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thinking about the wan episode where chuuya and atsushi get stuck in an elevator together n when the lights go out chuuyas first reaction is to calm atsushi down when he gets nervous.

"dont freak out, whatever happens just remember you've toughed out situations way worse than this."

even though hes all prickly on the outside his instinct is to keep atsushi calm 🙁🙁🙁💞💞💞

ouhhhhggg hes so cute. so squishy. big brother chuuya is real guys.

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im literally exploding him with my mind

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hc kouyou taught chuuya to walk and run in heels just for the hell of it so chuuya can kick ass in stilettos but dazai walks like a newborn deer in even the smallest wedges

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the hyperfixation is getting real bad

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i have a surgery coming up and i'll be out of commission for a while so slutty dazai must wait

instead take this not slutty dazai as an offering

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got my hands on my friend's ipad and got to use her procreate for a few minutes for the first time. drew a little akutagawa hehehrurfjrj I want to put him into a blender

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update on the birthday gift guys do you think this is good enough for someone pls pls pls tell me i need to know if she's gonna like it 💔💔💔💔

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both will happen but which first is the question💔

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jax fanart this is old but i felt the need to show anyways. petition to make him new tumblr sexyman

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being an introject that's literally nothing like it's source is so odd in a system where most of the introjects at least somewhat resemble source material. my source character is someone very uh. . . aggressive. and loud. and angry, and very very competent. he's very good at what he does, and he's not very nice. but I'm. not that. I have trouble holding conversations because I'm so shy, I can't look people in the eye. I'm selective mute because i get so nervous. the difference is so stark sometimes it feels like I'm just a lookalike. I get source separation and all that, but I would rather be more like him than this. and . . . not being like him makes me feel—false in a way. I don't know. these are just thoughts.

—A. again . .

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i can't decide whether to draw ADA dazai with his coat on or off guys help me 😞

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unfortunately for you all im about to become very insufferable about the amazing digital circus!

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little chibi wip for my friend's upcoming birthday!! planning on colouring and shading everything fjdjdsh I'm so excited to give it to him >.< picked out our favourite characters to do something cute and mundane, and since I always ask for banana milk when she goes to the store (despite living in totally different countries and the fact that he says no every time) aku is finally getting his banana milk !! I'll be sure to post the finished thing closer to his birthday

teehee, archer I know you dont have tumblr so you wont see this but happy early birthday I love you :3

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this silly drawing of crying akutagawa, me and a friend were joking about how weve never seen him sad so i decided to do it myself !! also if anyone wants to see some actual bsd art i have that too so trust i can draw more than silly scrimblo characters

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does anyone else who's gone through OEA or RAMCOA have a hard time internally measuring what is and isn't abuse now?

I find myself thinking "that hardly counts as abuse" in regards to my current situation, despite several other people who know me personally saying differently.

the thought process is essentially "these people have done way worse to me, and that was abuse. this isn't that bad, so obviously it's not"

I know, thinking objectively, that that's simply incorrect, because abuse comes in all shapes and sizes. but I can't quite bring myself to admit that what's being done to us right now is inherently abusive.

maybe that's just me though

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tell me why my art style cant pick a fucking look and stick with it 😞💔