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captaindarkiplier · 9 days

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quick mark study from 2mths ago

#hi guys #I couldnt use my pc for months after I drew this #I fixed it 2 days ago and then switched to linux #it's been great i am so happy to have blender back #unfortunately no clip studio but it's ok #and again omg I know I have said this like twice on this blog now but I want to get used to posting lower effort art because high effort ar #burns me out or takes too long despite me being really passionate/perfectionist about things #adhd + ocd is a crazy combo anyway love u guys #markiplier #doodle #fanart

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sysig · 3 months

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i want to go on a big and elaborate date with papyrus SPECIFICALLY bc of the way u draw him bc he’s so bbg cutie patootie

PapyrACE 💚💜 Happy Valentine's Day!

#DDoodles #UT #Papyrus #AroAce Papyrus Supremacy #Lol #I'm actually really delighted to see how much aroace positivity there is around the skelebros :D #I was a little on the worried side since y'know - Sans especially. I've been in the fandom for a while lol I'm Aware #But genuinely there's so much lovely energy towards the bros being aroace which I - unsurprisingly - am very inclined towards lol #Me constantly: And you're ace! And you're ace! And you're ace! Ace for everybody!#I'm tongue-in-cheek about my Projecting Constantly lol but I do try to base my headcanons on The Actual Text haha #I think Papyrus is kind of a no-brainer lol he literally turns you down if you go on a date with him that's pretty textual #And you have the option to completely avoid going on a date with him and he still clarifies platonic affection!#I like him very much haha <3 #As for Sans I know some of it stems from my Handplates filter lol - their codependency points to an interesting interplay with romance #I'll start thinking about the Vargas Dating Sim again if I keep on that train of thought tho lol #But to me it feels more than just ''He's too busy'' or w/e - Feels Different #It's all speculation anyway haha - I'm glad you like how I draw Papyrus! :D He's the sweetest boy and I love him!!#Wanted to try something a bit Extra hehe ♪ I keep wanting to make animatics and the like!#Storyboards - animations if I can swing them lol - but I'm very impatient :P And perfectionistic >.>#So have something a bit more sloppy and silly :) It's good practice for me!#All told it wasn't too bad! :D I had fun making it and I'm fairly pleased ♪#Hope you enjoy hehe <3 Happy Valen's! :D

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ecoamerica · 1 month

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horse-head-farms · 4 months

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i’ve decided to change up my style a bit! expect a little inconsistency over the next few art posts

@hermitrarepairevent gay people for you

#okay so meta talk outside of this account i actually tend to do a lot of life drawings / realism #so this has been a place for me to experiment with very stylised art and try to draw without worrying about anatomy and references too hard #however i’ve found that i haven’t really been developing my art here and i’ve just been copying the style of my first art post #and i’ve been finding it hard to draw the past week because i find it a chore to copy the style due to perfectionism #SO i am switching up to a sketchier brush with more line variation and am drawing much less neat #this is much easier for me. stops me from being a perfectionist. and means i can make more art at a faster rate #my designs are largely staying the same except i made xb a bit rounder and cuter. i may redesign bdubs and etho from that one #post but i was planning on doing that anyway #hypxb #hhf #my art #hermit rarepair event #hermitblr #hermitcraft #hermitshipping #hermitshipblr #hypnotizd #xbcrafted

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capn-twitchery · 3 months

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wip of a comic that i may or may not finish, who knows >:3

#gonna be some post-ambition stuff that i swear isn't twitch making fun of grace for being sad. even tho it looks like that #but not this time #breaking out the 3d models to try and make myself work faster bc i have too many ideas and i am too slow and i want to draw MORE #and be less perfectionist. c'mon freddie you can do it #wips

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the-unfortunate-ly · 5 months

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von-karmas-a-bitch · 8 months

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pov you're franziska and you're 11 years old and you just started your first period and papa has NOT been helpful but your brother has conducted extensive research and is handling it surprisingly well

#i am never gonna finish this so have the wip lmao #do you have any idea how difficult it is for me a furry. to draw not only a human but a human with kinda yaoi proportions #by tracing him over eminem's lanky ass. of all people #im honestly amazed it didn't turn out a lot worse #i spent way longer on this than i thought i would #i didn't think it would even result in something i was comfortable posting lmao but here we are #also i thought abt looking up what people use in germany and/or finding the german packaging of products we have in the uk too #but with the god-awful-to-nonexist transparent png's online shops be uploading for their websites i can only assume are ran by boomers #i was like yknow what im just gonna use what im familiar with and consider high end and/or bougie #i would not be caught dead using nurofen and neither would most people i know on account of generic stuff is cheaper + works the same #but i imagine they must make their money somehow. probably from people who are well off enough to not really think abt that stuff #and being the perfectionists they are the von karma household are not gonna use the german equivalent of tesco's own version of anything #so. we've got what in my heavy period having opinion are The Only Acceptable Pads #then we've got expensive ice cream with a european-sounding name bc of course #then we've got the chocolate 11yo me was always craving but could rarely have bc ny dad was a cheapskate so. i assume it's expensive #the nurofen of course #and. i don't know much abt what paracetamol brands are considered bougie and was already soso tired #so i just. grabbed one that wasn't a generic tesco version and went with it #i was also gonna put a hot water bottle in a cute fluffy case but i forgor so just pretend it's there #fanart #shitpost #miles edgeworth #sibling brainrot #my art #my shitposts #im..... not putting this in the aa tag #not bc im embarrassed abt the art itself but bc im afraid that if the cis men catch a glimpse of it they'll clown on me and call me gross #bc cis men do not know how to be normal about periods #it's a fact of life grow up this isn't cursed it is incredibly wholesome and sweet to imagine miles reading several wikipedia articles #in order to better understand and assist his little sister through her first period. it's cute it's not gross fuck you

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ecoamerica · 2 months

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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months

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#aye. in another life i would have loved to be an illustrator #i dont like to do digital tho and i dont wanna b a starving artist and i like science too much #but it would make me so hsppy if i was allowed to draw all day everyday #forever and ever drawing #but nooo i wanted to get a phd in microbial evolution. and im procrastinating working on my preproposal #literally doing anything to not work on it. i coulf have been a illustrator. an endocrinologist. a neurobiologist. a paleontologist. but i #chose microbial ecologist then thought no fuck ecology and went for photosynthetic mechanisms #bc i do love my lil cyanos and i do love Microbiology. i love those underapprecated lil guys #the world is so big and beautiful and all i wanna do is understand. but my stupid brain doesnt work right and ive burried my wonder for so #long i wonder if ill ever have it back. i was reading a bunch of lil notes i wrote this semester and i go from #everything is so beautiful i cant stand it. there are angels in the sunbeams and they feel like healing. to im the world around me is #warping beyond my control. i cant feel any joy. my head is sending me terrible ideas but im not even scared. it feels inevitable #but last week i was so full of energy i couldnt sleep. nothing changed but the chemicals in my head #hopefully next semester will b better and i can stop feeling like damaged goods and feel bad fro my advisor #for having to deal with me. hes v nice and has a bip0lar brother so he's sympathetic but i wish he didn't have to b #i want to stop fantasizing about being something else and just focus on being better at what i am #but im such a pathological perfectionist that its so difficult to make any progress. but whatever ive been feeling alright for the #past week or so. hopefully that carries through. and maybe somedsy i can illustrate something for my precious baby cyanobacteria #unrelated

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seventh-district · 6 days

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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

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spotsupstuff · 1 year

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okay so MAYBE making a headcanon heavy world map for RW is Not the most simplest thing under the sun i could've come up, AlRight I Get It. i admitted it on social media can i stop thinkin about the terrain now

#Spot says stuff #i am far too much of a perfectionist for this gog dang it... why am i thinkin of possible tactonic plates of this planet n tryin to come up #-with a detailed geography and possible placement of the planet in its solar system that it MAYBE probably has. why.#im still partial to the idea of RW's planet being a stray 👉👈#FUCK did i keep its axis similar to earth or was it more tilted i was thinkin bout this while writing my hcs for SUNS AURGH I FORGOR #o well too late now we tilted only a Teeny bit if anythin i have Merged Layers #oh the agonies of a nerd

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unkillobel · 9 months

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i need to bitch about my job for a minute in the tags

#ok so a senior role was made available in my team that i could’ve applied for #and there’s two of us in the team so. yknow pretty certain that one of us would get it #it was sort of replacing someone who left who handled a fucktonne of work across two other teams i work with #and ultimately i decided not to apply for the job because 1. the other guy on my team has been there two years longer than i have #and 2. my health is fucking precarious #mental and physical. i already work slightly reduced hours to try and manage my chronic fatigue but even then i have frequent crashes #and whenever my workload gets too much i just shut down. like the worst stress response ever #so my coworker got the job and a hefty pay rise and im like good for him :)#and then he went on leave for 6 weeks so i got handed 60% of his workload #and when you get handed people’s projects you get a good insight into how they work and how they coordinate shit/write documents etc #and not only are these projects a piece of piss compared to the aid programme stuff i’ve been doing #his actual work is like?? not great #i know i’m a perfectionist and i put way too much effort into my documents and reports but #there’s no way this guy is being paid $30k more for this!!#so now i’m like why didn’t i fucking interview for the senior role!!#i have this terrible impostor syndrome even though i’ve been there a year and get good feedback on my projects #part of it because i’m 22 and i am constantly like how the fuck am i here with an arts degree. i don’t know Anything #but shit man. if this guy’s mediocre work is worth a senior role #i have had a couple of job offers with a decent pay bump which is still wild to me. you want to pay me WHAT #<- well aware this is a great ‘problem’ to have #anyway i think i need a pay rise. we’ve just had a mass exodus from our team. i reckon if i threatened to leave they would lift my salary?#but i don’t know if i want to blackmail my manager lmao

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kimtaegis · 10 months

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hate to say it but july kinda sucked

#please let me whine and list all the things that have troubled me this month #first off having to get serious about my master thesis and everything taking so much longer than I want it to (the anxiety. wow)#and mentally preparing to tackle two jobs AND finishing the thesis all at once soon (how......am I gonna do that)#well then ofc my car breaking down and having to spend my last savings on a new one #generally having to spend a shit load of money. all my money. gone within 2 months #wanting to have a big birthday party so badly only for it to get so stressful and Too Much for my introverted perfectionist ass #that I was the first and only one to feel (physically and mentally) sick about four hours in and had to leave my guests on their own #the usual old struggles flaring up again (as in too high expectations towards everything and everyone and myself that leave me disappointed #and on a more irrelevant note lmao: being one of the few people who doesn’t seem to have enjoyed barbenheimer that much?#same for jk’s solo and everything around it it's just not really for me #and thus feeling a little distanced from the fandom and from creating lately...I'll try again this weekend though I'll try #and last but not least my skin is being SO bad again rn that I just want to rip it off my whole body!!!!!!!#yeah! not at all how I wanted july to go! anyways august in a few days let’s move on and hope for the best #SORRY for being negative on here again. there were also nice things. like awi and al and all my other friends.#and birthday gifts and messages. <33

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capn-twitchery · 5 months

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i so badly wanna try doing a meme that i used to see circulating where people would send in one of their ocs + one of yours and you would draw them under the mistletoe

but i can't FIND IT!!!

will have to make my own post smh. have to do everything myself

#fredspeaks #they would only be very silly small doodles and i doubt i would get too many done but it sounds fun #and would be a good “draw faster stop being perfectionist” challenge xD #but i'm always so worried about drawing people's ocs being ooc for some reason #as if anyone is too nitpicky when it's free art #and as if flumblr isn't full of very nice people #but alas i am prone to overthinking. i will go make tea and stretch then maybe make a postzl #post** fuck

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repurposedmeatlocker · 11 months

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Oh did something happen with Jon Anderson???

Nothing happened to Jon Anderson, it is what people are DOING with Jon Anderson.

#to keep things simple #not a fan of how prog fans (in particular on tumblr) infantilize him #or just treat him like some kind of uke anime boy #when that is a real life person yk an adult man #while it is fun to talk about his general whimsy and pixie-like namastae nature there is more too him yk #he's a control freak and perfectionist and a kind of goofy stoner who was described as being horrendous at organizing himself #anyway I am no authority on real life ppl I just get annoyed seeing ppl flanderize him like he is some kind of cutesy anime boy #call me a hater but it is exhausting #asks

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heytheredeann · 4 months

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Whumpuary 2024, Day 7 - "I didn't know where else to go" + "Bruises" + "Drugged"

Tags: Post-Canon, Dissolution of UNCLE AU, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Napoleon Solo, Non-Consensual Drug Use, Bittersweet Ending, Reunions, Goodbyes, Napoleon Solo Is Bad At Feelings, Mentions of Gaby Teller, Everyone Needs A Hug

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He isn’t sure if he is relieved or not. The lights inside the house are turned on, which means that he won’t have to fumble to break into the KGB safehouse and subsequently risk setting off god knows what booby traps, but that also means that Illya is inside, and—and Napoleon really doesn’t want to see him.

He has been doing such a good job at avoiding him, since he caught sight of him two days ago and he realized that the KGB apparently also has business in town at the moment – Sanders claims it has nothing to do with them and to not worry about it, and Napoleon tried to believe him solely in the hopes of manifesting it as the truth.

Needless to say, he has been tense the whole time, distracted by the thought that Illya might show up behind him any second, and perhaps that’s partially to blame for the royal fuck-up that was tonight.

Perhaps he should have headed back to the CIA, but—he recognizes the area, remembers that there’s a KGB safehouse there because Illya dragged him inside once, during a mission under Waverly’s command where he got injured and they needed shelter, and somehow the thought of heading there seems less risky than letting Sanders get his hands on him while he is in this state.

To be fair, when he headed in this direction he was considerably less lightheaded, and he figured that if he found the lights turned on he could always turn back and find a phone to call for help with. Now, though, he doesn’t think he could stop walking, much less turn back, without falling on his face and never getting up again.

He only has to hope that it’s actually Illya inside and not someone else, which is absurd considering how hard he has been trying to avoid him.

He gets to the door with heavy steps that probably announced his arrival from a mile away, and he finds that it’s hard to even raise his arm up to knock, with how tired and dizzy he feels.

When Illya opens the door, the feeling that floods him is unmistakably relief. He feels a little ridiculous for it.

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#whumpuary2024 #napollya #napollya fic #tmfu fic #the man from uncle #tmfu #napoleon x illya #not spn #my fanfic #i am not super happy with how this came out ngl loool #but i am trying to stop hoarding fics forever because i'm too much of a perfectionist to post them so #also i do kind of feel like shit so maybe that's why i'm being so critical looool

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mosspapi · 8 months

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Man I was hoping to have all of my sister's patches done so I could put them in the mail on her birthday but that is tomorrow and I'm only half finished both of the last two. And I'll probably have to redo a large section of Room 93 because apparently 3799, 413, and 317 are Way More Similar In Colour than I thought when I bought them

#afaik 3799 is the darkest neutral gray that DMC has #and pure black would be too dark for the background but the 3799 is looking almost identical to the 413 I used for the dark of the window #we live in a society bottom text #maybe what I'll do is finish the first leg of all of it in 3799 and then do the second leg in half 3799 and half black #and also I am so overwhelmed by the tiny details in love/power I keep procrastinating it JFDKDNDNS #it's not that bad I'm just being a perfectionist abt it #armchair speaks

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suncaptor · 7 months

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It would be so much easier to not screw up everything in my life and my future if I could care about anything besides deep grief and brilliant terror and horror.

#incoherents #vent #like. come onnnnnnnnn #maybe i should just. fucking put up applications till next year i need to send my requests for letters out by like. tomorrow at the latest #i am drowning drowning #at least all the pain killers helped ... after i doubled them up an hour too late. whatever whatever.#hoping the specific skillset i developed via being a mentally unhealthy adhd perfectionist academic overachiever growing up #can help me with the mess of the pain and nothingness before me

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