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Also increasingly aware that a LOT of people "manage" getting through the 40+ hour work week by sleeping less than is healthy and relying on stimulants like coffee and energy drinks to keep them going.
For people who are unwilling or unable to do this...work really does just dominate your life. Like we really should not have to rely on unhealthy practices just to have a social life or keep on top of housework or whatever.
I know I post about this a lot but I'm so TIRED all the time and it's just so depressing that this is how we're expected to spend the one life we have.
#i have to get at least 8 hours of sleep a night to even barely function#with sleep#getting ready for work#commute#cooking#and errands#I typically have maybe 2-3 hours to actually do what i want in a day#and I'm usually too tired to actually do the things i want to do#and that's with a very short commute#if i actually had a long commute I'd basically do nothing but work#i see my friends like once every few weeks or months#because we're all so fucking busy with work and have such little time for socialising#and none of us even have kids or anything!!
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good news for emma players coming this weekend: you're guaranteed having a mags to try the new team-up with if i'm on your team
bad news for emma players coming this weekend: you will functionally be solo-tanking if i'm on your team and we're on krakoa
bonus:
#marvel rivals#xmen#xmen comics#magneto#erik lehnsherr#cherik#in spirit jVLKERJA#charles xavier#professor x#emma frost#snap sketches#i finished this hours ago but didnt feel like posting it immediately for some reason jvELRKJERLKJ#i almost didnt post this even.. lol..#anyways i solemnly swear to stare at this statue for hours on end once the map is out#im very sorry to anyone who wanted a reliable tank on their team i am Unwell#anyway unnecessary FF i recycled mags' head in the second panel from a sketch i thought of abandoning#i was actually thinking of using the body from that sketch for a diff drawing but lol. funny how recycling works#anyway. i am sleepy. and have a very busy week ahead. so good night everyone please enjoy my tomfoolery#i apologize in advance for my tomfoolery this weekend... season 2 baby just around the corner...
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Star Wars Artober | Day 1: Jedi | Kanan Jarrus
#star wars#star wars rebels#swr#kanan jarrus#caleb dume#artober 2024#ignore that i'm over a week behind lol i've been busy#shattered tea art#using prompt list from instagram user libpaint!#LPSWO24#<- tag they're using on insta (they're not on tumblr)
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totally normal burger experience
hope yall don't mind me combining these requests :3


#dc#dc comics#batman#jason todd#bruce wayne#tim drake#fanart#my art#i said sketch but ended up drawing this so that 3-5 business days might as well be business weeks#also i jest about bruce's burger habits but i've also eaten a burger deconstructed style. with chopsticks.#sth sth pot kettle#also also jason is used to bruce using forks for burger. he's not prepared for burger; deconstructed tho
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Portal!RotTMNT #2: Mikey
Donnie
Yep, I haven't forgotten about this series!
I tell you, the mental block I had while finishing this piece was unreal. I think it was because I had to completely rethink the background and the angle and figure out the second portal.
But shout-out to @caffinatedcastiel for reigniting my commitment to getting this one finished; shout-out to @duckcrumbs for recommending Caff's Portal!RotTMNT fic; shout-out to @soepwashere for re-inspiring me with the Portal Duo post; and HUGE shout-out to my sister, who kept me accountable. Y'all motivated me to get this one done! And because of this picture, I'm way more confident in backgrounds and perspectives and rendering.
Now for Raph and Leo!
#i had another piece planned for today but it's taking MUCH longer to finish than i expected#and i have another trip coming up that i'm partially in charge of organizing#so that's really gonna keep me busy#not to mention prepping for Easter weekend#busy busy#i finished this one weeks ago so i figured now would be a good time to use it as a buffer#not that i'm accountable to anyone but myself to maintain a posting schedule#i can post whatever the heck i want when i want#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#portal#portal 2#art#drawing#fanart#rottmnt mikey#myart
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i want two boyfriends so i can dress them like twins 2.0 | for @jung-koook
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#they just keep on giving#bts#btsgif#dailybts#btsedit#yoongi#jungkook#yoonkook#bts yoongi#bts jungkook#bts yoonkook#road to dday dvd#dday the original dvd#rékagif#i wanted to make this okay thats all from me - i probs be busy the rest of the week so i will lurk#sky im so happy u are here with us i love u and this is for u <33333
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L&C x high school yearbook superlatives
LOCKWOOD & CO. (2023)
#CREDIT TO MYLTIVERSE OF GEROGE FOR LIKE HALF OF THESE AHHHHH#ilyall smmm 💕💕💕🙈#Lockwood x tumblr#agency superlatives#save lockwood and co#lockwood and co#lockwood & co#lockwood and co netflix#anthony lockwood#lucy carlyle#quill kipps#george karim#skull#flo bones#barnes#gifset#my edit#i hope i used the tags right dsfjlfs#i know the day is wrong but im gonna be busy rest of the week so
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#i was itching to make some edits#after a very busy week like#ts4#sims 4#ts4 render#sims 4 render#ts4 edit#sims 4 edit#show us your sims#myposts#mysims
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So yeah, 'Ranma 0.5' or something like that..
#im so happy its getting a remake!!!#i know im like more than a week late but sorry i was busy#and yes this is redraw the artblock sadly hasnt left me :'(#ANYWAYS RANMA!!!!#one of the series of all time fr#ranma 1/2#ranma saotome#akane tendo#ryoga hibiki#p chan#shan pu#«i like this spelling better than shampoo idk its far punny and fun that actually spelling out the pun#also thats how its actually spelled in the japanese ver of the manga#musu#«same goes for him too#ill only be using these spellings while tagging my own posts though since 'shampoo' and 'mousse' are the most popular spellings#and it would seem kinda out of place lol#my art#yucaillusts#god i love them sm#also if you want try to see if you can figure out which art this is a redraw of ;)
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it starts to smell like spring
#first ninja#rc9gn first ninja#rc9gn#eyyyy suuupppp -not yet yeeted out of existence ✌️✌️✌️ just been a few busy weeks. family stuff.#didn't have the mental capacity nor time to draw anything at all lol. literally didn't even use my tablet for weeks#but feeling a bit better & things calmed down. so gonna be getting back into drawing haha probs gonna be drawing finja all weekend#also tried to write a little but not very succesfull like oomph started four more fics and finished exactly none like bruh
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Oughhh nanago at the vending machine what Will they get.....
#Withering away for a week has its consequences... Busy..... (actively ignoring schoolwork)#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#nanami kento#kento nanami#gojo satoru#satoru gojo#nanago#jjk fanart#my art#All of the brushes I used in this piece r made by yours truly...
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when I'm pissed at my groupmates so I start punctuating my texts
#ive ranted enough but#how are you bozos in college#what makes it worse is that they ASKED TO JOIN OUR GROUP. ASKED.#Because there were 3 of us and the prof said groups of 3 to 4#and these 2 ASKED THE PROF if they could JOIN US to make a GROUP OF 5#AND FOR WHAT? FOR ME TO BABY YOU? FOR ME TO HOLD THE HANDS OF THESE ADULTS WHO CANNOT DO A SIMPLE TASK OVER A WEEK?#and what makes it EVEN MORE WORSE#IS THE FACT THAT I KNOW THESE PEOPLE#i wouldnt say friends BUT WE R ON FRIENDLY TERMS#SO IF WE'RE FRIENDLY WHY ARE YOU STABBING ME IN THE BACK WITH THE PEN YOU REFUSE TO WRITE WITH#DROP THIS CLASS MY GOD#OR PREFERABLY GROW UP#“im sorry i was busy” ok I HAVE SEEN YOU THIS WEEK GOING OUT#TAKE AN HOUR OF THAT TIME AND DO YOUR DAMN PART#Anyways i guess i had more rant in me#HAHAHA#dia talks#dia seethes#dia rages
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This Week in BL - Happy Songkran!
Not sure, but a few of the Thai shows may be impacted by New Year this next week.
Organized, in each category, with ones I'm enjoying most at the top.
April 2025 Week 2
Ongoing Series - Thai
Perfect 10 Liners (Sun YT) ep 24 end - Can you believe we made it through 24 episodes (like this is 2014 or something)? Anygay...
The single brain cell committee trying to put together The Proposal was kind of funny. I do think that of all the couples to get married this is the one that shouldn’t. They are the least healthy, but what can we do?

I knew from the get-go that I was going to struggle to figure out how to rate this show. Twice as long as most other BL’s and with 3 fully represented main couples, played by pairs that I have mixed feelings for. Thus I have to go straight down the middle. I would’ve given our first story a 7/10, our second one an 8/10, and our final a 9/10, which brings us in at a solid 8/10. Frankly, that feels like that’s what this show was, about 80% of a good BL.

Conclusion
This was workmanlike Thai BL in a university setting in which nothing happened to some very nice boys in fun friendship groups. The most noted thing about the show was its source, GMMTV punched down and phoned it in with this one. The kissing was good, the pairs were decent, and the directing was... well it was there. Each of the three main couples turned in solid performances to the best of their respective comedic abilities. Your enjoyment will wholly depend on which pair/story is most to your taste and how much you managed to tolerate the others (and the sides) as a result. I highly doubt this will ever be anyone's favorite BL. 8/10 is a fine rating for something this mediocre. Puts the B in BL.
Top Form (Thurs WeTV) ep 4 of 10 - Drunken shenanigans and their consequences. Especially when the boy is obsessed with you. (Meanwhile, the hair in the eyes is driving me batshit.) I'm still enjoying this. It’s sort of old-school BL in a very odd way. I like that. Especially with nothing out of Japan right now. The 21 day courting was cute. And of course I loved the linguistic negotiation. But he’s definitely gonna catch that cold.
Oh the HONEY.
I forgot this part was coming. ARGH NO too sticky!!! The carnage. The clean up. Twas sexy tho.
Sweet Tooth Good Dentist (Fri iQIYI) ep 3 of 12 - Whipping boy trope is a go. But also this dentist is so gone on this broken sunshine with self worth issues. The dorky earnest friend is good too. Enjoying.
My Golden Blood (Weds iQIYI) Ep 5 of 12 - I just can't. It's too awful. I did try. DNF.
Ongoing Series - Not Thai
Heesu in Class 2 (Korea Fri Viki) eps 5-6 of 10 - I love this show. Love. It. The catastrophic trip. Heesu being an utter frenetic basket case. The PINING from Seungwon and the fact that we all know he isn't ever gonna do anything (unless some one forces his hand lips). It's fantastically maddening.
Secret Relationships (Korea iQIYI) ep 7 of 8 - Ooo truly unhinged. Excellent. Honestly, I just feel sorry for Da-on with all these boys obsessed, even our puppy. And now the "kidnapping for love" trope. Very old-school. China used to adore this one. It's nto my favorite but it suits this show.
Business as Usual (Korea Thurs Viki) Ep 2 of 7 - Mostly back story not a whole lot happened. Looks like we are in for a meaty confrontation next week tho. Good.
Fight for You (Taiwan Fri Gaga) ep 4 of 12 - I don't mind a fake dating trope, even if I'm not sure how we got here. Actually, this has gotten oddly cute. I like them more as they fall in love and flirt and drink than I do as solo characters.
Exclusive Love (Taiwan Fri Gaga) ep 10 of 12 - more death. Not enough of blondie. And none of my beloved sides? Bah.
It's airing but......
Sashes and Hearts (Pinoy YT) 13 eps - Philippines is doing Drop Dead Gorgeous only all gay boys queening their asses off. Doesn't interest me, not sure if it's BL.
Last Meal Universe (Thai ????) 8 eps - An alien who has come to destroy earth instead falls in love with Thai food and then the Thai boy who cooks it - realistic, actually. I got a link to watch but it still wouldn't work for me, so I guess I'm waiting to see what happens.
Lost in the Woods (Weds Gaga) 7 eps - Not my thing, dropped at ep 2.
Boy Next World special - only available paid, so I didn’t bother.
Your Sky of Us - Normally, I don’t really report on the specials or the extras or even the spinoffs or season twos, but I gotta say in episode 2 Lee’s claiming sendoff was one of my favorite things to happen in BL this year. That silent "back off" was so perfectly executed. Most of the rest of this special has been just fluff, but it might be worth watching the whole thing just for that 30 seconds. (Sorry couldn't find a gif of it, but TRUST ME. Chef's kiss!)

In case you missed it
Secrets Happened on the Litchi Island (China YouTube) - This one unexpectedly dropped and there are still a few follow up snippets/adverts continuing with this couple.

Summary
This was an interesting, beautifully atmospheric but plotless BL about a boy who falls in love with his older brother‘s best friend in an idyllic countryside jungle setting. The boy is quite femme and open about his identity but his lover is... not. This dynamic ads an element of queer authenticity that's often missing from all BL, let alone something from China! I don’t know what it actually wanted to be, but it felt like a BL had a love child with one of those weird Chinese relaxation farm propaganda channels. The kisses are great, the chemistry is lovely, and the setting stunning. It’s odd but charming in a very weird, very queer, way. I have to say, I quite enjoyed it.

As a BL it gets an 8/10 from me, but as a piece of queer cinema I actually think it's worth more than that. You should all watch it. Who knows how long it will be allowed to stay up on YT.

Next Week Looks Like This:
COMING IN APRIL
4/16 Something Is Not Right (Korea Weds Viki) - trailer Blueming spin off. Ba U and Hun have been friends since they were kids – but Ba U has harbored unrequited feelings for Hun for years. Eventually, Ba U tries to cut off his entire relationship with Hun, much to Hun's confusion. In a last-ditch attempt to get over his feelings, Ba U takes his friend's advice and asks Hun to date for a single week. Hun accepts.
4/19 Secret Ghost (Thai Sat Viu) ?? eps - The trailer dropped and it looks particularly awful.
4/20 Boys in Love (Thai Sun YouTube? ) 10 eps - Our only true high school BL from GMMTV this year and it's fresh faces for the youths and old favs for the teachers. It's milk teeth Make it Right and fine with me. I like lotte milk. Also DIMPLES! Yay! I suspect they are using this one to test pairs for future shows. Like a Project 101 Thai BL. (Honestly I just invented an amazing reality TV for you GMMTV, you're welcome.) Like My School President in 2023, this could be a major sleeper hit for me.
4/20 My Stubborn (Thai Sun ????) ?? eps - trailer Mflow's next high heat office romance involving best friend's younger brother, boss meets intern, bit of a love triangle, GL crumbs, and few other tropes.
4/25 My Sweetheart Jom (Thai Fri YouTube) 12 eps - trailer Saint is back in a BL, but this is what he chose? When he gets int rouble, Yothin needs to find a safe place. Instead of sending him overseas, his father sends him to the countryside. There, he is under the watchful eye of the village headman Jomkhwan.
4/26 The BangkokBoy AKA Bangkok Boys AKA The Bangkok Boy (Thai Sat ????) ?? eps trailer - Action, crime and revenge meets gangs, mafia, and more. Oh my.
2025 Line Up
BL Announced for 2025 - PART 1
BL Announced for 2025 - PART 2
20 BLs Announced for 2025 That I'm Really Excited About
GMMTV 2025 Line Up - My Totally Biased and Wildly Flawed Feels
THIS WEEK’S BEST MOMENT
Well that bit from Your Sky of Us with Lee's nonverbal MINE of course.
Yes I liked it more than the honey, honey.
(last week)
The tag BLigade: @doorajar @solitaryandwandering @my-rose-tinted-glasses @babymbbatinygirl @babymbbatinygirl @isisanna-blog @mmastertheone @pickletrip @aliceisathome @urikawa-miyuki @tokillamonger @sunflower-positiiivity @rocketturtle4 @blglplus @anythinggoesintheshire @everlightly @renafire @mestizashinrin @bl-bam-beyond @small-dark-and-delicious @saezurumurmurs
#this week in BL#BL updates#Top Form#Heesu in Class 2#Sweet Tooth Good Dentist#Perfect 10 Liners review#Fight for You#Business as Usual#Fight for Love#My Golden Blood#Secret Relationships#Exclusive Love#upcoming BL#new bl#BL news#BL reviews#2025 BL#thai bl#taiwanese bl#korean BL#Your Sky of Us#Secrets Happened on the Litchi Island#chinese BL#Secrets Happened on the Litchi Island review
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charlies turn for the reference sheet beam
#xmen#xmen comics#xmen tas#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#i feel weird posting a charles ref cause ive done so many 'ref sheets' for headshots.. i need to stop making doodle pages for him apparentl#this started out because i wanted to practice charles' body type and then i figured id just. ref sheet vjaelkjvae#if i were bold id just post him in just briefs and paper doll it if you catch my cold. he got a lot of outfits i like...#i wanted to make refs for the og5 actually so maybe i will just do these ref sheets throughout the week before bed#the funny thing about this ref sheet is this is prob the only time ever actually going to draw charles' whole back... lmao...#i mean never say never so Very Rarely will i draw his whole back. and standing ajerlkvjalkj#idk ref sheets are just fun and easy and relaxing for me to do .... and brother i wanna relax gjERLKJAEL#i have my mandatory sketches lined up to finish this week so i earned a lil doodlin i think !!!!!!#i usually dont work on weekends but.. its a lot so jvLRKVJARLKJV BUT ANYWAY#observe. god its so illegal having him stand i promise ill never do it again unless i like have to for some rare reason vjEALVJAE#i had a savage lands arc idea but who knows if ill go through with it#i debated adding that lil ring from that scrapped tas design but i dont think ima make that a consistent thing#prob use it for like. one or two jokes or whatever other temporary purposes...#was i going to say anything else. OH YEAH i wanted to see what charles looked like wtih brown eyes...#i was stalking my tags and i was reminded he had brown eyes sometimes and as your resident brown eyed bestie i wanted To See..#i fear i do like giving him contacts...... but his blue eyes arent bad either so now im in a predicament !!!!!#we'll see what happens ill probably stick with blue just for popularity sake but who knows#anyway !!! i am very weary and i am very busy this week so good night !!!!!!
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Captain Marvel vs. Hypnosis
So this post includes Billy & Marvel being separate minds but share bodies.
Anyways, imagine if some villain tried to put Captain under hypnosis? I have a few ideas on how it would go, but let’s start in order.
Only Billy is mind controlled.
It’s immediately foiled.
It’s so obvious that it just doesn’t work 90% of the time.
Okay, #1. Only Billy is mind controlled. Now, since Billy is the only like somewhat regular dude in the Captain Marvel body, I feel like he’d be the only one vulnerable to mind control. All of the gods, plus Solomon and Marvel are immune. So whenever someone tries to control Captain Marvel, Billy’s the only one affected.
This could turn into the pantheon trying to stop Billy from making any dumb choices while ridding the threat.
It would look so odd from the outside, too. Because Marvel and Billy’s control keeps fluctuating, as they fight to control their body. it would look like Captain was having a seizure or something.
Villain: Hahah! Captain Marvel is now under my control! Think of all the mayhem we will cause!
Captain: (immediately stops moving.)
WW: Captain?
Captain: (starts shaking)
Batman: Captain Marvel?
Captain (still shaking): don’t worry my fellow people this is purely temporary 🙂
Captain (internally):
Billy: Nuke the city, nuke the city! 😈
Marvel: Billy I beg of you, stop this. What even is a nuke?
Billy: Bomb the universe 👹
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#2, it’s immediately foiled.
Like it doesn’t even last for a second. It doesn’t work on Captain Marvel, or Billy.
Villain: Now, with my miraculous mind control powers, Captain Marvel along with the rest of the Justice League are no match for me! Villain puts hands against their head and does the circular ray thing, aiming for Captain Marvel.
Flash: Watch out, Cap!
Captain (Was busy listening to Atlas get ganged up on): Huh?
Captain gets hit by the ray.
Captain: Yeesh! My brain feels oddly itchy. Villain: You don’t feel…differently? Like the need to destroy the Justice League?
Captain (Perfectly fine): No..? Should I? Villain: But…that’s impossible! He should be under my control!
GL: Doesn’t seem like he is, buddy. Now you’re off to jail.
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#3, it’s so obvious it’s immediately foiled.
This one is loosely based on the Fawcettoon hc, but it’s just Captain being a bit silly.
What I mean by this is, is whenever Captain’s under mind control they get like the black and white spiral eye thing from the cartoons. The optical illusion? Imagine if each time Captain is hypnotized it’s just that, and it’s so incredibly obvious that villains can’t even pretend to be Captain Marvel because the eyes are a dead giveaway. So now, the only times Captain is mind controlled isn’t to gather intel, but to fight or nab things.
#Spiral eyed Captain be like: hey guys#The league: nuh uh#First hc#<- Mr Mind had to rethink his strategy bc the same thing happened with Mary#<- Freddy’s the only one who would be used in the typical mind control way bc he’s without his own pantheon (I think)#Second hc puts Mr. Mind out of business lol#dc#billy batson#dcu#captain marvel#shazam#captain marvel dc#dc captain marvel#hc#hcs#rambles#🪦🧟��♀️#<- me#coming back after not posting for like a week
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☆ even the gods bleed [ pt 2 ]
{☆} characters furina, neuvillette {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, multi-chapter, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings none {☆} word count 1.9k {☆} previous [ 1 ]
This had to be a punishment of some sort – some kind of divine punishment.
She was bored out of her mind just watching the sleeping body – she hadn't blinked once in the past five hours, her eyes were really starting to hurt. Yet they still hadn't moved so much as an inch since she sequestered them away to the only place she had known to be safe.
But it'd been almost a week since then.
The only solace she found was that Teyvat had seemed much less hellbent on collapsing in on itself like a dying star.
That counted for something.
Not much, but something!
..Even if their position was no better then it was a week ago.
There was, after all, still the issue of what to do about the false Creator – the actual imposter – and the Archons following them like blind lambs. The other Archons wouldn't listen if she tried to reason with them, and it would only risk the life of Divine One if she spoke of their location to anyone else.
She also was pretty fond of having her head still attached to her shoulders.
So she avoided them all together. Partially because she wasn't sure she wouldn't have a breakdown at the sight of them..she'd never been a fighter, and fighting an Archon? Easy pass.
Instead she was forced to babysit the sleeping Divine until they woke up while Neuvillette handled taking care of the nation and dealing with the other Archons – and by extension the false Creator.
Really though, she would almost think them dead if not for the subtle rise and fall of their chest.
Though..this also left her with a lot of time to herself. A lot of time to think.
She really didn't like it.
There wasn't a lot to occupy her mind and what little there was only distracted her for a scant few moments before her eyes drifted back to the Divine like she was locked in their orbit, unable to escape.
She closed the same book for the twelfth time – she kept count – and returned it to it's meticulously designed place within her bookcase. A low, barely audible huff of frustration escaped her lips before she could bite it down, her stare boring a hole into the body of the Divine One with a sharp intensity she rarely showed.
She was tired, bored and constantly on edge, fearing that at any moment someone would find out about their presence here.
That, at the drop of a hat, she would be powerless to stop the greatest tragedy of her time play out before her eyes.
Neuvillette would have scolded her for being so petulant, especially around the Divine One, if he were here.
But he wasn't.
He was out running her nation, instead.
And what was she doing? Nothing!
She grit her teeth, nails digging harshly into the palm of her hands as she took a deep breath – now was not the time to think about that. She had..much more pressing matters. Sulking and letting her thoughts spiral helped no one, least of all herself.
Yet her attention was caught by a harsh inhale, the rustle of fabric – were they finally waking up? She was exhausted, but it all vanished at the sudden drop of life within the otherwise deathly still body of the Divine.
Her eyes followed the subtle twitch of their fingers, watching as their brow furrowed and their features twisted in something almost like..pain.
..She wasn't ready.
What was she supposed to say?
Should she even say anything? Would that be considered impolite? Does she wait for them to speak first? Should she kneel? Bow?
She doesn't get much time to find her own answer before their lashes flutter, chest heaving with every strangled breath. Every single thought vanishes from her mind the moment she meets their eyes.
For a long, silent moment she thinks that her heart must have stopped.
Their eyes glow like the cresting of the sun over the horizon, painting the world in hues of gold – yet it also reminded her of the dipping of the moon below the waves, casting the briefest, most gentle of lights upon the world engulfed in darkness. In the depths of their eyes was the birth and death of stars in the infinite cosmos – glittering stars in a sea of empty, blank space that left her feeling lightheaded and breathless.
Beneath the splendor is a spark of recognition in their eyes so vibrant it was like a shooting star piercing through the dark night sky, leaving nothing but the wonder in the eyes of the observer as the only proof it ever existed – brilliant in it's beauty, however brief.
It is the most beautiful thing she has ever seen.
"Focalors?"
The lilt of their voice nearly made her knees buckle beneath her – euphoria so consuming it left her feeling she was starving swallowed her whole, her mind blanking in a moment of utter bliss. It was..an indescribable feeling that she doubted she could ever hope to put into words – not in a way that could properly express it, try as she might.
She swallowed the words that threatened to spill from her lips – she couldn't make a fool of herself. Not in front of them of all people. She'd never forgive herself.
"Divine One," She rasps, clearing her throat and covering her mouth with a hand to mask both her nervousness and the small smile that creeps across her face. She quickly regains her composure, hand resting on her hip as she puffs out her chest with every bit of pride she can manage. "I am sure you must be confused, but worry not– your most loyal acolyte has seen the truth!"
The silence is deafening.
She opens one eye, peaking at the bewildered and almost distraught expression of the Divine.
"What the hell are you talking about?"
That..she was not prepared for. Surely they knew who they were! Surely they knew. They had to– she's been praying to them for as long as she's breathed, she's dedicated every hour of her life to living up to their ideals, they can't just–!
"Lady Furina?"
Neuvillette, thankfully, spares her the embarrassment of having a meltdown in front of the Divine, the gentle rap of his knuckles against the door making her and the Divine pause, the soft lull of his voice soothing her nerves and yet setting her on edge at the same time.
"Neuvillette." She clears her throat again, her steps hurried as she marches to the door and pries it open none too gently, a forced smile pulling at her lips. She wastes no time tugging the man into the room, shutting the door behind him with a short huff. The silence is, somehow, even worse then before as the three of them stare at each other in absolute exasperation.
Neuvillette, for his part, manages to get his act together with a sharp clearing of his throat, bowing so low even she looks unnerved. She steals a brief glance at the Divine, and she's taken aback by the uncomfortability twisting their features into a grimace.
Their expression is schooled back into one of empty apathy when he stands back to his full height, but she saw it – she knows she did! Did they not like their worship? Were they not respectful enough? For a moment, she feared the Divine would smite Neuvillette down on the spot..but they just stared at him like he was a ghost.
"Why aren't you killing me?"
The defeated, resigned tone combined with the way their voice cracks makes her heart ache in her chest – it feels as though her entire world is crumbling down at her feet, and she cannot explain why she feels such emotions so strongly, but it is suffocating. It is almost as if Teyvat itself is weeping, bearing down upon her shoulders like a heavy weight.
She feels the urge to weep herself, but she powers through, gritting her teeth long enough for Neuvillette to take his place at the side of her – though it feels more like their – bed, kneeling like he was going to pray.
"Divine One," He offers a hand with a quiet rumble of his voice, the words slipping off his tongue like honey. It's like trying to soothe a stray cat..though she'd never voice such comparisons of the most Divine out loud. "I..we mean you no harm. I swear on my authority as the Iudex of Fontaine and Chief Justice that you are safe with us."
The skepticism she expected, but the reverence in which Neuvillette must convince them – or perhaps they are simply so tired that they simply did not care any longer if it was all some ploy to drive a knife between their ribs. She didn't expect them to actually place their hand in Neuvillette's.
He didn't either, judging by the way he visibly brightened – not that they'd notice, but she did.
..Not that she could really blame him, her heels clicking against the floorboards as she shifted her weight to the other foot with a nervous energy that was practically bursting at the seams, more then a little jealous of the attention he was receiving. She was the one who found them, she was the one who stayed with them the entire time..but he gets all the attention?
How unfair.
"O-of course! We would never lay a hand on our creator," She adds, her voice a little higher pitched then she would have liked as she placed her hands on her hips, puffing out her chest and brushing off the sting of jealousy. "Least of all I– your most loyal, most devout acolyte!"
She felt baffled when she heard the sound of their laughter, her shoulders hunching and her cheeks flushing on mere instinct – she was expecting mockery, but the look in their eyes, still dulled by a pain she cannot even begin to imagine, made her hesitate.
..It was, perhaps, the most genuine thing she'd heard from them ever since before the hunt began.
She wasn't sure why her heart hurt at such an idea, but it was enthralling to see the beginnings of a half hearted smile on their lips.
For a moment, her mask of theatrics was forgotten as she stared at them in a mixture of awe and adoration– and though she didn't look at Neuvillette, she could imagine he must've shared such an expression.
Had she any doubts that they were her Creator, that they alone were the most Divine..they would wiped clean now. There was no mistaking the way the world itself seemed to grow clearer as they glanced up at her like she was worth something.
For a moment, she realized how cold the false Creators gaze had been now that she has felt warmth so gentle it almost made her knees buckle beneath her. It felt like a pale imitation, now.
Nothing could compare to the warmth that spread through her body at the mere semblance of a smile upon their lips. She didn't even mind if it was her they were laughing at anymore, she just wanted to hear them laugh again.
She'd make a fool of herself, if she had to.
She'd never felt so..ravenous for such a thing, but just the briefest glimpse was addictive.
She simply couldn't help herself from striding across the room and clasping their free hand in her own, her smile wide enough to unnerve as she leaned her weight onto the bed. For a moment, she considered pulling away at the way they startled, but her mind was made up by then – there was no going back.
"Again."
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#fic tag#neuvillette#focalors#furina#dont ask what happened here idk#this was. also supposed 2 be neuvi focused and then i.#dont talk 2 me abt focalors i wont ever shut up#got a 300k word essay on hand abt how i feel abt her character/how i interpret her personality and her story#focalors jsut like me fr fr (cries at the slightest inconvenience or the slightest mean comment)#shes so pathetic girlfail im gonna chew on her#what happens when reader gets stuck with two emotionally repressed french bastards?? hell#neuvi is the “emotionless” flavor of emotionally repressed in that hes HORRIBLE at showing emotions at all#ask him to smile and its incredibly unnerving and theres too many teeth but hes trying his best please call him pretty or he will cry :(#furina is the flavor of emotionally repressed where she makes it up by having Too Many emotions#using theatrics and masks to show everyone what they want to see but inside this girl is a MESS#constant anxiety and panic 24/7#will do random shit and look at you and if u dont compliment her she will think u hate her and cry#compliment her and she'll do even stupider shit to try and impress you more#i love my scrunkly little babies they r so stupid and mentally ill someone get these bitches some THERAPY#i want 2 put them under a microscope#watch this be ooc fr furina when more of her lore drops if shes not girlfail im leaving#anyway see u in a week im going on a trip ill get back 2 u in 6-7 business days
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