#and so much networking stuff

[onnkelvezenn]

As a dev, can confirm.

I've used multiple dev- or sysadmin-oriented software without understanding what they were for, but they were needed by some other parts of the system.

[baalzebufo]

actually, posting the little commentary clip where alex talks about gideons origins because I want it on my blog haha

[kanhotep]

Alastor would love to have a computer because while he still thinky vinyl is the superior medium for music he can't deny that it's more effective to have a digital music library.

He could also built a computer easily, the hardware is no problem for him.

Unfortunately he stopped keeping up with programming in the 60ies, there was just so much going on. And now he can't get any software that is not in some way connected to Vox he doesn't want to admit it, because he's the radio demon, this frivolous digital technology is beneath him, but there is a little part of him that is pissed about it.

Definitely pissed.

And in no way whatsoever melancholic, reminiscing of a past when he and Vox would build them together, Alastor working on the hardware and Vox doing the software.

A past where such actions were meant to be a pleasant hobby, a nice way to pass the time and not a commitment to an unreliable lifestyle that chained itself to whatever new trend arose.

No, he could never miss this old flight of fancy. But he can admit, that he misses the old Vox. His old chum used to be a nice company rather than a persistent annoyance.

[bright-and-burning]

i know i have a million lawyer mutuals . somebody wanna help me decipher this lawsuit 🥺 it's only 8 pages long, but it's got to do with a completely goofy internal hr thing the federal government did this week and i want to unpack the gossip (and how it's even like. sue-able lol)

[hopetatic]

i had no clue i would draw him again. but well, what am i gonna do with 3 hours of newfound knowledge about this one arg? Nothing? AS IF

Close ups below

[tangents-within-tangents]

There are these thoughts in my head, this feeling in my chest that idk how to adequately put into words, esp since i know i'm too nervous about all the ~discourse~ and caveats i'll have to make but

i'm just feeling things about the way amatonormativity devalues friendship

I could go on about it for ages, but right now it's the way that robbing friendship of value, of love, treating platonic love as less important, less deep, less real, than romantic love: it robs you of being able to mourn too

like if we reduce and ignore the ways that love and care show up in friendship we also reduce and ignore the ways that loss and grief show up there too

And the ways that it can show up differently than in other relationships

Like if a friend dies of course people expect you to be sad and go to the funeral. But if you say "my friend died" will people really treat it the same as if you said "my brother died?" or "my fiancé died"? And what about the ways you lose friends that are different from how you lose family or lovers? You lose friendships to time, proximity, and other relationships in a way you just never would a SO, and you're just supposed to accept it, as a normal part of life.

We all recognize romantic heartbreak, there's in-built sympathy and expectations surrounding break-ups, even the silly tropes of crying and eating ice cream or whatever. But what about platonic heartbreak? Not in place of romantic heartbreak, not a substitute, but as its own thing.

The unique pain that comes from losing a friend slowly and uncertainly. Not a dramatic falling out, or a death or what have you, something we'd all recognize and validate, and expect that you'd never see each other or significantly interact again. But quietly losing someone who is still alive and well and happy and moving on and we never even talked about it! Just over time stopped being in each others lives for no clear or defined reason, never knowing if you might hear from them again, never knowing that was going to be the last time you ever saw each other. Or, when your paths do still cross--you see each other from afar, you like each other's posts, maybe you try to hang out every now and then--but it will never be the same as it was. Not because anything went wrong, but just because you lived and grew and time passed, but you didn't do it together like you thought you would.

The unique pain of realizing that you are putting more effort and care into a relationship than is ever going to be reciprocated. Because relationships are two-sided but there's no cultural conventions, no labels or ceremonies or promises in place for you to ensure that your commitment will be returned. How someone can be so so important to you and maybe you're important to them too, but just for now, just until they find something else, something 'deeper'.

And then we see how it's all so cyclical, because the way in which amatonormativity devalues friendship is often the very thing you are losing friends to. And there's this other layer of pain in not having words for it. Not having a way to express and conceptualize this loss, because it's not the love we write songs about

idk if i'm making any sense. i'm in the post-therapy need a nap and calories but also having introspective revelations™ mode right now, which is probably why i'm waxing poetic but just

ahhhhhhh

Not just platonic love, but platonic grief! Platonic jealousy, platonic anger, platonic joy, platonic fear! Platonic heartbreak yall

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent life photos

[fvckw4d]

The concept of queerbaiting annoys me. I was told that it refers to a work of fiction pretending to cater to a queer audience but then pulling back from it to avoid alienating homophobes, which is an incredibly specific thing. But a lot of people seem to think that it instead means "any time there's any gay subtex, metaphor, or ambiguity" or "whenever something from 1995-2012 was being a normal amount of homophobic for the era."

[thisshitisridiculous]

actually i hate watching a show where the actors and writers have articles every week about what's going to happen, like what do you mean ever take involves some quote from someone where they literally can't tell you what's going on because that's a spoiler, just watch the show, the show will tell you everything you need to know

[whentherewerebicycles]

man oh man i have so many thoughts about how insistently (and i think kind of blindly/uncritically) my university pushes us to frame absolutely every type of learning experience we offer to students in the language of "career readiness" and "career-connected learning" and "professional development." i totally get that we have a large first-gen student population who are making a big investment of time & money in a college degree and who want to be sure that doing so will grant them access to greater socioeconomic mobility. and i DO think it is important for us to think about like, ok, long-term, what comes after these experiences or after this four years in college, and what can we be doing to set students up for success as they transition out of college and into the rest of their lives. but like. idk man. i find it really bleak sometimes. just this relentless messaging that the only thing that matters in your adult life is how competitive you are on the job market. and i also think it pushes us to just like, kind of warp or distort the things we are offering students to make them fit under that rubric, or that particular framework for valuing things? like if we want to convince a student to study abroad we can't be like, living abroad is one of the most amazing things you can do. it's so fun/scary/exhilarating/awesome and it will expand your horizons in ways you can't even anticipate and it will expose you to different ways of seeing the world and you will get to interact with people whose perspectives have been shaped by totally different cultures & contexts and it will help you become more independent and more confident in your ability to handle unfamiliar situations and it will give you stories you will remember all your life and you will build strong friendships with the people you meet and you will take cool pictures or buy little knickknacks that remind you of those experiences in your daily life forever and it will motivate you to travel more and when/if you have kids of your own you will probably make it a priority to travel with them if you can or to encourage them to study abroad when they're older because you know how amazing that experience is and you want them to have access to those kinds of life-changing opportunities. like instead of saying any of that we have to say oh this will develop your skills in time management and project management and professional communication with your supervisors and it will give you something impressive to talk about on your resume or in job interviews and blah blah blah. or even if you use a more capacious definition of career readiness that focuses more on habits of mind (like, in the workplace you will sometimes have to navigate complex situations where expectations are not fully clear! you will also likely have this experience living abroad!), it's still just like... idk man... i find it so reductive lol like yeah sure but "get a skill that applies to your job as a project manager or an IT professional or whatever" just feels so much... Less... than the more humanistic appeal to like, this will enrich your life in so many ways, and you will, through these experiences, just become an all-around more emotionally mature, confident, and interesting human being who has engaged in an experience that challenged you and helped you grow. but then i am all in on the humanities and humanism in general so maybe i am biased here and someone who wants to be a software engineer or whatever would be wholly unmoved by that kind of appeal. idk. anyway. it looks like our team is going to be subsumed into our career center in the next year or two so like. what can you really do except to inwardly say "wow i kinda hate this"

[captainshadowshifter]

Me just casually thinking about au worldbuilding and once again realising everything is linked

[loverboybrightsideghost]

10am

me: oh boy i sure hope i can start gigging this holiday season, but i don't know very many people so i don't know how!

2pm

my violinist friend's teacher: hey iris are you available to do a gig in my church this weekend?

me: oh fuck yeah

[floral-hex]

34 and 41

(pretty please with a cherry on top 🍒✨)

34. What’s your favorite flower?

I really like orchids, but big honorable mentions to irises, hydrangeas, and roses.

41. What’s your favorite cartoon?

Favorite kid cartoon show: maybe Adventure Time or Steven Universe.

Favorite kid cartoon movie: this is a tough one, but I will say ONE of my favorites is Lego Batman. for real. It’s good.

Favorite adult cartoon show: Scavengers Reign

Favorite adult cartoon movie: Princess Mononoke (if anime doesn’t count then… maybe A Scanner Darkly. Not a lot of options.)

Hey, thank you!

[kaiaprax]

Me: looking at going $7k into debt so I can keep having a job

The people on this website: stepping around my "NO DONATION REQUESTS" sign to ask me for money

[rroketa]

when someone points out that I'm always working I'm like "woah... damn i guess i am.."

[icewindandboringhorror]

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