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latinapoetbts · 2 months ago

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New Years Eve - KTH > Y/N [Latina] Short OS

Summary : * Smut, 18 + Y/N and Tae Hyung are old friends. You have been in love with him since you first laid eye on him since middle school. Keeping a friendship and controlling your feelings for him had been hard. It had been four years since you had last seen him and now you are visiting your home town for the New Years holidays. Find out what happen between the two of you once you see each other again. Part 1: You had not been back home in 4 years, or what you considered home in high school. You were excited and happy to see old friends. It had been two years since your father had passed and so the only reason you came “home” was to see your best friends that were like family. You knew your friends would be a great support system for you during the holidays. The plans for your five day stay were set. You were staying at your best friend Jay’s home. She was thrilled to have you, you both had been friends since middle school, she was like a sister to you. The first night would include dinner with friends followed by latin dancing. The next two days were for hanging out and lastly the New Years Time Square drop with friends. Jay picked you up from the airport and drove you home. You guys spent the next few hours talking and getting ready for the dinner party. At least 20 of your good friends from high school had RSVP. Both of you were looking forward to catching up with everyone.

“Is he coming, y/n?” Jay asked you.

“Uh, no he isn’t because I didn't ask him. Besides he doesn’t even know I’m here, so it doesn’t really matter”. You were hoping she would not ask anything else about him.

“Why are you being like this y/n? Just call him, I bet he’d be happy to come and see you. I remember the last time he was so upset that you didn't tell him you were home.” You scoffed at the memory of the conversation you had with him that day 4 years ago, his voice raised, nearly shouting at you, ‘...didn't you think I’d want to see you? How can you be so selfish...’. Yet nearly 4 years later and that was one of the last times you both ever spoke to each other. Anger and pain flared up in you thinking about all the time that had passed without one single call or text from him.

“Jay, I don’t want to ask him, I’m sure he's busy.”

“Y/n if you don’t call him I will and I don’t care if it embarasses you”. You knew she meant it, Jay always spoke her mind and did exactly what she said she would do.

“Ok, Ok, I’ll do it right now.” You grabbed your cell phone and scrolled your list of contacts stopping on Tae Hyung. You felt a pit in your stomach forming from nervousness. You were angry and hurt but at the same time you could not deny that your heart still belonged to him. You had told him once before in a drunk 3 am phone call, that he was like an incurable disease that your only relief was to get as far away from him as possible. Which is a large part of the reason you chose to go to college in California. You let out a deep breath and started the call.

“Hey you,” It had been roughly four years since you had heard his deep sultry voice and you were trembling just at the sound of it. You noticed their seem to be a hit of excitement in his tone. You spoke, your voice lacking confidence.

“Hi Tae Hyung, It's me, y/n”.

“I know I have your number in my contact list”.

“Oh... Right, So... what are you doing right now?” you ask trying to sound more confident.

“I’m about to watch a movie with someone, just finished buying tickets.” You wondered if he was on a date.

“Oh...I see.. I'm sorry I’m bothering you.... I’ll let you go.” You fumbled your words.

“No your fine your not bothering me, I knew it was you and I wanted to answer. If you were bothering me I wouldn’t have answered. ” That put a smile on your face.

“Oh, ok well I’ll be quick then. I’m in town right now and I have a dinner set with some friends from high school at 8 tonight at Bonita’s Taqueria if you want to come. If not its cool I know you're busy,” you quickly try to give him a reason not to come.

“I’ll be there put me down for two. Just text me the address. “ You were surprised by his answer and absolutely bursting with excitement and nervousness. You said goodbye texted him the address and decided to work a little harder on looking hot for the dinner party. Jay helped with your makeup and hair and let you borrow a low v neck top.

“Girl you gotta be looking sexy tonight by accentation all your assets and you have plenty of them”. You laughed and blushed at the same time.

“Jay he is bringing someone, I'm sure it’s a girlfriend”. Your heart sank slightly even admitting that.

“So, it's not like he's married”. You shake your head at your best friend she was wild. You secretly wished whoever he brought was pregnant, hoping that extremity would help you move on from him.

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You both arrive at the restaurant and see nearly everyone seated already. You both give hugs to everyone. You sit with your back to the entrance your stomach doing somersaults with anticipation of him coming. Maybe he won't come you thought hoping that might calm your nerves. That’s when you felt it, a chill throughout your body and your stomach contract, all you could think was, you knew he was there you could feel him. You even tell Jay, I think he’s here now, walking up. She laughed and then paused for a moment.

“Damn girl that is some psychic stuff there yup he is walking up now just about to get to the door to come inside.” You take in a few deep breaths and turn to meet his gaze. You stand.

“Hi Tae Hyung” you say as you approach him leaving space between the two of you.

“Hi y/n!” he says as he pulls you in for a tight embrace that nearly took your breath away. You let go and take him in. He had grown taller and had really filled in. He was even more gorgeous than before. He was no longer the tall scrawny 18 year you had left behind. You could feel his eyes on you, taking in every inch of you from your head to your toes. He did not even attempt to hide his long pause at your chest. You wondered if he could tell you were blushing.

“Oh ya...this in my cousin Jin. you might remember him.” You greated Jin.

“Yes I do remember you it's been a long time”. You take a seat at the table and Tae chooses to sit directly across from you. He removes his black leather jacket and you take in more of his broad shoulders and firm chest. You both engage in small talk and you are barely able to keep eye contact with him. You hoped he did not notice how nervous you were around him. Slowly it started to feel like old times as the two of you bantered back and forth about your days in high school together, nearly appearing to be flirtatious. You tell him about the plans to go latin dancing and how everyone is going.

“I really would love to and I wish I could go but I have work tomorrow early, so I can’t. But I really want to see you again before you leave. Are there any plans I can just crash, even New Years eve, I don’t have anything super important that night?” You think for a movement.

“We are going to see the ball drop downtown at Times square. If you want to come?” You tell him. You watch him pause for a moment in thought.

“Maybe, I’ll let you know, I was hoping it would be something a little more low key so we can actually talk more.” You swallow taken aback by what he had just said that he wanted to be able to talk with you more.

“Who all is going?” he asked, looking around the table.

“Um at least 14 from here tonight.” You tell him biting my lip. He is silent and you could tell his mind was deep in thought as he stared off in the stance deep in his own mind.

“hmm...I have an idea.” He stands up and hollers for everyone's attention. Everyone turns to face him.

“I want to formally invite you guys to a New Years Eve party at my new apartment. It has a great view of the ball drop. Drinks on me!” The table roared with cheers and drinks raised to Tae Hyung. You were very surprised at his sudden invitation and puzzled on why the sudden party plan when he originally sad said he had no special plans? Your heart begins to flutter uncontrollably at the idea not the possibility that his spontaneous idea was spurred on because of you. You felt like you would combust but quickly tried to push the idea out of your mind. You think to yourself, ‘he is probably having so much fun meeting up with old friends that he wants to get together again, it's silly for you to think he’d do all this for you’. You drank from your margarita trying to get your mind off him. The dinner came to an end and Tae Hyung insist on paying the bill for you and Jay. But you forcefully decline and thank him. After you paid your bill you talked with the group going Latin dance and agreed the group would start heading that way. You watched as Tae Hyung said his goodbye to everyone. You waited patiently and nervously afraid to make the first move in initiating the departure.

“Y/N where did you park?”

“We are in the furthest part of the parking lot”.

“I’ll walk you there,” You smile up at him.

“Y/N I’m going to use the bathroom, don’t wait up I’ll meet you at the car,” Jat says winking at you. You turn to face Tae Hyung.

“Sure.” You say as walk alongside you.

“Y/N, I had a really good time with you tonight. I’m glad you decided to call me and let me know you where home this time and glad you invited me to dinner”. Hearing what he just said struck a chord in you. You felt a tingle of giddiness at his acknowledgement of his enjoyment of being with you but also a slight pain knowing 4 years had passed without him ever trying to contact you. Your heart was drowning in his soft words but you also felt slightly angry.

“Ya me too, I really appreciate you coming out with such short notice. I honestly didn't think you’d come, I didn't think you’d want to see me after 4 years with no contact not even a birthday text…But...” You tried to sound casual but your words fail you.

“Y/N, that is one of my biggest regrets, not ever calling you and staying in touch, but please don’t put it all on me, the phone works two ways and I’m here now. I’d hope you’d realise the reason behind this party was you.” You looked up at him, tears nearly threatened to escape your eyes. You were shocked at the tenderness you were hearing. You could not believe that he was throwing this party for you. You try to hold back your emotions, ‘don’t get too wrapped up in this remember the promises he made last time’.

“Well Tae Hyung I’m not sure why you would go out of your way to throw a New Years Eve party for the sole purpose to hang out with me. It sounds suspicious if you ask me.” You try to sound non threatening and playful to light up the whirl of emotions you were experiencing inside of you.

“Your suspicious of my intentions Y/N? Really? We have been friends since middle school, what did you have in mind that I might do?” He smirks one eyebrow raised.

You attempt to fight back your nervousness. His comment reminding you of old times but with a new twist, forward flirtation. You both had always flirted since middle school but in an immature way, playing jokes on one another each time upping the aunty. Pushing each other in the pools, painting each others faces during a nap. Snowball fights followed by wrestling always ending by you being pinned down to the ground him straddling you hands pinned above your head. Always remaining in that position until you surrendered to his request. You calling him “Taedaddy”. A smile forms on your lips from the memories.

“Well I don’t know, you're capable of anything. Perhaps retribution for the last prank before I left to California? If I remember correctly I bested you for sure. My only regret was not being there to see your face.” I laughed but also felt a tinge of blush to my face. The details of that prank resurfacing in your mind. A bit of regret after hearing the words leaving your mouth. Imaging what you might have just insinuated that might as well be considered an invitation.

“Ah, yes y/n not that I ever have forgotten but I am glad it is now fresh on my mind. You’re right you may have bested me but less you forget I don’t get mad I get even and when I do…”. He neared your face dangerously close to your lips. His almond shaped eyes locking with you. You held his gaze interrupting him.

“Yes, I know, it will be 3 times worse”. You roll your eyes, “I’m starting to consider alternative plans” You giggle trying to lighten sexual tension arising within you.

“Oh no y/n it would not be a party without the honored guest and you won't want to miss this, I won't allow it...” he says his lips now grazing against your ear, his body inches from yours, your back now cornered against your car. What is going on you wonder to yourself, why was he being this flirtatious. You definitely felt nervous, slightly breathless and a slight sense of eroticness pooled deep within. All the years of playful banter and jokes you shared together he had never whisper heavy breathes into you ear or hover his lips inches from yours. The gleam in his eyes was like nothing you’d ever seen before. You were not sure how to respond. Finally your body responds. You place your hands firmly on his taunt chest and push him away as hard as you can sliding from underneath his frame.

“Tae Hyung, shut up you're so damn dramatic if you think that is supposed to scare me, you don’t know me at all.” You laugh trying to change the mood and swat his arm. He breaks his aroua and laughs.

“Ok but you have to be their or I’m going to just assume your chicken.” He smiled coly.

“Of course I’ll be there” you opened the car door.

“Hey…” He grabs your arm and brings you into a warm embrace. You respond hugging him back just as tightly.

“Y/n you can't get away from me without a hug...I won't allow anything less. “ You melted into his embrace. You both pull away as you hear Jay greet the two of you. He says goodbye closes your car door and walks away.

“Ok y/n was was that? I thought you guys were kissing from where I was standing!”. You giggled.

“No, girl he was just you know being Tae Hyung, trying to “dominate” me all the time like he owns me. Whatever, I ended everything with the best prank. So I won in the end.” You laughed as you started the car and drove off.

“Oh yes, girl I remember you sending me that picture. It was fucking funny. I can’t believe you were able to tie him to the bed shirtless and then write that he sucks the best dick ever, followed by “call for a good time”, dumbass for getting that drunk.” You laughed harder but stopped and felt your face flush when the idea of him tying you to the bed for revenge sounded delightful. You danced the night away at the club with friends and slept in the following morning.

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pencil-peach · 11 months ago

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G Witch Onscreen Text: Episode 19

Haku Haku ! It is once again time! This is part 20 of my series where I transcribe and discuss the onscreen text of G Witch, as well as talk about and analyze interesting things episode by episode. We're on Episode 19: "Not the Best Way."

<< Click here to return to Episode 18 Or Click here to return to the Masterpost

We're going back to Earth...

We open the episode on a conversation between Guel and Miorine. Miorine comments on how close they are to earth, and Guel responds, "You've always wanted to go there, right?" (Left)

It could be read that Notrette might have been Earthian, which is one of the reasons why Miorine wanted to go there so badly, to be closer to her mother.

After Kenanji enters and leaves, Miorine asks him, "Don't you hate being back on Earth even more?"

I'm really really fascinated by this line because it means that at some point, Guel and Miorine talked about what happened to him when he was on Earth. How much did he tell her? Does she know about Seethia? Does she know that he killed his father? What I wouldn't give to have seen that conversation.

On the whole, I really enjoy the brief glimpses we get into their post-Asticassia dynamic. It's hard to call them friends exactly, but it's clear their relationship is now built on mutual trust and respect. And despite the seriousness of their circumstances, they can still be silly with each other: Miorine: Are you really the same Guel Jeturk...? Guel: Plus, I can't trust you to handle the negotiations alone. Mio: HA??? What's that supposed to mean?? [Angrily drinks her juice.] Or like in last episode where Guel shows her the schwarzette and she's really angrily like, "WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME??" and he's like "IT'S NEWS TO ME TOO OKAY!!!"

Like they're silly! It's cute !

Sorry for liking Guel Jeturk it will happen every day forever until I die lol

Look at his gay little pose here. Why is he sitting like that. It's making me so mad look at him.

When Godoy tells Prospera that he's located and verified the source of the Lfrith Models, Prospera comments that she's, "...grateful [he] has so many friends."

I've already talked about how sad I am that we never learn anything about Godoy, considering that he seems to have connections all across space. How did he and Prospera meet, I wonder? How did he become so connected? Is he Earthian? I guess it's just one of those things we'll never know.

Anyway, Prospera tells him that "The wait is over," and to "please proceed with the preparations." Lending further credence that Quiet Zero being completed was never an issue. The only remaining issue to correct was the existence of the Lfriths, and now that it's being taken care of, it can truly begin.

I like that Secelia just actually gives Martin good counseling in this scene but is definitely also just fucking with him. She's a good person but also happens to be a bitch. She's perfect !

As the Benerit Gang take the Permet lift down to the station, we hear over an intercom that in accordance with the "Earth Sphere Biological Protection Act," all passengers entering from beyond the Earth Sphere are required to undergo a biosecurity check. (Left) This isn't the first time we overhear biosafety information over an intercom, as in Episode 2 (Right) we hear a brief glimpse about preventive measures being put in place to stop the infectious spread of a disease known as "SV29." (There's also an anecdote in Cradle Planet where Suletta recieves a vaccination)

It seems that biosafety is a major concern in Ad Stella, which makes sense, spaceborn illnesses must be super scary !

Something to note is that in the next scene, we see a panning shot of a highway, with a visible highway exit sign in front. But unlike many of the other signs in the show, the text on the sign is completely illegible, being made up of random shapes and characters from a handful of languages.

This might have been done to ensure Quinharbor's location remains vague, and isn't grounded within any specific place or country on Earth.

As we drive down the highway, we see some protest signs attached to a chain link fence.

From top to bottom, left to right, these seem to say: (* denotes when I'm making an educated guess) - Down with Spacian oppression - Spacians GO BACK TO SPACE - TAKE YOUR WARS BACK TO SPACE* - NO MORE MS VIOLENCE - Benerit ignores Earthian lives - ENOUGH! END MS VIOLENCE NOW!

The one I want to bring special attention to is the one in the center, partially hidden behind the "Down with Spacian oppression" sign. At first I assumed it was, "Stop TAKING our lives for your own wealth," but when i looked closer I saw that the visible portion of that word is "-CKING." When I tried to assume what word it could be, truth be told I could only come up with:

STOP HACKING OUR LIVES FOR YOUR OWN WEALTH or, STOP FUCKING OUR LIVES FOR YOUR OWN WEALTH

You can decide which one you want to be true.

I really like how Guel is just fucking awful at this whole running a company thing. King you can't just bail on an important negotiation like this no wonder ur company is in freefall.

But that's just the kind of person he is. He's open hearted but short sighted, and doesn't think things through as much as he should. But he's trying, so we can appreciate him anyway (Although to be honest it's probably for the best he wasn't there.)

At the table with the Earthain Negotiators, we can see that there are two empty seats next to Miorine. One of them was meant for Guel, and the other was presumably for Kenanji.

Also, seeing as how it keeps being mentioned but isn't explained specifically, I think it's important to clarify what the doctor means when he talks about "The proxy wars you force onto us through war partitioning."

As best as I understand it, Delling and the Benerit Group have been exercising control over Earth (as well as providing a consistent market for their main export, weapon manufacturing) by instigating and arming conflicts across the planet along carefully partitioned political borders.

If Earthians are constantly fighting amongst themselves, they'll be unable to unite as a people against Spacians. (Remember, an impending interplanetary war is currently a major fear)

Remember what Rajan says to Miorine about Dellings motive: "And yet... even if he could control conflict through war partitioning, he never managed to achieve order [...] there was always some new enemy or rebellion."

It's important not to divorce Delling's motives from his beliefs. When Rajan says "he never managed to achieve order," or, "there was always some new enemy or rebellion," you have to ask yourself what "order" or an "enemy" means to a man who wholeheartedly believes that anyone beneath him should fully and unquestioningly submit to his will.

Quiet Zero only makes sense as a solution to a man who is too arrogant to realize that he is the disease which is causing the symptom. But we're not there yet. Let's continue.

When Norea is having her breakdown, she's drawing this picture before her pencil snaps. At a glance, it's easy to assume that she isn't drawing anything and is just scribbling nonsense, but if you look closely, she was drawing a spider being eaten by a venus flytrap (and then started scribbling over it.)

When 5lan looks through her notebook, we see some more. (Left) We see a more abstracted piece of a decaying mechanical clown head (Although it could be a broken down amusement park ride. The DOF lived near an abandoned water park prior to Plant Quetta), a spider with its prey in a web, and a decaying deer carcass.

(Right) And the landscape that 5lan wanted her to show him

Here we see the truth behind Norea's breakdown. Sophie was the only person who understood her, and now that she's dead, she’s all alone. They were supposed to always be together, but the only way for her to follow Sophie now is to die herself, and she's deathly afraid to die.

Sophie and Norea were opposites in how they coped with the disposability of their lives. Norea was afraid to die, and so she coped with it by drawing the death and decay she was constantly surrounded by. But Sophie coped by taking pride in it. She constantly sought out danger to prove to herself that she was alive. (Like in Episode 12 when she activates Permet Score 4: "My heart is hurting so badly...I can't... breathe... but I'm still alive!") In her mind, fighting for her life was what gave it meaning. She wasn't afraid to die, and in a way, she sought out Ericht so badly because she wanted to find someone strong enough to kill her. (Not in a suicidal way but in a putting it all on the line way.)

Norea pretended she was unafraid too, to keep up with Sophie, but she was always afraid. And now that Sophie is gone, she has nobody left. She has nothing to live for, but is too afraid to die. Her life is somehow even more pointless than it already was.

(Left) The moral of the story is that if you're depressed, the solution is some good soup.

(Right) Agh, I wish so badly we got some supplementary material about Chuchu and Nika. But that's a conversation for later.

When we meet up with Kenanji and Guel, they're talking to Sedo, who mentions that he's an "official refugee designated by the special reconstruction plan." His official description on the G Witch website explains a little more, stating that he "lives in a designated recovery plan area on Earth." It seems that there are consistent zones on the planet dedicated to war and infrastructure recovery.

We learn about the child rearing academy Grassley runs here as well, but we'll talk about that next episode, when it's meaning becomes more relevant. Oh, and, nobody asked but the shirt Guel is wearing here is the second shirt we see him wearing that has holes in it. (The first is the sweatshirt he wears in Episode 16.) So y'know. If you wanted to know.

So, here we learn that Shaddiq's birth name was "Jeru Ogul," and "because of that name, everyone at the Academy called him 'Prince.'"

At first I didn't what Kenanji meant by this at all, but after thinking about it and doing some research, I think I understand it now. He's called "Prince" because "Jeru" is short for "Jerusalem." This pun is actually localized from the original Japanese script too, as his name is not "Jeru" in Japanese, It's "Ieru" (イエル) as in, short for "Ierusaremu" (イェルサレム) (Jerusalem is not spoken with a J sound in Japanese because it's based on the original Hebrew pronunciation of the word, which is yerushalaim)

A remarkable child from Jerusalem? It's not a huge leap from that to calling him "Prince." (It's Jesus. It's a reference to Jesus Christ. Now that you know that you should go back and look at his character and the things he does. You'll be like, ooooohhhh, ohhh my goooodddd)

I think a lot about how Miorine immediately keeps cool and analyzes the situation logically, as opposed to Guel's righteous fury. I also like how Miorine knows Shaddiq well enough to immediately clock exactly how to catch him in the act and where he's keeping Sarius. (She's completely correct about all of it too.) She knows him better than anybody, after all.

As the fated moment begins, Eri activates a data storm around Quinharbor to take control of an Earthian tank. (Left) The error message displayed is:

CONTROL LOCKOUT: Control has been overridden due to effects of data storm space. ERROR CODE: [569]

Later, as Prospera retreats to grab Aerial's canon, we can see Miorine attempt to contact her (Which she quickly declines.) (Right)

TEXT: (Left) CODENAME: SOPHIE PULONE MS: LFRITH UR AFFILIATION: Ochs Earth Corporation

MS: LFRITH UR MODEL NO: EDM-GA-01 HEADHEIGHT: 21.2m WEIGHT: 75.9t BASE MS: GUNDAM LFRITH PRE-PRODUCTION MODEL (Ochs Earth Corporation) CHARACTERISTICS: Combat-specific unit intended for short-decisive combats, its output has been greatly increased even among the combat specific types. MAIN WEAPON: BEAM GATLING GUN / PHASED ARRAY CANON

(Right) CODENAME: NOREA DU NOC MS: LFRITH THORN AFFILIATION: Ochs Earth Corporation

MODEL NO: EDM-GA-02 HEADHEIGHT: 14.4m WEIGHT: 41.2t BASE MS: GUNDAM LFRITH PRE-PRODUCTION MODEL (Ochs Earth Corporation) CHARACTERISTICS: Support type unit intended for wide area control. Long arms and legs stabilize the center of gravity enabling advanced combat maneuvers. MAIN WEAPON: BEAM DIFFUSE GUN / PHASED ARRAY CANON

As Prospera breaks into the bunker holding the Lfriths, she pulls up Pilot data files (Tagged SO-3) on Sophie on Norea. Of critical importance here is that according to these files, "Sophie Pulone" and "Norea Du Noc" are referred to as the girls' codenames, not their real names. (Keep this in mind I'm gonna do a really cool thing next episode you're gonna be like ohh noooo) The girls are also affiliated specifically with Ochs Earth, which was supposed to have been defunct immediately after Vanadis.

Less Important but also worth mentioning is that Base Aerial was running "SYS Ver. E.S," a clever nod to Eri's initials, Ericht Samaya, but rebuild has changed that, instead running "SYS Ver. 2.0"

Also, we never get a clear look at it, but the board Bel and Feng were sitting in front of is labeled "ADJUSTMENT OF GUND PROSTHETIC LEG OPERATION." And seems to be data on a subsequent series of tests regarding the legs movement and calibration.

Okay, so, before we proceed, it's probably a good idea to clarify the current political reveals which are being made here. I think there are a lot of names being thrown around and due to the time constraints of the show, I don't think they were able to explain it as well as it could have been.

If you aren't interested, that's okay, you can just scroll past here, but I think it's important to try and understand it. I'll try and keep it as simple as possible: (This is also as best as I understand it, so ultimately take it with a grain of salt)

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The Space Assembly League is an administrative organization meant to mediate political problems and maintain peace within space. While the Benerit Group is an exceedingly powerful corporation, it's still a corporation, not a governmental institution. It has to, in theory, answer to the rules and regulations set by the League.

The problem is that the Benerit Group has become TOO powerful. Its reach and influence across space has long eclipsed even the League in terms of political power. At some point after Vanadis, the League's High Council (the people at the top of the organization, to be clear) realized this, and began to formulate a plan that would allow it to eventually suppress, and possibly even break up, the Benerit Group.

But the first issue to overcome was this: The Space Assembly League is a governmental institution, and is beholden to its own regulations. Without probable cause, it would be unable to justifiably interfere with the Benerit Group, who, by its own standards, were not openly violating the law.

So, in order to intervene with the Group, the council realized it needed to secretly contrive a reason to accuse the Group of threatening peace among the fronts, thereby giving the League the probable cause it needs to dissolve it.

(It's important to keep in mind that this plan was being conducted SPECIFICALLY by the League's High Council. By and large, the majority of the Space Assembly League DO NOT KNOW this is happening. Feng and Guston are official investigators FOR the league and discovered the conspiracy themselves during their investigation.)

This is where Ochs Earth comes in. The League obviously could not openly begin funding terrorist organizations, but it COULD secretly fund Ochs Earth, a MS Company that was very openly and publicly obliterated, and that everyone still believes to be defunct. An army of Gundams would be perfect to cause enough conflict to accuse the Group.

But here comes the second issue: How exactly do they plan to pull this off? It would be hard to organize and execute a plan of that scale without some kind of middle man. The League couldn't risk openly communicating with anti-Spacian organizations, it would be too risky.

Which is where Shaddiq comes into play. Whether or not he knew the League's intentions beforehand, he contacted them with his own plans to dissolve the group. He was the bridge that connected the League and Ochs Earth with the Dawn of Fold, and being so closely involved with the Group, he could know exactly when would be best to strike.

This eventually led to the Plant Quetta incident. Though the intention was to assassinate Delling, the unjust (and illegal) retribution of the Group upon Earthians after the fact seemed like the perfect cause needed for the League to act.

But that plan didn't work. Remember, the League is a Spacian Organization. And the unfortunate fact of the matter is that Spacians, by and large, do not care about Earthians. The unjust murder and torture of Earthians was not enough to turn public opinion (even within the league itself) far enough for the League to justify intervening.

So they tried again, with the attack on the school. Shaddiq focused on his side of the plan, working on dissolving the group from the inside by taking advantage of the imminent Presidential race, while the Ochs Earth witches stirred up more violence and discord within the Group, focusing on threatening the lives of Spacians instead, which leads us to where we are now.

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OKAY. damn. that was long. again, this is as best as I understand it, and I might be off the mark in some regards. Either way, I hope this cleared things up for you at least somewhat! Unless you scrolled past which, in that case, 1000 palms of death.

Here we see the GUND-Bit Canon firing at full output. It's the only time we see it do this, and even then we don't REALLY see it unfortunately. Still though, it should be noted that with one blast the cannon destroyed all the Lfriths in the bunker, and was so powerful it blasted THROUGH the bunker AND the mountain it was stationed in. Utterly terrifying.

But the truly tragic thing about this scene is what Prospera has done, and what that truly means. Think about what her actions have interrupted. It's not just that she's completely ruined the negotiations between Miorine and the Earthians. It's specifically how she managed to bridge that gap. With the GUND Prosthetic Legs.

This meeting was the ideals of Cardo Nabo and GUND finally being realized. GUND technology paving a way to a brighter future, finally bringing Earthians and Spacians together on equal ground. This was the future that GUND was going to save. When Prospera destroys the Lfriths, she calls Ochs Earth "The heinous sinners who trampled on GUND's ideals," but in this very moment, she has done the exact same. For the sake of Eri's future, she even struck down the future her family died trying to protect.

After the event, we see various news outlets covering the event.

Left: (From Extra Orbital Reports) BENERIT GROUP MS FIRE ON HOUSING COMPLEXES OF ANTI-SPACIAN GROUPS, WITH MANY CASUALTIES - WITH NO OFFICIAL STATEMENT FROM BENERIT GROUP REGARDING ATTACKS, ITS UNCLEAR WHETHER SITUATION WILL BE RESOLVED

Middle: (From Planetary News Broadcast) [...] when Benerit MS responded to street protest by setting up roadblocks - [...] now turning into urban warfare as anti-Spacian side counterattacks with militarized mobile craft

Right: (Fom INTERPLANETARY NEWS NETWORK) IN RESPONSE TO BENERIT GROUP'S ATTACK, EARTH INDEPENDENCE MOVEMENT LEADER DECLARES THEY WILL JOIN FIGHT FOR INDEPENDENCE - With Benerit forces dispersed as explosions take place throughout the city, fierce fighting develops between the two sides.

It seems like communications have fully broken down. The Earthians are more devoted to their demand for independence as ever. Things are even worse than before. The future has never looked worse.

When Suletta sees the news broadcast, she remembers what Ericht said to her about not being able to cling to either her or their mother anymore, but afterwards, we see a silent shot of her saying something else. It's impossible to know exactly what she's saying, (anime lip flap moment)

But personally, considering the context, and the syllables she's sounding out, to me I think she's saying "gomenasai" (I'm sorry)

And with that dour note, it seems like things can't get any worse. But, well, we all know if things can't get worse, they will.

>> Episode 20: The End of Hope The Masterpost.

#g witch #gundam the witch from mercury #the witch from mercury

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mommalosthermind · 10 months ago

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I’ve been being told, since the tender age of 18, that my family history means I need to see a breast specialist immediately. That I should get genetic testing to better pinpoint my odds.

I’ve been referred to the specialists three times. 20, 25, and now.

The first time, I was told my family history was irrelevant, I was too young and wasting their time.

The second time, I was told no. That I should bully my fourth-grade-drop-out, Tylenol is an Unnatural Evil believing idiot of a mother into getting tested because it would be less expensive for them to do a single test on her, and then use those results for her children, than to do a test for me, for me to use on my children.

The fact that she laughed at me apparently just meant that I hadn’t explained it to her properly. A good mother, you see, would come in to get tested. You know. Like I was trying to do.

I’m mid-thirties. Every Gyno I’ve ever seen has expressed concern about breast cancer purely based off family history.

Gyno sent me over again, armed with yet more family history, yet more cancer found in the last few years.

Specialist finally let me in the building. Specialist took one look at my history and went, why didn’t you start seeing us at 25? OR before! You should have been getting this done for ten years at least! Don’t you know your odds, as of this paperwork alone, are double the average American woman? You should be getting a professional breast exam every six months!

Because You Would Not Let Me. YOUR people looked at that same paperwork and decided it wasn’t worth their time. I wasn’t worth the money.

Had my first mammogram today.

It took nearly 16 years, though.

And what kills me, I think, other than the fact that the mammogram itself took like ten minutes? What kills me is—

My partner suddenly realizing that all those times I’ve brought up cancer it was a lot more of a concern than he realized. What do you mean she said your risk on paper is probably above 30? That’s so high? Why didn’t the specialist see you earlier?

Because when he goes to the doctor, they just nod.

When he goes, they make all the phone calls. He gets to see the allergist. The nutritionist I was told no for, he’s already made an appointment for.

I get gentle hedging about how maybe I should lose a few pounds. I get laughed out of the office. I get baffled looks when I ask about early onset arthritis due to the Lyme disease and then nothing.

It took me 16 years of pointing at six different family members with four different types of cancer—two of them more than one! At the same time!— to get what should be basic care.

My partner is speed-running all those years of my quiet worry. All the things that could have gone wrong. All the things that can still go wrong, but now with the safety net of being cared for. All the worry I’ve been carrying about what I may have passed onto my kids.

And it took ten minutes in a pretty pink room.

#i dont know man. there isnt really a point here other than Im Tired. and i dont even have anything chronic or really problematic #i cant imagine how bad this is for other people #but also i want to cry over it. it was such a small thing. they’ve set me up to see the genetic folks so we can know if my kids need #to worry #like #ten minutes. ive been chasing this little but of security for over ten years a and it was solved in ten fucking minutes #and my partner was like i thought #i thought they wouldnt see you because the other doc was overestimating your risks #and i had to just be like no. they just didnt fucking give a shit.#it should not be so fucking hard. period.. the end. it should not be this difficult to get seen and be heard.

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pinkykats-place · 2 years ago

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BakuDeku Musician AU

AO3 Fanfic Recommendations

Disclaimers!

Stories are not mine & some contain mature content. Art work by @starrywhitewall & @yenho

Note: If you read any of these stories and like them please let the author know with a kudos and/or comment!

Rhapsody by GreyFrey

Summary: Izuku Midoriya has been the lead singer of the pop band Starpop since he was fourteen. That’s six years of playing with his best friends… and six years of being in love with Katsuki, their drummer. At 20 years old, Izuku is tired of not knowing where he stands with his on-again, off-again ex. Enter Rody Soul, the seemingly perfect love interest— sweet and kind, he’s all Izuku has ever wanted from a boyfriend. All the things that Katsuki would never give him. But, will Izuku be able to get over his feelings for the drummer?

…will Katsuki realize what he’s losing in time?

WIP | 18/? Chapters | No Quirks au

Rated - Mature

maybe I don't wanna be just friends... by Lizxcliff

Summary: “C’mon, Kat.” Mina sighs and Bakugou realizes he won’t be getting out of this conversation easily. “We all know you love him.” The blonde snaps his gaze towards his friend, eyes wide. “He’s the only one who doesn’t because he’s dense as fuck. You gotta just give it to him straight or he’ll never know, Katsuki.” Mina rests her hand on his shoulder in comfort.

“Pretty fuckin’ sure I’m anything but fuckin’ straight, Meens.” Bakugou runs a hand through his hair with a tilt of his lips.

Mina stares at him shocked before shaking her head with a chuckle.

One Shot | No Quirks au

Rated - Teen & Up

Hungry Eyes by sweetrelief

Summary: As a guitarist for a rock band, Bakugou Katsuki finds many people throwing themselves at his feet almost nightly. None, however, have lit the same blazing fire within him as the sweet, angelic Midoriya Izuku, a supposed fan and a runaway, who'd somehow tricked the band (and Bakugou himself) into caring for him. With a spot on their bus and backstage access as they tour across the country, the lead guitarist begins to wonder if it's just the music their new addition is so big a fan of...

One Shot | No Quirks au

Rated - Mature

I'm Sad, Deku by rikuzuui

Summary: Katsuki is a famous solo artist and member of the band ĐynamiTe. Usually, Izuku comes with him on his tours as per the request of Katsuki since he has this made-up disease called 'dramatic clingy boyfriend' which means he can’t stand being too far from Izuku. However, because of Izuku’s recent record deal as a star on the rise, he couldn’t come with Katsuki on his tour. How does Katsuki cope without Izuku being with him? He sulks in a corner as he experiences what the made-up sickness calls itself.

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Alternative summary: A one-shot of a love-sick clingy Kacchan

One Shot | No Quirks au

Rated - Teen & Up

Hearts On Tour by PoeticPanda11

Summary: Pop Singer Izuku and Punk Rock Vocalist Katsuki sing their collaboration song on their own separate tours.

One Shot | No Quirks au

Rated - n/a

Lost in the Music of Your Heart by RobinWriter

Summary: Bakugo froze, his hand still mid-air as he listened. There was no way it was him, but the more he listened the more sure Bakugo was. His voice was more refined than what it used to be but it was his voice all the same. Slowly Bakugo turned around to confirm what his heart already knew.

Midoriya was sitting up on that stage, his eyes were closed as his fingers expertly danced across the keys, and his entire body flowed with the music as they were one and the same, just like when he performed when they were kids. Bakugo left the bar and stumbled forward, drunk on Midoriya’s song. He pushed past people, ignoring their huffs and protests until he was nearly at the front of the stage. Bakugo’s eyes never left Midoriya for a second, memories all coming back to him in a rush, one never completing before a new one replaced it.

One Shot | No Quirks au

Rated - General Audiences

The Space Between by Kanae_vR

Summary: Holding his expensive camera tightly between his hands, Midoriya Izuku looked up at the once-white letters displayed on the black storefront banner. “The Hard Luck Bar,” he murmured to himself, unsure if he was getting ready to enter or flee.

Amateur photographer Midoriya Izuku is stuck in a rut and desperate for a change of pace. Deep in his city's grimy underbelly, he finds exactly what he's looking for in the form of an underground punk sensation on the verge of their big break, fronted by a foul-mouthed firework of a human being.

Loud, brash and passionate, Izuku may have just found the creative spark he needed, as well as something new to set his soul ablaze.

Incomplete | 23/25 Chapters | No Quirks au

Last Updated Feb 2023

Rated - Mature

I'll ruin you, I swear by writersmorgue

Summary: College student Izuku is a HUGE fan of the band 'Dynamight' and maybe-possibly-definitely has a huge crush on the lead singer, Bakugo Katsuki.

Complete | 2 Chapters | No Quirks au

Rated - Explicit

you left a sour aftertaste by ladyofsnails

Summary: Izuku and Katsuki aren't together anymore. To take up his time, Izuku joins his school's band club, becomes the lead singer, makes some impulsive decisions, and accidentally gets a little famous. All because he's downright heartbroken, and Katsuki isn't (or at least, he doesn't look it).

Maybe some people were just meant to find their way back to each other. It might take a few stumbles, though.

Complete | 11 Chapters | No Quirks au

Rated - Teen & Up

Bang Dem Sticks by Roya1Gir1

Summary: “You should just tell him.”

Izuku’s gaze slid over to the red head that weirdly appeared next to him like a ghost. “I have no idea what you are talking about.”

Kirishima rolled his eyes and jerked his chin to a certain blonde on the dance floor. “Oh, so you're not over here looking like someone kicked your puppy because someone is dancing with him?”

“He can dance with anyone he wants. I’m not his keeper.” He said through tightly gritted teeth as his eyes went to the blonde again.

Katsuki Bakugo—the drummer.

One Shot | No Quirks au

Rated - Teen & Up

Monsters Not Made by Lizbeth_Loon

Summary: Deku has some odd little quirks and habits, but no one would ever guess he was hiding something. No one would ever guess he was living a double life. It's not that he's a villain, or a vigilante, or a secret lovechild. It's that he's the lead singer in a band of pop-punk-rock misfits slowly gaining popularity on the local underground music scene. No one would ever guess - but they're about to find out.

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The secret punk Deku fic you've all been waiting for!

Incomplete | 17/? Chapters

Last Updated April 2023

Rated - Mature

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Writing Prompts

1. Ignorance is a disease so back up asshole, I ain’t trying to catch your germs

2. “Look around, what do you see? Nothing? Yeah, cause that’s how many fucks were given!”

3. “Your hot temper makes for a great heater.”

4. “You’re the cum drop your mother should’ve swallowed.”

5. “Don’t speak please, you’re lowering this whole neighborhoods IQ.”

6. “I’m in shock, see I’m wearing a blanket.”

7. “Fallings just like falling expect with a more permanent destination in mind.”

8. “Super weird.”

9. “Bitch don’t kill my vibe.”

10. “Flex tape, stronger then your relationship.”

11. “Bippity Boppity back the fuck up.”

12. “If I had a dollar for every time I was called ugly I’d be broke cause bitch, I’m gorgeous.”

13. “You think you got problems with me, but baby I don’t even think about you. You mad at everything I do, but what are you up to I haven’t a clue. Cause baby you’re dead to me, how can I be dead to you? You’re looking way too obsessed.”

14. “Leave me alone you little fucker.”

15. “God this is so fucked up.”

16. “Older shits teach littler shits shit the elder shits should’ve taught them.”

17. “When we get in here don’t touch shit, don’t look at shit, don’t ask for shit, because we ain’t getting it.”

18. “Be careful who you call a child because you know what that makes you? A pedophile! And I’ll be damned if I sit here and be lectured by a pervert!”

19. “Bold of you to assume I even think.”

20. “I will destroy you on this court yard, I will ruin all that you love, slaughter your hopes and your dreams. I will rip you limb from limb and stand over your fallen corpse, and once that is all over I will laugh at your misery. I will be your demise!”

21. “You guys are pros right? Then why does it feel like I’m going against toddlers that barley knows how to walk right?!”

22. “Thanks, it’s the trauma.”

23. “You better not disrespect me because who you gonna send to check me?”

24. “After all these hands are rated E for everybody!”

25. “Speak for yourself. At least I don’t have more conversations with the memorial statue then with actually people.”

26. “I’m not sure if I should take that as a compliment or not.”

27. “I’m not really a murderer but when I play GTA 5; I turn into Jeffery Dahmer.”

28. “Being jealous is a disease, get well soon bitch.”

29. “ I know I’m handsome but having you stare at me is kind of a turn off.”

30. “No matter what it is, I always get what I want.”

31. “Cause I was born with this pretty face, so of course only pretty things can be worn by me.”

32. “ If I wanted to kill myself I will climb up your ego and jump to your IQ level.”

33. “Would you let me make a dildo of your penis?”

34. “Ya know, talk shit get hit?”

35. “Why is big birds emo son talking to me?”

36. “You know I really like confident women .”

37. “And I like men in my age group.”

38. “Run and I’ll break your legs. Attack and I’ll break your necks.”

39. “Listen there isn’t a single language on earth that has a word for how little I care. A super computer that calculates for a thousand years cannot even approach the number of fucks I do not give.”

40. “Once I find them I’ll peel their skin from off their muscles and feed it to the creatures of the forest, watching as they drink their blood like holy wine.”

41. “So let me tell you one last time so we're clear

42. You don't want to take the path you took to get here. If you pop that lip I will rock your shit. Stop playing with the fire, you are not that lit On monday you can get it! On tuesday you can get it! On wednesday you can get it! What about thursday? You can get it! On friday you can get it! On saturday you can get it! How about sunday? You can get it! And every single day you can get it.”

43. “ It’s heretopaternal superfecundation, mom had a threesome and got two mistakes instead of one.”

44. “As long as my fucks to care are flying around and no one catching them it’ll continue to be that way, no fucks given.”

45. “You must be into some kinky shit if you put your honored guest into chains and cuffs.”

46. “Mate, I’ll fucking spin your jaw.”

47. “It’s the borderline incest for me beloved.”

48. “Mhmm now apologize you fuckin goofy.”

49. “Now remember what I told you, walk straight even if you’re gay.”

50. “I can’t talk right now, I’m doing bad bitch shit.”

51. “If I hated any of you then I would’ve either killed you all off one by one or just left.”

52. “Why don’t you slip into something more comfortable? Like a coma.”

53. “I was not born with enough middle fingers.”

54. “My depression is vicious, but this ass is delicious. Dinner is served bitch.”

55. “You wanna talk about the seatbelt rule! How about we talk about the shut the fuck up rule!”

56. “ Hippity hoppity your grave is on my property.”

57. “You speak to your mother with that mouth?”

58. “ No, but I suck your father’s off with it.”

59. “I’m sick you assholes. Baby me!”

60. “Your first orgy! I approve. Especially the tall one. He'd make an excellent consort."

61. “What did I tell you about speaking of orgies so freely in front of mortals? It's weird. Especially since you're my dad. You're not supposed to approve of these things."

62. “Ding dong the witch is dead."

63. "This drink is my weakness and she knows it. Bitch."

64. “Because they're never gonna see that coming." You say, matter of factly. "They pull back the curtain like re-re and you're like re-re yourself, motherfucker!"

65. “And then you stab them in the eye. You thought the psycho was out there? Surprise! The psycho's in here with the Olay body wash on her."

66. “Oh shit, he's trying to say something. Quick get the Speak-n-Spell!"

67. “The total number of fucks I give are equal to the number of living relatives Sasuke has.”

68. “Haven't you seen my halo, darling? I'm an angel."

69. “ Can I call you a waste of time? Because that’s what you feel like to me.”

70. “He looks like my depression in human form.”

71. “He looks like he could be my sleep paralysis demon.”

72. “If depression and anxiety had a child he would be that child.”

73. “Oh you shouldn’t talk so big it makes your height look bad.”

74. “Sucking the life out of you guys like depression on a Tuesday.”

75. “I’m lazy not stupid.”

76. “I can't be sad. It is a state of mind which is simply not accessible to me. But this doesn't mean that i am happy all the time because this emotion is suppressed, barely there. Mostly i am in a state of...resignation. Calmness. No matter what situation. I do feel getting touched. But i don't feel pain. At all. So none.”

77. “You could basically rip my eyes out and i would only feel a slight movement and a soft touch. I don't feel exhaustion. I don't feel hunger. Sometimes i forget to breathe. I mean...my body still does that automatically but...meditating can get pretty dangerous for me.”

78. “Think of it that way. Everything around us, is god. The cells. The air. Atomic bonds. Life itself. The movement of the leaves in the wind and the smell of the coffee in front of you. It is around us. In us. Something. Call it molecules. Call it Allah. Call it God. Call it Science. Gravity is god. Carbon dioxide is god. You. Are a tiny bit of god. God is just a word. Something, a word, a thought to share. A reason to life. Live itself. You don't have to be a Jew a Muslim a Buddhist a Christian or an Atheist to know, that the world around you exists. Maybe there is a Plan. Maybe there is a spiritus sancti. Maybe, there is a soul and maybe there isn't. We do not know. But we know of our world. We know of us. Maybe the cells in our body's weren't meant to mutate. Maybe they were. We do not know. But we can believe. That is the difference, between us. A believing and a none believing person. And the difference is, that there is none. We are the same. Thinking about the same, knowing and not knowing the same facts. Simply chose to call it differently."

79. “I’m not here to boost your ego Walmart Superman.”

80. “This is my ninja way.”

81. “They say I care I didn’t care when my dog died.”

82. “I really don’t think barging is the right word… strolled is a more accurate description, I think.”

83. “Of course. I’d tie them up. First I’d remove each nail and when it got inflamed, I’d dip it in salt. They screamed so loud, you have no idea. Then I start to amputate. I’d remove one finger each day, then the toes. Then the hand, then feet, moving my ways up. They wouldn’t die since I would cauterize their wounds. Then I’d play with them. I’d throw screw drivers, knifes, and needles at them. I have a terrible shot you know… or do I?”

84. “I rip their hair out with my own hands and feed it to them. I’d shove my fingers into their eyes till they pop out. The genitals are always last to go. Even if they admit in the beginning, I’d still do it. I’d then dump their bodies for the little birdies and critters to nibble at.”

85. “Treat me like a joke and I’ll leave you like it’s funny.”

86. “I don’t want you guys to think I’m some good guy cause if I got the chance I would sacrifice you all in a heartbeat.”

87. “You fuck me but won’t marry me! How does that work?!”

88. “Shut your mouth!”

89. “Oh I thought you liked it wide open.”

90. “I’m the person who’s gonna cut ya dick off and glue it to ya forehead so you look like a lilting unicorn.”

91. “Who the fuck are you?”

92. “Nobody gives me butterflies anymore, just anger issues.”

93. “Fuck you goatman!”

94. “Mentally sick, physically thick.”

95. “Congratulations, you played yourself.”

96. “I use my tears as hand sanitizer because there’s nothing riper then depression in it’s purest form.”

97. “Always in the sun, but no ones son is ever in me.”

98. “Well if he says I am baby then I am baby. Goo goo ga ga motherfuckers.”

99. “Is this a new technique for kidnapping kids?”

100. “Cry like a little girl. Run like a slave. But when I catch that ass boy, you gonna behave.”

101. “Call me a escalator cause I always let people down.”

102. “Call me a tree cause they always picking on me.”

103. “Call me my dad cause I’m never around.”

104. “Dark humor cause even orphans gotta laugh, shopping which is weird cause I will dead wear the same shit for a month straight, laundry - it’s something about seeing the clothes and everything drown that gets me going.”

105. “They play dumb I play dumber looks like we spongebob and Patrick now.”

106. “Roses are red, Memes are neat. I wanna die, LMFAO YEET.”

107. “If you feel like the world is eating you alive that’s just proof you always looking like a snack.”

108. “I know I’m hot, but I also know I’m not a full time hot person. I’m hit when I want to be. I choose my own hours. I make my own schedule. I do freelance hotness.”

109. “You have a build a bear as a principal.”

110. “I was gonna give you that vacuum cleaner gawk gawk 6000 and this juicy wet 🐱 till you leaked outta me after painting me white on the insides but it seems you having a good night without me so anyways goodnight ☺️.”

111. “Is this social interaction because I don’t really like it.”

112. “Listen if a guy doesn't man handle me during a makeout session or during u know 😏 I'm putting him in rice or sending him back to whoever broke him 😂.”

113. “If we dated before I turnt 20 you are not an ex but a childhood friend.”

114. “Can you wipe off my favorite seat oh I meant ya face.”

115. “Guess I’ll have to stick around, gotta keep you guys alive…for my own.”

116. “I never said I was an angel. Nor am I innocent or holy like the Virgin Mary. What I am is natural and serious and as sensitive as an open nerve on an ice cube. I'm a young black sister with an unselfish heart who overdosed on love long ago. My closest friends consider me soft-spoken. Others say I have a deadly tongue. And while it's true that I have a spicy attitude like most of the ghetto girls I know, I back it up with a quick, precise, and knowledgeable mind. My memory runs. Way back and I'm inclined to remind people of the things they'd most like to forget.”

117. “My vagina just said thank you in Spanish.”

118. “I look at you and go dry, like sand.”

119. “Told you not to call him shitty, now you look like shit.”

120. “You really don’t know someone till you’ve seen them beg for mercy.”

121. “Oh how their screams make me tingle.”

122. “Your words hold no weight against mine.”

123. “Well aren’t you Sherlock fuckin’ Holmes.”

124. “Don’t you know that threats only work on those that have something to lose? If anything I count death as my blessing.”

125. “Welcome to my abortion clinic pizzeria were yesterday‘s loss is today’s sauce.”

126. “Do you know Jesus is actually black and he’s all our fathers cause we haven’t seen him in years.”

127. “Do you know all the zodiacs have their own hairstyles expect for cancers.”

128. “It means I'm perfectly content but also wouldn't mind if the sun exloded right now and killed us all.”

129. “Every day I think I’m getting closer, gonna take a bath with my fucking toaster.”

130. “Are you a race horse? Cause when I ride you’ll always finish first.”

131. “You know what sea turtles and I have in common… we both like being choked by trash.”

132. “I’m gonna sound like a Victorian peasant but please sir may I have some bread? I rather not have some of that mystery meat.”

133. “Service error 11037: Go fuck yourself :)”

134. “🔫🐝 you are beeing robbed. Only thing that’ll save you is ya number. “

135. “Sharing is caring but unfortunately I don’t care.”

136. “He likes to play catch, so I asked him can you catch these hands. He said yes so I hit the living fuck outta him. What’s the problem officer!”

137. “Do you think when humans feel butterflies in their stomachs that butterflies feel humans in their stomachs?”

138. “I keep looking behind and hope to continue forward.”

139. “I’m sorry, is our friendly banter bothering you? I know you prefer to choke your friends rather than joke-”

140. “Are we even together together or are we together like high school musical we all in this together type shit.”

141. “Oh, because I’m so scared of a slenderman clone with daddy issues, who’s also having a sexuality crisis”

142. “Bitch, your pussy smells like hotdog water. Move on.”

143. “You’re so cute…I hate it.”

144. “Look. I could be a whore, or I could be YOUR whore. Really; it’s up to you.”

145. “Oh, oh, oh my god. Choking is my main turn on.”

146. “This is my no no cube. Anything is possible if you have enough lube.”

147. “Aye baby you ever had KFC. Cause I can give you some of that Kentucky Fried Cock.”

148. “You’re not dummy thicc you’re dummy stick.”

149. “And you little stupid purple looking Barney looking bitch!”

150. “I was raised and surrounded by happiness, something you don’t know.”

151. “They put you in the streets but even the streets ain’t want you.”

152. “Remember reality is an illusion,the universe is a hologram. Buy gold, bye.”

153. “Better scramble like an egg before you get folded like an omelette.”

154. “Play stupid games, and you win stupid prizes .”

155. “Call me Ms.Water gun cause I’ll squirt you like one.”

156. “ I would say I’m like the ocean, I’m calm and peaceful and you can see my beauty on the outside but the further you dive into me you learn not everything is as it seems uptop. I’m calm yes but even calming things can be dangerous, I have my flaws the further you go in and things that are best left at the bottom of my ocean depths but do know if you are to disturb that sea level be ready to face the Consequences.”

157. “ i’m not interested in being disrespected by someone who I lowered my standards for.”

158. “Shut the fuck up before I fold your lanky ass like a chair.”

159. “Listen here, Snotball, don’t bullshit me. I’m ain’t come here for your public-pleasing fake smile. “Go polish your skills instead of sucking my dick…”

160. “ Nana whipped them highschool kiddies asses into shape that day, oh yes she did. They met they maker on them steps I tell you, now go and and play with this old timer if you dear I’ll send that ass to the pearly gates or the flaming pits below.”

161. “Let my hands speak for me, smack talk.”

162. “Why be a wallflower when you can be a Venus fly trap?”

163. “Out here living like the main character because if I’m not the main character, I’m that one bitch that go berserk.”

164. “Food is fun, food is great, food is why we celebrate!”

165. “I want my next piercing to be a bullet. In my head."

166. “Okay, rude. You have the Eminem’s hairline, but I didn’t say anything about it!”

167. “If I’m die, then I wish to go out on my own terms, for I am like none other person on this earth.”

168. “Criminal or not. Sometimes it’s nice to be wanted.”

169. “When I said I fell in love with you I lied. I fell in love with your entire existence, I would cry for you, I would kill for you, I would die for you. “

170. “Life is just a big movie, you just can’t pick your genre.”

#writing #writing prompts #writing prompt #spiderman across the spiderverse x reader #vikings x reader #demon slayer x reader #fandoms x reader #x men x reader #avengers x reader #one punch man x reader #black butler x reader #x reader #bnha x reader

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gatekeeper-watchman · 3 months ago

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Daily Devotionals for August 11, 2024

Proverbs: God's Wisdom for Daily Living

Devotional Scripture:

Proverbs 22:17-18 (KJV): 17 Bow down thine ear, and hear the words of the wise, and apply thine heart unto my knowledge. 18 For it is a pleasant thing if thou keep them within thee; they shall withal be fitted in thy lips. Proverbs 22:17-18 (AMP): 17 Listen (consent and submit) to the words of the wise, and apply your mind to my knowledge; 18 For it will be pleasant if you keep them in your mind (believing them); your lips will be accustomed to (confessing) them.

Thought for the Day

Learning to claim God's Word is important. Confessing it aloud helps us to remember it. It also builds our faith and helps us to hold on to God's promises when it is a real battle to do so. We must confess what God's Word says about our circumstances and ourselves, not what the world or our fears may tell us. Speaking God's Word causes the rest of our words to begin to line up with it. We should confess the Word over our problems, instead of confessing only our problems. When feeling discouraged or doubtful, we must continue to confess in faith what the Bible says about us or our situations.

We must, however, be careful to have a Biblical (and not merely a positive) confession. A Biblical confession speaks God's Word back to Him, while a positive confession is simply speaking what one wants to hear and is directed primarily toward self-interest. We honor God by lining up what we think and say with His truth and trusting Him to provide our needs because we know He is good. Our aim must never be to try to manipulate God into doing what we want. Some so-called "confession teachers" say we should never speak anything negative; we should never say that we have an illness or a problem. This is not what the Bible teaches. We can certainly state the facts, but we should always resolve to speak the greater facts of God's Word over them. Faith-filled words invite the Holy Spirit into the problem. For example, in telling people that you are under an attack of illness, it would be wise to phrase it like this: "My doctor says I have (name the disease or condition), but I believe that God is my Healer and therefore I am claiming the Scripture that says, "...by the stripes of Jesus I am healed" (1 Peter 2:24b). Would you agree with me in prayer for healing?" The Bible contains many promises that we may claim. If we do not know what God says about a problem, we need only open the Bible and research the subject to learn what God has promised to do for us in each particular circumstance.

Abraham is a wonderful example of believing God's promises and acting in faith. God promised Abraham that his descendants would be exceedingly numerous. Although Abraham knew he was too old to father children, he "...staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to God; and being fully persuaded that, what he had promised, he was able also to perform" (Romans 4:20-21).

Prayer Devotional for the Day

Dear heavenly Father, thank you, Lord, for Your many promises of blessing to us, Your children. We want to receive everything that Jesus died for when He went to the cross to save us. Salvation and healing are just the beginning of why You died on that cross for us, and We do not want Your death to be in vain. We want to receive all the covenant promises that You suffered on our behalf. Lord, deliver us from doubt and unbelief and help us to guard the things we say. May we always confess what Your Word says, and not allow the devil to rob us of the blessings that are ours. We ask this in the name of Jesus, our Lord and Saviour. Amen. Steven P. Miller, @ParkermillerQ, gatekeeperwatchman.org Founder and Administrator of Gatekeeper-Watchman International Group Saturday, August 10, 2024, Jacksonville, Florida., Duval County, USA. X … @ParkermillerQ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/Sparkermiller.JAX.FL.USA, Instagram: steven_parker_miller_1956 #GWIG, #GWIN, #GWINGO.

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dimonds456 · 1 year ago

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hi guys.

MASSIVE CW/TW for medical misconduct, strong language, disability, talk of Death and dying, transphobia / enbyphobia, and personal drama below the cut. I genuinely have no clue what to do anymore.

Also no, this isn't gonna be me asking for money or anything. I'm fine there. It's literally everything else that's the problem.

also long post.

Okay, I'm terrified and I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I keep forgetting to call my doctor, and I'm also actively trying to find a new, different doctor, but every single site to do that is either down or inaccessible as fuck. He won't answer me on the website that's supposed to let you get in touch with your doctor, and as far as I know there's no way to report him for anything he's doing to me.

I have a paper trail now and will be calling him Dr K, since he refers to himself like that in one of the screenshots I have.

For a bit of backstory, I have Graves Disease. Fucking love the name, great choice. Graves Disease is a sub-genre of hyperthyroidism, a typically genetic disease in which your thyroid- a butterfly-shaped gland located at the front of the throat that regulates your metabolism- starts over-producing hormones and doesn't stop. I've had it since middle school.

Here they are in all their glory. For context on how bad this shit can get, my RESTING heart rate BPM was around 100. When I started running around, it got up OVER 200. THAT'S ENOUGH TO GIVE SOMEONE A HEART ATTACK. I was in middle school at the time, so adjust for how much smaller my body was, but STILL. Still terrible numbers, and I was literally in grave danger by the time I got treated.

(wow i love that its called graves disease haha such a funny name WHO NAMED THIS DISEASE I JUST WANNA FUCKING TALK)

So, since I'm 20, it's safe to assume I have the lifelong/chronic variant at this point (it festered for at least 6 months before I started getting treatment, and though it has gotten a bit better with time, not by much).

I don't care if I have to be on meds forever, that's not the problem. The problem is everything else.

Enter my two doctors, Dr M and Dr K.

Dr M was first, he was my childhood doctor and he's the one who originally started treating me. I don't remember much about him, just that he frustrated me constantly because he never listened. I'd tell him that my symptoms got worse after he lowered my dosage, and instead of talking to me about that, he'd point at a chart full of numbers that I don't understand and say "well your numbers look good so." and then proceed to continue lowering my dosage again until it because obvious to him that I was telling the truth, in which he'd up my dosage.

Now, as a kid, I was very much not outspoken. I still am not. I've never been very pushy about anything and always let people walk all over me, so I only really ever got listened to when the "numbers" started to reflect what I was saying. And yeah, my self-confidence it a whole other conversation and I do need to work on that, but also... part of being a doctor is to listen to your patient, right? So no matter how quiet or afraid I was, I should still have been heard out and treated like a person and not a goddamn statistic.

Then, I turned 18. I had until I was 19 to find an "adult" doctor, and Dr M kept seeing me until that could happen. But I had no idea how the fuck to do that. And no one explained it to me. I needed to be sat down and shown exactly how to do it step-by-step, but that never happened. I never got the help I needed.

April 7th, 2022, I turned 19 years old. Time was up, and I still didn't have a different doctor. I had no clue where to start.

I was living on my own now. I had an apartment I'd been staying in for a little less than a year, had a terrible home life with my roommates, had a 3rd shift 10 and a half-hour job + college, and no new doctor. I got one last prescription refill from Dr M, and then that was it. I wasn't allowed to see him anymore.

I kept putting off finding a new doctor because I was preoccupied with The Horrors™, something else that traumatized me last year that lasted from November 2021 to late October 2022. It went on for a literal year and I still haven't recovered from it at all, but again, that's a whole other can of worms that I cannot open yet. But the point is that I was in the mental warzone at the time, and just... never thought about a new doctor.

July 2022.

My 3 months of prescription were over. I was on the wrong dosage, and my symptoms were flaring up. BAD. And I still didn't have a doctor. Time to panic. I don't remember what happened, but my dad was able to help me find a doctor named Dr K, and we set up an appointment- 3 days before the last of my meds would have run out.

I just had to make it til then, then everything would be okay, right? I wasn't going to die- I wasn't going to die. I had to hold onto that. i wasn't going to die.

I saw him, he was able to get me on proper meds, and my dosage was upped from half a pill twice a day to 2 pills twice a day. MUCH better, it helped a lot. Thank fuck, I'm not going to die.

I thought that, maybe, finally, I got a doctor who would listen. But he doesn't. He fucking doesn't. He does the exact same thing as Dr M and only looks at "the numbers" and doesn't listen to what I'm telling him.

Fast forward to now. I am still processing The Horrors™, have (C?)PTSD, I have a new eating disorder that not even the doctors are sure wtf it is (might be ARFID? But they genuinely have no idea, I'm in a weird grey area, so THAT'S comforting), I have new weakness in my legs and arms that they don't know how that got there, I've fallen 3 times, and Graves Disease gave me an eye disease that can make me go blind if untreated. Awesome.

...Dr K still isn't listening.

My most recent appointment with him was last month, when I went to get a normal follow-up. Apparently they forgot to do labs for his stuff and just did them for my eating disorder, so he doesn't really have much to go off of in terms of "the numbers" and I'm the one who takes the blame for it, not the labwork people who forgot to take my labs while I was there getting labs. Fine. Whatever.

I tell him about my symptoms flaring back up, and he continues going on about my "numbers". Points at a graph I can't read. "Your numbers look fine." What does that mean? Idk, he didn't tell me.

During that visit, he brought up with me that I want to have top surgery. I say yes, and then he starts going off about how I need to start HRT before they can do the surgery. I ask why, and he tells me that it's just how they do things. I have to be on HRT for at least 6 months before I can get the surgery I want.

Now, I am transmasc (nonbinary). I am not against HRT, but it's not something I'm sure I want yet. I tell him as such, and he then states that "well since you're still confused, you should talk to a therapist first and then we'll go from there." BITCH I'M NOT CONFUSED. I JUST DON'T WANT HRT RIGHT NOW. I have 50 other medical problems to worry about, I'm not in a good position to start it even IF I WANTED TO. WHICH I DO NOT. I just know I want the surgery! That's it!

I tell him as such, and he keeps insisting that I'm just confused in what I want and basically said that I'm not trans enough to warrant a surgery if I don't want HRT.

Great. Well, now I'm pissed.

Two days later, I hopped onto a Discord server and asked if I was right in thinking that what he said was wrong, and everyone agreed that yeah, what he told me was fucked up. I even brought this up with my parents, who- although they do support me as an individual- are mildly transphobic, and even THEY agreed that what he told me was fucked up. I should not be FORCED into anything like that because I'm "not trans enough," that's BULLSHIT.

Anyway. At the end of my original visit with him, he sent me to get the labwork done same-day and then told me he would update me with what we were going to do.

Last Thursday, August 3rd, I got a phone call saying that he was canceling my prescription altogether.

My meds, which- as a reminder- SAVED ME FROM DYING LAST YEAR, which I know for a FACT I need to live since I was on death's doorstep just for being on the wrong dosage of these meds- yeah fuck em. You don't need them. "Your numbers are good."

The goal has been to ween me off. Slowly but surely reduce my pills a little at a time to slowly ween my body off the medication. I'm taking 30 mg a day. THIS IS NOT WEENING.

Now, I do make a comment I'm not proud of in the following screenshot, but the context is that I had already asked what the numbers meant and got brushed aside for it, both as a kid AND a teenager. I am now 20. So, of course, the "I'm not a kid anymore" thing pops up here, like the fucking cliche that I am. But I have not edited these screenshots except to blot out my picture. I refuse to edit them, just so it's crystal clear the BULLSHIT I'm dealing with.

I went onto the website and sent my doctor some questions, because I was rightfully afraid of what would happen if I suddenly couldn't take medication that I need to live. And the answer I got? Well, look.

I just took these screenshots as I was making this post.

Yeah, so ignoring the "I'm not a kid anymore" comment (I knew I would regret writing that and I did it anyway, go me), I feel like I was professional and careful with my wording here, right? I asked each question and explained why I was asking in-depth in hope of answers. And, I numbered those questions to ensure all 4 got addressed. And all I got was MORE questions.

And he never answered. That was August 7th. It's the 10th now. And I'm suffering. My symptoms are coming back more and more each day, and I've been trying desperately to ween myself off of meds so it's not the literal sudden change that he wants for my body. And also like, I'm sorry but am I reading this right? WHAT THE FUCK DOES "NORMAL HYPERTHYROIDISM RANGE" MEAN?? DO YOU WANT ME TO GET WORSE? RESET ME BACK TO ZERO? UNDO ALL THE PROGRESS I'VE MADE? CUZ ITS WORKING.

Sitting here writing this, my thyroid hurts. I can feel the swelling going up. You can hold it between two fingers now. I'm in pain when you tug on it in a certain direction, which used to be a comforting motion of mine. My resting BPM is going back up fast, the swelling behind my eyes is getting worse (which, again, COULD MAKE ME GO BLIND), and I was super reliant on my cane for balance today, not just the weakness in my knee/hip region that I'd been using it for. I'm getting worse FAST.

I am no stranger to Death. Honestly, my relationship with Death has gone from fearful to almost friendly over time. I feel like we know each other well, they and I. After nearly drowning at age 7, I feel like we've built a pretty uncommonly close relationship with each other. I've looked into the void, it looked back, shook its head and told me to try again. Many times. Not many other people can say that.

Death has given me many chances. I keep getting lucky. But, y'know, after dancing with Death for the majority of my life and being visited by them at least twice a year at this point, you'd think I'd start to figure out the steps to keep up with them, right? Well, you underestimate my ability to dance, ever. All it takes is a touch, and Death will have me.

"Just get a new doctor!" I still don't know how, and when I want to try? The website was down (which isn't the same website as the one I use to talk to Dr K, it's a completely different site).

"Call the office and keep calling them until you get answers!" A) phone calls are scary, B) the nurses aren't going to have the answers I need, only the doctors will, and C) you can't just call your doctor, not in this fucking day and age. If I want an appointment, I gotta book it out by months.

This morning, all I had was a half a pill. I'm running low on meds, and I'm trying to take them only as needed, and with as little as possible, to preserve them for as long as I can. But with all this happening, I... I want to take another half, but that would do more harm in the end than good since I'd have less for later. My dad suggested a Tylenol, since my throat is inflamed and that might make the swelling go down (but it wouldn't address the issue in that my thyroid is making far more hormones than it should be). So now I have to choose.

I had a panic attack over this earlier. I looked up to pick up a box from a tall shelf and fell backwards- the same thing that finally convinced my parents that something might actually have been wrong with me and got me to see a doctor 6 months too late originally. Only difference is that there's no broken plate this time. All I did was look up and I stumbled backwards into the wall.

I don't want to die. Oh, stars, I don't want to die. But they're not going to refill my prescription, and I'm 86% sure my doctor is doing this on purpose because of the trans thing (you could hear it in his tone, but that's not really proof of anything). He won't explain himself, and then proceeded to ignore me when I asked for answers. I need a new doctor, but I don't know how to get one, and the website is STILL DOWN.

I'm fucked. I'm actually fucked.

Death has been kind to me before. I just have to trust that they'll be kind to me again. And I know personifying something like Death is fucking stupid but it's all I have left at this point.

I don't want to die, stars I don't. Been there done that. I just want to feel okay. I just want to feel safe. But in this body, I'll never feel safe. My Graves will never go away, and my throat is closing up what with the inflamation, and I'm in pain, and my eyes hurt, and my eating disorder keeps taking more and more away from me, and I could barely make it through fucking mini golf earlier, so how the fuck am I going to go back to work like this?! They're going to fire me, and then what? Do I just lay down and die?! Let it happen? Because if THIS is all my life is going to be, fighting just for the right to be alive from the people who are SUPPOSED to be helping me STAY alive, then what is the fucking point?!

I should clarify; I am not suicidal. I DON'T WANT TO DIE. I just want to feel okay. Please, stars, that's all I want. I just want to feel safe. I just want to feel loved. I just want to feel happy. I just want to feel like it all meant something, that I can push through and use my own suffering to lift others up so they don't have to suffer like I did. The point is to ease other's suffering as much as I can. That's all I've ever wanted. But all I do is bring others down with me, because of things that are out of my control.

i'm tired. i'm hot. i'm hungry. i can't eat. i'm angry. i'm emotionless. i'm exhausted. i'm cold. i feel sick. i'm in pain. i'm numb. i just want it to be over. i want to push through. i want to give in. i want it all to stop. i want to feel safe.

...I'm gonna try the Tylenol. I can't afford to take any more of my meds.

hah, i'm like doug from portal. save em for the end times.

I just... what if my dad is right and this is all in my head? Like, it's fucking not, I can FEEL the inflamation getting bigger both on my skin and in my throat, but... what if? What if all of this is just anxiety? What if this is all just a result of my trauma from last year? fuck man, idk. i need help, and not even my therapist knows how to give it to me. i'm lost. i don't know who to talk to or who can help me.

im sorry. I'm still going to try to make as positive an impact as I can while I'm still here, but... stars, I just don't know how much time I have.

If you made it this far, take a second and count your blessings, okay? Take the time to wave to friendly faces of your past, remember things you did and people you've met. Remember your favorite childhood bookseries, or your favorite TV show. Appreciate the people closest to you. Hug your pet. Hug your siblings. Send your guardians a text appreciating them for the good memories they've given you, if you can.

Breathe. You're alive. Somehow, someway... you're alive. And isn't that wonderful? To defy the very nature of science that we still don't understand, to plant your feet on the ground and go "no, I'm here and I am alive and I live for myself"? That's incredible.

I'm alive, too. By stars I'm alive. And I'm not gonna go anywhere until I'm forced from this earth kicking and screaming. And I'm gonna try my goddamn best to make sure that every day is as good as it can be, for everyone around me. For myself.

Fuck it, we only have so much time. We gotta make the best of it, eh? Good memories. I want to go thinking about good memories. Laughter. Friends.

Maybe that could be enough.

#dimond speaks #vent #cw vent #vent post #personal vent #vent tw #cassie don't look #ask to tag #tw sui ment #sui ment #im not suicidal though dw- the opposite is true

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leclercenjoyer · 6 months ago

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

helloooo i was tagged by my darlings @boxboxbrioche @vicsy and @golden-fairylights

1. How many works do you have on ao3

12 total, including 1 on anon! (anon because it is unfinished and so no one can hold me acountable)

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

36,202! im baby

3. What fandoms do you write for?

formula one babyyyyyy

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

something borrowed (265 kudos)

no poor substitute (261 kudos)

tip of the tongue (252 kudos)

treat with care (216 kudos)

helping hand (143 kudos)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i want to but i never know what to say 😭😭😭 somebody please help me.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

probably muscle memory, i think thats the only one ive written that doesnt have a happy or hopeful ending

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

almost all of them are happy ending but i think anything, everything might be the most explicitly happy ending?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

i havent thus far but this may change

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

i do!! most of what i write is in the realm of what i would call "tenderhorny" because thats what i enjoy writing, porn with feelings. thats the most fun thing to write for me.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i havent!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of 😭

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

not yet!!! if anyone... wants to... hit me up...

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

NO BUT I WANT TO SO BAD im planning a very special fic with a dear friend, for when i am freed of my school obligations... and possibly another with another dear friend... i wanna play in the sandbox with people...

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

i am a pierresteban girlie through and through. they gripped me by the throat when i was less than two months in and they havent let go

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

well. my unfinished anon wip sdjhkjsd but there are... so many wips in my folders that ive started and abandoned that i doubt will ever see the light of day.

16. What are your writing strengths?

ive been told my writing feels very grounded and in-body, and im very deliberate with my word choices when im trying to create a mood

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

once again being deliberate with my word choice means i agonize over the smallest sentences 😭 and i have "say as much as possible in as few words as possible" disease so i often struggle to like. Elaborate. and i am the slowest writer on this planet i think.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

if the POV character doesn't understand what is being said, keep it in the language its said in. if the POV character understands what is being said, just say "blah blah blah," he says in [language]. thats my hot take. i dont know if its particularly hot. is this even what is being asked? i have holes in my brain.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

ive written assorted snippets for many but f1 is the first fandom where ive written and actually finished and published fic.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

its a tie between muscle memory and something borrowed, the former because it took me forever and im so proud to have finished it and how it came out, and the latter because it was my first fic and my baby and i could not have dreamed of the reception it got, its so special to me and everyone was so kind to me and made me believe i could actually Do This

i dont know who all has done it already 😭 if you see this and you want to do it consider yourself tagged

#tag meme #i love u all this was fun

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AITA for trying to save this timeline?

Hi there everyone, long time lurker, first time poster.

A couple of years ago, I (16? 18? 20-something? Sorry I don't even know my age anymore) ended up taking a new job. I guess you could call it a kind of emergency services job? Essentially, we have to watch the timeline to make sure it stays stable, because it turns out that sometimes there are weird artifacts out there that might cause the timeline to conflict with itself, and...I don't know how to describe it any further than that without getting in some major trouble, I'm already pushing it, but it's a whole thing. I started the job because some guy actually planted seven of them throughout the timeline explicitly to try to destroy humanity and I ended up being the only survivor of all the candidates for my position after he sent someone to try to stop us from stopping him, though...I mean, I don't know how important it is because we DID stop him, but that does lead to where I think I might have become the asshole.

Because, you see, after that guy was gone, a phenomenon happened that essentially "ended" the timeline anyway, or put it in stasis, or something, and I was basically told that I had to go fight against a bunch of supposedly otherwise doomed timelines to have a chance at bringing it back - winner would become un-doomed, losers would get pruned away, destabilize, and disappear.

Some of those other timelines, it was easy to see why they were doomed. One of them had people who had to make themselves into basically demon-wolf-chimeras just to survive a horrible new ice age and even that barely did it, everyone was just a brutally practical survivalist by necessity. Another one capped human lifespans at 25 because it needed so many sacrifices to hold off the apocalypse. One just kept getting reset over and over again by a god who became obsessed with perfection. One of them was so far gone that it turned out they WANTED to lose.

But...I look back at my own proper history, and I wonder if it was really the right thing to do. After all, we've overcome some pretty big global atrocities and disasters too - wars, diseases, famines. Surely some of them could have improved eventually? Didn't they deserve a chance to?

What's worse is that now, the entire system that made it possible to do all this is...for lack of a better way to explain this understandably enough to get a fair ruling but vaguely enough not to ruin anything, basically kicking me out because it says that I cheated by overrelying on a certain strategy. I didn't know this would be considered cheating, but I don't want to treat that as an excuse when I was wiping out entire other timelines to save my own.

Basically...I've been doing this job so long I don't think I know what's right or wrong anymore. AITA?

#aita #am i the asshole #unreality

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princeofgod-2021 · 1 month ago

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LIGHT OF LIFE 568

John 1:4

DIVINE ORDER 133: WORKING ORDER 28

Joh 15:26 And when the Comforter has come, whom I will send to you from the Father, THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH WHO PROCEEDS FROM THE FATHER, HE SHALL TESTIFY OF ME. MKJV

THE HOLY GHOST IS WORKING 17 - HIS PROPAGATION 2

Now, just how far will the Holy Ghost spread and in what Mode of operation?

We have said there is precision with the Spirit and we should inspect and see if there is such in this case.

Act 16:6-7 And after they had gone through the land of Phrygia and Galatia, THE HOLY SPIRIT DID NOT LET THEM TAKE THE WORD INTO ASIA; And having come to Mysia, THEY MADE AN ATTEMPT TO GO INTO BITHYNIA, BUT THE SPIRIT OF JESUS DID NOT LET THEM; BBE

This is how you know that every single nation is under serious programming and monitored by God.

I mean why would Jesus say “go into all the world” yet have them slowed down?

It is not that the Apostles are haphazardly restrained from preaching, as you can see later.

Act 16:9-10 During the night, Paul had A VISION OF SOMEONE FROM MACEDONIA WHO WAS STANDING THERE AND BEGGING HIM, "COME OVER TO MACEDONIA AND HELP US!" After Paul had seen the vision, we began looking for a way to go to Macedonia. We were sure that God had called us to preach the good news there. CEV

So, if they are being restrained from going into Asia but directly summoned for Macedonia, it must mean [deliberately] that it’s all programmed.

Meanwhile, it is also not because God hates Asia and didn’t want them to hear the Gospel. Every part of the world must get this. The same Asia, which seemed “sectioned out” became major Church Central later.

Rev 1:4 FROM JOHN TO THE SEVEN CHURCHES IN THE PROVINCE OF ASIA. Good will and peace to you from the one who is, the one who was, and the one who is coming, from the seven spirits who are in front of his throne, GW

The issue with delays in reaching nations with the Gospel is that some of them are not “ripe” for harvest yet. The Holy Spirit will sometimes go ahead alone to prepare them.

Luk 1:16-17 He will turn many of the people of Israel to the Lord their God. And he will go as forerunner before the Lord in the spirit and power of Elijah, TO TURN THE HEARTS OF THE FATHERS BACK TO THEIR CHILDREN AND THE DISOBEDIENT TO THE WISDOM OF THE JUST, TO MAKE READY FOR THE LORD A PEOPLE PREPARED FOR HIM.” NET

Sometimes, God may humble a proud and heady Nation with Natural disasters, famine, disease etc, just to make them yearn for salvation and to save them by the Gospel.

We see these happening in certain places today, like with Corvid 19.

Then, when some of those places are ready, God gives the specifics and the Spirit directs the projects amongst them.

Act 18:9-10 During the night, Paul had a vision. The Lord said to him, "Don't be afraid, and don't stop talking to people. I am with you, and no one will be able to hurt you. MANY OF MY PEOPLE ARE IN THIS CITY." ERV

Therefore beloved, if there is any Christian who doesn’t “feel” regular leading of the Holy Spirit, then he is probably not in the programme of Redemption of lost souls at all or he has his own agenda and personal vision.

All Visions must align with this mandate, period!

Isa 8:20 To the Law and to the testimony! If they do not speak according to this Word, IT IS BECAUSE NO LIGHT IS IN THEM. MKJV

I put it to you again beloved, even if you are a world renown inventor, rich and celebrated all over the world, if your prospects are not founded on Gospel Mission, you are lost.

1Co 15:19 IF THE ONLY BENEFIT OF OUR HOPE IN CHRIST IS LIMITED TO THIS LIFE ON EARTH, WE DESERVE TO BE PITIED MORE THAN ALL OTHERS! TPT

The more a Christian is engrossed in reaching out to Souls, the more the manifestation of the power of the Holy Ghost in his life.

Let’s never forget the Testimony of Jesus’ ministry.

Joh 3:34-35 The Son was sent to speak God's message, and he has been given the full power of God's Spirit. The Father loves the Son and has given him everything. CEV

If your whole life is God’s message of Salvation and Testimony of Jesus, you will receive the full workings of the Spirit.

We are rarely seeing Power because we are not declaring the message that the Spirit was sent to back up. The Spirit can be frustrated, you know?

Gal 2:21 I do not frustrate the grace of God: for if righteousness come by the law, then Christ is dead in vain. KJV

The Gospel will keep spreading repeatedly and vessels are sought for the great commission.

I pray that God will find us handy at tool to reach the world, IN JESUS NAME.

See you on Monday, as we proceed with this interesting Subtopic.

Brother Prince

Friday, September 27, 2024

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the-drokainian · 1 month ago

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Luke 7:1-23 NLT

[1] When Jesus had finished saying all this to the people, he returned to Capernaum. [2] At that time the highly valued slave of a Roman officer was sick and near death. [3] When the officer heard about Jesus, he sent some respected Jewish elders to ask him to come and heal his slave. [4] So they earnestly begged Jesus to help the man. “If anyone deserves your help, he does,” they said, [5] “for he loves the Jewish people and even built a synagogue for us.” [6] So Jesus went with them. But just before they arrived at the house, the officer sent some friends to say, “Lord, don’t trouble yourself by coming to my home, for I am not worthy of such an honor. [7] I am not even worthy to come and meet you. Just say the word from where you are, and my servant will be healed. [8] I know this because I am under the authority of my superior officers, and I have authority over my soldiers. I only need to say, ‘Go,’ and they go, or ‘Come,’ and they come. And if I say to my slaves, ‘Do this,’ they do it.” [9] When Jesus heard this, he was amazed. Turning to the crowd that was following him, he said, “I tell you, I haven’t seen faith like this in all Israel!” [10] And when the officer’s friends returned to his house, they found the slave completely healed. [11] Soon afterward Jesus went with his disciples to the village of Nain, and a large crowd followed him. [12] A funeral procession was coming out as he approached the village gate. The young man who had died was a widow’s only son, and a large crowd from the village was with her. [13] When the Lord saw her, his heart overflowed with compassion. “Don’t cry!” he said. [14] Then he walked over to the coffin and touched it, and the bearers stopped. “Young man,” he said, “I tell you, get up.” [15] Then the dead boy sat up and began to talk! And Jesus gave him back to his mother. [16] Great fear swept the crowd, and they praised God, saying, “A mighty prophet has risen among us,” and “God has visited his people today.” [17] And the news about Jesus spread throughout Judea and the surrounding countryside. [18] The disciples of John the Baptist told John about everything Jesus was doing. So John called for two of his disciples, [19] and he sent them to the Lord to ask him, “Are you the Messiah we’ve been expecting, or should we keep looking for someone else?” [20] John’s two disciples found Jesus and said to him, “John the Baptist sent us to ask, ‘Are you the Messiah we’ve been expecting, or should we keep looking for someone else?’” [21] At that very time, Jesus cured many people of their diseases, illnesses, and evil spirits, and he restored sight to many who were blind. [22] Then he told John’s disciples, “Go back to John and tell him what you have seen and heard—the blind see, the lame walk, those with leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised to life, and the Good News is being preached to the poor.” [23] And he added, “God blesses those who do not fall away because of me.”

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monsooninn · 3 months ago

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Berakhot 9b: 6. "The Parisians."

Besides Egypt, the Torah mentions other unsavory places where savages like the Canaanites, Hittites, Amorites, Perizzites, Hivites and the Jebusites live= the Confederation. Their people were never slaves in Egypt but they were also not friends to the Israelites. So in addition to ending Egypt, a Tzaddik has to be able to burn these towns down as well.

Each evil town has a definition that forms a Kabbalah:

Canaanites= abandoned the Ace.

Hittites= collapsed to the sub flooring.

Amorites= the talkers.

Perizzites= Parisians, rural= torches and pitchforks.

"The unused verb פרז (perez) probably meant to go beyond a border or limit. Noun פרז (perez) describes an army's first wave of attackers, who were commonly equipped with spears. Noun פרזה (perazah) refers to rural hamlets, noun פרזי (perazi) describes a person who lives there and noun פרזון (perazon) collectively describes the rural population."

Hivites= tent cities.

"The verb חוה (hawa) means to lay out in order to live collectively, and describes investing one's personal sovereignty into a living collective like a symbiont. It's mostly translated as to prostrate, which is to submit oneself wholly and bodily to a collective or to the leader of that collective.

Another form of laying out is in proclaiming information that will lead to greater oneness among the hearers. The noun אחוה ('ahwah) means declaration, and is identical to the noun אחוה ('ahawa) meaning brotherhood.

Noun חוה (hawwa) describes a tent village, or the most rudimentary collective that operates as a living, symbiotic whole."

Jebusites= trampled down.

The verb בוס (bus) means to tread down or trample with the effect of destruction. Noun מבוסה (mebusa) describes the condition of being down-trodden: subjugation. Noun תבוסה (tebusa) describes the action of it: ruin or downfall.

All of these are kind of pathetic aren't they? The towns of evil are symptoms of the chaos that results when man is not pushed to the limits of his enlightenment. The Torah calls these people drains on society, and as we are seeing now they be a hell of a lot more than that, they can be dangerous and deadly to the rest of us too.

Shmot explains the role a Tzaddik plays in the liberation of the Jew from the misery provinces and in the process gives them a chance to attain to Ha Shem in the process. It is a blast to think of God and the angels trampling down the Mormons and Evangelicals, returning to heaven when the party is over but the Mishnah state this is not the way the Mashiach will take place. Yes, the savages will have to die they are just too awful and dangerous but the root causes of their diseases must be addressed if the Mashiach is to take hold.

From the Birth of Moses.

16 “Go, assemble the elders of Israel and say to them, ‘The Lord, the God of your fathers—the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob—appeared to me and said: I have watched over you and have seen what has been done to you in Egypt. 17 And I have promised to bring you up out of your misery in Egypt into the land of the Canaanites, Hittites, Amorites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites—a land flowing with milk and honey.’ 18 “The elders of Israel will listen to you. Then you and the elders are to go to the king of Egypt and say to him, ‘The Lord, the God of the Hebrews, has met with us. Let us take a three-day journey into the wilderness to offer sacrifices to the Lord our God.’ 19 But I know that the king of Egypt will not let you go unless a mighty hand compels him. 20 So I will stretch out my hand and strike the Egyptians with all the wonders that I will perform among them. After that, he will let you go. 21 “And I will make the Egyptians favorably disposed toward this people, so that when you leave you will not go empty-handed. 22 Every woman is to ask her neighbor and any woman living in her house for articles of silver and gold and for clothing, which you will put on your sons and daughters. And so you will plunder the Egyptians.”

=young people and those cloaked in the darkness of delusion, ignorance, propaganda, who work and toil must be able to exact dividends from their neighbors and communities.

6. "I am who I will be," said the Holy One, blessed be He to Moses, go tell them to Israel: I was with you in this slavery, and I will be with you in this slavery Kingdoms.

In the same way the Nicene Creed says Jesus visits hell to reprieve those damned souls that want to be loved more than hated, the Tzaddik is a friend to those who do not yet comprehend the importance of the Shabbos.

Shabbos, the belief man can work, be educated, protected, cherished, and campaigned for by his fellow man and be as happy as he can be is a first world idea. The soul of man always yearns for relief from suffering and the attainment to happiness, but many do not know how to feel entitled to it, deserving of it nor are they given options or hope.

This oversight on behalf their governments and those surrounding have resulted in climate change, poverty, war, and every manner of depravity, all which are preventable through the Mashiach. But first, the Shabbos, work = food, water, money, shelter, frjends, family, spirit and happiness.

Now here comes the turning point in my argument. This is but a sentiment not a regulation. The Mashiach is a secular not a religious phenomenon. it is born in religion but is reared in secular government and matures when its legislative practices turn the tide in the polity according to scientifically recognizable measurements and standards.

The good news is we know how to do all of this and why it is good to try. The bad news is racism and sarcasm area holding us back and they do not appear to be ready to be left in the dust.

The Value in Gematria is 12792, יב‎ז‎טב‎, yveztev, "his use."

In spite of the fact the Torah and Tanakh are one long Jewish Epic Poem, they were written so man would not feel abandoned to his misadventures and eventual unhappy endings.

As the Gemara says men who abandon the Ace, King David the Jewish god of beauty, who is real will fall right to the bottom of the latrine, speak in circular nonsense, respond to every little thing with violence and oppression, and die without access to the benefits of modern urban life.

To avoid this unholy destiny on behalf of all mankind, the Gematria says we must do more than remember the myth of the House of David, we must bring it back to life and obey its precepts.

There is no reason for anyone on this planet to live without the comforts of the rest. We have all the time, money, technology and labor needed to live here properly, as I have said, and we know how to manipulate the power of the government to do it.

All that is missing is a governor who is willing to sign the Contract. As the Torah says, the poverty cycle is broken early in life. There can be no traces of anarchy around a child, and none during his development or the cycle continues.

Current studies estimate due to complications associated with COVID , climate change and current politics, it will take around 300 years to completely end poverty on this world. This is consistent with the fact all the Torah and Tanakh texts state humanity must surpass the Third Day, AKA a Third Millennium if this life is to be of a good use to all of its inhabitants.

It is the duty and responsiblity of the government to find ways to produce conditions that will result in the end of poverty conditions as soon as possible but certainly within this lengthy period of time. This obviously cannot happen in a single or even double term of a presidency. Democratic elections and party poltiics are a deadly threat to the relief of poverty as the poor and homeless are almost always used as a bartering device for persons seeking public office.

This is why the Torah says the Emperor of Israel, who can pursue a lifelong strategy for the eradication of poverty is contained in the Law. Systems that cannot sustain the economic welfare of their populations are unable to last. We are nearing the end of an episode that has categorically denied the existence of rampant poverty on this world and thus it has become desperate and cash poor. Only a long-term approach that includes frequent injections of vast amounts of cash is going to rescue mankind from the deficit it is incurring in every respect.

The only person(s) who are able to do such a thing without going into debt or exacting repayment is the Czar of Russia. Only the Czar, who controls the largest national land mass on the planet, has access to a cental bank and can mint money freely and force the other governments on the planet to unilaterally to govern themselves out of their current levels of crisis and poverty.

Such a person must be a Tzaddik as the Mishnah says, completely impervious lifelong to the corruption found in the Confederation for the process to work. This particular solution would also be the only way to guarantee Israel is never conquered again, and ensure the peace of Jerusalem reigns forever on this world.

We can't have a Christ again, but we can have this, a Tzaddik and all the generations forthcoming from it. The presence of a Tzaddik will ensuire the logic in the Tanakh is never lost again nor its proof- the more we study the Tanakh the more Christlike we become.

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