#anyway. shouting into the void etc

[grasslandgirl]

the thing abt growing up chubby and awkward and a know it all and busy and never dating especially in high school is that like. now I’m 23 and I’ve never dated and I’ve never been kissed. and I have no idea how to do any of those things or what flirting or anything looks or feels like now as an adult bc I wasn’t the subject of those interests/affections alongside my peers as teenagers and now I feel utterly clueless and helpless and like. blah blah blah I know that people that really care about me won’t care abt my lack of experience with romantic or physical relationships blah blah blah but at the same time. how do you even get to the level of someone caring abt you to the point where my inexperience isn’t weird or cringy without. dating? how does any of it work?? I feel like I’m still fifteen and oblivious and clueless and helpless in so many ways except now all my peers are full adults and there’s this huge gap of unknowns and experiences and knowledge I don’t have/haven’t had between us that’s becoming more insurmountable every year. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. yk?

[soft-girl-musings]

send whatever u can my way, i'm about to fwd my pay and hour increase request to my new supervisor 🙏🏽🕯✨️

[yuhaosturtle]

never thought I'd see krist on my dash kissing a guy ever again yet here we are

[superfluouskeys]

godddddd wasting time and energy on things that don't fucking matter has got to be THE worst feeling

[mecharose]

it doesn't matter if its not as good as the picture in my head i just need to drawwwwwww

[thenegativitypit]

Got frustrated thinking about how there's this one kind of person I keep seeing online recently who make wild claims, insult the reader, and then at the end go "why isn't anyone listening to me?!"

Like, dude...

Your panic level: a little high there

Your level of unsourced and outlandish claims: TOO HIGH

Your level of being an asshole: WAY TOO HIGH

If you can find a way to at least source your claims and stop being an asshole, people will listen to you a LOT more, thanks!

[kristakittyfish]

I love my blue hair and I love that I'm getting to be more hands-on teaching as a TA this semester HOWEVER it does mean that I am highly visible in public and also known by a lot of people who can and will shout my name to say hello in a walmart

[whomturgled]

yrkeby4ur8

[flamerain11]

Having to do homework on my very short Thanksgiving break sucks especially when the first assignment was essentially job searching (horrendous, torture, etc) BUT at least the second assignment (peer review of patient documentation- my passion, fun stories, something I have actual control over, yay) was made very easy by the fact that my partner just forgot to include a whole section :)

[cookinguptales]

As someone who grew up in a bilingual household where we spoke English but also signed, the part of Mabel and Theo's relationship that fascinates me the most is the communication, or lack thereof.

I'm mostly hearing (...sort of...) but grew up around a lot of d/Deaf people, CODAs, interpreters, etc. so while I can't give any input on the experience of profound deafness, I can at least tell apart different styles of signing. It's a little hard to tell sometimes how much of this is characterization vs. the skill level of the actors, but it is interesting.

Teddy Dimas does not sign fluidly. It's immediately obvious. It's not that he's terrible or that he can't be understood... it's just that there are a lot of tells that he does not sign as a primary language. The terseness of the signs, the deliberateness. You can tell that there's a second of thought before each sign, a jerky sort of compactness to them, that's common with people who learn to sign later in life. (Or who don't get a ton of practice with it.)

Signing, when you do it right, requires the use of your whole body. That can be hard for hearing people, who are generally used to more restrained movements. Teddy Dimas has never quite lost that restraint. He still can't go all in, not with his signing or his parenting.

I always thought this was really interesting, because it means that Teddy most likely learned to sign for his son (tragically uncommon with hearing parents of Deaf children) but that he still can't quite translate his thoughts properly into sign language. He can't quite get his emotions through to his son. There's a barrier there between them, and it seems to be largely one that Teddy's erected -- until Theo starts snapping back.

What I'm getting at is that Teddy has always forcibly drawn his son into his world instead of immersing himself in Theo's, and it shows. And it has really harmed their relationship, in more ways than one.

Zoe... we don't see a ton of her signing, but there does seem to be something somewhat performative about it. It's more fluid, like perhaps she's done it her whole life, but there's also something sort of... idk, false about it? And I wonder if that's just Zoe. It felt like she was always covering up her true feelings of loneliness and emptiness with a flamboyant personality, and the little flourishes to her signing seem to convey that as well. Her signing feels almost theatrical to me.

Theo and Mabel, though... I've always loved that episode where they go to Coney Island together. I get the criticism that Theo said at the beginning that he couldn't understand much of what she said when he was reading lips -- and then she proceeded to just talk at him for the rest of the episode anyway. But to me, at least, that always seemed like it was kind of the point. They couldn't understand each other, not fully, and that was something soothing to them.

There's something healing, I think, about shouting into the void. Letting out all of your most personal, complicated feelings without fear of repercussion or judgement. Talking into the wind because you know it won't talk back. You need to feel that echo but also know that it won't be heard.

I think there was some of that there in their initial relationship. Both of them desperately needed to talk, to get everything off their chests, but both of them also have trouble opening up to others due to trauma. So I think speaking to someone who couldn't understand them was, in some ways, ideal. They could make a human connection while keeping it fairly impersonal. They could unload without fear of judgement -- or worse, understanding.

Oddly, I think their mutual need to communicate without being understood was the one thing they understood best about each other. They could sense each other's loneliness and wariness and inability to trust that they could tell someone something important without it being used against them -- because their love and their trust have always been used against them.

So maybe in a way, their inability to talk to each other was actually what helped them communicate on a deeper level...?

Still, though. Still. I was so pleased to see that Mabel is learning more sign language so she can talk to Theo. She's got a long way to go, but no one learns to sign overnight. She's making progress, and you can tell that Theo appreciates it. There are still times where he gets too excited and signs too fast and she doesn't catch all of it, and there are times when she gets so wrapped up in her own soliloquies that she forgets that you have to face Deaf people while talking to them, but there's a familiarity to it now. When he signs too fast, she smiles and teases him. When she talks too quickly or forgets to sign or turns away from him, he just smiles and sighs and shakes his head. Then waits for her to come back.

Theo finds it irritating, obviously, but also understands that it's just... Mabel. She spends so much time in her own head that she has trouble communicating even with people who speak her language, as evidenced with Tobert. And maybe Theo does understand her in ways that others can't. Maybe it's the very fact that he accepts that he can't always understand her that makes her feel comfortable with him.

I also have to wonder, y'know... Has anyone ever learned to sign for him before, other than his father, who clearly saw it as a burden? Has anyone ever seen him as worth the effort of learning, not out of an obligation to speak to him but a desire to? No wonder he's being patient with her. I wonder if anyone has ever put in as much effort for him as she already has. It makes me so sad to think about, because what she's doing now is so... bare minimum. Theo has been so desperately alone, and so much of that is because his father isolated him. It's because no one else ever reached out. :(

idk, it just makes me happy that these two people who originally bonded over their inability to communicate are now comfortable enough with each other to try actually talking. There's something so shy and so joyful about it. I love that for them, especially Theo.

I don't want him to be alone anymore!! I want him to have someone he can talk to, whom he trusts enough to talk to, who thinks he's worth learning to talk to back!

Their odd brand of bilingual communication (or lack thereof) is just fascinating to me. ;;

[dimplyowl]

I want to just say that the hijacking of the Izzy hands tag by the canyon is one of the most ridiculous fucking things I’ve ever heard. I’ve never, in my about 20 years of being involved in fandoms, seen anyone declare that a character tag is only for positive posts about that character until ofmd.

I’m going to be very clear: a character tag is for posts about that character. Positive, negative, general shouts into the void about them, smutty thoughts, fluffy thoughts, criticisms, etc. It doesn’t matter. You can get more specific about the particular tone of your post with other tags, but the general character tag. Is for. Any post. About that character. And it is the individual’s responsibility to know what they can handle reading and skip things they might find triggering.

Which moves on to my next point, which is that tagging whether a post is positive or critical content is not a requirement. It’s extremely fucking helpful, yes. It’s kind to do it to give people who might come into contact with your post the ability to block that tag and never have to see it if they don’t want to. But it’s not a requirement. People can post what they want. People can view what they want. It is always the responsibility of the reader to judge whether something they come across is harmful to them. You are responsible for your online experience.

That being said, if people do choose not to use more specific tags about the tone of a post, they need to be prepared to have people reacting in all manners of ways about it. Because again. They’re responsible for their online experience. That responsibility does go both ways.

But all of this “can you not tag your critical posts with the character because it sucks to see your fave being talked about negatively” is bullshit. You don’t own that character, you don’t own that tag, tags exist so that people can find posts about that thing, people are allowed to have and discuss different opinions and have them tagged appropriately.

So yeah anyway I’m gonna keep using the Izzy hands tag on my critical stuff, and I’m also going to use the critical tag because I personally think it’s good to give the opportunity for people who don’t want to see negative posts about their faves, but I don’t think it’s a requirement, or that people who don’t are assholes.

And also when you keep changing what the appropriate tag for critical posts is, it’s not the posters fault for you seeing something you don’t want to. It’s a courtesy that posters are using ones that you specifically have asked them to use, so make it more functional for everyone and just pick one.

[olderthannetfic]

I found myself rereading an old discussion about AO3 commenting culture (ye olde "Authors aren't owed comments" vs. "Readers aren't owed fic either" wank). And you know, it strikes me that a lot of the drama in such discussions is rooted in the fact that people only ever seem to engage with the worst things the opposite side says. And of course that leads to miscommunication, because the extremes are not generally applicable to most people.

Like, for instance. Someone going "I comment so regularly I practically gave myself burn-out commenting". Authors complaining about people who act entitled to stories aren't talking about you, I promise. They're talking about people who genuinely can't be bothered or go on flippant "Why don't you just write for yourself?" rants, while still enjoying other people's work. Ditto on the other side: people get offended at being called entitled authors, but odds are good the person isn't referring to you, who would simply like to not shout into the void, odds are good they're referring to the asshole authors they've met who'd throw hissy hits over comments that weren't phrased exactly to their liking, because yes, people like that do exist so it's simply flat out wrong to say "Just comment, authors are always happy to see comments, no matter how short! :)"

Also, a particular comment jumped out at me:

"It's not a consumer's job to compliment a promote an artist's work"

I generally agree that acting like people are owed comments is useless and stupid, but if I had to pick a phrasing that sums up my misgivings about common commenting culture, it's this. So many people seem to act like authors are getting a paycheck for this and don't need any additional motivator.

The other thing that bugs me is when people talk about all the reasons they don't comment (low spoons, anxiety, tired, etc.), but ignore the fact that authors have to deal with all of the above, too. And not just in fanfic. It seems any time there's any kind of social conflict being discussed (like, say, replying to a friend's messages in a vaguely timely manner) a ton of people will trot out excuses for why they can't do [insert what's generally seen as the vaguely courteous thing to do], but inadvertently act like that makes them special and like they're the only ones who have these legitimately valid excuses.

This started in one place and led to another, sorry. I guess I'm just frustrated with the Tumblr mental health culture of "I have a semi-specific reason I struggle with this so I'm not even going to try". I think people overcompensate too much for "Just don't be disabled!"-style ableism and swing too hard in the embraced helplessness direction.

Back to fanfic, every time I see the "I can't do it because of X" thing in the context of commenting, I can't help but think of how many authors also deal with depression, anxiety, self-esteem issues, low spoons, etc. and how easy it would have been for them to give up, but they got through it and posted the fanfic anyway, and how often they're then met with silence because the prevailing attitude among their audience is e.g. "I read this before bed and was too sleepy to comment, and too forgetful to comment the next day". I think about some of the fic I've written, often fic written when I maybe should have been doing something else, or fic written at the cost of sleep, or hyperfixating at my keyboard for six hours instead of going for a nice hike with my family, and it's hard not to get a little bitter, you know? Talking about legitimate reasons for why commenting is hard just so often comes across as "You're free to make sacrifices to write the stuff I read, but I won't make any"

I also feel a bit bitter that it's impossible to even discuss these things in a vacuum without someone going "Discussions like this are why I've stopped commenting", as someone inevitably will in the notes of this post. "Just shut up and make your Content(TM) and don't complain about anything", is what it feels like.

--

The entire phrasing of reward and owing is stupid.

The reality is that lots of people won't produce work unless they feel like someone cares. No amount of moralizing or excuses will change that.

It's also the reality that posting to the masses on AO3 or tumblr will result in maybe one like or other interaction per hundred hits if you're really, really lucky. The rate has never been much better than that, and it never will be. It's often very much worse.

If one personally wants to encourage people, sure, go out and do that, but any call to action that ignores the above two realities is like fighting the tide.

I do think "It's not my job to promote you" typically comes up in the context of meltdowns about letting artists "languish in your likes" instead of being reblogged onto your actual blog and/or contexts where the artist/author/etc. is selling their work.

Here's the thing: people who never comment do not count.

They think they're part of a community. They're not. If you don't participate, you're a ghost.

When some author moves to a more enclosed space, a lot of people who saw themselves as part of something are suddenly left out in the cold, wondering why. But the fact is, if you don't pay the entry fee of socializing with others, you're nobody to them.

The entitled randos don't matter. If they bug you enough, take your toys and retreat to a discord with your friends.

[empath-abuse-awareness]

genuinely the people who have hurt me most in my life were empaths who "meant well" and "did this because they cared about me" and "were worried about me". on the other hand i have a narcissist friend who loves me very much and treats me with respect. they've made mistakes in the past (passive aggressive towards me and manipulative towards another person) but are trying hard to improve. you really can spin any normal human desire and make it seem demonic just based on the assumption that this person is inherently evil. like "i'm so glad my friends forgave me and we can keep having fun times together" ➡️ "yesss they're back under my control and i can abuse them"

so many people are just totally incapable of nuance like it's complex yknow. like. people with personality disorders deserve love. that shouldn't be a bold statement. those with extreme attachments etc aren't trying to manipulate you from some distant place of villainous intent. theyre jsut. feeling things they can't control. but also if you don't have the emotional capacity to handle being someone's friend after a long pattern of problems, you don't have to sacrifice your mental well-being for them. you're not good for them either if you need distance like that. just also don't make it about all people with that disorder lmao. use critical thinking skills challenge

(obviously also if you don't work out well with someone else due to your emotional needs clashing, tell them explicitly why you have to distance yourself and don't just ghost them)

anyway two of my bestest friends are personality disorder and just silly little guys. everyone in the world, including empaths, is capable of harm and should strive for self improvement.

/not talking to your blog when i say "you" i'm just shouting into the void

i seem to have forgotten to answer this one during my yearly trauma rot, oops

[stormikins]

ME1 Systems

This list was made to not only catalogue where missions were, but to also make note of all the collectibles that you can scan for.

*this list was based off of Legendary Edition, but it should still be applicable for the OG trilogy(?)

The formatting is as follows:

>System Cluster -System name Planets Missions

*if there are multiple asteroid belts in a system, Asteroid belt 1 refers to the belt closest to the star.

*Cardinal directions are used to describe where the collectible is in belts, and so north is the top of the screen, east is right, etc.

A ME3 list will be coming soon! And if people are interested I can document all the discovery blurbs you get from scanning non-minerals: insignias, writings, etc. (hell, I might do it anyways but its nice to know I'm not shouting into the void)

If you find any discrepancies or have any questions let me know!

—

>Argos Rho: 

-Gorgon’s scannable planets: None

*note: only unlocked after UNC: Listening Post Theta and Alpha

Mission - UNC: Depot Sigma-23

-Hydra’s scannable planets:

Canrum (planet 4, turian insignia)

Metgos (planet 2, mission - UNC: Distress Call)

Syba (planet 5, gas deposit)

-Phoenix’s scannable planets:

Carbonaceous Asteroid (first belt, north of star; prothean data disk)

Patashi (planet 1, rare element)

Tuntau (planet 3, mission - Wrex: Family Armor)

Vebinok (planet 4, light metal)

>Armstrong Nebula: 

-Gagarin’s scannable planets: 

Antirumgon (planet 5, light metal)

Junthor (planet 1, matriarch’s writing)

Rayingri (planet 3, mission - Geth Incursion)

-Hong’s scannable planets:

Casbin (planet 2, mission - Geth Incursion)

Matar (planet 3, Matriarch’s Writings)

Treagir (planet 5, light metal)

-Tereshkova’s scannable planets:

Asteroid belt (east of star, medallion)

Anitbaar (planet 1, mission - Geth Incursion)

Patamalrus (planet 2, heavy metal)

Thegeuse (planet 4, heavy metal)

-Vamshi’s scannable planets: Completed

Pregel (planet 2, turian insignia)

Maji (planet 1, mission - Geth Incursion)

-Grissom’s scannable planets:

*Note: only unlocked after wiping out all four Geth outposts

Asteroid belt 2 (north east of star, rare element)

Benda (planet 1, medallion)

Solcrum (moon of planet 3, mission - Geth Incursion)

Zagerux (planet 2, light metal)

>Artemis Tau:

-Knossos’ scannable planets:

Asteroid belt 1 (northwest of star, heavy metal)

Asteroid belt 2 (north of star, medallion)

Archanes (planet 5, gas deposit)

Therum (planet 2, mission - Find Liara T’Soni)

-Athen’s scannable planets:

Circe (planet 4, gas deposit)

Pharos (planet 5, turian insignia) 

Proteus (planet 2, gas deposit)

-Sparta’s scannable planets:

Asteroid Belt 1 (north of star, prothean data disk) 

Alsages (planet 5, rare element)

Edulos (planet 2, mission - UNC: Missing Marines)

Ontamalca (planet 4, gas deposit)

-Macedon’s scannable planets:

Asteroid Belt (north of star, light metal)

Fargeluse (planet 4, gas deposit)

Portland (planet 2, matriarch’s writings)

Sharjila (planet 1, mission - UNC: Asari Diplomacy)

>Attican Beta:

-Hercules’ scannable planets:

Eletania (planet 3, mission - UNC: Lost Module)

Syided (planet 2, medallion)

Zarorus (planet 4, heavy metal)

-Thesus’ scannable planets:

Quana (planet 4, light metal)

Sharring (planet 3, prothean data disk)

>Exodus Cluster:

-Asgard’s scannable planets: None

-Utopia’s scannable planets: None

>Gemini Sigma:

-Han’s scannable planets:

Mavigon (planet 3, mission -  UNC: Hostile Takeover)

Paravin (planet 1, matriarch’s writing)

Patatanlis (planet 5, light metal)

-Ming’s scannable planets:

Altanorch (planet 3, medallion)

Parag (planet 2, light metal)

>Hades Gamma Cluster:

-Antaeus’ scannable planets:

Edmos (planet 2, gas deposit)

Ploba (planet 3, matriarch’s writing)

Trebin (planet 4, mission - UNC: Missing Survey Team)

Vemal (planet 5, rare element)

-Cacus’ scannable planets:

Chohe (planet 2, mission - UNC: Besieged Base (Paragon Mission))

Faringor (planet 4, rare element)

Zayarter (planet 1, heavy metal)

-Dis’ scannable planets:

Klensal (planet 3, mission - UNC: Hostile Takeover)

Metallic Asteroid (northeast of star, light metal)

Nearrum (planet 2, light metal)

Rayasha (planet 5, turian insignia)

-Farinata’s scannable planets:

Asteroid belt 1 (northeast of star, light metal)

Juntauma (planet 2, prothean data disk)

Nepneu (planet 3, rare element)

Mission - UNC: Hostage

-Plutus' scannable planets:

Clocrolis (planet 3, rare element)

Mingito (planet 1, rare element)

Nonuel (planet 4, mission - UNC: The Negotiation (Renegade Mission))

>Hawking Eta:

-Century’s scannable planets:

Asteroid belt (north of star, heavy metal

Canctra (planet 3, light metal)

Presrop (moon of planet 2, mission - UNC: Major Kyle/Strange Transmission)

Tharopto (planet 4, medallion)

>Horse Head Nebula:

-Fortuna’s scannable planets:

Amaranthine (planet 3, UNC: Hostile Takeover *note unlocked after crime bosses are dead)

Magnalis (planet 1, turian insignia)

Therumlon (planet 2, rare element)

-Pax’s scannable planets: 

Noveria (planet 2, mission - Noveria: Geth Interest)

Veles (planet 4, matriarch’s writings)

-Strenuus’ scannable systems: 

Antitarra (planet 2, gas deposit)

Xawin (planet 4, mission - UNC: Privateers) 

Yunthori (planet 1, medallion)

>Kepler Verge:

-Newton’s scannable planets:

Juncro (planet 3, gas deposit)

Klencory (planet 2, matriarch’s writings)

Ontarom (planet 1, mission - UNC: Dead Scientists)

-Herschel’s scannable planets:

Asteroid belt (north west of star, heavy metal)

Mission - Garrus Doctor Saleon

>Maroon Sea Cluster:

-Capsian’s scannable planets:

Asteroid belt: UNC: Derelict Freighter

Antida (planet 4, turian insignia)

Clotanca (planet 1, heavy metal)

Farnuri (planet 2, heavy metal)

-Matano’s scannables: 

Asteroid belt 1 (east of star, heavy metal)

Asteroid belt 2 (northwest of star, prothean data disc)

Chasca (planet 2, mission - Investigate Samples (from Feros))

Supay (planet 5, light metal)

-Vostok’s scannable planets: 

Asteroid belt (north east of star, heavy metal)

Nodacrux (planet 2, mission - Investigate Facility (from Feros))

Pataiton (planet 4, matriarch’s writings)

>Styx Theta:

-Acheron’s scannable planets:

Asteroid belt (north of star, turian insignia)

Altahe (planet 2, mission - UNC: Listening Post Theta)

Grosalgen (planet 3, light metal)

-Erebus’ scannable planets: 

Nepmos (planet 1, mission - UNC: Listening Post Alpha)

Quaji (planet 2, heavy metal)

Wermani (planet 3, prothean data disc)

>Voyager Cluster:

-Amazon’s scannables: 

Agebinium (planet 1, mission - UNC: Espionage Probe)

Sonedma (planet 3, rare element)

Sybin (planet 4, turian insignia)

Tremar (planet 5, gas deposit)

-Columbia’s scannables: 

Onraheter (planet 3, rare element)

Gromar (planet 4, medallion)

Nephron (planet 2, UNC: HADES Dogs)

-Yangtze’s scannables: 

Alrumter (planet 4, prothean data disk)

Binthu (planet 2 UNC: Cerberus)

Dregir (planet 3, light metal)

Parajiri (planet 5, rare element)

[gladiatorcunt]

i'd really like to know if he'd have any types of kinks or a type?!!

like from what I've read from you, maybe it's just my impression, but does he find chubby people more attractive? (self-insert hihi)

or just kinks he'd have; like, modern!coryo screams corruption kink (maybe even a virgin!reader 👀), and things like degradation/praise, as well as a pretty big dom situation 👀

anyways, love your stuff!

I can't help coming back to your modern! coryo au literally everyday, I'm in love 🫡🫠

CW: implied-ish plus sized reader but i use “chubbier” so it’s a bit ambiguous i guess but that’s how i picture them, don’t like don’t read

First of all, thank you so much for loving the au, it's kind of getting demotivating a bit to see the fandom slow down but I'll ALWAYS have modern! coryo brain rot. So, I guess someday I'll be shouting into the void lmao.

I do think that when it comes to preferences, he does prefer chubbier people. He's one of those guys that likes being able to just really grab and slap anything and everything because you've got more than enough meat on your bones. Also, idk how to quite explain it, but I think he enjoys what he believes is a more realistic (?) body, like he'd deadass get so offended if you thought you had to shave or cover up stretch marks. He comes from a very superficial world where the beauty standards are impossible to achieve (edit: i’m NOT talking about being skinny being impossible, i’m talking about general beauty standards and having an unrealistically proportioned body like the ones in media, i’m aware that skinny people exist) . It's like how for a while, Aphrodite and other similar goddesses were depicted in media as very skinny but when you look back at how they were actually worshiped, there are statues and carvings and etc. with belly rolls and all kinds of versions of bigger bodies. That's what reader's body reminds him of, gets him feel closer to God and all that.

I'll get to some actual kinks in a second, but I do think he likes more of a reluctant person. He's someone that is built for the chase and that really revels in the wooing process, he'd never been in love before you, so the rush of intense feelings kicks his adrenaline into overdrive. It's a sort of predator/prey thing without being a full-blown kink, Coryo stalks and he circles around you until you're given such a small window of escape that you already missed your chance by the time he decides that he's done waiting around. You have the whole cutesy 'will they? won't they?' thing going for a bit until you just don't anymore.

In my head, modern!coryo's reader is a virgin for that exact purpose lol like he does have a fuck boy past that's typical for his place in society, so I just love the idea of sex suddenly becoming so "special" to him now that he's possessed with the need to mold your experience around him so you could never be satisfied by anyone else. I think he'd want to keep some of that shyness and insecurity no matter how much experience he gives you, so he can reassure you and praise you and tell you to suck on his fingers so the stretch of his cock won't be all you can think about.

He does favor praise over degradation but when he does degrade it's more... positive (???) in his eyes, calling you dumb because he wants you know you don't have to be smart, saying you're his slutty whore because he wants you to feel comfortable enough being as nasty as possible with him, etc. No matter what name he calls you, he's adding 'my' in front of it. The words will be the same, but his tone will change based on if you're driving him crazy (basically if he gets jealous for no reason again)

I also think that's he way more of a Dom type, he'll never go into extreme type stuff and he's more of a gentle Dom depending on the situation that led up to you fucking or making love. My modern!coryo is never going to let you have more control than letting you ride him (and you always end up getting tired, so he has to take over, which he is more than happy to do!). His control issues are severe like they are in canon, he's exhausted trying to hold himself back from just losing it on everybody. So, having a stress toy of an s/o that he can micromanage and love without limits does wonders for his mental health.

He's obviously obsessed with spanking/LIGHT impact play. The only bruises you'll get will be from him squeezing you too hard or littering your body with hickies, he'd bite you to pieces too but he likes to think that he has some sense of decorum.

He could get behind silk bondage, whether it's patterns on your body or spreading you out on the bed with your ankles and wrists tied to the bed frame. But he wouldn't do it because he wants to keep you from touching, he just wants to love you properly without you hurting yourself because you got shy and squirmed all over the place.

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—Summary; The feeling of wanting to cease to exist, the waves drown you down and you feel everything move while you are stuck here in one place, sinking. Luckily someone is here to pull you out of the ocean.

Pairing: Any characters you want x reader

Type: One-shot/fic

Theme: hurt/comfort

Warnings: talk of mental health spiralling, suicidal thoughts and idealisation, self-isolation, self loathing and doubt, etc.

A/N: Feeling down and needed some comfort so I wrote this aha, this can be any characters you want but I technically had the nameless ghouls and Simon Riley in mind

I lay in the dark-lit room. Exhaustion wasn’t even the perfect way to describe this empty-handed feeling. It was something far worse. It was a question of my existence, how much more could I take?

I thought I hit the rock bottom, but I didn’t. Instead, I kept falling into this deep void of agony and misery. It’s heavy, and I feel like choking — drowning as more waves crash through every time I managed to breathe.

A yearning to cry to shout out goes deafening under the water, never coming out at all.

I tried reaching out, days ago sending a message.

—> “Hey, can I talk to you?”

Hours and the phone buzzed.

–> “Sorry for the late reply, I am a little bit busy, but we can talk later?”

—> “Oh, no need. It’s all good so don’t worry about it.”

And thus I turned off the phone, ignoring all the small buzzes my phone made that day. And ever since, everything went silent.

Days in this room, doing nothing and just laying in bed, occasionally going out to the bathroom or grabbing some food. But even that seemed heavy and I would quickly retreat to my bedroom as fast as I could.

Endlessly scrolling through my phone, I was quick to shut it off again as I let the tiredness take a hold of me.

No messages, no calls after that day. It hurts but I was the one who said it was all fine and dandy, to not worry about it.

It’s my fault really, but why did it ache so bad?

Did I dare to hope that they could see past the facade and reach out? Was I testing the waters of them caring about me?

Would they even notice if I were to disappear? If I ran away or drowned in a lake? If I ceased to exist..

Everything was telling me no, no they wouldn’t.

And it makes me crawl further into a ball. I couldn’t help but imagine them with someone else, how much happier they are without me.

That aches, that hurts.

I closed my eyes, letting sleep drift over me once more like it always has.

It felt short-lived as there was a soft knock on my door.

My eyes groggily open, hearing a soft voice.

“Love? May I come in?”

There was no reply from my end, to be franked it was due to mixed feelings. I wanted them to come in, but at the same time, I wanted to be alone.

A second and they open the door slowly, head peaking in to look at me. But I turn my head away and let it sink into the pillow.

“Hey…” Gentle, I hear their footsteps approaching me when the door softly closes.

The bed dip and I could sense their hesitation, but they went along with it anyways and stroked my back, comforting.

“I’m sorry, I’ve should’ve come much sooner..”

“It’s fine,” Was all I managed to say, my voice creaking almost.

“May I?”

I didn’t reply, just shifting to make enough space for them.

Strong arms wrap around me as they lay down, and instinctively I turn around, burying my face in their chest.

My eyes shut, and my lips are quivering. Strong emotions flood me all at once and I could feel tears building up. A strong storm of wanting to let it all out, something I haven’t felt in what felt like ages.

“It’s ok..” they stroked a small circle from my back to my shoulder and the back of my ears, holding me tightly,

“Do you wanna talk about it?”

I shake my head, and they whisper in agreement and understanding. Not wanting to push it.

Eventually, they rest their head on top of mine, humming a small tune as they kiss my temple, letting me bury in their chest once more.

“I’m here.” A soft and gentle tone from them. A reminder as I lay in their embrace for hours till the end.

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