#Or an actual one if you have those parts 🤔 just a LITTLE I’m not saying like Eiffel Tower levels of 3rect 😮

[these-written-reveries]

Dissimulate My Love

‣ Pairing: Touya Todoroki (Dabi) x GN!Reader

‣ Summary: Touya is in love with you. Despite his best attempts to keep his feelings hidden, Toga has caught on. She insists she is an expert on the subject of love and decides to help him, one way or another...

‣ Genre: Fluff

‣ Warnings: none

‣ Word Count: 1,949

‣ A/N: I wrote this on a whim tonight! I'm thinking this story is in need of a part two, what do you think? 🤔🤭

Main Masterlist

The incessant chatter of the league members quickly turned into muffled background noise as Touya zoned out. He stared down at a random spot in front of where he sat at the end of the bar, his chin propped up on his palm with his elbow resting on the bartop. He had grown bored of hearing everyone debating what to do about the newest problem on their agenda. Tensions were beginning to rise over the subject at hand as they individually tried to convince their boss to go with their idea, all the while bickering back and forth with one another. It was entertaining at first, but Touya quickly found his thoughts being drawn to something else. Or rather, someone else.

You weren’t at the meeting with everyone else. At first, this concerned Touya, until he heard from Shigaraki that he had sent you off on a brief mission to collect information that would help them determine what to do about their current predicament. This only relaxed his nerves a little bit. He wished Shigaraki had sent him off with you as backup. He understood that the point of the mission was to be undetected in more of a public setting—which was definitely not his strong suit, due to his struggle to blend in with any “normal” backdrop—but the thought of you getting hurt without him around to protect you…

It scared him.

But he would never let you or anyone know that. The last thing he wanted was for anyone to think that he was soft.

He was. Big time. For you.

Unfortunately, Toga seemed to be onto him lately. How did he know?

She kept sending him teasing smiles and winks from across the room whenever you and him were interacting. On top of that, she wouldn’t stop giggling at the two of you and bringing you up at the most random of times—often when you were around to hear. He even overheard her bringing him up to you a few times.

“Isn’t Y/N looking extra pretty today?”

“Oh, Y/N! You should sit next to Dabi! He looks lonely over there, doesn’t he?”

“Dabi, Y/N said they’re cold. Just so you know…Well? Aren’t you gonna do something about it?”

Whether she was trying to play the role of “matchmaker”, or she simply got a kick out of embarrassing the hell out of him, he wasn’t quite sure yet. Either way, he was so close to teaching that brat a lesson of “minding her damn business”.

Admittedly, he did enjoy seeing you get flustered every time she put either of you on the spot. The way you shifted uncomfortably, barely able to bring your eyes to meet his as you looked everywhere else but him, the way you chewed at your lower lip and fiddled with whatever was in your hands. Normally, you were so composed, even intimidating, when you wanted to be. But in moments like those, he really loved to see that mask drop as you squirmed under his gaze.

God, you were too fucking cute.

“What are you smilin’ about?”

Touya was snapped out of his thoughts by a familiar voice. A frown quickly overtook his features as he sighed exasperatedly.

“You don’t have to answer that. I already know,” Toga said, smirking teasingly as she positioned her forearms on the opposite end of the bartop.

Touya almost growled at her. “I don’t know what game you’re playing, but it better stop, brat.”

Toga’s face morphed into an innocent expression, though a devilish gleam remained in her eyes.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about! I’m just trying to help, is all.”

He narrowed his eyes at her. “Well, I don’t need your help.”

“I think you do. It’s pretty obvious. Well, actually, I’m the only one who’s caught on so far, but that could change…”

Touya’s jaw clenched at the sound of her subtle threat. He let out an irritated breath through his nose, nostrils flaring as the two of them partook in a silent staring contest until he finally spoke.

“What the fuck do you want?”

She giggled. “I just wanna see true love thrive! It’s rare to find on our side of the world, ya know?”

“Pass.”

“Hm…Wrong answer.”

“What the hell makes you think I’m in love?” he said under his breath, leaning in slightly as he spoke. He glanced over his shoulder to see if anyone was listening in on them.

Everyone was still debating and deliberating. Shigaraki was scratching at his neck as he pulled out his handheld game console, trying to tune everyone out. He had clearly given up on trying to shut everyone up. Thankfully, this worked in Touya’s favor.

“I don’t think, Dabi. I know,” Toga answered seriously.

Touya scoffed, rolling his eyes. “What? Are you an expert or something?”

She looked slightly offended for a moment, putting a hand to her chest dramatically as she spoke. “I have been in love more times than you ever will be, Dabi. I know love when I see it.”

Damn. Why did that sting a bit?

“It doesn’t matter. Even if I was, I’m not the relationship type. Not that they’d even want anything to do with me, anyway.”

Touya raised two fingers at Kurogiri, who was pouring a glass for himself behind the bar. Kurogiri nodded at him, taking the glass that Touya slid his way and filling the glass with his usual before sliding it back to him. Touya gave him a nod of appreciation as he took it and brought it to his lips.

If he was going to continue this conversation, he needed a drink.

“Are you kidding me?! Have you seen the way they look at you?! They are obsessed with you!” Toga argued.

He rolled his eyes again, taking another generous sip of his drink.

“Like I said, not the relationship type.”

“Oh, come onnn! You’re just gonna let love pass you by like that? What’s wrong with you?”

A self-deprecating chuckle fell from his lips. “Lots’a things. Nothin’ I wanna burden someone like them with.”

Toga groaned. “But you haven’t even asked them! Maybe they’d be cool with all your…things. That’s what love is all about!”

“Can we end this conversation, already?”

He watched as her eyes narrowed at him.

“Not if you want to keep your little crush a secret.”

Touya felt a growl brewing in the back of his throat, about to throw out his own devious threat until he was interrupted by the sound of someone calling your name.

“Y/N! You’re back!”

He turned around in his seat, feeling his heart rate increase at the sight of you.

“Chill the fuck out,” he told his heart, suddenly finding it hard to breathe properly.

He downed the rest of his drink as his eyes followed you all the way to Shigaraki, where you handed him a thin manilla folder. You were wearing a normal “civilian” looking outfit. Your hair was styled slightly differently than usual.

You looked hot. Or beautiful, or whatever. Touya never really could describe you properly. He wasn’t the best with words. All he knew was that the way you looked in that moment made his stomach do flips and his temperature grow hotter. His hands were starting to sweat as your eyes scanned the room, eventually landing on him.

Oh, shit. You were walking straight towards him.

Touya made sure to disguise his internal chaos, keeping up his usual stoic, aloof mask as you took the seat beside him.

Fuck, you smelled so good.

You smiled as you met his eyes. “Hey, Dabi.”

He cleared his throat. “Hey.”

A brief moment after, he asked, “How’d the mission go?”

“Good! Almost got caught at one point, but I managed to get out unscathed!” you explained.

His heart clenched at the thought. “Should’a brought me. I’m good for backup.”

“I asked Shigaraki, actually. He said no.”

That stupid crusty fuck.

You must have noticed a slight crack in his detached façade, because you were quick to speak again.

“But I can handle myself! I’m fine. That’s all that matters, right?”

He grunted in response, sending a sharp glare Shigaraki’s way, who caught his eyes and narrowed his own in return. Scoffing, he looked away, his attention landing on you again.

“Next time, tell me first.”

A small smirk grew on your face. “Are you worried about me, Dabi?”

“Shut up,” he snapped, with no real harshness to his tone. “Just stupid to go on your own, is all.”

“You don’t think I can handle myself?” you probed, looking at him, offended.

“Course’ you can. That’s not what I mean-”

“That’s what it sounds like to me,” you interrupted.

“It’s not-”

He stopped. Your inability to hide your little snicker tipped him off to your antics.

You were fucking with him. Somehow, you managed to get stoic, aloof Dabi semi-visibly worked up.

What the hell was he going to do with you?

“You’re such a little brat, you know that? You’re worse than Toga,” he said, a smirk tugging at his lips as he looked at you, unable to disguise the fondness in his tone as said it.

You burst into a fit of giggles, and he couldn’t help but let out a small chuckle himself as he admired the scene before him. The way your eyes crinkled around the edges as you laughed, your perfect smile, the precious sound of your laughter filling his ears and soothing his burned and battered soul.

A girly giggle from further down the bar pulled him out of his trance. His eyes followed the sound, only to find Toga a few feet away, leaning against the bartop with her face resting in her palms and a dreamy smile on her face as she stared at the two of you.

Touya quickly shut down his smile, covering up his feelings that had managed to peek through. When he looked back to you, you were still smiling at him, your eyes soft as your laughter settled. You opened your mouth to speak, but Shigaraki beat you to it.

“Pay attention! I have a plan.”

Sighing, Touya only partially listened as he kept his eyes on you while you weren’t looking. His heart was still racing and his hands were still clammy, but he was now filled with an almost foreign sense of happiness that he’d rarely ever felt before, except with you. You made him feel…good.

Maybe Toga was right. Maybe this was love that he was feeling?

Even admitting it to himself made him feel sick. Dabi didn’t love.

But Touya did.

He nearly jumped when he heard a “psst” coming from behind him. He looked back to find Toga, again. This time, she was hunched behind him, reminding him of a little angel, or devil, on his shoulder as she whispered to him.

“You sure you don’t want my help?”

This time, Touya considered it. He didn’t have much of a choice. He knew without a shadow of a doubt that if he declined her offer to help, he would walk into a league meeting the next day to find everyone giving him teasing looks and relentlessly making fun of him. Even worse, you’d find out through the twisted tongues of others how he felt about you.

No. If you were going to find out about his feelings for you, it’d be from him.

You probably wouldn't find out anyway, so long as he could figure out some way to get Toga to back off and keep her trap shut. All he needed was some time.

Stealing one last glance at you, he sighed.

“Fine.”

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[vendetta-if]

Jess, honestly, why are you doing this to me?! I - not my MC, no - I AM DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH JACKAL! Now, I would never want to go between Luka and Jackal. They're a super awesome, wholesome power couple... But could you imagine writing a small interactive snipped, where we could play as Luka? I completely understand if you can't. However, I needed to ask. I'm sure I'm not the only one who likes Jackal and many of us would greatly appreciate a short story, no? *puppy eyes* Fyi, I have save slots currently unavailable because I need a save for all Jackal appearances to reread them whenever. You honestly made me a little obsessed with him. I want to be Luka so bad. T-T Also, have a nice day! .. and thanks for the Rin update. Great job as always! Much love, anon

Ayy, I’m always happy to see some Jackal love 🥰🤭 He’s definitely really fun to write and I have like an entire huge backstory about him 😭 Kinda sad since I can’t really fit more than a drop of it in Vendetta. The sequel spin off, where you play as Jackal’s and Luka’s kid, might reveal some more though.

And speaking of side stories and interactive side stories featuring Jackal… I think I have two side stories currently featuring him and I’m pretty sure both are available to public 😁 For those who haven't checked it out, I made a masterpost containing the links to all the public side stories so far and you can check them out here.

First one is three part on how he first met Luka from his POV [Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3] and the second one is a two part on the moment he and Luka finally became official couple [Part 1 | Part 2].

I’ve been thinking on writing a series of side stories on Jackal’s backstory including his early “relationship” with Luka. I’ll definitely do it whenever I have free time, maybe chipping away at it bit by bit in addition to working on the main story and the patreon voted side stories and spicy side stories 🤭

And funny you mentioned an interactive side story because I already have an idea on the story, just need the time to actually write it. I think I’ll focus on that first before the big series of stories on Jackal’s backstory 🤔 So many things to do with such limited time per day 😭

Also, I saved this video because it’s giving off Jackal vibes (also works for Ash since they are both motorcycle enthusiasts):

[strawberrystepmom]

but how does that first time with Umemiya actually go? 🤔

honestly? he’s more intense than you expected. you’re too used to his jovial nature, his grins and his big hand always wrapped around your shoulder to keep you close to him. you never doubted he’d make you feel good but it is pleasantly surprising to see how bad he wants to the first time.

“just one more for me?” he asks, fingers crooked with expert precision inside of you, rubbing that spot that has your toes curling against his sides. his tongue laps at your clit. he backs his face away to kiss your inner thighs, leaving traces of his front teeth behind in the form of tiny love bites, thumb replacing his tongue to toy with you.

“but i wanna cum on you,” you whine breathlessly, back arched, elbows propping you up. his hair falls in his face and you do your best to lean up and push it away from his eyes.

(those honest, beautiful eyes you can’t believe look so different from how they usually do when glancing up from between your thighs.)

“you’ll get to once you give me one more,” he teases with a raised brow, leaning back down to sloppily kiss your drenched cunt, tongue softening while he drags it through your folds and tensing when he presses the flat of it against your clit. your eyes flutter shut, chest heaving, and he knows he’s about to get what he wants.

you shiver gently, another orgasm shimmering through your body, and he laps at your droplets of release. sweeter than anything he could’ve imagined. he groans, low in his throat and deep in his chest.

“hajime.” his eyes flit from your pretty, shiny pussy to your face when you say his name. “please, please fuck me. i need to feel you.”

no longer a mere want, he’s a need. something you can’t live without. umemiya’s eyes drift down your body and back to your pretty cunt that clenches around nothing, all thanks to the mere weight of his gaze. your body is so tense and taut despite the three orgasms he has already pulled from you using his tongue and lips and fingers and you are overwhelmed.

“please,” you beg again, the word far more high pitched at the end than at the beginning. every part of you needs to feel how well you’ll stretch to accommodate him.

he smirks and rises to his knees, heavy cock bobbing with every scoot upward onto his bed, nearer to your spread thighs, your soft skin, your unapologetic beauty. obsessed feels like too light of a word for how he feels about you.

you gasp softly when he grips his cock and bounces the flushed head of it against your sticky, sensitive folds. his hips grind and you watch him slip through them, frustrated whines you cannot stop spilling out every time he grinds against the spot that is most sensitive. your face contorts in impatience and pleasure and when he’s certain you’re going to open your mouth to ask him for a third time, he slips in.

just the tip. just enough that you can really feel how you’ll have to stretch for the rest of him to be buried inside of you. you moan and it’s a symphony, music to his ears he wants to hear constantly, pulling his tip out and slowly sinking it back inside of you. he leans over you, one strong arm holding him up, holding you close to him with the other.

“i’ll let you cum as many times as you want as long as you tell me you’re about to, alright?” he commands against your cheek. you wanna argue, to tell him the way your body is going to grip him and pulse around him will be enough to warn him, but you nod. you’re too relieved to be full to put up too much of a fight.

he sinks deeper inside of you and you gasp. “fuck…” you breathe out and he chuckles, kissing your cheek gently.

“what did i say?”

you open your eyes to look at him, hand cupping his face to keep him close to you.

“i think i’m gonna cum, hajime.”

he sinks just a little deeper and you further tighten around him. another sweet, smooth chuckle leaves him.

“you think?” he raises a brow, sinking even deeper, torturously slow and methodical. “i know you’re about to cum again.”

hand sliding from cradling your shoulders to the backs of your thighs, he pushes them upward toward your chest, that little glimmer of intensity in his eyes flowing through his body and driving his movements. he pins you beneath him with his chest and his thighs and his hands and all you’ll be able to do is cum.

just for him.

[donutz]

Bive x reader fluff alphabet[1/16]

A/N|| This has over 3000+ words, I think I like Bive🤔

Affection(How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

— Uhhh, I'm not sure! Oh nevermind, she's really affectionate

— And that usually applies with quality time, it can apply to physical touch(not so much giving, but loves receiving), gift giving, words of affirmation(She receives), and acts of service

— So basically, quality time is her thing receiving or not, physical touch is something she prefers to receive, doesn’t mind giving but prefers getting, she loves giving gifts and loves receiving

— I gotta make another part because that’s a lot to type out. She isn’t too good with words(verbally, she can have AMAZING poems), but LOVES receiving words of affirmation, also very much appreciates acts of service

— If you hold the door open for her, she might just blush from your kind act

— Sorry for going on a rant, but anyways she usually shows affection with quality time and physical affection(holding hands)

— Hugs are a little too intimate for her, but holding hands are just right

Best friend(How would they be as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

— It would start with you talking to her first

— “How come you're made of hair?”

— “... I… DON'T KNOW…”

— “Ah. Well I think your hair is cool.”

— “... REALLY?”

— “Yeah, you’re probably fluffy too.”

— “...”

— “Sorry, was that too much?”

— “NO. IT’S.. FINE.”

— From there on, she actually started talking to you first, usually it’s about her theories or the government

— “BANK ACCOUNTS ARE A SCAM MADE BY THE GOVERNMENT.”

— “Hm?” Basically you were asking how

— “WELL… I’M NOT FULLY SURE, BUT I KNOW THEY ARE.”

— That’s the first time she’s ever told someone she was unsure about her theories, you may just be special to her

— She’s an interesting one, but she’s a great friend.

Cuddles(Do they cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

— Hmm.. Maybe?

— Depends, she’ll cuddle if she’s sad or down, but regularly, she doesn’t cuddle too much, if you don’t ask

— She’ll hesitate the first few times you ask her to cuddle, but after the 5th or 6th time she’ll say yes

— Cuddling with her can get pretty itchy(if she hasn’t brushed her hair in a while), but let’s pretend you can’t feel that

— When she’s in her fluffy stage(aka just being fluffy), cuddling will be the best! She’s so warm too, she naturally absorbs heat so if she sits out in the sun for a while and gives you a hug, you’ll feel the warmth on her

— She prefers being the little spoon, it’s not that she likes being more submissive(not in that way), she just likes your warm(or cold, doesn’t really matter) embrace around her

— May or may not cuddle while watching something, if it’s like documents stuff, sorry, she NEEDS to sit up straight and watch it

— But horror movies or like a cartoon, she would like to cuddle at those times

Domestic(Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

— She prefers settling down, well, studying and looking at information on the internet

— Sometimes when she’s more bored, she looks at facts and info about characters

— She probably wants to be the type of person who always researches things about their favorite characters, but doesn’t because she just forgets about it

— When it comes to cooking and cleaning, she probably likes just simple food

— Did I mention she hates cleaning? No? Oh okay, CLEANING IS DISGUSTING.

— SHE HATES IT. Especially when she kind of sheds around the place, she hates sweeping it, not only does it affect her back, but also the fact she has to sweep up her OWN hair!

— She has texture problems

— Also hates cleaning with any cleansing products that has a strong smell

— Like bleach, ewwwwwww, I feel like she’d melt if she touches bleach(considering the fact she’s made of hair💀)

— PLEASE, if you are cleaning with bleach do it for her, she CAN NOT handle the stench OR the effects of it

— I kind of ignored the cooking thing, but she really can’t handle spices.. Well, the smell of it and if it drops on her or something

— If the seasoning drops on her, she might just rush to take a shower

— She doesn’t mind the spices in food! But she’s very careful with it to make sure they don’t get on her

Ending(If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

— It will probably be a bunch of stutters or a few stutters, it depends on how she feels at the moment

— “I um.. I would like to.. Separate. From each other.” She was very unsure with what you'd respond with

— Bive wasn't able to make eye contact with you, at all, or any contact for that matter

— She was just looking at the ground, hoping you were okay with what she just said

— “Oh. That's fine. I don't mind.” You said(I'm trying to give you a more chill personality, mainly because everybody's personality isn't the same. Some may cry from this and some may yell because of it)

— She looked up at you, internally happy from you accepting her, but still sad at the fact you'll both no longer be together

— “You're not mad, are you?”

— “No, I'm not mad at you or what you said. I may be sad about our separation, but it's your choice and I won't stand by it.”

— She went silent at what you said.

Fiance(How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

— Wow, this section is a big switch

—  Anyways, Bive wouldn't actually mind getting married

— Would be very nervous in front of a whole crowd though

— Could you… Do it for her? Because well, buying the ring is a lot of money, proposing would also be A LOT, and she is really afraid of you rejecting it, she'd never do it in front of a crowd so you don't need to worry about that

— Honestly, she wouldn't mind if you chose if she wears the dress or suit

— If she wants to feel pretty at that moment, she's wearing the dress(No, I'm not saying that only pretty people wear dresses)

— But if she wants to feel handsome, she'll wear the suit(I'm not saying only handsome people wear suits either)

— But I can picture her looking wonderful in a white dress!

Gentle(How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

— VERY, at least with you

— There’ll be times where she’s unaware of how strong she can be(I’m not saying she’s like Toji buff, but I mean like when you accidentally hug someone too hard, you know what I mean?)

— So when she hugs you first(pretty rare), she is very gentle with you, as if you’re delicate as a dandelion

— “You can squeeze me a little when giving me a hug, y'know?”

— “Oh. I guess I can..”

— She wasn’t speaking in anxiety-filled caps, so you asked her if she was okay

— “WHAT? I’M FINE.”

— “Oh okay. Just askin’ Bivey”(No, I’m not stealing what Split said, I just thought the nickname would be a good idea)

— “BIVEY.”

— Emotionally, she’s trying to not seem rude or pushy. But she can’t help it.

— If you’re venting to her or something, she’s trying to not say, “JUST CHEER UP.”

— She did that one time, and you MAY have been mad at her, internally. You understand that she didn’t mean it that way and just doesn’t know how to comfort

— If you actually want to be comforted, you’ll have to tell her the ways you prefer to be consoled

— She’ll actually remember that part, and comfort you using those tactics

Hugs(Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

— Mmm….

— Uhmmmmmmm….

— Not necessarily..?

— She’s— okay with them.

— Only really if you ask or if she hugs first

— Like is an overstatement

— She’s cool only with you, and maybe Split

— SHE doesn’t do it often, but if you’re the person who’s always hugging or touching somebody, MAYBE she wouldn’t mind how touchy you are

— You’re the only person she’s okay with to touch her 24/7(NOT that way)

— Her hugs can be shaky, they’re never really still

— But most of the hugs feel gloomy, because she usually hugs you when she’s feeling sad(like I’ve said)

— But when they’re(the hugs) not gloomy, you can really tell how nervous she is

I love you(How fast do they say the L-word?)

— Just give her 5 minutes and she can spit it out

— She can’t say really it on the spot

— Too much pressure goes on, and people can’t really operate under pressure

— Especially someone like her(I’m not judging, promise)

— She hesitates sometimes, but that doesn’t mean she doesn’t love you!

— She really does! Just verbalizing the words can get uneasy!

— “I.. I LOVE YOU.”

— “There you go, great job. I love you too Bive ;)”

— You always praise her when she can finally spit it out, maybe just motivating her to say it a little more faster the next time

— And of course, you give her a little kiss on her glasses, you can‘t really on the cheek because… Well, there isn’t really one..

Jealousy(How jealous do they get? What do they do when they're jealous?)

— She gets really jealous, but tries to hide it

— But if you’re around Split, MAYBE she can get jealous

— She’s really cool with Split, so it’s very less likely for her to get to the middle point of jealousy

— But maybe if Split's getting too touchy(never going to happen, but let’s just make this up) Bive’s going to step in and just hold your hand or something

— Kind of like a warning, not as if Bive’s saying she’s going to beat her up, but just to say, “I’ma need you to calm down a bit”

— She doesn’t want to come off as too aggressive, trying not to ruin her friendship with Split

— But after you separate away from that person, and it’s just you and Bive, she gives you a hug, putting her head of hair(get it?) on your shoulder

— “You don’t.. Like them, do you?”

— (As a friend) “Not romantically. I like them as a friend, Bive. But I like you way more than just a friend.”

— (As a stranger) You chuckle, “No Bive. I could never, that’s just a random stranger. I’m pretty sure I’d love you more than just a stranger.”

— “... You’re pretty sure..?”

— “Oh my god—” You ended up giving her a bunch of kisses all over her face, and picked her up, spinning her around

— Like the happy couple you both are <3

Kisses(What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

— Hairy

— Uhm.. Not to be weird or anything, but I think Bive can open her teeth(Because I guess she doesn’t really have lips..) and she has a snake-like tongue

— NOT IN THAT WEIRD WAY IT’S JUST A HEADCANON!!

— But she kisses with her teeth, she doesn’t like lick you or anything(💀?)

— She actually, well probably, enjoys kissing you on the mouth! But she mainly kisses on your cheek

— Maybe even the neck, sometimes she doesn’t realize how intimate it is

— She did it one time and if you’re ticklish there, she might(or not) just take advantage of how tickly you are

— Once she realizes, she grins pretty wide, just happy she could make you smile

— She occasionally likes a kiss on the teeth(her own ‘lips’ I guess), but loves forehead and cheek kisses

— She gets all giddy

Little ones(How are they around children?)

— There’s actually another process for this to happen(even with nm[non-men]) somehow, so if you want that process to happen with her, go ahead.. I guess??

— But anyways

— Kids probably are scared of her

— They think she’s freaky

— Sorry Bive😭

Morning(How are mornings spent with them?)

— She’s always cuddled up to you, usually with her head on your chest

— She’s definitely the little spoon

— Bive can’t be the big spoon for THE LIFE of her.

— I’d like to think she’s the one who wakes up first, even if you’re a person who wakes up at 5 am, she’ll wake up even a minute before you

— She really enjoys your warmth, so sometimes it’s hard for her to get up in the morning

— Sometimes she just stares at you while you’re sleeping, not in the creepy way, but just to admire your sleeping face

Night(How are nights spent with them?)

— To answer possible questions, she takes off her glasses when sleeping, and I personally think she doesn’t really have eyes so…

— She’s kind of a black void, and you could probably reach through her face

— Anyways! She sleeps after you’ve fallen asleep

— She wants you to get as much rest as possible, she doesn’t make you go to sleep early or anything but she justs wants you to function correctly in the morning

— I don’t think she really snores, just a thought! MAYBE she purrs, even if she’s not really a cat

Open(When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

— She’d open up far into the relationship

— I’m sure there would be plenty of things she’d reveal about herself, even if I’m not aware of her lore

— She really wouldn’t want to get rid of her relationship with you, or just you in general, so she’d wait

— Maybe, just maybe, early into the relationship she’d want to say ALLL of the things she wants to

— But hey, you might just dislike her a week into the relationship, find her weird, or quickly lose interest

— She can’t just trust people that easily.

— If you were ever to say that opening up to you is just fine, she’ll ask if you’re serious

— Just wanting to make sure you were telling the truth, I mean A LOT of information is going to be dropped on you so just prepare

— “Yeah, you can drop all of the lore you want to. Or piece it by piece. I wouldn’t mind Bivey.”

— She wanted to drop everything on you, just wanting you to hear her out

— But she really didn’t want to overwhelm you or drive you away

— So she said it piece by piece

— You held her hand and told her, “It’s okay, I’ll take all the info you spill on me. I won’t find it weird, or you. You can tell me whatever you like.”

—  She basically just stared at you for 30 seconds, thinking about how she really scored.

Patience(How easily angered are they?)

— There are times where she can seem angry, but isn’t, it’s just her tone

— At least it seems that way to others

— She’ll speak in caps, but not yelling or screaming

— I don’t think she’ll ever really be mad at you, if so, she’ll keep her feelings inside

— She doesn’t want to express it, she doesn’t want you sad or mad at her

— She keeps a lot of negative emotions to herself, when it comes to you

Quizzes(How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

— Her memory is bad, and she hates that about herself, she’s kinda insecure

— ‘I wish my memory wasn’t so bad.’ She would think about herself

— She tries really(I’ve noticed I said ‘really’ a lot, I’m sorry) hard to remember what details you provide her that’s about yourself

— Her memory is so bad that she puts your birthday on a calendar, just so she doesn’t forget at that time

— Like sure, you can ask her out of nowhere and she’ll say it

— But on your birthday? She relies on her calendar

— Buttttt, she’ll usually tell you the second it strikes 12! So her calendar doesn’t matter, unless she somehow forgets what day it is

Remember(What is their favorite moment in the relationship?)

— When you said you were fine with how she talks, accepting the way she is

Security(How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

— Don’t blame her for this, but she isn’t good with protecting

— But she’s good with running away, clumsily

— Anywho, she can get jealous but isn’t too protective

— She isn’t too strong, she has the average ‘human’ strength

— Based on the person, she’d say, “OKAY. We need to leave. NOW.” Because number 1, she wants you away from that person and number 2, if it’s going to get physical, she doesn’t want you hurt

— If you would protect her, she get pretty flustered by it

— Like, you’re protecting her? From someone else? Because you care about her?

— Holy moly :O

Try(How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

— She wants the date to be and look as professional as possible

— She puts a lot of effort into it, and hopes that you’ll love it

— It can look kind of messy, but you know she put many attempts into getting the date just right

— For anniversaries, she put it on her calendar, but didn’t say it the moment it striked 12!

— Because she forgot allll about it! Even the day you two got together , she forgot what an anniversary was, and just collected data

— Which led up to a specific day, and that day is what she believes both of yours’ anniversary!

— She rushed out of the house early in the morning to get you a bouquet of flowers, appreciate her effort please

— “Bive you actually did this?!!”

— And you see your bed decorated with many gifts of your favorite things while Bive stands in a corner with your favorite colored balloons

— Everyday tasks are handled by the both of you, which is always an amazing experience for her

Ugly(What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

— Maybe how her tone can sound at times? She doesn't really notice it either

— But me too girly, I can’t judge🤷‍♀️

Vanity(How concerned are they with their looks?)

— Isn’t really, just wondering why she looks so strange

— Why is she made of hair?

— Just like the first question you’ve ever asked her.

— But no, she’s not insecure because of you, she just wants to find an answer to your question

Whole(Would they feel incomplete without you?)

— She’d probably feel less on edge, finally getting rid of that negative gut feeling

— I wouldn’t say she’d be happier though

— She’ll still crave your touch and your loving words

Xtra(A random headcanon for them.)

— She HAS to have anxiety, and I’m not even making fun of her

— I really think she is uneasy with things, when she’s in public, but in private(like at home), she’s more chill but still on edge

Yuck(What are some things they wouldn't like, either in general or in a partner?)

— Maybe if you make it seem like you don’t love her

— It would make her overthink, a lot

Zzz(What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

— Being the little spoonnn♡

[emojiglyphics]

Emojis aren’t Hieroglyphs. But they could be. Because I have insomnia.

🌊📰🐍 1     🦉🥞📰⬇️   🦉     🎵🐶📰👕🕛     🐶🐰🐰😩

🌊💡🕛      🦉🚶       🥞📰🐶🐰🐶🤔  

🌊🦘😩        🦉📰🐶       🌊🐰😩

That’s the opening to Poe’s The Raven. It doesn’t represent the story, it says the words. Those are two different things, and I can prove it.

Two presidents ago, when a large segment of the population was still acting like emojis had just been invented, people used to call it “modern day hieroglyphics.”

And I got very “akshually” about it because part of why we’re able to read hieroglyphs is because it is a written language, but emojis, of themselves, are not.

Sure, you can “tell” a story with emojis, but you can’t read them the same way you read a sentence. Everybody who looks at them is going to say a slightly different explanation, whereas with a written language, everybody will say the same exact sentence when reading it aloud (in theory, there are valid exceptions).

It’s not that I’m afraid to put emojis on a pedestal, but rather that I think it diminishes the Egyptian language.

But anyway, it did get me thinking about how it might be possible to actually write English using emojis, treating them like Egyptian hieroglyphs.

Modern languages are generally written with characters that represent sounds, or characters that represent whole words at once. Even in written languages that use both (like Korean and Japanese) generally use separate sets of characters that are either phonetic or logographic.

But Egyptian was a little more free-form. The exact same character can be used to stand for a sound, a broad concept, or a narrow concept, and even a whole word by itself. And the phonetic ones might represent one consonant, or they might represent two, or three! And sometimes, if you have a double or a triple, you can tack a single at the end to remind the reader of what the extra sounds are. So you can’t even save space that way. Go figure. But then again you’re usually not worried about space because there are no vowels! I know that we’ve all been told that the Vulture is an A and the reed is an E, but this is not really the case. These letters are consonants for sounds that English does not have. So we make it kind of a fairy story that lets 1st graders write their name in “hieroglyphs”. It also makes it more convenient for Egyptologists to pronounce them.

But how on earth does this work? With each letter potentially representing so many different things, how do you read it? Well a typical Egyptian word will be constructed like this:

1. A group of glyphs acting as consonants, usually the shape of the glyph is a clue to the sound it makes

2. If needed, some extra single-sound glyphs to act as a reminder if the word happens to have any doubles or triples

3. A glyph which gives a general idea of what the word is probably about

So for instance, if you saw something like: “grp (food)” you’d be like, “guh... guh-ruh-puh, grup-- grape!” Of course, educated Egyptians wouldn’t have to sound words out like that because once you have spellings memorized, reading is basically reading.

So now we come back to The Raven. Let’s say we wanted to respell some words using emojis in a hieroglyph-like system. We want it to be consistent enough that readers can pick up new words, but no system is perfect, especially not for a language with as many trap-doors as English.

Let’s break down the first word in the Raven, “Once”, looking for consonants, concepts, but not vowels.

The first consonant is W. And it’s definitely a consonant and not just the “oo” sound. Don’t believe me? Try making the “w” sound without raising the back of your tongue. Now make a real “w” sound and leave your tongue in place while trying to say “too”. Doesn’t sound right. So now we scan through the available emojis, and we see 🌊 , the wave. Wave starts with a W sound. That can be our W emojiglyph.

The next sound is N. We see  📰 , the newspaper. Perfect.

The final sound is the non-voiced S. So we need to find an S emoji. Some of you may be wondering why we’re not looking for a C, and the answer is because we don’t really care how the word is spelled in English. That’s just the 1st grade swap again. We care about the sounds in the word. And the sound at the end of “once” is S.

We find  🐍. The snake. Love it. The word snake starts with an S sound, and snakes hiss. Very easy to remember.

So now we have 🌊 📰 🐍. But it’s missing something. We just have W-N-S. That could also spell “wince” or “whence” (in most accents). We need to add a determinative, a conceptual glyph to let people know what the word is about and narrow it down. In this case it’s easy because the concept is the number 1.

🌊 📰 🐍 1 

Boom!

Next word: Upon

Little bit of a tricky point here: If we are super strict about the rules, we will have a word which is spelled P-N. That’s just too vague for my tastes. Let’s bend the rules and give ourselves a clue that the word begins with a vowel.

And what rhymes with vowel? 🦉Owl. BOOM. For the moment, the owl is only for indicating vowels at the beginning of the word. I don’t want to deviate from how hieroglyphs work too much. But even just an initial-vowel indicator hugely improves readability. .

Going through the process again, vowel-P-N (downward)

🦉🥞📰⬇️

🌊 📰 🐍 1 🦉🥞📰⬇️ 

Once upon

BOOOOM.

Something else that the rest of my spelling has in common with egyptian: exceptions. Not all the words above have a determinative at the end. Sometimes the spelling alone seems clear enough.

One final thing I want to make clear; for something like this to work in the real world, it would need to be made consistent. Right now, it feels kind of like a sandbox for creating puzzles, but a written language should not, by design, be puzzling. A language is a contract we enter into. You and I agree that Apple means Apple and sounds like Apple and is spelled Apple. Although there’s no shortage of exceptions, that’s what languages are usually trying to be. So although there’s no reason to necessarily pick the Yarn over the Yin Yang for Y, or the Newspaper over the Nib for N, it’s something that a formal system would want to lock down.

[bunnidid-reviews]

Review for a DID… plushie?

Today I’m doing a very basic and important review on Plushie Dreadful’s Dissociative Identity Disorder Bunny

Which I bought because isnt it cute! Also I just had to, a bunny with DID? Sounds familiar.. 🤔

Price: $45 USD

Company: Mysterious

You can find the plush for sale >>here<<

~initial thoughts~

I think you and I must be thinking the same: what an absurd thing to buy! A plush based off a trauma disorder? This could be offensive even if its coming from a weird place of stigmatizing disorders

I looked a little into the company though and found that they make a lot of different disorder-based plushies, as well as based on chronic illnesses and queer identities.

There’s also this note on the DID bunny page itself:

IMPORTANT NOTE Regarding the design of our mental health-related Plushie Dreadfuls. We take the topics of mental health and mental health awareness seriously. That's why our design team only creates plushies related to mental health issues with which they have direct experience. In cases where our team does not have direct experience, we assemble an external team of experts to help guide our creative process. In addition, we use Crowd Design to engage a wide range of voices via platforms like Instagram and Facebook. We gather and respond to feedback from our audience - many of whom have direct experience with the mental health issues we're exploring. And while we strive to represent as many aspects of a particular mental health issue as possible while avoiding stereotypical symptoms, we hope you understand that plush toys as an artistic medium do limit the full expression of a particular issue to those things that can be crafted in fabric and stitching.

Obviously they go through a lot of widespread effort to have people with personal experience weigh in on their plush designs. Is it going to be suited to every person w a CDD’s tastes? Absolutely not, but I personally think they put a lot of care into it.

Heres some pics of the one I bought:

Its a fluffy white rabbit plush with wide, white eyes, and a grey bunny appliqué on the forehead. There’s the interlocking circles multiplicity pride symbol on the tummy. The arms are all white with grey paws, and the stubby legs are all white with pink paw pads. In the ears there’s soft fabric with the printed image of three bunnies stacked on top of eachother that are dark grey, reddish pink and white respectively. There’s a tote bag underneath the bunny plush with a design that matches the ears.

(Sorry idk how to do the image description thing help)

I think the plush design conveys the feelings of DID very well, actually. White eyes that could perhaps symbolize dissociating or looking frozen in terror. Black and red together are commonly associated with pain and trauma in art. White might be for the parts untouched by trauma, or healed.

They grey bunny stitched onto the forehead is..

Their Trauma Bunny

Its a grey rabbit plush thats small and has uneven limbs and ears. There are two red x’s on the tummy, a black x for the mouth, and downturned eyes depicting a pained expression.

Since this trauma bunny is literally stitched to the forehead if the DID bunny, it’s almost as if to say that trauma is a central feature of the DID itself; which I thought was a nice careful touch that could’ve easily been ignored and focused instead on the multiplicity aspect.

There’s obviously a lot of care and attention to detail put into this bunbun and I very much appreciate it

~How the Bun feels~

Texture: the main fur Soft with medium length, dense fur. It feels closer to the stuffed animals I had as a kid, compared to the super-soft and eventually pilly fur you get on buildabears and jellycat bashful bunnies. Only time will tell of course.

The fur on the ears is very soft with short, printed-on designs. I think its close to something like minky fabric, but shorter and thinner

Weight: idk, it doesn’t have any beanies in it so it’s lighter than I thought it would be. The ears don’t have stuffing/very little stuffing in them so they’re pretty weightless and floppy. Something I really like in bunny ears actually.

Ratings for…:

Playing with(moving the joints): 9/10 (the sewing is such that the arms and megs move easily yay!)

Holding the hand/paw of: 6/10 (the paws are a little small for me, the arms a little stubby for holding hands)

Sitting: 10/10 (the ears help it sit up on its own, the legs fold nicely and look very cute)

Standing: 3/10 (doesnt stand up very well)

Holding the ear of: 11/10 (super softie)

Holding like a hamburger: 9/10 (a smidge small but otherwise pleasent)

Snuggles against the chest: 8/10

Squishability: 5/10 (not a squishable but a very even amount of squishy and dense)

Appliqué: 10/10 (very neat stitching, unobtrusive)

Fur shedding: 10/10 (seems like its very stable and theres no shedding)

Here is my DID bunny compared to my medium Jellycat bashful bunny and the tiny version:

The previously described white DID bunny. There’s a grey small bashful bunny with multicolored flower print in the ears on the left. On the right, there’s a navy blue medium sized bashful bunny. The DID bunny is slightly smaller than the medium bashful bunny

(The blue bunnys name is April Showers, and the grey bunnys name is May Flowers btw)

~ Extra thoughts idk what to do with~

- I don’t know the history of the interlocking circles symbol or if its problematic in any way. I’m assuming its something the community decided on when contributing feedback on the initial design. Thoughts? It seems to have to do with the old DID forums from a time before I knew I had DID, so I’m intrigued by the history

- I don’t personally mind that theres a DID-themed plush out there. Might not be everyone’s cuppa tea but it makes me happy to have a little soft companion for watching movies and reading books with. Its a really neat aspect to my growing DID collection :D

- I’m so fond of the scenecore kinda design for these bunnies. As a kid I desprately wanted a bunny with that gothic lolita, stitched up aesthetic and this is just so cool and special to me now :>

- I’m super sorry if the image descriptions arent great! This is a personal just-for-fun blog so I dont think I can manage something like that for all my reviews, but since this ones very visual I thought I’d try. Just sorry if its not good :( if theres anyone who’s like to rewrite them to actually work I’d be willing to replace my descriptions

- she needs a name! If you have name ideas i would love to hear them. Something DID related perhaps! i might run a poll on this for fun :D

- ps. All this was written mostly by a small part so pls be nice thank u 💛🥰

[caprisunandmoon]

🧚🏼‍♀️analyzing my synastry with my ex-coworkers - part one

because what else is there to do after quitting a job you had for 4 years?? 🤪

Coworker #1

[lowkey was my favorite, felt the most comfortable with him & we had kind of a father-daughter relationship; we would spend a lot of time talking or joking around at work, he would buy me food/little snacks and drive me where i needed to go (i was the ultimate passenger princess with him lmaooo) + he even helped me with stuff outside of work like changing my tire when I had a flat 🥹🫶🏽]

My Ascendant conjunct his Sun/Mercury/Saturn (but with his sun/mercury falling into my 12th) - At first, we didn’t really click that much; we were friendly to each other but not that close in the beginning… he’d always try to joke around with me and I’d be like 🤨🤨🤨 idk man I don’t know you that well yet LOL. This was probably from so many of his planets falling into my 12th house (his venus was also in my 12h), so I simply ✨didn’t notice✨ him that much at first, but over the course of me working there and being around him more, we became inseparable. We loved to talk and just be in each other’s company. Lots of admiration for each other. And perhaps Saturn here is what contributed to the fatherly vibes lol

My Sun square his Moon - Any time I read descriptions about this aspect online, it talks about how the two will end up fighting and nagging, finding the other person annoying, etc and I’m over here like 🧍🏻‍♀️…. never had that issue with this aspect… I also have this aspect with my bestest friend in the world and we’ve never had even one fight lmao. So I’m not really sure how to describe this aspect honestly, but I guess I would consider it “binding” as it contributes to a deep connection between people

Moon square Moon - Again, this is an aspect often described as leading to fights, fundamental emotional incompatibility, etc but I never noticed this with him 🤔 We were actually able to talk about and express our emotions with ease. Obviously, we were only friends at work so perhaps if we got to know each other more, this square would have become more apparent, but ??? We have other really good aspects to the moon, so maybe that’s what helped neutralize this.

Mars trine Sun double whammy - I think this contributed to the general sense of “liking” each other. Also, we were always really supportive of each other and he was easy for me to work with.

His Mars trine my Moon - He was definitely very protective of me and tried to take care of me as much as possible. Any time I was feeling down, he would always notice and try to make me feel better <3

My Mars conjunct his Moon - I cared a lot for him but also thought he was a lil too sensitive sometimes haha; it never caused any conflict between us though (perhaps since this is a conjunction in Libra, so we were more focused on keeping the peace). And I was protective of him in the sense that I absolutely wouldn’t tolerate any other coworkers badmouthing him in my presence 🔪

My Mars trine his Mercury - The way I visualize aspects between mars-mercury in synastry is the “walk and talk” aspect between two people, like those two people who just like to walk around or do something while they talk to each other & this was very much us 🥰 people eventually stopped asking “where are you guys going” bc they soon realized the two of us would literally just walk around for the sake of walking around, no destination just vibes lmao

Venus conjunct Venus - Having the same tastes, likes, mannerisms, etc. top tier aspect imo 🫶🏽 and since it was a conjunction in aqua, we had a great intellectual connection above all, best friend/partner in crime vibes 🌚

My Venus trine his Moon - I LOVE when my Venus makes aspects to people’s moons, for me it’s literally the best for any relationship, platonic or romantic. In my natal, I have a cap moon square saturn & mars at 0-1 degrees (yes I’m extremely traumatized thank you for asking 🤩), so I’ve always struggled with my own emotion management and tend to get annoyed by most people’s expression of their emotions (I’m working on being better about this smh) but whenever my venus aspects someone’s moon, this isn’t the case, like I genuinely wanna hear about how they’re feeling and if there’s anything I can do to make them feel better if they’re down 🥰

His Jupiter trine my Mercury - He genuinely found my jokes funny, which I really appreciate as a Capricorn mercury bc our dry-ass humor isn’t understood by most 😃 Also we never ran out of things to talk about

His Jupiter square my Venus - Although this is a square, I think the only “problem” that comes out of this is excess aka I think he was excessively generous with me sometimes 🤪 ...definitely not the worst problem to have, at least not on my end lol

My Mercury trine his Uranus - Very intellectual conversations, it was always fun talking to him because we’d end up chatting about the most random subjects

My Mercury trine his Pluto - He simply had this way of getting me to open up and talk about deeper topics with ease, something I usually find difficult to do with people I don’t know well 🤔

Coworker #2

[I ended up having an on-off situationship with this coworker for about a year; the most physical attraction I’ve ever felt for a man LMAO but also definitely the most obsessive and toxic situation of my life (so far 🤪) + we had to keep everything a secret since relationships weren’t allowed between coworkers.. yeah long story short he traumatized me in many ways lmaooo]

His Mars trine my Venus - The main (and perhaps only) source of our attraction to each other hahaha, I love this aspect because it gives genuine physical chemistry + that feeling of butterflies but honestly it can also make you blind to overall emotional incompatibilities but ohwellyouliveyoulearniguess 🫠

Mercury square Moon double whammy - On a day-to-day level, this definitely made connection and communication difficult, even downright impossible sometimes, but also somehow added to the ✨spice✨ idk there’s just something kind of sweet about not understanding each other on an emotional level but still wanting to make that effort to connect 🤷🏻‍♀️ overall, as frustrating/irritating as this got sometimes, I appreciate that it made me aware of how differently other people can process their emotions

His Mercury square my Sun - We definitely had different points of view on so many things and sometimes I’d be a lil defensive with him but I generally try not to be led by my ego so this wasn’t too big of an issue overall (for me at least)

My Mercury square his Jupiter - Lots of laughs. Since it’s a square, sometimes an excess of joking around or joking around in situations that should have been serious like work meetings but oh well 🤙🏼🤪🤙🏼

My Venus sextile his Moon - Like I said above, I LOVE WHEN MY VENUS ASPECTS PEOPLE’S MOONS!!! The sextile is less easygoing than the trine, I definitely had to make more of an effort here, but still a sweet aspect nonetheless 🥰 And I think perhaps this is one reason why the Mercury square Moon didn’t hit as hard

My Venus sextile his Jupiter - Venus/Jupiter aspects are one of my favoritesssss and I think it was a major reason why I got so attached 🫠 Venus/Jupiter is such a nice aspect, it’s truly one aspect I wish for everyone to experience at least once in their lives, you just feel so lighthearted around each other and the energy is so warm, my fave is the trine but the sextile is also quite nice

My Venus sextile his Saturn - With Venus/Saturn in general, I think Saturn has the “upper hand” and ultimately gets to decide if the relationship will last. I knew from the start I wanted commitment and something serious, unfortunately he didn’t end up feeling the same way 😃 And overall I felt quite dependent on him, like he was a source of stability for me

My Mars opposite his Moon - I don’t know how tight this aspect was since I don’t know his time of birth but I definitely thought he was way too f*cking sensitive sometimes LMAOO as much as I cared about him & felt intensely for him, sometimes I’d be like 🙄🙄 by his reactions to things, overall he was easily triggered by my actions and I’d get triggered by his reactions

My Mars opposite his Mercury - Leads to a lot of bickering if not careful. I think it’s important to channel this energy into healthy debates etc otherwise it spills over into the day-to-day, causing bickering, arguments etc. If we kept the debating to work topics, we were fine, but anything outside of that was dangerous territory. Often best to just agree to disagree here. As a Libra mars, I’m not prone to arguments but his Aries mercury certainly tried to goad me into more than a few fights (and succeeded at times lol)

My Mars sextile his Uranus (0 degrees) + His Uranus trine my Mars - Absolute freaks in bed with each other LMAOOO absolutely nothing was off-limits and I’d never felt more comfortable, including being open to doing things I’d never done before. And, in general/day-to-day, we were comfortable being “weirdos” together and showing our more “quirky” sides (yes I indeed cringed while writing that last sentence)

My Saturn conjunct his Moon - On my end, I’m not sure if I felt this energy much, but natally I have a cap stellium and lots of Saturn aspects so this is like second nature to me. If I had to guess, I would say it probably felt oppressive for him as an Aries stellium with mostly trines in his natal 😃

My Neptune square his Sun - Sigh. I definitely felt like he was idealizing me and seeing me as someone I wasn’t and the more he got to know me and began to realize the fantasies weren’t true, the more I think he felt disillusioned and not as interested, which was heartbreaking for me to see, esp since I never intentionally tried to deceive him or act like someone I’m not 🫠

My Neptune sextile his Venus - Again, not seeing the other for who they really are, lots of idealizing. Even though the sextile is supposed to be an “easy” aspect, I don’t think anything involving Neptune in synastry is really that easy unfortunately

My Pluto trine his Venus - Yeah, as more time passes and I look back on our relationship, I can confidently say it was obsession and not love. I felt consumed by him and like our situation was taking over my life, constant fears that he would leave, typical Pluto/Venus lol… And I think as Pluto I was more attached to him than he was to me.

My Pluto opposite his Mars - Whewwww the sexual chemistry here was 😮‍💨😮‍💨 But outside of the bedroom, lots of power struggles. He constantly accused me of trying to control him, perhaps I was without realizing it, but in any case, the constant back and forth became too much to bear. We were both equally jealous/possessive. I felt like I could never fully relax throughout the entirety of our relationship.

[jarofstyles]

Flame 5- Crackle

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They didn’t talk about it yet.

The most intense night of sex, not physically but emotionally, and they hadn’t touched too much on it. Besides Harry coming to her house with a shit eating grin, a paper showing his results to confirm he was clean from any STIs. Going bare was something they both really wanted to do.

It was a shame that shit had gotten so stupidly busy.

Y/N was studying like mad. Harry was a bit, but he mostly sat with her as she studied and stared at her. Lots of coffee dates to study, library dates, even a few days of sitting in the park with a blanket on the grass and their books sprawled out, a plethora of highlighters and pens littering in between. It was comfortable, really, like it w always was.

The changes were more and more obvious the more that he had looked at it. The cuddles and chaste kisses and the way that they’d holed off into their own little nest like a couple in a somewhat honeymoon stage. Y/N was still a playful bully but she would kiss his pout away when she would make it appear and crawl on top of him to lay down, her cheek against his chest while he stroked her back.

It just.. didn’t seem like it was two friends fucking around. It was clearer to him the more he spent time with her, the more the touches became natural, the more his heart would speed up when he got texts from her. He’d always been excited to spend time with her but this was a new level. His throat would dry when she would tenderly brush the hair from his face, her quiet contemplation making him want to beg to know exactly what was going on in that pretty little head.

Harry had definitely made himself out to be a goofy, funny, horny man, sure, but he had layers. Layers Y/N was peeling back at a pace he hadn’t really prepared for. The anticipation of getting to see her next was almost irritating. How has it changed so rapidly? And why didn’t he care as much about feeling all these things? The complexity of their changing relationship had made him feel like his head was scrambled. She was seeing the parts of him he had kept back, the softer bits that were genuine pushed back until now.

The thing that really sucked now was the time apart, how antsy he was to actually see her. Sure, he had been anxious to see her when they’d just been friends but now that they spent the majority of time together and she had study groups and such, really needed to focus, he had to step away and do his own. It sucked. The bed felt cold. Something he thought to be a huge red flashing light. He tended to ignore those:

H: I miss you. :(

🍑: hi hi. I miss you too.

H: you didn’t put the frown face. So I tend to believe I miss you more.

🍑: :( :( :( :( :(

H: that’s betterrrrr. This book is making my eyes bleed.

🍑: I know. This intro course should not be an intro course. What are you studying rn?

H: one of the business courses. To be honest it’s all bleeding together and I can’t rlly tell what I’m reading, half my page is highlighter.

🍑: h… darling… that is not good study technique. I’ve told you this.

H: so come over and show me :) :) pleaaaaase.

🍑: do you know how bad I want to

H: then do it!!!!! what’s stopping you!!!

🍑: 1. You’re a dork. And an enabler.

🍑: 2. You know what's stopping me. If I come over there will be no studying done.

H: untrue and rude.

🍑: no, no. I tell the truth. You’ll be like

🍑: ‘let’s take a break! Let’s lay down! Let’s make out! Let’s have sex :)’ and then pout n blink your lashes the way you do when you think ur fluttering them but it looks like u got something in your eyes.

H: now… what the hell did I do for you to attack me like that

🍑: is it an attack if it’s the truth? 🤔

H: yes. Especially that.

Harry rolled his head on the back of the couch, groaning as he stretched his limbs like a cat. Y/N wasn’t going to budge. He knew it and he didn’t want to push too far to actually get her mad, but he really fucking missed her. Enough to drop the silly act and text her seriously.

H: but I really do miss you. It feels empty when you’re not here.

H: like I understand why, don’t get me wrong. I’m not blaming you, sweetheart. Just… idk.

🍑: :/ I’m sorry. I miss you too. It stinks less here though…

H: Har Har. I’m being serious though.

H: your smell isn’t on my sheets anymore.

🍑: h… :(

🍑: i can come over tomorrow. Okay? I can at least come to sleep. Or you can come here. Exams are only a few days away but I know I’ve been a bit strict when it comes to seeing you.

H: it wasn’t like this before. Guess I’m just adjusting.

🍑: I know, but last time we weren’t doing… this stuff. The intimate stuff. It’s hard to be around you and not end up on my back. Lol.

H: yeah… I dunno. It’s just never felt so annoying being away from you.

H: sorry if I’m sounding weird. Lol. Just like… got used to you being here and sleeping with me.

🍑: it doesn’t sound weird. It’s what we’ve been doing for a bit now and it is weird. I miss it too- you know I’m just shit at expressing it.

H: Mhm. I miss kissing you.

Harry exhaled as he switched apps, thumbing through their photos together and the ones he had taken of her when she hadn’t been looking. Surely she would kick his ass for doing so but he knew she didn’t love photos and he selfishly wanted some for himself. They were some from brunches they went to, walks they went on, nights out. One in particular called to him, her in his tee shirt and leaning against the counter with a cup of coffee she nursed in her hands. It was his ‘H’ mug, her sleepy eyes and messy hair evidence she had been very comfortable in his bed. A peek of a love bite could be seen under the collar of his shirt, making him smile a little bit.

It wasn’t just him that was comfortable. She was too, especially in those vulnerable moments. Before she caught herself and tried to joke it off. Usually that was his job, but lately it hasn’t felt like a joking mood anymore. He wanted to curl himself around her and bury his face into her neck, listen to her breathe. It wasn’t a joke anymore.

🍑: I do too. A lot. Which is why I can’t come over tonight. You wouldn’t have any lips left </3

H: I don’t think I’d mind if it meant I got to kiss you

🍑: since when have you gotten romantic on me? That was cute and slightly disturbing .

🍑: I like your lips a bit too much anyways. Don’t let them go anywhere.

H: they won’t. They’re yours ;)

🍑: there he is.

How could he express these differences in feelings without making it weird?

It was obvious something had shifted. Something had been different, and it wasn’t just fun anymore. Harry knew that he was going to have to be the one to bring it up to her but he wasn’t sure exactly how to do it. He had tried in a way, during sex. The most vulnerable place to be. But he wasn’t sure if he tried again he wouldn’t ruin it. He just needed a little more time.

Yes, time. All he needed was more of it so he could strengthen whatever the hell this was and point out the obvious.

—-

“You quite literally have not let go of me since I walked in the door.” Y/N had an amused tone to her voice, laying naked in his bed with his arm sloped around her stomach. His face was in between her breasts, breathing lowly as they recovered from sex. Going bare was the best thing to happen to him, really.

“Haven't seen you in 3 days.” He muttered against her skin, pressing a soft kiss to the hot skin. “Missed you. You’re gonna disappear on me soon anyways to study.” The grumbles made her chuckle, petting his slightly damp curls with her fingers as they listened to the low buzz of the playlist Harry had put on.

“It’s only because every time we get together we end up naked, H. I’d much rather be hanging out with you than studying but you know I need to keep the grades up to keep the scholarship.” Y/N had worked incredibly hard to get it and Harry knew that, his resigned nod making her aware he did respect that. Academics were important to her. He’d never want her grades to suffer because of him, but sometimes he was selfish with her attention.

“I know. M’so proud of you for that, by the way.” He looked up at her. “S’fucking wicked that you got such a good one. I’d never want to put it in jeopardy. But I… I’m capable of keeping it in my pants if it means I get to have you around.” He felt her go to laugh by scowled up at her, shaking his head. “M’serious. I just miss you a lot when you’re not around. Like having you here even if I trip over your shoes and you don’t rinse out your mugs. You make it feel more… I dunno, more like home.” His face dropped back into her breasts, not wanting her to see the flush on his skin.

Y/N paused her hand in his hair, making him tense slightly. He didn’t meant to fuck up if he did. If it was too serious of a thing to say- but her hand started up again, a little sight leaving her swollen lips.

“Well.. we can trial run it in the morning.” She decided breeze past what he had said. Harry wasn’t sure why that had made a bit of disappointment settle in his belly, but it was overturned with the excitement at the idea of her staying around during the day. “But that means one thing.”

He peeked back at her face to see her mischievous glint. “Means you have to get all of it out of your system now. All of the filthy, dirty stuff.”

Harry caught her drift just fine. It was one condition he was happy to have. His recovery time with Y/N was insane, actually, and he could feel himself twitch at the idea of being inside of her again.

“Mmm…”’he moved down, pressing a few kissing down her stomach. “Well… I have been thinking about cleaning you up.”

He had cum inside of her and the mere sight of it had made him feel like he could go again. There was something about being bare like that, being raw and vulnerable, knowing he was the only one allowed inside of her that got him off. It was the entire thing. Exclusivity, marking, claiming. Possessives, sure, but he already accepted that.

“What?” She asked breathily, watching him sink down and spread her thighs open. A little squeak left her lips followed by a laugh as he spread her open, looking at the mess he made. He’d gone a bit hard and he could tell, the remnants of his cum dripping down her slightly swollen cunt. “You’re not seriously going to- oh, fuck.”

Harry did as he pleased, pressing his tongue flat and swiping it over her cunt. Tasting the mix of both of them, letting it coat him, lapping up what he could just on the first pass. His eyes met hers, watching her look down at him in slight shock.

“Jesus- H, I thought guys thought it was… y’kno, gross.” She panted, though obviously proven wrong. “We can just wipe it up, it’s okay.” Y/N didn’t want him to think he had to do it or anything like that- but his immediate second pass sign his tongue had her exhaling sharply, gripping the sheets next to her. It was obviously sensitive and his wet, hot tongue was making it hard to talk.

“Tasting us together is the best thing I’ve gotten to do- besides getting to cum inside this pretty pussy. M’gonna clean it all up and fill you again.” Harry murmured, kissing the top of her mound. “We taste so good together, angel. Like we were made to be like this. Think that’s the truth.” He taunted, spreading her cunt open further with his fingers and kissing right over her clit. “This cunt was made for me. You were meant to be mine.”

He had enough words, deciding to channel his passion into her again. Lapping her up with a fervor that made her tremble, licking up bit of their orgasms that he could get with pleasured groans against her. Her clit pulsed against his thumb as he rubbed it, getting her cunt wet in a much different way than before. Keeping his mouth busy was better than blurting out that he was pretty sure he was in love with her. Probably wasn’t the best time being between her thighs but, he had managed to stop disaster.

When he finally felt her orgasm, her moan of his name and grip on his hair keeping him right on her cunt as she bucked her hips into his face and pleaded for him not to stop, he knew his words were true. Even the ones unsaid.

He was definitely in love with Y/N. And he had no idea what to do about it.

[katsukikitten]

I’m here to ask the same question you asked about the sexy edibles.

Please tell me Kazakitten and Katsukitten.

And fuck it tell me Zoey’s x Kitten too

🎤

Okay if we're assuming it's all individually and not poly 🤔

Katsuki and I are always teasing one another normally anyway. Always saying shit in the middle of arguments like "fine then no sex!" And the other claims "fine, I can out wait you anyway"

So that is the theme, we get the chocolate or gummies and split the tab. At the last second Katsuki says "Bet you'll cave first." as his hands venture to cup me to which I cat smile "Someone is already about to lose" I'm in one of his t shirts, which is form fitting on me. Ya know I'm a bigger girl, fat tits etc and hello kitty shorts (that apparently my ass hangs out of) which is a combo that makes him insane. He is in his usual t-shirt and joggers, ya know comfy clothes. Katsuki and I drink more than we get high, so our tolerance is low hehe. But I'm all giggly, which he loves the sound of always but especially now. Glancing over at me often during the movie and we both agreed we wouldn't the to sabotage the other at all.

I decide pop corn is a good idea, scurry into the kitchen and of course I need it in my big hello kitty bowl that katsuki keeps in the top part of the cabinet because it's not used often.

He knows I can't reach it, he's coming into the kitchen to help me, just to see me hoisting my knee up onto the counter as if to give myself a boost. The shorts doing anything but covering me at this point and giving Katsuki his fav view. Even without the gummy this view would have made him fuck me then in there. He growls audibly, which makes me all shaky and weak since I'm v responsive to his sounds.

He's on me in a second, "Ya fuckin cheated. Fuck hate how wet this pussy is. he doesn't he's lying, he HATES how easy it is for him to fold when it comes to me 😊 so he loses and we fuck against the counter a few times before he's moving us to the bedroom. Popcorn and movie forgotten.

Then after hours of fucking, skin tacky and sticking together he'll give me a little forehead smooch and ask "Ya hungry?"

It'll be 3am but he'll take me to waffle house and I'll dance in my seat when my waffle comes out 😊

For Akaza there is no beating around the bush, no teasing or flirting. The second he feels it and can see me feeling it too he pounces. I think he would set us up in a way that would make me so squirmy. Splitting the tab of chocolate while we face one another, legs tangled and he insists on eye contact. It's very intimate, very in the moment and again the second he sees those hearts in my eyes from him just running his palms along my thighs or a slight squeeze to my ribs he pounces on me. He'll cup my throat the whole time to make sure I don't lose focus on him and he'll put my knees on his shoulders so he can be up close and personal.

He is definitely my more firm and grounding type. Wants to make sure we're both fully in the moment even if we're under a bit of influence. Either way it works and I'm clingy and obsessed with him for weeks (which is why I prefer positions like doggy or quick fucking cause hate being clingy) but he LIVES for how much more I trust him and rely on him. Loves giving me princess treatment and me actually allowing it

Zodyl is tricky, I feel like we'd split the tab and he'd be unaffected. Or it would seem that way and I'm sitting in his lap and got little tears in my eyes because I'm so miserably horny and stubborn so I won't make the first move. And he thinks it hasn't even been that long, he hasn't even touched me yet so no way I'm wet right? He applies so little pressure to my panties and when he hears a soft squish and feels dampness I'm suddenly pinned to the couch.

Izuku is already my closeted perv/freak. He's the one who gets the gummies in this scenario and he does everything so extra (love zuzu bunny)

Like he tells me we're going to dinner and to be ready by 7, offers to pick out my outfit or tells me what level of dressed up I should be/leaves his outfit hanging out as an example.

Tonight though he tells me to be ready by seven and has the dress picked out for me. It's his favorite cocktail dress, black and the one I wore when he proposed. I figure we're going to the upscale restaurant he took us to then, before he was too nervous to eat, now he'll get a repeat and hopefully be able to enjoy the food.

Except this time before we go as I'm all dressed up and hair done and light makeup he's at the door, places a gummy on his tongue for me to see before he's gently cupping the curve of my skull to give it to me 🥴 and then he takes one himself.

"Just to spice up our night, sweetheart." It makes me giggle, I think it's just a little gummy that sero gave him but hahaha sike it's horny treat.

Which Izuku is already wearing that button up that makes him look so fucking sexy. Plus he's all scarred up and gentle and it's got me gnashing my teeth. He pulls out my chair, orders us dessert and we say we'll have some coffee to wind down. I get up to "powder my nose" winking at him and it's then that his half hard on he's been fighting all night is FULL BLOWN. He barely gives it five minutes before he's stalking me to the fancy women's restroom, locking the door behind him. Barely in control as he nearly breaks the handle and tries his best not to tear my dress (underwear is a casualty) before he's pulling me to the end of the porcelain sink, sinking to his knees in his expensive slacks, shoving my own knees to my chest so he can eat me out before he fucks me stupid just to eat his cum out again.

The staff doesn't say anything when they hear loud grunts and moans echoing in the back, away from the mostly empty dining room but they do appreciate the very large tip that Izuku leaves. "For the trouble."

[candycryptids]

hewwooo tuesday here's a silly little question for you since your "check it out, frogs!!" blog title always delights me: how do each of your characters feel about frogs? 👀

I *love* Frogs, but how do the blorbeans feel about em...? Well... I had to really think about it TTuTT BUT! Chuu favors mechanical creatures over flesh 'n blood ones, and while her getting to the First is ambiguous and mysterious (being a non-wol, I just try not to think about it too much) She DOES... love the Dwarven Mecha frogs. And. The biggest frog of them all... Formi.... <3 …. So she doesn’t care for frogs much. She has sent Tuesday out frog catching for alchemical ingredients though….

Colette... Doesn't have any feelings this way or that about frogs, really. They're small, they're kinda slimey? but mostly they're just, very small. Except Gigantoads, I suppose, but those are a toad, and decidedly less slimey, by virture of being a toad. The ambivalence remains though! They're not that tricky to fight so long as you know how to wriggle out of their tongue grasp. (I did... take some frog-related Colette pictures tho >:3 I'm just gonna, post em a bit later, since the theme got away from me) Gigantoads make for a decent enough meal so long as you prep the meat right :T the legs are the most edible part yk.

Ishi is much more fond of Poro Roggo's, Matoya's froggy familiars. They're wearing LITTLE HATS ! They wave little canes! They're quite frankly adorable and they have little croaking voices. What's not to enjoy? (And also, there's something really nice about being out in the marshes of Mor Dhona and finding a little frog instead of a Morbol ready to stink bomb you, HAH)

Tuesday shivers when he thinks about frogs (knows the difference between a frog and a toad, still pictures a Gigantoad first, and does not much love being yanked mid-cast from his Ley lines into body slamming range.) Finds just a regular little frog endearing and will get down in the mud and muck to look at it though. Is especially fascinated by frogs that stick to things like leaves and trees and their camouflages uwu He’s the one who likely knows the most about frogs, and would gladly tell you more about them. Probably compares information with Erenville, if they ever meet up in non-life-threatening-situations.

Tangy finds them fun ! If she’s on a walk or a run or an errand and it’s drizzly and she sees a little frog hop across the pathway there’s literally 0 inhibitions in her body that stop her from also hopping or skipping for at least a minute (still on her way, but a frogs leap is so charming. They’re like tiny dragoons! She points this similarity out to Estinien once. Krile laughs, Estinien looks constipated- you know the face.) She also has a weird compulsion to put them into her mouth, though, so if she catches one….. make sure it’s not poisonous. She doesn’t even plan to eat it! They just look like they would fit perfectly in her kitty jaws (she is sometimes correct).

Mochiie had to get used to frog song when he moved to Gridania. The rivers and lakes and greenery abounding let the little critters thrive in a way they don’t particularly on the Steppe. …. He comes around to finding it relaxing and feels uneasy when he doesn’t hear them anymore lmfao. In non-WoL au’s, probably sometimes tasks adventurer’s with catching frogs for alchemical ingredients OR to bring back to the pond he’s been carefully maintaining to encourage the little beepers to live in it. (Btw, his favorite frog singers are the Pobblebonk or Banjo Frog [YT Link], and the Pacific Chorus Frog [YT Link] 🥰)

Levraut…. I’m still not sure. 🤔 I think he’d like them, but he wouldn’t feel strongly about them. He WOULD eat them though. As would Colette and Mochi… I mentioned Tangy liked to stick them in her mouth but actually eating them seems like a waste, since she’s so big and they’re so small. Like eating a blueberry. I can say his favorite frogs would be the Blue Jeans Poison Frog, for their striking jackets of warning colors, and the desert rain frog, whose perfect spherical nature and grumpy face is endearing.

[theflagscene]

No, do not give Por water.

Those are bloody bags on the counter, man, why does White keep stumbling onto these things?

Fluke, wtf are you doing!?

Okay, it’s a little vomit boys, stop screaming like idiots.

Again, I say, Fluke, do not become a doctor, especially one in an ER.

Would Fluke stop being so damn mean to White!? God dammit! Also why’d you have to walk up to him like that!? Jesus.

Use an oven to dry the clay?

Okay, so possession it is. Green vomit, how very Linda Blair of them.

Now that’s a puncture wound! Finally someone died!

The safety is on? Just a guess why the gun didn’t work? Is no one gonna check it before threatening to use it.

Nah, that bitch is dead. Don’t bother shaking him, CPR ain’t gonna do shit, child.

That’s some good acting on Bump and Fuaiz’s part, Us had a good death scene too. Quiet and sad, not over the top, it was decent.

Could someone hug White and Fluke? Like damn!

Again, I say, Jin dislocated his shoulder, what’s wrong with his legs?

And why do I feel like they slapped Jin and Phee in a different location from the rest of the group because they’re the one acting duo that’ll do vague nudity during a sex scene and BoC needs to sell the BL angle so those two characters are gonna have stress sex at some point and having it at the house with the other characters wouldn’t work.

Yeah, so I take back wanting to hug Fluke, that little shit is worried about his uni grades!? For real!?… Listen, I just have a lot of conflicting feelings about Fluke lol, he’s actually one of the more interesting characters. I wanna slap him a lot of the time, but he is interesting.

Fluke turning on Tee and I’m assuming Top, since those two were the most adamant about not watching the video. I like it, cliched but for a good reason, it works to move the plot forward. Also, why am I getting a vibe that Tan is somehow related to Non? I dunno, just a feeling.

At least Tee stepped in front of White, there’s that redeemable moment for him I guess.

Oh evil Top is back. Great, now please shoot him!

Thank you! Watch Fluke have missed or like hit Tan or something because he closed his eyes lmao.

Next week we get Baby Barcode! Finally! Also, what was so funny about a found footage movie? Tee and Top are just assholes, and it looks like Jin might have played a little bit with Non’s feelings. Hmm, tit for freaking tat much? Isn’t that what he’s whining about Phee doing to him 🤔🤔

[theearlgreymage]

An Ask Game for Writers to Procrastinate Working on Your WIP(s)

Soooo -- The lovely @ic3-que3n decided to tag me in this little game. Because they know I am eternally procrastinating on all my WIPS.

(Original Ask Game)

1. 🦈Tell us the name of your/ one of your WIP(s):

Vogue in Paradis (And I will be using this specific WIP for all remaining questions)

2. 🍄Describe your WIP/one of your WIP(s) in the format of “___ + ___ =___”

Fashion Designer Erwin + Makeup Designer Levi = Rivals to Lovers Office Romance

3. 🌍What tags or warnings will your / one of your WIP(s) need if you intend to share it?

Guys. Come on. This is ME we're talking about - they are going to fuck. Explicitly.

4. 🧭An alternative title to your/ one of your WIP(s)?

This one was originally unnamed when the premise for it was created. I started this a while ago, and then set it on the back burner, but then Lewi dropped this amazing art and it sparked that flame of motivation to continue it -- and gave it a Title.

5. ⚠️Which WIP your most likely to finish or update next?

Either May Their Blood Boil will get an update OR I will finish Vogue in Paradis

6. 💾What is your document of your WIP/ a WIP called? (not the stories actual title but what you’ve saved it as)

Despite how meticulously I keep my Google Drive organized, there is absolutely no rhyme or reason to my Docs Names. Most of the time it is just an extremely vague phrase. But I do keep my Docs ORGANIZED. Each fandom has it's own folder, and within that there are folders for oneshots, series, ideas, and @ic3-que3n (yes - they have a whole ass folder because they put that many ideas in my fucking head.)

7. 🖍Post Any sentence(s) from your WIP.

“Smith.”  At the mere mention of Erwin’s name, Hange starts laughing.   “Stop that,” I sneer at them as I lean back in my chair and cross my arms defensively. Already anticipating where this is going to go – which is why I didn’t want to say anything to them in the first place.  “Stop being in denial then,” Hange wheezes out between fits of laughter.  “I’m not in denial!”  We’ve had this argument before – anytime I bring up Erwin, Hange insists that I have a crush on him. Which I do not.  “Keep telling yourself that,” Hange drawls as they wipe a tear of laughter away from their lash line.  “We’re not having this discussion.”  “And you’re still not getting laid.”  “Hange.” I practically snarl at them.   It doesn’t perturb them in the slightest. “Look me in the eyes and tell me I’m wrong,” and I’m about to answer their demand but then they keep going. “Tell me you don’t think he’s a whole ass meal. That you haven’t thought about what he’s hiding under those bland Oxford shirts and wool pants.”  “I don’t –”  “Or that you don’t think he’s infuriatingly good at his job.”  “That has nothing –”  “Or that you can’t seem to keep your eyes and ears off of him in joint meetings.”  “Well that’s only –” “Or that it’s a damn shame no one has been able to take him off the market.”    The silence that falls over us is uncomfortably tense. And I can’t decide if I want to crawl beneath my desk at the sudden, horrifying, realization that I can’t deny a word they just said – or leap across the table and strangle them for making me realize I can’t.  “That’s what I thought,” they chime triumphantly as they lean back on their hands. Pushing a pencil cup out of its place.  “Get. Out.” I snip between clenched teeth. My hands balled up in fists in the crooks of my elbows to keep from lashing out at this idiot I call my best friend. 

8. ♻️A scrapped idea for your current WIP.

Hmm. No. I'm holding this information incase I un-scrap the idea.

9. 🤔What’s a story you’d love to write but haven’t even started yet?

I have a WILD backwards-reincarnation plot cooking in my head right now. I'm going to make the CANON the reincarnation and write a whole pre-canon/part reincarnation for my blorbos. And I am ITCHING to write it like it's no ones fucking business, but I'm determined to get some other projects off my plate first so that I can give it the attention that it rightfully deserves.

10. 🤡How many WIPS are you actively working on?

Hahahahaha...ha...ha... Well. You see...That's not an easy answer. Because I am not good at math and cannot count that high... But. In the last 30 days...Going off of WIPs that I've typed at least 500 words on... 11...

11. 🛠Is there a scene or anything in the WIP you are struggling with right now?

Yes 😎

12. ❤️Not a question, just a second Kudos to send.

Bless. You're too sweet my love ❤️

And now so I can spread the procrastination, I’m tagging...

@artsyunderstudy @shrekgogurt @buffy @j-nipper-95 @aristocratic-otter @cutestkilla @facewithoutheart @fatalfangirl @hushed-chorus @martsonmars @skeedelvee @thewholelemon @wellbelesbian @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @palimpsessed

[lovelyinspiration1463]

Loki S2 E2 Spoilers Ahead!

My thoughts while watching it for the first time:

How did those two women not notice the time door opening right beside them???

Was this X-5’s life before the TVA abducted him?

Also, how are Loki and Mobius walking right through and no one’s saying anything?

Loki did not just give a cheeky little smile to that flashing camera! 👀🤭

B-15 slaying once again!

Oh wow, looks like the writers suddenly remembered that Loki has powers and is actually OP.

Dude, what is this set??? Those are the most menacing back alleys and hallways I’ve ever seen!

I mean as far as I’m concerned, the more Loki, the better.

I’m sorry is he being restrained by shadows?! Why is this the funniest thing ever 💀

All of that before just the proper title sequence?!

OB…? You okay, babe?

How can Loki perform magic but not read some instructions?

I have a terrible feeling Loki won’t keep it simple. Simple isn’t really his thing. (Refer back to shadow restraints.)

YOU TAKE THAT BACK RIGHT NOW YOU BOTTOM-FEEDER! HOW DARE YOU BRING FRIGGA INTO THIS!

I mean… I'm not mad at it though. 

He’s right about the therapy, but he has no right to make legitimate suggestions!

Oh, that was a turn I didn’t expect! Mr. “Stay calm” 🙄

Mobius not wanting to talk about his feelings is such a guy thing to do I’m gonna cry.

Pie? In a time like this???

“That wasn’t tactical” YEAH NO KIDDING! We been knew, Mobius.

It’s okay sweetie you were just in a silly goofy mood that day. And we all know Thanos was behind that.

HOW DARE HE RELAX!

Either this is all part of their plan or things just got real.

OH LOOK WHO WANTS TO TRY AND BACKTRACK! Low key, I want to see what the machine does to him.

Okay his sass is amazing, ngl.

I think this goes against the Geneva Conventions 🤔

This is the best fanboy moment ever! 

Mobius is me fr 😭

I’m sorry, is she actually mad at him?!

I don’t even know what to say. I just love Mobius so much! 🥹

WHY WOULD YOU NOT HAVE STARTED WITH THE BIG SHOCKWAVE???

Sylvie’s attitude is just baffling to me.

[britcision]

So this is pretty much what it looks like when I’m world building with the partner

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Partner: so I want Evil Tony Stark to have this magic painting of a door that opens into a dark little room to keep my boy in when he’s naughty or inconvenient

Me: oh yes very good. And it’s not like the frame is the door, you open the painting of the door into another dimension

Partner: yeah he’s gotta be able to take it away with him so he can have it on command 😈

Me: okay so how I think this works is he paints the room inside it first to make the interdimensional space, and then paints the door closed over it, so he can paint whatever he wants in the room 🤔

Partner: oh yeah that’s cool, so he can put furniture or a happy little tree in 😋

Me, suddenly vibrating: okay but no he actually paints a Happy Little Tree and it’s just a tree in the corner of this completely dark room that just giggles softly all the time 🫠

Partner: …. And we tell the party as a joke the first time about this old cell the boy was in with a happy lil tree 😏

Me: and then we don’t say anything for like 2 years and then one of them gets put in the dark room and they just hear giggling 🤩

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Or

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Partner: okay so Evil Tony Stark mostly uses constructs and stuff for servants so we’ll put the Robotery in the basement for those 🤖

Me: okay, and when y’all go back to the abandoned mansion do you want there to be one left behind? 🙂

Partner: fuck yeah and the boy knows all of them he loves little creatures (and the house mimics) 🥰

Me: and since the boy was intentionally left behind, this is probably a construct that was doing something related to him so it’s probably reasonably aesthetic, yea? Like feeding him or dressing him up? 😇

(The boy was being kept as a pet by Evil Tony Stark because he glows for Fey Reasons and was pretty literally a living sculpture for 11 years and they did not exactly worry about the “living” part much)

Partner: yeah, if Evil Tony Stark is gonna see it around it’s gotta be aesthetic ✨

Me: so you find this cute sweet little construct friend and then you go a little further into the room and just see hundreds of partially or fully deconstructed bodies of this exact little guy and most of them are just minorly different aesthetics because Evil Tony Stark just trashes them when he wants a new look

Also one is still just barely alive and that’s because it’s one of the ones with a person’s soul bound to it and they’ve just been cuddling in the dark for months since they were abandoned 🥰

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This just happens in the winter okay I become Extremely Fucking Ominous for literally no reason and then it’s Horror Time

Most of our world building is him making cool and interesting places and characters and then me sneaking in sideways like “hey what if they’re also super fucked up 👀”

And to be fair he loves it and he always says yes please and helps me fuck them up more

Anyway we laid the groundwork for Lord Meldacio’s mansion today that the party are gonna get to in a couple weeks and I had so much fun this guy is the fucking bomb

[decepti-thots]

(I’ll preface by saying: huge JP fan who has no problem with people not liking it)

Anyways I’m actually super curious…

How are most JP fics “boring”? 🤔 I’ve always found their dynamic to be more entertaining than most, given the dichotomy of their characters.

So I’m curious as to how you’ve wound up at “boring” of all the possible reasons to dislike it. 🤣

I'm going to be a bit blunter here than I usually would be on the topic, as I was directly asked. So I'll cut the uh… negativity? I guess? For those who prefer not to see folks talk shit about a ship they like, lol.

First and foremost Jazz/Prowl is basically just… essentially made up and purely based on fanon inventions/additions, and made up fanon stuff is usually not of real interest to me without a very strong hook somewhere in the actual canon material. It is 99% fanon by volume that draws on little to no canon material of any kind but just... years of fanon, reproducing itself and mutating almost like a fanfic game of telephone, all developed in fandom echo chambers. Which renders the characters in the vast majority of fic a) largely unrelated to any canon material I like in a meaningful sense and b) tbqh, the kind of generic stuff found in a lot of typical, large dudeslash fandoms where the characters are… they're Dudeslash Fandom Archetypes with a gloss of paint on top, you know? People come in, look for which character in a fandom fits their favourite m/m trope the most, and then squish the character down to fit into that pre-existing archetype.

And the thing is, J/P has historically made a certain kind of sense for this, because the appeal was basically that… they didn't HAVE that much canon material? In the Marvel G1 comics, they have a little more specific characterisation and canon, but the G1 cartoon is not exactly a character exploration piece ANYWAY, and for Prowl especially he is a blank slate you can functionally project an OC onto. Which like, that's fine! That makes a lot of sense even if it's not what usually draws me into something.

My issue has become that if I read one more G1-fanon-soup fest mistagged "IDW" I'm gonna scream. I like IDW Prowl (and IDW Jazz too!) for the fact that these characters have specific, strongly delineated canon personalities, arcs and dynamics, and both of these characters- Prowl especially, but both of them!- have like. Things about them which are true, and which J/P fic not only tends to ignore but actively treats in a loooot of cases as somehow Inferior To Our Fanon and something to be "fixed" with idk, the power of Extremely Generic Dudeslash Tropes. I've been in many a fandom with Migratory Dudeslash Fandoms writing fic. J/P is extremely rote to me as a result, if nothing else.

It warrants mentioning that J/P fandom is where one does find a lot of examples of just undeniably racist treatment of Jazz in fic, both the truly inexcusable phonetic accent bullshit and also a lot of bad decisions around tropes. I don't think this is a function of the ship, per se, but that its specific persistence in J/P fandom (bc trust me: this has been a point of criticism for A Long Fucking Time) is in part due to it having this long entrenched fanon-to-fanon game of telephone going on? It would be better to talk about the fandom's issues there outside ship talk so I'll leave it at that, but I can't deny it has not… helped my feelings. TBH. And I know that's where a lot of the resentment you will find in the fandom obviously stems from.

IDK. It's just. It's usually fanfic of itself, you know? J/P largely feels to me, in most cases, like fanfic of fanfic of fanfic, and I come to TF fandom for fanfic of a canon. So. Yeah. Not a fan. At all.

[sessakag]

I really love your characterization of Hinata! I appreciate so much that while you give her inner strength you don’t turn her into someone she isn’t just because of a new confidence boost (like making her suddenly super outspoken or jokingly mean or casually violent for slapstick humor purposes). Her shyness and kindness are part of why I fell in love with her in the first place so I’m delighted that she retains those qualities in your works. Of the stories you’ve written so far, which Hinata has been your favorite to write? I have to admit a soft spot for Butterfly Hinata because she’s super precious and I can tell she’s gonna suffer so my hearts already bleeding for her lol.

Ah yes, the ol' strength means aggression, nastiness and bitchiness. I do not and will never understand the thinking that strength equates to overt aggressiveness. 😩Strength comes in all different shapes and sizes, there is no one-size fits all and no hard definition on what it means to be strong. Everyone is different.

Now

Excuse the rant but: Its ALWAYS irked me that people would completely overhaul her character into something more in line with a Sakura or Ino and claim its her being "strong" now. For the longest time, I avoided all stories tagged "strong Hinata" because I knew that meant "I just shoved Sakura into a Hinata skin". I could not stand that, omg. I'm fine with people writing characters OOC, I do it all the time but I warn AND put in tags for people so they know what's up, its the trying to pass this altered Hinata off as in-line with her character or an organic change that could actually happen that really bothers me. Its like I'm not even reading about Hinata anymore, its an OC running around with her face. One of my biggest pet peeves is messin with Hinata's character, 😂. I'll turn Naruto into a bloodthirsty filthy mouth troglodyte all day long but leave my Hinata alone! Let her stay all sweet and cuddly 🥰that's my preference, everyone has their own, but goddamn people need to warn their readers that don't wanna that BEFORE we get caught up in the story, sheesh! So, I did what I always do, don't like something? Go make your own! And here we are today, lol. Made my own. And I'm the same, that sweetness, kindness and quiet strength is why I adore Hinata and I always want that to be the core of her in any story I write.

My favorite Hinata to date? 🤔 Interesting question since I spend so much time in Naruto's head 😂I'd have to say A Cure For Love Hinata, with Monster coming in at a very, VERY close second. Witchy Hinata is just flat out fun, lol. She's got so much destruction at her dainty little fingers tips, can body a lycan Naruto, vampire Sasuke and harpy Sakura and STILL manage to be cute, cuddly and adorably sweet and compassionate 🥰 By far, the most fun Hinata, though Monster Hinata getting corrupted by the lascivious machinations of a perverted Naruto is sooooo much fun.