#PLEASE LET ME KNOW I’M SO SORRY-

[siphoklansan]

“How curious…there’s a sketchbook on the ground. Well, it wouldn’t hurt to take a look, would it?”

As you flip through the pages you notice these things:

The artist goes by the name Siphok. A peculiar name, isn’t it? Don’t you just wonder what that means?

The artist only draws Twisted Wonderland, including her OCs that are in the fandom.

The artist draws comics, plain art, or does animatics.

The artist does not draw NSFW or gore, whatsoever.

Art requests are something the artist wishes to do, and she loves drawing for her followers and mutuals.

The artist reblogs a lot of Twisted Wonderland fics, do keep in mind to block tags mentioned below if you do not wish to see it. She”s quite lazy, so she tends to not switch to her spam account.

The artist is quite friendly, feel free to leave a note or two in the back of her sketch book. (askbox)

“There are sticky notes between the pages. How strange…”

❦siphok-reblogs❦ (for reblogs of art/fan-fiction)

✰siphok-moots✰ (her mutuals, they have a special place in her heart)

༄siphok-chatters༄ (she answers whatever question thrown her way)

☂︎︎siphok-museum☂︎︎ (for her art, specifically)

☞︎siphok-spams☜︎ (she spams quite a lot, but they don’t involve in anything else.)

➪siphok-ANNOUNCING➪ (for announcements)

“Having fun, are we?….You buffoon! She’s walking over here— you’ll get caught!”

As you hide in the bushes, you notice something about the artist.

She’s South East Asian, specifically from Thailand. English is not her first language, and the artist appreciates it greatly if you don’t judge her for her bad grammar.

The artist goes by she/her pronouns

The artist loves literature and reading, however, she does have a bad habit of buying news books despite not finishing previous ones. Crime and Punishment is one of her favorites, along with No Longer Human. (she did not finish Crime and Punishment, what a clown)

The artist loves history. You can leave notes about fun facts on history, and she’ll love it more if you share your homeland’s history, mythology, and culture. The artist’s is always open minded, and is excited to hear what you’ll leave in her sketchbook.

The artist is quite forgetful, hence why she forgot her sketchbook on the ground in the first place.

Her favorite characters are Leona Kingscholar, Riddle Rosehearts, and Jamil Viper. But she does love other characters dearly.

“The artist is…writing a letter? Squint your eyes; maybe you’ll see who she’s writing to.”

@ceruleancattail , the talented mage next door, ready to acquire all your magical needs

@shinmon-c , the prison guard of Milgrim prison, do be careful now

@twistedchatterbox , the water nymph of Octavinelle. you may want to watch your back; or she’d pull you into the depths of the ocean. but, it seems like you don’t mind, do you?

@oepionie , the love witch. are you interested in capturing one’s heart?

@fukashiin , what a lively soul. you can feel the warm rays of sunshine beaming onto your soul just by the look of that name

@azurevi , quite the talented author they are. they have left a deep impression that the artist will never forget

@taruruchi the artist’s new acquaintance, she is excited to interact more with them

@ryuuryuuhoney , the artist doesn’t know when their wedding will be held with Trey— excuse me, Tr*ey

@the-dumber-scaramouche , a new acquaintance whom the artist simps on Leona with

@hisui-dreamer , a talented author the artist have just be acquainted with. their works are quite lovely

@the-v-lociraptor , ah finally….someone who shares the same interests with the artist

“You idiot! You’re breathing too— loud…..”

You are caught red-handed by the artist. Perhaps some day you’ll get to see her OCs. What were their names again? Ah, yes…

Charin, the half-merman and Yaksha, and Anan..the fallen aristocrat

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[irate-iguana]

We need more weird historian rep in Doctor Who. The companions are too normal when faced with the prospect of time travel. I want a companion who makes a list of super specific historical destinations related to their dissertation. I want somebody whose first reaction to finding out that the Doctor is a time travelling alien is to create a Microsoft Word document and ask, “What caused the Late Bronze Age collapse?”

[raplinenthusiasts]

INSANE

© jung-koook

[malenjoyer]

Good morning 🙏🏼

I want to thank everyone their support with reblogging my stuff over the years and reblogging some of the context of the situation.

Tumblr and Instagram is filled with the most supportive people I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. The last time something like this happened, I didn’t have much support, not even from people I thought were close to me. It took me a year or two to be okay with being perceived again in fandoms. So I’m very grateful for everything.

I just wanted to post that I appreciate all of the asks and I’ve been reading all of them. I actually get anxious I’m spamming everyone too much so I probably won’t reply to everything. Please don’t feel pressured to support me financially, there’s is a free option on patreon to follow. I’ll post future project plans and occasional updates because I still love comics and I still love DC/Marvel. I do enjoy having people following along for my art/reading journey so I would always be okay with people just following for free. My brain is telling me this post is too long now so I will go 🙏🏼😭

[bugcatcherkit]

do you have shou mom hc or anything like that? I was looking at the bingo cards and wondered about your thoughts

kind of YES! I'm making another list. I don't know if you mean the entire Broad Range of what a HC is, or something specific. So these will be random thoughts I think about her.

This isn't really a HC and more explaining and/or expanding her canon personality traits. But alongside her headstrongness, I think she can be impulsive. Like, rushes into things she shouldn't but she becomes wholeheartedly committed anyway. Which isn't to say she's naive -- she knows exactly what she's getting into, she just thinks she can handle more than she actually can. Like someone else I know..

Also anybody else notice her strong need to make a huge impact on somebody else's life. She chose the Worst Guy ever with full intent that she alone could Fix Him (didn't even wait to see if she could). I think she wants the validation that her words, efforts, and convictions alone can make the world (and other people) a little better overall. It's just interesting that she could possibly seek a Big Goal through relationships themselves instead of at the expense of them.

Does anybody else think about how she was the only person outside of Claw who knew about it. Her ex literally got someone murdered and she couldn't do anything about it or go to anyone (because who's going to believe that? Especially when she doesn't have any evidence). And she had to live with it for years. Probably isolating as hell !!!! Especially because we don't know what her support system outside of her family was, if she even had an extensive one.

I imagine she tends to feel bad about things very easily, specifically her own actions/inaction, and how that effects other people. Like a responsibility thing, even though most things are out of her control. Her knowing when she needs to quit doesn't quite stop her feeling bad for doing so (and also I don't think she learned her own limits until That Argument, so she's like "what if I did More". It's part of I think she's always asking about Toichiro and planned to visit him with Shou -- she wanted to try again. This is Alongside her concern for him).

OKAY I am going to rant about the abandonment thing again because I keep seeing it still. Grabs everyone by the shoulders. There are so many reasons that she did not take Shou with her. Since (in the context of the argument) her leaving seems like a split-second decision, she probably did not have the proper resources to support him immediately after she left. By the time she got something figured she literally couldn’t get custody. AND I hope nobody forgot that Toichiro used Shou as leverage against her and that was why he cut contact between them entirely (or he thought he did). But they stayed in contact anyway!!!!!!!! They called and visited!!!! People get so distracted with the "abandonment" part that they overlook any potential complicated feelings that probably exist on both sides. Because those are very normal to have with a situation like that!!! For example, her leaving did not have the effect she thought it would (make Toichiro see his mistakes), and she has to consider that! But, at the time, she had run out of things to do or say, and it wouldn't have mattered anyway because the whole point was that Toichiro refused to listen to her or consider her feelings or Accept Change at all. Can anybody hear me??? So sorry to put this rant here when all you wanted was some headcanons

FUCK THAT GOT LONG. That's not even HC that's just character analysis I think? I don’t know anything. I'm actually bad at HCs guys. IDK what characters do in their spare time I just hyper-analyze their thoughts and motivations and ideals. Here's some actual HC maybe?

post-divorce she doesn't get her own place for a while (she is Unsure of what her next steps are and has a LOT to consider) but when she does it's quite small and cozy. Though, it only develops a Homely feel when Shou starts visiting. It becomes more personalized after that, I guess? Does that make sense.

She seems like the type to have a collection of trinkets that are One specific animal. She's got like 50 little porcelain bears sitting on a shelf somewhere or something.

she has one of those ugly little dogs with the crusty eyes. And she saw him at the shelter and he was so old and sad that she almost cried, so she had to take him home.

She is big on manners. Constantly scolding Shou for his lack of them when he moves in with her finally

also she's got the same bluntness and genuineness that Tsubomi has, I think. Actually she has a lot in common with Tsubomi. They are shaking hands. Committed to the people they care about but don't sacrifice their true selves for anything. Etc.

LET HER HAVE A LITTLE GARDEN!!!!!!! She'd love it. She'd talk to her plants to help them grow.

I want to give her a name but I haven't been able to settle on one. Very sad. Hopefully soon?

this feels like me saying a whole lot of nothing. I guess I couldn't get too deep into things because at that point it would feel like I'm inventing a totally different character (because she does not exist in the narrative outside of Narrative Device). Maybe she needs it though. but I fear i cannot do Mob Psycho like ONE can....

[actual-gremlin]

Me not realizing I put ‘Suffering’ on loop Me: How has suffering become so endless?

[coconut530]

WHAHAHAHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTT!?!

[h-didanart]

How do you feel about TSAMS ships? All the way from Earth x Monty (canon/generally liked ships) to Sun x Bloodmoon (not canon/rare or generally not liked ships)?

Don't ask how I know Sun x Bloodmoon exists btw

Ooh, SAMS ships eh? I’m gonna list all the ones I know about, if I miss one you’re curious about just let me know, k?

Again, I will list the ones I know about.

(This is gonna reveal my lurking habits on ao3 god fuc—)

Mearth, Monty X Earth - cute, I like the dynamic they have.

KidsCove, Foxy X Sun - I like this one. I do. I understand the vas are sick of the jokes tho, bit ironic considering they’re still dragging the jokes around, but oh well. It could be cute to see develop, and lead to improvement to both characters general health. At least I’d like to think it would

GlitterGolf, Monty X Sun - in SAMS? No. Monty is a jerk towards Sun, I don’t like it when Monty is too rude to him. Generally hate that type of thing anyways. In canon Security Breach however…… Ye :3 Is my otp.

Lumini, Lunar X Gemini - I feel neutral. It’d be cool if it happened, but after all these three have gone through it probably won’t. And I’m fine with that

EclipseXSun - I think this is the most popular one. I don’t know how to feel about it. On one hand, there’s canon, and canon says Eclipse is and always was horrible to Sun, and that makes it an immediate no. I like my ships healthy. But then comes in Eclipse Redemption stories, and I suppose it’d kinda make sense in those? I don’t know man

BloodySun, BM X Sun - iiiii don’t knooooooow. See, BM has done a lot of shit, they’ve traumatized the family so much. Sun hates them. It would never work out. But then there’s this one fic, this one, where Sun finds Original crying in the vents over his twin, and he helps them. And— and— and it’s a BloodySun fic, and it establishes character parallels so well, it shows their feelings so well, it makes it make sense! I- I don’t KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW

SolarMoon- ……………. I’m scared of saying anything about this, I don’t want to get death threats

MechShark, Solar X Ruin- YEEEEEEEAHHH CANON CANNOT HURT ME WHERE IM GOING— uh— ahem— I like it. I cannot explain why but I’ve shipped them since Ruin started messing with the arcade machines. I like to see people still shipping it even through the doomed angle, there’s just something about this that makes it click, y’know. I myself have an au where MechShark is somewhat canon, it’s one sided and stays one sided, with Solar telling Ruin he’s aro when it confesses, and then they stay friends. Because I don’t care if they’re lovers or friends, I just like the idea of them being buds.

Eclipse trio, Eclipse X Solar X Ruin- this is actually kinda funny? I don’t know, this feels like a crackship, no offense to anyone, that’s just the vibes I’m getting. Don’t feel in any particular way about this one

Earth X Nebula- interesting, I guess. We haven’t really seen much of Nebula and I can’t really build a concrete profile for her from what we know, but I guess it’d be cool?

KillCode X Sun- I don’t like the sound of this one. KillCode caused (and helped cause) Sun a lot of trauma, it just wouldn’t feel right. That said, there is a fic that has this ship and develops it in a healthy way, and that one I like.

PumpkinGuts- next question

KillCode X SolarFlare- I can see it, kinda. Don’t hate it, but also don’t love it

Eclipse X Moon- no. I don’t care what you say about enemies to lovers, this one just doesn’t vibe with me.

GolfDrop, Monty X Moon- ehh, no. Don’t really like it, can’t see Moon wanting a relationship with them (or in general), they’re both fine as friends. I don’t even ship this in Security Breach

Forkface X Ruined Monty- I am saddened I didn’t see the content of them before the death, I wanted to experience this, I wanted to see them :(

Soppet, Solar X Puppet- sure? Don’t think much about this one

ShadowPlanet, Earth X Eclipse- I don’t really like it. I don’t like how fast it turned into a thing. I can see the appeal and what dynamic they could have, but I just don’t like this one

Solar X Sun- interesting pairing. Don’t particularly like it. I just feel like Solar’s trauma would likely get in the way. They both weren’t very close anyways, which is a real shame I would’ve loved to see them be at least friends.

Lunar X Helpy- Ehhhh? Don’t feel anything about this one :P

And that’s all I could think about and remember.

No hate to anyone who ships these, these are just my opinions, and opinions are subjective. Let’s all just have fun with these characters, yeah?

Man

AO3 scares me

[togrowoldinv]

Letters From Natasha

Natasha Romanoff x Reader

Note: This is a little idea I had, so I’m not really gonna frame it as a fic. I’m sorry it’s very sad. But do let me know if y’all might want the letters and I could write something 🥹

It’s almost summertime but everything feels so cold. When you get home, you don’t know where to begin. It’s been three days since you lost her.

She’s gone.

Those words echo in your head.

The funeral was crowded. Your friends and family gathered around to mourn Natasha. But you felt alone. You felt alone the minute she took her last breath in your arms.

You felt cold.

Your oldest children understand what happened. They knew the day could come no matter how much they hoped and prayed it wouldn’t.

The younger kids cry but they don’t know what exactly for. They just know that their mama isn’t there to tuck them into bed or make them giggle with her cheesiness anymore.

All of the children have slept with you every night since and almost never leave your side.

You decide to face the music and walk into your bedroom. You’ve been staying with Wanda since it happened, not able to face this place that was once so full of life.

Fiddling with the ring on your finger, you sit on the edge of the bed. Your eyes catch a glimmer of something golden on your dresser. You’ve not seen it before.

You walk over to investigate it to find a locked box. The keyhole shape looks familiar. That’s when it hits you.

Inside your pocket you find your keychain. One day Natasha slipped a golden key onto it and when you questioned her she just smiled and said “for someday.”

The key fits into the box perfectly and the latches open. You take a deep breath as you lift up the lid.

Inside is a set of envelopes. The first one has your name on it in her handwriting. You hold it to your chest.

The second and third and so on have the names of your children. And the pile continues on. There’s one for Yelena, Wanda, Steve, Sam, the whole team. Anyone Natasha called a friend or family member. Even Peter Parker has a letter.

You break down in tears as you see each name. Everyone she loved. Everyone who loves her.

Putting everyone’s letter back but the one for you, you sit on your bed again. This time on her side.

Inside the letter is the last words Natasha will ever say to you. You take a breath and open the letter…

[one-upgirl]

I wanted to make a post on Maria’s character from silent hill 2 because she is such a genuinely fascinating character and there is so much up to interpretation so I wanted to share my interpretation of her. I will go into so details of the born from a wish bonus content in the directors edition of silent hill 2 so here’s your spoiler warning I won’t go full into detail but still. So even with the name born from a wish title for her content I feel that it confirms the fact that Maria isn’t real and was created by the town. Maria starts the born from a wish with a revolver compared to how she’s completely unarmed in base game. There is also a large themes between ghosts and fate in her born of a wish and that James Sunderland is tied to her. There is also a very interesting scene where Maria looks at teddy bear and says she thinks that Laura would like, but she doesn’t know who the girl is it’s just Mary’s memory filling in the gaps for her. There is a character in born from a wish called Ernest Baldwin who knows a lot more about silent hill and Maria compared to everybody else. I think he’s like Maria in the sense he’s a part of the town as once you enter the room he’s in he vanishes and Maria only seems to be able to interact with the creatures that were created by silent hill. He offers to tell Maria exactly who and what she is. But she doesn’t want to hear it she doesn’t want to know, because I think she’s afraid that she’ll find out that she is in fact not a real person just a part of the town manifested. Towards the end of the game she throws away the revolver and gives into what role the town wants her to be she even starts to act different . I feel that not only does she not exist as a person but she isn’t real to anyone besides James. She never interacts with any other people in the town except for maybe Laura but even then it’s Maria who tells us and we never see the two of them interact. There is also her insistence to James that she’s real I think that is also her way of convincing herself that she is real. Also the whole game of silent hill is a way of punishing James that’s why Maria exists as a way of tormenting him with an another version of his wife. Maria at first is apprehensive towards the comparison to Mary constantly correcting James. But I think she starts to worry what would happen if James left, if the torment ended. Would she cease to exist if she was created by the town to torment her. She’s lonely that was made evidently clear in born of a wish I think that’s because she isn’t real to anyone else. I think in her realizing it she starts to lean into being Mary more or whatever James wants to be. As long as James is happy or as long as he’s in silent hill she can continue to exist. I don’t think that Maria can leave silent hill as in the Maria ending Maria and James leave the tow, but as they start to make their exit Maria gets sick just like Mary does. I think it that ending she would most likely die Mary did. As for her boss fight I think it’s either another way of playing into James’s wants or maybe she just can’t handle being around James anymore because he is a genuinely awful person who killed his wife and has no regards for her well-being and an existence with him isn’t worth is so she wants to take him out consequences be damned.

TLDR / summary:

I think that Maria is most likely if not confirmed a creation of the town. She is meant to be like another version of Mary but she has her own personality and is struggling with her identity and who she’s supposed to be that being a version of Mary that is James’s ideal version as a way to torment him. She tries to get James to stay with her as she starts to realize that their fates are intertwined and she can’t exist with out him.

[raplinenthusiasts]

BTS x The Office

for @cordiallyfuturedwight 🫂

[jetskisonyourmoat]

The thing about paparazzi photos is that very few famous people are being stalked or having their privacy invaded with these kinds of photos. Alex and Louise are not famous enough for paparazzi to accidentally catch them, especially not at a hotel in Italy of all places. They’re not THAT recognisable. The agency that released the photos is called Backgrid and is literally an agency for celebrity news, so I’m like 80% sure one of them called up and paid for these photos to be taken. That’s why they look staged and that’s why there are moments when they both seem aware of the camera.

This is not the first time Alex has been papped, obviously the volume of photos has never been this large, but he’s been in the industry for close to 2 decades. Multiple sets of photos were taken of him and Louise at the start of their relationship in very random places so clearly contacts have been formed and this is not their first rodeo.

Alex has dated people like Alexa Chung who is an expert at utilising paparazzi to her advantage (this is not a dig at her, it’s just part of the job). Throughout their entire relationship they were photographed a lot, because that’s part of how you grow your status as someone in the public eye. Alex is not naive, he knows how this works. Obviously he doesn’t need be photographed to help his career his music speaks for itself, but his girlfriend’s do and he’s been happy to oblige.

Famous people and paparazzi’s often have a more symbiotic relationship than people realise, of course there are always going to be people who are vulnerable/taken advantage of by unethical paparazzi. But again a lot of the time these photos are accompanied by an article, like todays, which acts as promotion for whoever is featured.

If Alex doesn’t want to be seen, he can very easily disappear from public view, it has happened multiple times over the years and he is an expert at not drawing attention to himself. Obviously fan photos are different, but he has a lot of control over when people see him. The fact that he’s not very recognisable in London or LA really drives this point home. What I’m trying to say is that he most likely consented to the photos and at the very least knew that they were being taken.

[bluvlet]

Your trolley problem art is incredible and made me think about those characters in ways I hadn’t before – I’m sure someone asked you already but PLEASE share your thoughts about that episode, I too am tormented by it and the question of whether it’s good or not

Thank you so much for your lovely words about my art! I feel like I should preface anything I say with the information that a lot of how I view and interpret things comes in the form of pattern seeking, which can be very ‘magical thinking’ at times. If I say anything that feels like I’ve jumped through several hoops without you to get there please let me know and I’ll try my best to explain my thought process behind it.

I'm concerned my response will be rather disappointing because honestly I don’t know what I really think about this episode. I don’t know what it's going for, or what it’s trying to say. The only reason I’ve written so much about it is because I struggle to process it in the confines of my own head. The best I can offer is several unrelated paragraphs about things I’ve turned over in my mind the most. Apologies I can’t offer anything in the way of substantial analysis.

The thing I’ve rambled about the most to my friends (and what I admit is my most outlandish opinion about this episode) is a (for lack of a better descriptor) homoerotic subtext I’ve picked up on regarding the presentation of Blake and Drew’s relationship - which I find to be a reflection of Blake’s relationship with Ellie. Because Drew and Blake are the only characters who appear on screen in the episode (especially in the first half of the episode, before Ellie is mentioned) in order to seed the idea that Blake is an abuser, the writers have to write that aspect of his character into the way he treats Drew. This results in a lot of the allusions to Blake having assaulted Ellie coming in the form of his interactions with Drew. Some of the best examples of this are Blake putting sugar in Drew’s tea after Drew said he didn’t want any, his insistence to force forms of therapy onto Drew without consent, and obviously how he immediately decides to slip one into his tea as soon as Drew combats this (i.e, as soon as Blake feels like he’s losing control over Drew’s behaviour, he tries to sedate him). These work to foreshadow Blake’s nasty history before it's revealed to the audience. By themselves I don’t find these particularly homoerotic, they only become so by virtue of what they represent about Blake’s character (that him preying on his patients is a pattern of behaviour.) I think this subtext exists so strongly in my mind because there are no other examples of Blake behaving in this way with people other than Ellie and then Drew. Blake’s mistreatment of his patients becomes to me almost associated with sexuality, because he takes advantage of Ellie and then treats Drew in a similar manner, without there being another example of him taking advantage of someone non-sexually. When I talk about this subtext it’s in a removed way as something the writers almost definitely didn’t intend but nonetheless is implied by the writing. They have to characterise Blake as a ‘sadist’ and abuser for the narrative, but the episode's nature as a two hander results in this being taken out on Drew. I don’ t think those were Blake’s intentions or anything, I think he was just hoping he’d get Drew on his client list. His violation of Drew’s boundaries throughout the episode is, in a literal sense and intended, to be a platonic display of control and authority as a doctor figure. But when the only other example the narrative gives of his behaviour with past patients is Ellie, that threat lurks between the lines.

I refer to Blake’s relationship with Drew as an example of him mistreating his patients because I think that's how Blake views his relationship with Drew in the first half of the episode. Blake’s treatment of Drew has its foundations in the belief that Blake knows more than Drew, and should exercise control over him because of it. It does not matter that Drew is not his patient because Blake treats him like one anyways. He only drops the idea of making Drew his patient once he realises Drew is Ellie’s father. Drew’s existence then becomes an inconvenience to him and a threat to his career, so he has to get rid of him. I see this as another mirroring of his treatment of Ellie. Blake’s view of people seems to be hierarchical; he decides the value of people based on what he thinks of them and what he can get from them. This aligns with how he answers Drew’s interrogation about the trolley problem - it depends on who’s on the tracks.

Another thing which struck me is something I’ve been crudely referring to as the ‘transposition’ of characters in the episode. Each character assumes the role of another. I've already disclosed how similar I think Drew and Ellie are in their dynamics with Blake. There is also the obvious parallels between Blake and Drew through their roles as fathers, Drew’s attempt to force Blake into his position (‘I want you to know what it's like to be me’), Drew imitating Blake with what he does to Robbie and Blake’s understanding of himself as a replacement for Ellie’s estranged father (Drew). Not revealed until the final moments, Drew also acts as a surrogate for Robbie. How Blake treats Drew is directly connected to Robbie’s fate. Additionally, Robbie is punished for the sins of his father, the same way Drew believes himself responsible for putting Ellie in harm’s way.

In the scene where he pleads with Blake to confess, Drew says ‘father to father’ and ‘don’t let me die not knowing’. Ostensibly these are Drew referring to what Blake did to Ellie, but I actually think at this moment Drew is thinking about Robbie and what will happen to him if Blake kills Drew. Of course it is all dependent on your interpretation of Drew’s character and how guilty he feels about burying Robbie. Drew knows what he’s done to Robbie is killing him. If Drew did not consider ‘letting die’ with the same severity as ‘killing’ then I struggle to find a reason why he’d be going after Blake in the first place. What Drew does to Robbie is his way of recreating what Blake did to Ellie - or atleast what Drew thinks happened - which Drew thinks Blake should be punished for. The act of burying Robbie must disgust Drew because he is imitating Blake and he finds Blake disgusting. When he tells Blake ‘I didn’t kill him, you let him die’ before setting himself alight, I understand it as Drew mocking Blake’s repudiation of guilt over Ellie (‘I didn’t do anything’) rather than it being how Drew actually feels. I'm not sure why Drew does not tell Blake about Robbie until he’s decided they will both die. The only thing I can think of is that it’s because Drew was not aware of the circumstances of Ellie's death until it was too late. As I mentioned I think Drew intended to recreate Ellie's death with Robbie. But I’m not sure. I think Drew puts too much faith in Blake to do the right thing.

I read Drew’s outburst (everything from the laughter yoga up until him coming back out the bathroom to apologise) as a Freudian slip of sorts - unplanned and not a part of his little character he’s playing. Drew is an unstable character, but I don't find him a particularly violent one. When compared to the rest of in9s revenge tragedy catalogue, Drew is the only character whose plan involves putting his own life at risk. Also, I don’t have anything to say about it but it has always stuck in my mind how he brings a spud gun and not a real one.

During their conversation about the Szondi test, Drew’s results describe him as repressing feelings of ‘self-loathing’ and ‘inadequacy’. Up until the final minutes I find it a fair characterisation. He forms this intricate revenge plot, but struggles to keep a hold of it. He tries to get his daughter help for her mental health and ends up unintentionally putting her into the hands of an abuser. He takes Blake hostage, and almost ends up as Blake’s murder victim. He tries to get a confession out of Blake, but Blake won't confess. Even the character Drew creates for Blake is a man who tried to end his own life, but was stopped. Drew’s character is defined by a sense of inadequacy and a lack of control. The only control Drew holds onto in the entire episode is knowing Robbie’s location, and it costs him his life to keep it.

I’m still rather puzzled by the use of the trolley problem (it’s the hardest aspect of the episode for me to understand the purpose of) beyond the recurring theme of in9s revenge plots having the persecutor use an aspect of the target's area of expertise to entrap them. I feel like trying to view the episode through the lens of it ‘being a trolley problem’ makes it fall victim to its inconsistencies. I don’t know how it was supposed to fit into Drew’s plan other than being the catalyst for his thought process behind it. I think he outgrows it too quickly and it becomes muddled in what he’s trying to say.

I hope at least a small percent of this makes sense. This episode is an amalgamation of fascinating little fragments that coalesce into something rather hollow. To me it's an echo of better episodes, but I'm kind of in love with how confused it makes me that I can’t help coming back to pick at it.

[bonesashesglass]

Jumblr is trending again cuz it’s where zionists like to go to hide (obviously not everyone in the jumblr tag, there are some genuine great posts about Jewish culture and takes and all sorts of stuff, and I wish that was the entire tag, but unfortunately most of what I saw just now was people trying to justify a genocide)

Looking at those posts…the mental gymnastics people go through to convince themselves that Israel is somehow morally correct here and anyone supporting Palestine is evil and anti-Semitic is crazy. I mean those posts are practically unintelligible

[aheathen-conceivably]

Did I get immensely distracted and do more picrew things? Possibly. So please have What’s in Their Bag? Modern Edition…

Josephine:

Always has mints because she definitely hasn’t been vaping due to stress and who’s two cell phones seemingly never stop ringing. Still keeps a coin purse because it was her mother’s even though there’s nothing in it and she thinks it’s old fashioned. Does she wear driving gloves because it makes her feel like a bad bitch? Absolutely.

Giorgio:

It’s giving 2010s hipster turned professional with a dash of metrosexual. Sure he carries a phone and a tablet but secretly has a thing for writing handwritten letters. Probably drives a Tesla and converted all his locks to electronic. He also definitely stopped to pick up that four leaf clover for luck when he thought no one was looking.

Antoine:

Custom ordered that pen and notebook for writing song lyrics and definitely keeps all his money loose in his bag even though it constantly gets tangled in the three pairs of earphones he has in there. Bought that keychain for himself and Zelda very much unironically years ago. Zelda lost hers and doesn’t even remember when.

Zelda:

Can’t find anything in her bag at any given time, especially since her scarf also serves as a blanket for sitting in the grass. Smaller bag is always full of loose shells and rocks she picks up and really needs to get a new phone but can’t seem to find the time. Only doesn’t have cigarettes because she steals them from Antoine’s bag when he isn’t looking, even though he keeps an extra pack for her. Will not get rid of her iPod for anything.

[thisgingerhasnosoul]

The Lord of the Rings, Daenerys Targaryen edition:

Sauron’s descendant, Saurah, is born around the same time the ring is found by Bilbo. Years later, she hatches a dragon egg: the son of Smaug, Smug, who she tames and rides (and breastfeeds, for some reason). Now a dragon rider, she decides to take back what was lost to her family. During her travels, she recruits the orcs—slaves created by Sauron. She benevolently frees them from the evil clutches of Saruman, and from there, the orcs follow her (of their own free will, we promise!) on her quest: reconquer Sauron’s old lands, Rohan and Gondor—and more than that, reclaim her birthright: the One Ring.

Oh and she falls in love with Aragorn, who ditches Arwen and the Fellowship for her and agrees to rule by her side with the One Ring as their power source because… they can use it for good, I guess?