#IT WAS SO HARD TO CONTROL IT SOMETIMES
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#a-yuan#Ultimately...despite how hard we try to reach people - sometimes it just is not possible.#Sometimes all you can do is wish that things could have been different. You pen a note with all the things you want to say -#and then you let it go. The words stay unsent and unspoken. You just watch the rift between you grow until you're too far away to try again#It is a sad end! It is two people who want to be closer but do not have the right capacity to do anything but shut doors.#Worse yet; it's two people who feel it is not their place to try and impose anything more.#It takes so long to heal from endings like that. You never get enough closure when there is still a faint hope of 'another day'.#It's a false amicability. It's closing a door and telling yourself that at least the windows are unlocked.#WWX will keep up his friendliness as a way to hold LWJ at a distance. LWJ can only try to help so many times.#Speaking of tragedies of trying to help; Let's talk about the addiction metaphors in this episode.#WWX tells LWJ in fairly straightforward terms that he does not *want* do be doing ghost cultivation.#What he wants is to protect people - by any means necessary. If he had another option he would take it.#The path WWX 'chose' is one that is deeply mired in external shame and taboo. He jokes about it but it clearly doesn't feel great.#And I put 'chose' in quotes because just like many who find them selves in bad situations - the choice is an illusion.#He's adamant that this is 'his' choice. That he is in control.#Better to be villainized that endure the terrifying reality that you lack any ability to have choice anymore.#If he had the choice - truly had the choice - he would not be doing this.#You can't help those who don't want to be helped. So of course all LWJ can do is watch from the side. Offer a hand when he can.#This life was a tragedy and the countdown to it all blowing up started a long time ago...
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I saw another post criticizing Bruce for having children fighting at his side, and I must say: tell me you don't know shit about the batkids' stories without telling me. Bruce fucking tried to stop those kids from being vigilantes, but they keep doing it behind his back, so he decided the best thing to do was to give them the proper training, an armor and to have them stick at his side so he can watch over them. You know, like a parent telling their underage children that they can drink alcohol but only at home where they can watch over them.
Dick became Robin because he wanted revenge over his parents' murder. He would run out in the street of Gotham as a 8 years old, all alone, to go fight Zucco. Bruce helping him make Robin was the compromise to keep Dick safe, because the child would not listen. (And yes, it wasn't the case in the very first canon, but it was like the 40s. Do you know how many kids fought against the Nazis in Europe at that time???)
Barbara Gordon is not his daughter and he has no authority on her being a vigilante. He cannot even ground her.
Jason became Robin after helping Bruce take down Ma Gunn's school. It is implied by Bruce, while talking to Dick, that he offered Robin to Jason as a way to gain a child because he missed having Dick around. He didn't need a Robin, he just missed having a kid. Bruce used the Robin mantle with Jason like people use churu to appease stray kitten. AND JASON'S DEATH, let's talk about it. Jason ran away, which leads to him being killed, after eavesdropping on Bruce and Alfred talking about Jason's mental health. Jason is benched as Robin, but not because Bruce thinks he killed someone like fandom says, but because Bruce knows it is not helping or healthy for Jason. They are talking about getting him help for his traumas and how violence is not helping Jason. And, when he is older and has healed, they can try again if he wants to. That's why Jason or people saying that Jason died because he was a soldier, or blaming Bruce for Robin's existence is false. When Jason died, Bruce was against Jason being Robin for his own health! And Jason knows that, he heard the discussion, he wasn't bench like how so many of his siblings are, with little to no honest explanation. Jason died in the Robin's costume because of his own stubbornness, not because of Bruce. (And that's not blaming Jason for his death. He is not to blame, but neither is Bruce. It's just about the Robin's colors. Jason would not have been wearing them at the time if he listened to Bruce.)

Tim Drake imposed himself as Robin. Bruce was against it, Tim literally went "Don't care, didn't ask". And Tim was already following them around before. Bruce already have Jason blaming him for making Tim Robin when he had no control over that.
Stephanie Brown became a vigilante before Batman knew her. He has tried SO MANY TIMES to make her stop, and so many fans hate that he did it. Make a choice, is it bad that he didn’t stop her more or that he didn’t let her more be a vigilante? He even got his kids to try to make her stop. AND SHE IS "KILLED" TO TEACH HIM THAT MAKING KIDS VIGILANTES IS BAD WHEN HE IS NOT RESPONSIBLE OF HER BECOMING ONE AND TRIED TO STOP HER! No shit the man blames himself for things that are not his fault, everyone does it.
Cassandra Cain was 17 when she becomes Batgirl, so I don't know if she counts. But when Bruce tries to make her stop for her own health, with the support of Barbara and Alfred, Cass is devastated and doesn't obey him. She puts on her costume and fights him physically.
Damian Wayne was trained as an assassin. In every version of him being introduced to Bruce, Bruce is against making him Robin and Damian keeps sneaking out. Damian wants to prove himself to his father so bad and refused to be kept away from the fight. In the comics, it's Dick, DICK, that makes him Robin when Bruce is gone, because Bruce was against letting Damian out at night.
Conclusion: Bruce is a tired father of a bunch of kids that cannot understand they should stay home at night and not be vigilantes.
#bruce wayne#batman#robin#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#damian wayne#barbara gordon#batgirl#dc comics#my ramblings#If I ever stop comparing Jason to a stray kitty then I'm either being mind-controlled or it's a fake#Bruce's kids sneak out behind his back all the fucking time he has no control over them sometimes#Steph's death is crazy to me like Bruce tried so hard to make her stop and he is punished for something he didn’t do#the only one who was really introduced to this life by Bruce is Jason and it's literally because empty nest syndrome took over#and Bruce NEEDED this kid to accept to come live with him. And how do you do that? By offering being Robin of course#but he realized his mistake and tried to fix it sadly Jason disagreed
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Me normally: here’s all the reasons I think that, despite the issues, Shadow Milk and Pure Vanilla could work out
Me when I’m thinking about a different ship involving either one of them: here’s all the reasons I think that, despite the potential, Shadow Milk and Pure Vanilla could NOT work out-
#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#crk#shadowvanilla#okok the ACTUAL two ships I was thinking of (ur gonna laugh):#shadowcacao and purefount#LOLLL but shoutout shadowlily i see yall. also Purelily cuz i love them i just dont think SM gets in the way tbh#anyways I’m a little known for (not rlly) shipping toxic ships and making essays on why they wouldn’t work out#I only don’t do that with pureshadow bc 1) lord knows we don’t need more ppl yelling about it and 2) I WANT TO SEE THEM GET BETTER#it’s hard for me as an ‘explaining why my fave ships would fail’ fan bc I also firmly believe that with enough improvement ANY ship can work#with some exceptions where the problems are things they can’t control or change lol#also a firm believer that anyone can get better and improve as a person. so even when I enjoy pointing out my ships flaws. I still believe.#also ‘why do you need to say SM isn’t an option for PUREFOUNT?’ bc I’m insane next question. I need PV to ditch the evil version for Fount.#okok I like purefount in a shadowvanilla context too. but like. my aus…#also yes I am a believer in the ot3 but sometimes the stories in my head don’t pan out that way… (sometimes)
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arcane should've been longer because if you replaced every montage to (admittedly very good) pop music with like, ten minute scenes actually going through the characters development and decisions, season 2 would go from a 4/10 to a solid 6/10.
for example, this fucking travesty of a scene
this scene hurts me so so much, not just because i love my darling jayce and this is an entirely unexplained decision that seems to just happen because it needs to happen for other characters' arcs, but because it's the easiest writing fix i could've possibly imagined.
it's literally so simple. here's the fix: write one single scene of caitlyn comforting jayce after the terrorist attack and convincing him to make hextech weapons.
this hypothetical scene could do SO MUCH for the show.
if this happened, it would reiterate how much jayce is willing to do for the people he loves and would act as dramatic irony for his relationship with viktor, because it's that exact dogged determination that constantly tears him away from viktor (when this trait is in service of mel, for example) and brings them together in the end of it all. if we were shown how jayce betrayed viktor specifically because his beloved, well intentioned, suffering sister asked him to, it would also make his "I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS" moment resonate a lot more.
additionally, it would feed into caitlyn's arc incredibly well, since it would act as foreshadowing/a precursor to her becoming a wolf under ambessa's guidance, and would show how she's both becoming more of a politician and would mirror her to mel (manipulating jayce despite genuine love for him and good intentions in what she's doing) in a way that could add an interesting mother-daughter tinge to her relationship with ambessa (and this could be mirrored to the silco-jinx relationship, since i know fortice lovessss its visual parallels). and on top of that, for an extra fun touch they could make note of how she'd be asking this of jayce despite his clear injury, and try and use that (non-typical for cait) lack of care/empathy to make her sudden shift to hurting vi make more sense.
do you see why the lost potential here hurts so much?
literally, the rest of the show doesn't need to be changed to support this proposal, the entire season could play out in all its centrist character assassinating glory and changing this scene from a cool marvel movie style 'whoa-these-characters-have-joined-a-team-and-gotten-cool-weapons' scene into an actual interaction between characters with arcs & would do nothing but help it. and yet we get a fucking montage.
#the jayce-cait siblingism fan and the jayvik fan in me weeps at this scene#can you imagine how much more impactful it would've been if jayce's major betrayal to viktor was for the sake of his sister#specifically his sister who is now changing in ways he doesn't like because of tragedies outside of his control#maybe like certain other characters. idk who tho thats crazy#riot should hire me#i'd fix their show and show christian linke a real cycle of killing#arcane critical#arcane criticism#arcane rant#caitlyn kiramman#jayce talis#caitlyn arcane#arcane caitlyn#jayce arcane#arcane jayce#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 critical#heavy is the crown#arcane season 2 episode 1#i love this show so much#and sometimes i think about it too hard and i remember that good art is a misty fragment of our memory#and whenever greedy hands try to grasp it it simply withers#capitalism ruined arcane istg
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2025 really is the year of the most unlikely shit to happen to me and I do blame kcd btw
#positive and negative#it's really stupid and unreal#ive said this before but its hard for me to get into media and stay interested the older i get so its kind of a miracle that im still here#understand how weird this is for me . guy who has done nothing. and i mean Nothing for the majority of his life finally does something#im not saying this in a wahh pity me kind of way ew no im just saying like. i had nothing going for me until like. so recently#its like damn i finally have some kind of control in my life now and im improving a lot in things i never thought i could e.g. art#plus a bunch of personal shit that im not getting into here bc this is not the place for it lol but the good outweighs the bad is all#it makes me sick but its nice maybe sometimes#i'll be dead b4 you catch me being sappy but... i do enjoy being here . i dont regret much for once . i hope#six speaks#anyway that was weird back to thinking about istvan#do u guys wonder about the mundane things istvan liked#likes. he's still alive. to me.#sighs i love him so much.... coughs up dust
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Rewatching dead boy detectives and I love the music box that starts playing when Charles started hitting the night nurse. Like, the haunting melody went so well with the shock of what we learned about Charles' past and his sudden outburst (spiralling out of control, the feeling of the world beating down on you over and over and even when you try your best, be your best self, it isn't enough and there isn't anything you can do). And then morphed to something more upbeat/thrilling when she fell into the sea, followed by complete silence with Charles' breakdown. Oughhhhhhhhh
#dead boy detectives spoilers#mention of abuse ahead ->#those scenes were so good but so hard to watch. the belt hits close to home especially#I'm not an expert but you know how physical abuse can sometimes lead to sense of lacking control#how your body is something that should only belong to you#and you can't even stop it from being struck by the hands of those who are supposed to care for you#him mentioning his father smashed his tape and he said it wasn't a big deal#him being violated by the night nurse by being forced to relive his pain and everything that's been going on#world falling apart in front of you / there's nothing to be done but let it happen despite your best effort#I guess it feels like old ghosts in different form#no wonder why devlin house was a torture for him#when charles said he can't stop anything I justtttttttttttt#charles ily so much.......................#anyway my head's fever-muddled
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there's a self-help/mental health adjacent post that's going around and it seems to be really helpful for a lot of people which is very good. I also personally hate it with all my fucking heart
#it's the anhedonia one btw lmao#if i. have to be exposed to one more goddamn cbt-ass advice post in my life. I will start tearing throats out with my teeth#and I will have earned the right to because I've been through the fucking TRENCHES over the years man#I think it's the appeal to urgency at the end however ruefully humorously packaged that ohohoho. really grrrrinds my gears.#this is obviously not what the person is trying to do with that but the unavoidable implication that the reason you might still#be suffering is that you just haven't tried hard enough to change to like things to open your eyes... hey. respectfullly. fuck off#peak advice for mild to moderate symptoms of mental illness thoughtlessly presented as universally applicable#without any consideration for the deeper thing you're saying -- that if someone is in a real bad way and DOESN'T get better#it's their own responsibility and they just haven't tried hard enough. in trying to be kind you are being so desperately cruel#to the people who are struggling the most. bitch I am fucking GREAT at liking things! it's one of my best skills!! I'm generally curious!#my capacity for enthusiasm and intellectual joy over any old thing that strikes my fancy is legendary and often I suspect quite annoying!!!#so when anhedonia completely envelops me I know it's a sign of something else and bigger going on in the background#it's not a choice. the brain is not solely a cognitive machine!! you cannot fix everything that can go awry with it by Thinking Better!!!#cbt must be great for the people it's great for and I'm sincerely genuinely glad for it. less suffering in the world is great#but it is a way of thinking that is a hammer and you just have to hope like fuck your problem is a nail. because otherwise#you're bruised from being beaten with hammers and the additional shame of what's wrong with you that it's not helping#and again I recognize very keenly that this is not a space meant entirely for me. people sharing resources that amn are not about me#is not only fine it's good it's great! however. it'd also be nice to not get thrown under the fucking bus for once#because my presence fully expressed is an uncomfortable reminder of the things we *cannot* control about our own brains lmao#I'm lucky that I've been in the game long enough and have enough resources to start to smell the bullshit here but...#the pain 'losing years' induces in you when you don't have *a fucking choice* -- because it's not a matter of willpower#or positive thinking or changing your mindset. you're just sick. in a way medicine hasn't quite figured out how to help yet.#well. maybe. maybe don't put that on someone huh. maybe don't make their 'lost years' to depression and doomscrolling or whatever#'their own fault'. I kind of think that's possible to do without submitting to doomposting. is all.#(I feel the same about the 'resting vs. rotting' idea. well friend sometimes the best I can hope for is some gentle rotting#thanks for introducing this layer of disgust and condemnation to the general despair. it's added a patina)#this might actually be the first time I've managed to hold on to my own anger about this rather than it getting drowned out by shame tho#which as steps forward go. *sigh* it's not a moon landing is it. but a small step for man nevertheless I suppose
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Giving the scrungles chao saga
Mephiles's? Sweet babyangel service chao; if they did races Meph would definitely be dancemom manipulative of the other chao handlers just to make them fight, with the chao being none the wiser.
Metal's starts off as a feral little shit that loves to bite; but biting is not very effective on Metal, so oops bro, looks like you have been government assigned a chao (Who eventually warms up to him with the correct combination of ignoring their shenanigans and manhandling them into being socialized. No, we are having a nice day at the beach, you may not go and bite small children)
The third one is for an unpictured different Metal. This one was a rescue and is very shy, but their mommy is very scary with a resting murder face which gives them some more confidence as they grow up. Anyone who messes with this chao would wind up mysteriously missing.
If these were in the game...
Meph's chao would operate like a chaos chao, except it needs higher stats in power and flight.
Metal chao 1 would be neutral/speed/flight with a disproportionate amount of kangaroos and/or bug animals givin to it.
Metal chao 2 would be dark/power/flying, raised primarily on drives and dragons.
#mephiles#metal sonic#chao#tails#sonic au#I really hate the design in pic 2 but oh well#probably going more for the one in the last pic#designs are still in progress#everything I ever make is a concept doodle it seems#my art#these all represent aspects of me as an animal parent#I love my babies#but won't let them push me around#but also I'd literally kill for them#generally speaking it's ill-advised to handle animals that flail like that but there's a degree of truth in that for chickens#if you have a mean rooster the best solution is to catch them carry them around for a while#I've seen folks make carrying bags for this purpose which is funny#flailing chao are harder to pin down though so sometimes they gotta get tired out enough to hold still#it's having fun at the beach no worries I promise :>#I just wanted to do that meme#this Mephiles au -- I call him Frostbite -- has the canon Mephiles sluggish/uneven movements#and has a constantly worsening case of frostbite (tfw no Iblis :() that makes it hard for him to do a lot of fine hand movements#meph's chao helps out by doing things like fetching; helping him walk on uneven ground; doing tasks that need fine motor control;#and is a living hot water bottle#in return the thing is quite spoiled; being the chao of an Emerald god (here Solaris literally is the Yellow Super) is pretty darn special#once things are fixed and Solaris can be Solaris again that chao literally lives like a king and it deserves it#it'll take Solaris a while to shake off the effects of being split though; so occasionally they'll still be helpful on bad days#no names for any of these guys yet#I don't even know if Mephiles would require a name for his; maybe someone else names it something bizarre for him
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Shout out to early 2021 when I was freshly in my Knight Rider fixation era and was in deep enough to make an AU bc of it. I don't think I EVER posted about it here. It was confined to my brain only. But ohhh "Knight Industries also gave Michael weird techno-organic phoenix wing implants during KotP for some reason (he was their guinea pig / Wilton's pet project and I love the phoenix motif)" AU I do miss you sometimes.....
#Rising Phoenix AU you were so beautiful to me........#I could bring you back but I probably won't. but I could.#I didn't really know what I was doing with it I just neeeeeded to make up for them not using the phoenix symbolism enough (ever)#I had a whole concept for the way the wings worked too#they were retractable and had both a standard feathers and firey feathers form#and the firey form was kinda dangerous to have out all the time bc they got HOT#but they were hard to control and responded easily to strong emotions. meaning sometimes they'd just unintentionally extend and catch fire#and he had to like. deal with that#which SHOULD'VE meant actually figuring out how to control them better but probably ORIGINALLY meant just trying to repress everything#I love putting my blorbos in situations#and it was fun to imagine him training/practicing flying by trying (and always failing) to race kitt#or at least having kitt follow along to time him and analyze how he's doing#ALSO. guardian angel symbolism. AND icarus symbolism. it's a three for one.#maybe I'll bring it back at some point and do Something with it. but idk what.#the poss posts#kr#knight rider#<- I guessssss. if anybody caaaaresssss#play toys with me.....
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not speaking for everyone but for me its annoying when people come on here and complain about every English word ever. the word slow now is considered offensive? I am slow. I have a learning disability, and it legit takes me more time to figure shit out. i will reread things three or four times, sometimes i dont get it the firth time and I need it to be explained to me. I excel in other things, and I have major weaknesses in others. I know I am slow. I describe myself as that when talking to someone who tells me a joke and I dont get it right away i be like IM SLOW OKAY EXPLAIN IT lmao CUZ ITS TRUE? its not even these ppl being called slow, its literally complaining about said ppl calling themselves slow. what else am I gonna say ??
#ooc. // 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐢𝐚 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐬#and im ngl i used to feel about it#sometimes i still do#especially back in high school cuz my friends were all the ap classes type bitches#so i always felt i had to work twice as hard to prove I was just as smart#now I really couldnt care less#especially when half the country is using chatgpt to do shit for them#the sooner you let go of the shame of things you honestly cant control#the better you'll feel#cuz aint no give a fuck what others think honestly#i might be slow but you're ugly so we both got our shit
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CONFETII 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 I’m needing more ideas to draw them …. Any middle school or highschool headcannons you have for them are 100% appreciated

#HEADCANNON TIME#Neil has a hard time with affection but without thinking he’ll do it so casually#they could be chilling and hed put his arm over his shoulder and sk will be like huh???? in a good way#Neil has perfect teeth since he takes care of them good#sk.. does not. needs braces for the gap and has way too many teeth in his mouth#when they kiss their teeth clink sometimes and Neil cringes SO HARD#sk will try and kiss him on the cheek but it never works super well#if they kiss on the lips it will be Neil initiating it cus he has to be in control of the situation#Neil tries to not use axe body spray#Sk smells like flowers cus of his moms perfume and gets called gay 💀#he doesn’t know why eveyone calls him gay it’s jsut what his mom used on him#they both have packed cold lunches#sks mom packs his lunch and gets sweet notes#Carl sneaks the note into Neil’s lunch and he gets sooo embarrassed cus of it#they play video games at sks house (Neil doesn’t feel comfortable being sk over cus it would be a whole thing) and they play WoW#weirdly enough sk is the cold one and Neil is the hot one#sk is a big ice pack and Neil needs him to survive#okay that’s it :3#camp camp#campcamp#spacekid campcamp#cc space kid#campcamp ship#neil camp camp#cc neil#neilsquared#neil²#neil x spacekid#neil x space kid#spaceneil
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i should really just delete all social media and get rid of my phone entirely because i can be having a perfectly nice day and then i see one thing online that just ruins everything
#but like i feel like i can't now because i can't just lose so many of my friends forever??#and also there is fun stuff here too sometimes#like i never get to see cats irl anymore now that i live on a busy road.. but there are lots of cute cats online always#i wish i could've just never have gotten a phone or social media in the first place so i wouldn't be losing anything#and i do try really hard to be in control of my media consumption#i avoid for you pages and block anything i dont like and try to avoid mindless scrolling#i give myself dedicated times to go on specific apps and have screen time limits#but it's always something i wasn't expecting that upsets me
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It's been weeks & I wouldn't want to clutter up the replies with my two cents anyway but that post about "some of us arent living in outfits world" made me sad. yes, not everyone has the budget to buy fancy clothes (or go on clothes trips at all) or the energy to get dressed in the morning with any more intention than just basic operation. But the thing is, the clothes you wear have am impact on how you feel about yourself, however silly that may be. It isn't about dressing like a model, it's about dressing in a way that makes you smile at yourself in the mirror.
Coming from someone who never lived in outfits world for many years as a teenager and through college (& conatantly hated myself and my body), now that I have slowly accumulated pieces of clothing I genuinely like seeing myself in & try my best to push through the exhaustion and take the time to come up with outfits, (even though ADHD thinks it's stupid some days) I feel so much healthier mentally. The thing about depression is it saps your energy and makes you feel like nothing is worth the effort, it doesn't matter. If you manage to - in my case, with the help of friends who encouraged me, - push through or even just start with small things to accessorize, it genuinely helps you break out of that slump. You have to take action to slowly develop habits that force you to think of yourself in a better way instead of doing the bedrot thing. I even started an outfit journal soon after i started my 9-5 so i would be aware of how i dressed since i always did the same ill-fitting jeans + t-shirt + hoodie combo & seeing other folks with cool styles around me every day inspired me to try to have a little variety & now I barely have to think about it anymore because it's just a habit.
ADHD makes keeping laundry clean & on a schedule difficult. Not having money for clothes makes it hard to get new things. (I'm in a better situation than a lot of other folks on tumblr are, and i still dont have the cash for a monthly shopping spree like it feels like you need.) Depression and exhaustion and dysphoria make you feel like your body isn't even worth dressing up or that you are thinking too highly of yourself by even trying. I am not trying to downgrade these things, but I do feel strongly that we, as adults, have to rise to the challenge and figure out how to develop habits that work for us & improve our mental health because there is a nonzero percentage of that bad feeling that is a result of our own actions or inaction. Yes, there are and always will be elements of our lives that are out of our control, but we have to work with them. if we don't take the reigns of whatever we can, our lives will continue to feel like they're spinning out of control.
Outfits world is fun, please please give it a shot.
#i apologize if this comes off as tone deaf#but the way some folks talk about their mental illness makes me feel like they have absolutely no control or ability to make decisions#which i feel is untrue#and i have the utmost sympathy like it DOES suck. it is so hard#i mean ffs yeah its hard enough getting up. putting on clothes feels like a hurculean task sometimes#but like. it doesnt have to always be that. there are ways to make it not as impossible#i speak#we dont have to keep living like this all the time forever#there will be bad days but dont let every day be a bad one
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surgery leave finally okayed!!!!
#BIG BIG SIGH OF RELIEF#my boss is just sometimes bad at responding to messages#and it stresses me the fuck out because i have the Overthinking Brain which Definitely Got Worse Recently#but i'm in the clear and i should be able to have a stress free recovery week#thank god#starting off the new year strong with some relieving news#it was highly unlikely it would be bad news! i just. get stressed.#I just feel so incredibly trivial and replaceable in all arenas of my life right now#it's shaking my confidence a bit#i'll work thru it though! getting there#this year is the year i really figure out how to internalize that one saying#'a man who suffers before it is necessary suffers more than is necessary'#the whole worrying= suffering twice if it goes wrong but not worrying = only suffering once or not at all#it's really hard to try and find the healthy medium between being smart and prepared....#and not needlessly worrying over all the ways things could go wrong#personal stuff#i will beat my brain into submission so help me god..... i do not want to be hindered by anxiety and insecurities any longer#annoyingly 2 things i had under control mostly but sometimes just gotta re-learn stuff
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sang-woo n gi-hun are invading my brain rn which i normally welcome with open arms but the issue is that im currently trying to work on something for another character that doesnt involve either of them
#LEAVE ME ALONEEE LET ME GET MY OTHER SHIT DONE#i legit cannot control what characters are in my brain sometimes#they come and go as they please#im trying so hard to focus on in-ho rn cuz im working on some in-ho centric stuff#and these two. these two wont leave me alone#if ur wondering what it is specifically thats invading my brain#im once again thinking about the s2 gi-hun w/ sang-woo concept#wigging tf out over it rn#im mentally putting sang-woo and gi-hun in the silent hill hotel hallway rn#i gotta lock in for in-ho then i will come back and angst the hell out of those two#this is supposed to be an art blog but i keep buggin yall with text posts sorry i love the sound of my own voice#i like keepin yall posted too#yapping tag#not art
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I think most people looked at Mike and thought "Man I want him to destroy me."
Which. Valid, 100%. He's hot and I can admit that.
(I partially started this blog bc of him, after all)
But man, I want him to be a whining mess under me. I want him to just lay back and relax and not have to worry about doing the work for a bit.
Minors DNI
#mike schmidt#mike schmidt x reader#writer rambles#mike schmidt smut#im also generally a switch so#maybe thats why#but seriously#let the poor man relax and let go of control for a while#if its supposed to be stress relief give it to him by taking over#if you have fic recs feel free to leave them but no fem!reader please#i try sometimes and just change the pronouns but its hard when fics use other very feminine terms
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