#and that picking the other option is an act of resistance

[indierpgnewsletter]

The 1980 Dallas RPG was a Soap Opera Wargame?

In 1980, SPI, a company known for its wargames did a strange thing and published an RPG based on the Dallas tv show. If you don't know anything about the tv show, don't worry, I will protect you. It's too late for me though. You go on ahead. Basically, it was a hit TV show of big money family feuding. Imagine Succession but it was written in the 1980s and instead of TV news, it was an oil company. Unlike the show, the RPG wasn't a hit. The art director of the game famously wrote that they printed 80,000 copies and that was 79,999 more than people wanted. That one person seemed to be this person's grandma who bought it for him to save his soul from D&D/Satan.

What is this game though? Well, James F Dunnigan, founder of SPI and designer of legendary wargame, Panzerblitz, seems to have applied his analytical mind to the internecine squabbles of Dallas and decided that, if you think about it, petty family drama isn't so different from CIA covert ops. And he was right.

As you'd expect from a wargame, the rules are dry and clinical to a fault. You start by picking one of the 9 characters from the show - JR, Jock, Sue Ellen, Pam, etc. They all have stats like Persuasion, Coercion, Seduction. And these stats have attack/defend values. For example, JR has a Coercion of 24 because he's a real jerk. Sue Ellen has a Seduction resist of 18, but it's 20 against JR, because again, he seems to have been a real jerk. This game genuinely went out of its way to make sure you know JR's wife really really doesn't want to go near him.

Each character starts the session ("episode") with a secret story-based objective. Jock wants to run an angry former employee out of town, JR wants to cheat an Arab oil magnate out of 100 million dollars, Sue Ellen wants to do a favour for an old boyfriend. Yeah, what can I say? Some of these objectives feel more important than others. Regardless, you achieve these objectives by controlling 4 or more specific minor characters and organisations by the end of the game. For example, to enact his 100 million dollar plan, JR has to control the Ewing Oil Company, Mustafa Quattara, Professor Bayard, the reporter Mary Cleef, and so on. But characters' objective overlap so Pam also wants Mustafa Quattara and Jock also wants Professor Bayard. These conflicting goals means players need to scheme, negotiate and attack each other so they can win.

The sessions play out in five rounds. Each round, the GM sets the scene. Then, the players can negotiate and make deals. Then, we enter the conflict phase where each player makes three moves - either trying to gain control of uncontrolled NPCs, or attacking another player to steal an NPC from under them, or protecting their own NPCs. And the game throws in little curveballs every round: Oops, some of JR's drinking buddies are in town and he can't say no to them, so his character is out of this round. Hopefully the player has some NPCs that they can use to act instead. Oops, Mustafa Quattara is being chased by assassins. Whoever controls his card has to give it up as he disappears for a bit and comes back uncontrolled. The end result is somewhere in between Vampire the Masquerade (or rather, Undying) and Blood on the Clocktower.

Sure, the math is dense (you roll 2d6 under the difference between the attack value and the defense value, plus or minus any currency spent). Sure, it takes 9 players to really sing. Sure, multiple people can complete their objective so you need to track victory points separately to decide the real winner. Sure, you have to take the homophobia out of the Seduction rules. Sure, roleplaying is completely optional. Sure, sure, sure. The game is a mess. But it's a very playable mess. I'd go so far as to say it's an electric mess. It's shockingly (sorry) fun to play. I think the secret lies in a very clear agenda for the players, a tight boardgame-like action economy, a premise that supports hilarious degrees of pettiness, and an inter-personal experience that demands everyone pay attention to what their friends are doing.

So. Am I planning a full 9 person play-by-post game of this? Yes. Am I thinking of changing the setting and the math? Yes. Is that basically designing a new game? Yes. Should this game be labelled "Powered by Dallas" or, as one of my players suggested, "Hornswoggled by Dallas"? YES.

(This was first published in the Indie RPG Newsletter.)

[ethereal-blossom]

My thoughts on dating... Dazai!

Credits to @kisara-16 because she basically co-wrote this through our conversations about Dazai. Seriously, these headcanons wouldn't look like this without her amazing insight on Dazai!

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-Instant love is not an option when it comes to Dazai. He can think you're pretty when he first lays his eyes on you, and he can be impressed and admire certain qualities, but he's not going to fall in love that easily. Falling in love requires vulnerability and indirectly the acceptance of a possible loss. No, a slow burn sounds more right.

-Building up trust is the key to getting Dazai vulnerable. You're going to have to prove that you won't leave him. It's not an easy task as Dazai will make you face many challenges, like calling you up in the middle of the night because he's "too drunk" to walk home from the bar yet you're chasing him around the entire city up till dawn.

-However, there are more things needed to win over Dazai's heart. Little things over a long span of time, to be more precise. Dazai is a stranger yet attracted to sincerity and kindness, so a combination of these two things would pull his heartstrings.

-Imagine Dazai sitting at his desk and suddenly you put a can of crab on it. He's confused, but then you explain how you rarely see him eat at the ADA. When Dazai asks you why you chose a can of crab, you answer that he once tried to convince Kunikida to buy it for him with the promise he'd finish that long overdue paperwork. Dazai would be so surprised if someone, you, paid attention to him and remembered a detail from an interaction that didn't even involve you. (Credits to Kisara for this scenario!)

-Dazai would be oblivious to his crush on you at first, may it be because he's scared or the foreignness of the emotion. When Dazai does realize he has feelings for you, he tries to distance himself. As Dazai said, everything he wants is lost the minute he obtains it. He can't afford to add another wound to an already scarred heart. It's crucial to be consistent and prove you're not willing to leave, and that you desire to live.

-You'll have to confess first. Although Dazai easily picks up on other people's emotions and knows how to manipulate them, he has trouble handling his own. Vulnerability is something Dazai fears and that includes opening up about his feelings to you. He would wait until you make the first move.

-If you're scared though, don't worry! Dazai picked up on your crush on him as well as your struggle to confess. He'll tease you until you're convinced he needs to have some interest in you. Imagine being in the ADA kitchen and Dazai pops up behind you. His front is pressed against your back while he's trying to grab something that so accidentally happens to be at your coffee maker. "Don't mind me," he whispers softly into your ear. He could grab it much faster but why wouldn't he take his sweet time? After all, it's so cute how your body reacts to his close presence. And who knows, maybe it makes you confess sooner.

-When you do confess, Dazai might act light-heartened about it. "Oh, Belladonna, I knew you'd fall for my charms eventually! What about a lovely double suicide for our first date?" But don't let it fool you. He's excited yet nervous that you asked him out. He just needs to hide it for the both of you.

-You might also need to kiss him first. Dazai will turn it into a challenge to see how long you can resist kissing him. Imagine Dazai catching you looking at his lips. You turn your head the second you notice Dazai caught onto you, but then his slender fingers grab your chin, turning your head back to him. His eyes lock with yours, the air is filled with want... and then he lets go, focusing on whatever you were doing. The longer you wait for him to kiss you, the more seriously Dazai takes the challenge.

-Dazai's kisses are usually playful and teasing. He knows what makes you stand on the tip of your toes for more. One of the cuter things is when he taps on your shoulder only to appear on the opposite side to kiss your cheek.

-The PDA will be very clownery. Not sure if I wrote something similar for another post, but: If Dazai wants to cuddle with you at the ADA, he's going to drag you to the couch whining like a child needy for attention. It's all to hide that he craves your touch. Physical touch is an intimate action for Dazai as he rarely lets someone that close into his personal space and when he touches someone, it's rarely to show affection. Such an intimate action is something Dazai prefers to hide from his co-workers and strangers, so the way he goes around it is by using his desire for your touch to strengthen his reputation as a lazy clown.

-Nevertheless, there are going to be intimate, hidden touches throughout the day. He'll lightly bump into you at the copy machine. He'll then place his hands on your shoulders as if to steady you and innocently smiles "Sorry, can't have you falling for me again, sugar cube!" Or when nobody is watching and he delicately caresses your lower back for a split second. And perhaps the times your shoulders brush slightly aren't as accidental as they appear to be.

-Physical touch is more intimate when you're in one of your dorms, though. It's where Dazai doesn't have to worry about appearing soft or vulnerable. He loves it when you play with his hair, although it'd be an unfamiliar sensation at first. He'd relax so much if you made him lay his head in your lap while you do your skin-care routine on him. When you fill him in on everything that's going on in your mind while touching his skin aka giving him personal attention... He could never get tired of it.

-Dazai's favorite love language to receive is physical touch. He's so touch-starved, especially with the layers of bandages decorating his skin. It's going to take a long time before Dazai feels at ease and safe enough to remove the bandages around you, though. It's not something he's going to be comfortable with doing at the start of your relationship. Honestly, a lot of things that require even a bit of vulnerability turn into slow burns with Dazai. Even holding hands is a huge milestone that feels intimate to him. You really need to have patience and while you sometimes have to push him outside of his comfort zone or take the initiative, you cannot be too pushy either.

-Once Dazai agrees to remove his bandages, be extra tender with him. Kiss him softly and gently remove the bandages around his neck. Instead of staring at his skin and making him feel self-conscious, start placing kisses on his neck and then slowly trail down to the exposed part of his neck, leaving hickeys at places you couldn't before. Don't immediately let Dazai remove all his bandages. Take it step by step. Leave days between them. You don't have to remove his shield in one go.

-Dazai doesn't often initiate dates as he's rather easy in that aspect. It's not to say that he never takes you out, though! What Dazai values most on dates is the proximity of you and the memories that are being made. When Dazai wants to go on a date, they're rather spontaneous and unpredictable. One minute you're working and before you know it, he makes you chase him to a park. A fun date idea could be escape rooms! Of course, Dazai is smart enough to escape within five minutes, but he enjoys the proximity of it. He'll have already figured out where the key is, but why would he say it? Not only does that make you leave the room sooner, but he finds your cute dedication to escape it endearing. Dazai would also really like cafe or bar dates, but he also wouldn't say no to a date filled with surprises (if you manage to be sneaky enough to surprise him, that is).

-Dazai takes care of you from the shadows. He's a tsundere. So when he does an act of service, it's hard to tell it's him. For example, let's say you're very tired. When Atsushi is ready to grab a cup of coffee from the cafe, Dazai randomly brings up how tired you've looked all day. Next thing you know, Atsushi brings you a cup of coffee.

-Dazai isn't the one to get jealous easily, but oh does he taste it when somebody else thinks they can wrap you around their fingers when you're already wrapped around his. Softly said, it's not appreciated. It's hard to tell when Dazai is jealous, but he does get extra clingy and starts making it obvious that you belong to him. They're looking at your hair? Oops, Dazai is brushing it behind your ear. They're looking at your cheek? Dazai kisses it. They're trying to make a conversation with you? Dazai is answering all the questions in the most annoying way. They try to stand closer to you? Dazai has an arm around your waist, pressing you against him.

-When you need a hug for comfort, Dazai will make a remark on how clingy you are. But when you want to pull away, he hugs you even tighter and doesn't let go until he feels your heart rate go back to its usual tempo.

-Dazai prefers to sleep next to you. It doesn't necessarily helps him fall asleep (although it does make him feel more relaxed) but Dazai enjoys to have you in his arms, listening to your steady heartbeat and breathing, feel your warmth, and loves to have you close even though you're sleeping. It makes the night a bit more bearable and less lonely.

-Dazai isn't very used to praise, and if he does, then it usually doesn't mean anything to him. He knows he's smart. He's aware people perceive him as handsome. Nothing new. However, he'd secretly get flustered when it's you who praises him. It's the way you praise him with such sincerity and admiration without expecting anything back that makes the blood want to rush to his cheeks. Dazai knows how to smoothly hide his face, although you can still catch a tiny hint of him being flustered if the praise comes so unexpectedly.

-He's not always going to believe your praise, sadly. Not because Dazai doesn't trust you, but because Dazai doesn't believe himself to be a good human. So, whenever you praise him for being kind or beautiful, he's hesitant to internally accept it.

-Dazai calls you cringy pet names in public + Belladonna, but in the safety of your dorms he calls you "love" and "dear." All credits to Kisara and I'm still fangirling over how accurate this feels: "Sweet angel princess Belladonna, would you possibly... reconsider my double suicide offer?"

-Self-care does not come natural to Dazai. He is a pro in neglecting himself, so it is important that you motivate him in taking care of himself. Dazai will whine about how he does not want to shower only for him to do a full 180 turn when you offer to shower together. He clings to his can of crab, claiming it is all he need, only to change his mind once you make a delicious homemade meal (emphasis on you because there is something about knowing you made it that makes the food more enticing).

-To be fair, there are downsides to dating Dazai that you have to deal with. His acts of service often isn't noticeable, he has trouble opening up and sharing what is happening inside his head, and he requires patience on many surfaces. There are times he is as ungraspable as the wind. However;

-If there's one thing Dazai considers most important then it's your life. He has lost too many and he's not ready to lose you, too. So, it's almost a given that Dazai feels protective of you. He wouldn't let anyone harm you and if someone does... Well, that automatically makes them Dazai's enemy and we know what saying goes around. If you actually once get seriously hurt on a mission, it's going to keep Dazai up for the next couple of nights. Sure, the Agency has Yosano and she fixed you up like a pro, but still. What would've happened if they got you to Yosano too late? Especially if you got hurt in Dazai's plan, he'd beat himself up. Either way, he's going to feel like he should have predicted it. He praises himself for his intelligence but couldn't even use it to keep his love safe? Pathetic. Dazai is going to find it endearing though if you decide to stay up with him even though you're basically falling asleep on his shoulder.

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-As I mentioned before, holding hands is already going to be a huge achievement, so I don't think you will sleep together very soon in the relationship.

-This man is unmotivated to do anything until we're talking about how many orgasms he can get out of you. Dazai is both a fan of overstimulation and edging. He will edge you for what feels like hours on end to then go full out without hitting the brakes because "Wasn't that what you were begging me for, my Bella?"

-I am not saying Dazai has a praise kink but he is going to be flustered the first few times you praise him during (oral) sex. Imagine moaning his name in the middle of the act and Dazai, the tease that he is, asks "Yes, love?" "Mhm, you are doing so good, Osamu." Instantly, Dazai's pace stutters and slows down as he lets the words sink in. "Is that so?" he replies before muttering to himself "Better live up to the expectations then." Good luck walking the next day, you will need it.

-He probably has been praised before when pleasuring other women but it never did matter as much to him as your praise does.

-I don't think Dazai is that much into degradation. I can't see him wanting to degrade someone he deeply cares about; the closest you will get him to degradation is when he teases how desperate you are for him. However, if you are into it, he will degrade you more because he knows it serves the purpose of pleasuring you.

-Dazai is going to be soft and gentle the first time you will do it. He is self-aware enough to know the times he has been cruel, so he feels extra motivated to do this right. If it is your actual first time, Dazai is more scared of hurting you and feels more pressure to make this time as memorable and pleasurable as possible. He will prep you extra well, entering you slowly while observing every sign that tells him you are hurting, and he will take all the time in the world before he starts moving in and out. During all of that, he coos lovely words that comfort you and distract you from the pain.

-Dazai is a switch with a preference to dom. It will take a while before he takes the role of the sub. When he does, make sure to be gentle with him.

-At the start, Dazai prefers to give. He barely prioritizes himself, so he doesn't make a huge deal out of being on the receiving end. It is quite the opposite: Dazai is aware he does not show love easily and this is a skill he is confident in to show you how devoted he is to you. Yet, a new world opened to Dazai when he realized how good this feels with you. The difference between before and now is the emotions and attachment he feels towards you, which increases his pleasure during such intimate acts. Soon, Dazai will want to drown in the pleasure that you give him and crave more of it like a selfish man.

-Dazai is a pro with his mouth and fingers. Not only that, but he mastered the art of sensuality. He understands roughness, speed, and impatience are not everything. He knows how to make your body tremble with the unbearable slow trace of a single finger against your bare skin, the intimacy of an intense gaze, and the tone of his voice when he tells you all the things that will you crave more of him.

[reiderwriter]

Hey could you do a reid cnc scene for a fem reader? Maybe where only the reader and him are staying late in the office and he just can’t resist and the reader tries to fight him off at first but hes too strong and holds her down? Ofc this is talked about before and is just a scene

A/N: This is my first time writing CNC so please don't expect much 😭

Warnings: 18+ MINORS DNI. CNC - consensual non-consent (please if you do not like this trope just scroll past), pet names, public sex, BDSM roles, established relationship but they're acting out a fantasy.

Here's my masterlist and my requests are open~✨

It had been a long day in the office, and you were so exhausted that you couldn’t wait to go home. All of your coworkers around you had vanished one by one, clocking out earlier in the day. Throwing a glance up, you noticed that even Hotch’s light was off, meaning you really had outworked every member of your team. 

You let a sigh drop from your lips, and massaged your shoulder a bit, having grown stiff after so much work. The lights were dim, and even with your desk lamp on, visibility was low in the bullpen now. Getting up, you stumbled your way to the kitchen, intent on returning your coffee mug before leaving. You felt him pressing into you before you saw him, his arm coming up to wrap a hand over your mouth. 

“Don’t scream, don’t try to fight and this will be easier for you, okay, Princess?” You were set on edge, your instincts telling you to run as far away as you could as fast as you could. He’d pushed you forward, the counter cutting into your stomach painfully as he pressed his crotch up against your ass, grabbing your arms and pinning them to the surface with his other hand. You struggled against him, trying to pull back and away, but when he next spoke you realised that his voice was familiar. 

“Fuck, look at you, pressing back into my cock. You look like a little slut, Y/N,” he whispered in your ear and your blood ran cold. 

“Spencer?” your voice was muffled, but he didn’t have to answer the question for you to know it was him.

“I’m sorry, Y/N, you’ve just been teasing me all day, and now I’m left with no option. You really should act like less of a fucked out whore in the office, you know.” He bought his hand away from your mouth, and sensing that you were about to scream, immediately clapped it back down on it. 

“Shh, shh baby. It’s okay. I’m just going to give you what you were begging me for. You don’t want the night guards to come by and see you being used like the desperate little slut you are, right?” You violently shook your head no, and his hand finally moved away again. Taking gulping breaths of air, you felt his hand pull up your skirt roughly and quickly, desperate for release. 

“Spencer, please, please…don’t do this.” You felt his hand run a finger over your panties now, and you could practically hear the grin in his next words. 

“Your mouth is saying no, baby, but your body is asking me to fuck it like a cheap whore. And we pay attention to body language here at the BAU, right, SSA Y/L/N?” He thrust a finger into you then, sharply and roughly as you moaned out despite yourself, a cacophony of small ‘no’ and ‘stop’ sounds that barely made it past the space he had you pressed into. Your body was reacting to him, to the weight of him against you, to his fingers picking a relentless pace, to the insults he was dropping in your ears. 

“Thought you could put yourself on display for the entire fucking office today, did you? Well, you’re mine.” He grunted in your ears, pulling his fingers out as if he knew you were so close to cumming right there and then, and not wanting to give you the satisfaction. He still had you pinned, though, not letting you move, and you felt it as he freed his cock from its confines, springing up and nestling in between your legs. 

“Going to give you what you have been begging for, okay, slut?” He rubbed it through your folds, letting your involuntary arousal prepare him to enter you. 

“No, no, no, Spencer please,” you begged, but with one quick snap of his hips he was inside you, and you moaned at the contact. 

“Listen to yourself, listen to how wet you sound right now, and tell me you don’t want this.” His hips snapped into yours at a furious pace, using you roughly, as moans were the only thing that spilled from your mouth. 

“That’s right, baby, so fucking tight for me. Not even trying to fight it anymore, that’s my little slut,” he pushed your chest further into the counter now, letting your hands go and grabbing you by the hair instead, giving it a sharp yank every time you stayed quiet for too long. The movement changed the angle of his thrusts and suddenly with every entrance he was hitting deeper, right at your most sensitive spot as your juices flowed all over him. 

“God, look at you. So fucking sexy. I’m going to use you like this whenever I want from now on, okay baby?” You couldn’t even reply to that one, thighs twitching and breath catching, signs that your release was near. 

“Fuck you keep tightening up, and I’m going to cum right inside you baby. Do you want that?” You hadn’t got the energy to respond anymore, but you felt your cunt clench around him, your orgasm finally hitting you as he suggested using you as a cumdump. In another few pumps, he was doing it, letting his cum paint your walls white. 

In his new found clarity, he was off you in seconds, turning you around and gathering you back into his arms gently. 

“Was it okay? Did I hurt you? I know you said you wanted to try but that was a little different from usual, so…” the grin splitting your face was enough of a reassurance for your boyfriend that you’d thoroughly enjoyed the experience. Pulling him down for a sweet kiss to end the session, you tried your best to show him just how grateful you were that he’d listened to your desire and granted you your wish. 

“It was perfect, Spencer. How was it for you?” you saw the blush run up his face, as he stammered to answer the question. 

“Well, if- if it was good then that’s great. Great.” You kissed him on his cheek and he helped you fix your clothes, before leading you out of the kitchen, switching all the lights out finally and going back to your shared apartment. 

[dorabledewdroop]

The White Healer Chapter 3

Summary: Reader is introduced to the avengers and is in for a delightful surprise.

Warnings: Slight Smut. Anxiety.

Series Masterlist

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You weren’t entirely certain who was fussing over you more, Natasha or Wanda. Both seemed to have a difference in opinion when it came to what you should wear. Natasha suggested some fitting jeans and a crop top while Wanda was suggesting some denim shorts and an off-shoulder cardigan. To be honest, neither appealed to you much seeing as you’d be leaving shortly.. The thought saddened you for some reason. You had only spent maybe half an hour with everyone (half of which was with the two in front of you. Not that you were complaining), yet you knew you wanted to spend more time with them. Sighing you stood up from the bed. Both stopped arguing and looked at you inquisitively.

“So, which one do you like more?” Wanda asked eagerly.

“Yeah, whose style is better?” Natasha challenged.

Rolling your eyes you walked past both of them and picked out a simple T-shirt and sweatpants and walked into the bathroom to change. Opting to look in the opposite direction of the mirror, you changed and folded the scrubs neatly. Deciding to put them in the laundry basket. You stepped out and faltered when you saw both of them glaring at you.

Why is that so fucking hot- No. NO. y/n control yourself. You are not going down that road. You-

“I have to say, you could’ve done better” Natasha said.

“It’s the comfiest option. Besides, I’ll be mail these back to you the moment I get home” you said placatingly.

The two glanced at each other, then looked back at you.

“Y/N I-“

A loud knock interrupted whatever Wanda was going to say.

“Are you girls done playing dress up? The food is here already” You heard Pietro yell from outside the room.

Huffing and calling her brother some colourful names in Sokovian, Wanda started towards the door, you and Natasha just behind her.

The conversation seemed to stop abruptly the moment you entered the room. All eyes on you once again. You were considering apologising for existing and leave when you felt a soft hand on your lower back. You instinctively knew it was Wanda’s and you resisted the urge to lean into her hand. Seriously, what was wrong with you? You’ve never acted that way with anyone.

Taking a deep breath, you steeled your nerves and sat at one end of the table. It seemed a little odd as everyone was more on the opposite side but you didn’t know whom to sit next to. The next thing you new Wanda and Natasha had sit down on either side of you. Something you were extremely grateful for.

“Right. So.. um.. Let’s eat?” Steve suggested. 

Immediately everyone opened up the tower of pizza boxes and grabbed a slice. You prayed they had a vegetarian option because all you could see was pepperoni other meaty options. Without hesitation, Wanda passed you a plate with a slice of plain cheese pizza.

“Thank you. It’s like you read my mind” You said off-handedly as you took the plate.

Pietro choked on his bite and Nat patted his back with a smirk on her face.

Thor looked at you in question as he shoved two slices into his mouth simultaneously.

You simply shrugged and stated by how you were vegetarian. Tony froze and immediately spoke out loud “FRIDAY please remember that y/n is a vegetarian”

You looked at him quizzically. Why would it matter-

“Understood boss.” Came a female voice from somewhere.

You stopped mid bite and looked up at the ceiling.

“God?” You wondered out loud.

“Yes?” Thor replied immediately.

Everyone burst out into laughter as you chuckled, completely embarrassed.

“That’s Tony’s AI, ‘Friday’. Anything you need, it can help you do” Bruce stated.

Your eyes widened.

“AI? Like Artificial Intelligence? Like genuine artificial intelligence” You asked.

Confused, Bruce nodded.

You gasped, turned to Tony who was just as confused as Bruce was.

“Oh my god that’s amazing. You could use the AI’s interface as an introductory step to the analysis of anything and everything?? Or you could connect it to modern appliances and provide a level of comfort for those with disabilities?? Or you could use it to efficiently calculate the resources required to provide food to the population? Or- um.. Never mind. Sorry” You shrank in your seat. 

Once again, all eyes were on you as you had finished your rant.

“That.. um.. Yeah. We could use it for that.” Tony said, looking a little sheepish. “But at the moment we’re.. um.. using it-“

“we’re using it to order dinner” Bruce finished, looking equally sheepish.

You just stared at them. Of all the possible ways a successful AI could help this world.. They used it to.. order takeout?

Steve cleared his throat.

“Anyway” he started “Clint told us that during the fight in Sokovia, you had healed the injured?”

You shifted your gaze from Tony to Steve and nodded, confused.

“Would it be okay if we ask you a little about it? Just the extent of your abilities?” He inquired

Nodding once again, you prepared yourself for the upcoming conversation.

“Could you tell us a little about your abilities?” Natasha asked gently.

Clearing your throat, you began “So my abilities are essentially healing. I can heal anything and everything. Short of death? I think? I’m not sure. I’ve never tried. It feels a little disrespectful to go against the natural order of things. It’s not limited to humans, I can heal animals, plants (kind of?). It doesn’t matter how severe the injury is. If you lose an arm, I can heal you so it grows back. If you’re shot, I’ll heal you and the bullets just.. pop out of your body. And um, I can heal myself too? No matter what injury it is, I can heal it. Anything with a soul, I can heal.”

Everyone looked at you impressed, Clint and Pietro merely nodded along already having witnessed it first hand.

“What about gods? Could you heal us?” Thor inquired.

You nodded.

“I’ve never tried to heal a god, but I can heal anything with a soul” you said

“That settles it” Tony said, standing up and walking towards you. “Welcome to the Avengers.”

Your eyes widened.

“Um what? No. I can’t- join the avengers?? I- I have work to do? I’m a- a bartender?” You stammered.

Tony looked at you unimpressed. “We’ll pay you. Your starting salary can be $300k per yea-“

“I’m in” you said determined, causing everyone to burst into laughter. You smiled sheepishly.

Everyone started get up as soon as they realised the matter was settled. Some said they were heading to the game room, while other’s said they’d workout. Everyone made sure to welcome you to the avengers and patted your shoulder as they filed out.

Pietro’s eyes lit up as he had an idea.

“Let me show you to your room, y/n” He said

Wanda and Natasha shot up. Wanda put her hand on your shoulder.

“That’s alright Piet.” She said. “We’ll show her to her new room”

Smirking, Pietro raised his hands in surrender and disappeared.

Your stood up startled.

“Did he just? Teleport? I remember seeing him vanish in Sokovia too” you asked as you followed Wanda and Natasha towards the living quarters.

Natasha chuckled “No, he has an increased metabolism and an improved thermal homeostasis”

You squealed excitedly, “So he’s fast as fuck then. Wow, I wonder what it would feel like to move around while time almost stands still”

Wanda looked at you in surprise.

Your gaze shifted from Natasha to her and you asked whether Wanda had any abilities.

Natasha briefly looked at Wanda and looked away. Wanda on the other hand looked almost guilty or afraid. Seeing her hesitation you quickly assured her that she didn’t have to tell you if she wasn’t comfortable.

“No it’s not that. I just.. don’t want you to by scared of me” She said, not meeting your eye.

By now the three of you had entered your new room but you weren’t paying any attention to that. Your attention was solely on the gorgeous brunette in front of you.

“I highly doubt anything about you would scare me, Wands” you said softly. 

Her head shot up at you and blushed slightly at the nickname. You took her hands in yours and encouraged her. She took a deep breath and started. 

“I can move t.hings with my mind. I can also read minds and control them if I want.” She said. She waited for the rejection that never came. All you did was rub her knuckles gently. 

She looked at you confused. Were you not upset? Weren’t you scared of her?

“I don’t want to ruin the moment but that’s incredibly fucking cool” you said softly. Your tone not matching what you said.

Natasha huffed out a laugh. Wanda, however, was not convinced.

“I- I did things. I hurt the team. I wanted to hurt them.” She started.

You just smiled.

“You’ve more than made up for it, I think” you said.

Natasha smiled at the interaction, nodding in agreement.

“And hey, you’re more than welcome in my mind anytime” You said, bumping shoulders with her.

Wanda frowned. “Are you sure? Aren’t you scared that I’ll read your mind? That I’ll control it or make you see things” she asked.

You shook your head.

“I know I’ve only known both of you for half a day but I already trust you with my life” You said simply.

“Thank you” Wanda whispered. “That means a lot to me”

You brought her in for a hug. She immediately relaxed. She smelled like vanilla. It was incredibly comforting. Eventually, you turned to Natasha, motioning her to join the hug. She rolled her eyes but joined the hug.

“You’re aware I was raised as an assasssin, right?” She said pointedly.

You just hugged the both of them tighter.

“Y’all are so fucking cool” You mumbled to yourself.

A while later, much to your disappointment, they bid farewell as they wanted to get ready for some team building exercises. Something you were apparently invited to. Nodding said bye.

As soon as the two of them stepped out they held hands.

“That woman sure is something” Natasha said with a content sigh.

Wanda giggled and nodded her head. Natasha raised her eyebrow.

“Got something to say Wands” she teased

Wanda in turn shoved her rolling her eyes.

“Nothing to say, princess” Wanda retorted.

Narrowing her eyes, Natasha grabbed Wanda’s arm and shoved her into the wall. Wanda’s breath hitched at the action. Causing Natasha to smirk and step closer until their noses were touching.

“Careful what you say, detka. Don’t forget whose in charge” Natasha husked out, slotting her leg between Wanda’s thighs.

Wanda whimpered and crashed her lips into Natasha’s. Natasha, in turn, bit Wanda’s lower lip causing wanda to gasp. Allowing Natasha to put her tongue in Wanda’s mouth. A soft moan left Wanda’s throat as she fisted Natasha’s t-shirt. Heat starting to pool in Wanda’s belly.

“Shhh kotenok. We don’t want y/n to hear how much of a slut you are, do you” Natasha whispered right next to Wanda’s ear, biting the lobe gently. Wanda shivered in return. Not realising that she had already started to rub her core against Natasha’s thigh, pleasure slowly made it’s way up Wanda’s body. Before they could go any further, your door opened.

“Oh by the way could someone show me where the team building activity is-“ You stopped in your tracks as you looked at what was going on. Wanda was breathing heavy, looking absolutely delicious. Your eyes widened and you backed up into your room and slammed your door shut after letting out an apology.

Wanda came to her senses and shoved her hand onto her face. Natasha on the other hand just chuckled.

“Guess the cat’s out of the bad” She said. “Come on, lets go somewhere where I can take care of you”

Wanda gulped and nodded. While she was embarrassed, she was also extremely turned on at the thought of you watching what happened. Grabbing Nat’s hand she dragged her to her room to finish what Nat had started.

In your room you were absolutely flustered. Your arousal at an all time high. Seeing those two in that position was exactly what worked for you. You fell into your bed. Unable to help yourself, your hands roamed your body, Touching yourself in places that felt oh so good.

These two were going to be the death of you

X--X--X--X

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[spitdrunken]

Relief Duty

Relationship: Blade x gn!Reader Summary: There is a request Blade never fails to make of the people he cares about most.

Notes: consensual murder, depictions of violence, drowning, vomit. No sexual content, except very vaguely implied, but this is a kink fic. Do not read this to trigger or upset yourself in any way, that is not its intention.

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"Will you do it?" Blade asks, arms crossed in front of his body.

He is always a man of few words. Not even in this situation does he comfort you, or reassure you that denial would be okay. But he's not heartless. If you were to tell him 'no', you're certain that he'd let the subject go. At least for now.

"The other Stellaron Hunters…" you start. "Have they…?"

Blade nods, short. "Yes. Kafka used her strings. They were wrapped around my throat. Silver Wolf… Used her powers. The details I've forgotten. Firefly used SAM, upon my request." A golden flicker lights his eye, like the sparks of a flame. "That was the closest I feel I've ever gotten. If there is a chance you would be capable of killing me… I would want to die at your hands."

Despite yourself, your heart flutters. The subject matter is gruesome, but the weight of his words is heavy, their meaning clear. It is almost intimate.

You shift from one foot to the other. "I could try. But I don't have any fancy powers like them, or anything like that," you tell him. He knows, but you feel it must be repeated.

"I am aware. They are not necessary." He is silent, for a moment. His eyes move away from yours, momentarily slipping somewhere you cannot follow. "Sometimes, I wonder if the solution is so simple I have not thought of it yet. I have been maimed in battle in every way imaginable— To no avail."

"Well, then, is there any way you haven't died in yet? Or at least not as often?"

And that is how you end up with Blade on his knees in front of a bathtub filled with lukewarm water. About to murder your own partner. Via drowning.

…Aeons, what are you even doing? You want to sigh and run a hand down your face, or bash your head into the nearest wall. It's for him. For the solemn determination that enters him as soon as the topic of his death is breached, of the clear desire that is guiding him. You love Blade enough that, were he offered a chance at death, you would allow him to take it, even if that meant leaving you behind.

…You know, in your heart, that he would take the opportunity without hesitation, though not without final parting words.

(The only reason you've decided to do is because you are certain that he will not work. That, like every other time, his eyes will close only to open again soon enough. You don't think you will make the difference here. You doubt that Blade really believes it, either. But this kind of hope keeps him going, and so you will not bring it up. Even if this act was never brought up in any script whatsoever.)

"Are you ready?" Blade asks you, as if he's not the person about to be killed. After a beat of silence, you nod.

You extend your arm, and lace your fingers through his hair. For just a moment, you scratch at his scalp, and Blade lets out a noise akin to a hum.

"Okay. I'll do it." You steel yourself, then push his head down towards the water. There is no resistance, his head enters the water with more of a splash than you were anticipating. Rather than merely allowing you to push him under, he pushes his own head under, too.

You're both regretful and relieved that you picked this option. Relieved, because it requires very little of your own action, except to keep his head down. (Right now, Blade is so inert that there are not even ripples in the water anymore.) On the other hand, the act of waiting for him to die underneath your touch is excruciating and uncomfortable. You squeeze your eyes shut, and try to think of other things. You start to massage Blade's scalp with the tips of your fingers yet again.

Eventually, a burst of bubbles escapes his mouth. His limbs jerk and seize, his chin bangs against the side of the tub, purely on instinct. His arms reach for his chest and claw at his flesh-covered ribcage, lungs screaming for air underneath. Your fingers are all cramped up, and you bite on the inside of your cheek hard enough to draw blood.

Then, all of a sudden, he simply goes limp. You realise a long, deep breath, your shoulders shaking. Crouching, you drag Blade's body out of the tub, muttering an apology under your breath when his skull knocks into the wall when you try to get his… Corpse to sit down. Any bruise he gets will be healed again soon, sure enough— You're certain of it.

You pace up and down the room as you wait for Blade to revive. His skin, already pale during regular days, looks more sunken in, almost blueish. Beneath his nearly-closed eyes his eyes dulled to a shade of their former self. Water droplets leak from his lips and run down his face from locks of his hair. …Despite the fact that he's dead, he's still beautiful nonetheless. You stroke his cheek and find the skin cold underneath your touch, as it always is.

On occasion, you wonder whether calling him alive or simply a reanimated corpse would be more apt of a description. In Blade's eyes, you figure, both of those ideas would be wrong. He's a weapon. Nothing more, nothing less.

His eyelids flutter, and you let out a sigh of relief. Blade's body jerks and shudders. The first thing he does when coming back to life is spewing water mixed with thick strands of drool all over himself. He hacks and coughs, shuddering and twitching, a single tear rolling down his cheek. Once he has his breathing under control, he groans and clutches his head.

"I'm sorry it didn't work." Blade is still too out of it too respond. You take one of the previously prepared towels and dip a tip of it into the bath, using it to remove the remains of vomit from around his mouth. "Are you okay? I can help you get some new clothes on."

You flutter about the room, hoping that he won't have returned to the world of the living in a state other than his usual. When Blade speaks, his voice is hoarse.

"...Thank you. For trying." He sighs, eyes shifting towards the ceiling, staring at the leights. "Let me sit here a little while longer."

You know he cares about you. But the fact you can't provide him with what he wants most, that it conflicts so directly with your own desires, it does hurt. And yet, you smile. You press your back against the wall and slide down next to him.

"Sure. But you do know you're, like, dripping with vomit, right?"

The ghost of a smile quirks its way up on to Blade's lips. "I was wondering if you'd simply dumped me whole into the bath. After I lost consciousness."

"Absolutely not. It was difficult enough to drag you around while you were on your knees."

"I don't like to hear you insult yourself," Blade merely responds, and it would have been better if he hadn't commented at all. You know your upper body strength is not the best, but, whatever! You huff a breath of air out through your nose.

"If you're this coherent, we can get you cleaned up."

As you get to your feet once again, you feel Blade's eyes boring into your back, and when you turn around he is staring right at you, hands folded over his lap.

"Would you... Consider doing this again? In the future?"

[coldfanbou]

Internal Massage

Ryujin massage time. This fic relates to stress reliever acting as a sequel of sorts. Also Ryujin anal.

Length 2K

Ryujin x Mreader

Previous Part

Stretching her neck as she walked in the door, Ryujin grabbed the thin white bra and panties that were on the table. She went to the changing room and stripped off her clothes before putting on the massage wear. "Hey, I'm feeling really sore. I'm going to need you to be a little stronger this time." She says behind the changing room door.

"Of course, Ryujin. I had Chaeryeong in here earlier, you know."

"Oh yeah?"

"Yes, it was her first session."

"She must have been really nervous," Ryujin says with a laugh.

"She was, but she enjoyed it; she even asked me to help her in the shower."

Ryujin comes out of the changing room, her brown nipples poking through the thin fabric and her short bush visible through her panties. Knowing the routine, Ryujin climbs onto the table, facing up. She shuts her eyes as you walk to a counter in the back to refill your oil bottle. "So besides my using more strength, are we keeping the rest the same?" You ask her.

"Let's try a different oil, I like the usual one, but I want something different today." As the words trickle into your ear, you finish refilling the bottle you used earlier. You place it on the table and look at your other options; there are many scents, some with different effects. You pick up one that contains some aphrodisiacs and smile. As you return to the table, you shake the bottle before dripping some onto Ryujin's legs. They shake slightly as the cold oil touches her skin. You apply some to your hands, thoroughly covering them. 

Beginning your massage, you hold Ryujin's foot slowly, twisting it to the left before moving it back to the right. "Oh yeah, just like that." Ryujin coos. You do the same to her other foot before moving to her thick thighs. You press your thumbs into the center of her thighs before moving outwards. You start at the bottom before slowly making your way up. Quickly her thighs become covered in the aphrodisiac oil. Wanting to get her inner thigh, you move her leg outward off the table. Grabbing the oil bottle, you drip some onto her panties; they become transparent, and her bush is easier to see. Slowly but surely, you move toward her cunt. "I missed this." Ryujin moans as she feels your fingers spread her lips apart. You trace her folds before sliding two fingers into her. She gasps and grips the table as you push your finger deep into her. Curling them inside her, you drag them out slowly, hitting her G-spot and making her thrust her hips upward instinctively. "Fuck" she says quietly as she tries to lower her hips.

"Calm down, Ryujin; we're just starting." You say, laughing.

"You used the aphrodisiac, didn't you?" 

"You caught me."

"I knew it; my body feels so hot." Ryujin bites her bottom lip as you push your fingers back into her. "I really want you to get to the internal massage already. My pussy feels so hot." 

"I'm glad you feel that excited about the internal massage, but you'll have to wait."

"No…fuck" Ryujin moans as she feels you hit her g-spot again. Her body tries to raise her hips, but Ryujin resists. You pull out your fingers and show Ryujin how wet she is. She opens her mouth, "please?" She asks. You smile and let her suck on your fingers. The oil coats her throat, making her even hornier. "Shit, can we please get to the good part?" She begs of you.

"No, can do Ryujin. We have to get through the massage." You say as you pull your fingers out of her mouth and move down her other leg. You place a lot of pressure on her thighs. Ryujin lets her moans flow out of her as she feels you handle her roughly. She tries to slide her hand under the panties, but you slap it away. "Patience, Ryujin."

"Easy for you to say; you're not the one covered in this stuff." She says as you move onto her upper body. You pour more of the oil onto her and begin massaging her sides. At a snail's pace, you eventually reach her breasts. Sliding your hands under the bra, you fondle her tits. Her moans grow louder as you place her nipples between your index and middle fingers and squeeze them. Ryujin looks at you with eyes full of lust. "Please? I really need it."

"You'll have to wait; it'll feel even better when we get there." You say as you let go of Ryujin's nipple and cup her breast. You shake it and watch it jiggle behind the sheer bra. You see a thin layer of sweat as you look at Ryujin's face. You smile, seeing her struggle to keep herself composed. You leave her breasts and work on her arms, massaging her thin but muscular arms. As you reach her hand, you place it on your crotch. "Is this what you want?" You ask her. Ryujin nods her head excitedly. "You're not the only one suffering here, Ryujin. A small bit of this oil is enough to make someone very aroused." You feel her hand squeeze your cock through your clothes. You enjoy it for a moment before taking her hand away. Moving to stand by her head, you hold onto it and turn it to the side before turning it the other way. You don't pay much attention to that area. "Turn around for me." You command. 

Ryujin turns onto her stomach. Having Ryujin's head by your crotch, you drop your pants. She opens her mouth and sticks her tongue out. You slap your cock on her tongue a few times and leave it just out of reach. Her tongue extends as far as it can and is barely able to lick the tip of your cock. You push your hips forward, properly putting your cock in Ryujin's mouth. You hear her muffled moans as she finally gets what she wants. Letting her enjoy herself,  you put some oil on her back and massage it thoroughly, applying firm pressure. Occasionally you hear a slight pop as you press on her back, but Ryujin is too focused on your cock to notice. Her tongue surrounds your shaft, lapping at the sides before moving toward the tip. Occasionally, you thrust your hips and send your cock into the back of Ryujin's throat. You feel the warm tightness of it as it flexes and relaxes. Once your cock begins to throb, you pull it out of Ryujin's mouth. She tilts her head back to look at you. "Just a little longer?"

"Sorry, but I have a job to do." Your hand glides over Ryujin's body as you make your way to her calves. You rub her calves at first before switching to chopping at them. Ryujin coos as she feels the tightness in her calves melts away. After you're done, you move up to the back of her thighs and repeat the process. As you reach her ass, you start groping it, squeezing the soft flesh. You stop briefly to cover your hands in more oil before you spread Ryujin's cheeks. Seeing her asshole, you prod it with your finger before pushing it in. 

"No, not there." Ryujin moans before she begins to feel the heat in her ass. You scrape her walls as you pull out before you add a second finger and push in deeper. "Ah! Please." 

"Please, what?" You respond as you pull and push your fingers in again. 

"I-I need something bigger." Ryujin cries. She spreads her ass for you. "Please, put it in."

"But I thought you didn't want it there." You tell her with a smirk. 

"I-"

"You don't need to say anything. I understand." You remove your clothing before lathering your cock in oil. Climbing onto the table, you press your cock against Ryujin's asshole and begin pushing it inside. 

"Fuck, you're too big," Ryujin moans as she feels the head of your cock stretch her asshole. You continue pushing forward, her walls providing much resistance and pleasure as they squeeze your cock. You pull out a little before ramming your cock further in. "Oh god! It's going to split me apart!" She yells as you finish burying your cock inside her. Feeling that you've stopped moving, Ryujin lays her head down. You raise your hips, pulling your cock out, and wait for a second before slamming your weight down on Ryujin and impaling her. She gasps as she feels your cock stir her insides. You start thrusting quickly, not allowing her to recover from the shock. "Harder! Fuck me harder!" She moans. You tear off the thin bra and sneak your hands under Ryujin, playing with her nipples as you fuck her from behind. You feel her ass gripping you tightly, refusing to let go, and you love it. Her big ass provided you some cushion as you slammed your cock into her insides. She might be sore the next day, but she'll be more than happy to feel that way.

It felt as if Ryujin was sucking you in with every thrust. "You can cum whenever you like." You whisper to her. Ryujin moans, and you can feel her ass tighten around your cock. You pinch her nipples and bury your cock inside her as she screams, "I'm cumming!" You feel her body shake as she cums on the table. You continue to thrust until you feel your balls tighten and cock throbs in her ass. 

"Here I come, Ryujin." You growl as you impale her ass and flood it with your cum. You thrust lightly as you fill her ass. Pulling out, you feel Ryujin's ass refuse to let you go. When you do pull out, you hear a small pop and watch as your cum oozes out of her gaping asshole. It opens and closes as she breathes. You spank Ryujin once before walking over to her head. Her eyes are half-lidded as you place your cock on her face. She slowly opens her mouth and begins suckling on the tip of your cock, cleaning up your cum. Placing a hand on her head, you slowly thrust, putting more in her mouth until the entire thing is in. Ryujin's tongue runs along the underside of your cock as she lays there, tired. "You did great restraining yourself, Ryujin. Didn't it feel much better when I finally put it in?"

Ryujin's head nods up and down slowly. "It felt better," she mumbles. 

"I'm going to give you another reward Ryujin; make sure you don't spill a drop," you say as you thrust a little faster. Your second orgasm builds quickly. As soon as Ryujin feels your cock throbbing, she prepares herself and is rewarded by being able to drink the thick salty liquid without a problem. As you pull out, you leave your cockhead by Ryujin, and she kisses it. You leave her side and begin cleaning up the area. Ryujin remains on the table for a few minutes before picking herself up and leaning on the table. 

"I need some help getting to the shower." She says while looking at you.

"Of course," you respond while heading her way. You hold onto Ryujin's ass, occasionally sliding a finger into her still gaping asshole as you walk her to the room's shower. The thin panty she still had on did little to keep your cum from seeping out onto the floor. She moans each time you touch her and thanks you as she sits in the bath. 

"It might be hard for me to clean myself up, considering I can't stand by myself. Would you help me?" She asks with a smirk. 

"You Itzy girls all love shower sex, don't you?" Ryujin smiles and laughs at your response.

"Just get in here."

[stuckinapril]

Something you've learned this year?

Never force connection. Probably the biggest lesson I’ve learned this year. This doesn’t mean leaving it to the other person to make all the moves, but if something isn’t clicking after you’ve tried to make it click more than once, it’s probably time to let it go. Doesn’t matter what the reasons are—if it’s not working, it’s not working.

Don’t be anxious about something twice. If you don’t have actual proof as to the existence of a problem, you’re better off giving it the benefit of the doubt until you’re absolutely proven otherwise.

Your worth does not shift with other people’s opinions of you. The biggest act of resistance against that mentality is continuing to take care of & love yourself even if other people might perceive you unfavorably at times.

The scarcity mindset is bs. There are 8 billion people out there and just as many opportunities to take on. There’s always something out there if one pursuit doesn’t work out.

Piggybacking off that point: rejection is redirection. Better switch gears than waste time on a relationship / opportunity / just whatever wasn’t meant for you.

There’s a difference between being the first option and just being the available one. Someone’s attention doesn’t automatically mean they’re actually into you—sometimes you’re just right there & they have nothing better to do.

Striving for romance isn’t bad, but it should never be the goal. It’s definitely a nice thing to experience, but tbh the one cliche I’ve learned to be true over and over again is that self love does really eclipse all else. Obsessing over somebody else 24/7 isn’t as cute as the books make it seem to be.

Being an excessive people pleaser does not make people like you more. It just makes them like the advantages that come with befriending someone who has no boundaries.

Cry it out. Write about it. Take some deep breaths. Then make that tough decision. Allow yourself to process something before you act on it. There are some situations that really do prove to be time sensitive, but 9/10 times it probably would’ve served you more to just think it over first.

You can provide for yourself what you wish another person would’ve provided for you. Buy yourself flowers; write yourself a love letter that you could look back on in ten years; take yourself on a luxurious date. While it’s undeniably nice to have these gestures made for you by someone else, ultimately they hold no less weight coming from you to yourself.

Work on your composure in stressful situations. Emotional suppression is never great, but being unable to control your reaction under pressure can be disastrous if not curtailed. (To that end, be able to put on a good poker face when need be.)

Pick and choose who you put time into. Being capable of giving is crucial, but it doesn’t amount to much if you can’t determine early on who’s worth giving to and who isn’t. Neither our energy nor our time is infinite; they have to be used wisely.

[whathorselegs]

Between my recent skk emotional hurt/comfort fic and my older one, its got me thinking about the differences and similarities in how I depict Dazai and Chuuya's depressive episodes.

The similarities would be that, they both try to hide it and are both quiet when struggling with their mental health. They don't reach out for help. Chuuya doesn't because he views it as a sign of weakness, he can't afford to show within the mafia, he's an Exec, he has to be strong. He'll tell himself he needs to toughen up and push through it. Dazai doesn't because he convinces himself through his self-destructive tendencies and self-loathing that he doesn't deserve help. He allows himself to spiral because he can't bare the shame of being a burden to someone else.

And the differences are how they react physically to their depressive episodes.

In a way Dazai deflates. He's so exhausted because he starts to deny himself the things he needs to function and engaging in more self destructive behaviours, until it leaves him at the point where he can't get back up. He lays down and just goes numb. Dazai experiences almost a conscious coma where his mind his still running, telling him awful things, but he just can not move his body and if he's left like that he'll just keep getting worse. I think in the beginning stages, it often gets mistaken for him being lazy, but he's not, Dazai's genuinely exhausted and can't perform simple tasks when his mind gets that bad.

As for Chuuya he goes tense. Literally, he'll be on edge and agitated, because he'll refuse to give in to how tired his body feels. His depressive episodes, to me, constantly fire his flight or fight responses until he gets so wound up he's scared relaxing will break him apart completely. In both fics I wrote Chuuya getting to the point where he's literally curled up a fetal position completely tense because he can't let his body relax. He's got nothing to fight, nowhere to run, so he goes defensive and makes himself as small as possible to avoid the threat. But the threat's himself, so he can't escape it.

It also effects how I write them helping each other through their depressive episodes too. Dazai gives Chuuya the space to safely fall apart and Chuuya helps pull Dazai back together again.

They're both gentle, yet forceful about it, because they know their partner will resist the help before giving in, but they know what each other needs to get back on track. Or they do when they're older anyways, they stumbled through it when they were younger because they'd both think, "Well, what would I want in this situation? To be left alone." and that's not an option they are comfortable with, so until they learned what each other needed, they clumsily tried to help each other with little tact.

However, eventually Dazai recognizes Chuuya needs someone to tell him "It's okay, whatever it is, you can let go now." he needs that reliability, someone to be the protector, the stable one, so he can safely fall apart for a while. Whereas Chuuya knows Dazai needs some one to literally (and figuratively) pick him up off the floor and help him with preforming the basic acts of self-care so he can start to feel more like himself again.

[igotanidea]

that damn gala: Jason todd x fem!reader

the graphic is not mine, found it on Pinterest, all credit goes to the author.

Summary: credit for the idea goes to @p4inis: Can someone write a fanfic of “wear whatever u want, I know how to fight” Jason x fem reader???? Like they’re going to a gala and reader can’t choose which dress she should wear and Jay is her biggest hype man.

hope you'll like it: )

A/N: this is part of my Cheshire!reader!verse. You can find another story of it here in the post: Cheshire cat. And there will be more coming for sure since I'm having a lot of fun writing this verse.

Warning: cursing, a bit of sexual innuendo, but nothing explicit, Jason being a warning of himself :D

„Please, remind me why did I even agree to this?”

“Because you truly had no other option?”

“I hate you.”

“We both know you don’t.”

“Really? Do we?” Y/N smirked. Dick Grayson was her longtime friend and it gave her one privilege no one else had. She was resistant to him charm. So when he asked her to come over the annual Wayne gala it took a lot more than a pretty please and a nice smile to actually convince her to do so. Unlike many girls, she hated having to get all dressed up, putting on make-up and heels and acting like someone different than she really was only to win over some potential investors. Honestly, for a long time she couldn’t understand why was it her business. That lasted until Bruce offered her a job, an old RD position of her late father. Of course, the numbers were tempting but the thing was finally made her say yes was the opportunity to work with the latest technology and to put her ideas into work. And use them on patrols later on. So she gave in.

And soon one thing led to another, when she was forced to get involved into those stupid galas. Dick hated them equally as much, but at least he would be accompanied by Babs and they definitely would keep each other entertained. Unlike her friends, Y/N was going to be there by herself since for obvious reasons her beloved anti-hero boyfriend could not attend. So, she would either join Tim in deep conversation concerning Wayne Enterprises, sulk in the corner with Damian scaring people away with only look or spend the night getting drunk from all the expensive alcohol. One way or another it was going to be a loooong night.

“Yeah, we do. Come on Y/N, please, I’m gonna need your help you know it.”

“My help? Dick you are making zero sense. You will have your girl to dance with, Tim to take the duties and Damian for a security system. Why do you need me?”

“Because out of everyone you just mentioned, you are the only person that is actually fun.”

“Should I tell Babs about what you just said?” the girl laughed and heard Dick do the same on the other side of the phone.

“Please don’t” he turned deadly serious a second later “but you know what I mean. We both have known every guest for years now. We know their behavior, their bad traits and can predict who, when and how will make a fool of themselves. We have our inside jokes. Come on, please…..”

“Fine, stop whining, it’s out of character. I’ll come…..

“I knew you will give in at some point.”

“shut up, Grayson. I’m not giving in. Firstly because you will owe me and you know I’m not lenient when someone is in debt with me. Secondly, Jay will not like it, so good luck with having to deal with him. And lastly, I still got my cat claws on, so don’t expect me to be an egg-sucker.”

“As for the debts, that something we’ve been back and forth with for years now, so nothing new. I can deal with my brother, and Tim will deal with toadying, he’s used to it after all.”

“I hate you, Dick.”

“I know Y/n. See you at 9. You need me to pick you? Since you are coming alone?”

“No, I’ll be fine. Cheshire will swing by earlier and change in the manor if that’s fine.”

“I’ll leave the window open. See you, Y/n.”

“See you, Dick.”

She disconnected the phone and rubbed her forehead in frustration. She really though she would get away this year, but she’s been keeping this foolish hope for the last five years, always with no desired result. She always came and frankly it was never even half as bad as she expected, not that Y/N would ever say it out loud. But now, she had to choose a dress to go in and that was the hard part.

***

“Please, tell me you’re not preparing for the gala.” Jason stood in the door, only half-dressed In his gear, watching his girlfriend hurrying-scurrying in front of her wardrobe wearing only a sport bra and a pair of leggings.

“I am…” she groaned

“Was it Grayson? Did he force you? Do you want me to talk to him?” he took a few steps closer and grabbed her hands calming her down a bit.

“Nah. It’s fine. It’s always like this. He said I should come, I object, he uses his last-year arguments and I pretend to fall for them. It’s kind of tradition now. I would hate to break it.” She shrugged

“Maybe I can make knew tradition of making Dick attend the party with a bruise or…..”

“Stop it, Jay!” Y/N punched his shoulder and he grinned “if I really didn’t want to come, believe me I wouldn’t. But it really is entertaining making quiet jokes about all those bigwigs with excessive self-esteem and watching Tim trying his best to not speak his mind. The only thing that sucks about it is that I have to go alone” she moved her hands up his arms to his neck, pulling him in and he immediately grabbed her waist and leaned his forehead on hers, swaying from side to side.

“We can have our little party here. Or you can come with me to the patrol.” He whispered

“Mhm, don’t try to play me. That offer is a trap on your side, Red Hood only works alone. If you don’t count two teammates. And he does not want or need anyone else. Let alone little troublesome vigilante that also works with the bats.”

“That little vigilante cat knows her ways around words. She can play two sides, doesn’t she?”

“Jay, come on. You will never let me go with you and I will never ask. Too much of a risk and distraction. But I’m up for that party for two idea later on….”

“Do you have anything specific in mind?” he whispered seductively and leaned in to kiss her, but she quickly pulled away.

“Maybe. Maybe not. That depends if someone will take me home after the gala tonight. I mean, I have a couple dresses to choose from and I could use man’s advice on what to wear. Even if I absolutely hate the idea of playing the bait for man’s money. And I hate getting dolled up. I’ll be much more comfortable with tee and sweatpants or my suit. But I don’t have much opportunities to look nice, so…..” she pecked Jason lips quickly and moved towards the open wardrobe “what do you think, boyfriend?”

“Babe” every word she just said stung him. He knew she would never betray or cheat on him, but the thought of all those creeps staring at her and getting dirty ideas made him want to tie her to bed and keep her in the sheets with him, reminding her who’s the one to always keep her high and satisfied. But they all had duties to take care of. So he settled on embracing her from behind and kissing her neck softly “you know you can wear whatever you want. You will look hotter than hell. And I know how to fight if anyone would like to steal you away.”

“Babs is the resident beauty not me. If anything Dick should be scared. I’m only …. Addition.”

“Addition?” Jay kissed her neck again hitting her soft spot and making her gasp “you’re the crown jewel, babe. I wish I could go with you and watch everyone getting so jealous of me having you all to myself….” his lips on her skin was sending goosebumps all over her body.

“Jace….” She whispered closing her eyes

“Yes, sweetheart?” his grip was now tighter and she loved it and hate it at the same time.

“Let go of me. Now. Cause if you don’t neither me nor you will leave this apartment tonight.”

“Would it be so bad?” he muttered against her shoulder blade but reluctantly released her. “you should wear the black and red one. You will break necks in it.”

“Bet it has nothing to do with the fact some particular vigilante got those colors as a signature.”

“Vigilante? Who? I don’t really recall anyone choosing that palette.” He smirked with the boyish grin and she could not stop herself from kissing him again.

***  It was 8 when they both left the apartment, using different exits and wishing each other good luck. No hugs and kisses since that would only make them waver once again. Red Hood was on patrol while Cheshire made her way towards Wayne Manor making sure no one was following her. Being truthful to his words, Dick left the window open and without any trouble she found herself in his room, where much to her surprise she found Babs getting ready.

“Hey there, girl.” She smiled removing her domino mask and meeting with red-head wide and sincere smile “what are you doing here?”

“I could ask you the same question, kitten. Is my boyfriend cheating on me?”

“Oh, you caught me! I only came here to tell him our little affair was over since I cannot do this to my best friend.” Y/N put her hand on her heart “And arguably because my boyfriend was after him to hurt him, but that’s on the side.”

“It’s good to see you Y/N.” Barbara smiled again and came to hug the other girl “dick told me you were going to get ready here so I thought we might as well help each other in preparation.”

“Oh, thank god for your foresight. I have no idea how to drape this freaking dress to avoid putting my whole chest on display.

“I had my suspicions about that.”

“And I am absolutely hopeless with makeup and hairdo, so yes, please and thank you for any help you can give me.”

“Don’t worry, my friend. I will make you look perfect.”

***

Barbara really was a magician with women stuff. Only because of her skillful hands and endless ideas Y/N was now looking like a real lady, classy and gentle, even if most of the times she was just a girl next door. Her dress fit her perfectly and any risk of showing too much was eliminated by cleverly used veil, draped on girl’s shoulder. Her make-up was almost invisible since Y/N had pretty skin (luckily she got no bruises or cuts for the last week so there was no problem with that) and she refused using anything more than some concealer, liner and mascara sticking to the minimum. Unlike Babs she ditched the lipstick not wanting to look like Joker after having one drink and leaving stains on the glass and all over. But still, she felt odd, especially standing next to Babs with her perfect figure and proud posture. Cheshire was used to skin tight suit that was supposed to protect her and enable all the kicks and punches, but this? Evening gown that accented all her hated curves and imperfections  made her feel exposed, not protected. And this was another tradition that was happening every single year even though after all this time she should already be used to it.

“good evening, ladies.” Dick emerged from behind and offered an arm to Barbara “Babs, Y/N.”

“Richard.” Babs smiled at her boyfriend

“Hello Grayson” Y/N smirked only to cover for her insecurity. In a second she would be left all alone like a prey while Dick and Babs will make rounds together.

“You look nervous kitten” Dick pointed out and Y/N scoffed

“Nervous? Of course I am. I’m nervous for the safety of everyone here. You know I got…..”

“claws, I know. And that is exactly why I took care of things.”

“I’m sorry you did what?” she nearly choked because of his words.

“There’s this one guy, really big fish in IT industry. We are trying to get him to share some ideas with WE. And since you are in a warlike mood, you will talk to him. Besides, you are the only one here that actually knows enough about the technology to cover the subject so…..”

“Are you insane?!” she yelled-whispered “did you even hear a word I told you about attending this gala. I wanted out of the radar not being put on the spotlight! What happened to…..” she paused when an elderly couple passed through and smiled charmingly “what happened to the inside jokes and making fun of people?!”

“I’m sorry Y/N, but it’s like I said. You’re the only one knowledgeable enough to succeed. Just this one guy, please, and then you are off the hook.”

“Where is Tim when you need him?” she hissed and reached for the nearest glass of champagne “I don’t think I can do it sober.”

“I will owe you twice” Dick pleaded

“That is tempting…..”

***

The guy assigned to Y/N was hot. Tall, dark haired and well-build, with perfect nose, lips and all face. His eyes glistened when he saw her approaching and in a real gentleman manner he turned towards the girl.

“You must be miss Y/N Y/L/N?” of course his smile was perfect as well and Y/N was almost blinded by the whiteness of his teeth

“I am” she smiled through gritted teeth “I suppose you’re the tech genius Mr. Blake?”

“ Please, call me Desmond. It would be so much easier to cut the distance this way”

“I see you are very direct Desmond. Does that match in the workplace?” he might have been a predator but she was the one who hold power over words, not the other way round.

“We are not in workplace, are we?”

“But we are supposed to discuss some RD matters.”

“Who said we can’t have a little fun while at it? This is a party after all.”

“High-class party, Mr. Blake and as a CEO you surely understand that.”

“Of course, I had nothing wrong on my mind. Tell me, miss Y/N, do you dance?”

“Only when I’m forced to” she muttered making sure he couldn’t hear her while taking another discreet sip of champagne

“I’m sorry?”

“I said I do, although I am not very good at it.”

“Maybe you just haven’t met the right partner. Let me guide you” he offered his hand and lead Y/N onto the dancefloor.

This was going to be a looooong night, she thought while noticing Dick and Babs moving to the music on her left. Dick put his thumb up while Barbara only smiled. This was already a torture. Hopefully, things were going better for Jay.

***

Two hours and three drinks later Desmond seemed a bit nicer than at the beginning. Y/N was not drunk, she was used to keep her senses alerted all the time so she poured away all the alcohol Desmond so wholeheartedly kept on bringing. He did not and that’s why they were now sitting on the secluded couch, far from the crowd, the man babbling about how pretty she looked and how much of his type she was.

“I think you had enough Mr. Blake” she put a hand on his when he reached towards another glass. Apparently that was a mistake since he turned her gaze towards her, his eyes widening.

“Tell me Y/N, why is a girl like you alone at the party? I mean, you are hot.” Oh, fuck. She knew where he was going now. “and everyone here is just ogling you, me included.” Fuck square since he moved closer, almost grabbing her hip.

“ You’re drunk” she said standing up “I think you should sober up. Alone.”

“Don’t you dare turning your back on me, you little bitch. Who do you think you are?”

If only he knew…..

“A woman who knows better than to argue with you. You work for your own reputation Mr. Blake and let me tell you, you are only embarrassing yourself right now. Maybe you should stop before some reporter takes a picture of you stumbling.”

“You think you are so high and mighty, huh? A strong, independent woman, working for Wayne? Acting like a whore to get some attention and you can’t even get a boyfriend?”

“Careful with words, now” she warned slowly turning into Cheshire

“Or what? What exactly will you do, huh? Cause I don’t think you will do a thing…..” he lunged forward and before she could react had her pressed onto the wall, his lips on hers “you are only good for one night stand. And you ask for it, wearing that dress, you little bitch. You only deserved to be fucked and forgotten.’ He was using the fact no one could see them in this place

“Get the fuck off me!!!” she yelled all her instincts kicking in when she pushed the man away and he stumbled back. Unfortunately, while doing so, he stepped onto the hem of her dress tearing it apart and leaving Y/N legs almost completely exposed. “Damn it.” She muttered turning red while the man started laughing like crazy which finally caught some attention and Dick immediately came running for rescue.

“What is going on here?”

“Your little wanton friend is finally dressed the way she should be from the beginning.” Blake snorted

“Mr Blake, I think you should leave….” Tim rushed from the other side of the ballroom scared that either his brother or his friend would kick the man’s ass and made even more of a scene. This was going to be a PR nightmare.

“Leave? Oh, no, no, no. Not before I have a little fun with your little rag doll, here.”

“Let me though.” Another voice interrupted the discussion and Y/N, Dick and Tim turned their gazes towards the side where it came from.

“You’ve got to be kidding me….” Dick whined

“Oh, hell no!” Tim screamed

“What the…..?” y/N said in surprise

“What. The fuck. You think. You are doing?”

“Jason…..” dick tried to step between his brother and Blake before it came to fisticuffs. All of a sudden the latter became much more sober than a second before.

“Get out of my way, Dickhead. This scumbag just humiliated my girlfriend. I will not let him get away with it.”

“I’m sorry but…..”

“You are not sorry.”

“You’re right. I’m not sorry and I can’t let you through. We are trying our best to avoid bloodbath here.”

“I don’t fucking care! He asked for it.”

“Jason.”

“Back off, replacement!”

“Jason.”

Only now he stopped in his tracks. Because of her voice. Her soft, calm voice. All this time she was standing there silently watching the scene, her dress torn apart , hair messy due to the scuffle, being her calm, collected self. Fuck, she was so beautiful, somewhere deep inside he could not blame this man for wanting her. Who wouldn’t wish for this beauty to be in his arms. But she was his and only his. Only he was allowed to hold her and kiss her and love her. No one fucking else. And this one here, were not only trying to force himself on her, but also called her a bitch and a whore. And that was something Jason Todd could not let go easily.

“Jason, please, let’s just go home.” She said calmly “come on, baby. Nothing happened, all right? He’s not worth your anger. He’s just sad, pathetic man with a lot of problems, apparently. I’m safe.”

“Baby” Jason came closer to her sneaking his arms around her pulling her close “he needs to be punished. He offended you. Let me  take care of that…..”

“Nope. Not this time. Besides, as much as I appreciate your effort, I can take care of myself and this one is just beyond are level. So why bother when we can go home and have that little party for two you mentioned earlier?” she caressed his side softly looking straight into his eyes and he was slowly melting.

“See? I told she is a whore! You better watch out for her, she will cheat on you with the first man…..” Blake did not get to finish the sentence when Dick and Jason grabbed each of his arm and dragged him out the door.

“This will hit all the headlines tomorrow morning….” Tim stammered out, his face as white as a ghost

“You can just buyout all the press companies in Gotham” Y/N said, equally white, but not because of the press.

“Are you kidding me now Y/N?!”

“Come on, Tim. Not the first PR drama for WE. We can turn this around. If not as Y/N and Tim then as Cheshire and Red Robin. We’ve done this before, all right?”

“Fine.” He huffed “One problem at the time. Now, are you all right? He did not hurt you, did he?”

“He could never. I’m better and stronger than it seems in this dress, or rather half-dress now.”

“Good. Otherwise I would have to stand against my own rules and help dick and Jason beat the man.”

“Speaking of the devils, this is taking them too long. Do you think maybe we should check out what is going on?”

“Nothing is going on. The boys are making sure Blake would never come around again. And from what I can predict his company will go down soon.” Barbara chimed in

“If that’s coming from the Oracle, who are we to argue?”

“By the way, where is Damian? He was supposed to act like security. How the hell did Jason sneak in? Not that I’m complaining, but I’d rather dance with my boyfriend than see him fight again ….”

“I was not the security! I never wanted to be here in the first place! I was forced!”

“Who wasn’t?” Tim scoffed

“You’re good Y/N/N?” Damian asked turning towards the girl

“Yes! God! I’m fine, please stop asking me that. I’m just a bit ….. tired.”

“You can stay at the manor than. There is always a place for you.”

“Thanks Dami, but…..”

“She is not going to stay. I’m taking her home.” Jason came into the view again, his nose bleeding.

“What did you do Jace?”

"I told you I know how to fight for you."

“Where is Dick?” Barbara became alerted and both girls exchanged looks

“I’m here. I’m fine. It’s all taken care off.” The oldest Wayne was clutching his bleeding nose as well.

“Did you two have a fight? How unsurprising…..”

"Wait, you beat each other instead of that fucking Blake?" Damian frowned "Can I do it then? I need some action, this party is boring like hell."

"He's been taken care of as well. Probably won't come around ever again" Jason stated proudly.

"What did you do him? Can you descibe in details?" the youngest brother suddenly became much more energetic and interested.

“I’m out, I’m done” Tim turned around throwing his hands in the air “you are all on your own now. I;ve got to do some damage control. See you tomorrow, Y/N. Remember your promise.” He left and so did Damian leaving Jason, y/n, Babs and Dick alone.

“Why did you beat him Jace?”

“He was supposed to watch out for you!”

“I said I’m fine!”

“But who knows what could have happened?!”

“could have, would have, should have….. How about we stop with the possibilities that never came to life, hm? How about you calm down, Jace?”

“How can I calm down?! You could have been hurt!”

“Dick? Babs? I’m so terribly sorry for everything that just happened.” Y/N decided to stop paying attention to Jason for a while.

“As much as I hate to say it, it might have been a bit of my fault.” Dick admitted

“a bit?!”

“Shut up Jason. I’m not talking to you now!” Y/N hissed and he just stood there with open mouth but did not dare saying a word. “I think we should call it a night, do you agree, Babs. We can’t let boys kill each other, right? Someone has to be smart.”

“Yeah, that’s true. We can’t ever rely on them with life choices, can we?”

“Nope. But I guess that’s the Wayne charm. Talk to you tomorrow?”

“Sure y/n. I’ll let you know if dick’s coming after Jay to take revenge for the beating.”

“Ok. I’ll let you know if Jace is coming after Dick to avenge my honor” Y/N laughed and waved Babs and Dick goodbye before turning to Jason. “As for you….”

“Look, I did not mean to make a scene…..”

“Jay….”

“I saw you in danger and acted without thinking…..”

“Jason….”

“You know there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you…..”

“Oh for god’s sake!” she moved forward and cut his babbling with a passionate kiss taking him by surprise and leaving a few spare seconds for his brain to react and started kissing her back, his hands travelling up her sides. “I love you, you idiot. And I’m not mad at you, really. That was kind of…. Hot.”

“Only kind of?” he smirked

“Yes, because you still think I cannot take care of myself. You really don’t have to put  the guns out every time you think I’m in danger. Especially when I’m not.”

“but you still like me in my vigilante mode, don’t you?”

 “I never said it.” She scoffed

“Sometimes, words are not needed. I can settle on sounds.” He smirked and she smacked his head becoming red.

“Why are you even here? What about patrol? What about….red’s matters?”

“It’s a quiet night. I was patrolling nearby by accident….

“by accident?” she raised an eyebrow

“And thought I would swing by. And you know the rest.”

‘You are a child, Jason. A big child. And we definitely have a lot to work on in that area. Are you going back on patrol?”

“I wasn’t planning on, but…..”

“Good. Cause you know, I might be a bit turned on and need someone to take care of that. Are you up for the challenge?”

“Let’s go upstairs.” He picked her up and carried her the stairs to his old room, bridal style.

“Wait, here?!” she squealed when he threw her onto the bed and climbed up hovering over her body.

“Do you think I can wait? Honey, I need you right now.” He pressed his lips onto her, delighting in the way she melted into him and started letting out those sweets sounds. “now we can start our party” he smirked moving down her body, removing the straps of her dress and taking care of each square centimeter of her body.

“Jason….” she moaned arching her back “come on, don’t tease…..”

“I’m taking my time with you, babe. You will have to deal with it….”

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[starhoppin]

pick a picture; messages from the universe

pile 1 -> pile 2 -> pile 3

disclaimer; this is a general reading! these messages may not fit everyone. please take what resonates and leave the rest.

「pile one」

the fool rv (cb: the hierophant, seven of cups), eight of cups (ace of wands, the lovers), the moon (five of wands rv, three of wands).

you may be experiencing some challenges at the moment. you could be dealing with an authoritative figure at work that is taking advantage of you - pushing your boundaries and making you consider alternative options. for others, you simply may not be happy at your current job, and you're looking into different opportunities. regardless, you may be ready to accept any offer that comes your way in order to get out of this situation. you're overwhelmed by the potential avenues you can take, and it looks like it's paralyzing you with indecision. you may be getting in your own way when it comes to this situation by focusing on the "what ifs." figure out what you truly desire - that will guide you in the right direction. it looks like you're also in a transition period in your love life. you may be contemplating leaving a connection/partnership behind because they are not fulfilling your needs. you're being asked to declutter and get rid of things that do not serve your highest good. a lot is going on for you behind the scenes. what may seem like insurmountable obstacles and delays will benefit you in the long run. these "blockages" are shielding you from conflict.

「pile two」

judgement rv (cb: queen of swords, ten of pentacles), ten of swords (cb: knight of cups rv, seven of cups rv), page of pentacles (cb: ace of cups rv, five of pentacles rv)

pile two, it looks like you're going through a difficult time. are you feeling like you need to have control over all aspects of your life? do not be afraid to relinquish your grip on the things in your life. change is necessary, it doesn't have to be scary or bad. things will not slip away if you loosen your grip. i'm channeling a very anxious energy from you, pile two. do me a favor: take a deep breath, unclench your jaw, relax your shoulders. everything will be okay. you may be feeling really defeated - perhaps struggling with confusion and just overall disappointment in your love life. a romantic partner may have been cheating or engaging in sneaking behavior behind your back which significantly hurt you. do not blame yourself for what transpired. their actions are their own; it's not a reflection of you. you're being asked to focus on other areas of your life. reach out to friends and family in order to ease your burden; ask them for help. spend time with them and it'll ease the emotional loss and help you recover from this quickly.

「pile three」

temperance (cb: king of pentacles, two of cups), the hermit rv (cb: strength, nine of wands rv), the lovers (cb: seven of pentacles, ten of pentacles rv). additional cards: surprise, sunshine, personal riches.

your message pertains to your love life. you may be doubting your current efforts in love or are going through a period of loneliness. you may feel like you're not making progress, but rest assured, you are. there are wonderful changes that are coming if you remain faithful and persevere. you have the inner strength to overcome these doubts. you're being asked to resist the urge to seek someone out to simply "fill the void" or act as a distraction for you. do not ignore red flags. you may end up repeating a lesson from the past that you do not need to relearn. you're being called to focus on your career. your finances may be improving dramatically and your career will thrive if you devote your focus to it. the universe is hinting that this may even bring a change in your love life.

tarot deck used in this reading: cirque du tarot & fortune cookies

[lepetitloir]

Astolfo and revenge

(Something I posted on twitter, that I'll add a bit to)

I don't think the message of Astolfo's story is "vengeance only does more harm than good". It's pointed out multiple times in the manga that vengeance/hatred is what keeps him going.

Hell, Astolfo is morally opposed to murder, he KNOWS. I genuinely believe he still doesn't want to kill, and only kills because he is stuck in a cycle, realizes this, and is trying to keep others out of it.

"Revenge/murder is bad" it not the lesson he has to learn. I have the theory that his story is about how people keep up discrimination so they can benefit from it.

(1) His family was "an active player in the war against vampires", and I get the feeling that's why the Granatum house is so wealthy. I mean, they had strong ties to the Church, while regularly holding the seat of Garnet. Of course Astolfo's father told him to kill vampires, he needs to be the Garnet Paladin so the family keeps its wealth and status! There's the implication in the manga that the Granatum family (and the Obsidian house) have their status thanks to their participation in the war. Once an institution benefits from something, it won't easily let go of that, no matter how morally apprehensive it is.

(2) Charles wants to make Astolfo the Garnet Paladin so he can become a symbol for the Chasseurs (or at least the vampire eradication faction, and like I said, killing vampires is what gave these people power, so it is very possible the vampire eradication faction is a reflection of that). Charles is building a narrative: "Astolfo Granatum's family was injustly killed by vampires, now he kills to avenge them, therefore he is justified to kill vampires". The weapon of the Garnet Paladin is named "Pillar of Justice". That Astolfo fights for justice is part of the whole act!

(3) I really think Astolfo kept resisting against his fate of "killing vampires". His father gives him the knife and he gets scared, Charles tells him to pick up Louisette and he gets scared...

In the end, he gives up. His self-hatred, carefully upheld by Charles, is too strong. He has no other options left, especially when Roland leaves him! This proves to me that he only "takes revenge" because he felt like there was nothing else for him left. I really want to emphasize the "he gave up his struggle" here.

So, I came to a conclusion that surprised me at first! "Hatred isn't automatically bad, preying on that hatred to push an agenda is bad". Astolfo is a victim of the institution he works for. That is the message, I believe.

I think that theme will be addressed in the current dham arc as well. So far it seems it's building towards it, with the whole scene of Vanitas explaining to Noé how discrimination works.

[esggs]

Obeisance to the Arrow - Noritoshi Kamo

#5 - Man and Wife 

[ the day of your wedding ceremony ]

[ tw : noritoshi kamo x reader, child marriage, arranged marriage, 1100+ words ]

#4 - Cursed Bride #4.5 - Sweet Dreams #6 - Husbandly Duties

Noritoshi Kamo’s heart sank into the pits of his stomach the moment he saw you. She’s still a kid??

Somehow it hadn’t clicked in his head as of yet. Going from 12 to 17 was essentially a different lifetime, from a kid to an adult almost. He had, subconsciously, put that same expectation for you too. A wrong one, obviously. He watched you fuss over your lunch and complain about your wedding dress. She’s still a goddamn kid. 

He tried to pick some fried shrimp onto his plate. This is his wedding luncheon. He finds the words a bit disorienting to think about. His. Wedding. Luncheon. The only one he’ll ever have. For the rest of his life. Happening right now. He focuses on the shrimp to make sure he doesn’t start sweating. 

He’s played his part perfectly. A flawless young prince: dashing, sweet and strong. The wedding rituals done, pictures taken, the high and mighty of jujutsu world merry-making. Mother’s not here. He looks over at you, sitting next to him, chatting along with his female cousins. You look pretty. You’ve just turned 14 a few days ago. You’re his married wife now.

Even though you both have acted as elegantly as you should, he still could not stop cringing inwardly when he had to greet his friends. The Kyoto students had come as one group, except for Mai, who was with the Zenin Clan (said Zenin Clan did not interact very much with you, as Noritoshi had observed). The moment he’d spotted them approaching to give their regards to the married couple, Noritoshi had quickly whispered, “They’re my friends, be cool.” and you had whispered back “I don’t give a shit.” 

The meeting was awkward, anyway. “Congratulations to the new Kamo couple!” Nitta was clearly given the role of leading this interaction. You two had gracefully bowed your regards. Momo and Miwa could not look him in the eye, even though they said that you were “very cute”. Todo and Noritoshi talked about the decor of the venue and the food options available. Nitta passed along a card from Mechamaru. They gave you a few gifts too, a tea-set and flower bouquets. Everyone was really relieved when new visitors arrived to greet you two, and the Kyoto team could leave for lunch. 

Meeting Gojo-sama and Megumi Fushiguro was awkward too. Even though the three of them had met before, you were unaware of Megumi’s existence. “Ah, Megumi, meet your cousin, wait- you’re his aunt, right?” Gojo-sama had declared. Both you and Megumi had stared at each other in shock for a second, before quickly recovering your composure, you as a polished bride and him being Megumi. “Hello, Megumi-kun, I hope that you are enjoying your time?” “Yes, thank you, it’s very nice here,” Megumi replied. Gojo elbowed him. “And my congratulations to both of you.” Both you and Noritoshi had bowed again at that, so well-trained. It was awkward. They left too afterwards.

“I have a secret nephew?” you had whispered to Noritoshi. “How come you know my nephew and I don’t?” 

“It’s complicated.” Noritoshi had whispered back.

The knot in Noritoshi’s stomach kept twisting itself tighter, even though he didn’t let it show. As per traditional norms, a boy gains maturity at 16 and a girl at 15: he was an adult marrying a kid. Everyone understood that this wasn’t a choice for him, but he still felt some rude stares coming his way during the Sankon no Gi ceremony. Clearly, watching you two drink sake from the same cups made people feel … bothered? A bit? This was a bit too intimate, something which was okay between husband and wife, but not between an adult man and a young girl. No one raised any heckles, of course. But Noritoshi felt his embarrassment burn inside all the same. This wasn’t a choice for either of you.

You hadn’t resisted a bit throughout the day. You played the part of a bride just as you had been taught to. Even as the day ended, and you both were ushered into his room with a lot of giggles from the tipsy Kamo family, you seemed to simply resign to your fate. 

Compared to your previous chambers, you mused, Noritoshi’s room was incredible. He had a low bed, a few futons and chaise lounges on the floor, a large TV, a separate wardrobe and changing area, in-suite washrooms, a bookshelf, an aquarium, and even a veranda overlooking his private garden. Noritoshi sat in front of a mirror, taking his hair out of the topknot. 

“We’re not fucking.” You suppose it’s best to get it out of the way as soon as possible. 

He makes a disgusted face at you. “Of course not,” he replies easily. She’s such a child. “Do make sure you drop a bit of your blood on the sheets though, otherwise they’ll just bother us unnecessarily.” You just shrug.

God. The realisation had suddenly struck him. She’s not a child– it’s so much worse. She's a teenager. 

“I’m gonna use the washroom now, so don’t bother me.” You declared, climbing out of your ornate wedding kimono. “And then I’ll take the bed, because I’m a lady, and you can take the futon. Also, I didn’t get to eat dinner, so I want a bowl of oyakodon topped with sriracha.” 

Just a week of this and then I’ll be back in school. In his melancholy about the whole wedding thing, it had slipped his mind that you were, ultimately, a spoilt rich teenager. A Zenin at that. He got up to tell the cooks to make your food – “Hey! Don’t open the door when I’m undressing! Dumbass!” 

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It’s 2 am and Noritoshi is genuinely impressed that you can sleep so carefree. How has the fundamental weight of being a married woman at the age of 14 not hit you? Do you not realise what this means for your future? Do you not realise that you have effectively been trapped into being a housewife and broodmare? Do you understand that you have no rights over yourself anymore? Noritoshi can’t sleep a wink, and it’s not because of the futon. He gets up and walks over to the bed; there you are sleeping soundly, not a single worried thought in your head. And then it hits him. She’s gonna make a run for it. 

You don’t care for your inevitable terrible married future because you’re not planning to face it.

After a minute of astounded consideration on this topic, Noritoshi decides that it's not the kind of thing he wants to bother himself with at this time of the night. You surely aren't going anywhere tonight- he would wake up before you set a foot off the bed. He just goes back to the futon to lie down again. If his wife ran away from him, it would be a big scandal, but quite frankly, he was certain that his family would never let that happen. Besides, where will she run off to? He yawned. It was pretty late. Let that little brat do what she does. Not like anything much will come out of it.  

concept art for this chapter - here

#6 - Husbandly Duties

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[1stpoliticalcartoons]

“South Dakota Gov. Kristi Noem’s bid for Donald Trump’s VP slot on the Republican ticket blew up in recent days, unless the Trump team grossly underestimates how much Americans love their dogs and other animals.

Ahead of upcoming release of Noem’s new book, “No Going Back: The Truth on What’s Wrong with Politics and How We Move America Forward,” The Guardian news outlet obtained a copy, and the biggest revelation appears not to be what’s wrong with politics, but what’s wrong with Noem.

Noem, who served in the South Dakota House of Representatives and the U.S. House of Representatives prior to becoming governor, is also a hunter. Guardian writer Martin Pengelly reports that Noem writes in the book about her 14-month-old (still a puppy) wirehair pointer named Cricket.

These dogs require vigorous exercise and can be rowdy and highly exuberant when not exercised sufficiently, particularly when young. They need a confident owner.

Cricket was a female with an “aggressive personality” who needed training to hunt pheasant, wrote Noem. So Noem took Cricket out on pheasant run with other older dogs for training. But, young girls just want to have fun. Cricket was “out of her mind with excitement, chasing all those birds and having the time of her life.”

After the outing, which Noem considered ruined by Cricket, she stopped to talk with a local family, and Cricket, apparently not secured in Noem’s truck, escaped and headed for the family’s chickens. Chaos and chicken death ensued. Cricket was just having fun, with no idea of what was about to befall her.

“I hated that dog,” Noem recounts in the book, finding young Cricket “untrainable,” “dangerous to anyone she came in contact with” and “less than worthless … as a hunting dog.” Noem appears to place the blame for that on the dog, not herself.

Summary execution from Noem was near.

After her day of frolicking and joy, Cricket was then led by Noem to a gravel pit where she was executed.

By then, perhaps all fired up to dispatch any creature that didn’t fit Noem’s view of acceptable behavior, Noem shot a male goat she viewed as “nasty and mean,” because it wasn’t castrated (again, whose fault was that?), and who chased the kids and smelled “disgusting, musky, rancid.”

The goat also met his unnecessary fate in the gravel pit, in a story that sounds like the South Dakota version of Tony Soprano.

Since the Guardian story and wide pick-up of the animal executions, Noem has not backed down on her position that the story was an illustration of making “tough, challenging decisions.” Defining the dog as a “working dog,” seems to justify for her the act of putting it down. But the more Noem responds to what the majority of people see as indefensible, the bigger the hole she digs for herself in her own gravel pit.

Death for these animals was the only option in her mind? What about rehoming, sending the dog to training with someone else? How about letting the goat have its own enclosed space and keeping the kids away? Could the goat still be neutered? Would a hose down have helped with its smell?

As a potential VP pick, the concern is that her judgment is this poor. We’ve already endured nearly four years of a president and VP with poor judgment – this country can’t endure more.

Noem’s story reminded me of a friend who said when he was an older teen, he took Halloween candy from the younger children. Even as a grown man, he didn’t seem to recognize that what he had done as a teenager was wrong. He still thought taking candy from kids was funny. And like Noem, he didn’t have any awareness that it was a story you don’t tell other people because it reflects very poorly on him.

Mahatma Gandhi, who used nonviolent resistance in the campaign he led to obtain independence for India from British rule, said, “The greatness of a nation can be judged by the way its animals are treated.” Noem doesn’t pass the sniff test.”

[septembriseur]

The latest thing I’m thinking about with Andor is the question of its relationship to Cassian’s line in Rogue One about having “been in this fight since [he] was six years old.” Now: there’s still a lot that we don’t know about what happened between Cassian-as-Kassa and Cassian as we see him in this show, and revelations about that might change our understanding of the character. But right now I’m really interested in how the show interprets "be[ing] in this fight.” The fan interpretation has been that Cassian has been a member of the Rebellion (or some faction that identifies itself broadly with the goals of the Rebellion) since he was six years old. What the show gives us is a Cassian whose life, since (presumably) the mining disaster when he was six years old, has itself been made a fight with a hegemony that has pitted itself against his existence. The show’s Cassian (as far as we know at this point) has been sent to prison for acts against the Empire, has stolen from the Empire, and has basically done everything except join a formal movement. 

I think this is significant because it’s a very different understanding of what being in a struggle entails. I know an awful lot of people who join formal activist groups and do very little aside from giving money and occasionally sending out form letters. They place a lot of importance on the identity part of a movement: I am a member of this, and my personal identity is determined by self-identification as part of this movement. Many of their acts center around self-identification: for instance, wearing t-shirts, attending marches, buying merchandise. However, most of those people do not live their lives resisting hegemony. In part, this is because they don’t have to: they have the option to not resist hegemony because hegemony is not opposed to their existence in the way that, to take just one example and the one with which I happen to be best acquainted, it is opposed to the existence of asylum-seekers/migrants. When hegemony is opposed to your existence, every day you fight hegemony to survive. Sometimes you fight literally, by engaging in acts of violence. Sometimes you fight by stealing, begging, escaping, lying, hiding. Sometimes you fight by doing some or all of those things under the guise of being a model citizen. This is one of the things that resistance can be. 

It seems important the Cassian moves in and out of acts that we would identify as formal Rebellion. The Rebellion isn’t bad; the Rebellion is great. The Rebellion wins. But Cassian was in this fight before he was in the Rebellion, and after doing stuff that counts as “being in the Rebellion,” and before getting a job and a title in the Rebellion. He was in this fight because he was doing things to survive and help others survive in the face of an Empire that does not see them as “people.” That’s what being in this fight looks like. The fight is not between two organizations; it’s not even between two systems of government, or two economic philosophies. It’s a fight against a power that classifies some forms of life as grist, as extraneous, as fuel. Resisting that power therefore takes many forms of refusal to accept that classification, to insist on the value and dignity of those people whom you’ve been taught have no value or dignity— which may or may not include yourself. And the importance of understanding this lies in the fact that it denies you the opportunity to exculpate yourself by virtue of your inability to pick up a rifle. It’s not about picking up a rifle. The fight is now. The fight is every day.

[adenes-archive]

Warden!Sukuna x Inmate!Reader

Warnings: suicide mentioned (wasnt done), degrading, throat fucking, face slapping, and spitting (ONCE)

wc: 773

Notes: probs pt 1

Lets start off with the basics

You were in jail for something petty…almost

Petty being attempted murder

It didn’t matter, you acted out of self defense but everything was just against you that day

The jury was split and jail was bestowed upon you by some scrawny man who didn’t like how you glared at the man you almost killed…pussy

Jail was hell. It was smelly and 100% not your cup of tea

Fights every other hour, one pair of underwear, less than 10 minutes in a shower, it was everything you didn’t want or need in life

The only thing keeping you going was the warden

Suicide was an option during your first 2 weeks but the wardens visit is what deterred you away from any thoughts

He was tall, had pink hair, gorgeous tattoos, and just mouth watering to put it plain and simple

Basically almost every females wet dream

“Alright ladies you know what time it is,” His booming voice echoed through the cell block

This happened every 2 weeks, the warden checking your cell

Sukuna’s power in general was feared

The amount of power he radiated was overwhelming to say the least

You always found yourself with problems

Girls starting fights with you, hiding contraband in your room the whole 9 yards

You weren’t top in your cell block, however, you could very well easily take that spot

This time you were in the clear (or so you thought) you luckily haven't had a cellmate in a few months

“Congratulations y/n, nothing this time,” Sukuna whispered in your ear. He smirked at your face and rubbed something in his pocket

Your heart instantly dropped to your ass

thanking whatever god that was above. he found something but wasn’t holding you accountable…yet

He finished his search and left, a few girls were taken to solitary confinement

Soon enough you did find yourself in a fight, not swinging first aided you for once and you both were instantly brought to Sukuna’s office

“Couldn’t even wait for me to be settled in could you two?”

Your eyes were set on the floor, the girl next to you already allowing her mouth to run

Sukuna ordered her out immediately, sending her to solitary confinement

You however remained silent completely missing the questions and directions you were given

“I said, who the fuck put a shiv in your fuckin’ room?”

You were stunned but kept quiet

The world had always been against you, and the deep timbre of his voice and the small bit of anger laced in it made your thighs clench shamefully

“You never learn do you”

Next thing you know you’re in solitary confinement, on your knees with your mouth wide open to accommodate Sukunas thick and lengthy cock

Your eyes were glassy and tears were streaming down your face while you let the warden abuse your tight throat

His thrusts were sharp, not allowing any air to come through your mouth or nose for that matter

“Fuck your throat’s the best,” he rasped. “Thats fuckin’ right suck my fuckin cock you slut.”

He pulled you back and grinned devilishly down at you. You followed his cock eager to have it abusing your throat once more only to hear him laugh and slap your face

“You’re a filthy cock drunk whore aren’t you,” Sukuna asked. You whined and opened your mouth.

“Please sir, use me, fuck…please,” you cried.

He wasted no time with picking you up and forcing your head over the edge of the bed, giving him leverage to see his cock bulge deep in your throat

He couldnt resist putting his hand on your throat and stroking it opposite of his thrusts making him groan out, “Fuck, yes. God fuckin’ damn, take my nut you nasty slut.” he hunched forward and jackhammered into your throat, his hand tight on your neck while his balls were slapping your nose giving you the delicious lightheaded feeling

Feeling his cock go deeper in your throat made his head spin, you gagged at the perfect time, practically ripping his orgasm from him, “fuckin’ take it. Good. Fucking. Girl.” he accentuated his final spurts of delicious cum with rough thrusts

He pulled himself out and grinned at the mess of saliva across your face

“Open.” you obeyed and opened your mouth, earning a glob of spit on which you swallowed “good girl.” with a slap to your cheek he tucked his cock into his work pants

“Bad girls get reprimanded, if i have to I’ll put you in here time and time again until you act straight, you got that?”

You nodded your head with a dumb smile and watched as he retreated from the room, a small pep in his step.

lol

part 2

[tarotnoob]

PAC: About your person + any predictions 🥰😍💘

Choose an image and scroll to learn who your person is.

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Pile 1

I'm do this slightly different. Usually I shuffle out all of the cards and then read. But I think I will start with the tarot first.

First of all, the energy coming through is definitely Sagittarius. This could indicate their signs, the big three, or could even indicate some type of timing during Sagittarius season or a significant Sagittarius transit.

I'm actually feeling like one of you maybe walks away first or like rejects the other. So let me run through a couple of scenarios. The first one makes me think you could know this person early on in your childhood and then you part ways and it doesn't have to be dramatic, it could be something like you go to different colleges and then you reunite.

The other scenario would be... I almost feel like one of you is a bit more successful and ambitious. And I think the other person finds this intimidating. Like either they think okay this person would never date me so they're like I'm not even going to attempt this.

But since this is a reading about your person, what it seems like is that may be true but somebody is very patient with this relationship. One of you is on the fence and one of you kind of has to convince the other through acts of service.

It's almost like someone has to go through some type of transformation before this works out. This again could be about you know knowing each other in childhood or earlier on or even dating and then partying and coming back together after a significant amount of time where one or both of you probably were able to grow and transform.

So I guess I see this as either you knew each other and parted and then so this is a long process of coming back together or you meet but there's some kind of resistance on somebody's part and so it's going to take a period of time before the two of you get together. And it's almost like one person might have to be convinced of something.

But to describe this person. We have water fire and a bit of air. And like I said Sagittarius is the strongest energy coming through because of the wheel and temperance.

This person could be a teacher or work with children in an education setting of some sort. I also feel like they have a higher position or just our successful or popular in some way. Or yeah I mean I said a higher position so somebody that could be a manager or somebody who would be leading other people in some way.

I suppose another option is you could meet somebody on a trip because there are travel cards but it's really the sense of a long journey. So I mean you wouldn't be meeting them on a weekend getaway, this would only happen if you were going on a month-long trip across Europe or somewhere. That's why I kind of brought up there seems to be a parting of ways at some point. So that's just another option.

I would say they would be well educated and if not literally have graduate degrees, they would have a lot of training in a particular area or a lot of wisdom or knowledge that is something that could be shared with other people

I feel like they are a very patient person. I don't feel like they make decisions rashly. I think that they are quite ambitious because they don't have a problem leaving something behind once they've outgrown it.

I do think that they're still quite generous and sensitive. But not like overly so.

It's weird because the main elements here are fire and water but I'm really sensing that they would be a water sun sign. I just feel the water more strongly than the fire. So maybe it's like water sun and fire rising and like an air Moon. I know that's really specific but I just like to pick those out sometimes. But the water feels the most strong water but like there's ambition here.

I almost want to say they'll be older than you. Or act older. They might even be more mature for their age. Like they could be 28 and act like they're 40 for some reason because they like to stay home and watch Netflix as opposed to doing things. But that could mean they are a bit on the introverted side. They may even be a bit guarded, somebody who's a little bit difficult to get to know it first which might be part of why at first you're like I don't know about this and so it could take a progressively long amount of time to change the relationship into something more than friendship. Now for people who aren't looking for romance, of course the skit also be a platonic soulmate or even a close family member as in a sibling. Or somebody who becomes sibling like to you.

I almost see this as not an enemies to lovers situation but it does look like one or both of you transforms over the course of this relationship and that could be that if this person comes across as kind of cold at first that over a significant period of time they might warm up. Almost like they go from being completely not affectionate and kind of stoic to being a bit soft and like doing things for you or giving you gifts and this is how they end up showing you affection.

I wonder also if the two of you are a bit different. Not completely different because you seem to fit together well so it is a bit of an opposite attract and yet enough similarities to bring you together.

Because I'm seeing a lot of sun and moon imagery as well as like night and day so it's kind of like similar and fit together but also different enough to keep it interesting.

I do think they travel a lot or like to travel. And not just short trips like going two hours outside of the city. I think they have gone or have traveled extensively.

I also feel like probably their personal path has been long for some reason. I'm not seeing a significant hardship that's coming up I just see a positive mindset but at the same time I feel like there's been a long journey towards something but overall they're disposition is pretty friendly. Like I said patient and we have this water energy but just a little bit stoic.

So let me pull the rest of the cards and we'll see what else we can learn.

Exactly so the next Oracle I got was perseverance and it's the rose coming out of rocks so again with this person they seem to persevere. The back of deck is actually wheel of Fortune and behind that is nine of Wands which is also a card about perseverance. So I think this person is ambitious in the sense that they've worked their way up in career or life. But I also think again in this relationship whatever it is and the flower seems to indicate either love or romance. So I think it will progress over time and it will kind of maybe grow from something harsh. Like I said you might be rubbed the wrong way by this person at first because they keep to themselves

But something seems to happen here. I don't know the specific event other than if there's an opportunity for the two of you to work together or for this person to help you out or provide you with something, specifically the event could be around children, family, or even plants or flowers having something to do with that.

But it does seem like you end up sharing something whether it's literal or a metaphor. Because there is an exchange that happens here. And the exchange seems to happen around water, so there's some type of either maybe emotional connection that has to grow and happen but it does happen eventually if you stick with it.

But I do think this is what this person is about anyway, somebody who is very steady and just like seems to be pointed forward. I don't feel like they are very focused on the past at all they just kind of are like okay and live day to day or live for the future. I think they seem pretty chill as well. Maybe you might think they are too chill.

And again with this perseverance card, there's more emphasis on flowers or plants. It could have to do with a garden, it could have to do with a gift, it could be virtually anything.

Like I will share this story that I have about the six of cups. When I moved here, my Airbnb host kept working out in his garden and had I want to say a flower tattoo and a poster of herbs. So I was like that's weird because a lot of people have associated the six of cups with my person. And he was a cool guy but not really my type so I was like well that's weird and then he was a sign that was not associated with readings that I've gotten so I was like I'm pretty sure you're not him lol but you know I was looking for the signs and that one was pretty unusual because it's not often you see men and plants and having multiple signs at once

But then another thing happened with somebody at work and it was a weird way to interpret six of cups but it did spring to mind and I'm not saying this is my person I'm just saying this is how weirdly the cards can come up and don't have to be anything about the actual definition

So at work we do this thing every week where we put up some clues on a board and people have to guess who it might be. So when mine came up maybe like a month ago, I had a clue in there and I was like I don't think that I submitted that. But I didn't say anything because I was like well maybe I did because why would the wrong clue end up on mine and it said something like I like plants but I don't think I would be a good caretaker. And that day I had literally posted in a chat about the plants on my balcony and sent a picture and someone was even like wow that's weird since the clue just talked about plants and I hadn't even seen the clue yet that day. Well two weeks ago new clues were on the board and that same clue came up and I was like that's weird so back then did you really mix up the clues to the person that organizes the little game. And she was like oh yeah I guess so. And at the end of the week when I found out who it was it's the only single guy in my office. And immediately what came to my mind was we literally just exchanged plants. Just like what the six of cups looks like. And I was like that's weird. I haven't looked into it but I'm just saying you know it was weird to me because it was unusual that the clues got mixed up and six of cups immediately came to my mind

But I was also wrong with Airbnb host so let's not go there but I just think that it's an interesting way to interpret it

Okay let's keep going

Also I should say back of the deck for that Oracle deck was playtime so I kind of wonder if maybe this person is stoic in some way and then when you go do a fun activity together, then maybe barriers break down a bit more or maybe it's just when you're together, you realize how much fun that you have. Again this doesn't have to be romance because it's also coming through as a strong friendship. Which of course you want to be best friends with the person you're dating but I could totally see this as being platonic although the rose kind of indicates otherwise but it could just mean love

So next we have caution and it says tread softly so it's not to disturb the woodland floor and the back of deck is dance so again it's like there is something to do with somebody putting up a guard or something being slow to take action and then at the same time we're getting another message about fun you know with this dance card that says allow yourself some fun each day just as the sun dances with the moon each night oh my God if I had a YouTube channel I'd be like can you believe that I just talked about the Sun and Moon and now it's coming up literally on this card lol

But I'm also taking this as you know day by day this is going to be a bit of a slow burn. And what will end up changing your mind is the moments where you are able to be kind of free and probably crack jokes or do fun activities that automatically bring somebody's guard down like say you work with this person and they're pretty stoic but then you go do some kind of like party with the coworkers and you get to know the person and you kind of have fun and that's when you start to grow a bond

I would also say it's a message for the person that they need to loosen up a little bit more lol or it could be telling you that you know on the outside they might appear a bit aloof in the environment that you know them but outside of that situation when they're out with their friends or whatever, they might be a little bit more loose and fun

They might also be involved in dance or some type of hobby or activity where they move their bodies such as martial arts or jogging or working out or they might like to go out to clubs but I can't say I see them doing that super often but I think they also every once in a while like to have fun

Lol I kid you not but your love oracle says worth waiting for divine timing is at work in your love life. A bit creepy how it all comes together but I guess we can validate that this connection will take time to either come into your life or come together or there could even be a separation at some point not as in like the separation that people like to romanticize online but I mean a natural separation where you knew each other and might have been more on the acquaintance side and high school and then you go to college and then maybe you meet again in some other circumstance. But that's not everybody because definitely I feel like it's on the other spectrum where it just will be later on in your life before you meet this person like quite long. I don't know what that would mean to you but to me it could be late 20s to late 30s or even lay there than that.

It could also especially come at a time where you have made some type of decision and the decision is to move or go away somewhere that would be better for you and it still seems like kind of a long road. But I still think it stands for this person's life or yours or both and then also how the development of this relationship will take longer than average. It's definitely quite slow-moving. I almost wonder if this could definitely be for a job move or if not a job it's like you have an opportunity for something that could grant you more success and then you have to make a decision on whether or not you want to take this job or make this move and it seems to be a bit of a long distance

And so once you've made this decision then there's like some type of long period of time or the significance is that something happens between you and this person during Sagittarius season and also you or them go through some type of transformation because of this experience. Obviously if you moved somewhere better and have better experiences and get a raise and a better job, you're going to transform but

It almost looks at this point of the journey once you've traveled or taken this trip or this move or had this long transformation, it really is like you are reunited. And this could be in the sense that you knew each other before or it's just representing a soulmate type of energy. But this person will become part of your family whether that's soul tribe or a soulmate or a romantic soulmate or whatever

And I would also say for some of you specifically like I said something significant would happen in late November or December and it's like the two of you exchange something. This could be information, it could be an offer, it could be a gift, it could be an act of service. But it's like they try to give you something. It could even be literal where they give you a plant or flowers or help you decorate a tree in the office.

For some reason I'm also really drawn to something on the 6th of cups that resembles the Scottish flag so that could be significant in some way to somebody or somebody is Scottish or went to Scotland or is from Scotland on the other hand it also kind of resembles the two of swords that's already in your spread. So it could be again another decision to exchange something. Or to give somebody something. Almost like I wonder if their birthday would be around this time or you exchange holiday gifts or if this isn't Sagittarius season then yeah another reason to be exchanging something but it has to do with plants or flowers or children

For The final thing, I am going to pick out some traits from my bag and show those with you

I'm also again drawn to the winter time anyway because a couple of these cards make me think of people bundling up. Some are wearing white and some are wearing red or a combination of red and blue so the colors red or maybe red and white might be significant

Okay so for traits we have Mama's boy, serious, light skin, artist, deep voice, opinionated, sarcastic, only child, piercing, lazy lol

Why do so many of those make me think of Jin?? So definitely Sagittarius vibes, we also have a couple of angels dressed in white. You can make of that what you will. You can take it as this being divinely guided or religion or angels could be significant in terms of signs as well.

I'm picking up more kids vibes so they may have children already or you knew each other as children or you work around children to some degree.

But yes that was interesting because perseverance and things being worth the wait are coming out pretty strongly for this pile so if you stick with it and if you aren't sure but then when you're together and it's a situation where you can have fun and you notice that the two of you kind of click, you might be able to recognize this person.

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Pile 2

Okay so this energy was a bit more chaotic than the first pile. The cards kind of fell out at once in groups. It's more cards than the previous pile as well

So that just tells me I kind of see this person as It is weird because there's no fire here but one of the traits that came out was Aries, and that doesn't have to be the case but there's something chaotic here either this person is a bit of that fire energy kind of like can't sit still. It's not coming across to me as air energy like anxious and can't sit still, to me it's coming across more as fire like I said

But what's predominantly here is water and earth

I kind of want to start based on the traits that came out and so your traits are petite, multilingual, political, playful, well traveled, athletic, very tall, people person, likes to read, Aries. Of course not All of these traits will apply or they could apply to both of you in some way because this is for multiple people and not a personal reading

Although I guess you could be petite as in thin and then also tall but it doesn't matter

So keeping that in mind that something about this person or the connection is a bit hyper, based on the traits you know this person definitely comes across as very intelligent and likes to be active but is also very intellectual and could be interested in politics and news and likes to read and likes to learn about people. To me that's coming across as a bit Sagittarius but it could also be Gemini or Libra

This is very specific but they could also be I was going to say involved in some type of science degree because I look at these cards and I see bones and rocks which makes me think of geoscience or paleontology but that could also be that they are very fact-based type of person. Like they might not be as open to things that can't be determined by science

Yet at the same time there is some open-mindedness to them. I don't think they're completely closed off. I see this open and invitation Oracle card as being linked to the people person so they're interested in learning through people. Like they seem a very curious type of person.

So now I'm thinking of Aquarius. So it's like you know not completely a rebel without a care but like that except if that person also was very scientifically minded. I'm trying to think of anybody I know like that in film where their adventurous but at the same time you know are interested in how the body works or how bones fit together or how rocks grow

I do think it's a person capable of a strong commitment because of this knight of pentacles but it might also be a bit slow to progress because this knight works very slowly

There does seem to be some type of work or collaboration that might bring the two of you together because of this three of pentacles.

But let's start with the tarot so we have lots of signs of love and romance in the cards by the way because you have two cups and you have knight of cups and you have queen of cups and the empress on top of having a true love Oracle card

But first this makes me wonder if maybe somebody's Venus is in water because we start with empress which represents Venus and the signs of Libra and Taurus

This makes me think that this person is attractive or you find them very attractive at least. Like their natural looks are very good looking, they could be fit, but either their face or body or both is very attractive to you and I would guess to a lot of other people

There is a fair amount of water here, but like I said this could indicate a water Venus situation or like a person heavy with water earth air.

Your other Oracle card is path wander on the path less traveled What you find might surprise you

I can see that about this person being full of surprises. I also kind of feel like you could know this person and not expect to fall in love with them and it could take time or it's also possible that running into this person and the manner in which you meet is not planned in any way and kind of random

It definitely feels like maybe this person will pursue you because we have two cards that seem to indicate an offer. And they might also find you attractive and so it seems like they wait. I don't know if they gave you their information and then they are waiting or you're the one waiting but there seems to be a period where you find each other attractive and then there's like a waiting period where somebody is waiting for the other to call or contact them

And then one of you comes through with this offer which is at the center with this cup.

I guess it could be under the guise of like it's actually just happened to me the other day where I was working with somebody in another office and they were doing their thing and somebody came in and we started chatting while they were waiting to meet with my colleague. And my colleague ended up being an awesome wingman because she saw we were kind of chatting and connecting or whatever and so she made up this kind of situation for this person and myself to be able to maybe exchange our contact information which is what happened under the guys that it was for a project I was working on and he could be an expert or provide me a contact with this project and then after that scenario it does seem like that's how the two of you could come together something similar like that

And this three of pentacles besides indicating working together or collaborating together, it could also be that a third person that knows the two of you brings you together

But basically what I do see is an element of working together like even creatively. Because there's lots of cups here which indicate to me creativity or intuition

I would definitely very confidently say that this would be somebody you meet through work or if not work then you at least work on a project together of some sort and you work well together at the very least.

So yeah I think somebody brings you together to work on a project or you work with them or a third party like a co-worker has a friend and then they introduce the two of you or something

But it does seem like definitely a situation where maybe contact information is exchanged and somebody doesn't move on it right away like there's a period of waiting to see if somebody does something I think but I get the impression that the masculine energy of the two of you is the one too make an offer or make an offer of working together on something creative

But anyway so again I would venture to say that most of you would meet this person through work a project or hobby

But this is definitely somebody you would vibe with really well. Like you if you start talking about ideas for things like you would work really well collaboratively. Or you might just have some kind of weird way of clicking together like you just get each other or get something about the other when you start talking. Like maybe the two of you are in the same field and so you have that to talk about or similar fields like one of you does medicine and the other one does administrative health or somebody does psychology and the other person does counseling

Let's talk more about what this person's characteristics are so maybe you could pick them out

I see this person as being a bit different in some way. I don't see them as a wallflower. They might even dress kind of like different either kind of flashy or kind of how you would expect a knight of wands to dress. Because I'm picking up like fire or Aquarius or something with that kind of vibe where they are just a bit unique and I don't think that they go by conventions as in like they wouldn't go by oh I'm supposed to wait 3 days to contact this person they just do whatever they want when they want

But they seem to be creative or sensitive in some way or extremely intuitive, this might also blend in with the work that they do or maybe they work in a setting where feelings are involved I guess this really could be psychology or they are in psychology or something where like they do work and there's listening involved and exchanging of feelings which makes sense for psychology to me

But again like I also feel like they're focused on their body so they like pay special attention to the way they look or have a unique aesthetic that's creative and different or yeah it doesn't have to be like purple hair but it could be but like especially express their uniqueness through their appearance like clothes or makeup

They might even do this for work as well like a fashion designer or I mean they could be a writer or artist of any variety really.

And like I said in terms of signs it's mostly water and earth in the tarot with the tiniest bit of air because the Libra comes through. So they might have a bit of a social justice warrior to them as well and I think that's where the Libra stuff is coming in.

And again I think they pursue you. There is an emotional interest, there is some type of solid offer that they want to bring if it's commitment or like at least a date. Or it could be something like under the guise of work or talking about the things that you are interested in or project you guys go for a coffee date and that kind of leads to something else but I think they would be the ones to offer it but I mean it could be either one of you I just feel like this person has the energy where they wouldn't be afraid to make the first move at least and then if they do give you their information you can contact them but they would be the ones to be like okay here's my number do with it what you will although I think even if you ignored them they might come back

What else can I tell you so you have completion, magic, invitation, restock. The magic reminds me of the surprise we talked about on the path. So I kind of wonder if they might surprise you with this invitation to do something or something about them surprises you or something about them is very different

And again with the completion I get the sense that maybe you work on a project together like the two of you might put something together like a puzzle or work together to complete something

I'm trying to figure out how I feel like the restock comes into play because I'm trying to remember the original meaning of this card which I think would be something like taking time to restore your energy but that doesn't really fit with this so I feel like it's probably something in the image I'm supposed to be drawn to

I'm not sure maybe that will be the surprise because clearly it's an empty gumball machine and it needs to be restocked

I clarified it. So back of deck was the emperor again with the Aries energy and behind it the three of cups so again there's like that introduced through friends or third party or something but anyway

So restock clarified by cards that are clearly related to that completion card because you have the world and you have 10 of swords. So definitely has to do with something coming to an end. Queen of pentacles and page of Wands also came out so I wonder if how should I put this but it could be that one of you is a queen of pentacles and the other is a page of swords so there could be a bit of an age gap here. That could also be from a different part of the world or a different country than you and you might meet or come together at the end of something when something ends. I don't know if this is referring to

The end of the project or a stage has ended for one of you like it could be a simple as somebody just went through a graduation or somebody just went through a breakup or you meet during a time when something about work has come to an end.

But let me put it this way. Something about that card is weird with the gumball I don't know what's going on that's why the cards are weird but all the cards are definitely indicating and end or a completion of something but there's also something new that comes after it because the way the cards came out was Queen of pentacles, world, 10 of swords, page of Wands. So there is that flow of the end and then the new start. It also gives me the sense of something to do with communication or messages and again somebody is like waiting on a communication and then it's really like you don't move on it but this person is the one that just kind of takes the risk because that's what they're like

And again they could be different than you according to culture but I just get the sense more they could be from a different country. Like you live in the US but they're from Canada or Sweden. And yes I'm picking up more on the countries that would have lighter skin people not necessarily white but just lighter skin

This could also be revalidating the idea of meeting this person through work or a creative work venture because the world is the Saturn card and Saturn makes me think of work or discipline it could even be restrictions of some kind so there could be some type of restriction that was happening here between the two of you and then that restriction ends and you're able to start something.

So this could be that period of time where you aren't able to communicate or there isn't a communication happening and then something ends and you're able to have that communication. It could even be something like you were just too busy to go out on a date and then you have a 3-day weekend and you're able to go out and do something

So it does feel like there's a restriction here and then it goes away. This could even be somebody that you already met and you weren't able to communicate with them through COVID or something.

It definitely gives that vibe of okay I wasn't allowed to play for a while because I was focused on work or some element of the world and a restriction around the world kept me from being able to have fun and play but then that ends and you're able to go play around. Or this could be their story as well. They could have also had some type of job where they travel around the world or it was kind of like a high-level job with a lot of people looking at them and then they left it to try something completely new.

What it reminds me of would be somebody who was completely successful like as a let's just say a high level business person and they did everything they could and they were really successful and then that job ended or they decided to leave to go do something more creative and interesting

But they do seem to be very work focused. I feel like there's an element of creativity to them but they are also super disciplined in what they do. But they are creative, they are good at working with other people, they even seem to like people so I do think they are more on the extroverted side.

I think they are creative in the way they dress but at the same time it's not like wild do you know what I mean? It might be somebody who is more interested in dressing nicely. Like designer clothes or designer accessories. It's not about wearing something loose and comfortable and not caring because there is an element of care here about the appearance

And yeah I still feel very strongly that you meet through other people You meet through work or somebody from work sets you up or you have a manager that puts the two of you on a project and do bond through that and then you end up falling in love

Also I will tell you that I was just looking down and I saw the back of the deck for one of the Oracle cards and it says the night. And you have two knights

And anyway the card says find comfort in the night, where the world switches off and the stars burn bright

So maybe something about this person is also very comforting in some way. I mean it is a nice combination when you have a pentacle and a cup because you know they are reliable or at least they give you a real offer that they intend to follow through on but also this person could be quite sensitive and flirty and romantic. You are coming across as the queen I mean it could be reversed but I do think that there will be a bit of an age gap and I feel like the feminine energy person is the one that's older and you could be coming across as like the queen of cups and the queen of pentacles and this person could very much be interested in older women especially for like just people who are older than them so whatever gender but I feel like there's an age gap and not a couple of years maybe more like 5 plus years

But they seemed to me to be very attracted to you and you to them so this could be more of a physical connection. Like just vibing sexually or physically with this person. So I mean it could be a hookup as well. But I mean even if it's not a long-lasting type of relationship like you will get an offer and they will follow through whatever type of offer that may be lol. If you want to go out for coffee and they offer it, they're going to show up, if you want a booty call, they're going to show up. If you want to date they are going to show up

I feel like they kind of look at you as being older and something about that is attractive to them. Like they admire the work that you do. But I just feel like there is a sense of admiration here on some level and especially whatever type of work that you do. Although again it could be reversed and this is how you feel about them but there's adoration that comes from like looking up to somebody and having respect but it especially seems to be coming from the younger person toward the older person

Anyway so that is all I can think of although I'm sure there's more but yeah that should be enough to pinpoint the person if you bump into them

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Pile 3

First off, Pisces and Aries or Mars energy coming through here. So this could be part of their signs, or it's about timing so that transition between Pisces and Aries season as well as they could be a Pisces but close to the cusp of Aries or maybe they have Pisces and Aries in their big three.

That water energy is coming through because back of deck we have King of cups and behind him is six of pentacles, so there is that energy of somebody who is kind and caring and generous. Would be a good listener. But that is the most positive aspect. I think we should explore this other stuff that's going on

It's a bit chaotic when you look at it because you have the hanged man, which is that Pisces energy. It is about going with the flow or there's some type of pause and there could be a pause here because of what happens after which is this 5 of Wands and Tower. There could be a conflict here that happens or an accident or a displacement.

It could also be that between that Pisces and Aries time this is when the conflict seems to happen whatever it may be. This could be for them or this could be for you or this could be a moment in the relationship

But essentially what it looks like is I guess one way to read it is something is going to come up It's not going to be that great, there's conflict with other people that could be a bit on the petty side. And the tower well you know the tower card by now. It could also be that somebody's Mars is in Pisces somebody could have a fire type placement in their 12th house but what's going on with this water and this fire seems to definitely be a conflict

This seems more like a message in that there will be something kind of destructive that comes up that's totally out of somebody's control and you kind of just have to roll with it I guess which is easier said than done but the advice seems to be when this comes up the attitude you want to adapt is the hanged man which is patience and being able to see something from a different perspective. What's interesting is he's upside down but also the figures in the tower are upside down

So I think something important is about keeping perspective even when everything is falling apart or something happens and it's the people around you that are kind of negative and you have to be able to make sure you're SEEING it. I say that because back of deck for the romance Oracle says pay attention to the red flags and that kind of is almost like what the hanged man is doing. Like there's a whole s*** show happening and the hanged man is not getting sucked into the drama but is like watching from outside of the situation

This could be again an event in the relationship I'd like to think that when I ask for your person that your person isn't a psychopath abuser and I don't necessarily think that this is what's here, it could be about this person's energy or an event that happens to them or both of

Like this person could be pretty chill and then there's like a lot of chaos around them but I'm also feeling really drawn to the timing of Pisces to Aries time. But like I said there is more of a conflict happening here or like people fighting over something and again I am feeling like the message is more about don't get caught in the drama or don't ignore it all together because if somebody is causing this type of drama and chaos, I am drawn to that whole pay attention to the red flags card - so you don't want to ignore it entirely and you certainly don't want people around who violate your boundaries.

Another back of the deck says survival

And let's talk that this isn't necessarily and aspect of your relationship, this could be something your person has gone through and that would definitely be that this person would be a survivor of some sort like maybe experience something not great in childhood or in life or was displaced in some way like kicked out of the house or I don't know but the event gave them perspective on something

Like maybe it taught them about a certain kind of people or they tend to observe other people or they may be caught up in a situation where there's a lot of negative people and negative things happening around them and they are trying to figure a way out of it or trying to understand what happened.

Anyway maybe the other cards will help lol but you do have the romantic feelings and it says your feelings are real and worth exploring so there is an element of a romantic connection here. There's also comfort here and it has cookies and hot cocoa, so I think that there is that kind of warm comforting connection that makes sense with this king of cups and obviously the hanged man is Pisces so this person could be a Pisces.

Integrity again makes me think of somebody who needs to be aware of red flags and like needs to take the high road instead of getting sucked into drama

0 point is kind of like a fresh start or a kid also be about zero tolerance or an origin.

Again I'm just feeling like this person went through something and they kind of had to pull themselves out of it and gain some type of perspective or enlightenment about life and people and once they were able to move past that phase in life or get out of that situation, they were able to have a fresh start and overall they have a very nurturing nature so I think maybe that they could be quite intuitive and empathic like I think they pick up on people's feelings and that can be a bit jarring for them

I really feel like they got to a make or break point. I mean the vibe for me is let's say somebody grew up in a poor neighborhood and maybe around them there was always fighting or gangs and they had some type of moment where they realized that they had to get out of that situation and on top of that like they used that experience to you know change themselves or it's really colored the way that they look at life and people now and how they live their life

Because it's almost like they had to go through something negative in order to achieve this enlightened headspace and to be more chill now.

We also have surprises under the most ordinary stone is an undisturbed garden, we have the night find comfort in the night where the world switches off and the stars burn bright and hope and idea like a single acorn can start a wondrous forest

So we have the word comfort repeating

And zero point also makes me think of midnight so there is some element of something going dark and then burning again and that imagery keeps repeating with this person. And then you have the sense of hope so again I feel like this person sort of clawed their way out of a situation that was pretty dark and

They encounter something that provides that light. I don't know if it's you that provides the lie or this person provides that light for you or it's mutual or they've already had this type of life experience and this is just reading their energy It's a bit darker and more serious than the other piles

And yeah it does seem more like the person became spiritually enlightened because of this I'm anxious to pick out the traits which I didn't do yet so I will do that. Like I said this is coming across as fire and water energy and we have Pisces and then we have Mars or Aries coming through so again it could be like a Mars in Pisces person or and well I described all the other options for this

I mean as a person if I were to be like okay these cards make up their energy again I would feel like maybe they have a water Mars but likely a water sun sign or something about the water in their chart is coming through the strongest. On the one hand, they could also be quite competitive because of their Mars. Or something about them or the lifestyle they used to lead or maybe it's even now there's a competitive nature to them even like to a self-destructive level

I feel like the word epiphany just popped into my head so but that's not very helpful. Maybe the way the two of you meet is a bit surprising but like not just extraordinary or you need like something shocking about the two of you together or the way that you meet but I don't know what that would be besides you know like you both witness a car accident that was minor and you stopped to give the police a report and in the meantime the two of you were talking or something because you're both standing there and waiting

But there is like a darker more serious type of shock element to something about this but in the darkness there's some kind of light or hope to the situation. I just can't tell if this has to do with the relationship or this is about the person completely or even if this isn't even about somebody in particular but like one of you needs to hear some message about something that may happen during late February or March or early April

I wonder if it could be for people who are already dating somebody and then something you have to go through together like a death in the family or just something weird and dark

I mean it could even be symbolic of your journey through romance and it's mostly not been great for you in that department and you might get a fresh start with somebody else but in that case I guess I still just feel like it's what you're looking for. Like looking for not much you know. You just want somebody that you have good feelings for and it's healthy and you feel comfortable around them and you can just like sit together on the couch and watch movies but there is a spark here

On the other hand it's possible that the tower could represent passion but I mean overall I am mostly feeling like I'm reading somebody's energy here and they've been through some rough stuff but they came out of it still kind of enlightened and positive although it might have taken a while to get to that point but definitely made them very empathetic

And to me it definitely feels like it involved people like people bullying them or just being around a setting like I said that came to mind where it was like gang activity. That's very specific but I'm just saying they could have come from a rough place and grew up in a rough place but it could represent like a short couple of years that were rough for this person and they gained perspective

Okay let's do the traits and see more about what this kind of person is like Yeah

To me I'm also getting somebody who really wants to settle down and find that person but it's been super difficult

So let's talk about the traits. Not all of them have to apply. It's just me pulling stuff out of a bag but it's interesting. So we have people person, multiple degrees, Gemini, Taurus, Sagittarius coming through, athletic, wants kids, calm, deep voice, lazy, LGBTQ, slob, multilingual, funny, very tall, 5'11, family oriented

So many signs coming through here with the Taurus and Gemini and Sagittarius

That could be you or them or something in their chart.

So we have calm again and I'm taking that lazy as also like calm kind of slow moving like a sloth. They do have that Taurus energy of like wanting to stay home and being family oriented I suppose that could also be some type of cancer thing attached to the king of cups. Maybe this person's chart is just all over the place

Again I'm really drawn to the time of Pisces and Aries for something about this relationship or this person like it could even be that a significant event happened in that time frame

So they are funny, calm, kind of maybe too laid-back they can't be that lazy if they have multiple degrees but it just makes me feel like they are this hang demand character and the hanged man is like a sloth in my mind. So they could be somebody who is a little bit harder to motivate. Or like just prefers to stay at home. Or maybe that's how they are now. Maybe before they were also like from a more competitive background or too much chaos and now they are in that let's take things slow kind of mindset

They do seem to be family-oriented since we have wants kids and into family. So they might want to again settle down at this point and have a family or they're very close to their family. Again I'm feeling like this is definitely a person who's just ready to settle down and wants to live that calm or lifestyle

I think they can be sociable when they want to with this people person and then you have the Gemini energies they do like to talk and communicate with people. But I can tell that they're also a bit of a loner and then would prefer to stay at home and be comfortable and be on the couch under a blanket or have some coffee and not have to do much

To me it just is reading like somebody who's been through some stuff and now they are in a later part of their life or have hit a moment where they want things to go a lot more slowly. Which of course if you grew up and some type of chaos or went through a lot, I'm sure you get to a point where it's like I'm not about that anymore. So the good news is if you're looking for somebody to settle down with, this person is just like dead ready to do that. Like they're dying to do that

I mean they're giving off older energy like this is somebody I would expect that's been single for a while and then they hit like later on in life and it's like I'm just ready to settle down and it hasn't happened yet

But people in their twenties can feel like that too which is sad but I mean this person is just like ready I'm just done I'm ready

They might as a hobby have an interest in cooking or baking or something to do with food. I wonder if they're an emotional eater.

Or they could have a career driven by food like let's say they're a dietitian or nutritionist

I really feel like this person had to learn boundaries with people like it doesn't really matter what their background is and like I said they could be from a poor neighborhood and grew up rough or just went through like a pretty dark. In life where they had to establish boundaries with people and then have a start over moment and then they became enlightened because of this in some way

And I do get the sense that even in the darkest moments this person has held hope or faith or something like that so they would be somebody who's very solid and tough like I could imagine let's say if this was a guy, they could be somebody who is quite stoic and maybe keeps a lot of that stuff bottled up and inside and just reflects a lot. And that could be representative of this Tower and the five of Wands

Like they do have a tendency to bottle up a lot of the bigger emotions and don't necessarily talk about it

I mean I feel like I'm not doing this person justice because I just think something so big happened that that's what's making up most of their energy as opposed to telling me more about them because they have to be funny and there has to be other attributes to this person but it's coming through as somebody who went through some tough stuff and then endured it and came out of it like completely changed. I don't want to say scarred but also kind of like that

I mean it kind of reminds me of like a war veteran and they come back and like there's lots of things going on in their head and maybe they're just sitting on the porch and kind of staring off and that's the sort of vibes I'm getting from this person and so you know somebody comes back from that and they don't want to watch grizzly movies anymore. They just want to like sit and do a puzzle or watch a calm movie and be calm and appreciate the smaller things in life or like the meaningful things

But there's also a bit of a tentative energy like a not full out guarded energy but it's very tentative like not even slow to open up but it is very sloth like in movement. Like somebody who would be the tiniest bit wary without it coming across as defensive

Because I feel like this person's energy is still very open and hopeful but like they would always have an eye out like always expecting somebody to come from behind them to stab them in the back so they're always like mindful of something like that happening

But as a partner I feel like they would be very protective and very sweet and attentive and passionate and I'm feeling more of somebody who regardless of gender the word I want to use here is like very gentleman like. Like somebody with manners who opens doors and is a bit traditional in that respect. In fact traditional is a pretty good word to describe them. I don't feel like they stand out in a particular way other than like spiritually and emotionally this person has become very strong like a provider or somebody you would definitely expect to be a caretaker type personality

I do think though that sometimes they get anxious about stuff that has to do with time or schedules maybe like again I keep coming up with military analogies so I wonder if this person could possibly have some type of military background and like so something about time and structure is either something they hate or something that like they just do out of habit now

And again it does seem like there is an internal conflict going on with them still. So I guess on the one hand I want to say this person experienced red flags or I need to at least tell you you know keep an eye out for somebody with an explosive temper somebody that bottles it up and then like unleashes it on you. If you ever come across somebody like that, you know those are literally red flags. What you do in that situation I mean is up to you but if it's violent or unsafe, you don't need to take part in it.

But I'm feeling more like that's geared more toward the fact that this person had to learn boundaries and I know some of you are going to be like it sounds like you're just describing me and that's very possible.

Because I'm feeling that way too that for some of you it's you and for some of you it's this person and for some of you it'll be the both of you and you just needed to hear a message about whatever this is coming through to acknowledge what you went through and what you're feeling now in terms of romance which seems to be you're looking for someone to settle down with and have a family with and to have like no drama anymore and to feel safe I guess. This is definitely the energy of people looking for a very normal relationship where it's just like we come home and we have dinner and we watch TV and we sit next to each other on the couch and we hold hands and it's like not boring it's just nice and normal almost like you crave having that because other elements of life may be haven't been like that

Or it's been so long since you have dated or have had a normal healthy relationship that it's like okay I'm like 42 and I'm single and I'm just ready to find that person and be calm and not go out and party

But it's really coming from having known chaos or like drama and you're like I'm just so tired of that that's not what I want to do and I think you both feel that way or they feel that way and like they find you but I'm guessing I'm not really seeing like how you meet in this other than unless you meet around some type of chaotic something that happens

And if that were so it would be a bit of a darker time and it might be like early spring

I guess for some of you it could even be New Year's that doesn't seem that many but I'm picking up on some New Year's timing in terms of the clock counting down and the candle kind of looks like something I would associate with New Year's and then the comfort card kind of reminds me of holiday cookies and being cozy but I think that's more like you know this is just what that person wants like a dim living room and on the couch and watching TV until you go to bed That's all this person really wants

And I just feel like the energy for this person is just so seen some s*** I guess is what I want to say. I keep getting this image of somebody on a porch like an open porch and looking out of the sunset and sitting in a rocking chair and just kind of like reflecting and trying to relax

Okay that's definitely not for everybody I feel like so if you didn't relate to anything in that then this probably isn't your pile because I feel like this is a very specific type of pile that's describing you or describing a very specific type of partner

And if the numbers can tell us anything we just have 12 which also could be a three and then we have five and then we have 16 which could also be a 7 so 357 well that could be March 5th or 7th or add it together and you have March 12th which would be Pisces timing or you could have December 5th or December 16th or December 7th since we had Sagittarius timing come up it could also even be indicative of timing from like December to July which I know is a lot but I was trying to figure out Sagittarius would be in there and then Taurus and Gemini timing but for the most part I feel like the timing starts from Pisces and goes onward so it could be like something that draws out from March to June in some way but also might start a little bit in December. I don't know what that means other than like if something negative is coming up maybe like parts of it start early on and then it kind of like lasts until the summer

But I don't know what it is

I can just tell you it feels like there could be a conflict coming up and something about it has to do with like feeling dark or being dark or being in the darkness so it's not like a super positive event that happens It's not like four of Wands. It's heavy so keep it in mind if anything sounds like it's happening. It could be the person though and they go through something or you meet during the span of this event that is happening around your life or there's and that's the most that I can warn you about during the span of this event that is happening around your life or there's and that's the most that I can warn you about.