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pansyfemme · 2 months

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so being autistic ever since i was little whenever i hit sensory overload with like.. loud noises or bright lights or both i just started crying and weeping automatically. i cant control it, i just start crying really hard, often silently. But I go to a lot of concerts and plays and performance stuff and sometimes, very very loud ones i enjoy very much. so im always just crying crazy hard and trembling having the time of my life. im enjoying it i just cannot help that my body rejects it so hard

#sensory overstimulation for me is more of a physical involuntary reaction for me while emotional overstimulation is what tends to result in #burnout or meltdowns for me.

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spacefaringamoeba · 7 months

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I hate that I'm considered "high functioning". I barely qualify for any "level" of disability in my country and I will never get a disability income. Yes. I'm able to go to work. But I will not be able to hold it for more than a few months before getting burned out and having daily meltdowns. No, having 10 minutes extra work break won't help me. Neither will wearing headphones or carrying fidgets. I'm literally not able to work 40h a week without severe negative consequences... How do i fucking exist in this society!

#Post brought to you by me quitting another job #autistic #autistic adult #meltdown #autism #actually autistic #disabilties #disabled #high functioning autism #low support needs #anxeity #cptsd problems #ptsd #complex ptsd #burnout #send help #mental health

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mossy-rot · 4 months

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reading about autistic meltdowns is crazy. in retrospect maybe that time i ended up sobbing self isolating and lashing out at people because I couldn't figure out how to set up my laptop the same way it had been before might've been because of The Autism

#i cannot deal with changes to things I deal with regularly #i need to have my phone and comp exactly the same lest I Suffer bc i use them every day #also perhaps i would get so upset over my mom cleaning my room (although being a nice gesture) is because she would move shit to places-#i didn't know and messed up the system i had #also fuckin. executive dysfunction. that's some shit isn't it #i had to move to a new desk early in my job to run a different room and the desk setup was different and I Was Struggling A Bit #also people trying to calm me down during meltdowns is significantly worse and i read a bit that was like.#'trying to interject into the meltdown may cause additional sensory overload. it's most safe to let the person self-regulate.' well shit #that's about right huh #autistic burnout also seemed very familiar and its a little disturbing just how close everything hits #anyways im probably autistic. good night #mossy's rambles #text post #luci's rambles #autism #neurodivergent #autistic things #autistic adult #autistic experiences #if anyone would like to add to the pile and tell me im autistic feel free ig. ive already been peer reviewed

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theadhdgoblin · 1 year

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#actually autistic #goblin things #being autistic #autistic burnout #it’s funny #but not haha funny #because I’m about to have my PIP Tribunal #personal independence payment #because the uk government don’t Support people like me #late diagnosed autistic #with a spikey profile #I appear competent #but really I cannot cope with basic things #and have learned to work around and hide the bits of my brain that don’t work as well #pray for me #I’ve had 3 meltdowns already this week #and I’ve not changed my clothes or showered for 5 days #I’m about to take on the dwp #the root of all evil

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jesuschristt-thatsaprettyface · 2 months

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when you’re spoonless and so overstimulated that you have no ability to mask and all the stims come out ://

#literally hitting myself in the head in public because brain is screeching at me and i’m crawling out of my skin #autism #autistic meltdown #autistic burnout #actually autistic #mine #stimming

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yourhoeshorses · 7 months

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The urge to draw, the urge to play games, the urge to talk with friends, the urge to sleep. All interrupted by having to work so DAMN much.

#definitely feeling myself starting to hit my burnout #it sucks because now even playing video games feels like too much social interaction to be able to handle #its really weird playing star stable and hanging out with people and having the fear of being perceived #like bro.... its a video game... they only know you for your character and yet i STILL feel like im putting on some mask #hence why i think im reaching my burnout #silly little things. making mistakes. being worked up and tired. the autistic meltdown be upon me #at least i now have at least one day off a week B') instead of none #ramble

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blackbird-brewster · 14 days

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What a day. Temps dropped and so did the seratonin. Winter depression starts earlier each year it feels. I spent the whole day in bed playing Stardew Valley bc I couldn't handle doing anything else after yesterday's meltdown.

One of those days where I felt hyper autistic and disabled. 😣😓

#One day into winter and 2 meltdowns already #Not looking great for the coming months 🫡#About me 2k24 #Burnout journey

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that-jack-kline-bestie · 2 months

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im feel like im gonna throw up i did all that and i still failed the class

#its not failing im worried about #its that i have to get a job to pay my mom back for the money for the class #i cant handle that on top of school i literally cant ill break again #i cant even go to school every day without being worn down to my bones #i seriously dont have it in me im still crawling out of burnout and major depression #maybe i can do stuff when i can like mowing neighbors lawns and itll eventually add up #god i dont know how im gonna live as an adult either #one night of insomnia and a full day's work and i almost had a meltdown #im so scared i dont know

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piplupod · 3 months

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thinking abt the previous post, the agency i worked at for a couple years would use bits of ABA and I just... I always nodded along to the boss instructing me on how to work with the kids with those tactics (I worked with the kids who were 6 and under) and then as soon as she left I tossed all that shit out of my brain and just treated the kid like a human being and worked with them where they were at.

and guess what !!! i had the most and fastest success out of every other worker in the entire building!! i was often told it seemed like i was working miracles with my kids bc they'd just progress so fast (comparatively) through the skill book we had to work on, and that the kids always seemed so happy and eager to come to the building after they started working with me!!

this is partially why I quit because I couldn't stand seeing my coworkers treat the kids like they were dogs (talking down to them, being patronizing, and utilizing shitty ABA tactics) and as much good as I was doing there, it was fucking me up bc they were extremely demanding that I work more than I was comfortable (or able) to, and often put me with "problem" kids who I didn't get to regularly see so we couldn't make much progress bc the kids weren't able to get to know me and (rightfully!) didn't trust me because they thought I'd be treating them the way everyone else did.

i just...... my coworkers would ask me how I had so much success and I would just shrug and say like, "just treat them like they're human and work with them where they're at" and I couldn't explain any more bc that'd require me admitting I wasn't following the boss' guidance for a lot of shit fjfkdl

#i had kids who didn't like talking suddenly become chatterboxes bc they actually felt safe and listened to for once !!!#(and ofc some kids just didnt like talking and that was okay bc they would talk when needed but just preferred to be quiet)#also yall i had no formal training for this 😭 i was thrown into the fray one day djfkdl i was supposed to just work as an admin assistant #it was just fucking bonkers there #kids had meltdowns sometimes bc the workers were so useless and didnt take the time to learn to read the child and they'd push too much #and they did things in ways that were sooo rigid so often like... if a kid is looking tired u gotta shift ur schedule around !!#but they'd just be like noooope this is our plan and we have to stick to it #my guy!! the child looks exhausted!!! they are fucking four years old !!! what the hell are u doing!!!#no four yr old is going to ever feel okay if u keep pushing them to do stuff they dont rly want to do when theyre tuckered out!!#anyways i could rant for hours abt that place lmfao #i still think abt the kids so often esp some of the ones with rough home lives #and i just rly rly hope theyre doing okay #but i cannot go back and help again bc that place destroyed me gjfkdl i hit autistic burnout HARD while there #and thats what ultimately forced me to quit #otherwise i probably would've stayed bc i rly wanted to give these kids someone safe to be around esp if their homes werent a v safe place #idk its so hard bc one person can't change the entire way things are (esp since i had no formal training)#but also if im not there then i know nobody else there is going to be knocking ABA to the side and treating the kids like whole ass humans!#eugh i hate thinking abt it bc I just... what the fuck do u do with a situation like that lmfao #i miss those kids sm though fjfkdl theyre all so cool and fun and rly good kids #i hope good things happen to them :')#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #ableism tw #aba tw

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spacebugarts · 10 months

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I was talking about bugs at my therapy appointment today and my therapist asked how I knew so much about them like girl I was JUST telling you I was looking into getting an autism diagnosis

#i mean its a valid question but the timing was so funny to me #bestie i am exhibiting symptoms of the Knowing Things disorder #i like collecting info especially on silly lil guys <3 #therapy #autism #asd #i did make some progress today tho! she gave me some sources I can look into about adult diagnosis!#yay!!!#ive been weighing the options and I definitely think its worth pursuing #if it can help me maintain a job by getting the resources I need then its worth the downsides #bc ive been struggling so hard trying to find a place that wont cause constant meltdowns and burnout #inalso think its important to note that I only thought to make this post bc I was working on tattoo designs for my dnd character #and while drawing the phase spider i started thinking about how its not really a spider #bc it doesnt have a distinct split between the abdomen and cephalothorax but seems to have more of a fleshy 'neck' connecting them?#and i mean it makes sense since theyre fae creatures and not beasts but its still so weird and interesting to me!#anyways back to giving my bb cool tattoos!

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absedarian · 1 year

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I was at my mom’s birthday on the weekend and spent some time talking to my nephew and his gf. At some point, several phones in the room start ringing, and all three of us cringe.

Me: I haven’t had my phone on anything but silent in at least 15 years, possibly longer.

Nephew + gf: *nodding sagely*

Me: I don’t get how some people can stand to actually have it on sound, especially those sounds …

Nephew: *points over his shoulder to where his parents are sitting with a sad shake of his head*

Me: Well, we’re more or less the same age, so it can’t be that.

Nephew: Technically, and technologically, you’re about 20 years younger and cooler than them, so there’s that …

#real life #i have been approved by the youngins #not sure if that says something about me or the rest of the fam #lol #relevant only to me #personal #the weekend was nice and all but it was a lot #and stuff happened on the way back #which basically was the tip over point for an autistic burnout episode sunday to yesterday #took two mental health days and rotted away in bed to get back to it #would have loved to take longer but work is calling #and I’m in no mood to explain to a doctor what meltdown/burnout is #soooo work it is #thank fuck I can work from home

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frankiistein · 5 months

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its kinda selfish for me to say but im kinda glad gui said those stuffs like im sad abt the situation for the obvious grief reasons but theres this other layer of weirdness where i feel bad for feeling bad? i mean its that idk how to explain it but like when a loved one dies and u see other friends or family coming together to mourn it feels like closure somehow. and same when a famous person dies smthng abt seeing even strangers grieve has this feeling like solidarity, like "im glad despite everything this person also touched ur life"

theres smthng so fucking weird abt how its so nothing that this happened. it wouldnt make sense to ppl i know irl since from their pov its just "online artist u follow" and online nobody knows them either. like the three other ppl who have acknowledged feeling bad abt it 2 me make me feel a lil better

idk im stressed abt other things so its like piling all up emotionally but what makes me sad abt it is that the stuffs they wrote r just so sad and haunting. like logically theres probs a handful more ppl out there who feel bad and just dont say anything out loud but whenever i think abt what they said abt ppl who never say or do anything to show they care abt u while also being expected 2 be grateful for the ppl who "secretly" love u its like. its not my place 2 feel angry abt it i know, but god its so tonedeaf and insulting

#schizotaxic #a major part of my solidarity/connection 2 them is like the feeling of being that Bad type of Mentally Ill person ukno #like when all the other nds r the whole uwu type suffering from gifted kid burnout #it was nice 2 have someone acknowledge u as like the 'threatening ohysical violence during meltdowns' type and all #the fear that ur so fundamentally 'bad' that nobody will care even if u die is so sickening #watching it actually happen doesnt even feel real #p selfish of me 2 to project my feelings on that matters

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barnbridges · 7 months

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frankly, i wish MY autistic burnouts were caused by shit as real as hiding that my 5 friends murdered someone.