#aro jon

[sparky-is-spiders]

Y’know what? Fuck it. Aro Jon with a complex relationship with love and romance. Aro Jon who isn’t sure if he’s ever felt romantic interest before. Aro Jon who couldn’t tell you if he felt romantic love for Georgie with a gun pointed at his head. Aro Jon who struggles to identify his own emotions. Aro Jon who hasn’t experienced romantic attraction since Georgie. Aro Jon who wonders if he’s still capable of feeling romantic love, if he did something to break that part of him, if it faded over time, if it was ever there at all. Just. Aro Jon who has a complicated and confusing relationship with his own identity. Okay?

(Psst. No martin/j.mart on my post please and thank you)

[wojtekaneko]

well that was awkward

[sparrownnax]

you've heard of 'headcanoning characters of one gender to be trans in a different gender', now get ready for 'headcanoning characters canonically in a relationship to be aromantic'

[morspritt]

Happy Aro Awareness week! I wanted to draw Jon and Gerry because they are both Arospec to me.

I'm well aware that Jon is asexual. However, I am aroace and projecting, okay. He can be aro-spectrumed as well >:]

[justablah56]

I love you fics that are people clearly just projecting their thoughts about being arospec onto a character.

[kairos-polaris]

au Jon and Elias got married pre canon

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"Have you thought about a divorce?"

Daisy realizes it's the wrong question as Jon stiffens and clutches his pen harder. She wonders if she isn't the first to ask. She wants to ask about that too

"Nevermind," Daisy says instead because she didn't mean to make Jon uncomfortable and he visibly doesn't want to talk about it.

"I…have. Of course I have. After he killed Leitner, I imagined asking for divorce as soon as my name was cleared. But then there was the Unknowing and I had no time for the bureaucracy," Jon explains, looking like every word was dragged from his throat. A perfect explanation. He must have answered this question many times, Daisy thinks distantly. She should just nod and not say anything else.

"And now?" She asks instead and Jon sighs as if he expected that.

"And now it's just not worth it. We are separated anyway." Daisy doesn't think she imagined the bitterness in Jon's words. "Elias refuses to see or talk to me, divorce would just be a waste of time and energy."

Daisy could say how it's worth it if only to be as separate from Elias as possible while he is still the Archivist. She could say it could be freeing, even, but she knows that's not how Jon would see it. So she asks instead if he wants a divorce. He stutters, predictably.

"I-," Jon looks stricken, overflowing with guilt. "Of course I do."

And had she been anyone else, Daisy could have believed him. If she wasn't a cop for so long, if she wasn't so good at seeing lies. If Jon was a better liar.

It shouldn't be surprising Jon wanted to stay married. And in hindsight it really wasn't. Daisy thought back to the few times she saw them together and the way Jon seemed to turn to Elias, to seek him out. Whatever made him say yes a couple of years ago was still there in spite of all that Elias did to him. Daisy wishes she was more surprised.

"I understand," she says and Jon must know what she really means because he looks impossibly more tense. "It's fine, Jon. I mean it."

Jon breathed a sigh of relief as he sat down next to her, resting his head on her shoulder. This is familiar still, comforting even in spite of their previous conversation and tension still obvious in Jon's shoulders.

Daisy opens her arms in a silent invitation and Jon hesitates just for a moment before coming over to her. They both weren't the most tactile of people and this, the proximity and closeness, this was new to them, made familiar by the time touch was their only comfort in the Buried.

"I don't want to divorce him," Jon whispers into her shoulder like a confession of a terrible sin. And perhaps to someone else it would be. To Daisy it was just an admission of vulnerability. She hums but doesn't say it was obvious. "It's stupid but I have been changed by him and his… our master. I will forever carry his claim so I just want to pretend he was mine the same way he made me belong to him." Jon chucked, self deprecating. He lifted his head from Daisy's shoulder and looked her in the eyes. "You must think me stupid for this."

How could Daisy think it's stupid when she understood the need to claim and be claimed in turn so well? When she knew how much Jon needed someone to belong to him?

"I understand," Daisy says instead and watches Jon's eyes be flooded with relief that his admission was met with understanding, not blame.

"Not like it actually matters. I bet the only reason Elias himself hasn't divorced me yet is because it's not worth the effort to him. I bet he doesn't even wear his ring anymore." Jon must have tried to sound uncaring about it but Daisy could hear the strain and the hurt in his voice. He wanted Elias to care as much as he did.

"Basira told me he still wears his ring." She mentioned it in passing once, how she expected Elias to take it off since Jon isn't around to see him wear it. I would think he had forgotten about it but he touched it every time the topic of Jon arose, Basira said then. "He fidgets with it."

"Ah," Jon says so quietly, Daisy would have missed it if he wasn't so close. "I didn't think he would," the hope in his words is raw and bleeding. Jon wants to, needs to believe his husband cares, if only a little.

"You love him." She tries to but fails to suppress the accusation in her words.

"I- I don't think so," Jon confesses. "I feel owned by him and I want to own him in turn. But I don't think it's love."

"I understand." And she really did, she was familiar with the need to belong to someone in a way that was not romantic but not platonic either. "I really do."

They sit in silence for a while, just enjoying the other's presence. A comfort freely given to two monsters who didn't deserve it but gave each other nonetheless. A peaceful quiet that made the maddening starvation just a bit easier to bear.

"Thank you, Daisy," Jon whispers and she squeezes his hand. This, she could give him and take in turn.

[two-pupils]

Both Jonah and Jon have independently reached the conclusion that they will always alone-

Jonah because he has no interest in romance and because he believes no one could know every part of him and still love him. This isn't something that upsets him, just a simple fact. He's a cruel man who has done cruel and unforgivable things. And he isn't apologetic about it. The few relationships he maintains are business-like. Transactional. They offer him something and when they run out of usefulness he discards them. The facade of friendly conversation is quite enough to sustain him.

Jon assumes he will end up alone because of his blunt and unlikable personality and that he's deeply cynical. There's always something missing when he speaks to other people. Something that doesn't quite connect and leaves him feeling isolated and othered. His previous relationships have always had the other person initiating and him just going along with it, because he found their company likable enough and that must be what "liking" someone means. Inevitably there's one too many miscommunications and things break off. He never really feels badly about losing a romantic partner, but it hurts to lose the companionship.

They're probably both extremely touch-starved and don't even realize it.

[candyskiez]

Jonathan sims is like. I don't think I've ever loved anyone in my life. I've loved everyone I've ever met and it eats me alive. None of this is my fault how DARE you be even a little mad at me. All of this is my fault how are you even looking me in the eye. Nobody cares about me and I don't blame them. I will drop everyone to save the people that hurt me, even at the cost of my own life. I will never forgive them. I've never truly connected with anyone in my life. These people who I barely even know made such a deep impact on me I will kill a woman with her face to avenge her and steal his autonomy to save him. I never wanted to hurt anyone. I want to hurt people so badly. This is a woman I care about deeply, and I never forgave her, and never plan to. I will advocate for her friend to kill her, and I will grieve her once she's gone. I can't stop being open. I've never been open about my emotions in my entire life. I never want to be around anyone. I'm so tired of being alone. I don't think I've ever loved anyone. How do you know if you love someone? Is it just caring about someone? What defines love? Am I doing it wrong? Is there something wrong with me? Elias, am I still human? Was I ever human? I deserve how people treat me. I hate them for it. I shouldn't hate them for it, I can't even blame them. But I do. I do. I want to destroy everything. I just want things to be okay. I want to be loved and accepted and I will never believe anyone who tells me they do. I wish I was dead. I never want to die. I deserve to die. I'm supposed to be dead. I don't want to die. But I do . But I don't. Have I ever cared about anyone but myself? Would I even know? If I died, would anything bad happen? Or would it just be sad? If I died, how many people would be relieved? If I died, and nobody missed me, could I forgive them for that? Have I ever forgave anyone? Have I ever gotten over anything? Have I ever stopped being angry? Did I ever move on? Will I ever move on? What am I even moving on from? Did any of it even matter? I don't think I've ever loved someone. I think I was supposed to die. I think everyone would be better off for it. I don't want to die.

[denerturee]

This will be my future life aroace: Me and my pets

[sparky-is-spiders]

Arospec Jonathan Sims really is like. Headcanon of all time to me. It just Makes Sense. Aromantic Jon who doesn’t yet know he’s aromantic my beloved……

[somuchbetterthanthat]

Thinking about Sasha James as Archivist again going through that hellish paranoia Jon had and like. This broke Jon & Tim and they were work friends. Can you believe the level of BROKEN Tim & Sasha, best friends, would go through.

Like I don't think think Tim could be Sasha's anchor, because I still believe paranoia would made her question him somehow and it. would. KILL HIM. Especially if Jon is the one being not!Jon-ed instead.

And WOULD Martin have the same attachement he already felt towards Jon, enough to try and excuse her? Probablyy not. So Maybe Tim&Martin would be more of a unit but. mmh.

If Martin got Not!Martin-ed tho, Sasha & Jon would probably end up becoming a unit. They'd just feed each other beholding paranoia and crumbles. Elias would be like "is this my birthday, i'm getting two-for-one"

I see no universe where Tim handles someone he liked suspecting him of murder again going well. if you must know. Sorry, Tim.

[insonniacaotica]

X: Are they married?

Me: Yes

X: Do they love each other?

Me: Sure

X: So they're a couple?

Me: Of course not, that's the craziest thing I've ever heard

Fanfic: The Imp and the Winterfell Maiden (This applies to almost everything I write but this series is the ultimate expression)

[carolperkinsexgirlfriend]

Aro4Aro Stancy Break-up Fic Part 2

Part 1

As his fingers clutch Steve Harrington’s steering wheel hard enough that his knuckles turn white, Jonathan wishes he’d stayed at the party. The music was loud and vapid, the punch was rancid, but at least then he wouldn’t be alone in a car with a boy he barely knows past saving each other’s lives that one time in his living room.

He can still almost feel Steve’s hand in his, the way his fingernails raked over Jonathan’s still-bleeding palm until his colossus caught and held onto the bandage. Even when they’re sitting across from each other at lunch, pretending that they’re three normal teenagers, Jonathan swears they’re still in that living room. Nancy’s shooting and Steve’s still swinging the bat.

He takes a deep breath, letting it out slow.

“She said it’s bullshit,” Steve says.

Jonathan clears his throat. “What is?”

“We’re bullshit.”

“We?”

“Me and her,” Steve says. Jonathan can feel him looking at him. He keeps his eyes on the road as Steve laughs. It sounds wet. “Maybe just me.”

Silence falls in the car like a fog. Suffocating. Steve lingers in it the way he usually doesn’t. At lunch, in the halls, even when there’s nothing to say, he’s saying it anyway. Sports, schoolwork, what they’re having for lunch. It’s like silence strangles him. It’s strangling Jonathan now.

“You’re not bullshit.”

He risks a glance in Steve’s direction. He’s crying. Jonathan feels his throat close up.

“You don’t get it,” he says, voice cracking in the middle. They both pretend not to hear it, don’t question the long pause before he continues, “there’s something wrong with me.”

“What do–”

“I love Nancy,” Steve says. It hits Jonathan, suddenly, that he’s in no way equipped to be Steve Harrington’s couples counselor. His only working example of a relationship growing up had Lonnie Byers as half of it. Steve continues unimpeded. “She’s literally perfect, Byers.”

Jonathan nods, waits for Steve to continue. When he doesn’t, Jonathan says, “that doesn’t mean she’s perfect for you.”

Steve sobs. Just once, before getting himself back together. It sounds raw and wounded in his throat. Jonathan’s hand twitches.

“There’s something wrong with me,” he says again, sounding frantic. “I should love her, right?”

“Steve–”

“So, why does saying I love her make me feel nauseous?” he asks, steamrolling over any response Jonathan could even think of giving. That’s okay. He’s got nothing. “Why do the fucking date nights and the fucking parties and all the fucking gestures make me want to run?”

“I don’t–”

“I love Nancy,” he says, slamming his open palm on the glove compartment for it to open, sending CD’s spilling onto the floor. Steve barely seems to notice. “It’s good sometimes, right? Like, when we’re all sitting at our lunch table, and I say something stupid and you both laugh at me, but Nancy does it behind her hand because she at least pretends to be nice to me. That’s good, right Byers?”

Jonathan feels choked up, keeps his eyes on the road, wonders how a night could spiral so quickly, wonders where he’s going to sit at lunch tomorrow. “Yeah,” he says, swallowing the knot in his throat. “It’s good.”

“But why do I feel the same about hanging out with you as I do her?” he asks.

Jonathan doesn’t say anything, waits until they’re at a stop sign with his foot firmly on the break to glance over at Steve. He’s curled in on himself, hands shaking in his lap. It reminds Jonathan alarmingly of that night, when he’d seen Nancy and Steve unravel in the face of monsters that crawl from the walls.

“Tell me what you mean,” Jonathan says, but he thinks he knows.

“What’s the difference,” Steve asks, like he’s picking each word out of his brain with care. “Between a girlfriend and a friend?”

Jonathan thinks of Will, how sometimes he looks at Mike like he’s so bright it hurts. He thinks of the way Steve’s eyes had looked almost afraid as he’d slung slurs in Jonathan’s direction in the heat of the moment.

There’s a pit sinking in his stomach. He swallows it down. “Do you–” he stops.

“Do I what?”

The air feels charged as Jonathan takes his foot off the break, continuing his drive to Steve’s house.

“Do you even want a girlfriend?” he asks.

Steve breaths in like he’s been punched. Jonathan feels sick.

No more words are exchanged. The silence hangs like a noose. Jonathan settles into it.

When he pulls up to the empty, encompassing Harrington house, he thinks he gets why silence is something to be feared for Steve Harrington. There’s no lights on in the Harrington house, no cars in the driveway. It doesn’t feel right to drive away, Steve silhouetted in the light of the moon, the shadow of his own front door hanging over him.

When Jonathan pulls into his own driveway, his Mom’s left the porch light on, welcoming him home.

Part 3

[strixhaven]

i’ve relistened to the first four seasons of tma a few times now, and occasionally gotten part way through season 5, but the only time i ever listened all the way through is when it first aired. i simply cannot be bothered to care about jon and martin’s relationship romantically and that being the emotional crux for season 5 means i just can’t get though it. also the actual final episode was Not it. either needed double the runtime or some shuffling around of the eps before to let everything that happens have some actual breathing room, because as is, it’s just Wayyy too much stuff going down off screen

[necrotic-nephilim]

your Kon post was sooooo good, like yes the core four are queer platonic, however Kon is hypersexual enough to have made out with (or more) everyone in young justice at least once, yes, including the non-corporal Greta don’t ask me how that worked

I love all of these posts!!! how many of these ask game things do you have in your inbox??

thank you so much!! and i ABSOLUTELY agree with you on hypersexual Kon (truly i just adore characters with grooming/rape trauma like Kon coping through the lense of hypersexuality) and even if YJ is queerplatonic, Kon has made his way through most of them. including Greta. he's creative he'd find a way. probably involving TTK. bc TTK in sex is a thought i have daily. endless potential for using it to basically turn someone's body into a living fleshlight he can manipulate from the inside out- specifically have a TimKonBart idea in my head about that where Kon coaches Bart through sex, since Bart is a speedster with a bonkers refractory period who struggles to feel satisfied, and Tim is caught between them getting used to get Bart off with Kon using TTK to manipulate Tim's body. fun times. fun ideas.

currently, i have one more ask game ask in my inbox (tho always feel free to send more!) that's BruJay focused. though i *do* also have a couple other asks that are just ideas i pan to use as prompts for full fics. just haven't gotten to those yet bc i'm currently busy with packing to move states so. i have *not* had the time to write i wish i had. i will not reveal too much but one involves JayTim fucking during the Titans Tower incident, another is JayTim with animal traits leading to porn, and then another is Tim/Kon/Jon with incest kink stuff. so! i have many things planned, i just need to settle into my new place, however long that takes.

[billymayslesbian]

ok but the real questions is where are all these piece of media with ace/aro characters and where can i watch them