#at the end of the day I say a lot of words but idrc that much realistically

[ellzilla]

And to no ones surprise, you know who is acting as if we are the problem. Not surprised just disappointed. Like I THINK when most of the fandom has something to say something about a post, in which YOU deleted, I don’t think we’re the ones that are the problem. At this point it just feels like they’re still using the tags to spite as because they’re upset that no one agreeded with them.

But anyway. I’m glad that the whole incident had some positivity spreading throughout the tag.

Mhm mhm! Agree with a majority of this 'cept the 'still using tags to spite' thing. They def deleted the post bc they couldn't handle how people reacted to their horrendous take was plus didn't want creepypasta fans who have no clue abt it to see it while scrolling through their blog. Ik they've mildly annoyed people before by crosstagging their posts as Marble Hornets when it has little to nothing relating to it so it's just tags for reach. It's kinda crayzay they double downed with another post like. If you're gonna delete that shitass take post, why make another abt it that calls everyone who disagreed with you Horny Stupid Teenagers? Because if you had the post up, people'd see you? And indeed! Felt like a chunk of the fandom for a day said "Wtf you're a lil toxic, reminder to everyone this is Not The Case". Also crazy how they misused "if you can't write, don't" to mean "If you can't write a story 'properly' then don't fucking try" when it meant "If you're forcing yourself to write, don't and take a break". Bro turned a positive and healthy quote into one filled with venom!

[poisonouswritings]

HEHSH USHSH VOICE ACTOR M3(OR FOUR IF U WANT IDRC) WITH VOICE ACTOR MC WHO CSN DO A LOT OF VOICES HEHDJDKSK

Okay this is kinda funny

GN!Reader, Colored Bullet Rule (Felix, Anisa, Sage, Rime), man I'm still upset Crisp Rat is gonna be Mario in the movie, we're gonna say you're also a pretty good impressionist because it's funny

Since Astraea obviously doesn't have cartoons or movies or anything like that, the Starsworn have no idea what a voice actor is. Sure there's narrators in stage plays and whatever but that's not really the same thing. You try to explain it to everyone but they still don't get it.

Sage is very curious about the fact you get paid just to speak because!! He can speak too!!! And he can even pronounce the words right most of the time as long it isn't something stupid like the crap in Felix's spell books!!!!

This obviously leads to Felix going on a lecture about how Sage Could Totally Pronounce Them If He Just Tried! And Rime making fun of Sage, which leads to Sage getting pissed and snapping at them both and then Anisa has to snap at them all to shut up and Wow She's Scary And Kinda Hot When She's Annoyed

The easiest way for you to explain it is to just do it. So you clear your throat, wiggle your shoulders, and do your best impersonation of Felix's posh voice stressing enunciations. Then you cycle through Rime's haughty insults, Sage's aggravated snapping, and Anisa's confident shutdown.

Well Sage and Anisa are staring at you like you're possessed but Felix and Rime seem to get the idea at least.

You end up doing a lot of other samples for them; impersonating characters you've voiced before (which also involves explaining the character and the relating story... That could take a while), popping out some sound effects (which you're not as good at but they find it funny so), impersonating a few more people (You manage to do a pretty good Escell scolding Rime for not wearing a proper shirt, which successfully ticks Rime off because Escell Totally Would (and probably has) Bitched About That, etc etc.

And in the following days and weeks, your voice acting talents become called upon somewhat regularly

Sometimes Felix will be doing experiments and asks you to read information from his book for him. You throw on your best 'annoyed magic teacher' voice (obligatory fuck JK Rowling but all I can picture is Snape) and bark out the info, which makes him giggle so much he nearly fucks up his chalk circle.

When you and Anisa go out on patrol and kids come up to you (as they've heard your talents before), you put on a bouncy, silly voice and tell a few jokes or a silly story to make them squeal with laughter. Anisa finds it incredibly heartwarming and she usually laughs along even though she's heard the jokes before.

Sometimes Rime gets anxiety about the Lord of Shadows - guilt for working with him to begin with, worried he'll somehow find a way to come back again, etc etc. So you put on your best Evil Shadow™ voice and start saying truly stupid things. Rime cracks a smile. He'll eventually laugh, if not just because you're trying so hard. The effort you put in probably makes him feel better than your actual performance.

Sage is trying to be flirty, using innuendos and (frankly kinda corny, but it works when it's him) pick-up lines and putting his hand in your knee and whatever, all while you're out in public at the tavern. So you wait until he's taking a (pretty deep) swig of ale to try out a Kermit-the-Frog-esque voice and flirt back. He promptly spits out his drink because he's laughing so hard, but then he kinda chokes like he's got a hairball so. Um. Help.

Side note what if you were a voice actor for Ex Nihilo?? Or the original Last Legacy if you're older??? You confront LoS (who you know is Mike at this point) and do the voice of whatever character you were and he fucking knows that you've figured him out.

[wabatle]

HEY BESTIE YOU KNOW I WAS COMING

sososo obvi bllk and you obvi alrdy know i am a girl and would like to be matched up w i boy (honestly what girl from bllk would youmatch me up with anyway💀.. egos assistant??)

for personality

i am a weirdo uhh my friends call me an anime nerd but i dont think in that much of one??

i am VERY sarcastic, savage, and snarky

traits are (plz dont take this as like bragging or anthying just being honest) humorous, uhh VERY soft hearted, kind of a pushover but i used to be a rlly big push over, in ambiverted but at first you would prolly think im introverted, oh im also kinda teasing and in very emotional i will cry if watching a sad movie and i get frustrated easily whicheventually makes me cry(crybaby ik)

oh another thing abt me is that im not rlly good at like expressing my emotions like thro words and sometimes in my face like sometimes i see like scenery for egi probably think it’s really pretty and like stunning and beautiful but like if you ask me what i think id prolly just say “oh its nice” like do yknow what i mean?? Same with my face like i always have a straight face unless in rlly happy that day and the only time ill like actually express my emotions is if youre talking to me or make me laugh

dam that was a lot

un ok for hobbies voice acting, gaming, watching anime, listening to music, writing, editing

kinda semi hobbies thati like but dont rlly do that much are baking and dancing

Things that make me feel negative? Hmmm not entirely sure what you mean by that but… i tii hi ink just negative stuff in general like i HATE movies or shows with sad endings they make me so sad and theres jo feeling of satisfaction at the end :((

Things that make me positive? Well it makes me rlly happy when i make other laugh or when ppl approach me or pop in my inbox like what im bot the one starting a convo fir once?? CRaZY

Someone i dint wanna be matched up with… hmm uhh well any of the side chars like the bald monk💀💀💀 i forgot if you even write for them but also others liek naruhaya and giganaru OH i dint wanna be match up with barou either

Idrc if you post this answering my ask or tagging but sometimes i like to read over my ask when someone answers it so actually could youanswer with my ask

OKAY THANKS POOKIE ❤️❤️❤️ DRINK WATERR

𓆩⚝𓆪 — @stellas-starry-stories13's Blue Lock Matchup~!

𓆩⚝𓆪 — A/N: It might be because you're biased and I'm biased but now I genuinely think you and this person are soulmates. ❤️ Ngl we're actually really similar lmaooaoaoao anyways enough of my yapping!!

𓆩⚝𓆪 — I think your Blue Lock soulmate is...

𓆩⚝𓆪 — Chigiri Hyoma!

I read the part where you said you were sarcastic, savage, snarky, and sassy and immediately said, "Chigiri."

You two are such a duo ngl. Like genuinely you guys are perfect for each other. Such a sassy couple like omg.....

The teasing is real. You probably tease each other so much like help.

Chigiri also isn't that great with expressing his feelings, so you both can help each other on that front. If, like in the example you gave me, you say a view is nice and he can tell you're not saying what you're thinking, he'll ask you, "what are you really thinking about?"

He'll def laugh at you if you're crying about a movie 💀. I'm sorry but he would.

He's pretty good at noticing when you're getting stressed or frustrated, so he'll remind you to take a break and watch something with him.

You definitely pick anime to watch together and watch at least one episode every time you see each other.

Similar to when people come into your inbox, Chigiri texts you every day, whether to ask you something or talk to you about stupid things.

It doesn't take him long to laugh at your jokes. Someone else said the same joke as you and he's just (ㆆ_ㆆ), but you say it and he's giggling.

I think he would like to take you to an arcade for dates. I mean, he's pretty much down for doing whatever you like as long as he can enjoy it too.

I hope you liked it! Thanks for the req Stella my pookie bear!!! 😍😍😍

[froggo-man]

What Kept them

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Chapter 1

Going on a trip

This was made multiple years ago, I am actively trying to continue it.

The pictures in this are from Google and I can't find the original photographer. I'm saying this as to not take credit for them.

There will be a lot of cuts since I was lazy with writing back then.

Hope you all enjoy it like the first one.

I will fix a few wordings to fit my new writing style.

(Back then I thought it would be easierif i gave the visuals of the rooms instead of ppl having to worry about both what the room looked like and what their characterlooked like in oke go, so i just looked up the pictures, if you all don't like the pictures then I can cut them out for the next part. )

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I kept all the simple explanations too.

(This is your home)

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I open my eyes slowly, a bright light shining gently warming my (s/c) skin and casting the room in a orange glow.

(I don't have a sunrise version of the room bc I'm getting all these pictures from Google but I'm sure you all have some good imagination)

I sit up from my position on my (f/c)ed bed and stretch, letting the blankets slide down and pool around my waist. Wiping away the remaining bits of drowsiness that hung tight to my eyelids.

I pull the covers off my frame and move to a sitting position at the side of my bed. All that is on my mind has been washed away by the warm sunlight pouring itself into my room, from the large window opposite of my position on the bed, and onto my backside.

'I must of left the curtains open... Oh well'

I thought to myself as I stand and steady myself from my siting position. Walking past the end of my bed and to the far left corner of my room, pull out my drawer and pick an outfit for the day.

(I chose a Gender neutral aesthetic from cottage-core bc it fits me but you all can do as you please, idrc. Also either way you are going to need a bag.)

(No you haven't changed into the clothes yet)

After I picked out something to wear I headed to the bathroom, right next to my room.

Placing the outfit on the counter and slid open the glass door to the shower turning on the water to start a warm stream. After taking of my night clothes, I step into the warm shower and close the glass door so that none of the cold air outside of the shower can enter.

(No shower scene for you))

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Turning off the water and grabbing the (f/c) towel from off the hanger, I pat myself down a bit then wrap the towel around myself, and stepping out of the shower.

After I'm completely dry and clothed, I brush my teeth then head out into the hallway once more, walking all the way down the hall and down the stairs I find myself at the archway to the kitchen.

There I see a male figure, about 6'2, hazel eyes, short curly black hair that travels to his beard the same consistency as the hair on his head, peach completion shaded Orange from the sunlight. He's wearing a red and black plad flannel shirt with black jeans and black leather boots.

He is standing over the stove with a pan in his hand and two plates staked with pancakes as he moves to plate the pancake he had just completed.

"G'Mornin Brenden," I say, as I head to the cabinet and take out two glasses.

"Morning," Brenden says with a cheerful, deep voice. I walk over to the fridge and take out the milk, I fill one glass with milk while Brenden takes the plates to the table and comes back to grab anything that can be added as toppings (idk what y'all like on your pancakes). I head to the table as Brenden comes back to the table with (You favorite Toppings/ F/T), syrup and butter and his cup now filled with orange juice. We settled down and start eating our breakfast.

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"So, how did you sleep?" Brendan asked, popping a cut peace of pancake in his mouth.

"I stayed up most of the night, I'm glad I got any sleep at all" I huff with a laugh, downing half of the milk in my glass

Brendan groaned lightly, "If you had a rough night I would of made waffles instead" he said looking slightly worried.

"Nah, no need for the goods, I'll be fine," I laughed lightly (aka pushing air out the nose bc who laughs now and days).

"Alright," Brenden said smiling slightly swallowing down the rest of his food, "Do you have any plans for today," he says looking up to me.

"I was thinking we could visit my grandma, she called me a week ago asking if I could stop by sometime this month, she was thinking about renovating a few rooms in that big ol' house of hers," I say as I finish my food as well picking up my plate and cup and heading back to the kitchen to clean the used dishes.

Brendan fallows with his used dishes and helps me load them, along with the other discarded dishes left in the sink, into the dish washer, "Sounds fun I guess,"

"Totally," I say, "We can head out now if we want to get there early," I say as more of a suggestion than a statement.

"Can you call her to see if she will allow us to say a few days while we help her? It would be pointless to waist gass traveling back and forth just to renovate some rooms. I can hurry and pack some cloths for like a week," Brenden asked as he pointed a thumb in the direction of upstairs were our rooms are held.

"Sure, I'll give her a call and we can get everything situated," I say wipping my hands off on a towel.

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(You called your grangran and she said it was fine for you and your friend to stay over for as long as you both would like, you got packed and loaded into the car now youve driven to a far off village. You and Brenden get to your gran's house anv that's were we will pickup)

(This is Grammy's place) ((I would want to live there))

(This is the Brenden's car, I'm putting yours in the shop for no reason 👀)

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Stepping out of the truck, picking up my duffle bag that I kept in the front with me I head up the walkway to the front gate. Brenden fallowing along with his own duffel bag and both of suitcases.

Ringing the doorbell, we stand on the porch patiently. Seeing the figur of my grandmother getting closer to the door through the window. The moment my grandmother has the door open, she is quick to hug me, "Oh hello, my grand baby," my grandmother says as she hugs me tightly. "It's good to see you, and I see you came with your friend," she lets go of me then raps Brenden in a hug in which he returns.

"Hello Mrs. (Grandma's last name (G/L/N))" Brenden says as I laugh at the image of Brenden, a big burly guy, giving my grandmother, a 5'6 lady. Once they have separated, my grandma thurns to usher us inside.

"Come now, it's quite late, and I expected you both to be here later so I got a room ready for you both," she says heading straight up the stairs, with me following code behind and Brenden, after closing the door, hurrying after us.

My grandma leads us down the hall, around the left corner, and to the far end door, she opens it to reveal a neat set-up.

"Uh, grandma, cans you prepare another room?" I ask softly slightly closing in on myself.

"Why" she asked looking at me with slight consern, the look quickly turning into a stern look, "You two aren't fighting, are you?"

"No! Me and Brenden are cool, it just that we aren't together," I say lightly laughing when her face turned into one of shock and understanding.

"OH, then yeah sure, you should have told me," she steps out of the room and goes tward a room three doors down the hall at the right side. "One of you can stay in here, it's a little smaller, but I'm sure it will do fine,"

"I'll stay in that one, (Y/N) you can have this room," Brenden says as he takes his suitcase to his room after putting mine at the end of the bed.

"Alright, I'll unpack quickly so we can talk about the renovations," I lay my duffel bag across the side of the bed and start to take out my main necessities, placing my laptop on the side drawer and going to the rooms bathroom.

I placed my (f/c) towels on the rack and my toothbrush in the small cup at the side of the sink. Leaving the bathroom I unpack my suitcase into on of  the drawers next to the bed.

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After I finished unpacking I go to the sitting area where my grandma is waiting with some sweets and dinks for me and Brenden, as I sit down on one of the seats Brenden comes in and settles down as well.

"Since it's so late I won't have you two do anything, you've been on the road for most of the day so I'll let you rest for today," Grandma says, taking a sip of her plain bitter tea.

"Thanks Mrs.(G/L/N)," Brenden say taking a bite of a strawberry cheesecake tart.

"Oh please call me (grandma's name(G/N)), or grandma like my grand kids does," she said folding got hands over her lap, smiling at him.

Brendan nods, still chewing on the tart.

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(How long is this story? The day continues, you and Brenden get further more settled in and used to the halls and rooms, you all meet in the dining room for dinner then head to your separate rooms to shower and get some shut eye.

Drink some water)

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Chapter 2

Plans for the weekend

This one is shorter

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I slowly open my eyes to the calm light of the morning sun peaking into the room through the curtains. I sit up and grab my phone from off of the side desk and turning it on,

6:43am

It's quite early so I decide to lay back down to sleep. As I'm getting comfortable under the covers once more I hear the slight squeek of the door opening.

A few seconds later there is a weight the appears at the end of the bed, I turn to see what it was, finding my grandma's cat, Gideon.

(These are big house cats)

He struts up to my head and sits himself onto the pillow next to my head, then sits to look me in the eye.

"You want me to feed you, don't you?", I get a purr in return making me sigh.

"Fine," I throw the cover from off of me and hop out of the bed, "why couldn't you have just asked gam-ma, she would give you extra pets" I try to negotiate with Gideon for him to go to My grandmother instead of me, yet the only response I get in return is him hopping off of the bed gracefully and going to wait for me at the door.

Groaning, I trudge out of my room, down the hall to the stair case, and down to the kitchen.

(Think of your own grandma's kitchen I'm sleepy)

I make my way to the bottom cabinet near the entrance, opening it and grabbing one can of soft cat food.

I open the can and dump the goop into Gideon's food tray, taking his water fountain and refilling the purifier. 'Dang spoiled brat' I place the small fountain back next to the food tray.

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(Shower & changed. You in the living room talking about the renovations and all that crap)

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"Oh and I was playing on making the right wings bathroom into just a single room bathroom, and we could have the bathroom at the cross hall be the main bathroom," Grandma rambled on excited to start on the new reservations.

"What if more than one person has to use the bathroom? We might not want to change that one... Plus half the rooms already have bathrooms you don't need more," I spoke blandly, looking at the notes of what she wanted renovated, moved, or thrown out, and scribbled the idea out after she agreed.

[yumestarz]

how they spend their time with you.

featuring ; a . trappola , c. diamond , d (eez nutz) . spade

self indulgent. cause i really need comfort rn </3

notes . first post yay !! ALSO these r probably ooc but idrc 🏃🏃 can be seen as romantic or platonic !

honest to god i think he would just run around w u tbh

ya’ll cause A LOT of trouble

poor riddle honestly y’all make him look like dis 🍅

it’s ok tho cause we still love him

i think

ANYWAY

he would pull a lot of pranks with you

(most of them are on riddle and deuce btw)

it probably ends up in you two getting detention with crewel or riddle collaring u both

either way he thinks ur great and a fun person to hang around

ur like his bsf outside of juice bro don’t be mean to him even if he’s mean to u sometimes it’s just tough love (/j)

he is a real pain in the ass sometimes bro i mean did you SEE what he did to riddle in chap 1

roasted the EVERLOVING SHIT out of him oh my god

anywayz y’all probably tease each other a lot

and i mean a lot

people think ur fighting but

“nope that’s just how we talk to each other ☺️”

U CHEER HIM ON DURING BASKETBALL GAMES I TAKE NO CRITICISM

ur the loudest one in the stands y/n

besties 4 eva 🫶

cater is 100% someone you’d have to form a close bond with in order for him to open up to you again i take no criticism

he trusts you a lot and i think most of your time with him is either spent have like deep conversations about life , him rambling about whatever’s going on while you listen or magicam photoshoots if he’s up for it

like his walls just come crumbling down when he’s around you and he feels like he’s able to be himself around you, because you’re just that trustworthy yk

he doesn’t have very many off days when he’s with you but when he does you’ll know even if he dosent tell you

please comfort him when he’s like this, okay? he needs your words of affirmation just as much as you might need his

but outside of that, he is 150% an older brother figure

i feel like since he’s a third year he probably has a lot of experience in a lot of things so just ask him when you need help with something !! he might be lighthearted about it but i promise u he’ll give genuine advice if you srsly need it

he is your biggest hypeman!!! and you are his !! y’all support each-other 24-7

random !! magicam !! photoshoots !! he loves bragging about how great his bestie is 🫶

overall y’all r great 10/10 5 star rating on yelp

i am. inexperienced for writing for deuce so i apologize 🫶 to all my deuce stans (including myself) out here but i’ll try my best

hmm

i feel like since he hangs out with ace and you a lot most of his time is spent with you two but

i think whenever ace is busy at that moment and you two have a moment of free time together

i think he is another one that just likes to either talk or listen to you, probably a mix of both

like he just loves to hear you talk because it is such a contrast to aces’ yelling all the time

like ur?? speaking normally?? what is this sorcery

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you both definitely go to the duck pond and feed ducks

i know he’s more of a chicken kinda guy but i feel like he has a soft spot for all animals yk

he also has a soft spot for you

literally so nice to you? like dosent say anything that would make you upset

would definitely let you vent to him and does his best to give you advice that might help you

he might not think it’s the greatest but if you say that it helps you then that’s all that matters to him

he just wants his friends to be happy 🥹

would definitely help you study even if he himself dosent understand it

ya’ll learning together to be the top two students

…..and also maybe helps you get back at ace for all his antics 😒

“let’s get him back y/n! 💪” hell yeah deuce

ace & him protect you a lot the three of you are inseparable

he’s not as affectionate as ace is but i feel like if you asked for a hug then obviously he’d give you one (while still being flustered about it)

another great friendship 50/10

this work is property of yumestarz on tumblr. please do not copy , repost , or translate my works on any other platform without my permission.

[tojigasm]

Sorry that I didn't reply I was asleep lol, it's about my bestfriend me and her have been bestfriends for 12 months about to be a year in February but these past 3 months she's been acting so different, she says she dosent give a fuck about anyone anymore which my makes me wonder does she even give a fuck about me? Or even our relationship, I spent literally 2 hours crying from stress. She's told me she won't comfort me because she dosent get any comfort even though ive been giving her paragraphs of me comforting her for many months. Plus everytime I make fun of her (jokingly also the jokes arent offensive) she tells me kill myself she calls me whore, slut and way more. And i really dont want to admit it to myself that this is a toxic relationship. She also blocked me 2 days ago because i was 'being annoying' and theres times where i want to let go but at the same i dont want to because i just know i will never find somebody who is just like her, who understands me. I really love her a lot but fuck she makes me feel like shit, she also says the n word even though she isnt that race and it makes me really uncomfortable because she has never acted like this before. Like one time I told her about a really really deep personal thing i have and she said "idrc" i expected her to at least comfort me but it ended up making me feel terrible, if you compare her from now to 12 months ago you can see she isn't the same person i knew. I really want to help her but she keeps denying it she might say she dosent care anymore but i can see she really does care but dosent want to admit it. Shes also said "me and you have a love and hate relationship" and i said "what makes you think i hate you?" She stood quiet and i started thinking more about it and now i think she completely hates me, im trying so hard to make this relationship alive like im making jokes, sending her funny videos, joking around with her, texting her everyday telling her "goodmorning" and "goodnight" and "i love you" all types of stuff and I expect her giving me the same treatment but then she just tells me to "stfu" (sorry if this dosent make sense I just really don't know how to explain it.)

Bro imma be honest with you, drop her rn. She's a horrible person and she doesn't actually "get you" she's manipulating you. And she's racist. Drop her immediately, I don't fuck with that shit and you shouldn't either. She's a freak fr, and you shouldn't be around her

[sneezefiction]

meet the family

Tsukishima x Reader - Scenario

request: “hii gracie🥺 i've kinda been obsessed with ur stuff recently and just wanted to a scenario with tsuki having a s/o (fem reader but idrc honestly) who has really protective brothers and has to like try and "earn" their respect idkkk but yea im totaallyyy not requesting this cause i have really protective brothers.... :/ anyways again i love ir stuff hope u have a good day:) -🕊”

a/n: ahhh i enjoyed writing this so much !! it really helped me tap into Tsukki’s personality a bit more. thank you so much for the request <3

warnings: anxiety, low self-esteem

wc: 1050

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“They’re gonna hate me.” 

“No, they won’t.”

“They’ll think I’m lame.” He counters.

“But you’re not.” 

“How long do we have to stay for?”

“It’s just dinner, Tsukki, you’ll be fine.” Your reassuring voice helping calm his nerves, even if just by a little bit.

The questions and statements are scattered throughout the length of the car ride. Tsukki’s fingers lightly drumming on his thigh. Trickling down the window, the tapping of gentle raindrops doing their best to soothe the passengers inside. You delicately place your free hand onto his, the other carefully gripped around the steering wheel.

You glance over.

He cleaned up so nicely for tonight, knowing how important it was for him to meet your family. You helped him pick up a pair of skinny, dark jeans and a dressier top. The colors in the shirt made his beautiful, honey-brown eyes pop. 

And you love those eyes… but right now they’re anxious.

It took many months of dating and several brutally honest, late-night conversations, but you eventually learned just how severely Tsukki struggles with self-confidence.

Your heart sinks, knowing the internal dialogue going on inside him. The one that’s at war with his more logical side. Tsukishima has learned how to stand up against the darker demons, but that doesn’t mean he’s not ferociously battling to find his worth.

However, tonight is especially rough because there’s one tiny detail he can’t seem to get over.

Your brothers.

From how you described them, he was pretty sure they’d want nothing to do with him. That he’d be regarded as a piece of trash, in need of throwing out. 

Because Tsukishima isn’t exactly a sweet guy.

He’s also not fazed by others disliking him. He already dislikes himself enough as it is. So confidence doesn’t affect how he lives his day to day life… but it definitely affects how close he is willing to get to a person. 

In all honesty, Tsukki showcases his worst traits so that only those who really want to be near him, will stick around in the end.

But somehow, even with his rudest comments and his standoffish demeanor, you gravitated toward him. You made it clear that this wasn’t a short term interest. You aren’t some shooting star, acting as a wish giver, getting his hopes up only to sail right past him.

He doesn’t deserve you.

He’s sure your brothers will realize this and make it known to you.

But, for now, you actually want him.

And you make him feel wanted.

So here he is, one year into the relationship, mentally preparing for his demise. All for you.

You pull up in the bumpy, gravel driveway, your palm still warming up the top of his hand. Car doors click open and shoes crunch around on the pebbly ground.

You make your way up the steps of your old, familiar home, a heavy wave of nostalgia washing over you.

Tsukki follows right up, meeting you at your side and gently grasps a couple of your fingers. It’s his way of saying, “I’ll be okay.” You let out a breath you hadn’t even realized you’d been holding in.

A couple knocks on the door and you’re welcomed swiftly by warm, enthusiastic faces. Your two brothers bring you into a group hug of sorts as you reconnect for the first time many months. 

Their gazes then wander over to Tsukishima, eyes looking up and down, sizing him up, identifying their sister’s first longterm boyfriend.

Tsukki holds his stoic face for a moment and then lets a friendly smile shine through. He has perfected the art of squashing his nerves in front of normal human eyes. Only you can tell he’s grappling with his mind in this moment.

“Boys, meet Tsukishima. Tsukishima these are my brothers!” You introduce calmly, signaling your brothers to greet him with the same energy they gave you.

“Hey, Tsukishima, how goes it?” One of the two speaks up.

“Nice to meet you both. It’s going fine, the drive was really pleasant.” Tsukki responds cordially.

“Oh, I’m sure it was. Both of you come on inside.” The other replies, leading you indoors.

You make yourself at home, kicking off shoes and hanging up your jacket.

You turn around only to realize that your boyfriend is suddenly missing along with the other two boys.

Poor fella, I hope they don’t do anything strange, you hope to yourself.

---

Ah, of course. Confrontation, my favorite, Tsukki mentally remarks. Apparently, even under stress, he still manages to drip in sarcasm.

Your brothers have quietly pulled him aside in the short time you took your eyes off him.

Oh, what he would give to be back at home, lying down and listening to music with your arms wrapped around him.

But the thought is short-lived. He’s eye to eye with your family and needs to take whatever shit he needs to take to get through tonight. 

“Look,” The taller one of your brothers starts, “clearly y/n likes you a lot.”

Not exactly the most intimidating way to start an interrogation, Tsukki muses.

“And we want her to be happy…” continues the other.

Tsukki nods slowly, waiting for the “but.”

“So are you willing to do that for us?” They finish, one of them setting a firm, trusting hand on his shoulder.

“Because we want to like you, but first we have to like how you treat our y/n.”

Tsukishima’s eyes widen only by a fraction, but he’s sincerely confused. He was expecting something… tougher? Scarier? Hell, he’d anticipated being roughed up at least a little bit.

But it was nothing like what he’d imagined. It was short and to the point. They just needed to know that he would be there for you, since they can’t always be by your side, fending of your enemies and fears.

Their question isn’t a difficult one to answer.

He wants what’s best for you because he loves you. He would do anything to make sure you were secure and cherished.

The words come easily to Tsukishima’s lips.

“...Yes. You can trust me with y/n.” Tsukki nods thoughtfully. 

“I won’t ever hurt her or let anyone touch her.” He promises them. It’s simple, but honest.

He was overthinking it the entire time. Your brothers didn’t want him out of your life… they just wanted you protected. Safe and cared for. Treated with respect and integrity.

They don’t hate him.

They don’t think he’s lame.

But it’s definitely not “just dinner.”

No, this is just the beginning of Tsukishima’s proving himself to you. Proving himself to your family, that he can love you well.

That he can defend you.

Fight for you.

So he reconvenes with you for dinner with a newfound conviction, thanks to your brothers.

He now knows he has to be confident. Confident in himself and in his choices.

If not for him, at least for you.

[thepigeonsopinion]

So…

As I said, after my theory and salt rant on the spoilers and trailers for the episode “Crocoduel” (link down below)

I would probably say my thoughts on the episode after I was done watching the episode itself. So, here I am. :)

Also, I’m on a road trip with my family and some family friends, so I watched the episode and typed this up late (or early) night (or morning) so…:p

Anyways! Before I start saying my thoughts on the episode, let’s do a summary or a synopsis of the episode.

Warning: Spoilers for “Crocoduel”

The episode starts during Kitty Section Rehearsal. Everyone is having fun, while Kitty Section is playing. When Kitty Section finished their set and everyone was praising them Luka all of sudden mentions that Marinette hasn’t been to rehearsals in a while, which leads Luka to think that she’s avoiding him, which also leads to him starting to get depressed. Everyone tries to reassure him that she isn’t avoiding him, she’s just really busy (mainly Rose). It doesn’t work and Luka gets more depressed and leaves the group. The group then tries to make a plan to help Luka and Marinette by exploiting the twins b-day.They ask Juleka if she approves of the plan and she nods. Juleka then tells Luka about the party that they’re having on the boat. Luka gets excited to see Marinette and everyone at the party. After, Marinette finds about the party on the Liberty she’s able to piece together the groups plan and ask Juleka if she can somehow find a way for Luka not to be there at the party. Juleka tries to tell or ask Luka if he can’t attend the party, but she doesn’t have the heart to tell him. Then, all of sudden Jagged comes the through the porthole of the twins room. Jagged gives Luka the attention while Juleka is in the corner. Anarka burst into room to tell Jagged he is not allowed on the boat, which results in Jagged being invited to the twins b-day party. On the day of the party, while everyone is going down to the Liberty, Juleka starts to feel anxious about not being able to comply to everyone’s wishes. When Marinette goes to thank Juleka she sees Luka and starts to panic and leaves below deck. Luka takes this as a sign she doesn’t want to be his friend anymore and starts feeling depressed, which almost causes his akumatization Luckily, everyone is there to reassure and comfort him. Meanwhile, with Juleka and Marinette, Marinette asks her why Juleka wasn’t able to not invite Luka, which Juleka starts to feel guilty about it which almost causes her akumatization, but Marinette is there to comfort her. Cue, Jagged coming aboard the Liberty and greets Luka. They go downstairs so Jagged can give his present to Luka. Juleka starts to feel left out and Marinette calls him out. Jagged explain to them that it was a misunderstanding and tells them that the gift was for Juleka and the gift Luka gets is an old record of Jagged and Anarka’s is old music. Anarka sees this and tells him not give Luka that because it’s the reason they fell apart. Jagged disagrees with Anarka and they get into argument, which results in both of them being akumatized. Everyone evacuates the boat and watches the two akumas. The akumas instead of putting an onslaught on Paris they fight each other in a battle. But, when Ladybug appears and intervenes they both go after her. Meanwhile, Adrien is getting ready for a photoshoot (i assume idrk and idrc :)) and sees the commotion and transforms into Chat Noir. (ok guys yk the drill) Ladybug and Chat Noir fight against the akumas, then Ladybug has to use Lucky Charm. The charm leads her to get Juleka and give her the tiger miraculous, which debuts the super heroine Tigress Pourpre (or purple tiger as it said in the english sub :)). Meanwhile, the akumas bring their fight up to the sky and have a stare down before the two super heroines intervene. They get the akumatized object. Tigress uses her power “Collision” (which i still don’t know what it does other than it sends a power full force or punch). They capture the akuma and Ladybug does her Miraculous Ladybug and everything returns as the way it was before the akuma attack. Jagged and Anarka start arguing again until Juleka finally stands up and yells at them to talk instead of argue. They two are shocked, but comply and they make up. The party continues, Jagged and Juleka have their little moment, and Marinette and Luka have a talk about how Marinette avoiding Luka made him feel, which ends on them agreeing to be friends. End of episode.

Wow! That was a long, detailed, and unnecessary summary, but, oh well it’s too late now. :p

Now onto my thoughts on this whole episode :)

So, let’s start off from the beginning. I liked how the costumes were the exact same as the “Silencer” episode, EXACTLY the same :) (you can tell i’m being sarcastic) But, in all seriousness I wish the outfits were a bit different, but I get it, I still like the original costumes though. Luka being sad about Marinette really struck a sad chord in my heart (because I have a soft spot for Luka). And when Rose tried to cheer up Luka by saying she was just busy with water ponies and all that, some might find that stuff endearing and funny, but tbh I found that kinda unnecessary. Not to mention, the way Rose described Marinette’s favorite “water pony” “Pom Pony” it suspiciously sounded a lot like Adrien Freaking Sunshine Agreste. I mean “has a gold mane. that is just so good to brush! But he is super sensible” doesn’t that ring a bell of some kind, it’s kinda obvious with the gold mane, but then again I might be looking to far into that. Anyway, moving forward, I know Juleka is kinda like the outcast or the seventh wheel of the group, but like come on! It was clear that she didn’t think that the plan was great idea, but she just didn’t have the courage to say anything. Like, can’t anyone see that she seems uncomfortable. But, I guess that was a bit redeemed when they gave us a cute julerose moment. Moving forward, to when Alya was talking to Marinette, so the scene itself wasn’t that bad, but when Marinette went up and said and I quote “But…it’s going to be so weird! You know that Luka loves me and I love Adrien! And every time we see each other. he gets hurt because he knows I will never feel the same!”, “You know that Luka loves me and I love Adrien!” “I LoVe AdRiEN!?”. I swear to everything that is keeping me sane if I hear Marinette mention how much she LoVeS AdRiEn and how much she wishes he would notice her I’m going to lose it. I mean, all crushes are valid, but come on! Do we a need a reminder EVERY FREAKING EPISODE! Also, where are the Adrien pictures I swear they were there before, but idk. Also, for once I agree with Alya, she can’t keep avoiding Luka I mean look at this sad boy…

I don’t wanna see this boy frown I wanna see this boy happy and play happy chords on his guitar not sad ones :( Anyway, more into the episode, I feel so bad for Juleka. She really was everyone’s scapegoat this episode. Not to mention, how she felt left out and guilty at the same time. For one, not being as acknowledged as one should be on their b-day on both her family and friends. And then she also felt guilty for not complying to Marinette’s request and feeling bad if she did comply to Marinette’s request. Moving along with the episode, I know that Jagged being Luka and Juleka’s dad is a big “shocker” but come on Marinette you knew that Jagged was Luka’s dad you were there! It so easy to piece together that he’s also Juleka’s father too because, well they’re twins! But, I digress. Speaking of twins, everyone is aware that Luka and Juleka are twins, but (and yes I am bringing this back up) in the synopsis they only say “Juleka’s Birthday”, I would’ve played it off if no one knew that they were twins and it was supposed to be a big reveal where everyone found they were twins (even if Astruc spoiled it already) but no, everyone was aware that they were twins, so I don’t see why it they couldn’t have just added his name in or said the Twin’s Birthday. But, okay I guess they’re just lazy. So, where was I? Oh, right! So,Marinette goes below deck and Juleka follows and in which results in Marinette comforting her. And I feel like that this is the reassurance that Juleka needed, to know that everything was going to be ok because when you look at her face in that scene all her negative thoughts leave her and she feels liberated of some sorts. Fast forward to when the parents get akumatized, three words Couffaine Family Drama and that’s it, that’s legit all I got on that. Anyways! Onto when Ladybug intervened in the akuma fight, I still don’t get why they had to include the scene of Adrien getting ready for something, I kinda think that scene was a bit unnecessary. Like, even if that scene wasn’t included in the final cut of the episode I would’ve been fine, but okay we’ll just deal with the scene. Not to mention, they had to make Chat Noir appear right after Ladybug get hits by the canon ball, some people say coincidence, I say convenient. Now, let’s talk about the lady of the hour, the new super heroine, Tigress Pourpe! I LOVE HER! and I’m not joking. Even when Juleka met Roar, her kwami, I was like “YES!” because Roar actually is the one that helps Juleka get her confidence to help her in suit and out. Not to mention, the relationship between the two is really cute. Even, Juleka’s suit is beautiful and very detailed and you can see the confidence that the Juleka has in the suit. And I AM HERE FOR IT! I also love that Juleka’s super heroine identity is apart of her overall character arc because of how you can see that Juleka standing up to her parents is the first step for her to be able to overcome her anxieties and become more confident in herself. Also, the Jagged and Juleka moment was so cute. I kinda underestimated Jagged as father figure. You can really see that he is trying his best to spend time and provide for his kids and I love it. Now onto the final scene, first of all, I am so relieved that Luka didn’t say “You and Adrien are meant to be” because I swear if he did I would’ve been dead on the floor. Second of all, I freaking melted when Luka said “it hurt more not to see you”. You can tell how much Luka loves and cares about Marinette when he only needs to be her friend to be satisfied, he doesn’t have to be in a serious relationship with her he just needs to be her friend and be able to see her. Luka deserves so much more than what the show has given him.

And with that my rant and review on the episode “Crocoduel” is finished.

I know I probably left some things out, but if I have an epiphany I’ll probably just post it later. Now that this is finished I’ll probably also do a rant or review on the episode “Wishmaker” because I’m very hyped to see it and I know I’ll have a lot to say about it.

And with that I hope everyone has a great rest of their day (or night)! :)

And always remember…

But that’s just my opinion (・ε・)

[mallowstep]

In a dark(er) version of the Human Misty au, what do you think would have happened if Misty and Featherpaw never escaped and Tigerstar was never arrested? How do you think it would have played out for everyone? How different would the triplets be if they had grown up under Tigerstar's metaphorical claws?

hm. if they never Ever escape vs Escaping much later. i'm not partial to no happy ending (long term), but.

tigerstar would have had to change how he dealt with featherpaw. she would have died eventually. humans are resilient to a lot (and indeed altho human!feathertail has more chronic health problems*, she's never as close to death as cat!feathertail), she still would have eventually died.

* re. post tigerclan. there's no second Event in the human version, so she gets to the same point in one event.

after the triplets are born, he'd separate them from mistyfoot. (i'm circling back to featherpaw don't worry.) mistyfoot needs recovery time, and tigerstar pats her on the head and says don't Worry she'll have more kids soon and if she's good this time, maybe she can hold them. wouldn't that be nice?

the triplets are raised...idk. mosspelt, maybe? there are Ambiguous Other Children around lmao. anyway, they're raised and. oh man is it a lot. here feels like a good place to put a cut.

cw: child abuse, sexual assault

so -- by the time they're five, because i don't feel like figuring out what they figure out when, but by the time they're five, they know a few things about their world.

tigerstar is their father.

mistyfoot is their mother.

if they have other full siblings, they don't know them.

mistyfoot is not on equal Level with the other women.

by now, featherpaw and tawnypaw, now feather...idk. we'll keep it feathertail for my sanity. tigerstar has to have leopardstar file that paperwork to avoid questions. anyway, feathertail and tawnypelt are now twenty.

what's up with them?

well, now's a good time to backtrack.

so, after mistyfoot gives birth, tigerstar is a little distracted, and featherpaw has a few months of being By Herself Mostly Ignored and vibing, and she starts to get somewhat better. she figures out after a few weeks that she's not going to see mistyfoot any time soon, if ever.

on tawnypaw's fifteenth birthday, tigerstar changes her name to tawnypelt and marries her to someone. rowanclaw is fine idrc.

tigerstar now has a problem. he doesn't really have anything to do with featherpaw.

see, here's the Thing: tawnypelt is now under rowanclaw's authority. tigerstar has opinions, of course, but she's rowanclaw's wife and his responsibility to manage as he sees fit. any infractions on tawnypelt's part are no longer directly reflected on her, but on rowanclaw.

and. tigerstar decides mistyfoot is Broken In and Obedient. um. it's. i'd say it's depression but it's actually a very reasonable and normal reaction to having four children taken from you. tigerstar literally didn't let her hold the newborns. would go as far as saying if he could keep her from seeing them, he did.

she's exhausted, weak (tigerstar had her on Complete Bed Rest for a long time), and grieving. she hasn't seen featherpaw in months. she thinks featherpaw might be dead.

so tigerstar doesn't like. need featherpaw to control mistyfoot, because mistyfoot has pretty much Given Up fighting. it's terrible, but.

featherpaw is healthier, bc she's not like. being regularly starved and beaten. and she's pretty nonfunctional at Being a Person.

and tigerstar is kind of bored.

so he decides to focus his manipulations on featherpaw. he has plans to have children with her when she's older, so he decides you know. wouldn't it be a Fun Game to see how deeply he can ingrain certain ideas into her brain.

there's -- in one thing i wrote with mistyfoot,

There are times when she feels more like a pet than a person. Tigerstar pushes her head on his shoulder and strokes her hair, and maybe he's right about something, because all the words he's saying to someone else sound like static.

he'd like to get featherpaw to that place. that -- instant and unquestionable compliance. and he has plenty of time to do it. she's fifteen, he wouldn't have children with her for at least five more years, likely ten. maybe he'd give her to someone else first.

but first: he wants to see if he can "break" her.

he moves her to a new room (still no windows, and with a lock to keep her in), and graduates her to new clothing. i'm thinking a plain white shift. it still comes above her knees, and the sleeves end before her elbows, and the collar doesn't come up to her neck, but it's objectively more clothing.

and then he just calls her over to him more and more. stand over there. no, it's alright, you don't have to face the corner. actually, why don't you stand behind me.

he's still violently beating her for minor to imagined infractions, but that's now contrasted with a kindness that she does not understand.

anyway, he eventually starts having her kneel beside him ("you're looking tired, feather"), and he occasionally pats her head or runs her hand through her hair.

and while this is happening, he assigns tawnypelt to "take care" of her. make sure she brushes her teeth. bathe her. wash her hair. that sort of thing.

and if she resists, well. tawnypelt's perfectly capable of delivering a punishment.

so feathertail is about twenty, the kids are five, mistyfoot has been pregnant once but failed to carry the child to term, tigerstar had mudfur give her the hormones again, (a) because it fucks with her emotions and he can manipulate her with that, and (b) because why not have triplets again?

mistyfoot makes very few public appearances these days.

tigerstar now is trying to get feathertail to want to have children with him. because he wants the power trip of (a) getting her to want his children and (b) getting her to agree to have someone else's children first to accomplish that.

and the kids are five.

they're coming by the main house more and more -- they won't move in until they're a bit older -- and i mean. they're raised in this dynamic. mothkit understands she will be someone's wife, etc., etc.

mistyfoot gets pregnant again, feathertail is following tigerstar around because ever since mistyfoot "left her," he's the only person who's shown her any kindness, and the kids are very confused bc like.

mistyfoot is a Pitiable soul in some sense. an example of why women should just submit from the start. it's not good on their poor minds and bodies to rebel for too long.

anyway bc i don't like no happy endings this is probably when i'd have everyone get rescued and it'd b a very different story with a very different recovery.

[mariaiscrafting]

Hey! I understand where your coming from with the dnf analysis blogs. I love seeing the cute moments they have and seeing their dynamic but I don’t really like it when there are posts insisting that they are in a “in-between” or “dating phase’ because they act different to us. People here will say it’s changed and how there was a shift but like friends can just be like that. It’s really not our business on how they act to each other and how intimate they are since we are not apart of their private lives. Also what is your stance on real person fanfiction? Do you think that Dream was wrong for telling his fans to draw or write about the Dream Team? I get that your frustrated that fans are psychoanalyzing everything they do to prove they are dating but I don’t see calling them disgusting is going to really do anything. I would have rather made a post to say not to make assumptions with their private lives and encourage better tags but who am I to tell someone what to post.

Hmm okay, a lot that I'm gonna try to respond to concisely because I'm really close to falling asleep rn.

First, in between phase rhetoric, I agree. Sure, we can try to look into it and be like oh it's cute that they seem closer and more comfortable with each other now. But it could also just be that they became closer overtime, as people tend to naturally. Or they became more comfortable with bantering in front of a stream audience. Idk man, people can assume what they want, idr think there's anything wrong with it as long as we know that at the end of the day it's just our own assumptions and fantasies, and they're v different irl.

Fanfiction and drawing, again, idrc. They outlined their boundaries, which include allowing fanfic and drawings, nsfw or not, so we're not crossing any human decency lines if they drew out explicit boundaries for those two things. People can still go overboard with them, yeah, but frankly, it's different from other CCs, I will admit. Now an argument can be made that because of dnf being okay with shipping and fanart and nsfw shit, they're causing undo harm to other CCs who are not okay with that kinda content of themselves, and yet bc they share a fanbase, the fans blur the lines and ignore other CCs' boundaries. But that's another discussion for another time.

Calling that kinda behavior disgusting was out of frustration and genuine disgust. I'm not as heated rn, but I'm still just as mad and don't retract my words. It took a pretty harsh condemnation back in the day for my teenage self to realize what I was doing was wrong and dehumanizing, so maybe my post will have a similar effect on shippers currently. Maybe not, maybe it'll alienate people, and honestly, that's fine. As long as the discussion is being had, and I'm bringing people into the conversation who won't be as harsh as me - which I've seen in the tags and reblogs of my posts on all this, so thank you, much kinder people than me - that's all I care about.

Please do make that post, and if you feel comfortable with it, please tag me so I can reblog it. I really want more people to talk about this shit, so we as a fandom can have a true discussion and it's not just some angry bitch yelling because she's stressed out

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #178

“for such a little thing, you sure are in your own way.”

What’s your favorite type of bird? Barn owls are actual deities. What was on the last sandwich you ate? Pb & j. What sort of music did you listen to when you were in high school? Same stuff I listen to now, although I had a mild screamo-ish phase. Have you ever gotten back together with an ex? No. How far away is the closest store to your house and what is it? Some cheap dollar store in the town, dunno names. What is your favorite Thai dish? Haven't tried any. When was the last time you made out with somebody? Over a month back. What month of the year was your mother born? August. Are there any candles in your bedroom, and what scent are they? No. What TV show(s) have you been watching currently? None. How many apps do you have on your phone? Six. My phone has so, so little storage ugh. Have you ever dated a smoker? If not, would you? No to both. Are there any movies you’ve seen so many times? Yeah, sure. Of course a lot as a kid, Finding Nemo and The Lion King 1 & 2 especially, then I've watched both Blair Witch Project movies a lot, Jim Carrey's How the Grinch Stole Christmas... How would you describe your sense of humor? Sarcastic. What’s your favorite type of bread? Pumpernickel. Do you share a middle name with any of your siblings? Yeah. Have there ever been any brushfires/wildfires in your area? Yeah. What did you have to eat for dinner last night? Nothing (Thanksgiving was lunch). Do you have separate emails for personal and business? No. Have you ever missed a flight? Yes. Do you know your significant other’s passwords? No, I have no reason to. Would you like to study abroad one day? No. Does someone have a crush on you but you don’t feel the same way? Idk. Who do you feel most beautiful around? Sara. /v\ What’s one makeup item you cannot live without? I could easily live without any. Is there one thing all of your ex’s had in common? All guys. Did you french kiss before you were 16? No. Imagine your spouse just died; would you get re-married? I don't know if I would. Like... I'd never stop loving her, so "moving on" to someone else just because she's no longer physically here would feel disloyal. What’s your favorite thing about life? New, fun experiences and creating strong bonds with people like you. Who pays for the first date? Idrc, but probably whoever proposed the date? Or split the bill? Have you ever had a friend that got a bf/gf, and then completely ignored you? Yeah. Do you play any computer games, if so, what ones? Not currently 'cuz my gaming laptop has to be fixed. :| When it is and I have my own income, I might return to WoW, but I'm not sure. I think the subscription is kinda high, and I have more important things to handle. What is the funniest movie you’ve ever seen? Idk why I find White Chicks so goddamn funny. What lyric means the most to you? Off the very top of my head, "A bloody war behind my eyes; I'll come all right on the other side" from "Free" by Mother Mother. Really makes me think of all I've been through but how I keep coming out stronger. Who is the smartest person you know? Girt. What’s the next movie you will see in theaters? Idk. Are you adopted? No. What band do you like that most people hate? You canNOT look me in the face and say you don't like at least one Nickelback song. I don't get the hate. Any new bands that you actually enjoy? Oh idk. What is your escape from reality? RPing. Do you have any self-inflicted scars on your arms? You can only just barely see them. Do you like “scene” hair? YEAH AND I ALWAYS FUCKING WANTED IT BUT I COULD NEVER POSE IT CORRECTLY 'CUZ MY HAIR WAS TOO THICK AND HEAVY. Have your parents ever been to jail? No. If your friend asked you to hold their drugs, would you? Definitely not. Does it scare you when a relationship moves too fast? Y E A H Would you ever consider hitchhiking? I don't know if I would even in a desperate situation... I don't trust people. Have you ever hitchhiked? No. Have you ever been to a music festival? No. What color car do you want to have? Burnt orange. Would you rather hike a mountain or explore a cave? Explore a cave!!! Would you rather wear a flower crown or veil? Probably a veil? Do you believe peace on earth is attainable? I honestly don't believe so. What type of tattoo do you want? s o  m a n y What is your favorite insect? Butterflies. Would you ever live in the desert? Nooooo. Fuck the heat. Is your town beautiful? I don't really live in one, but the closest town isn't. Which season do you want to get married in? Autumn. Are totem poles cool? YEAH! Favorite art forms? Conceptual photography. What kind of music do you enjoy? Plenty sorts of metal, rock, and alternative. Do you have any gay friends? Yeah. Where is your favorite place to go? The zoo, even though I have mixed feelings about them... Do you know your dad? Yeah. How often do you get on Facebook? At least once a day. Are you related to anyone who’s in prison? Don't think so?? What concerts are you attending in the near future? Y'ALL I MIGHT FUCKING SEE OZZY IN JANUARY. He and Megadeth are coming to Charlotte and the tickets aren't too bad. :') It's a loooong drive but Mom was like "hell yeah" when I told her and wants to buy tickets after she gets her tax return AH. Metallica is a possibility too, but Mom doesn't think she can afford it. If you were kicked out of your house, where would you go first? Dad's. What are you currently looking forward to? Sara's b-day, Christmas, hopefully getting my laptop fixed, aforementioned concerts, and school. What was the reason you got grounded for last? Idk, that was a long time ago. But most likely for "talking back" to Mom. The last two people you kissed, are they virgins? Yes; probably not. Is there a guy that knows everything or mostly everything about you? Yeah. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? A bit to the left. If you could have anything delivered to your doorstep each morning, what would it be? Um,,, money?????? What is one vacation destination that many people think is just fabulous but which you personally have no desire to visit (or revisit)? New York City. Heard from my sister it's a shithole with the craziest and rudest people known to Planet Earth. I'm not big on cities, anyway. Which animated character is your all-time favorite? Uhhhhhh... Dory, maybe? If you could own a home on the shore of any body of water in the world, which waterfront would you choose? I WANT THE PINK BEACHES OF THE BAHAMAS. But I'm scared of the Bermuda Triangle so will probably never see them. :'''''') What serves as the greatest motivation for you in your daily life? MY RECOVERY. If I got through what I have, I can't ever give up and roll back down that hill. I'm focusing to always improve. If you could have any round object in the world, what spherical item would you want? t h e  g a m e s p h e r e ,  l a d s If you were left alone for one hour with nothing more than a pen and a notepad, what would you be inclined to draw or write during those 60 minutes? Practice eyes or start a poem. If you could witness anything at all in super-slow motion, what would you want to see? Hmmm... OH, maybe a big cat's tongue licking meat. See how it actually shears tiny bits off. Cats' tongues are cool. What do you forget to do more often than anything else? Take my anxiety med at the right time. If you could teach everyone in the world one skill, what would it be? Compassion. You’ve been offered the chance to paint a billboard along a highway with any message you choose, as long as it’s only 10 words long. What is your message? Oh jeez, I'd have to think too hard on this. Who’s the last guy to give you roses? Tyler. Did your parents do drugs when they were younger? Not to my knowledge, and I doubt they would've. Do you have any relatives who live on a different continent than you? I don't believe so. What are your religious beliefs? Were you raised with those beliefs, or did you develop them on your own? I'm a theist, entailing I believe in a creator, but I know nothing about him/her/it. I personally picture them as a peaceful and sage deity that allows life to go on without it intervening anywhere, letting the world evolve on its own and see how we adapt to our unique settings and handle life. In the end, I believe we are either given some form of paradise or a type of damnation depending on how you wrote your story. I like to imagine the good go to their personal vision of "Heaven," and I wonder if the paranormal activity some experience in life are the acts of the damned, apparently confined to remain on Earth or something. Anyway, I wasn't raised with such beliefs; they were developed. I was brought up Catholic, then I turned to just simple Christianity as I didn't agree with a lot of Catholic ideas, and most recently I abruptly turned away from that in favor of theism. How did you and your significant other celebrate your last anniversary? We went out for breakfast. What has been your favorite house/apartment/etc you’ve ever lived in? My last house for location, as a house itself, my childhood one. What’s something in your house that currently needs to be cleaned? I need to vacuum my room. Do you still remember any of the dreams or nightmares you had as a child? Yup. What’s the most bizarre conspiracy theory you’ve ever heard of? The world is donut-shaped. Yeah. Do you have a good sense of direction? Not. At. All. Who was your first crush? Did you ever actually date them? Dylan, and no. What’s the weirdest, rudest, or most ridiculous thing a guest has ever done in your home? Who knows. Has anyone ever told you you’re manipulative? I don't think so. Do you know anyone who owns their own business? No. When was the last time you weren’t 100% sober? Uhhh maybe that movie night with Colleen and Chelsea. Is obtaining a college degree something that is important to you? Well, for my possible career future. Have you ever eaten at a vegan restaurant? No. Do you view substance abuse as a disease or a choice? I have... mixed feelings here. Starting something, that is indisputably a choice. Becoming addicted though, I'm not sure. Some people have addictive personalities so have a bigger inclination to become addicted, but isn't that just a personal trait/weakness you can fight?? I dunno. I know it's labelled as a disease by people way more informed than me though, so. What does the last text you sent say? Don't feel like checking. Does it bother you when people call you ‘ma'am’ or ‘sir?’ No. I live in the South, that's polite. Have you ever been obsessed with a television character? Does Dory count for movies? ha ha Do you ever wish you had powers of invisibility? Not really. What was the last thing that changed your life completely? Recovery. Do you have any step siblings? One. Have you ever been questioned by the police? No. In which state/country were you born? NC, U.S.A. Have you ever been to an amusement park out of state? Disney World. What do you normally drink when eating at a fast food restaurant? Coke or Mountain Dew. Have the police ever been looking for you? Not because I did something wrong; I've told the beach story a few times. If you chew gum, which kind is your favorite? I love the watermelon Hubba Bubba one asjfawoeu Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? Yeah. What was the last liquid that you choked on? Water, just this morning when I was taking my meds ah. How many times did you wake up today before actually getting up? Well, I woke up once in the middle of the night like usual, then I woke up at like, 6-something and went back to sleep. Who did you celebrate your last birthday with? Mom, sises, Ash's husband and kids, and Dad stopped by. Was your last kiss initiated by you or the other person? I think it was kinda a simultaneous thing. We were saying bye. Do you buy a ton of things at the store at once or just for that day? Mom does the shopping, but it depends on how much time she has and what's at the house. When getting dressed do you put your pants or shirt on first? Pants. When you kiss a person where do your hands usually go? I actually don't know if it's a consistent thing for me??? I don't kiss anyone regularly so I don't recognize a pattern. What is one song you listen to that you’re sure not many people do? "False Flags," probs. Massive Attack is so neglected of the attention they deserve. Do you use a handrail on stairs if there is one? Yes, I'm scared of tripping. What was the last thing you saw that made you smile? Teddy came right up into my face wanting attention. What is your favorite drinking game? Never played any. Do you have any tattoos that you don’t like anymore? I think I've mentioned why I don't love my "ohana" one now. I'm getting it covered at some point. My "perfectly flawed" one is probably getting covered by a much bigger piece; I picked a bad location for it to want a sleeve. I'd just maybe redesign it, put if somewhere else. Do you have a shower curtain or door? Curtain. Who was the last person from your high school graduating class you saw? Probs Colleen? Who was the last non-relative you hung out with? Sara. Are you listening to anything right now? I'm way too obsessed with "Black Wedding" by In This Moment (feat. Rob Halford). Rob makes it, and the chorus is awesome. How many keys are on your keychain? One. Who was the last person you took a photograph with? Ryder, my nephew. Are you left handed? No. What were you most scared of when you were little? Losing my mom/being separated from her. Are you biracial? No. When was the last time you painted your nails? What color(s)? I couldn't even guess. Has a stranger ever offered to buy you a drink? Thank fuck no. Have you ever overflown a bathtub? Don't think so. What’s at the top of your to-do list in life? Stay positive, never stop aiming to improve. What was the last thing you shared? Well, Thanksgiving food. Where are you most ticklish? Feet. Do not- Which cartoon character do you want to keep as a pet? Uhhhh how 'bout an Espeon. I imagine them to be calm and silently affectionate like cats and very intelligent. Have you ever considered a career in music/acting? No. When was the last time you felt seriously embarrassed? Getting food yesterday. Per usual, let things die down, but I still ended up crammed in a corner, unable to go in any direction while someone was trying to get past me. I was headed for an anxiety attack and felt like a total nuisance. I'm pretty sure it showed in how I was whipping my head around, shuffling in various directions, clearly wanting the fuck out. Have you ever liked a song, looked up the lyrics to it, then hated it? No, lyrics can't ruin a song I like the sound of. What would be the icing on the cake for you this Christmas? A PS4, omg. I have to get my laptop fixed and a new camera, so I highly doubt I'm getting that or a tablet considering cost. I want to play the Spyro Reignited trilogy beyond words, like I refuse to even watch a let's play because I want to experience it all first-hand, but. Yeah, unlikely anytime soon. If you had the opportunity to live forever, would you take it? Noooooo. Do you like quesadillas? Only chicken and/or cheese ones. Did you like the show Invader Zim? I surprisingly never saw it. What’s the greatest/most influential song you’ve ever heard? "Life Won't Wait" by Ozzy always makes me wanna get off my ass and do something. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever seen in a grocery store? A HUGE BOX OF ANIMAL HEADS IN THE MIDDLE OF WAL-MART, BECKONING THE FURRIES INTO ITS DEPTHS. Have you ever bought yourself a present on Christmas? No. Well, I've used money I've been given on Christmas, if that counts. Have you ever been on a mechanical bull? No. Do you need a key card to get into the building you live in? No. Have you ever stepped in chewing gum? Yes. Name all the people you know that you’ve seen today. Just Mom.

[sk3tch404]

You're prolly gonna be a bit surprised once I come off anon, but how could I not when give me when you'd give the opportunity of beta-testing 👀👀 and don't worry about your code being messy, it's your first time developing a game is it not? Just like how babies fall down a lot before they can confidently learn how to walk, doing new things often means that you're probably not gonna be all that good at first, but the more you do them, the better you get.

I also struggled with that notion a lot, kinda comes as a byproduct of being a former gifted kid yknow? But it's okay to make mistakes, they are there so you can learn from them, the most important thing is that you don't get discouraged by them. I mean you're already learning how to code, not a lot of people have the ambition to just go out and make a game from scratch like that, so that's already an admirable feat! You may think that I'm very knowledgeable in code, but that's only because I'm in college and have actual classes dedicated to coding, in comparison you're already learning at a younger age, and essentially self taught too. Of course your first codes will be a bit embarrassing, but that's totally alright! You can look back on it one day and confidently say: this is the piece of code that helped develop my game in the long run!!

Always remember "Don't kill the cringe, kill the part of you that cringes" were all just awkward people on the internet who are trying our best in the end.

-Ren'py anon

Renpy anon you are an Angel or somekind of God send because theres no way someone can be this sweet... <33

Yeah, I'm thinking of making another game for another fandom, and I'm so grateful I'm having this experience so I can be better for that one! I've struggled with dialogue, typos in the scripting system, specific indenting, writing the game summary, etc etc.

This whole experience has made me better! I appreciate the couple months ago when I got so excited when I learned how to do one line of dialogue. I was so so SO relived when that grey screen of dev death didn't pop up. I was even better when I learned how to make choices in game 😭

The burnt out gifted kid thing is so relatable. I got the best marks I could and had straight A's all throughout middle school, but now idrc (Mostly bc online schooling just looks like a bunch of boring words on the screen and fake classes you click on and sleep thru)

I'm sooooo tired. I just wanna do the things I want dammit! But unfortunately the world ain't like that.

Also you're in COLLEGE taking CODING CLASSES? Impressive 😊 also sounds hard. Coding is fun, but I don't wanna make it a responsibility. Anyway, you probably are way more knowledgeable than me, but thank you for complimenting and motivating me! You make me feel safe fr 😎 (I love u so much already what)

And yes, don't kill the cringe, kill the part of you that cringes. I totally agree with that! We really are just people living on a floating rock trying out best, so lets just enjoy what we have ^^

Leave cringe culture in the 2010's please 😭

If you're one of my mutuals undercover, I'm gonna scream. If not, Im still gonna scream and jump around my room because I'm gonna be so excited.

You're wise and give great advice renpy nonnie. This is why ur in coding classes, only smart ppl make and support dark fanfic visual novels 😍😍😍

[nochuandgochu]

Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well

1. I am *respectfully* not saying (mainly bc it’s v ethnic & I don’t want to narrow down my identity that much first thing getting back into tumblr)

2. 21 ... sheesh

3. May 26

4. Gemini

5. Green!

6. 8

7. no :( but once I become financially stable I’m adopting the first reptile I see

8. Southeast USA

9. haha yeah I’m 5’10 and some change ... but in the spirit of the DMV which forces you to round up or down on your height for your license, I just tell ppl that I’m 5’11

10. haHA I’m a women’s 12, men’s 12, in US sizes

11. 11 lol!

12. it is *extremely* rare that I remember dreams, so I just assume I don’t dream at all

13. no talents, just a lot of miscellaneous things I happen to know how to do, (disclaimer: I don’t claim to be good at them though) ... i can make shoes?

14. wouldn’t that be the dream ... sadly I am not

15. literally can’t choose ... so I won’t but I CAN MENTION that I’ve been recently loving Q.U.E.E.N. by Janelle Monáe

16. once again ... I can’t choose, this time bc I hardly watch films diligently like that unless it’s apart of a franchise ... would love to get into pretentious indie films though, so leave any recs below

17. honestly? idk myself? idrc either??

18. Childbearing? No. Adoption? Yes.

19. lol I’m not getting married.

20. Raised Christian so I guess, but I’m still finding my place within all that bc I feel like there is *some* good in it underneath layers upon layers of human manipulation and oppression and bigotry rooted within the abuse of its teachings.

21. yeah

22. lmao not yet, I’m black in America it’s only a matter of time before I breathe the wrong way and someone calls the cops

23. one time in middle school, my choir went to Disney World and a small group of us girls rode rock n rollercoaster & when we went to go see our photos, we saw Debby Ryan a row behind us in the picture & we all flipped out & ambushed her just as she was leaving & got a photo with her. She was so sweet, frazzled, but sweet, sorry ab that Debby.

24. Showers. Period.

25. I’m barefoot, it’s too hot for that

26. Girl no, I’d be the worst famous person, like I genuinely do not aspire for that

27. Nope!

28. I love anything that can tastefully fuse different genres together — and I’ve been finding recently that movie scores & anime ops do that successfully A LOT

29. no ma’am

30. This is funny bc I’ve noticed over the years, the number just keeps increasing, we’re at 4 at the moment

31. Lol so I always end up in some variation of the fetal position on a normal night but when it’s really hot, I have this pose that kinda resembles the tape silhouette of a deceased person’s body at a crime scene.

32. It’s in the south, so even though I think it’s average size, ppl from the north claim my house & property is huge? lol no it’s not y’all just live cubicles.

33. yeah I don’t really remember to eat breakfast ...

34. Nope

35. Nope

36. Imbibe

37. Ass, I always add it onto another word as a suffix to emphasize my point unnecessarily

38. 24 hrs in college during finals week, never again

39. Oh yeah

40. Weirdly enough, yeah

41. Nope, I *truly* wish I was sometimes, all I can do is evade until my conscience finally gets the best of me & then I yak it up

42. I’d say so.

43. Yup, I can do a Nigerian accent (a lil rusty) and a southern inner-city kind of accent

44. I personally don’t think I do, but I know the ppl in my life say I do so ...

45. Don’t have a favorite, unless it’s Tom Hiddleston speaking

46. INFJ-T

47. My platform Docs

48. No

49. In-between-ie? It’s weird ...

50. Right

51. Nah

52. Time and time again I always come back to French fries

53. Roasted seaweed (the ones that comes in paper-like sheets)

54. Clean

55. “it be like that” & “so it would seem”

56. “oof” & a randomized keyboard smash du jour

57. About an hour if we’re including showering

58. Not really?

59. Suck

60. Absolutely

61. Yessir

62. Nah

63. My overprotectiveness of my thoughts & interests stopping me from putting myself “out there” & regretting it later

64. No

65. idk?

66. on me? short. on guys? loooong. like we’re talking ponytail game strong

67. sure, as long as there’s no time limit or external pressure

68. astronomy, there was no pressure to be right or wrong, it was just so wholesome

69. semi-extroverted introvert

70. nah

71. to this day, public speaking

72. Nope

73. Depends on the mistake

74. Only on my feet, I give the ladies at the nail shop HELL whenever I’m getting a pedicure I’m so sorry lol

75. No, what would you gain from that?

76. Nope

77. I mean technically nooo bc I was in a foreign country & the drinking age was significantly lower & I was old enough there but not in the US

78. Nah but honestly want to (only marijuana not the life-threatening ones)

79. Celebrity? Zayn Malik. IRL? some theatre/choir boy a few years older than me named Matt.

80. 4

81. Sure can!

82. Average speed ig?

83. people go around measuring these things? with a stopwatch? I would say average speed again

84. black and brown

85. The deepest of browns

86. No allergies :)

87. yeah

88. A paralegal and a freelance audio mixer & producer

89. I mean there’s nothing I can do about it ...? It’s just a fact so I don’t really feel any specific way ab it?

90. Being told to do something you were already planning to do. it’s really dumb but it really agitates me.

91. I guess. I can’t imagine myself with a different name. (Oh it’s Melody btw)

92. Nah

93. Idc I just want to adopt the bestest boys and girls who just want love & guidance

94. Incredibly empathetic and articulate

95. MANY but I have an internalized fear of being overbearing so whenever I have something worth saying that needs a little bit of power or force behind it, i fixate on my delivery and nitpick my speech patterns & what you get is a really mousy, quiet voice that’s barely heard

96. Parents were at church conference & my dad randomly received “divine inspiration” for my name to be Melody and my mom didn’t disagree

97. Actually, yeah, on my mom’s side

98. I think this question was asked already, but the answer is still yes.

99. I’m assuming bedspread mean bed sheets so teal!

100. Green :)

[entelexcheia]

// ✏️ 8 years late per usual but if yr still open for those drabbles, idrc if yr not but sum jack n hora pls :3c

Send a ✏️ and I’ll write a drabble about our Muses. ( x )

“…Jack! Jack, hi!” It had been a while since Horizon had last seen Jack, so when the girl finally caught sight of him hiding away in the debris of a construction zone on her way back from a walk within the vicinity, she wanted to take the opportunity to say ‘hi’ even if the boy was probably minding his own business. The girl carefully crept over large pieces of rubble, taking care as to not get her dress caught on anything, and gave the masked boy a bright smile and a wave.

The boy barely moved from his slumped position against a large, unfinished wall, with only a subtle twitch in response to her voice. Giving her no more than a sideways glance from behind that mask, Jack then looked away, absolutely silent. His breathing was unsteady despite having a proper passage of air flowing through him… No, it wasn’t an issue regarding his respiration so much as a horrendous lurching feeling of anxiety and dread coursing through him. No matter how many times he tried to breathe in and out, there was no comfort in doing so.

Ordinarily, Horizon made him feel at ease. There was just something about her that made him feel, for lack of a better word, happy. Her smiling face, her sweet voice, her warm embrace…

And yet, for some reason, now, there was nothing but apprehension. He couldn’t bear to face her, listen to her or even touch her now… How could he? Not after what Wilhelm told him…

“…Uh, Jack? Is… Is something wrong? I’m sorry, I’m not bothering you, am I?” Horizon had finally reached Jack, only for him to coldly dismiss her. The girl clutched the edges of her dress, tensing up slightly at seeing the usually friendly, if not reserved (but not outright cold!) Jack behave so strangely. 

“…No. You’re not.” He finally managed to spit out in a low tone, though his voice sounded hoarse and strained, as if he were forcing himself to talk while physically unable to. 

“…T-Then, what happened? Are you okay?” Horizon crouched by his side, about to rest her hand on his shoulder before he jerked away, holding a hand up to stop her. “…Huh?! Uh… I-I’m sorry.” She bit her lip, hiding her hands away in her lap, scared that she did something that upset the boy. 

“…No. No, you… You shouldn’t be. Fuck, goddamn it. I should be the one who’s sorry.” Jack said, choking slightly on his words as if fighting back tears. 

“But… why? You didn’t do anything wrong…” Horizon protested in a meek voice.

“No, no, no. No. You don’t… You don’t understand.” Jack stammered, bringing his hood further over his face in shame. “You wouldn’t say that if you really knew…”

“Knew what? Jack, please… You can tell me anything… and I promise, I promise I won’t think any differently of you… I-I…” Horizon was slowly beginning to tear up, her heart aching to see Jack like this. What happened to make him this… scared? Jack always seemed to be so brave, always putting himself in danger if it meant finishing his job or… protecting someone. So to see him like this was nothing short of unnerving.

The boy gritted his teeth, silently cursing at himself at the sight of Horizon crying. How could he? How could he do this to her? But she needed to know at least this much. If she knew what could possibly await them should they continue to see each other at this rate… would that even change her mind? 

He couldn’t let anything bad happen to her. She didn’t deserve to suffer any longer because of him, and knowing what dreadful fate could possibly await in the future outweighed any possible chance they had at happiness together now.

…That’s right. Maybe they never even had a chance.

Jack thought himself a fool for trying to believe otherwise.

And Wilhelm’s threatening words repeated in his head over and over and over again.

“You have been wasting too much time, of which you have a very limited amount. Remember that. Should you continue to waste it on such frivolity, there will be dire consequences not only for you, but for every party involved. That girl included. Surely, you must understand the attention you’re garnering from the others.”

After a long pause of hesitance, the boy finally spoke again.

“I can’t see you anymore.”

Horizon blinked, feeling as if her heart skipped a beat. It took a good while for his words to register in her mind but once they did, she felt them pierce her chest. 

“…Huh…? Wh-What? Wait, why…? That’s… That can’t be! We can still see each other… I-I know you’re busy a lot and… And…” Horizon was slowly losing her train of thought, her mind frantically spiraling in all sorts of directions. But the thought of not being able to see Jack again pervaded her mind and struck her down.  

“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.” Jack apologized, finally taking his mask off so that his voice wouldn’t be muffled. Finally communicating with the girl more clearly, the boy shook his head and slowly started to get up, albeit with some unsteadiness in his step. “I can’t… There’s so many things… you need to know… but you can’t.” 

“Why not?!” Horizon pleaded, raising her voice in a desperate cry but not before she caught herself and covered her mouth with both hands, feeling bad for shouting at Jack. “I-I’m sorry… Jack… but please… Please don’t go… Please don’t…! I-I want to help! I want to do something to make you happy again! So please… just tell me… what could I do…?”

“…Forget about me. Go with ARMY and Giga. They’ll keep you safe and make you happy. Please just… Please… Make this easy for me.” 

“Jack… Y-You… promised…!” The girl’s tears began to cascade down her cheeks, pained hiccups interrupting her sobs and pleads. “You promised… we’d… we’d be together… and-”

“Horizon, I’m sorry. But I couldn’t promise anything. I said I’d try. Try. And I tried my hardest, okay? Please… understand. But we can’t… we can’t be together. We can’t see each other anymore. It’s not safe for you. It’s… not safe for me. It never was.”

“Jack… Jack…!” Horizon cried, reaching for him, practically crawling on the ground but the boy kept his distance, not allowing her to get within arm’s reach. “I’m sorry… I’m sorry… but please… don’t… don’t leave me…! L-Let me protect you…! I-I… I can… get help… I can do my best to help… so please… Please!”

“Horizon! Stop!” Jack snapped, clenching his fists at his sides. His tone was now harsh, his face contorted into anger… but the tears flowed down his face as well. “Just… stop. This can’t go on. I’m sorry. I can’t tell you how sorry I am… I should never have done this… if it meant that we’d have to be apart in the end.”

“Jack… I just… want to be with you… for however much longer…! You’re… You’re my friend… one of my best friends and I… I-I… I…” Horizon’s sobs were caught in her throat, the girl beginning to choke and splutter slightly from excessive crying. “Please… I don’t know… what I’d do if you left…”

“…Horizon… I just want you to be happy.” The boy finally mustered up the courage and turned back, grabbing hold of her shoulders and catching her by surprise after practically given the cold shoulder prior. “That’s all that matters, okay? There’s a lot that I haven’t told you… I haven’t been able to… but no matter what, regardless of any of that, I still lo- We… We’re… we’re still friends, okay? Even if we have to be apart, we’ll be friends, forever.” He brought his hand to her cheek, caressing her face and giving it gentle strokes. And through his tears, he managed even the tiniest of smiles.

Horizon nodded, sniffling all the while as she brought her own hand to his, resting it atop. The girl returned his smile with a giggle, his words of slight reassurance to her… but there was still that doubt in the back of her mind.

“But… what about you…? I want you to be happy too…”

“Every moment that I spent with you has already made me happy, Horizon. You’ve brought so much happiness, I don’t even know if you could fully understand… I feel it, right here.” The boy pointed to his chest. “It’s warm. Really warm. So don’t worry about me, okay?”

“But… I will… b-because I care about you… and… a-and… waaaah….” Horizon choked, collapsing into Jack’s arms for a hug while wailing into his chest. The boy jolted slightly but caught her regardless, squeezing her body into a tight embrace. 

“It’ll be okay… Horizon, you’ll have people to watch over you. Keep looking for the people you’re looking for and never give up, okay?”

“O-Okay…”

“…And maybe some day, we might be able to meet again. But for now… I have to go.”

“…” Her arms coiled around even more tightly.

“…I’m sorry… but I will never, ever forget you.”

“I-I… I won’t either… I-I will… always, always remember you! A-And pray for you…” 

“Good. Then I have nothing else to worry about.”

“Jack… I’m going to miss you…”

“I’m going to miss you too, Horizon.”

“…Jack? Could I ask you a favor? Just this once before you have to… go.”

“What is it?”

“Can you hold me as I sleep? I-I’m sorry if this is… weird b-but… I just… I just want to be with you for however much longer… m-maybe even dream about you too- B-But that’s weird too… I-I’m sorry… Maybe not…”

“No, no it’s okay. I don’t think it’s weird. I actually… wouldn’t mind that. As long as it’s a happy dream.”

“If it’s with you, t-then it is! Oh! I-I’ve had a lot of dreams where everyone’s together and it’s bright and sunny out… You were there, ARMY and giga too! We were smiling and being happy together… You and ARMY weren’t fighting at all, hahah~” The girl snuggled up against him, closing her eyes to imagine such a scenario once more. The more she dreamed of it, the more she could look towards a happy future…

“Yeah?” Jack chuckled, playing with her hair. The boy held her tenderly, as if trying to take in as much of her warmth and radiance before he’d have to leave. “That sounds nice, honestly. Even I… get tired of fighting all the time.”

Horizon smiled, feeling a gradual yet comfortable weariness come over her. “But you’re still so strong and brave… even heroes… need a break…”

“…” Jack gulped. Hero? No, he couldn’t be. He was nothing of the sort, in his eyes.

But if he could be at least that much in hers, then he was satisfied.

“Jack…” She whispered, nestling closer. “Thank you… for everything.”

“I should be the one thanking you.” 

“Heheh~”

“Thank you, Horizon.”

— Indeterminate amount of time later… —

It was getting late. The last thing that Jack wanted was for Horizon to have to go back home by herself, though the girl was still fast asleep in his arms. Poor girl must’ve exhausted herself from her crying. The boy would’ve fallen asleep as well, had the gears in his mind stopped but they persisted. There were a lot of thoughts going through his mind but even for just that moment, Jack tried to relax, keeping his composure. 

He already made up his mind. Even if Wilhelm forbade him from seeing Horizon, even with the fear of the other denizens of Hell seeking to lay their hands her, Jack wasn’t going to just allow them their way without a struggle. If there was one thing that Jack was, it was being similarly as stubborn and tenacious until the bitter end.

And until then, the boy could live knowing that he fought and lived as himself, with all of his might.

With a bit of effort from his end, Jack carried the sleeping girl in his arms, proceeding to then bring her all the way back to where he remembered her home to be. The boy had to keep track of a lot of things if he was going to maneuver his way through the industrial nation without too much issue… and well, Horizon’s apartment was one particular location he definitely kept a distinct memory of.

Once there (still hoping in the back of his mind that this was the right place), the boy carefully fished through the girl’s belongings to try to find her keys. As embarrassing as it was, Jack finally did get them and tried them on the door… with success. The boy let out a tiny sigh of relief as he entered, walking slowly and quietly through the girl’s home. Horizon stirred every now and then, but it seemed that she was fast asleep.

Admittedly, it was awkward to just… walk right into her own apartment like this without her permission. But the boy wanted to ensure that she was safely back home nonetheless. Finding her room, the boy then gently set her down, arranging her pillow and assorted stuffed animals so that they were all snuggled up against her. 

‘…God, she looked so cute.’

Very carefully, about as cautious as Wilhelm was in handling his flowers, Jack then arranged the blankets so as to tuck Horizon in safely. Making sure that everything else was in its proper place, the boy then sat beside her, leaning over to brush some of her hair out of the way of her face.

“…I’m really… going to miss you.” Jack whispered, lowering his head whilst fighting back the tears once more. “Horizon… I… I will do everything I can… to come back… I promise.”

“Until then… wait for me.”

But before he would have to return to Hell, Jack wanted to do one last thing… One very last thing.

He brought his face up to hers, just barely allowing some distance between the tips of their noses. Trying to keep himself from getting too nervous, Jack steadied his breathing, swallowing hard while silently yelling at himself to just do it already… 

…But this was creepy, wasn’t it? She was sleeping, for fuck’s sake… and he’d never done this before, what if he messed this up?

She wasn’t even awake for this.

Jack shook his head. This wasn’t the time for any of that.

Looking back down at the girl, Jack held his breath, slowly leaning back in for another attempt… but before his lips could reach hers, he stopped.

Just enough to graze her lips, but not enough for a kiss, he stopped.

And he cried.

“…I’m so… stupid.” He laughed quietly, roughly wiping at his face before the droplets would fall onto her face. Some tears did end up falling, however, slowly trickling down her cheeks… making it look as if she was crying in her sleep.

“…That’s not fair of me… I can’t do that.” Jack whispered, allowing his head to rest beside hers on the pillow. “Stupid… Stupid, stupid.” He chuckled under his breath, unable to stop his tears.

“…I’m sorry, Horizon. I… I’m sorry. Please, forgive me.”

“…I don’t want to go either.”

—

Horizon’s eyes fluttered open to what appeared to be the light of day, or the closest it could be to the light of day with the perpetual smog that blanketed the skies of the industrial nation. She stared at the ceiling for a while, before realizing that she was laying in her own bed, in her room, in her home. The girl slowly got up, assessing her surroundings…

How did she get here? She didn’t remember ever returning home… She remembered falling asleep in Jack’s arms…

…Jack.

…Jack?

Horizon glanced at her desk, noticing a small pile of flowers that wasn’t there before. The girl then got out of bed, picking up the flowers that had been left there. They were freshly picked and all of her favorites kinds of colors.

With a tearful smile, Horizon held them against her chest.

“…Come back to me soon, okay…?”

[kodarue]

Post Four. Pride!

Hello everyone! Today’s post is a pride month special! I have a Q & A between me and my friends ready to be typed out! So today you’ll get to know me, Brendon, Dallon, and Aniya! Now let’s type out the questions and answers! Questions- 1- How did you find out about your sexuality? 2- What are your preferred pronouns and names? 3- How old were you when you found out about the LGBTQ+ community? 4- Have you ever been to a pride parade? 5- What is your favorite part of pride? 6- What gender do you prefer to date? 7- Does your family/friends accept you? 8- Do you own any flags? 9- Who is your favorite LGBTQ+ writer/influencer? 10- What do you think about people who don’t like the LGBTQ+? 11- How did your family react to your coming out?

(Brendon) 1- I found out by meeting my current Husband. We were fourteen, now 19, and we both realized that day we wanted each other. Before that we had been fighting and saying cruel things due to not knowing why we felt the way we did. But finally we came together, and had a romantic date. We asked each other out and then, bam, here we are. 2- Mine are he/they. 3- I was 4. My mom had just come home with a women, telling me that it was her wife, my new mom.  4- Yes, me and my husband got married at one. 5- How me and all my friends (The ones in this group) all come together to celebrate on the first, as if it’s our own little holiday. 6- Males. Duh. 7- Yes. 8- Yes, the Gay, and Pan flags. 9- Well that’s hard, My favorite writer and Influencer is Koda. Obvi. JK, sorry Koko, but it’s Jeffree Star. 10- Well, due to this being family friendly, I can’t say what I want. But I will say this. They’re just jealous cause we all are super cool! 11- My mom was super excited.

(Dallon) 1- Brendon answered it pretty well, but I’ll give my own explanation. I found out when I found no attraction to the girls deemed pretty by society. However I was always attracted towards males. It just clicked once I met Brendon. 2- He/him. 3- I was 13, I had just met Brendon, and we were friends until we turned 15. 4- Yes, I had my wedding during one. 5- Mine and my friends tradition to always treat the first of June as a holiday. 6- Males. 7- My mother did not accept me, my father has never been in the picture. I didn’t come out until I was 17, and by that time I was eligible to move out. Once my mom said the words I left and showed up at Brendon’s. I’ve lived with him since. 8- Yes, The Pan, Gay, and Trans flags. Trans to honor my brother. 9- Koko for sure. I only read his blog, and I don’t watch youtube. 10- Koko has dealt with a lot of it, as well as me and Bren. All I want to say is thanks for giving them trauma. 11- My dad doesn’t know, but he will soon, my mother however, kicked me out.

(Aniya) 1- Simple, girls are hot and way better than men so I always knew. 2- She/her, Aniya, Alex or Olivia Idrc 3- Newborn, my moms Bi. 4- No sadly. 5- Rainbowwww!!! 6- GIRLS!!!!! 7- Yes, accept my dad. 8- Yes. 9- I have no clue. 10- Kill them all (No) 11- Mom was happy, dad not so much.

(Now me! Koko) 1- Once I met Aniya, I developed feelings and ended up dating her for a while. And I currently have a lovely girlfriend. 2- He/She/They. Koda or Koko and if your family KK. 3- When I was thirteen. 4- No :( 5- My tradition :) 6- Girls!! 7- Yep! My mom and dad fully accept, as well as the rest of my family, except my one aunt and grandfather. 8- Yep! Gay, Asexual and Non-Binary flags! 9- Jeffree Star and a few Instagram people! 10- Uhm..Nothing to say, just say what you want then leave. 11- My mom was a bit hesitant, wanting me to be sure of what I felt, and my dad was over the moon!

Happy pride everyone!

[deathdab4cutie]

do all the questions for the valetnines thing

1: Do you have a crush at the moment? ew yes

2: Have you ever been deeply in love? yeah

3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in? a few months

4: Have you ever changed for someone? unfortunatley

5: How is your relationship with your ex? we don’t talk

6: Have you ever been cheated on? don’t think so

7: Have you ever cheated? never. fuck cheaters they deserve to rot

8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating? nope

9: What’s the most important part of a relationship? communication

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? serious probs but how would i know haha

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”? it’s up to both people, but i think yes

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with? okay so so many people define hook up differently. if you say you “hooked up” i assume u did something sexual, not just a kiss. so, no i’ve never fucked someone i wasn’t dating

13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship? yikes i think i just falling for someone i hadn’t known a super long time

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex? 16? ig lol

15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”? no bc that’s just something said to try to excuse pedophilia

16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”? attraction at first sight, but not love

17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet? yes

18: What do you consider a deal breaker? cheating, abuse (if you notice it) thats all i can think of rn

19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship? when you no longer love them or there’re more cons than pros

20: Are you currently in a relationship? lol no why would i be

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends? it takes time to get over it, but yes

22: Do you think people should date their friends? yes, you should not date someone you wouldn’t consider a friend

23: How many relationships have you had? 1 lmao i suck

24: Do you think love can last forever? yeah

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things? no

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of? eh that’s a complicated question. if they gave me legit reasons as to why, i might. i would if i agreed with their reasoning and i just didn’t notice what turns them off myself before. but if it was something dumb like “why aren’t they in college” or “why do they smoke?” who cares

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be? don’t let it cossume your life. all things come to an end

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work? lmao yeah

29: What do you notice first about another person? eyes i think?

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual? bi ig idk i like people

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness? i’m bipolar.. so no

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship? no

33: Do you want to get married one day? eh i’m not writing about this rant here

34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed? YIKES i would never do that. do what u want ig but i would never

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex? i think so yeah that’s not the only thing that matters

36: Are you still a virgin? no

37: What’s more important: Looks or personality? personality this is a dumb question

38: Do you enjoy love films? EW NO i hate them i literally ranted about this to my friend a few days ago

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses? nah

40: Have you ever had a valentine? i don’t think so

41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”? just spending time w the person ig. doesn’t rly matter 

42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”? yeah. overrated imo

43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends? friends holy shit

44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”? no

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends? yeah a few. i like one of my friends actualy lmao

46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”? i hate that word but technically yes

47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite? dont have one

48: What’s your favorite love song? ew i don;t have one. friends by ed sheeran is good

49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? i don’t think so?

50: If you’re single, why do you think you are? who knows idrc that much tho i have good friends

51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy? poor but nice guy duh it’s like titanic who’s gonna save u when the ship sinks?? jack dawson oc

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships? probs not but i do my best

53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single? no

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)? i mean i think people should know. the 1 time i dated someone i wanted the world to know bc i liked them a real lot. so personally it’s probs important

55: Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”? honestly no but i can see others thinking i’m clingy. so in reality i probably am

56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship? i don’t think so? i hope not yikes

57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart? no. you shouldn’t do it, but i can understand why people would consider it

58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship? yikes

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary? no

60: What’s your opinion on open relationships? eh i wouldnt want one myself but idc what others do as long as no one gets hurt

61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family? family

62: How do you define “cheating”? being dishonest with your partner about what you did with someone else sexually or romantically while you were in that current relationship

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate? idc i hate porn tho. nasty shit

64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated? eh kinda

65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”? yikes