#IMPENDING DOOM

[sher-ee]

[thebibliosphere]

Sorry if this is an obvious question but with the impending doom stuff- how different is that to. Hm how to phrase this. I have a sort of long term foreshortened future thing going on with my illness where I'm Always certain I'm going to die soon, and sometimes I get periods of Oh it's Getting Closer. I don't really feel afraid, but I tend to seek medical help anyway just in case- and in most cases something is wrong. Usually I have a virus.

But I don't really know how to categorise that feeling seperately from depression? And people talking about calm acceptance in Sense of Impending Doom resonates with me. But I'm always worried about mentioning this certainty to doctors because they tend to already think I'm making shit up/overdramatic.

Sorry for rambling. Point is- do you know much about a longer term "sense of Impending doom" ?

Possibly. Hm, let me see if I can put this in words.

So, my near-death experience in 2019 was a slow, drawn-out process largely facilitated by medical neglect. I knew something was Wrong in my body, and no one was listening to me. I knew it was going to kill me soon, but again, no one was listening, so I just kind of... quietly got my shit together. It felt gradual but inevitable. Creeping. With hindsight, that was my organs slowly winding down. Horrible feeling.

But that was very different from what I will now categorize as Immediate Impending Doom, which sort of hits like a tidal wave. It's weird to say it's an urgent-calm feeling, but that's what it is.

It's a very now feeling. Like, death within the next twenty minutes to an hour. It's the difference between "This will happen soon, get your affairs in order," and "This is a medical emergency; pay attention. Now."

Which I also have to differentiate from the "something is wrong" feeling I get as a chronically ill person when something new pops up.

I sometimes get what I think of as "warning flashes." My immune system is overreactive thanks to my mast cells being little malfunctioning bastards, so when I get sick with something else, it kicks off my fight or flight due to adrenaline and a bunch of other hormones being thrown into the mix like a Molotov cocktail.

I've had to learn to distinguish that from anxiety/depression because of the nature of my illness (can it be remedied with my meds, does doing grounding exercises help, what are my vitals etc), and I imagine it's the same for other chronically ill people, even if they don't have my specific immune problems.

A virus or something else will absolutely stress out an already stressed nervous system, and it can send you into a feeling of fight or flight, which can feel a bit doom-y.

But the Impending Doom they talk about with heart attacks, strokes, anaphylaxis etc, etc, is a very immediate and all-consuming feeling. The "soon" you seem to be describing seems to be "it'll happen sooner than later" but the Immediate Impending Doom is "right the fuck now." Is that right? Did I pick up on that, or am I way off?

Gah. I'm still probably doing a very bad job of explaining this.

[yellingfellow]

I want to SCREAAAAAMMMM

The world is fucking burning

Palestinians are being starved in their fucking tents that they have to live in because their whole neighborhoods have been bombed

Congolese women are being raped for not meeting their quotas

People are pulling each other out of mines that have collapsed

Babies are laying next to their dead mothers

Trump is on the ballot in Colorado

Indigenous women and teens being kidnapped and murdered and no one wants to help

They won’t search the landfills for the remains of dead natives

We’re being fed stories by the same 6 media coroporations and AI generated fucking prompts are taking over all forms of video and picture we can’t even know what is real

The world is fucking burning and the ice is melting and earthquakes and tsunamis are shaking the fucking earth and people’s homes are being flooded and completely destroyed

But no lets just keep pretending like it matters if I pay my fucking taxes

[evilhorse]

Doctor Fate will not live through the night!

(All-Star Comics #62)

[boingomania]

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[jrjeremy]

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[painsandconfusion]

Whumpee watching gangrene slowly creep up their limb, begging whumper to help them at every possible opportunity.

Just imagine them staring at the line. Hypochondria has them convinced it’s further along than it is. Phantom fevers set in too soon and their heart seems to seize up with the stress and they’re convinced that’s their last breath every. single. time.

[moomoocowmaid]

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It's done, it's over; put them down and don't pop them out

Wrap it up, folks

[jortenthusiasst]

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[vxngothsz]

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[somethingusefulfromflorida]

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[madmutts]

huh. the parallels between you and the turtles ik are insane. welp bai

^ how I look reading this

No no. Get back here. Explain yourself uhuh nah

Are you talking about the kids?? Leo, Mikey, Donnie and Raph?? Cuz like.... Yeah. We're related. Duh

[andrewmannequin]

Suicide Silence - Green Monster

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