#as if that will treat my social awkwardness problem lol

[ophelian-darling]

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This is gonna be a long post, sorry in advance.

So lately I’ve been noticing Damien getting a lot of hate and being called annoying in videos. I know not everyone will like him but I just wish people didn’t give him a hard time making him seem like the outcast in the group (including the cast.) I just feel that he has a particular sense of humor a lot of people may not understand but calling him all those names is very uncalled for. I also wish that whenever he’s in videos, the other cast can actually acknowledge him and not treat him so awkwardly. This may be a stretch but I feel like when he was just known as “Shayne’s best friend,” everyone treated him a lot better than now when he found his personality and humor that he enjoys. And with this post I do not mean to seem like I’m dissing the cast members or fans, I just want them to appreciate him at least just a little bit. Not to overanalyze but you can also see when he makes some jokes he gets a little sad whenever no one reacts to them and he even stops his jokes midway because of the lack of reaction as well. That’s probably why fans don’t respect him as much because I feel like everyone likes a joke 10x when other people laugh so if no one acknowledges Damien then fans won’t think he’s funny neither. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not asking for everyone to “baby” him but it would be nice for him to be treated like he’s actually worth something.

Again I’m sorry for the rant, I just wanted to get this off my chest because it’s been racking my brain for a bit 😕

Don't be sorry! if there's ANYWHERE to rant about either Damangela party it'd be here! (I appreciate the level headedness Anon <3) (now get ready for my rant lol <3)

I personally haven't been seeing these hate comments, but I don't doubt they are there. Damien has always had people not liking him. I remember when he first joined there were so. many. comments about how "He's so awkward" "he just isn't funny" "this guys weird just fire him" "we don't want to see this guy" so on so forth. (something, something, neurotypicals know before you know you're divergent) It was really sad.. I thought he was a little awkward but I didn't DISLIKE him for it.

"I also wish that whenever he’s in videos, the other cast can actually acknowledge him and not treat him so awkwardly."

I notice this too.. I don't think they are trying to be mean, just the opposite actually, I think they don't want to be too much to him so they end up being too quiet? and end up ignoring him because he makes THEM nervous? that's what I see at least.

They don't know how to interact with him because, (a tip I had to learn the hard way) if YOU apologize a lot, people tend to think everything THEY do is wrong from your perspective. Because the 'social que' for subtly letting someone else know what makes you uncomfortable is to apologize to THEM for that thing so they get the hint not to do the thing YOU apologized for.

"I'm SO SORRY for scratching my ass in front of you! that's SO GROSS" = if we read between the lines, they are letting me know they think it's gross if I scratched MY ass in front of THEM (which duh, but I needed a scenario and this was the first thing to come to mind lol)

Going back to what I was talking about, Damien has always had a apologizing problem, which in turn makes everyone else nervous they'll hurt his feelings (even though the 'over apologizing' probably comes from not wanting other people to feel uncomfortable/trying to head off arguments and NOT hurt others feelings) it's a hurt-hurt scenario...

Let me just gush about Ang for a sec >

Angela is the only one (other than Amanda and maybe Shayne) that does an ABSOLUTELY AMAZING JOB at heading off his over-apologizing. He still try's it with her but she just shrugs it off, WHICH IS THE CORRECT RESPONSE !! she's showing him not to apologize to her, she knows what he means, there's no reason to do all that. She'll always be his friend and WILL let him know if she didn't like something he did. (as a fellow neuro spicy, ANGELA'S WAY OF COMMUNICATING IS SO NICE. No bullshit, just love.)

Which is why I like them in videos so much! He understands she doesn't need to be apologized to all the time so he can chill. And she makes space for him to make jokes openly (and actually be heard)

<Back to your ask,

I think it sucks as well, I wish HR could have a sit down with the whole cast and explain pretty much what I said so they can be more comfortable. But there's life I guess. Don't always get what's best. c'est la vie

With the comments- I think a lot of them are probably kids that don't know what they're doing, and just being mean because of hormones, (or just assholes) nothing can really be done sadly...

I just want those that do love and appreciate him show him love and make sure he's healthy and happy <3

[kiidwritings]

so cringe, but i love u <3

chapter 0: prologue

wc; 3,563. tags/warnings; maybe ooc .T4T RAAAGGHHHH!! Trans horangi. Trans könig. 5+1 Things. sorry if könig is ooc. im trying here. also horangi might be ooc. I TRYING. idk i based his AUDHD on mine so :P. same with könig's social anxiety. author is nd. Author is trans. she/he/they könig. transfem könig. im trying my best ;-;. not beta read. events based on stuff in author's real life. lol mention of masturbation. author knows very little german. like the basics of german. thanks duolingo. FART JOKE/MENTION DFHBDGJB. possible grammatical errors

pairing: kim "horangi" hong-jin/könig

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Love is a remarkable thing. Whether platonic or romantic, it’s something that everyone deserves and can really change a person’s character and heal wounds that were never properly treated. Love is expressed in many different ways; cooking for someone, basking in the warmth of another’s touch, or even through the act of lovemaking (or fucking if you’re freaky like that). 

Life isn’t some fictional romantic book with some ridiculous trope like soulmate strings, or love at first sight, you have to learn what love is beneath all the lovey-dovey shit- love was awkward flirting, one-sided infatuation, heartbreak, and realizing some things just don’t work out between people. 

Sometimes it feels like you’ll never find love, no matter how long you wait, it seems like no one has the desire to make you theirs.

To have those little inside jokes that no one else understands.

To be able to sit down and work out problems in a way that leaves both parties satisfied.

To have rubbed off on each other so much that everyone can see that they're yours and you theirs.

To be able to love is a beautiful thing, whether sexual or romantic activities are involved.

So when König first saw Horangi, dressed down in his all-camo attire and sunglasses that just barely made his almond-shaped eyes visible, he couldn’t help but let his nails pick unconsciously at the dead skin along the ridges of his finger beds and begin sweating underneath his hood from the raising temperatures.

Of course, König kept his distance, needing to read him from afar before even thinking about approaching him. His skills were good no doubt about that, KorTac is only filled with the best, but it seemed like König was taking too long because one afternoon, Horangi waltzed up to them and practically demanded a sparing match.

“You’re sparing with me today.”

König blinked, sweat pooling under their mask from both Horangi’s presence and having just beat the shit out of a punching bag (she had a lot of built-up anger that day and not enough sleep, you couldn't blame her!)

“What?”

“Sparing match,” Horangi pointed to the sparing mats, “Now, let’s go.”

He didn’t even wait before walking over to the mats, expecting König to follow him like a trained puppy at his beck and call. If König was none the wiser, maybe they would’ve seen the sway in Horangi's hips, like a cat courting a potential mate.

But deep down, König couldn’t help but be turned on by Horangi’s dominance, and their leg bounced and thumped like an excited bunny.

The more the two were around each other- whether it was for a mission, during a debrief meeting, in the mess hall, in the training rooms, or even after hours when everyone started to retreat back to their dorms, König and Horangi would always make some extra time to see each other.

Maybe Horangi liked the rank imbalance between them, or maybe it was the fact that they were both trans, but it seemed like whatever higher powers had finally answered König’s prays to be loved for once (by someone besides his mom and grandmother- whatta ladies man!) because after many long months of pining for each other, getting flustered over lingering gazes, and landing in awkward positions during sparing (which usually ended up with Horangi knuckles deep in himself), König made the first move.

If she’d told younger her that she made a move on a cocky, badass baddie such as Kim “Horangi” Hong Jin, little Anton would’ve scoffed.

Him? Talking to anyone about romantic interest? Yeah, probably in some other universe where König didn’t feel like the room got ten times hotter whenever anyone even remotely up to his standards stood within a 10-foot radius of him.

But here they were, standing outside Horangi’s door with shien of sweat over their skin, shaky hands, and having had hit his head thrice on the doorways around the base, his mind too clouded by how to even start going about this.

He owed another thanks to whoever was listening to his prayers because despite having not a complete family for the entity of his adolescence, KorTac had definitely filled in the voids he was missing. Asking around for advice was both embarrassing and nerve-racking.

Roze went the straightforward route; go up to Horangi, ask him out, take him to dinner, bring him back to base, fuck him hard and nice, and then ask him out. The euphoria of the moment will help bring out Horangi’s true emotions without the shadow of insecurities. (Maybe it was the fact that Roze was aromantic and didn’t care much for the several steps skipped when someone usually tries to ask someone out.)

Hutch’s advice was much more thought through and less… vulgar . Sure what Roze said about going to dinner would be great- König and Horangi were kind of in the awkward stage of wanting to be with each other- but in the following days after the date, it’d be best to try and keep everything as they were before, and if Horangi’s feelings grew, then she knew it was time to make it official with him.

With his mind still full of insecurities and inexperience, König went and flopped down on his bed, limbs hanging off due to his imposing stature. 

“ Gottverdammt … this shouldn’t be so hard, right?” König muttered to herself as she stared at the painting chipping on her walls. She inwardly cursed herself for not having gotten over her stupid social anxiety and gotten some game back in his youth. (His therapist would’ve shaken his head if he heard him say that.)

Maybe she could think about it over some paperwork, the reports piling up on her already messy desk. Neh, König needed focus to do work, and having his mind also occupied with this whole dating situation would have him staring at the same sentence for half an hour, damn his ADHD. 

Working out always helped relieve stress and it was late, so he’d basically have the whole gym to himself. (They will still never live down accidentally farting while bending down to pick up a weight… ugh .) But König did have paperwork to be done, damn that paperwork, know he’s gonna be thinking about it for the rest of the week, URGH !

Shuffling onto their back, they let out a deep belly sigh. Staring at the semi-stained titles of his dorm ceiling, he thought back to his childhood, memories of brisk early mornings, perfecting his handwriting so his teachers would stop berating him for it, running home to avoid being hit by rocks by kids who never seemed to be in school and helping with as many house chores as needed in order to help his mother who worked relentlessly for her baby’s sake. König smiled, remembering a day when his mother came home, her crooked teeth showing in her big smile, standing on her tiptoes to give Anton a sloppy kiss on the cheek.

<“Mama, you look happy. Did something happen?”> Anton asked as he shifted in the too-small table chair. The already-worn wood creaked under his weight. 

Elena’s lips were cracked, having worked out in the cold from the first light of day to the late dusk hours, but her smile never flattered. 

Anton was her rock and she was his, having stuck through everything in life together. 

When his father left, not needing to be weighed down by the responsibilities of being a father to a baby who would never grow up to be as much a man as he is, she cried and cried to her mother, a strong widow who was more than welcome to take care of her daughter’s pride and joy despite finally feeling her age. 

When Anton went through growth spirit after growth spirit, having to retuck his shirt into his waistbands and feel the breeze on his constant plumbers crack, she took all the old clothes her late father and dead-beat ex-husband left behind, stitching up whatever tears and rips were in the fabrics and sending him off, praising Anton for looking like such a big, strong boy when really, the clothes just made him look like the homeless man he’d see during his bike rides to the overpriced supermarket in the next town over.

<“Oh Anton, my sweet boy,”> She came over, cupping his cheeks riddled with freckles (they were more prominent on colder days), ance, and scars from said ance and placed one of her sloppy, motherly kisses on his forehead. His curly auburn bangs stuck to her lips as she pulled back. 

The sight of his mother’s smile made his hands shake and slap against his thighs with untamed happiness.

<”Go put on something nice. We’ll pick up your grandmother and go out for something to eat. I’ve saved up enough for us.”> Elena’s thick eyelashes were glistening with tears and up close, Anton could see the bags under her hazelnut eyes.

After fancying themselves up and picking up his grandmother, they made the half-hour drive into the city. To regular standards, the restaurant was barely even considered fancy, it was just some family-owned diner with mediocre food and greasy tables, but the sight of the food made Anton enthusiastic while reciting the prayers his grandmother made them say before meals. 

Whilst in the midst of practically shoveling food in his mouth, Anton’s grandmother spoke up. 

<”Enkel (grandson)...?”> She spoke in a weak yet gentle voice. It had lost its verbal liveliness, but only those closest to her could understand when emotions ran high through her words. Anton looked up, his lips coated with the spicy broth from the Potato Gulasch he was practically inhaling, before quickly wiping his mouth with a crumbled napkin. His grandmother taught him better.

<”Has your mind cleared from the last time we talked?”> There was slyness in her tone as Elena raised her eyebrow and finished chewing a particularly chewy piece of beef in her Tafelspitz.

<”Hmm? What’s this about?”> She questioned rightfully so, if there was something bothering her son, she should be the first to know!

Anton blushed and began pushing around the vegetables in his stew. <”I…umm, I wanted to ask out a girl. Remember the one I was paired with for that project?”> 

Elean seemed to perk up even more, playfully bumping shoulders with her son.

<“Wunderbar! (Wonderful!) Oh, my sweet boy!”> She gushed and grinned wildly. In other circumstances, Anton would’ve laughed bashfully and gone pink, but in the middle of a busy restaurant where any of his schoolmates could’ve walked in or been within earshot of this conversation, he ducked his head and mumbled incoherence, embarrassed.

<”Yeah…I just, don’t know how to though. She’s so sweet and pretty I just… she’s too good for me.”>

 Elean blinked at this, her smile gone and looking rather serious as his grandmother shook her head.

<”Enkel, we talked about this. You need to-.”>

<”No girl is too good for my son!”> Anton’s grandmother was cut off by Elean’s sharp words. She was frowning and looked rather upset. Not at Anton himself, but at his mind and his insecurities and the words he dared to utter, belittling himself and his abilities.

<”Whoever this girl is, she’d be lucky to have someone such as yourself, my own flesh and blood, ask her out on a date! Good confessions come from the heart of someone just as good, and if she can’t understand how blessed and pure you are by your words, then she doesn’t deserve shit from you!”> 

Elean’s cheeks were flushed by the time she finished her rant before they got even redder.

<”Ah! Entschuldigung, Mutter! Bist bald! (Excuse me, mother! I’m sorry!)”> She hung her head at her grandmother while Anton just stared at his mother in astonishment. 

Just his mother’s words alone filled him with such… confidence. He felt his hands shake and suddenly his mind cleared with only one thing in mind; asking this girl out.

His grandmother only smiled and let her ankle knock against her daughter’s in a silent acceptance. 

The rest of the dinner went well, Elean even treated them to some desserts. The ride home was filled with comfortable silence and the rumble of Anton’s stomach as it tried to adjust to the spices that laced the Potato Gulasch. 

Anton smiled to himself in the mirror as he brushed his teeth. The reflection in the mirror was no longer someone he scrunched his face up at, but a young man who was slowly breaking out of his shell, like a caterpillar wiggling its way out of its chrysalis.

With a full stomach and his mother’s words still echoing in his head, Anton nuzzled into his flat pillows, forgetting all his other school troubles and only thinking about the happy-go-lucky brunette who went the extra mile to say hi to him in the halls.

(He also doesn't think he’s ever farted so much in his life. His stomach growled and rolled from the spices that were now coating his insides and attacking his bowels. His asshole was on fire that night.)

It was about 20 minutes before lights out, the usual sounds of the Kortac base were now mellowed down as the night hours passed. 

König balled his thin sheets up in his calloused fists before jerking up in bed, death staring at the hickory door of his room. König wasn’t a pussy, he wasn’t gonna disappoint his mother, and he didn’t his rank as colonel by letting his insecurities get the best of him!

Social anxiety be damned, this mountain of an Austrian man knew how to get shit done when shit needed to be done!

Without a moment’s hesitation, she threw open her door and made her way down the halls of the barracks, getting stares from those who were still up and about. She made a beeline for Horangi’s room and wasted no time giving the door a sturdy three knocks.

“I- just a second!” Horangi’s accented voice was heard through the door along with some rustling. König stood straight and waited for the top of the Korean man’s head to come into view.

Horangi appeared in his doorway wearing some casual attire; a pair of black cargos, a V-necked gray shirt, and a simple black hoodie. His usual pair of sunglasses were nowhere in sight, not even hanging on the collar of his shirt, and his eyes, dark and shimmery like black diamonds, looked up at König with such innocence.

König could tell he wasn’t wearing his binder, not that he made it a habit to look! But when you’re tall enough to see the curve of everyone’s boobs from above, it was sometimes the second thing you noticed about a person.

(Sometimes König wished they had boobs. The mere thought made their face flush and they felt vulnerable even within the walls of her own room. Someday, she’d work up the courage to find a bra that'd fit her chest and cry at the sight of how beautiful his body, which he spent years hating, could be.)

The sight of Horangi made him instinctively hunch his shoulders and swallow hard. König blinked before clearing they spoke, “Ah, good evening, Hor- I mean, Hong-Jin!” 

Hong-Jin made it a point that his callsign was indeed NOT his actual name and that during their casual time together, he preferred that name over Horangi (it especially sounded nice when it came from König’s lips, but he would never say that, no matter how blunt he could be).

“Hello, König. What brings you around this late?” Hong-Jin said as he leaned against the door frame, arms crossed and without the playful scrunch of his eyes, König would’ve thought the worst, and all his confidence would’ve gone down the drain. 

König had yet to tell Hong-Jin his real name.

Anton is not a colonel, but a citizen. She was beneath the sniper hood König adorned when on base and during missions. Anton was a mama’s boy who was too big for their own good and although hated their dad, wished he hadn’t left so that they might’ve had some sort of male role to look up to. 

But that was a can of worms she wasn’t ready to open, it’d probably go bad by the time she was ready to even think about cracking open its rusted aluminum top.

König gripped the fabric of his pants to keep them from shaking. “Can I come in? I wanted to…talk…?”

He inwardly cringed as his voice went up an octave as his sentence progressed, but Hong-Jin just smiled, well, König assumed he smiled based on how his eyes squinted (it was hard to see when he had his mask on), and stepped out the way to allow König into his room.

Making sure to duck, König went and sat on the desk chair. They were familiar with the arrangement of Hong-Jin’s room from the number of times the two had hung out in it… as friends of course!

Hong-Jin plopped back down on his bed, there were some stray clothes lying about but otherwise, it was tidy, as tidy as a ‘lived-in’ room could be.

“So what’s up, König? Roze told me you two talked earlier.”

König visibly stiffened, heart stopping for a second before pounding at his rib cage like a rabid animal and it was suddenly 80 degrees under his hood.

(Fahrenheit, of course. I’m American.)

“Really? What…what about?” König squeaked out. (What the hell, König didn’t squeak . He’s a grown-ass dude, the fuck would he be squeaking for?!)

Hong-Jin just shrugged smugly. “I don’t know, you wanna tell me? That was your conversation.” His everyday, average teasing seemed to be too much for poor, little ( NOT little. Remember? This was a middle-aged man we’re talking about.) König.

Their chest puffed and they exhaled loudly, almost unnecessarily loud. With averted eyes and sweaty palms, she spoke up again.

“Y-yeah, I had something to admit.” Hong-Jin blinked and if it hadn’t been for his mask, König would’ve seen the pink flush in his cheeks.

Hong-Jin shuffled on the bed but kept silent, pleading for him to continue.

König let out another sigh again, “I’ve been thinking about this for…some time now. Maybe three months after you transferred to KorTac and since we started really talking to each other,”

Her leg started bouncing and the desk chair let out little squeaks. Hong-Jin didn’t seem to care, listening intently to every word that slipped from König’s mouth.

“And, I’m not sure if it’s too early or if you're completely uninterested feel free to tell me off, but I’d love the opportunity to-.”

“ God yes .”

Kong blinked at the desperation and eagerness that dripped from Horangi’s agreement.

Hong-Jin blinked, his body leaning forward and hands gripping his knees, before leaning back and blushing hard.

Oh, such a pretty pink.

“You didn’t let me finish.”

“Well, is ‘Yes’ the answer you were hoping for in response to your question?” Hong-Jin’s voice was a mixture of bashful and smug. 

König crossed his legs, then uncrossed them, then crossed them the opposite way. “I…umm, well it depends! Can…can I finish my sentence?” König huffed in amusement. 

Hong-Jin nodded, so with a little bit less anxiousness, König spoke up again.

“I wanted to ask if you…umm, well, if you wanted to go out?…with me! Not just like in general, but like ya’ know…-“

“On a date?” Hong-Jin’s voice was now smug and he was definitely smirking under his mask. 

That sly cat…

König just nodded and fidgeted with the drawstring of his sweatpants. “ Ja. Well, I guess I already know your answer ‘cause you just said yes, but I wanted you to actually know what you were agreeing to! I’m not even sure if you like me or not, or just pitying me! Which is completely fine if that’s the-!”

“König…” Hong-Jin’s voice was now soft, a natural rumble from his chest, akin to a noise a tiger would make (haha, see what I did there?).

König just fluttered her eyelashes and swallowed, “Hmm?”

“I would love to go on a date with you. I do like you if that somehow wasn’t clear enough.”

So that’s how it started, two predators- a bear with the heart of a rabbit and a tiger who had a knack for teasing, learning to be soft with each other.

What people don’t realize about going from friends to lovers is how similar the relationship is to the previous friendship. You go about your normal routines with a little bit of PDA and flirting added into it (and a lot of fucking, Horangi’s sex drive was higher than König’s). Soon, you’ll be moving in with each other, spending late mornings in each other’s arms, sharing clothes, and swapping spit.

But like all humans, we have flaws and weaknesses. Whether or not you choose to deal with a partner’s flaws shows more about your character than theirs. And if you're strong enough to stay with someone despite feeling yourself physically recoil at the sight of their icks, then that shows your love and devotion towards them.

But one little ick wouldn’t ruin a relationship, right?

Till death do them part…although, it’d be years before those words would even be muttered.

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Ahaha… A bit late due to a rough night of sleep lol. But I'm finally here to tell you about Gloria!

Gloria is my self insert more or less for SWWSDJ and stuff when she’s not in her “clownsona”, Ginger. I literally gave her the name because of the song “Gloria” by Laura Branigan. It’s from the 80s and I just really love the song lol.

She’s about 27, and depending on the AU either works as a Labor and Employment Law Legal Secretary, or selling rental skates at the local skate park - Sorry Barry but yogurt makes me ill. However, she has aspirations to be a sci-fi/fantasy novelist and write anywhere from space westerns to fairy tale retellings or high stake dark fantasy adventures with horror elements. But because of unintentionally trying to prove to Ian’s mom she was “good enough” for her son, she sacrificed a lot of her personal dreams because of critiques on them being “too childish” and studied law classes in college alongside the few creative ones she would allow herself to join. Where she met Shaun and he helped her realize she was putting too much of her personal wishes aside for the relationship and making herself unhappy as a result.

Even later when she and Ian broke up, she still reverts back to the habit of ‘avoiding childish things’ when Shaun isn’t around.

As for Gloria herself, she’s a very serious seeming person at first and respects the rules, but she moreso just doesn’t want people to get hurt and to be treated fairly. Her resting bitch face also leads to people mistaking her for being a hard ass, as well as her blunt honesty on what she thinks or feels on something. Deep down she just doesn’t see a point in lying to someone when it would only draw out a situation and make it worse, but she does try to be careful in how she words things. It’s her own social awkwardness that makes it come off worse than intended.

She has a habit of wanting to help take care of others, being very much a mom friend but rarely stopping to take care of herself. It’s hard for her to, as she is too used to being the strong person in any relationship, even if a part of her deep down wants to let down those walls and trust someone enough to let her be vulnerable and support her.

Some of her favorite things are coffee, books (fiction or non-fiction for research on whatever topics she’s interested in), and she daydreams about owning a working typewriter. Gloria is pretty good at sniffing out when someone is being dishonest and hates it when someone lies to her, even a bit paranoid at times when someone seems ‘too good to be true’ until she can see how sincere they are underneath it all. If she has a problem, she won’t hesitate to adress it, preferring to talk about it with someone so they could meet a solution. Even so, she can be a bit too trusting of others at first and it gets her into more trouble than she bargains for. She’s also deathly terrified of centipedes even if she’s mostly okay with other bugs.

Typically I ship her with Jack or Joseph, sometimes Shaun. But Evan has slowly been converting me to liking Jean more. For better or worse, the ship list is still open to change lol.

She sounds wonderful!!! I just want to tuck her into bed gently with a good book and kiss her forehead!!! Also I'm shaking hands with her over being okay with basically everything but centipedes 😭

Those sound like good partners for her!! Evan's version of Jean is definitely softer than mine so that makes a lot of sense I think :3 I like the idea that some day way in the future she could publish some sort of horror story that Shaun adapts into a movie

[misqnon]

sanji and pudding are cute together as completely platonic friends.. like he is a good FRIEND for her. i think she just needs someone in her life who isnt going to ridicule her for her eye and . like. fully accepts her. and that is who sanji is.

i wouldn't have an issue if it was just like. a one sided crush either. which it kind of is but i don't trust oda to have those intentions. i know its realistic to have kids crush on older people,, and i think its interesting to portray that as long as the adult isnt being creepy and weird. like u can have an adult that is accepting of the kid who's crushing on them. and the adult is also like "this is never going to happen. u should find someone your own age, that would be healthier". it is inherently pretty uncomfortable to have a kid crush on you i would assume, but they could still have a healthy relationship

i also want all the straw hats there!! i dont think i'll be satisfied if they arent all there..

THATS OK IT WAS STILL INTERESTING!!

this is so funny, i actually watched that video a while ago (passively. as in i was actually trying to sleep and also listen at the same time). but YEAH i think he is so right... the charm .. the something that zoro has. is not there. thank GOD i didnt miss the fuck...

NOT THE MAD WORLD REFERENCE

oh for sure the like 3 layers of translating is probably a big reason for the awkwardness. i (personally) think he has autistic energy outside of that one interview (i think i was kinda unclear which is why i am . bringing it back up) but . ofc. i am not going to diagnose a man I dont know anything about LOL

no shame in this household!!!! there is already plenty to go around

VERY ASEXUAL FRIENDS SEEING UR HORNY POSTING.... SOUNDS LIKE A NIGHTMARE. my very asexual friend does not use social media thank god. i .. i could never let her see me like this ... for her own sake..

u also forgor ur gender for a bit thats so funny..

im very thankful there are at least a FEW nsfw questions about men in the sbs... equality!! but we must strive for equity.. sexualize the men 3x more /hj

i have a friend who knows a bit of japanese but i always feel so bad relying on ppl who know other languages LOL. like.. im sorry ... our friendship means so much more to me than ur job as my translator sometimes... but i think the foreign fans use a translator app, bc im pretty sure oda has said the wording is wonky because of the translator

ive seen a bit of trixie and katya!! im at least familiar with who they are. at my highschool (that i went to for only the last two years i was in school) we had some drag queens come to school for a show.. it was interesting. i had never seen drag in person. and then we also had a drag show with students which wasnt as involved

"for legal reasons (haha get it)" LOL

perfect representation of a sanji courtroom. since u are sanji magistrate ur word is law. literally.

oda can have credit .. as a treat.

it IS compelling tbh but it's. as u kinda said. its mostly just mentioned briefly and then not brought back up. i do NOT want to see it come to fruition.... if they killed each other.... me next

"I WOULD LIKE CROSS GUILD AS A POLY SHIP MORE IF IT DIDNT FEEL MEAN WITH HOW OFTEN THEY BEAT UP ON BUGGY AND ALSO BC I THINK BUGGY BELONGS WITH MR. RED HAIR." YEAH EXACTLY!!!!! i too love a one sided ship. shuggy angst is literally so good.. wait til u catch up theres a . theres a moment. theres a shuggy moment that is SO angsty. they have so many problems they should just kiss and that would solve everything!

"OH NO BRO….HANNYAGELLAN…ITS HAPPENING…"

i also heard abt the falling down the stairs meaning suicide thing, but i only heard abt it super recently. ur right she wouldnt have done that!! she was finally feeling like. things were looking up . because of zoro!! he helped her feel better!! n then she died. i agree that he probably sees a promise as an ironclad thing. he would literally die for a promise he made. he definitely isnt stupid either, and is generally pretty untrusting of new people

SHARING FANFIC U WROTE???? :D

"Dreams. Ambitions. Drive. Do what that day stole from Kuina. Defeat Dracule Mihawk. Become the world’s greatest swordsman- for both of them." i love this part

"This isn’t a good sign for his current navigational endeavors." HE GOT LOST..... that made me laugh

"Kuina. He doesn’t think of her as often as some might think. He doesn’t dwell on the past, only reflects on it." accurate for zoro!!!!

i feel sad for him :( he sounds a bit. regretful? is that a word.. thnk u for sharing i lov .. i love .. when ppl share their art with me.. thank u..

"but do i ever actually make those things….no. i do not" psh... typical..... /lh

oh boy im so excited to take ibuprofen with u!!!!

"its just. SO COOL!!!! TO SEE PEOPLE ACT WITH SUCH PASSION AND PORTRAY EPIC STORIES..RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!! LIVE!!" YOU GET IT!!!! YOU GET IT!!!!! NO ONE EVER GETS IT ... U GET IT!!!

yes u got me i like sanji now 😔😔😔😔😔 congrats on converting me😮‍💨 /lh. ill send u another 4kids sanji video to get back at u for this *shakes my fist in rage*

i love seonghwa!!! (obviously!!! since im ot8 !!!)

THE LAW PUN... I DINDT NOTICE AT FIRST .... im so glad u have the hawaiian shirt comic saved. i have multiple pictures of him saved and i refuse to delete them despite my phone storage being rly low.. and im not doing anything with them. im just attached.

look at how much i talk about him... im normal . its only been a month and a half since i restarted one piece and i hadnt talked abt him at all before that.. im normal.

ok my law thought s are.. well the most recent thought . was actually. uh.

yeah this was a normal thought. for sure.

this was the thought that led to that .

i just think u could have a lotta fun with his powers. outside of making abstract art. i want to know what its like to be law . in body. he is tall. and like. i would be able to teleport himself and other things.. which is a big thing when u can't get enough energy to get out of bed. and i have food allergies so i could eat whatever i want.. and i wouldnt have periods... i would automatically be stronger bc he has muscles. yeah.. i wish i could experience all that.

and that is all for now bc i think those r ...intense.. thoughts... to have... or maybe they arent, i dont really have an understanding of what is normal

"i wonder if it relates to his backstory and the possible trans-ness of it?" i was kinda thinking this too.. or like maybe it had something to do with his childhood or something. idk. croc backstory when!!

"he’s after freedom and what use is it if u destory the freedom of others while searching for it for yourself?" YEAH!!! U WORDED IT WELL,,

"HIS 4DUB VOICE PAINS ME PHYSICALLY" *sends another video* (i am actually going to do this but i was planning to anyways so dont feel pressured to watch it or respond LOL)

"i have a playlist where i put my fav one piece shits."

D:!!

crying, sobbing at the fact u know abt nika

ok honestly if it was just a bug collection... that would be so cute ... the one piece was the bugs we met along the way

"so i think it might be related to…joyboy/nika/ the SUN…i think maybe its like a. a hat maybe. thats my guess. sun hat. from the original joy boy. its not a good guess but its all i HAVe"

take this how u will

bartolomeo... maybe he is called the cannibal bc he has big teeth... or maybe its his name from when he was beating ppl up all the time as a .. gang leader? or whatever he was? maybe he "cannibalized" other groups??

end of the e-letter is for memes now

very very true. when she was sobbing after i left i actually felt so so bad for her ;-; like someone PLEASE get her out of there!! god SAME FOR REIJU. sanji got to escape but reiju and pudding are both stuck with their respective shit abusive families…it sucks. i hope we get to see both of them doing better by the end of the series!!

“i wouldn't have an issue if it was just like. a one sided crush either. which it kind of is but i don't trust oda to have those intentions.” YEA I MADE A POST ABOUT THIS (i think i accidentally queued it) BUT. YEA I DOUBT HE DOES 🙃 looks at shirahoshi. looks at rebecca

ITS A MAAAAAD WOROORORRLDLDL

also nodding my head no problem i got what u meant about inaki

UR RIGHT NO SHAME….PUTS MY YAOI PROUDLY ON THE FRIDGE

i still need to finish the opla video. i watch it while i eat lmao

OKAY HE HASNT MENTIONED IT SO I HOPE HE JUST DIDNT SEE IT OR. WILL NEVER BRING IT UP. its funny u say that tho bc my OTHER ace friend very supportively read this vampire zosan fic i wrote and they’re in their own words like violently ace and also sex repulsed and i WARNED THEM that there was a sex scene in that chapter i WROTE A CHAPTER NOTE AT THE BEGINNING WARNING SO and they STILL accidentally read it and texted me SO CONFUSED AND THEN EMBARASSED THEY WERE LIKE “its hot in the room?? wait i dont get it?? 🤨 - WAIT. OH NO-” funniest shit ive ever seen in my life. literally “hey. be careful dont look at that.” “huh? [staring blindly at sun]

actually every nsfw sbs question asked about the men was me. it was all me. next i will be asking the size of katakur- [gunshots]

KJSBDKJ I HAVE TWO FRIENDS THAT SPEAK FRENCH (ONE A NATIVE SPEAKER AND ONE WHO MAJORED IN IT AND NOW LIVES IN FRANCE. WITH THE OTHER FRENCH FRIEND) and when writing scenes where sanji spoke french i was too embarrassed to ask either of them for help but they bullied me into letting them help 😭😭😭 so i feel u so hard 😭😭😭

and ur right, i actually just read a chapter where someone did that from vietnam i believe (they used a machine translator)

i love drag sm!! u made me remember how much i liked it and i watched some more drag clips yesterday lmao. 

okay in terms of the death pact thing i feel like oda drops those things and always comes back to them…i DONT WANT THEM TO FIGHT EITHER BUT ALSO I SOOOO DO. kinda like how reading whole cake island ws painful for me but also i loved it. but i will need to wait a bit before reading it again. i dont think theyre gonna kill each other tho. i think itll be a moment that brings them to a better understanding of each other/their relationship. i dont mean that in a zosan way just literally in canon as crewmates. and i think it will be JUICY bc those bitches have been bickering for over 20 years…and then finally theres a big ultimate final zoro vs sanji battle like dudebros always clamor about. i want to see a setup where they’re forced to face the fact that they dont get along but still care for each other but also what to do when faced with a choice like that against someone you hate but also care for. and what zoro will do. bc i genuinely have a feeling zoro will fight him to the fucking end but not kill him when it comes down to it. even though zoro keeps promises like they’re oaths…so. i think it may be an outside element that stops the Murder from occuring. zoro may or may not actually attempt it KDSNC. its so fun to think about to me. im so ready 

shuggy moment? 👁️i know oda would not make any gay ship canon (probably most ships tbh) but why does shuggy feel like one of the most likely to me. in a weird way. KADJNFVDK. you know how in the og visual novel for clannad the “bad end” was a gay ending with your male best friend. that is canon shuggy to me. oda doing it kinda halfheartedly in a roundabout way for laughs but the fandom is popping bottles (we popping the BIGGEST bottles when shuggy happens tomorrow-)

on zoro and promises and etc etc…do u think zoro will get more development of him as a character by the end of the story? zoro is a character that’s beautiful in his simplicity but sometimes i want to know him more you know?? he’s kinda mysterious in a closed off way even tho we know what he’s about and. i wanna know more abt him. put him in more fucked up situations. i wanna see zoro suffer in a way that isnt just a tough battle.

im glad u liked it !! :D thank u!!

HAHAHAHA SANJI CONVERT !!! LET’S SEXUALIZE THAT BLONDE MAN ‼️(priorities 🫡) (the 4kids sanji video will get back at me. it will. i will suffer but i will do it.)

i have so many random op images saved in my phone…not to mention my laptop’s screenshot folder…WAIT THAT REMINDS ME JFDBVSJD i have an internship at an art gallery and i need a laptop for the job so i use my own but its my personal laptop.. and once i had to test a powerpoint but i dont have word so i had to use my personal google slides account and WHILE CONNECTED to a GIANT PROJECTOR…THIS briefly flashed on the screen before i frantically clicked away. no one saw but i. i did. (for reference this was for pwp night. and i have still nbot finished it)

i dont talk about sanji in my friend discord server bc None Of Them Watch One Piece but in my dms with my other op friend…let’s look.

on god

this is from both of us together. BUT STILL

(nodding) no go on what animal parts

law’s powers are SO fun. i wish he switched ppls bodies more often!! its such a fun trope its such a guilty pleasure for me!! also room is just. such a cool ability. i love teleportation characters (thinks about nightcrawler from xmen…my blue king). also THAT LAW COMIC I MENTIONED U IN THE TAGS. JHFVBDKAS THE FOURTH PANEL WHERE ITS JSUT THE SEA CREATURES AND HIS DEAD FACE DOING THE ROOM POSE GETS ME EVERY DAMN TIME

is law tall?? i guess he just seems short in comparison to like. doffy. (looks it up) DAMN THIS BITCH IS 6’3??? 

also funny law story i just remembered. sometimes i sell my art at gay art markets. and one time. at a halloween themed one. there was . this random law cosplayer. which yea its halloween thats a costume but for future reference i want to be clear this was like the only anime cosplay. everyone else was like cartoons or monsters or fairies or cats or some shit. well the law cosplayer is set up right across from me and i had JUST started my one piece hyperfixation so i was Extra Crazy abt it and i was literally flipping out so nervous but excited so i dragged myself over and was like “omg…hi…i love ur law cosplay….i just got into op and i havent met him yet but i see him everywhere…” and they were super nice!! but then. later. i go visit my friend’s booth. and . the ONLY other anime cosplay at the entire event…WAS A SECOND TRAFALGAR LAW. STANDING AT MY FRIEND’S BOOTH. I WAS LIKE ??? anyway i pointed them towards each other after fangirling for a hot moment and they took a pic together. it was very fun

ur thoughts are not intense or strange…well maybe they are strange to others but i am also insane. i promise. i love ur insane thoughts pls continue to share. i will do the same someday when i am less shy and ashamed of my unhinged fandom thoughts (such as making zoro amvs to abba in my head on the way to therapy. <- things that should be in the dsm-5 as a criteria. ps. thats a line my therapist actually said in response to something i did once. lmao)

did u notice that in the opla…they have all the characters who were at rogers execution there as their younger selves (mihawk, shanks,etc) AND THERE’S A AFAB PERSON WHO’S DRESSED SUSPIOCIOUSLY LIKE CROCODILE…I WAS LIKE OH SHIT)

i am going to watch the next 4kidd dub video. i will do it for you. (losing years off my life each time)

WOOPS THE PLAYLIST WAS PRIVATE try it now. if you watch any one video from that list. and this one is short. please make it this one. I LOSE MY SHIT EVERY TIME

OH ALSO. APPARENTLY AT COACHELLA. THAT MIKU PERFORMANCE WAS *ALSO* A TV SCREEN. ISNT THAT SAD. PATHETIC!!

lmao. i was talking to my caught up friend about op spoilers today and he wouldnt confirm or deny so many things i said. lmao. rofl, even

“take this how u will” IM SCARED

end of the e letter IS for memes now you’re so correct

p.s…i know discord is a Le PooPooHead esp recently BUT if you want to add me my username is the same as it is here!! feel free but no pressure

[flyawaybooks]

trying to explain my demisexuality to the guy I've been seeing might kill me

Trying to explain it to myself is also very difficult

so I'm just gonna ramble for a bit under the readmore and try and figure it out

the weird thing about things like physical affection is like. The way society has socialized us, there's either None (friendship) or All Including Kissing and Sex (dating/partners/whatever)

I feel like an awkward teenager because I Don't like the all or nothing toggle. Everyone I've ever grown to have a crush on has started as a friend, even if that friendship was started partially as wanting to get to know someone I aesthetically appreciate.

Honestly, I could see most of my close friendships turning into romantic relationships (sorry lol) if any of them were interested, which I don't think any of them are. But like. Knowing someone, spending time together, going through struggles together, supporting each other... that's the sort of stuff I feel like I need before I can even think about wanting a physical or romantic relationship. I don't think I could ever do a hookup or want to kiss someone, even if I found them aesthetically attractive, until we're more incorporated into each other's lives

Or like on another level, the kinds of friendships that I like to have probably look a lot like dating to other people. I like to treat my friends to nice things, spend hours at each other's houses, go to fun events together. I mean, friends do that too? I truly can't parse the difference if the functions of friendship vs romantic relationships other than social expectations and the assumption that physical intimacy are involved.

The main difference is that society has decided that you can pick someone to be your romantic partner to do those things with all the time, or they can be a friend where you maybe sometimes do a few of those things. I can't do everything all the time with one person, that would drive me crazy. I need interdependence, where I can go off and do my own thing, and the people I love (people!!! I need to circle back around to that eventually) can go off and do their own things too. It doesn't change the way we care for each other that we don't spend all our time together. I need variety AND I also need time to myself.

I'm not trying to say I'm an independent woman who doesn't need anyone, because I very much do need people. What I know is that my brain processes relationships in a way that is queer compared to societal norms. And I'm stuck in this place where I'm trying to figure out the difference between "I think we'd be really good friends but I have no interest in romance or sex" and "I think we'd be really good friends and also I think romance and sex could be cool part of that if everyone's onboard but also I'm chill if that's not it"

I don't want to lead people on. All I can say is that I've only ever been in one relationship where I even felt the compulsion to want to get more physically intimate, and that was not reciprocated in a way that I think confused both of us. I would have been happy with the relationship we had if he had asserted his boundaries better. But he knew I was interested in more physicality and (I think?) didn't want to disappoint me, so he crossed his own boundaries, or at least what I perceived of his boundaries.

And that's it! Do I just lack experience and that's the problem? maybe. Am I a lesbian in denial? I don't think so, given aforementioned relationship, but maybe? There's the part where like.... I truly don't care enough to spend time figuring it out that granularly, which leads me back to the demisexuality. I don't need a romantic or sexual relationship to feel fulfilled, but I'm not opposed to the idea of having one.

It's fucking complicated man!!!!! Have I talked in enough circles yet??

[finalgirllx]

Hii! So every time I see your username on discord or here I always wanna ask you about it but then I don’t cause I’m socially awkward as heck and I don’t wanna seem like a weirdo - but here I am anyway - so, are you into horror movies??? I love finding horror movie fans in the wild cause I feel like none of my friends are into them 😭 who’s your fave final girl?? And what are your fave movies??

Oh my gosh. Thank you, thank you for asking this!!

If you don't mind, I'm gonna use this to go HARD lol.

I would dedicate far more of this tumblr to the genre if I could but I don't want to assault everyone's eyes with it, teehee.

Hello fellow horror fan! I'm so glad someone noticed!! Yes, I am a HUGE horror fanatic. It's like a major part of my identity!!! I love horror movies, video games, books, literally all things spooky. I've got posters all over my apartment, a stupid amount of trinkets, including a Pyramid Head plushie that's my pride and joy. :)

Horror is a fantastic genre brimming with creative ideas and it is such a healthy outlet for the anxieties of life. It is also uniquely relevant for the social scientist in me. Horror can provide great insights into how social problems become ingrained in the public consciousness, shedding light on the fears and concerns of different eras, especially in the last 100 or so years since the film industry was created. I took a monster-themed class on college last year, and am following it up with a film studies course this next semester. I write a lot about the monstorous feminine and gender studies in relation to the horror. Because, as horror reflects the concerns of the outside world, how women get treated within them is fascinating material to explore power dynamics, social expecations, and persistent fears. One of my favorites was a piece I did on feminist commentary in 2019's Ready or Not. My graduating project is going to be a zine-style work where I'm choosing 4 different horror films with 4 core aspects of the female experience and I'm so excited to start it!

To actually answer your question, my favorite horror films as of now go as:

Scream (1996) The Thing (1982) Alien (1979) Ready or Not (2019)

Special mentions go out to Carrie (1976), Halloween (1978), REC (2007), Ginger Snaps (2000), and recents such as X and Barbarian. :)

Extra special mention, my favorite horror video games are Resident Evil 7 and Silent Hill 2. (Very creative, I know, lol.)

As Scream is my favorite horror series, I'd have to say Sidney Prescott is my favorite final girl. She's just such a resilient badass and I love all of the Scream films and her journey so much!

Thank you again! I hope my excitement isn't overwhelming! Feel free to message to chat about it any time!

[insert-inconspicuous-name-here]

Just finished Stranger Things 4 and i have thoughts:

1- Nancy and Steve: stop. Just stop, please.

I love them both so much, but I do not ship them, never have never will, and I've always shipped Nancy and Jonathan and to me Nancy and Steve broke up for some very good reasons and, even tho they make great friends, they don't really make that much of a fine couple from my point of view.

2- Steve: 1: fucking ally or what?! 2: it's because you're the best babysitter, sweetie. 3: (most important) him ripping the demobat's head/body off was really hot. Like, sexy and hot and it got me all hot lol. So hot. Rip that head off! 4: i shipped him a lil with Eddie at some points. 5: he's such a great person. How he supports his lesbian girl at a small town in the 80s is amazing. Like Eddie said -he said something, i forget fast.

3- Robin: i felt represented. She won't shut up. Not great with the social skills. I love her and want her to be safe. Wish we could've seen more of Vickie. Her friendship with Nancy got me shipping a lil, but i loved their friends dynamic. Beware of rabies.

4- Argyle and Eden - ❤️ the way he was just instantly smitten was so cute. Him freaking out was also cute.

5- When i saw the promos saying El thought Will had a crush i was so happy thinking it might've been someone new and that liked and appreciated him, maybe that guy in the pink jacket. But no. He's still into Mike. It broke my heart when we knew the painting was for Mike and then he got there and everything was just super awkward. I'm really curious about the painting. And, it just got pointed out to me here, that Mike may not be able to say he loves Eleven bc he's into Will too? He said it in the last season and he's been treating Will kinda weird for some time... So i have no idea what to make of this. I just thought Mike and El were endgame. I can see it both ways. Adding: that moment they were talking in his room, i thought Will would kiss Mike for sure.

6- Eddie: what can I say about this man? He's so cute and awesome. Such a caring drug dealer. An extra lil dad for Dustin and the others. He seems like he could be friends with Robin very easily, but him and Steve bonding over Dustin was my fav. And jumping into a Watergate for three basic strangers was pretty cute. Even if it was for shame reasons. It also looks like he's filling in for both Billie and Jonathan at Hawkins, but not too much because he has his own manners and personality that diverge from both characters, and i love that.

7: I missed Erica. A. Lot. Just the facts. The couch is on fire lol she's always a badass. And speaking out in the middle of an "adult" conference was pretty cool. Also, calling their bullshit and noticing the lights.

Extras:

My fav Dustin moment was: "I overestimated them". That was some beautiful moment right there.

The fact both Steve and Eddie felt jealous of Dustin is so wholesome and weird at the same time. Just wanna see those three together.

The ending caught me by surprise. But if i stop to think about it, it was kinda predictable?

Susie's family was fun. Hope to see her in Hawkins one day.

I love Russian. That one Russian prisoner was Svetlana's husband in Shameless.

Me, everytime that one basketball player spoke: Hey, Garrett? Shut up. (He played a character named Garrett in Teen Wolf)

Liked how their parents got all involved together this time.

When that cop said Max was mean. Lol. Hell yeah.

I wish Vickie was one of the number children.

Me, hoping to see the new Xerife's reaction when Hop comes back.

I want a hellfire T.

Dead pool:

Eddie, the cutiepie who is winning over my heart just like Alexei did.

Will, who decided to bring his very important painting with him to a rescue mission and is being way more obvious about his crush nowadays.

Karen, it's just a feeling, but I think she'll start getting more into the actual problem eventually and it may end up bad for her.

Murray, he's one of my favs and it just seems like it would fit very well.

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hello there :) May I have a matchup for Ninjago and Genshin?

Pronouns: She/her

Sexuality: I have no idea, but I'm content with that. I like the mystery of not knowing, and the freedom from labels😝. Potentially ace, if that helps.

Horoscope: I'm a Genini-Cancer cusp, (technically Gemini) Libra rising.

Myers Briggs: INFP (although, the second time I took a test I got INFJ so idk lol).

Personality, likes, dislikes:

At first, I come across as aloof, calm, and socially awkward. I'm very to-the-point, and can sense BS very quickly. I never get involved in drama, but I might make a witty joke while I sit in my little corner and watch with popcorn. I've been told I'm very observant and I've been called an old soul. But when you get to know me, I can be a bit of a gremlin😆.

I have a huge imagination and I'm always daydreaming. I'm creative and I love storytelling. Especially theatre and writing. Once I start writing, I find it hard to stop (as you can see here😂). I'm a film geek who likes psychological horror movies (Hitchcock films, The Shining, Carrie, etc). But I also love Scooby Doo. Another thing I like is archery and being outdoors.

I'm also a complete basketcase and 24/7 stressed. I try to look on the bright side of things when I can, though, and consider my life to be an adventure. I know my problems will be a fun story to tell at parties someday.

One thing I despise is people being condescending, and talking down to me. I'm neurodiverse and I look younger than I am, so I've had my fair share of that. I also hate when conversations get needlessly intellectual and philosophical. Like, if I ask: "What's 1+1?" And someone tells me: "Well...what IS the number one, really? Numbers are just symbols on paper. "

I'm like: "...right, but what's 1+1?" Me wanna know HOW math. Me not wanna know WHY math. Oh, and speaking of math, I hate math.

Fun facts:

I was born with weirdly shaped pinky fingers. They're both bent sideways. Apparently it's called "clinodactyli" or something, so that's cool. Also I have OCD, sensory issues and trichotillomania. My favorite movie is Gremlins. One time, I accidentally printed, like, 87 pictures of a cat because I was a dumb 7-year-old, and the entire computer room was flooding with cats. My mom was so mad😂. Also, I'm terrible at videogames. I tried to play World of Warcraft once, and spent over an hour trying to get out of the canyon I accidentally jumped into.

Hi! Thank you for your request! I hope you like your matchups!

In Ninjago, I match you with...

Nya loves sitting on the sidelines of drama with you and just watching things go down. She’s been tangled in her fair share of drama far too many times. Now, she’s more than happy to stay out of the conflict.

Would love taking walks through nature with you. She likes the peace that comes with being outdoors.

Would absolutely be a fan of Gremlins. Nya would love to watch it with you as many times as you’d like.

Admires your dedication to trying to see the good in things and treating life as an adventure. She knows how hard that can be sometimes.

Scooby Doo enthusiast. I can see her as a Daphne and Velma fan. She’s particularly fond of the Scooby Doo Mystery Incorporated variation.

Nya will never talk down on you. She’s very good at treating everyone with respect, as long as they deserve it. And in her eyes, unless you’re actively attacking the city or her friends, everyone deserves respect.

In Genshin Impact, I match you with...

Xingqiu loves how your personality can flip so quickly from quiet and socially awkward to a complete gremlin. He loves the energy you bring.

Will try to drag you into pranking Chongyun. He won’t push you though, he respects that pranks are not everyone’s thing.

Loves that you like storytelling. You two would have great dates where you take turns telling stories. Xingqiu writes them all down later so he can remember every little detail you tell him.

Would absolutely take you to the theatre. He’s a pretty dramatic person himself so if you ever want to act out your favourite parts of plays or musicals, he’s ready and willing.

I see Xingqiu as a fan of horror, especially psychological horror. He can’t really explain why he likes it, he just does so expect to be watching and reading a lot of horror stuff with him.

Xingqiu does tend to cause drama sometimes, just for entertainment. He loves hearing your commentary on what’s unfolding and will make his own witty comments as well.

[ay-chuu]

Hello! I hope you are doing well and you are looking after yourself as much as you can.

I was wondering if I could do the match/ship event, if you can ofc, you don't have to and hopefully you won't pressure yourself to doing it either, if you don't have the time/energy to do it then that's perfectly understandable and you don't have to do it.

So my name is Azrael or you can call me Az.

I have blond, curly hair about medium length, I have blue-grey eyes which sometimes look green depending on the light setting (aperantly, I don't see how they look green), I'm white, Eastern European to be exact, I wear a lot of black and grey because I like the colours.

I'm an aquarius, intp. I also have asd (autism spectrum disorder), dyslexia and sometimes I have troubles with my mental health.

My three favourite hobbies are drawing, cooking/baking and crocheting although I also enjoy reading and writing.

The three things I hate the most are the sound of people eating, when people see me as less than I am (for instance thinking I don't know anything or treating me as a child etc.) And when people actively damage the earth/other peoples' mental/physical/social health / animals etc.

Favourite game: chess, checkers

Favourite movie: Perfect blue, The graduate, Pianist, the land.

Favourite music genre: soft rock, hip hop, classical, jazz, Polish rock, what ever Kilar has going on, Indie, Opera and many more.

Favourite musical artist: Kilar, Will Wood, Tom Lehrer, Engelbert Hamperdinck, Chopin, John lenon, Gilbert O'Sullivan, Frank Sinatra, Leonard Cohen, Kult, Republika, Perfect, Mozart, Phil Collins, Foreigner, Arthur Andrus, Dmitri Shostakovich and, again, many more.

Favourite artist: Carl Vihelm Holsøe, Claude Monet, Fyodor Petrovich Tolstoy, Fyodor Vasilyev, Nikolai Galakhov, Vasily Vereshscagin, Isaak Levitan, Yu Feian, Hu Yefo, Jakub Schikaneder, Luigi Loir, Ilya Repin, Edouard Leon Cortes, Abbott Fuller Graves, Eugene Petit, Abraham Pether, Albert Bierstadt, Margaretha Roosenbom, Salvator Rosa, Yu Zhizhen, Shen Zhou, Dong Yuan, Ni Zan, Li Cheng

And the fandom: bsd

Take care of yourself and don't forget to hydrate, have a nice day.

Hello honey, thank you so much for your wishes for myself, your understanding and your so kindly stating it! ( ◡́.◡̀)(^◡^ )

I match you with... (っ＾▿＾)💨

KUNIKIDA DOPPO!

VIRGO AND AQUARIUS ARE ONE OF THE MOST SENSITIVE COUPLES CHANGE MY MIND. Ahem, I think Kunikida would fall in love with you after playing a round of chess with you LOL! Because he's very attracted to intelligence and you have a pretty attractive one (; The beginning of your relationship was a bit awkward because you both found it awkward to be comfortable with someone else, but things definitely got sweeter as time went by. INTP and ISTJ are a pretty harmonious couple, they're really diplomatic. By the way he's so in love with your eyes <3 -like me-

I definitely see Kunikida as someone who donates to people with disabilities or health problems and tries to help, even if he's emotionally naive. (": That's why he's pretty good with your health problems, always supports you, and if you ever feel bad or depressed about any trait you have, he will always be there to remind and support how wonderful you are by your side. He's the perfect husband material.

You love that his feelings are extremely pure and sincere. He never sees you down on himself/anyone alse, on the contrary, he always makes you feel like best creature even if it is wrong. He loves that you are quiet and intelligent, but also compassionate and understanding. You look like an old married couple to a lot of people LMAO IKSDFLADHLLFSDKH Ahh he's so goofy, I love him <3

All in all, he's pretty happy with you! Here are some of the memories I dream of for you: Helping children together who are having difficulties, chess tournaments that are played sometimes until the morning and always involve giggling, dinner prepared while listening to a playlist that goes from soft rock to hard rock, and finally, the afternoon's you do business side by side with your non-dominant hands clasping each other. <3

Hope you'll like it! <3

[sunongsas]

tag game:reveal your blogging style

tagged by the one who trapped in a friendship through dms 💗 @moonlightchicken

different blogs for different interests OR all-in-one blog (effort to keep up with one blog is enough, my source blogs don’t look at me)

default theme OR custom theme 

one username till death OR change username according to mood/obsession (once i changed it from goldenligntclara i never looked back but pranpats is definitely staying for a while)

round avatar OR square avatar (don’t have enough patience to make the cute rounds ones)

personal avatar OR fandom related avatar (one of the only social media site that doesn’t expect you to show ur face idk why would you lol)

thematic consistency between header image and avatar OR who gives a fuck (for myself i might care too much and try to match my mobile header with my avatar)

reblog without tags OR reblog with tags (i’ll accept any reblogs but tags are the best treat & i always try to put tags when i reblog)

category tags only OR personal commentary in tags (both. both is good.)

like+reblog OR only reblog 

replies allowed on posts OR replies switched off (unless something happens)  

askbox open OR askbox closed (always open and love getting asks 💗)

anons allowed OR anons blocked 

respond to every mention in replies OR be a hermit (i try to but my brain and awkwardness are always lurking)

a quiet observer and enjoyer OR initiate conversation with an unknown blogger (nads: “I am a dm slider. this is how i trapped kit in our friendship.” and i love you for it cause i will almost never message first unless tags count)

send ask OR send message on chat OR converse with people in replies (all but for different circumstances)

blog from computer/laptop OR blog from phone (usually i scroll and queue things on my phone but will use my laptop to post)

personal posts OR fandom posts only (mostly fandom but sometimes personal)

have a well organised filled queue OR post intermittently and make it everybody else's problem OR post daily like it's a 9 to 5 (a lot goes into my queue but i reblog what i’m tagged in or new content)

likes and following displayed on blog OR likes and following hidden (one of tumblr’s best features, no one needs to see lmao)

sorry if y’all have been tagged but: @loooreleii @casualavocados @talaypuens @prany

[sherlock-is-ace]

hello, welcome to another depressing rant about my mental health and other problems ✌🏻 which thanks to tumblr stopping people (bots) from reblogging this, i can now write in a post and not in the tags

i've been reminded today of the 3(?) times in my life in which people have walked out on me for no discernible reason. And other many times in which my efforts to be a normal sociable person have been either ignored or actively rejected. Or how I've been used by people who tossed me aside the second they didn't need me anymore? And how all of that has made me the overly anxious, socially inept, and antisocial peron i am today...

i mean i should be going to therapy for this but i have no money so tumblr rants will have to do, but like I have two very clear memories of people who I'd consider my best friends, who suddenly stopped talking to me out of absolutely nowhere. I'm sure I have to have done something to them, cause it can happen twice for no reason right? So I guess my guilt issues also come from there, but like I am being 100% honest when I say I have no fucking clue what the fuck did I do.

Once was when I was around 6 or 7 so like, it might have just been kids stuff but it has stuck on me.. I came back to school after the summer, like I had done many times before and my "bestest friend" had suddenly joined the "cool girls group" and fully stopped talking to me, ignored me in the hall and all that kind of stuff. I never got any explanation for it, or when did she became friends with the "cool girls". I was so taken aback, but I moved on (well apparently i haven't lol)

The other was in my last year of highschool, my "best friend", overnight, stopped talking to me without any reason. I did talk to her, and I asked her, she never replied to me. And I don't mean over text or something, I asked her in person, to her face, and she walked away from me without saying a single word. I asked other friends we had in common if they knew what the fuck had happened, and nobody knew. We were like so close too! Like people thought we were dating kind of friendship (and I was presenting as a girl at the time). To this day I still haven't figured out what happened. It was literally over night, or over a weekend actually. I said goodbye to her on Friday, she didn't speak to me on Monday (till the end of the year, and then we graduated and never saw each other again).

The third time is my father walking out on the family, that's a normal and relatable one that I needn't explain lol

And then you have things like the one time where I didn't want to go to a school thing, like sports day? or something like that. The reason being, I'm fat, dysphoric, socially awkward, anxious, and I don't like to be ridiculed for being bad at sports. I wasn't going to go but a friend at the time insisted, she wanted me to go, she was threatening with getting angry if I didn't go, so I fucking went. On the day, teachers who knew I didn't wanna be there, said I could not participate on any of the games I didn't want to (so lovely of them, I think they noticed how fucking anxious I was). So, I avoided any games that caused me major anxiety or dysphoria, but I spent time with my friend who wanted me there, and tried to cheer everyone on. What did my firend said? "you're not paricipating in anything, why did you come then? you should have stayed at home."... oh! what a lovely idea you just had! if only i had occured to me! if only i hadn't been guilted into coming to a thing that made me miserable!!! :D

But anyways, turns out that I'm fucking cursed or something and that's the reason I don't talk to people or I guess put much effort into relationships anymore? And it sucks, but my brain is wired now to not really care because everytime I care I'm hurt, and/or disappointed and/or treated like shit without a reason. Or I guess without an explanation, I'm sure there is a reason... maybe I'm a horrible person to be around, maybe I'm super toxic and I don't even realize it?

And it's sort of a blessing and a curse, because yes, I can't hold a conversation for the life of me, I cry if I have to make or recieve a phonecall, I can't go to a shop and speak to the cashier like a normal person, I have panic attacks on busses... But also, I don't need people? Like I'm perfecly fine being alone in my home without talking to anyone? which made lockdown a piece of cake.

Once again, therapy is what I need, why do i type this online?! lol... anyways, sorry for the vent, it's easily ignored tho

[pigeonfancier]

Something I’ve been chewing on irritably since yesterday, but: man, I keep getting more and more grown-ass men trying to question me on why I’m wearing a mask in public at this point, and I’m so..

Fed up with it, quite obviously, haha. But I’m also so baffled by it. So grouchy chewing on it below the cut, lol.

One of the most baffling things about this is: I can’t remember if I was in a flare-up or anything else the last time it happened, but yesterday, I looked like complete shit. And I say this, having the greatest amount of fondness for my overall appearance that one can have short of drowning in a fucking pond.

But: sallow as fuck, drawn features, limp fucking prominent because of the rain, absolutely not the state that I am usually tolerant of leaving the house, except I ran out of tea and was pissy enough to find a life without chamomile to be even more intolerable. I looked like shit, I am aware I look like shit, people will often remark that I look like shit in flares, because the prospect of “this is a chronic and reoccurring illness” is a difficult one to grasp. (Also, tbh, it’s an easy method of expressing sympathy in shorthand and in a way that the people saying it feel is a little less socially awkward than being apologetic, and  it grates, so I’m snippy, but I do understand.)

Tl;dr: looked terrible, and yet.

And yet!

Still got some idiot hollering at me from his car over “DON’T YOU THINK (two masks) IS A LITTLE MUCH?”. An idiot who promptly got flustered and a little upset when I turned around, removed my mask, and went “I HAVE A DISEASE,” and wanted to save face by.. assuring me.. that I would make it through this..

Like, what response do these people even expect? I’ve had people try to snipe at me about it in the stores before, and usually, they do get embarrassed and apologetic when I get very blunt about it - no one appreciates or really knows how to deal with “well, I wear a mask because I help take care of my mother, who has active kidney failure AND WILL DIE IF SHE CATCHES ANYTHING,” or anything else, because I suppose we are not taught fully how to deal with disability well in society, and also they are shitheads.

But lol get the fuck over it and learn? None of these people have been young! All of them have been older than me, and the idea of even minor illnesses causing cascading poor results should not be fucking new to them. I understand, in part, that older people are both tired of the pandemic and that part of this is likely that.. bull-headed thing where you’re comfortable taking risks, but you are not comfortable with seeing others taking precautions, because it makes you wonder if you should be taking risks. So bite at the people taking pre-cautions, so you feel better about your own decision!

But, like, sorry, you’re supposed to grow out of that by the time you’re thirty, or at least, you’re not supposed to be making your shit my problem. It’s unfortunate that people feel uncertain! Don’t try and shove it off on me?

I’m just very exasperated.

Also, kind of pre-emptively getting a little aggro about it, I think, because it’s happening more often three years into this shit than it has in the past? I do not think it is going to escalate beyond this level of annoyance, but I do not appreciate the idea of this as a potentially reoccuring, routine event at all.

Because -- I don’t appreciate what ultimately comes down to “I will wear this medical device, because I would like to keep my pancreas from potentially necrotising inside of me from even more lesions, and from giving my elderly mother a disease that can put her on dialysis”  being treated as some sort of reason for shitheads to try and ~*confront*~ me. We are still in a pandemic!

I don’t give a damn about what others are doing at this point, but I do want to be able to shop without people running their mouths at me. I’m very iffy about my cane, depending on how I feel, and I don’t always use it, even if I should, because.. it doesn’t match my outfits, or because I’m disinterested in having any of the extra attention it nets, or whatever. I have had people go “oh, do you have your cane for fashion?”, and had to ask them if they thought the extensive scarring on my ankle and the fucking limp was for fashion, too. I do not appreciate having to have these conversations, and sometimes it’s more preferable to deal with the limp and just lean on friends or a basket than it is to deal with even the potential for fucking comments.

But if I thought it’d get people off my ass by using it, since the “limp, scarring on leg, skinny” signifiers apparently are not successfully transmitting the Barrier Of Disability Stfu, then I’d suck it up and use my cane more.

.. except that I’ve had people get up my ass over the mask even with my cane out, and then get startled and realise I have a fucking cane afterwards.

So it really does not help!

The mask comments are just one of those things that I think I have to accept - I don’t have control over people being shitheads, and I may be driving myself a little batshit if I try to come up with means through which I can control their behaviours, lol. And while I can lower the comments on the cane by not using it if I don’t feel like dealing, going mask-off isn’t really an option. So stiff fucking upper lip it.

But MAN. MANNN. Wish people would just not.

[brakingpoint]

Hey hey sleepover Saturday may I have some advice please?

My roommate at university is a close friend of mine, but I’ve noticed as I’ve worked on my confidence more that she tends to be quite superior. Things like giving me advice unprompted or asking why I was doing poorly in an ‘easy’ major (i was majoring in economics, she in biochemistry).

I am also very aware I isolate when I’m doing poorly mentally, which sometimes causes me to not reach out as often as I should. I understand that this is not great and I am trying to correct it, I have apologized to her and made an effort to talk to her more now that I am beginning to feel better. She seems now to treat me more as an outsider now, though.

All this to say, I want to ask her if she could adjust her language or something so I feel less looked down upon, but I’m not sure if that’s an appropriate request on my part or if I should wait until she seems a little more comfortable to bring it up.

Also… hi! Hope you’re well ♥️

hi there!<3

honestly i do think that's a perfectly appropriate request to make and i think it's possible to do so without it becoming a big deal or an argument (if she's mature about it lol). i mean i'll be honest i think the different majors comment is a bit dickish and i would just straight up call a friend out and say Hey, that's not fair actually, if they did that to me. but as for the unprompted advice thing i do think the best way to navigate it is to politely be like "hey, i do genuinely appreciate you trying to help me out & i know your intentions are good but i think i'd rather tackle this problem on my own. promise i'll let you know if i need anything though"

as for the isolating thing it's a tricky situation and i know i'm very much guilty of doing that too. i think if she's fallen into the pattern of treating you more as an outsider even after you've apologised i think it's defo time to have a quick "hey, we good?" chat. i also find when i've isolated myself from friends due to being in a funk that taking the initiative to organise a social activity for us can be a good ice breaker bc it's a more tangible way of showing that you do still care about them & want to remain invested in the friendship. i'd say approach that before bringing up the fact that you feel talked down to sometimes as i think that kind of conversation is a lot easier to have once you're kind of back on good terms yknow? rather than leading with that while things are still awkward between you

but i think it's totally fine to try to clear the air on both those fronts and it's totally within your rights to do so<3

[goyangii]

is it okay if i ask u about your experiences with being fetishized in online and offline spaces?? i deactivated my social media over this but i feel like a lot of non-Koreans make random Korean people feel like we're the spokesperson on all Korean issues??? i've noticed this fetishization happens a lot so i kinda avoid non-Koreans if they're kpop fans or if they act weirdly (they have a way of treating us like fantasies but also act very weirdly toward us)

oh my god yessss. for a disclaimer, i grew up in kr/kr american neighborhoods or at least very predominantly asian neighborhoods for almost all my life so most of my experience with ppl being gross was online and in school only and tbh until like, maybe ~2010 i never had a problem with ppl being weird about korean stuff specifically, mostly just weebs/yellow fever types. but when that started becoming a problem i just never said that i was korean specifically and if i ever made reference to my race i'd say "asian" or "east asian" only lol. if i was around other asians i'd be more open but it's definitely tough, as i've had non-kr asians be kind of weird about it too sometimes unfortunately and i really don't know what to do about that either bc i do not do that to others?? it's so bizarre to me. and yes omfg i definitely see wym about ppl acting like One Random Korean Person is somehow Representative of All of Korea and has to educate/have opinions on every korean-related topic under the sun too, i've had friends (even non-kr asian friends!!) always ask me about any korean related topic as if i was the expert on everything korean or assume i care about X korean show or Y kpop song or Z korean issue or will teach them about [___] korean food or whatever.

it reminds me of white friends expecting me to teach them how to use chopsticks in uni or always asking me how to pronounce any asian name (even if it wasn't korean!) and honestly annoys me a lot bc i would never do this to someone of another race. like i would never go to a chinese person and treat them like chinese person instead of chinese person so idk why they act like this????? and online dating is AWFUL esp as kpop got so big, i legit have had ppl immediately open with "omg i love kpop/kdramas/kimchi 😍" as if i'm supposed to care????????

also i'm korean american, not born in korea so i'm 2nd gen but my korean is awful (i learned japanese growing up instead bc my elementary school had very limited options...my mom is still giving me grief about that 20+ yrs later oof) and i don't consume much korean media outside of what i watch/listen/see with my family, so i'm often a "bad" korean or not korean enough to some people. it's one thing if my family jokes about it bc i can't handle spicy foods but it does hurt when it comes from like, ajummas at church or something. i'm also not "traditionally" a good woman — i have darker skin (maybe from growing up in a tropical area?? i used to be even darker and my mom would always comment on it negatively), i am more masc/gnc, i don't date men, i don't/won't have children, i have no interest in becoming a doctor/lawyer, i am not christian, etc. so my mom has gotten a lot of flak from other koreans for raising me "wrong", even from her own extended family. it really just sucks bc it made me hate her and korean culture when i was a kid and it's taken so long to understand why she tried to pressure me to fit an ideal mold. then on the flip side i can't even just be a "normal" american, i've had ppl assume i don't speak english (i speak fluent english!!!!), say i sound esl (i literally don't T_T this one feels kinda racist ngl), ask me where i'm from, stare at me in more white areas, white ppl randomly try to speak (really, really bad) korean to me, etc so i find i don't really fit in comfortably anywhere but with other asian americans in the end. it's a kind of awkward in between two worlds where i'm never enough of either to count. idk if you experience that too. it sometimes bums me out bc i have friends who are, say, 2nd gen filipino or chinese or viet and we all share that feeling to varying degrees. like a fish out of water kind of feeling.

specifically in trans spaces i've had a lot of issues with fetishization, esp from white tims (though i've had my unfair share from tif kpop stans) but also from non-kr asian tims, but thankfully it's been long enough that i've been out and cut most tims out of my life that i could w/o getting cancelled as a terf that most of my day to day is just frustration with irl (this is like 90% of the problem) and more casual online spaces like twitter, reddit, tumblr, etc. (which i try to be kind of anonymous in nowadays). still i do have to interact with some tims and tifs and it does make my stomach crawl to see full ass white women larping as kpop boys or men posting about how asian women are the ~peak of femininity~ and they just want their ~kpop goddess~ or whatever and nobody calls this shit out for what it is. it's so demoralizing and i'm happy i left the trans community. i just wish there was more of an asian/asian american detrans community (hah...if only) or at least lgb community, bc i only know a very small handful of lgb asians and most of them are bihet women......

interestingly outside of kpop and kdramas most of the fetishization seems to be just bog standard asian fetish/yellow fever, idt most of the idiots who try to hit me up with "i've never been with an asian before ;)" even know what i am lmao. so i guess there's that? i've always had a weird frustration w/ this bc it's like korea is invisible except for kpop/kdramas so they can't even be more specific in their fetishization lmfao

this turned out super long and idk if it helped but if you ever want to message me off anon abt this pls feel free to!! i try to be kind of vague on here bc i am scared adding details will dox me. but i would be totally open to off-anon messaging as this is smth i feel strongly about esp as i've gotten older and moved to whiter areas. hoping to move back to at least a more asian neighborhood soon bc god i am sick of going to the gas station or whatever and being full on stared at by the white ppl there. it makes me very uneasy tbh. unfortunately am stuck rn for work.

[shprka]

Talking with my friend and thinking about Billy joining which team in the new season would be the funniest/most interesting.

Joyce, Hopper and Murray in Russia

9/10, would be hilarious bc Murray would put Billy in his place and psychoanalyse him, funny but also sad Billy would finally see a mother figure and a father figure that have deep respect for each other and arent toxic. Also bc Billy is The Baby of the team they would all adopt him and treat him like a kid (which he deserves btw)

Hawkins gang

15/10, we all want it. So much potential for chaos but also growth and a chance to redeem himself. All the interactions would be top tier funny. Billy interacting with Steve? Dustin? Erica?? Max ofc? Lucas? Robin and Nancy?? We'd all die bc of how hilarious any of that would be

El

10/10, the most interesting imo. They would have to play off of each other well though to make it funny and chaotic. The potential is there though, they are both blunt in different ways. Billy likes to play around with people he talks to, El is *cough*autistic*cough*, doesn't get social cues easily. Also shared trauma but Billy could make it funny

California boys

10000/10, the funniest most chaotic dynamic. Mike being his normal obnoxious self and arguing all the time about anything? Would make Billy's blood boil.

Billy and Will talking about the MF?? Yes! Billy dolling out dating advice and Will coming out to him bc he has had enough of him talking about how to flirt with girls? Yes!! Billy annoying Will even more bc he doesnt even blink before dolling out more advice about flirting with guys, except hes never done it before so its all wrong. Teasing Will about his hair but in an older brother way. Not treating Will like he's fragile like everyone in his life does.

Billy and Jonathan have such different personalities and would clash as much as they would agree and they would hate every second of it. But by the end they would be besties. Also shared trauma and talking about their dads, but like its so painfully awkward its funny. Jonathan picks the music on their road trip and Billy doesnt even mind bc Jonathan has good taste ("except in chicks" thats probably smth Billy would say lol)

Argyle's chill and from Cali so Billy probably wouldn't have a problem with him but I anticipate some funny interactions