#IDK how james would interact with either of them

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HOLY CRUD The Team Rocket Trio would've had SUCH A GOOD DYNAMIC with the Loyal Three if they were still in the anime...

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assuming that Aziraphale and Crowley weren't in love at first sight, what do you think realistically is the EARLIEST they were in love with each other?

oooooh excellent question anon✨💕

aziraphale: i think we're all agreed (and michael sheen is too so, yk, who am i to question him) that aziraphale realised that he was in love with crowley in 1941. i think what also plays a part in that is that aziraphale entertains the possibility that crowley might also love him back.

as for when he started to actually feel something that we as the audience would recognise as romantic love, id say it's somewhere around, or after, 1601, as that's the first time that aziraphale vocalises his worry for crowley's safety. they've also been doing the arrangement in all but name by this point, so we could at least say that between 537 and 1601 they've become closer at least - possibly even considering themselves good friends. and then we can consider that aziraphale readily deploys Project: Puppy Dog Eyes on crowley for the hamlet thing... so yeah, possibly around or soon after 1601.

crowley: this is a lot less clear for me, and ive bandied back and forth on it, but i do think that some measure of crowley's 'oh' moment actually is when nina points it out to him. before this point, i don't think crowley necessarily knew that it was romantic love that he was feeling, or that others would recognise it enough to so readily name it for him - maybe he thought that what he was feeling was unique only to him? not something as simple - and so complicated - as love?

and as for when he first started to feel something that we'd recognise as that romantic love, i think it is probably somewhere around, or soon after, 1827, but before 1862. he invites aziraphale to come see the gabriel statue with him because it "might amuse [him]", and then consider how he reacts to aziraphale's 'fraternising' in st james park. again, this might just be that he thought they were something more than fraternising - friendship? - but i think his visceral reaction indicates it was something stronger than that.

one thing to note here bc it's important: crowley thinks that people would fall in love whilst crowded under an awning together in the rain, staring into each other's eyes etc. now, crowley has already experienced that scenario on the wall, and in the cellar (though i can't quite see any romantic inclinations in the cellar option) (horny tho - absolutely). the thing is though, imo, the tone and nature of the interactions between them that follow either of these two points (mesopotamia, golgotha, rome, and wessex) in their narrative do not indicate to me that crowley fell in love, at all?... so watching this bit again:

i do wonder how much of it is dramatic irony - that crowley indeed has watched said film, and internalised this as 'oh, that's definitely how human beings fall in love', not realising/clocking that this scenario has pretty much already happened to them (but obviously the audience is immediately going to remember), and therefore when nina points it all out to him, it's then that crowley thinks, 'oh shit okay so this feeling that i feel for aziraphale? well, if that's love, well then i must have been in love for 6000 years, brilliant.' idk if that makes any sense, but it's the way it's making sense to me rn!!!💕

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something something. i do have "problematic" fave characters but it feels weird to me to look at art where characters are crafted with nuance and love and go "but this one's problematic" when that is arguably the point of writing a character with such depth to begin with. could i call daniil dankovsky or james sunderland problematic? of course. but that feels like a really juvenile and misguided way of interacting with them. i could call the whole saw cast problematic and it would be true but also incredibly laughable given that this is arguably the point of the franchise. idk i just think the term "problematic fave" feels like a sort of hollow assessment of characters who are either A, living in a world full of problematic characters (how do you differentiate) or B, written with more complexity than a saturday morning cartoon villain (no shit sherlock)

[variousqueerthings]

also, to be that guy who's obsessed with the mythologisation of dr james barry for a second (it's been awhile on this blog I feel), I was interested in how casanova the tv show felt like a deliberate play with myth through the framing and the anachronisms and the lighting and the blocking and and and -- and how casanova himself is a heavily mythologised person, to the point that my partner asked me if he was real before we started

I feel like there's a similarity in ideas in dr james barry and casanova -- they were both adored and reviled, talked up and talked down depending on the agendas of whoever was spreading their tale, both with larger-than-life personas and adventures that seemed to teeter out in the later years as the traits that served them in youth (brashness, stubbornness, laissez-faire attitude around money, very specific ideas around how to live that didn't mesh with the laws and morals of society around them, a genius that in youth is considered prodigy-like... etcetc) (the details, of course, are different) became something that others were embarrassed about/didn't respond to as they aged and lost their connections

(also this is tv-show, so I don't know until I read the diaries, but they both seemingly had a manservant with whom they were very close/came with them on their various journeys)

casanova has the distinction of having a set of diaries that allow one to peruse primary material at ones leisure, so despite being someone whom one might only know from a particular re-telling or history book or even just as an idea, there is some power in being the main teller of his own story

which dr james barry of course doesn't really have. I feel like I read somewhere that he had more private letters that were lost at sea (which whenever I have that memory of having read that, I squint and wonder if I'm not participating in the mythologisation myself), but certainly the majority of what we think we know about him is either from others' opinions of him or just plain wrong/written after his death

in my head though, I think out of the many many biography-type movies and tv shows I've seen, the casanova show might be the closest to something I'd imagine for barry -- not for the same story, of course (the years of their lives also barely overlapped, but my special interest brain did note that early napoleonic and post-napoleonic era), but for the presentation. the idea of indulging in the fantasy, of the playing with anachronism, of an interaction with present (our present) and past. and mostly of fun

I think in a lot of the narratives around barry, it's often hard for me to see someone I think would live the life that he lived -- who had fun, who made deliberate, conscious choices that he enjoyed making, who was very passionate about his ideals and medicine and who -- like casanova -- was very much his own man. they're so often so preoccupied with ideas of deception and being found out and imagined projected cisgender anxieties. they often lack fun, and when they do insert their modern lens (in whatever time whatever thing about him was created), it's not to bridge the gap between us and him, to imagine who he'd potentially be if he lived now, it's to inject their personal ideas about what is morally correct to them onto a symbol

and yeah, at this point dr barry is more figure than man, as happens generally to historical people, especially those we remember for Highly Specific Things (like casanova, like barry), and I think it'd be interesting to really engage with that, to go deep into the world barry lived in, and to make him a figure who was cognizant of that world and the structures he was defying, who felt good about the choices he made

there's a certain idk... thematic overlap between the two figures. and that was something I really really enjoyed while watching this

[risetherivermoon]

thoughts on rosechaser?

ohh my god, yes

i love them, though i havent given them much thought as i have with other james & evan ships, theyre still adorable,

heres kinda the way i see them? idk how to explain it so this is kinda in a monologue type format:

Evan isn’t entirely used to people being that gentle and nice with him. He’s not used to kindness in general. He’s the Rosier heir for merlins sake, why would he? He’s seen as intimidating, since being a part of a fairly renowned pureblood family makes him. He doesn’t particularly try to change how people see him either.

Not because hes overly confident or that it’s correct, but because Evan is too tired to try with any of it. He doesn’t want to interact with anyone else anyway, he’s fine with being somewhat of a sidekick to either Regulus or Barty’s antics. He knows that he’s never seen as “Evan” but as “The Rosier’s Son” or “Crouch and Black’s Friend.” He’s aware that given how loud and big Barty is, and how well known and smart Regulus is that he won’t ever get the spotlight for himself, and honestly he doesn’t care about that all much. He’s fine with not being his own person. He holds no resentment for his friends because of this, he’s happy to step aside and watch them instead of getting involved. He isn’t used to getting help or kindness offered to him, he isn’t used to getting love without repercussions.

James isn’t used to being seen as more than a perpetual force of positivity. He’s not used to people noticing when he’s down, because he uses his postivity as a shield. If he ignores the feelings they’ll go away.

Because James wants to help all of his friends with their problems, he needs to help them and support them. Sometimes this means disregarding his own wellbeing and James is fine with that, he’s fine not getting any of this attention reciprocated. Because he doesn’t have it as bad as the others, who have their issues and their anxieties. Remus with being a werewolf, Sirius with his family, Peter with his worries…everyone else. They all have problems that James can help with and he gladly will. He will gladly be an anchor for everyone he knows. Maybe it feels tolling sometimes, and maybe he wishes everyone would see that he’s being effected, maybe even his parents…but James knows that it’s because he doesn’t let them see it, and then he remembers why he does it and the thoughts stop.

Maybe these are the reasons why Evan Rosier was so surprised by James Potter offering to help him find a book in the library, and why James started to wave to him him in the halls. Maybe all of this is why James was so shocked by Evan checking up on him, by him noticing the things that James is scared of. James finally feels like he can lay himself out to someone and they’ll accept him, and Evan finally feels like he’s his own person, like he’s noticeable and worthy of being noticied. Maybe this is why everything started to work out for them, because they had eachother.

honestly this is making me want to write more of them… but this is what ive got! i hope that was understandable. ive recently been really intrigued by Evans character, ive been writing a moonrose fic thats evan centric (and pretty angsty) so its been helping me understand him a bit more, if that makes sense??

anyways, thank you for the ask :D I love the two of them, and their ship is really cute

[solitaireships]

okok two things i wanted to ask:

have you ever thought of an au where all your fos are put together in one big au? :0 i've sorta seen some modern aus around here and there where people do it so i'm curious if you've ever done that before!

i'm curious: how different is the role swap au to the actual canon between shepard and hoffman? does it all play the same in the end? different? (@eveningshards)

Hey Haze!

I haven't really thought of something like that tbh! I've been asked a couple of times on twitter about how I think James and Bruce would interact if they met each other, and tbh that's always something I've struggled to kind of think of, like I for some reason just cannot imagine characters from different media interacting with each other i say like i haven't written a ship fic for james and miguel. Like it seems cool in theory, but idk if it's something I'd be ever able to come up with ideas for

With the role swap for Shepard and Hoffman, in some ways it follows canon fairly closely, but in other's it's different. Namely bcs Shepard is not as brutal as Hoffman is, even when she's a serial killer. She would be very committed to the ideology behind Jigsaw, and that means that every test she makes is a legitimate test where it's hard to pass, but still possible to. This means there's no reason for John to basically put in his will to kill her if she gets out of hand the way he did for Hoffman, and it also means that the events of S.aw 3D would be very different from how they were. Maybe that means that movie would actually be good lol

But I do think that in the end, she would end up being in trouble with the law. Not bcs Jill tells the police tho, instead it would be because one of the people who managed to survive her traps ended up figuring out who she was. That or Perez didn't get killed during the equivalent of the scene where Hoffman's exposed, idk for sure since this is still a very undeveloped au like all of mine are lol

Either way, she ends up having to go into hiding, and that's how she meets Hoffman, paralleling how she ends up meeting him when there's an active manhunt for him within their canon. It's probably slightly lower stakes than her saving him tho considering she never gets locked away in the bathroom like Hoffman does bcs of the aforementioned not having her murder be part of John's will

But from there, things are pretty similar to the standard Shepard and Hoffman dynamic, just flipping things around to match with their differing roles of serial killer vs "I can fix them". But also Hoffman has more "damn she's a serial killer. Kinda hot. If she kills again then I guess I support women's wrongs" vibes bcs he can be inclined towards evil as a treat

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Fave character and why (overall)

What type of characters do you typically enjoy? (for me i usually like dead characters because of their... idk there's just so much to work w there 😭 like so many things for interpretation/potential)

What got you into bsd

What got you into tumblr

Can you give at least one tip or advice on how to recover from a hyperfixation on something when u need to be productive?

Are you better at writing or drawing?

If you could choose, which would you be better at?

Do you like painting?

Are your friends nice?

Forgive me for the random asks. jus answer the ones you want to ty ❤️

Is it weird if I answer all of them? I think all of these are fun to answer so I'm gonna answer all of them. Tysm!!

Favorite character overall is... really difficult. I like so many different characters for so many reasons across so many different medias. Even choosing a favorite from BSD is wildly difficult. Of all characters ever, one of my favorites is Cal Trask from John Steinbeck's East of Eden (the book, not the movie, even though he is played by James Dean). East of Eden is one of my favorite books ever, and most of the incredible themes in it, all of the cycles it represents, as well as the cycles it finally breaks, are done through Cal. He struggles with being good despite a thematic predisposition to being anything but throughout his portion of the novel doomed-by-the-narrative style, until at the end the resolution is that... he doesn't have to be either, he only really has to be him. I love that book dearly and could talk about its themes for hours (and have!). As far as favorite BSD characters specifically, that's near impossible for me to say, but a rough top-group would include Kyusaku, Kouyou, Dazai but specifically mafia era, Kunikida, and Albatross. I don't have any really good reasoning for those top favorites beyond "hehe, I like them," honestly.

I usually enjoy characters that it takes a while to piece together their motivations. Morally grey. And I mean actually morally grey, not the asshole-that-does-nice-things antihero type. I like characters that make me want to think about them and piece them together and study them like bugs under a magnifying glass until they start to catch on fire. Dudes who suck but have so much potential to be more. Make me have to justify why I enjoy them in front of a board of directors. I love to be able to fill in between the lines.

A former friend group got me into BSD back in 2019 because they were all watching it and I happened to have the time and energy to. The sheer amount of media to consume & intrigue of the characters is what made me stay, though.

This is horribly embarrassing but my first stint on Tumblr ~7 or 8 years ago was sparked by learning that the Onceler fandom existed and being absolutely fascinated by it. It was already dying out by this point, so I wasn't active or anything in it, but I thought the way people interacted across blogs to make these wild stories was so fascinating. Specifically the Truffula Flu zombie arcs. I was a Camp Entre loyalist. A couple years later I accidentally deleted my blog and didn't get active on Tumblr again until a little over a year ago, though, when I wanted to start engaging with the fanbases some media I was fixating on at the time.

If I could figure out the secret for recovering from a hyperfixation in a productive way I would be a much more functional person. Sometimes I'm able to approach things with an "if you can't beat it, join it" mentality, and can come up with ways to connect my current task to whatever I'm fixating on. Here's the secret: you're allowed to be cringe with it. If you need to do the dishes and need to make it a mental competition for "oh boy I need to be less of a disaster than Dazai its fucking on" or "I need to do my math homework so Kunikida will be proud of me" or "gotta do my laundry... I gotta be dressy for my port mafia work attire..." then do it. Who cares. That doesn't work all the time, but it can work sometimes. And when it doesn't? I normally just try to clear my mind entirely by doing something that sucks so much I can't think of anything except how it sucks. For me its cardio. I hate cardio exercise. But if I go on a jog and come back I a) feel a little better and more functional because I went on a stupid exercise for my stupid mental health, b) got some of the excess fixation energy out, and c) that sucked so bad i would literally rather do Anything else i might as well be fucking productive. These are not sure-fire ways but they help me. And my most important one? You can't focus when you're stressed. Trying to force yourself to focus when you're stressed about an assignment and panicking because you can't focus will not help you, it will make the problem worse. It is okay to give yourself some grace, walk away, try to put yourself into a healthier mindset, and come back. That's another reason I like to take walks when I can't focus, even if its just a small one down the hall for a glass of water and then back. Don't force yourself. Never force yourself. You'll feel worse and more frustrated.

I'm much better at writing. I'm horrible at drawing, I just do it anyway for fun because sometimes I need to get my fixation kick out in a visual manner. Writing has always been my strong suit.

If I could choose? I think I'd still pick writing, honestly. I'm sometimes jealous of those that can make gorgeous art, but I'm happy in my world of writing because it has helped me in so many other areas of my life as well. I don't live an artists life, unfortunately, and writing has served me well.

I do like painting! I haven't in a very long time, as I don't have the time or energy much, but I used to sculpt and paint my creations. I'm not saying I was particularly good at either, but I used to, and I enjoyed it.

I didn't always have nice friends. But these days? They are. I wouldn't trade the friends I have now for the world.

[bemtevis]

Istg at this point I'm just going to rewrite tlh out of spite for how awful cc treated them

James all of the sudden is this asshole who we barely ever seen reading AND WHERE DID HIS CUTE GLASSES GO😭😭

Christopher gets like zero acknowledgment even tho at the academy Thomas and Matthew were constantly backing him up(and sure we see this in chot but after ignoring him for two books and then killing him with zero grief :/)

Matthew...I actually don't have an issue with Matthew BECAUSE WE NEVER SEE HIS POINT OF VIEW, and I also feel his character might be the most realistic to the situation aside from Alastair and Grace

Thomas...she literally gave all his creativity to James. He writes poems and songs?? Where did that go?? We also never see him read or spend any actual page time with his family for more than a passing sentence

Jesse was fine ig until that scene with Grace...it's giving the Matthew and Alastair scene at the end of choi

Ari felt in character but I wish we could have seen more of her growth that wasn't just coming out and moving out

Anna is probably the one I'm the most upset about though because like, she was so nice in her original short story. And now she's just this straight up bitch who takes women's virginity for fun? CECILY AND GABRIEL'S DAUGHTER? I think fucking not.

And I hate that everyone moved past how creepy Charles dating Alastair and Ari was like, dude was a whole ass ADULT with a JOB preying on barely 16 year olds(we all know he waited for Alastair to turn 16 for consent laws😒)

And also why are all of the tid parents not present in their kids lives??? Tid and gotsm will, tessa, gabriel, cecily, sophie, and gideon would NEVER. And about the fairchild twins, I fucking hate that she did that. They already fucked matthew up by forcing him to either raise himself in order to take care of his dad or was babysat by the herondales, and he's probably going to be forced to take care of the twins too(yet another math/alas parallel)

Sorry for the rant I just have so many angry feelings about cc as a fellow author rn, like how fo you fuck up your own characters THAT badly-

oh pls do, I'm sure whatever you come up with will be better than canon

I mean he was kind of an asshole beforehand but I figured it was because of the gracelet and all, but his behavior barely changed after it was off! it was so pointless

JUSTICE FOR CHRISTOPHER! he was done so dirty! cc tells us the merry thieves love each other like brothers but then one of them dies and they barely grieve! show not tell, it's one of the first things you should learn as a writer

while I'm sure I would've glazed over most of them, I'm sure having matthew's pov would add a lot to the story. instead, his development is seen only through other people's povs and it falls flat, imo.

something I noticed while reading was that if it was one of thomas' povs, it would be about thomastair. I don't recall any instance in which it isn't. there was the night at matthew's flat, but that ended up being thomastair as well. we barely see him interact with his friends or family or hear about his interests and dreams! cc had something great with him and she threw it away, and for WHAT!

Idk why cc bothered to write james and jesse and everyone being so mad at grace, only for there to be only a few paragraphs in the epilogue about her forgiveness. it was such a cop out, tbh.

same as with thomas, all of ari's povs were about her love interest, except for the first one maybe. look, I know there is a huge cast of characters and it's hard to balance it all out, but cc's books are so filled with amatonormativity that it's hard not to see the pattern.

the thing with anna is that in chot, she feels more like what she should've been. same with matthew imo. they're flawed characters, yes, and don't always make the best decisions, but they're closer to what the narrative wanted me to believe from the start. I loved eet anna, but chog came and ruined her! then cc tried to retcon it, Ig, and it was such an abrupt change that it felt off putting!

yeah yeah absolutely! I've said this before, but the problem with charles wasn't that he was closeted! it was his weird predatory behavior, and that was completely unaddressed. he, like anna and matthew and grace, had his arc rushed so the consequences of cc's writing couldn't catch up with her, but WE READ THE BOOKS! we know he's fucking creepy!

tbh if you told me all of the parents were trapped in a bubble for most of this trilogy, I would believe you. they were not present at all. gideon and gabriel lost their kids to their own sister, and they don't even process it. same with sophie and cecily. it's like they don't even exist.

dw about it! sorry for the equally long, if not longer, rant lol. completely agree; cc's great at creating great concepts then not knowing how to execute them at all. it's so sad

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Alright, discovering your meta after YEARS outta the loop with the HP-verse, please forgive my ignorance. I'm curious why there's so much interest in Lily and Regulus being friends? I just don't get it. A lot of your reasoning of them being from families with the same sibling structure makes sense but that could be applied to a Lily and Sirius friendship as well but there doesn't seem to be much interest in that pairing. It makes more sense to me that Lily and Sirius would eventually bond over not being especially close to their respective siblings--evidence that they were friends is the letter found in Grimmauld by Harry, and there's no blood supremacy down that path as there would be with Regulus. It just seems like Lily's ideological friction with Snape would be repeated with Regulus and wouldn't necessarily beget more growth from either character. So please, help me understand as a long lost HP reader, what I'm missing. Thank you!

Hi! No need to apologise, I'm fairly out of the loop HP-wise because I generally stick to circles of things I like - so I'm very interested and quite surprised to hear that there's a lot of interest in Lily and Regulus as friends?? I filter out James/Lily, James/Regulus and Sirius/Remus so if it ties into any of those (I mean I know jegulily is a thing which is why I filter the first two when I'm looking for regulily) then I just won't have come across it because that's not my angle.

Firstly, I would say don’t worry about not getting it. The HP world is huge and the fandom is huge so there’s a niche for like, everyone. I pretty much exclusively revolve within Marauder era stuff and there’s still so much within that sphere that I don’t get and don’t like. A lot of it is about filling in gaps and looking at potential rather than anything concrete and that 100% goes for Regulus and Lily interacting. It’s the potential for it to go either way and it’s a new perspective to “test” these two characters through while being plausible enough because they have people in common and were around at the same time.

Lily/Regulus is speculative whereas Lily & Sirius is a friendship we know existed positively, so I completely agree that Lily and Sirius would talk about their families and their siblings. I do think it's interesting that Sirius barely talks about Lily even though we have that letter from Lily to Sirius, and I also wonder quite how close they were. I think it’s assumed often that they were very close, and I absolutely think that Lily and Sirius liked each other and respected each other but I don't know if we have enough to completely persuade me that they would be close friends without James as a link. One of the main motives of Lily’s letter is come and see James he misses you. But I’m not refuting that they were friends or close or anything, I think it’s interesting to wonder where exactly their friendship falls as it always used to be written as exclusively very very positive.

From what I remember of gen marauders fandom, especially jily fandom, Sirius & Lily was fairly common and Sirius was "Jily's biggest shipper" or whatever, when really I don't think Sirius actually gave a shit lmao. He doesn’t care at all when Lily rejects James in SWM. I don’t think Sirius would emotionally invest himself in any potential relationships, especially on behalf of the person who isn’t James lmao. Also I remember a lot of fics where Sirius gave James shit for treating Lily badly (by like having another girlfriend because lily told him to fuck off again and he was supposed to know that she secretly liked him, idk jily is not my bag) or something when actually Sirius was James' biggest enabler, thanks.

Again I don’t know how much of lily&regulus and lily&sirius is actually around these days but I’d guess that if there is more lily/regulus, it's because there's no tension with Sirius and Lily so there’s less room for speculation whereas with Lily and Regulus there would definitely be tension and friction, and there are lots of gaps to be filled, more room to explore without being entirely disconnected from the characters and world that are familiar to us.

I think maybe Lily/Regulus occupies the space between Lily & Snape's friendship and Lily & Sirius', if that makes sense? They both provide the basis for Lily tolerating Regulus, as a less than morally sound person. I can’t remember if I mentioned it in the other ask about Lily/Regulus but Lily has a pattern of tolerating “horrible boys” (James, Snape, Sirius) and overlooking things where she wants to so I don’t think she’s as black and white as to completely dismiss Regulus straight off, she almost seems to do it on a case by case basis so she is susceptible to bias (talked about it a bit here).

The ideological friction is a huge part of the pairing, and again I think because the friction isn't there with Sirius but it's very much there with Snape, Regulus provides a kind of middle-ground where Lily's reaction can be explored. We know enough about both characters to speculate without being prescriptive, there's room to play, room to explore, but there's recognition there. Lily could go either way with Regulus - her relationship with Sirius could play a part in her treatment of him, is she sympathetic because it's her friend's younger brother, or does she see him in the same way she sees Snape? Does her sympathy with Regulus create tension in her friendship with Sirius? Lots of potential, if potential and character dynamics and character studies are things you’re interested in (which I am, so they work fantastically for me).

We have Regulus  whose turnaround with Voldemort and the Death Eaters is very short (so is Snape's, really, he was only 21 when he changed sides) but we don't see Regulus' allegiance to Voldemort in detail whereas we do get unsavoury aspects of Snape in detail which maybe just makes Regulus more palateable. We see a pretty conclusive end to lily and snape, it’s a situation she’s tired of, she’s voiced her concerns and things don’t change, so I think there’s a lack of respect element to that more than just ideological, it’s personal as well. Whereas Lily and Regulus don’t have that history and often by the time they interact Regulus is “redeemed” so she doesn’t have to fight with an ongoing ideological difference, more a historical one and whether she can really trust that he has changed (full accountability for the teenage death eater tho, pls, I don’t vibe with a forced into it Regulus but I do vibe with the small reasons that built up to him making the decision to join that weren’t purely admiration of Voldemort). But also there are a lot of muggle regulus/lily things which are based on their characters rather than the canon plot.

I don't think there's much more I can say without repeating my previous post about Lily & Regulus - it's the potential, more than exact details. I like both characters individually which is why I'm drawn to them together, plus they're both linked closely with james&sirius who are my favs always, but I'd say most lily/regulus enjoyers I've seen are more commonly from the snape side of things?

But I'm very intrigued by the fandom norms around this - what is the lily/regulus goss? Has Sirius & Lily as background besties dropped off? lmk because i stay in my j/s circle and i make liberal use of filters and blacklists so I know nothing about wider fandom (probably for the greater good of everyone else on the internet).

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[from the leave an object meme]

for Knuckles: the title and deed to Terra Del Sol Vineyard, in [smudged out location], bequeathed by [redacted].

For Hal and Clu: acceptance letters for a month-long internship working with their choice of the Perseverance Rover, James Webb Telescope, Juno, or New Horizons missions.

Sonic: An invitation to play an off season game with the Boston Red Sox and tickets (game and plane) for the entire family to go watch.

For Tails: Acceptance letter for an internship at Encom

For Soneca: Tickets to Parc Asterix (IDK what else to give her, I don't know much about her, tbh...)

For Tes: An obscure Dada painting by an unknown artist (I don't know much about what he likes, either.)

Knuckles, after Googling what a vineyard is, was ELATED. Someone left him AN ENTIRE FARM OF GRAPES!! (LOL, he's not actually a muse of mine, but he interacts with Sonic a lot. Same for Tails.)

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The program and the AI weren't sure which to choose. All were exciting, though Perseverance didn't get to see the stars. Upon further research (with Ed's help), Clu and Hal decided the James Webb Space Telescope suited them best (Hal's siblings gladly took the spots on the other three projects). With another laser built and connected to the Telescope (also with Ed's help, and Dr. Chandra's), they were even able to enter its (much smaller) Grid and help its team of programs fix a few problems the Users were having trouble with, as well as teaching them how to avoid future problems (though when their time with the project was over, the team kept their contact info, just in case the computers had issues again)

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Little Sonic couldn't contain his excitement as he raced through the house looking for Ed.

"DADDY!!! Daddydaddydaddy, looklooklook!! Lookit what I just got! A real baseball team wants ME to play with them! In a REAL game! And you guys get to come watch!!" This was pretty much a dream come true for the little hedgehog.

At the game, of course questions were asked, and some even laughed that they had a tiny child on the team (he had his own little Red Sox uniform and official equipment).

The laughing stopped once the game started and it was quickly realized that this little kid was GOOD. Really good. His family certainly wasn't surprised when Boston absolutely DESTROYED the other team (a very hard to beat team) on the scoreboard and Sonic was named MVP of the game.

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Tails knew Encom of course, only the biggest tech company out there. Some of his own tech was Encom (the stuff he had to do the least upgrades on because it was already plenty good.) Of course Mackey and others scoffed when hearing that Tails was eight, but like Sonic at his game, the laughing stopped when they saw what he could do and how much better things worked when he was done with them.

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Soneca grinned. Even though she could run faster than any of them, she still loved going on roller coasters, and this place had some pretty famous ones. Of course, they would need to update the Miles Electric for French, so they wouldn't have a repeat of Sonic and Tails' trouble in Siberia.

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Tesler was........confused, though he could pick out pieces of Occupation media and propaganda that had been altered (as if cutting them up wasn't altering enough. Pavel would've thrown a fit........With this in mind, Tesler prominently display the obviously (and humorously) anti-Occupation piece in his office, where the obnoxious commander HAD to see it.

[hyperfixation-hideout]

MARROW AMIN for ask meme please.

oh wow, this went differently than I anticipated... please don't hate me XD

this chart REALLY doesn't lend itself well to my thoughts on Marrow lol so I'll explain that wonkiness I drew. I know he's not dead so there is still potential, so that's just about the potential he had in the atlas arc and how it was utilized. I have that line pointing to the connecty line of "didn't get enough/got too much screentime," because it all boils down to how he was used and why he was included. There were little moments of "oh that's why he's here, this is how he services the worldbuilding/plot/other characters" and those were great! I wanted MORE of that! Like in the mines talking about Faunus exploitation, or how he as a faunus in the military views the inequality differently from the Happy Huntresses, despite the systemic issues being lawful, and he is there to uphold the law (to an extent, idk how cops work in this show but they're different).

I just have to ask myself, why was he included? I mean I could say that about the ace ops in general (minus clover?) but this is about Marrow lol. Like, as a person? He's a sweetheart! Love him! Love his little interactions with Jaune and his challenging of Winter and his outburst at Ironwood! So it's like, if they expanded on the things that make him unique as pertaining to the world, I'd want more of that (aka more screentime), but... actually as I'm saying this I think I should scratch "too much screentime" cause that's kinda covered by "why was he in the work at all" -- since he IS in the work, in order for his character to be done justice, I'd say either more screentime or more efficiently utilized screentime.

Show more of him talking to Blake about Faunus rights, debating Robyn or May about their differing methods of fighting for justice, interacting with Weiss and Blake as a bridge between their worlds, learning that operating within the law can be amoral, etc., etc.! (Also fewer dog jokes please, I love puns but this is the remnant racial structure c'mon). It'll be interesting to see what they do with him now that James is dead and Atlas has fallen; he's in a whole new situation now and that's very 👀

I love Marrow personality-wise and would absolutely be his friend <3 And his semblance is rad as hell. Also hot take but everyone else can shut up I LOVE HIS WEAPON. I just hope that if he's gonna be important in upcoming volumes that they expand on his complexities. Maybe I should've stamped "they're deeper than they seem" in hindsight...

I just looked at the chart and saw "I don't have much to say about them." Apparently I did.

[embossross]

hi!! just an hour ago i came across your work of the devotion of the girl in the mirror and i’m hooked. i am sucked in and there is no getting out. not that i would want to anyway after crossing the initial hesitancy over the subject i’ve only ever briefly read up on.

the way u write has my brain buzzing with colors and sending shivers down my spine over the interactions and relationships ur creating. several times i wanted to eat my fist over rindou not being real, other moments i had to pause when i noticed how warm my cheeks and neck were from blushing. then at times, which compete for my favorite, were the literature references (+ your overall writing) that made me want to send this ask. moments that helped give the characters life. what literature and music, of any and all kinds, would u recommend??

like rindou i like to balance work and life, keeping them separate, and would love to read/explore new content while waiting to see what happens next and what it takes for rindou to crack a smile or a laugh. (there were several descriptions and details that were favorites but “Rindou’s laugh is as deep as his speaking voice. It seems to break free from him, resonant and rich. Even more rare than his smile, though no less precious.” is one that made me buzz whether it’s from the progress or wish to read him laugh idk i’m rambling) GAH your writing has ruined me in the best way possible. it’s been lots of fun so thank u for writing this and sharing. cant believe i’m gonna think about coins while drinking coffee

it has your brain buzzing with colors?!?!?!?! oh that's just the most beautiful compliment my writing has ever received. i'm shaking now!

describing someone's laugh is - i think - literally one of the hardest things to do without either losing the magic that is laughter or being a complete cliche, so that is SUCH a compliment to have you call that out 😊 like i'm seriously giddy reading this whole review/ask.

but getting to your question about lit recommendations...i legitimately gasped. that's my bag. that's my moment. i need a read more!!!

thank you so much for giving me an excuse to share ughhh i love it so much. unfortunately don't have any real music recs (like tbh i live by taylor swift), but i'll give you too many book recs to make up for it.

the biggest direct influences i thought about in this story - other than the ones i quote at the end are:

Snow Country by Yasunari Kawabata – though this is a less happy outcome, explores intimacy and a kind of doomed love. (note: this is an almost embarrassing reference because I am like a kindergartner compared to his writing)

The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath - girl in the mirror is actually a reference to this one as that was the working title. My themes about branching choices and the future are directly inspired by this novel.

The Idiot by Elif Batuman - collegiate coming of age stuff for reader 😊

Fanfiction! lots and lots of fanfiction. i reblog my faves from the anime fandoms but honestly, i've been reading for like 15 yrs now and i have a lot of fanfiction-isms in my writing. it's the biggest influence because you can't have 2 characters just sit down and talk and fall in love in published books. that's such a fanfic thing to try to capture that dialogue and process in its own right.

these aren't as direct or references for devotion of the girl in the mirror, but they are books i would recommend anyone and all deal with like love or eroticism or character in a way that i think largely impacts my writing:

Giovanni's Room by James Baldwin - I literally read this while writing the 1st draft, so I think the influence is probably there

Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Mexican Gothic by Silvia Garcia Moreno - so sexy

Palimpsest by Catherynne M. Valente - best erotic writing, not best sex, best eroticism

After the Winter by Guadalupe Nettel

A Manual for Cleaning Women by Lucia Berlin - live & die for her writing and ability to convey rich characters

The Ten Loves of Mr. Nishino by Kawakami Hiromi

In the Miso Soup by Ryu Murakami - NOT SEXY OR ROMANTIC but does impact some of the writing about tokyo specifically, especially the criminal underbelly

[breanime]

OKAY IM READY!! Also feel free to always ask me this stuff. I don’t post my own writing and I haven’t been gif making but either way I don’t get a lot of interaction and love talking to you and getting asks, so I’m always down for that

Anyway:

3. Best character you’ve written for (and a fic that has great characterization in it)

Okay I’m so biased but I love Logan and billy obviously, but your Diego Hargreaves got me into TUA so like that scores major points too so I’m kind of torn. Yellow Diamonds I feel like captures billy really well because it’s like that balance between him being like super hyper focused and strategic vs going feral whenever someone is taken from him. I felt like that’s probably my favorite characterization but honestly I can’t decide.

6. Something I vividly remember from reading your fics

Oh gosh there’s so many. There’s always like certain lines that stick out to me. Like in the Drabble you know I love with billy where one of them is late to an event? The line where it’s like ‘screw security. Frank figures him and Curtis should just be matchmakers instead’ or something like that? I don’t know why but I always distinctly remember that line. (Maybe because it’s the last line? Idk)

Then in your Diego fic ‘yesterday, tomorrow, and today’ the first thing I think about in that fic is the part where she moons him😂. Also can’t help but think about how I loved how she interacts with fives and klaus in that. Oh and the worry she had when she saw patch was back (I can literally hear the dialogue in my head)

Then in priorities which is a billy fic, I love how desperate billy was just to know that she’s okay and safe and how distraught he was at the thought of her leaving. Like he literally gets in a helicopter to find her because he’s so worried.

Then in the Logan fic (sorry theres so many great ones and I’m indecisive lmfao) ‘this is my idea’, I love how it shows the progression of their relationship and how it wasn’t always smooth sailing and Logan had to work to earn her trust back after fucking around. And like I like the sort of childhood enemies to friends to acquaintances to lovers vibe it gives off

And in oblivious with Sirius black, I really like that fic because it’s not a trope I’d really seen done and it was done so well and in a way that made sense and seemed plausible. Plus Sirius black being a dumbass is 10/10 something he would do. I always remember James and the rest of the gang totally being on the readers side and ragging on Sirius for being a dumbass.

Then in the getting back together with nick amaro headcanons, I remember how on edge I was for that because it’s so nerve wracking and Nick is yelling at Olivia (?) to drive faster and I remember being like it’s an actual tv show where you’re on edge and you don’t know if the writer is going to crush your heart or not.

8. What I love most about your writing

Is it stupid to say the inclusivity? Like high key your writing is AMAZING and everything but I love that you really leave the reader descriptions up to, well, the reader. And you write realistic relationships that have highs and lows so well so it feels way more real. It’s always passionate and loving but not in a way that feels out of reach if that makes sense?

12. A fic I’ve reread

Literally all of them?? Seriously I don’t think I’ve not reread a single one of your fics?? Legit I reread your masterlist all the time.

I probably reread your billy stuff the most. Yellow diamonds is the series I reread the most, probably followed by helpless. It really depends on what character I’m looking to reread for; like all the ones I’ve listed above I’ve reread a ton. Seriously your entire masterlist is GOLD!!

Anyway yeah feel free to ask more or whatever I love getting to talk about your work

Soon as my self esteem dips again, I'll be in your inbox asking you about your opinions on my fics. This is a warning!

Honestly, I can't even properly respond to this. It's been in my drafts for weeks now, and really, all I can say is thank you, thank you, thank you. This breakdown of your favorite fics of mine just makes me so happy!!! Thank you for reading and commenting and thank you for THIS because I screenshot it and I look at what you wrote and it just makes me feel all warm inside.

Thank you!!!

[mouseratz]

of course I'm reading the SH2 novel with an English fan translation.

it decides to frame Laura & Eddie's entrance to the town and confirms they entered together (though, I am considering this novel canon/still only a distinct interpretation as opposed to word of God confirmation, unless like, the developers were like oh yeah the book just says exactly everything we thought and meant), which is interesting. I'd heard others say that's what happened but I am wondering how they know each other, as in the game it's implied Eddie and Laura just met (there's a line from James like, how did you know her name? And Eddie's like, well, she told me it) as well.

also just because Laura's an orphan doesn't mean she can just. fuck off and leave wherever she wants. HOW did she get here for real who drove her here did she take a bus....whoever was watching her Fucked Up.....(although I think if the game took time to answer these questions it would be boring. but like. I still have them.)

I do like how this particular version emphasizes James' utter disgust with the monsters, and how instinctually he would like to run, but in actuality reacts with violence (and anger! he viciously hates them because they're disgusting!). which. idk if they'll go there. but almost parallels his relationship with Mary's illness- how he still loved her as a person & wanted to treat her well, but some part of him did find her disgusting as she feared, and it may have increased his resentment of her and led to him violently ending her life (the book also notes how the monsters deserve to die, despite James having little to base that assessment on other than his emotions. he's right, in this case, but if you carry that perspective over to anything else....)

and also once again yes this is an incredibly fucked up way to view someone who's sick but I do feel that's kind of the crucial point of James' character- he knows it's wrong, but instead of being able to properly grapple with that idea, why he's so disgusted and angry, the guilt makes him afraid to do anything but deny it until it comes to a head. the guilt is what makes him come to silent hill, but honestly in some way, I think could also be why he repressed these feelings until he did something terrible, didn't have the courage to acknowledge them, to properly handle them, to accept them as part of a complicated grieving process, instead shoving them away because they're ugly, too, until he couldn't handle it anymore, reaching that terrible solution.

....I also think that's why SH2 resonates so deeply with me- guilt is something I feel a lot. about everything. because my brains just built funny and I've been through an awful lot of bad things on a relatively short period of time on this earth. the game can absolutely be read as a cautionary tale around what happens when guilt guides all of your actions and how you interact with your own thoughts and feelings and your perception of the world. guilt breeds repression and this entire hell is one of repressed feelings and desires and memories.....you felt you had to protect yourself from these feelings because they were ugly, because they were frightening, and now you must harvest what you've sowed.....either face them or let them consume you.

and I absolutely love the concept that, really, the answer to this guilt is not punishment. guilt wants you to be punished, but that punishment achieves very little. your suffering will not change what you've done (but refusing to own up to it, continuing to deny, is still dangerous, as shown in Eddie's story.) you still have to choose what to do with yourself. can you live with it?

it doesn't tell you either way is right. maybe James dying is more peaceful, maybe it is the best choice for him. maybe James can live with it, though, too- he'll still have to carry it, but there could be something outside of this, maybe he will be a good friend or caretaker to Laura. We don't know. it doesn't really matter what he deserves....it only really matters what he does, because no amount of punishment will change what he did, even if you decide he is indeed 100% irredeemable and evil (which I just don't think is what you should walk away with, though- it's undeniable he did something deeply wrong, but the character is fairly nuanced imo).

[camels-pen]

i dont read rwby fanfics so idk if this is already a thing, but has anyone thought of writing the missing scenes where Watts and Lionheart are working together before/during Team RNJR and Qrow getting to Mistral? Like as a tragic finding and losing love story? Or even as a whole ass rewrite of Volume 5 with Watts fucking shit up because he wants to be with Leo? Maybe asking Salem to let Leo live after all of this was over so that he could still visit Leo sometimes? Getting her permission for it as long as Watts keeps Leo from stepping out of line, but then losing Leo anyway during Leo's last act of bravery? Wondering why he couldn't just play the role of the sensible (cowardly) lion just a little bit longer and getting pissed at the stupidity of Leo trying to stand for a losing cause?

(had to put this under a read more bc it got long lmao)

And maybe he knows. Maybe he knows that Leo had his moments of bravery- his moments of defiance- in ways that kept himself safe, but still helped other people. Maybe all those huntsmen who had gone missing weren't killed, but rather sent away for a time- either to the far corners of Anima, to Mantle- to Atlas, before the fall of Beacon. Maybe Leo had a feeling that Salem was planning something against Ozpin, had a feeling that James would overreact, had a feeling things would start going wrong and decided to quietly send away as many huntsmen and huntresses that he could.

He couldn't send them all away. Many protested- refused the wild goose chases Leo tried to send them out on and others had extensive family in Mistral that they couldn't bear to leave behind for permanent outposts in the middle of nowhere or on a whole other continent.

Maybe Watts, while filling in for Cinder, arrived far longer in advance of RNJR and Qrow. Maybe Watts started to learn of Leo's meddling, but thought it inconsequential. Maybe Watts started to grow a bit fond of the old lion that seemed to despise him so much. The man who could express his distaste and his silent defiances in such small yet impactful ways.

And maybe Leo, when faced with someone who wasn't so miserable to interact with as Cinder, who wasn't as unforgiving with bending a few of Salem's rules to save a few more lives- maybe he became a little less guarded. Wondering if Watts' predicament was similar to his own.

It was something small that started it all. A simple cup of tea between them with Leo pretending to work on school matters at his desk while Watts kicked his feet up on the coffee table. He wrinkled his nose, likely disgusted with the over abundance of sugar in the most foul tasting tea Leo usually reserved for Cinder- not that she ever drank it.

Watts had glanced at the screen projected above his desk and said, "If you wanted to hide huntsmen, you'll have to do a better job than that."

"I beg your pardon?" Leo had asked, feeling a cold sweat roll through him.

"Oh let's just skip the back and forth. I know what you're doing" -Leo held his breath; this could ruin everything, all those people he tried to save- "and you're doing it all wrong."

Watts moved behind the desk, arranging coded huntsmen profiles and locations, calling him a buffoon with every other breath as he ensured the safety of more huntsmen in a few moments than Leo had been able to accomplish in several hours.

Leo stared at Watts as he returned to his seat on the couch. "Why would you help me? Help them?"

Watts rolled his eyes. "As long as the huntsmen aren't here, I don't particularly care where you send them. Salem prefers them dead- and Tyrian would love to be the one to kill them- but it doesn't really matter either way." He kicked his feet up, taking a sip of tea before gagging. "This way is more efficient and less likely to cause a premature panic. Also, you really should get better drinks."

And Leo- for the first time in a long long time, he feels a spark of hope.

And it came from one of Salem's most trusted.

He doesn't quite know how to feel about it.

(then yadda yadda gay bitches, yadda yadda complicated realization of feelings from both of them, and yadda yadda maybe Leo dies and it's a tragic love story or maybe Watts finds a way to fake Leo's death and yoink him away somewhere or maybe Watts decides to start his own small defiances against Salem, just like Leo. Or maybe some amalgamation of all three!)

(god, i'm in the middle of Phic Phight, I can't be thinking of writing a Watts x Leo fanfic hhhhhhhh)

[sunsents]

Library - James Potter (M)

Heyyy, hey, how ya'll doing?? My exams are over!! Thank you so much for the support and the lovely messages 😙 here's a kith. I know you guys are waiting on Empty part 2, so here's a really short unedited thing?? I wrote a few months ago for you guys to read while you wait. You can really see how much I improved with my recent writing, but I hope you all enjoy this nonetheless while I finish up Empty 2. Enjoy, or don't. Idk.

Summary —> A study sesh turns into something much more when two knuckleheads interrupt you.

Pairing: jamespotter x fem!reader (im sorry to frederick for neglecting my gingeritis religion.)

Word count: a mere 1.4k

Warnings: smut / just filthy sex honestly / cheeky lil breast action /

Rating: 18+

DON’T REPOST MY WORK

You made sure to neatly pile your hoard of essay papers and not mind the ink blotches your palm had left from the hours of work put within. It didn't matter, Slughorn cared about the content rather than esthetic, hopefully. It was no big matter to worry about you told yourself, your handwriting was messy and not the most appealing, but your handiwork in potions was quite the opposite, it was fine.

"Hey ____, still workin' on those?" James Potter's husky voice cracked like a whip in-front of your face, perhaps painful to your ears as well.

You glowered at him, what else were you supposed to do? His antics continued to worsen every day. "What do you want?" your nasally voice caused you to clear your throat, evidence perhaps that you hadn't left the library seat and spoke in hours.

"Just checking in." Sirius Black's pool of hair - black as well - was turned the opposite way, he was gazing at the library books, a most unusual sight for him. "Didn't want you melting outta boredom."

"I'm perfectly fine thanks." you snapped, your head rung in awful thumps of pain but you paid no attention to it.

The corners of James's perfect lips lowered playfully. "You're all snappy, we're doin' nothing." his tone was smooth as silk now, his lips tugging into a playful grin once again. Never was a grin not on James's handsome face.

You took a deep inhale while watching him, you had to anyways. Your fingers were fidgeting together under the table, a view James couldn't hopefully see but the way your rings clicked together made him painfully aware. "Just don't bother me till' I'm done, I'm almost finished."

James nodded, his bottom lip jutting out in a frown once again. You had to roll you eyes, had to do something to make it seem like you weren't enjoying their so called company.

You stretched your head back and enjoyed the feeling of your neck craning and extending for a few moments. It had been a some time since movement was made in your fatigued body. you figured your tied up hair wasn't going to keep intact much longer, so you released the band in a swift move. Your hair cascaded down all the same, then you quickly shot straight and continued to write.

You didn't have time for comforts and stretching, you were close to finishing your essay and that was all that mattered. You didn't even bother asking James if he had done it, because his answer was surely at the ready. He was Head Boy and his marks were all excellent, but when it came to homework it was long forgotten to him.

A slight diversion caused you to look up, James and Sirius were on the ground and a few books had fallen, scattered around the wooden library floor. You scoffed then flicked your wand; the books magicked up and flew back to their original places. "One second and you guys make a mess." you stared, your eyes flashed dangerously. You weren't an intimidating person, at least you liked to think so much unlike what your friends said.

But surely, you easily managed to intimidate the two most popular boys in Hogwarts. They both quickly shot up and took the seats in-front of you. Sirius was apologetically looking down, unlike James who immediately relaxed and sprawled himself out on the plush cushions. Ass, you thought, but didn't say anything.

"Alright what do you want, really." you deadpanned, you knew them for seven years, they weren't fooling you.

James, who was busy wiping his glasses on the fabric of his sweater put them back on and smirked. "You." he simply said.

You rolled her eyes and scoffed all the same, though your stomach was erupting in butterflies. "James why don't you go bother Lily like you always do." you whispered, Madame Pince was glaring at them and you weren't going to risk getting kicked out of the library again.

"No," James started, Sirius merely watched the interaction play out with a smile. "why would I go t'her when I have you right here."

You shot up and squeezed your fists, you weren't going to fall for it, a phrase you had been telling yourself for the past two years when James's interest suddenly piqued on you. "I'm gonna go put these books back."

After pressing the three large books to your chest, you wasted no time getting far away from the two boys as possible. Your heartbeat was rapid, dangerously fast that you thought you might drop dead.

It wasn't much time until you reached the furthest corridor of bookcases, luckily this was the row where you had acquired the books. You walked to the middle and stood on your toes, reaching your hand up and letting the books fly back to their original places. Then, the next book, same process. You were going awfully slow, doing your best to avoid talking to James as much as you could so your burning cheeks could go cool down and your heart would stop trying to thump out of your chest.

The third book, so close to being done until a presence suddenly overpowered you. It was right behind you and awfully familiar, towering over your stretched figure. James' cologne was what gave it away so suddenly, "Let me." his tone was going in spirals, once husky, then silky and now this. Breathless, strained and somehow desperate.

What you didn't realize was your skirt lifting up when you stood tip toe on your legs, your years of Quidditch clearly visible on your body. At least for James anyways. You heard him swallow thickly, then a muscular arm towering over her figure and pushing the last book up.

James sucked in a breath.

It was dizzying, you were never this close to him. A new territory, unfamiliar and intimate, not to mention exciting. Sure he flirted but he never took it too far, you didn't know what to think of it either. He was confident while "flirting" with Lily, he held his chest high and cracked jokes which only made the Lily blush deeper and continue to insult him. His ego boosted whenever Lily would try to hide away her blush, and the usual row of girls on the background sighing with her. It was somehow annoying, seeing James so buttered up.

James exhaled harshly.

But with you it was different, James was the one blushing. An unusual sight, James Potter being flustered but it was true. He would even stutter at times if you playfully flirted back, which happened very rarely. He would start off confident, and it would die down in a matter of seconds.

James was breathing almost heavily now.

You felt proud at sometimes, you even believed that James maybe would be harboring feelings for you. But then that big ole clump in your head would yell 'why would he, he's James Potter. Also, he's been in love with the same girl for years.' and all that hope would dissolve away.

James groaned desperately.

So frankly, you didn't know how you ended up with your skirt hiked up your waist, panties messily tucked aside and thick cock buried to hilt between your walls and continuously slamming into that one, dizzying spot. James' hands slithered around your waist and his arms tightly encircled on your stomach to press. You could feel every single muscle. Every single muscle to from stomach, down his thighs and the flesh between them.

He pressed his chest on your back, whispered the filthiest phrases he could think of to make you writhe, told you how pathetic you were for letting him do this in a ruddy library. Maybe this was what caused him to run a hand up your chest and clasp his hand around your throat. "Keep quiet, don't want anyone seeing you like this." he had told you, and it was the slight roll of his hips that made you unable to answer and barely take it.

You babbled, drooled, worshipped his cock with your sopping cunt until he was telling you that he loved you. He pulled on your chin to kiss you, sloppy and wet and he didn't let you answer. His glasses were pushed behind, rocking back and forth with his body, dangerously close to falling off. He was gorgeous and with your hands propped on the library shelves, you whimpered an "I love you." back. The two of you came, claiming each other and lazy smiles knowing that the feelings the both of you harbored was reciprocated, and the possibility of having something more was true.