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#DONT FADE AWAY#I WANT THE TRANSLATION SO I CAN CRY#I LOB#stray kids#skz#skz record#piece of a puzzle#changbin#seungmin#dwaekki#mong mong
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My brother recently got into Demon Slayer so I wanted to make a kny oc for him since I did it before with both me and my sister and never got around to my brother :)
But I started by refreshing my own design because wow?? It’s been 4 years since I first made my kny insert character and a lot of things are now outdated! Not to mention my art has improved a lot, I hope. More details under the cut!
Meet Ebisu Koharu: youngest of the Ebisu family and physically the weakest. They only barely passed Final Selection by hiding for the entire week and surviving off tips from their older siblings. Nonetheless, they still want to contribute, which is why they hold onto a thick, leather bound book that records every demon they’ve ever met in precise detail, with labeled diagrams and scribbled calculations in the margins of different strengths and weaknesses.
After spending a few years on the job, and properly seeing their data contribute to the successes of other demon slayers, they’ve come a bit more into their own as a competent researcher and fighter, though they still do tend to request paired missions with friends and family to act more as a support role rather than a fighter.
The Ebisu family is one of scholars. The eldest daughter Kaoru is a doctor, and the eldest son Shougen is a chemist. By nature, fighting is not necessarily their strong suit, which is why their family breathing style and techniques are all poison-assisted. Of the three, Koharu is the weakest and most averse to combat— they wield a short half-length blade, with more of a smooth ceremonial hilt and sheath than any practical weapon.
#kny oc#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#it’s so much fun seeing my brother be so late to the party for kny lmao#I love him but his takes are kind of shit ngl.#his character will be absolutely hilarious to do as well#because you better believe I’m going to lean far into how much he simps for giyu#looking for names is so much more fun when I can read some kana and am not using google translate#I found out that the combination of me and my sister’s names form kanari which i will not stop thinking about for ages#four years of improvement and four years of character development! Better character design and research skills#it’s a lot of fun thinking more about details when designing now#I.e. brushes are wildly impractical tools for writing on the go so koharu’s main choice of stationery is an imported fountain pen that cost#a decent amount of their savings#and they wanted their records to last longer so they also invested in a proper leather bound journal (also imported) rather than#a normal string bound book like their normal daily journal. this is also why the books open in different directions#in the event that their fountain pen breaks they Will Cry but they will also commit the details to memory and write them in with a bruh#with a brush after the battle ends
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Ride 748: The sixth and seventh place
Pag 1
1: Keep it up, Rokudai!!
It's past 9pm!!
2: Three hours left....!!
Until we complete the 1000km... there are still
3: 60km!!
Yeah!!
Pag 2
1: 20km in an hour... if we can run 4 laps per hour, we can do it!!
We can reach 1000km!!
Pag 3
1: Yeah!!
4: We can do it!!
Yeah!!
5: Gooo!! Do your best!!
55km left!! Go!!
Will their bottles be enough....
6: Those two can do it
Will they really complete the 1000km? Kinaka and Rokudai
Even though they're first years!!
Pag 4
1: There was also a moment where he seemed to be having a tough time, but Kinaka encouraged him
They looked so fired up now, right!?
They got back up!!
The look in their eyes was terrific!!
2: Sugimoto ran with determination
3: But... this fight is...
He... Sugimoto knows all that well
He's fighting understanding that
4: Kuaaaa
5: Garuaaa
Pag 5
1: It was probably the same for Danchiku
2: Danchiku watched Sohoku running for two years
And Sugimoto for three years....!!
4: So they chose that race!!
Pag 6
1: They chose to fight!!
3: Are you an idiot... Sugimoto
4: If you ... wanted to run with me at our third and last Inter High, you could have stuck behind me, easily, and take the goal that way
5: and become... a member... the “sixth man”
Pag 7
1: You chose a harsh way
2: You were thinking about the team....
4: You were thinking about what you needed to do....
5: That's just like you....
6: You know, Imaizumi, I think, I think it's necessary
7: For our third Inter High members this year, we definitely....!!
Pag 8
2: It's 10pm!!
40km left!!
Pag 9
2: Yeah!!
4: We can do it, Rokudai!!
Yeah!
Let's go, Rokudai!!
Yeah!
5: I confirmed it earlier when we passed through the goal – it's good news, so be glad!!
Yeah!
6: Good news!? Teh!?
7: We have already surpassed the third year Sugimoto-san!!
Pag 10
1: Huh!?
Is he resting? Or is he preserving his strength? We don't know, but anyway it looks like right now Sugimoto-san isn't on the course!!
2: For now, we....
3: Are sixth and seventh place
The “sixth place”....
4: Will become one of the Inter High members!!
Pag 11
1: Mem....
Really!?
2: Wait, teh, I'm getting dizzy
That... wouldn't that be amazing, teh!?
3: It's an hypothesis but, even if Sugimoto-san wants to chase us from here on, there's a “surpassing ban board”, so if we keep running then he can't catch up to us!!
And we'll secure the “sixth place”!!
4: You're so smart, Kinaka-kun!!
5: Right?!
6: Waaaa
A member... it's almost within reach, teh.... that's incredible, teh...!!
Pag 12
1: I'm so glad, teh, Kinaka-kun!!
Yeah!!
No, it's too soon to cry!!
2: I'm so glad we kept on running
There are still 40km left!! Don't lose your pace!!
3: Tears are for after the finish line!!
4: Ahh, it's here, teh... a blan comment, it's been a while
Oi!! I cheer you up and yet you hit me!!
5: But now it touches my heart!!
It's thanks to your encouragement, Kinaka-kun, that I arrived here, teh!!
6: Uhm!!
Pag 13
1: Let's aim for the Inter High!!
Yeah!!
3: Go
4: Go, Rokudai
Pag 14
1: It's only 40km left.... you can do it on your own, Rokudai
2: It hurts-!!
3: I reached my limit for the pain
All the “let's go”, “let's do it” and the encouragement were to deceive you
4: I had to
I've been having leg cramps for a while
5: The “Inter High”
6: Even though it's right before my eyes
It's so frustrating
Pag 15
2: Wha- Rokudai
You moved back before I noticed...
3: If you're tired and need to slow down, tell me it, teh
I'll push you and help you!!
4: Don't underestimate the “helping ability” of a former manager, teh!!
Pag 16
1: Rokudai!!
5: Rokudaiii!!
6: You mean to say “let's still go”!?
7: Is it connecting possibilities? Rokudai's hand!!
Pag 17
1: Don't cry, Kinaka Tsugunao, crying is for after the finish line!!
2: Ah!!
3: Alright, the climb is over, I'll pull you on the downhill!!
4: Yeah, teh!!
Pag 18
1: Waa-teh!? Suddenly I can't keep my balance!!
2: Rokudai!?
3: A flat tire!!
4: Huh, a flat tire!?
Your tires are screaming for the 1000km
Ahh
Dammit!! Mechanical troubles in a time like this!!
5: The tools to repair a flat tire are only at the goal!!
But with a flat tire, on the downhill....!!
We have no choice but to push it slowly downhill!!
Pag 19
1: Hurry!!
2: Ugh-
3: If we go so slow, Sugimoto-san might come!!
4: Sugimoto-san is chasing us, teh!!
Pag 20
1: Sugimoto won't come
2: I've come to bring you a message from Sugimoto
#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 748#my babieeeeees theyre so sweet i love them so much ;A;#we all know that rokudai will be the sixth man in the end#as much as i would have wanted both him and kinaka on the team :')#but still this whole chapter was so so sweet ;A; my adorable lovely sweet first years besties#kinaka encouraging roku-chan the whole time to fire him up bc he knows he himself can't do it ;A;#and roku being like 'nope not on my watch! we can do it together!'#THEYRE BUDDIES! THEYRE BESTIES! THEY'RE EACH OTHER'S PRECIOUS AND RELIABLE BEST FRIEND!!#yowapeda has some of the best friendships in all the sport mangas ive read#im gonna cry for how much i love these kids :')#now imaizumi has arrived to help roku with the flat tires im assuming#since it looks like he's carrying something#kinda like junta with onoda during first years#also ima still thinking about sugimoto ;-;#sugimoto is literally the second person after onoda that imaizumi has openly shown affection to ;A;#imma cry ;A;#also naruko who keeps watching imaizumi because he knows :eyes emoji:#sorry nothing can distract my imanaru heart lmao
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so it's apparently delusional to like Soriku
and think they have moments together
but i once saw someone who said Sora and Kairi kissed at the end of kh3
double standards
and not one ship is considered canon either
the most we have is Nomura saying that Riku doesn't like Naminé so he changes the scene so he is not smiling
that is still one of the most hilarious things
#soriku#aitsu heart thoughts#sora#riku#and sharing a papou doesn't mean it's inherently romantic#i never seen my boy sora look so scared and repulsed until kairi offered him that fruit#it can be but it also can be for good luck#until she clearified it was a good luck charm#and im not just trying to debunk sk#they have moments in the first game and sora imagines kairi dancing after goofy and donald talked about her#but after some point his feelings seem to change#and sora and riku have more moments#i think soriku is cuter#and translation has a lot to kh3 which is why it's so iffy#riku not smiling at Naminé is so funny and then now is smiling at sora#does anyone want to explain to me why#there's not straight answer#also why did someone say they kissed at the end of kh3#she started crying and he poofed#no kiss#where did you get that from
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Do you guys know about the song named Je t'aime which is sung by Lara Fabian? Maybe not since it's a french song.
But I'm just letting you know that it's Dean post Cas's declaration of love.
#I don't have time to translate every lyrics right now#but I can later if you're interested#also I just wanted to let you know what the singer said about the theme of that song#She said: it's a confession of a broken heart and a cry for freedom in which we confess our helplessness in the face of love.#that's so dean after cas's declaration#destiel#deancas#castiel#dean winchester#spn 15x18#Despair#castiel's declaration of love#destiel songs#my random thoughts about destiel
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hey don’t cry. 10 million blorbos from your shows, okay?
#commander cody#obi-wan kenobi#uh. i guess implied#codywan#star wars#bytebun draws#ok on twitter sometimes japanese artists i follow will caption their au posts with 'delusion for those who can accept anything'#(and then explain the au) (or at least that's what google translate tells me)#that's how i feel about this one.#can't imagine a universe where this guy would sit down to play mario cart w his bf's family after an obvious crying jag#but like maybe he watched legally blond or something & got rlly moved#abt the main character finding her own path with an identity separate from her partner without losing the core elements of her personality#and self-expression. and also winning at the law. you know?#au cody can have elle woods as his blorbo.#in my au where he's doing law things re: clone citizenship#but also fuck stylizing crying genuinely hard. idk if i can get stylistically simpler than the first pic & still convey the precise emotion#that i want. i'm cheating there with like some actual shading instead of hard lines... more studying required#it's like difficult to draw people crying bc/ it's one of those emotions that changes the whole shape of your face... the invert of a#beaming smile. the tears aren't the important part... that's why the 'stoic guy sheds single tear trope' is so funny#they're out there w their plastic immobile faces and a fake tear when the important part is all those scrunched up microexpressions#someone trying rlly hard not to cry has the deeper mouth corners & tense brow-eyelid combo & that wrinkle near the nostril#unfortunately all of these lines are also the only indication of old age in most anime lmao so its so so hard to figure out how to draw em#shld do some ch*insawman or g*lden kmy studies probably. those guys r pretty good at funny looking faces
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Last man standing (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#ZEX#It's lonely at the top :(#Poor dearest is worse for wear ah </3#This scene made me cry ;;#Like it was sad when he wrote down his missing canonmates but going back in and writing everyone else's names ;;;;#Even his shaky alliances! Even the people he hasn't seen for a while!! Wehhh <3 <3 <3#You soft heart ;; I see you Admiral ♥#Also had a lot of fun writing in VUK ZIX again hehe ♪#The translations from VUK ZIX to English aren't exact - for starters they're upside down haha#So if you started from the top down it would actually read KINLEZ NATPAK but I figured that wouldn't be as readable#You read from the bottom up! I also still headcanon it being written/read from left to right#So he started with Zelnick then Fwiffo then Tanaka and so on#Although I did change it up for the second one - Teisel then Xelloss then Xigbar then Asch and Van#The more I think of it the more I'm surprised there's no H :0#Even just as a demarcation of a pause before during or after a syllable#The ''sh'' sound makes complete sense tho hehe <3#Any incorrect shaping of letters/poor handwriting on my part can totally be chalked up to ZEX not being used to human hands!#Totallyyy lol#I really like the way specific syllables are shaped - like how Teisel and Zelnick almost share the same shaped between ''SEL'' and ''ZEL''#How Z is a more connected extension of S just agh it's so pretty <3 <3 Eco_Mono really did such a lovely job with it ♪#And then certain ''incorrectly'' spelled syllables still turned out so pretty! Like the ''ANA'' in Talana - look how swoopy and continuous!#The ''BAR'' in Xigbar looks really cool - honestly reminds me of the fanweapons I made ages ago for I? think? Xigbar's apprentice??#It's been too long I don't remember now lol but it's cool to me in particular because of that!! :D#Fwiffo looks so funny haha - Tanaka has a cool star-like kind of letter in his name?? Man it's just so neat <3#As for ZEX - I mean he made it this far :( Not one to give up easily that's for certain ♥ Tenacious#I want him to be happy :'0
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So the live action Jigen film was REALLY FUN?!
They understood that it needed to be really stylized and popping, but didn’t stumble into garish, fake-cartoon style. The ancillary cast is strong and fun, the villain is rad as hell, Jigen is failing to be stoic all over the place, the script feels better than your average Lupin special, and the firefights are creative and a wild delight!
I’m biased as hell but if this year has taught me anything, being a huge fan of something does not mean I will enjoy it any more than otherwise.
#fjslshdlsjdksls#I loved the way they translated his hat brim behavior#In animation you can get it exactly where you want with a rough shove#but irl it’s not that easy#so they swapped it for him gripping or toying with the hat when uncomfortable#just great#they didn’t go overly schmaltzy with the kid stuff too#He was doing his best to care for that kid and neither of them were quite stepping far enough to bridge the gap#but THAT bridged the emotional gap#the effort was enough#the clockmaker was awesome#I loved her and would love to see her again in a future film#put her in the anime#put her and the kid in an episode so long as you under no circumstances kill either one#fjslHfnslamabdhd#the way the Kato-Senpai cameo was used was great#could have been a cheap joke but their structure was solid#fhslshxmsjabslskdbx#Jigen struggling not to cry reading the kid’s diary#every time anyone saw him doing something sweet telling them not to look#ahhh the people of the arcade!#so cute!#the outfits in the slums kicked ass#and don’t get me STARTED ON THE FLORIST
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Listening to a song cover of Sirius' Heart I found through a twitter mutual-kinda and it is squeezing my own heart.
#aria rants#i can apply this to sifloop. after im done being affected by the emotions that the song gives. this is sifloop to me#also i say mutual-kinda cuz i-- i dont know if we're mutuals-- i think??? maybe??? theyre following me so i think so???#its the jp mhyk artist that tagged me and i embarrassingly messed up my english to. they quote retweeted that song#and with the help of google translate. they said that the song is really beautiful so i decided to give it a listen too!#and it sure is so beautiful... morse code shouldnt be making me want to cry but it does... that zuuu tto. part is soooo... ough#also like that morse code part sounding like zutto at some parts like ououuoghghgh???????????#had to nyoom to look for the english translation and morse code translates to i love you and it sounds like zutto#which is japanese for forever and like ouououghghggh?!?!?!?!!?!? you cant... you cant do this to me#listening to several covers and the og of the song now. i need to etch this into my brain and heart and soul
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oh ok
#succession#tomgreg#OH MY GOD THE SCENE IS THIS CLOSE AFTER?!?? i thought i had some time !!! i jqqqqqqq#man. man. mn!!!!aman!!!!man!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man.#matt johnson you would love tomgreg#what the fuck is this scene though i want to die i PHYSICally want to di e Eeeeeeeeeee#he........i .........fkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkmmmmmmmmmmmm#ok. okok. ok . novel tags ok i can think through my absolute fucking grief. ok so basically.#tom giving greg advice about prison. and then greg like basically begs to have tom take the rap for him. but not directly.#he can never say things directly. but tom translates. and it doesn't take him long to say fine. load me up. you piece of shit.#but he doesn't even mean the latter statement he's too sad. and he won't fight. the fight is all gone out of him.#so much for greg being expendable though huh?#look me in the eyes and tell me tom isn't in love with greg at least a little. yall telling me you'd take the rap for someone and go to jail#for them if you didn't love them? ok bestie you do you#i kind of like as well the comparison of the conversation between them and him and shiv like. it's very similar in that him and greg are#saying sentences that are parts of different conversations like him and shiv's convo ALTHOUGH it is still related bc it's to do with jail#she wouldn't even talk about that subject at all. and then it correlates to the whole. nero and sporus thing right. and the dressing up/ring#ALSO THE FACT HE DIDNT WANNA SLEEP WITH HER AND HES OUT LATE AT A DINER WITH GREG I GET IT G IS HIS MISTRESS#but anyway.#and the WAYYYYYYY greg's voice breaks and the way he looks at tom with pleading eyes and it looks like he's about to cry#that's what does it for tom i think. that's what breaks him. he can't bear the thought of greg suffering for months.#which makes me believe that that is why he was so sad earlier when greg was asking for advice. he doesn't like greg to suffer#by other hands of course. if it's by his hands that's another matter BUT THATS ANOTHER CAN OF WORMS#LIKE I KNOW ITS KIND OF AN ASSHOLE MOVE OF GREG BUT AT THE SAME TIME HES LIKE. idk early 20s. 26ish latest???#and i would be fucking terrified i'm 30 and i still don't know what the fuck is going on i don't know how i am still alive so i get it.#and if you have someone who has been taking care of you and has in the past flexed their power and money to give you food and parties#and move you up in a company and give you opportunities you most likely would never get. you kinda. latch. and fall into a pattern.#you assume he has a way out for you#has help. i mean greg probably assumed he wouldn't say yes in the first place so he kinda Has to be an asshole for any chance at all tbh.#he even said quid pro quo. but tom didn't even want anything in return. i mean idk what greg could even give him [lol] but still.
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also to anyone who plays honkai, does anyone have other translations of the game? aside from the official?
i feel like i talked about this with a friend, but the translations just. don't line up with what's being said a lot of the time and it's slightly driving me insane x - x
#like!!! i can understand bits and pieces but its not enough to understand whats fully being said#but i just know that some of the things being said do not line up with the subtitles and i want to gnaw on something when it happens#idk....#cuz like this one line in ch 11 ex where himekos in kianas flashbacks (i am crying)#himeko asks kiana whats on her mind and she says something like 'tell mama what youre thinking about'#but she doesnt!!! say that in the official dub!!!!! she just says 'tell your teacher' !!!!!!!! WHY#it is very cute though how much kiana looks to st freya cast as her family its so ; - ; i feel so bad#also the voiceacting is absolutely killing it in ch 11 ex its amaziiiing#like!! kiana was saying she was angry towards fu hua but not because of betrayal and more because she realizes she was helpless towards fat#YOU CAN HEAR THAT IN HOW SAD AND JUST ABSOLUTELY DEJECTED KIANA SOUNDS..... its amaziiiiing i love it#at least to me !#it was weird when i saw kiana get angry at fu hua because while she did look angry#her voice kinda sounds otherwise#but anyways#snow plays hi3#just asking !! because im sure theres probably bounds of translations!! but i just dont know whats like. A Good Trusted One#so i trust. whoever plays honkai aPPARENTLY THERES A FEW OF YOU HIIIIII!!!!!!#im shaking all your hands im sorry im kind of new and probably like absolutely blissfully ignorant but i am shaking your hands#i wish there was a way to keep tabs of who Does bc then i can annoy cOUGHS#kidding! i wouldnt lmao
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back in the habit (giffing scenes nobody else is making gifs of) (screaming and crying) (how the fuck do i get that stupid watermark outta there) (i hate this)
#personal#there are so few love in translation gif sets on here and i am going to be the change i want to see in the world#let me cry about it first though#also the only hd version i could find has this GIANT ASS WATERMARK in one corner and i can usuall crop it out but not in this one scene 😭
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I feel like such a broken fucking person lol
I talked way too much in the tags don't read them
#fighting off the ideation like my life depends on it!! bc it does!!!#been good about not thinking certain phrases but F U C K am i feeling it. i want to turn into a pile of dust#i am so desperately trying to work on myself and change my patterns and bad habits and perspective but it feels like i always fall short#i try not to talk about it online but I'm just. having a very hard day with N because we experience our feelings in different ways#i isolate myself bc i struggle with regulating my reactions and tones when im having an episode but she needs me to talk through things and#i sometimes just. can't. bc I'm not done experiencing the negativity and am not in a place to have a productive convo bc shame spirals etc#we just spent a long time talking and being patient and i thought i was understanding and explaining myself well but i just. idk.#i don't know how to explain that of course i love her even if I'm isolating myself. of course i love her although I'm nonverbal today. i jus#t can't *make* myself talk when I'm like this i don't want to be nonverbal i don't want to isolate i don't want to be a distant partner i do#n't want to fall back into these patterns related to my grief i want to be better i am trying to be better i am working so fucking hard on#being better. i just feel so defeated bc this all spiraled from me not wanting to decide what to get for lunch n using a poor tone about it#I'm about to talk with her some more but I just. kinda don't want to exist right now. fuck dude. it feels so fucking awful when i upset her#like i love her so much she is so important to me and it breaks my heart that our entire day is shot bc i was tired and cranky#i just don't understand how that equates to me not loving her bc she is my whole world dude. I'm going to throw up#i also don't know how to explain to her that scrolling on tumblr is comfortable to me I'm not ignoring her it's just the SM that i scroll on#like we're hanging out watching tv together I'm gonna scroll a little bit. it's just not insta or anything#idk my mind is scrambled I'm crying I just want to be a better person who can calmly communicate my thoughts and emotions#today has just beat my fucking ass dude. i isolate so those feelings don't get translated into my interactions with others#i don't even know what i typed in these tags I just don't want to off myself or think about it I'm fighting myself so much 2day#rAMbles
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GOODDD NEW FIFTEEN CHAPTER AND I ABSOLUTELU ADORE THE WAY HOSHIKAWA HAS DRAWN ARAHABAKI
LITERALLY SO COOL AND I LOVE HOW THE FORM OF ARAHABAKI DOESNT LOOK SOLID UNLIKE IN THE ANIME, IT LOOKS SO COOL AND A HHH so much scarier and intimidating in Hoshikawa's style and I am so happy
Additionlly, I love the way Hoshikawa drew Arahabaki because not only does the less firmly solid form make sense in the representation of Arahabaki's form to me, but that decision also allowed Hoshikawa to add these tendril like things from Arahabaki going up on what would presumably be it's back which feels like it's evoking the imagery of the wings Chuuya gains by using Corruption in Stormbringer and just makes a lot more sense whereas the anime's design for the form of Arahabaki had honestly left me so confused about what they were trying to go for! I am just AHH I love Hoshikawa's style
#Also Hoshikawa again making Dazai look devastatingly cute and childish in this chapter that I want to cry#And Hoshikawa's Rimbaud is utterly SLAYING#He looks gorgeous and I'm eagerly waiting for the translations so I can see all of what he's saying#And Chuuya having his perfect teenage boy sass this chapter too#G od#I adore Hoshikawa's style I don't think I can state that enough#dazai chuuya 15#fifteen manga#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#chuuya nakahara#dazai osamu#arthur rimbaud
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Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over
Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰
#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually#very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds#like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd#but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga#and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit#and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’#which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road#its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16!#he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control#which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’#so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way#like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health#i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to#be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident!#so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game#is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me#cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused#but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone#like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways#and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed#but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child#shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING#HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY#like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work#apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs#his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be#better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy#and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad#how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel#makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired
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#i want a break please. today sucked.#so my mother leaves tomorrow to head down to her parents. where she will be staying indefinitely#translation: until grandpa dies.#my brother is taking his dog. our dog. the dog we’ve had since he was 9. to get a final vet appt before they decide#on the date to put her to sleep#and i am. i’m so tired. i hate seeing my little brother cry and i can’t DO ANYTHING FOR HIM#i can’t fix this i can’t make it easier its always going to be the worst thing#i can count on one hand the number of times i’ve seen him cry. today was AWFUL#i want to curl up and do nothing.#but i have to put a portfolio together. i have to get my shit together.#im so fucking tired. can the universe chill. 2024 needs to chill. please. this is enough down ramp. thanks.#the magician cries
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