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too sick to be considered healthy, too healthy to be considered sick.

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Being disabled but not looking disabled honestly sucks ass.

Need a seat at the bus station because your heart is trying to explode and you can't breathe? Sucks to be you ig, you don't need a seat beacause you can walk.

Sitting in the priority seating on a bus or train because you physically can't stand up any longer? Fuck you, you're stealing seats from those who need them.

Use the lift because your body is incapable of surviving the stairs? You're a lazy, unfit, piece of shit.

Wear a sunflower lanyard so that people are aware that you are disabled? You're an entitled arsehole and deserve to die.

Honest to god it's a fucking nightmare. I'm not able bodied but, because I look like I am, I can't possibly be disabled. What is wrong with the world? Why are people so damn intolerant?

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I’m so homesick for something that doesn’t even exist anymore.

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If I had a nickel for every time I heard this, I’d be rich. I don’t want to know this much, I have to.

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Do you think doctors take a separate mandatory course that teaches them how to gaslight, ignore, belittle, invalidate, and call their patients crazy? Like is that part of the oath they took or…

Also is it in the oath for them to lie to their patients and say a mild case isn’t a case? Like do they do drill practices where the long white coats have whistles and are yelling at them about how to treat patients before they become doctors

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I’m tired of being collateral damage to other people’s decisions.

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I shouldn't have to JUSTIFY my EXISTENCE to anyone!

YOU think you deserve to speak for us?

You think you KNOW what we want?

YOU think your outside opinion is more important than ours?

We do have a voice.

We know what we want.

We are the experts on our own lives.

We may be non speaking, blind, deaf, have an intellectual disability, or a neurodivergence, but we are PEOPLE.

Not infants

Not broken

Not monsters

Not evil.

Shut the fuck up and LISTEN to us.

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people LOVEEEE preaching mental health acceptance/awareness

until the symptoms are unpalatable or weird or whatever

"depression awareness/acceptance!!" until you cant get out of bed for months to do anything but piss and grab something to nibble on for a bit

"bpd awareness/acceptance!!" until you are unhealthily obsessed w someone and carve their name/initials into urslef

"ocd awareness/acceptance!!" until you have pocd, pedophilia/zoophilic intrusive thoughts, extremely paranoid about [xyz] and arent just super clean/neat freaks

"autism awareness/acceptance!!" until you arent cutesy, and ur actually somewhat deranged, or totally nonverbal, or act like an adult instead of a fucking infant, then ur weird and creepy

"mental health awareness and acceptance!!" until the symptoms you display are 'weird' or go against social rules. until you arent the stereotype. even when u ARE the stereotype, you get backlash cuz ur still 'weird'

even if they accept ur mental illness, the moment u cope in a 'weird' way ur also the fucking antichrist and deserve to be burned on a stake!!

its a losing game with people. you either lose or you lose worse

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Ooh, somebody called me out

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That feeling when you know it's gonna be bad, so you just disassociate to get through it.

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“It’s okay to not be okay”

Unless it impacts your work performance…

Or your grades

Or how you act

Or if it causes you to say no

Or if you’re harder to be around

Or if you need time alone

Or if you talk about it

Or show symptoms

“It’s okay to not be okay”

Unless you have trauma

Unless you have one of those “scary” mental illnesses

Unless it inconveniences me

Unless you’re undiagnosed

Unless you cry or scream or make a scene

Unless you don’t keep that shit to yourself

Unless you make me uncomfortable

Unless I can’t infantilize or fetishize you

Unless you have hallucinations

Unless you have psychosis

Unless you get angry

Unless I think you’re cringe

Unless you can’t preform hygiene tasks

Unless you’re disabled, or trans, or gay, or not white, or fat, or AFAB, or intersex, or a man… so I guess anyone

“It’s okay to not be okay”

As long as nobody ever finds out.

Our society has a severe issue with performative activism, and mental health is a huge example of this. Every time someone considers reaching out, they run through this list mentally. This is why true activists and resources need to be loudly supportive of all the things on this list. Take the subtext out of your support.

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All you need is just a little fresh trauma to start the cycle all over again.

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When the depression fades and you realise too late that you still crave it.

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Don't tell me you'd DIE for me.

That means nothing.

Tell me you'll LIVE for me.

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When you tell people you self harm, and all they think is knife wrist and blood.

They don't understand what happens behind the scenes.

They don't realise the lengths that we go to just to hide it.

They don't know how creative we are, when the need hits but there's no knives around.

They don't realise just how fucked up it actually is.

They say they want to know, yet they flinch, hesitate, show disgust,

At what is actually, the prettiest part of the whole damn show.

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Christmas can be a hard time for some people.

Don't judge people or get angry if they won't come to your function, maybe they're doing their best just to keep their heart beating today.

Don't expect people to bring presents, it's been a hard year, they might be struggling just to put food on the table, keep the lights on or buy their meds.

Don't force the holiday spirit on people. Some people have suffered severe trauma through the holiday period. You still expect them to be jolly about it just for you?

Christmas is a time to love, to be kind and care for others. Not to force big parties, bankruptcy, meltdowns or flashbacks on others.

Fuck societies expectations. Just spread the love.

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