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Siren's call

Chapter 3 - First Day in UA

Fuck, fuckity fuck! The first day and Athena was already late. She swore to god she was going to get kicked out of UA before she could even flunk her first exam. Her feet slammed against the floor and her head swung frantically from side to side as she continue my search. 1A?! Where the fuck was 1A, she was going to ki- There! She comes to a screeching halt as a huge door loomed before her with a sign above reading “1A”. The corners of her mouth pull up in glee as she reached for the handle. At last! She let it swing open and—THUNK!! Oops. Still gripping the door she leaned to peek past it. A kid was on the ground rubbing his forehead with one hand. Did this idiot just run into the door?

She stepped towards him and reached her hand out. “You okay there, bud?”

He slowly opened an eye but shot up to his feet as soon as he saw her. He seemed to have forgotten he was in pain as he beams at her. “Whoa! I didn’t know the girls here would be so cute! I don’t mind you “hitting” on me like that, ha-ha! If you get what I mean!”

She stilled. Her eyes slid down towards his finger-guns. Back up. She blinked.

Laughter threatened to bubble up her throat at the situation. This kid! She hit him with a door and the first thing he says is a bad pickup line. Priceless! The boy still stood there with his finger-guns up but his eyebrows drawn together in a confused look.

She leaned forward and squinted at him; that thunderbolt in his hair... She’d seen it before. “I remember you! You were in the practical entrance exam with me. Electricity, right? Nice to meet you. I’m Athena. Sorry about the door.”

His eyes widened in recognition. He leans forward excitedly as his confused look is replaced by a smile once more. “No way! You were that bird chick, right? Your quirk is so cool! You look different without all the... feathers.”

Her smile dropped.

“Bird? The fuck do you-” She stopped herself. She had to be friendlier to the little heroes. “Yes, I am indeed the bird chick, as you so eloquently put it.” She leaned back against the door. “What’s your name, sweetie? Actually, never mind. Can you tell me later? We should go sit down; I think we’re late.” She looked into the classroom. Most of the seats were already taken.

As soon they walked in an argument erupted. Some kid with glasses was pointing very pointedly at a blondie who has his feet propped up on the desk. Something about respect for the furniture. Damn, some stick he must’ve had up his ass.

Athena’s eyes fell to the blondie again. The blondie from the attack, the one who bought a cake in Sweet Heaven. She couldn’t believe this, what a coincidence! She should- no, she should not. It was a sensitive subject. Instead of walking up to him she headed to the back of the class and took one of the seats there. Thunderbolt kid sat down next to her, albeit slowly, as if unsure she’d let him sit there.

“I’m Kaminari Denki, by the way.” His eyes shifted slowly towards her chair. She grimaced. She made him nervous, of course. She needed to be less aggressive if she wanted to make any money as a friendly little superhero.

She smiled as nicely as she could and looked him straight in the eyes. “Nice to meet you, Kaminari. I hope we can be friends.” She forced her smile to widen. That was normal to say right? Or was it too straight forward? Man, she really wasn’t used to this type of crowd. He was just staring at her. Had she been smiling too long? Fuck. Her smile dropped and she turned to look towards the front. Where was the teacher anyway?

“If you’re just here to make friends you can just pack up your stuff now,” someone declared from beyond the door. A worn-out looking man stepped out of his sleeping bag and declared himself as the teacher, “Shota Aizawa,” but not before criticizing how loud the students were being and something else Athena didn’t hear. The man didn’t look like a teacher to her, bur rather a homeless person with insomnia but, hey, looks can be deceiving. He was kind of hot for a teacher, she thought. But never mind that. After his surprising declaration he instructed them to put on gym outfits and head outside. Let’s get to work on becoming a hero.

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She transformed into her‘bird form’ in the changing rooms where she got a couple “oohs” and “ahs” from her peers. To be expected, she knew she was pretty fucking cool. A girl with horns and pink skin comes up to her and complimented on her wings as well. the pink-haired girl then introduced herself as Mina Ashido really excitedly. She was pretty cute and Athena was a sucker for compliments so she figured if she needed to make friends, this Mina would probably be one of the most tolerable. They continued to chat on the way outside where Athena bumped into another someone with a familiar face. She was surprised by how many faces she recognized in the group considering she didn’t typically fraternize with wannabe heroes.

“Yo, no way. Aren’t you Kirishima from the entrance exam? Did you change up your hair? It looks rad!” She gave him a thumbs-up accompanied with a smile. Way to go, Athena, that was super likable and hopefully not coming off as fake.  The former shocked face he donned turned into a bright grin as realization fell upon his face. His eyes scrunched up from his bright smile and, yeah, he was still as cute as he was in the exam.

“Yeah. Athena, right? I can’t believe you recognized me!” he almost exclaimed with a growing smile. “I was trying to start fresh with the new look so I’m sort of bummed you saw how I looked back then, but thanks I thought it was super manly!” Sadly, their conversation got cut short as they arrive to the quirk assessment area.

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Oh, boy, did she regret this decision already. Of course, she ended up with an impossible fucking teacher. Of course there would be no orientation in the hero course and they’d just jump straight into a quirk assessment test. Dude was going to expel whoever ended up last! That’s mean, not even letting them improve. She wasn’t worried about being expelled, she had no doubt over her abilities. But she felt bad for the sucker who was going to lose.

Aizawa, the teacher, called up Bakugo, the blondie, because he got the highest score in the entrance exam to start. They were going to be doing a standardized gym test but Aizawa was encouraging, nay, demanding quirk usage. Bakugo stepped up to throw the softball to see if he could beat the 67 meters from middle school he had without using his quirk. He prepared to throw the ball but when he released it, he let out an explosion and a very loud “DIE!” to accompany it. Lo and behold, he got a whopping 705.2 meters, a big jump from his previous score.

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The 50 meter run camefirst. Athena used this opportunity to get a good look at her future classmates and start to figure out their quirks (and hopefully how to use beat them) as well as test her own limits. They had the engine calves, Tenya Iida. Ochaco Uraraka, a bubbly girl who could nullify gravitational pull. I’m sure you know them all so I won’t bother listing them, but I will comment on those Athena recognized. Bakugo pulled up with his explosions next to a boy with green, curly hair. The same green, curly haired boy as from the library who jumped in to save blondie. Athena wondered what his quirk was, he didn’t seem to be using it to run at least. Or maybe he’s just shy, he looks the type.

Soon it became her turn. She readied herself and when Aizawa blew the whistle, she dug her feet down and used her wings to propel herself forward. She didn’t have much time to build up speed since it was only 50 meters so she ended up with a solid 3.58 seconds. Not too shabby.

Next was the grip test where Athena did only slightly above average since her arms strengthened only slightly when they turned into wings. The tests continued; long jump, running rounds, ball throw etc. She continue to do well since this is what she had been training for, either average if she couldn’t use her quirk much or extremely well, like in the long jump. The long, exhausting hours in the gym and training her quirk weren’t for nothing. She’d been training for this since Mother got sick. She was going to be the best no matter what and become a hero, for Mother.

The green-haired boy, on the other hand, didn’t seem to have been working as hard. Or he simply had a terrible quirk since he wasn’t visibly using it at all. He looked determined enough but determination did nothing in a test if he hadn’t prepared for it. He stepped up to the ring, preparing the ball. His eyes steeled as he decided on something. He raised his arm to let the ball fly, but once again, it turned out to be a measly attempt that amounted to nothing. Green-haired boy looked down disappointed and slightly confused before turning to the teacher.

Whoa there! Mr. Aizawa no longer looked as much like a homeless person but rather a sexy hero/homeless-person/insomniac. He had activated his quirk and his scarf flowed freely around him. This wasn’t just any hero/homeless-person/insomniac, but Eraserhead, a hero who could erase anyone’s quirk by just looking at them and look sexy while doing it (if Athena were in an acceptable age range for him, that is).

“You’re not ready. You don’t have control over your power.” He told the green-haired kid. He continued to berate him but stepped closer so the boy was the only one who heared him. And Athena, of course. Because of her bird hearing thing. The green-haired kid, Aizawa mentioned his name was Midoriya, looked scared at first. But again, his eyes steeled in determination as he readied himself to throw the ball. Seemed like Aizawa’s words were futile and the kid was done for before he even started.

Midoriya raised his arm again to propel the ball forward but the ball actually shot forward with greater speed than before. Midoriya stood there proudly with a broken finger. Was his body not used to his quirk? Did he not have any control over it or something? The boy looked so determined and Aizawa allowed him to continue at school because he had potential apparently for only breaking a finger and not his entire arm. Athena didn’t really think he’d be much a hero if he couldn’t even handle throwing a ball but maybe he’d grow crazy control in a short amount of time and all of a sudden get used to his quirk.

When Midoriya threw the ball, revealing his quirk, Bakugo was sent into a rage. Athena could only imagine what caused it by drawing conclusions from him yelling about how Midoriya was a quirkless loser but she couldn’t fathom how not knowing about a peer’s quirk is enough to cause someone to have an outburst like this. He meant to attack Midoriya as he rushed forward but Aizawa catches him and subdues him with his scarf. Damn, some anger issues this blondie had.

The first day was soon over and Athena headed to the bus station alone. Despite it being the first day she really felt like she’d gotten a glimpse into a lot of her classmates’ personalities. Definitely gave her an idea of how hot-headed Bakugo was, how shy and determined Midoriya was, Denki’s very bad flirting, Mina’s friendliness and she even ended up in the same class as Kirishima, the cute guy from the entrance exam. She didn’t think she’d be as good at socializing with these kinds of people since she usually ran with a different crowd but it seemed to her that being surface-level friendly really went a long way here. She didn’t plan on making friends but getting to know her classmates would help her in many ways, if not only to find out their weaknesses to beat them in the future.

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I need to start listening to myself again, trying this energy again

Lmao

i fr need to just stop thinking about things

it just makes me sad and insecure

so i have decided that i am now stupid and will be living by the phrase ignorance is bliss! 

what my friends hate me??? no sorry can’t hear you

i keep pushing down my emotions down until they’re too extreme for me to ignore?? suddenly i can’t read!!

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some fucking resources for all ur writing fuckin needs

body language masterlist

a translator that doesn’t eat ass like google translate does

a reverse dictionary for when ur brain freezes

550 words to say instead of fuckin said

638 character traits for when ur brain freezes again

some more body language help 

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this is so weird, i’ve never felt lke this before but i literally feel like my body isn’t mine. Like i was just put into somebody else’s body randomly like i can feel myself in it but it doesn’t feel like it belongs to me. Idk if that makes sense it just feels really weird. it’s new but like in an uncomfotable way

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i’m so fucking pissed i’m nauseous

i want to fucking cry so bad, i’ve needed to cry for so long i’m so fucking pissed and i’m sad and i don’t know how to deal with my emotions properly

i don’t know what to do with myself, i don’t know what will help and i’ve been kind of spiraling out of control like i sometimes do but this i lasting longer than usual and i’m not picking myself up as well as i usually do

i don’t know how i can pick myself up from this honestly and i just feel terrible

i feel like everything’s my fucking fault and i just feel plain bad and i don’t know what to do i don’t know what tod o 

i just wanna cry so i can feel better cause then at least i can let my emotions out instead of fucking obttling them up and then doing nothing about it aside from pushing them further down where they aren’t as easily accessed, where they aren’t seen

i feel like everything’s going wrong and out of my control and it pisses me off

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I’m always stuck between apologizing for my behavior and for being annoying and clingy and whatever and then not wanting to victimize myself for something that literally is just in my head idk so that’s probably why i always gain friends and then lose them after a while cause i start to notice how I’m always a second thought for them and a second choice and idk. I’m just starting to get tired of people not caring about me and I get that people have no obligation to be my friend or be nice to me but it still hurts when they always prioritize everyone else over me. I’m so tired of feeling like I’m not enough for people, for my friends. I’m literally crying i don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to fix it. Like, I can’t make people just care about me even though I care about them. At least I can’t make them care about me enough to like want to be around me alone and whatever.

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Siren’s call

Chapter 2-The exam

This is the day. The entrance exam for UA is here.

Man, Athena did not want to do this. Looking up at the entrance the only thing she could think of is how she wished mother were not sick. She wished they had more money, so she didn’t have to resort to this. To waste her life being a pathetic hero. Looking down she felt almost nauseous. At least now she’d have enough money for mother’s treatment.

It would be nice if mother believed in her, though. Before the exam she visited mother in the hospital. She didn’t think Athena would get in despite how hard she had been working and practicing. She thinks Athena’s going to slip up and fuck up like she always does. That’s her biggest motivation right now, besides more food, proving her mother wrong.

The sheer amount of people in the crowded room inside makes her want to leave even more. Too many people… Too much noise. They chat among themselves in cheery voices, all looking excited at the prospect of going to high school here. She doesn’t recognize any faces, no one she knew would be caught dead around hero students. Except for her now.

She sat down as they started introducing the exam and welcoming everyone. She glanced at the kids next to her, maybe she’d be sharing classes with them someday. On her left side there was a kid that looked positively boring and on the other a kid with dark, spiky hair who seemed to be staring at his paper with an intensity. Passionate, that’s cute.

Glancing at the hero on the podium the kid next to her seemed like more fun.

“Hey, kid.” She poked him with her pencil. He jumped slightly and looked up with a panicked expression.

“Oh, sorry, what?” His teeth peeked out from under his lips as he spoke. They’re so sharp, like a shark’s. He seemed so nervous. Cutie.

“This is so boring~ I want to go finish this exam already. Do you know how long they’re going to keep us here?” Leaning back, she continue complaining as the dark-haired boy looked at her wide-eyed. “I mean, I have things to do! Do they expect us to sit here all day?”

The boy just kept staring at. Hmm, maybe he isn’t the brightest. Gesturing towards him then the podium she asked: “Well?”

It’s like his brain jumps into action. Aww, he looked so embarrassed.

“I think we just have to know how everything works before we start.”

Ah, so he speaks! She grinned at his words, which he responded to with his own sharp-toothed grin. Man, could this kid get any more adorable?

“What’s your name, kid?” She hoped he’d be in her class.

“Kirishima Eijiro! What’s yours?” he looked more cheery now.

“Aki Athena. You can just call me Athena, though. Nice to meet you, Kirishima.” she stuck her hand out for Kirishima to take.

“Nice to meet you, Athena.” He shook her hand, laughing lightly.

Seeming to remember where he was, Kirishima looked back at the podium as the hero yelled something about points but not before glancing back at Athena, cheeks reddening.

She really hoped they’d be in the same class.

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After the seminar and written exam they were split onto different grounds for the physical portion of the exam. Athena cracked her knuckles and readied herself. Now for the fun part.

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“I was born with glass bones and paper skin. Every morning I break my legs, and every afternoon I break my arms. At night, I lie awake in agony until my heart attacks put me to sleep” -Some dude from Spongebob

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I wish I could just know how people feel about me. I never know how to treat people cause i have literally no idea how they value our relationship. Are we best friends or barely acquaintances or like basically dating??? I have no fucking idea ever. I literally will treat someone like an acquaintance and then one day they do something and i’m like oh?? i guess we’re that close to you?? i literally don’t know what our relationship is please define it to me with like every single fucking person. Last week we talked every day now you seem bored of me idk if i was just reading the signals wrong or if you’re just tired or what but it sucks and i have no idea how people feel about me ever, holy shit

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Lmao

i fr need to just stop thinking about things

it just makes me sad and insecure

so i have decided that i am now stupid and will be living by the phrase ignorance is bliss! 

what my friends hate me??? no sorry can’t hear you

i keep pushing down my emotions down until they’re too extreme for me to ignore?? suddenly i can’t read!!

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I just wanna know that i’m good enough

I don’t really want a boyfriend per se

the thing i want is validation

i want to know that i’m good enough

that i’m someone’s first choice

i’ve never been someone’s first choice and honestly it’s not great for self-esteem

like fuck yeah be who you want and don’t care about what others think

but also i want friends and i want my friends to like me and want to hang out with me

i don’t care what people i don’t know think about me but

god, i just wanna be someone’s first choice

please i just wanna know that there’s someone that doesn’t just hate me

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Don't you love it when your entire friend group hangs out without you 😍😍

Love not getting invited to stuff...

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Learning :(

I don’t wanna sound conceited or ungrateful but I’m pretty good at just picking stuff up so I’ve never really had to work to get good grades or study at all as long as i just listened in class.

But in the future when I get better education what the fuck am I gonna do? I haven’t ever studied for a test I don’t know how to study? I don’t have a work ethic?? How the fuck am i supposed to actually learn stuff that’s so complex that i can’t learn it in the hour lesson :(

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Me when I accidentally post something really depressing and way too open to my main account instead of my side account that nobody knows about where i vent about stuff that no one cares about lol

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i see all the pain, the scars left behind i weep for my brethren, the fallen of my kind

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i want to be so kind it echoes backwards in time and undoes the things that hurt you. i want to be so kind it radiates from me. i want to be so kind that i make someone else find faith in humanity again. there’s not much i can do, i’m small and weak and i only know so many words. but i know i can be kind. and sometimes, i believe, that changes the world.

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I love you

when you look my way

and smile

i feel like

i can finally breathe

when you laugh

at something

that i say

all my worries are lifted

i adore you

i love everything you do

i love you

i don't care

that you don't love me too