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lordofthesoups · 2 months ago
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Knave, look at my anatomical drawings
Drawings and pictures of hearts underneath (ft my hands)
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Heart from outside
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Right ventricle, looking into the atrium
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Left ventricle
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starry-bi-sky · 1 year ago
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i have been unmedicated for the entirety of spring break and thus have had little interest in writing this down, but i have been thinking about this for the entire week (as well as a dpdc clone danny au that resulted in it becoming its entirely separate batman au that includes a teenage vigilante bruce wayne, an ocarina, and me entirely incapable of making a batman au without making bruce dirt poor but we're not talking about that) and so i've finally went 'fuck it' and forcibly grabbed my laptop. I will get this done in one sitting even if it kills me.
BUT. This is about neither clone^2 danny nor about who i am calling Ocarina Batman. This is about my Danyal Al Ghul Au and more SPECIFICALLY it's me thinking about his relationship with Sam and Tucker specifically.
Tucker and Sam? Adore this asshole (affectionate) with every fiber of their being. And it is very much a reciprocated feeling, but Danny's thoughts will not be delved into much other than he would kill for them.
Tucker? The only person currently capable of getting a deep, loud, belly laugh out of Danny. Sam can get him to smile and to laugh, but it's the kind that's a chuckle-under-the-breath. The quiet, looks-down-while-huffing laughter. Snorts once with laughter and then grins stupidly.
But Tucker? Tucker can crack a slew of stupid jokes and Danny will be incapacitated for the next five minutes because he's laughing so hard that he can't breath. He lands one well-timed pun or quip and Danny will be close to tears. His laughter is their favorite sound in the whole world.
Sam is lowkey jealous of this ability, and she's gotten a belly laugh out of Danny a few times. But alas, it is Tucker who wields this power and has gotten it the most times out of the two of them.
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They're also both physically affectionate with Danny as much as possible. It started roughly around when they were 12-ish, a year since they befriended Danny, and they noticed that he sought after touch but never seemed to initiate (and was in some ways repulsed by it). They started slowly being more touchy with him. Hooking a finger around his to lead him somewhere, tapping his wrist, looping arms. Little touches, grabs, etc, to get him used to it, and once he started doing it back they started increasing it.
It's gotten to a point where he will now just. Lay on them. Like a lizard sunbathing on a rock. Leaning on their backs when they're sitting in class before the bell rings, his chin on their heads. He'll talk about anything with his arms looped around their shoulders.
If they're sitting on a couch at either of their houses, he'll lay his legs on theirs. Him and Tucker will press their feet against the other's and try and push against them (newsflash: Danny always wins, Tucker claims its the ghost strength but Danny's been winning since before his accident)
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Naturally, both Sam and Tucker know where Danny keeps his weapons on his person, and are allowed to grab them off of him if they need it. His only requirement is that they don't lose his weapons if they take it and forget to return it immediately.
They both understand how big of a thing this is from Danny, and so they do their best to treat his weapons with a lot of respect and care because they know its his way of saying he trusts them.
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Sam and Tucker are so fond of Danny it's insane. Like fr. That's their goddamn best friend, and they are so protective of him. Emotionally, physically, you name it. They will tear the head off a grown man if they need to, Danny's had scars since he arrived in Amity Park and Sam and Tucker both are going to find the person who put them there and make them pay for it.
One time, Tucker overheard a bunch of upperclass girls speaking nastily about Danny and about the rumors surrounding him, calling him names like 'freak', 'monster', etc. Danny was with him and heard it, and seemingly appeared unbothered by it, even telling Tucker that he was used to such rumors.
Tucker was so furious that hacked into the school system later that night and tanked those girls grades. They were kicked out of their clubs and had to go to mandatory tutoring for the rest of the year. He made sure to leave some way of letting them know it was him who did it.
And Sam doesn't like using her money for things, doesn't like abusing that wealth. So instead, whenever her parents talk bad about Danny, she causes a media incident that has her parents scrambling to deal with. She does something wild, outrageous by her parents' standards.
She heard some boys on the basketball team making fun of Danny once, similar to those girls had. She kicks up a fuss about something eco-unfriendly at school and forcibly holds a protest on the same day of the big home basketball game, forcing them to cancel the event and reschedule to a visiting school.
She anonymously donates money so that there's new uniforms for the team but oops! Looks like she "forgot" to donate enough money for them to get uniforms for all the team members, and strangely enough those boys in particular didn't get them! Looks like they'll have to wait until more money gets donated for the basketball team to get their new, nice uniforms. The old ones look so ratty in comparison, right?
And since the football team gets most of the sport money, that might just take awhile. And if (and when) they kick up a fuss? oops! Off the basketball team you go, :) such unsportsman-like behavior is unfit for the team.
(The only good thing about how corrupt the school system is is that she can use it to her advantage too.)
The both of them know that Danny suspects them for the sudden misfortune falling on these people, but he doesn't call them out on it. He's kinder than he used to be, but not kind enough to vouch for people who speak badly of him. Sometimes, he might just congratulate them on not getting caught.
Because Danny is their wonderful, hurt friend with a "slightly" Blue and Orange Moral code, and enough scars that people have been calling him a criminal (and worse) since he arrived in Amity Park when he was ten. And they'll be damned if he gets hurt anymore.
#dpxdc#dp x dc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#danyal al ghul#its kinda hard to get my thoughts in order bc i am ✨unmedicated✨ rn BUT#this is the gist of it#i could wax poetic about how much sam and tucker adore danny as their friend but alas. the wax is not waxing. it is stuck to the paper#and i am chipping it off with my nail and its getting stuck under it.#ocarina batman has been in my head since friday someone come sedate me. him and pit fighter batman too. who is ALSO a piss poor teenage#bruce wayne who instead of a vigilante and villains is a PIT FIGHTER. he fights blindfolded thats why he's called the bat#ocarina batman's Look is if you combined punk + assassins creed aesthetic together and then gave it an ocarina#the ocarina is because i thought it'd be cool if its how he and robin communicated across long distances bc they didnt have comms#because they are ✨poor✨ and live in a one room apartment in crime alley.#and also the mental image of him sitting on. rooftop ledge in the rain playing 'song of storms' from LoZ was too fantastic to ignore#like bro imagine hearing that as a criminal. you're off doing shady shit with your gang and in the distance you hear the faint and#haunting melody of an ocarina. two of them in a call and response duet. and its getting closer. and you cannot find where#siren type shit fr fr#look he has the assassins creed hood and a long ass coat that has spikes on the end that when flared out looks like the silhouette of a bat#on fucking GOD i am this 👌 close to finding an artist doing commissions to make this for me. i am frothing at the mouth#he is 17-19 years old with his little brother-son Robin. Logically Robin is Dick but in my heart of hearts the first Robin is Jason#and he has perfected the art of getting his older brother to play songs on the pan flute for him. long pitchy whine on his own ocarina#the familiar childlike 'pleeeaaaaaaase?' and he knows he's won when there is a 10s silence on the other end before his brother plays#a lullaby.#look up 'sailor moon - pan flute (relaxing) on youtube' and when there's the thumbnail of two green skinned aliens with long blue and pink#hair. click on it. THAT is the song Bruce plays.#hhhhhhhhhhh frothing at the mouth over this au sooo fucking badly
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cosmicourple · 7 months ago
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*coughs up mic* Hey Gals :DD
A.U where before Telemachus meets Athena he decides “Y’know what? I’m gonna go find dad myself >:((“ and goes sailing off on their own journey to find Odysseus. Aaand somehow, somewhere along the way ends up gaining a only kinda ‘crew’ consisting of:
—a Lotuseater who Telemachus names ‘Gát’ (nickname is jst the Greek word for cat without the last ‘t’)
—a bunch of dumbass Sirens (their all a mix of their more accurate designs AKA bird ppl & the modern Mermaid lol haven’t thought up any name for the 3 of them yet L)
—feral ass sea wanderer of a homeless (Gran)Demigod (former) princess (thinking of naming her either Koinós or Mēdén idk I apologise for my shitty Ancient Greek O.C naming attempts jjhhh I am using google for it 😭)
—another O.C whose a fankid of Notus (God of the South Wind)
—teen pirates (even as they become closer, a small part of Machus’s’ brain would still like to casually yeet them right overboard whenever any snarking & / or little shit questioning happens)
…& Thanatos, Personification of (albeit peaceful) Death,,,,,
damn, that’s one crazy tourist group right there I’ll tell you what,,,
also, in Telemachus’s absence, Penelope kills all the suitors hehe :)
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dervampireprince · 24 days ago
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Which cookies from CRK do you headcanon as trans? Shadow milk and pure vanilla are at the top of my list.
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any of them. all of them. you can't stop me.
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katnissmellarkkk · 11 months ago
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prior to her father’s death, i wonder if katniss ever had a best friend at school or a crush on anyone. i mean, no, she never ever says it in canon but the way she’s closed down about her childhood and only provides the most small details like randomly telling us about playing house or making necklaces while singing a pretty creepy song, i doubt she’d tell us if she ever had a friend or crush prior to being parentified. unless they were in district 13 or something, then she’d out of the blue drop in “i see cole, the boy from 12 who sat by me when we were in second grade, in the dining hall. he was my very first crush. i’m pretty sure i gave him a squirrel once.”
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hiddenmoonbeam · 8 months ago
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heheheh i was sending telepathic nutcracker beams towards u em!!!!!
You were!! And now I'm thinking about my poor little wooden Remus and whether I'll actually get to writing the rest before Christmas this year...
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navybluetriangles · 7 months ago
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miraclewoozi · 1 year ago
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saw a video of seungkwan this morning. haven’t recovered since
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luckyagain · 2 years ago
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Why do you think they broke up in 2016? I was a fan then and there was nothing to show they weren't together, especially with Jay's illness, Harry doing his album and doing Dunkirk and going to see her in between breaks, etc
i feel like there must have been some relationship issues occurring to account for the narratives in hs1 and walls. now i took a fandom break in 2016 so i’m not familiar with the ~vibes~ and what was happening during that time, but i felt like they were together in 2015 especially since the bears were around until early 2016. then we got hs1 in may of 2017 so songs like meet me in the hallway and from the dining table had to have been written and recorded in 2016 or early 2017.
** i wanna clarify that i do think they are currently together **
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beepbeepbithc · 2 years ago
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putting our ocs through a Scene together,, and it is so much fun. i am thinking abt it so much and i love it. it’s so good, they deserve it
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zitronenmeer · 4 months ago
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Someone take second hand and online shopping away from me
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danysdaughter · 30 days ago
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I Think I Love You
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pairing | fwb!bucky x new!avengers!reader
word count | 5.4k words
summary I You agreed to keep it casual—just sex, no feelings. But when loving Bucky in silence begins to break you, walking away is the only thing you can do… even if it destroys you both.
tags | Thunderbolts Spoilers??? I guess, tower fic, 18+ (MDNI), smut, p in v sex, unprotected sex, angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, obsessive!bucky, fem!reader, miscommunication, dumbasses in love, platonic!bob x reader
a/n | new acc, this was to cute to write. Enjoy! REQUESTS ARE OPEN
likes comments and reblogs are much appreciated ✨✨
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divider by @cafekitsune
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It was always like this.
His body above yours, surrounding you, drowning you in heat and hunger like you were oxygen to him. Like fucking you was the only way he knew how to breathe. Like if he didn’t bury himself inside you right now, he’d come apart at the seams.
Bucky kissed you like he was starving—mouth hot and bruising, tongue claiming yours with an edge of desperation that never quite dulled. His hands were everywhere, rough and sure, sliding under your tank, gripping your waist, dragging you beneath him like he was scared you’d vanish if he didn’t anchor you down.
You didn’t fight it. You never did.
Because this was the only version of him you could have—the one that came alive behind closed doors. The one who groaned your name like a curse when you kissed down his throat, who pulled your panties down with shaking hands, who slid into you with a sound like it hurt to finally be inside you.
“Fuck, doll,” he rasped, forehead pressed to yours, hips grinding into you deep and slow. “You always feel so fuckin’ good. You were made for me.”
God, it sounded like love. It always did.
His mouth found your neck again, biting gently, sucking bruises into your skin like a claim no one would ever see. And your hands clutched his back, nails digging in, legs wrapping tighter around his waist as you rocked your hips up to meet every thrust.
You wanted to believe this was real. That it meant something more. That the way he looked at you—eyes dark and blown wide, lips parted, breath ragged—wasn’t just lust.
But you knew better.
You’d agreed to this.
No feelings. No mess. Just heat and need and late nights tangled in sweat-soaked sheets.
Still, you craved it—him—in ways you couldn’t admit. Not even to yourself.
Bucky fucked you like you were a secret he couldn’t bear to keep. His metal hand gripped your thigh, forcing it higher around his hip, while his other tangled in your hair, tugging gently to expose your throat. He licked a stripe up your neck and groaned when you whimpered.
“Don’t hold back, baby,” he said, voice low and rough. “Wanna hear you.”
You moaned for him, because you always did.
And he gave you everything. Thrust after thrust, deep and controlled, like he was trying to memorize the shape of you from the inside out. Your bodies moved together like muscle memory—practiced, perfect.
You cried out when he hit that spot, again and again, stars bursting behind your eyelids as your orgasm built too fast to control. He felt it—knew it—and his grip tightened, pace faltering just slightly as he pressed harder, deeper.
“That’s it, sweetheart,” he growled. “Come on, give it to me.”
You shattered.
Your body seized around him, nails raking down his back, mouth falling open in a silent cry as pleasure tore through you in waves. And Bucky? He didn’t stop. He chased his own release through the pulsing grip of your cunt, moaning your name like a promise he’d never make aloud.
“Fuck—gonna come—shit, fuck—” he gasped, slamming into you once more before spilling inside with a groan so raw it made your chest ache.
He collapsed against you, face buried in your neck, his breath hot and ragged.
You held him, like you always did. Tangled in the afterglow, skin slick with sweat, hearts still racing. And for a moment, you let yourself pretend.
That maybe this time would be different.
That maybe he’d stay.
That maybe he'd roll off of you, cup your cheek, and tell you he couldn’t keep pretending this didn’t mean something.
But instead, he sighed. A soft, satisfied sound. Then rolled onto his back, pulling his arm behind his head.
He didn’t look at you.
He never did after.
You stared at the ceiling, heart pounding in your throat, your body warm and full and hollow all at once.
And all you could think was:
I want him to touch me like that in the daylight.
I want him to want me when we’re not naked.
But he didn’t. Or wouldn’t. Or couldn’t.
You weren’t sure which hurt more.
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The kitchen in the tower was quiet, save for the soft clatter of a cutting board and the low simmer of something bubbling on the stove. You stood at the counter, knife in hand, carefully dicing onions while Bob sat beside you, his own cutting board a chaotic mess of uneven pepper slices and cucumber spears.
He was squinting at the vegetables like they’d wronged him personally.
“I swear,” he said, furrowing his brow as he tried to slice a tomato without completely demolishing it, “these things are out to get me. Slippery little bastards.”
You chuckled, shaking your head. “You don’t have to help, you know.”
“No, I want to. It’s… nice.” He shrugged. “Domestic. Also, I read somewhere it builds team trust or something. Shared food prep.”
You snorted. “Where’d you read that?”
“A Reddit thread about Dungeons & Dragons, actually.”
You laughed for real that time. “Of course.”
The smell of garlic and rosemary floated through the air. The oven clicked softly as it preheated. Outside the window, the sky was grey and moody—classic New York—but there was something warm about the kitchen. Safe. Familiar. Even with the quiet ache in your chest that you were pretending wasn’t there.
You kept chopping. So did he. Or tried to.
“Y’know,” Bob said after a beat, holding up a mutilated chunk of bell pepper, “I don’t think I’m ever gonna be a culinary genius. Might have to accept that my gifts lie elsewhere.”
“Like sitting on the couch and watching TV?”
“And comic relief,” he added proudly. “Two very underappreciated superpowers.”
You gave him a sidelong look, smirking. “You’re not wrong.”
He grinned. Then, more softly, “I like this, though. Being part of a team. Even if it’s weird sometimes. Even if people yell. Or punch through walls. Or if Alexei keeps pitching us matching uniforms with capes.”
You snorted again, setting down your knife. “He has been obsessed with that lately.”
“Right?” Bob said, picking at a cucumber slice. “But even with all the chaos, it’s good. I never really had this before. A group. People who give a damn. Who check in. It’s like… like being part of a weird, violent little family. And I know I’m not the most… stable, but I feel like—like I’m seen. Cared for. Loved, even. Not in the romantic sense—though Walker did call me ‘acceptable’ once, which I’m counting as progress.”
You laughed softly again—but it was different this time. Quieter. Shorter.
Bob didn’t seem to notice.
He kept talking, absently stacking pepper pieces into a leaning tower. “I don’t know. It just hit me earlier when Alexei dragged me to look at fabric swatches, and he was complaining about the thread count like we were planning a wedding. I was like… this is insane. But also—this is nice. Like I matter. Like I belong.”
The sting started slow. So faint you barely noticed it at first.
A tightness behind your eyes. A pull at the corners of your mouth. Something twisting low in your stomach like a warning bell you were trying very hard to ignore.
Bob looked over at you with an easy smile, still speaking, voice gentler now. “I guess I just wanted to say… I’m glad I’m here. I’m glad I get to be around people who give a damn. That’s why I love being on this team.”
And just like that—it cracked.
The sting sharpened. The pressure behind your eyes pulsed hot, and your throat closed up around the sudden, suffocating weight of it.
Because all you could think was:
God, I want that too.
To feel loved. Chosen. Not just useful when someone needed to blow off steam. Not just fucked behind closed doors and forgotten in the light of day.
You bit the inside of your cheek hard, forcing yourself to blink fast, to keep your head down, to move your hands like nothing was wrong. But the tears came anyway—silent, slow, slipping down your cheeks before you could stop them.
You tried to wipe them away subtly, turning toward the sink, pretending to rinse your hands. But it wasn’t subtle enough.
“Whoa—oh no,” Bob said, his eyes going wide. “Did I—did I say something wrong?”
You shook your head quickly, facing away. “No. No, it’s not you. I swear.”
He stood up beside you, hovering awkwardly, clearly panicking. “Is it the peppers? I knew I was butchering them. I knew they looked sad but I didn’t think they were tear-worthy—”
A shaky laugh broke out of you, even as you tried to wipe your face. “Bob, no. Stop. It’s not your fault.”
He hesitated, frowning deeply, hands fidgeting at his sides. “Is it—do you want me to go? I didn’t mean to mess anything up—”
You turned to him, eyes red, cheeks wet, and smiled—small and painful.
“I just… needed to hear that,” you said softly. “What you said. About being seen. Cared for. Loved.”
Bob’s face softened immediately. “Oh. Oh. I get it. I’m sorry.”
“No,” you said again, shaking your head, voice barely a whisper now. “Don’t apologize. You didn’t do anything wrong.”
He reached out, then hesitated, then finally rested a hand gently on your hand. “For what it’s worth… I think whoever’s making you feel like you’re not those things is an idiot.”
You gave him a wobbly smile, another tear slipping free. “Yeah.”
Bob didn’t ask more. He didn’t need to. And you were grateful for that.
Instead, he just stood with you in the quiet hum of the kitchen, as the smell of dinner simmered in the background and the sky outside darkened to evening.
And all you could think—over and over—was:
I can’t do this anymore.
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The second the quinjet touched down, Bucky unbuckled and stood, impatient fingers already tugging off his gloves. He barely registered Yelenas's debrief, or the way Ava elbowed him and muttered something about getting sleep for once. He just nodded and walked out, barely hearing her call after him.
He didn’t want sleep.
He wanted you.
He’d been thinking about you the entire mission. About the way you always curled up on the couch when you thought no one was watching. The way you’d made blueberry muffins the morning before they left and snuck him one while everyone else was busy fighting over the coffee machine. The way your eyes crinkled when you smiled—just for him.
No one had to know.
No one did know.
And that made it easier to pretend this wasn’t killing him.
That this wasn’t something he wanted every damn day.
He reached your hallway before he even realized how fast he’d been walking. It was late—11:07 by the glowing red digits on the hallway clock. Most of the tower was asleep. But your light was still on.
He exhaled through his nose, rolling his shoulders back, nerves flaring. He always got like this before seeing you. Like some teenager with a crush instead of a 100-year-old ex-assassin who’d watched entire countries fall.
But you made him feel… different. Human.
He raised his hand and knocked, soft and firm.
And then the door opened—and there you were.
A soft lime green nightgown hugged your body in a way that made his breath catch. It clung to your curves, all sleepy and ethereal and warm, and for a second, all he could do was look at you.
His chest ached.
God, you were beautiful.
He didn’t wait. He didn’t think. He reached out, cupping your face in both hands, drawing you in like a man starved for warmth and memory. His lips found yours—soft, reverent, desperate. He kissed you like you were the last safe thing he had.
And then your hands pressed against his chest.
Not pulling him closer.
Pushing him away.
He pulled back, blinking. His brows knit together. “What’s wrong?”
You looked up at him, eyes already glossy, mouth parted like the words hurt too much to say. “Bucky… we need to stop.”
His stomach dropped.
The hallway suddenly felt ice cold.
“What?” His voice cracked, quiet and rough. “What do you mean?”
You looked down, fingers curling into the fabric of your nightgown, and stepped back just slightly. “What we’ve been doing… this… it needs to end.”
It hit him like a punch to the ribs. All the breath knocked from his lungs.
“I—I don’t understand,” he said. “Did I do something? Say something? If I—”
“No,” you cut in gently, and it broke him how kind your voice still was. “You didn’t do anything wrong.”
“Then why?” He was still holding your gaze, desperate. “Is it… is it someone else?”
You hesitated.
That was enough of an answer.
You nodded once. “I’ve… met someone. And this would complicate things.”
The lie hung between you like smoke. Fragile. Choking.
Bucky swallowed hard. His hands had dropped to his sides, and he clenched them into fists before forcing them open again. He was trying to stay calm. He had no right to be angry. You weren’t his.
You’d never been his.
But still, the ache that bloomed in his chest was unbearable. His heart was thundering, cracking in real time as he stared at you, unblinking.
He wanted to scream. He wanted to tell you that no one could touch you the way he could. That no one could possibly know you the way he did. He wanted to grab you, beg you not to leave him in the dark again.
But he didn’t.
Because you deserved better than that.
You always had.
He cleared his throat, voice suddenly hoarse and distant. “Okay. If that’s what you want.”
You blinked at him, a flicker of pain crossing your face. Then you leaned in, so gently it almost made him flinch, and pressed a kiss to his cheek. Soft. Final.
“Goodnight, Bucky.”
You stepped back inside your room.
And the door closed.
He stood there for a long time.
He didn’t move. Didn’t breathe.
Just stared at the closed door like he could will it to open again. Like maybe if he stayed still long enough, this wouldn’t be real.
But it was.
And all he could think was:
You found someone else.
You—the one person who made him feel like maybe he wasn’t ruined. Who baked for the team. Who held him after nightmares without asking questions. Who looked at him like he wasn’t just the Winter Soldier, or some washed-up relic, or some broken man with too much blood on his hands.
You looked at him like he was worth something.
And now you were gone.
He backed away slowly, footsteps hollow against the corridor floor, heart pounding like it was trying to claw its way out.
It was just supposed to be sex.
It was never supposed to hurt like this.
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It started small.
You weren’t avoiding Bucky—not outright. But you were pulling away, and he felt it in every single subtle shift like a blade under the skin.
No more soft smiles in the hallway.
No more plates quietly set in front of him when you made dinner.
You still said “hey” in passing, still nodded when he entered the room, still asked if he wanted coffee when the whole team was around—but your eyes didn’t linger anymore. You didn’t touch him. You didn’t look at him the same way.
And that quiet, gentle retreat was worse than a clean break.
Because it gave him just enough to hope. And not enough to hold.
It drove him mad.
He tried to play it cool. Tried to remind himself that you’d made your choice—that you’d moved on. That there was someone else. But the words haunted him like a ghost he couldn’t punch, couldn’t outpace.
Who the fuck was he?
Where did you meet him?
Was he better than Bucky? Was that it?
Was he stable, normal, sweet? Did he hold you in the morning, trace your spine with soft fingers, kiss your forehead and mean it?
The thoughts ran wild in his mind like wildfire. And soon, it stopped being curiosity. It became need. Obsessive. All-consuming.
He started watching. Not you—he couldn’t stomach how far away you already felt. No, he watched everyone else.
Was it someone on the team?
Someone new?
Someone from missions? The tower? That goddamn bar you liked downtown?
He noticed every time you laughed at someone else’s joke. Every time you left a room too quickly. Every time your phone lit up and your smile didn’t quite reach your eyes. It was driving him insane.
And it didn’t take long before he cracked.
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“Seen her with anyone lately?”
Ava didn’t look up from the security feed she was reviewing. “What?”
He cleared his throat, leaned against the console like this wasn’t eating him alive. “Y’know. She’s been… out more. Wondered if you’d noticed her with someone.”
Ava gave him a look that said you have five seconds before I tear this conversation apart with a crowbar. “She’s not a suspect, Barnes.”
“I know,” he said quickly. “Didn’t mean it like that. Just—wondered.”
She paused. “You checking up on her?”
He shrugged. “Just being observant.”
“Then observe your own damn lane,” she muttered, turning back to her screen. “She’s allowed to have a life.”
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The next day, he tried John.
“Any idea who she’s been seeing?”
Walker blinked at him, halfway through microwaving a bowl of instant mac and cheese in the lounge. “She told you she’s seeing someone?”
“Yeah.”
John stirred his pasta slowly. “Huh.”
Bucky waited.
John shrugged. “I mean, good for her, I guess.”
Bucky clenched his jaw. “That’s not helpful.”
“Neither is asking around like a jealous ex.” He looked up. “You okay, man?”
“I’m fine,” Bucky snapped.
John gave him a long look, then went back to his mac and cheese.
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Yelena was less gentle.
“Are you drunk?” she asked, one eyebrow raised as she watched him pace the kitchen while you chatted with Bob across the room.
“No.”
“Then you sound like a madman.” She sipped her tea. “You are obsessed.”
“I’m just—”
“You had her,” she interrupted, calm and sharp as a knife. “You had her when it counted. And now you’re circling like a lonely wolf because someone else has her?”
“You knew about us?“
“I am a literal spy, Bucky.”
“I just don’t know who it is.”
“You’re not entitled to know,” she said simply, and walked away.
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Alexei was worse.
“She has mystery man, huh?” he said, delighted, cracking open a beer like they were old pals trading war stories. “Ah, young love! Reminds me of my fourth love—no, fifth. It was confusing time. She had beautiful thighs. We met during a snowstorm, and she carried me to safety like bear.”
Bucky stared at him, hollow-eyed.
Alexei clapped a massive hand on his shoulder. “You cannot compete with new love, my friend. It is fire. It is danger. But! Sometimes fire burns out. And when it does, you be there with flowers. Or your shirt off. Both work.”
Bucky did not thank him.
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And then there was Bob.
Goddamn Bob.
Bucky cornered him while he was grabbing cookies from the kitchen. Big mistake number two. He tried to sound as casual as possible.
“So, uh. You and her hang out sometimes, right?”
Bob blinked, brow furrowing. “Uh… yeah? She’s awesome.”
“She’s been acting different. With me.”
Bob fidgeted, clutching a cookie like a shield. “I mean, she’s been normal with me. Maybe a little sad? But also like, really pretty. But she’s always pretty, so that’s—uh—not relevant.”
Bucky stepped closer. Bob stepped back, hitting the counter.
“I was joking, Bucky. Please don’t punch me.”
Bucky took a deep breath, backed off. “Sorry.”
He didn’t mean to scare him.
He just couldn’t take it anymore.
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It didn’t help. None of it did.
Because no one knew—or if they did, they weren’t telling.
And every time he saw you, something inside him twisted.
The way you laughed with Ava over your shared playlist. The way you sat on the arm of the couch next to John during a debrief. The way you ruffled Bob’s hair like a big sister, patient and teasing.
He saw you with everyone.
And he didn’t know which of them you were fucking.
Which of them made you smile when you looked at your phone.
Which of them got to hold you the way he used to—like you were theirs.
And it was killing him.
He started losing sleep. His nights were spent pacing his room, replaying every kiss, every laugh, every small moment with you. He couldn’t go to the kitchen without thinking of you cooking in it. Couldn’t walk by your room without hearing your voice.
Because the truth was, he hadn’t stopped wanting you.
Not for a second.
But he hadn’t thought he deserved you.
He’d told himself it was better this way. That he couldn’t be what you needed. That he was too broken, too guarded, too haunted.
He didn’t want to drag you into his shadows.
But now you were in someone else’s light.
And Bucky Barnes—super soldier, ex-Winter Soldier, world-class killer—was unraveling.
One glance. One silence. One laugh that wasn’t his to earn.
At a time.
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It had been two weeks.
Two weeks since that night at your door. Since you told him you were seeing someone. Since your lips brushed his cheek like a goodbye that had already been decided, like the end of a story he hadn’t realized was even being written.
And still—no one.
Not a name. Not a face. Not even a damn clue.
No late-night laughter through thin walls. No footsteps sneaking down hallways. No signs of you sneaking off to a date. You still had the same quiet routines. The same soft smile when Bob told one of his nervous jokes. The same stretch in the mornings when you walked into the kitchen with sleepy eyes and socks that didn’t match.
But different.
He still watched you.
Not like before—when he’d admire the slope of your shoulders, the way your nose scrunched when you were concentrating, or how your hands always smelled faintly like vanilla and cinnamon. No, now he watched you with something closer to desperation.
He was trying to catch you.
Catch you in a lie. Catch you with him. The one who apparently meant enough to end everything you and Bucky had.
But nothing ever happened.
Instead, he saw things that confused him more.
You started going out on your own more often—midday errands, little walks, solo grocery runs even though there was food delivery and team shoppers. And he followed once.
Not to spy, he told himself.
Just to know.
You walked into a bookstore first. Wandered the aisles slowly. Bought two paperbacks and left without speaking to anyone. Then you stopped by a florist—picked out a single bouquet of fresh lilies, something subtle and quiet.
He expected you to deliver it to someone.
But instead, you brought it back to the tower and placed it on the dining table. Just something to brighten the space, like you always did.
You went to the park next. Sat on a bench. Ate a pastry. Fed the ducks.
Alone.
He watched from across the street, feeling something cold settle in his chest.
When you returned, he waited a few hours before asking Yelena—casually, as he always did, which fooled absolutely no one anymore.
“You know where she went today?”
Yelena raised an unimpressed eyebrow. “She went to clear her head. Like normal people.”
“Not with anyone?”
“Do you think she is incapable of being alone? Because that says more about you, Barnes.”
He didn’t answer.
He stopped asking questions after that.
Because it was dawning on him—slowly, painfully, in pieces—that there was no “someone else.” There never had been.
You hadn’t lied to hurt him. You’d lied to protect yourself.
And he had made you feel like you had to.
The thought made him sick.
He started noticing more, then—not just your absence, but the echo of what used to be. How you still made muffins for the team on Mondays. How you always passed out Advil after training. How you left soft music playing in the kitchen while cooking like you didn’t know anyone was listening. How you still took care of everyone except yourself.
He noticed how tired you looked sometimes. How your smile faltered when no one was looking. How your laugh had a hollow note now—like it had to fight its way out.
He noticed how you stopped meeting his eyes entirely.
And he finally asked himself what he had been to you.
Not just the sex. Not just the soft groans in the dark or the way your body curved into his like you were made for him.
But the mornings.
The muffins.
The hand you placed on his back after nightmares.
The way you listened when no one else could see he was slipping.
The way you waited—patient, hopeful—for something more from him.
And he hadn’t given it.
Not because he didn’t want to.
Because he thought he couldn’t.
He had told himself he wasn’t ready. That he was too broken. That he would only ruin something good and pure if he touched it too deeply. But the truth was, he’d already touched it. You had given him your heart in small, quiet ways, and he hadn’t even noticed until it was gone.
And now you were hurting, silently, because of him. Because you’d fallen for someone who told you not to. And he’d let you think he didn’t feel the same.
Until now.
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He couldn’t sit still.
He’d tried. For two days. Two full fucking days since the realization broke through him like a goddamn lightning strike—and he’d tried to be patient. Tried to breathe. Tried to think.
But he wasn’t thinking anymore.
He was moving.
Searching.
Every room. Every hallway. The kitchen, the gym, your room—empty. He was spinning, chest tight, mouth dry, pacing like an addict itching for a fix, until finally—
Laughter.
The living room.
His boots hit the floor fast. He rounded the corner and stopped.
You were there. On the couch.
You, Bob, and Yelena.
Golden Girls was playing—Dorothy mid-quip, the volume just low enough to keep conversation alive. You were laughing, body relaxed, tucked into the corner with a blanket over your legs and a mug in your hand.
And he didn’t hesitate.
He walked straight in. Right past Bob’s curious look. Right past Yelena’s raised brow.
Straight to you.
You looked up immediately, your smile faltering when you saw his face. The tension in his shoulders. The storm in his eyes.
“Bucky?” you asked, sitting up. “Are you okay—?”
“I think I love you.”
It spilled out of him like it had been waiting behind his teeth for weeks.
You blinked.
Bob’s mouth dropped open mid-sip.
Yelena turned fully toward him, brows lifted to her hairline.
He didn’t care.
“No—” Bucky swallowed hard. “No, that’s not right. I know I love you.”
You stared at him, wide-eyed, lips parted slightly. Stunned.
Bucky’s heart pounded against his ribs, chest tight and burning. “I know it’s not the way I should’ve told you. And I know I don’t—fuck, I don’t deserve to say it after everything I didn’t say before. But I need you to hear me now.”
You still didn’t say anything. Just stared.
Then your hand twitched. Slid to your opposite arm.
And you started pinching your skin.
Bucky’s brow furrowed. “What… what are you doing?”
Your voice was breathy, soft. “Trying to wake up.”
“What?”
“I’m pinching myself,” you said, barely louder than a whisper. “Trying to wake up. Because there’s no way this is actually happening.”
Bucky felt something in him break.
He took a shaky breath, stepping closer, dropping to his knees in front of you. His voice was rough but steady now.
“It’s real. I swear to you, it’s real.”
You stared at him like he was a ghost. Like he wasn’t allowed to be saying this.
“I’ve been losing my mind,” he continued, voice cracking slightly. “Thinking there was someone else. Trying to believe you’d moved on because it was easier than facing the truth.”
You swallowed hard, but didn’t speak.
“And the truth is—I was scared.” He laughed, humorless, shaking his head. “I thought I wasn’t enough. That I’d mess it up. That I couldn’t give you what you deserve.”
He looked up at you now, eyes wide, glassy.
“But then I realized… you are what I deserve. You’re everything. You’re the reason this damn place feels like home. You cook for us even when no one thanks you. You remember everyone’s coffee orders. You make playlists for Bob and knit Ava a goddamn scarf even though she acts like she doesn’t care. You bake when you’re anxious, and I fucking love when you bake. You hum when you clean. You take care of everyone and let yourself break when no one’s looking.”
He reached up, brushing your arm where you’d been pinching.
“And I didn’t see it. Not really. Not until it was too late.”
A beat.
Then, softly—“But maybe it’s not too late.”
Yelena had stopped breathing. Bob looked like he might cry. But none of them mattered right now.
Just you.
Bucky’s voice dropped to a whisper. “I love you. And I’m sorry it took me so long to figure it out. But I know it now. And I’m not running from it anymore.”
You didn’t say anything for a long moment.
Just looked down at him.
And your eyes… your eyes were full.
You couldn’t breathe.
He was on his knees in front of you, staring up with those wide, heartbreak-blue eyes, his voice still echoing in your ears like a song you hadn’t heard in years but somehow still knew all the words to.
I love you.
And now he was waiting—watching—like his whole world depended on what you were going to say next.
Your throat felt thick. Your heart was pounding so hard you were surprised no one else could hear it. You blinked fast, trying to keep your vision clear, but the tears were already threatening to fall.
You stared at him for a long moment, lips trembling, and whispered, “Promise me this isn’t a dream.”
Bucky’s breath caught. He reached up, brushing your cheek so gently it made your chest ache. “It’s not,” he said, voice wrecked. “It’s not, baby. I swear.”
And then you saw the moment he broke.
The last thread of restraint snapped, and suddenly he was rising—leaning in, closing the space between you before you could even think.
His lips met yours, soft and trembling at first—almost reverent—then deeper, hungrier, like he couldn’t bear to hold back another second. You gasped into his mouth, one hand flying to his jaw, the other looping around his neck, pulling him in like you were afraid he might vanish.
He groaned against you, like the sound of your mouth opening for him undid something inside him.
And then he climbed onto the couch, practically on top of you, bracing one knee beside your hip as he leaned down, his hands burying themselves in your hair. Your back hit the cushions, breath caught in your throat, and the world narrowed to the heat of his mouth, the feel of his body pressed into yours, the desperate, perfect weight of him finally, finally there.
His thumb stroked the line of your jaw as he kissed you again, deeper now, and you let yourself sink into it. Into him.
Until—
“…Guys?” Yelena’s voice cut in, dry and deeply unimpressed. “We are still here.”
You froze.
Bucky pulled back just slightly, resting his forehead to yours, his lips still hovering over yours, his chest rising and falling like he’d just run ten miles. You were both breathless, giddy, flushed.
“I forgot they were here,” you whispered, blinking up at him.
“Me too,” he said, smiling against your cheek.
From the other end of the couch, Bob cleared his throat, shifting uncomfortably. “Sooo… should we leave now?”
“No,” Yelena snapped immediately. “We were here first. This was very sweet two minutes ago, and now it’s making me deeply uncomfortable.”
You laughed into Bucky’s shoulder, muffling the sound.
He just chuckled and kissed your temple before whispering, “Still not a dream, I swear.”
You smiled up at him, and for the first time in a long time, it didn’t feel like something you had to fake.
It felt real.
Because it was.
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loveandpeaceanddoughnuts · 2 months ago
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little comforts with the lads li’s
(a self-indulgent imagining of them with a neurodivergent MC)
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✨ xavier & overstimulation
(not the sex kind, sorry. but probably that too) Xavier completely understands when you get overwhelmed by existing. he gets the same feeling sometimes. you develop a code for it eventually, a combination of eye contact and eyebrow-raising that signals to the other person that you need out, whether from a Hunter’s Association party or a grocery store with way too many people. back at home, you’ve created a haven together- eye masks and soft blankets for him, headphones and fidgets for you, whatever makes you feel peaceful and calmed. the ceiling lamp is absolutely not allowed- Xavier drapes the walls with soft spheres of light or swirls a firefly-glow of sparks along the bed in a warm canopy.
🎨 rafayel & hyperfixations/jumping hobbies
you might as well consider collecting hobbies a hobby in itself. crochet needles and yarn, jigsaw puzzles, a wood burning setup, a console and video games- whatever brings you joy, Rafayel is enthusiastically behind it. he doesn’t judge you for wanting to learn a new art style out of the blue- he’ll sign up for a pottery class with you and buy you pounds of clay. he loves your passion and enthusiasm and matches it with his own. he loves being creative with you, in whatever form it happens to take that day. plus, with the amount he spends on paint and canvas, he’s not about to judge you for getting boxes of new supplies for something. he’s hyping you up every time! even if it isn’t an interest he shares, he’s happy you’re happy.
🩺 zayne & health anxiety/ocd
no matter how many times you ask for it, Zayne is happy to give you reassurance. yes, that chicken was cooked all the way. you have a weird flutter in your chest? of course he'll listen to your heart. he listens to every symptom, every worry with unfailing patience. after all, he wants to be your protector, your safest place- this is just one way to be that for you. he never makes you feel irrational for your fears, just steadily helps you face them each and every time. he doesn't judge your compulsions, but he offers his expertise whenever you ask- he lets you take your temperature ten times a day but also explains the normal range and when to actually worry.
💭 sylus & overthinking
okay hear me out, this goes both ways: he helps ground you when you’re overthinking negatively but also supports you when you’re being enthusiastic about literally anything. he’s all in- if you have a favorite tv show he’s watching every episode and reading every analysis of it so you can discuss. he’s fully invested in your office drama, your gossip, your made-up stories about the bird family that lives outside your apartment window. but he also soothes you when you spiral into worry or fear. he happily goes through what-if scenarios with you, most of them ending in him spectacularly defeating anything that could ever threaten you. he makes it clear over and over again that you’re completely safe with him, physically and emotionally.
❤️‍🩹 caleb & insecurity
his life mission to make you feel adored. he makes a point of worshipping every part of you, especially anything you consider a "flaw". nothing is too much or too little- you're perfect exactly as you are. if he overhears you complaining about your thick thighs on a call with Tara, he's going to be buried in them later that night, pressing kisses to every inch. he loves working out and training with you. if you want to get healthier he's gladly cooking fresh ingredients into nutritious meals and helping you build up a fun fitness routine- but if there's even a hint of it being because you don't like the way you look in the mirror? he's going to benchpress twice your body weight in front of you just to prove he can. or better yet, he flings you over his shoulder easily and brings you to the bedroom to "work on your confidence".
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fromdove · 21 days ago
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HOW I THINK SOCIAL MEDIA IS LIKE IN ㅤㅤㅤㅤ GOTHAM CITY
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tiktoks where people are like “day 54 of trying to get batman to notice me by looking helpless and holding a brick outside of wayne tower.” and then like. a day later they upload another one like “guys it worked. i threw the brick at a window and he SWOOPED DOWN AND YELLED AT ME. i think we’re engaged now.”
BATMAN FAN ACCOUNTS. “batm4nslut6969: yall i saw him last night and his thighs were THIGHING. i can’t.” “i want him to run me over with the batmobile. respectfully.” “what does it say about ME that i’m in love with a man who beats people up in alleys.” “he punched my cousin and now my cousin’s life is on track. king.”
you’ll see a tiktok like “get ready with me to testify against the penguin 😘” and they’re curling their lashes like “trial’s at 10 i’m wearing valentino. hope the DA is hot.”
facebook moms in gotham be like “hi!! anyone else’s toddler develop shadow powers after playing near the narrows??? normal or???”
“guys u wont believe what just happened i was literally just tryna get a tuna sandwich and then scarecrow gassed the 6 train again 💀” followed by: “ok but like did anyone else get lowkey productive on fear toxin bc same”
and like imagine those "what's in my bag" videos but it’s like “what’s in my gotham emergency kit” and they pull out like mace, an inhaler, one (1) batarang they found in an alley, a granola bar, and a tiny bottle of holy water just in case it’s some demon this time.
every batman chase has like. three angles. one guy from his apartment, one guy hiding in a dumpster, and one guy who just happened to be doing a GRWM video when batman crashed through the laundromat window behind him like a medieval poltergeist in kevlar.
there’s also that one tiktoker who’s like. always posting “day in the life as a gothamite 🥰” and it’s literally her dodging debris from a police chase while trying to get a matcha. like she’s got wireless earbuds in while the riddler is detonating something in the background. caption: “when i said i wanted chaos i meant eyeliner not explosives 😭😭😭😭”
people be going live from literal crime scenes. like “hey besties so i’m outside ACE chemicals rn and idk what’s going on but i just saw a clown sprint past. anyone know what’s happening???” and everyone’s commenting like “GIRL GO HOME” and “go inside nowwwwww” and “live laugh leave gotham.”
you'd see youtube videos like “i lived in gotham for 2 days and here’s why i left” and it’s just footage of a man watching fire rain from the sky while eating a pretzel in pure silence.
twitter’s a HELLHOLE. people tweeting like “batman knocked over my hotdog stand again. this is the third time. i’m filing a restraining order” and “why does bruce wayne look like he hasn’t slept since 2003” and “if the joker had a podcast i’d listen. just being honest.”
ALSO fancams of villains??? OF COURSE. edits of scarecrow like “your mental health isn’t scary but he is 😍🔥” and joker fan edits with lana del rey playing over it like “he slayed literally. like a bunch of ppl.”
there’s discourse about EVERYTHING. “does batman exploit underage sidekicks??” vs “no they CHOSE to be there 🙄”
imagine gotham love confession tiktoks like “i met him in an alley while harley quinn was robbing a jewelry store” and the comments are like “literally gotham's version of a meet cute 💘💘💘💘💘💘💘”
theres podcasts like “the ethics of vigilante justice” and then they go off topic and start debating if bruce wayne and batman have ever been in the same room and one of the hosts is like “they have different jawlines 🙄”
the gentrification discourse?? YEAH. “just moved to crime alley!! rent was SO cheap!! the vibes are kind of ✨✨ except for the screaming at night. also someone left a human tooth in my mailbox. i think that means i’m accepted into the neighborhood??”
and of course. OF COURSE. the joker thirst edits. like i wish i was kidding. i wish. but someone posts “what if he kidnapped me actually. like what if i let him.” and it’s a picture of him looking crazy with 15 different filters and a caption that says “he’s literally me (i need therapy).”
and GOTHAM INFLUENCERS. OH MY GOD. the way they would be the WORST. “hey guys today i’m doing a billionaire morning routine <3” cue 6 am ice bath in the wayne building gym someone does a house tour and people in the comments are like “i think that’s *insert famous rich socialites name's* old penthouse????”
homeless ppl getting filmed for fake charity clout. omg. “today we’re giving a makeover to this unhoused gotham citizen 🥺”
gotham meme culture is top tier. like they’re actually so funny. because they have to be. it’s trauma response meets terminal irony meets "oh the joker blew up a costco again time to live tweet." they have memes like: “you vs the guy she told you not to worry about” - it’s a pic of bruce wayne (or some rich socialite) in a suit and then batman looking like roadkill in a cape or something like “just got mugged by harley quinn and she said i have bad taste in shoes. kinda valid tbh.” or “why is scarecrow hot now. like when did that happen.” “penguin looked at me sideways in the club. should i press charges or kiss him idk.”
some of them are rich rich. and also literally host giveaways with captions like: “win a week in my tower penthouse if you repost and comment ur favourite crime i’ve survived 💋”
the drama is UNREAL. like gotham reddit?? a cesspool. like there’s this one post every week like : “AMA: i dated bruce wayne for 3 weeks in 2018 and he ghosted me after i found a batarang under his couch.” and then batman side of reddit is like “this guy tried to sell me fake kryptonite at a gas station AMA” and the replies are like “was it the guy in the trenchcoat outside the CVS?? i knew he was shady.” oh and you know there’s a gotham reddit thread called r/gothamCitizenSupport and it’s just “does anyone know how to get joker gas out of your vents” “batman smashed my windshield again how do i file an insurance claim” “my roommate joined a cult and now she glows in the dark?? normal or should i move out?”
you know the “hot takes” girlies?? yeah they’re deranged. “ok but like… what does batman really do for the economy.” or “i’m just saying gotham has more billionaires than public libraries and i feel like that’s not a coincidence???” or “why is no one talking about the gentrification of *xyz place name* just because ivy turned a building into a forest resort spa”
the comments are always fighting for their lives like: “he saved my life leave him alone??” or “girl i got evicted because catwoman turned my apartment into a goth club shut up”
ALSOOOO there are entire sides of gotham tiktok like:
“batman sighting alerts”
“gotham thrift hauls (featuring actual riddler merch)”
“bruce wayne conspiracy theory corner”
“citizen thirst traps featuring blurry robins”
“updates from people who work at arkham: the podcast”
and every time a villain escapes it’s like “uhhh guys. just saw mr. freeze at the bodega. he said he wants vengeance.
"guys...my parents just told me we're moving to gotham because its cheaper...help me what should i expect?"
OH AND BATMAN WOULD HATE IT. and there are so many compilations like “BATMAN GETTING FED UP WITH CITIZENS PART 7” where it’s just clips of him looking pissed af. dramatically because someone asked for a selfie mid-chase or tried to ask him to do fit check in their video.
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mercurial-chuckles · 14 days ago
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Pairing: Bucky Barnes x F!Reader (ft. adventurous Alpine) WC: ~950 ish Warnings: Fluff | Reader rescues a kitten | Whipped Bucky | Roommates-to-lovers trope | Mutual pining | Yet-to-be-named kitten (Alpine) being adventurous | Reader being reckless | Metal-armed supersoldier to the rescue | Concerned Bucky | Angry Bucky | Unbeta'd | Lemme know if I missed anything! A/N: This is my submission for Hot Bucky Summer 2025 | Week 01 Prompt: Mind your own damn business" | @buckybarnesevents Thank you for hosting. 😊✨🥹💞 Note: Do not Steal, Copy, or Plagiarize any part of my work! I do not consent to AI scraping my work. Banner & Divider made by me. Picture credits to Pinterest. Check out my other works: Masterlist
Indulge Away!
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You got this.
Taking a deep breath and mustering some courage, you took another careful step. The ledge creaked, making you wobble.
Fuck. Fuck.
Maybe not.
In theory, it had looked so fucking doable from your bedroom window, but in reality, it was a monumentally bad idea.
Shit. What now?
Meow.
"Hold on, baby," You muttered, clinging to the window frame because it was the only thing stopping you from plummeting five floors down. The kitten let out another meow as it clung to the edge, two tiny paws already slipping from the sill.
"THE FUCK DO YA THINK YOU'RE DOIN?"
You nearly slipped from the shock of Mrs. Batton's screeching up at you from the fourth floor. She was out of her window, puffing on a cigarette.
"Nothing," you called back with a wince, trying to calm yourself while adjusting your grip on the narrow ledge.
Adrenaline surged as you took another shaky step, inching closer to the terrified furball. Your neighbors were out of town. Otherwise, you could have saved her from the inside of their apartment. But that wasn't an option. It'd also be too late to call 911. And your supersoldier roommates weren't home. So your only shot had been sliding over the tiny ledge from your apartment, and now here you were.
"How in the world did you get there?" You wondered out loud, looking at the kitten.
You'd seen her once in the lobby earlier this week on your way to the mailroom. She'd come right up to you, and you'd cuddled with her for a moment until a couple of people walked in. Then she jumped out of your arms and ran off. You tried to follow her but eventually lost sight of her. You'd assumed she belonged to someone in the building. However, with the strict no-pets policy, you'd wondered who was sneaking one in.
The kitten scrambled, mewling helplessly. You lunged, snatching her into your arms just as her back paws lost hold. She yowled and clung to your shirt with tiny, sharp claws, burrowing into your neck.
"It's okay, sweet girl. You're safe," you whispered, heart pounding otherwise, still clinging to the frame with one arm as you assessed your next move.
Shit. You did not think this through.
That's when Mrs. Batton shouted again, "ARE YOU GONNA JUMP?! SHOULD I CALL 911?"
Meow.
"Gosh! Mind your own damn business!" you snapped, a little harsh, maybe. You'd apologize later with some cookies. If you lived.
You glanced at the fire escape just a few feet away. Four steps. Four steps, and you could land safely on the platform, slide back into your room, and question your and the little kitten's insane life choices.
Bravely, you took one more step. Nope, you couldn't make it. Maybe you should ask Mrs. Batton to call the cops.
"Have you lost your goddamn mind?"
Oh no.
You whipped your head around, nearly losing your balance in the process.
"Bucky?"
He stood there, phone to his ear, half out of your window, tactical suit still on, staring at you horrified.
"What the hell are you doing?" he hissed, pocketing his mobile and climbing onto the fire escape. You, meanwhile, were clinging to the frame with a sweaty hand. Bucky rarely spoke to you in that tone. You'd seen him use that tone on Steve on various occasions, a privilege of sharing a flat with two super soldiers.
"I…"
Meow.
Your arms tightened around her.
"She was about to fall, Bucky," you shouted unnecessarily. With enhanced senses, he could hear just fine, but your ears were ringing loudly, scared out of your wits.
Bucky looked livid. It made your stomach drop to the ground, promising to take you along.
"Hold on tight," he ordered. Your pulse tripped unhealthily.
He jumped onto the tiny sill and held out his metal hand. You nodded at him and then tried to hand the kitten to Bucky, but she clung to you, claws ripping into the fabric of your shirt and skin tightly.
"Don't worry, baby. He's got you. You're safe," You cooed.
He gently took the kitten from your arms. The little thing curled against his metal arm, and he brought her to his chest instantly.
You both exhaled in relief. One crisis managed.
You shifted your footing, trying to prepare for your own escape, but Bucky's sharp voice stopped you cold.
"Don't fucking move."
Your breath caught, and your heart galloped.
You didn't dare argue. Not like you were in a great state to do so anyway.
He secured the kitten inside your room, sliding the window mostly shut so she wouldn't wander out again. And now he was headed back for you.
"Take my hand," he said urgently, stretching out his gloved palm, his eyes locked on yours. You hesitated.
"I'll never let you fall," he added softly, and somehow your stomach did a cocktail of dance forms.
"Do you trust me, doll?"
"I do, Bucky. It's just my hands are clammy, and that section is a little wonky…"
He glanced at the spot you indicated and back at you. The twitch in his jaw was clear from where you were standing.
Bucky groaned, evaluating the situation. Then, he placed his feet back on the fire escape railing, turned around gracefully, and leaped onto the ledge beside you.
Were you not hanging on the edge, you'd be swooning at that seductive move right there. But mooning over your crush could prove fucking lethal right now.
Bracing himself with his right hand on the fixture of your window, Bucky stretched out his metal arm again. Sweet baby Jesus! He was tall, alright.
"Gimme your hand," he said, voice strained.
You whimpered shakily and reached out, terrified that your sweat-slicked fingers might doom you both.
Bucky didn't reach for your palm but took your elbow and pulled you close, and you were airborne for a few seconds before being pressed against him. His metal arm wound around you tightly, and you could feel his muscles rippling as he straightened out.
"Fuck!" He muttered, sighing into the crook of your neck. "I've got you. Close your eyes for me, okay?" he said.
"Wrap your legs around me," he ordered, and you did. You buried your face into his chest. God! He was strong and smelled so damn fine. You were giddy that you felt so fucking safe in his arms.
Bucky swung you both to safety on the fire escape landing.
"Holy shit." You let out a breathless, nervous laugh.
But before you could wiggle out of his arms, Bucky held you, guiding you toward your window. He sat you down on the sill, his palm flexed roughly on your thigh, keeping your legs wrapped around his waist. Then, he hugged you.
You felt his whole body shaking, breath coming out ragged, his sharp nose tickling the expanse of your shoulder and neck, making your heart plummet.
You tried to say something, but honestly, you were breathless. All you could do was wrap your hands around him, hoping to calm him. This was the first time you had this much body contact with Bucky. It had always been a small touch of fingers when passing a glass or a plate. You'd always been mindful to respect his personal space.
You let out a gasp, your face heating up when he squeezed your sides.
His rough, fingerless-gloved fingers tilted your chin up, daring you to meet his gaze, and you did, reluctantly. His blue eyes were so intense, they made you shudder.
"You're okay," he whispered, brushing his knuckles along your cheek. Then, he pressed a kiss to your forehead gently, making you freefall into the perfection that was Bucky.
You blinked up at him, utterly and irrevocably taken aback. Because Bucky minded his business, mostly, while you'd been rotting in your one-sided affections for him. This display of his worry left you gaping.
And right then, he grumbled softly, "God! You're a worse punk than Steve." A nervous, surprised chuckle escaped you without your volition.
"I'm gonna seal that damn window shut. Never do that to me again. You understand?" he growled against your lips, his nose grazing yours.
With all that intense, barely restrained anger absolutely entrancing you, you nodded dumbly.
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feeshu09 · 25 days ago
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What if Shen Yuan gets a petty princess boyfriend because the universe (I) said so.
-wrote a little ficlet about them under the cut ✨-
Shen Yuan's (very confused) POV:
You know, there are days you wake up and think, “Wow, life is weird.” And then there are days you wake up and there's a beautiful, irritated, probably-came-from-a-period-drama man sitting on your couch like he owns the place, glaring at your toaster like it personally offended his ancestors.
Yeah. I’m talking about that kind of day.
It started, as these things always do, with a thunderclap, some suspiciously glittery mist, and the next thing I knew, there was a very angry, very elegant man standing in the middle of my studio apartment. He looked around my humble little man-cave—okay, fine, it was a bit of a pig sty. I wasn't expecting visitors—and sneered so hard I thought his face would stay that way forever.
“This is your abode?” he asked, with the same tone I use when I accidentally step in dog poop.
“Uh,” I said intelligibly. “Yes…?”
He hissed. Hissed. Like a very angry, very pretty feral cat. It was alarming. And a little hot? No, stop that, Shen Yuan. Bad. No petting the murder kitty.
So. A quick summary: the stranger introduced himself—begrudgingly—as Shen Jiu.
A handsome stranger.
And he was in my house.
Living in my apartment.
Breathing my air.
Criticizing my instant ramen choices like he wasn’t literally eating all of them.
“You eat like a beggar,” he said yesterday, sipping tea he made himself after complaining my kettle was ‘barbaric’. “This isn't sustenance. It's punishment.”
Okay. One: accurate. Two: rude.
But we fell into a rhythm after a few weeks, somehow. Like a weird little odd-couple sitcom. Every morning, I’d wake up to Shen Jiu curled in a pile of throw blankets on my futon, looking like a disgruntled Persian cat. He hated the TV but would still watch it with a kind of horrified fascination. He especially hated anime. That was… a problem.
The turning point came when he caught me watching some over the top shonen anime and heard me make a passing comment about the protagonist’s abs.
“You like that?” he asked, voice tight. “You like him?”
“What? No, I—” I laughed, awkward. “It’s just anime—”
He made a sound like someone dropped a piano on his pride and turned off the laptop with a single disdainful poke of a button.
“You’re not allowed to look at other men,” he said, eyes narrowed.
“…What?”
“You heard me,” he said, as if that explained anything and then settled on my lap.
Then he stole my glasses.
He literally plucked them off my face like a bully on the schoolyard and perched them on his own perfectly arched nose.
I stared. Squinted, really. “I’m legally blind.”
“Good,” he snapped. “Then you can’t ogle those fake men anymore. Who draws them like that anyway? It’s obscene.”
“Jiu-ge,” I said gently. “Um… Can I have my glasses back please?”
“For what? To look at other men? I don’t think so.”
Never—and I mean never—has anyone been so furiously jealous of fictional anime boys that they physically robbed me of my glasses. It was almost impressive.
And I let him keep them.
Why? Because the alternative was him going back into Feral Mode™ where he hisses and threatens to set my bookshelf on fire with qi that I still don’t believe exists in this universe.
Besides… I didn’t mind the glasses thing so much when he was situated on my lap like I was his personal throne.
“You’re warm,” he said, nonchalant, like this was normal. Like he didn't came from a completely different reality.
“Cool,” I wheezed, not cool at all.
“You’re flustered,” he added, smug.
I was. But I wasn’t going to give him the satisfaction of admitting it. Instead, I tried to focus on the dead screen of my laptop, even if everything was blurry.
So now I’m trapped in a never-ending loop of being lowkey bullied by a man with cheekbones sharp enough to commit murder, who eats all my ramen, hoards my glasses, gets jealous of anime characters, and has absolutely no concept of personal space.
And you know what the worst part is?
I think I might like it.
Please send help.
…Or not.
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