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I actually like how this turned out :3
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#pixel art#bsd dazai#bsd fanart#bsd dazai osamu#bungou sd#bungo gay dogs#bungo stray dogs fanart#bsd armed detective agency#he needs to calm down :P#anyway I need to study for math#monochrome is easier than coloring just saying
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interesting ideas about AI art and by no means am I trying to send hate but I believe majority of people hate AI art is because it's truly just the byproduct of a giant plinko board bouncing through pieces of art made by artists who put love and care and SOUL into their work. A visual product of a math formula. While it's "art" in the most litteral sense, not having a true human behind it putting though and effort into its every detail, for many people (myself included) devalues it from a tradition artists work.
I'm a firm believer in the idea that AI art is inherently unequal to non Ai art, specifically for this reason. (Hope this made sense sorry if it's incoherent)
I agree in that sense there. I personally do not find myself wanting to engage in a work when I purposefully know the creator had used AI to create the entire product. Something something,,,I cannot find myself getting invested in something that is little more than a product. I don't wanna read a fic about my blorbos when it was written by Chat-GPT
I also agree with the idea that a lot of people hate AI art because of this heavily emotional, debatably reactionary mindset that stems from one thing: fairness. It's the same sort of emotion I find one gets if all of the work on a group project gets shafted onto them whilst their fellow peers sit idly by. It feels unfair to sink hours into your craft, spending all this time fighting to develop your skills and flourish as an artist, only to see someone type half a paragraph and have a machine spit back something that looks not half bad. Let's be honest with ourselves here and say that AI art, at least in a visual regard, has progressed quite a bit to the point where most of the mistakes people find can be dismissed as wonky perspective and the line art being a bit fucky, which is something a ton of artists struggle with too
People develop a sort of a superiority complex over it. I can't blame them honestly. A number of times I've felt it too when people tell me they're using Chat-GPT as though it were Google and when I see my family members and friends playing around with AI art. I gotta bite my tongue and choke back a chortle, both because it's kind of a dick move and also because I don't want to relish in this feeling. It's infectious though to feel as though you have an edge over another person just because you abstain from using Chat-GPT or whatever. Not to be all "grrgrgrr you should LOVE Chat-GPT and if you dare to say anything bad then you are EVILL!!" of course though. It's emotions. They're messy, intense, and oftentimes you don't really realize when you're feeling since you get locked into your perspective. Yet, I think it's important to realize a lot of hatred of this generative AI stems from emotions. Reactionary ideals and claims stem from emotions after all
I think ultimately what the conversation about generative AI should revolve around is about the concerns of labour. The several strikes from a while back from VFX artists and scriptwriters come to mind. They are most at stake from generative AI as tools like Chat-GPT are cheaper and more cost-effective than paying an actual employee for their time and effort. I would also mention the environmental issues, but if we were to talk about that we would also have to acknowledge the fact that so, so much water is being used up daily to generate power for servers. Hell, this post alone will probably contribute to drying up some marsh in the greater scheme of things
Anywho yada yada TL;DR: I agree yes but I also think it's important to recognize that a good chunk of your hatred to Chat-GPT stems from feeling cheated and a sense of pride and superiority over others for simply not using it. There is no quality to Chat-GPT that makes it inherently evil. I can't get upset at my grandma for sending me a photo of her and her dog that went through an AI anime filter. I can feel maybe some exhaustion when seeing a fellow classmate using Chat-GPT to write their essay, but ultimately I write my own work for the love of the game. I can get upset however at those in higher power who use it to push artists out of jobs. Chat-GPT is a tool that has its pros and cons and I think it's reductive to just basically sit there and hiss like a vampire when presented with a cross when faced with the mere word "AI", especially when your only big argument for disliking it is based purely in feeling cheated when someone types a prompt into a program and art that would've taken you seven hours to draw gets spit out in about a minute or two
#sp-rambles#Not to mention there's nuance to be had when discussing students and employees using AI to do menial tasks#I'd rather students use something like Wolramalpha or whatever to do their math homework as Chat-GPT is functionally useless#I've seen it straight-up make up proofs and just do shitty math that SEEMS right on the surface but is meaningless when actually applied#And I also would hope that a student would write the damn essay instead of handing it off to Chat-GPT#As essays (in particular crit lit ones) are designed so you show the capacity to analyze and think about ideas presented to you#But ultimately I think Chat-GPT is seen as a release from these things since let's be real it is pretty agonizing to do homework at times#It's a convenient solution that encourages a person not to participate and learn but to hand off their work onto a tool#It provides respite. It saves one from restless nights and staying awake till the morning churning out a barely comprehensive paper#Once more I do not like generative AI. I don't use Chat-GPT#I think it is only important to see the other side. To comprehend why a person may do things and to recognize your own short-comings#For example I've interacted with a number of international students who have said they use Chat-GPT or other generative AI to help study#because English is their second language and they can't afford to sit there in agony trying to understand something in a unfamiliar languag#Not when their families back home are paying 20 grand a semester to help them get a degree and they also need a to work eight hours to live#There's a nuanced discussion to be had here other than generative AI good or bad#Anyways enough rambling I need to get back to mass reblogging sad white boy and yellow cloak man yaoi and watch YouTubers play video games#ask
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aa5 bayo origins au doodles for today yay^_^ still figuring out designs .. rambling in tha tags
#ignore my math + chem notes LOL#IM SOOOOO nervojs about sharing au soemtkmesf but tjen im like no.. people need to know i have worms in mt head#ANYWAY!#simon is cheshire HELPPPPP aura is morgana and ♡ metis ♡ is rosa#not shown here but athena is cereza#ALSO PEARL IS HERE! im not sure if she will be Important in my au#i just wanted to design a fun pearl#perhaps ill design other aa girls as umbra witches in training IDKKKK MAYBEEEEE#i turned athena's bunny pouch into a plushie of Sorts ITS still a bag though#how? Idk#ill draw rhem digitally soon but school is kicking my ass GUH#anyway i havw ro study for chem#ace attorney#bayonetta#simon blackquill#aura blackquill#metis cykes#pearl fey#what will i call this au..#athena and the lost demon#<- ?#au name pending...#art#my art#2024
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can someone tell me how to keep going if your hardwork does pay off but you don't feel anything when you achieve your goal just relief and numb again
#ive been having a bad week again since the exam ugh😭#im really really REALLY trying to study but a little head in my voice keeps saying what is even the point of working so hard#which is soooo ridiculous because it's bc i worked so hard that i got great marks#but like. i didn't feel happy like i thought would. i just felt like 'oh. okay. cool'#and then i just. didn't even have anyone around me to celebrate with#which is idk kinda dumb i guess it's just an online exam#but like see. there are technically total 8 exams to become. um to get my degree#and i just cleared 1 of them#like that was a full 100 marks paper i studied for of that level and i did it#ive just never done this before not since this course ive always scored JUST above passing (not counting the times#i literally failed twice lol)#so yeah anyway it is big for me. but why doesn't it feel like anything 😭😭😭#and why hasn't this motivated me to work harder😭😭😭#idk i thought i had gotten over the 'just do it. just do it!!! just. do. it.' phase i was getting so many things done#but it feels back to square one now#man that book about habits was so right don't have goals have habits because when you do achieve your goal#you'll be like well now what? and slip right back into bad habits again#that's exactly what happened#i used to think lol achieve my goal that's never gonna happen im a shit person and a failure#but like what the hell!!! i did!!! so now what😭😭😭#i think i need a hug#but ive never really hugged anyone except one person and she's 4 years away now#i think i need. my dad to tell me he's proud of me. but he's already forgotten about it so that's not gonna happen#man the day i stop craving external validation. it's over for yall#ugh yuck i used to hate the word validation it always sounded so desperate and needy and pathetic. guess it was just#another form of self loathing lol#im not even sad im like genuinely asking. im trying to solve it like a math problem. like does anyone have the answer
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHG
#feeling like ive been run over by a lorry#partly cause i woke up this morning after a horrific nightmare#so i tried to be nice to myself and sort of just keep going with my day#and then i feel so shit after doing a bit of studying that my arms start to stop working#and my brain feels like its melting#and im like ooh those are warning signs right#that means i need to take a break and do some self care#so i go into my siblings room and try and do some work there#and then it doesnt work cause i just cant concentrate and im shutting down#then i realise im on my period#so then i have a 2 hour nap#and now ive eaten something and drank something and taken paracetamol and have a heatpad and am not alone#so we're getting towards better 👍#maybe ill try and do some maths or maybe ill do something else to make me feel better#i want to cry and possibly explode#but its fiiiiine#anyway#rambles#cult rambles#tw vent#vent post
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doing calc homework and all i can think about is grinding jades to get e1 the herta
#i have her lightcone and im on like 41 pity with guarantee cause i got her then himeko 3 pulls later . please let me Have this#schools been cancelled for 3 days thank god i did hsr instead of studying for my quiz and test .#post#then after i get e1 ill save for like . robin i guess#bc i want jade and lingsha and theyre both on rn but id rather have e1 the herta cause i love her too much to not pull on her#i know this math stuff anyway i literally just need to not lose my negative sign when integrating fractions w exponents in denom .#LIATE logs invtrig alg trig exp#and ohjhhh studying for medical terms vocab..kill me asap
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why couldn’t we be a jack of all trades master of 3/5
#random#personal#will probably delete later#we need to get better at math#I was fine before but they moved me up and it’s taking forever to figure stuff out#how am I supposed to balance all these self studies when math takes eons to finish#Eugh#anyways...#delete later
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Actually it is SO weird to me to remember that I was an engineering student and that later on I had been pursuing a minor in statistics
I may be a IT & com person in the end, but I do have the foundations of engineering and statistics in my brain too. Wild !
#speculation nation#if i hadnt liked coding so much i probably wouldve still been an engineer.#like my school does a first year engineering track where u learn the basics and then explore different engineering options#so by ur second year u choose your official track and that decides the rest of your schooling.#and id been thinking about computer & electrical engineering. often goes hand in hand.#guys i couldve been an electrical engineer. honestly that wouldve been so cool. wasnt meant to be tho 👍#i took a coding class my 2nd semester. first experience with coding. it was in C. i LOVED it.#and it got me comparing computer engineering and computer science and i decided that i wanted to do computer science#but well the intro course for that fucking sucked. didnt wanna go back to engineering either bc i hated engineering lol#im smart enough but it's fuckin soul sucking man.#eventually tho i found my way to my current home. im a techie :3 and im happy with that.#anyways do i seem like the kind of person who was into engineering and statistics? sometimes it's weird for me to remember.#but i did spent Years assuming id end up as an engineer. my grandpa was one. my dad was studying to be one b4 he dropped out#and my sister is one. just kinda runs in the family i guess. & so i was So Sure that was where i was going.#took. an engineering class in high school and everything. taught me some good foundational skills in modeling#also was the class that let me develop my signature. bc we had a notebook we had to sign the top of every day#so me doing my signature over and over again. i decided to use it as an opportunity to make it My Own. rather than just my name in cursive.#so yeah im a techie that talks good but i do have that math brain. engineering basis. statistics knowledge.#kinda feel like a jack of all trades (master of none) with it all. but see thats a good thing for companies (i hope)#ive got foundational knowledge of many things. and i am Adaptable. they can teach me the in depth shit i need to know themselves.#and i Also have my work experience in management... which i hope will help my case when applying to companies too.#aaaahhh!!! so many things to think about!!! but at the end of the day i am smart & educated and i will be a good asset to any company i join#i just need to convince them of that 😂 but i can probably figure something out. something !!!#i will graduate college and get some kind of IT job that pays decently & work my way up to maybe someday being an IT manager or smth#i can finally start. truly growing up. instead of being stuck in forever college unable to drive myself anywhere.#have my IT job and a car and the ability to do Whatever i want.... god i want it so bad.#im just daydreaming by this point. god im so excited to finally graduate college.
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Me: I got a 25 on the ACT!
Mom: it won't get you into BYU, especially with your math grade the way it is.
Me: I have a 3.7 GPA, and I can always retake the ACT?
Mom: you're going to need a really good admissions essay if you want to get into BYU.
Me: thanks, mom.
#25 without even studying#so anyways now i don't want to tell her about my AP test score#it's a 3 which means that I passed#but at the same time#I'm always told to do better#and there's no validation there#just do better so you can get into your dream school#like mother. i'm trying!#but do you know what straight a's get me? panic attacks every time i get anything less than an A#do you want to repeat 9th grade where i was told that every second counted towards college and you'd have to hold me#as i cried at 10 pm at night because I thought I wasn't good enough#and it's taken me literal years to finally reach the conclusion that my grades aren't everything and even then i still panic#whenever i get anything less than a C#the math grade was an outlier from a set of horrible circumstances#i finished 11th with 5 A's two B's and a D and you come after me for the D#it's always 'do better; your grades suck' when I have one bad grade#i'm taking 3 AP classes next year because I want to college credit#I was on the honor roll the entirety of junior high#I'm working towards a chord at graduation#maybe one day i'll be praised for everything i've sacrificed just to be good enough#i know that I need better grades and scores for BYU#and I've literally been working my ass off to get into BYU my entire life
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btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#my only choices for college r the big 4 personally i'm so sorrey ... but minus ust tbh bcs i rlly dont want to be a thomasian LOL#IT'S JUST REALLY PERSONAL i don't like the culture of ust & etc . i have my reasons. dlsu is ok but ateneo or up is my Dream#may be a surprise but i've always been a straight a student and real smart :3 even in anything to do w filipino#but that is the one thing that drags my grades (slightly) down ..... but my math is so exemplary and i get perfect computer anything always#bs cs future major hereee but since i want ateneo i'm going for dual degree cs bs-dgdd#yeehaw i never talk abt really real life stuff like this but this is still okey#one day u might get a face revea but only for my eyes bcs im sorta obsessed w and unfortunately think im really cute. so#ANYWAY !!!!! excited for college tbh. scared. but yes!#i havent finished my admu app but it is due friday i am so crazy LMFAOOOOOOO but i have recos alr <3 yay <33#rlly confident in myself but i want to be careful and really get what i desevre. gna do my best and try to get top 15% AND MAYBE even 200#but that one specifically is sorta crazy but tbf i could achieve it if i study a bit more :P so ya#it's amazing bcs ... english is literally second nature to me BUT i am and have always been amazing at math & sci#always been a math kid and sci kid AND art kid AND eng kid and music too and computer#idk. just proud of myself. i love me lol#there's a lot to it but no need to get into specifics :3 im just happy w myself yay!
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#myself#yk I would love to be a full time housewife#like genuinely#no work and just spending time with kids running errands allat#no job no worries#or I would love to just work#why do I have to get a fucking degree when I can literally do FUCKING EVERYTHING I DO AT WORK without a degree already?!?!#like I will gladly be the idiot running around or driving around for others I don't need a degree for that#why the actual fuck did I do dual studies where now somebody cares about my grades and if I get kicked out of uni they care#like why couldn't I come from a family that would allow me to do it and would fund full time uni?!?!#I would rather owe my parents money than some company#like my company is great (meh) my coworkers are great and I love them all#but god everything is so messed up and I hate it#I just wanna be a full time student with 2 months of break every other month...#I wish I had actually pulled trough on the au-pair year or exchange year or whatever#then I wouldn't have all these issues now#I would much much rather go do Einzelhandel like there was this great Ikea offer...#but when I started looking into other things my parents never liked it like bro wtf happened to wanting to let me chose my own thing#anyways I have to do my maths homework now and drive myself even more insane cause suddenly I don't feel prepared for the oral exam at all#like it's in a week and I feel like I know nothing....
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I am experiencing... frustration.
#monster noises#why must the ideas you can see the clearest in your head be the hardest to capture?#I'm trying to make a new phone lock screen#(currently I'm using the drawing of laz and heis on the motorcycle and while I looove that image it's been there for a few years now)#and I have a very Precise Idea of what I want it to be#in the same style as I did my FaHI playlist cover#but I can't seem to get the thumbnail looking in anyway Correct#and it's really..... frustrating........... and disheartening#then when I try and like actually figure out what I need to Fix it's like my brain blanks out and I"m stumbling around completely clueless#and then I just start uselessly spiraling and just AUGH#why can't I have the kind of brain that hits a barrier and proceeds to problem-solve?#why do I have to have a brain that hits a barrier and just.. rolls over in defeat#not even a tantrum or a breakdown#just#0 resistance laying down and giving up#it's stupid and I'm mad about it but I still don't know what to do about it at all#I wish I could explain it in a way that would allow someone to maybe be able to help me actually#cause it seems every time I try there's always some fundamental misunderstanding about Which Step In The Process Is Challenging#like that one time I tried asking about it on twitter#asking if anyone had resources for How to be better at learning from and interpreting references/doing studies#or just learning for art purposes in general (in a way that won't cause me to Break Down)#and people linked a bunch of how-to's on how to Draw from Reference#and I know those /Sound/ like the same thing but they arrrrren't#and I know those people's heart's were in a good place but I know How to use a reference#I know How to do a life drawing or a study#I get it on a practical level#but there is something fundamental to the process of interpreting and understanding what exactly I'm doing that I just...#Don't Have#and That's really really Really hard to explain#it's like how I'm actually good at math I just can't do word problems because I can't glean what is required of me from a word problem.
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by the way i am going to get to asks and such soon, i just am super busy at the moment (yay for 6 day work-week in a field where your days off are dedicated to doing even more work) but i have blorbo thoughts and i will absolutely make them everyone else’s problem as soon as i have more than one (1) hour of brain power a day to do something that isnt Work or School related
#taylor.txt#spring break next week…rejoice#it could be a lot worse. my placement is awesome. the grading load wont be terrible by any means#the bigger issue is just. im teaching math. and i am not trained to teach math nor did i even go to school here so like#i dont know what the curriculum is like lol. anyway. tl;dr real life is A Lot at the moment. im having fun but god am i tired#also not clear at all from this but to contextualize i work on saturdays and am doing my student teacher things through the week#which this time around is full-time 100% workload teaching. but they throw us in in february#hence the unit planning. which i wouldnt have been able to really do before meeting my kids anyway#but yknow it mightve been nice to like. have known the novel theyre studying right now ahead of time or something#…….damn. thats the thing i forgot to do today. i was going to watch the movie my other class is studying right now since im supposed to be#taking over the teaching and need to be able to help with their essays. oh well. tomorrow me’s problem i guess
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A few weeks after I started my undergraduate degree, I was in a group conversation and someone said, "*something something* Other Eimear," and I went, "What? I'm right here." And they said, "No, the OTHER Eimear."
And I went, wow. I'm home.
#true story:#the “other Eimear” got the highest grades in the country that year#i was abroad all summer and missed the news coverage#when i arrived and said “hi I'm Eimear and I'm going to be studying Theoretical Physics”#i was met with “oh it's YOU”#i was very confused#three weeks in she quit because nobody told her Theoretical Physics would have that much maths in it#anyway i really need to read doppelganger by Naomi Klein#my cousin recommended it and i think he might have had a point
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just looked into the spiritism tag on tumblr and i'm shocked people actually believe it's all ouija and séances and witchy stuff
#we literslly do not do séances wtf#we do talk to spirits but it is for charity: to rescue them or free the living of obsessors#and help those who need to say smth important to the living#we don't do it bc “oooof ghosts that's fun!!!”#also it is not all dark and witchy and spooky: it is vibrant#it is full of light (not the room. the feeling)#i feel ascended and full of good energy. not dark and oooh spooky#and i love witchy spooky stuff but spiritist sessions are SO not that#there's no round tables surrounded by. people. there is the medium who's gonna get the message from the spirit sitting on a chair#and standing by their side the mediator who's gonna talk to the spirit to guide them#and the person who asked for the spirit's message OR getting obsessors removed is sitting in front of the medium getting the spirit's messg#message* omg tumblr#these séances are just sensasionalist stuff to shock people - they are not related to spiritism#it is not to be scary - it id smth normal about humans. we are all spirits. and the dead are spirits like us.#but bc we are incarnated we might need help to communicate to them.#also i saw many ouija board pics on the tag and bestie#we are mediums. we hear and see spirits. we don't need a board to talk to them lmao we have more power than that#also being a medium is nothing special and witchy. everyone is a little bit medium (i'm dead serious) but some people have it stronger#bc of spiritual missions (they agreed to be a medium in this reincarnation to help the living and struggling spirits communicate)#anyway i'm very sad spiritism is do misunderstood. if you're interested in it pls understand what it id ACTUALLY about#WE READ THE BIBLE. YES THE CHRISTIAN BIBLE. we know nothing about paganism and other witchy stuff#witches are cool but pls stop misunderstanding spiritism with spooky horror movie-like stuff#spirits are not supposed to be seen like that. you are literally one lmao. when you die you are just like you are now. nothing horror-esque#about it#ok i'm gonna stop#spiritism#it is literally smth with plent of books to study bro. do not say things about it if you don't understand it#you can't say you're a mathematician ig you only know the basics of math yk? it is kind of like that#anyway y'all stop making me feel sad
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I think magic is like chemistry to me. Lots of spell types that the common person knows about and are relatively easy/safe to handle. More you only learn about in-depth if you're into it. A few people made manually through intense research on The Laws Of The Universe. Infinite combinations of spells. People are made of it. Bullshit categories because we don't exactly know Why it does that but so do these other spells. Math.
#Still follows the whole. biology is chemistry is physics is math etc etc etc. restoration is like that bc its like the biochem of magic#You probably also do need more intimate than average understanding of the sciences to study magic#God. I miss chemistry but the only chem teacher at this stupid fucking school hates me.#Taking away my paper while I took notes and shit. Like excuse the fuck out of you. The girl beside me doesn't know what covalent bonding is#Failing me and then denying me resources is not gonna fix the fact that your wife is cheating on you luv#Anyways sorry lol#magic is just a fantasy-world branch of science i think#And also I might be explaining things wrong because my last chem course wasn't great#headcanons
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