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how are you supposed to smile when every time you take a breath life is suffocating your desires and you want to fade into the depths

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rest, such a sacred act seen as negligent when you should be constructive

there is so little time we carry in our lives that we are expected to run for the essential and for fun.

to take a break, to rest to close your eyes and take a breath, is wasting the oxygen and weighing you into laziness.

yet what happens when you burn at both ends and the fires scorch you and your friends, what happens when you give yourself to the machine only to be spit out like you are not a human being?

you lose your body and soul become fractured and far from whole, you fade into a ghost who doesn’t know peace and who forgot how to dream.

it is okay to let yourself breathe even for a moment in your day and allow yourself just be

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and in spilling out the words the ink has flooded in my mind i sink and drown into poetry's world and i can not get enough of its high

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night prayer to aphrodite

and so it goes

i speak to you, lady aphrodite,

one last written ode

‘fore i slip into dream;

i thank you for holding me

cradling my weary soul

and so clear you speak

words to make me whole:

my sweet child,

i love you so,

let roses bloom around you wild

drift off with me so you won’t be alone

you carry so much

in your day-to-day

that you believe you are never enough

when you absolutely are in countless ways.

so close your eyes

and let the tides of sleep pull you under,

give rest to your heart and mind

and i will be there even in storm and thunder

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i long for my days to be painted in pastel instead my world is lost to the monochrome

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go ahead- knock on my chest, you'll hear the sharp clear sound that only comes from a heart made of glass;

where the loneliness ate me and left a mess where the sorrow has left me hollow

and perhaps, for a moment, you'll realize this could have been prevented if only you had been there before the monsters took me unaware

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i have been feeling eternally lost lately, but in moments of solace i look to the skyline and i think to myself that maybe there is something more to this life

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she is made of beauty and grace:

her long flowing hair that cascades in ocean waves, easy to run your fingers through. her skin soft and smooth you would love to feel all the time. her curves perfect angles all over her body.

the way she is pretty inside and out without trying. the way is strong but delicate at the same time. the way she is smart and kind and knows it, but clever enough she doesn't like anyone else know.

how she always puts effort into her appearance even if most don't notice. how she always smells of flowers fresh-picked from the garden of aphrodite. how her smile makes her glow brighter than she already does. how her eyes glimmer like she knows she is beautiful in a million ways

how she takes me over a million times.

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open the door

curled up by the wall letting my pieces fall in a mosaic masterpiece on the floor hoping someone would open the door-

hoping, that it could be you seeing dejection seep and paint me blue and you ask in gentle voice what is going on to break the noise

and i look up in your confused eyes hoping you could read my mind understand how you boisterously talk to everyone and leave me lonely

and you would pull me in a hug tell me there is still evergreen love while i cry on your shoulders let all my fears fade to a blue

but i know you well enough that sorrows mixes with melancholy knowing your world is filled so much that my space is a mere memory

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did you even know you lost me?

There is no way of going around it. I could try and write a thousand pretty words, weave metaphors in cursive to describe my feelings for you and how our story ended. But I can’t. Even for the poet, I don’t have the words in me to spell it out in abstract ways:

I miss you.

I miss you to the bone. To the very core of my being in the space you used to occupy. You used to be there, so bright and lively in all of your controlled chaos. A constant that I could always depend on whenever the colors drained from my world or whenever the noise was too loud. How you swore at one point that I would always have a place in your heart and head, even though on the surface you didn’t show your feelings that much. That was true even a year later and in the months we would joke and talk like old times.

But it was before the tides shifted.

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i would have given you all the time my life is destined for, if only your false promises did not quietly proclaim, nevermore.

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plead to sappho

i plead to you, sappho, bless me with your divinity: your words echoing across worlds, your soliloquies enchanting celestial skies, your love everlasting and enough your romance forever entranced your poetry everywhere eternally;

and maybe i will someday find the beauty life supposedly carries

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ode to aphrodite #3

i climbed down the steps to briefly feel you near, and saw a seashell barely on the shore after i spoke to you of my sorrows

i knew you gifted solace in my distress and to spreak to me crystal clear even if my soul is feeling unmoored you will forever remain today and all my tomorrows

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ode to aphrodite #2

aphrodite i ask of you please as your child on her knees fill me with love and beauty that my monochrome reality has devoid of meaning and in return i will devote poetry in my life and death to you in glory

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loneliness incarnate

Inspired by writing prompt "Skin" by @butwhyareyoureyessosad and hosted by @picklemafia

i shimmer i glisten and just as quick i diminish

fade until my skin has turned pale vanish as if i was always invisible;

is it so easy to forget the ones who stay in the background who notices your quiet frowns?

is it that my voice among the chatter of white noise is one destined to remain quiet except at your indirect discretion?

and the tragedy is you never realized the tryst until my solitude seeped into the bones and the weight makes my skin s a g

and i am nothing but loneliness incarnate

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wrap your vines of ivy

around my quivering heart

let the thorns pierce through me

forcing me to transcribe you in my art,

let me taste the elixir

that many would proclaim poison,

so there is only love no hurt

and you flow through my veins as the only one

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i only fade because you let me