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4byun · 2 years

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I’m so exhausted and stressed and overwhelmed. I was sick for a whole week with a flu and had to miss a week of uni. I have a midterm project due in less than 2 days and I haven’t been able to finish it because I can’t sleep and my body is still recovering. And my professor isn’t responding to me. I might just lose it.

#text #personal #tries to sleep and gets 394738372928 anxiety attacks #and my entire body hurts so much #times like this I hate having a weak immune system I always fall so ill there is no in between #and mentally ????? i keep beating myself up over this even though I cannot HELP it #im trying not to be so hard on myself but i’m so behind and im stressed out this project is worth 50% of my grade #my gpa is dying #i graduate next year i cant afford to fuck any of this up #i hate this i hate myself l. o oo o llll

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bertoyana · 3 months

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charles and erik with each other: oh dear, oh dear. gorgeous 🥺👐 charles and erik with the villain of the week/the x-men: K1LL YOURSELF 🔥🔥🔥

X-Men: First Class (2011) | X-Men Apocalypse (2016)

#charles is soo insane for looking at a god in the face and telling him to fuck off bc he was hurting his best friend. most normal guy.#cherik #mine*#x-men #xmenedit #parallelsedit #filmedit #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #otp: i want you by my side #god charles' entire demeanor towards apocalypse in xma has always been SOO funny to me. he literally looks ANNOYED every time #apocalypse speaks in the movie. he doesn't even look intimidated or worried that he's trying to possess CHARLES'S BODY or anything #mind you charles wrote his thesis about mutation and here he has THE FIRST MUTANT ever in front of him. who's also a god threatening #to destroy the world. and charles' only reaction is:#'whatever. MOVE OUT OF THE WAY LOSER i CANNOT see erik from where you are standing and i'm worried about him'#and i do think it's very sweet that after this raven tells erik he has to fight for what he has left - and he thinks about charles #(the man that stood on the balcony all those years ago and that cared enough about him to tell him there is more to him #and the same man that STILL CARES ENOUGH to look at A GOD in the face and telling him to go fuck off and die and stop manipulating erik)#charles loves him so much you don't get it........... i'm foaming at the mouth i'm so normal about them

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blanze · 1 month

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So I play Dislyte pretty regularly and the design for the Poseidon character is just so... IHAD to do it!

The Hades one had to go through a more extreme makeover to make it feel more Nico-esque though (it has a couple subtle design nods to Velinxi's Young Gods AU too!)

This was supposed to be a take on @percico-nicercy-events 's fest btw, Day 5: Undersea Prince Percy and Underworld Prince Nico but yeah, I'm way behind;;

Next up is a 14 panel comic!

#percico #nicercy #pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #man this took so much time and effort #I'm n e v e r attempting the lineless/vectorial style of that game again #it looks really good but my entire body hurts holy shit #also giving Nico oranges and reds instead of purples and greens ended up looking super interesting and contrasting #I feared both color schemes would be too diametrically opposed to each other... and they kinda are but still look nice #I think #I wanted to make them complement each other <3 #yapping about character design and color schemes and symbolism again

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blueskittlesart · 11 days

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hi i have literally zero art to post rn but here's my favorite shot of the main character from my thesis graphic novel so far

#she is trying very very very hard. i am also trying very hard because i dont want to draw all this fucking exposition #just let me get to the lesbianism and the fight scenes PLEASEEEEEE UGH #anyway. 4/5 pages for this week complete. slay #art school is very much art schooling. the fact that i went to a metal concert last night #and danced so hard and screamed so loud that my entire body hurts is also definitely not helping. anyway #i promise i'll have art for you soon. you know how it goes. no art in september because im preparing my linktober backlog

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mcondance · 1 year

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cw creampie, period sex, bad ending

sighs… creampies from hobie.. thick loads of white cum… hobie breeding you deep as he can, cause he knows that’s rlly all you want right now. fucking his cum deep into you, fat tip leaking white against your cervix, your sore thighs pressed up against his heated chest, legs thrown over his shoulders, your hands thrown around his neck. his hand caressing your hair as he makes sure to rut against you, makes sure you feel every drag of his cock against your sensitive walls, makes sure you feel the base of him slide against your achy entrance, makes sure he ruts his hips against your achy vulva, your lower bodies a mess of cum and blood.

“i know, love, i know. i’ll make it feel better, swear.” and he does, grinding his dick into you until all you feel is white hot pleasure, pulses of ecstasy streaming through you. hands moving from your hair, he swipes his thumb over your puffy clit, pushing his hips into you firm and deep, coasting you into another orgasm that you hit with a gritted moan, head thrown back into the pillows, shaking and trembling in his grasp.

“cum in me, please hobie, i need it.” you almost cry, pulling him closer like he’s not already on top of you, like he hasn’t already filled you up once. he lets you, nodding against your lips, seating himself as deep as he can. slurring, “i got you baby,” he cums pressed against your cervix, fulfilling everything you needed from him. he kisses you as you both come down, lowering your legs to the side of him, gentle lips moving softly against yours.

#guys pls ignore this i’m in so much pain run like my entire lower body hurts #rn*#i wrote this to cope but igs i’ll share #hobie brown smut #hobie brown x reader #hobie brown x black reader #hobie x black reader

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angelnumber27 · 4 months

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It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.

#I fucking hate having bpd #while I’m at it I don’t understand the fuckin audacity some people have to say they love you and do horrible things to you #I feel so stupid #I feel so stupid for believing all the lies #but I was so in love and put him on such a pedestal that I just allowed it all.#thinking about someone constantly and grieving over them and knowing they’re perfectly fine and to them you don’t exist #I’m still in such a state of grief and I don’t understand why time hasn’t healed #it honestly feels like it’s gotten worse w time #I just torture myself but I can’t help it my brain wants me dead #it’s so painful I feel so fucking stupid #being abandoned with no closure by someone who’s your entire world #for someone they were unfaithful to you with multiple times (I don’t even know how many and dony want to know) immediately #like that was the plan all along #he took our cat hundreds of miles away and I don’t even know if he still has her or if she’s still alive and I miss her every day #I never loved someone like that and it feels like the heartbreak is actually physically killing me #i spent 1/5 of my entire life with him #I was my prettiest and had the best body at the time and I wasted it on someone who didn’t appreciate me #not wasted. it wasn’t wasted. we had some incredible times together #I’ll never be that beautiful again #and now idk what do so bc i can’t decide which is worse: being alone and isolating or loving deeply and ending up horribly hurt all over #it’s all just so upsetting.#and I feel so stupid for allowing it all #he knows more about me than anyone and he made me feel like he loved me so much sometimes and then did horrid things and it’s so fucked up #nobody read this I’m so embarrassed and horribly broken #it traumatized me so much there was so much abuse and pain idk if I’ll ever recover #I deserved it but it still hurts my heart #I was so mentally ill and sick I know it had to have been miserable to be around me #there are so many things only he understands and knows about me and I need to talk about them I j wanna b able to b there 4 each other #but that girl is so beyond insecure and controlling so. if I want to talk to who fuckin gets me I’m just fucked #why lead someone on like that for years knowing you’re going to abandon them the second it’s convenient

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lastoneout · 6 months

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bro there's gotta be something wrong with me I should NOT be this tired two days after doing like three minor errands

#I know I have hEDS and I'm anemic and shit but like #I went to the doctors office and the pharmacy #and I didn't walk that much or take public transit I was like going from sitting in one place to sitting in another #and now I'm so exhausted I can barely think and my entire body hurts #what the fuck #vent #negative #health stuff

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chaoticbuggybitchboy · 3 months

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Wiki how to not feel evil for needing painkillers

#chaoticbuggybitchboy #mild vent #internalized ableism #<- going brr #everything hurts so much I took them but mmmmmm it hurts literally my entire body hurts and it’s only gotten worse all week

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rpfisfine · 6 months

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aleksa petting his flower harp project......

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syrenki · 1 month

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post depressive episode clarity like what the fuck do you mean they'll never disappear, just fade.

#mine #tw: sh #i'll be a 30yo woman a 40yo woman a 50yo woman a 60yo woman and someday an old woman with SCARS ON MY ENTIRE LEGS?? like forever????#and i KNOW i broke through enough skin layers for these to never heal entirely like catscratches do #forever? for real? like the rest of my days? i'm never gonna have a healthy clean body like everyone else ever again?#it's THAT easy to just throw it away forever in a second?#i'm gonna be sick #what the fuck man #like both shoulders both thighs both calves entirely ruined #what the actual. fuck.#FUCK.#the awful part of the last year is over thank god #it was an episode lasting from like idk january until #august maybe #i think i'm finally feeling better #but i was really looking into legal psychiatric euthanasia there. drafting my fucking mail to the Dying With Dignity type companies #cause i went to a shrink who told me that i have bpd and while i didn't believe him #fact of the matter is that in some eu countries you're allowed to get euthanized for that. so .#but that doesn't matter i'm a bit better now i'm not thinking about it as much anymore #but it sickens me that #not only do i have to fucking take it alone #but i also have to deal with a lifetime of ridicule disgust “turn off” and pity afterwards #my own best friend told me to make sure to cover up when we slept at a relative's #and i felt it was ridiculous that anyone could even judge me negatively based on the scars when it's me who had to deal with this shit #not them!! and clearly it wasn't fucking easy!!! like if anyone it's not you who's getting hurt from this!!!!!!#i asked her whether she would ever be thrown off by seeing healed scars #and in the coldest tone she replied 'No but I would not know how to explain that to my kids.'#the relatives did not. in fact. have kids.

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bunnihearted · 1 month

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#i cant help myself..... i still daydream...#bc for over a year daydreaming of being w him has been my only comfort...#so i just keep doing it... i literally cannot help it...#but every now and then i get this pang in my chest.#bc i rmbr that it will only be a daydream and that it wont come true as i have been believing and hoping for..#and that hurts my heart so so much. like actually it hurts so bad #and i feel like the ground beneath me just disappears and ifall i to a black voidness #i get this dreadful anxious feeling in my entire body #it wont come true... all i daydream of... i wont get to hold in my hands and *feel*. it will only be in my head...

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months

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#what do i like to do on my days off? my body hurts and im consumed by grief #and fear and contemplations on the nature of death #its not entirely bad tho. i have a morbid fascination with such things so its not like it makes me extremely anxious #its more like im staring directly into the void despite the madness it may bring #mayhaps its not healthy but all my favorite things make me sad. there is beauty to be found in sad things #but still the fear is creeping in as we near 2 weeks until the semester starts bc i dont kno if i can do it.#i just feel like ive broken something beyond repair and i dont kno if i can do this anymore. or is that just a story im telling myself?#thats less fun. it feels like im bracing for pain. its the same feeling i would get whe #when i was coming home from breaks of school. its the reason ive spent so much time crying on airplanes. everything still feels like such #a mess and im afraid #i just want to draw until my hand hurts #unrelated

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wormy-worm · 6 months

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ok u know what maybe if the world isn't ready for sunrazer post that means that the world IS ready for Amoveous siblings post. This is Milo and Enho and theyre my DARLINGS and i love them SO MUCH. i have. SOOOOOOOO many thoughts abt them but after the previous post massacre i do not really feel like typing all of that xoxo love <3

#THESE DRAWINGS HAVE BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS FOR MONTHS LOL #meart #original character #robot oc #ily enho ily milo my darlings my angels my loves my funny robot guys.#ive posted abt Andromeda on here b4 if u remember her Enho is her best friend !!!!!#Enhos a battle robot who doesnt want 2 fight people..#hes the oldest sibling and theres a lot resting on their shoulders!#shes supposed to be this big metal protector but U.U she just wants to hide in his room.. and make music for the internet..#him and andy have this whole arc abt like. autonomy and identity and junk #being as andy is a government experiment who was raised to be a superhero who. has not yet realized that she HATES being a superhero lol #Enho inspires her!#milo um. does his own thing. he was the second amoveous bot and he is lucky to have been built without the responsibility of a battle bot #which means hes a LOT weaker. doesnt have a million weapons and lasers and such like enho does. no one expects much of him. he HATES IT!!!!#he wants to be POWERFUL! he wants to HURT PEOPLE!! he wants to be USEFUL!!! hes ANGRY ALL THE TIME #its EXSAUSTING.#yk that tinkerbell thing thats like. cuz shes so small she can only feel one emotion at once. and its so big it consumes her entirely?#hes that. he lives entirely in extremes. everything is 100% for him #he jumps to conclusions so quick and so violently.. hes incredibly impulsive and it gets him into a lot of trouble.#hes also a total NERD!!! GOOB!!! says mlady unironically. likes bad computer games. wears a stupid tie everyday. cartoonishly schemes 24/7 #enho for the record is also a pretty angry person. they just dont rlly express it. they dont express much of anything lol.#shes semiverbal on a talkative day. he can be REALLY REALLY PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE THO. THAT MF CAN BE SO PETTY. GOOFY ASS #but shes TERRIFIED she'll lose control of her emotions and her body and that shell hurt someone someday. absolutely terrified.#enho is as afraid of his strength as milo is of his weakness. theyre both two ends of the same extremes in a lot of ways.#polar opposites and yet exactly the same. they resent each other a lot. they need to learn to meet each other in the middle.#anyway ''i dont feel like typing all that'' and then i ramble in the tags for ten million years lol ToT I LOVE THESE GUYS #theyre my oldest ocs in this universe and i have so many thoughts if you have any questions feel free to ask me lol

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dairyfreenugget · 5 months

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(Going insane boinkinh one AU in my head)

Hey hey hey

May I interest you in

(Slowly slides my FaaF AU towards you but void just Disappears without a trace one day before the accolade)

Teehee

#thylacines can talk #faaf au #i love this au very yummy. a very fun twist on how Flower's dynamic with their parents would progress afterwards #the vessels live but the void exits their bodies in quite a violent manner (extreme pain and literally throwing up an entire person worth of #void). Flower was on guard duty and theyre found barely conscious in a pool of rapidly evaporating void. passes out seconds later #PK also had the displeasure of experiencing extene pain and burning as void forced its way out through his skin <3 And his moulds all melted #and evaporated. after the initial shock wears off theyre hit with “Oh No #the vessel“ and rush to find them. Well somebody else was already looking for the royal pair about this #Flower wakes up dazed and in pain in their father's workshop. their stomach hurts their throat burns and they feel lightheaded. the entire #place is considerably brighter than they remember and in they can hear two faint voices in the background but theyre too preoccupied with #examining their now pure white hand in shock to focus on anything else. until they hear their mother say “My wyrm they're awake” and #suddenly their parents are by their side. Now the two have no idea what void leaving their body might have done to them. Are they still #hollow? are they still dead? do they understand anything are they sentient? or was what was done pernament even without the void? do they #have the mind of a child if their sentience was restored? or do they remember anything? So WL stays by their side and helps them sit up #while their father goes to grab his tools. She's trying to keep them calm and comfort them but theyre still too disoriented to pay her much #attention. Until their father checks their breathing and they yelp audibly from the cool metal contacting their skin and suddenly they seem #much more alert. theyve never experienced true coldness before. PK quickly apologises and tries to be gentler with them. Theyre breathing #properly and they have a heartbeat. And he just pauses for a long while just. listening to their heart beating. Many emotions to be had #after the exam's over he asks them point blank how theyre feeling. And Flower looks up at him still seeming a little disoriented. and then #they lower their hand to their stomach and mutter 'My tummy hurts...a-and my throat burns'. It's to be expected after the way the void #left their body. so he goes to grab them some water and meds and they also ask for food and a mirror. And after he returns they just stare #at themself in the mirror and pull on their bangs for a while then blurt out 'I have your eyes' when PK asks if everything's okay. And he #and he almost chokes up as he replies 'Yeah...Yeah you do'. Flower eventually spins a lie that they remember everything but its all distant #and blurry. Like they were not aware until now. They figured it'd be better to not break their hearts #And now the three have to figure out how to be a family while PK is also scrambling to find a new solution to the infection #oops i meant to only give a brief rundown in the tags which is why it was in the tags. but i got too invested KDHDKFB

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stardial · 4 months

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good MORNIGN PPL!!!

#LAST THREE DAYS OF SCHOOL #my entire body hurts so so much cuz mom made me work out w her yesterday. it rules but goddamn #also all my shit is GONE (taken to storage over the summer or taken by mom back to stockholm)#as i was packing yesterday i decided the only clothes i needed here until i get to stockholm were the hawaiian shirts i got from anethia #which IS true they’re very nice. but also it means i’m not gonna get to look fun n gothy for the graduation ceremony #arambles

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that-jack-kline-bestie · 5 months

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so fucking upset. i looked up what's considered concerning weight loss and got a statistic. i looked up the same question but specified teens and i got a bunch of articles about how to lose weight. what the fuck

#tw weight loss #? idk if that tags necessary but better safe than sorry #past this point there is discussion of ARFID and stuff #LMFAO also ive had a medium to mild case of ARFID my entire life and no one noticed past concern for my pickiness #i say medium to mild because ive gotten better recently #i even ate half a bowl of the noodles i dont like the other day. AND they had been touched by shrimp & cabbage juice & soft peanuts #i mean i did drown them in soy sauce first and got nauseous thinking about it the rest of the day. but progress #i mean. im the type of person to skip a meal or barely eat because i dont like the food available or its too loud where i am #my adhd impacts it too like sometimes ill forget to eat or wont be able to make anything that day #but like goddamn. a growing child should be gaining weight. 'we should keep an eye on that' every single time and then no action #you know maybe thats part of why my body hurts sometimes and feels weird and shaky other times #its hard to tell based on how bony i am or whatever because i also naturally am a string bean and im not. like. starving myself #i get the same comments about how i should eat more and how im so skinny when im healthy and when im not #or i used to. people are generally less intrusive now that im older #gosh i need to flex my metaphorical brain muscles more i put way too much thought into the wording of this

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