknow what would be really fucked up and totally some shit bruce would do? i could 100% see him having his batfamily and his regular family. he cant be a good dad to kids he's also batman to, so why not just have kids that only know him as bruce? who have regular problems like struggling with homework and wanting to go to that party, bruce definitely thinks is a bad idea........there is an idea here, i will be working it out later

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hear me out:

if jason got shoved into a lazarus pit mid scuffle and everyone is geared up for this "pit madness," cuz he absolutely just drowned the guy that knocked him in there, and he is 100% cursing up a storm and when that's all that's happening dick tosses out a tentative, "jason. . ."

only for jason to snap his neck in his direction, teeth bared like a goddamn dog, and barks, "the FUCK do you want, my fuckin socks are wet"

he hadn't taken a breath that wasn't heaving, and he is doing his absolute best not to start flapping his arms and cry but his clothes are sticking to him, he's skin's soaked and somehow dry, everyone is staring at him

and his fucking socks are wet

jason is already stomping out towards the plane cuz they got what they came for, and he's about to use his teeth to peel layers of his skin off and if they keep staring at him like he's a freak of nature he's going to act like one

cuz his fucking socks are wet

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jason todd, secret stucky love child from during the war???? yes, yes, absolutely. i stand by all of this

Dawg I'm being so real rn...Jason todd and Peter Parker would be an underrated friendship. But prescious

........let me tell you something, cuz in my head and heart, they're in love, and they're an autism for autism couple and peter may or may not have swung into a wall the first time he got a glimpse of those thighs. and jason may or may not have tried to psychically convey he wanted peter to ramble physics equations into his pussy........but i digress, im entirely normal about them

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random:

but i genuinely believe that bruce goes full billionaire father on Christmas. it is EASILY the best excuse he has to spoil the fuck out of his kids, and buy literally every single thing he thinks they would like. what are they gonna do, tell him no??? it's christmas, he's SUPPOSED to buy gifts, he's SUPPOSED to try and buy their love. if there is one day a year he gets to act a fool, and swipe his card as many times as he likes it is then.

and because he's such a freak who, for all his faults, fucking LOVES his kids -- he absolutely has a W.E elf squad, 2 elves assigned to each kid, whose sole job is to accumulate a list and find every single item on that list, and if that means haggling and daring to get into a fist fight for the last one, you better fucking do it. he is paying big money to make sure everything is secured. . . do not fail him.

everyone's still haunted by the 2013 "incident" involving dick grayson wayne, a lack of an indoor trampoline, and an uncomfortably cold conference room.

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