We spend the afternoon here, talking about all the things that come into our heads, most of which is music, happily, as I always have a lot to say on the subject. I let her go through my CD collection, and she confesses she hasn't heard of most of the artists.
“Bloc Party, really?” I say, showing the CD to her. “You don’t know them?”
“No! Why would I?”
“I don’t know, because they’re famous?”
“I know Eminem,” she picks that one out of the pile, and I smirk, “That’s a pretty old one. I don’t really listen to it anymore.”
“Hm,” she turns it over in her hands. “Well, just letting you know, you forgot to take all the stickers off.” Her thumb nail picks at the corner of the parental advisory sticker, and I snatch it out of her hands.
“No, leave it.”
“Leave it?”
“Yeah, the sticker stays on. C’mon, everyone knows that.”
She examines me like I’m the weirdo. “Um! It’s a sticker, the same as a price tag. You just peel it off like a normal person would.”
“No, you keep it on so everyone knows you listen to music with bad words in it.”
This makes her laugh. “Oh, yeah, very important. Sorry. I would have peeled it off, because if my mam saw an album with that sticker on it, she’d have brought it to the charity shop the next day.”
“Bit strict, hm?”
“Yeah, I suppose. She just doesn’t like the idea of me being exposed to certain things.”
I’d like to ask Evie what specifically she’s not allowed to be around, but judging by the bizarre way Shane clucks around her like a mother hen, I can guess. Alcohol. Drugs. Boys like me. I’m curious what it’s like to have parents that care about any of that stuff. I can’t imagine.
“How would she feel about you coming to the festival? Does she know there’ll be songs with bad words there?”
“No, obviously,” she gives me a playful shove, “She’s not going to be going on iTunes and finding the artists. She barely even knows how to use the internet, and she’ll be fine about the festival as long as she knows Shane is there.”
“What’s it with Shane, anyway?”
“Oh, God. She loves Shane. For some reason, she’s just obsessed with him, and keeps trying to get me to go out with him.”
“You don’t want that though, do you?”
She snorts. “Hardly. That’d be so weird.” She grabs my Prodigy CD and slips the booklet from inside. “He’s like my brother or something. It’s just sick.”
“Right, right, so, like, just curious, what kind of guy would you-”
“That’s you,” she interrupts, holding a picture of Keith Flint with his tongue out up to my face. He’s got that green, clown hair thing going on and really intense black makeup under his eyes. I laugh, surprised. “What?”
“That’s you,” she taps her nail against it. “Him.”
“Why? Because he looks bad?”
A shrug, “Yeah.”
God, it’s so stupid. I understand there is no sophistication to this joke, that it’s just an ugly-looking man, but that’s exactly why it’s so funny. She grins at me as I snicker into the back of my wrist. “What?”
“You know that’s good, c’mon.”
“I actually don’t know why I even said that. That’s the sort of thing I say in my own head.”
“Very funny, okay, well two can play at that game.”
I reach for my Dodos, Beware of the Maniacs album, and she starts protesting before I can say a word. “No!” she says, “No, no! That’s not me!”
“Uh huh!”
“That’s offensive, you can’t say that!”
“Evie…” I show her the image.
“No!”
“...Is that you?”
I grab her leg and we fall about, howling, wiping tears from our eyes, laughing until I think I might be sick. If someone ever asked me what we were laughing about, I’d have to play it off, and pretend that I didn’t really think it was so funny, that it was a bit juvenile and stupid, but I would be lying about the first part. For some reason, nothing has even been as hilarious as pointing to an image of a big, looming bald man’s face and asking Evie if it is her.
It goes on like this, as we try to find more ugly things to compare each other to, eventually pulling that magazine from under my bed and wiping off the dust to flip through, eventually landing on an very serious article about a family of inbred royals from Austria. We don’t even have to say anything. I just turn the page and we start shrieking.
“Oh, God,” Evie’s face is red, and she has tears in her eyes. “I promise I’m usually not this weird in front of people.”
“Me neither, fuck sake, we have to calm down.”
We look at the picture and burst out laughing again.
I decide it would be cool, eventually, to show off my immaculate, curated CD collection. I hold her hostage while starting and stopping my CD player, running through all the best songs and the best albums in my possession. Evie keeps pretending to know them, but then doesn't recognise their biggest hits.
“Of course I know Gorillaz,” she scoffs. “I just don’t know this song, is all.”
“This is Feel Good Inc.”
“Yeah, I just don’t know it.”
“You’re lying to me!”
“No! I’m not caught up on new music yet! I don’t have time for everything…”
“Evie…”
“What?”
“This album is five years old.”
When I try to teach her German, she fares no better. She pores over my textbook, trying her best to pronounce all the long words at the back, the ones that are, like, five different words squashed together into one. I understand the difficulty on one hand, but on the other, it's really not that complicated.
“You have to stop trying to pronounce them weird.” I'm know I am beginning to come across as an impatient person. “It’s not like French. Just think in English.”
She takes a determined breath and gallantly butchers the word “entschuldigung.”
We go back to the start of the book and try “eins, zwei, drei” again.
“I’m tired of this! I can’t do the throat sound,” she protests, so I relinquish the book and lay it on the bedside table.
“Well, just pointing it out, but you’d get it after a while if you kept trying.”
She peers at me. “It’s not a very nice language, is it? It sounds harsh.”
“There’s something about it,” I say. “Like any language, you know? Once you get to know it, you start to discover the nice things.”
“Are you worried about having to speak it all the time?”
“Kind of. I’m mostly worried that I’ll have a strong accent, you know? And everyone will just think of me as the foreign guy, rather than who I really am.”
“Hm, yeah, I never thought about that.”
“It’s hard to be myself when I speak German. I just don’t know how to express what I want to say, or to be funny and whatever.”
“Well, you could just show them an ugly picture in a magazine and say ‘ist das du?’”
“Thanks, I’m sure I’ll come across great.”
Her eyes dart across my face. “I don’t think you should worry. I think everyone will like you, even if you have a bad accent. They’ll know just by being around you that you’re cool, and they’ll line up to be your friend.”
“You think so?”
“Yeah, Jude, I think you’re really nice.”
I smile. Resting my head mightn’t have been the greatest idea, because my body quickly informs me it is time to give in and sleep. Insomniac nights routinely catch up on me by the afternoon, and now heaviness pulls at my lids. With the sun heating my body through the window, and the soft, dreamy melody of a Radiohead song coming from the speakers, I want to stop fighting. Evie too watches the waves outside the window, and her breath moves with them, a meditation. I shut my eyes. It’s just for a few minutes, just to ease the sting. Then we can talk some more. I really want to talk to her more…
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